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Made myself a tortilla filled with pb&j. My depression is cured. Olivia:1 depression:0,1
hallucinatingi need help think demons trying kill boyfriend says another delusion jeremy real need help want die im afraid except want die point im going kill myself,1
apparently cant shit school went toilet civics took  mins almost got suspended cause thought im sleeping there lmao told made shit asked ok another thing math quiz equations looked shit and oh fuck understand literally  weeks finaly realized shit,0
@donniewahlberg hey ddub ,0
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ladyldn i hope you feel better soon being ill is no fun at all,0
little virusrelated calculation seeing meme killing  thousand people would planting  million trees asked sister pull number covid deaths worldwide google  million stick simple formula get number trees covid saved  million trees ill leave guys figure moral compasses,0
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married two young children feel completely aloneim  overwhelmed suicidal ideation tonight son    threatened get knife stab today im kid im joking way got car drove hours tonight got home went ou bedroom husband came an barely one word laid went sleep really really want go garage get car start it sleep forever,1
dear girls really dont care boobs cm bigger mines devolving here grow different rates different times stop bragging aa cup lookin ass also likes different sizes yeah,0
avatar websitegame hair wtf bruh,0
like thisi keep thoughts redflag cant seem stop them keep thinking easy would life over leaving everything behind soon exwife kids could much better dad parents family take granted look child im pathetic hate god damned much cant stop it want change different want stop feeling depressed anxious weak want stop feeling like burden want stop feeling like life value cant change that im tired im scarred everything im laying holding doe like heavy weight dont know am thought turns others expected be thought im ready disappear selfish im ready leave behind cant live cant change feel like never ill fat slob version forever whats point people might say kids would good reason know love matter time mess lives disappoint too never thought life would like ,1
opinion one barbara stanwycks best performances one handful actors now could say single look entire page dialogue lucky enough see original uncensored movie extra  minutes additional footage bad movie short lily young woman barely holding together working father illegal speakeasy link anything good friend chico played wonderfully theresa harris though chico african american and white woman best friends black woman back s controversial subject matter movie lily not special bond sexual  women stuck shoved situation beyond control lilys father dies know do told power get get wants yes immoral thats entire point movie they go ruin last minutes so last minutes movie superb film worth watching lesson movie still valid today back then im sure  years now women awful lily order get wants works men take note,0
im  currently first kiss gf lost vcard normal ppl around less least one things yet could possibly lonely rest life,0
I <3 x-men! Sooo many hot men! Yumms! ,0
think teenagers sentiments days compared before wanted get perspectives fellow teens,0
someone help skin peel rub im shower,0
theekween it help with depression anxiety heartbreak and loss of a loved one thelmasherbs,1
now i know everyone will say you need some fresh air get outta the house more often i also have real bad anxiety so bad that i only go out one time a day i don t like walking around with money on me or no money at all anyway i ve been smoking weed and eating edible for year because i have real low self esteem and i don t want to just be sad all the time my boyfriend hate it because he say i don t need all of that to be happy which is true but it s already hard enough getting out of bed a it is my boyfriend pretty much get high a much a i do but it s only marijuana and thc that s it nothing other then that he think i should get out more but when i m out i get anxiety because i feel like i m being stared at and judged i love smoking weed because it s good to laugh and when i m high i m not thinking about my low self esteem and body dysmorphia or wanting to harm myself if you ask me it s better then talking to a therapist psychologist,1
@JoelMadden  oh well ill try to stay up as long as i can just for you ,0
wishthat halloween michael myers stop stab rip head off sending prayers money thank much,1
hi folksbeen going stuff recently  safe place mentally leave home often loner girlfriend quit would consider great job living savings telling going leave making miserable figure would make happy feel like wastedit  months almost kind hanging putting shit off realise fortunate position able truly brought nothing laziness point starting regret itin past asked things like favorite insert food color etc here honest never answers like never developed inward personality kind feeling bland know makes happyi could write book shit makes sad though kind asking hell life talk whatever guess here tired quiet really everyone feels,1
throat is closing up and i had some string cheese not a good idea,0
anyone taken htp hypericum perforatumi dont insurrance anymore prescription ssris trying apply free program would take weeks id set doctors appointment to attempt work want take something now anyone tried drugs hear work depression,1
took waaaay much aleve assuming works love all wonderful people ever work ill come helplt all,1
happy mario day march  thats say pc nerd,0
classic series least repeated released dvdbilly tothafter realising adopted death parentsembarks journey find real parentsafter various rites passagehis search culminates discovery fathers identity stolen used human trafficker europeif remember correctlythe series ends austrian ski slopes cliff top chase resulting death billys fathers betrayer series filmed location various destinations round europe appeared polished incredibly well made episodes crossing realms film noir crime thrillerthe main arc often eclipsed slices life billy went years toiling find mother fathers secretsa class act underrated forgotten,0
Last century we had the Roaring 1920's.   Almost 100 years later we have the Live Streaming 2010's.  Both are filled with excesses of leisure and indulgence.  Both are contributors to a bizarre and unique depression.,1
the med don t work my doctor is clearly not helping last time i went to him he told me that i wa having a very bad week because i stopped smoking pot five week ago like i m sorry but it would not have a delayed effect like that also he then compared it to a recent promotion he got like dude what the fuck i just keep having these recurring thought of slicing open my wrist and finally just getting the peace and quiet if wanted i don t want to die but i don t want to live like this anymore,1
anyone groupchats discord servers join fucking bored need procrastinate,0
fuck two wrongs dont make one right bullshit filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
man my internet is slow atm,0
every day trick thinking okaybut im left alone everyone asleep comes rushing back nothing changed delude distractions im still fucked repulsive traumatized ruined always was life still worthless im still failure im still empty know try wake every day thinking things different never are get worse,1
lost frienddrinking poisonshe said would easier us didnt bother pursuing friendship anymore never close begin with something made really want keep friend shes life forever im drinking closest thing find toxicity label soon post this,1
loneliness worstim alone lonely recently lost person life left immediately forgotten we meant be deserved insults got understand must feel like someone like me blame them im really sorry ruin someones life issues instability strangely enough want kill myself want get coma forget everyone everything want restart everything forget happened give amnesia get coma forget everything restart thank reading,1
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efforts asking help worthlessi called national redflag help hotline worthless called back let know worthless are even though feel guilty people good intentions completely worthless called help ushered questionnaire funding first time ive reached help failed me know alone confirmed cant rely anyone help make feel better especially im worst fuck you im going go kill thats confirmed completely reaching worthless,1
im failure againi planing going school know im going make it wanted study get purpose life due something dont want get gonna happen dont know do ive planing time everything went shit year could erase year life everything would much better sit shit everything seems hopeless know two ways thats easy purposeless route really hopeing go school friends family think im going go school stomach courage tell situation want fucking disappointment anymore im getting older feel soon going late start over shame living home without job fucking failure walking around knowing everyones disappointed amounted anything far probably future either feel like want know next want walk around head slumped down,1
getting ready early.. ready for some hardcore mafia tonight.  ,0
Having a cheeky pint with @ben stereo and @vickytors ,0
one silver first person award gets havent gotten award ngl also im able give one award dont mad pls thank u,0
great show make cry group people really loved real life shows time time again email lets chat australia real talk like thisbr br i want enjoy five mile creek pass great stories right wrong friendship kids  episodes dvdr collected last  years see five mile creek tribute wwwmikeandvickicom hear extended theme music lets talk thembr br these people cool,0
wow friendzone weird friendzoned feels weird hi  best friend flirting lot almost dated yet told one friends go me feel weird since friends shipped us really started believe actually interest me know feel react plus still really attached might still crush im sure help lol,0
kutnerrrr why why and to think that is still on the show ugh kutner kal penn you ve been the bright star in ho,0
Off to bed for me!  Make sure you join our challenge  Thanks for being so FABULOUS!  www.weightlosswiththefabulousfatties.wordpress.com,0
"RT @kyem74: @Fact This person with depression, anxiety, PTSD ... doesn't hëhë",1
kudos cesar montano reviving cebuano movie panaghoy sa suba good  drama action romance scene make laughbr br while story original a love triangle  make fourcorneredlove japanese occupation rebellion american lord presentation something cool especially uses original language  bisaya filipino nipongo japanese english americanbr br this movie go one years best pinoy moviesbr br go watch this,0
need guys opinion something theres girl like i know original classes rarely time talk class walk class twice dont courage yet talk i little lost courage think dming instagram good way talk avoid it,0
biographical film the lady red hair the story director producerplaywright david belasco transformed notorious society divorcee mrs leslie carter international stage star certainly league warners biopic similar vintage yankee doodle dandy what is lady enjoyable film rightand shares quite traits common cagney classic br br like yankee doodle dandy the lady red hair brims old time showbusiness flavor among things films feature delicious theatrical boardinghouse sequences well inevitable scenes set backstage theatrical managers offices also lady cohan biopic supporting cast made familiar beloved character actors period sort topnotch work remember for br br need add that like yankee doodle dandy the lady red hair let truth get way telling good story but also like dandy lady managegloriouslyto convey esssence showbusinessgiant heros largerthanlife personality everyone knows cagney limned cohan time brilliant affectionate portrayal yankee doodle dandybut moviegoers realize claude rains similar service david belasco the lady red hair and panache almost equals cagneysbr br rainsasbelasco perfectly captures legendary showmans galvanic personality outsized glory rains gives tremendously enjoyable  superbly observed remarkably truetolife performance man broadway called the wizard watch claude rains action looking every shot hes helluva good time the lady red hair see david belasco leap life film cant wait shake things main stem againbr br ,0
im fuh king whore knee please put misery,0
want diei think nearly every day it it mother everything me cry does know it think got better w anxiety im sad rn thinking old friend dad hate him touching like wife disgusting hate thights hate whit whole heart then makes hating even more cant wear want proper house hate wearing short clothes bc him hate myself want selfharmsometimes really bad think it cant it cant know do,1
consider suicidal buti dont know right place post yeahh say im suicidal see future happy living world maybe im lazy idk im pretty analytical think killing would best option im afraid dying know im going kill myself im junior highschool help understand means really ever feel motivated im really happy time im particularly depressed sorry ramble ive talked doctor not depression terrible adhd mom loses job im it dont feel like dealing shit dont feel like ever anything prolly going delete ramble tldr  cant imagine future dont want live backwards society consider suicidal wonder anybody else knows feel,1
yall trust parents emotional stuff personally try keep everything away mom turns bad,0
 years working finally made schools top choir m selected schools top choir stoked context live small town choir isnt weirdconsidered gay no offense intended dynamic rural smalltowns  choirs school mixed choir full freshman audition required womens choir audition required girls only honor choir audition required competitive girls last definitely least choir called madrigals or mads audition callback required make it mads  positions available section soprano alto tenor bass usually  spots taken returning upperclassmen they guaranteed spot next year making choir competitive section anyway working way mixed honor choirs made going next my junior year worked hard nervewracking auditions callbacks made it wanted celebrate little bit heres great start school year,0
"Hello depression my old friend, I've come to talk with you again.",1
"@kathfishk It's not an opinion you fool but facts, he deals with an addiction on the daily along with bi polar disorder with panic, anxiety, & depression. Have some sympathy.",1
finally text post weekends fuck image posts suck like ones people showing art stuff posts memes yesterday sorting new see meme comment repost yet fucking reposted meme went hots like wtf man text posts best lots interaction,0
hate small eyed bitch much hope vibrator dies cum wont shut larping bullshit comments,0
Hanging out at the office this weekend thanks to a very understanding wife. ,0
when i got my diagnosis of generalized anxiety disorder i wa very optimistic and relieved i had been living with this condition for many year completely unaware the diagnosis wa a spark of hope perhaps one day i d be able to recover with the proper combination of therapy and medication year later now i must admit i feel exhausted with life it s really depressing to live with the knowledge that i have to be constantly alert to my condition or it will spiral and get worse yes treatment can help but needing to continually use cbt meditation grounding technique etc just to do the thing normal people do without difficulty is infuriating i feel like this isn t nearly talked about enough in mental health circle anxiety and depression are portrayed often a condition which can be fixed with the right cocktail and not also sometimes a life long condition which can exhaust not only you but your loved one i don t know just feeling bitter today,1
ive started seriously consider redflagthe last  hours much messed up redflag always something thought about never genuinely believed would it since one dodgy time younger right now trust myself first time  years seriously considered committing redflag life even bad compared anyone elses weight head cant get rid im dragged down would destroy little sister mam dad girlfriend going hard time right now know would destroy them thats always held back know even could stop right now could tonight really could probably even deserve posting here feel like imposter like theres people way way worse deserve help me apparently strong strong enough stop feeling way weak deal anyway know do know talk to maybe need someone say im ok im parasite maybe need anything all want ruin little sisters life want tragedy everyone talks sadly really know much longer ignore im feeling,1
please help mei want die hate fucking self sleep the peace livingg hell terrifying dreams dying terrible ways want torture end please,1
@UHMANDUHPLEASE f'real real s'no problem at alll. ,0
ago responded post offical klondike instagram account made asked what would klondike bar said i would work endless   job responded same,0
getting tired im   job  years got friends nothing home parents house cant take more,1
know why felt compelled share anecdote todayperhaps belong here ill probably delete post alcohol benzodiazepines wear offbefore pick bottle face struggle another  hours however thought would share moment life suppose true relief feels like number months ago working longtime friend mine owned small business hired work me road day talking felt convinced take day visit large city far liveone largest america walking street massive city hundreds thousands people still felt completely alone much always do then single young woman morning run passed us met eyes mine short couple seconds one deepest conversations ever hadbut words ever spoken ive gotten proficient putting mask on ive become master showing others expect see instead real moment though let see unguarded self decades internal pain torment tears hurt buried long reasoni felt understoodlike seconds okay never talked it im sure remember young man day still gives peace able think back moment know ill never another like it id like think last conscious breath im able see kind understanding eyes looking back minds eye able to perhaps others young woman day sometimes simple moments like mean troubled us,1
would anyone rlly care if i killed myself,1
my parents argued since remember like argue apologize other always threw vicious remarks other never apologized waited next day scared never felt comfortable around them every vacation together every free day scared theyll start arguing always wished divorce born exist especially father mother may annoying times generally shes ok hate father always wanted disappear total narcissist victim mentality every time someone criticized behavior said everyone hates him always told everyone didnt understand wouldnt listen always ended every tirade why even bother talking always though think start talking dont listen you front family never behaved like one thought anything like that sometimes even wanted record show rest family suffer it sometimes wished born straight alcoholic abusive family everyone knows bail this never spoke anyone this acquired learned helplessness cant anything it also budding depression think didnt enjoy spending time them like every christmas easter thought christmas soon it time flies every summer vacation thought soon over signed soccer practice kid first practice kids gave insulting nickname called on basically cut contact them went every time put shoes whatever suffer practice went home didnt stop never told anyone this went every time even though didnt enjoy learned helplessness remember one time burst crying parents car never told why didnt trust anyway trying avoid kids went practice knew nickname one class did kids school panically avoided them didnt want friends know others insult me friends back basically started cutting ties them started going parties meeting people panically scared left basically one friend desperately clinged to always second option friends one else later school   people comfortable sat alone panically scared someone talk me college basically didnt talk people nothing talk about went parties etc sat alone home mindlessly scrolling internet middle school still motivation something problems sleep started couldnt get early literally woke every weekend pm felt shame parents made fun told just wake early every summer wanted somethign went back home work came back paralyzed sat closed room never could get early never anything thats basically this life past  years consisted entirely waking pm mindlessly scrolling internet studying sleeping eating garbage food masturbating mindlessly scrolling internet pass time eating garbage food masturbating thats spikes dopamine literally cant live wake know dont enjoy anything plans dreams things enjoy dont watch movies read books go anywhere all talk anyone literally barely talk barely walk self consciouss everything  voice talk walk hate entirety myself maybe hate feel myself personality literal nolife dont mean someone enjoys video games nerdy stuff dont enjoy anything never went anyone never date never went friends house after elementary school basically never went party never casually talked anyone never texted anyone entirely depersonalized derealized feel like alone universe never connected anyone shunned age  years old dont want anything family wants help because redflag attempt psychiatric hospital want get job go school something want to go job interview cant talk people even got job because someone family gave it disaster tried school ditched disaster everywhere go outcast surprise given im  years old cant talk people cant talk people talk about literally dont anything favorite movies books music foods dont human emotions never connected another human being empty shell larping human forced go therapy dont believe it dont believe anything help me  never experienced basic human things  year old children life experience me never learned anything nothing matters me completely depersonalized always waited things happen middle school literally waited till ill meet people go dates first kiss etc never happened feel void cant kill either tried many times always chickened out cursed vegetation like this sorry reads like schizophrenic rambling schizophrenic complete breakdown crying  hours tired even capitalize letters completely depersonalized even wrote feel like life feel like im describing someone else making things up yet finally think got theres help theres hope maybe ill get courage kill finally,1
people learned lucid dream long take want learn im lowkey lazy biotch little motivation,0
supposed figure theyre okayive tried speaking people feeling suicidal support them etc several still decided go anyways guess figure occured in try fail change mind ghost me succeed want know reason care hope every single one change mind recover end day cannot control anybody anyway finding out not alright tried,1
"is going to go get his hair cut, before catching a train down to Peterborough for the day ",0
http://twitpic.com/7j5nc - breakfast after a long night ,0
imagine trumps covid case actually minor hes hospital tried cure drinking bleach,0
anyone know me curious anyone really knows sub so asshole,0
mom showed pic uncles balls im sitting outside phone looking reddit mom calls over wanting get trouble hurried asked up showed phone zoomed facebook post uncle speedo balls out gave warning explanation laughed stood traumatized trying make sense happened walked away slowly sat trying get image uncles bare nuts head alas worked,0
going to watch julian play bball i want phoebe,0
funwhat fun spend day bed internetgames im sick bored it anything else life worth doing everything used like longer appeals me takes much effort pick stuff up feel bad progress ive lost starting feels depressing used aikido play piano exercise study uni late every time try start again realise far behind sends back distractions break cycle get fact ive lost  years life fucking stupid disease hopefully next semester fresh start im fucking sick lazy stupid ampxb sorry rant really anything offer felt like would place let out fyi exams week ive done nothing prepare them im going go probably fail least illve gone,1
signed nli im going college im excited needed tell someone,0
sometimes get sad know do last night spent several hours crying intermittently episodes like since teen  years old exhausting feel emotion least numb guess much cry finally done feel lost life point need make decisions live direction take career do even want career partner developed feelings someone wants casual fwb type involvement gone along many options making feel bad want think deserve more angry allowing taken advantage emotionally unavailable man knew exactly getting into part foolishly thought would change mind point want kind relationship want so feel need end move on made casual involvements like that quit drinking alcohol  days ago completely sober positive change feeling everything without buffer therapy since age  so suppose learned things made positive changes done nothing change fact capacity feeling deep profound sadness seems bottom maybe actually kind gift sure maybe life really sad maybe life actually sad,1
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surprisingly hasnt happened yet im surprised hacker hasnt unblurred mrbeasts credit card spent money saw pull credit card latest video sells houses  im guessing done multiple times im encouraging it im surprised hasnt happened yet,0
know people always want deeper meaning movies else consider worthlessbr br what entertained something morgan freeman excels gets chance show bit paz vega costar gets career boost brad silberling gets name draw people watching moviebr br i thought good movie humor pathos bittersweetness nothing top got especial kick jim parsons receptionist construction company looks freeman adoringly says you make want woman hes hilarious fight scene ms vega exhusband girlfriend wonderful toobr br in short cute charming film make smile could much much worse,0
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this randomized study gave cannabis medical card to people who sought help for insomnia pain anxiety or depression the intervention wa related to subjective improvement of insomnia and mental well being but also to a higher incidence of cannabis problem http t co zvkczsxmjx,1
ilovepie mine too i m finding it well hard to get fit,0
new school senior first post idk advice flair correctly used need advice since rd grade homeschooled recent years started hate lack structure feeling isolation senior year wanted go public school rd week still yet really talk anybody clubs know opened covid group projects covid use every th seat lunch friends know classes people knew already get chance talk names opposite sides alphabet whats best way could start talking people,0
literally breathing day die day  breathe  seconds hold  exhale ,0
falsely accused sexual harrasment earlier today im confused hear happening time never thought would happen ,0
what can i do to help me with chest pain and uncomfortable chest please im desesperate,1
only 3 MORE STUPID DAYS and schools over. cant wait! ,0
ways end lifehi theredont know startbut heres short life story happy lifegot married daughtera real princess  years old now somehow someday  year ago fucked everything cause started usong cocaine wife took daughter left mei debt  lost marriagelost daughter moment taking last cocaine line thining end life really exitbut simply want look exists tnis meaningless world suffered lotdont want anymore suffering live th floor jump ill scare pot people there im thinking taking around  valium pills  ambien pills mix,1
@tyrese4real ur a teaser oh and nothing like a scorpio ,0
recently i started dealing with a lot of stress which ha turned into me feeling panicked off and on throughout the day during my time of feeling panic i get this trouble with my breathing which feel incredibly terrible it is scary when it happens because it feel like i m breathless and like my breathing pattern mess up i wa wondering ha this happened to anyone else if so is it okay if i could ask a few question about it i d love to have some insight or more information on this situation,1
@janinealino janine whoa dude hahah u really put the things i sent u sa fb ahhaha!!gee tnx janine ,0
ever get feeling either complete numbness pain gotten used totally anxious lot things life turn around know exactly something holds back whatever reasonthus stuck daily routine watching days pass waiting one free time day if working school lose forget troubles hobby ie netflix videogames etc wake rinse repeat cannot sleep like normal person anymore unless super exhausted try lie close eyes think million scenarios what could been what ifs hard sleep,1
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hey everyone so the title say it all been going through depression since i wa around the age of currently i am and beginning to lose to my demon this often push me to take thing to the extreme for example if i want to achieve something then i become obsessed with it and go all out so to say otherwise i feel dead inside people think of me a this strong individual because i have never shown my weakness to anyone even my family so everyone is oblivious to my inner suffering it s a pure living hell it s like having rabies but instead of dying it constantly attack your brain and make you think of irrational thing day in and day out i don t have anything to brag about in my normal life average job no education after high school no car no girlfriend no friend no money to go on holiday nothing the only thing that i got going for myself is my gym addiction built a decent physique over the year and planned to actually compete ironically i had all of these thing minus the money part when i wa in high school lost the ability to smile a well i laugh at joke at funny thing but my heart is dead i became unable to form relationship of any kind whether they d be romantic or friend related just recently lost my business too i am in debt on top of that how do you fight demon who always drag you back down to the bottom of a dark empty ocean every time you start seeing light at the end of the tunnel thank you for reading p s i am not suicidal just want to smile again,1
know awaits side nothingand leave conscious this nothingness better life nothing death,1
snorted tea tree oil sounds like shower tea tree face wash fucking great fucking intense wonder got idea tea tree oil face equates good using face wash inhaled nose wrong moment went stream potent frio flamas shit took train left nasal passage burned like fucking hell holy shit  minutes later eyes nose new nasty vomit flavor feeling hurts like shit ugh sticking pinkie length ticonderoga smeller exhaling hard absolutely nothing snorting shower water honking like goose seconds later anything please help burns exaggerating anything pray,0
feel fakei feel like actually suicidal wouldnt much fucking pussy wouldve already done it,1
given hope getting gf bf want give life really want someone hold tight cuddle social anxiety im scared things like starting convos anything really people even know anyone could chance with im screwed idk wanna give cry except cant get cry anything pain emotion let want give waste away idk im even posting am,0
comment contain spoilersbr br there actors intangible them innate quality amalgamation charisma panache swagger quality separate good actors truly great think george clooney jack nicholson look clooneys subtle touches scenes like one word goodbye andy garcia oceans  utter others name disdainfully terry danny pick number jacks performances dating far back five easy pieces diner good men court room interrogation scene guys it add denzel washington small exclusive list actors exudes terrific trait everything does look explosive borderline diatribes siege impressive tribute malcolm x spike lees film name see finer actor working today mention insinuate man fire perfect denzels work definitely cog production literally mesmerized scenes raw emotional incendiary timebr br washington plays creasy former spy cia agent one covert government operatives pretty much hit rock bottom become disillusioned life led killed perhaps done things best left unsaid made hardened bitter man friend perhaps mentor played reservedly christopher walken living mexico making comfortable living providing body guard services rich apparently kidnapping business mexico vibrant paid former seals well providing needed service creasey needs work accepts job well family seems financial difficulty marc anthony fine samuel radha mitchell tantalizingly sexy wife lisa dakota fanning unbelievably precociously brilliant pita know child age range play characters interpretation pita nothing short oscar worthy films entire first half dependent relationship pita creasy weaker actress role perhaps emotional synergy would come across succinctly fanning nothing short remarkable rolebr br it relationship pita creasy drives film apex cinema together perfect real bond developed them tony scott directs frenetic urgency eye visual flare never better interested see next film domino turns out think scott one todays rated directors films like one name surely elevated icon statusbr br the story creasy really taking pita visca versa definite connection two perhaps stems fact although pita loves dad around much philanthropist obviously little time spend family soon creasy taking pita swimming competition reading bedtime stories naming teddy bear creasy friendship them kinship deep parental love seems present br br the film changes gears pita get kidnapped held ransom creasy almost fatally injured trying protect her story becomes thick innuendo ripe deceit plot pieces get unraveled like onion denzel becomes tour de force like said earlier seen denzel give outstanding performances films like crimson tide training day never seen like this man possessed possibility pita dead becomes literal man fire rages hunts dishes brand comeuppance denzels anger acerbity ubiquitous easily quelled hunts person responsible pitas violation vigilante justice mexican authorities always seem one step behind br br also paramount films audacious brilliance films actually give criminals due comeuppance often frustrated watch films bad guys get let easily inflict kinds torment entire film take bullet die film writer brian helgeland sees retribution unequivocal painful perpetrators feel creasys wrath experience torment unleashes nothing gimmicky brand justice needs information someone loses finger wants answers homemade bomb placed places meant things punches pulled one true strengths filmbr br man fire one five best films  dvd recommendation get se loaded bonus features include  hours documentaries different commentary tracks ,0
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one year ago tomorrowi remember one year ago tomorrow friends house party feeling troubled dont like big social gatherings mostly kept myself went home together cried u held amp wiped tears tucked bed fell asleep here alone house ill probably spend tomorrow alone next day next next time call me ill come alive flip like switch right nothing is youre fine even better without me wreck theres hope hope weekend get feeling really shitty horrible get courage something end it miss,1
ive felt dead longer ive felt alivei never happy kid painfully vivid memories raped young kid memories head slammed wall floor even distinct memory concussion one time slammed hard ground head ended bouncing hitting metal support bed day im scared men man myself imy first attempt kill around time  failed inexperienced kid second time tried kill myself around time  caught complete mental breakdown mom stay local mental hospital days try get help opened nice lady there help rationalize fear hospitals feeling broken tool ready thrown away butthats also gave trying things general stopped trying school beyond minimum effort required pass stopped really associating friends school everything painfully mediocre years around time  parents finally let liberties complaining years never hung friends like ever let first place helped one school friends become one best friends able hang outside school talk demons dare share school grounds made us feel sense solidarity one another also met girl ex one friends kept trying push us together put it like black people like that crushed heart bit sort gave pursuing focused friend instead could always use those somehow ended falling anyways one friends tell me went asked birthday party two us standing outside moonlight together sounds happy right thought well months passed found cheating another dude blamed entire thing deserve loved ended attempt number three point best friend could rely pull back myself life went blissfully uneventful around time  id grown entirely discontent monotony life hated every second it planned kill halloween days banking hope people would assume im decoration sort really care late instead ended hitting really great girl distracted demons otherwise would attempt number four am two years later  clusterfuck emotions turmoil cant help wonder survived all really close family started die me godmother loved people died really young cancer ruined thought would one role models ended taking life noticeable struggle mental health better part year physical health started take dive deep end ive got crohns days struggle able get bed pain sometimes much struggle even eat know stomach throw entire fit combine constant stream migraines headaches ended spending nearly every day excruciating pain people told get help time wanted to afford insurance aging moms working minimum wage job would ever schedule part time premiums always around  month got denied reductions assistance forced choose eating place sleep able fix body all theni ended getting rape accusation levied me mind you person claims it would  time allegedly went placeand someone always hated physical contact full trauma one believed aside crazy aunt but made remember memories happened me memories long tried lock away broke again made hateful distrustful already was ended affecting performance work oftentimes depressive instead usual fake cheery self physically energy keep act anymore people company conspired get fired worked was jobless insuranceless painfilled girl hit halloween decided right got fired want deal depression anymore dumped me shattered whole world served light hope  yearsmade feel sense happiness belonging otherwise felt dead unwanted reached redflag prevention hotline three separate occasions could make feel better moment long run point best friend grown apart lot found another group friends vibes theyre recreational drug use stay sober idea might affect already fractured psyche december st  attempt number  spent days darkness tears wishing release physical pain mental anguish left house could run away somewhere kill myself cousin caught wind plan waiting outside stop me forced talk parents bothering me  year old black man broke pile tears floor explained want die even happen day would end happening point  am  days laterand sentiment gotten stronger me know exactly be know make year hope ill finally free lifetime pain another option redflag would welcome it point feel ive exhausted every option gain thank hearing guys,1
dont read youre feeling fragile treat addiction self destruction depressionive  therapists  years ive seeked treatment  said wasnt qualified deal specific issues took maternity leave chose stop seeing said since mood low however many weeks row wouldve suggested switch anyway next week got feeling far often lied actually burrowing deeper depression comments acceptance just accept im miserable person extremely difficult life basically especially comments believe god free convince im hopeless gonna get god free disproved in brief depth see last post like this free  want dont chose want people say things addicts like youve got want get better reduces simply wanting get better wanting feed addiction wanting want sobriety choice level success dependent much want it everyone admits one connects dots still try get better dont really hope feel like self destruct every scenario makes happiness feel impossible anyway seems like everybody addiction takes fucked delusional belief god karma something insist thinking positive sake youre choosing thoughts based make feel rather true seems like obvious conscious delusion treatment always seems include removing limiting beliefs seems wrong im interested removing false beliefs truth is may be ill never happy id want thought fester till take appropriate response redflag thing feel like therapists tried get believe god real reason live dont lie person good life lied me think ill probably never get better know possible never want achieve lying taking drugs everyday idea taking drugs  help see world clearly seems like obvious lie therapists seem like mirage hope horizon promising gets better wont waiting till im sad enough cave dont think hope anyone hates themself core,1
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running films rent picked freebird struggled first third movie wondering rest would waste see fortunately really warmed up loved movie quite bit second half movie grinning laughing entire time thankfully although bits cgi included overdone prevalentbr br i would say though  actors heavy european accents warned trouble understanding voices cultural humorbr br i really loved movie order copy collection,0
absolutely thoughtful spiritually deep intense hamlet ever done  version comes close jacobi best understanding role actors played it patrick stewarts claudius ferocious still sympathetic  particularly like two doofuses playing rosencranz guildenstern feckless yet sinister might gripe need strong ophelia  strong person thats point lalla ward hits proper nuances amazing simply amazing  every one two dozen times ive watched it,0
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mental hospitalso day yesterday night drinking vodka cutting myself looking around house drugs overdose etc felt unknown reason really need help spoke mom awhile finally told asked admitting mental hospital work blah blah trying explain fast possible talks social worker local clinic doctor im suppose see works calls hospital town closest hospital says go today happy insanely nervous drink which im suppose to cant drunk wanna admitted something pack stuff expecting staying awhile really nervous mom calls gp ask valium something help go door hospital get vlium injection go hospital talk doctor nurse room asks lot questions  minutes shows bed room people  beds could lot people worst nightmare reason thought would room alone past experience mental hospital  about  years ago great hospital  rooms total room own modern obviously liked it time wanted go home asap  weeks made think would like that say mom cant stay here asks nurse doctor tells cant go back room im angry now trys convince say wanna go home do point post is like adult mental hospital normally im ireland im guessing different around world anyway advice info would great sorry long,1
stop pleasei cant even work productive stay hydrated without intrusive thoughts constantly compulsions rage outbursts followed depressive episodes want life end,1
every person disappoint idea hadplease positive responses every person love end stop loving back saying liked well listened im constantly fucked around me alone forever least feels like cant trust anyone else care long term family shit life shit want kind words remind loved forever someone im either disgusting asshole useful emotional sponge please positive responses,1
idk y mum bitch sometimes example recently history essay didnt save  hrs work pressed time wanted extension thats reasonable excuse right is me history teacher probably u mum went whole rant drilling idea backing work every  minutes head that problem stopped half year ago  holidays finished reasonable forget calmly asked and clarified didnt mean offend anything thats went rant good enough me good enough consecutive honour listing years good enough getting average good enough getting  music whole good enough one many instances pettinessrudeness ps needed somewhere post this closure ya know,0
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i m never enough why do people always leave why do i always scare them away i can t anymore i want everyone to be happy but i cant do it im not enough for them i wish i can make a difference i feel so alone right now i want to disappear,1
it all started a couple year ago when i wa about to start a new job i wa lucky and bet that the stock market would go down with the few thousand dollar i made from my internship of course this wa when covid wa just hitting so i became hugely profitable from only a couple thousand dollar to m in value in only a month thinking back on it i wa crazy reckless i made my first million and then le than a week later i made my second million i wa feeling incredible thought i could retire and never have to work again but like all gambler i kept putting my money in trying to make more and more of course with the risk i wa taking eventually it would all come crashing down fast forward today i m now k in debt plus another 0k in student loan on the surface my friend think i m hugely successful because i flexed i made m to them didn t spend a dime though just kept trying to make more and more i also make 00k a year 00k salary with the rest a a one time bonus but only have in my bank account currently i no longer play in the stock market but have recently been doing sport gambling of course i keep losing money on that there are time that i go on a nice streak but it s like every time i lose i keep trying to make back my loss which make me do even dumber play i m not sure what i m expecting by writing this but i feel so embarrassed to tell the people i m close with my girlfriend of multiple year know that i no longer have a lot of money but don t know i m in debt my parent are super supportive but i m too embarrassed to tell them how bad my situation is i guess that s why i m writing to a bunch of stranger online i know my pursuit of trying to make back my money is wrong but i can t stop trying to get out of debt i feel so dumb it s like i see a rock in front of me but i keep on tripping over it it feel like i m slowly unraveling and feeling incredibly hopeless i can t sleep thinking about how my life ha gone downhill in such a short period of time my younger self would be straight up embarrassed if he could see me now i don t have suicidal thought yet but no longer feel the same motivation in life that i used to if only i never made that money in the first place,1
suicidal spoiled bratthe title real question know im both suffering depression mental illness years since early remember ive planned living past  im  currently things taken turn worse past  years blah blah lately ive move back home mom year since rate mental health decline steadily accelerating led internship kept telling would getting real position soon every month im jobless seems like real prospects hope whatsoever able move support independently bfa program place emphasis giving vocational qualifications ive overall horrible experience seeking work entire life mostly im weirdo im awkward funny looking i think major baby face also makes hard people trust adult responsibilities get hired ever feel like deserve position instances especially considering competitive city field fact worked nearly hard enough past years secure edge millions people want jobs do ampxb anyway sorry long exposition main issue this nice place live with mom one desired neighborhoods really wanted grind could probably get job duane reade starbucks even though ive gotten none countless baristachain store jobs ive applied past years even get entry level corporate position somewhere something really work hard get feet living own im going end life moms reaction pretty much occupy thoughts every day extremely long time ampxb goals life desire family children mental issues allow enjoy following food sex socializing romance existing feels like full time job ive never wanted adult cant handle watching get uglier every day whenever think working miserable job get support top this mind goes much id rather dead fair lifes fair iknow work hard even want alive first place feel im prolonging existence moms sake ampxb theres really much think would make mind staying alive living work job makes miserable would definitely keep going least little longer think fact parents could afford pay rent mom would probably much rather find dead course immediately feel like manipulative spoiled brat am wish could suck get whatever job get everything feel entitled to never works parents pay rent would make feel like burden already feel like am sometimes feel like need honest mom im thinking redflag and thikn already feeling feels emotionally manipulative i depressed spoiled manipulative suppose know im sorry post direction like me ampxb closing anyone feel like hit rock bottom alone world life cutting it know feel higher standard life anyone else really feel worth otherwise really know snap started seeing fourth therapist recently im mostly humor mom really see much read post back hate sounds really genuinely like things say make post im loss right want depress friends suicidal rambling im posting get chest maybe someone relate would love give really sad virtual high five hope thats okay much love everyone here,1
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never problems alone never complained single virgin anything like unless joke virgin dweebtill opened rteenagers saw everyone sad complaining alone started going flow know never cared loving anyone loved would like remind everyone matter realistically think ever love anyone loved anyone said matter sad alone jealous alone society raised want actually want it answer would probably suck thats thanks wasting time reading hopefully get message,0
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ughthis typical life sucks kind cry help beautiful fiance amazing career pays better should penthouse apartment overlooking city skyline close friends look me what nowhere go here getting made happier fiance starting doubt us  years pretending im depressed caused expect fine time accomplished everything ever wanted harder cover thoughts tapping distracting workschoolgym problem friends look you like talk weaknesses im sitting here alone wondering bother culmination  years striving better person actually am alone understood,1
two days uni boyfriend breaks me thirty minutes dissociative behaviour found noose made extension cordsome may seen this post made days agohttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentshyqim_terrified_university_will_push_me_over_the_edgestjmhframpsheaf  mentioned scared losing boyfriend last night came true im angry knows suicidal knows im alien environment support network  this ruins breaks me found noose around neck made extension cord  written redflag notes dont know do feel lost,1
 billion people yet still feels alone billion people connected ever yet still feel alone redflag rates insane,1
ignorei feel like life reached point possibility happy cant think anything would make want live theres nothing want nothing look forward to except death course still stay alive makes sense paradox reason redflag rightnow still choose reason nothing stopping im scared death think,1
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quite mitchell leisen fan great anticipation rented movie print got extremely bad worn use scorched seemingly beyond repair movie dark dark certain scenes cinematographed dark cant see single thing said believe share opinion first review movie starts unusually tote lines rhythms typical hollywood s movie heck even typical hollywod movie era seems director influenced europeans certain caustic realism proceedings opening shot crafted camera movement placement maggie carole lombard skid fred macmurray meet half expect start singing make believe show boatit starts laughs poor anthony one scene role speaks word english gets slapped around freddie skids bum care hes bum thats signs army hide world hes released though set screenplay shenanigans misses boat new york movie kicks high gear begin get french movie sixties vibes whole proceedings scenes well acted lombard cecil cunningham movie gains pulse macmurray good lombard fall nurtures talent trumpet temptress arrives form dorothy lamour enough plot movie fantastic montage sequences dazzled me good lombard scores home run movie second half bit called freddie fails deliver goods heavily melodramatic ending actor believe movie falls short since typical movie structure set design direction worth look one  hits  season know exact rank though,0
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see I've learned a lot about myself through RPDRI am Pan seeing these strong individuals inspire meI have anxiety/depression watching Katya & miss Fame made me realize that this wasn't normal to feel awfulI am bulimic & i need help & I'm not an exception to recovery<Emoji: Ribbon>,1
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almost got arrested im gonna kill myselfhi im jasmine im  years old random old guy screaming today friends tried break abandoned house told im worthless piece shit already crippling depression confirmed everything didnt even fucking try something illegal trying get old house cops showed door im gonna kill self prove point like stubborn asshole am ive tried say goodbye friends one responded messages im worthless yep gonna draw bath slit wrists it bye,1
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some of u are still living in denial about the state of the country that s the only way we get by day by day without falling into depression or anxiety,1
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ill leaving within next six monthsoriginally going next year as  since im graduating far earlier expecting pathetic degree point staying around long already method location said method know get it im considering june july  least time get far enough away people missing days im tempted simulate murder people think someone else not anyone particular want anyone get hurt behalf think would cool unsolved murder especially bullshit one optimal way go saving someone else taking bullet getting run car something heroic think would cool im writing write it since cant tell anyone irl without getting put away want responses really positive qualities whatsoever future never loved desired human being thats good enough reason go none know pain way know pain,1
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im done now goodbye hope find peace someday aswell my train arrives soon thoughts racing mind crazy make go is mins cease exist ill gone irrelevant mins im feeling okay this bye x,1
@Ang118  No way- GOT UP AT 3:00 or maybe 2:30 damn I am like a kid at Christmas  I KNOW- its so BAD,0
im trying become rich successful precise rich successful rapper ive slacking bit grind past months im trying pick again may grinding much want school still grind more practice music everyday mix things freestyle i need more go discord give people reviews music use positive affirmations etc im hopes im living dream life time im   perfect age life way want it ill keep grinding even make  yeah wanted make post wanna check music ask comments,0
update i believe successfully made poisonupdate httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentssfcsi_fell_in_love_theyre_depressedsuicidal got message skype i believe successfully made poison  _ _ idk say help im panic attack something,1
using sub diary day  so today really normal could keep mind letting behind ill start school tomorrow im stressed angry thats strange sure welcometomorrow ill search way hide money keep rating day  mayor sad happy event resaltate lets see tomorrow,0
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worked hard getting back contact him things going wonderfully fixed much problems caused issues relationship meeting every week slowly getting closer again last nightof course could control drinking bar course start fight him even remember told him enough say care anymore never wants talk again one thing remember begging please tell happening leave took back apartment key gave back mine good one person ever loved gone faulti feel like failure lost control drinking idiot ruining second chance got love much failed boyfriend once twice now want end all end all cannot continue knowing set path knowing broke hearti know going it know going soon always struggled suicidal thoughts biggest regret always going suicide back teen pain could avoided gone iti care anything death tired lifei know everyone better without me finally reconnecting ex ruined last night,1
minecraft drug let explain family known tiger family since like st grade entire family needed get straight would punished probably one put pressure im oldest get  stern talking to  ive never know im afraid go near that siblings taught way difference sister allowed get bs since loved dance i dont know man brother year got mac started want streamer like dream tommy guy kinda helped thinking wasnt gonna last long oh boy it school started brother failing like ss failing sister also failing different reason mom limited minecraft kept going banned computer which used time time away still failing not bad today didnt work said video games tv starts passing thing share room grounded brothers grades still tutor siblings time time get punished isnt fair minecraft caused technically,0
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hello i ll try to keep this brief i grew up in an abusive household and came to study in the u to get away from that last semester i wa assaulted my therapist say i might have some sadness and depression and i know i do but my main concern is how since starting college i literally even if my life depended on it can not focus on work i don t know if this is due to lack of motivation due to depression or some attention issue i think it might be a combination i m going to hopkins this summer for an internship and plan to see a psychiatrist there who can diagnose me any idea what kind of psychologist i should look for,1
relapsed day sucks idk im good time rn like lifes kinda coming ass probably plan funeral soon,0
 people class tested positive covid school even considering moving us video classes love country much people care students,0
think redditor passed away serious reddit account said could die within week comment within month dead heres post httpswwwredditcomroffmychestcommentslbtumso_the_doctor_just_said_that_i_could_die_next_weekutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare hope got enjoy life even get way,0
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think found biggest fear goes every think going get high school always think gonna go college get job etc reason mind instantly goes cant get job cant pay college even college going literally start scratch knowledge money college thats it im always afraid im going financially stable college guess probably odd fear really fear im kinda worried anyway hopefully makes sense anyone else wants say something since story time go ahead,0
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feeling like meds sucki got celexa latuda now im suicidal know medication reaction problem cant figure ive fucking up mg celexa upped  changed  mg latuda know meds life sucks im going sleep completely decide redflag im un committed know rationality meds cant continue okay cant continue feel everything fault need someone life tell okay cant anymore need someone need someone tell going okay,1
shout parents hating me yall really hurting feelings hear talking room,0
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aita yiffing dead furry grandpa grandpa beautiful furry fox always got hard saw him would always fondle others furry nutsacks told stories fighting japanese world war ii however recently passed away due difficulties bubonic plague devastated beyond belief seemed like lost greatest friend two weeks later went funeral pay respects wanted pay much respects one looking snuck limp body bathroom put fursuit fondled furballs crying river knowing never me however mustve cried loud mother found dead grandpa immediately took little sister drove back hotel stayed grounded gay furry porn month aita,0
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people want help not say dont itevery time ask mates someone internet suicidal thoughts say dont it ive started think really helping me dont want die selfish,1
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@ThomasSanders Ya girl stayed home from school today because of my anxiety and depression and avoided a trigger,1
two friends attempted suicide past two days planning earlier week stoped reason anyway need support need talk,1
@RebelKLV I REALLY DNT CARE CAUSE THE CAVS AINT MY TEAM.. JUST DIDN'T WANT ORLANDO TO WIN.. ,0
well okay maybe perfect pretty close movie jumped crime drama romantic goofball comedy back quickly way throughout seemed like two different movies played simultaneously joined end smoothly theater found bloody parts like scalping scene funny well threw up guess thats me greg kinear perfect soap opera actor ability perform overdramatic soap scenes right facial expressions voice intonations scenes betty seem like something sleepless seattle romantic comedy like that almost forget morgan freeman chris rock searching betty down morgan freemans fascination betty rather creepy considering could practically grandfather scenes conversing photograph definitely worth laughs chris rocks performance seems rather wooden moments renee zellweger sweet betty lovable waitress crude unfaithful husband treats like dirt unlikely would actually gotten job hospital without real credentials but hey movie go along it roommate rosa shines well woman cares betty quite know deal bettys sickness and lastly crispin glover fan his i naturally thought movie could funnier more one else style acting crispin has argument chris rock crispin sheriff soap opera hilarious guess im saying liked movie quite bit stomach blood violence lot foul language worth watch give plenty laughs,0
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mostly scared passing timeim f start childhood sucked majority highschool life spend alone sad playing video games day im  still havent finished major highly suicidal dont know recently talked psychologist first time didnt work also sessions cant keep fort corona virus every night go bed wishing didnt wake again dont know do paper hours could bothered start since quarantine sleep  hours day rarely leave bed unless necessary spend lot time crying contemplating redflag think im ready tried kill highschool think im ready now nothing brings joy anymore reddit great place waste time lurked sub years think time go sincerely hope fellow lurkers make live happy life ill watch wherever go root you thank reddit internet video games music providing comfort lonely life,1
jump rooftop todayi fantasize pf going rooftop jumping mother would care funeral costs ow makes look everybody else father get sister small shell barely remember me friends say love me theyre better without me everyone is im sitting wasted potential im fucking useless cant get anything right could help find cure cancer prestigious thing reserved people potential dont want do maybe could engineer get high school none enough im useless ill always be push people away time fuck want get away jump dont even believe afterlife want give let over dont thoughts drilled head wrong another way dont know listen anymore,1
wantto feel loved like im actually worth something would lie it lying bed belt around neck thinking wish something anything easy,1
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fuck depressed hate myselfi great life generally im med school supportive awesome family friends im smart im good looking reason depressed hate  years im thinking redflag ,1
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justgelo it sad knowing how they found her body what a crazy world we live in no child deserves that ya know,0
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so objectively best decision could make end life whatim  deep student loan debt unemployed job prospects opening time soon however student loans forgiven event death so best right could hope break even offing myself make sense ill admit ive many drink tonight ive got loaded gun sitting within arms reach could totally it problem goal life help people thats spent much fucking money education looking things way now think best option future call quits someone talk me,1
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wanna dieplease wanna know painless way dying nothing else,1
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i m really desperate i m a yr old guy with no job even if i graduated from college no girlfriend never kissed or hugged a girl in my life no real friend most of them are toxic amp manipulative nothing special about me i don t know if i m pretty or ugly smart or dumber i m so confused about my self image it s like i live in hell get rejected by ton of girl ton of job offer i feel like i will live my whole life virgin single jobless loser i m too nice too shy always extremely anxious and stressful dealing with brain fog bad accent shitty voice low self esteem zero talent nothing good about me maybe i m only good at math amp coding i can t hold a good conversation with anyone only with my mom amp my brother i feel kinda confident speaking and it s been a while i m depressed living with a dark mood i feel like i m a loser amp i can do nothing i can t even go to gym practice favorite hobby or enjoying any movie youtube video video game etc i don t know what to do with my life i only think about option therapy ending my life sorry for my english it s not my native langage,1
financial guilt wearing downmy family poor celebrate christmas year fault student loans moving expenses medical bills  im basically one big walking debt machine even know bother living make everything worse even mom finally fed me claims im reason depression spent today sitting home dad rest family splintered side continent agreed pretend everything fine fine  cant stop thinking life would better everyone around dead feel haunted thought im starting genuinely think truth,1
