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droog62

I don't want to self diagnose, I hate it. Ptsd has become the darling diagnosis for people who want others to feel sorry for them. I had a flashback though, it was scary. I heard my friend arguing with her ex-husband and it was just like me and my ex. She was calm, he was aggressive. I was always calm, my ex was always aggressive. My brain jumped to 22 years ago the next day, told me that I could be ok, I would just have to be strong, I just have to keep the kids safe and get them away from her. The other half of my brain said "Wait what? your kids are grown, they're safe, what are you worried about?" I've never experienced anything like it, it was out of my control, like my mind running away with a scenario from 20+ years ago. I'm going to see a counselor as soon as I can. I've had friends tell me that I may have some ptsd to look into. It would explain my massive amounts of anxiety over the past 20+ years. I spent 6 years in an abusive relationship and I might be just starting to realize I've got some scarring from it. I'm not talking just one event, I'm talking 6 years of having my children's love for me used against me, the scenario of feeling completely helpless and needing to be strong was with me almost the whole time, after 6 years of that, it takes a toll on your psyche.

2019-08-11T03:48:20.000Z

cos1l3

ptsd

I had a flashback.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cos1l3/i_had_a_flashback/

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2019-08-11T02:12:58.000Z

cor2qh

ptsd

Being touched is difficult

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cor2qh/being_touched_is_difficult/

potatochipgrape

Hey everyone, so I finally got to see a therapist a few days ago and I was told that with what I’m going through I should be seen once or twice a week but that she doesn’t have availability for that. So in about a month I go back and do once every two weeks while we try to find someone with availability. These past few day I’ve been having on and off flashbacks, overlapping images and dissociative episodes so often I just don’t feel like I’m here anymore. It’s going to be a while before I can start therapy and it just feels like I’m spiraling in the meantime. Does anyone have some suggestions of things to do in the meantime to try and curb these? Medication is out of the question because I am on mandatory medication for other issues. But just something that might tone it down I guess?

2019-08-11T01:32:52.000Z

coqnpq

ptsd

Overlapping image flashbacks, dissociative episodes. Advice appreciated, please no PMs tho.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coqnpq/overlapping_image_flashbacks_dissociative/

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2019-08-11T00:50:18.000Z

coq7rt

ptsd

Old memories resurfacing [Trigger warning]

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coq7rt/old_memories_resurfacing_trigger_warning/

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2019-08-10T22:56:02.000Z

cooyft

ptsd

Self sabatoging

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cooyft/self_sabatoging/

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2019-08-10T22:19:59.000Z

coojg7

ptsd

How do I make body memories stop

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coojg7/how_do_i_make_body_memories_stop/

samexmistake

Does anybody else constantly feel so far removed from their own experiences that they feel like they're just a casual backseat driver in their own life? I struggle to stay present and be in the moment for happenings or social events to the point where I'm left wondering how other people can socialize and communicate effectively as if it's some entirely foreign phenomenon to me..... and I know it can get better, but it doesn't feel like it oftentimes

2019-08-10T22:03:17.000Z

coocbj

ptsd

Just a vent on my disassociative behavior

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coocbj/just_a_vent_on_my_disassociative_behavior/

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2019-08-10T21:22:02.000Z

conubq

ptsd

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https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/conubq/deleted_by_user/

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2019-08-10T21:06:59.000Z

connu0

ptsd

I am in shambles. I am ruined.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/connu0/i_am_in_shambles_i_am_ruined/

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When I was 14, I was sexually assaulted by a relative (for the second time. I was around 5 the first time and repressed it I guess and thought it was just a nightmare until it happened again and then I realized it definitely did happen before). I used to spend weekends at his house. And I didn't know but he would watch me while I used the computer. I don't know how often or how many times. And I was 14 and curious and I watched porn sometimes. My parents are no where near sex positive. (I'm 23 and my mother still reminds me not to go on "dirty websites"). One day he told me that he saw me do that and saw me masturbate. I would have gotten in trouble and I was scared and he basically blackmailed me into taking off my clothes saying he was just going to look at me and if I didn't, he'd tell my parents what I did. I did what he said and then he started touching me and I just froze. I was crying and told him to stop but he didn't. And now I get anxious about anyone looking at my screen. If I'm next to someone, I won't look at my phone even though I don't have anything to hide. I barely use the television in my room because I get anxious if anyone comes in even though I'm just watching Netflix. So I got the laptop yesterday and set it up but I'm anxious about it. I get scared if anyone comes in the room when I'm using it even though I'm not doing anything bad. I hate that I'm like this. I know the devices are "safe" to use and nothing is going to happen but I still get anxious about it. And I know it looks suspicious that I don't let anyone see any kind of screen in using but I get scared and feel like I need to hide it and not let anyone see the screen. I stopped wearing glasses a few years ago because my sister said she could see the reflection of my phone in the lenses.

2019-08-10T20:01:59.000Z

comv1r

ptsd

I'm planning to open an etsy shop to sell art I make so I bought a laptop but using computers triggers me and I'm trying to get over it but it makes me anxious. I feel stupid though. It's just a computer.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/comv1r/im_planning_to_open_an_etsy_shop_to_sell_art_i/

nonamesleftthatfitme

So... I had a dream where the voice of my mum said I was abused... Everytime when i hear children or even adult crying (like in TV or so) it feels sooo uncomfortable... It hurts my heart so much that I could destroy the TV, or just freak out. I just can't hear that it's to much for me. I have trust problems. And very low self-confidence. And some more symptoms of repressed traumas, but I can't remember anything. Its like my inner child is hurt. Someone in a same situation?

2019-08-10T17:38:15.000Z

col2bm

ptsd

How do I know I have repressed traumas?/ Do i have them?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/col2bm/how_do_i_know_i_have_repressed_traumas_do_i_have/

findingbalance0

Is anyone dealing with nightmares? How do you work on them?

2019-08-10T13:54:36.000Z

coibrk

ptsd

Nightmares

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coibrk/nightmares/

Kitty_Kallen

TL;DR at the bottom. I’ve always struggled to fall asleep and to stay asleep, but in the last 8(?) months, I haven’t really slept at all. I was diagnosed with Severe PTSD and Depression years ago as a minor, at the time I didn’t want therapy and once I got the diagnosis my parents (who had forced to go and get it in the first place and try therapy) would not allow me to continue going to therapy. Smash cut to now at almost 22, I live with my wonderful partner who is very understanding and helpful, my general anxiety/panic levels are fairly low now because I’m in my own space now; Except that the building next door was bought by a developer. He can’t tear down the building for whatever reason and allows people to squat there and damage to the building in the hopes that they will destroy it for him. This means that every two hours the same junkie comes by, smokes her crack pipe in front of our building, hops the fence and starts wailing on anything in arms reach. She breaks down door, destroys windows, throws things inside and breaks the dry wall. My bedroom window is across a small fence dividing property lines, so she’s literally within ten feet of my head, screaming and breaking things. I can’t sleep in our bedroom anymore, I’ve been sleeping on our couch but even that’s become difficult these last few months. I sleep an hour maybe two hours if I’m lucky, I’ve called the cops, I’ve tried finding the correct person to call for the city do something. Someone will finally start an evaluation next week and I will most likely be able to open a civil case against the owner next door. I struggle with some other physical limitations/disabilities and this has just made everything much more difficult, but the sleep deprivation is definitely the worst part. Every two hours, I’m being threatened and having things thrown towards my windows now and I’m just trying my best not to totally derail into a panic attack when it happens. I just wish I could sleep, I wish I didn’t have a huge spike in adrenaline only to crash but not sleep after. Side note: my complex is 12 apartments and the majority of us and our landlords have contacted the police multiple times. Most of the tenants here have to call the police multiple times a day but besides being able to clear the property out when they get here, police can’t do much else. The senior officer has now began looking into the hundreds of calls we’ve placed about the property next door and I’m hoping he can help me contact the city and force the developers’ hand into properly locking and monitoring his lot so police time and resources aren’t being wasted coming back every few hours. The developer ha threatened most of us in our building as well, so it’s just fun all around, especially for someone who has a panic disorder and is in extreme sleep deprivation. TL;DR Severe Depression and PTSD has ensured that the squatters next door fighting and destroying property, keep me up all day and all night and have forced me to sleep on my couch and get about an hour or two of sleep every 48ish hours. Police have actually begun helping us just this week after 8 months of constant calls and dispatch sending out cops to clear the property.

2019-08-10T13:38:48.000Z

coi5ia

ptsd

It’s 6:30 am I’m still awake

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coi5ia/its_630_am_im_still_awake/

sistersick

it’s like even if my mind doesn’t remember my subconscious does. it keeps bothering me, it says hey, somethings wrong, have you remembered what it is yet? have you figured it out yet? the days before i realize what’s happening i become really on edge and depressed. super depressed for no reason and don’t know why. then the other day i had a nightmare about my abuser and i realize what the problem is. along with remembering all my trauma and things i don’t want to remember. things i don’t want to think of that i had been repressing for months just all resurface and i’m left with all these conflicting feelings that don’t have any clear answers or resolutions. why did my brain have to haunt me with a nightmare of the person who brought me the most pain? why did it all have to come back to me all again when i was able to ignore these feelings for month. the day is just coming closer. for the past two days my chest has felt so tight. i’m so short of breath. i feel like i’m constantly on the verge of a panic attack. i hate this. i wish i could “just forget it”. i wish i could just “not think about it”. i wish i could just say “it doesn’t matter to me anymore”. but telling myself that over and over again wouldn’t make it true or any easier of a thing to do. the feelings never really go away. just constant cycles of repressing them over and over again until they all come back at once and completely crush me.

