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Question: Me: 1. My parents had zero idea of nutrition and portion control. My mom was always trying to lose weight and realistically had an eating disorder herself. 2. I'm 37, white male from the Midwest, unemployed 3. I would definitely say that my parents ingrained more of a "scarcity" mindset in me, as opposed to an "abundance" mindset. My parents were from a poor Eastern European country. Answer: My parents were well off and we never wanted for anything, but my mom is fat and was always terrified of me getting fat too, especially once I got chubby when puberty hit. She started hiding food around the house, and the taboo of it made me go find her stashes and binge, feeling guilty and shameful as I did.

Question: Me: 1. My parents had zero idea of nutrition and portion control. My mom was always trying to lose weight and realistically had an eating disorder herself. 2. I'm 37, white male from the Midwest, unemployed 3. I would definitely say that my parents ingrained more of a "scarcity" mindset in me, as opposed to an "abundance" mindset. My parents were from a poor Eastern European country. Answer: Growing up I was upper-middle class. I am a white girl whom is 25. Growing up I was a healthy weight. My mother and father were also a healthy weight. They stressed healthy eating and staying active. "Everything in moderation" those are my mothers words. She is even a dietitian. I'm not sure what screwed up my eating habits so badly these past few years, but it really sucks. I just want to be able to not feel so out of control around food.

Question: Me: 1. My parents had zero idea of nutrition and portion control. My mom was always trying to lose weight and realistically had an eating disorder herself. 2. I'm 37, white male from the Midwest, unemployed 3. I would definitely say that my parents ingrained more of a "scarcity" mindset in me, as opposed to an "abundance" mindset. My parents were from a poor Eastern European country. Answer: I don't feel conmfortable disposing everything about myself, but I think those are very interesting questions... My father was well-educated and had an income a bit about average. My mom had a bad school graudation and wasn't very educated. My father basically acted as though he wouldn't have a family. He didn't give my brother or me any attention, and he would spend his money to go on vacaton alone. So basically I went on vacation about three times as a child. I feel that this is important to explain, because even though one of my parents was actually pretty ressourceful, he didn't share it with his family. He didn't participate in my brother's and mine upbringing a lot either. My mom was emotionally neglecting, but at the same time, she didn't give us any rules. This had a lot of influence on many aspects of our childhood. Regarding to food it meant that there were no fix times for eating. From the time I was about 3rd grade she wouldn't cook for dinner, and she wouldn't eat with us either. She did buy a lot of sweets though that were freely available to us kids. I was used to just take some chocolate when I was hungry. My mom myself didn't struggle with weight at all. Up to today, although she still has no fixed eating habits.

Question: Me: 1. My parents had zero idea of nutrition and portion control. My mom was always trying to lose weight and realistically had an eating disorder herself. 2. I'm 37, white male from the Midwest, unemployed 3. I would definitely say that my parents ingrained more of a "scarcity" mindset in me, as opposed to an "abundance" mindset. My parents were from a poor Eastern European country. Answer: 1. 16 year old girl, middle class, dad's a teacher and mom has autoimmune diseases so she didn't get to use her college degree in anything. She works one job on the weekends due to her problems. 2. Mom didn't set a good or bad example. She just fed us what we would eat (i was never picky but my sibilings are) My dad on the other hand is obese and set a horrible example for us kids. Drinking a 12 pack of coke almost everyday, eating fast food way too much. He still is setting this horrible example by pretty much feeding us McDonald's like two or three times in a weekend. My parents are both white and from Oklahoma.

Question: Me: 1. My parents had zero idea of nutrition and portion control. My mom was always trying to lose weight and realistically had an eating disorder herself. 2. I'm 37, white male from the Midwest, unemployed 3. I would definitely say that my parents ingrained more of a "scarcity" mindset in me, as opposed to an "abundance" mindset. My parents were from a poor Eastern European country. Answer: I grew up upper middle class in the south. My parents were never taught anything about making healthy choices, but they are both still relatively thin. My dad is much better than my mom at choosing foods, but my mom eats so much sugar and processed foods and doesn't gain a pound. So growing up, I was around unhealthy snack foods and drinks constantly- never taught about healthy habits or choices. To them, fruity pebbles and a Sunny D was a healthy breakfast for the kids. If we had broccoli, it was covered in velveeta. If we had strawberries as a snack, there was a cup of sugar to dip them in. Hot pockets, pizza rolls, little debbie, Hi-c and Capri sun.. the list goes on and on. And of course I heard "clean your plate" at least twice a day. I would binge on crackers, cookies, soda- pretty much anything in the pantry. I never gained any weight... until my mid teens. And of course by then it so hard to change everything you've been taught about food. It's really not their fault, they didn't have all the information we do now. It's hard because I recently moved back home after college (working here but looking for a new job) and I'm around all the stuff I would NEVER buy when I lived alone. Now with everything I know about food, I try to teach my mom about looking at labels and not eating junk food. I got her to stop drinking soda (mostly) and change a few other things, but I walked downstairs this morning and she was eating rice krispies with a big spoonful of sugar sprinkled on top and a big glass of cranberry juice. Baby steps. It's also worth noting that my mom grew up lower class and is much less likely to branch out in her foods. She considers herself a very picky eater, and will refuse to even try things I love to make (mushrooms, feta, any lettuce other than iceberg...etc.). While my dad grew up upper middle class and is a very adventurous eater.

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: A binge for me is just an over-whelming urge to eat everything I see. I don't focus on anything else while I binge. It's just me and the food for about an hour. Actually just yesterday I drove to taco bell ate about 3 tacos. Then went to Mcd's and ate a few big macs and a large fry. Also picked up some donuts and chips from a gas station. I just sat there in the parking lot like a weirdo eating food for 2 hours.

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: I actually have to turn on the tv or be somewhere where it's not just me and the food. If it's just me and the food I feel an overwhelming shame and I don't "enjoy" it as much because it almost puts me in reality. If that makes sense...

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: Makes a lot of sense to me, and I totally relate. I end up gathering all my binge food before the tv or laptop so that I can watch something while I eat. Its like, you need to distract as many of your senses as possible, so you are less aware of the shameful behaviour.

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: Hm.... I do all kinds of stuff while binging. Watching tv, reading a book or magazine, listening to music or maladaptive daydreaming. There are incidents tho where I indeed just focus on stuffing my face.

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: Same here. For me it's partly related to hormone shifts, which I'm now more on top of. I'm finally getting over it and have a better sense of control but when it hits, I can't think about anything but eating the food I 'need'. It can last for days until I give in and eat that food. When I was pregnant, I also had lots of weird food issues but mostly went off binge eating. The obsessive component, however, was always there.

Question: I've been thinking about this today - I don't think I have ever binged without multitasking. It feels incomplete if I'm eating without also watching a TV show at the same time. Answer: I used to read books; now I read rubbish on the internet. I use bingeing as a way to "enhance" an already pleasant activity. Just sitting eating does not interest me.

Question: Hi everyone. I came here from 1200 is plenty. I'm not officially diagnosed, I haven't seen a therapist yet, I am depressed and filled with what seems to be a never ending supply of disgust for myself. I have never had a healthy relationship with food in my life. Ever. I'm looking into my insurance and making a call to a therapist next week, but I just wanted to say hello. Thank you to whoever made this group. I'm excited to learn from everyone and be able to help support others who know how this feels. I am hopeful about the healing properties a community such as this could have. Answer: Welcome! I'm new here too. Just saying hi!

Question: Hi everyone. I came here from 1200 is plenty. I'm not officially diagnosed, I haven't seen a therapist yet, I am depressed and filled with what seems to be a never ending supply of disgust for myself. I have never had a healthy relationship with food in my life. Ever. I'm looking into my insurance and making a call to a therapist next week, but I just wanted to say hello. Thank you to whoever made this group. I'm excited to learn from everyone and be able to help support others who know how this feels. I am hopeful about the healing properties a community such as this could have. Answer: Thank you, welcome! :)

Question: I'm having a crisis with eating and for a while i knew something was not right with me but then it took over my life and i fear for my health greatly but i keep eating crap. Just last night I went to my local convenience store to get reeses peanut butter cups and i had over 10 in an hour but and I tried stopping myself but its like i can not control my body and i keep going at it. any advice? (programs, prescriptions, mental supersizes?) PS i do not binge and purge but i do overeat. Answer: Have a look in your area for Overeaters Anonymous, some people find it quite helpful and it's a strong support system. On the other end, people like the book "Brain Over Binge" which takes a more dare I say... scientific approach. I don't have the answer and I still struggle daily. Glad you're here!

Question: I'm having a crisis with eating and for a while i knew something was not right with me but then it took over my life and i fear for my health greatly but i keep eating crap. Just last night I went to my local convenience store to get reeses peanut butter cups and i had over 10 in an hour but and I tried stopping myself but its like i can not control my body and i keep going at it. any advice? (programs, prescriptions, mental supersizes?) PS i do not binge and purge but i do overeat. Answer: Thank you for the suggestions. Much appreciated!