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clearly reason fim done really really done everything ive trying fake happiness mental stability cant really anymore im slipping im depressed ive ever life know triggered current suicidal thought explosion gotten point frequent cycles suicidal thoughts increasing frequency length means kill myself even quickly ive got gun car could drive mountains drive road somewhere one find end it one clean mess ill make sure tie loose ends itll fine ill free im close it scary thing im trying cry trying relieve tension eyes burning tears fall cant anymore know get better start,1
just graduated. i cried like 5 times. i miss you all already. cant wait to see you in 3 months. congrats on the scholarship stephanie! ,0
never supposed alive tldr parents never wanted feel like reason anymore even stay feel life would continue shit storm dont see theres hope people come world unwanted everything hard me everyday felt like battle even consciously aware living one nothing goes right matter hard try supposed way youre supposed miserable years theres supposed peace somewhere within know misery father even told recently mom hospital dying never supposed alive parents abusive also extremely abusive relationship stress literally kills thats dying stress life dad ultimately put through cause death mom never wanted me shes like  abortions maybe more knows point dad forced nerve even show hospital sign birth certificate wrong many levels youve got sick fuck order something incomprehensible guess thats feel stuck lost now come something like supposed rest life mainly feel cursed love one best parts alive since ill never experience family loving whats point theres romantic love thats really built love comes family wont exist either dont know life never wanted anyone first place everything feels vacant painful,1
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need advice suicidal friendme ben friends forever hes struggled anxiety depression long remember first time mentioned redflag years ago seemed like thought concept back then past year so hes problems finding meaning life understanding wants problems making friends ive one confidants everything hes bro  love him really taking toll me ive told issues depression well always seem take backseat suicidal fact suicidal makes feel like need matter what selfish turn down never make false promises never tell going get better normally listen try tell im him love him normally go anywhere drinks lot lot drugs drinks hell call times night hell text hes work feels like always on tells hes sorry uses me tells hes shit friend nothing live for tell im him ill always him know lot say tell get therapy immediately hes going need back well how im friend seems awful impossible cant keep up im really hurting cant help him know do im sorry poorly structured help advice give would nice thank you,1
mean guy this text one day stopped texting next day thanked friend even though work sent that message started talking messages again bruh mean maybe want see texted first know never im scared reach show attention pain caused me im cool friends want one always checking challenged see text first lmao miss putting effort text me,0
i am a male who should be having the time of his life in college meeting new people getting a degree experiencing all that life ha to offer in reality i dont want to be here any more i feel that i am in people life to help them through their stuff and then one they re fix im out of their life i feel like there are maybe people in the world that would miss me if i wasn t here i feel like everything i do on a daily basis is to keep an appearance that i want to live and that i am doing thing for me i have never been this close to just accepting the fact and just not waking up tomorrow i know it might hurt some people that i know but i am dont suffering in silence and i am done with this facade that i have to keep up every single day of my life my life feel like it is on repeat the same thing happen and i dont feel anything besides not wanting to be here i dont feel emotion like others do i can go from laughing like im about to cry to a straight face within second i dont feel sadness i dont feel happiness like others i am in a constant state of numbness i dont want to play this game anymore im done with it there no one i trust that i can share this with and no one in my life truly understands this,1
so the next fall is deeper and harder to bear each time there s one little glimmer of hope i know that it s ephemeral and could be gone the next day but i can t stop myself from getting lost in it thinking maybe this time it could be real for a while and some time it doe lurking there for a while like just right then but when it s lost it s going down ten time worse than the last and the anxious and unbearable state i m in is urging me to destroy myself even more it s like being locked inside a transparent box full of insect and reptile crawling over me it s slowburn and icky and suffocating i just want to bite my tongue off quick to release myself from the situation but i m still scared of the monstrous pain that act would cause me and if i m not dead immediately it s grotesque i made a first post here a while ago just to let it out i don t think anyone would care but i got called a very nasty stupid word like i m always afraid would happen if i even complain in real life so i don t even want to talk about it right now i just can t take any more anxiety i don t even want to think about it and write them down anyway same shit all over again why don t i get used to it when it keep happening am i that weak it s like how dare you have depression and suicidal attempt if your life look like you re having a fucking blast believe me it s all a big facade i m putting up so i could delay the speed of this horrible decay inside me to feel a bit bearable to last one more day but nowadays i just stop giving a fuck and destroy everything in my life and lock myself inside my room i use humor and shit to cope so i think at least there s one good thing coming from this right now is that i couldn t eat a thing so i m getting thinner to bone and skin like i always wish and if i die right now i could look prettier than ever before i m glad you read until now and i do appreciate that it make me feel a bit bearable for now my anxiety level keep shooting through the roof i just try really really hard to not harm myself and fall to the pit again,1
write friend diei really want sound like emotional attention whore though tendency that someone please tell say anything all really want say goodbye without feeling like obligation anything say anything nobody else,1
bitch come and go but depression stay,1
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sub die time annoying sometimes familiar people americans maybe thats dont see them,0
oneive episodes ive planned perfect ways myself planned out everything think redflag way shit gets bad know ill enter void gone im perfectly okay that im even slightly afraid humanity march on perform great things without me but things is im straight student labeled gifted woefully pathetic school friends girls like me family loves me im getting job offers ive never much upset about even that look gore watch redflag videos executions murder get kind satisfaction fact bother me strange attraction cant want shake nobody else knows hide quite well frequent websites filled content people would call horrible shit not naming names know type affect me feel know say it stronger im immune fear death even attraction it control it fits anger hurt people animals feel makes better rageoholics wifebeaters serial killers control myself unlike them addition that feel opposite ends emotional spectrum extreme happiness extreme sadness make mistake thinking im manicdepressive though eventbyevent basis something amazing could make quite happy know flip side coin something somewhere triggers extreme sadness days im mostly limbo feeling empty thing close sad get im wellbutrin depression probably helping getting addicted passiveaggressive redflag cigarettes dip tell reddit sick head crazy ask because first time long while think am im ,1
anybody needs friendi mailing list close friends gone going through want someone talk to pm me edit send email woofugcscaltechedu,1
cliff trainwhich one would choose get cliff  foot drop train station high speed trains go every morning,1
anyone ever wanna sleep like  hours like maybe sleep  hours tired sleep   hours im still gonna tired day also sleeping  hours sounds peaceful fun,0
@Rubberbandits one of yer lads was on with Tommy Tiernan a few months back on about depression & suicide. I know women who have committed suicide after abortion. I considered it. Maybe it is the plastic bags on yer heads that stop ye from seeing reality. In EVERY abortion a child dies.,1
depression is a killer of faith.#IN_HIS_PRESENCE_MUSICAL_EXPERIENCE_2018_Loading#YAHWEH_TO_THE_WORLD#GWG_NATION,1
brief fling girl hallwe met day later ran dining center next day mostly naked bed gonna first date evening interestedshe hit i cant im devastated since sorta prepared it im still little sad it,0
enough the depression message in a bottle and the very first night streaming party starting now http t co fqjbmbhawg,1
whats like close friends  ones consistently talk to actual conversations get go with hang feel like it maybe get know parents n vice versa maybe getting acknowledged parents like youre almost kid freely sending messages something comes mind venting n stuff must nice even friends,0
Vintage Depression Era Candlewick Single Candle Holder By Imperial Glass Company  https://seethis.co/Ydmd8Q/ ,1
slugsoul adopt last time asked said mmmmhm,0
decided hang myselfhaving tested method confirm likely work hanging belt padding between people realise hang door im sad hopeless tired thank everyone one helped sub good people,1
slowly realizing life made me suicide seems inevitable want die peacefully though need death exciting adrenaline rush maybe something like jumping plane bombs attached me maybe heist gone wrong sounds like better experience slitting wrists anybody else want go bang,1
love babies  theyre cute ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,0
miss guy treated like shitwe friends doesnt matter thought close lied stole shit tried break room months since ive got place now still think miss good moments know didnt really care cause wouldnt done shit dont go much cause im afraid running places used go to brain dumb dumb,1
my boat has been floated by @stephenjerzak ,0
cant thisim much trouble keeping school im falling behind feel like failure cant anymore even know im still alive cant keep going cant breathe feel like im suffocating air breathe everyday im drowning drowning without end voices tell end it might listen voices scare anymore comforting want end pain suffering without it need end it mom took pills want razor upstairs cant go kitchen ill think razor feeling skin blood come out scar,1
i sooo can not afford to get an iphone,0
actual fuck guys already failed nut november even day yet everybody coomed used think coomer yalls cant even go fucking day without busting nut like god damn swear yalls tryna failing nut november speedrun any world record,0
"Well... another dayoff, another stream.no warframe today. Frostpunk, chill music and relaxed depression.Stream starts at 16:00 (+4 UTC)see ya at  http://twitch.tv/lokisnail #SupportSmallerStreamers#nightstreams@TwitchBoost@TwitchGrower@TwitchRTsBot@TwitchNetworkin",1
im functionally retardedi give up im  entered graduate school feel it socially im retarded fuck enough date without knowing is such failed said social encounter end last year lost one relationship helped view world less callous banal place id began abusing prescription drug ambien addition alcohol hindered cognitive abilities ability cope anxiety depression met drinking talking people stale driftwood amounting great socially acceptable height  foot  male ive told egotistical conducting inventory whatever qualities feel have theres nothing would support kind delusional selflove realizing sum things im absolutely terrible academics social situations value self often think redflag solve anything certainly burden others either,1
fuck fuck fuck friend tried kill self last night im scared took bunch pills throw thankfully shes ok fuckkk didnt want tell would get ideas said wasnt suicidal lied fuck say her,0
copped rteenagers merch ready get beat fuck go back school,0
i m having a horrible night and i m too nervous to call the suicide crisis hotline i just need someone to talk to really bad please,1
@bore www.power.com ,0
Breakfast is my favorite meal. Time for cereal ,0
@marcusschossow bet that is invented in sweden! hahah ,0
i ve had bad anxiety for five year and been diagnosed with panic disorder and ocd but the past three month are really scaring me i feel derealized dissociated almost all of the time i can barely go to class work drive even the grocery store because i have a fear of passing out or suddenly feeling disconnected from everything even fun thing i can t enjoy because i m so overwhelmed with anxiety and start questioning if everything is real or not i also feel like i can t even remember what feeling normal is supposed to feel like i don t know how bad my anxiety is anymore because i don t remember what the baseline feel like i m in the process of finding a psychiatrist but it seems like it s gon na be a while can anyone relate could really use some support tip right now,1
lot comments seem treat film baseball movie feel secondary really living japan really succeedsbr br i spent years living japan suppose reason movie well sort experienced japan get it watching welltravelled friend whos never japan noted many events movie ludicrous destroyed suspension disbelief reply events absolute unvarnished truth life japanbr br i think movie definitely worth watching especially lived japan interested it,0
"Treat work related depression at the Kalm Centre today.The mental health of employees is imperative to the success of any organization. Sadly, mental health of employees is often overlooked in the corporate world....  https://www.facebook.com/HrLinksGhana/posts/1635375116499792 …",1
trying to get an itunes receipt and listening to tinpan orange ,0
sun blotted out cant live total darknessthe thing stopping hard resetting access firearm far easy way go im weak make situation less miserable live wretched double life pretending someone im not im victim habits entrenched  years misery top ive dumped presumably jerk mind stalling every moments racing million thoughts utterly motivation left ruined life terminal fear redflag socially acceptable cant commit entering eternal sleep without fretting much leave behind hope heart stops beating mourned briefly forgotten about,1
got surprised by a beautiful bouquet of red roses with a bride &amp; groom teddy! thanks for the early wedding gift helmi! ,0
i get so many thing done when i m not in a depression episode,1
whats worst question friend ask husband filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
get k likes  awards ill delete account think supposed delete regularly never got attention child im trying make it im going edit out probably,0
someone explain charles manson kill people people supporting,0
movie great messagea impressive cast ellen burstyn samantha mathis jodelle ferland  years old made movie ellen burstyn jodelle ferland nominated best actress tv drama upcoming emmy awards new york peter mastersondirector nominated best director tv drama emmy awards also april   jodelle ferland won best actress tv drama young artist awards studio city ca see  nominations mermaid true story cridits real family set something see often find mermaid blockbuster video stores watch ityoull glad did,0
friend killing rt now please helpmy friend  bars xanax g coke super high tolerance wants die clean year breakup this do think kill gets eventually im canada anyone know please let know asap idk long has get put drunk tank something,1
drowning pain all wondering long moves on sad fuck think husband loves anymore,1
one hour workout im really proud yeah  im happy,0
@brunoshine it's a secret ,0
realized im finally old enough take goat know test take fallout decides job bad already one ima go take test see be fallout  official one course,0
wanting endive frequently thought redflag ideal way it idk could ever actually bring it nothing really seems feasible lately ive hoping get terminal disease like cancer something let run course get rid me unfortunately im  theres much chance happening anytime soon,1
may sound dumb want dio run fade blonde bastard killed dog ruined love jonathan erina i think im starting season one fight stand stone mask know imma die imma it would prefer fight mask stand,0
@mysteriousmysti hope u have alotta fun seeing green day. they're an awesome band ,0
want dohold whatever feeling keeping committing redflag never let go maybe fear maybe know really want die maybe cant leave someone like that whatever reason make reason follow every time feel horrible feeling sending positive vibes love guys truly understand like suicidal thoughts tonight im really rough night im going remember hold feeling keeps anything able take back,1
daftasabat i needed a lie in lol i haven t slept for more than hour in a few day now it s killing me,0
im gonna gate this fuck it typing song mobile part  life jacksepticeye bouncin around speed sound im alone alonecan see me lights around hello hello hello hello light battery might die im beyond words know why god could deactivate deactivate heart made stone of stone life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life play ay ay im say im gonna smack ass major way game game game designed play badly thats game bedown windy river go angsty teen know shadows reality dream even know best be life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life come along run away me fail better feel come me gravity good ol eggs benedict thats me thats me good ol jackseptibenedict thats wanna be eggs benedict theyre fuckin delicious way might need eggs benedict every day every day eggs benedict eggs benedict eggs benedict end day were tryin find eggs benedict life ohooh right ohooh realized might know hell going on fool once fool twice im still gonna try oh im gonna carry on oh break bones mine im still champion life ohooh life life ohooh life probably get back up also jacksepticeye ive already done way  songs bad lip reading,0
although totally agree previous comment regarding marvellous acting toni servillo titta di girolamo would also like add beautiful filming montage turns movie virtually painting young director paolo sorrentino courage experiment different types camera techniques reminded darren aronofsky requiem dream used mtvstyle filming combined modern alternativetechno music making film le consequenze dellamore  stand apart crimemafia movies genre even though movie may start slowpaced almost sec compared faster hollywood productions enjoyed cause serenity marvellous character portray splendid ending definitely must see people enjoy europeanitalian cinema ps toni keep acting like need encore,0
hmm ternion powerful know late party today noticed award called ternion powerful cost  fucking shmackeroons one gather enough money start thinking giving  dollar award reasonable weirdest thing someone reddit think implementing good idea props anyone ever gave it like guys think dont understand it,0
found film usual french slap americas face camera often focuses fat people sloppy homes tacky rural areas narration seems sympathize admire small town folks introduced viewer cinematography exploits demeans them were undoubtedly thin people seen glencoe neat organized homes malle chose show us worst seen br br i hope american filmmakers go france reveal american public worst elements assure you frequent visitor france well there foreign immigrants readily assimilated thus creating severe social inequities americans eager unmask french prejudice toward compatriots envy toward us were likely see films subject,0
another reviewer called lack character development call understatement movie bash one head overexplanation unnecessary backstory yes many untold stories got glimpse of primarily oneday snapshot event catalyzed change characters lives henry thomass performance really lovely study power acting focuses reaction rather action good rental,0
hate male jk hate human,0
byei rifle mouth im going kill myself im fucking done shit one respects even though work much harder them im thin cant gain muscle feel like shit everyone fucking hates someone right trying kill lets say close family done online sales store went under cant wait dead dont say people love true trust me,1
heeey labled gifted child mental problem gang vome share story soo fall like grades sports whatever,0
i m trying to take a sick mental health day but it s not working i m so paranoid i won t get to graduate eighth grade for having absence yeah our school give u 9 per semester but i m scared and yeah my principle ha been pretty lenient and let people with f s pas i have good grade but i always think everything is going to turn out horribly for me no matter what i do i feel so useless my friend don t seem like they even like me i m pretty much down to one friend that actually like me and it s an older girl i met online and that s pretty much it i want to die everyone and everything end up hurting me,1
i forget that i m depressed and not normal because people love to bash me for not caring about most thing other human do like making lot of money and being better than everyone else lmao i made a post earlier about how i ll never do extra work at my job bc it s not worth it knowing from experience and being on that side i know you just get used by company and they never pay you what you deserve so anyway i realized i don t care for most thing other people do lmao and for what why should i care it s not worth caring,1
"@westlifesgirl Hey, definitely no album in time for september sorry to say. But watch this space for tour info  x",0
pain perpetual cant find way stop allevery day uncomfortable cycle inner anguish nerve kill yet believe heart narcissist seeks optimism family died lovers left travel thousands miles away please convince slip numbness death kill myself hate everyone world dont think life right me much pride ask help real life,1
theres cranefly room someone come get me im scared ,0
dont know anymore xpost depressionive posted before sorry rant im helpless lost depressed increasing amount thoughts dead feel dull clumsy dumber minute affects whatever do grades starting drop outcast wherever go cant make friends lack hobbies social skills cannot say complete sentence without miswording stuttering sounding like complete idiot completely ignored whenever try contribute anything whether roommates class group mates general ive going counseling counselors university end telling try medication which strictly against go another counselor cant go private counselor evidentially lead parents knowing happy fact still depressed avoid talking because really help all ive tried going gym  months progress despite diet make feel better self conscious ive tried going clubs still outcast cant make friends anywhere else im peak else go one else speak to want die,1
contemplating redflagim sitting thinking wheter kill myself cant seem convince cant decide wheter scared die enough conviction it hate everything ive done im much coward kill myself,1
second attemptinstead  pills took  time know help anymore second time hospital week want stay tomorrow really really wanna go home like watched heart breaking pieces knowing someone made snap someone said love anymore,1
seriously contemplated redflag never followed it made continue livingi depression im hysterically sad anything like right now ive come realization again simply anything want live for closest thing feel could live right now help parents pay house debt out gratitude much helped me even motivation greatly hinges emotionalmental well eg whenever piss off makes want help them maybe job becomes unbearable biggest reason im still alive im afraid family react im gone besides that absolutely passion life seriously highlight day eat even moment becoming bland every day things used make happy primarily video games excite anymore lost nearly interest life ive lost nearly motivation speaking people going sound like weird contradiction mind feels like theres tornado inside it filled stress confusion associated life responsibilities heart feels low unmotivated want guys think im planning killing soon anything like that seriously want give stuff save  sever contact family friends take bus beach figure there,1
Jonas Brothers youtube i SUSPENDED indefinately! know how that feels. I HATE copyright. Saw JB and HM today  Away to watch The Reader..,0
want to cry,0
even know right place post completely overwhelmed husband committed inpatient today talking behavioral health know struggling idea would lead this stupid military hospital let civilian visitors right either know expect never side things anyone give info please husband involuntarily committed,1
lost hopei  yearsold guy injured himself right there sheer curiosity ive probably forfeited chance successful lovesex life probably rest life jeezus yes  ive ruined penis jelqing peripheral nerve damage axonotmesis feel little sensation although only day seven sensitivity supposed return day fifteen due kind trauma ive sustained fella also slightly bent everybodys telling worry  everything fine  urologist agrees parents become sick concerns listen me friends turned fairly useless everybody minimises condition cant see progress hope nothing sensitivity low almost piss sometimes carefully time loo breaks result theres joy living anymore fateful evening plans future joined gym hung friends even planned enroll university getting gbf more ive always depressed straw broke back cried way work morning thinking end all thing keeping thought parents family friends honestly cant bring break hearts one hand still want live ive got much love give body let to cant bear living among happy people enjoyable sex lives id kill get time machine stop that,1
hey broettes im natsuu nice meet ya ampxb already met da bros seemed cool,0
tasouls what stupid show were you watching lol not that there is any shortage,0
ha tonsilitis on my birthday,0
many american people would saywhat opening comment yes know comparison without doubts insult fans master akira kurosawa analyze movie comment right peasant goes town searching help band grasshoppers wants steal harvest village great difference way story takes samurais band circus performers original complex mixture personalities end village needs heroes please watch incredible movie the seven samurai obviously find another movies stolen story tried get magic effect masterpiece akira kurosawa tip th warrior antonio banderas michael crichton copied story wrote best sellers found third foot cat,0
@bryoz  I &lt;3 easter eggs though ,0
Thank you for the follow  http://bit.ly/m7lRb,0
wanna go wendys hq ask  piece mcnugget town walk ask  piece mcnugget bug mac,0
feel like ask parents help therapy would brush off ask family would mock brush too idea ask help without throwing everything left away cannot bring strength ask help,1
tried overdose xanax alcoholi want live anymore im  nearly millionaire im still happy whole entire family died  still haunts every day  years gun matter painful might would end instant really need help someone talk to shitty hotlines anything need get stuff chest thanks reading,1
somebody please help mei see world coming around really scary really want time im afraid die feel like im unlovable feel like set fail beginning life whats point even trying anymore somebody please talk sense oh god please edit want thank everybody posted here ive chosen live think guys helped that wonderful people ,1
reddit glitched cant see comments,0
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please want stop,1
whats gobeing reason were likely thinking thought ending one point anyone ever wondered whats after think after thoughts wonder lot feel like important since believe peace after please hate other accept different views simply say feel think could happenanything might help one us way direction,1
sittin in the car  twittering... hmm i cant see trends from twitterific.... what is everybody talking about???,0
DEPRESSION IS NO JOKE.    #박봄제발내버려두세요,1
ahhh the drafthouse had a surprise world premiere screening of the new star trek last night and i wa at torchys,0
want ground open swallow mei dont want deal pain heartbreak cant deal ruined am dont want this me,1
why can t people like me what did i do wrong am i really just a shitty person i ve known for a long as while that no one like me but i ve just ignored that fact and smiled and tried to socialize with others it just make thing worse and i m just an annoying fuck i just wan na know why i m annoying i ve accepted all of this today and realized that no one give a fuck about me even my own family think i m just a burden why can t people just like me,1
know doi  essays due tomorrow cant get touch teachers absent yesterday hands shaking cant get work done cant calm know do need help relieving stress anything help,1
think im gonna sit fire weekwhats point life filled filled pain know life might change dont even want feel joy dont want feel anything anymore,1
step  step step  step  step  severe brrain damgblage step  yes,0
Playing with the grands....Just had instant grits that get everywhere.    It's so much fun!   Love it!   Hope everyone is well.  Smile,0
"@katlilytwit Ugh, don't even pay attn to me when i'm like that. It was really nothing that serious. I am, as they say, a loose cannon. ",0
want subreddit rules look further place you rshitpostrepublic want post anything post here barely leadership dont worry getting post deleted side effect take advantage rules example spamming banned final,0
best friends dad committed redflag year ago seems im still caught upback story last november rd roommate time and best friends dad committed redflag friend dad odds years especially dropped engineering pursue another degree never spoke often except father mad him spoke father once conversation cold brief needless say majority stress friends life came father mother sweetest woman think ever met became close phone calls together often great times together went visit retired french teacher  teaches piano goes marathon length runsbikesand cross country skiing daily happy healthy amazing woman father also retired job keep people breathing came ambulances sorry remember actual title saw lots people die arms grew cold recluse this always kind strong silent type would spend weeks time woods thats backstory commited redflag rd birthday th mom finally able build strength call th way work received call first person called devastated got home soon could life became blur there went home about  hours away saw mother first time told story finding note calling police helped roommate clean excess supplies dad fixing way go roommate stayed mother never returned house together necessary responsible him gone bad break two month previous loosing best friend well dealing emotional weight put dark place while flash forward year later call ask come birthday weekend express understanding cant come down asks why say well least want home rd why that year anniversary dads death oh ever mom new bf seeing fine know many different ways people cope grief people hide shrug avoid it know best friend inside out hold back other legitimately feel though situation myself think almost daily basis still dream coming home house everything involved there roommate unintelligent guy opposite true honest mathematical logical tend tune emotion maybe why sure sorry long post want know people similar experiences before strange still bugs much maybe talking one spewing inner thoughts onto reddit post,1
@JayteKz got a lot of thoughts in my head right now depression is hitting me hard right now but I'm hanging in there love you man,1
im sick dealing lifeim  diagnosed depression anxiety ptsd  due trauma related dad lost custody  feeling form regret life bad moments even tiny bit close mom treats me divorce remember telling im older ill see much monster mom is time brushed mom forced thinking psychotic monster see talking about emotionally verbally abused day day constantly guilt tripped need here ive worsening suicidal thoughts since  im writing room mom trying hold back tears close ending it family memebers go to grandparents family friends even friends go to ive called cps never form wellness check cant go therapy im planning ending soon sounds dramatic really cant wait another  years im scared mom im scared continuing live,1
ive realised dreamworks produced lot animated shows netflix people actually care about stuff like voltron kipo shera turbo fast tales arcadia shows etc never would thought studios behind shrek would behind shows,0
thing thats stopping painif pill could swallow end without pain would throat five seconds hesitation premed student know much stupid body matter try end going hurt lot,1
smell funny quite pungent,0
need help socialhi depressed long time now point cant sleep well cant stand awake also noticed starting short people talk quieter quieter teachers school talk kind pass yea just getting school noticed one thing really hurts outside im introverted shy inside extroverted want talk people badly im scared hurts cant talk anyone cant get conversation normally wish could talk people friends like people anyone tips advice think im trying talk people anything would helpful dont really know im even asking wanting here im really weird place would love help cause want get better dont want depressed suicidal anymore want better person,1
im trading stories secrets anything ur willing trade embarrassing stories nsfw stories sad stories happy got secrets share well good trade ask tell,0
i m a sophmore in high school and i do no extracurriculars which bother me the most i think the only hobby i have is drawing and i lost interest in band over the pandemic and i dont have the motivation to get back in i dont take challenging class because im too lazy for the workload i can barely do basic hygiene i dont exercise at all and every day after school i go home and lay in bed alone doing nothing until i go to sleep to be honest i am happier with my life than i used to be because i finally have a decent friend group so i dont feel like im wasting high school really i just feel like a huge useless loser with no hobby in comparison to my friend i cant do the most basic of thing anymore because everything is so much harder,1
susanstn opps still unable to dm you at the moment maybe twitter bug after the maintenance,0
people say want hear give uphas anyone else experienced this youll talking someone wants hear anything soon start talking already look tired it like oh saying wanna hear helps lot thank you,1
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victimdo go gentle thy good night rage rage dying light,1
dont really know title this thank listening way home mom said dad told felt bad way ive talking recently cant tell said jokingish tone not know said her feel really bad kind like worst person alive really love mom fact wasnt speaking right makes feel worse going sit weeks ive really trying stay positive month hard reason feel stressed like im anything right like theres something wrong me got period thats probably helping feel like sound negative speak maybe stop talking together dont feel like im good feel mean dont want mean apologized lot said okay kind said smile still feel bad feel awful didnt mean speak badly feels like much this thank x,0
up and showered now to get dressed for the late shift lollypop,0
drinking  me some coffee  i &lt;3 dunkin dounuts,0
actinglikeamama oh you have a recipe for gyro i developed an addiction in germany and haven t been able to find any i like in au,0
i ve been going to therapy on and off for year to help me with anxiety depression and difficult life event i m trying to learn tool on my own to educate myself i m aware of self care and coping strategy but i m having a hard time with self awareness of my own anxiety symptom and trigger doe anyone recommend any resource to learn in this area thank you,1
ik literally everyone done this ima anyway nice cock got there bro good day,0
im honestly doneth march ill goneah friend suggested subreddit realised reasons minuscule might well reasons even exist first place anyways go longest ramble history  made promise would kill time  couple weeks be need hurry up honestly dont know wanted eh  lets hope joking thought cliche thing friday th april thats week birthday dont need pressure reasons want ahem kick bucket lately everyone pressuring hurry get sort place university quickly loose chance would  years would attend besides know wont last long cant remember last time happy wasnt medication remember plenty quite lot medication none naturally lastly im generally done ill grab box thats full blades grab pill bottle grab note ive writing since  honestly like book short story everything ive put it lets hope lets hope dont survive ive survived many times,1
man im too fucked to be in work,0
wow fantastic film opinion expecting good captivated start finish well made educational film really gives us fascinating insight trials darwin go order convey ideas world chronicling life writes origin species fighting personal demons well ignorant society time order so struggles hard mind body soul personal matters get breaking point even family seems slip awaywhilst rest world stand knows findings literally shake foundations lives culture meaning existence subtle movie not overexaggerated way typical hollywood way bbc produced british film yet thankfully powerful meaning thanks amazing well directed scenes well superb acting bettany connelly acts light supporting role enjoy good expected always chemistry alongside husband definitely strong endearing could feel connection reallife husbandwife bond definitely shines performances star show definitely bettany brilliant job touching performance understood sympathised battled degrading health impending insanity try understand uncovered come terms really means found thinking contradict feelings found losing including wife course firm believer religion strict christian whilst realm science two worlds could see eye eye relationship stake toobr br anyway really good well acted emotional drama dare say shed tear tragic climax truly heartbreaking well beautifully poignant moving film symbolic intellectually artistic well fact cant wait watch lot take first time round missed easily one best films ive seen year,0
im  im give uptheres many things wrong abusive step father absent father mother loves accept myself fact barely stand look mirror general stress school im breaking down know talk to last time tried get help sent christian counseling thing help all know do going almost  years im barely holding,1
feel like im kinda losing best friend best friend attend different colleges theyre  minutes away due civil seeing other still speak phone least twice month program classes person hes always someone else partying such im stuck student apartment one talk to know irrational hes told cant wait see know means it cant stop feeling like hes moving way faster life leaving dust guess asking teens advice best idea rant so help welcome,0
depression ya these day yi nobu bipolar inside which one is this one,1
school lunch ever sit nice delicious school lunch frozen cold,0
suicidal  yr oldim  best friend  years  yr old recently tried kill later admitted redflag watch detailing plan second attempt best friend incredible person wants help well read great communicator friend asked help knows hes great things want everything help theyve already persevered much hes family far im concerned best things support them best resources parents suicidal kids best support son advice means know thank you,1
think arabfunny think cool little bit confusionary cool,0
mom dad sister get trouble reason constantly gang iq test long back mine came back  around  might think besides point not reason expect swing pitch voice constantly talk like would talk baby reason think im talking like baby they talk like babys everyone everyone them aka vice versa prefer talk normally smoothly unless emergency something requires different pitch reason think im mean them saying good response smooth normal voice ground reason theyve even gone far swearing me threatening kick house im  even questions ask ape like example might watching tv ask im watching playing tv ill prefer answer theyre staring tv me proceed gang ground didnt reply even explained didnt fuck wrong people,0
icedcoffee they end up back a read only and still the error persists i cant add anything to the library now so cant update my,0
feel like i m stuck in a rut waiting to hear back from school is killing me also decided to take a break from wow for awhile,0
ok compare explosive tempo first parts opening sequence visual shock value nor matter melancholic suspense second installment no surprisingly refreshingly different apart course two main actors tongueincheek futuristic scenario drives characters towards across genres languages almost gravitational force moment impactconclusion choice of ashakespearean metaphor life humanity cartoon costume bsublimation violence homoerotics chumorous detonation impossible buildup everything even less unequivocalbr br highly recommended indiscriminate movie buffs mind following foie gras hot dog caution refined palates,0
Drinking a cuppa ,0
in 0 i found out a former friend and person i used to have sex with in 0 wa posting my naked photo to a nude sharing reddit page kik and trading them with stranger on the internet we lived in two different country when i discovered this and the only thing i could do wa call email with the police in his area and inform his girlfriend at the time the police didn t really do much but they were able to track him down and tell him by phone or in person not really sure that he should delete the image he ha of me that wa all that came of it the police couldn t really even ensure he had deleted them his girlfriend broke up with him i did speak to him and he sounded sorry to have been caught he didn t seem to feel bad at all for how he made me feel ever since i have been struggling with this i feel extremely violated and stupid especially since he could still have the photo and be trading them with other people i wa only 0 and he wa when we were sharing nude and having sex and i feel like i did something that could potentially follow me forever i wa struggling hard with mental illness at the time i also had very little sleep and a stressful schedule i feel like i went into some depressive spiral and i started doing dangerous and promiscuous thing including being with him i know it s not an excuse however most day i just try not to think about what happened but some day it come so strong and i get an intense urge to kill myself i am currently married to the love of my life and he wa an amazing support when i discovered my image online in 0 i know doing something bad to myself would absolutely crush him but i feel so worthless sometimes i still feel so violated i have the guy blocked on facebook but i know who his current partner is and i occasionally type in the usernames he used to share image to make sure there havent been any post since then he still seems to have a kik username active under the same name but i have no idea if he is still using it the police told me it would be hard to prosecute for something like this so telling me that i should try to get legal help is useless i obviously can t tell most people about this only my husband know so thank you for listening it s been year now since this all happened and i still occasionally feel extremely suicidal over it i don t know what to do to stop this i struggle with depression and anxiety on top of this but i usually don t feel suicidal unless this come up thanks for listening,1
i m on sertraline for anxiety while it ha lowered it it ha increased background anxiety even when i m going nothing it suck and it ha caused me to have a floppy noodle male when having sex which suck even more for me and her,1
anyone want get betteri good days sometimes wish didnt find wanting miserable strength kill myself like life shitty enough make suffer tolerable enough cant take it gets frustrated want way out need share im going probably one even read worth try,1
feel terribleat point want die even know wrong anymore want cut,1
can t upload my pic,0
want post rtrans bc want sister see it sorry little sister mtf transgender closet family conservative homophobic coming would dangerous lately becoming depressed bc cannot really herself scared mental health worsen could become suicidal already saying motivation wants everything end support more idea help  think would want go therapy parents expect perfect child would want ask therapy concern them know difficult situation give advice on especially since none know details advice would really appreciate it want okay  advice trans sister,1
things considered stand aside first time got involved could give description went down im going privacy reasons times able average person tell breakfast lunch dinner snacks given day years ago gets mixed head usually react badly anniversaries incidents involve blamed someone dying,1
first night postingi posted rdepression ive lurking sub lot longer ive depressed almost  years length people sub bet bragging horrible older people like here sometimes think people used know people used feel like me see apparently grown it see still thinking redflag everyday cant snap outgrow wake fuck get act together sometimes wonder seeking help even yield results all long ive gone deep feeling depression taken hold corrupted soul cant even remember feeling happy anymore differentiate feelings sometimes feel like depression seeped brain taken hold existence good life job loving girlfriend car friends family every time im social setting like tonight baby shower get fucking sad sit room see smiling faces laughing fun laugh inside feel inadequate hard even put words feel sit there sit next girlfriend know someone else better someone passion life enjoys everyday activities feel life  sitting next someone sit present think back head holding back watery eyes thinking there exist all im taking space im holding everyone back everyone positive force pushing happiness personality universe im fucking black hole anti matter wanting fade away leukemia fine long take pill everyday rest life diagnosed  years ago taken medication  months know refill it,1
"Watching wizards of waverly place, lol lol lol ",0
going to the mall ,0
I'm not! They frighten me to death............I just like to see all the boys in their leathers!  ;) We go every year. Brilliant atmos!,0
hey there im looking drummers vocalists im guitarist im making song rn need metalheads like metallica megadeth like play bass rhythm lead  harmony parts need drummer vocalist drummer have  acoustic drums w recording system electric drums vocalist shoud have  microphone  metal singing techniques dm anyone interested send details song later thanks lot,0
club scenes film extremely believable tim curry venal mode enough drugs violence two movies maybe even three require evenings entertainment pump volume,0
night bachelor party paul coleman jason lee meets gorgeous dancer becky julia stiles bar drink lot together next morning wakes bed future motherinlaw calls informs fiance karen selma blair might arriving apartment desperately asks becky leave place hurry sooner finds crabs later preparation wedding dinner party realizes becky cousin karen beginning funny comedy hilarious situations first attraction movie certainly central trio actresses actor julia stiles selma blair excellent actresses extremely gorgeous jason lee amazingly funny good performances laughed lot along story scenes really hilarious example paul finds becky bed finds paints imagination many situations drugstore trying buy get explanations crab medicine scenes neighbor minister karen calls department store police finds suspect assaulting paul could number many scenes better reader rent buy movie lots fun vote sevenbr br title brazillouco por elas crazy them,0
@lonerespite not really beat...more modern american... either way i wish they had done him in college  would have been fun! ,0
am cant sleepim trapped mind cant even cry anymore get out,1
hehe life much better unlike thought imagine getting rejected someone love told ex fucks new boyfriend weekly seen manwhore taken advantage of therapist holds many secrets others hears depressing stories time allowed eat dairy meat poison allowed outside all lied friends giving affection getting none return next nothing look forward to thats life past  days almost killed yesterday didnt unfortunately know tequila tastes like though reason never say emotions others one understands feel cuts whenever talk one person lets theyre always busy want happy cant oh congrats spicel congrats world practically stealing tried still try to,0
got kicked church heated argument holy gathering apparently god forbids people mass debators,0
@adrielove yes i saw him. omg it totally did haha! i know right? i thought it was funny. so what are you doin' missy? ,0
hey think crush best friend im girl shes girl ive friends three years really nice really kind sweet type compliment blue sweet nice dont talk often social anxiety schoolwork taking long time plus online school person sometimes play games together though time ive dealing depression light always supporting saying loved mein platonic sense really thing makes truly happy havent felt attracted anything anyone id never thoughts gross things her thinking makes feel sick weve cuddled also platonically maybe shes really good friend judging posts here sounds like like her way could confess,0
i really hate how people dis my band trace is clearly not ugly,0
ever ukraine movie absolutely hilarious teenagers wearing gold chains listening hip hop break dancing side jokes air bags cars waitresses total shock meeting vegetarian movie really captures bits pieces ukraine would never know unless went there spent movie nodding head thinking yep thats exactly right lot fun understand russian subtitles always justice actors believable elijah wood great job playing socially inept jewish kid favorite character definitely sammy davis jr jr grandfathers seeing eye dog really psychopathic border collie characters eclectic likable believe real people,0
getting worsei didnt know could get worse am feel like im losing mind dont know im dont know am good person piece shit ever anything life probably wont live long wish could happy least cope like people do ive lost almost motivation keep going werent little brother sister would already gone im supposed role model im supposed one leads way im furthest behind brother  sister plans shes going make it brother smart age support reinforcement ever have im  ive done nothing worth nothing all mom told today need get shit together supposed that im like her,1
used clear goals plan achieve overall next  years sort planned out try think see    years simply cannot think anything really making even anxious used lot friends know happened maybe know explain even myself played lot sports hung friends sit computer day sometimes go short walks outside interest even play games anymore thing pc watch youtube stare fucking desktop know anymore feel lonely even know people care mehopefully confusing ltif ever need buddy play with got nothing vetter,1
i ve got one of those spot that doesn t really show yet but hurt like hell and will no doubt be a beauty tomorrow,0
right wing christians like debating want join discord server basically one right wing person were looking people aged  better debates without everyone opposite view one guy however right wing join thats fine too message let know want join ill send invite link,0
slip knot hangmans noosewhich correct method,1
this lady is responsible for my first experience being choked at broke an ankle getting tossed out of the back door in my underwear at 9 because i called my mom a demon i knew it at nine she s a fucking beast who fed me to her partner who is a beast and a fucking pedo now she s on this faux spiritual journey which includes putting loving herself first like after year of breaking mirror with your fist when i wa and shoving me down stair and ripping out my hair and beating me until my ankle broke trying to run free is all in the past and now i m so i have to move on with no closure and you expect me to just be goofy and smile and that s my new purpose she birthed me to be a freaking body bag and she discarded me too it s just so surreal to realize that you were born with the purpose to love and follow the one who had a kid because she needed a friend now she doesn t need me and now i feel like i also have no purpose maybe i never did in the first place i wa the girl that took the abuse silently and now my role is done but what do i do with myself now then why am i here if no one need me anymore,1
words hardly describe it ill brief the thief bagdad favorite movie child never ceased astound enchant me loved film first moment saw it boy six started reading the arabian nights remember walking tv room middle sabus battle giant spider instantly beguiledbr br rarely much beauty magic wonder captured film sabu john justin superb dashing heros conrad veidt throughly delightful wicked villain jaffar rex ingram joy watch sardonic genie georges perinals photography best use technicolor one three credited directors michael powell filmmaker rightfully heralded critics often overlooked audiences remarkable films including a matter life death aka stairway heaven the red shoes one true masters camera right david lean akira kurosawa orson wellesbr br as great works art beauty the thief bagdad lies detail every frame magical charm story never lags characters actions always involving film never grow old,0
predicting sort reptileamphibian catastrophe  today encountered poisonous giant toad first time ever neighbor told us one lurking around neighborhood happened come scratching window new years eve secondly lizard thats hiding house ive trying catch let free two months finally reappeared hours midnight idea thing survived underneath bathroom cabinet long did creatures proven powerful may sign  wont saving grace expecting,0
Home from a very fun night with some great friends I have known my whole life! :-D Good times ,0
im soooo cold right now,0
She's the reason my depression starts,1
i saw a girl on the blog thumbnail went in and she wa wayyyy cp i feel dirty i need a shower,0
i wish i succeeded those few year ago i wa so close but pussied out and hurt my neck pretty badly i wish i just kept up there for a few more minute then i wouldn t have had to deal with the absolute failure of a person that i am i want to end it i m useless and a horrible piece of shit i ve done some pretty bad shit and no matter how hard i try to fix thing to try and get my life together it just doesn t work i m now physically sick all the time in pain homeless and stuck in a fucking town i wish would burn to the ground i get bullied and mocked by the entire shitty as street i m in for being under a homeless organization for whole year i ve been begging for a house begging and begging asking for this asking for that can i please try and get this house no u can t can i please try and get this house no it all taken i ll never leave this hellhole i ll never get better nothing will ever get better so what s the actual point i m even too lazy to fucking kill myself even though i have the perfect plan grab my rope grab all my pill and favourite alcohol walk to the wood with my favorite stuffie and end it all by the place i felt peace for the first time i ll watch the water of the lake and then i ll finally be at peace and no more pain no more sorrow no more bullshit just nothing but no i m too tired to walk it i m too tired to write a letter i m too fucking tired to do it the reason why i haven t done it i need to take care of my boyfriend i don t care for anyone else because all of them are lying fuck but him i need to stay strong so he get a home so he can live happily but i don t know maybe my death can boost his chance of getting a better life it may hurt now but maybe my death will grab attention to him and then he ll get all the help he need might a well just got ta pick a date,1
@WWisewolf What an oversight - didn't realise I wasn't following you. Am now though   Great blog post on integrity http://twurl.nl/rt7r0u,0
want wear cute blouse shit tie ribbon know tie cant wear,0
ive laying bed eyes shut trying sleep close literally  hours cant it  im tired one bit trying get better sleep schedule hard got  hours sleep yesterday im probably going stay day sleep time becomes am ill able go bed better cycle,0
nnn cancelled it mean hear rumors sure,0
is craving for some tantan nabe http plurk com p mzxcs,0
@richardquest I might go shopping and eat out. Weekends are a great time to do that. ,0
everyday harder harderfuck,1
film got terrible reviews offbeat critics usually get offbeat films thought id give try unfortunately largely right instancebr br the film awkward feel putting sort feel impossible describe good one confound things script dull aimless thing vaguely interestingbr br the immensely talented thurman drifts mess creating barely impact hurt bracco try vain add something film enthusiastic performance nothing script may less embarrassing merely chosen drift get like thurmanbr br one thing esteemed film critics fail mention however film actually quite funny whether moments accurate satire outrageously weird moments like cowgirls question chase hurt ranch smell unwashedahemfront bottomsbr br because chortles acheived throughout recommend film entertainment watching even cowgirls get blues worthwhile something different,0
black orchidthis song exactly feel day day basis word true fucking beautiful ampxb ever lonely one hold pull disown climb inside arms open wide look inside scared learn im empty inside hold hand show concern live die eyes open wide help look inside singing ha de de ha ha de de ah hear water drip faucet sweetly falling tune im gently closing closet fall floor crawl room thought ending soon let sleep room hear cry cry cry hear knock front door come in try look cant stop shaking leave alone go away mother im scared im scared empty bed sheets gone theyre wrapped around quiet drop gun cause i want belong someone maybe lifes everyone ha de de ha ha de de ah,1
@sethsimonds That's interesting. And now you only follow 21. That's a wicked sweet Blackjack number ,0
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"Doing the things, I have to get done, before the day ends ",0
just woke up from the most vivid sketchy not cool dream of my life time to stare at the wall with the light on,0
think good reason end myselftrigger warning redflag throw away account im usually one post things like publicly guess ill give laydown situation year ago depressive break dead end job left hospitalized unemployed ive decided move back home town order certified build websites reasoning could gain skill would valuable todays market addition current bfa could potentially give chance employable financially independent signed community college because forprofit schools predatory set healthy boundaries family felt like making positive change future seemed like things were looking up cut now  yearold dead beat lives grandmothers basement rely father financial support whos job prospect internship graphic design studio lacks personal disciplineselforganizationplanning skills ever talk anything else state fully aware cause misfortune result family suffer actions every time mess scratched grandmothers car garage get sunblock stains mothers furniture etc go emotional break end hating days finally let go proceed forget everything learned mistakes that inconsiderate peoples feelings often sidetracked work stops focusing work lack ambition discipline actually make actual lasting change life present tragic victim cruel world instead going truthful im asshole never learns live otherwise privileged life family who despite screwing repetitively loves much accounts im lucky people worse realize im parasitic take never give back whenever try change myself go back square one funny thing rock bottom one time thing people hit progress their constant loop repetitive failure inability learn past actions unwillingness change bad habits point realized good thing may contribute society well family would end myself ideally would like go somewhere beautiful a nationalstate park find isolated high place jump towards death become carrion whatever finds remains would like leave note family sating chose die instructing cremate remains if found hold funeral want remembered anything might post might ignore next couple weeks might actually take initiative life end things all know want make sure leave impact would significantly harm someone understand killing would detrimental familys emotional wellbeing long run would better place worry take care someone like me reason making public mostly trying find place vent part wants think plan wrong want verification still matter also feel telling therapist true extent plans would land back psychiatric ward thus burdening medical debt issue dealing years now guess understand disappearing woods would better alternative living parasitic lifestyle now tldr human parasite unable learn past mistakes realize harming everyone love going woods die better alternative putting people hell,1
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ill so i cant go to the cinema,0
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Ooh wee minatures of vodka coming my way for tonight ,0
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year things im grateful move parents house    pillow know people might get perfect pillow pillows arent comfy   stepdad hes around since  hes actually really solid guy   sense humour bit selfish think life little bit enjoyable kind find funny side almost anything tune tomorrow ,0
What's up yall! I made it an early night!  I think ima bout to take a shower and chill witcha! Did I miss anything?,0
weird thing capitalize every word sentence eat ice fighting imaginary villain holding breath certain momenttime  going room reason turning thing btw here,0
i am feeling worried for myself it almost a m and i can t sleep im not sure if it just because i can t sleep or if it my inner fight between staying alive or ending it these thought never go away it suck when people don t understand my sudden mood change or decision but i understand why they don t im just saying what i am feeling or thinking my heart always feel so heavy a if i put weight on it i feel like cry all the time everything in life is so boring or doesn t feel right i often get confused on what is real and what isn t real i don t have a therapist anymore because money is tight so im using this reddit post a a venting place because no one know me here and it s nice,1
people tell sleep early know damn well probably ,0
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swallowed around half bottle  gram coated ibuprofen tablets whole pill bottle  pills enough long take farewell possibly,1
so i had a depression yesterday n mom saw me cry so hard n she thought i wa cry about my study n worried about my last exam in month but my heartless as wa cry about a fucking boy,1
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school stressfulmy weight school almost reason enough go ahead kms nobody likes even parents yell mom especially sets unrealistic expectations cant wait get hands gun end life,1
f people whose phoneselectronics broke quarantine yes f me phone battery swelled last june got new one d,0
going kill tonightnobody cares,1
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@codejammer : yeah man... I cant wear the same red from Saturday morning till Suinday mid night.. Mallya shud have given me jerseys.. ,0
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considered white  im egypt im basically arab skin color beige cookie kinda color im considered light skin tho question is white ps im asking cuz always see meme saying white people white people even relate yes im existential crisis,0
Is school depression a thing bc I think I have it,1
Sunday is starting well I have a chalice of coffee and a bad detective drama on tv ,0
@gmmlive TOMORROW!!!! i'm going to be there bright &amp; early  me and my tent,0
Lol my depression is hitting me hard,1
nothing left loseim soon homeless entire family moved far away theory finally it boyfriend friend together finally move forward life im thing holding back tired old cycle everyday plenty plans timing im sure of know time say goodbyes,1
Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression?  http://viralspecies.com/could-one-puff-of-cannabis-ease-depression/ … pic.twitter.com/z185URGHU9,1
got to pause twilight now a nearly at work,0
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"@jaketapper that &quot;followers' tweet really from u, not hacked/spam? ",0
anyone want chatt gf work im bored af,0
go onim  sure gender really anymore really makes much difference started transition  years ago feel really unsupported control finances taken away monday eaten hospital sandwiches since believe eat er  times week idk feel pretty meh carrying life now tried twice week failed times feel like idiot want hug right now wish close someone,1
@BigDaws the world gets dafter. Mighty white was a good name cos it was big and white ,0
"@davedawes and @slboval  Yeah I think playing the game alone, after a wknd like that = dangerous!! ",0
so it a beautiful day a lot of sun very warm overal nice but i sweat a lot i m wearing a white shirt and i m sweating a lot under my arm it s really noticeable and idk but it worry me a lot i feel really ashamed of this who else feel like this,1
tell parents quit job im  living home absolutely hate job  time know get something better would enjoy more know reaction wont good,0
ive tried given many times alreadyim  still living home failed high school tried college three times quit time  debt ive always weird awkward used bother me im left zero social skills wish could simply talk others like normal person talk someone one one theres another person shut off like cant think response anything even though ive followed conversation fine always feels like people give weird looks want prove idiot am try share interests people act condescending laugh me try showing interest them becomes obvious cant relate all town small  mostly people know other theres really anything around here ive learned keep busy music art programming games without anyone share with feels pointless getting harder motivated care anything right now job ive tried find work past gotten two interviews ever one a gas station hired first day manager made bs paperwork fired me found later im white a friend heard talking another manager it worked family before home improvement type stuff ive talked family friends things make feel responses vary from me too see psychiatrist general self help exercise get there stuff little irritating told things im already aware of like know sleepingeating well good you get lot people worse me realizing makes feel guilty im lousy piece shit want kill myself ive plans before saving money improving hygiene this always break give point thinking trying change going failure makes never want anything theres stuff could add gotten long tldr im failure motivation killing seems like option whove felt complete lack giveashit motivates improve yourself,1