2019-08-10T13:26:14.000Z

coi0h8

ptsd

abusers birthday coming up. why did my subconscious have to remind me???

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coi0h8/abusers_birthday_coming_up_why_did_my/

HBScott1961

Genome-wide association study of post-traumatic stress disorder reexperiencing symptoms in >165,000 US veterans Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) is a major problem among military veterans and civilians alike, yet its pathophysiology remains poorly understood. We performed a genome-wide association study and bioinformatic analyses, which included 146,660 European Americans and 19,983 African Americans in the US Million Veteran Program, to identify genetic risk factors relevant to intrusive reexperiencing of trauma, which is the most characteristic symptom cluster of PTSD. In European Americans, eight distinct significant regions were identified. Three regions had values of P < 5 × 10−10: CAMKV; chromosome 17 closest to KANSL1, but within a large high linkage disequilibrium region that also includes CRHR1; and TCF4. Associations were enriched with respect to the transcriptomic profiles of striatal medium spiny neurons. No significant associations were observed in the African American cohort of the sample. Results in European Americans were replicated in the UK Biobank data. These results provide new insights into the biology of PTSD in a well-powered genome-wide association study. [https://www.nature.com/articles/s41593-019-0447-7](https://www.nature.com/articles/s41593-019-0447-7) [https://www.nature.com/articles/s41593-019-0447-7.pdf](https://www.nature.com/articles/s41593-019-0447-7.pdf) [https://www.research.va.gov/currents/0719-MVP-study-identifies-genes-linked-to-re-experiencing.cfm](https://www.research.va.gov/currents/0719-MVP-study-identifies-genes-linked-to-re-experiencing.cfm) [https://www.research.va.gov/MVP/default.cfm](https://www.research.va.gov/MVP/default.cfm)

2019-08-10T12:35:32.000Z

cohhld

ptsd

Genome-wide association study of post-traumatic stress disorder reexperiencing symptoms in >165,000 US veterans

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cohhld/genomewide_association_study_of_posttraumatic/

ziyal79

I have PTSD. I had a medication change recently and it made me become hyperaroused to the point that I was engaging in risky sex and re-triggering myself. I felt so dissociated that I was doing anything I could to just feel something. Now I've had the medication situation rectified, but I'm feeling depressed and highly anxious and numb. The change in medication doesn't always make the numb feeling go away and I get so desperate to feel something - anything that I'm having suicidal thoughts and I've been burning and scalding myself just to feel kind of normal. I don't know how to make it stop, reliably. Does anyone have any advice or thoughts that might help?

2019-08-10T10:16:04.000Z

cogc44

ptsd

How do I make the numbness stop?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cogc44/how_do_i_make_the_numbness_stop/

TheNakedSloth

Hi all. I don't know what to do so I thought I'd reach out here. So I'm staying at my family cabin where I have basically spent half of my life. I love this place. This should be a safe place, but... It's in an incredibly isolated area. There are nearby houses, but they are all vacationers and I am probably the only person within a few miles. I'm alone, except for my pets. The house is only one floor, and it's basically surrounded by windows. I feel so exposed and vulnerable and simultaneously so alone. While none of these aspects are related to my trauma, I always get weirdly anxious being out here alone. And randomly have nights like these where I am so flooded by terror I'm frozen. On to tonight. I had a weird nightmare about my cats turning in to squirrels and me still seeing them as cats and them biting my arms and legs to shreds. My ex did make an appearance, and while he was emotionally abusive I would not consider his brief appearance in this dream to be triggering. Anyway, I woke up mildly perturbed, when I thought I heard a mumbled voice outside. I was barely awake, I'm sure I made it up, or it was one of the pets being weirdos. But I was completely and utterly frozen in fear for about 15 minutes. Haven't heard anything since. But I can still feel the adrenaline coursing through my body and yet I'm still to scared to move. I am even scared to turn on my phone outside of my covers in case someone outside sees the glow and knows I'm here. I hate it. I love being out here. I love being out here alone with just my animals and having some solitude, then once in a blue moon this panic creeps in. For context, I am a survivor of CSA,as well as other forms of abuse, none of which involved a break-in type situation or a setting remotely close to this one. I've been in therapy basically my whole life but I know this is something I need to bring up again. Sorry for the ramble. I just feel alone and scared and stupid for being a grown woman wanting to hide under her bed. I have friends and family who would gladly listen, but I also know that it would only scare them to hear how bad my terror becomes sometimes. My new boyfriend is coming out tomorrow, and I want to talk to him about it, but ye old anxiety is also kicking in with that as well. Anyway. Thanks for reading. It's my first time posting here so I hope I followed the rules. And just typing this out made me feel better. If I don't respond, it's probably just me being to scared to open my phone, not trying to be rude.

2019-08-10T10:07:11.000Z

cog9o1

ptsd

Anyone up? I'm mildly panicking.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cog9o1/anyone_up_im_mildly_panicking/

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2019-08-10T06:24:36.000Z

coejbz

ptsd

A poem about my experience *NSFW

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coejbz/a_poem_about_my_experience_nsfw/

templesthataum

TW; R**e, Ab**se, childhood trauma Let me start out by saying that this all began when I was young. Very young. Probably 4-7 (I don't exactly remember the age in my head). However, on two occasions I was touched by an elder of my church when we were both in the bathroom and then was raped by a family friend. Ever since that point my life has been fucked up. My mind always goes back to "the incident", as I call it. Both my parents are religious and I don't know if they knew the elder well enough to consider him a friend. If so, I assumed, they may not believe me. As for the family friend, I can't remember his face, but I can remember he was at least 5' 10" and often spoke at the table about his job. I don't know if they still know him or if he's alive. My life has been hell ever since. PTSD runs rampant, and it's something I can't overcome. It has consumed my every decision, from dating to otherwise. Then, when I was in college, I got a false rape report against me, which I was exonerated. I still am anti-dating to this day. Hell, I'm still anti-sex to this day. I don't want to bring kids into the world, since I know I wouldn't be ready. I couldn't be the father they need. I couldn't be the husband my wife would need. Fuck man, I couldn't be the boyfriend or even the date that a woman would need. I'm lonely, but I think it's better lonely than with someone who you can't provide for. I can't do it. I just can't. I want this feeling to get out of my gut. I want to live a fulfilling life but I just can't. I just can't. Everything revolves around this incident. When I see kids on the news getting trafficked, I have to turn it off since it grinds me to the core. I can't breathe. It hurts so much and I don't know how to go about getting rid of it. I just want to be normal, I want to be happy like everyone else.

2019-08-10T05:51:28.000Z

coe91l

ptsd

I need to vent

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coe91l/i_need_to_vent/

SHThrowAway213

The one I do know about ended up in prison because he tried to blow something up. But I have no idea what happened to any of the others. I just want to know if anything bad has happened to them since. The first one is the most infuriating for me. He was aroubd his 60s, so he's probably infirm or dead. I'd someone could let me know how to find old Foster parents in the UK, let me know.

2019-08-10T05:51:17.000Z

coe8zj

ptsd

It infuriates me that I don't know what happened to any of my abusers apart from one.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coe8zj/it_infuriates_me_that_i_dont_know_what_happened/

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2019-08-10T05:45:54.000Z

coe7ca

ptsd

Talk

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coe7ca/talk/

unhappy-throwaway123

Everyone else got to go to the mandatory counseling and send off and what not. Why did myself an my partner, one of the first on scene, end up going back in service and then working the night tour as well? My partner had no check in.

2019-08-10T05:07:42.000Z

codv3y

ptsd

I feel I've been failed.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/codv3y/i_feel_ive_been_failed/

unhappy-throwaway123

I feel alone. I don't know if I qualify. I feel neglected and that I've skated by. These things are adversely affecting myself and my life. I don't feel anyone can relate to me. I feel I don't have any real support. What qualifies? Do I qualify holding dead babies? Trying to revive them? Is it trying to revive co-workers and failing?