Question: Posted this to r/offmychest earlier, but this is an even better spot for it. Today marks 30 days binge-free. For the past 6-7 years, my binge eating disorder has ruled my life. I was always a chubby kid/teenager but lost a lot of weight the year after high school with a lot of hard work. I never quite reached 'thin', but I looked and felt much better and my goal seemed within my reach. But then I moved to a new city for post-secondary and my binge eating really developed. My life was so much more exciting, but so much more overwhelming. I would do really well - diet, exercise, everything on point for weeks, and then binge and binge for days or weeks and ruin all my hard work. I acknowledged at this point that it was a problem, but it took me years to realize I had truly developed an eating disorder. And it took me until February of this year to finally seek the help of a counsellor. With her, I was able to truly scrape out every dark, shameful part of myself I’d hidden before. I could talk candidly about my family, the resentment I felt toward my childhood, and the deep sadness. I did a lot of important work with her. I slowly began opening up to a few choice friends about my issues, which was major for me because I'd never breathed a single word to anyone about this issue before. Therapy was massively helpful but it wasn't a cure all. Of course. I hit a point where I truly thought I was on the brink of recovering - I had a new exciting job title, I was having fun flings, my confidence was better than ever. I was riding an incredible high, though I still feared that any day I would crash. And crash I did. After a long stretch of not bingeing (I think I hit about 45 days - my highest, probably, in years), I relapsed. And relapsed and relapsed and relapsed. And again I felt hopeless. Like I would just have to live with this for the rest of my life, that I would always be a binge-eater. The lows were very low. I’m normally a very social, extroverted person but I was so ashamed that all I wanted to do was hide. I began to worry that I'd never be able to kick this without quitting my job - I work in the film industry which has very unforgiving hours and is a hotbed of stress. A regular routine is impossible. And yet I love it and the idea of giving it up broke my heart. I didn’t want that to be the only way. After another series of lows, I got exhausted. I was so angry and tired at myself, at this thing that has been ruining my life for seven years. So I made an appointment with my counsellor (my last - she’s now on mat leave) and started to get my head back on straight. I doubled down. With counselling, I had studied myself inside and out. But this time, I started studying the disorder. I read a book (Brain over Binge, by Kathryn Hansen) that made me believe, for the first time, that I could learn to control my urges. I started calling my disorder by name. My eating disorder. Like Voldemort, I wanted to start proving I was no longer afraid of it. I wanted to take the power from it. And while I had initially opened up to my friends a little about my problem a few months after I started counselling, the shame I felt about my continual failure prevented me from reaching out when I felt lost again. I am someone who holds her secrets very, very close to her and I fear telling anyone the darkest parts of me because I want to be the strong one, and because I loathe to feel I am burdening someone with my problems. But I wrote them an email (two of my closest) and spilled my guts. I’ve since opened up to another few friends. It was absolutely fucking terrifying but I did it. And the relief of sharing my secret, the thing I am most ashamed of in this life, has given me a sense of peace I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Today marks 30 days binge free. It’s too early, I know, to be recovered. I am still in active recovery. And I know that to an extent, it will always be with me. But I no longer fear that I will have to fight it so hard day in and day out. Last time I felt hopeful, when I was riding that high earlier this spring, my hope was bright but fragile. I wanted to believe I was really doing it this time, but I didn’t trust it. This feels different. I wanted to wait til 60 days to post, when I felt the number was steadier, and more impressive. But I decided, fuck it. To me, this 30 days is something worth celebrating. My life is still crazy, still stressful, I work 60 hours a week and have projects on the weekend. I’m still single. My relationship with my family is the same. Nothing fundamental about my life has changed, but I feel like I have. My hope doesn’t feel tinged with doubt. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I need to relearn what it is to have a healthy relationship with food, to not feel a jolt of panic if I accidentally ate a few too many bites and feel full. My work is not done, but I think I’m doing it, guys. I’m doing it. Answer: this is so awesome. i'm on day 4 and hopefully tomorrow is day 5. i've been in a binge eating disorder for a couple years now. it's been the two darkest years of my life with low lows. i am just trying to get back on my feet and i haven't gotten past day 4 in two years...

Question: Posted this to r/offmychest earlier, but this is an even better spot for it. Today marks 30 days binge-free. For the past 6-7 years, my binge eating disorder has ruled my life. I was always a chubby kid/teenager but lost a lot of weight the year after high school with a lot of hard work. I never quite reached 'thin', but I looked and felt much better and my goal seemed within my reach. But then I moved to a new city for post-secondary and my binge eating really developed. My life was so much more exciting, but so much more overwhelming. I would do really well - diet, exercise, everything on point for weeks, and then binge and binge for days or weeks and ruin all my hard work. I acknowledged at this point that it was a problem, but it took me years to realize I had truly developed an eating disorder. And it took me until February of this year to finally seek the help of a counsellor. With her, I was able to truly scrape out every dark, shameful part of myself I’d hidden before. I could talk candidly about my family, the resentment I felt toward my childhood, and the deep sadness. I did a lot of important work with her. I slowly began opening up to a few choice friends about my issues, which was major for me because I'd never breathed a single word to anyone about this issue before. Therapy was massively helpful but it wasn't a cure all. Of course. I hit a point where I truly thought I was on the brink of recovering - I had a new exciting job title, I was having fun flings, my confidence was better than ever. I was riding an incredible high, though I still feared that any day I would crash. And crash I did. After a long stretch of not bingeing (I think I hit about 45 days - my highest, probably, in years), I relapsed. And relapsed and relapsed and relapsed. And again I felt hopeless. Like I would just have to live with this for the rest of my life, that I would always be a binge-eater. The lows were very low. I’m normally a very social, extroverted person but I was so ashamed that all I wanted to do was hide. I began to worry that I'd never be able to kick this without quitting my job - I work in the film industry which has very unforgiving hours and is a hotbed of stress. A regular routine is impossible. And yet I love it and the idea of giving it up broke my heart. I didn’t want that to be the only way. After another series of lows, I got exhausted. I was so angry and tired at myself, at this thing that has been ruining my life for seven years. So I made an appointment with my counsellor (my last - she’s now on mat leave) and started to get my head back on straight. I doubled down. With counselling, I had studied myself inside and out. But this time, I started studying the disorder. I read a book (Brain over Binge, by Kathryn Hansen) that made me believe, for the first time, that I could learn to control my urges. I started calling my disorder by name. My eating disorder. Like Voldemort, I wanted to start proving I was no longer afraid of it. I wanted to take the power from it. And while I had initially opened up to my friends a little about my problem a few months after I started counselling, the shame I felt about my continual failure prevented me from reaching out when I felt lost again. I am someone who holds her secrets very, very close to her and I fear telling anyone the darkest parts of me because I want to be the strong one, and because I loathe to feel I am burdening someone with my problems. But I wrote them an email (two of my closest) and spilled my guts. I’ve since opened up to another few friends. It was absolutely fucking terrifying but I did it. And the relief of sharing my secret, the thing I am most ashamed of in this life, has given me a sense of peace I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Today marks 30 days binge free. It’s too early, I know, to be recovered. I am still in active recovery. And I know that to an extent, it will always be with me. But I no longer fear that I will have to fight it so hard day in and day out. Last time I felt hopeful, when I was riding that high earlier this spring, my hope was bright but fragile. I wanted to believe I was really doing it this time, but I didn’t trust it. This feels different. I wanted to wait til 60 days to post, when I felt the number was steadier, and more impressive. But I decided, fuck it. To me, this 30 days is something worth celebrating. My life is still crazy, still stressful, I work 60 hours a week and have projects on the weekend. I’m still single. My relationship with my family is the same. Nothing fundamental about my life has changed, but I feel like I have. My hope doesn’t feel tinged with doubt. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I need to relearn what it is to have a healthy relationship with food, to not feel a jolt of panic if I accidentally ate a few too many bites and feel full. My work is not done, but I think I’m doing it, guys. I’m doing it. Answer: Wow. Thanks so much for sharing. Our stories are literally almost the exact same. This thing has robbed me of so much of my life that I'm just a shell of the person that I truly am. It's been so debilitating and so exhausting that it just makes me want to quit living. Thanks again for sharing and I'm glad you're here.

Question: Posted this to r/offmychest earlier, but this is an even better spot for it. Today marks 30 days binge-free. For the past 6-7 years, my binge eating disorder has ruled my life. I was always a chubby kid/teenager but lost a lot of weight the year after high school with a lot of hard work. I never quite reached 'thin', but I looked and felt much better and my goal seemed within my reach. But then I moved to a new city for post-secondary and my binge eating really developed. My life was so much more exciting, but so much more overwhelming. I would do really well - diet, exercise, everything on point for weeks, and then binge and binge for days or weeks and ruin all my hard work. I acknowledged at this point that it was a problem, but it took me years to realize I had truly developed an eating disorder. And it took me until February of this year to finally seek the help of a counsellor. With her, I was able to truly scrape out every dark, shameful part of myself I’d hidden before. I could talk candidly about my family, the resentment I felt toward my childhood, and the deep sadness. I did a lot of important work with her. I slowly began opening up to a few choice friends about my issues, which was major for me because I'd never breathed a single word to anyone about this issue before. Therapy was massively helpful but it wasn't a cure all. Of course. I hit a point where I truly thought I was on the brink of recovering - I had a new exciting job title, I was having fun flings, my confidence was better than ever. I was riding an incredible high, though I still feared that any day I would crash. And crash I did. After a long stretch of not bingeing (I think I hit about 45 days - my highest, probably, in years), I relapsed. And relapsed and relapsed and relapsed. And again I felt hopeless. Like I would just have to live with this for the rest of my life, that I would always be a binge-eater. The lows were very low. I’m normally a very social, extroverted person but I was so ashamed that all I wanted to do was hide. I began to worry that I'd never be able to kick this without quitting my job - I work in the film industry which has very unforgiving hours and is a hotbed of stress. A regular routine is impossible. And yet I love it and the idea of giving it up broke my heart. I didn’t want that to be the only way. After another series of lows, I got exhausted. I was so angry and tired at myself, at this thing that has been ruining my life for seven years. So I made an appointment with my counsellor (my last - she’s now on mat leave) and started to get my head back on straight. I doubled down. With counselling, I had studied myself inside and out. But this time, I started studying the disorder. I read a book (Brain over Binge, by Kathryn Hansen) that made me believe, for the first time, that I could learn to control my urges. I started calling my disorder by name. My eating disorder. Like Voldemort, I wanted to start proving I was no longer afraid of it. I wanted to take the power from it. And while I had initially opened up to my friends a little about my problem a few months after I started counselling, the shame I felt about my continual failure prevented me from reaching out when I felt lost again. I am someone who holds her secrets very, very close to her and I fear telling anyone the darkest parts of me because I want to be the strong one, and because I loathe to feel I am burdening someone with my problems. But I wrote them an email (two of my closest) and spilled my guts. I’ve since opened up to another few friends. It was absolutely fucking terrifying but I did it. And the relief of sharing my secret, the thing I am most ashamed of in this life, has given me a sense of peace I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Today marks 30 days binge free. It’s too early, I know, to be recovered. I am still in active recovery. And I know that to an extent, it will always be with me. But I no longer fear that I will have to fight it so hard day in and day out. Last time I felt hopeful, when I was riding that high earlier this spring, my hope was bright but fragile. I wanted to believe I was really doing it this time, but I didn’t trust it. This feels different. I wanted to wait til 60 days to post, when I felt the number was steadier, and more impressive. But I decided, fuck it. To me, this 30 days is something worth celebrating. My life is still crazy, still stressful, I work 60 hours a week and have projects on the weekend. I’m still single. My relationship with my family is the same. Nothing fundamental about my life has changed, but I feel like I have. My hope doesn’t feel tinged with doubt. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I need to relearn what it is to have a healthy relationship with food, to not feel a jolt of panic if I accidentally ate a few too many bites and feel full. My work is not done, but I think I’m doing it, guys. I’m doing it. Answer: yay! today is day 6 :) fingers crossed. my last binge was sunday as well. delivery services are the worst for me. stuff like uber eats, postmates, etc. because u can get so much delivered instantly without leaving your house. but trying to make it to a week for now. baby steps.