update bought book bought ebook grow instagram meme page  dollars offering one time offer  another ebook learn get free hotel stays food luxury items flights etc really tempting dont know it really wanna tho nearly  bucks also said one five get opportunity buy book dont know true though guys think,0
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really hope okay im submitting thisive never subreddit before know right thing read posts get feel things go here im kinda gonna that read guidelines right im totally cool those goes im killing tonight makes tonight around th night killed myself counting first urge mean not like birth still guess  nights pretty good tonights different thats im writing this thats also right thing read posts first tonight minutes need write know somebody read it im gonna get details ive got mood behavior issues surprise ive em pretty control past five years so break arm patting back tonight hours ago something happened almost set back came close ive come long time doc told called dissociative episode short version sometimes kind dunno crack brain something lose control violent loseyourtemper way sense control words choices say mean things hurtful things things true like said ive good five years tonight almost lost it ive screaming inside head ever since yeah ive got support system kinda dumb luck tonight im own ive sorta got redflag watch im imminent danger anything like that cant stop thinking it want try sleep know im gonna able control thoughts thats im writing helps focus helps stay calm im weirdo cant write unless know somebodys gonna read it tried writing myself earlier see could trick calmer state work yeah guess im unburdening you whoevers reading this im okay seriously im scared tonight anything im really upset disappointed myself selfloathing strong tonight yeah anybody wants reply this id appreciate it need it crisis feel obligated anything since anonymous gets guess anybody wants hear happened specifically suppose could try talking it know would help sort feelings would give excuse wallow em sure basically im saying right thank letting use space focus minute helped little think course im done typing means im starting think ugly thoughts again stinks moment helped feel little better thank much reading,1
acceptable venti see thousands people complaining venting lgbt people check privilege tfw gf my granny died  absolute instant barely mention even think mentioning diagnosed schizophrenia borderline autism psychomotory retardation tachicardia since born never knew late suddenly everyone wants head ruby plate straight attempt murder like become feral something feels like im walking dead ok vent even legal point im  now could healed treated fixed  cant anymore feel like existence mistake is cause nothing grief destruction,1
fuck pcmr got banned rpcmasterrace posted meme apparently shitty mods assholes turned blame me told go hell also refused respond me asked awnser unban me said every message send respond  days wouldnt respond either way kinda softlocked told gth feels good,0
Watching &quot;War of the Worlds&quot; ,0
case covid confirmed school still go thats great,0
know someone whos planning whats best course actiontheyve talking weeks planning redflag soon want give away many details theyve told plan date ive tried get them feel powerless highly doubt anything say change mind im one theyve really told well ive relayed lot information one friends feel like nearly enough called hotline really said just give number im desperate freaking out much time left know do anyone advice,1
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if thing don t get better for me by the end of 0 i m going to cash out my saving write a will and use of my saving to go on a world trip alone after which i will kill myself in a quiet place by the sea or something the saving i m leaving for my little brother because who know how expensive college will be by the time he s i m almost and a neet i have no friend no so extreme depression and social anxiety i don t find joy in hobby i am too anxious to go outdoors social medium trigger me i have no skill and haven t worked since 0 0 my family is poor and having me living in the house just drain their saving i consider myself low maintenance but food and electricity is just so goddamn expensive these day i also have ton of allergy and dyshidrotic eczema on my finger and during my flare ups i can t do any chore and any contact with water cause itch and spread now at springtime it meant i m rendered basically incapable of doing anything it s gon na last for month and i feel useless it s an autoimmune disease and there s no cure nothing help no diet prescribed cream nothing it s been like this all my life fall is the only season where it s the mildest,1
want murder everyone tired watching fat cows society get rich next nothing suffer abusive parents yrs shit nobody answers nobody priests therpists nobody damn answers say i know empathize meaningful answeri nearly killed last night government permenantly severed family two cannot walk outside house without gov approval decades antihitler rhetoric joke people want dictator again west literal hell recovery bad family jesus divides families let us rot fucking murder everyone turns cheek cowers needs reckoning murder everyone,1
depressedhow supposed go life thing keeping alive make family feel bad,1
"@suziperry i have to agree with you though, 2 weeks of tennis soon, there is no 2 weeks of motorsport, hope u have fun anyway ",0
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feel ugly talk anyone make friends date really hurts isolated horrible cannot think otherwise ugly talk anyone,1
im pathetic im seriously considering redflag concertthis probably catalyst feel ive spent months figuring fucking everything trying get together money see concert might lifetime thing me cant go ive massive fan member group want see  years half life first time hes coming state career hes different country could never happen again im seeing it job ocd body dysmorphia sort traumatic experience donating plasma even that accidentally sold valuable pokemon cards  clerk even give quarter cleaned best friends house saturday money turns money friday concert literally today late night everything gone wrong said one thing going miss im going fucking miss it crying tears joy happiest felt long time thought getting money go best friend thing staying alive for everything snowballing one thing another tired limbo able live able die fucking pathetic right im home alone feeling unstable dangerous cant stop crying woke up start terrible spiral even care,1
isolation stuff lasts beyond june im going kill myselfi friends entire family already dead ive depressed in fact ive known go two three days without eating much beyond coffee alcohol could hold small stuff like spending weekends desert mountains going beach sitting starbucks reading listening music thats now live alone aside work because mechanic im essential literally human contact anyone im stuck home watching tv masturbating even walk outside im surrounded goddamn concrete ill get yelled staying safe home thats another thing literally understand cannot drive fucking interstate dozen miles ones car me dont leave car fuck going infect someone get infected pavement interstate coronavirus too car im sure someones going respond blah blah blah thats good enough reason kill yourself even though dont need good reason,1
im soo horny title tells enough kinda want horny,0
tonight episode of house wa sad i can t believe he left the show i can t stay awake anymore i m mad tired had a long day sleep time,0
i m so anxious about going to the therapist today i just dont feel comfortable for some reason idk im just losing my mind over this,1
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wish could use life wagerfor lottery either die problems would go away myself win big problems would go away win win scenario,1
relapsed suicidali think anymore hhhh,1
seriously pointi just keep getting stumped like im better suddenly think youre worthless kill get with ive fantasizing much lately really know theres purpose continuing anybody thoughts,1
back form seeing jonas brother in 3d .. it was fab. lased some JB songs on the drive home ... good times ,0
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today start act againafter  years finally told parents depression suicidal thoughts three months knowing im getting sick tired way treat me today start act again ill healthy happy person treat like used to though never closer wanting kill myself luckily news spread throughout whole family yet hopefully parents act normal soon like everyone else know,1
google meet chat presents bee movie got bored decided copy paste entire bee movie script math classes chat in chunks google meet character limit wow take forever,0
nightsit seems like nights im completely alone worst much time think one would care killed myself ill never anything life hurts breathe want go,1
fuck everythingi cant fucking stop whoring guys here keep everytime afterwards leave feel even worse time before going fucking end life tonight none really even give shit know im posting here fuck life fuck reddit fuck internet fuck everything everyone bye emily,1
bye guessthis throwaway account finally decided enough life going get better grades uni disgusting im failing depression anxiety eating disorder hand friends parents constantly fighting never tried understand going through guess end ill carry one month pills home one month itll finally over live anymore too im happy times really really happy im finally gone,1
"How im actually realised that sooooo many peoole out there having a major depression and suicide attempt.. They have a bad history, people kept judging them, they feel bad about themself . Honey , it's all about loving yourself ,knowing tht you also have flaws and love who u are!",1
yeah i know most people probably see all this a a joke but i ve seriously got no friend or anyone to talk or turn to it s seriously bringing me down even more it s a if i m not even good enough for an online friendship my depression make me feel so isolated and lonely in life and i m sick of it,1
know knife game like take knife split fingers go around fast can yeah im always scared using knifes uncle stabbed hand  times never failed,0
im never good enoughno matter do im good enough im constantly trying hardest get rejected life hard one support either say get job try say want nothing talking try military paperwork past year try colleges never give information need even support one love love on theres literally point life fail everything one wants me idk besides die ill probably fuck,1
for the last few year or a long a i can remember i haven t enjoyed much of anything sometimes i ll enjoy when i hangout with friend or whenever i m with family but im extremely co dependent to the point where if im alone im depressed and even if im not alone i m probably depressed i just recently started antidepressant and i think they re helping but not really i don t really feel like i connect to people or build connection because im constantly thinking about about x problem i have or x thing that s wrong with me there wa a time period where i thought i wa a narcissist but i hate myself so that s impossible can somebody like help me lmao i also feel like i m a burden to everyone in my life because every time i speak to anyone or interact with anyone it s about how depressed i am or how something is wrong with me,1
ive got go school  least better home lol ,0
took time took running street  year old son arms chasing finally get away understand wrote literally tip iceberg could write all would need write book dont think would ever run things write about seen  doctor since leaving said redflag dont like talking never went back,1
everyone say it get better i have wanted to kill myself since i m now and i wish i had done it then i wish i wa brave back then because thing are only worse now,1
roses red number one  ,0
cut sent group chati depressed cut took picture sent group chat bunch friends got worried screen shotted sent gf shes mad do,1
@kaitlinnichols // go to bed for a few days and do nothing but watch movies...that's what I did!  praying for you!,0
told crush like isnt online rn lets hope dont die anyways whats favorite dinner food,0
i m a frequent poster here i ve struggled all my life with these feeling thing seemed like they were getting better i wa genuinely happy and then it got taken away again i live in shitty section housing i wa kicked out several year ago and i ve been struggling to stay afloat since my mother and i recently discussed me moving back home which wa le than ideal she bought a condo and offered it to me she even suggested i get a roommate i wa overjoyed my so could move in my best friend could move it it seemed wonderful and then once i already signed the paper to move out in two month my mother told me to stop looking for a roommate she ha been considering moving into the larger bedroom and taking my kid sister with her leaving me alone in the smaller bedroom with no support and i have no place to argue against this she bought me a new car a an early birthday gift she s paying for me to go through school i m currently struggling to keep my grade up and she s rightfully angry about it my apartment is messy and she s mad about that too rightfully so i am going to lose my privacy and be stuck in the tiny condo with her without support from my so and my best friend my mother is very controlling so i know i won t be able to play video game or talk to my friend in peace it ll just be lecturing do your homework look for a better job etc etc i don t have the motivation for either i barely have motivation to go to my current job she doesn t get that i m so incredibly depressed and suicidal every single fucking day i just got rejected for a better job and now on top of all that i ll be stuck in a confined space with her with no freedom again and i ll probably become babysitter again for the child i pretty much raised for her it s not fair,1
bloody fucking failureabout  months ago tried kill car garage one thing didnt count fucking neighbor coming see whats happening passed n right almost finally fucking dead n dick head decided call  n pull garage fuck ima cut air bags car n crash bitch fucking hate ppl caring let fucking die well third time charm right,1
im tired thisi cant stop thinking im gonna it last moments play out spend time trying figure best method what know likely fucking wont dont want continue thoughts im tired,1
hell damn miracle crash luckily started road close home feel right cant really explain it lightheadedness also weird thing im seeing something even thought thats im doing brain also like nothing happened second intervals,0
Winstons. Sat night. &quot;I'm a hustler babe&quot; thank you miles ,0
cant take anymorei hate job close relationships successes total failure cant stand anymore nothing ive tried last  years done good want another  like,1
Just saying Hi Tweeters... Hope Everybody had a Blessed weekend. One more day before my Weekend Pops off ,0
preparing to go out with sophia. listening to &quot;the climb&quot; by mileycyrus. ,0
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@MyInnerVixen  of course we did ,0
"@JULL1234 I didn't know it was showing, but I found it on youtube. jacob's transforming is totally BA. ",0
"i have spent the last YEAR of my life researching the effects of hostile immigration policy on children's mental health. anxiety, depression, trauma, etc. have all increased since the 2016 election in CHILDREN.",1
wish good daysive always persistent suicidal thoughts ten fifteen years weeks feel somewhat normal might passing thought times day days occurs every second sleep try silence it ive found taking cold showers day silence everything brief moments working helps times too always helps keep mind quiet live alone rely everything really live anyone else im deathly allergic pets fur companions several oversized plushies feel calm lying floor hugging them good days bad days feel good free feel like god himself days wish someone would kick door end quickly stay away people since im afraid may accidentally hurt someone days overconfidence days self hatred wish could good days bad,1
ii think life going get better getting worse better half  years honestly think take much this think ending every day halfformed plans head nothing more note anything gets harder every day stop myself,1
need wish ujojodge happy birthday november ninth important,0
took photos damn im kinda hot ya know mean dont mean im feeling confident,0
ck dont worry everyone gets slice,0
ones first choice anything reason come good enough want die now tired everyone leaves me lonely always last,1
@megan_lanz great news!  thanks for the link!,0
im finally going back school first quarter freshman year dli while people person finally convinced parents let back school know nothing works classes are wish luck,0
need to sleep early  night everyone :p,0
hoping the tummy rumble go away soon,0
want diebut want keep living anymore,1
wish people speak nigh incomprehensible verses speech towards speaking clear mostly understood way close impossible me however would seem required social events play well enough yet mention force upon known school ever need moment reflect find old near forgotten local stroll where back forth place stumble slowly like first discovering old aztec ruin never seen creature help,0
spookiest cat  change mind shes black called wednesday wednesday addams hates people occasionally nice the rest time scrunch bites black collar studded glittery fish metal things it,0
snick the dog if izzy s on the cat tree she ll stare him down but if she s on the floor he chase and she run,0
want overdosewe bottles bottles old meds want take die one would care best friend even reply want end fucking nightmare,1
figured play eve destruction barry mcguire thats one song internal library,0
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life tiring want go sleepi want make people depressedsuicidal feel better reality feel envious go deal shit anymore,1
"Supporting mental illness can't be limited just to depression and anxiety. I wish some of my friends here could have seen me and how I acted pre-treatment. When you make fun of people who have serious mental health issues, you are degrading people you love",1
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im shakingive feeling suicidal while bf went gun range friend weeks ago he didnt know suicidal time months ago dating told hides gun anyway thought hed move dating told week ago feeling suicidal feeling really suicidal tonight went thought keeping gun still there know load now took go outside kill soon took gun heard coming downstairs put away heard zip asked pretended shorts im still shaking really think wouldve killed hadnt come downstairs dont know tell move gun not dont want think im crazy,1
hi i wa wondering if anyone ha this happen to them i have have had depression for decade i have good day and bad day no period that last for week or month like i did when i first started having symptom 0 year ago thank god it is mostly occasional bad bout most often i just have a dull low depression that i can dell with using moving muscle using cognitive dispute today i had one of the rare event that i used to get often i wake up early have a cup or two of coffee yet i feel really exhausted i slept fine the night before i end up having breakfast but that exhausted feeling becomes overwhelming and i go back to bet by 9am the entire day consists of me sleeping having lucid bat shit crazy bizarre dream the dream are not nightmare in fact they are rather creative but the local and situation are like the came from somebody imagination in a distant galaxy they would make really interesting sci fi fantasy i also dream about being lonely i have no family few friend one thing i remember wa this gut wrenching sadness about a girl i dated over 0 year ago thought she wa the one but it fell apart after about 0 to hour i get up have something to eat i feel hung over an d it is like a storm passed through my brain spent it s energy and now calm ha returned i wa wondering if anyone else had had similar experience like this it would be concerning if it wa a frequent occurrence which it once wa in the early day of depression again that wa decade ago thanks in advance for any observation or comment peace,1
saw commercials thinking no nick nite done taking fresh prince slots well still love fresh prince george lopez surprisingly good show love notstereotypical benny is carmen pretty good character really funny see stupid overemotional sometimes feel bad guy plays max looks much younger actually is max fun character acted well yeah angie little stereotypical funny moments ha ha george big head nah really good too funny show definitely often home improvement,0
thanks twitterive made inflammatory twitter account hoping people send death threats feel justified killing myself love internet anonymity,1
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Anyone have any resources for me re depression and intuition? Specifically nourishing your intuition while learning which thoughts are the depression?,1
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i have been going to therapy for roughly year now and i feel like it isn t helping i have minute appointment bi weekly but i feel like the minute isn t enough time for me it take a bit more time each appointment to get recomfortable with a therapist if that make sense by the time i feel comfortable we barely get into anything important and i leave feeling unsatisfied i ve seen multiple different therapist and this is common with all of them i feel like i might need to find a new provider who doesn t follow this protocol but this is a common practice in my area doe anyone have advice on how to break through the awkward part each time and get down to what i need help with are there therapist out there who see people for more than min hr at a time,1
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i ve struggled with suicidal tendency and thought since i wa i m now the thought and action have only worsened with age i can t stop thinking about how the world would be so much better off without me my friend my family my work my partner in every aspect i m contributing nothing and burdening everyone i want so badly to achieve more amp stop being such a burden on everyone but lately it s been seeming damn near impossible to achieve anything worth a damn because i also have an open case against me amp wont pas a background check,1
"#WeRGISIslamic,we show support to the kids suffering from depression  pic.twitter.com/HYJiDwNKMs",1
for the past year i have been doing online school and now im going back to high school but i have to meet with my school dean today and im so so nervous,1
I just wonder what life would be like if my college friends had tried to help me out of my depression instead of calling me an alcoholic and never speaking to me again,1
i m so scared of you these day i miss being happy,1
everything wrong fault fault trying harder fault wanting death better lifei one blame caring getting better anymore fault wanting death better life fault im lazy one im stupid one im childish one even though im child fault lazy stupid chilidhs caring getting better caring dying im terrible person deserve every bit suffering fault dessserve release death im sorry please im asking death please let die im alsking cant make mysel diei cant control that cant stop goduniverse making live beg death give up whatever hope die tonight not maybe godujnverse let succeed plan im sorry im stupid lazy person fault im sorry,1
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planning die alleywayive lied whole life abused neglected feel useless alone dirty part city whole family stuck in money grab ticket nearby city want run away find alleyway stay in let die cold winter night want let know fucked up hit many times got drunk many times consequence all i wish could feel emptiness previous redflag attempt thats icing cake,1
i m wish i wouldn t have drank coffee all day long need sleep must sleep can t sleep,0
doe anyone have such horrible anxiety that they have full lost their appetite i have terrible anxiety i have a new job to attend small kid to take care of a mortgage to pay and my anxiety is out of this world everyday i am down to having the desire to drink tea water only and i don t know how much longer i can function trying to keep up with basic baseline life is so miserable a an anxious person,1
i ve been trying to survive for so many year that i hope the universe will someday grant me the opportunity to finally live my life of all people the broken are the more evolved hence i hope that we the suicidal one will also be given a better shot at life the right opportunity and a kind community because i know in the deepest depth of our heart we really truly want to live although not our current version of life but the better and kinder version of life,1
@Jenny_Ann HAHAHAHha. awh. Nick J.. bahahah. oooooh THursday!  I'm glad I get to see this one!,0
hope endive depressed last nights ive drank got arrested year ago narcotics get drug tested state fail one test go prison cant ive sad lately thing brought happiness gay bars ive gone ive finally accepted self get tested morning im going end im sorry love friends ive made love friends accepted im sorry cant go prison ive drinking waiting till midnight see happen told one friends today wont drink rest march ill see goes let family know love didnt support am,1
sarscovis bad kind want catch virus already lot health conditions die virus oh well tragic get with odds getting pretty high anyway seeing live epicenter us outbreak go public work im already burden everyone around me im inconvenience pain dramatic dont right complain dont want annoy around saying anything accidentally letting something up way feel disproportionate severity problems it dying covid would solve that honestly dont really want die especially suffocation pneumonia feels inevitable right now sorry rant read end good night wash hands maybe itll end thing sooner,1
@mtrico  It seems you were at Shake Shack around the same time as me. ,0
Sometimes I come on this app to escape my depression and anxiety but I never really escape. w2d?<Emoji: Disappointed but relieved face>,1
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miss bestfriend kinda think used cuz moved back japan shes barley tried keep touch considering  day sleepovers every weekend thats ouch,0
found facebook sister got married whole family therethey lied doing got upset sister sent hundreds text messages horrible person am thats im done want gone im gone hope eventually feel guilty me,1
"Anxiety, depression & pizza <Emoji: Slice of pizza>  https://twitter.com/baldbae/status/765732508004601860 …",1
ready throw towelno one willing help  care love  made many stupid decisions past situation past really traumatized    year old my grandpa commited crime went jail  gave emotional trauma barely could get  loving he good grandpa passed away cancer  years ago still miss now got one  girlfriend friends no one cares  iam alone  said life beyond repair  want throw end sick exsistence  relatives getting jops  getting marry graudate college  failing everything  year old unloveable garbage  really want punch universe face  iam sick dissapointed everything,1
This track could cure chronic depression.  https://twitter.com/kanyewest/status/989168789378842624 …,1
tired trying hardi much anxiety working hard normal see way fix it pills make feel sick everything exhausting im even sad im depressed im tired really hope im tired,1
much prozac kill youlong story short told friend suicidal told mom go godawful therapy going psychiatric hospital sucks mom hides everything good use kill taking meds morning forgot hide it counted theres  capsules  mg  mg possesion kill me go go get help it gets better nothing say convince screw give answers,1
offended please tell happened ill apologize link reddit post offended shall make sincere apology nice day want apologize someone would never like ex friend ill pretend say sincere apologize ,0
comment ill roast based post history im bored got nothing better yeh,0
hey all rant take viibryd doctor either negligent malicious sure is told explicitly take iteither accident ever answer phone calls god damn pharmacy serious reaction like horrible nausea debilitating redflag depression told want take anymore reason kept telling good it get pill box make sure take  every dayi got pill box take exactly one every day month called refill stuck needs prescriber approval  days text tell two days left medication said look it fuck even mean look it like almost offensive flippant is especially comes fucking mental health professional what threaten kill something take concerns seriouslyif call pharmacy tomorrow medication entire weekend huge project work weekend ergo fucked cannot refill fucking medication exactly  days two left abusing them anything legitimate prescription legitimate doctor someone speaks pharmacistdoctor bullshit please translate issue here hell dr authorization required mean medications doctor negligent,1
sitting office aloneim sitting crying desk thinking want badly today texting people never text back try talk feeling even alone want get car drive national forest something find nice rock jump of,1
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a a desi teenager only kk s discography can cure my depression now,1
omg my girl just woke me up reason doesnt matter amp now i cant fall back to sleep got ta b up at so maybe i ll just stay up sigh,0
need advice know deal suicidal sisterim sorry feel like mess something wrong talk feels suicidal could something regrets selfharms whenever see scars feel devastated tells never liked living long remember cant relate ive always content life feel like need something help her know what cant understand thought maybe someone going something similar help relate little better want help best can ive always looked love much hurts think could stand killed herself want know help her,1
im doneim going kill myself im done im lonely unloved cant handle anymore im gonna taka gun shoot one even care,1
hey everyone spend alot time feeling pretty low properly suicidal reasons read alot alot people friends anyone cares them sorry hear it noone left like that wanted know anyone would feel comfortable share bit got stageit always fear mine people get dealt shitty hand mental health push people away sometimes too hoping someone could share,1
idea whats going on think deadthe night last posted here weird guy grape cocktail drugs night drank half it got tired feared throwing up went sleep thought maybe enough woke up liver felt uncomfortable live another day promised ex girlfriend last night watched lebron get defeated ex said would talk later message yesterday forgetting new gmail password signed out cutting contact her woke approximately  pm even sure alive dead one home someone always home  parents not got  never happens biggest fear know tried kill myself blacked threw someone cleaned up seen another human today know  real maybe kicked yet edit one knows think watched tv brother kinda nice mention anything thought last real words would everyone loses response happened championship game last night obviously woke up watched couple episodes unbreakable kimmy schmidt even wrote computer here giving everything brother except xbox  asked gifted good friend st birthday next month told cousin great dad baby boy love dearly wish could give important things to think well taken care already,1
my last day i will pick a sunny day wake up and put on some of my best summer attire go get food from a good restaurant i would like a good last meal to be honest then i will go and xplore some place i have become fond of and reminisce of the few n far between happy day of my childhood and other time i might add to this later if i can find stuff i think is worth doing then for the night i have a nice bottle of whisky and some benzos i plan on consuming whilst listen to my favourite music i will try to enjoy a much time a possible between then and now i have a rope that is ready noosed and just need hooked up to a nice tree i have already sadly picked out one that is high enough but easy to climb then whilst i listen to music feeling chill and tranquil a the pill start to take effect i will sit in said tree with noose around my neck phone emergency service tell them where my body will be located then i will fall and asphyxiate myself in to the abyss i look forward to that day sorry for rambling i am terrible and language in general wish you all peace because i will find mine eventually,1
struggling suicidal thoughts days worse likely common theme people similar situation always reluctant even vent little anyone real life online feel problems thoughts less importance think others going much worse me mostly keep quiet feel whether negative positivehowever today guess finally decided vent little even get responses reactions maybe make feel better regardless go everything makes feel anxious depressed hopeless etc ill keep brief sake anyone reading mention one lost mother  years ago everything me whatever good trait if any died home last moments think anything painful face facteven though supposed venting want whoever sees know sorry know are sorry cannot help whatever going through sorry going physical mental pain hope get gain strength keep living able happy feel loved ill first say love youthank reading  hello,1
going tonighti cant deal longer hate much im lonely talked another person loud twice past week times called samaritans one know wants around anymore everything place plan work thank everyone sub tried help im sorry let down edit thanks comments people beautiful remember sort new people also need help,1
stress really starting build up school understand online class mean free time time huge asignment really balls say you home anyway time enough expect us organize group activity primary school kids get local government agree still testweek coming  unfinished assignments im back panick attacks thought left behind depression,0
cant fucking take anymore think im unfixablei feel like theres point trying get better everything futile sound like fucking edgelord im tired trying matter hard try always feel empty dont think ill ever happy wish stupid think hate trapped head want kill stop feeling shitty want stop thinking want overdose bunch opiates dont need feel anything want order shit ton drugs right now im pussy wish gun something think deserve violent painful death sentient hate much,1
kill myselfbefore kill want drugs get hands oni want crazy shiti want finish everything need blow brains out sweet warm embrace death,1
@fiestapants209 My brother's gf's friend's name is... Jose Luis the 3rd Pedro   ,0
ive enough alivehi im using throwaway account since people know account also forgive spellinggrammar errors since english first language let introduce first im  year old guy life ive struggling depression recently started lot panic attacks school going really shit right now really friends anymore except school since parents allow go outside anymore reason cant go outside used drugs nothing hard weed sometimes drink even liked it wanted friends ever since lost privilege talk life going shit sorry language true get enjoyment anything thing ill either studying sleeping eating tried new things cant find reason something im studying lot go university get finally get freedom back due recent events ill probably redo year cant handle that ill lose friends ill probably able make new ones social anxiety autism im tired ive really thinking killing myself want go school anymore want home cant go anywhere else lock room every day come home ill wait till end school year ill see passed not last straw cant deal hell also feel like piece shit lot people sub lot worse ive got struggles minor problems,1
contemplating redflag today spent weekend parents friends house lake pretty good lots activities stuff nice change pace  people around age ive known since childhood never really talked tried talk introverted nature really came always felt something wrong the fact   really cute girls amplified this never really fit activities together im always odd one wish invisible whenever theyd hang room never came close cause felt like id embarrass myself thats realized bad social skills really where like everyone else back home different one theyd fun hanging would sit corner trying disappear forever could hear talk laughing jokes anecdotes things normal people do whenever id try talk them conversation would go dry one would look direction time say bye came packed stuff hid car parents said stuff scolded afterwards impolite  hour car ride mulled everything wrong everything made different made wrong brain even brought stuff times hung people past none good around  minutes self imposed mental torture starting toying idea escape all get rid ability make mistakes all get rid myself since trip takes place driving highway thought id wait us going least kmh pass semi truck jumping car ending life opportunities arose looked trucks pass thought god would hurt im here typing instead spread across one longest highways world scared would hurt tldr got sad cant interact people wanted end all smart right,0
i ve been in therapy nearly all my life and have gotten very good at using coping skill that help with the cognitive piece of my anxiety i e responding to my thought distraction etc the part that i still have a lot of difficulty with are the physical symptom i e chest tightness deep breathing doesn t really work well for me any suggestion that you all have for dealing with these symptom,1
"@KarenAlloy Come to England, you can have a nap here  Hows the pregnancy goin? x",0
Currently voting for the Teen Choice Awards '09. Will BRB  @ddlovato will do ;-),0
@DecayingWaste happy birthday dudeee ,0
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got ligmawant die,1
Not much I can say about this one really. except that it's my latest post. #bloggerstribe #blog #depression #FuckDepression @BloggersTribe @RetweetBloggers @UKBlog_RT @FemBloggers @UKBlogRT… https://atoughtimetobehonest174312583.wordpress.com/2018/04/25/dejected/ …,1
parents understand concept online games example playing valorant mid match unrated still mom came rooms door said go take trash dust room like no mom mid game cant right now wait minute said pause it knew online game understand cant pause bro,0
my PS4 keeps logging me out of YouTube because my depression hacked brain can't possibly let Yugioh MMDs play for that long,1
markress understand that we are all busy i can only tweet after work,0
A safe for work Camel Toe  http://tinyurl.com/mb3yzr,0
trump destroyed debate ngl know trump bad person looking debate want look moment moment holy crap trump destroyed legit roasting biden every chance got comedy gold fight,0
feel like hanging mit started days ago roaming kik sub reddit joined group kik added girl group seemed cute young like  although talking mentioned sex drinking stupidly presumed  im  started dirty talking dirty talked vanished im paranoid might younger thought feel stupid asking age im way attracted kids find disgusting ive extreme paranoia suddenly paedophile even though im way attracted kids back  date girl  ive socially isolated mind wanders random shit internet  social experiment pretended  whilst talking  year old girl turned slutty asked youngest age would fuck said limit weird way turned on her sluttiness fact said shed fuck someone whos  over im attracted girls age watch normal porn ever dated girls age think paedophiles acting fantasies upon kids puke worthy something wrong me recent mistake ive made made analyse entire life stupid mistakes ive made severe isolation even though nothing serious done get guilt past stupid social experiment did fears become paedophile future girl lying like  younger im worried sick feel even suicidal normal sorry typos typed rush phone ive also ever dated girls age watch normal porn fantasise healthy manner slipped weird conversation girl  years ago this also talked sociopathic girl hunted animals turned cruel even though fucking love animals dog sexual freak isolation destroyed me incidences ordinary happened times feel much guilt point want hang myself think watching porn young age  really fucked bullied spending  years complete isolation porn addiction normal porn really fucked mind another confession  made catfish profile check girlfriend cheating was became addicted creating fake profiles getting lot sexual attention women nothing extremely weird done talked dirty girls  time period one younger maybe  year old girl might lied age ive known lots guys stuff like feel guilt give shit eating away sudden talk therapist would okay would go apeshit register sex offender something know  talking dirty  yo crime ive known lots guys date younger girls cant get ive done thanks,1
might dieim depressed ive dealing problem long see rationally theres way it ive thrashing years im exhausted defeated hopeless regretful sad upset distract days weeks always there want live distraction far life loved im sad feel leave behind people love tried many things happens want clear reckless medical professionals me one elses fault im sorry,1
dont knowthree kids wife behind bills mortgage things turned off never ending pile shit find anything spending much time thinking things make mistake fuck something up run business first year rough wasnt thought assumed id help dont even know writing thing doesnt matter cry whenever look kids faces sat van three hours last night wanting go home went sleep cant avoid them want better everything overwhelming pleaded help able get wife understand unable fix situation failing many ways,1
iama broken college boy intending hero ask anything yes im serious im drinking neither smoking wasting money futile shit remained without money parents going send money st march tell im outta money im dead sen home without possibility continue studies feel free ask anything end shit fuck shit im out nice life,1
but it s honestly time to go i can slowly feel depression creeping in with the amount of time i spend here unhappy if anyone come across this tweet please assist me with recommendation reference or job placement being in the hr field i fully understand how difficult it is,1
@HarveyLevinTMZ Why are you up so early ?? ,0
my life ha gone way downhill first my best friend leaf without any kind of goodbye then my mother tell me that she doesn t love me after that my ex broke up with me then last sunday she told me not to talk to her again i can t take any of this shit for much longer i really just wished that it wa summer already then i could just kill myself and everyone would forget about me i would do it now if i could but i just think that it might be too close to my breakup and that maybe my ex would think it wa her fault when it isn t i don t really know what else to say my school ha this experience week thing where for a week we just have fun help out our community and don t have to worry about school everyone else in my grade is having fun laughing smiling and shit like that and i m just not i don t see how everyone else can find a way to be happy i see my friend laughing and having fun then they come over to hang out with me and i m just sad i honestly can t wait for the summer then i can fucking kill myself and not have to cry every night to sleep i don t know what help i might want or need but maybe some encouraging word or something might help but anything really would help,1
i ve decided to mourn my break up of year together that happened week ago last night i dropped all my hope and faith she d come back to me we both were evil to each other definitely not ready for one another we did love each other like no one else we both were each other s first love and then my heart my soul feel like some nasty hand came to my soul ripped apart half of my heart watched me die on the street alone and giggled at me i don t want this amount of pain it almost led me to act on you know what last night i ve ruined every decision i ve made in life i don t want to ruin more tomorrow is not promised then i want to change my personality since i never made friend with who i am i want to i just want to change 0 degree of who i am today but this pain it s killing me how do i get over this pain a quickly a possible i ve no friend to speak to about it i m alone here and dying to just have someone in a similar experience and help me with it irl friend i haven t had in so many year and being at home is killing me too for so many year but i want to change it all,1
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what do you say when you re told it get better with time it s been the heaviest thing to do when it come to holding myself up i had a hard 0 0 lost my brother best friend and stepdad to suicide and overdose i thought i wa ok i wa so wrong wound up losing my job then my wife decided that she wa better off with me she is probably right so all of 0 i m loosing everyone and every thing spouse life we haven t spoke in over a year iv tried to she is idk i try so hard to move forward though i m not getting anywhere i want to die i can t find the right answer to evolving and being able to engage with life it s been over a year she s great amp thriving i try to do myself in last saturday i tried to leave the car running in my garage and just drift away i couldn t even die right my car ran out a gas all i got wa a head ache and a lot deeper into my pit i ve been looking at and repositioning m pistal hopefully i can get down to business with it soon i know it s better if i do i m worth more in insurance than in life experience why can t i be good at this why am i abandoned in my darkest point they say give it time it s gon na be ok it s a lie time pass for them and i watch it just go by so i say goodbye and if i cross your mind later on know i foght until i couldn t the war in me is to much so it s me i choose my end instead of being this way or loosing touch and hurting someone who ha a good future,1
im much pussyim alone could it every reason to cant im afraid comes after leaving little behind dont deserve alive future theres nothing stay for anyways nobody loves me mother would rather keep relationship man molested keep relationship me ive pissed friends off anxiety prevent ever able hold job productive member society guy love blocked every source want talk him want make things okay again nothing ever okay again,1
"I am officially done with @kanyewest. him, the neptunes, justin timberlake, timbaland. got me out of depression when I was in younger. a lot of these artist have changed their sounds and I have still supported them, but this is too far",1
people chase movies featuring audrey tautou seem understand amelie character  really audrey tautous real life personality hence every movie partakes going amelie part  part  etcbr br now said picked movie simply audrey it yes true big gap first scene seen maybe  min even miss much fun characters guy lies everything funny guy justifies people run cafe skip bill finding coupons balance loss actually getting characters could take quite while one best movies ive seen whilebr br audrey tautous character irene overdone sugary girl amelie was fact irene rudeness bum asking change caught guard first film irene girl good intentions course very awful day disposition becomes sour pessimisticbr br what makes film completely great really interesting stories plots building entertaining watch great scenery shots colorful never slow characters actually act best part movie comes  minutes left plots start mesh together ride really picks everything ties together makes sense whole butterfly effect blossoms swear best  minutes film ive seen quite while ending made think damn really lucked finding movie ending movie top notch whoever wrote script brilliant subplots going on somehow make tie together and sensible manner case here also make character feel human come alive stale persona used crutch build whole butterfly effect impressivebr br i highly suggest movie great film watch anytime mood company alone,0
breaki close breaking love enough passions respected dreams exhausted get bed missing college missing be want go doctor want drugs want shitty councillor give shit come head years want dependent something hurting myself pain even relieving anymore hate want alive cry help even want anybody read it want anybody know anybody care need reason leave place behind,1
pleasehelpsomeonei seriously cant anymore ill broken lost never thought could get fucking bad year worst year life far fucking tired bs every single day torture need someone talk to,1
feel really depressed dad toxic bitch pushed fighting sister middle hate working day shit terrible hate living toxicity enjoy working enjoy anytging dads horrible person forced physical altercation dad,1
"@ajrafael No worries man, they will win. ",0
"@Diana_Duncan Just need to be outside a little while to get my fix, then I'm fine with glances out window while I do the 'puter thing. ",0
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Can not believe Darcy is walking already....only 8 months old....a lot smarter than her dad ,0
need make next  hours soim garbage person im staying family home cause im jobs yesterday family said xmas early thought would better wasnt there gotta disappear approximately  hours starting  hours think setting fire alot dont want anyone see face ever again think whole ordeal family think want around set fire think im dramatic think pull frodo disappear think wrap heavy chains jump big river maybe dont find body atleast pretend im wandering somewhere something happened brain cause two years ago thinking gonna bake pie family make extra special thinking anyone sees whats fastest way kill myself im literally reassured got bit cash pocket worst case scenario go gas station buy gas set alight comforting thought now might run away seems fine,1
soillodge yes it will be it s only monday,0
friend likes ddos people dont know basically friend spent time learning hack ddos quarantine recently showed skills honestly dont know react like good even told likes maliciously please help dont know go house kick ass im questioning it,0
@GrandTheftAshly Take me with you!  I wanna go see them again.  Post Concert depression has see in for me.,1
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pushed mei hate wanna fucking end fuck everyone ever told loved never loved back want anything anymore want get courage cut open wrists care anybody care anything anymore want die im tired obsessed cant get head want think anymore living thing want bleed want watch die want breathe everybody hated everybody told hated,1
"Famous mum, Chrissy Teigen, has spoken out about post-partum depression. Read more here:  http://bit.ly/2uawoZ3 ",1
funny movie seeing evil dead trilogy week ago and left wanting more got many bruce campbell movies could including really bad ones one funny without exceptional sure hell originalbr br i mean got mad scientists superhuman cyborgs half brain freaks gypsies ex kgb cab drivers jealousy murders passion love romance sex action more  actors br br you really see enjoy it cant explain text box guess much cult movie evil dead was certainly bruce campbell touch love ted raimi lends hand tamara gorski looks beautiful interesting she gone long way hooker friday th vladimir kolev also shows lot promise actor although probably cast secondary character hollywood movies entire careerbr br bottom line funny movie liked evil dead like this too,0
seasonal depression suck,1
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absolutely love film everything it almost felt like watching friends screen way movie filmed pure masterpiece original creative related characters even thoughts some im really glad ran across movie genius like justin there,0
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pretty good made tv flick what if variety in terrorists exploded dirty bomb big city case london lots poking folks say were set event emergency reveal theyre exactly telling full story anyone prepared something like this bet not shows material bombs smuggled country making bombs secrecy double lives people behind lead etc also shows public servants ie firemen giving save people getting help government want send anyone else affected area also shows woefully inadequate preparations occurrence government talks everything stands mouths hanging open tragedy unfolds could happen right good old usa well unless living caves past  years something already has extent bet anyone would prepared something nature fairly realistic yes even scary well worth seeing hope nothing like ever really happens  ,0
Happy Sunday Tweeple...  Live your dreams and make every day count!!!   Continue to spread Love and Joy to others...   ,0
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@matttbastard @uncool01 what do *i* think?  drink! arse! feck! is what i think ,0
give best reason try kill self think going work come,1
feeling depressed guy ive liked long liked back wants friends w benefits went many feelings heart broken ruining me want quit part time jobs outside school nothing parents process getting divorced dad keeps drinking much get violent im adult house sometimes im spiritual positive feel like everything always faking it im sad im lonely wanna hurt people love care  one cares im crying bed dark ,1
Quote of the day: &quot;Walk softly and carry a big magnifying glass.&quot;  -Richard Lacayo ,0
try hardest feel better positive yet working talk lot people try encourage them listen problems fun yet things make feel guilty like im one fake lying them always feel like dont deserve have feel like hate afraid tell me dont want live like,0
Always great to help out a friend.  Gooooinnnggg to beeeeeeeed.,0
"Enthusiastically exploring the wilderness with Barry, time for candy bar break ",0
im stupid screw idiothi like vent emotions rn idk read u want guess cant really change im online class right now honors classes currently failing every single class im sophomore year every grade goes permanent record thing jobs look decide whether hire u really fucking screw im one family  brothers sister failing one grade me hes got straight bs classes today mom said never ask anything good grades right shes letting privileges brothers dont mention birthday  days brain says try already failing late already almost end semester currently crying writing useless notebook so probably helping idk dont know accomplishing dont know im this dont know im earth,1
movie everything want action movie explosionsshootoutsbad guys worse guys fun see james belushi using humor get trouble gotten since stole  million dollars ultimate big boss the skipper sounds cheesy course is boydid fun watching movie whole lot better direct dvd garbage made nowadays get silly plot find movie quite surprises store could argue twists predictable fast pace movie give time think much themwhich blessing since movie revealing ultimate twist journey moment title bit misleading could reason many people hated movie probably expected movie mobsters stead crooks double crossing other pure fun,0
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much plot movie wealthy baseball team owner dies whose wife going sue hospital neglience much that  matterbr br it matter real actors giving dialogue life cast hysterically funny scenes even cracking laughing smile face br br matthau plays charley whose wife recently passed away finds object desire several women hospital delighted taste everything menu available him meets anne atkinson glenda jackson who first patient hospital their first scene together funny meet television panel discussion show disagree nearly every topic discussed br br charley begins like anne viceversa except big monogamy men life her husband cheater decide give shot  two weeks faithfulness br br i give away anything else want mention chemistry matthau jackson screen usually first person anyone would think romantic middleaged comedy touch comedy light agreeable matched every step way matthau charming ever play mr sensitive mr macho get girl himself br br art carney riot practically senile doctor scene baseball team owners ashes buried home plate priceless also funny scene parking lot richard benjamin richard much movie often straight man carney matthau role tax considerable talents good time making comedy br br very much recommendedbr br ps fyi  matthau presented jackson first best actress oscar jackson presented best actor art carney role harry  tonto,0
dear mom hear whisper something negative breath cant hear yell what loud upstairs,0
fucking hate sooo much terrible person mess everything wish everything could stop,1
watched movie chance get curious trailer tv like discover movies like this little tender stories ordinary people even end tragic the man moon funny moments especially first characterization dani innocent pure love affair court really beautiful moving love story  high points performance reese witherspoon maintained promises world cinema beautiful cinematography old lion freddie francis fantastic score james newton howard really soul movie themes which deserved oscar nomination intimate lyric seems transformed screenplay music,0
everybodys telling lifes short want dieim tired whats point anymore maybe humans meant die,1
movie really proves world often unfair place especially world motion pictures the assignment received barely attention upon release surprisingly flopped boxoffice history written movie surely receive long lost praisebr br thank god im surrounded friends knows whats good me movie buff like pal highly recommended the assignment movie even heard about decided check leonard maltin gave it surprisingly gave  knowing grade gave classics like alien the usual suspects the matrix i kid not knew meaning mean diddly squat jack s without hesitating went bought dvd  years ago movie still one proudest belongings dvd collection despite cover design echoes low budget stinker casper van dienbr br the assignment expertly directed delivering really intense moments hold edge seat throughout movie top boasts times brilliant story know riddled unexpected twists turns stars aidan quinn one best performances serves great support donald sutherland ben kingsley great formbr br something like   user comments like movie cant seem praise enough waiting for call fan actionthrillers bought it rented it seen yesterday,0
normal always act weird way,0
@portiswasp welcome! See you in Dundee  x,0
doim seriously done  sane part brain wants hold on do call ambulance what,1
late eighties early nineties decline death independent video companies like vestron media effectively shut italian horror films much american audience coincidently italian genre films also declined quality profitabilitybr br occasionally movies like primal rage sequels like beyond door iii troll  dario argento films limped onto video remained unreleased until dvd us nearly decade longer movies lost years became sought talked among horror fansbr br of films cat brain probably one hyped due legions lucio fulci fans fact directed also starred idol fulci himselfbr br though quite fulcis best still better later efforts rabid fanbase probably love it italian horror giallo aficionados might also enjoy it depending tastes im sure anyone else people watch hollywood stuff might want take word many glowing reviews herebr br one thing personally found fascinating scenes featuring probably benito mussolinis lasting contribution italy cinecitta studios name instantly recognizable fan italian movies saw here could imagine looked like,0
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i ve been more a lot more depressed than normal for a while today i had therapy session and while i wa in there i realized i couldn t remember almost anything about last week anymore this month ha been extremely stressful for me in term of school and work and i basically shut down at the end of last week i couldn t do anything anymore but now i can t remember almost anything about last week and it s only tuesday,1
matter saying peacei wish say not tried failed want somewhere record tried best gave enough life eh person past near  years lost child her new born daughter congenital diaphragmatic hernia fought lost made almost month doctors said would hours son her wonderful kid bit insane smart clever hell kept hanging while fault all hes good kid almost six now almost ten years meeting recovering surgery mother going cancer took her mother said would here love me forever month ago sticking woman thick thin find shes seeing ex flame ran face book screwing behind back wants move out monday none less reward stay home dad devoted child this hotel room thats even name  weeks tops try sort start new life fuck face takes old one house child things ex part could say hell it this always but due mix ever mother died past years havent birth certificate meaning real id crux matter people identity stolen me mine got one night wandered off sit one day till next morning wake up kiss son good bye go cheap motel mini fridge microwave told to make own even name dollar pocket tried damn try much though want more fair right really hope new guy treats son well mother tells ok guy want this name will tried remember ok thank sorry wall text,1
watched neighbors house go fire please practice fire safety please please please fire breaks anyway please safe possible one died poor people cant live home right michigan winter pandemic,0
guilty pleasure watching duckus catfish predators discord think really enjoys roleplaying tho tbh wwow ii like it idk u guys prolly dunno im talking,0
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i know it s a thing with visual perception a that s been a prominent part of my experience with derealisation but i ve just now made the smell connection there s a girl in front of me on this bus with a strong smelling hair product that s lingering all around and it s making me nauseous annoyed stop being so fragrant agitated like i wan na get off this bus badly it s so odd to me i m irrationally offput by a smell and actually it s a pleasant one but i m still repulsed and combined with all the other bus smell fabric staleness people etc it s so much worse the extent to which i m upset by this is ridiculous lol my own empty coffee cup is making me wan na spew can someone explain why this is happening and how i might ease or stop it there s no window that can be opened i know it might sound stupid but i m omw to meet a friend and this bus ride is taking it out of me and putting me on edge i don t want the evening ahead to be impeded by this,1
im tired scaredi need leave husband reasons might immediately think theres nothing wrong him need work courage leave him kill myself cant keep going like this,1
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let mom write something sub saved draft proud hi teenagers hope happy school opening hope good semester year dark times need stay strong stay inside also go please forget wear mask also work minimum wage deal woman screaming calling manager tell get like place hate type woman also see mask tell get risking health many people covid joke wear mask cost,0
got  maths test live  highest score feel like celebrating parents dont care classmates really dont care first  got new school im super happy it,0
walking home work since car died drop interesting shit comments dm whatever im bored fuck,0
probably dramatic sorry school increases feelings depression hanging ,1
died one year hardcore world started begging quarantine died help cope,0
insulting people who actually struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts everyday idc who started the rumor but the fact that the person let it go this far is sickening ur crazy if ur THAT desperate for attention Suicide is nothing to joke about bc the pain is so fucking real,1
dog passed awayi started considering end little ago im drunk strongest wish then remember parents even love sake social norm two me couldnt bare make suffer like that especially dad loves family currently me  mom  dad  dog loved well treated smart dad loved like little sister dad relied much emotionally long story short got run over got treated morning found dead already serious depression family already struggling bind itself ive got interest nothing nobody already fear loneliness father fear even more fear age quickly fulfill obligations could lose house fear die soon too dies swear kill moment already lurked sadly posted know kill now wasted time reading rn please go help critical people dont anyone tell this tell problems yo relief feel wanted note somewhere im convinced point im  sure killed point want die also im concerned dad plenty fear,1
dreams distanti friends never have im charismatic im funny barely hold conversation ive alone long im emotionally exhausted constant mental breakdowns im already numb point anxiety medication numb even more might well dead itd different want friends bright future travel world loving partner yet cant that person try best nice towards others im good enough anyone im almost  now education job friends life even started hate incredibly much,1
Post savage depression led to ya girls new obsession  https://twitter.com/HghMeHerbnandez/status/989220817576734720 …,1
tried commit redflagtried hang panicked breathe kicked in kitchen knives dull pain tolerance low guess thats failed,1
redflag always option anyone says otherwise never point one would kill themselvesit genuinely pisses everyte person comes me stands front room even guy comes radio starts spatting time they realized worth it saying  theres always someone cares miss thats true needed them say did support cared much anyone has gone tough times realized doing please hear out saying happened nesscerilly bad going through different people weaker prone depression suicidal thoughts things others im done ive it im tired dealing world puts profit peoples life world judges book cover world exploits poor woman trying feed family  world wants everyone fit in im done trying fit in im done everything rich won lost thank you cared,1