2019-08-10T04:45:24.000Z

codnh2

ptsd

I'm alone.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/codnh2/im_alone/

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2019-08-10T03:30:51.000Z

cocwnr

ptsd

What kind of meds are y’all on?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cocwnr/what_kind_of_meds_are_yall_on/

pennybunartist

I had never heard of it before my therapist explained to me that is what was happening to me, and was wondering if anyone else with PTSD also has this problem and what’s been their experience with it? If anyone knows of a place this post would fit better please do let me know. Thank you

2019-08-10T03:22:18.000Z

coctkr

ptsd

Does anyone else have Somatic conversion reactions?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coctkr/does_anyone_else_have_somatic_conversion_reactions/

No1954083

Does anyone have any good resources for this? I just started my deep dive on google and so far I'm not finding much. My last relationship was abusive and I'd often have sex when I didn't want to so I could appease my then husband. I remember a time as a preteen where I didn't really know what was going on and a guy pulled his parts out to show me and a time that later in my teenage years I had sex with someone after I said I didn't want to. Even in my current relationship, the repeated conversations that are sometimes arguments feel traumatic. I've never considered any of this trauma, but I'm coming to terms with the fact that I carry the scars with me. Besides just talking about it, what am I supposed to do? Where do I go from here now that I realize that I do indeed carry trauma with me around sex? I do have another appointment with a different counselor scheduled (albeit weeks away). It is a male counselor but his psychology today profile says he deals with sexual abuse and trauma, among other reasons I'm going.

2019-08-10T02:51:20.000Z

coci4r

ptsd

Realizing my low libido may be trauma based

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coci4r/realizing_my_low_libido_may_be_trauma_based/

Jenwood2019

Recently returned home from an Aid Mission in a recently bombed city abroad. My husband and kids understood why I went and the people we went to help. It was the right thing to do, as we have everything we need in this 1st world paradise we live in, but so many are suffering for the simplest of necessities of basic survival and medical care. I spent 8 months there. I wont go into details but just understand it was rough, very rough. My question really is how do you adjust back to normal life and pretend none of it happened? Back to taking the kids to school and karate, normal work days, cooking ,laundry, groceries, Bill's, life? My neighbor cut down a tree yesterday and the resounding crash almost made me jump under the kitchen table for cover. I couldn't sit through the action movie my husband and I were watching due to the images, which never would have bothered me before. A kid at my daughters school was complaining about her phone not being new and I wanted to slap her silly. ( my 10 year old doesnt have a phone and wont be getting one untill she drives and earns the money herself for one). I've never felt that kind of anger. This is the only place I could think of to even talk about this and I kinda feel bad for saying anything...cause I have no reason to complain as my family is sweet and loving it's just I've never had these reactions. I'm trying my best to bury it all and pretend it's all perfect again...but it's really really hard to fake the smiles and cool composure. God I dont want them to worry about me ever. I've always been the strong one, composed and capable of handling anything that gets thrown at me...which is another reason I agreed to go. I'm sorry for rambling, I think i just needed to say this is a lot harder than I thought it ever would be.

2019-08-10T01:51:47.000Z

cobvxd

ptsd

Difficulty pretending I didnt see what I saw or do the things we had to do...how do you go back to normal life?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cobvxd/difficulty_pretending_i_didnt_see_what_i_saw_or/

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2019-08-10T00:52:27.000Z

cob90p

ptsd

Everythings triggering me and its ruining my relationship.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cob90p/everythings_triggering_me_and_its_ruining_my/

findingbalance0

Hi everyone. New poster here. I joined because I can't find any TV shows or movies on Netflix that aren't triggering. It seems like everything nowadays is related to violence, darkness, fighting. Maybe comedies and chickflicks would be better for me (never really been a fan of either, mostly just watch action) but I find now that shows like Stranger Things, Riverdale, Vampire Diaries, Cloak & Dagger, Jessica Jones.. really bother me at some point or another. So, what shows and/or movies have you all found enjoyable that don't trigger you? I probably need to order some DVDs, maybe of things I used to watch in the 90s before my trauma...

2019-08-09T23:15:18.000Z

coa5n6

ptsd

Movies/TV Shows that aren't triggering..?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/coa5n6/moviestv_shows_that_arent_triggering/

affectionate4fish

2019-08-09T22:58:00.000Z

co9y6f

ptsd

It feels weird knowing I have a disability without feeling disabled

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co9y6f/it_feels_weird_knowing_i_have_a_disability/

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2019-08-09T22:50:11.000Z

co9urn

ptsd

PTSD Poem *NSFW

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co9urn/ptsd_poem_nsfw/

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2019-08-09T21:06:51.000Z

co8js8

ptsd

ptsd from a news article?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co8js8/ptsd_from_a_news_article/

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2019-08-09T19:25:14.000Z

co76wp

ptsd

Affirmation Consternation

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co76wp/affirmation_consternation/

ChimiChuckItInTheBin

Trigger warning: mentions of sexual assault TL;DR at the bottom. When I was 14, I had an arrangement with a childhood friend, a “friends with benefits” situation. This escalated to me being sexual assaulted numerous times by this friend. I’m now 19. I’ve been with my significant other for just over two years now, and I told him about my experiences when we were progressing to intimacy because with some actions, I would get panic attacks and curl up. Thankfully he has been extremely understanding and continues to support me. Over the years the nightmares, flashbacks, and panic attacks have gotten worse, and it was a rough choice, but I decided to reach out to a therapist. She advised me to find a psychiatrist (my old one had moved on from the facility), and I have finally found one. I was diagnosed with PTSD, and written a prescription for prazosin (MiniPress, normally used to treat high blood pressure but not uncommon for treating flashbacks and nightmares.) The thing is, I still depend on my parents for many things, and my mother keeps close tabs on my chart (I have legally permitted her to do so.) I haven’t told her about what happened to me yet for a multitude of reasons. She might seek retaliation, legal action, she’ll press to know his name, how it happened, where, when, but I don’t want any of that. My abuser is a family friend, and I don’t want any ties cut because his parents and my parents are close high school friends. I just want to stop my brain from pissing on itself. Having access to my chart, she knows about the new prescription, but I don’t know if she knows about the diagnosis. I’ve been dancing around the reasons why I was prescribed this, and I know I’ll have to tell her eventually. If not, she might fight my psychiatrist on it saying I don’t need it. Does anyone have any advice on going about telling her? I’ve been considering bringing her into a therapy session to tell her in a controlled environment with support from my therapist, but it still gives me a lot of anxiety to think about. TL;DR: I was prescribed a drug to help flashbacks from previous sexual assaults, my mom doesn’t know about the assaults and I haven’t told her the reason behind the prescription yet. How would you go about telling her? Thank you for listening.

2019-08-09T18:42:32.000Z

co6lzd

ptsd

I need to tell my mom.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co6lzd/i_need_to_tell_my_mom/

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2019-08-09T18:14:42.000Z

co686y

ptsd

Does anyone else have triggers you don't tell people about because you think they sound stupid?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co686y/does_anyone_else_have_triggers_you_dont_tell/

womaninsideme

Long story short, I developed PTSD from childhood abuse (physical, sexual, and verbal). I was in treatment for 5-6 years somewhat consistently until the past two years. At the moment, I am exhausted and floundering. I recognize I need to return to therapy because I have overdue health check ups (+2 years, ugh) and I am not engaging in activities I once enjoyed. Basically, avoidance via overworking myself (school, volunteering, working, & internship) has been my coping mechanism. I am burnt out. My amazing medical professional is overbooked and since I do not own transportation, I am unable to be treated by her. So now I am stumped as to where to go from here. Psychologist? Therapist? I am only on one medication and do not want to seek further medications, so no psychiatrist. How did you all find which professional was best? (besides their specialty techniques).

2019-08-09T17:10:11.000Z

co5bxm

ptsd

Any provider suggestions? (Psych vs therapist)

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co5bxm/any_provider_suggestions_psych_vs_therapist/

notyouraveragedodo

My story, short: I was in a terrible relationship from the age of 15 to 18. It was my first one, he abused me, hurt me in any way possible and made me so dependent on him that I couldn't even quit. This is one and a half years over now and it took me a long time to even realize what I was into back then. It's been a really hard time, and last night when I couldn't sleep, I wrote down a letter. When I read it the next morning I was terrified that these were all honest thoughts of mine. These are parts of the letter: "I want it to stop, but I don't know if it ever will. The perspective changes. I see my former self, but from my point of view far above. I see what he did to me, to this girl who doesn't seem to be me at times." "It's dissipating. I'm trying to set myself apart from what happened, even though I don't know if that's what is good for me or if I even want that." "Every time those memories come up, almost every single day, I have to force myself into a first person-perspective, to sympathize with that little girl I see right before I wake up screaming. Thoughts are worse than knives because nobody can see you bleeding, so you have to ask for help. " " When I think of this girl back then, I could pity this girl if she had been anybody else but myself. As hard as I'm trying to connect to my former self, I can't even pity myself and I don't know if I should. I'd love to cry. But I can't. I have shed far too few tears over myself. I wish I could cry. I wish I could grieve. Because some say that after grief comes acceptance." These were extracts from the letter. I don't know what to do with this or what to think of it. It was the product of a sleepless night. But I don't know what to do with it. Should I show anyone? Eycept for you anonymous people here? I sought professional help once, but now there are several factors that hinder me from pursuing this path of help. I don't even know what to expect from this community here. Maybe just some outside views of people who can maybe at least a little relate to what I'm going through. Thanks a lot to all of you who respond to this!