Question: Posted this to r/offmychest earlier, but this is an even better spot for it. Today marks 30 days binge-free. For the past 6-7 years, my binge eating disorder has ruled my life. I was always a chubby kid/teenager but lost a lot of weight the year after high school with a lot of hard work. I never quite reached 'thin', but I looked and felt much better and my goal seemed within my reach. But then I moved to a new city for post-secondary and my binge eating really developed. My life was so much more exciting, but so much more overwhelming. I would do really well - diet, exercise, everything on point for weeks, and then binge and binge for days or weeks and ruin all my hard work. I acknowledged at this point that it was a problem, but it took me years to realize I had truly developed an eating disorder. And it took me until February of this year to finally seek the help of a counsellor. With her, I was able to truly scrape out every dark, shameful part of myself I’d hidden before. I could talk candidly about my family, the resentment I felt toward my childhood, and the deep sadness. I did a lot of important work with her. I slowly began opening up to a few choice friends about my issues, which was major for me because I'd never breathed a single word to anyone about this issue before. Therapy was massively helpful but it wasn't a cure all. Of course. I hit a point where I truly thought I was on the brink of recovering - I had a new exciting job title, I was having fun flings, my confidence was better than ever. I was riding an incredible high, though I still feared that any day I would crash. And crash I did. After a long stretch of not bingeing (I think I hit about 45 days - my highest, probably, in years), I relapsed. And relapsed and relapsed and relapsed. And again I felt hopeless. Like I would just have to live with this for the rest of my life, that I would always be a binge-eater. The lows were very low. I’m normally a very social, extroverted person but I was so ashamed that all I wanted to do was hide. I began to worry that I'd never be able to kick this without quitting my job - I work in the film industry which has very unforgiving hours and is a hotbed of stress. A regular routine is impossible. And yet I love it and the idea of giving it up broke my heart. I didn’t want that to be the only way. After another series of lows, I got exhausted. I was so angry and tired at myself, at this thing that has been ruining my life for seven years. So I made an appointment with my counsellor (my last - she’s now on mat leave) and started to get my head back on straight. I doubled down. With counselling, I had studied myself inside and out. But this time, I started studying the disorder. I read a book (Brain over Binge, by Kathryn Hansen) that made me believe, for the first time, that I could learn to control my urges. I started calling my disorder by name. My eating disorder. Like Voldemort, I wanted to start proving I was no longer afraid of it. I wanted to take the power from it. And while I had initially opened up to my friends a little about my problem a few months after I started counselling, the shame I felt about my continual failure prevented me from reaching out when I felt lost again. I am someone who holds her secrets very, very close to her and I fear telling anyone the darkest parts of me because I want to be the strong one, and because I loathe to feel I am burdening someone with my problems. But I wrote them an email (two of my closest) and spilled my guts. I’ve since opened up to another few friends. It was absolutely fucking terrifying but I did it. And the relief of sharing my secret, the thing I am most ashamed of in this life, has given me a sense of peace I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Today marks 30 days binge free. It’s too early, I know, to be recovered. I am still in active recovery. And I know that to an extent, it will always be with me. But I no longer fear that I will have to fight it so hard day in and day out. Last time I felt hopeful, when I was riding that high earlier this spring, my hope was bright but fragile. I wanted to believe I was really doing it this time, but I didn’t trust it. This feels different. I wanted to wait til 60 days to post, when I felt the number was steadier, and more impressive. But I decided, fuck it. To me, this 30 days is something worth celebrating. My life is still crazy, still stressful, I work 60 hours a week and have projects on the weekend. I’m still single. My relationship with my family is the same. Nothing fundamental about my life has changed, but I feel like I have. My hope doesn’t feel tinged with doubt. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I need to relearn what it is to have a healthy relationship with food, to not feel a jolt of panic if I accidentally ate a few too many bites and feel full. My work is not done, but I think I’m doing it, guys. I’m doing it. Answer: Congratulations! I'm on day 1 today, after quite the binge last night. I woke up this morning and decided that I am tired of feeling ashamed of myself every day. Your post really gave me confidence in my own ability to kick my own Lord Voldemort for good. I hope to be able to post something similar in 30 days, and wish you the best of luck as you recover!

Question: Posted this to r/offmychest earlier, but this is an even better spot for it. Today marks 30 days binge-free. For the past 6-7 years, my binge eating disorder has ruled my life. I was always a chubby kid/teenager but lost a lot of weight the year after high school with a lot of hard work. I never quite reached 'thin', but I looked and felt much better and my goal seemed within my reach. But then I moved to a new city for post-secondary and my binge eating really developed. My life was so much more exciting, but so much more overwhelming. I would do really well - diet, exercise, everything on point for weeks, and then binge and binge for days or weeks and ruin all my hard work. I acknowledged at this point that it was a problem, but it took me years to realize I had truly developed an eating disorder. And it took me until February of this year to finally seek the help of a counsellor. With her, I was able to truly scrape out every dark, shameful part of myself I’d hidden before. I could talk candidly about my family, the resentment I felt toward my childhood, and the deep sadness. I did a lot of important work with her. I slowly began opening up to a few choice friends about my issues, which was major for me because I'd never breathed a single word to anyone about this issue before. Therapy was massively helpful but it wasn't a cure all. Of course. I hit a point where I truly thought I was on the brink of recovering - I had a new exciting job title, I was having fun flings, my confidence was better than ever. I was riding an incredible high, though I still feared that any day I would crash. And crash I did. After a long stretch of not bingeing (I think I hit about 45 days - my highest, probably, in years), I relapsed. And relapsed and relapsed and relapsed. And again I felt hopeless. Like I would just have to live with this for the rest of my life, that I would always be a binge-eater. The lows were very low. I’m normally a very social, extroverted person but I was so ashamed that all I wanted to do was hide. I began to worry that I'd never be able to kick this without quitting my job - I work in the film industry which has very unforgiving hours and is a hotbed of stress. A regular routine is impossible. And yet I love it and the idea of giving it up broke my heart. I didn’t want that to be the only way. After another series of lows, I got exhausted. I was so angry and tired at myself, at this thing that has been ruining my life for seven years. So I made an appointment with my counsellor (my last - she’s now on mat leave) and started to get my head back on straight. I doubled down. With counselling, I had studied myself inside and out. But this time, I started studying the disorder. I read a book (Brain over Binge, by Kathryn Hansen) that made me believe, for the first time, that I could learn to control my urges. I started calling my disorder by name. My eating disorder. Like Voldemort, I wanted to start proving I was no longer afraid of it. I wanted to take the power from it. And while I had initially opened up to my friends a little about my problem a few months after I started counselling, the shame I felt about my continual failure prevented me from reaching out when I felt lost again. I am someone who holds her secrets very, very close to her and I fear telling anyone the darkest parts of me because I want to be the strong one, and because I loathe to feel I am burdening someone with my problems. But I wrote them an email (two of my closest) and spilled my guts. I’ve since opened up to another few friends. It was absolutely fucking terrifying but I did it. And the relief of sharing my secret, the thing I am most ashamed of in this life, has given me a sense of peace I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before. Today marks 30 days binge free. It’s too early, I know, to be recovered. I am still in active recovery. And I know that to an extent, it will always be with me. But I no longer fear that I will have to fight it so hard day in and day out. Last time I felt hopeful, when I was riding that high earlier this spring, my hope was bright but fragile. I wanted to believe I was really doing it this time, but I didn’t trust it. This feels different. I wanted to wait til 60 days to post, when I felt the number was steadier, and more impressive. But I decided, fuck it. To me, this 30 days is something worth celebrating. My life is still crazy, still stressful, I work 60 hours a week and have projects on the weekend. I’m still single. My relationship with my family is the same. Nothing fundamental about my life has changed, but I feel like I have. My hope doesn’t feel tinged with doubt. I have a lot of work ahead of me. I need to relearn what it is to have a healthy relationship with food, to not feel a jolt of panic if I accidentally ate a few too many bites and feel full. My work is not done, but I think I’m doing it, guys. I’m doing it. Answer: I wish you so much luck, love and strength. <3 You can do it! Reading Binge Over Brain really helped give me some of the tools to mentally re-tool and is certainly worth a read, IMO. PM me if you want a link to a PDF of it!