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social experiment type i hate let predictive text expose you,0
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feel like human being anyone else understandim    months feel like human being bipolar disorder depressive episodes lots anxiety life im failure careerim back living parents working part time im trouble coping ive nagging feeling always personlike im extremely subhuman im always shocked people like want around when do ive never romantic relationship like kid im talking early  years old would consciously think kids people human would hate it grew older felt deserve friends praise people ever always assumed anything earned life earned people feel sorry me im almost  ive never romantic relationship sort im terrified even know id go it im alone cant stand it hate muchi wish could kill myself anxiety selfhatred much see end it im never going able things want do age two feet steady job live parents ive never relationship etc feel like leach world see point alive people tell potential waste im basket case think id world favor killing myself,1
important im salty wanted get minecraft java long time since bedrock really good told cousin uk buy mei live iran credit cards different cant buy own bought account apparently minecraft banned iranjava turned vpn downloaded yea probably see going cousin told soon downloaded call discord downloaded however call him went hypixel vpn i idea could get banned that instantly got perma banned cousin went appeal thankfully changed ban  day ban yea important thought id let anger somewhere  days go,0
"i want to be able to take a break from the internet to help my depression, but i can't. i'm already addicted to it like a drug, and a lot of my school stuff depends on it. i can't run away.",1
think ityou know loved much carried entire year owe much tried commit redflag last month took lot pills ive called paranoid  blamed bipolar  suggesting friends knew something didnt know right seeing guy lied encouraged anyway friend told last month said ever something like hed personally beat death care false hope kept going gone i still love her always given me since worth think time love would never ever blame her kept alive long,1
pet store near neighborhood really cheap normal parakeets sold five dollars mean thats whole bird feel lucky many animals maybe ill able adopt one get older ferrets guniea pigs hamsters dogs cats fish sorts birds things,0
redflag viewed negative thing essentially tell someone living severe depression better alternative deathim strong believer redflag justified likely commit redflag later life goals ive set complete severely depressed yet known even closest friends amp family happy friendly person ive got act art single person know suspects even slightly depressed severely depressed since childhood seen several psychiatrists amp councillors without parents knowledge help growing weary living constantly depressed see valid reason redflag cannot justifiable option terms affect friends family used believe redflag inconsiderate im realizing regardless inconsiderate is living life depression something i deal certainly justified ending life feel best choice explain redflag cannot viewed positive light right seems current culturesociety deems terribly wrong thing look history reveals several large cultures almost embracing redflag,1
hookup lied hiv status convinced didnt need use condom im  dont want die aids made mistake cant take back anyone wants sex please safely dont idiot like me hooked stranger dating app sex breakdown started talking physically abusive ex got hooked meth cried like  minuteshe asked comfortable meth enjoy sex better happy said no wouldnt comfortable probably left here right stupid stayed bit longer fucked during anal stops says put pants on okay wants leave leave texts  hours hes admits high meth asks come back hes lonely made apparent wont come back tells hes going kill hiv panic attackmeltdown went er ive pep post exposure prophylaxes reduces chance contracting hiv like  days also coworkers joking possible hiv status saying stay positive my boss told them told boss er thought going late im scared alone well terrified havent told family im  friends anyone confide in im positive im going kill myself already depressionanxiety close redflag before might thing push over ive tears past days im dumb dumb shouldve worn condom know im dumb please dont say shouldve worn condom yes im trans im closeted,0
yo girls actually like guys moan ive heard somewhere know true,0
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typical rantim guessing one read this im ok that lost husband longer loves me refuses admit it touched  months want alone me literally torturing words saying nothing wrong much debt know upset working im loser much pain time back hurts time anyway put plan action slow plan hoping one attribute ignorance rather plan sort took large dose acetaminophen couple days ago  mg taking  mg  twice day since way say pain know difference tylenol ibuprofen know slow going wait last minute say anything pain cant handle anymore tired pain want out,1
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artist struggling life sure looking formaybe conversation someone willing talk with advice feeling alone,1
im giving horny life aight nerds aint chief horny lifestyle isnt me realized im using mask cover lack interesting qualities valid hobbies actually making uncomfortable conversations people suffer inevitably end swerve nsfw category so it local hoe quiting hope actually meaningful talks people on ive ghosted you im sorry say ima bad person,0
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hate reddit mobiles new photo posting shit craps annoying af now wanna able open goddamn folder phone scroll  hrs find picture wanna post,0
left drawing redflaghey guys want start saying know personally heard went traumatic events father also involved older sister mom called friends mom told son  years old killed monday night cutting wrist mom told friends mom left drawing table did shes trying figure means didnt send picture told looked like drew friends mom said like mom described her chance would guys know means,1
got sexually assaulted cousin for context im dude forgot  years ago chilling watching thursday night football cousin right next shes touching hand giggling hops top attempting give lap dance time muscles skinny short fit ran played basketball starts pulling shorts down im trying stop wont finally kick chest run never told parents hers really popular girl school considering telling everyone tarnishing reputation would feel bad,0
soul mate died dont see reason continueshe died almost two years ago closer anyone absolutely inseparable even birthdate tattooed know im never going again miss weight could bury me want die im much pain losing her even sleep dont get reprieve nightmares death feel void life wont ever go away death seems like long awaited rest hard life,1
realized tell irs anyone fans get audited fans snapchat premium anything like pay taxes some lot dont tell irs theyll audit them holes yall tell,0
i quit my job recently and need to get a new one because i m running out of saving i live in a foreign country so there aren t many option i ve been to some interview but i ended up not taking the job because i wa too anxious i looked for part time work but almost all of the job were shady in some way like not deducting tax etc and although most people don t care about it im too scared to break any rule so i couldn t take the easy part time job i m so tired of my anxiety stopping me from working,1
"Just interviewed the most amazing person. She beat breast cancer, homeschools and hula hoops and that is awesome. ",0
anyone elses mood seriously low todayworst ive felt long time almost physical brain im hanging g thread here anyone else,1
help friends whos feeling wellshe best friend answering or friends since yesterday twitter account wrote two days ago dont want alive wanna day today au revoir goodbye french however  days ago wrote demi lovatos tour bcasse shes going happy last week invited home seems happy confident life know broke boyfriend cheated her let dream future together going girl cheated first time two years ago attempted redflag family send hospital went see it birthday called day visited her last month sad exboyfriend tried comfort her told wont tried harm her didnt want go back hospital thought felt better found internship seemed interest her going move sister she lived boyfriend breakingup couldnt afford place alone dont know shes want help her ask sister doesnt know they going move week would see later dont even know came ask help ps pardon english may made typos also dont know post sub im sorry cant edit texted mother shes fine as shes alive breakup still hurts her,1
anyone elsei murderous tendencies dont act although shit hard hold back get angry head physically starts show  face angry hands ball im staring whoever happens frequently normal tho,1
beginning endso  morning gf four months broke up everything me said break still loves me went block social medias one stopped killing months back many times now feel like ive failed person care about person love feels like crap ive failed many people im cried believe appropriate time remove problem myself,1
lucky enough catch movie volunteering maryland film festival ive always fan classic horror films especially gimmicks william castle definitely mustsee mebr br this life work william castle opinion underrated director true made cheap budget schlocky horror films added something films real live theater gimmicks see anymore example nurses case someone heart attack movies put vibrators bottoms chairs tinglerbr br this truly wellmade documentary brings rather shadowed director light celebrated contributions horror cinema also paints castle larger life character wellliked smile facebr br unlike film documentaries mostly show testaments film historians spine tingler shows interviews mostly family members directors influenced work john waters john landis joe dante must see classic horror scifi fans,0
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tw depression mention to ed light mention of disassociation i think that s everything first time i ve written anything and don t expect people to see it but idk the idea of having my anger written down in a le private area is comforting idk like diary piss me off sometimes bc i m writing shit down but then what it s just for me it feel the same a it being just in my head sometimes sometimes i think it s great and v therapeutic and everyone prefers different thing it s absolutely a valid technique so no hate but anyway i hate the fact that i can t cry anymore i m numb all the fucking time idk what i want ever i feel so bad about myself when i see my face for more than like minute which is an issue bc i facetime my long distance girlfriend a lot and can t get away from it i feel so bad about myself when i feel hungry still working through a lot of issue with food so i m constantly feeling on the edge of a relapse i m so numb to everything i couldn t tell my girlfriend that i loved her for like week and i felt so guilty about it but it felt like a lie to say and i couldn t bring myself to do it bc i just don t feel anything she s been really understanding but ik it upset her so i ve started saying it again but i still find it hard bc i feel no connection to the word i know that i love her like she s the best thing that s ever happened to me but the word just feel empty i feel so distant from myself and emotion and even with all this guilt and resentment and sadness towards myself i can t even breakdown over it it s actually breaking me i feel like i can t do it anymore i just wan na feel again,1
think days numberedi mean guess everyones are but know numbered know numbered feel good im pushing everyone away everyones leaving everyone hates me hate me cant alone matter messages me matter tells im alone im alone im meant always alone cant live life hate it,1
i am so screwed up a confused and dumb child i never felt so bad all my life i wish i have any specialty too bad i have none,0
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haha but all joking aside folx I only masturbate anymore for the free serotonin. Because I still have A Major Anxiety and Depression Problem <Emoji: Dizzy symbol>,1
hitting viewers three different episodes right bat serling continued go introducing viewers the twilight zone strange way scheduling one series biggest growers fourth episode the sixteenmillimeter shrine one understated episodes focusing aging movie stars inability cope changing times introducing supernatural element closing minutes approach episode whelming first subsequent viewings reveal thoroughly classy beautifully written short storybr br both leads ida lupino barbara jean trent martin balsam frustrated caring agent shine performances main problem episode supposedly  year old footage actress unconvincing lupino looks identical playing young trent playing middle aged trent diminishes tragedy situation significantly fortunately lupino acts socks convincing us desperation return past situation sympathise with yet trent far sympathetic character primadonna gives little thought feelings around her disastrously withered costar tactlessly belittles reminds long ago glory days were somewhat surprising then rewarded happy ending clear going happen moment see huge projection screen cleverly preempted opening moments trent scares maid stepping behind screen clear beginning however whether sucked projector prove reward harsh lesson appreciating living moment turns out trent allowed return past longed for testament strong wishful thinking humans bebr br the sixteenmillimeter shrine gets better viewing top notch writing acting combine create short play enormous power reflects nature humans long past even though never return except twilight zone,0
gonna go sleep pls comment random stuff seems like friends brother voluntarily charges phone sleep takes full always wonder thinks sees get absolutely notifications youtube post ones know im setting weird comments pls dont,0
im curious many lgbtq wondering ratio im bi,0
parents cant treat equally dont know else post dont want get friends involved  have im sick tired able treated equally parents throw fits  slam doors yell  click tongues attitudes time moment im bad mood irritated get yelled  punished apparently attitude disrespectful worst part depressed get easily irritated know depressed refuse acknowledge apparently doesnt affect person feels behaves say im adult  years old cant irritated ever want house needed write thanks,0
cut wrists lot throughout life never deep cuts never really trying kill though knew chance would kill me would considered attempt no counts attempt,1
"is going to eat cereal, reces pieces, hm ive never tried it before ",0
get much love want kill myselfi feel like shit say want talk someone dont want people love feel upset im lile dont even know please talk somebody fucking absurd dramatic,1
i m not still up i swear why do i keep losing gaining losing gaining tweeps so heart wrenching,0
struggling push thoughts awaymy last attempt around  years ago ive handled daily suicidal thoughts pretty well since then usually resilience push away nonsense aspergers make friends easily ones ended pushing away removing  days ago even guilty remove entire group due negativity since im back self harming strength cope thoughts think im safe usually im make attempt get serene almost bliss like feeling wash ive found answer yet thats usually things go bad even know im typing out think need tell someone know someone read something know tried fill void wife kids working makes feel worse things supposed matter right like makes even shittier person dont second thought maybe im safe thought ive already started rationalising gonna get computer think thats way stay safe right now,1
hate hope dies brutally feeling like killing mom,1
nothing left cannot even right give switch lives someone abouttodie really want leave body scary tatics end life working igottahangmyself please entity anyone power please end me going end jail eventually sleeping am get jail sleep outside,1
the song &quot;Evie&quot; relaxes me  I think I can sleep now,0
someone suggested use white noise help go sleep ahhhhhhhh many gunshots screaming old men yelling,0
Fell asleep in the sun today. Now I have a red n a white side of me. The nice weather tomorrow should fix the multicolourness ,0
matterno ones going miss me reason hang anymore im worthless life pointless idea im posting here cant anymore,1
seriously hand pistol would it would rather put bullet brain go grave want shoot head,1
good looks could kill ugly bastard hentai would law abiding citizen ever,0
deal alcoholic abusive fatheri lots insecurities dad reason  careless person drinking since last  years sometimes different personality drunk abuses family  like burden  idk  cant move forward life bcoz  hope bastard dies painful death ,1
@chantellovesyou No what was she like? Errmm its bluee + quite short  whats yourrs like? =],0
la maman et la putain beautifulest film time whats moving may relation reality art movie deals with directly inspired prousts a la recherche du temps perdubr br indeed la maman et la putain in search lost time apparently tell story  one failure love repeats endlessly first womans name always gilberte second woman appears like twisted deformed double gilberte  veronika like whore gilberte beautiful like night whereas gilberte pure beautiful like day failure first love second love begins one like already doomed first one veronika takes place gilberte alexandres life movie progressively eclipses her first time time gilbertes still coming alexandre waits veronikathen totally shows sad story repeating itself unfaithful woman like alexandre says appears endlessly  unfaithful proust higher point love makes exist also underlines illusionsbr br art causes passage whats outside  illusion love  whats inside truth learning truth instance veronika notices strange way alexandre makes bed answers saw movie then movie its made that learn live make bed alexander wants live like film wants life art br br this conception art comes proust eustache shares rejection political art realism art la maman et la putain fights conception art principaly political  see example ironical review political movie alexandre like proust says  art care proclamations exists silence first all art introspection also realism naturalism rejected  art needs transform reality exist proust writes  i discover illusion realism lie thats la maman et la putain hide artificiality underlines way actors say text  the seem artificial higher go said eustachebr br eustache proust share idea artist translater inner truth but alexandre failed eustache succeed la maman et la putain tells us failure character truly is sens tragedy arise go movie becomes saddest see face alexandre looks like livingdead see fact scenes become longer while nothing happens outside end movie see alexandre writing veronika asking hes writing lifeyou guess hes not even literature failed end movie shows symbolic death alexander smashes heaviness reality tiny nurses room alexandre looks like albertine marcelbr br to explain failure say alexandre balzacs reader forme et signification jean rousset explains that prousts readers balzac swann charlus unable artistic creation theyre stuck reality mistake art see reality art are aware transformations necessarily exist life artist work reality art thats exactly alexandre claims instance loves woman parallel reasons played bressons example hes like swann falls love odette looks like botticellis womanbr br life perhaps vocation thought indeed eustache committed suicide even said alexandre nevertheless difference alexandre eustache  eustache absolutely alexandre alexandre like double without art horrible vision artist crystallizes fearsbr br by fallowing veronika end movie alexandre condemned illusions death remind last frames movie face jeanpierre laud well endless pucking veronika maybe already hell describes end like sartes huitclot absolutely like final liberation le temps retrouv eustache read proust alexandre could never finish book  always perturbed life veronika tries read apartment cafs la maman et la putain like inverse double in search lost times tells alexander become artist whereas a la recherche du temps perdu tells marcel becomes writer genettebr br if like baudelaire says artiste tells reality light dream nightmare eustache tells us la maman et la putain,0
@withMBC Depression is real but you don't care. You're exploiting someone's illness for profit. If anything happens to Park Bom it's down to you,1
@EmmyhasaGun my favorite line in that song ,0
stop stop yeah get cool gay straight bi whatever else jesus christ cant go reddit anymore without people saying i told ____ im bigay i got girlboyfriend like come people nice amazing come people great significant jesus amount way much downvote want care internet points,0
i m just an armature idiot i m not a pro bodybuilder despite being diligent for over year in my training i m not a manager despite literally figuring out my current job from scratch and training everyone i m fucking short and pathetic and no one ever take me seriously i m not competent since i m a dumbass dropout and my depression and self loathe ha destroyed my social life how can i just go blip and never come back,1
almost  months sober falling apart shit ton different traumas bubbled surface around two weeks ago people live with support system vacation five weeks kept contact much also nasty painful tooth infection triggering healthbased ocd existing like zombie barely move right now walk move slow motion feel like someone tried talk would stare energy open mouth know happening me know thinking killing  want it picky piece shit one way want go out oding doc cannot money think thing stopping right now life messy untangle fucked financially longterm much trauma feel close anyone cannot accomplish anything much physical pain smart feel much overwhelmed grief someone lost od year agoi hanging thread snap please someone help me please please someone need help please,1
i still feel toss though i wa better yesterday but actually realised im not when i woke up at am feeling sick,0
everything messmy entire life mess well paying job hate im fairly certain company going go bankrupt soon writing walls sure mass layoffs including work best friend honestly like father figure me still talk him seeing regular basis people left company miserable fear jobs surrounding negativity making depression x worse im looking jobs luck yet found one decent would almost cut pay half simply cannot do despite decent salary cant seem save money things always pop vet bills higher normal electric bills car stuff etc emergency fund always gone soon reestablish it hate apartment loved one point awful neighbors moved construction began outside window there multimillion dollar homes built right next complex construction literally  days per week  hours per day never sleep causing become increasingly irritable ive spent almost  trying buy noise canceling products oh woke gas siphoned car friday asked switching another unit would  transfer fee higher rent want break lease itll  fee many friends days married kids chose career im slowly catching up think realized lonely career focused life would be also feel like everyone knows always annoyed me im point even know bother anymore feel like control anything life much change happening once,1
@ohmanitsjessa did you know they make a rocky road snickers? I had no clue. Its tasty  I'd bring you one if we were in the same hemisphere,0
point seems almost unnecessary state jon bon jovi delivers firm strong seamless performance derek bliss capability actor previously established critical acclaim garnered films the leading man looking back but case anyone still wondering yes jon bon jovi act act well thats come expected him easy separate derek guy belts hits vhbr br i generally would watch horror movie ive come expect focus sensationalistic gore rather dialogue plot pleased film really viable plot moved along gore much become focus film disturbingly realistic quality films higher technical effects budgets so gore fans might disappointed story fans notbr br unlike action film like u dialogue takes back seat bombast get chance know the good guys actually care happens them scenes left unexplained like dereks hallucinations get feeling certain aspects lay foundation sequel unfortunately lack interest shown hollywood film sequel never happen instances forgiveable knowing vampires could continuing seriesbr br is best film ive ever seen life no good way spend two hours entertained yes leave person fears horror movies insomnia leave horror movie lover completely disappointed either somewhere horror genre loather horror genre lover film you reaches happy medium effects story balancing otherbr br ,0
need signits one nights cant keep thinking pain ive caused everyone whos left life want sign want something make feel like still worth im scared life,1
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 maybe dysfunctional family upbringing environment always shy introverted never really talk people good friends child high school anyone people fake users deceiving understand notredflag happened people date love teachers give students kids going parties could fit in kids friend groups stupid funny things could have thought friend group college girl messed caught feelings exes best friend giving her slept friend thus whole group split understand feelings want experience relationship whole society seems messed up cannot even deal long distance notredflag need something moment wish could forget motivation person want be good learning languages producing music web design graphic design film editing photography hitting gym stocks finance like many things could motivation all even current job get bored quickly reading white papers want get proactive always felt like life never way want be,1
Depression is really ruining me right now,1
motivate write essay want to whatever want give support call piece shit idfc,0
september told us getting divorce september parents told brother i getting divorce  months later nothing happened talking us plans divorce nothing im sure ask it idk really scared to scared im even sure im pretty sure decided get divorce more idk one mentioned anything since ever since covid started last year things mom dad gotten really bad especially summer luckily past month so things better yay d ack ive like confused abou do like help makes sense idkkk im sorry am randomly emotional whydo iexistthoughts  yay pog hello  ive kept self havent told anyone even closest friend hi pie ur amazing whats poppin u might see u scroll thro profile lollll literally tell everything her im sure havent told yet supportive amazing person know im sure why im afraid guess well knows cuz sometimes stalks profile lmao hi pie u know thro reddit post lol ive mentioned things kinda bad home nothing really that im confused do say like everythingha probably said idk like  times sorry idk im telling  random people  friends stalk profile see needed get chest thanks listening well guess reading means lot nice day lt ddd,0
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remember seeing trailer movie first released looked pretty cool never got chance see though went blockbuster rent videos figured watch it love silence lambs seen enjoyed movies might get kick the cell whole story concept interesting going physically mind killer cant imagine world live in acting actually pretty decent jennifer lopez one say great believable job would recommend scary thrillerbr br ,0
people say they want my life i don t understand why from the outside i guess having no job and endless time to do thing is great to some people im housebound severe agoraphobia panic attack every time i leave the house severe paranoia about the outside world that i can t overcome i have a great partner and a great housemate who care for me deeply yet im suicidal i just don t know how to live anymore it s like i feel like one of those extra puzzle piece you sometimes get that doesn t fit anywhere and is effectively useless my role is nowhere i can t work or leave the house i have barely any hobby none that interest me for too long anyway all i do is clean organise thing play game watch stuff and browse my phone all day every day my partner love me and i love them spending time with them is the only happiness i get but then i feel guilty because i know eventually ill break their heart because im not going to live much longer i overdosed on morphine in november couple more spoonful and i wouldn t be here anymore i didn t even write a note thing were that bad that i just did it without thinking no more morphine in my possession sadly i fucked up one of the best friendship ive ever had i really screwed it up i miss her every day i check on her instagram story periodically to see if she is doing okay and she is proof life go on without me me and my partner joke that i can t kill myself because i promised that id live to see elder scroll come out just to spite todd howard i don t think i can hold on to living for that long sometimes i think about that saying it get better when ive suffered with depression for nearly 0 year been sexually abused by my ex partner diagnosed with ptsd diagnosed with bpd developed agoraphobia cast out of every job ive had had people threaten to destroy my life over petty drama the list go on and on everyone say all of this stuff is temporary but it add up and it culminates into this you can t see me but im a shrivelled husk of a person my therapist who i started to get on with discharged me a week after my overdose because im too high risk that wa pretty funny what exactly is left for me to see in the world there s beautiful sight great place sure but im not rich haven t travelled out of country for nearly year my agoraphobia is getting worse there s nothing for me out there i had a plan to correct my mistake with overdosing and make sure it succeeds on new year eve because i couldn t stand the thought of being here for another year my partner dragged me through it and i ruined his night suicide is appealing because i don t want to suffer anymore what doe stop me is my partner and the friend i chose to keep i know they d be upset but plan and idea for suicide still flood my brain and i know one day ill be free of all of this pain it doesn t get better it get so much worse day after day ramble ramble,1
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feel lonely like nobody cares everyone lying telling do people done before friends past thought friends called asked hang out basically laughed me things said things do made fun girl time one told later called wanted make fun you tell told you played like matter truly knew cannot trust anybody meant anybody truly close too decided end life failed course cannot even that sometimes ignore feelings hide go out pretend there figure gone soon start go n fun comes back everything know do lost cannot even put words feel right reason cannot trust people,1
little birb wanted say hi anyone sorting new hi lt   ,0
im indifferent towards livingi think im ever going kill somebody got really sick something like really even care thatd pretty great actually second nature shut room away everybody lose escapism everything else much work much work study much work work much work go outside talk people etc see point it either ive lived fantasy world head whole life im starting realize know live real world friends seems like everyone would prefer around really feel connection anyone else theres wall everyone else world goals aspirations theyre stupid infantile shit probably crash burn pursue anyway really want live anymore know problems selfinflicted constructed whatever theyre fucking minute compared basically every depressed person planet want anymore cant this much energy it ive always taken easy way everything death whole lot easier alive wish bravery kill dont need someone else something else me want alive anymore hate hate alive despise myself,1
hey hows everyone doing  day posting row check everyone im gonna untill im longer teen tell doing today anything interesting happen wanna comment want know love you,0
life is just working hard at school so you can work hard at college so you can work hard at an unpaid internship so you can work hard at an unfulfilling job so you can have a nice funeral when you finally kick the bucket whats the point the only thing keeping me from offing myself is the fact that my girlfriend would be devastated and the off chance that it could fail and leave me permanently injured why do we a a specie continue to exist in this hellscape despite it inherent pointlessness,1
it s raining here...   love the smell of rain on the earth.... ,0
broke birthdayive fallen love twice life ive finally found second person dont force feelings towards makes feel alive makes feel something else depression helped get last love happy got him happy cried hyperventilated happy excited first time someone actually love loved back cheated didnt give him gave second chance thought ive done wouldve enough not first person ever cheated on me now birthday today right now long distance relationship came visit me everything went well started asking would hate left me could never hate him left me cant look knowing person friend cant look knowing doesnt love me nothings going right recently lost clean year today lost clean month best friend really suicidal got scammed money barely even feel like alive anymore want zero reasons kill myself want able kill myself want peace need break head going explode,1
i have no direction my family is made up of very successful people i feel constant pressure to live up to their expectation but right now i could really give a fuck about school i m trying to sober up but it s so hard to do when i have school to deal with it just suck i just got on here to vent i just wan na lay in bed but then my anxiety is like you re going to fail x i just want this to be over fml,1
@CandyGirl523 Hey did any of those pants fit you or your sisters? ... I hope they weren't too ugly ,0
vivekg good to hear that we have support in netbeans but then it netbeans you know,0
like sports movies come past movie similar respects based fact sets movie apart rugby team sport many americans familiar with set aside movie rewarding piece film noir reminds we marshall  smaller budget independent movie feel fine effort director ryan little bring us story rebellious teen played sean farris never back down rick penning finds odd place field despite plot lines holes film heart rewarding viewers good characters identify with also good performances supporting actors gary cole coach larry gelwix  neal mcdonough coach penningricks dad felt go lot different emotions watching movie end left feeling faith mankind  hope future children especially coaches like gelwix,0
worldppl cares give themi planet yrs one thing learned ppl care u something give them im tired this wish born way care productive im told wanna connect ppl want cant connect anyone awful feel trapped inside head hell u suppose u wanna connect ppl nobody wants connect u theres point living like,1
really bad spot right honestly know nobody ask helpi shitty eastern european country live alone money  food left supposed wait end month get money scholarship university supposed get month got postponedi tried everything  charity city food pantries like usa  even church could get help nothing else besides phone need take online examsi amhungry  tired  anxious  cannot even sleep redflag feel life completely done nobody ask help asked made feel like piece shit askingi know anyone talk please calm down rock bottom alone,1
person feel bad foris father lives alone sisters talk him cant keep going im mentally emotionally physically destroyed loneliness guilt regret sometimes selfish happy happy least pain cease,1
ok ran ideas original posts ngl shitposts make sense,0
meme pronounced like mey mey meem mame,0
low point  familyagain rd time life made redundant  many options fear little chance getting another job life insurance would support young family runs next  months maybe best option family take option financial protection cant provide know young daughters willwould disagree alternative losing house going welfare pretty frightening,1
lorna greenjanine reynaudis performance artist wealthy intellectuals local club falls prey fantasies promise romantic interludes turn murder kills believe sex horizon quite possible that form hypnotic suggestion someonea possible task master pulling strings like puppetis guiding lorna killing comes across secluded places appears lovemaking begin murders within fantasies committed lorna awakens bewildered often clueless privy within dreams ever took place realitybr br if someone asked describe particular work franco id say elegant  difficult now probably read user comments befuddled film about since large portion takes place within surreal atmosphere dream franco mentioned interview heavily influenced godard early career far filmmaking style deciding abandon clear narrative structure favor trying create whole different type viewing experience and read reaction user comments heresome like decision others find style labouring dull bewildering ill first admit film head even franco himself quizzed critics watched succubus admitted even understand film directed it might say succubus merely precursor admired work venus furs considered masterwork francofaithful also adopts surreal dreamlike structure protagonist truly know whether heshe experiencing something real imagined sense like protagonist experiencing type confusioncertainly succubus unconventional filmmaking given keys exactly going on and great deal elusive dialogue help matters succubus also populated beatnik types poetspeak cormans film a bucket blood poked fun at personal favorite scene teases possible lesbian interlude lorna woman meets posh partyquite bizarre fantasy sequence mannequins used rather unusually great locations jazz scorei liked film myself although understand receive negative reaction loved one scene posh party lorna wee bit drunk writhing floor gorgeous evening gown others attending shindigequally wastedrush embrace kisses,0
realized black people black tongues actually thought black people black tongues insides mouths,0
"@dominossthelens Very clever; leave it to those Oasis lads to come up with something that &quot;cheeky,&quot; as you Scousers would say ",0
set my alarm to wake up wanted to speak to my si in africa on skype i miss her sooo much,0
sadly is going to bed,0
Anyways got a date with my baby to watch Infinity War tonight! leggo! kick that depression ass!,1
 options guyz pleaze choose     ok choose thank u,0
want die want exist whilei feel overwhelmed sadness hopelessness feel like cant keep graduate school work housework yearold really good throw tantrums scream part day husband also depressed moment cant talk fear making feel worse appointment therapist see new patients may st i made appointment month ago ive binge eating last week two hoping food fill emptiness want die want take break consciousness while,1
jerk venting someone clearly worsesorry didnt really know else post this friend gets abused parents badly get abused myself emotional get every way except sexual ptsd side affects abuse including redflag attempts im much fix it im focusing stuff nothing people get therapy encourage honestly want try go alone first personal reasons friend well basically used mention needed therapyventing talk them mention anything life get angry imply im sickening around first assumed maybe vented much kept inside much possible kinda good ive learned keep things inside more whenever vent anything get mocked them last night assumed anxiety making lies basically admitted it whenever said feel like im acting entitled would say yeah are press shrug off begged tell me never said anything ive helped  redflag attempts never met irl keep begging visit country keep telling love as friend every day see less less that dont say goodbye anymore unless prompted i still say it barely say like say nice things heartfelt moments usually think someone hates leave alone forever second redflag attempt happened im scared now dont want leave want avoid dying want know asshole venting someone clearly worse quick edit clarification yes listen vents always ask are part reason feel confused theyre angry,1
get crush dating guys interested guys makes sick stomach ratchet slutty girl like friends know anything crazy problem sweet wholesome good losers interested take advantage that looked social media sadly post anymore know track social media platforms easily found friends super egotistical superficial get wake up,0
brief background bullet points go weird go detail drug taking parents  mum disabled wheelchair times hospital years growing up  dad commited suicide   mum relied heavily drugs booze,1
idolette marissatastic i m so sad about the house episode tonight but bigger amp better thing damn that taub lol,0
bah immune system finally gave in it did so well this year throat is feeling horrid now,0
im sorrytoo annoyed pain im sorry wont bother gooing pain im sorry good night friends,1
so teenage years lived moderate depression formal diagnosed disorder history treatment hospitalization mentioned argument yknow hear you good life compared me life sucked cannot depressed funny life great either worst definitely average gets funnier tell phone need go outside going walk helped feelings help you dude staring grass moving exciting hll nature going cure depression even brought god me anyways horrible sht heard depression someone told go outside,1
i give up i won t ever get better my life will be the same for the rest of my life my youth is already wasted i m rotten inside the pill on my desk are a constant reminder but also a comforting way out anytime i would want to the light from my window is a reminder of how the world will go on and forget about me i like that thought i used to feel ashamed for always feeling ignored and not seen but now it s all i want please hate me it will be so much easier please forget about me please don t think about me you deserve better fuck you screw you don t make a face like that you ll get wrinkle you re crazy you re stupid you don t know anything why are you like this why are you laying on your bed all day why did you ignore all the sign mom i m hurt and i want to die why did you forget about the time i told you i tried to kill myself why did you say ew at the time why did you tell me to never do it again why did you tell me we re just gon na have to make it on our own i wanted help i m hurt i m angry and frustrated it s too late for me to get better i want to disappear,1
about to leave for the kiro ,0
cyberbullied turn damn computer,0
think give upim cut life wish were really probably called quits years ago,1
guys missed spanish lessons theres black suv pulling driveway please help,0
Just experienced the world's largest Hershey's bar ,0
"MSN isn't forgotten, cause there are still people who don't have twitter ",0
died didnt,0
"@ayydelores Honestly it is tough, with depression sometimes I have days where I physically won't be able to leave my bed & do normal things. It's hard to explain, i never understood it until I went through it & honestly the first 2 years with it were my last year of college & first of uni",1
anyone game ok play number game think called anyway dose anyone want play dm rather discord great would add everyone group chat fine want like  people want like  good yeah dm add discord play,0
girls yall ever laying holdin titty warm,0
@DumaniVuyiswa @nthabi_mokake U didnt say anything about depression or suicide?,1
mostly need vent im rather confused sadits strange good life im high school good grades ive never experienced death loved one loving family roof head pretty much ideal package kid reason seemingly random times get fucking sad sometimes point fantasize offing myself resorted self harm outside brief faze cut myself know certain ideas first say closer get adulthood see horribly fucking nasty world operations constantly outclass compete others promotions money friends fucking everything one missed payment little slip bam homeless nerve wracking awful guess feel like dealing it life like seem worth living aware plenty time actually go find something like make friends really worth misery one suffers aforementioned aspects thoughts say no another thing really gets im fucking terrible academic skills actually land decent job todays society reason good grades school ludicrously easy get  short assignments week want anything pursue job technology engineering mathematics science like seemed get worst possible genetic traits field things im truly good reading writing neither skills get shit real world sure could work hard learn something else like said before whats point much damn effort could well nothing end im also terrible making friends first  years life barely got interact kids all taken toll point ive pretty much accepted gone numb too still hurts deep knowing widely incapable forging intimate relationships desperately wish had all powerful feeling within will fail life tools succeed see point trying time loathe thought taking life want coward find wishing daily reason die fantasize often id like admit giving life war any war side care assassinated giving speech murdered trying save loved one mugger them sometimes wonder enlist high school hope death comes swiftly want die want reason it due this guess could say im suicidal yet telling bad could get coming years due think may depressed even though able put aside ignore feelings time thats basically it really need respond feel like though would find pleasant surprise did wanted get chest someone,1
life falling apartquarantine sucks school come back stress kicking in best friend trying help im dragging aswell mum arguing time im starting consider selfharm coping mechanism dont want die im scared longer goes on likely something stupid irreversible,1
im donei need someone tell fact marry someone next eighteen months even smidgen hope ill something live dream finally come pass ill reason actually live reason live right now none all turns person lied marrying eighteen months ill then,1
opened things go welli thought telling friends would help get pain away thing people told problems made told  friends family problems like even family problems kind acted like trigger told one friend smtg personal superise r victim stopped texting friends mine tell problem life listen give support comes make feel like bad guy hard explain finally told sucical thought friend said said normal chill know explain hope u understand tried say,1
stave redflagconstant suicidal thoughts without support network futuresome background im extremely isolated physical health abuse trauma anxiety reasons cant connect community lgbt intersex real option survive right camming ive basically surviving willpower alone things need help keep existing getting harder harder maintain anyone talk to last attempts turned really abusive isolating alienating cant see anyone professional engaging people online whether various fandoms my community feels basically impossible tried feel like ive eroded away im loss beat back enough keep living,1
people say i would miss youdoes anyone else feels suicidal actually get little upset people say things like redflag selfish if killed would upset lot understand lot people commit redflag think one would care case helpful way would feel someone said ive never told anyone im suicidal want upset them theyre taking pain making feel feel guilty mindset would trying help almost feel like everyone wants alive actually care whether im living ive much pain long even good reason nothing seems make happy sometimes know strong future ahead probably alone everyone moves gets married families feel like want die im older  im  now going go downhill then friends enough going miss much no feel like deserve lonely pain  years everyone content knowing im breathing also really want die,1
i dont think my friend are bad people which for some reason hurt to type i cant stand them anymore though im a class clown so everyone think im so outgoing and can talk to people but to be honest i put on a mask i think people are only my friend because im funny im only a joke and not an actual person if i make a self deprecating joke ill be showered with fake compliment or joke about me because you play game or call a group chat im in doesnt make u real friend ive never had a genuine conversation with anybody i know from school or online the closest ive felt to having friend wa talking to someone about a game on omegle nobody actually hang out with me either im in a group chat and somebody call it or someone feel bad and invite me somewhere two of my friend have messed up plan several time with me and dont invite me anywhere now is this some weird fucking pity thing i dont understand anything about them it genuinly upset me and any small comment or joke ruin my day they dont think about these thing but i do maybe they dont bring it up i dont either but atleast they have people to comfort them they can believe whatever garbage they say to eachother but i know any compliment i get is a lie and fake they just like me being funny and telling joke sometimes ill stay in factimes alone after everyone left it usually me and one person left and then they leave im so fucking alone the worst part is i dont fit with anybody in my class there a trans ki in my class and i dont think theyd accept me with how they talk sometimes the others might not either and i know my family 00 wouldnt they all say homophobic shit from time to time and everyone in my family are not my age but much older they all seem like they would treat me differently im so scared i cant go to anybody and i dont like the idea of venting online but here i am,1
I've just posted a new blog: Depression: Exercise decreases the chance of developing depression later in life  https://ift.tt/2JkVE1x ,1
endsive tried many times held one person loved cared me found never nothing lose nobody ever needs much need them one person needed need me cant fucking live anymore everyone would better without me ive lost many fucking people last one turns give shit cant wait fucking leave world ive wanting since  years old fucking time im sorry better way,1
happiness compatible okayin course last years losing side long battle myself believe preventionbased efforts exhausted calm thinking happy person one biggest struggles found life reason happy recognized many reason happy none bring feeling warmth chest happy makes even sadder see many joys life cannot mentally grasp them many joys life still comprehend them it excuses pain person faces spew root causes actions envious others seeking something already have recognizing cannot rationalize happiness somehow makes actions better,1
waldodior teamkhabib i wa taught the same thing and wa bullied all through my high school year i have serious resentment because of it and depression which grew because i had to suffer in silence i will teach my kid to fight back if they feel threatened in anyway,1
im broken nothing ever enough keep smilingi feel alone even surrounded people put much weight seemingly unattainable romantic relationship im miserable people love me family friends good career nothing ever enough im broken last week ive heart broken ive stood up ive humiliated bar random girl feigning interest know whats inherently wrong im depressed anxious awkward guess thats enough it im  never relationship outside that ive never even sex shitty part even know get experience every girl talk runs away realize idea im doing want feel love comes romantic relationship friends suggested get escort help personally know one apparently sweet affectionate gorgeous cant it real actually want someone want sex me paid them im far behind ill never catch up wake everyday think killing myself get pain anger inside know alleviate harming destroying things around me though every time latter work feel empty before recently gotten bad cant think anyway feel better killing myself hurts much keep going im afraid death would people like said happy have grateful ive tried hard focused good happy matter cant am try smile bring others down killing me ill never get better im broken,1
good byehey you know sure hell know me goodbye probably mean anything you plus bother read rules sub may may taken down hard getting harder weakened much ever since small innocent child things bad almost every day stuck middle parents fighting years id hide table parents shouted eachothe marriage children mistake maybe mistake remember one morning sitting dining room table eating breakfast hear mother become hysterical upstairs run house backyard screaming sky remember words screamed later learned oldest brother attempted redflag remember lot things childhood years trying forget many memories theyve coming back me kid socially isolated stuck day friends one entire life panic inside even saying one word people know ive thinking maybe different tried talk people littlemaybe social outcast today many opportunities ive missed thrown away hurts im waste life whole life ive trapped body constantly wish someone else hope die come back good person people actually like care about knew age definitely say im young way young stay wait things around crumbling including myself ive crumbling know like im dust time wind take me hope you reading good life things bad turns around you me love love,1
ishould try drown something might cause punishment i exchristian,1
need help dont know lookive suicidal before ive close too actual attempts though ever feel like im done everything im worn dont even feel alive human anymore im tired living one biggest issues effects every single day life im extremely insecure makes paranoid almost delusional recognize understand feel may actually real cant help feeling becomes reality mind insecurities make relationships hard last relationship first only issues much handle cant trust cant believe them cant open them ive hurt emotionally vulnerable never forgave know need professional help dont money that damn shame dont make enough money help keep alive whats worse one talk to arent many people would understand dont many friends would understand judgmental family would make fun insecure suicidal dont know do doubt redflag helpline offer anything useful know anything might help let know,1
feeling suicidalso im  years old male strugling clinical depression anxiety almost  years now days better other today instance thinking going home work slice wrists open probably wont tough know idea killing follows eternal everlasting oblivion kinda ofattractive thinking yeasterday cant stand myself bear feeling guilty much myself probably pain think deserve it karma whatever cant take anymore know writing really good needed say something someone vent anyway sorry anything,1
ehjust deleted rest friends social media heard years get replies reach out figure point theres one left stopping it still dont want feel sad hear news remember never will maybe years time theyll remember look see happened doubt theyll care everyone moves one right least thats im counting on,1
ordered some maternity clothes online which came today i got something strange i didn t order not in my size and stuff is missing,0
@ecccoautist @RemyVampVuitton Low priority sectionCurb depressionGo to rehabAcknowledge that your behavior is a sign of oncoming societal collapse and another dark ages,1
someonewhat wrong me fault lost sense morals point im always issue im gender dysphoric hell matter someone always worse though seen friends months someone always worse parents refuse call son kick out still hold head like threat thats transferring schools hey stop acting like that like transferred school even week later did whats next keep getting worse ever let see friends again ever let see old school respected being trans trend pushed throat ill never hear name again reminder cant leave behind cant fucking talk feel every time say im selfish theyre trying hard help convert im thinking feelings matter im selfish thats am im punishment,1
think world go cashless woolworths australia trying cashless stores think stores become cashless not personally think shouldnt,0
itoo long dont think anyone read need clear myself lately things getting control suicidal thoughts getting stronger one moment almost killing next laughing avoiding question point lost try find myself remains myself lets fucking honest forget labels using names diseases social labels me boy cares much others kill best love full night listening friend needs delay work need help put problems aside go running help them stubborn boy loses control really easily say wrong thing make wrong thing that nothing wrong totally lose control start yelling saying horrible things go everything perfect ruined everything go fuck forever calm caring boy again actually episodes needy boy saying love dont forgive going hug eternity terrible making friends shy never speak loud enough make friend totally different person opposite love something one moment lose mind truly hate it happened people lot times before several teachers idols one day put black list resentful sometimes seek revenge happy one second later sad trying kill myself truth cant control myself dont even feel control never realized now dont feel like me feel empty always things dont want to hurt way calm down say bad things loved ones change plans say goodbye middle conversation overreact try control control get one moment super motivated something realize laying bed dying boredom go shopping buy books notebooks arrive home throw corner got bored even started barely eat food doesnt taste like times eat normally barely sleep everything bores much want sleep day boy feels much nothing all care much give fucks constant change days dream writer traveler one everyone say thing truth dont know want be watch movie want character see video want work there dont change looks values days change way speaking walking acting seeing world see movie relate someone one second doesnt say anything me dont know i someone asks always say everyone says me good student shy boy always act different around different people point sure that ps feel good ideia post well,1
always bit distrust watching british period films usually find insipid boring screenplays such ones of example vanity fair boleyn girl magnificent production design european landscapes thick british accents make movies suggest artistic value really havefortunately excellent film young victoria fall situation deserves enthusiastic recommendation fascinating story excellent performances emily blunt paul bettany jim broadbent costumes locations unexpectedly make movie pretty rich viewand say unexpectedly usually pay much attention detailsbr br victorian era in humble opinion one key points contemporary civilization social aspect also scientific artistic cultural onesbut honestly know origins era much maybe enjoyed simplification political economic events prepared landing modern era muchi also liked way queen victoria portrayed young intelligent monarch whose decisions always good least inspired good intentionsi also found depiction romance victoria prince albert interesting equally interested combination intellects well emotions evokesthe fail found movie screenwriter julian fellowes used clichs romantic cinema love story something feels bit place screenplaybr br i liked young victoria much really took nice surprise iti hope period films follow example movie costumes landscapes work support interesting story replacement it,0
dont deserve livei feel like friends family would better without me bother everyone im failure im completely alone one cares me im negative mean dont deserve here wasnt everyone would happier,1
walking talking breathing meme school tldr im meme school interesting really dont know exactly got there think something seen coming last year decided run class sga president thought would cool pass stickers name cool slogan it also thought would cool different designs maybe one day week continue keep mind whole thanos infinity stone meme thing name already similar thanos first four letters same people saw stickers collectables like infinity stones people asking five point on kinda memed corner every often see sticker either someones binder thermos actually pretty funny someone stuck sticker lunch line cafeteria still year half later think probably still graduate senior year anyways back original point meme weird makes virtually impossible normal conversation someone without bringing something funny happened next day basically everyone class knows happened example yesterday th period algebra supposed quiz review quiz today actually happened follows go bag find packet review attached find periodic table accidentally stole th period bright yellow sheet paper someone immediately notices says me isnt like th time youve accidentally stole insert teacher name heres periodic table yes possible accidentally steal bright yellow sheet paper honestly dont know point everyone classroom laughing fact th time happened me actually think use book bag filing cabinet without dividers bell rings grab papers desk without thinking shove in someone else even binder well yes havent used since like first week school proceeds pull giant ass  inch binder filled brim blank notebook paper ah is point someone asked give organized mess papers why give them proceeds pull empty folder page protectors you realize sort right yes would make feel better sorted right now meanwhile basically everyone cracking jokes stolen periodic table full binder blank notebook paper laughing couldnt breathe funny teacher chill situation trying mind business looks says many years paper there  place school supplies home yes realize dont need much notebook paper right no ok insert name here hold paper feel it bring joy start laughing so freaking hard no doesnt bring joy teacher also laughing ok then tomorrow want come school paper book bag dont care put keep backpack meanwhile person hands back folder stuff it here organized everything according subject dont care girly folder keep it thank you give folder back tomorrow stuff it promise felt bad organize crap least give back folder meanwhile someone says randomly reddit karma cryptocurrency long running joke past two weeks want info ask me pushed edge crying laughter whole scene damn funny and yep sums entire minute period cant tell funny day text would there anyways fast forward today basically everyone class knows happened funny anything anything came yesterday dont feel like im carrying world back anyways youve read far congrats took hour write probably took five minutes read hope laughed anyone similar stories feel free share them would love hear them ps chance gets hot someone sees school come ask me likely probably me also ask yes actually happened know seems like isnt true entire reason funny xd,0
want post ugly sub feel would ruin little confidence left lmao wish someone would honestly tell look good smh,0
dktofficiall i haven t talked about depression in my post kindly read again but yes if you feel depressed kindly seek help,1
atlas nowi atlas hold world up to sink swimming trained this make goalie soccer little know purpose thought assholes soccer career learned take it love two beautiful girls im girl too love eachother love me hurts one hurts now atlas alice grew alice smart happy pretty could sing one night fired test shot wall shot herself im jealous gun option choice choose atlas alice hold world up hold world up one girlfriend  years new best friend hold world let happy hold pain one hurts long know one hurts atlas,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
looking back jim hensons works years death like taking look back another time unlike socalled creative types attempting sell to worse yet cynically exploit children nowadays jim never seemed really forget like child ever moment demonstrated this labyrinth aside s muppet movie filmed allegorical story henson came work childrens television puppeteer ended halfhour show primetime television muppet movie ends affirmation everything progressive understanding sorts would say children quite meet expected norm s enjoy fruits era gagged bound speaking anything lest someone might get offended open celebration difference diversity formed large part muppet show offer here said comments must say here great light world went day jim henson diedbr br the muppet movie begins cast sitting see premiere see next eighty minutes short precise strokes introduced major players well minors story proper begins boy given great song bring us moment rainbow connection painted beautiful sad image muppets especially kermit were bunch felt puppets singular personalities combined put show living things based upon part us writ much boldly used to muppet introduced us turn saw another reflection part ourselves course children audience would respond differently character hence everyone favourite animal appeared behind drum kit attempted eat cymbal knew found one mine nowadays swedish chef fan heybr br complementing characters string musical numbers developed motivations personalities picture that shared insight dr teeth band well creative soul henson relevant song gonzos number asking came from many us would spend lifetime gazing stars and like gonzo saying knew would going back someday songs deadly serious course fozzy kermit share number decide combine talent or lack thereof hit road evidence required presentday musicians lost ability use pop structure create something listenable number would it never before never again would group dynamic cast music perfectly complement one another puppeteers voice actors perfectly top game human cast lot live tobr br which makes amazing human element also lived end deal cameos literally pepper film everyone steve martin telly savalas popping offer support even richard pryor last man one would expect see film muppets appears set hilarious moment mel brooks cameo disturbing adult small boy suspect henson knew would find disturbing now big acting strength though comes charles durning doc hopper embodies everything henson audience determined resist every junction hopper comes either offer kermit chance sell betray kind perhaps offer stops right word hoppers attempts ensure kermits compliance become progressively forceful violent whole thing one big metaphor every artist heart broken worldbr br of course animal also shows remind us friends sweet cuddly make less friend point fact animal turns best friend kermit moment core message every good show film henson involved ever since shunning dismissing others simply linguistic cosmetic differences could literally worst mistake one ever makes little doubt todays world moron purple suit tell sons good good feelings fifteen seasons still come serious investigation child welfare authorities hensons creature workshop could never got ground misquote album title daring stupid one thing enforcing choice upon others another matter muppet movie demonstrates henson dared ask us think inside outside proverbial box never another entirely like him never would want us stop tryingbr br therefore muppet movie epitome ten ten film send film cosmos prove intelligent life worth obliterated would it,0