2019-08-09T16:41:38.000Z

co4xln

ptsd

I wrote a letter, now I'm worried

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co4xln/i_wrote_a_letter_now_im_worried/

thefabulousbomb

I’m just curious, today is my dad’s birthday, and he’s the biggest cause of my PTSD. He was physically and mentally abusive to me and my siblings growing up and honestly I just feel bad today. I’m trying to just ignore it because I’m currently on holiday and I want to enjoy the last few days here, but I’m also just triggered and feeling awful today

2019-08-09T14:21:50.000Z

co31cs

ptsd

Does anyone have days that trigger them?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co31cs/does_anyone_have_days_that_trigger_them/

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2019-08-09T11:51:54.000Z

co1az8

ptsd

Think I have a mild form of PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co1az8/think_i_have_a_mild_form_of_ptsd/

depressed_swag

lol i had no idea til my therapist told me. my mother has traumatized me so much that every time i see her i start to get a massive wave of anxiety and flashbacks of the previous day and all of the horrible things she has done to me, around me. my therapist says i desperately need to get away from her to heal this trauma because i cant heal from trauma if im still constantly in danger. problem is im 17 (and i do online school at home) and my grandma is a TOTAL enabler and its just too crazy to explain but basically i am constantly abused every day of my life living in fear of my own house. im scared to go to the kitchen to get food. i hate leaving my room. i never knew that i had constant anxiety until my therapist pointed it out. i never knew that i was abused until i explained everything to my therapist and she was utterly shocked. this is my normal. every day since i was born, i just thought that i must be so lucky because my mother loves me more than anyone else and she would never put her hands on me. flash forward to now, we have been in more physical fights than i can count on one hand. im realizing now that she has never loved me but has always manipulated me into forgiving her for all of the horrific shit she has done to me and around me by making me feel like i am so special and important to her. it hurts to realize that both of your parents never really cared about you. my dad commit suicide when i was 9 right before my 10th birthday. i dont even remember half of the day i found out. its just not all there. sometimes i feel like its my fault. my mom met a new guy and got pregnant and i was too busy hanging out with my new step sister to see how badly my dad was hurting. if i would have just spent more time with him he would be here. what hurts more is realizing that the person i trusted the most in the entire world, my grandma, would never protect me from my mom. but instead take my mothers side or ignore the situation all together. in this home i do not feel safe. i had no clue that i was living with depression, ocd, ptsd, and anxiety. i literally ALWAYS thought i was just that happy go lucky person with a sad backstory. im venting but this is all surreal to me, being diagnosed, because i feel like my feelings are validated for the first time ever. and that im not crazy for feeling the way i do. i was told yesterday by my grandma (AKA my parent) that everything i do revolves around hurting my mother (purely because i refuse to look at her or speak to her out of fear and loathing of her presence so much that i dont even want to face her). she said she will never kick her out no matter what she does because it is her daughter. if anyone read this, thank you. also, im realizing now that i have abandonment issues. im constantly extremely stressed and worried about my boyfriend. always hoping to whatever power is out there that he is alive and not dead. everytime i go to sleep i say be safe. i have a whole routine for saying goodnight over text and if i dont do it i fear that something bad will happen to him. i have separation anxiety and i never want to leave his side. he has been the only stable part of my life for the last 4 years. thats why i am so extremely terrified of losing him.

2019-08-09T10:58:01.000Z

co0rtn

ptsd

living with ptsd every day without knowing it

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/co0rtn/living_with_ptsd_every_day_without_knowing_it/

Stroker_Ace2316

Hello I am a 16 year old that got diagnosed with PTSD about a year and a half ago now and I have extremely bad insomnia recently within the last 3 months I have had insomnia for a long time now but not as bad as it's been I nap here and there but I normally can't nap longer then 2 hours but I can't sleep at all at night and it keeps getting worse to the point of not sleeping for multiple days and its has effected my anxiety and paranoia to the point where sometimes I can't even leave my room I just am lost really and have no idea what to do my therapy isn't helping me any more what can I do

2019-08-09T09:14:00.000Z

cnzuax

ptsd

I am a 16 year old diagnosed with PTSD for a year and half now with insomnia and anxiety worsening and I am not sure what to do if anyone could help I would really appreciate it

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnzuax/i_am_a_16_year_old_diagnosed_with_ptsd_for_a_year/

noralindell

So I wrote a post about remembering old traumas yesterday. I texted my psychologist that I’m remembering more stuff and now I’m completely freaking out. She’s on holiday for ten more days, but now that I’ve texted her it feels even more real. I’m at work trying really hard not to show that I’m having a panic attack. Help me.

2019-08-09T09:08:57.000Z

cnzsqz

ptsd

Remembering old traumas

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnzsqz/remembering_old_traumas/

IHavewaytoomanyaccou

I just wanna talk about or vent or ask if anyone had something similar happen I guess. ANYWAY, anyone else ever trust someone with their secret about their PTSD and reason why and that person just somehow use it against it you or spread rumours about it? One time when my cousin whom I got incredibly close with she was living with me with her 2 kids at the time opened about her attack, and it made me feel like I could open up about mine. After that she would purposefully get discussions going about our attacks under the guise of "relating and healing" but she was really triggering me then sneaking off to rob me. Before me and my SO noticed she took about a total of 700$ woth of shit from cash to video games. We had to kick her out and it suuuucked kicking out those kids, we became so close during those months but I had to do it. Its just made it harder for me to trust people even more. I told my best and longest friend one day and then a few years later i found out EVERYONE in our circle knew somehow. He, again, was living with me at the time and when i approached him he wouldnt own up to it or tell me the truth. Honestly, i was ready to forgive him this guy was my big brother to me, someone i loved and to this day miss dearly. But he wouldnt tell me the truth or apologize to me, so again i had to kick him out. Hes moved out of state now, but not a day goes by that I wish he would of been honest with me. I miss him and again it makes me just never want to trust anyone again. It was so hard for me to work up the courage to let the 4 people know who I did but somehow everyone knows and 2/4 violating my trust just hurts so bad. Im just wondering if anyone else can relate?

2019-08-09T07:44:07.000Z

cnz4bq

ptsd

Anyone else have someone use their PTSD to rob them?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnz4bq/anyone_else_have_someone_use_their_ptsd_to_rob/

schoolgrrl

I was wondering if anyone had any tips on how to pull yourself out of a mood swing. Every month, for one week, my symptoms are more severe than the rest of the month. It's hard to concentrate on anything I'm doing, which is usually schoolwork. I love to learn, so that's not why I'm so depressed. Like, sometimes I just wake-up, and I'm fed up with the day already. I think maybe my meds are off in the morning, but only when I'm going through PMS... I feel like if I just had Cher here to slap me and yell "snap out of it!" I might... I just read a post about a person hugging themselves, and patting their own back, and I tried it for a minute and it actually was soothing. But, I'm still just in this shyte mood. Any tips or tricks for snapping yourself out of it? Sometimes the weirdest things actually help a little...

2019-08-09T07:25:53.000Z

cnyyti

ptsd

PTSD, Bipolar Disorder, and PMS

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnyyti/ptsd_bipolar_disorder_and_pms/

HopefulLesbian

Okay so, I've posted here before about this so I guess it's kind of an update/help please post. My gf had a seizure and broke her shoulder and the whole process of it is triggering and terrifying. The thing is, I'm her sole support right now. Meaning, I have to take her to her appointments and sit through them and do all the house work and I'm also the only bread-getter. My problem isn't that I don't like this, I love her and I love taking care of her. It's just that we see so many docs. And every time they ask exactly what happened, so she tells them. But it triggers me. Hard. I start to freak out, maybe shake my head (that's a new thing I developed that happens when I get triggered and I hate it.) that's a lot in itself , and then there's talk about her surgeries and things like that, and surgeries are a major trigger as well. There's that stress which is hard enough and then there's constantly working and doing homework and dishes need to be done and the dog needs medicine and I don't have any money and it's all getting to me. This is almost too much to handle. The only reason I haven't given up yet is because she needs me. The stress from all that amplifies the feelings I have when I'm triggered and honestly I don't even know if I'm doing a good job....

2019-08-09T06:37:43.000Z

cnyj9a

ptsd

I'm being forced into situations that trigger me and I don't know how to deal with it

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnyj9a/im_being_forced_into_situations_that_trigger_me/

madsmcgee

Soon I'm being adopted by my friend's lovely parents. We've been friends since 5th grade, and it's always been a dream of mine to be her sister. But, part of the adoption process is notifying the biological parents (I'm 19 F, so consent isn't needed). I've had no contact with either of my parents (until I sent them the notice letter) because they're abusive and narcissistic. Well, yesterday my dad took my bio brother's phone and started to harras me through his Facebook profile. This isn't the first time he's done this. But every time I get thrown back into my kid self living with them. I get so afraid and hopeless. All my self destructive urges want to come out and I can't control anything. Since yesterday I've been questioning my sanity, questioning if I'm just a faker who just wants attention. I feel like the worst person alive and everything is my fault. I'm trying to seek out comfort but I'm so anxious I just want to hide. I don't really know what I want. I just want to stop crying and hurting. Why did I have to lose hard on the parent lottery? I just can't deal feeling like this anymore.