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I was really scared before and went to see an eating disorder doctor who properly identified what I thought was binge eating disorder as full blown bulimia. After that I felt like I had at least one person on my side, even though no one else in my life could empathize in any way.

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: >I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. >It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. All of this.

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I remember when I told my therapist I had gained back 70 of my 110 pound loss, and she said 'that's A LOT' .. No kidding! Really? I hadn't noticed the fact that I go up a full clothing size monthly

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I work in the healthcare field and every day I think to myself.. "What are you doing? You're killing yourself." Yet I can't stop. I identify with this so much.

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: Binge eating aside, how is your emotional health right now? In my experience, binge eating and weight gain come when I am at my absolute worst. My father died when I was 14 and I gained 40 pounds in probably 6 months. After I started college and lost my best friends, probably another 15. Doing poorly in college and being depressed about my grades, add some more here. Graduating and having shitty jobs. Breaking up with an abusive ex. I was at my worst 3 years ago, and figured out that if I wanted to get control over the binge eating and stop feeling trapped in my 235 pound body, I needed to control my happiness. Long story short, I lost 80 pounds and am finally feeling fulfilled. Over the summer I gained back 10 due to some unresolved health issues and extreme depression that came from it. I might suggest starting a journal and write down how you're feeling, why you're feeling that way, and whether or not you binged. Do things that lift your mood. For a long time, I just blared Justin Timberlake and NSYNC music throughout my apartment and practiced my hair and makeup skills. (Busy hands kept me from eating.) I am always here to be a listening ear. Nothing like a reddit stranger to vent to!

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: Well, my mental health is at an all time low, but it's a chicken or an egg thing. Does binging more cause my mental health to collapse or is my mental health the cause of my depression? I truly can't say...

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: And thanks for sharing!

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I am uncomfortable with how similar this timeline is to my own :(

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I am so sorry. And so psyched that you're reaching out here.

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: How do you find such a doc?

Question: I've had BED for years, but after a hard breakup(one of the causes was my BED), I fully lost control of my eating. I've gained about 70 lbs and I'm virtually freaking the fuck out. Life is passing me by while I just sit and gain weight and isolate myself because of the shame. It's like I'm literally in a bad dream that I can't get out of. Answer: I live in Canada, so this may not be helpful depending on where you live, but you can find local physicians who specialize in eating disorders. Check out your local state/province's eating disorder support network and they may have resources that will point you to a local doctor or group.

Question: I'll start by saying I don't have a binging issue. To me, food has always been a utilitarian resource, like water or sleep. So I'm not in a position to know how/why binging behaviour occurs. I do want to learn though. What makes you binge? Are there specific triggers for you? Are your actively aware that you're binging, or is it a retrospective? At what point does the impulse stop? Specifically, I want to be supportive of someone who sometimes binges. What verbiage is best to say "Hey I don't think you're making healthy choices"? Are there certain triggers to avoid? Thanks in advance! Answer: Binging is almost an out of body experience. Imagine starving in a desert or jungle and you come across an animal. You literally act instinctually to kill and eat that animal. You're not thinking, you're just acting on a survival instinct and you kill that animal to survive while also hiding to make sure no once else gets any because there is a limited supply. After killing that animal, imagine feeling the worst shame possible in your life. Rinse and repeat and you become the saddest human you know. That's binging in a nutshell. Living hell on earth.

Question: I'll start by saying I don't have a binging issue. To me, food has always been a utilitarian resource, like water or sleep. So I'm not in a position to know how/why binging behaviour occurs. I do want to learn though. What makes you binge? Are there specific triggers for you? Are your actively aware that you're binging, or is it a retrospective? At what point does the impulse stop? Specifically, I want to be supportive of someone who sometimes binges. What verbiage is best to say "Hey I don't think you're making healthy choices"? Are there certain triggers to avoid? Thanks in advance! Answer: When I used to binge (and purge) I used to hide it from everyone. If someone has a binge or bulimia problem and you want to comment on what you think is a huge amount of food they are currently eating, they are probably not actually really binging in front of you lol. What I found helpful was people actually spending time with me. It made me feel like a normal person, whether it was going out for drinks or having a picnic. The "activity" or whatever could be food related. It didn't really matter because the presence of people kept me from reverting into some secretive squirrelly crazy person. But as soon as I was alone or spent too much time alone...

Question: I'll start by saying I don't have a binging issue. To me, food has always been a utilitarian resource, like water or sleep. So I'm not in a position to know how/why binging behaviour occurs. I do want to learn though. What makes you binge? Are there specific triggers for you? Are your actively aware that you're binging, or is it a retrospective? At what point does the impulse stop? Specifically, I want to be supportive of someone who sometimes binges. What verbiage is best to say "Hey I don't think you're making healthy choices"? Are there certain triggers to avoid? Thanks in advance! Answer: I have two main reasons. 1) lack of control. Like another poster says, it's an out of body thing. It's like watching a horror movie where you're yelling NO DON'T OPEN THAT DOOR THE AXE MUDERER IS BEHIND IT but you know they're going to open it anyway and all you can do is watch. Except it's you. It's that feeling of "yeah this is going to happen" and there's nothing you can do about it. 2) physical "addiction". You know when your throat gets dry and all you can think about is getting water to wet your throat, and you're physically uncomfortable until you do? Or the feeling when you breathe and you realize you had been holding your breath and didn't know it? When I'm trying to avoid a binge, it's the first - it's all I can think about and all I can do. When I give in, it's the second - I physically relax when I had been avoiding it for a while and fi ally give in. There's a physical reaction. If the person/people in your life are like me, THEY KNOW WHAT THEY ARE DOING. Even when they are doing it, they know what they are doing. They don't need to be told they are engaging in unhealthy habits. Depending on your relationship with them (friend, distant family, close family, bestest friend, spouse, child), your help may be do nothing or it may be offer your support or it may be trying to help them get the help they need. But the first step is understanding - telling them to stop or shaming them won't help, they're possibly already doing that themselves in their head.

Question: I'll start by saying I don't have a binging issue. To me, food has always been a utilitarian resource, like water or sleep. So I'm not in a position to know how/why binging behaviour occurs. I do want to learn though. What makes you binge? Are there specific triggers for you? Are your actively aware that you're binging, or is it a retrospective? At what point does the impulse stop? Specifically, I want to be supportive of someone who sometimes binges. What verbiage is best to say "Hey I don't think you're making healthy choices"? Are there certain triggers to avoid? Thanks in advance! Answer: I think its nice that you want to be supportive of someone who binges. I wish I had advice but I cant think of something someone could say to me (like what you said) that wouldnt make me wanna die :(

Question: I have a sinking suspicion that if I could manage my impulses I may actually be able to beat this thing and possibly would have never fallen into this hell hole of a problem. Answer: I was diagnosed a couple years ago. They but me on Vyvanse and it worked amazing to control binging. It's actually approved by the FDA to help with binge eating. I quit taking it bc about a year in it made me want to drink and smoke all day ..

Question: I have a sinking suspicion that if I could manage my impulses I may actually be able to beat this thing and possibly would have never fallen into this hell hole of a problem. Answer: Professionally diagnosed with ADHD. I'm on adderall but it wears off at 4pm. No binging compulsión issues during the time it's on. Doctor is convinced therapy will fix binge eating. Moving to a new psych and doc in January. I'm hoping to get a med adjustment or something to help. I'm still doing therapy but I think I need both to help.

Question: I have a sinking suspicion that if I could manage my impulses I may actually be able to beat this thing and possibly would have never fallen into this hell hole of a problem. Answer: Diagnosed. I definitely binge way more when off my meds. Even my mom has commented on it. No meds = eat all the things

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: Thank you for saying this. I often get the urge to purge after regretting eating a lot. So far I've only done it once but this steers me away from ever wanting to again!

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: Cannot stress this enough! There were a few periods in the past few years that I would do this once or twice a week. After skipping out of going to the dentist's for 3 years, I ended up with molars riddled with cavities and one root canal. So expensive and so bad for your physical and mental health!

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: Yea, I'm super bulimic. I feel you. Two days purge free. It comes and goes in waves.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: I agree with this 110%. Don't fall into the trap. Short term it seems like an answer but within the first few times you'll regret ever starting. And yes, the weight gain is very real with purging.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: ♡

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: I'm not really against purging per se. It works when I've binged too much or when I've had too much alcohol. I've never had cavities so that's mostly an issue with the food you eat, not the purging. I guess that the worse thing about it is that I can only eat very little food now, at most one egg, otherwise I end up feeling very sick and throw up again.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: The stomach acid that comes up is what damages your teeth - not just the actual food you're eating

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: But it doesn't give you cavities.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: It destroys the enamel which protects your teeth against the bacteria which reside in your mouth. It doesn't matter what you eat, bacteria is everywhere. The bacteria then has easier access to cause cavities. Either way you will notice an increased in sensitivity in your teeth to hot and cold foods.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: You bring up an interesting thought/point.... Through my growing years and high school and college, many times I was encouraged to make myself throw up by my peers when I drank too much - as many others did because "you will feel better". This was never said about eating too much but interesting how it could as easily apply.