needlessnessi appreciate sentiment help personally people tell im needed loved matter kill desire makes feel much guilty feeling way do,1
 year todaytoday moms birthday would  lost battle cancer years ago best friend person really life grew especially close caretaker going treatments one point stopped progressing eventually slipped away since losing ive lost motivation keep going purpose life anymore ive always issues suicidal thoughts losing made much worse reason havent done yet keep thinking things might get better ive trying different things thought would help moved city enrolled school fall nursing im sure takes make through ive also trouble getting job since moved here also mention still closet late s unsupportive family thought moving away would good me decided  year today things gotten better would end life hopefully find sort fulfillment this meantime still applying jobs preparing school hopefully work courage try dating app see,1
it s all hug and kiss till you wear sneaker and cause depression a you are buying sneaker for your kid pls buy your own too good morning,1
heart set new yearsi fail time ill free anymore mistake judgement stagnation life come to cutoff contacts friends family next that im finally done,1
no cancer no crush say yes no family member die instead really good time playing tennis going sauna dad talking stuff first time long time im happy great happiness feels good,0
fakerpattypattz oh dear were you drinking out of the forgotten table drink,0
stopped reddit much used im changed man ampxb better ofc,0
sometimesthink future like dont kill turning  ill go move girlfriend canada since saving slowlybut problem then get job im dumb college good paying job would require degree start think maybe stripper realise pole dancing skills actually look good fucks everything maybe prostitute girlfriend says doesnt want im thinking selling virginity trying sexually related job requires fuck even look good actual skillsi dunnoim useless,0
demons amp voices came visiti feeling lonely confinement guess demons decided knock im kept awake laying bed uncontrollable terrifying thoughts feel lonely yet screams make think wise really want comfort cant sleep im good wanna this im sorry yall cant handle,1
The Isolation Cycle of Depression and Anxiety  http://bit.ly/2rM5AgC  pic.twitter.com/6VpM63ypzI,1
happines disqussion myself introduce myself im  year old guy currently enlisted army almost major successes life growing pretty normal kid friends fun hang parks everything normal kid would do started growing get glasses due vision best didnt really care forst become small inconvenience really big deal though anyway dont really know happenned  year old puberty hit like train got totally messed up looking like old man young kid time time started getting fat didnt notice first enough make want work out teenage life tried multiple sports gyms avail leaving pretty much empty handed quit started lose interest myself everyone kept telling keep working everything fine alas wasnt didnt care myself dirty didnt clean myself got fatter uglier didnt friends anyone really talk to really wasnt myself didnt thing someone worthy happines since couldnt find happines anything tried dissosicated life turned  finished school got university got first car money worked for thought freedom blessing find something everyone experiences though really happines achieve mediocre goal didnt feel happy still dont multiple redflag attemps afraid even that continued living without energy anything arrive today still cant find happines im ugly never find love think waste oxygen cant put anything working out cleaning anything cant find happines im antisocial coward cant focus something actually it happines doesnt seem reachable im unable happy,0
logical solution kill myselfbut im coward usually get high pass dont deal next night tonight feels like confirmation suspicions im failure im going die failure,1
see another way outevery day im digging bigger hole im trying every treatment get hands gets worse  medication counseling cbt mindfulness honest faking it exercise journalling courses yoga worry time alcohol selfharm much years feels like im fated theres way improve towards anything theres foundation build on instance theres nothing even possibly aspire to understand improve im disconnected friends support energy fundamentally horrible person too feels like im waiting good opportunity die now annoyingly none really seem plausible im completely sure im writing this semblance company maybe another thing tick ive tried everything list,1
never had a girl friend all i ever wanted wa a wife and kid even more than money i have zero friend the only people i ever hang out with are my parent i gamble a lot i am scrawney with a beer gut and twig arm what the fuck i can barely finish any college course i live in an apartment and cant see how i can ever afford a house i am taking my life tonight no point in living anymore depression fuckin suck,1
want mcd fries someone buy fries pls,0
Tryouts done..yah!!! Eating Mexican with the bf. The gonna watch the lakers play..it's the weekend  yah!!,0
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dose anyone know im doin wrong  school work problem one    whats  sort things write equation problem gives   came equation dn n     problem put  four puts   makes   continues trend get correct equation wrong,0
deal friend lost someonemy friend lost best friend redflag want think needs professional help resources could give without making feel put off im really worried cant right covid thanks,1
getting worselife keeps going downhill hide drinks get yelled at ask drink get yelled at talk her get yelled at nothing going way favor getting old fast want things change people could go live shed never say yes took shed press charges list could pack bags leave im adopted wonder lot things would better never chose me would happier would worry much would parents actually responsible people probably,1
"@cherrythegreat Nako! Umuulan pa naman!  Anyway, enjoy the bike rides!",0
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want help friendtheres someone im friends school always makes jokes depressed in way use jokes deal it kinda flashed cuts arm people werent looking today gouging hunks flesh little row slits believe planning anything anyway help know going alot want report her school make worse anything say please let know,1
the past few year have gotten tough and my depression ha done irreversible damage to both my body and my life my teeth are rotten and painful my hair is greasy and my skin is awful my body is caked in self harm scar and cigarette burn i ve pushed away everyone who care about me i ll be lucky if i get out of school with more than gcse pass no one like me and i have no real hobby i wish i wa better now but i wish even more that i would ve gotten better a long time ago before the real damage wa done i miss being able to smile confidently to wear short t shirt without people judging me i wish i wa doing well enough in school to get into sixth form i wish i hadn t done this to myself i am ruined,1
well course not women overly sensitive needy average interestingly portrayed mother whore though pseudoartistically extravagantly blatantly dwelt on unlike many seen la maman et la putain twice many good films noticed opinion improved second viewing know seen yet delve exploits acquired dvd yet figure precisely enjoy movie much really care why though im sure could form wonderful explanation right may disagree perhaps bit boring times im expert blonde reminds lovely grushenka,0
masterballerina haha but then u d have go to cambeltown omg i can t even draw well in inkart,0
@codywatkins you might be the only guy I know that has seen the entire series of the OC and is workin on a second time. FIND A NEW SHOW ,0
funny thing mom  friends europe one time talking childhoods communist countries weird ways vacations mentiones gypsies got hear rendition opinions gypsies one romanian,0
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ever obsessed yeah crush atm litterally cliche might cant stop thinking her every moment think pretty sweet is im like way obsessed shes one friends sit bunch people lunch sometimes catch staring kinda creepy thinking noone really notices almost sure doesnt like barely speaks get obsessed pls guysgals help,0
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hurt game get difficultso simulation  wheres reset   game said make em blind albino  black lgbtq  lets give em brother disability gotta take care  nah easy  lets add toxic family parties wrong boomers wont admit wrong  leads toxic family relationship sprink favoritism step children misogyny  homophobia also dash racism also regression taboo topic way youve felt like learned cope ,1
require assistance fellow gamers ive started playing minecraft always see youtubers dream techno etc go caves end enough light see blocks infront screen shows nothing black colours lighting which makes quite difficult play btw downloaded minecraft tl launcher mods im supposed apply something pls help,0
contemplating it idea should dont read want lengthy yeahi  years old turn  march thinking redflag since fifth grade ive course always thought hormones going puberty early never went it ill give brief overview life pushed feel way starters thoughts began fifth grade mainly nobody really friend less alone mention teased throughout life looking back experiences easy overcome compared things people contemplate redflag over bad really around three friend two really want around sort leeched onto stuck get rid me great times always joking around shit third friend jonathan known since first grade great friends even went house large number times also came mine every single day towards end fifth grade johnathan always superior almost every way younger looking whereas early bloomer looked older kids better looking social friends me jealous means knew much liked overall noticed was feelings feeling inferior grew went house sleepovers years lived nice little house happy family problem family life seemed breeze him hard explain life seemed innocent carefree compared shit head ive grown called typical shit like ugly truth told ive always insecure looked comments never rested well me made worse could sort see it right now feel alone anybody friends none all makes feel cannot talk anybody ive talked mom countless times always tries get look bright side life tells im mistaken im close father mom feel comfortable talking him feel like itd awkward ive tried imagine many times little sister feel actually go killing myself would traumatize well entire family know problem id dead still know could ever die knowing outcome think might still salvageable suspect things getting bad ive began crying sleep well las day throughout week felt diffrent ways ive never felt before ive cried lot before feeling always feels like overlooming constantly know anymore maybe confused suspect hormones since ,1
i used to be really afraid of death and i still am sometimes however a time passed and my life continued to stay stagnant or decline i have come to see death a an escape i hate the thought of hurting people i care about but i really feel like i won t be happy any other way it s been such a long time and i m very tired,1
mulligrubs: A state of depression or low spirits #UnusualWords pic.twitter.com/bSjXROOMOq,1
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st birthdayi think better time finally kill myself excited peace going tonight,1
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never wanted make postso month ago met girl dreams  doesnt prefer physically intimacy   kinda wants left alone lot get ive alone long nice meet someone felt could with idk even im worth here ive sad before ive wanted die last twothree months ive really gotten fixated death mean doubt shed miss long doubt people life could truly miss like know know me  kinda dont wanna feel pain seeing one really take pain away  dont think wanna feel much anymore drink lot control eh whatever like part matters,1
Happy 5 months babe!(: I love you so much and you make me the HAPPIEST girl in the ENTIRE world. ,0
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lovely alone love alone alone thoughts ideas going crazy voices head everything inside messed jumbled whenever try organize get confused whatever get scrambled sadistic andcrazy theres way say it oh well whos blame except myself im one decided perfectly fine need help waved every time parents asked thought ok friends good friends friends talk to burden problems must enough lives depression know isnt maybe is really care live it getting help option anymore late,0
today looked much would cost cremated new goal twitch earnings want family come amount want burden anyone research,1
question google doesnt tell answer forhow sleep never wake up,1
im tiredwell im tired im tired constantly disappointing parents im tired getting shitty marks school im tired downstairs holed basement im afraid parents im afraid im going grow into im afraid im going become mother tears today know grow into im fat lazy lethargic procrastinator cant seem fix myself disappointed parents much every day keep crying little inside sense responsibility all love family keep disappointing them im  father mother know me feel like im waste space waste life im contributing anything family im suicidal im pretty damn fucking close,1
@taylorswift13 you are simply the best! I don't know of anyone else who would go around the croud taking pics w/ everyone!  &lt;3,0
things bleak cant stop thinking iti cant take pain anymore long get psychiatric help cant kid friends gone family leave job city  months ago getting death threats people abandoned nothing im trying hard cant stop hurting pain overwhelming right next unstoppable thoughts gf refusing let put hold cant live her im scared ex husband tried take kid several times before im homeless job money hope want selfish give up hurt anymore worry guilt ive done others im gone,1
post herewhy yell void hope someone responds wonder many us go posting here ill start last time posted different account forgot months ago post im lonely ill make effort get contact friends theyll brush go back whatever theyre doing realize much think think me pull away obviously killed yet im dealing right is lots confusion uncertainty know whether im becoming paranoid beginning see truth know am really know want life wheres motivation without goals since were least staying hands long enough post here not talk,1
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if you ask yourself how am i still awake after only sleeping hour it s stressed about bio exam at 0 so im studying running on a black coffee and a bagel about to make another black coffee to stay warm and depression cry,1
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polkadotskirt i m getting my card in two week and it s a solo iirc threadless com is already out of the question,0
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just in case i d like to add a tw for health i went to the doctor office and had not been having such a nice morning day anxiety wise and my blood pressure came up higher than normal and ironically enough it had me more anxious than i wa this morning ha this ever happened to any of you guy and if so do you guy have any tip on how to relax,1
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consider casual fan dario argento every really good flick such deep red tenebre seems one thats equally uninspired his output since opera tended disappoint still theres denying hes best horror directors top him consider opera argentos finest workbr br this definitely film trademarks present theres welldeveloped characters plot makes little sense begin scrutinize it still think argento european equivalent brian depalma  style matters here much becomes substance typical argento theres beautifully filmed murder sequences unfamiliar mans work may perceive sadistic remark and may be considering often time misogyny them really true argento stages murder intricacy eyepopping visual detail truly makes graphic violence art form plus direction look films impeccablebr br fortunately opera one frightening products argento director feel booming rock music works well horror sequences when others attempt pull off comes across cheesy acting varies cristina marsillach playing beautiful reasonably sympathetic never particularly animate young opera performer rest actors workmanlike get job done again argento acting never point beautiful colors terrifying violence overall fever dream  nightmare atmosphere ,0
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im essentially counting days become failurei one last year highschool im forcefully thrusted real world idea graduate zero idea could turn to idea work trade field work actual passions side trades passion theyd job could fail easily furthermore cant simply take break highschool family allow one bit besides family id  alone since one close friend leaving airforce graduate ill alone lost laughingstock disappointment mentally destroyed likely suicidal one tight bundle year is quite literally going beginning end me ive never felt dread anxiety anything else entire life better enjoy last year can ill like parents poor dead dreams aspirations heres failing,1
need something effectivetried pills long time ago but im idiot vomited work tried slitting wrists enjoyable was get far enough tried hanging myself belt broke soon care die cant keep living life im truly alive need better method need try find gun,1
is watching Ghost Hunt.  http://plurk.com/p/whduq,0
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failed attempt afterwards words helped mei failed  days ago thats okay parts didnt fail reached theses words help stabilize bit hope read helps well absence leave void similar mine always remain youre there absence throw entire life course duty bury parents way around bury child devastated would words actions could mend wound done can least live on others hopefully one day live dont want us find mom telling us youre longer us ill punching air theres one blame myself itll make wonder could done last time together two days ago end longer willing move towards future reached out im strong enough alone took step attempt get better im quitter im damn well going cut attempt life short im sure everyone facing let face you,1
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say i doomedor likely doomed,1
till tomorrow got new phone number reached out actual fuckwhat even meani told wantoverand overand overif want break fucking itbecause iti cannot fucking anymorei fucking enoughyou treating like shiti mean said voicemailyou fucking areand sick ithow supposed sleep put redflag roofbut give shiti treated like precious diamond sweep rug like dirti cannot believe fucking trusted youi fucking hurtso fucking hurtlet die aloneyou see thoughts going headi cannot anymore need talk,1
movie pleasant surprise me honesty previews looked horrible point emma thompson alan rickman appeared rented reservation thoroughly enjoyed movie great acting good plot twists and course emma thompson alan rickman definitely worth checking out,0
fighting long tired tried distracting like race pain keeps catching me want die want live like anymore want give,1
nothing live fori nothing one job income future think of pointless anything even depressed feel emotions hopelessness lack desire anything,1
throughout childhood adolescence told things would get easier turned  im  nothings getting better wanna give things changingi cant handle home parents feel like im constantly scared feel safe even getting high constantly anymore im constantly tense never know long parents start cursing calling disgusting theyve telling leave now agreed give k long swear never come contact ever again starting seem like want leave nothing know do supposed take professional exams year im trouble completing basic assignments pretending asleep  hours day,1
please answer thisso m thinking while feel worthless parents think im attention phase dont fucking know anymore ruin literally every little thing nobody talk feel like everyone everything would better gone never sleep anymore dont really much interests things used love feel like fucking awful person im worthless theres one person wants help me wants talk cant much dont wanna add anything please reddit phase begging attention dumb personally dont think fuck know,1
start school tomorrowand want die school makes want end miserable life even know supposed me cause want musician wanna singer im likely die  anyway yet im put bullshit classes make miserable,1
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 lost fucking mind getting worsei dont fit anywhere anymore im losing friends year dad  unemployed jaded beyond belief dont know earth life ended like  used felt feel pressure angles dont know fucking trust cant open up dont know whats worth fighting for want old back impossible dont think anyone realises depressed mind ive ruined chances love feel like becomming like cowardly cunt used oppositte  lost beyond belief,1
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know  years old ever since depressive episode started  getting worst yesterday lived worst day entire year found cat dead kitchen everything one year old unemployed one wants hire me friends mom accept sexuality anything religious dreams life know want do hopeless everyday wonder still alive life getting worst,1
else care girlfriend cries girlfriend life im alone,0
feel like im going attempt againso recently left mental recovery center  redflag attempts drove previously horribly mental emotional abusive relationship bad drove redflag put mental hospital around  weeks reason left early faked way it manipulated never cared destroyed self confidence anything might remotely make feel human soon left recovery center left her hard me friends decided abandon start hating calling whore trying hurt way possible forgive doesnt make sense im horrible explaining situations im feeling destroyed suicidal thoughts constant im afraid work ive missed might repeat freshman year getting hard even stay alive im constantly feeling like im pull trigger myself dont know losing friends getting breakup everything life getting cant handle again think might put back mental hospital dont want go wish everything never happened wish never happened lived constantly wish succeeded attempts didnt go pain im going right now family scared dont know do feel horrible putting this hurt much know may sound like much feels overwhelming im failing school sleep wish dead cant anymore want happy life went back cutting stuff nobody took well im starting therapy long almost every time therapist calls mobile crisis im saying numerous safety plans im nothings helping nothing helps anymore feel dead cant feel happiness anymore feel depression guilt anxiety pain need help need get this,1
really interesting movie action movie comedy mixed in foxx teams comedian epps movie give comedic spin keep wondering whats going happen foxx next well shot movie director used right colors moviedark blue colors give right kind feel kimberly elise also starred movie always pleasure see big screen plays role well even jamie kennedy movie worth seeing seen it definitely worth jamie foxx fan deserves credit actually given,0
moral social view redflaghi guys girls posted something included topic redflag another thread lead someone reaching pm reply turned petty long imagine its partially whats constantly going head ive never actually managed verbalise write ever life slightly edited message make sense get gist it warn though long one thats wbat said way see redflag way see ever ongoing argument abortion dont know views subject im completely abortion individuals right body feel redflag individuals right choose body but ultimately choose life also liken put pets much pain life worth living immobile use legs example pros redflag weight cons we humans make decision put pets sleep lives worth living better choice feel anything kind thing do certainly believe individual right thing make decision humans unfortunately frowned upon society like alot things due population following rest crowd spread right wrong fact development society hell couple hundred years ago society thought right string women thought witches thats whole discussion another time also theres good amount population natural instinct stop someone dying taking life unfortunately deed happening actually done people take notice think actions couldve done something acted better way prevent it least show theres sort good side life ya,1
goddamnit bro im sick bein lonely need set thighs sleep argh,0
Watching Twlight with comentary ,0
im big fan morgan freeman the shawshank redemption ranks top alltime favorite movies admit often wondered choice roles many titles big budget clichs heart  items less marks return freeman role truly showcases considerable acting talentsbr br freeman plays unnamed formerly big time hollywood actor worked several years offered part unspecified indi picture research grocery store poor neighborhood la stranded flaky driver freeman offered ride home checkout girl scarlet paz vega semibefriended take home however scarlet big job interview needs get to freeman agrees tag along exchange ridebr br the movie follows scarlet freeman several locations movie really character piece interactions two freeman quintessential disconnected hollywood type heard target know telephone number even day week is spouts wisdom dalai lama filtered thru the whole world stage mentality repeatedly calls scarlets job interview audition yet way people way affecting extends beyond fame fan humanity studies them asks incessant questions them delights quirks others would simply annoyed scarlet sees stubborn proud loner was sees man used bebr br scarlet part displays fierce pride sharp tongue serve hide insecurities herself vega plays role connection freeman skates line almost daughterly love physical attraction although plays beautifully creepy sounds even feels connection freeman grow scarlet keen eye reality different worlds cuts thru freemans hollywood bullhit sharp pragmatism refuses accept anything truthbr br the movie smart funny well written dialogue simple effective read one imdb review said lines stilted think misinterpretation realistic human speech big soliloquies here deep soul searching moments trick is think show people ordinary everyday life forge connections one another think freeman vega pull beautifully painting picture bond two people glitters like sun ocean ethereal elusive long gone lives memories tantalizing might been ok bit flowery really like performances movie would definitely recommend it,0
cope losing parent redflagmy dad committed redflag week ago alcoholic along many mental demons put lot shit throughout years past couple years mostly avoided phone calls making trips visit him never doubted dad loved me want deal him guess feel guilty care try help more really needed me guess ive realized late im trouble coping know go feel better anyone help me,1
im usually one discriminate but ranch far best sauce goes well everything especially nuggies would use anything ranch,0
may sound stupid know guy likes me mean like love way like friend way im asking feel like im annoying want talk me fact may reading help,0
wish schools better mental health services students like sure school counselors really usually suggest therapy outside school think lot people realize mental health services school means many people access all school toxic lot people need therapy school alone,0
fault really deserve punishmentsooo never thought sucide deep shit went cant un donefucking hell cant even type right without feeling guiltyi think ill resort sucide really seems like way shit hole im insooin house  people including memy fathermotherolder brother meim one therei fit wellthe person talk mom works much cant talk private muchi feel like one understands even one today went like it fault believe hermy dad wants everything wayi try says end failingif sees playing video games something computer productive commands get fuck offmy brother older brother somehow right hit hes olderthats thing familygood thing dad hit mom yet hes olderid rip guys head offim weaki get physical fights brother scare dad wanna get hit got little fightsmy mom told bite tounge bullshit call turn cheek get fights theyre olderthe way always starts disagreement little things dick brother ego problem hes always right arguetalk shit get hitand acceptable dadspeaking dadhe comes family  siblings brothers sistershe never got along reallyi say stuff like you could done better know hes gone would commit sucideor something close thatthis family broken mei said earlier brother ego problem believe say ego problemi gotta always throw  cents inor whatever say im east asian family moving option make family proud right even give shit themonly one care mom one would actually support send money get jobjesus christwhat fuck writingmust cringe worthyok background family get happended todaywe got chromecast tvi phone hand watch whatever fuck want tvphone  connected charger near corner couchmy brother asks give phone   times kicks mehe laying imagine would look like respondi zone secondsso since respond saying name asking remote first timei fault according familyeven mom admit wrong therei ignored saying name   times responded didntwe go inside roomsdont talkdad comes homeeverythings peacefuluntil calls brother room comehe come hes pissed incidence faultmy dad fucking starts yelling tells talk talk mebecause according works solves fightsi argue preserve integrity says i fucking want younot directly english thats translation said i wanna get rid youi told million times work hit real hardi feeling quit think ever go awaynor talking honestthere side wants exclude  start fights houseand side cares mom would think looking dead corpsemy dad told talk lefti still talked im really scared hes gone said loves willing leave anydayof course split divorce way telling much loves mesummaryi live family hitting someone younger allowed makes older person angrywhich possible since elders say crazystupid shitmy mom one love familyim odd one outi start shiti really belong themwhat logical thing do dad say i want tried everything you like really deserve that said im weak earlier really ami cant even think wanna quit somehowjust anyway,1
got kicked highschool cant stop contemplatingi got kicked online highschool program easiest program school ive ever still failed didnt work lazy im failure dont know ill graduate now cant stop thinking much easier would killed self doesnt seem worth anymore,1
teacher amazing theres kid class obsessed among us right trys get maths teacher play one day hes sick home today second class maths half class missing according school rules stated half class missing teacher could whatever wanted teach happens nine people whips phone downloads among us gets us teach play play oh told us tell kid tommorow played among us thank listening teacher bossgoodnight,0
Ouch! I'm not studying but playing internet ,0
"@TheRock  You are brilliant, love your compassion  and humor and class, an awesome role model especially for children and young adults.  So happy to see you being so forthright about your mom and your mental health challenges. One request please, go deeper into your  depression",1
give nword pass hi guys could kindly give nword pass would really appreciate it always wanted say nword would liberating finally able say repressing long btw im hispanic bad white right bad say nword anyway,0
guys deal big friend groups dont really ton friends partially choice partially bc dont rlly put enough friends im really close with ive widening circle bit recently feel like cant spend enough time everybody anymore ill sometimes go weeks without hanging specific person im friends end feeling super guilty ab it probably few popular ppl sub tf yall manage large friend groups or dont big friend group imagine larger friend groups would handled,0
we ve been good i m not liking the snow right now wa getting used to the nice spring like weather how about you,0
delicatelyreal i feel your pain,0
dont know anymoreon surface life perfect recently transferred pretty good university prestigious one extremely excited thought life would improve would thrive im hate people girlfriend longer getting along brink breaking up motivation anything person once ive grown hate reasons wonder would better alive all worst part supportive family real reason upset hold myself,1
redflag friend keeps threatening redflag talk it less likely itthis person kind good through dealt rubbish hand seem lost hope seemed much better today hotel room saying bottle pills debating taking honest says wants take life believe would rather here however told someone talking it less likely would see through case emailing me speak phone told gruesome death paracetamol redflag would response thanks ive read many times certainly appealing started writing reasoning know really point ill sleep im sorry mostly wish way worry anyone erased existence style everyone would instantly forget id ever been alas option anyway get sleep yourself would do threatened lot before,1
quand vous comprendrait que tre gros ne viens pa du fait de mal manger mais de plein d autre facteurs la g n tique le tca le hormone le trouble mentaux la d pression l anxi t ect l o pourrais avancer,1
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ok coffee time back like hour mean time somebody explain like experience romantic attraction coz uhhh fuck,0
so many channel yet so so boring lazy day again may have to find a hobby,0
aita clean upaita clean stuff family see im gone pictures love letters such know heart privacy energy get rid it going hate seeing all im gone,1
waiting sunsetim waiting sun down want hiking family find body something sitting rock closed everything left phone know subscriptions forgot left home planned everything really nothing waiting golden hour idea always wondered call redflag hotlines like know think could help would think phone call would hell right know curiosity kicks still hours left waiting  typing redflag to google search already brings regional hotline info first title lets see whelp thats one number city side country exactly promising guess whatever lets check out dead line,1
why doe school take over your life so much you don t get sleep anymore i am still doing school work and have more to do a well,0
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im gonna od antidepressanti hate life havent happy entire life almost  girlfriend dumped nicotine addiction brother got hooked on im failure student cant pass college matter hard try im lazy fucking skinny asshole goodbye guys good run,1
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redflag hotline fucking joke better talking walli waited  minutes  people ahead chat got in waited another hour chat automatically disconnected timed out network error part chat survey left negative review called hotline told already helped emailed resources they not im good place tonight one talk honestly think tonights night wrap car around fucking tree drive river hate fucking life hate everyone claims friends everything for cant even fucking help once hate everything myself ill never find love im short ill never life worth living goodbye everyone,1
many people online lately used see like k online time average sudden keep seeing k people online,0
guys lovvvvvvve complain me included every time open reddit see post saying god hate parents x x x theyre worst like bro gives shit theyre bad youll house years never talk again thankful alive thankful everything have odds feed clothe maybe even give place stay outweighs almost anything besides abuse im saying try view things parents perspective quit bitching moaning took phone,0
crush selfisolating get see face light life morning ,0
think finally want livestruggled redflag whole life attempted redflag exactly year ago think im finally starting get better never thought would find happiness life im glad found im glad didnt last year hope things get better hope find happiness one day dont know wish could love appreciate youre still breathing,1
ready check life earlyfirst world problems ahead feel like ive done everything ive wanted life ready check life little bit myself  mid s guy  got decent paying job  done lots traveling world ive favorite country japan  times  ive girlfriends before im virgin dated ten years since last serious relationship relationships long term  got see favorite bands perform countless times ive hundreds shows  im great shape love cycling also lift  great circle friends feel grateful everyone says people less fortunate would anything life complaints im happy im killing time die want wait grow old frail thought living nursing home poop bag terrifies me actually fear outliving friends family recently ive thought checking life early im going plan leave note one day might walk front train bus leap bridge without thought could happen day im looking attention wanted get there anyone gone similar experience,1
Depression and anxiety and allergies and leaving work at 7pm twice in a row and still behind. Can someone send me a puppy or five? Maybe a basket of kittens?,1
apparently used good writer cant start continue end story anymore im remembering how good old days forth grade teacher photocopied story good example thanks shitty sentence indicating personification cool,0
breakfast eggs get enough responses ill edit saying prepared eggs scrambled hard boiled etc,0
know weird tangent go but blows mind much vocaloid evolved watching video history played song actually sounded like real human voice genuine shock song playedhttpsyoutubehnpxinu video watchedhttpsyoutubeegrzcyta,0
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i ve been depressed since i wa year old recently got diagnosed with bipolar personality disorder when i already got diagnosed with anorexia binge eating ibs issue anxiety and depression every day i say i want to kill myself and die i want to die today i looked up parent who s child committed suicide i wanted to see their perspective if i were able to do it i have a plan already but ik i won t be able to do it just having the option is fine why is it so hard to want to be alive and live i don t want to tell my therapist or my psychiatrist because i will get sent to the hospital i love gaming and i won t have to sense of relief if i say the truth i might do it after highschool or maybe after i finish university i can t do it my senior year because that s a waste of school year i m in my junior year have you guy ever looked up story of people who wa close to someone who committed suicide,1
feel like going lose itwhen chest begins hurt hear heart thumping loudly ears mind begins loiter upon dark thoughts cope,1
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wrong mesorry bad english  yo full happy life supportive family couple friends beautiful girlfriend happy still feeling empty fighting wdepression since  never told anybody except friends girl lot suicidal urges past even tried once hate aggressive guy think hurts people around meespecially girlwhich makes hate even more sometimes look mirror say self worthless piece shit appetite life do,1
whats biggest life lessons learnedjust interested lot led thought patterns come learning life lessons late change,1
goosed sorry for procrastinating while you were gone,0
depression is real,1
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"@Kristiepeep @zekellie Well I'm bipolar I have anxiety and depression, I am also suffering from PTSD and I get the fuck up daily. I don't have small children but I have a husband who works his ass off for me so the least I can do is cook and clean. Catelyn uses her laziness as mental, she's doing to",1
ergonomix for real i ve been there in the pit i ve not wanted to exist because of it no one deserves to feel that way least of all you in any way lt my advice is to try and say this is my anxiety depression whatever it may be talking not me i m loved it may help lt,1
reassure me i am fine my overactive mind is annoying i have been working graveyard shift at a food production plant the boss seem to really like me and have been training me on better paying position in the plant i have always been on time since i started in december today i somehow didn t hear my alarm go off woke up after my shift wa supposed to to start so i called and told them i wa having car trouble and i wouldn t make it in i guess my body wa so exhausted i just didn t wake up graveyard shift is new to me and my body still isn t used to it i ended up sleeping a total of hour a i went right back to sleep after calling in i must have been really sleep deprived totally unlike me to do and now i am just anxious about going in tomorrow there were some people missing multiple time a week and they got let go recently which is what make me anxious,1
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hi this thread cured my depression  https://twitter.com/tsukijoji/status/989111699524366336 …,1
weird coincidencewhat odd coincidence planning ending things depending legal issues pans tonight dad gave book read woman attempts redflag one knows legal problem redflag plans thought odd hardly ever traded books read ill read looks decent guess ill add note go route think catalyzer end,1
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everyday reminder failure end iti wake up want end done pain realization matter day never get better wont ply reason life improve meaning take pill pill continue emotionless zombie spending day day g nothing one pretending life makes happy wanna know excites me brings smile face thought today day die slip away die never feel ungodly amount depression deal demons head pretend everyone im ok end day lay bed replay everything asking todaywhy today day im fucked up im bipolar im reasons need want die yet c nt it matter much want die like brain says nope today suffering do need today reminded fuckup wife left deserve nothing pain sorrow agony getting tonight like every night sit wishing courage right thing kill myself even something simple that im agony fucked,1
@KimKardashian @SamTheGreat_ You also need to reread Kim's post. She didn't say her husband was mentally ill. She said mental illness is no joke. As people who assume he's mentally ill for using his own mind are making jokes about it. I have mental illness. Depression and anxiety. It's no joke.,1
trappedi trapped disgusting body miserable marriage surrounded acquaintancefriendship feel obligated provide support empathy get none want every person know wants stay suffer everyone know soulless vampire happy see suffer get whatever me fucking trapped one acknowledges it could get one person admit dont want would wanna die would happy meantime ill wait good time shot even though know never come fucking trapped fair physically freak get die look like horror movie without clothes desire end life respected shouldnt constantly give give people give nothing should life put want first sick invalidated good reason gun know better dead shouldnt feel trapped,1
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i have got work related anxiety and having a tough time to understand if i should leave this job project and join another company or project why this decision is to be made i am kinda the wiz kid in the project who know everything and everyone is kind of dependent on me which put me in a spot where i can fail alot i am trying to decide what is the right thing to do i am in therapy a well i get triggered whenever i think about work and now it ha become something that happens whenever i think of some big decision i have developed fear of stuff which i never had like height or crossing the road i do cross the road but it take a lot of time i hope the advice i get from this sub reddit will be helpful and help me decide because mental is first,1
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ok heres thing saw someone else goes well nothing guy    weight would date me,0
graduation beyondim graduate university months applied positions graduate get im sure deal emotional reaction might have self worth hanging getting job dont know ill do,1
transphobes like kindly go fuck yourself im going suggest jump bridge strongly insist stick genitals blender feeding dog thats all good bye,0
basically asexual choicemy penis sex drive killed ssris benzos feel nothing sexually anymore miss anything  years going without now makes want rope girl wants guy like me fuuuuuuuuuuuuuckmykife,1
i don t see a stable future for myself i have a lot going for me right now and i don t even care i m and graduating highschool in june and alot of my friend will be moving away for college including my boyfriend of year i feel like everything is ending traveling and plane terrify me so i probably cant visit my friend unless they visit me i cant see myself every being stable enough to live a non anxious life what is wrong with me,1
"@AngMoGirl oh don't worry, not gonna be too bad cos its a Sunday! ",0
mhbigcatch oz golem but finally got a wight oz,0
hard nighti really hard time recently feel like failure cant get anything done properly ive college four years yet still year away aa running circles going where making deeper deeper track thats trapping me almost last night right there ready end thought would find would change life forever know do,1
advice requiredi friend regularly gets blackout drunk collapses ball sobbing threatening redflag lately behavior reached fever pitch mutual friend taken upon guys sole source support even contacted parents police pouring heart soul kid refuses stop drinking go kind therapy as far know hes gone one session anything done get help well relieve pressure her beyond whats already done feels weekend worst yet not sure why anything done id appreciate advice,1
worry god putting everything bad year future great fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0
"Oh, wait...I already am ",0
finally birthday hope everybodys day going well today turn  im pretty exited ngl anybody tips advice would like give new  year old,0
cant anymoremy life riddled tragedy tragedy got fired job gross incompetence know what deserve it given piece shit bad marks actually studying insulted class bitch let hatred get best me know anymore even want look around different school districts im fed up id rather starve death go trouble again shit want continue going life too gotten close leaving mortal coil convinced might actually fucking time,1
simply love movie perfect example wellrounded surprising stories come asian cinema recent hollywood remake movie richard gere simply awful jennifer lopez please confuse two movies original japanese film touching subtle wonderfully acted hollywood version exact opposite aghast first saw trailer remade us version starring it typical hollywood unoriginal crass commercialism worst remake cements argument foreign films never improved upon reason original film become widely viewed us audiences aversion subtitlesbr br one main reasons movie would never work american telling reserved ultra socially conservative character public japanese persona issue movie certainly main character awakens full understanding living vivacious life dance half movies tension comes stereotypes ridicule ballroom dancers face japanbr br please try see movie original form terrible full screen please skip us remakeits shallow travesty comparison original japanese moviebr br yes know original movie much older simply japanese take story two people likely see time soon one new us remakebr br speaking foreign films ill make quick recommendations monsoon weddingi list first reason outstanding film johnny stechinovery funny italian mistaken identity flic shiria korean action pic mixes asian flare  us style plot run lola runa german film integrates techno score ingeniouslybr br well quick list anyway ,0
one probably read this wanted say sorry sorry reading wasting time sorry two little siblings talk to sorry mom piece shit son sorry dad calling neglecting relationship sorry cousins ignored like asshole importantly sorry alive causing suffering let down hate much everyone else hates me sorry alive,1
@shiplu LOL the DP avatar is created from yahoo on 2006 ,0
let postive wrestled suicidal thoughts since ten years old figured phase since everyone went and goes sad times soon disappeared would rear ugly heads time time figured something deal life  realized something wrong around  suffered bullying elementary school felt suicidal then transferred  another school bullying got worse new school however safe kind environment found lot new friends found typical firsts  first real group friends first girlfriend first outings hangouts classmates things even participated activities representing school like spelling bee oratorical contest great time friends today still ones gained school graduated headed college first directionless took year economics but truth wanted journalism felt miserable look forward day though gained friends close high school friends boredom loneliness started crafting concepts stories became escape lucky survive year economics soon moved another college time journalism course enjoyed time learned lot also gained friends wed hang ice cream parlor grateful time learned lot things  life operates graduating college directionless soon found footing still peak life time life felt get better job dj local radio station fun also met girl  coworker fellow dj  really liked her close essentially shifts right next other felt something romantically something held back expressing truly felt aside though also gym first time loved it watched ate trainer also became like big brother me became confidant life aware troubles well aspirations writer someday indian well point learned lot different cultures experiences world came britain lived singapore married filipino woman experiences shared stories new eyeopening realized phases life lot things would change people would come go would change hairstyle would change manner clothing interests hobbies would sometimes shift something new would always one constant  would feel miserable life think even miserable peak gym radio heartbreaking painstaking me soon quit gym radio resorted neetjobless bum year family issues took drastic turn mother resented anything life getting job turn father figure blamed shortcomings mistakes siblings would make firstborn guess things would part life also maybe demons would always part life too ive always called demons ive never doctor get diagnosed something theyd take shape pretend old friends id let every single time falling lies now im english tutor local learning center feel like going work today wanna lie bed slink starve probably die sadly thats something cant life goes demons gnawing away me forced carry like baggage scares realize normal all still here supposed leave looked best gym found good job found girl could with supposed leave never come back happy thought demons manifestations sadness anger misery boredom werent theyd always know are destroying inside out maybe let feel nothing live  feel directionless much heading college theres quote movie doctor strange ancient one said learn live demons cant even always crack ground stand on take right them thank anyone would read this needed get out,1
maker this darkness admit neglected  important acknowledgments end credits omissions oversights could corrected committed parties involved  saw movie  mention time behalf excellent cast crew film extend apology obviously criticisms posted harsh light credit accidentally production values negligible special effects quite special indeed plot strong cinematography john mcleod superb hope you reader enjoy this darkness efforts worked butts free thank you dylan oleary director,0
mom wont stop saying hentai shes listening song called acid rain i think theres word sounds like hentai wont stop fucking saying it house small hear everything first thing morning play fucking song ok first hate jesus christ please kill me,0
know enough drinking maybe work also scared also want go like this one supports really people really care pretend care dead took bunch pills,1
@mileycyrus thank you miley  we are you best fans in the world *-* we luv u ,0
guys need help figuring girl work crush not posted last night died new plz help backstory  work grocery store showing i vaulted top cart train mostly reason said something strong must be told hard mostly abs arms jokingly said probably eighteenpack something laughed her said wouldnt trouble getting girlfriend eighteenpack went silent seconds changed subject dont know thats normal not cant tell if complimenting strength shes flirting nice dont understand girls all also answer questions provide details comments needed please help,0
im suicidal im tell father need advicei suicidal thoughts six months now last one month tendency self harm increased exponentially left hand mess cuts look horrible even cuts scars previous ones im terrified myself though thankful god none deep enough cut artery even though horrifying urges kill know one thing  want die im tell father im say ,1
intimate movie sincere girl real world hollywoods cheap fantasy good piece class ashley judd fills role impeccably may appear slow thrill seekers though cool movie calm nightbr br ,0
know doi feel really lost stuck things causing depression anxiety relatively control want die not see noother way want hurt family friends ive like many years feel alone really know im making post guess im hoping someone say something makes sense,1
lilypichu vibe mildly depressed weeb spends time sleeping,0
chance get help take iti remember physical taking doctors asked fill mental evaluation survey asked felt sort depression thoughts redflag rating kind thing could fill out mom kept saying no hes happy hes fine filled paper positive scores surprised little say given suppose expected since never showed it flash forward realize much bad decision was ive contemplating redflag lot often now cant open anyone heart sinks given moment im alone got one hold talk to im exhausted unmotivated hollow feel wasting away gotten bed day get food go back bed,1
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i think my email domain is being blocked by akismet,0
paedo netflix film changed pedophile movie description try make conservatives look bad imply liberals pedophiles woooooo imma get downpointed heck,0
greetings mlady looking real man treat right well look further found prince,0
likely one loneliest people world i sub saying nothings changed since one loneliest people means life gets extremely boring boring life interesting things happen bad things means eventually started think killing myself think every day coping mechanism every time even minor inconveniences happens want die think death often even interest anything else think someday really able end all really want lot time tried times scared reason imagine much loser nothing nobody live yet scared kill yourself something like even possible want hurt anymore unless lucky enough something come kill quickly painlessly going live life whether like not think every day suicide,1
planning ask girl however live substantial distance away see twice week event agrees go out would relationship work im  btw,0
movie using cinematography fantastically depth camera catches character denzel washington kevin kline put awesome performances though washingtons accent die certain scenes movie laying forgotten unable rent hire recent times threatens lost forever worrying idea attenborough best since ghandi master piece stands movies these worrying gaining audiences rather cry freedom south african apartheidthough critised biased nature movie faithful book donald woods faithful message intended express world ta peace,0
really know anymore manok really got get out know anymore ive odds mother years bit backstory set mood this im prone bit nasty quick temper sometimes oddball mindset ive grown notion cant treat others respect deserve mine treat others want treated basically believe respect something earn others effort hard work cant force someone give manners something entirely different everyone those im yearold soon  still lives mother im unable drive due deathly fear driving ive literally ripped steering wheel hands try pushing car away someone driving carelessly got close car multiple times before suffer severe depression therapist believes ptsd from poor family environmentabusive parent since little involved major accident younger caused severe brain damage basically babyshaken syndrome years ive grown really bad headaches migraines well slightly forgetful mild seizures now theyre sporadic unpredictable nature theyll happen usually get auras mine occur an aura like forewarning theyre coming on extremely forgetful like tell something even three minutes later ill forget ask again rather slow minded well due although means stupid dropped school due bullying harassment id probably straight student way college thats life planned me although it unfortunately not basically ive caged chained mothers house regardless badly wish could leave free live life way want to heres thing though according mom shes idiot might add im allowed depressed ive never known shouldnt use word lightly im also apparently according her riding tailcoat crying everything a lazy stupid bitch thats never worked day life is nice want something asshole get it might add hate asking things cant get means usually ask it im kid thats always hated christmas birthdays like getting things people entire family mom sister father always money hungry assholes anything money even go far wish death parents get inheritance faster so never wanted like them hate garbage mindset have grew basically alone raised myself part mother never home the working member household divorce father mentally emotionally abusive sister always side everything whether fear hed things asshole herself honestly tell you grew special little mindset based observed others learned like people like none entitled bs slides me onto true matter here forgive post long honestly even know belongs point honestly ask someone else im confused done everything life now stage set here lets get onto main issue reason posting said before moms points follows im lazy slob im asshole im stupidretardedetc cannot depressed ptsd never abused means im liar everything think say matter everything wrong just excuse lazy theres nothing wrong me house isalwaysa mess disgusting honestly full dirt dust probably making health issues worse itsalwaysbeen way since divorce mother clean doanythingaround house well dirty dishes sink collecting mold month half shell clean them throws newspapers wherever hell feels like leaves becomes inconvenience her order pick she even ask demand cant even take trash bag garbage gets full yells piles overflowing onto floor andthenshe yells atmefor taking sooner it never gets full im one home rare occasion does take own regularly days take time effort vacuum clean rooms without asked to honestly got bad back december went month long trip country breathe homeand believe me felt like heaven clean could finally breathe house felt fresh light heavy air negativity house so extremely ill time set work three full weeks cleaning entire house top bottom sick tired disgusting realizing would chance enjoy clean house once came home anddidnt even tell thank you did started making mess immediately even though asked keep clean for sake animals started bitching old baby sitter an exfamily friend come helped clean gotten sick alone my seizures acting really badly time due stress anxiety alone long set designated area newspaper letters go respectively house end cluttered trash again ive going therapist almost full year now helps slightly visit her wonderful woman btw get see often enough therapy really help much see maybe month days time get see next time im right back started last time usually stressing badly crying bullets debate whether kill done bullshit fault end admit terrible memory often put cheese wrappers counter forget my older dog needs medication every day im focused getting eat pills needs forget quite often pick see remember pick garbage nearby see the gods know head attached id never find set down often left picking garbage well since shell accuse mine anyway make regardless often calls stupid dumbass things simply im forgetful slow minded honestly cannot help really wish could better efficient possible ever be theres problem around house ill try fix ill ask help neighbor knows dowhich pisses mother off let tell youapparently im liar often get squabbles she loves piss knows buttons push extremely short tempered irritable days due bullshit years days tend call bullshit attempt talk see anything make things better im wits end sick crap already eight years garbage alonenot mention six seven years dads mental emotional abuse thatso wanted inquire well abuse mother says itnever happened even though never home see and admit younger teacher actually called me without knowing time wanting commit suicide suicidal eight nine years old of course like proud withdrawn little shit was denied point gave asking help adults asked begged pleaded long time realized nobody cared better dealing alone huge mistake part go that onto matter now father abusive means mean used force watch tv him usually crime shows news breakinsmurderrapekidnappingsexual assultetc hence horrible anxiety alone without people around got walked away whatever watching admitted like it would get chase room getin faceandscreamat threaten beat shit it used pick young throw shoulder raise hand like going beat assjustto make cry made laugh id squirm scream cry even anything wrong deserve it hed take dogscatswhatever had drive throw middle desert die this constant dogs one dog had really loved she heart soul early childhood first selfownedpicked dog mine families got sick parvo demanded mother take vet put down it waste money let bash skull sludge hammer believe me fast painless death her im sure would slow cruel allowed thatwhich let bring quick note here mother always knew drunkard asshole hes hated since got car accident young told not waste money me take life support let die which life support btw surviving own even that came coma finally cleared come home told me said youre fucked play with laughed ran crying said would deny could possibly abusive anyway finish finally im sorry forgot anything major here apparently according mother seizures extreme fear driving its literally crippling really wish could live life normally like everyone else depression anxiety social detachment excuses lazy stay her believe me could live normally id miles away her id love nothing home yard grass flowers place animals ourselves clean home heavy air due negativity anger filling it paint walls whatever color wanted decorate home see fit so id love job im perfectionist nature as mother hell ever happened side her ill never know family trait feel worthless like fucking garbage waste space life rotting away due health issues ive mainly caused myself due years addiction soda that caused medication forced take meant i for doctor dumbass taking proper care depression feeling like nobody would ever love care me id want nothing feel successful happy hate sitting nothing never able anything go anywhere pushes buttons far often show bad side treats me could literally ask friends the have strangers ive helped past im really nice person love care everyone even people whove hurt badly screwed past still care people hope best lives im kind person yes bit fucked sense humor irritable generally im really kindhearted aside temper issues social problems im really nice hell even able think dying simply fact did would cats dogs end up theyd streets malnourished around parts ending roadkill taco meat thought hurts far anything deal mom people does would selfish cant them need so sokrates or socrates however prefer spell it would said remain bitter hateful towards hurt past likely hurt others way hurt you want hurt anyone hate anyone grudges worthless waste time world never get better people hold onto things like that want know asshole reacting badly mothers treatment me understand works tired probably puts lot shit always takes im tired it im getting mri done today see bad damage now seizures get worse tumors anything ill update eventually anyone cares it want know really asshole situation really excuses used think knew answers questions know anymore ive holding onto years honestly im starting realize bottling emotions problems fears keeping eventually kick bucket way go im actively suicidal passive i want to ill never act it least foreseeable future type thing really want know others think idea anymore,1
posting daily get gf day  turns mom getting remarrieddivorced dad almost  years ago moving km away move granpas place least rest year school friends here life wac,0
br br having read unemployed critics review went screening radio knowing expect thankfully unemployed critic appears anyway frustrated film directormovie critic review callous totally uncalled forbr br this movie make laugh make cry end give moment pausebr br to paraphrase line delivered actor ed harris final barbershop scene and time thought teaching radio truth ishe teaching us treats us time like wish treated other timebr br yes movie tugs heartstrings yes emotionally manipulative yes cuba gooding jr in oscar worthy performance little top times see christmas day dance scene know what what every awhile community america needs reminded tolerance great country need reminded great bebr br this solid cast particularly pleased see s epatha merkerson portraying radios mother something outside law order always wondered ms merkerson great actor quality writing delivered buy strong cast law order watching movie easy see indeed fine actorbr br also joining cast small important powerful roles alfre woodard principal debra winger careerresurrecting role coach joness wife chris mulkey protagonist frank claybr br we cannot look ed harriss performance coach harold jones reflecting movie grown deep south self hard truly appreciate mr harris contribution film coach jones ed delivers quiet rock solid performance man mission coach harris let town circumstances divert knows heart right thing dobr br if see movie make sure hang around end credits treat real james robert radio kennedy mid s shown still leading tl hanna football team field every friday nightbr br one final note teen mid late s movie worth price admission sound track alone,0