2019-08-09T06:00:14.000Z

cny6ly

ptsd

My biological dad keeps on harassing me through different profiles. It's triggering me hardcore.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cny6ly/my_biological_dad_keeps_on_harassing_me_through/

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2019-08-09T03:12:12.000Z

cnwhpy

ptsd

Make it for me, please?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnwhpy/make_it_for_me_please/

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2019-08-09T03:05:02.000Z

cnwern

ptsd

PTSD Rape Nightmares won't go away

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnwern/ptsd_rape_nightmares_wont_go_away/

Fatassmatilda

So I have terrible night terrors and that barely describes how much it takes a toll on me. I've been on minipress for 2 years and it helps the night terrors stopped. Been peaceful. Now the night terrors and happening again this time space out. One week something gruesome and terrifying that causes me to wet the bed. Then two weeks later again it happens . I bought a plastic cover for my mattress cuz I keep wetting the bed. It's embarrassing. Well last night I had a night terrors that affected me my whole day leaving me useless to do anything . A few months ago I was receiving ECT (electric convulsive therapy) it was very helpful but the problem was I had such bad panic attacks before and after because I'm scared of going under anesthesia. Every procedure went perfect n I felt so much better. Except between each treatment I couldn't sleep was having panic attacks couldn't eat because I was terrified. But I kept pushing on. Eventually I had to stop because I felt living in fear constantly wasn't worth it. Well flash forward to last night I had a night terrors about going for ECT again and in the terror i saw people going under for surgeries that are straight out of a horror movie. I begged n begged for them to let me go and I had to run away and escape. I woke up and was like wow what a terrible nightmare didn't think much about it. Then the panic set in. Like I was actually going to get ECT again today. I kept telling myself it wasn't real i was going to work not surgery. But my body was in fight or flight mode or something my head felt swelled and deflated at the same time no thoughts in my head just pure panic I took my anxiety medicine but that didn't help. Tried to nap but couldn't cuz I was reliving the whole surgery thing again and again in my head. It's crazy like in your head you know the danger is not real but your body and another part of ur head is like it's real and your going to die. I'm still terrified. Don't want to sleep cuz it might happen again tonight . My psychiatrist can't see me for another week but these night terrors are affecting my reality and I almost had to call out of work cuz I was panicking like someone might come take me to surgery at any minute. I have PTSD from sexual assualt and gruesome deaths I've witnessed but the surgery thing is like not something I thought I would still be terrifyied about. My head is all fucked up I feel so off I can't be myself I have vowed to never do surgery again I know it's not gonna happen again but my body and mind is liek ITS GONNA HAPPEN ANY MINUTE I'm so scared my vision is distorted I can't even see straight I feel crippled by my night terrors people don't get why these affect me so much it's just like I slept for 10 hours living a terrible horrible thing. I couldn't even wake up. I was trapped in the dream. Wet the bed again. Fuck why is this happening again I was fine for so long. Can't think of any triggers. Fuck I'm just venting thanks to who ever reads this hopefully my doctor can help me I also see a therapist but too far away I am in crisis. Fuck fuck fuck

2019-08-09T02:05:40.000Z

cnvqa6

ptsd

Surgery *trigger warning*

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnvqa6/surgery_trigger_warning/

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2019-08-09T01:44:11.000Z

cnvh5x

ptsd

having a night

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnvh5x/having_a_night/

suenologia

hey so a bit of backstory, I am not diagnosed with PTSD (mostly cause i havent seen one therapist for long enough to get diagnosed - but the word has been thrown around). I was in an abusive relationship for a while and since then i have a lot of anxiety about being in places that I associate with him but i have also noticed a strange pattern. sometimes when i see people who have basic similarities to my abuser, I’ve had it happen a few times where they’re face in my eyes morphs into my ex’s (obviously not 100% but they will look a LOT like him suddenly) and in particular i’ve noticed this happen with guys i find attractive. its become less distressing the more i’ve seen it happen but i still find it bizarre. has anyone else experienced this or am i just tripping?

2019-08-09T01:20:34.000Z

cnv7ke

ptsd

strange symptom?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnv7ke/strange_symptom/

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2019-08-08T23:33:36.000Z

cntyj2

ptsd

Why am I so ugly?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cntyj2/why_am_i_so_ugly/

journey1992

Need support: I’m nervous/excited for upcoming MDMA session for CPTSD In 2 weeks, I will have my first MDMA assisted therapy session and I cannot wait. I am soooo impatient and just want these next two weeks to speed up! I am afraid Something bad will happen or I’ll die before the session... I just want to do it already! Years of therapy, dbt, and some EMDR have no doubt helped me as I have healed so much. But I still have the PTSD, isolation, fear of attachment (disorganized attachment), and fear of sexuality (child sexual abuse survivor).. In my gut, I really believe MDMA is going to help me so much. The studies on Its effects on PTSD survivors is very promising. I just wanna be open and love others more freely again. I want to love more and be less judgmental of myself and others. I want to move on from my trauma and the negative core beliefs I have about myself. I want to start thriving and living instead of surviving. I want to have fun again. I have so much hope for MDMA but I’m also am kinda scared I’m putting my expectations too high on what it will do for my PTSD. I am very hopeful it will help a lot but I have to remind myself to be open to whatever comes on my MDMA journey. Any tips or supportive words you all have for me if you have experience with MDMA? Thank you :))

2019-08-08T23:12:03.000Z

cntp14

ptsd

I’m so nervous/excited for upcoming MDMA session for CPTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cntp14/im_so_nervousexcited_for_upcoming_mdma_session/

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2019-08-08T20:53:45.000Z

cnruzc

ptsd

PTSD from abortion?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnruzc/ptsd_from_abortion/

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2019-08-08T19:58:47.000Z

cnr30l

ptsd

Anyone here have experience with medical marijuana for PTSD?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnr30l/anyone_here_have_experience_with_medical/

naturehatesme

I've been on zoloft for maybe 2 months now? Overall it's been a really great experience. But when my period comes through and wreaks havoc on my hormones, I feel shitty (not as bad as off my meds tho) and have to wait til I've adjusted back to "normal". I think today should be my last day til my hormones are back in check and I've been trying to go easy on myself, but there's lots of things I want to get done today and I just have no energy or will to do it. Over the last week I've been sad and randomly disassociating, and I'm just ready for tomorrow to come. Am I doing right by taking it easy, respecting the sadness, and procrastinating on things? Or should I be fighting the feeling and lack of motivation? What's the balance? 😞

2019-08-08T19:31:21.000Z

cnqp8f

ptsd

Stuck between feeling and fighting...

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnqp8f/stuck_between_feeling_and_fighting/

evfields24

Since I got out of the military, I finally started seeing a psychiatrist and going to therapy. What I perceived to be REALLY bad anxiety was actually diagnosed as PTSD. I almost feel ashamed of it because it isn’t combat related, I was never shot or anything like that. I had never dealt with the death of a friend or family member... no one, until I joined the Army. I was stationed up in Alaska, I had a friend kill himself in April of 2015, another friend died in a training accident two months later(truck rolled over and killed him), and have also been to countless funerals and memorials. My life wasn’t necessarily in danger but I’ve gone through some really shitty things. I went through the nightmares, survivors guilt.. intrusive thoughts, i self medicated with Alcohol for a solid 2 years (now two years sober), but I still find myself questioning it. I’ve been doing better since starting therapy and getting the right medicine, yet I still can’t shake the feeling of being alone in this and feeling ashamed of the fact that it wasn’t caused by the war. Has anyone else had similar thoughts?

2019-08-08T19:10:13.000Z

cnqeg6

ptsd

Questioning my PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnqeg6/questioning_my_ptsd/

th3_unloved1

Some days I tell myself that I was misdiagnosed, that I just am hypersensitive to everything and that I can’t possibly think this way. Then I have days like today where I wake up in a cold sweat, after having hyper realistic nightmares. I woke up at 5 AM today swatting bees off my body that weren’t there, i was shaking, cold, and it felt like I was seizing. I couldn’t say what causes these even if I wanted to, but it’s the most exhausting thing to do. Even the days where I don’t wake up shaking I still wake up 3-4 times a night from my nightmares. Just kinda needed to vent to people who might understand; and if you don’t I am truly happy that you don’t. When I’ve slept next to people in the past they tell me the same thing, I constantly wake up in a panic and then go back to sleep almost instantly. I hope the next person I get that close with doesn’t see me shake like I did today.

2019-08-08T18:45:47.000Z

cnq24i

ptsd

PTSD and sleep (trigger warnings)

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnq24i/ptsd_and_sleep_trigger_warnings/

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2019-08-08T18:42:08.000Z

cnq0a0

ptsd

It's been tough

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnq0a0/its_been_tough/

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2019-08-08T18:39:35.000Z

cnpyyl

ptsd

Accepting I'm not as strong as I thought I was

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnpyyl/accepting_im_not_as_strong_as_i_thought_i_was/

gloomymagpie

I vape CBD and it helps momentarily calm me down but it doesn’t stop the spiral thoughts, which amp me right back up again. When I’m like this I’m convinced my fiancé (who is very good to me) is abusing me & I say terrible things to push them away. When I come back to reality I have to pick up the pieces and I barely remember what happened.