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: In addition to what op said, it can also make your teeth break. I had to go to the dentist after a big part of my front tooth broke off- it broke off because it was weakened from purging. :(

Question: Whatever you do, do not purge. I've been struggling with binge eating disorder for 5 years now. A month or two ago I decided to throw up. The first time seems okay, not too much damage. Oh wow, now I can binge all the time and just throw it up when I want. I can go to the store and buy two pints of ice cream and candy and pb2, I can just throw it all up. It doesn't work like that, you don't purge all the calories if any. I gained three pounds. Then after a few times, you start to get stains on your teeth. My teeth that have been white all my life are now stained with yellow and have brown spots. My stomach hurls in pain if I eat too much now. I am chronically gassy. Sometimes I wake up in the night, writhing in pain, a day after telling myself I won't do again and throw up because my stomach is bubbling and hurting terribly. I throw up INVOLUNTARILY because it hurts so bad and the food for some reason wants to get out. My throat is very dry and much wider than it used to. I burst so many blood vessels in my head and brain I still have a headache/pains on my head. My teeth are a lot more sensitive than it used to be. I purged a total of 6-7 times in my life and I am still suffering from the effects. I can't imagine how people do it for years. Answer: Because alcohol is a potentially fatal poison, whereas food isn't. Purging large amounts of food - even if it may be of temporary relief - can cause your stomach to rupture, because the pressure is entirely different than when you haven't binged. EDIT: Also, if someone frequently drank too much, because they could get rid of it anyway, you'd also would stop encouraging them to vomit, wouldn't you?

Question: Hello - found the sub from a couple of groups, one being /1200isplenty. I can't tell you how glad I am to actually see a bed subreddit that is active. I hope that keeps up. Diagnosed w/ B.E.D. about 5 years ago, but it's been a lifelong struggle. Co-morbidity with major depressive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder, tendencies towards depersonalization. Nothing more fun than watching yourself (from a distance) polish off half the food in the kitchen - craving everything; so long as nobody else is there to see. Even the dog walking into the kitchen halts me. I am a secret binger - if spouse can't see me, they can't judge me... so while I make dinner, or tea, or anything - I tend to just gorge my face off, to the point of aching, hurting. And then I sit down and eat a (smallish) portion of the meal, and pretend nothing's wrong as I'm awash in a riptide of self-hate. Anyways - hi. Sorry for being a downer and stuff. Answer: Glad you're here

Question: Hello - found the sub from a couple of groups, one being /1200isplenty. I can't tell you how glad I am to actually see a bed subreddit that is active. I hope that keeps up. Diagnosed w/ B.E.D. about 5 years ago, but it's been a lifelong struggle. Co-morbidity with major depressive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder, tendencies towards depersonalization. Nothing more fun than watching yourself (from a distance) polish off half the food in the kitchen - craving everything; so long as nobody else is there to see. Even the dog walking into the kitchen halts me. I am a secret binger - if spouse can't see me, they can't judge me... so while I make dinner, or tea, or anything - I tend to just gorge my face off, to the point of aching, hurting. And then I sit down and eat a (smallish) portion of the meal, and pretend nothing's wrong as I'm awash in a riptide of self-hate. Anyways - hi. Sorry for being a downer and stuff. Answer: Thanks. :) Good to find so many people who can understand - not that I'm glad others suffer... but well, I hope that makes sense.

Question: Hello - found the sub from a couple of groups, one being /1200isplenty. I can't tell you how glad I am to actually see a bed subreddit that is active. I hope that keeps up. Diagnosed w/ B.E.D. about 5 years ago, but it's been a lifelong struggle. Co-morbidity with major depressive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder, tendencies towards depersonalization. Nothing more fun than watching yourself (from a distance) polish off half the food in the kitchen - craving everything; so long as nobody else is there to see. Even the dog walking into the kitchen halts me. I am a secret binger - if spouse can't see me, they can't judge me... so while I make dinner, or tea, or anything - I tend to just gorge my face off, to the point of aching, hurting. And then I sit down and eat a (smallish) portion of the meal, and pretend nothing's wrong as I'm awash in a riptide of self-hate. Anyways - hi. Sorry for being a downer and stuff. Answer: Another secret binger chiming in. Your behavior describes me in a nutshell, all the way to the sitting down and eating a small portion of dinner and pretending everything is normal. Why do we do this?

Question: Hello - found the sub from a couple of groups, one being /1200isplenty. I can't tell you how glad I am to actually see a bed subreddit that is active. I hope that keeps up. Diagnosed w/ B.E.D. about 5 years ago, but it's been a lifelong struggle. Co-morbidity with major depressive disorder & generalized anxiety disorder, tendencies towards depersonalization. Nothing more fun than watching yourself (from a distance) polish off half the food in the kitchen - craving everything; so long as nobody else is there to see. Even the dog walking into the kitchen halts me. I am a secret binger - if spouse can't see me, they can't judge me... so while I make dinner, or tea, or anything - I tend to just gorge my face off, to the point of aching, hurting. And then I sit down and eat a (smallish) portion of the meal, and pretend nothing's wrong as I'm awash in a riptide of self-hate. Anyways - hi. Sorry for being a downer and stuff. Answer: former binge eater. PM me for any help you may need :)

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I don't, but this is the medication mentioned in Brain Over Binge that made the author realize that her bulemia was a physical illness, not a fully psychological one, cause she said it really helped with curbing her binges.

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I've been reading that book, very enlightening! I just started on it today, I took it years ago but couldn't continue with it cause it caused too much of a brain fog for me. It's really weird how it makes all carbonated drinks taste flat.

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I've heard of vyvanse, I doubt the VA would prescribe it though lol it is not cost effective.

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I'll have to ask about that next month, thanks for the information!

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: Would you mind if I PM for more info?

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I've taken Topamax for migraines in the past. I definitely lost my appetite and about 20 pounds. I had tingling in my fingers and weird visual trails in the mornings. Do NOT drink at all on this medication. You will be puking for days. It's also used in cases of extreme alcoholism as a way of physically preventing people from drinking. I'm curious, is this being prescribed for something having to do with B.E.? My neurologist was hesitant to even prescribe it for migraines because it can be very hard on your body. I stopped taking it because I was starting to have some kidney issues with it.

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: Yea this was for B.E, I've heard the positive it can do but the side effects make me kind of weary. I have an appointment next month so I'll see where I am from there.

Question: Just prescribed with topamax today at the VA, anyone have any experience with this? Answer: I took this for a little while, but it made me feel really slow(I believe for that reason it's also called 'stupid pill'). It did curb my appetite and a bit of my compulsion to bp, but it didn't make a significant change on it.

Question: I want to start by saying that I'm so happy this subreddit exists because I've been having a (literally) huge problem. I'm 19 and on my own, but throughout high school I went from 200 pounds to 120. A great accomplishment, sure, but I did it by eating 500-800 calories a day with fasting days every weekend. Now, I've done a full 360 and have been eating approximately 3,000 (my bmr is about 1,300 and I work a desk job) calories for the past several weeks, and I've gone up 15 pounds! I don't want to restrict so low like I used to, but it's proven difficult for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. It's not even about gaining weight anymore as much as it is just me wanting control again. I want to be healthy and happy and, I don't know...maybe confiding in people who share my same struggles. Answer: I fend the best solution to this problem, although may not be what you aspire to hear, is to ride it out. You're body is eating all of these calories because it has been malnourished of nutrients and a sufficient energy source and it will continue to do so-against your conscious will- until it trusts that it you food intake will be stable again. Your body is storing all of this energy because it doesn't know when the next day will be that it doesn't get enough calories so it's playing safe. The solution is to give in to your cravings every single time and eat whatever you want and it will take time-weeks or months or even longer it really depends- but eventually your body will realize that there is enough food around again and you'll stop craving everything. Your weight will go up again in this process I'm sorry to say but it will peak and then naturally begin to level back to a healthier weight again. Trust me I'm going through the same thing right now, just stay patient and constantly forgive yourself. I wish you so much luck!!!!!

Question: I want to start by saying that I'm so happy this subreddit exists because I've been having a (literally) huge problem. I'm 19 and on my own, but throughout high school I went from 200 pounds to 120. A great accomplishment, sure, but I did it by eating 500-800 calories a day with fasting days every weekend. Now, I've done a full 360 and have been eating approximately 3,000 (my bmr is about 1,300 and I work a desk job) calories for the past several weeks, and I've gone up 15 pounds! I don't want to restrict so low like I used to, but it's proven difficult for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. It's not even about gaining weight anymore as much as it is just me wanting control again. I want to be healthy and happy and, I don't know...maybe confiding in people who share my same struggles. Answer: What's going on in your life right now? We're at Thanks Giving and Christmas, is there a family issue you're avoiding by eating instead of confronting the emotion behind it? Sounds like you've swung from borderline anorexia to binge eating quite effectively. So something's definitely happened to send you back to habits formed in your youth and childhood. I agree with the poster above that your body may be asking for more nutrients because of the cold weather and being starved but I suspect it's more your subconscious telling you, and the others around you, that something is wrong.