wanted say thank youi know you likely never will take time listen us struggling thank you still uphill battle me many days trouble motivation im certain myself therefore ill deleting account struggling keep struggling keep embracing pain fear anguish keep human find joy small things can,1
biolakazeem lmao you re a you infer that a grown man is lying about his struggle with depression and when you re rightfully called out for that you say it s unprovoked if you think you deserve empathy then surely you would ve shown empathy to begin with,1
"@erinfxs  Damn, your new twitter background is fucking amazing.  Just like you haha ",0
trumpeters manifestoit belief everything life symbolic life itself certain objects events symbolic ideas past events art imitates life human mind gravitates idea life imitates life why dont like change much subject psychological torture boredom love repetition generational enveloped within homo sapiens since conception species therefore concept seeking change plus desire similarity makes us psychologically inept species still alive endowed ability shape environment landscape kill create change create society society creates us selfdestruct so incredibly vague conceited answers made account majority every manifesto time answer question made end first paragraph still alive ability ignore this emotions course varies person person general ignore it blessing ignore it caught emotions ignore psychological ineptitude second caught social circles people around us forget us never forget cant around people long dont like us awkward afraid around them either smart ignore situation life stupid try focus anything else life made events made people surfacelevel thinker events make lives determine quality life indubitably child home drinks dirty water stream subsaharan africa tougher life child billionaire firstworld country trying dispute all given privileged life living two safe neighborhoods uppermiddle class entire life given two nonabusive parents grandparents uncle aunt stable family structure minimal family drama dead lets start life growing up lived xxxxxxx xxxxx speech delayed tested autism given speech therapist prior this spoke bathtub letters would stick side shower spelling words phrases book goodnight moon memorized autism tests remained inconclusive instead found possess high intelligence based iq test given me speech therapy helped began speak quickly began speak full phrases shortly after whether speech delay based intelligence copious episodes baby einstein watched child parents dispute throughout early years school went xxxxxxx seen incredibly smart suggested change schools get gifted programs course could happen moved xxxxxx xxxxx perfectionist greatest fear average move xxxxxx create averageness exemplifies it moved first hotel still house hunting adjusting dads job position time spent days friend moms henceforth restricted things able do creativity ambition quite possibly intelligence point would ready public school think it wouldve fitting conditioning allowed conditioned kept spark xxxxxxx me course got loads trouble mothers friend break st grade time entered st grade lived average apartment went dull average school xxxxxx xxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx means terrible school showing every day broke me couldnt smile got debate dogs things rest class hour and subsequently cried teacher told stop talking scribbled picture book published words want go back xxxxxxx thought horrifies day spite fact lived xxxxx xxxx  years at time writing lived xxxxxxx  broke broke broke throughout elementary school middle school high school molded average kid creativity ambition average grades average subset friends best friends living parents average jobs live average neighborhood driving two average sized cars average become thing hate therefore thought identifying xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxx repulses point want cry havent cried years dont look mirrors often absolutely hate pictures taken me keeps sane away identity hate would foolish even think escape identity why impossible cannot wake one day throw every aspect identity window friends family grades possessions interests wrecked perverted sentimentality simply like old one old identity niche earth new shriveled out average one although lie create new one others see yet yet fail lies work may well one plagued great revelation turned into secret consequently tears apart inside dead hope someday dead may time writing even possible publication things turn planned probably thinking highly myself based highly thinking moment may may wondering called trumpeters manifesto mentioned before core belief everything life symbolic life itself would bore continue experience trumpet sum up started talented trumpet got braces handicap made less talented lost ambition play stuck high school band band  hours every saturday early late friday   times week tell wording dont want talk this dont you started talent ambition im forced play account talentless ambitionless hap empty shell was im going quit trumpet next year serve niche trumpet serve niche human trumpet player old school band empty shell girlfriend cant even keep happy wants kill every time speak gets worse disappointment everyone parents friends teachers significant other even people pass street line order restaurant serve niche earth whole ambition gain entry within higher institution whether college go work miraculously squeeze average rate make everyone around feel bad trying succeed yet despite lack ambition analyze anxiety paranoia every possible word others say every tonal shift every hint diction every element body language try act instincts hurt everyone around me things ive learned make am nothing careless void swallowing everything around sea misery drowns breathes hapless mistake cant solved mental health system usa worthless medication turns us unaware contentment alternative treatment strictly believe works get writing aside proof suicide muddled pretentious explanation it tell truth im dead im writing this write letter im upset like sadistic egomaniac want see grief sorrow peoples faces make people think couldve done reality me thats problem myself one perpetuates sorrow others make angry upset core personality archetype makes others upset me dont blame them shallow grief solved love back day later wouldnt ever want friends person thats point fulfilling egomaniafueled desire death closure thereby stopping perpetuation ego sadism grief wont able feel satisfaction peoples grief die wont able feel guilt and thereby sorrow guilt comes satisfaction ill stopped take villain save day end manifesto all dragon dead hes dead everything better now family friends weep mourn loss dragon cheers hes dead hes dead hes dead hate goddamn trumpet,1
gives butterflies everyone something somebody says gives warm fuzzy feeling literally sitting couch somebody like touching like inch away like also call baby plz,0
seen film many years ago made lasting impression me alas hardened many films years expect impressed kalifornia upon watching recently pleased say every bit unnerving watchable ten years agobr br there two things really give movie power first cast staggeringly disturbing turn young brad pitt early grace knowing pitt do one enduring heartthrobs hollywood ever had refreshing see play vile unattractive character pitt pulls show without resorting whitetrash clich parody manages remain genuinely terrifying throughout moviebr br juliette lewis equally impressive graces tragic girlfriend playing character like ten year old girl forty year olds life experience lewis manages evoke pity for characters station life well contempt for naivety underpins performance kind subtlety rarely seen actor young personally think tragedy neither pitt lewis nominated awards performances herebr br david duchovony michelle forbes perfectly cast yuppy couple unwittingly end travelling across us pitt lewis duchovony aptly geeky naive forbes seems emphatically cynical shutoff actors manage convincingly portray characters changes equally intrigued repulsed strangely attracted pittbr br the fine casting uniformly brilliant acting aside film really grabs us proverbial balls flawless pacing time kalifornia released hollywood releasing slew nicecharacterturnsouttobepsychotic movies single white female pacific heights the hand rocks cradle deceived sleeping enemy etc movies followed formula variation nature relationship good guy bad guy kalifornia really stray far territory first two acts perfect example slowboil thriller kept edge seats waiting tide turnbr br when penny drop pitt let loose play maniacal bad guy film shifts gears completely last twenty minutes quite live rest movie said action thick fast resolution suitable cold fight over scars always therebr br much narration provided somewhat whiny pre xfiles duchovony tad contrived course meant book duchovonys journalist character written one could argue selfconscious narration meant nod kind sensationalised style journalists writebr br the film largely success certainly cut  thrillers past twenty years highly recommended weak stomach mind film disturbing one level then meant be,0
annoyed teacher signed cad elective stands computer aided design sounded interesting thought would enjoy took class teacher however annoying said doesnt like kids days dont tinker around like kid wants make class old fashioned using pencil paper thats cool all signed computer aided design whatever hes teaching havent touched computer year class hate whatever hes teaching one assignment could optionally use cad software never taught anyone use paper look good seriously dont think ive learned single thing year,0
thwart life  friend mother uses program life  track life  enabler abusive parents enginerd im looking possible workarounds like blame cold fucking phones battery location spoofing im probably start testing obdii tracking devices good excuse obdii devices car nerd friend says devices interfere cars securityengine control module cause car run poorly time friend says use devicesobdii diagnostics,0
series premiered cable tv station comedy central united states chopped death shown sequence sad audience attracted fell wayside luckily time cable company went digital got bbc thank goodness got see the league gentlemen order complete uncut br br the league gentlemen troupe right englands monty pythons flying circus canadas the kids hall buta warningbr br the league gentlemen though one step beyond dressing drag lampooning cultural ills goes deeper much much darker tell many  offend certain groups people enrage others remember comedydark dark comedy thing watch think know dark comedy watch  get angry upset quite know dark comedy br br these guys got right right button brilliant excellent enjoyed every character creation theres complete story told episode one end cannot watch one episode time willy nilly one charms series watch order see creative stylish deeply disturbed guys are one nothing bounds that dears dark humor bravo,0
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help feel depressed suicidal know whylet begin first episode depression ended night put gun mouth almost committed redflag depression caused bottling feelings years years end ex every suicidal thought parents arrested almost abandoned etc im usually good keeping things control lost control almost committed redflag it thing stopped thought would happen mom shes one life stuck me even jail love much night would get occasional suicidal thought stare nearest window wanting run jump nothing handle freshman year high school im  sophomore top class all advanced classes eligible college programs good friends support me im part band school thats friends come from like second family loving girlfriend cares lot she knows time tried committing redflag life used be recently though suicidal thoughts flooding head seem stop want tell mom would devastate she know first time want tell friends able help me want tell girlfriend yet think shell able handle would hurt way know try help cant ive come im scared thoughts feel trapped inside myself im sorry weird ive never done want help someone talk to thank anything think would help,1
ladies gentlemen may done it may gotten girl type like me maybe not may have,0
 ending tonighti walk wilderness drinks freeze quit job year long vacation im sure ever been belong here im despicable racist believe ww downfall western civilization ww nail coffin im disgusted almost every aspect modern society subversive globalist won going back downhill since moonlanding bother investing children future every day spend earth grow angrier nothing left fight for im happy excited passing on happy world less hateful place without ,1
sleep stay awake last night decided stay day fix sleep schedule bc ducked start school  days  pm rn im feeling kinda tired sleep atleast take nap stay awake,0
@BerrymanGirl1 Talking to you and with another friend and listen Coldplay ,0
please stop gay anime posts please seen rd time day editi beef gays want see posts more gonna end like skirts hand pics trend,0
feel like everythings pointlesshalf time get point living im turning  week friends speak of probably gonna day nursing jack daniels myself honestly real friend almost two years allies people follow facebook living myself one would know gone suddenly dropped dead feels like theres point anything know want life fuck even know drive im creative talented even half interesting hell relationships falling apart feels like matter time partner enough me used self harm lot suicidal two years ago im supposed look like im better im supposed still craving harming tools months honestly still do im transgender ftm im supposed success story pathetic people tell im funny cool deserve chance feels kind empty me try improve situation join groups try get meet people feels like cant connect anyone work home really wanted work boxers want around people going judge me feel like thats people ever done life either fat freak queer stupid sexually assaulted year ago date want able go one day without thinking happened anymore im seeing therapist feel like good feel like much wrong me fact last friend basically stopped talking found happened step front traffic,1
saw film august th annual national association black journalists convention milwaukee wi first public screening film great derek luke wonderful antwone fisher young actor bright future real antwone fisher great job writing film denzels direction right money see opening weekend disappointed,0
im warn you please hear out hello getting straight point searching friends know basic daily stuff hitted upon someone nickname  umykittylolitahttpswwwredditcomusermykittylolita  asking discord since everything started get outta hand stalking even hiding fact they even doubt really girl digging private info even that one hella weird cutting or faking cut seem rly legit me arm nickname used go by owie sending images time trying take logic understanding approach understood much blocked em off got join discord server  mins also banned em server order keep rest members save started inviting many active people server server started straightup talking shit me dropping many screenshots private conversations possible weirdconcerning creepy repulsive yall doublecheck watchout,0
title close says depressed helping tried commit suicide last night depressed friend know also depressed,1
@AceConcierge Enjoying the weekend Suzie?? ,0
"@octavianis bear with me, im coming back soon... ",0
im exhausted tired think donei want anymore feel better fucking tired want give up,1
realized expensive gaming laptops pcs gotten post much wondering minimum price could get setup run minecraft discovered point  low end setup awhile ago upper mid range man time goes fast,0
"AJ Colby (WKYC-TV Cleveland) is the heir to Tom Skilling. PS: Dear Cavs, You piss me off. But I still love you. Have fun in NY Lebron! ",0
tried kill myselfi tried kill taking bunch pills didnt fucking work im  boy please help,1
holy shit cant even comprehend much hate guy playing gta chilling guy came u destroyed someones cargo going kill u asked whose didnt know said look crew tag grieferdeleter kd  kept killing x spawnkilled didnt even chance hate soo mucb fucking angry him like hard leave alone save gamertag tho,0
douglas sirk directs overacted drama unhappy affluent kyle hadleyrobert stackand mitch waynerock hudson boyhood friends different looks life kyle womanizing son oil tycoon mitch works hadley oil company fall love woman lucy moore kyle means wow feet marry her sister maryleedorothy maloneseems towns nymphomaniac carrying torch mitch always seems one clean hadleys messes ambitious pretension little top stars make movie see impressed malone rounding cast robert keith edward platt john lurch robert j wilke,0
ok im gonna rant please ignore fuck school fuck fuck fuck ms larda would give fuck ton papers expect us finish single fucking day know classes give homework expect us pass pm today fuck wrong fuck fuck fuck fuck fucking serious  word essay fuck im tired shit im,0
traffic not a bad a normal so super early for meeting,0
Just got in from rehearsal. Pulling the stops on the new songs. Time to show off .....just a little. ,0
easiest least painful way easiest way,1
i have a constant fear of potential health problem and not being loved and ruining my relationship when i m with him i m constantly thinking of thing that can go wrong and way i could screw up and illness that we could suddenly have i am exhausted of living but he make me energetic about life i hope i don t screw thing up with him he s great and my happy place i m anxious and i overthink just about everything coming out his mouth even when it is kind trying to take it day by day just wanted to rant,1
@RedBatNicky the drinking age in Spain is 14. So it's fine there too. ,0
http://twitpic.com/6qyg5 - Meaning behind this on my Deviant Art. ,0
finally ittoday last day work ive already sold belongings taken every cent account ive booked three nights casino luxury suite entertainment duration stay sounds like proper send ask me,1
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saw cat pissing outside window pissing mean it pissing bush,0
@nick_carter Lmao. I guess its only Friday. My bad ,0
get  subs ill upload new music track d check music herehttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvkwqxelg thank d,0
Too much running around today but at least it was a very productive day!  now time to relax and prepare myself for another work week...,0
is so glad the graduation party is over and went well! Going to bed then off to see my cousin off to prom ,0
i just had two people stop following me,0
"@chrismcdonough LOL! Our kitchen recipe stock is still contained in old-fashioned books, can't digitize their character. ",0
romaniaaawanted go see girlfriend soon borders opened up dumped suicidalautistic ass lol cant expect anyone want deal you im sick always alone tho yknow like holy fuck whole life decide let guard down let someone become entire worldsupport structure im even fucked mentally go back forget spent time thinking one like happy im not downing bottles whiskey sleeping pills getting catanonic fading life bit bit cuz wanna die im back door idk knock im always welcome thats probably im gonna die gg life,1
well got checked officially turns  year old redflag yeah told friends laughed face saying cannot depression people worse problems and agree true made seem like worthless like mental health important whenever reach somehow make fun saying  stfu today  months left commit suicide well cut friends life stay curled room myself fine day since mostly write watch shows night really bad take pills sleep addicted them started smoking avoid reality always tired way avoid emotions listening songs time used best time numb even feel excited got one live worthless yeah thank listening bullshit friends would call  numb nothing interests anymore apart dying,1
want anymorethe title says all thats sum it want anymore life im done day harder harder get through cant make another thought makes sick stomach eyes fill tears every day come home work lay couch stare space nothing left give everyone taken have want life anymore everything lost beauty feel joy me want anymore,1
in their heart they say it okay to kill yourself at least you didn t become school shooter terrorist psychopath killer etc etc and become a nuisance to other people,1
i have not felt normal in month i have not had a day in month my chest hasn t felt like it wa compressing on itself or a day that my heart doesn t thud through my chest i tried to figure myself out i tried to use resource but it so fucking hard to reach out when you feel like shit i attempted via shrooms to figure it out fucking stupid to some people i know half my trip wa good half i shook trapping myself into a corner a my jaw clenched the next day i felt great like i conquered something i told a friend that i didn t want to die i want to live two day later i am screaming in my room pissed off i hate myself i am actually going to go buy some fucking razor because my huge knife is dull it never going to end is it this fucking demonic shit will never leave me and it make me feel so horrible the dread of any task the feeling no one really want you there the anxiety you get when you talk to much about something your passionate about i can feel when someone distance themselves and they just did now my brain go a million mile an hour wondering what the fuck is wrong with me i no longer will trust anyone i can t take the feeling of it being able to end in disaster i hate my life i hate how i hurt people and can t fix them i hate how i stared in the mirror tripping ball but did not feel scared or mad or terrified i looked at a broken man trying to reach out and help the man i saw the stranger,1
please know desperate please visit webstore maybe buy something parents say teen cant really make cash lets prove wrong,0
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i have always had anxiety but trt to deal with it on my own but it s getting worse is joint tendon and muscle pain a sign everything else check out fine thanks,1
i m so exhausted my brain create me a child personality a sort of a dissociation disorder that take control of me of my action of my voice of my thought so sometimes i m a child because of my fucking depressed brain i also have a lot of memory lost it s like my memory reset all the time my head is a prison a hell i hate this brain and i hate this existence,1
list problems shall delete later  depressed atleast  years epicly  self harming  years sh free  months  self harmed massive knives d  extreme poverty  know whether ill able sleep roof bed next week  health anxiety  thought  different types cancers  hard living knowing or thinking  cancers  brain stomachcolon skin  also thought appendicitis  cant eat reason sometimes take long eat well  realise im eating food stop  get full easily hungry easily  excluding family girlfriend one cares  pretty sure friends wanted die one point  people talk talk much consider friend im close all consider friend though  ive friends guy  years best friends even  also picky eater  im extremely extremely underweight short  kglbs  eat unhealthily time bc im hungry fun  physically verbally abused parents tutor since kid anymore  hearing loud voices even theyre positive makes scared probably sort ptsd  suicidal since  atleast  sadly attempted redflag  days ago im okay  dysfunctional family  apparently look ugly people say look pretty idk  im tired time  seen sooossososo much gore murder terrorism redflag animal abuse torture porn rape child murder abuse etc  unfortunatelyyy seen child porn clearweb  felt guilty reporting scared  ive seen  times since then  dark web accident im idiot intentionally catching  pedosgroomers  still remember look ish year old girls eyes following orders looking could see really felt devoid hope  im completely desensitised things point  apparently look solemn extremely serious dead empty eyes  people think im psychopath understand im really care lot certain people im loving cant open people  ive cut people with blades scissors made self harm guise its joke  regret forced self harm multiple times one guy rest remorse deserve  life skills street smarts  motivation schoolwork anything  privacy room phone parents trust me decent person would many bad stuff drugs sexual stuff yk  im allowed step outside give permission  freedom basically technology thats really  overthinking doubting doubting doubts aaaaaa  wish normal  ive watched guy die front felt nothing still care actually amazed seeing unfold  see flashes violence randomly see someone holding knife normal stuff get away else could stab  im scared hold knife near people might stab intentionally unintentionally  brain extremely manipulative also reason attempted redflag  im manipulative  close killing certain person never attempted thankfully  im incapable lot things  recently learned cross streets stuff able walk school parents want suffer  parents literally suffering much want someone end suffering right now feel pain torture physically mentally someone end it  cant cook anything myself im spoiled guess  severely dehydrated thats think ones gonna read anyway im happy though awesome im looking forward married girlfriend future wife d love much like making happy wanna make cookies go louvre loaddss more sooo despite problems im happy,0
Doing the weekly drive by thru Mandarin soon. ,0
questions guys im scared ask irl part  well guys reached  questions pretty nice ask me unwritten rules every guy knows example thing girl comes event something pretends know always pretend know back could someone following someone thinks wants hurt her pretending someone could lose interest could ask help,0
need criticism okay originally started free write wrote school decided go depth with im curious improve far walked village expecting merchants trading animals running around people enjoying lives nothing people wildlife even plants wilting knew something wasnt right even barbaric orcs mischievous spirits wouldve left trace behind exploring desolate area quite time came upon large wooden building town hall assumed figured clues happened area inside showed sign damage almost like everyone decided leave thing showed life tapestry wizard bravely falling combat manticore coldness air pierced side knot formed stomach blood running cold pull together youre better this youve never backed before now thought youve dealt plenty before cyclopes jinn whats bad th  thought interrupted sounds marching filled head quickly hid near window see arrived sounds snickering growling goblins yet looked perplexed was arent using tunnels said one goblin ive heard rumors defenseless town secret path leading tressure filled castle thought ripe taking never thought itd easy besides last time used tunnels headed dwarf central literally said one front pulled bow arrow readied shot waiting see force necessary goblins stopped right tracks began sniff air dozen goblins turned direction making heart pump loud enough could surely hear it one goblin began charge town hall jolt stop goblins known quite difficult scare would even call stupid fearless look fear confusion goblins face body contorted showed even toughest warriors crack hid watching arms flail legs twist turn torso bend odd angles sounds bones snapping flesh mashing screamed agony body began float comrades screamed terror desperately trying anything help him yells cries help goblin suddenly stopped body went limp hooded figure materialized hand goblins back dropping ground type mist flowing hand goblins stared disbelief hooded figure spoke one word sumegruser skeletal hands rose ground held goblins hooded figure approached screams echoed throughout village sound heard miles type necromancer knew prepared deal one skilled turned around prayed every god knew would make one piece slowly crept towards window left realized hooded figure would likely hear try get away grabbed chair threw window right hooded figure turned towards noise repeated phrase skeletal hands rose grabbed chair jumped window raced village expecting grabbed hands moment heart felt like bursting chest barely able calm myself felt lost nearby forest everything looking same screams goblins still eched though area making area feel unescapable running seemingly endless forest began feel adrenaline leave body came across body water began pass exhaustion near water heard someone say single word mullebal cold boney hands rose water dragged in tightening unearthly grip me water gushed lungs could feel life draining me like prey constrictor act fast could faintly see figures dragging depths skeletal warriors dressed types gear villager tunics cleric robes began ponder many lives necromancer claimed reanimated focus dont much time thought eyes wandered around murky abyss searching anything could use escape last eyes found something rune barely held together attached clerics robes hastily unsheathed sword slashed wildly breaking many undead warriors bodies quickly broke bodies reformed began drag again cleric closer time arms reach best could lunged forward grabbed rune speedily turning pages could barely read incantation option water flooded mouth read spell aloud thoron yelled bolt lightning struck skeletons completely vaporizing them also hitting me never thought much pain divine electricity could bring never want experience again potions better effective advertise thought slowly began float towards surface wishing never gone village peeked head water greeted night sky goblin screams seemed stop underwater assumed worst crawled onto shore coughing water constantly wandered randomly woods barely able tell anything apart attempted drowning certainly help physically recover sleep seemed enticing moment rest headno screamed realized stupid was falling asleep yelling probably alerting everything area stumbled throughout mazelike forest barely conscious joy hope came came across quiet village extinguished realized went circle right back village options crept around ghost town making sure quiet possible thought perhaps tapestry secrets reveal maybe even happened town quietly snuck town hall ready run sight necromancer find everything been lurking towards tapestry could clearly see tapestry meant hide something quietly removed tapestry finding dark tunnel must goblins talking about thought myself stared seemly endless abyss wondering mysteries hidden there grabbed torch fall used flint light it,0
psa hated fortnite popular enjoying among us thats ok dont hate something based group likes it dont like popular things dislike popular things goes breathing eating too,0
"@annier Or  the illustrated version: Once upon a time, they lived happily ever after.  &lt;3  The End",0
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bf broke disappointed life experience taught something need fucking bfgf happy so like side bitch life like offence entertainment one main characters life love im going tell everyone so someone beside you fix you make happier happiness last find yourself take care people,0
katten min dde  jeg er det hun var nesten  r gammel det norske tastaturet er ikke ille,0
@mr_spong *knocks* Declan *knocks* Declan *knocks* Declan *knocks* Declan. LOL Love when Sheldon does that to Penny  How's work going?,0
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thank goodness coen brothers success brought bigger budgetsbut rid creativity planned seeing another movie sold went one instead time began forgotten movie see surprised ways one movie hilarious make cheap jokes get laughs writing brilliant delivered great skill george clooney after this nobody say hes pretty face rest cast appreciated many levels whether remember odyssey not cant remember last time saw movie clever ive seen others would describe beautiful intriguing funny charming also describe oh brother movie reminded older seinfeld episodes subplots came together end feel journey building something cant tell what coen brothers fail us end certainly disappointing surprising ties loose ends neatly without wearing story out,0
fellow teenagers influenced hip hop s hip hop jazz awhile started listen to kendrick lamar lil uzi vert playboi carti really like them give song recommendations maybe artist recommendations too would prefer recommendations newer popular rappers similar playboi carti uzi,0
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someone talk mthis let anyone know im need someone talk to whenever one deserves alone,1
difficult movie classify  items less generally care defining genres theres something movie makes want put specific category order transmit even one word feelings it completely recommend film anyone and truly enjoy cinema enjoy life want soon finished watching it br br i recommend movie call beautiful delightful admitting perfect anything wrong want sound like contradict myself believe writerdirector brad silberling knew exactly getting finished writing inspiring script im sure wanted achieve product nothing perfection product would simple appealing uncompromising title well hes done it br br silberling director long complex dramatic movies like city angels moonlight mile proves  items less closes  minutes passion work also faith it put actor morgan freeman front woman paz vega grocery store take exactly places ordinary life would take silberling proposes here br br i cant tell within apparent simplicity lies thought provoking background underestimated everyones exposed camera focuses directly two main characters share endless conversation car ride stops thats endless life life let express praise well silberling handles situation saying reaches less time not movie duration time single day movie develops events smaller place kind connection two characters sofia coppola generated lost translationbr br that movie set tokyo also encountered actor woman also conversations moments living lives conversations sense though provoking quality  items less and coppolas movie naturalness every situation never lost images music words seem forced included picture buy time br br in aspect collaboration silberling director photography phedon papamichael man shot beautiful sceneries sideways focused every emotion patch adams delights us visual passages true natural beauty br br but ultimate beauty  items less found cast by avy kaufman two protagonists ones transmit feeling mentioned beginning cant specify feel connection tell theyre fun may even improvising stuff academy award winner morgan freeman also executive producer film simply stands confirms status today movie industry one thats well deserved quiet man filled wisdom easily make cry make laugh beautiful paz vega well said great spanglishhere proves real deal hollywoods small her,0
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im doneim done ive it cant handle shit anymore want to,1
"i think my night tonight will consist of a hearty game of fortnite, a depression nap, and a crying fit. then shameless and sleepy time.",1
would weird give friend birthday gift since girlfriend idk im girl hes friend couple years want give plant likes plants dont want think like friend anything,0
Just gonna have me a good time and screw everyone else ,0
Finally! I just created my WordPress Blog. There's already a blog up on the Seattle Coffee Community  ... http://tinyurl.com/c5uufd,0
work courage it afterlife simply cease be buried family grieves eventually move on everyone ever knew children children live die humanity goes extinct rocky mountains erode flat steppe hawaiian islands sink sun swallows earth becomes white dwarf end universe big bang happens again earth forms again dinosaurs live rendered extinctrome rises falls world goes war twice born again happened infinite amount times never beginning time circle retain memories fact everything plays exactly last time last atom time passing between though trillions years nothing you birth next time around upon blink next time find again pull trigger again ride never endsthe possibility keeps going see etching grooves gramophone record decide happiness suffering plays repeat infinity might best squeeze potential happiness it living forever maybe life amazing point case maybe ending reliving time might logical choice choice spend eternity own thought might keep going,1
Looking forward to the meeting with Pastor Kong and JW later! ,0
know turn toive got much shit going wrong feel like share anybody know cares keeps getting worse want stop today made noose sturdy chord fact made fucking me feel like im letting everyone idea it seems inevitable,1
cant stand alone cant stand around peoplei feel like im slowly eating alive hate light hate noise hate physical contact much near people makes feel like drank litre molten plastic know why know conditioned innate personality me people feel noxious inflammatory im especially volatile least days hate resent anyone genuinely bothered human contact inexplicable reason like standing next unbearably hot fire yet im fucking alone every single fucking day past twenty years go business absolutely fucking one ive managed completely isolate world congratulations me right theres one care one talk to one wholl arsed kill myself thats solution reason selfisolate cant stand people ive tried tried tried connecting others many ways capable of never works one handle someone fucked cant handle anyone else yeah probably die already,1
big moment me im finally getting helpit hasnt happened yet dont know moms reaction be wrote note redflag note note shes going read moments im suicidal also look posts rredflagwatch without getting upset started didnt want go school why dont fucking know crying verge going downward slope suicidal thoughts done loading laundry shell read note probably read posts might actually getting help soon goes show get help even cant put correct english  whatever language speak  id recommend writing it huge  ive waiting get help since well long remember thinking thoughts shell probably read too adrenaline pumping im actually excited get help once knowing another route escape ive feeling isnt redflag istheres word it thank you mom everything,1
is depression considered a terminal illness if someone commits suicide,1
stupid little attempt livinglived mentally ill mom brain offline immense stress fear voice mom makes brain nobody ever asked feel im able say im feeling well delusion fear people told practice others theatre soft therapy shit never felt like human constant inner pure disgust myself look mirror  years straight almost never teen never really able talk classmates sweating move freely every movement felt like give command somebody else movement every sentence immensely exhausting several conversations person met theatre  playing  leads mw painful every day creature controlled me frightened animal pure protective psyche  lifelong regression took belt strangled itself laying mattress totally dirty room tried use strenghes speak make person laugh problem check imprint red marks visible cause look mirror want others ask questions make wonder almost conversations life total social deprivation looking quite good girls wanted get know me looked me walked me even gay people liked much brain constant fear talk even think clearly see human allowed take part life fighting fighting agonizing condition feeling time self addicted digital heroin  games movies tv radio music  since  never concept self consuming distraction crap never able produce thoughts actions meaning totally dependent told do mostly told nothing shit like damn zombie never able think obvious cure living apartment live full human life peace nobody told could get own told live mom made really damn sick youth even s really delusional emotionless psychopath friendly felt nothing fascination small stupid things like clouds colors trees art senseless crap like this this beautiful nice help no always told fear people believed them worked fear good  years  errr yes no never felt anything live came hospital illness another apartment state pure fear shame disgust all life even asking questions almost impossible saying first word looking others eyes fuck one command  get apartment one meeting empathetic personteacher everything would good messi last  years also youth living dirty place collecting things moments gave little joy living fantasy never thought could take part myself amazing  too never knew since nothing playing video games earliest youth really think repeat life better like parallel universe shit not okay too almost nothing remember nothing happened struggle wandering around more brain capable thinking itself myself constant feeling running life living mommy  propably early childhood trauma hear voice get mad life tried fight control myself hoping better yes errr no good possible human stupid alone even though family  care stupid little attempt living waiting     years get better nobody ever cared talking laughing friends living mom sit front black mirrors time human pure apathy human nope special name school corpse cause quiet damn brain,1
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im even really livingim sure im posting am cant sleep usual like every second life im pain im going bore details degenerative diseases eating away spine tried make peace pain really did last  years trying learn live this good damnit found medication regimen keeps head clear ive worked depression learned get by im fucked intense migraines muscle spasms neck back sudden bouts vertigo bad vomit cant even walk bedroom myself ended getting sudden onset one day brought er found brain degeneration ct scan still working cause oh great another health issue deal with could deal pain least could still take daughter park clean house now barely get moving anymore making stir fry tonight hard nearly threw up cannot live rest life bed throwing dizzy pain sort life that feel like burden family basically cant left alone run errands fear passing alone somewhere sometimes wish gotten married could real wife something take care of daughter could real mother could walk school again love much worry could out im tired fucking tired,1
feel naked unprotected different therapist even know want go therapy session im confused unbelievable anyone guys ever experienced selfconfusion help finding again appointment even yet made im already freakin it feel kinda like idiot right now,1
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good morning i am going for a run this morning then it off to the dentist for some drilling,0
im  hate life know might seem like every stupid  year old kid ive suicidal since  would go kitchen late night reenact would slit throught rare dont suicidal thoughts feel like im waste air one loves want im bad school everyone sees failure idk last post reddit good night reddit,1
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the title is exactly what i feel ive been kind of distant i m quieter respond shorter and get more irritated internally each day go by and i think all of this will be gone soon normally i d try to do a much a i can but that thought scare me so much everything feel so fast and slow at the same time i hate when people mention how fast season change and thing like i can t believe it s already been a year it so scary ive been overwhelmed by that fact that whenever i get upset at my friend or family the guilt i feel afterwards is so intense it feel like i ve grown so many fear that when i go outside i m constantly worried about thing what if my mom run into trouble during work while i m gone what if i get shot in school while all my family is gone what if my sister get kidnapped even in school i m thinking about it the thought are so scary,1
go motions find body walking taking places really presenttravelling going classesit like and try remember got certain place find loss days even feel like,1
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make buses stop tldr rant question hello fellow people internet past two days ive coming back school following way walking five minutes bus stop waiting bus arrive getting bus walking five minutes home woahuh simple three buses continued driving past waiting every time see bus need approaching stand close road wait continue beep point backwards  let person infront get bus close door something wrong last time waited  minutes  degrees weather entered bus soaking wet sorry,0
i seen offer world  someone trustedim guiltless victim everything hurts much wish world would stop day die pain thoughts stop,1
seems people care enough certain peoplei feel like theres enough empathy understanding world especially people feel like one cares them makes angry im sure wanna anymore want change world seems like impossible task wish people would care feel neglected cared for everyone deserves loved thats believe really sad people treated like shit even matter makes angry really makes want live cruel world like one,1
i have always hated myself and have attempted suicide several time for the past year since my last attempt what had kept me going ha been focusing on changing myself to become someone i can stand a long a changing and improving myself felt possible death didn t seem like the only answer to escape who i am despite covid i have liked myself more in the past year than ever before because i felt like i wa actually making progress on becoming a good person in therapy so it felt even more do able then four week ago my therapist told me that all this time therapy hasn t been working he reduced the amount of therapy i receive per week because i wa relying on it too much to enact the change it wa immediately clear after the change that he wa right i m the exact same piece of shit i ve always been i wa just able to be better because of his help a soon a it wa removed i went right back to how i wa before i feel so foolish humiliated and defeated i feel like i ve been in the desert racing desperately towards an oasis for the past two year only to discover it wa just a mirage all along death really is the only way to escape being who i am,1
dont give up least make honest sufficient attempti made attemt given up good night,1
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Back in from LI 2hours ago n still made it to work  yay me,0
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les go accidentaly breaking old pc almost exactly getting new one going pain explain im fucked guys least tell explain properly,0
i didnt realise that i passed a thousand updates. this is number 1011 actually! ,0
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being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1
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@JoannaAngel hey so whats going on tomorrow night? ,0
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saw movie night sleep loved searched find would again probably best movie ever seen time even cast full people never seen seems like real life story based nyc kind movie elevates viewing pleasure see it hear feel it moment saw wirey drinking beer watching game imagined must like grow without father many lines movie use daily basis like the personal alone time bathroom drinking  beverage great film,0
@ngowers Crusha Raspberry Milkshake... Best drink in the world ,0
know shy girl interested theres girl classes shes really shy ive class know knows me im really sure likes though even interested begin with doesnt use social media often doesnt text much fun ive trying start conversations doesnt mind talking although bit comfortable theres someone us shes friendly laughs jokes doesnt start many conversations herself im always one asking things likes dont want make feel bad herself dont want ask yet test would like become closer possibly relationship,0
"For #Parents: It can be hard to spot symptoms of #depression in kids, who normally experience frequent emotional shifts. But knowing what to look for to ensure children who need help get it can make all the difference.@katiefhurley shares her tips: https://health.usnews.com/wellness/for-parents/articles/2018-04-25/6-things-to-know-about-childhood-depression …",1
Is taking the day for &quot;Me-Time&quot; everyone needs some of it regularly. If you don't enjoy your own company you have a problem  lol,0
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Working on the Electronic Press Kit for THE BATEMAN LECTURES ON DEPRESSION today. Here's what I have so far. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rvipupZha2D9_qakucfUyUi3rn00lsh95_IR5g7tS_w/edit?usp=sharing …#indiefilm,1
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re im losing mindthis supposed response post just deleted think freshly posted received responses the post user seem deleted middle typing response anyhow original poster still reddit reading i hope so quick response alone peak hours right people probably asleep its  am california right now im best person offer advice since im quite lost depressed state situation exactly i guess nobody really exact situation i too struggle am feel like ive become enemy people say cant let depression define you im struggling see line drawn anyhowsorry cant offer better words encouragement wanted say alone,1
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At the opera - in AT&amp;T park with a beer! Now this is the right way to see Tosca ,0
cant seem able control anger want hurt love would better herei beautiful wife beautiful  month old daughter find fuse shorter shorter smallest thing set off tonight daughter wanting put bed she crying hysterically picked mum quietly went sleep holding screaming ear felt rage rise scared something hurt her distract bit tongue times feels like control rage rises for slightest thing end making everything worse cant bear thought living without family feels like would better without me,1
exgirlfriend still friend committed redflag saturdayi never felt worse life unresolved issues called little it hysterical tried calm best could told friend could tell anything annoy calling me said go told call back little bit next phone call got sister asking knew was told said  hours ago found body hanging tree little later  years old young beautiful smart suffered deep depression years tried kill before feel happen would happened later unstable could smile someones face thinking death feels good write it hug everyone every day make sure let know much mean you,1
enibeni lol im sorry love ya stupid dating coach that make me feel self conscious about my hair,0
Just 8 more hours until the long weekend begins  Yay!,0
llaacceeyy haha i m not a good cook at all it look pretty foul right now love having voguettes on twitter yay nice to meet you x,0
half pills gone half goalready consumed  paracetamol  ibuprofen still  paracetamol  ibuprofen go im full water taking  mins break resuming,1
added the dns system compatibility is okay and am looking forward to the possibility now open but i need to rework the intro sequence,0
@30SECONDSTOMARS Sweet dreams! ,0
Finished hookah with austin brittney and kaitlyn. Now watching american pie with my boy ,0
im really depressed terribly bad situation think right make choicethis going sound unorthodox im depressed feel bad all really come realization life want one thats going happen me ive tried achieve certain set goals long time able reach them feel cant life want really want would prefer optout existence life inherent meaning value itself think lifes value determined person values life value life since life personal thing ever exist think right arbitrator happens continues simply decided want life end may moral objection decision affect friends family want suffer think really get say life continence however since want haunted choice rest lives probably come coverup story move somewhere far away first way itll seem like fell touch im still alive somewhere else one asks born think societys fixation protecting ones life even goes ones wishes unjustified,1
Is #stress #depression and #anxiety really a choice? Can we simply decide we no longer want to have a #mentalhealth difficulty and then 'poof' we're well again? https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/why-having-stress-depression-anxiety-really-choice-we-katie-woodland/?published=t …,1
"Depression is a serious condition. I am diagnosed with anxiety and depression, but I do not let it define me. Whatever negative energy I feel, I put on paper. Art is my therapy, and not even depression can take that from me <Emoji: Heavy red heart><Emoji: Glowing star> #fuckdepression #320changedirection #LinkinPark",1
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feel like ill taken seriously thats talk ramblingi tried getting help therapists physicians reddit places one seems able help posted another account ended deleted account got tired seeing this way long comments responses all want feel good every day gets harder harder tried killing laid couch taking half bottle pills felt really weird taking lots pills arms felt odd pressure them also felt light time exception sharp pain every while yet next day woke lots pain lived want try succeed guess killing harder thought im sure do ive tried taking risks investing stock market purchasing  lizards spending thousands them nice chunk change college student do feel like one help me want talk phone risk someone hearing live parents want text talk platform want someone cares  parents would sad think continue pain also realize odds anyone replying slim last times posted account it cant get help im going selfish a succeed time want feel better please help me  done crappy things life asked forgiveness tried making ammends starting believe attempted redflag actually died currently hell believe im real anymore,1
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tell fianc still feel suicidalive dating fianc  wonderful months met redflagdepression support chat given happiness stability unending loveunderstanding future goals something never thought would have truly changed life however passively actively suicidal since  genetic illness affects joints makes everyday life painful limited abilities used athletic busy slim barely walk gained weight though im still skinny really shouldnt complaining worst part illness ripped vet tech career right hands really gaining traction found dream job ericu career passion one jobs physically able honestly devastated me go phases im ok phases feel like im mourning couldve been condition gotten worse stuck internlevel position dream job because physically employer amazing worked make sure income go back icu floor hit one bad phases want selfdestruct everything around wont hurt anyone myself this second guess fianc ridiculous illegitimate reasons want push away wont get infected hurt changed life love heart cant keep going phases needing destroy everything around without knowing tell him dont want make feel like isnt good enough something like that also dont want force problems dark cloud life dont want die right now really need tell someone especially him heart squeezes every day need selfdestruct lay awake night second guessing everything word gain support without pity hurting process,1
getting my new car on monday  yay me !!,0
stupid even get way outeven wanted to dont enough drugs kill tonight dont gun it tried bleeding change mind last second every time get car makes real honestly dont think could ever actually end life reason im writing thread though point life never thought possible im point life makes sense end life im point dont feel passion family encourage to im point know dont matter know everyone would done it stay here wont know like left behind temporary wont make permanent decision want know reason writing thread go feeling justified kill feeling valuable to maybe im ranting idiot idk need hope maybe motivational tdocumentary something would help choose keep going logically doesnt matter do,1
action horror scifi exploitation director fred olen ray shows talent director character actor william smith one best toughbad guys industry treats viewer best acting performance career randy travis gives best lee van cleef impression hes bad film smith travis make movie rest cast none really stand out ray great job directing flick smith travis good id give b western scale one tenten best seven,0
It's a rainy NYC day.. wish I were home in my PJ's ,0
im donei dont even know im writing this feel like need let feelings somehow also dont wanna bother irl friends im  ive really messed stuff past two years constantly feel like im burning im close mental breakdown honestly understand britney shaved head  every day get thoughts like it breaking point im finally gonna never follow plans wanna get away everything thats stressing right now redflag honestly seems like tempting option would literally  worries im dead dont even know going this felt like needed write somewhere im seriously close something really bad ,1
life feels pretty sucky right man im pretty privileged person probably dont much complain way problems feel tired life really want things like travel get working world apply university difficult bunch homework dont feel like all im final year highschool private school go started physical school monday already know rd day  page essay due next week count grades making question whats point all life feels stagnant im forced unnecessary shit say matter dont give fucks anymore id rather die something dont listen im trying feel better this,0
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sent best friend audio message sobbingand fucking hate going way shes going remember it dont see living past tonight really dont everything good went shit shes left im tired living people im much pain amp im p sure bf going leave me im sorry alley still cares im sorry zay,1
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coronavirus day  coronavirus test officially came positive struggling breathe day congestion head nose felt stuffy head feels heavy still cant smell anything,0
work still depressing still feel overwhelmed left behind lot things know one thing always seem forget get deep thoughts awesome people still side one coworker depressed vented tailgate truck break smoked cigar coworker fine hes inviting people outings told ok could still go together days hes goto lot things feel like losing past month making damn sure keeping thing look forward time time love spending time shooting shit know favorite thing cannot our people get picture harder truly vent get things chest people invited cool again lot shit past month friend would understand hope go next weekend long overdue group thing whenever anyway completely depressed trying hang something know everything ok love coworkers know lose buddy crazy lately need forget things,1
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"@garrbage Insecurity, depression and psychological projection",1
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honestly much hate say it rest generation kiss normal high school experience goodbye shit aint ever going least  years shit like this things were stay fuck shit im afraid school aint ever going free freshman year ever again,0
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answeri want someone know ive depressed  years ive lost friends reason never before anyone now im thinking tomorrow somehow someway it want dont want it questions nagging long till someone finds many people would sad heard would funeral one left that justifying keeps night answer think will strangers internet seemed like viable option letting someone know exist little longer,1
wish someone hug protect needed most people life take pain seriously always laughed laughed at cannot fucking take anymore keep strong one tell good job someone supposed,1
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@MapleLime One donut is a snack and 4 are a meal? No wonder North Americans are so pudgy. ,0
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i have too many problem on my plate work is a commitment responsibility are a commitment family is a commitment therapy is a commitment basic hygiene is a commitment taking care of myself is a commitment gaming is a commitment having friend is a commitment talking to people i care about is a commitment not falling asleep is a commitment caring is a commitment eating is a commitment taking my med is a commitment the list could go on forever i m not subscribed to earth yet living here is a commitment,1
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oh everyone is going to sleep how much i wish i could it only pm and im work,0
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im really hungry emotions brought death death looks like butterflies rainbows mewhat really want really need right power power ignored preferably something flashy could destroy world it know im never going get something like that much imagination know humans lot power themselves looks small expectations human pretty easily lot quite criminal but newsworthy things human always make someone ignore force conscience thats stopping me no ive lost long time ago maybe never that frankly care im afraid consequences right now constant feeling anxiety makes constantly want puke cant even sleep it feel like mind mine think stay relatively rational going drift away feel like one day truly lose sense value thinking give insanity thats burst feel like ill wake monster become numb consequences actions go rampage get killed process even now im getting excited giddy prospect that hold back kinda painful hold real back harshly though ill endure now know exactly im excited something like that able cry long time ive barely felt emotion long time want able cry want able cry guilt something ive done want feel emotions someone recommended watching sad movies great im used tropes look boring me someone else recommended video games once cut it like gore whatever disgusting apparently really want control emotions others blood matter personal taste guess anyways wanted write somewhere ill go sleep look wake hopefully itll help endure little bit longer really really love life guess im terrified prospect forgetting that right sub this im depressed like many you im insane well whatever,1
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im going kill mayif even make long want even  divisible  feel like im mistake talking struggles drags friends alcohol thing helps drink let friends inside inner workings head hate that wish could disappear affect them part enjoys ill made impact people makes feel worse like cant even spare people care pain mistake born made ones life better hope die ruin anybody elses life,1
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doesnt like things asked straight point shes distant last couple days said thinks annoying say shit friends mean shes wrong friends cant really fit eachother following me u see good friend she me im wondering u still think im friendly she yeah u still me u sometimes im worried u dont like anymore overthink lot she understand  sure doenst like like never get relationship day switched classes school grades really ruined everything split us new friends new guys around her feel like shes trying push away new life want already know  years everything screwed went different class,0
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So i got in an elevator for 30 minutes and now my anxiety and depression has awoken,1
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hi everyone im studying university maryland im working team product design project team decided focus idea wellness particular focus hospitalpatient wellness ever spent amount time hospital want hear you short survey would benefit us greatly taking feedback redesigning product thanks,1
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i miss jesus i miss the warmth warmth of the graspclasped onto me with both handsholy hand holding hand hold my handi remember i surrender to falsity and ill conceived connotation taught to believe misinformation that my purpose wa purposeful but it s all for man s profitand the only true prophet is the soothsayerand the soothsayer is an entity of many layersa coterie educates on blanket of misconceptionblanket me so i ll be warm full and fret freedisrobe me so i ll be broken open and emptyall i take is blue pill to calm mebut all i really intake is falsitythese line are just stanza so do a you willlife demand a mind of stabilitynot insanity but insane is written all over meso take your fake pill and snort up these linesor waste it all get ill and snort white lineswhite lie won t kill right get wasted don t wake up just wait for you to fucking taste itit s never enoughtake your blind pleasure freedom and delight it your birthrightfree will do a you willbut think twice before they put you on the spotlight because once they have you chained up you convert into a cenobite with no change you secure your own chainsand if you re unbothered call me deranged may a well fasten the rope and stay restrained no one s going to save you except the latter so choose a life of false glamour or have it shatterthe pain is worth itonce you re open you can truly observe it unlearn it be free from the cage or stay locked in and fall into the greyits all a fucking rat race,1
way end redflag prevention day ending myselfgood bye yall,1
gf broke dont know feel well today gf broke dating  years honestly told wants break didnt know feel dont feel sad emotions good bad,0
people sub joke youre patheticlike seriously telling life going get better saying get therapy even know im going you u fucking dont suggest people start shutting fuck im going start getting real nasty shove hotline ass go light fire it like seriously fuck you,1
go hospitalim going go lot detail it im mentally ill part involves voice screaming inside head end pain ive  failed attempts lost control tried it want die want pain end normal past days worse ever think hold on go hospital,1
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futurein early  convicted domestic battery misdemeanor state august  quit job relocated girl promptly work out moved back home unable find work since every single job posting area requires full time hours passing background check  years experience degree absolutely none that cant pass background check mid twenties stuck rut living parents job apply denies fail background check jobs even get far get thanks go fuck yopurself email week later fucking desperate job chance anything opportunities broke license car savings education beyond ged currently enrolled college associates degree take years complete need take calculus degree cant even get past prealgebra purpose continued existence cant even fucking get past hurdle  year olds lives together mine none mny friends bother anymore lives together theyve moved out even married kids still exact life situation  years ago,1