2019-08-08T16:44:17.000Z

cnoc1n

ptsd

Is there anything that helps you stop a severe flashback & rage episode in its tracks? Especially when you lash out at someone you love?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnoc1n/is_there_anything_that_helps_you_stop_a_severe/

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I took my comment from another thread to start this discussion: My mom had BPD and abandoned me when I was 3, thankfully my dad was amazing and held onto me. Whenever i would see her (starting again at age 6) her symptoms would have her be extremely volatile. She wouldn't give me affection unless it was a show for someone else, called me her niece in public for a while, drank all the time, and made her adult problems mine. I had to escort her out of family parties at 10 when she would get drunk and belligerent. When I was 13 or so I remember she spit on me. When I was 16 she chased me into a bathroom and told be she was going to beat my ass because I started calling my step mom "mom" too. I never called her by her name to her face, she just didnt want to share. Following 16, she started with a lot of false suicide attempts for attention, which I always treated seriously. Our relationship was so weird. First she didnt want me, then we were familiar strangers, acquaintances, distant cousins, and then friends. Until her last suicide attempt, that accidentally went through. The table broke under her. The police I called called me to come down. It was the day before her dads 70th birthday, and I had to tell him to his face that his daughter was never coming back. I did her makeup for her viewing. It's the least I could do. I loved her so much, in the most damaging way to myself. I put up with everything because it was obvious her BPD made her suffer and everyone except her family left her. I couldnt stop grasping for the love she wasnt able to give. Now I struggle to get and keep jobs. That was only the worst thing that happened to me. I had a marriage with a man that was practically the Male version of her, and I was raped after I left him...I got catfished...please dont call me stupid I was vulnerable. It took 9 months to meet. Now the obvious triggers get to me, cluttered houses, crowds, loud places, and the month of July is awful for me. Sorry this was so long. TL;DR Mom had BPD, was abusive, killed herself and involved me. Now the obvious triggers get to me, cluttered houses, crowds, loud places, and the month of July is awful for me. Edit: I havent cried about this in months, and now I'm sitting on my hallway floor, leaking through my eyes, and thinking about learning how to paint so I can get my nightmares out.

2019-08-08T15:19:51.000Z

cnn6mi

ptsd

Anyone else get PTSD from a parent with BPD?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnn6mi/anyone_else_get_ptsd_from_a_parent_with_bpd/

throwaway0706199

I’m wondering if anyone experiences what I do. My therapist thinks they are also flashbacks. I get an intrusive memory (can’t make it go away) and I can just feel myself dissociate. It happens so bad that I can’t drive. I freeze up first, witnessing the memory, and then I’ll just have glazed over eyes, and I start crying hysterically. It’s not the usual panic attack with the hyperventilating and shaking. It’s more quiet and internal. I’m just really tired of all of this. I want it all to go away. I also have intrusive thoughts and scenarios play in my head that the people around me are going to hurt me physically. I can’t even relax around my therapist because I keep having this image of him assaulting me. I’m switching to a female therapist (my trauma is sexual involving a male) so I hope that will help.

2019-08-08T15:04:30.000Z

cnmzgs

ptsd

Dissociative (flashbacks?) and intrusive thoughts. DAE and vent.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnmzgs/dissociative_flashbacks_and_intrusive_thoughts/

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2019-08-08T14:48:45.000Z

cnmscv

ptsd

My friend who wants to be a therapist

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnmscv/my_friend_who_wants_to_be_a_therapist/

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2019-08-08T14:13:47.000Z

cnmcj5

ptsd

I had my first non-epileptic seizure on Saturday

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnmcj5/i_had_my_first_nonepileptic_seizure_on_saturday/

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2019-08-08T12:34:51.000Z

cnl4w3

ptsd

Feel like I’m dying to want to

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnl4w3/feel_like_im_dying_to_want_to/

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2019-08-08T12:13:22.000Z

cnkwci

ptsd

Long and short term memory loss after EMDR treatment for PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnkwci/long_and_short_term_memory_loss_after_emdr/

noralindell

I don’t know why I’m writing this tbh but okay, here we go. I’m diagnosed with PTSD but I think it would be classified as cPTSD if that diagnose was used here. I have over 10 traumas that I remembered when I first was diagnosed. The thing is, after accidentally reading notes the doctors at different ERs wrote when I was a kid, I remember a lot more. And not only the things they’d written about, but also other stuff that I had completely forgot. I get flashbacks to traumatic events that I didn’t know about, but seeing them in the flashbacks is making me remember it all. I know it’s real, but at the same time I’m scared my mind is playing tricks on me. And I have flashbacks constantly nowadays. I also don’t know if even more shit happened to me that I just can’t remember. I don’t know if this is normal. I suffer with a lot of dissociation so that could maybe play a part in it. I don’t know how to deal with it. And I don’t know how to break the news to my therapist.

2019-08-08T11:43:57.000Z

cnkkob

ptsd

Remembering traumas I forgot about

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnkkob/remembering_traumas_i_forgot_about/

Thot_patrol_nanoda

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2019-08-08T09:40:12.000Z

cnjei1

ptsd

My "friend" gave me PTSD by wanting to drag me in filth

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnjei1/my_friend_gave_me_ptsd_by_wanting_to_drag_me_in/

qiankgs

[Possible TW for sexual abuse] I can’t sleep. Today I’m going to therapy to talk to my therapist about how my friend molested me and I feel sick. I want to but at the same time I feel awful and anxious and like I would rather die than actually do it. I want so badly to talk but just feel so much guilt and awfulness around it. Ugh.

2019-08-08T09:22:47.000Z

cnj95r

ptsd

Talking about my trauma out loud for the first time

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnj95r/talking_about_my_trauma_out_loud_for_the_first/

potatochipgrape

Ok so, after I was SA at 13 I wanted absolutely nothing to do with anything sexually. Like , didn’t want to talk about it, didn’t want to hear someone else talk about it and didn’t have any desire to participate. I dated a couple people but never went past regular kissing. And now suddenly I actually have desires? When I first started seeing my current S/O I was still kind of in the “Don’t touch me more than a little at a time” mindset but that quite frankly went out the window about 4 days in and now, almost a year later I can’t understand why I never felt like this before? Has this happened to anyone else? Swinging from “heck no, no touchie” to “pls gimme attention and idc if it involves BDSM, bring it on”. Just wondering if I’m alone on this or if this is a normal thing

2019-08-08T05:03:25.000Z

cngytg

ptsd

TW Sexual assault and sexual themes,

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cngytg/tw_sexual_assault_and_sexual_themes/

katiemih

I have PTSD from my parents divorce which happened last May. They fought a lot leading up to it, but I was never involved. Most nights I closed myself in my room and cried myself to sleep listening to them yell. After the divorce, my mom and I moved into an apartment and I had to get rid of a lot of my stuff in the downsizing. We also had to let my dad keep our dogs, but I was never too close to them. I feel like no one understand what I’m going through. Divorce isn’t usually the kind of thing that gives people PTSD. I don’t have flashbacks or stuff like that. I used to have night terrors but they went away. My therapist and I talk about it sometimes. She said my main symptoms are avoidance and anxiety. I just feel really invalid because I don’t think anything bad really happened to me. Divorce is a pretty common thing. I feel like PTSD is for people who were assaulted or abused or something. Idk, thanks for reading. I just needed to put this out somewhere.

2019-08-08T00:29:25.000Z

cne3my

ptsd

I feel like I have no one to relate to

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cne3my/i_feel_like_i_have_no_one_to_relate_to/

rrosea

Sorry if this triggers you. I dont feel like myself I haven’t in a while, I am so close to ending it all, idk what to do, I’ll probably be fine, but I just can’t take this shit anymore

2019-08-08T00:21:37.000Z

cne0l4

ptsd

Idk

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cne0l4/idk/

unnownturtle

Ive seen a lot of posts about people getting flashbacks. But i dont seem to get them. Or i dont actually knkw what they feel like.

2019-08-07T23:47:20.000Z

cndmjx

ptsd

Do flashbacks happen to everyone? Or am I just strange?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cndmjx/do_flashbacks_happen_to_everyone_or_am_i_just/

unnownturtle

So yea. I have some triggers, not a lot but a few. My major 1 is when on the trampoline people jump over me while I'm laying down. You know, jump the log? Nevermind It makes me scream and curl up into a ball even just with the anticipation of it. My sister is always just like "sit still" or "I promise I won't jump on you" when that scenario is almost the exact same position I was in when I got beat up every day as a kid

2019-08-07T23:28:28.000Z

cndevu

ptsd

I get triggered by a trampoline

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cndevu/i_get_triggered_by_a_trampoline/

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2019-08-07T23:17:39.000Z

cndad6

ptsd

Women of PTSD, do your symptoms get worse before your period?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cndad6/women_of_ptsd_do_your_symptoms_get_worse_before/

beastygimmick

So my whole life I've struggled with mental illness and have been in treatment for years, but it recently came to my attention that something affecting me physically could be related to PTSD? When I reached early adolescence I found my pain tolerance increased tremendously and in the following years I realized I could choose to not be bothered by all sorts of stimuli like pain, tickle, and temperature. As I've grown (been about 8 years since I discovered this) I've gotten less control over it and I just don't feel stimuli most of the time I just thought of it as a cool natural super power or something, but I'm starting EMDR in 2 months and my doctor talked to me about doing sensory exercises to start because it's very common for people with PTSD to lose coordination due to your brain's attempt to disconnect from situations I haven't seen her since but I've been doing my own reading, and everything I'm finding on hyposensitivity that's closest to what I experience says it's supposed to start getting better/stop around the time mine started I may have just not done enough reading/haven't found the right resources, but does anyone know if it could still be PTSD related or if I'm just broken in general?