Question: I want to start by saying that I'm so happy this subreddit exists because I've been having a (literally) huge problem. I'm 19 and on my own, but throughout high school I went from 200 pounds to 120. A great accomplishment, sure, but I did it by eating 500-800 calories a day with fasting days every weekend. Now, I've done a full 360 and have been eating approximately 3,000 (my bmr is about 1,300 and I work a desk job) calories for the past several weeks, and I've gone up 15 pounds! I don't want to restrict so low like I used to, but it's proven difficult for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. It's not even about gaining weight anymore as much as it is just me wanting control again. I want to be healthy and happy and, I don't know...maybe confiding in people who share my same struggles. Answer: I too restricted heavily for a few years, and when the elastic snapped, I started over eating and binging, purging too. Eventually I stopped purging, I was just depressed fat and eating a ton because I hated myself. It took a lot of time for me to get back to having a normal perspective about food and self image. Eventually I managed to get back into a healthy bmi and I maintained for the last two years. Give yourself time to heal, don't put pressure on yourself, it triggered binge episodes for me. Also, the deception of binging made me binge some more, as self punishment. It's so fucked up looking back on this. The only things I can give you as far as advice goes, is to find activities you have to attend (group classes, I liked spinning and road cycling, maybe you can take up painting lessons, dancing, knitting club, jogging groups, whatever.) so you have to get out of the house and concentrate on something that makes you feel good for a few hours a week. Most importantly: Stop thinking about going back to restricting. It did not work, because here you are. The price to pay for the control and obsessiveness is this, and you don't want it. You need to romanticize normal eating, not restrictive behaviours or you'll just repeat a cycle over and over again and trust me, you'll get back to binge eating sooner or later. Allow yourself time to get better. Lots of it. Be indulgent with yourself. You will fuck up at times and it's ok. I still have a bad day here and there but overall I'm very happy about how I got over this destructive mess. If you happen to overeat, look at it the way a loving and caring parent would look at it if it was to happen to his child instead of feeling depressed or anxious. I hope this helps somewhat. Best wishes

Question: I want to start by saying that I'm so happy this subreddit exists because I've been having a (literally) huge problem. I'm 19 and on my own, but throughout high school I went from 200 pounds to 120. A great accomplishment, sure, but I did it by eating 500-800 calories a day with fasting days every weekend. Now, I've done a full 360 and have been eating approximately 3,000 (my bmr is about 1,300 and I work a desk job) calories for the past several weeks, and I've gone up 15 pounds! I don't want to restrict so low like I used to, but it's proven difficult for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. It's not even about gaining weight anymore as much as it is just me wanting control again. I want to be healthy and happy and, I don't know...maybe confiding in people who share my same struggles. Answer: I get where you are coming from, but compulsive over eating or binge eating is just the other face of the same problem, if that makes sense. Compulsive restrictive behaviour and compulsive over eating should both be adressed. Normal eating patterns should suffice to restore someone's weight.

Question: I want to start by saying that I'm so happy this subreddit exists because I've been having a (literally) huge problem. I'm 19 and on my own, but throughout high school I went from 200 pounds to 120. A great accomplishment, sure, but I did it by eating 500-800 calories a day with fasting days every weekend. Now, I've done a full 360 and have been eating approximately 3,000 (my bmr is about 1,300 and I work a desk job) calories for the past several weeks, and I've gone up 15 pounds! I don't want to restrict so low like I used to, but it's proven difficult for me to maintain a healthy lifestyle. It's not even about gaining weight anymore as much as it is just me wanting control again. I want to be healthy and happy and, I don't know...maybe confiding in people who share my same struggles. Answer: All I can say is I'm in a similar position. I used to be reasonably healthy (curvy but not overweight) but then I decided to get thinner and restricted severely and used appetite suppressants. I got thin and felt great about it, but wasn't letting myself eat *anything* unhealthy. Not even a little. I remember going for Mexican with friends and smugly feeling superior because they were eating tortilla chips (like ew, do you *want* to be fat?). After a while I was so proud of myself for being thin that I decided I could go back to eating a normal, healthy diet instead of just vegetables and air. And, surprise: suddenly everything was so good. Eating a bowl of pasta felt like giving myself a huge present. Better than it ever felt before. Eating two bowls felt even better. Like scratching an itch. And now I overeat constantly. In the back of my mind there's a voice that's like "if you wanna be thin, go back to what you did before" but I know that's not good either. It feels like there's no middle ground that I can manage - it's either restrict like crazy or eat like crazy. I'm working up the courage to talk to a therapist about it and hoping that will help. Anyway, sorry for not having anything constructive to say - I've just been lurking around and identified with you a lot so started typing and everything spilled out, haha.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Hello. I've had experience with supplements (appetite suppressant, fat burners, even some anti depressants that supress appetite although it doesnt work for everyone). Bottom line is: Don't. Supplements are a temporary fix for a long term problem. Having urges to binge is a malfunction in the nervous system that can be fixed without these suppressants. What these supplements do is that they temporarily affect your frontal cortex and thyroid function, but the effect goes away after a while and binging takes place again. If you want to deal with your binging problem, i suggest you read this book: Brain over Binge by Kathryn Hansen. I GUARANTEE you will stop binging, and I assure you that from personal experience, your life will change. Best of luck

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Yeah I wasn't looking for something for the long term, just something to help break the habit for a few weeks so then I stop bingeing without the help of supplements. Which supplements have you had experience with that worked for you?

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: No my point was that even if you use them short term, when you stop, the vicious cycle starts again and the binges get more severe. I really advise you not to go down this road.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Alright. I just think it would help me short term to get some momentum in quitting permanently without the use of them. Thank you for your honest advice.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Adhd meds :( Started ot for me honestly and now I've been in an insane binge cycle for weeks. (My flair on my profile is not accurate anymore, at all.)

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: i believe appetite suppressants are a type of purging behavior. you should check with your dr about these meds and if he/she can change them... i know you didnt mean to actually use them to suppress appetite but uou should consult a professional about it :) i'm happy to help anytime

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: You can try green tea supplements, those are pretty good. Again not a long term fix but it might help you get started. We are all in this too!

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: I talked to him and he actually works with people with eating disorders as well, but there aren't any other meds he can prescribe me I think and I am not functional without them at all. So I guess I have to power through with a hope of self control, and especially as I'm underweight, probably no one will see it as big of a problem. Honestly I wouldn't mind gaining weight *that* much if it was at a healthy rate paires with building muscles, but it's not. Now I just feel disgusting and medicate it with even more food. :/ Sorry for that rant I guess. I'm just torn if I actually want help as I enjoy my overly skinny physice (?) on a relatively small frame.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: EC stack all the way. I call it fasting on easy mode.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Psyllium husk (I use Metamucil) is a fantastic, non-addictive and non-habit forming supplement that you can use to suppress appetite. Just be sure to increase your water intake as you consume more fiber, or else you will get constipated.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: No, not really. I find binge eating had more to do with managing feelings than hunger.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: First of all dont apologize for the rant. Second, binging would be easier to manage if it wasnt rooted in dissatisfaction with weight (most people want to lose weight and get in a vicious binging cycle). I think what you should do is eat healthy throughout the week and have 2 or 3 meals where you eat whatever you want. also, exercise. it's good for you and it regulates appetite and forces you to pick healthier foods. Do you know the book Brain Over Binge by Kathryn Hansen? i suggest you read it, it has all the mental tools to stop binging. It explains why we do it and how to stop etc.. And Pm me if you need anything. Good luck

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: I've heard that's good. Do you known if it's available in the UK?

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: I'm in the US so I did a quick google. Here we get it mixed with an allergy medication as Bronkaid. It looks like in the UK it's called ChestEeze. I think you can import it from online legally. I don't really know but this is a good starting point for you to research it. Maybe search r/bodybuilding for info about getting hold of it in the UK Wiki quote : "In the UK ephedrine is regulated as a P medicine: it may only be lawfully supplied within a registered pharmacy and while a pharmacist is present. The maximum amount of ephedrine legally available without prescription in one sale is 180mg- the only product commonly sold within these restrictions is ChestEze tablets which consist of 9 pills of 18.75mg ephedrine combined with caffeine and theophylline. These are intended as a nasal decongestant but are known to be used by bodybuilders. Higher strengths of pure ephedrine are available as prescription-only medicines but are not currently Controlled Drugs under the Misuse of Drugs Act."

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Thanks for the detailed response, I'll look into it.

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: Your welcome! Good luck!

Question: Hello. I was wondering if anyone has had any success with supplements to prevent binges. For example, I had heard 5-htp can be used as an effective appetite suppressant, leading to bingeing less. Answer: 5 htp may or may not work depending on the cause of the binge. For me it worked (takes 3 days of regular consumption to start to feel effects). I knew this would work for me because my binges are usually accompanied by this buzzing feeling in my head AKA lack of serotonin. Hope this helps

Question: I have insulin resistance, so I try to stay away from processed carbs as much as I can. But sometimes I get hit by the urge, and then I have a whole package of cookies. When this happens, I usually hop on my bike and ride for an extra hour (I bike and exercise regularly). I know the damage was done, but I want to mitigate as much as I can. Is there a way to emergency deal with a sugar rush on your body? I heard from a friend that eating something with a lot of fiber, like flaxseed, will lower the rate on which sugar is released on your bloodstream. Is that true? Answer: Not quite. The secret is to eat a ton of fat with it, which will prevent the spike from being as bad. I'm not entirely sure if it's because it allows the glucose to be used more easily in the krebs cycle, or if it prevents quick digestion. Maybe even a combo of the two. Fiber is a "net carb" kind of thing, in that if fiber is included in the carb count, those fiber carbs will not increase blood sugar. Adding it in after the fact just adds carbs/fiber. There is some belief that it can "flush" the sugar out of your body by making you poop faster than you can digest, but this is most likely negligible due to how long everything spends in your body to begin with. I'm already a diabetic, so I just try to avoid having large packages of carbs in the house. My advice to you would be to purchase Fiber One cookies. They're good, large sized, individually packaged, and only come 6 to box. They still have sugar in them, though, so be warned. Bicycling is typically a good idea if you decide to eat a whole box regardless. Or you can always make [low carb cookies](http://www.ruled.me/low-carb-chocolate-chip-cookies/) with xylitol instead of erythritol and store them in the freezer so you can eat them whenever you're ready. Not so great for calories (almond flour is high in calories and xylitol has 2/3 the calories of sugar whereas erythritol would have virtually none).