sure anymorewell dont know start ig start around th grade think mostly started get sad keep mind im highschool anyways got backstory way go honestly feel nothing anymore lost interest absolutely everything especially things made happy days still things used make happy hoping happiness come back everyday loop day hard time making friends since im weird ig im really much talker family doesnt seem make happy anymore either ive seem sleeping due lack energy interest really dont feel like im worthless feel like rather better planet since whats difference dead feeling nothing right yes ive thought taking life cut little bit past months ive talked friends good cause never really thought id reach reddit telling thousands people feel get opinion feel,1
put insane disadvantage compared everyone elsewhile people age grew developedive suffering dealing much crap gives benefit life whatsoever fuck tell go onto tell succeed good life awful competitive luck based worldi literally cannot anything well fuck expect succeed fuck people expect someone mental illness succeed life,1
i too loved series kid   family always watched show favorite character one played marion lorne rather stuttering bumbling lovable aunt type person still recall ubba bubba um um type comments would try say something important came back played aunt clara bewitched great casting br br it first time remember seeing walter matthau whose career followed fan many many yearsbr br i question anyone verify title end credits music swedish rhapsody hugo alfven every time hear played classical radio station southern california brings back memories image mr peepers walking away back camera im even certain image minds eye correct,0
the last wave far sum parts merely disaster film simply exploration australian aboriginal spirituality certainly simple court drama writerdirector peter weir manages take elements next level produce truly effective thoughtprovoking film eerie atmosphere gave picnic hanging rock two years earlier continue remember years laterbr br when lawyer david burton chamberlain called defend chris lee gulpilil death aboriginal may may directly responsible finds merely struggling get truth lee making sense hears come aboriginal belief two worlds  everyday dreamtime truth exists two completely different levels ramifications disastrous burton could ever imaginedbr br no doubt reason picnic hanging rock better remembered enduring mystery led along path forced find answers ourselves the last wave piece everything together end film however even information choose much want believe film takes us beyond borders normal realitiesbr br on production side weir uses budget great effect progressively building sense doom everything soft lighting heavy rain good use sound incidental music unobtrusive never trying grandiose richard chamberlain manages convey bafflement audience would doubtless feel tries unravel mystery david gulpilil excellently portrays man trapped two worlds wanting right thing afraid already knows endingbr br put things together perfect example david weir familiar name cinema thirty years on strongly recommended,0
know doi posted yesterday everything set thing holding back fear act itself opened best friend littlebit told understands better now day find lied me again always says friendship important know anymore feel need lie already talked it im shattered idea anymore im close committing sucide ending something holding back maybe want family healthy relationship with,1
wish wasnt lazy redflagi cant handle life anymore want end requires energy dont have dont care laziness could kill id happy anyways nothing else say,1
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im even scared anymoreall need  find highest building kind disappointed feeling rest life gone waste like ive failed someone prob god me dunno assholes know really wanted still probably would be ,1
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feel so alone and alienated i think about hanging myself everyday and it s getting more realistic everytime i imagine it in my head i ve never been the type of person to turn to suicide but i literally have nobody i can turn to and talk to every single person i thought would be there turned out to be selfish self centered people and i ve expressed my thought about suicide and none of them care i feel like they won t until it s too late and even then they will feel relieved i don t even ask for much but i guess just being there while i fix myself is just asking too much i ve googled suicide by hanging and found out it only take seven minute to die by hanging don t even have to do it standing up either i could take a couple pill and put the noose around my neck and lay down with enough pressure on the rope to drift off to whatever is next and all i wanted wa for someone to say that my feeling matter that i matter i don t really think at this point there is any other way to stop all the hurt inside me i ve lost everything in the last year and a half that i hold near and dear to my heart i ve wrote out suicide letter to my loved one and got my retirement account going to them a well i guess subconsciously i ve been planning this out for close to a year now that i think about it i just don t understand how i didn t see how fake the people i surrounded myself and built a foundation for my life l i feel stupid and blind and used up and tossed out like yesterday trash i feel like nowhere is home anymore and my heart break for my kid but i rarely get to see them anyway who know maybe i ll actually get the ball and just do it haven t set a date or anything like that because fuck that i feel it is going to be very sudden and out of nowhere just here one minute and gone the next i never in my whole life though i would get to this point but whatever thanks for listening i appreciate whoever read this post taking the time,1
people understandi think anyone realizes serious say want shoot myself know generation uses redflag joke usually seem like generally happy person im unhappy wish never existed mean need make peoples lives horrible use music way escape horrible thoughts mother taken away almost everythingincluding phone  music without ive forced really sit stew pile self hate thinking ways could kill myself point care hurts long job kills im good saddest part is handgun house know exactly im much coward go shoot myself shoot fail mother finds deal problems im scared dying partim scared failing live afterwardswish could grab gun drive deserted field shoot myself bullet job animals come eat will,1
i cant afford food cant afford therapy cant afford get better cant afford live dont want to,1
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"Had a nice enough start to my day and then BAM, my depression has decided it's time for a reminder of how little I am worth and why I should just give up <Emoji: Pensive face>",1
redflag without spreading miseryso things still going horrible worse ever way end suffering making others miss worse make suffer commiting redflag ive thinking lot people want suffer committed redflag feel helpless played went missing would still miss me even though would false sense hope returning playing accident help either two weak options popped head  moving really really far would little contact us thing may think weve lost contact would surely make little sad knew dead option good would extremely long letter explaining choice they hopefully could understand respect accept it maybe even combination two ideas thanks nick,1
truly fucked girl morei graduated high school year far terrible me gotten diploma certificate cause parents havent yet paid school fees cant attend college family lot debt taken two huge loans amounting well  two houses already defaulted might lose bank end year fathers business failed owe lot money people too aside developed feelings bestfriend whos girl told so rejected saying wasnt looking relationship immediately stopped talking me used talk everyday night month later found tinder fucking older dudes much stuff happening cant deal see way out alone want end it please help,1
in this post i will reveal the center to my problem and i better get started ive never been in a relationship before strangely i never really been attracted to many people before but recently back in november while i wa riding my bus home i seen a girl who blew my mind away she s so beautiful she s everything i find attractive she still ride my bus and i usually sit right behind her she never talked to me and i never talked to her the only interaction we had wa when she handed me a clipboard to right my name because the bus driver wa making seating chart i can t stop thinking about her i want to talk to her so bad but i never will because i m lame and have no social skill it s hard to cope with knowing there someone who relates to you so much you see everyday but not being able to go say hi it suck i m not mad i m just fucking sad man i want to cry,1
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sure anybody would interested comedy series ive working since freshman year high school coming end want see live one day freshman year high school friend bored grabbed camera went hall film lunch period next week eventually started posting videos regularly lets say got bitstupid first episodes pretty timid awkward watch share young  looked  really hope make people laugh series means lot dozens people cameos co star helped produce every episode characters friends high school maybe guys favorite anyways final episode premieres saturday pm est trailer now things actually happen show  last line almost every episode since  joe biden presidentit total satire turns may future seeing involved knows  parodied several tv genres varying degrees success  created convoluted story full conspiracies battles maybe small bit dimensional hopping  hair goes short spiked shoulder length  despacito  released piqued interest find searching lost files john youtube playlists  seasons complete season finales please nice ive never shared anyone outside school really hope people like it tldr lost files john offers unique blend comedy awkwardness enough head scratching plot twists plot holes leave thinking days check youtube catch premiere final episode saturday,0
feel trapped lack inherent self worth troubling extent pointim quite sure posting etiquette around here anyones willing hear dithering could use talk would inthread ideally id like anyone whod like chime in,1
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anyone know a good way i can work on not over thinking thing a much it s starting to take a toll,1
friend may planning redflag yearshi everyone thank advance reading post buddy close friends since ages time showing hints ending life seriously ill young though doctor time saved life suffering leftovers introduced improper treatment resulting in  appearance changed since looking like tenyearold his joints aging way faster normal years would live wheelchair means viable kind sport including intense computer gaming would easy find job normal jobs aside suggested freelance artist due common interest art simply refused girlfriend though reads lot feel every word reads reinforces desire end life also close family recently told life worth living anymore feels lonely sees little hope also started spending lot money things likes we used stingy duo theres much signs anymore still goes school meets friends fear calm end worst thing is suffering depression really felt understood wish end feeling still lingers onto me literally know persuade him cant even persuade myself guys really considering redflag might showing signs relieve pain either way anything or friends do thank much reading post hope wonderful day keep happy,1
ended coming mates provided acid turned nbomb cannot see way out nobodys talking me three family members die recently fuck life took bad trip,1
gonna snorts bunch heroin diei know get heroin know fentanyl never heroin opiates like  seconds buying  worth dying decided im going isnt first time ive feeling ive therapy  years ive seeing psych good hospital year legit dont wanna anymore easy way out thing worry people finding body dont know else go more dont care sure friends family sad go on cant take decades anymore,1
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i m f i ve been bullied throughout my entire school career i wa always the gifted kid until i wa about and started to feel the burn out but i persisted with the gifted class and now i m absolutely burnt out i wa always the friend that everyone went to when they needed something but nobody wa ever available when i needed help i ve always lived for others and never lived for myself and i m tired of it i don t even know what i want in life anymore i m always shut down for my idea i wa molested by a family member for year from the age 0 and since then have been raped time each a separate occasion and person i ve made multiple attempt on my life in the past and used to self harm i ve been clean for a little over a year but the urge are so strong my most recent attempt wa in august 0 and wa an overdose on metoprolol it wa about am and i wa otp with a friend and told him that i wanted to die he told me if you re at peace with that decision then you do what you think is best for you i however don t think that you should do it but i know i can t stop you and i proceeded to down bottle of metoprolol i waited about minute until i could finally feel everything shutting down and woke my younger brother up and told him what i did he called 9 and woke my parent and younger sister up my younger brother watched a the paramedic put me in the ambulance and had to watch me flatline a they were flooding my body with med to keep me awake i got to the hospital and my mom didn t even bother to show up for another hour she stayed with me for a while before she had to go to work and then my dad who abused me my entire life stayed with me and did nothing but complain about me and say that i wa nothing but a coward who wanted to take the easy way out my dad got into it with hospital staff bc he had to leave and nobody could stay with me so i had to leave against medical advice one of my older brother made the hour drive in hour to come down and make sure that i wa safe after my younger brother called him and told him what happened i wa put into a outpatient program afterwards and it helped a lot for a while but after about a month of being out of it i wanted to die again since then i lost one of my older brother and it s been difficult to deal with that and my own problem internally i ve never wanted to kill myself more than i do now i have a plan and everything i wa aiming for my th bday but that s too far from now i just want to give up i m exhausted,1
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im ready goim mistake constantly makes mistakes cant keep track simplest things doubt ill ever become functioning member society wish parents better son wish didnt exist,1
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sisters weddingi contact family except baby sister parents abusive mother narcissist everyone small town grew thinks shes wonderful thinks monster child abandoned her baby sister getting married soon hometown family people think im awful invited family still speak cant let going also dont know go rest life horrible feels like might well fucking wedding date dont worry it doesnt help dont drive small town thing uber lyft idea im going get wedding get away wedding without asking family member havent spoken years help doesnt understand dont want go hurts feelings wedding frightens me life shit show dont anything live anyway im fucking scared wedding fairly recently divorced myself friends anyone ask go wedding aged poorly stress mentally unstable medication selfinjurer alcohol problems dont want people already judge see like this know dont go sister never forgive me think kinder everyone end it wedding im giant piece shit general dont deserve live ive suicidal majority life wedding recent catalyst,1
i really fucking can t but i can t take my life either so i ll be a whiny bitch as and make my fourth post on here or something saying the same fucking thing i m so tired it hurt so much i just want the pain to stop wa fucking 0 when i first tried to km thing don t get better nope they don t year on they ve only gotten worse i really can t do this,1
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thoughts coming back againi cant get head dont know do incredible girlfriend loving amazing starting college week wanna fucking it wanna end all keep fantasizing it usually comes waves bad long time wanna die badly also dont wanna die confusing wish could stop existing know cant wish something would kill me dont wanna leave family girlfriend despair do keeps eating away me dont wanna tell anyone dont worry,1
ready so booked hotel room intended end life new years eve is today live intended right actually even felt bad last week leading day kept telling going get worse anyway stick plan end pain all theres certain pattern depressive cycles know every time manage come side it keeps coming back always does feeling way years really think going get better okay days bad days very bad days bad days always regret going prior plan end life feeling bad entire december still feel great bad enough want end right now funny spent week writing final note another letter best friend things would need help wrap loose ends passwords bank details etc cleared things work thought ready go last days suddenly felt like damn still things would like stick around for shows coming  want watch albums coming still want listen to even managed clean room yet maybe time go now alone hotel room am feeling okay part think im going live again time even though also know im going regret next time feel super bad really know this ever stop hurting stop want know going worth it want bad win this even win tired,1
two day ago i got the biontech vaccine my third dose on the night immediately after i got the vaccine i had a celsius degree fever on the next day it went down a bit i think it wa ish but wa evidently better than my first day today i still felt a bit hot and i checked my temperature to be around a well yet i don t feel super unwell just sometimes i would feel my body is a bit warmer than usual may i ask if this is okay people say that if your fever doe not go away hour after vaccination something is wrong but i don t have any other symptom no pain no fatigue whatsoever may i ask if this is something that i should be concerned about,1
thinking of moving. and ere also thinking of getting a 2 storie house ,0
goodbyegoodbye world nobody cares me im piss wind say care youre lying know im useless nobody never accomplish anything going leech parents forever hate useless much self hatred normal person would literally explode although think about suicidal ideation probably mood swing get mood swings lot like every minute new mood sucks never one mood specific situation goodbye,1
interested going onso last couple year suicidal thought growing growing spending lots time therapy spent two stays hospital still come empty every medication book yet really complete success im surrounded extremely supportive family friends truly care much really good day enjoy thing constantly try new things hopes helping try best exercising regularly eating well enough yet change feel problem often not feel depressed unhappy dont feel much anything dont feel weight failure anything dont desire keep going would prefer stop working long diving back far can honestly say felt way since   years old im  really feel like im staying around dont want hurt family friends sibling take life around age years back watch completely destroy parents siblings cant bring put that feel trapped situation dont really know next spent every bit money traveling trying new places hoping best feeling stayed dont know really go here,1
school coming back anxiety changed new school year friends went different school lately ive lot anxiety good making friends shy introvert im afraid get bullied last school friends class advices to get less anxious make friends easier please,0
pissed coz a friend is too busy to see me day,0
smoking video games things keeping ending alli know would without them,1
noteto everyone leaving behind im sorry mama papa love please blame yourselves redacted know promised die kill myself please try understand pain feel apologize hurt know stronger me know make this every day past year painful cant remember single day failed somehow entire life series failures mistakes everyday mistakes failures ive tried make friends ive tried open up end hurting more life live ive tried hard put it look forward see nothing end pain see death get wrong easy love mama papa redacted redacted redacted stronger was,1
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thought antidepressants would helpi started taking month half ago seemed working really well really really bad im dark place want see way out want pain end know need make go away want feel anything anymore,1
wanna die againi cant anymore nobody understands feel sad time im tired hiding rather dead life awful dont understand life dont know do would like talk someone anyone willing,1
told girl like acting lot different usual isnt texting much making jokes liking her do,0
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motheri job currently living father room reach touch walls time  account thats roughly  usd one cares even girlfriend obviously sleep  hours day dad sees huge disappointment think redflag least twice day cry every time mother would sad ever took life cant follow it im useless pice garbage contribute society way,1
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tell long school crush liked past so read ive crush girl school dayswhen   top grade student cute looking helpful and well things know remember her live india class plagued syndrome called lack interaction opposite gender peers guy dared break wall  yo but remained lone this that guy whos good terms friendship almost everybody almost girls talked saying conveying formal informal messages notifications every guy remained same contributing either shyness ego comparatively antisocial introvert ive talked twice thrice person since highschool graduation age touch all last time months ago got know friend longterm relationship but theres immense drive convey heart due personal regrets failures able live image bold confident studentthat now nostalgia urging open heart let repressed energy flow soul expectations acceptance love acknowledge appreciate admiration her ive also composed good poem feel theres point this this know response would bei earnestly want least blush surprised instead ignoring getting annoyedenraged,0
committed multiple warcrimes,0
Stealing my mothers slow cooker was the best idea I've had in ages. Tonight's delicious dish: tomato and herb lamb shanks ,0
sleep offjust fucking sleep off least u get peace hours ,1
ill im readythats it mind chosen im lost alone probably crazy fun life suck,1
im confusedso ive reading posts lot seem quite short im sorry making quite long authors way guess anyway let start saying this im new this mistakes sorry understand questions please ask comments answer possible yearold male live rural town european country never see anyone family best relationship with siblings exception basically im alone lot friends one entire country top off person hours journey away so course im constantly lonely times truly feel like kind purpose parents pressuring lot ive tried find purpose spending hour day write book help lot also feel enough simply wasting time psychiatrist recommends try relax political system tells get my sorry flattering words ass im constantly bombarded thoughts starting project something im suddenly demotivated cant find why reason even able start writing nowgirlfriend supported months honestly helped lot able something instead lay bed day enough need job cant go back school constant fear anxiety it bullied pressure upcoming exams forced overly social someone autism spectrum way way way much handle two thirds important school year country collapsed unable work anymore past year publishing art almost daily basis also focusing exams working allday basically body simply take it felt still feel work everything insufficient would spend days weeks even months project scrap it summarize now stuck forsaken house every day im constantly arguing parents need get job im diagnosed stress depression anxiety motivation it everyone telling either find job try relax im threatened may removed parents outside viewers may see incompetent argue lot fantastic job doubt it would definitely make worse remove here feel incredibly lucky able sit home nothing also feel incredibly useless want here want work something impossible move forward im stuck loop honestly dreams anyone has doubt ever become reality would love book sell could visit girlfriend move out cant keep ripping relationship parents pieces again confused feel simply complaining would love chance explain detail know sound like someone useless thats clearly everyone life thinks please ask comments related stories feel free share them would love read them oh advice would also much appreciated fact ive position  months making increasingly desperate like family please help can thank you lt,1
xguccishoesx seems tony is away in sheffield,0
tonights nightits good run ive lot ups downs years caught one moment im losing house ive lost partner im thousands debt cant afford eat havent single friend years now mental health absolutely tanked im probably facing hefty prison sentence future stick around  nothing tonight im drinking litre special reserve swallowing four packs acetaminophen slicing length arm open praying god die goodbye,1
hi many problems probably stupid pushing anymore ex sleeping men hard extra hard last years enjoy sex anymore know tiny dick imagine loving fu king people nice big cocks relieved moved past me realise woman ever want me even say problem massive compromise want force into think suicide lot  year old son it lately get rages know are come feel may actually something able take back done not know want venting might help inguess know live anymore,1
regular people day got grounded not wearing helmet went bike im allowed use tv im supposed use phone im gonna ride bike without music wtf people expect do,0
@ItsNeet Anita! Hi there!  *hugs*,0
gabysslave thanks you too i have an essay to write,0
ate a piece of angel food cake and another laffy taffy,0
just booted into window to upload something since internet is even worse under ubuntu,0
@itszikki lOl you would.. how you get that job again? ,0
definitive top  best rappers time  lil pump  lil xan  cardi b  jake paul  lil uzi vert says yah yah yah  ixine  lil yachty without autotune  kodak black  ksi  smokepurpp freestyling honorable mentions tupac biggie nas kendrick isnt joke true top  rappers list,0
playing basket with my couisns... ,0
candicenicolepr i haven t heard from you in while,0
nightits like desire end things  know millions methods sleep wake try show effort live im truly want freedom human suffering  think ill permanently suicidal,1
another good animation disney sequels always great tend follow plot original however son tramp tries savor world side home family knows learns actually belongs junkyard dog everyone er dog is scamp overcomes adversity voices various characters superb provided several well know actors scott wolf alyssa milano mickey rooney entertaining well made family movie,0
cant anymoremy sister murdered last year dog also might killed made  month two jobs treat like shit even though two bachelors cant find jobs husband mom family therapist keep telling shouldnt depressed keep telling im well wont listen havent heard best friend weeks doesnt talk much messaged saying need talk left read hospitalized kidney infection im always hospitalized something stupid another boss firing keep getting hospitalized dont know im sick ive several doctors said werent sure either psych took anxiety meds throwing up begged cant handle anxiety wants wait im better gives lexapro something im going get better ive vomiting months seizures dont know doc figured sans throwing seizure nausea meds me im tired fighting im tired trying make everything okay barely hold together income car job life dont know im even typing here ive seen  doctors past week tired saying must feeling bad yes im feeling bad want die wont able stay employed dont qualify disability had hearing honestly point existence anymore im pain time im angry anxious time shouldnt take pills sleep forever im sorry dont even know im posting im venting world dont even know im writing,1
lmfao probably wouldnt get along childhood bestfriend saw like  years parents met long time see acts weird like dude smirking like stoppp making eye contact meee makes feel awkward anyways talked hes super different used tad bit assholey thought get along got others contact info asked  looks dresses talks acts like one eboy jocks tiktok im like nerdy asian guy glasses would probably bully school lmfoaosoa,0
do start want note post karma u didnt know purely looking advice ight pandemic parents work home lets say home like hell ironically looked forward going back school next day today teacher called mario everyone calling mario also thanks democracy fellow classmates environmental prefect taking trash sorts errands etc school hell too so nutshell im hell  advice make feel better except playing video games bliss,0
Listening to music an hour every day helps reduce chronic pain by up to 21 percent and depression by up to 25 percent.,1
survival instinct prevents ending emotional falloutis anyone else frightened pain unsuccessful attempt hurt cause loved ones im meant feel blessed people care unlike people last thing im hanging onto think parents eventually understand death good thing would wanted go also think articulated adequately would able live without regret thinking could done something different ultimately life become less meaningful years everyone forget anyway probably selfish thats level apathy im at,1
british people pronounce water properly wo uh wo uh im gewing two drink eh gloss wo uh,0
through out the day i keep telling myself okay tomorrow you need wake up and do these thing so i have to go to sleep early job search and practice permit test to get the license but every night once it reach 9 0 i find myself unhappy in my bed ruminating about how i messed up in life and how worthless i am that no one want to hire me i wonder is it even worth it i then end up sleeping till like or am i ve applied to food le and such and have gotten either no call or few place rejecting me i stay up in bed trying to find something that ll distract me or pacify me to sleep and even when i do go to sleep early i dread waking up i just wish i could sleep forever,1
want go sleep tonight never wake upim writing let people know feeling know really fucking cliche reading im probably already dead really know meant relieve stress getting feelings paper maybe fucking redflag note ive got blade right next may redflag note want end this feel sad sad probably never girlfriend way look fat am sad family hate im still questioning sexuality even though think im straight sad friends probably care follow feel alone reality dont even feel like much live friends family probably resent end sexuality straight totally honest ive got decent life dont even know want die kind do live uk access gun would probably even wrote i want go sleep tonight never wake up,1
accidentally listened to the new sugababes album playing four girl aloud hit sequentially to purge the memory,0
gloomy weather again,0
worried  year old girl subject domestic physicalmental housewithout going lot know girl know girl etc let give brief background known girl  years lives uk live different country kept touch electronic means first girl schizophrenic host illnesses too dad severe anger issues abuses physically mentally makes serve food wash dishes clean house shouts beats petty things like spilling water picking toys floor threatened knife beats plates glasses punches head last time got beat around month ago one siblings gets beat up tried tell mother beating showed bruises too mother refuses believe even laughed off probably fear confronting him husband yells wife too family treat well either sister mean tell father put trouble family tends isolate her even remember birthday all family cold her often tend alienate since act normal girl often feels suicidal due this inflicted selfharm cut wrist starves believes way family accept her make worse two incidents life must tell about raped walking back home night initially tell parents sometime later police reports filed rape suffered false pregnancy girl symptoms disorder like lactating breasts happened early  depressed incident summer  approximately family sent couple family friends wellknown treatments advertised herbal therapy accupuncture etc however happened next terrible left alone husband wife went somewhere else guy tortured her instance made sit container filled water upto neck closed lid imagine kind stress panic would cause schizophrenic patient miscellaneous details gt gets visit psychiatrist school able hide problems psychiatrist noted girl able put front really well gt five psychiatrists past gt enjoys drawingpainting learning new languages writing poems gt depressed tends victimized mentality blames problems want report abuse due trouble family face tells stopped cutting lately problem refuses tell anyone abuse even tries defend father saying fault help her although seem extremely suicidal concern physically mental abuse girl subject everyday healthy environment anyone grow in really wish rescued clutches belligerent controlling father dysfunctional family,1
anyone else flair havent changed while kiwi flair relic point,0
"gonna write down all these questions now, and ill make an answer video tomorrow  any last minute ones?",0
something wrong arm bleedingi something unacceptable school today teacher noticed im likely going get reported could extreme consequences would destroy almost everything look forward life naturally told mother did thinking even bad basically called idiot criminal even told think act try happened many times every time get scared sad first time actually drew blood vertically yet felt need punish myself im scared death never stop fucking shit up fuck school friendships everything even way hide cuts ill explain myself person could talk facetoface one teachers im terrified approaching her know handle anymore keeps getting worse every time cant help thinking whiny unappreciative bitch ive never closer now happy months ago,1
movie several things going it feel good story characters actors likable realistic present fine performances important believe dennis quaid knows grip throw baseball robert redford looked good throwing swinging bat the natural kevin costner for love game bull durham major league tom berenger charlie sheen looked like knew doing many others not picture pure silliness  funny br br so many earlier baseball movies even stories might interesting presented lack baseball ability part leads ludicrous respect the stratton story strategic air command jimmy stewart looked believable professional baseball player overweight nonathletic elderly uncle softball game family reunion virile physically robust stars eg gary cooper lou gehrig robald reagan grover cleveland alexander dan dailey dizzy dean also exhibited degree baseball ability would put late rounds choosingup game sunday picnic even coed even uncle involved br br the scenes quaids high school team coached ones attends tryout devil rays playing two minor leagues american league ring true participants believable capable addition engaging actor always delivers talented appropriate characterization except degree overthetop scenes forced accent portrayal jerry lee lewis hes definitely ontarget here movie  good better others genre except the natural,0
dougiemcfly hey saw u guy play pushover didn t get meet u tho cuz of th huge line i wa very upset lol a msg would make up it,0
im considering kill give reason toi considering overdosing meds cant figure complete assignment,1
fucking mosquitoes mosquitoes hate two bites back neck one toe itch bad especially one toe annoying,0
coworker friend suicidal know help want tohi there coworker mine struggled depression long time i believe least decade known last year half recently entered relationship former coworker im sure knows never met place let know current situation reason know suicidal posted two months ago recognized username im girlfriend interact daily basis know show support without seeming awkward intrusive plays major role restaurant work in clearly major impact mental health everyones mental health different works one person ie medication therapy support may work another however want know connect person let know resources available him human resource department counselling service friend perusing subreddit looking sign live little longer presence reach to it,1
paul e wog wait is it a game or just episode i m so confused,0
i SHOULD be asleep ,0
"Almost 2 years drowned in depression, I finally found myself back. But no, it's not the old me, it's the new me.",1
want dieim sorry coherent know time ive asleep seems like week im sad put sentences together well honestly feel like throwing crying cant either ive lost everything know do ive depressed  years time ive never made friend talk it anybody support me past year finally made friend talked every single day helped other initiated conversation nearly month now another support friend talk either know why helped other thought tried hard perfect them became object used help them specifically feel like leave occasions needed them anyway education shit family struggling casual friends barely exist mind barely works anymore spent whole christmas birthday new years asleep handle awake actually called hotline first time birthday someone listen made feel something even gave standard canned responses want die badly know none give shit know see anyone stuff you know ill get nothing this know im writing anymore im sorry im going keep going though coming words thing keeping going insane sleeping pills kick go back sleep im planning talking one friends tomorrow im going ask let believe important them know would me really ask much im sorry am want this making much sense im going submit anyway lose feel broken human know im still here soul hurts chest hurts want stop know why deserve friendship deserve support cant even allowed support someone else why think im bad around point people actively avoid me think crazy maybe someone could stick me apparently though soul empty hands shaking new words add this thanks guys sorry worry im probably going end deleting this thanks,1
rejected crush sad bu ever come nose drinking coke,0
looking anyone oceania join discord looking fresh perspective id love learn life new zealand australia oceaniac countries members would probably interested wants join come,0
please hear second feel difference day day work believe depression since  years middle two years absolutely peaked self harm constant impulsive suicidal thoughtsas would say suicidal grateful life either final year ugso since past months noticing taking time usual performing tasks like numerical calculations solving integrals trouble remembering code syntax solving problems etci usually know bad mental state counting times efficient normal vanilla processing power looks like decliningsince last  years actively trying aware feelings surroundings really feel difference kind making pretty angry nowi actually surprised see noticeable difference going lie scary therapy expensive lockdown parents right now tried explain mental health given up get arguments man upany help really appreciated noticed unable process things efficiently used to cognitive abilities actually deteriorating,1
 female therapist says pocd pedophile ocd know pedophile confused drained would really rather die attracted kids people would agree pedos die thinking ended one would care gaf pedophiles really would everyone favor hung  year old cousin yesterday everything normal felt attraction towards actually lot fun playing legos left intrusive thought want end again turns actually attracted kids think would physically able live myself guys think also people always tell god help god helping wondering turn god save me want help want normal tired drained,1
cant anymore hurts much hate muchi want die badly im pathetic im fat ugly covered scars around awful example human being friends real life anymore since left school theyve barely talked me frustrate anger parents lately used yell occasionally pretty much every day brother used look me im disappointment done schoolwork long entire th grade year rotting room used smart too straight top school barely anything fuck ive done many horrible things people around me im disgusting excuse human being theres point all want live anymore hate everything life wish could start someone completely different hurts alive physically mentally emotionally im meds year therapist quit june new one til october even know im posting here actually knew me agree much waste space am just cant anymore hate much always have remember hating age  fat one earliest memories called piggy cousin god just do  years life full mental illness burden people around me parents crushed would killed long time ago theyre angry time now know would better never existed wish dead everything hurts,1
feel unworthy female compare others well mean dont anyways quite frequently often question worth never got much attention guys past none really bothered past past pretty say look little better often got rejected past changed dyed hair blonde lost weight took better care myself thought guys would finally like changed completely guy would want girl perhaps isnt case guy pays attention me looks way hurts get everyday completely change please others still enough hate rejected never express feelings guys past thats ever happened im afraid rejected tiring knowing ill never good enough clearly guy looks way wear makeup hair dyed body skinny theyll look way im myself hurts nobody wants best many girls school get guys effortlessly adored guys dont even need change anything guys always crushed them feel worthless gross good enough wanna know girls get attention seek dont,0
human much mein honesty ive probably getting along fine  years life far feel like day now gonna come crashing down ill scared figure fix it wanna around happens ive always let anxiety rule life always cant see single good thing would make people like me take away much world ill ever able give it every little thing do done already make impossibletobegin gauntlet confirming college courses start soon going work asking others talk feel never gather strength anything know ill fail like always do think ill kill soon feeling always there ive different kinds treatment never anything sometimes get scared away notion im reminded redflags effects others sometimes get distracted forget while never lasts could die make world better place nobody would realize it true way overcome am cannot hope survive fucked world really lost idea life become feel like defective human being people may like me really shouldnt belong here,1
Resting from Rocking Space Jam with Atomic Babies- Udachi and us ,0
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strangely version open eyes mature nuanced aided hindsight crowes screenplay lot tighter fleshed amenabars original spanish filmmaker get credit thinking story first theres doubt crowe improved  slightly notice idea lead open eyes know almost everything lead vanilla sky thats mean fleshed out,0
@jenenclark I find I enjoy life more when I know what I am doing! ,0
@CreateandInvent I'm just making my third.  Need to fuel up for a busy day of filling orders! ,0
toilet aint shitting decorative use grandma,0
there is no real deep rooted reason i want to commit suicide i just feel so blah my life feel meaningless i keep seeing myself make the same mistake i feel trapped in a cycle i keep wondering when will i ever gain self control with money and time when will i ever let go of the past when will i ever grow up i do indeed have the mean to do it but i don t fully have the incentive,1
rather ran cari  hope things dont get betternot everyone ill wait accident happen feeling suicidal makes feel guilty everything every aspect born ratand die like stupid rati exist sufferi envy love watch people everything goes well themi wonder pure souls are,1
want see therapistthe person ive opened life suicidal thoughts keeps bombarding see therapist know do honestly reason im alive care made promise kill myself know anymore wish would believe me someone believe cant physically bring see therapist know help keeps insisting knows will anything forced go talk strangers worsen depression anxiety feel alone like one person care cant even believe say want someone listen im really considering breaking promise ending things,1
trying ok told med manager would give extra meds husband keep safe could it plan need able case tired feeling way got diagnosed bipolar  like day  limited sleep stoned majority last two days started new antipsychotics day want keep happening tried many different meds many different diagnoses keep telling everyone ok telling husband going leave him ok ok,1
Got a 90 On my test ,0
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someone talk mei feel really alone im scared pm comments fine,1
@CannataNFL @houtz @Suttonlacesout that podcast should come with a warning that it may cause depression. #McGlinchey,1
slept half second hour atleast im tired anymore clue wtf happened out,0
i have a friend group at school yet i feel lonely and helpless i have anxiety and depression i ve always been a big guy 9 0 pound and i ve always been bullied for it i can t get a girlfriend because i m ugly and socially awkward i can t focus on school because i m always tired i can t talk to anyone about my feeling because i hate letting people into my bubble i miss the happy and innocent me at young age my mom left me with my grandma i hate to think what s gon na happen once she dy i hate myself i m ashamed of myself i wan na kill myself i m such a pussy i m afraid that god is real and i ll be punished i m afraid that when i die it will all be black and boring i don t know what s gon na happen if i do it if i fail straight to a hospital if my life doesn t get better i ll do it i hope if i do it i ll be reborn a someone normal and start over,1
@Daniellednp hope you're feeling better girlie! i will b in vegas a lot this summer- let's be sure to catch up soon. miss u lots ,0
please watch this vid and tell me if you are not moved http www youtube com watch v eujsme0torw,0
sorry everyone last post weird im weird karma real car running like hour turn,0
much even cost admitted hospital mention redflag therapyso yeah im thoughts again sisters boyfriend real irl friend died month  ago sister still little upset it cant really talk anyone suicidal thoughts feel like would bad taste therapist appointment coming november honestly doubt ill last long though dunno much hospitalization would cost admitted dunno im huge sad rn,1
"@theokk don't know what you could possibly mean, dear boy...... ",0
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@reba I watched the movie &quot;Australia&quot; a while ago...its a good movie..Nicole is wicked good in it. ,0
is gon na start revising for exam in may,0
@jarrodwalsh Oooooooo god dam... well we want u back!!!!!!!   Go on - you know you want to.........,0
trust high placesi dont know me doesnt matter feel moment look balcony feel big urge like jump down live th floor intentionally rush back cant trust staying trying jump so like see knife urge stab dont make sure never follow urges,1
@azinkid Smart...and fashionable ,0
@leakedLJ thank you very very much! ,0
love dont know made post love myself im glad exist world life great,0
everything prepared done less hour left lifeall letters written written money transfered help want help good quality meter rope bought noose already made location chosen waiting everyone go sleep ill finally free goodbye,1
it d be great if some opensource luminary would record talk file for rockbox the daleky voice is unimpressive,0
sorta drug makes think differently permanentlyi really dislike way think shitty way think sorta extreme drug something change way think,1
trib agreed,0
mum s been taken to hospital they don t know what s wrong she s been vomiting since yesterday rushing back to get to the hospital,0
"bout to make a track wid the cuzin nikko, watch out b.e.t imma be on my way  lol imma beast!!!!!",0
camarade menthe profite bg on a peu de r pit entre et 0 si on saute la case calvasse j ai vit de la mettre d ailleurs pour viter le vagues de d pression l approche du w end,1
went dentist im still there wont let out help,0
help anxiety attacksdepressiongiving mentallyhating world problemshaving irl friends kind answer nice please beg look dont wanna make long caption imagine alone  yrs getting point talking yourself nothing studying and sometimes u study much u burn crypanic major trust issues betrayal humanity literally cant stand living anymore havent eaten like entire day either getting worse one helps feels like mentally im slowly dying also hate seeing ppl help others making realize fucked humanity is need answer this cant i cant im trolling anything proof page need desperate help self harm weed help honest like break cry feel like go extra length cut idk want someone lean tbh cant get therapist either since dont enough money maybe good meds secretly order oh dont enjoy anything either jojo theres that gets day tbh laughing memes ill stop u wanna message whatever feel free like jojo bizarre adventure mean u hit ur depressed boy up  also repost bc ppl thought lying abt last post hurt lot mentally whatever thats me hope doesnt get skimmed over,0
anyone wanna practice flirting know u actually wanna flirt practice actually tell ok pms open,0
do anybody experience a sharp pain in your chest area almost feel like pin and needle feeling is this anxiety i always feel like anxiety when my chest feel tight but this go round i don t have tightness in my chest it s more a needle pain i wa wondering is this anxiety,1
"@WaysMeansCmte @RepJohnLarson @stevenwaite2 No there was a stock mkt crash the Depression was caused by Govt tax & spend not working for 20 yrs. Had they cut Govt, the Free Mkt & Individual Liberty, like under Coolidge, would have recovered much sooner",1
@KayySativa Depression is a chemical imbalance of the brain tell me how sex is curing a chemical imbalance,1
worked his heart out today doubling my weight at each station result stiff and pulled muscle ouch,0
im talking about the kind of depressive episode where you lay in bed all day for day week and struggle to find energy motivation for simple functioning such a eating and showering just lay sit there having negative thought and feeling hopeless useless and pathetic i have these episode a few or so time a year my question is do you generally have something in your mind that feel like the obstacle you need to cross to start the process of getting out of your depressive episode for example sometimes for me i just feel like if only i could completely clean my house i d start to feel better other time it might be something else on my to do list or a few thing i feel are the obstacle to feeling better the obstacle always seem insanely mundane but also impossible to do in my state a if i d have to put on a ton of body weight and get up and do it with all that extra weight and already feeling fatigued it bizarre because ive noticed over the year that completing whatever it is that i ve decided a my obstacle is generally the st step to leaving my major depressive episode i can t describe the mental workout it is to get something done sometimes though like i may attempt to get it done time in a week to just end up giving up and going back to bed i m just wondering if anyone else get this and set up hurdle type thing for themselves when they are super depressive and do you ever eventually complete your obstacle amp doe it help you to coming out of the episode,1
how do you guy deal with depression other than avoiding it i can t keep this up lol sleeping is my only coping mechanism and it s not a good one i m so drained any advice also more important any advice for feeling le sad about unaccepting parent i m trans and can t really deal with my parent negative reaction i can t cope well is what i mean i have to wait several year to even transition to the gender i wa supposed to be born a bc i m too young to afford it all myself i hate this this body and this life sorry for bringing the mood down also school suck i wish it wa fun it suck the fun out of learning i m too tired to type anymore though so have fun reading this mess of word crunched together,1
tried cutting wrist butcher knifeanother depressed  year old here half hour ago mom asked want go restraunt her said want to said alright told bring something back later left already depressed started throwing walls saying hate myself ran downstairs took butcher knife went bathroom sink started cutting away leave anything threw knife anger started crying know whats wrong me im homeschooled im lonely friends let alone gf hate life know anymore theres  cents im fucking done living,1
today gonna aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhgghhhghggghhh day       ,0
Ok I REALLY need to go to bed and stop playing around with Twitter adding new friends!! Hello all you new people ,0
need to eat something ,0
valentines day call   girls  joy  hours crying really need cuddle someone ,0
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sixteenth birthday tomorrow im still alivei wish would die didnt want live point shouldve year ago dead but im still here hurts,1
"stuff packed! back to the airport with destination: IBIZA!  YIHAAAAA Blue Marlin,Jockey Club,Pacha Restaurant,Ocean Drive Hotel: BE READY!",0
ummmm guys necrophilia theyre dying great aint gonna stop,0
i m so exhausted and i can t stop sleeping staying awake is a struggle i just feel like shit staying awake just make me want to sleep maybe i ll take a nap again,1
just watched tropic thunder dreading tomorrow,0
"@AsMooNy Thxxx hun, am gonna go in an hour inshalla 5eer ",0
would like to get the fuck out! Come save me ,0
andersons animation easily rivals pixar goes well beyond anything ive ever seen disney do say story bit abstract find thoughtprovoking refreshing change exaggerated characters bumbling animals typically found animated shorts interplanetary version castaway anyone left safe harbor home gone lonely frightening place themselves readily identify forlorn microbe excellent work mr andersonbr br ,0
bro realized girlfriend man man girlfriend holy shit dont know landed like damn fuckin cute beautiful man wanna cuddle like shit man finally somehow landed,0
want fall asleep know wake feel bad now know parents going drag church going make dumb mistake feel like shit probably self harm fall asleep wake continue day die want fall asleep,1
it wa a sleepless night,0
it s so cruel having to wait for review to come in so far it look like star trek will be the best film of the year,0
mom believes masks work tells without backing evidence except fact smell fart someones jeans catch disease someones mask never went college ive taking college classes since junior year high school im  live person knows many years somebody please prove wrong,0
therapy use service someone else provides me end changing things still selfloathing piece nothingi seem want get better think late done years ago day long feel empty like something vital left me inner sense wonder wanting try new things gone want job want relationship want money want give up feel like fighting every day now,1
told did brother realized situation partner arrived back  hours messaged said i didnt mean seem like break up but brother angry kicked out,1
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@DarrellHansen this twit is still here.  ,0
currently bored anxious school sooo ask anything want get mind things,0
nothing changestheres many things want change life matter hard try nothing changes every time try get job end quitting within week anxious thoughts energy due depression im tired one loser lives parents house s im broke friends hobbies ever seem sit room browse reddit youtube day stick around life like this hopes successful one day apparently destined loser literally nothing worth sticking around for try best kind person help others yet hand cards dealt ive posted past time cant win thoughts even parents really care dad told today kill care like worlds even gonna know gone im gonna it least say tried,1
tomorrow going break personal record going lose hope humanity day get bed wish luck,0
ughi cant stop thinking killing myself fucking hate want disappear,1
kaylee 0 yawn i m pretty good thanks awww i m sorry to hear that feel better soon lt,0
is frustrated that rudd cant facilitate private enterprise investing in our broadband infrastructure instead he need to waste our money,0
chances uses marvelous song name throughout film robert downey jr excellent movie extra large eyes wonderfully variable facial expressions part expertise acting different people diverse films compare robert downey jr chaplin enjoy chances are did,0
put film queue whim recent trip nyc believe id never heard anywhere makings cult classic starting characters archetypal roles recognize every stretch daily life nuanced fully realized actors playing peter stormare bai lings performances particularly strong interactions poignant grounded time brimming subtle quirky humor sadly rare american films days writerdirector ramin niami beautiful job weaving scenes together funny moving portrait city past highly recommended,0
feeling suicidal scared againhere go again feeling extremely compelled continue kill again whats point living horrible moods horrible self,1
want screami hate depressive episodes wish could scream throw things cant im silently losing sanity,1
antidepressantsi hate antidepressants thing keeping killing myself anyone else,1
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great film american gi quits army marry german girl saved life last days war accepts really likes him support easier access food such meanwhile brother old friend form antiamerican terrorist group called werewolves purpose drive away occupants you might remember group playing major part lars von triers film europa zentropa james best best known role roscoe p coltrane s television show dukes hazzard shockingly excellent american become big movie star age reminds much warren beatty main actors good well fullers direction quite good using lot long takes although nearly complex park row long takes often consist long scenes lot dialogue problems lie script seems case fuller films ive seen badly flawed ought expanded fleshing major characters parts script helga wife goes major change completely screen therefore emotional center rests squarely bests shoulders fuller also killed sick mother early film hope sound harsh really anything throughout film except lie bed lines fuller keeps bringing film goes on would death solidify david helgas relationship myself film ends abruptly lacks payoff really biggest flaws world the way described makes sound bigger are ,0
guns expensivei mean knew reason figured land free tm came plentiful cheap guns finish job turns may plentiful theyre hardly cheap anyone afford kill america anyway came home feeling even sad useless before,1
when i wa i sa d a girl in her sleep why i don t know i feel like shit every day because of it it genuinely make me feel like shit when i think about it i just don t wan na live anymore i ve made so many drastic mistake that i don t see the point in life now the sa story ha gotten around school i know and understand i did this to myself but i can t help but feel like shit i really just want to go back and get my old life back but no one belief me when i say i m sorry or i feel like shit because of it i feel remorseful but there s no way to convey that,1
favorite jackie chan movie always drunken master  followed film  police story it chan plays hong kong supercop busts notorious crime lord gang assigned protect mans girlfriend brigitte lin turn states evidence story goes on gangster sends goons dispatch lin chan takes matters fists feet keeping girlfriend maggie cheung bay like drunken master police story many signature stunts overthetop martial artsaction choreography chan become famous for climaxing battle royal crowded shopping mall role director chan exceeds excellence giving charismatic funny performance accentuates action light overall slapstick humor drunken master heart police story that police story gritty copthriller would oftcopied years comebr br ,0
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.! ,0
"Time for a taste of &quot;Spring&quot;, if you haven't gotten outside yet today. Yes, it's by Antonio Vivaldi.  ♫ http://blip.fm/~7fjpe",0
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suicidal gesturedoes anyone want exactly die per se make suicidal gesture ends hospital like oding alcohol cutting really deep want things badly dont necessarily want die dont know crave self destruction badly,1
days want die painful way possible suffering moment would absolve wrong done continue others many times could kinder aspect personality come break it prideful sore loser jealous meanspirited come from even know blame household even could would even excuse job better came me also selfish want badly excused embraced flaws despite them able prideful cruel bastard still loved sometimes one wrong sometimes get apology instead give it sometimes think fundamentally unlovable hard get along smart placate perhaps intelligence stupidity people reassure love support feels disingenuous maybe done disingenuously before say cruel unfoundedi wants disgusts contradict overlap like someone touch starved hates touched really want know even know begin know tired days want sleep slip away dreams reflection,1
to preface i would like to apologize in advance for any posting informality this is my first reddit post i just graduated university in may of 0 and received a job at a global digital marketing agency agency life a a first job wa too emotionally taxing for my well being and gave me extremely bad performance anxiety i quit this job right before the start of 0 and have been looking for a job since i briefly had a job in february of 0 however a close friend of mine offed himself and i wa fired for taking time off to grieve due to this i started taking prozac and visiting a therapist once a week thing were going fine until i decided to drink on prozac one night and have a psychotic episode this episode caused me to get extremely aggressive towards my roommate for no reason i wa running down a list of accusation some true and some untrue however my girlfriend worried for the safety of my roommate decided to slap me in hope to end the episode terrible idea i know amp we have no history of domestic abuse this lead me into a meltdown where i called the cop trying to get her arrested for assault along with spewing false detail of thing that i wa hallucinating the cop soon realized i wa having an episode and luckily didn t press charge and talked me somewhat down from being aggressive once they left i packed up every item i own and drove hour to my family s house i don t remember anything until i wa almost finished packing my stuff i severely hurt my roommate and girlfriend i don t think about coming back because of how overwhelming the guilt will feel i m not sure what i should do and my brain is focusing on the permanent solution i guess the reason for this post is to ask for any advice or tip i didn t want to drone on regarding other incident so i ll leave a list below of what s happened in the past year cut off abusive parent experienced a few other meltdown due to work school stress lost a ton of friend due to self isolation took too many psychedelics which ha given me bad general anxiety wa arrested and impulsively moved halfway around the u before i wa ready to life for the past year ha gone continuously downhill for me i can t realistically see a way out of this,1
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thanks reddit mei know problem im college ive dealing since middle school years started writing thoughts last year frustrated myself think need help think help fix me great life everything going school work activities im social limited never relationship usually ok moments despair worried myself drinking makes worse you tell drunk ones base spellingtime also lot fun nights probably  times bad night causes types writings nights good time need share ever consuming thoughts  am sometimes feel like rules life everyone knows one tell me times remind someone loser else someone deemed better imagine totally opposite am imagine others view think aware negative im actually pretty certain average everyone else like living messed world id rather forever alone rather occasional inclusion minority time feeling like outcast bury emotions feel well realize bad hide emotions also want acknowledge them want run away everyone everything simply cowardice brave face fears want something dont hide behind happy smile cheerful attitude lonely wont let feel bad fault deserve it realize self centered thus really deserve anything speak anyone issues know cant help change opinion me willing put burdens people also know tell anyone fault feel alone feel hyper aware place world days wish could shut run simply instinct could happy carefree dog would relief feel heavily weighed thoughts emotions scares buried alive feel whiny ungrateful things go right life remember everyone feels pretty messed inside thus reminding even faults way unique  pm death easy way out living hardest thing ever do hard want cry still feel like right scared yet confident know fix me easier alone terrified cant hurt anyone want ok care deal myself sometimes seem worth it  pm close losing everything give done worth it nothing worth it feel like robin trying swim drowning fish swim by  pm happy happy future bright cannot wait see achieve store me career priority dating finding someone want spend life also much something want  pm fear death fear loneliness fear sadness fear disappointment fear embarrassment butdeath fear death  pm fuck emotions may die rot inviting oblivion collapsing falling scared life is live me live people need exist id kill myself really mean live others life work it blah blah blah want fuck shit up want leave run away start something new unknown want quiet self lonely no quiet lover gentle friend  pm ever happy could cry happy feel like could float away bliss encompasses smells spring comfort fall  pm life nothing like see tv now im mildly drunk desiring food hard im lonely  pm pain fear sorrow judgement never escape you  pm want die want alone want force anyone else people say like believe  nothing  know fun u know let guard down want break bottle head life worth dead fuck shit die motherfuvkinh death  am everyone suffers different self pity waste energy  days hard really harder day feel spend time wondering things right instead enjoying im doing things dont either busy dont know willing try  pm take drunk bar bathroom remember actually would rather dead suck fake it lose nothing  pm everyone one seems know live yet sit alive  im lonely scared forever alone im scared im worth loving terrified screwed over messed up unloveable worth anyones time shouldnt expect someone love dont love myself dont thinkg im worth loved life tooo hard much deal  sadnees anger  shame embaressament lonlines fear anger pain loniliness shame need control power yet none ruin everything funsucker nothing nothing even worth effort never forget failure shame worth effort dont justify fuckup person,1