2019-08-07T23:02:03.000Z

cnd3km

ptsd

Confusion about Hyposensory?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnd3km/confusion_about_hyposensory/

governmentskeletons

It would make sense after being violently raped that one would not enjoy sex. But idk something just went different with me. I got SUPER into one-night stands, BDSM, etc. I think a part of me is trying to “take back” the sex life I had before my assault. But other people don’t understand that. I’ve been told I “had it coming” since I was kind of promiscuous I’m super feminist and I know nothings wrong with enjoying safe sex. But I don’t act like A normal rape victim so I feel like I’m never taken as seriously. I’m too uncomfortable to talk with my therapist about this. So I’m hoping some one can relate because I feel so disgusted with myself.

2019-08-07T22:14:11.000Z

cncil5

ptsd

As someone who became hypersexual after an assault, sometimes I feel like I’m disgusting.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cncil5/as_someone_who_became_hypersexual_after_an/

murzfurlz

I do parttime work at the community garden at my campus. There's another woman who works there regularly and is in a higher position than me. It's an organic garden, we don't use pesticides, so of course there will be pests we need to deal with, but i think this was 100% the wrong way to deal with them and was just mean and honestly also made me really fucking paranoid about her and not want to be around her at all. She calls me over saying she found babies. I'm like what? and go over and see she has a baby (mole?) in her hands. I'm like awe what! She opens her hand and it wriggles out of her hand and falls to the ground. UGH. I yell NO! FUCK. she picks it back up and i'm like fuck i hope it's okay. That seemed bad. It's a TINY baby. Probably born not long ago at all. She carries it back to where she found them, and she fucking just tosses this baby mole onto the ground near it's nest. Didn't set it down, wasn't gentle, just threw it carelessly like a piece of garbage. I was like WHAT?? Why did you do that? And she jokes "oh they land on their feet like cats". I'm like fuck, is it dead? Is it okay? I don't look. I'm upset. Why did she do that in front of me? Why didn't she at LEAST ask if anyone would be bothered by it first? I get they need to get rid of pests, but imo the ethical way to get rid of them is to kill them quickly, not hurt them and make them suffer/die slowly. If she had killed it quickly, whatever. But the fact she just HURT it and left it there to suffer is really upsetting. The thing that freaks me out a lot is that, minutes before that, she was cooing at it and all like "awe how cute". Then she just throws it and doesn't care that she probably hurt it? It's just fucking creepy. Since then, i've avoided her completely. I know i should have mercy killed it but damnit I have no desire to firsthand hurt any animals, pests or not. And i don't want that task put on me. SHE should've done it. My job is building a specific garden area, i don't get paid for or have any training in or any duties in pest management there. Nor would I want to. I sorta accidentally ended up telling our boss, just cause i was heated and talking about it with someone else and the boss man happened to overhear and sorta walk into the convo. I'm worried he told her I said it (or she just knew because he prob said something), and that idk..she'll do some shady shit to retaliate against me or something. Bossman was cool about it and agreed she did the wrong thing. The other day my bf picked me up from work and she was also driving out and was tailgating us as we drove off campus. I don't know if she did it on purpose as a weird passive-aggressive retaliation, but now i'm just hella paranoid around her. I don't think i'm overreacting. Like, i'm only confused about it because of the fact it's a "pest" and they DO kill pests. I just don't think this was the ethical way to get rid of the mole. And to do ANY violent act in front of people(even if it's something they're supposed to do), without first asking the people who are next to you if they are okay with seeing that, seems wrong. My PTSD comes from violence. Seeing even "play" violence can trigger me. I don't know. How would you guys feel about this situation?

2019-08-07T22:03:32.000Z

cncdr1

ptsd

Kinda triggered by a co-workers weird/cruel actions. Am i overreacting? CW animal cruelty

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cncdr1/kinda_triggered_by_a_coworkers_weirdcruel_actions/

Phoenix_The_Dragon

I honestly believe I have ptsd but I’m to afraid to ask my doctors or therapists about it because I’m still in the situation The situation is that I’m being abused by my family and even though I’m 21 I can’t afford to leave them I’ve noticed that whenever I’m spoken to in a stern voice I almost burst into tears regardless of whether I’m in trouble or not and it’s happening while I’m at work I’ve had countless nightmares about the abuse I freak out if I’m yelled at and if I’m ever even near an angry man I have to resist the urge to run and hide Is this ptsd? Or at least some version of it?

2019-08-07T21:59:05.000Z

cncbpl

ptsd

Can you have ptsd if your still in the situation

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cncbpl/can_you_have_ptsd_if_your_still_in_the_situation/

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So I was diagnosed with EOE or Eosinophilic esophagitis which is a chronic, allergic inflammatory disease of the esophagus AKA my throat gets tight as hell and its extremely hard to swallow foods at times. Before I was diagnosed with it I was over at a friends house and to make a long story short, choked on a piece of steak and had to had the heimlich done on me. So my questions is, my throat not only is tight from the EOE, but when I eat foods it almost feels the way your body feels when you flex your muscles, but in the top section of my throat, giving me super bad anxiety when it comes to eating and I have to basically liquify the food in order for it to go down. Any suggestions on how to over come this or how to eliminate that feeling all together? Thanks in advance.

2019-08-07T21:47:28.000Z

cnc6pm

ptsd

Choking on food PTSD, any ideas?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnc6pm/choking_on_food_ptsd_any_ideas/

journey1992

DAE have digestive issues like Candida, SIBO and/or Parasites? I have reoccurring digestive issues such as Candida, SIBO and parasites even though I eat really clean and take the right supplements. I am convinced my body and immune system have become weakened and vulnerable to these conditions due to being under stress. The stress of being abused for so long leading to CPTSD can really put a toll on our body. I think my feeling of being stuck in my trauma manifests in my body where my digestion, parasites, and bad bacteria become stuck in my body. I believe as I continue healing from the trauma and release, my digestive issues will also go away. I live a lot of my days tense and hypervigilant. Anyone else struggle with similar GI issues?

2019-08-07T21:26:46.000Z

cnbxfs

ptsd

DAE have digestive issues like Candida, SIBO and/or Parasites?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cnbxfs/dae_have_digestive_issues_like_candida_sibo_andor/

kilimomo

Me and my counselor were talking about my nightmares today. I had one the night before, once again, and I was raped in it, once again. It felt very real and I felt pure terror during the rape and felt very bad after it. I could feel the different sensations too, such as the semen dripping down my thighs as I walked away from the scene and the nausea during the rape kit. I've been anxious since then. So we started talking about my real rapes with the counselor. I told her I felt like a fake due to realizing I don't remember being scared during the real rapes that happened to me. She said that the mind detaches emotions during the event to protect the mind from the trauma. That's why I don't remember many emotions about the rapes. I just remember what I saw, and sometimes what I felt. Now that I think about it, I mostly don't remember emotions when thinking about my traumatic childhood. There are a few events where I remember the fear, but mostly not. For example, when our pipes got clogged due to me eating plastic ( I had Pica disorder). The shit water raised from the sewer and got up to my ankles when I took a shower. I remember the smell and fear. Maybe I remember the fear because there was a smell included? When I smell that smell nowadays I feel the same fear I felt back then. Anyway. Anyone else feel strange about the way mind processes emotions during trauma? Like, I feel like a fake for not being scared when he raped me IRL. I feel like it's not a real rape and that it can't be traumatic because I wasn't scared. I feel like a fraud and a liar. On the other hand I'm scared to think about how much more broken my mind would be without the protective detaching. Or if I hadn't detached my feelings back then, would I have been able to process them better? Am I alone in this? Sorry for the rambling.

2019-08-07T18:16:31.000Z

cn9fma

ptsd

Detached emotions during past trauma causing me to feel like I'm a fraud? [TW SA]

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn9fma/detached_emotions_during_past_trauma_causing_me/

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2019-08-07T17:39:35.000Z

cn8xn5

ptsd

so tired

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn8xn5/so_tired/

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2019-08-07T16:56:03.000Z

cn8cxh

ptsd

Does anyone else struggle with maintaining trust over periods of separation?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn8cxh/does_anyone_else_struggle_with_maintaining_trust/

inquiety

Feels like it's been forever since the traumatic stuff happened, and I thought I had been managing so well for the past little while. I guess this month was a bit more stressful than I expected, and it feels like I'm walking on eggshells with myself. Some days I feel okay, other days I'm a total mess and it feels like I've regressed to a version of myself I neither recognize nor remember. The worst thing is that I've been trying to ignore it, and hide how I'm really doing/feeling from even my closest friends and SO because I can't bear the thought of admitting that I'm, yet again, \_still\_ not okay. I don't want to overreact and immediately assume that I'm somehow regressing, but I also don't want to pretend I'm fine and suddenly implode without warning one day. When am I going to be okay, for real, for ever?