Question: Hello, I am new here. I posted this on /r/loseit and someone recommend to follow this sub. I guess I need help to figure out what to do. Just to give the short intro to maybe summarize my problem, I am obese. Two weeks ago, I weighed 141.8 Kgs. I am 24 years old with high Cholesterol, IBS and Bipolar Disorder that is left untreated. The following is how I've binged today. Today I went to the nutritionist to get weighed and see how much progress I've had so far. So far, I've lost 6.5 Kgs in two weeks. But I've sinned tonight! I went back to an empty home and I decided to make my tomorrow's lunch as I usually do when I am feeling energetic. But I already had one meal ready in the fridge. Sauteed Green peas with carrots and onions and a pan seared chicken breast. All made diet-style. I suddenly started rolling down hill. It all began with a brownie I got for my tomorrow's cheat meal. I ate it, and it was my first taste of sugar in two weeks. Then I made three sandwiches of Mango Jam, a home-made jam that mom gave me the last time I visited her. I added some light biscuits. Then I downed the whole lunch that was residing in my fridge. Cold. Then I made pan seared fillet fish for tomorrow, and I ate half of it. Then I started eating cashew. I ate like 100gm of it. Then I finalized that with a croissant and a cup of green tea with jasmine and a cup of coffee. Yes, I devoured all of that. And now, I am feeling terrible and shaking. I am too afraid that I might have destroyed my two weeks of hard work in a single flip. I don't know what to do. Can anybody help? Answer: You've only lost that one battle, but you have definitely not lost the war. Keep fighting! Try again starting right now. Not tomorrow. Right now. The binge is now in the past. Do not punish yourself. Just eat lightly for the rest of today and keep on track tomorrow.

Question: Hello, I am new here. I posted this on /r/loseit and someone recommend to follow this sub. I guess I need help to figure out what to do. Just to give the short intro to maybe summarize my problem, I am obese. Two weeks ago, I weighed 141.8 Kgs. I am 24 years old with high Cholesterol, IBS and Bipolar Disorder that is left untreated. The following is how I've binged today. Today I went to the nutritionist to get weighed and see how much progress I've had so far. So far, I've lost 6.5 Kgs in two weeks. But I've sinned tonight! I went back to an empty home and I decided to make my tomorrow's lunch as I usually do when I am feeling energetic. But I already had one meal ready in the fridge. Sauteed Green peas with carrots and onions and a pan seared chicken breast. All made diet-style. I suddenly started rolling down hill. It all began with a brownie I got for my tomorrow's cheat meal. I ate it, and it was my first taste of sugar in two weeks. Then I made three sandwiches of Mango Jam, a home-made jam that mom gave me the last time I visited her. I added some light biscuits. Then I downed the whole lunch that was residing in my fridge. Cold. Then I made pan seared fillet fish for tomorrow, and I ate half of it. Then I started eating cashew. I ate like 100gm of it. Then I finalized that with a croissant and a cup of green tea with jasmine and a cup of coffee. Yes, I devoured all of that. And now, I am feeling terrible and shaking. I am too afraid that I might have destroyed my two weeks of hard work in a single flip. I don't know what to do. Can anybody help? Answer: Hello. I am from the middle east, so this binging was in the evening. I tried to collect myself, and I prepared some diet sauteed food for tomorrow. I hope I can just move on and continue.

Question: Hello, I am new here. I posted this on /r/loseit and someone recommend to follow this sub. I guess I need help to figure out what to do. Just to give the short intro to maybe summarize my problem, I am obese. Two weeks ago, I weighed 141.8 Kgs. I am 24 years old with high Cholesterol, IBS and Bipolar Disorder that is left untreated. The following is how I've binged today. Today I went to the nutritionist to get weighed and see how much progress I've had so far. So far, I've lost 6.5 Kgs in two weeks. But I've sinned tonight! I went back to an empty home and I decided to make my tomorrow's lunch as I usually do when I am feeling energetic. But I already had one meal ready in the fridge. Sauteed Green peas with carrots and onions and a pan seared chicken breast. All made diet-style. I suddenly started rolling down hill. It all began with a brownie I got for my tomorrow's cheat meal. I ate it, and it was my first taste of sugar in two weeks. Then I made three sandwiches of Mango Jam, a home-made jam that mom gave me the last time I visited her. I added some light biscuits. Then I downed the whole lunch that was residing in my fridge. Cold. Then I made pan seared fillet fish for tomorrow, and I ate half of it. Then I started eating cashew. I ate like 100gm of it. Then I finalized that with a croissant and a cup of green tea with jasmine and a cup of coffee. Yes, I devoured all of that. And now, I am feeling terrible and shaking. I am too afraid that I might have destroyed my two weeks of hard work in a single flip. I don't know what to do. Can anybody help? Answer: I doubt that just one episode of overeating will undo all of your accomplishments! Don't obsess over it and just talk gently to yourself...what would you say to a friend in the same situation? Maybe talk to your nutritionist about the brownie trigger and see if there's another way to indulge? Sounds like you're doing great, and just know that you might experience this again and it's not a tragedy...it's just a normal bump in the road!

Question: Hello, I am new here. I posted this on /r/loseit and someone recommend to follow this sub. I guess I need help to figure out what to do. Just to give the short intro to maybe summarize my problem, I am obese. Two weeks ago, I weighed 141.8 Kgs. I am 24 years old with high Cholesterol, IBS and Bipolar Disorder that is left untreated. The following is how I've binged today. Today I went to the nutritionist to get weighed and see how much progress I've had so far. So far, I've lost 6.5 Kgs in two weeks. But I've sinned tonight! I went back to an empty home and I decided to make my tomorrow's lunch as I usually do when I am feeling energetic. But I already had one meal ready in the fridge. Sauteed Green peas with carrots and onions and a pan seared chicken breast. All made diet-style. I suddenly started rolling down hill. It all began with a brownie I got for my tomorrow's cheat meal. I ate it, and it was my first taste of sugar in two weeks. Then I made three sandwiches of Mango Jam, a home-made jam that mom gave me the last time I visited her. I added some light biscuits. Then I downed the whole lunch that was residing in my fridge. Cold. Then I made pan seared fillet fish for tomorrow, and I ate half of it. Then I started eating cashew. I ate like 100gm of it. Then I finalized that with a croissant and a cup of green tea with jasmine and a cup of coffee. Yes, I devoured all of that. And now, I am feeling terrible and shaking. I am too afraid that I might have destroyed my two weeks of hard work in a single flip. I don't know what to do. Can anybody help? Answer: I tried to get back after the binge. I believe now it is only a bump in the road, yes. But since then, I am finding high cravings that I barely control. I hope it passes.

Question: Does anyone else feel this way? I truly feel like the main reason I binge is just to alleviate the pressure about worrying about binging. It's unbelievably insane... Answer: YES I've never been able to word it like this before tho.

Question: Does anyone else feel this way? I truly feel like the main reason I binge is just to alleviate the pressure about worrying about binging. It's unbelievably insane... Answer: Exactly. I battle so much in my head about eating or not, so I just eat to get it over with.

Question: Does anyone else feel this way? I truly feel like the main reason I binge is just to alleviate the pressure about worrying about binging. It's unbelievably insane... Answer: Yes. But I read something on one of the fitness subs that kind of relates. I have a bad habit of falling into cycles of binges. "Oh, I binged for breakfast, so there's no sense in being healthy for lunch, the day is shot, might as well overeat at lunch too." Someone said something like "when you get a flat tire, do you slash the other three?" Major light bulb moment for me. It's made it easier for me to get back on track after a binge if I visualize slashing my tires.

Question: Does anyone else feel this way? I truly feel like the main reason I binge is just to alleviate the pressure about worrying about binging. It's unbelievably insane... Answer: Yeah for sure. I've heard "if you run one red light in the morning, do you run red lights the rest of the day?"

Question: This is the first time I've posted in this subreddit, but I've been struggling with binge eating since I was young (about 9 or 10). I recently recognized that this is what I'm struggling with, and put up a quote from Geneen Roth on my fridge. "Bingeing is such an emotionally frenetic activity that no other concerns can exist in the same space. It is a hell that people who are food-sensitive are familiar with; and, because it is known, it is therefore not so terrifying as some of the problems that are outside our control," Above that quote I wrote, "bored? CLEAN SOMETHING" Usually I start reading that piece of paper and then turn my eyes into the fridge, but last night after second dinner I saw the sign, and *actually went and cleaned stuff instead*. I still overate but I stopped the binge, drank some water after cleaning my place, and went to bed. This morning I feel AMAZING, my belly isn't overextended, and I am hopeful for the future. Thanks to this sub for opening my eyes to my bad habits and for prompting me to put that little sign up in the first place! Answer: Good job. And maybe this one victory will lead to many more! You've proved that this distraction could work for you.

Question: This is the first time I've posted in this subreddit, but I've been struggling with binge eating since I was young (about 9 or 10). I recently recognized that this is what I'm struggling with, and put up a quote from Geneen Roth on my fridge. "Bingeing is such an emotionally frenetic activity that no other concerns can exist in the same space. It is a hell that people who are food-sensitive are familiar with; and, because it is known, it is therefore not so terrifying as some of the problems that are outside our control," Above that quote I wrote, "bored? CLEAN SOMETHING" Usually I start reading that piece of paper and then turn my eyes into the fridge, but last night after second dinner I saw the sign, and *actually went and cleaned stuff instead*. I still overate but I stopped the binge, drank some water after cleaning my place, and went to bed. This morning I feel AMAZING, my belly isn't overextended, and I am hopeful for the future. Thanks to this sub for opening my eyes to my bad habits and for prompting me to put that little sign up in the first place! Answer: Awesome! Another step taken on the path towards the right direction. Today it was for this urge, then slowly it will happen more and more often, just keep facing the right direction and **never stop trying**!