2019-08-07T16:43:37.000Z

cn879g

ptsd

I am still suffering

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn879g/i_am_still_suffering/

maeve_dustaine

There are two independent things that she told me I seem to have PTSD from. The first is my marriage and it's premature demise which left me divorced at 23. It was entirely my fault, and I spent the last five months of that relationship in complete isolation and constant anxiety, getting screamed at with insults that made me wish he would just hit me instead. The other thing was getting laid off, coincidentally 4 days after I dropped five grand to move out of the apartment I shared with my ex (we still lived together for six months after he filed for divorce). It was my first job out of college, and I'd been there for a grand total of 8 months, and the company was pretty shitty in the upper management area. But I loved that job, and the layoff was totally sudden, so much so that my department had a new employee who started Monday and got laid off on Friday. But I was lucky, and quickly got a new job that I don't hate and came with a $10.5K raise. So really, I should feel happy about the whole thing, right? But I still miss my old job. Certainly getting divorced, moving (twice), and losing a job within a six-month time span would be stressful for anyone, but I feel like a fraud if I claim that it gave me PTSD when there are people who have gone through way more traumatic things. Like, you get PTSD from being raped or your child dying or something like that. I just got yelled at a little and was unemployed for a month. That seems like nothing in comparison. But I guess I have expressed the typical symptoms, like nightmares, flashbacks, anxiety, paranoia, etc. But even though I have the symptoms I still feel like it shouldn't count cuz my situations aren't "real trauma" Life has been very good to me I'm a lucky lucky person but somehow I'm still so fucked up why

2019-08-07T16:34:07.000Z

cn82xx

ptsd

My psychiatrist suggested I may have PTSD but I feel like the things I experienced aren't "traumatic" enough

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn82xx/my_psychiatrist_suggested_i_may_have_ptsd_but_i/

BlueSwitchez

2019-08-07T15:23:43.000Z

cn76b1

ptsd

How do you pick yourself back up? What are some soothing methods you utilize when you're feeling defeated? I was diagnosed 17 years ago. I've come a long way. Things are so much better. But PTSD is kicking my butt today. Cant get back on track & zapped of energy. What helps you?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn76b1/how_do_you_pick_yourself_back_up_what_are_some/

MarigoldBlues

It was worst than I imagined. I haven't had flashbacks before but had heard of them happening to people. I mostly have nightmares and intrusive thoughts, and have had depression and anxiety since the event. But the flashback knocked the breath out of me - I completely froze and panicked mentally. Is it strange not to have flashbacks, and then have one suddenly? It has been 5 years since the event.

2019-08-07T14:23:23.000Z

cn6foy

ptsd

I had my first flashback this week

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn6foy/i_had_my_first_flashback_this_week/

Heart_of_Gold42

Last week I posted about my anxiety in regards to applying for a residential treatment program at the VA. I was rejected. I've been screaming for help the past year. I had a suicide attempt in May, and they turned me down. My mother apparently fought her way up to the administrator of the VA out there and they said they'll give me a phone interview this week. So, not a total loss, but it's worth bringing up just how fucked the VA is with this stuff. I have service connected PTSD, and they still rejected me. Oh, and inpatient facilities for MST victims are very few and far between, as it turns out. Veterans keep going to the VA and offing themselves (happened the other day in NC) and I hate that I get it. I can completely empathize. We want to be seen and we're continually swept under the rug when things get hairy. I'm so tired of fighting. Doing my best to keep surviving to tomorrow. I have so many things wrong with me on top of the PTSD and everything has compounded to the point that I just can't do it on my own. I need someone to help me. Please, please let this program work out. I'm out of hope and options.

2019-08-07T13:05:16.000Z

cn5jdw

ptsd

Rejected; Trigger warning for suicide

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn5jdw/rejected_trigger_warning_for_suicide/

blacklightlunamoth

I just bought a weighted blanket a few weeks ago and I am already sleeping better and deeper, but of course it means more nightmares. Trying to take the good with the bad :\

2019-08-07T10:50:25.000Z

cn48tx

ptsd

Better sleep = more nightmares

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn48tx/better_sleep_more_nightmares/

ashes_to_evolution

I had delayed onset for my PTSD. It was years later that I started remembering the events in my childhood that caused it. After I started to get those memories back, my symptoms escalated into flashbacks, panic attacks, nightmares, hypervigilance, etc. Anyway, I just realized that I think last month may have been my 10-year anniversary with PTSD. Ten years ago this summer was when I started remembering what happened. Weird to think about. Also, fun fact: I was only officially diagnosed with PTSD this year.

2019-08-07T09:46:14.000Z

cn3p6d

ptsd

10 years with PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn3p6d/10_years_with_ptsd/

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2019-08-07T09:16:05.000Z

cn3gtf

ptsd

i. need. sleep.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn3gtf/i_need_sleep/

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2019-08-07T09:06:22.000Z

cn3e92

ptsd

Worried about job interviews and being asked why I was on illness leave for 4 months

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn3e92/worried_about_job_interviews_and_being_asked_why/

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2019-08-07T07:29:54.000Z

cn2ozv

ptsd

Want to join "Ups & Downs"? A Discord community accepting of all users (4000+)! We offer discussion from a range of topics including mental health, life and recovering from addiction, as well as active voice chats.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn2ozv/want_to_join_ups_downs_a_discord_community/

kmusk

I’m seeing a (kind, respectful) guy who occasionally likes playing small jokes on me. It’s normal relationship teasing stuff — like, one time he pretended that his middle name was something super cool, and I totally believed him, and then he revealed that no indeed it was not. The problem is that I think internally, I’m reacting very weirdly to this. The thing above happened over text, and I had a panic attack afterwards (the whole deal, plus intense freezing and dissociation). I really don’t know what to make of this; on the one hand, it seems like the reminder of the idea that this guy could potentially shatter my trust in a much deeper way like my ex did is triggering to me, but on the other hand these things are all so small and flirtatious and intended to be cute and it seems so ridiculous that my Emotion Box is going haywire over them. Is there any way to deal with this and prevent the effects on my own? I don’t want to tell him not to make these kinds of jokes or something, because that feels a little controlling. I feel like maybe this is just a problem I have to deal with on my own. Thoughts? :(

2019-08-07T06:15:55.000Z

cn234p

ptsd

Little practical jokes are making me really paranoid?

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn234p/little_practical_jokes_are_making_me_really/

Mementolambo

hi.. I posted yesterday aswell and wanted to thank you all for the kind responses. I really want to know what are some good quality qeustions for my GF, when she is feeling sad or depressed, she is crying a lot lately and I feel like I am lacking in the communication aspect. I always tell her I am there for her and always open her up, however I would like to communicate better with her. So she usually says, "everything su*ks", "I miss my dog" I want my own place" "I have no energy" "I am not doing well today" how do I respond to those in a proper and loving way?.. thank you

2019-08-07T06:10:27.000Z

cn21jv

ptsd

Quality questions to ask my GF with PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn21jv/quality_questions_to_ask_my_gf_with_ptsd/

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2019-08-07T05:21:53.000Z

cn1mwh

ptsd

Introductory post..kinda?//about my PTSD

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn1mwh/introductory_postkindaabout_my_ptsd/

fourfingerfiction

It's weird. PTSD changes you so much . Every once in awhile when I'm laughing really hard. It's like I feel like me again.and that feeling makes me emotional cuz it feels like I'm hugging a good friend I hadn't seen in years

2019-08-07T04:50:41.000Z

cn1cr1

ptsd

It changes you .

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn1cr1/it_changes_you/

kiri_isgay

Basically my biggest trigger are months. So half of the year I'm going through triggers, disassociation, and a depressive state that lasts from late November to early May and now I'm in that gray area. I'm currently kinda happy and confused with how determined I am for this upcoming school year. Background info: my traumatic experience happened 2017 and I started my freshman year last year. My freshman year was an absolute DISASTER because I was in the early stages of getting help as it progressively got worse. I was a very good student with very good marks and now I'm barely passing. I'm really glad to have gotten better to the point of being on my own without any professional help, but I'm really scared. Am I only better because it's the gray area? I'm scared I'll go back to my traumatized self, unfocused, unable to be in the present, and being self destructive. I want to finish the rest of my 3 years with a bang and not let that monster decide my future for me, but I'm scared that I'll be unable to do it. I managed to go through April calmly, but that was a while ago. What if I end up barely passing high school and unable to go to the college I want? I'm very excited for this new year, but I'm very scared nothing will change.

2019-08-07T04:40:50.000Z

cn19jh

ptsd

Am I ok now??

https://www.reddit.com/r/ptsd/comments/cn19jh/am_i_ok_now/