Question: I don't even know why I'm making this post... I know I'm not alone, but you can't really "see" eating disorders in people. And it's not exactly something we like to talk about. So I just feel really, really isolated from everyone I know. I'm a 16 year old girl with a slim physique and average BMI. What people don't see is the times like this morning, where I gorge myself to the point that it literally feels like I'm going to die. My parents don't believe in this disorder, and they reacted so awfully to my weight gain (I used to have a BMI of 19-20 before BED, now it's 21-22) that I'm honestly horrified about ever reaching out about this to anyone in real life ever again. I want desperately to get better, but I can't even fathom eating "normally" anymore. It's either 3000 calories or 800 calories a day for me. I slept for about 2 hours last night, and woke up at 6. I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to finding food (my parents don't neglect me, it's just they're too busy to prepare anything) and I can't cook so I just grab whatever I can. Of course, that leads to either severe restriction or severe overeating. There's just no winning with me. I know you can all relate, but when I'm out in public, or with my family, it feels like no one really gets it. Like I said before, you never know who has these EDs, and the people who don't have them have proven themselves incapable of understanding it at all most of the time. Sorry for writing something so long for no reason. I just want to be skinny, as irrational as that sounds. No matter how I try, how much weight I lose/gain, it's never enough. It's 9:47 AM on Sunday and I'm not gonna eat anything significant for the rest of today. Sorry if I sound dramatic. I'm just so stressed out, and I feel like I'm going to shatter. TL;DR: BED sucks Answer: Hey - you should reach out to NEDA - or at least do a google search and email possible facilities that can help. You're not alone in this for sure. You mentioned you don't want to eat anything significant today, but I would not recommend that. That pattern of eating is how this mess gets even messier. I'd suggest just eating three meals today like a "normal" person. I know it's hard, but it "takes the beast" so to speak because you're not restricting and not going overboard. Do reach out for help and feel free to ask questions here.

Question: I don't even know why I'm making this post... I know I'm not alone, but you can't really "see" eating disorders in people. And it's not exactly something we like to talk about. So I just feel really, really isolated from everyone I know. I'm a 16 year old girl with a slim physique and average BMI. What people don't see is the times like this morning, where I gorge myself to the point that it literally feels like I'm going to die. My parents don't believe in this disorder, and they reacted so awfully to my weight gain (I used to have a BMI of 19-20 before BED, now it's 21-22) that I'm honestly horrified about ever reaching out about this to anyone in real life ever again. I want desperately to get better, but I can't even fathom eating "normally" anymore. It's either 3000 calories or 800 calories a day for me. I slept for about 2 hours last night, and woke up at 6. I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to finding food (my parents don't neglect me, it's just they're too busy to prepare anything) and I can't cook so I just grab whatever I can. Of course, that leads to either severe restriction or severe overeating. There's just no winning with me. I know you can all relate, but when I'm out in public, or with my family, it feels like no one really gets it. Like I said before, you never know who has these EDs, and the people who don't have them have proven themselves incapable of understanding it at all most of the time. Sorry for writing something so long for no reason. I just want to be skinny, as irrational as that sounds. No matter how I try, how much weight I lose/gain, it's never enough. It's 9:47 AM on Sunday and I'm not gonna eat anything significant for the rest of today. Sorry if I sound dramatic. I'm just so stressed out, and I feel like I'm going to shatter. TL;DR: BED sucks Answer: Thank you.

Question: I don't even know why I'm making this post... I know I'm not alone, but you can't really "see" eating disorders in people. And it's not exactly something we like to talk about. So I just feel really, really isolated from everyone I know. I'm a 16 year old girl with a slim physique and average BMI. What people don't see is the times like this morning, where I gorge myself to the point that it literally feels like I'm going to die. My parents don't believe in this disorder, and they reacted so awfully to my weight gain (I used to have a BMI of 19-20 before BED, now it's 21-22) that I'm honestly horrified about ever reaching out about this to anyone in real life ever again. I want desperately to get better, but I can't even fathom eating "normally" anymore. It's either 3000 calories or 800 calories a day for me. I slept for about 2 hours last night, and woke up at 6. I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to finding food (my parents don't neglect me, it's just they're too busy to prepare anything) and I can't cook so I just grab whatever I can. Of course, that leads to either severe restriction or severe overeating. There's just no winning with me. I know you can all relate, but when I'm out in public, or with my family, it feels like no one really gets it. Like I said before, you never know who has these EDs, and the people who don't have them have proven themselves incapable of understanding it at all most of the time. Sorry for writing something so long for no reason. I just want to be skinny, as irrational as that sounds. No matter how I try, how much weight I lose/gain, it's never enough. It's 9:47 AM on Sunday and I'm not gonna eat anything significant for the rest of today. Sorry if I sound dramatic. I'm just so stressed out, and I feel like I'm going to shatter. TL;DR: BED sucks Answer: Overcoming binge eating disorder is all about learning to change your relationship with food. The second food becomes "bad" or "forbidden" is the second you start obsessing over it. Food is just fuel/calories. Some food tastes really good and has lots of calories, some food is light on calories, but at the end of the day that's all it is, whether chocolate or salad, and your body needs at least 1800 of them a day (averaged out over the week - doesn't matter if you go over or under on specific days) to develop properly, keep you free of stress and fatigue, keep your brain positive and healthy, etc. You need to stop telling yourself that you're done eating for the day, and tell yourself instead that you're going to have a great day filled with non-food related activities, and that you will eat if and when you get hungry, and that you will control the portion size but not stress about what exactly it is you ate, or whether or not you specifically planned on eating it. You also need to stop weighing yourself. If you really want to know then you should only weigh yourself on a weekly basis, not daily, because fluctuations in water weight make daily progress impossible to accurately measure with a scale. You also need to embrace exercise and make it a part of your life. Exercise will give you self confidence, release brain endorphins that actually suppress your appetite, boost your metabolism and enable you to eat up to 1 extra small meal a day, and change your outlook on food in general.

Question: I don't even know why I'm making this post... I know I'm not alone, but you can't really "see" eating disorders in people. And it's not exactly something we like to talk about. So I just feel really, really isolated from everyone I know. I'm a 16 year old girl with a slim physique and average BMI. What people don't see is the times like this morning, where I gorge myself to the point that it literally feels like I'm going to die. My parents don't believe in this disorder, and they reacted so awfully to my weight gain (I used to have a BMI of 19-20 before BED, now it's 21-22) that I'm honestly horrified about ever reaching out about this to anyone in real life ever again. I want desperately to get better, but I can't even fathom eating "normally" anymore. It's either 3000 calories or 800 calories a day for me. I slept for about 2 hours last night, and woke up at 6. I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to finding food (my parents don't neglect me, it's just they're too busy to prepare anything) and I can't cook so I just grab whatever I can. Of course, that leads to either severe restriction or severe overeating. There's just no winning with me. I know you can all relate, but when I'm out in public, or with my family, it feels like no one really gets it. Like I said before, you never know who has these EDs, and the people who don't have them have proven themselves incapable of understanding it at all most of the time. Sorry for writing something so long for no reason. I just want to be skinny, as irrational as that sounds. No matter how I try, how much weight I lose/gain, it's never enough. It's 9:47 AM on Sunday and I'm not gonna eat anything significant for the rest of today. Sorry if I sound dramatic. I'm just so stressed out, and I feel like I'm going to shatter. TL;DR: BED sucks Answer: Wow. Who are you? This is so spot on it's ridiculous.

Question: I don't even know why I'm making this post... I know I'm not alone, but you can't really "see" eating disorders in people. And it's not exactly something we like to talk about. So I just feel really, really isolated from everyone I know. I'm a 16 year old girl with a slim physique and average BMI. What people don't see is the times like this morning, where I gorge myself to the point that it literally feels like I'm going to die. My parents don't believe in this disorder, and they reacted so awfully to my weight gain (I used to have a BMI of 19-20 before BED, now it's 21-22) that I'm honestly horrified about ever reaching out about this to anyone in real life ever again. I want desperately to get better, but I can't even fathom eating "normally" anymore. It's either 3000 calories or 800 calories a day for me. I slept for about 2 hours last night, and woke up at 6. I'm pretty much on my own when it comes to finding food (my parents don't neglect me, it's just they're too busy to prepare anything) and I can't cook so I just grab whatever I can. Of course, that leads to either severe restriction or severe overeating. There's just no winning with me. I know you can all relate, but when I'm out in public, or with my family, it feels like no one really gets it. Like I said before, you never know who has these EDs, and the people who don't have them have proven themselves incapable of understanding it at all most of the time. Sorry for writing something so long for no reason. I just want to be skinny, as irrational as that sounds. No matter how I try, how much weight I lose/gain, it's never enough. It's 9:47 AM on Sunday and I'm not gonna eat anything significant for the rest of today. Sorry if I sound dramatic. I'm just so stressed out, and I feel like I'm going to shatter. TL;DR: BED sucks Answer: I can really feel you about not getting it. People don't think there is a problem unless you pass out at an absurdly low weight, so they don't take anything seriously but anorexia, most of the times. I had BED for more than 5-6 years, and this is the first year I really opened up to anyone. And most of the responses were like "but it doesn't look like you have any ED!" "Are you sure you have one? You never physically looked like someone with an ED!" "Naaah, maybe t's not an ED but it's an excuse cause you can't control yourself." "Aaaah, but I overeat too, I am a little pig, eheh, but no need to say it's an ED" "Wait, do you have it diagnosed or written down somewhere? Or you just told yourself you have it?"