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coming manic episode afraid doomed againi bad phase last month nearly killed myself ended psych ward got  days later getting out new appreciation everything could see excitable work happy wake up insanely energetic even felt like could happily something like break arm pass time bored actually wanted to felt exciting ive never experience something like felt good week feel energy getting lower lower dont feel excited dont enjoy things dont feel powerful bad thoughts beginning come back feel like going downward spiral end another hospital visit death,1
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always loved muppets though childrens entertainment likable muppets was muppets very funny probably likable childrens characters ever br br not muppets show also starred many films muppets christmas carol muppets treasure island first muppets movie muppet movie also like show films excellentbr br the muppet movie got started kermit frog used live swamp one day movie executive tells auditions frogs hollywood kermit takes hollywood along way runs lots people fozzie bear gonzo great miss piggy also evil man trying capture kermitbr br all muppet films highly enjoyable mean funny film many film appearances steve martin mel brooks elliot gould carol kane richard pryor orson welles muppet films enjoyable hear jason segel going star one soon cant wait see it,0
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everyone competing other every dayi cant stand it everything competition everything slavery others others slaves shit go home cry doesnt make us happy wrong society cant fucking stand it cant madness none makes sense slaves sex society slaves cant part society cant alone without going mad cant see night stay warm sun goes away find cave hopefully bear might eat alive wont there youre gone you just idk dont dream brain isnt on youre gone arent you youre dirt youre slowly becoming it future lava erupts nothing prevents it even close space travel like ants picnic someone spilled fresh coffee,1
never anything rightcan please complete failure useful miserable pathetic existence cant anything right mess ruin everything im better dead instead wasting resources id gladly give spot life someone much deserving worth i could,1
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im quitting job covid travel killing im donei cant   rat race im first job graduating dec  disappointed enslaved feel reddit google every resource look help quit life scam get happy gotta live according world forces to im waiting covid travel quitting job last day traveling end ever am able enjoy life enslaved retire  years old even attempted rebuild life traveling come back country unemployment end it,1
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various antidepressants decade since  cannot remember life without ever feels like diagnosed gad depression recently started considering negative effects medication may contributing life chronic fatigue lack excitement motivation lowered libido etcover entire time therapy cbt talk therapy somatic accrued new skillsi incredibly intrigued could like without medication also absolutely terrified could look like given diagnosis family historywhat experiences going medication instead using natural lifestyle changes deal diagnosed mental illness experience unmedicated anti depressants,1
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rosenstrasse margarethe von trotta blends two stories create vibrant tapestry love courage film depicts family drama estrangement mother daughter story german women staged protest rosenstrasse free jewish husbands certain extermination addition dramatization historical events focus film saving child holocaust german result childs experience losing mother ms von trotta shows courage small number germans made difference use excuse german society indeed shows midst torture extermination wealthy artists intellectuals german high society went lives parties oblivious sufferingbr br rosenstrasse opens new york jewish widow ruth weinstein jutta lampe decides sit shiva sevenday period mourning takes place following funeral jewish family members devote full attention remembering mourning deceased daughter hannah maria schrader forbidden receive phone calls fianc luis fedja van huet nonjew hannah questions mother suddenly decided follow orthodox tradition previously rejected ruth coldly rejects cousin hannah questions learns woman named lena took ruth child latters mother deported murdered nazis vows find lena discover secret mothers pastbr br her quest takes berlin finds lena doris schade ninety years old interviews pretext journalist researching certain aspects holocaust unfailing memory lena tells story how young year old woman katja reimann searched husband jewish pianist fabian israel fischer martin feifel disappeared presumed imprisoned despite protection normally given jews mixed marriages lena radiant performance reimann discovers husband jews held prisoner former factory rosenstrassebr br standing together freezing night german women whose husband missing congregate outside building numbers growing daily reach one thousand shouting give us back husbands lena finds ruth svea lohde young girl whose mother building takes care her protecting gestapo raising mother killed lena comes aristocratic german family brother recently returned stalingrad wehrmacht officer refused help father free fabian enlists aid brother tells fellow officer i know jews saw it given support bold enough bypass channels go top beauty charm prove irresistible minister culture joseph goebbels known womanizer fictional part film criticized degrading women protesters historical fact goebbels active making decisions affecting rosenstrassebr br the director margarethe von trotta activist feminist intellectual stranger political drama directed film socialist rosa luxembourg marianne julianne story relationship two sisters one resorts political violence accomplish liberal objectives rosenstrasse film worked eight years make compromises adding present day fictional element order film produced works well tribute ms von trottas artistry beautiful screenplay pamela katz whose father refugee leipzig events rosenstrasse give lie germans say there nothing could do von trotta shown opposite true something could done resist nazis tragic example catch on,0
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weeks later found long term girlfriend entire time felt like idiot found out reached last month told knew girlfriend whole time ever saw would literally break nose im still furious it im angry thinks pulled one got away it,0
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...the princess home. goonight/morning. b safe/good &amp; i hope all ur evenings were enjoyed &amp; well spent.   ,0
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depression: Gone  https://twitter.com/stray_kids/status/989035166319415296 …,1
real nowi know real now know suicidal thoughts becoming real ive stopped sharing thoughts people even though theyre louder every day ive prepared organized little things simplify things whatever happens stuff im three conversations right via text none suspect thing one case opposite im particularly well conversation talking trip next summer know well wont last long im sad know coming im sad come this im sad mental illness stronger am im sad heart cant move past people didnt invest way invested them im sad let heart believe forever actually meant forever though im sad past present enough end future,1
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i m not writing this in a negative way what is your point having a point make the difference i think between your life you need to know why you are doing something before you do it,1
so i recently moved to a state 000 mile away from my home with my parent even though there wa no point in it i m and this isn t just the right place for me and there s nothing i can do about it all my family member who lived here convinced my parent to move over here cause apparently it s better when i m here my anxiety ha gone up by a lot and so ha my depression i can t even sit still in peace after getting into a fight like my mind constantly telling me we need to go back home i never got along with others in public and got into fight at school already did drug and a lot of stuff like that my parent think this is the best environment and i m still acting like this and they never listen to me i m having a talk with my therapist in a few day do you think they could convince my parent that this isn t a good place for me and recommend u to move out of the state for better mental health for me mentally and emotionally because i just do not belong here i wa so much better a a person in my hometown now i can t even tell if this is me i even have done drug here for the first time and yet my parent family think i m the problem not the environment what can i do i can not wait much longer,1
bastardswhen want talk realistic things get ignored want talk mk ultra real recent jfk docs released get called paranoid im curious people use power im curious history states people power control situation im told sit back thats life no thats called power im tired putting mask even though information faces something powerful submit it people even want speak happens behind scenes negative history filled negative facts document reality still real still happens lion eating deer brutal make negative thats life apperently life fit certain status quo one posotive bullshit,1
think title movie describes well looking documentary louis kahn work look somewhere else although covered filmbr br of course eat pretty much anything im fed know much family history revolving around case believed told nathaniel father etcbr br for movie was thought pretty good little slow grabbing attention time wish nathaniel would focused little fathers work family drama although much history interesting louis bit playerbr br this really journey someones life happy tag along experience learning experience me seems filmmaker well br br oh footage kahns work stunning,0
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im miserable pathetic cowardi struggled suicidal thoughts long put semicolon tattoo wrist thinking would keep following through im realizing selfish stay alive everyone know would happier without me mom resents views came bisexual told hated me im going hell considers biggest failing mother turn wanted best friend abandoned activity used love together made rash promise favor would rather give favorite past time favor friends avoid me make excuses talk me blame them im needy pathetic partner really love me think make happy want much attention need much help everyday tasks hes loner stuck socially impaired anxious depressed ugly fat disgusting excuse human wakes middle night sobbing someones hurt know handle it know im posting here know need fix everything ive fucked up im scared im weak,1
dont think im close every day warm ideaguess im lesser situation ppl here advise slide road like early prevention dont think im afraid thought constantly gets more acceptable back head,1
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"I suppose, then, if that's the kind of thing I should be occasionally writing about? Fear, anxiety, pain, and depression are day to day things for me and I think about/live with them constantly.",1
worth iti know is ive never thought anyone miss think would better go people told vent them waste dont particular problems know ill randomly get upset know people get worried sometimes like done anything bad yet annoying ill ever hear but sooooooooo lucky cant complain sometimes ill want take jump spite people ignoring me fucking know whats wrong me im scared go problem getting hurt self harm feel like  different people one whiny spiteful brat sensitive piece shit know one hate more never ever eevevrr ever leave lone scream shout ear day long want everything shut go sleep,1
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i just bought 0 paracetamol a 0ml bottle of vodka and some coke to balance it out i love my mom i feel like shit this happened like 0 0 0 but my crush at uni played me flirted and cuddled with me for two day only to fuck another girl right in front of my eye and after chasing him and being rejected i got bullied by our friendship group everyone cut me out and stopped talking to me he fell in love with me after i told him something private and made a playlist with song about me on his phone and i fell into a psychotic episode right in front of him i believed i could use telepathy to communicate with him i wa fully convinced he wa on heroin and took heroin for me because i d hear other thought inside of my own head i ve never loved anyone the way that i loved him and he s verbally told me to fuck off and that he doesn t want anything to do with me it kill me to know i ll never be with him when i could have university wa my last opportunity and the psychotic episode i had led to me fucking it all up i ended up dropping out and spent month in the psych ward and nothing will ever feel the same again i ll never have child or get married because i have asperger s so i fake my way through any and all conversation i lie and hide and smile but i don t have anything to say i just wanted to tell at least one person this i m going to kill myself and this is the end edit i ve taken half of the pill and i m not that drunk so i want to keep going edit had pill with coke and vodka before i felt like i needed to puke dry heaving and threw away the bottle and pill,1
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cat switched rolls second cat swiped got close walked away hunched looking sad sat fetal position corner ran nudged meowed opposite step cat dogs pawtail,0
i don t remember the last time i wa really able to open up to someone every time i do it seems like i just make them uncomfortable or i get ignored so i ve just stopped i can t even open up to my therapist like i want to and it seems like she want nothing to do with me anymore i ve ghosted almost all of my friend at this point which i don t regret they constantly left me out of thing stood me up and were in general kind of shit friend i want to connect to other people but there s something wrong with me and i can t figure out what,1
feel lonely whenever someone talks either one sided conversation stop responding nobody ever goes way talk makes feel like im annoying im always room feeling sorry myself sometimes stop see give fuck dont go months without talking dont start first im rambling point im tired others,0
i feel so trapped been through a divorce that s completely breaking me financially i have no friend and i work too much to make them i wa dating a lady fell hard for her and i can t move past her or get over her since we work directly with each other my job is a fairly uncommon one so i don t have much opportunity for another one that s pay a well i m completely stuck and i just want to be done with all of life s bullshit that s all i ever get handed is bullshit,1
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im and ive had plantar wart for almost year and im worried that in my carelessness i might spread them to my dick in the shower i know that almost all of the strain that cause plantars are not one that infect the genitals but type is one that both disease share doom acrolling or something but im freaking out a bit reading about the treatment for those wart and how they can fuck up my dick reading about the risk if i dont take the treatment getting more depressed and angry at myself for not treating this issue sooner,1
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"Off to meet Bowie. Not A David Bowie the famous singer, THE David Bowie - as in mine ",0
life doesnt seem get betteri fucking miserable througout high school got bad point didnt show anymore luckily got university however still stay home parents since commuter school despite wanting get second chance new start somewhere figured living parents wont bad since still pontenial campus social life however online classes made everything worse ive literally stuck house nearly year friends goals dreams im passive day day want end,1
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lion king   cute story go along lion king basically follows original story lion king couple twists moviee vents explained different characters point view story still original plotbr br as far sequels go disney great making worthwhile ones one third part lion king simbas pride second actually original idea still involving fun first timon pumbaa travel along looking ideal place live searching far wide find place hakuna matata meet small lion named simba go many things parents today go throughbr br i think good movie im happy add collection,0
@ehmperor &quot;uh? rockwell ba kamo? we know it like the back of our hands&quot; nyehehe...that or lets just ask dantes. ,0
ive lost everything know else turn days ago everything fine girlfriend  years talking getting ready go pick  month old son left house come back soon laid took bit nap woke suddenly panic felt soetching wrong tried call her answer tried text answer called parents house told there started franking point know going ok not sitting home still waiting something anything hear knocks door ran upstairs see anyone there asked replied policeand coming them opened door went told charged assualt uttering death threatsand fears babys safety know think say anything understood rights put cell tell place cleaning stuff really believe would thoughtthe night ends finally posting bail walking back home get well stuff babies stuff gonethis blue fine happened allowed contact go near families place tried call multiple times understand could even me little boy lawyer appointment set wednsday want se baby sad still want girlthis girl put hell come im scared scared child know do feel like choice redflag point really want se baby bad know,1
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today first job today first job teaching english scared first went really well earned  dollars it know much im really proud myself,0
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im gonna todayi cant take anymore im sorry life hard im depressed heartbroken lonely love someone longer cares me cant go another day without her today ill finally get peace,1
ive pushed everyone cared awayim scared alone dying alone living along pushed things made feel less lonely scared lonely dont know point feels like end like theres life need help ive asking help people seem care dont notice,1
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ive thinking about it night im  certain im chicken actually itive strong thoughts know without doubt actually anything hurt myself ill sit hours picturing different methods results messages weather take secrets let hopes missed thats thoughts even looking item played idea makes uncomfortable question is thoughts something go hospital or find comfort cowardice let hospitals deal actual danger want go one want let things get worse,1
drjackdr oh did you see the disaster really an horrible situation,0
ptsd really common mean everywhere go get told smth like you might childhood trauma stupid stuff me like crying homework getting bad garde afraid think ptsd really strong word people whove actually bee disturbing shit theres lot people running around saying ptsd that feel like gives less value people whos actually traumatised thing happens depression rape victims dont know understand tbh,0
wanna ask that people going tougher times still fighting making way it goes everyone depressed like always others going much right maybe going making way i getting stressed stupid things,0
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good bye everyoneim gonna bother writing things life want say good bye someone feels like right thing do good bye people hope great life,1
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threw away pills todayi depressed thought redflag before ive walked it never did reached people got counseling made alive last year year fall like last year happened again time worse know loved know people care me would idiot deny fact im surrounded amazing community sadness feels like never going end might make side cant escape it feel like im dragging people down got accident take heavy painkillers couple weeks im sure messed head even weeks cant stop depressed anxious past week half so keep thinking pills left use kill myself last night stop crying thought pills want old back morning held held bottle thought it thinking knew much real control right threw away pills feel much better believe decision made life throwing away think good first step theres many people like sharing kind stuff thought might well get chest here,1
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im losti friends hobbies life experience outside family know talk people know interact people anxiety bad days even leave apartment unless work ex left said know how person need help guess know point day goes fantasize jumping bridge cross get work last ditch effort,1
"@unmarketing Last time we went to Vegas, we broke the world record by getting married to each other 4 times in a row (different places) ",0
@StephanieMxx Just got back &amp; saw yr tweet. It's 7.30pm  monday here - mayday public holiday ,0
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"@tonyfernandes i lost 10 kilos in 3 mths skipping any soda drinks &amp; fruits as replacement. give it a try, ull never know ",0
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dont deserve happyok lemmie start saying probably glad hear ive sort good place past week havent cynical pessimistic little shit people havent contemplated redflag first time long time im thinking right actually getting better another mood swing mean either way simply feel though dont deserve it tell theres people desperate feel happy probably need getting better am cuz may late me since post ive made  redflag attempts lifetime counting i really stop attempting unless im truly sure im gonna go it,1
@Jason_Pollock I think they heard you. ,0
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im honestly done life right nowi honestly done rn life stressed mind honestly hate life use friend would help life got tough helped tried kill hates talking reason one help mental problems life tried kill multiple times already one knows even family two friends honestly feel like killing done stress mental problems everything always feel different tell im good anyone feel different one cares like even exist family friends im honestly done life im going figure day im going kill im gonna it done,1
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wish shitty life ends tonighti want wake tomorrow something now wish luck,1
"going  for a lng bikeride today more training for wales though very difficult in the fens,, oh well it all counts still I guess ",0
i ll be 9 this year i grew up very sheltered and in middle school wa groomed by a teacher which ha led to a lot of mental health issue mom wa checked out due to illness and i am the youngest of her oldest child is the only healthy one i have attempted suicide time the last time in 0 9 which ruined thing for me i lost my job and had to move back home with mom i hate it trust me i decided fuck i should be doing something and started taking class online i used to live in a thriving city on my own wa in a relationship had a steady career path and it s all gone now living here is awful and i really wish i wa successful on my third attempt since 0 9 i have applied for 9 job i have only gotten interview with of those one job offer and it fell through because they closed down due to covid i am so tired so worn out and i have no motivation for anything anymore i feel like i should just end it somehow but deep down i want to live and be happy again i can t do that in this state or small conservative town le than 000 people v a progressive city i wa living in of 00k that were lgbt friendly idk what to do anymore i have maybe 00 to my name and i wish that could get me out of here but it s not happening sorry for the rant just need to get this shit out,1
gf contemplating redflag know doive girl almost  months sweetest kindest considerate person ive ever met family mess parents divorced father inconsiderate asshole mother narcissistic bitch mother forces everything her including taking care adopted sister age  like baby father kicked long ago hated new family feel like wanted belongs place constantly daily fights parents found out last week cries sleep most nights think means every night found couple days ago nightmares want sleep it along sleeps little wakes several times night hinted redflag before met told cut thought redflag see parents would even care never noticed cuts did never mentioned it past couple texts thats sent me tells wants give up given up ive tried give support im professional needs help phone night said wanted help family cant afford it parents freelance dad seems money relationship probably willing spend it help girl feels guilty receiving help went psychiatrist before says one thing parents use guilt trip her im fucking worried know please help me know much longer take this forgot mention living beijing expats unfamiliar most,1
sick this killing next summeri cant live anymore im giving time write letters cant anymore die loveless dumbass shitty age  thats fine me doubt anyone wants letter me maybe simple goodbye suffice,1
Girls Aloud tomorow night in Liverpool!!!! cant wait Im So Excited an i just cant hide it no no no noo ,0
before i start talking i want to apologise for my english skill since it s not my mother tongue i just need to vent somewhere but i am also asking for help but most importantly i need someone to listen to me right now i have no idea on what to do i am a year old student who go to an art school staying in a boarding school under the week i have good parent and i love them and they love me but have little understanding that depression is actually an illness due to my depression i am very limited in talking about my feeling since it exhausting and i do not know how to express myself so when i m usually confronted my them i say i dont know an they ve grown tired of it i have been feeling more depressed but also suicidal starting to plan my suicide i wanted to take my life in late april probably by hanging myself i dont exaclty want to die but i just couldnt see any way of me feeling better but i want to feel better i dont want to take my own life i have a lot ahead of me a dear friend of mine and i talked to one of the worker in my boarding school and i told them everything since i wa afraid of taking my own life but i didnt talk to my parent since on my side it very difficult to explain this my mum is one of the few people that got damaged by the covid vaccine the doctor didnt take her serious and she suffered so much the past few month breaking down and falling down the stair one time my dad is a very busy man and i feel like he is just i dont know how to explain but emotionally not there often i know this is just my point of view and doe not reflect reality but i basically feel like this towards my parent the worker in my boarding school made up option stay in boarding school and looking for a therapist tomorrow calling my parent to take me home and to go to the mental hospital immediately i just didnt know what to do so the worker had to call my parent they chose to take me home even tho the worker said that my father sounded on the phone like he wa understanding the reality looked different my parent where of course overwhelmed and angry i tried my best explaining everything for example my mother said i didnt even try to get a new therapist but i did my best when we got home it got worse my father asked stuff like how i wanted to take my own life i didnt want to tell him later my mum came downstairs and we all talked well not really they were overwhelmed and seemed angry tho they said they werent my parent screamed at me saying i didnt try to reach out to them questioning why i didnt talk to them but they said that they cant tell me reality or else i d start panicking an cry they told me that i cant accept the truth and i m panicking because of this that i m acting up cause i wa cry like a madman i felt like my world wa shattering they screamed at me that i wasnt trying my best and that i didnt even try i tried to explain to them that i wa scared to tell them and stuff i tried my best but i dont think they really understood they want me to go a mental hospital but i know this would make thing worse for me i neez my friend in boarding school but i know that this cant keep going on i know that school itself make me feel bad but i have all my friend there that help me so much but they said that it s too late for me and i should have made the decision earlier i m just totally i dont know i cant stop cry i wa speechless to how they screamed at me breaking down in front of them and i dont know what to do or how i should handle the situation we wanted to go to my old therapist who isnt really good but we cant reach him i don t know what to do i am home right now but i wan na go back to my friend i really need them right now but if course i cant my mum is still saying how she cant keep up with me and shes overwhelmed with me can someone help me please or at least can i have some comforting word im very sorry to anyone who ha to read this but thank you for listening have a good day or night,1
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I was gonna fight my nap today anbe productive but im gonna go take my depression nap or else ill cry over ultralight beam the entire evening  pic.twitter.com/UuSTtcssJ3,1
"dan had a speech about how depression, anxiety & going to a therapist is stigmatised in society i love him so much",1
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 friends reached puberty turned  recently friends begun process idk bug want start it unlike some sometimes cry night think it shouldnt do im also avarage height friends taller annoy it theyve said sorry still think it ive searched methods grow faster that say mostly genetics soothe pain away different sound like  year old dickheads online treat like garbage know people online idiots shouldnt listen back mind time wanna use vc please god help,0
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im complete controli know do guys want kill myself im afraid im going tothe thoughts control say no theres people love hurt control anymore want it me im  year old girl cant go get help parents think want attention im afraid contact anyone else lot friends throwaway account theres teacher reads posts mess lately want anyone get annoyed messed give me  people right basically have want anything ive found thoughts take make stuff almost cut days ago even thinking automatic happy today felt surreal me crying help inside want go home school im safe theres always people around keep anything stupid family house means alone told this might hurt me know scare me want it want it both im finally losing marbles terrifying plan im okay thoughts betraying me im trapped theres nothing it  hours later edit oh god please help me,1
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i come from a pretty african evangelical household where mental health wasn t talked about or addressed growing up in the last few year i ve noticed intense wave of sadness and internal pain turn from short stint of time to practically everyday now there will be time period of elation but for the most part my disposition ha remained sad on an almost daily basis i feel anger irritability deep sadness about the way thing haven t worked out for me in the past or currently or intense rejection from others who may not intend their action to be rejection for example the housemate i live with are a married couple who i wa in their wedding so we re all friend when i first moved in they would always have dinner with me asking me what i wanted to eat for dinner but that ha tapered off and tonight i walked in from work late and saw they had dinner together and were enjoying tv it broke me and i went to my room feeling intense inner pain this stuff is so new to me i have no clue how to continue through life because nobody know i struggle with this i don t even know where to begin to share with others or begin to understand what help i need any advice would be much appreciated,1
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father causing depression me without knowing huh begin love father hard childhood communist country growing hard him finished medical school parents forced him prove himself middle nervous breakdown suffering depression little growing up decided children suffer fate worked hard life make stable living space us  now going college fall fully paid him said money problem even tho really expensive never really work money caring everyone family dream come true right mother made promise matter happens two never divorce years kinda started hating other fight simplest thing father also talks lot death constantly says much time left could die tomorrow heart attack ect every time brings feel shit rest day says might true dies everything built crumble created heaven family die week goes now mother cannot manage finances stuff sorry rant fits guidelines tell someone,0
sick stupidity people take advantage them ruined life since born always made choices ended marrying abuser becoming depressed good catering assholes even respect them wish never born people sick parents people use them,1
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probably best place look help going ti selfish attempt validate myself wife cheated online physically trying stay together stupid yes ik happened really hostile easily annoyed her really snappy kind rude sometimes day asked get dido said why please you said sometimes j left work distant asked wrong said hurt said said said attention yesterday watching guys youtube wet reason all today really irritated get annoyed easily want love truly idk do sometimes feel like mentally well physically stuff mind watching rd person view like anymore cannot cry either tried happens get really mad jumbled mess sorry really want someone say fine something idk heart hurts feels empty point could watch bad things happen living things care like emotionless way weird idk going anymore,1
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suicidal mostly on since  sometimes better sometimes worse past weeks awfuli graduated loads jobs field could get one easy i hope cannot face job hunting cannot bear prospect rejected industry also incredibly high suicide rate terrified burn make worse back living parents get job place helping either friends live couple hours awayi spent past months self sabotaging degree half arsed finals revision left organising compulsory placement last second think part hoping would fail would finally excuse end it passed honours proud feel numb whole timei eat cannot sleep want die cannot bear thought much would hurt friends family spend time playing computer games instead anything productive speaking friends exhaustingi speaking counsellor helped completely massive breakdown  months ago abusive relationshipi want sleep forever tired whole time know fix head spent many years feeling way know begin fixing myself cannot go like this know get it obviously suicidal think would ever actually anythingplease need advice know begin get life together feeling hopeless need vent advice would help,1
 tiredim damn tired school im damn tired constantly depressed suicidal want enjoy life cant schools fucking sideways im struggling keep grades up maintaining even bs struggle used think smart actually dumb thought smart could memorize dumb stuff elementarymiddle school ive mistakenly taken honorsap courses im paying price always thought werent honors youre idiot youre honors automatically smart see isnt case hate school life,1
tried posting radvice blocked post now quit last couple jobs wanted die sitting head repetitive task hours end even considering applying disability help counter loss pay even considering going offgrid reduce expenses work makes suicidal,1
lately going almost daily battling depression sure fix it would say major depression not medically diagnosed  months now slowly growing course  months could still function moved east west coast us thought would fine moved however past  months living alone extremely tough mei days semblance normalcy cookprepare meals clean etc do stuff need to days lately sulking life situation barely enough energy even get bed stand up odd days still keep going overall incredible feelings dread hopelessness aimlessnessdread idea head want live life nothing way want it college wanted move abroad live rural foresty area but currently still live us live urban desert arizona strongly feel like do belong here accepted job anyways since need experience college hate cities hate heat hate driving things deal withhopelessness many things want improve on cannot get them creating endless cycle berating myself distract youtube video games talking friends makes temporarily happy stop realize am break downaimlessness know myself even though working company nice helpful coworkersmanagers care work planning stay  years get experience however  months longer days feel thought would make friends work putting effort making them put lonely situationi tried looking therapy got insurance company waiting lists since completely booked still apply anyways hopeful help coming soon depression worsening feel lost fix,1
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crush got tested positive covid  scared paranoid mom too would really appreciate someone could give tips could help stay calm freak out worried mom im concerned,0
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help one friends wants gf back one friends going break up exgf never told why thinks might homophobic parents i never relationship idea figure broke up doesnt contact anymore cant ask text classes together written letter doesnt know give her,0
taking away electronics appropriate punishment sometimes ok hear get mad ive seen like million posts people saying hate parents take away electronics fair punishment honest kind disagree  reasons student might well school lack understanding lack effort student work struggling understand concepts taking away electronics unfair punishment simply getting tutor would better however student homework studying tests putting effort school taking away screens absolutely appropriate punishment choosing skip work play ok thing do guys easy forget important education is take high school seriously might regret rest life lot common dream jobs require college requires high grades highschool might think matter get cs ds could jeopardizing entire future ive seen many adults talk wish tried harder school got better jobs want generation take school seriously,0
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exactly year ago my mental health went down hill drastically i felt alone sad and unloved also adding up to that what i start realising now a very strange circle of friend one year after that nothing really changed and there were some point where it got even worse but then everything started to change i started hanging out with my people again even tho they did nothing for me when i wa at my lowest but who care my grade where decent and i started to get happy again most importantly i meat my now girlfriend which is a whole other story that s the thing that s going around my head most of the time atm but now i have been in quarantine for day and everything fall apart i can t stop thinking about stuff that make me sad everything overwhelmes me and my head hurt from thinking maybe you can call it voice but i m not sure if i make that up causo of the fact i have a high risk for schizophrenia it s am right now and i can t sleep maybe someone would like to text a bit that s what i did very often in the past dark time anyway thx for reading this,1
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oh no another suicidal formerly gifted kidwho needs another one right also formerly gifted formerly kid want get pedantic so hope ready hear white privileged kid whine buckle boys gonna long one heres short story academic life early remember odd smarter peers oddly serious early  on mothers day year told mom probably best mom world would impossible measure lol socially distant indoorsy tagged gifted program since st grade honors classes middle school  ap classes high school ultimately graduated cum laude along like half class lol received special certificate averaging  ap classes hell got  act national merit semifinalist guess what even try seldom homework never studied tests closest thing preparation act jerk school bathroom ten minutes started someone much promise much obvious talent much intelligence today why  year old college drop out depressed even employed collecting disability us government barely able remember basic words likely dead  months else so get there well that were gonna take another trip back time looking academia bit microscope interested hearing internet strangers uninteresting college years feel free skip ahead bolded words first thing know ive therapy various points life starting  like said odd kid wound talking lot death dying age got first trip mental health care worker   never really helped so major parts story senior year suicidal thoughts really kicked notch basically stopped smiling point angry irritable realized sent application get anywhere id probably wind killing myself gf pretty cool though know relationship make better holy shit helps grades slipping bit slipping as bs noticeable people including parents eventually slew rejections wait listing set sights high suppose got accepted relatively high end university university several friends girlfriend yay hooray considered getting married ultimately decided break college let chance grow end wanted get married would time would friends benefits turned pretty good course action she deep down were roommates good friends romantic inclination towards other hes easily smartest guy know truly respect him moving college first thing make appointment psychiatrist got meds figured depressing thoughts would go away nope went  meds freshman year college alone none shit also saw therapist simultaneously gave honest try also nope suggested walk my  year old self pretend i was really taking care imaginary  year old me sounded dumb tried sure enough dumb oh happening failing every class easy as art criticism class media studies gen eds get high school getting bs in turns out breezing everything previously left absolutely incapable even minor effort put grades oops second semester rolls around actually fail every class wind involuntary committed admitting friend seriously considering redflag one  dollar hospital bill and another useless pill added cocktail later announce intent take leave absence take care mental health move back dad year starting summer obamacare full swing still considered dependent covered right wrong turns dear old dad idea fill form written lowest common denominator neglected inform insurance company me involuntary hospitalization round  comes around september unsuccessfully attempt kill myself a brief aside know quote guy jumped golden gate bridge as soon jumped realized problems fixable except jumped yeah feel anything like that get method sufficed say moments think thing entered mind alright go woke up moment regret either feel anything laid floor half hour feeling thinking nothing eventually got up cleaned mess went back watching tv fact terms redflag regrets regret attempt failed ive felt regret every single day since another useless drug another  dollar hospital bill meeting sliding scale therapist psychiatrist got  sessions in made progress soon forced return school way early choice wanted medical care gave school another solid semester finally throwing towel failing classes yet again hospitalization number  time voluntary going reason now see year took off discovered something important myself turns absolutely cannot degree unskilled labor mean temperament refuse pretend happy patience rude customers question authority especially arbitrary corporate authority constantly finally cant stand work pointless menial im convinced camus claimed see sisyphus smiling man ever worked retail oh im also lazy know inclined say no depressed executive dysfunction lazy assure you lazy depression laziness not experience mutually exclusive but theres always plan b arm full medical paperwork residual student loans keeping afloat set get disability anybody whos process knows difficult is likely rejected face even incredible evidence got first attempt  months yet another stroke luck wasted lazy idiot and thats pretty much now if thought long edited around  additional paragraphs going grade school middle school days along aspects pointless life story ive made real changes progress since ive stagnated last  years sex  years job in well pretty much ever least nothing lasted two weeks ive made token attempts get help avail life experience taught things hard work success correlated odd know think take away opposite ide considering laziness pretty much got flunked college really seen pan elsewhere mother father worked asses build good lives end significantly worse off hard work trying get better way helped thing ive learned psychology really science therapists clue actually help psychiatrists mostly guessing lessons hard learned  medications  different families antidepressants plus atypical antipsychotic now may looking thinking thats great all actually suicidal honestly im entirely sure im basically miserable nothing brings pleasure joy nothing feels meaningful hell things barely even feel real everything annoys me people seem slow dull get frustrated sometimes downright mad look around world shit everything monitored monotized marketed parasocial relationships weird bizarrely intermingled capitalism branding companies try obfuscate friendly individuals behind sassy twitter messages paying workers peanuts know ceo wendys major trump supporter bullshit bootstrap mentality omnipresent attempting point institutionalized flaws system means looking excuses days ago phones keyboard started displaying microsofts name reason even type im advertised at world morphed comical exaggeration they live feels like anytime try show someone like  minute long fight scene they live want guy put god damn glasses oh said before sex  years face that knowledge that realistically theres much anything change face apathetic majority see redflag bad idea yes family friends sad honestly job keep happy anymore job keep happy thats imposition impose them id hope me ive set date best friend roommate former so finishes last semester school know death absolutely destroy him im sorry will but going happen want degree fall back recovers leave think probably best microcosm life back friend dating would go every dance together stand socially awkward generally bored them neither could he since dresses uncomfortable made feel wrong though time understand never told me senior year prom coming up seriously considering going something else even nothing asked dad advice said you go never know might like it even like ones proms different special besides your so wants go her even enjoy time look back glad went sucked went hated it bad every dance big hotel ballroom hated well would later tell me went because well thing do day im glad went ultimately feels like people tangentially related got anything it people directly involved knew pointless life lot like that lots people really idea want telling keep living future benefit one except negligibly related close know want feel obligated participate keeping alive vague idea theyre supposed do finally really want it,1
hey people 0 started with one huge panic attack and dissociation and all that fancy stuff for me that really messed it all up about ish month ago i started going to therapy and i can leave the house feel normal and do all the thing even stay in front of people with no issue all that stuff but when it s about pm or later i get this insane exhaustion and zoned out feel i get sensitive i feel like my head is full of wool and i am very sensitive to dissociating which could result in panic moment i have my survival kit inspired by people with bpd some stuff i can touch some stuff to smell including ammonia capsule for super intense moment which i have never used before and all that but this is more for the acute stuff the zoning out in the evening creep up on me it doesn t come 0 to 00 in a few second it arrives slowly and go away slowly and it is so annoying i would even say that without this feeling i would be 90ish anxiety free that s because this feeling is the main thing that lead to anxiety in the first place some topic i am sensitive to but that s not relevant for this post without this massive exhaustive burst and the zoning out i would feel what i consider to be normal mindfulness meditation can sometimes get me out of this but this is usually sort of a training that help me control the stuff when it s there or for accepting it but i wan na know if there is something that can help me in my daily management to not even have it happen or at least reduce it oh btw showering help too and eating also reduces zoning out weirdly enough since i started zoning out i am not really able to properly detect hunger anger and zoning out usually come first for context i am a university student with ton of deadline in my back i am easily stressed but i have no other choice than powering through i am semi successful with all that uni stuff but it work i can run the household too i take care of myself i cook healthy food i shower and working out is on the plan too but not existant rn because i have so many assignment to take care of thanks for any help i know this is a lot of random text but i am just looking for someone who is experiencing similiar thing,1
i can not change the bad in me i feel hopeless i do not want to hurt i always want to make the best out of the worst i do not want to hurt,1
just checked my user timeline on my blackberry it look like the twanking is still happening are ppl still having probs w bgs and uids,0
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cant express emotions face help cant express happiness sadness somehow case good thing really seem anxious talk lessons kinda want know else express them,0
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Ugh...Time to get ready for work!  Actually I pressed the snooze button a few times but I guess I'm awake! ,0
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never lived year life without getting feeling multiple times feel disgusted people looking me thinking me talking me thinking know ideas know absolutely nothing hate fact people see me feel embarrassed disgusted everything myself literally humiliating someone takes pictures conversation me hate moments show emotion front someone else hate pressured so smiling hugging speaking anything seen things supposed makes feel like degrading myselfi know wtf feeling is comes often know call completely hate everything hate human hate body voice personality things like trapped head one even knows exist everything pure horrible something nobody knows about try hard look act way good clean represents always fail put hours working hair clothes look dirty like put effort inthere something horrible carries awful vibe rotting filth like cursed moment born need make money get plastic surgery move away everyone ever known start new life hopefully escaped filthy creature need change everything get rid feeling hurts fucking much understand feel way angry deal one gets want moment peace idk normal depression come every social moment feeling like sinned,1
racing thoughtslast year ambulance came house odd shaking crying uncontrollably paramedic comes room laughs looks eyes said your hurting mother look her looked saw mom crying already felt like absaloute shit man like dont understand cant stop bthinking moment  mabye fault  mabye thought attention seeker everyone else thinks,1
losing willi went first major bout depression around  im  now waxed waned never truly gone away im tired first response every problem well could kill yourself draining constantly feel like this effect life relationships studies feel like im wasted potential feel like anyone would miss gone one reach to also deal fairly severe anxiety self confidence issues getting much me know else do every day getting harder could think painless method id done something now ive found brink quite times ive always chickened out even so getting point think im going soon im sorry messed post im new here know else go,1
im lost lifesince  really remember sadness yes ups majority years filled sadness depression im close giving up dont know anymore   im born  bullied every day locked toilets threw things me started swimming got happy   august  parents got divorced led hear parents calling worsts things world even though told making really fucking sad really care  half year now see parents parents see strangers like friends seem immature or dont know knowing hard is happy time cant name one beautiful thing planet makes happy said self many times need wait move out hard like feel purpose world everything would much better left im lost know self anymore im literally curious see side life im sick tired shit,1
impulsively suicidalim  years old fractured abusive home life growing up alcoholic stepfather threatened kill regularly also alcoholic absentavoidant mom absenteeabusive real father friends high school bc bad home life fact overweight college lost weight amp fell prey partying empty rich sociopathic girls drained tried alternately abuse control me compulsive liars use people throw away spent way much time college racking debt mediocre job result ive moved seattle recently gotten decent job money isnt enough live comfortably friends ive tried repeatedly make here one ever sticks around dont car cant afford one right now also dont drink bc makes sick depressed clearly also come family alcoholics cuts lot socializing introverted boyfriend year half spend time with car makes twice much amp little debt think hes growing sick me refuses move wants study get another degree amp let know would take time hes working personally think move get away me doesnt really friends either aside coworkers dont really care coworkers bc party drink much family scattered country isnt really communicative two siblings none us married children estranged father nursing hone early onset alcoholinduced dementia mother leads solitary life dog amp financial emotional support give support system seattle one cares me wants friend friends home hometown actively dont like me withered fallen away hate body hate aging think aged poorly severe body dysmorphia cant stand sight myself desire children desire create anything see life getting worse lonelier goes on see world getting uglier goes on might impulsively kill myself pain coursing sometimes intense feels like spine lightning rod want cut myself punish destroy myself feel though ugly accident misfire abomination wasnt meant exist thing would set right would end life,1
@TheOnion @ronjkoehler @LisaMartino18 breaking your depression one layer at a time?,1
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like thisim  years old graduated high school skin teeth started th grade best friend ill call dana like dana suffering depression anxiety used pin issues causing feel like wrong mad feel horrible thats grades began slowly surely going down called mother school teacher said seem like usually been then began high school dana dana unstable began cutting school much hated it breakdown school brought hospital instead mother worrying me mad hated me now always good mom made sure healthy clothes made sure gave wanted but mad filter telling things hated child devil wishes would aborted me hurt child really nothing me freshman year finished dana stopped friends then sophmore year found whole new group friends different dana fun liked stuff best school usually cut lot happy though finally fit in cut school well classes mom came school trying make better didnt cutting classes well repeating issue throughout high school years middle junior year get parents back started making fake report cards senior year found making report cards make  extra classes along that paid k trip barcelona able go grades able get k paid switched schools credit recovery school allowed take  classes along online classes rewarded allowing take car school took advantage began cutting again grades still good but fact give something want something dont want do eventually gave car got taken away  weeks mom came school see wasnt always make excuses get mad something wrong still graduated time gave car back but fuck ups arent yet dating boy know black snuck vacation home gated community alarm system went house found there then found virgin heart broken dad crying and dad great dad always believed gave wanted hard working man always cared deeply felt sick believe that hated myself wanted dissapear but like great parents talked nicely took car away month summer got job mcdonalds trying make difference life something productive instead going home work go hang friends free time summer mom said use somewhere live dont really love them do yesterday told parents going work was but ended calling hanging friend fact let sleep night car even though never let sleep out since didnt go work hung friend pulling parking lot man claimed hit even though damage anything car instead calling parents scared would mad work guy filed police report mom found shes furious dad said cant trust mom trusted forever fuck dont know stop it never anything right now accident insurance might go k wasnt insurance theres many things wrong want dissapear world feel like hurt them want run never come back next me else could do destroy everything need help,1
@BlueInDaUK Are u all finished with the B2M now then ? ,0
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tried failedmanaged get two dates decent girls got ghosted one night stood girl honestly start getting full feeling like im ok something snap back reality dont know bother anything thinking something drastic cant stand life anymore,1
More Than 1 in 20 US Children & Teens Have #Anxiety Or #Depression  https://bit.ly/2FffDMR @PsychToday @WalshResearch @mercola @foundmyfitness @ClevelandClinic @AmerMedicalAssn pic.twitter.com/jZk1hAIEyA,1
feel worthless hated everyonein reality two friends talking rare rest people know me thinking weird poor not people tells satanist go church try make angry later tell aggressive hobby panic disorder might get  panic attack day reasons live,1
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never get better cycle fucking memories never fucking stop even medication stuck like forever oh god cut wrist really bad need end cannot think going kill,1
basically need help thing is  months ago found first best friend straight guys feel super close like brother still cant shake sexual thoughts him idk normal really love him love everything him want look straight eyes say dont balls rad lads give advise confess feeling without scaring making feel weird,0
hi partner dv survivor  years eroded everything mentally abused mostly throughout sexual elements towards last years shes lovely caring girl world beautiful also easy likes drinks weekends drink brings different girl maybe true girl im sure girl vivid flashbacks pretty harsh shes therapy thats tough going well popping cork anger bottled  years,1
look at the depression  pic.twitter.com/lXeyrWLMLv,1
"@GAustinnnnn no success comes easy, your going to make it! ",0
welp whole life going shit feel outcast two best friends ive known  years now got single aspiration no crush dreams goals slightly average every measurable field  ever person me everyone knows existence thinks im joke feel two things pain nothing past two days ive felt like soul rotting inside out worst part is escape anyway life going,0
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@waste_not  is there any service that keeps track of the services available for twitter ,0
하버드 비지니스 스쿨 학�들� 조사한 전 세계 트위터 사용� 분�. &quot;Men Follow Men and Nobody Tweets&quot; http://bit.ly/1Gs40W �어보시�고 강요는 안 합니다.  @ludens_님껜 유용할 듯.,0
"Been working on a framework for web based #SL application. Have product registration, server, login, site, security, &amp; comms all done ",0
i thought because everything in life wa good which wasn t true bc of my own delusion i could start opening up to people about me and how i feel all i get is ignored interrupted disrespected laughed at mocked all under the facade of a joke i hope this anger in my heart burn brighter with each day so i will never forget to mistrust people they can t handle to the truth about me,1
cast surfer dude beach scenes almost got cast muscle guy since real muscle guy really really late day pauly brother the skateboarder front tattoo place vj stuff takes live venice since still mtv thing movie really good well would made top  it,0
instagram post soo cringe become billionaire boys clothes  girls clothes  good person top  signs likes  top  poop make millionaire s,0
@corrinelynn Heyy corbor  would you mind asking Uncle Brian a question for me?,0
many movies people returning home wars cope the war home worth seeing portraying vietnam vet jeremy collier emilio estevez trouble connecting texas family much movie likely tense up nothing prepare ends getting revealedbr br part makes movie good gives viewer feeling texas generation gap jeremys parents bob martin sheen maurine kathy bates clearly problem sons attitude war rejection americanism sister karen kimberly williams uncertain side dinner neutralitybr br so americans may never able fully get vietnam war movie probably help us look seriously affected many people emilio estevez certainly good job directing also starring corin nemec carla gugino,0
feel like dying motherfcking teacher posted  page long test  minutes submission time submitted  minutes late means  points basically rushed thru test coz tried fill everything deadline got  test grades gonna get low wna fucking shit got tons homework abd phone  im pretty much fucked teachers posting shitty assignments  hour deadline wtf do,0
passed k karma still legitimate friends ,0
need advisei pray god every night take life instead someone really wants live guess good enough still here guess answer prayer almost lost battle last days committed redflag rd time tired really know get rid suicidal thoughts me,1
@lindascrush oh well! you all saw @twosteppinant so you knew what I meant ,0
"everytime we talk about depression in psychology,"" @aightindiaaaaaa gives me the side eye like """"i know a depressed bitch here rn"""" and i scream each time",1
haha guess what dad told put laptop dining room table hahahah privacy till  right hopefully doesnt probably will oh noooo but ill suffer dad probably try brainwash things gay,0
"@gottaramble hahahaha the choc fountain, bj gave it to me, and she doesnt know ileft it in your house  just bring it ova! ",0
diagnosed one point another life first chronic manic yes disorder mood yea want die going kill myself might accidentally mental breakdown twice day consider it yes stopped living  heart attacksseizures overdosing nah manic chronic depression,1
started writing note amp made playlist last night thoughts say narcissist want get help one want die   pills think oh,1
im fcuking brave so guess fool decided come downstairs parents watching tv guess idiot decided would goo idea write smut sat dom reader lol guess moron got bored decided watch yarichin b club then find finished go onto manga me playing dangerous game either end getting banned internet barely escaping ever small amount dignity write hopes save treacherous thoughts allow success feat bravery danger thank goodbye now loki xxx,0
kinda dont wanna alive anymorei undiagnosed mental illness im pretty sure borderline maybe stuff anxiety childhood trauma yknow cant afford therapist im also petrified death idea killing makes really nervous fucking suicidal breakdowns every days literally anything set off cut hit slam head wall cry hours sucks one talk to mh boyfriend says talk says im sorry whoch fine hes therapist goddamn hurts like im really hard time right close committing redflag person say im sorry like yea get isnt good way respond every single time im upset way always im sorry goddamn hurt want stay alive sake siblings boyfriend dog hate alive much stressed im basically parent siblings continue semester college home im suicidal like every  days pressure already getting me hell school without extra stressors huge freakouts per week im drastically scary im becoming violent im scared ill do god sure know want alive anymore people say listen dont even anything say im fucking scared im abusive guilt trippy im scared everyone going leave cant afford therapy im scared im gonna hospitalized also redflag hotline fucking blows last time tried use told lady wrong like wow sucks yea know really sucks absolutely help all therapy awful  went shitty therapist told nothing wrong even though self harm suicidal intense reactions minor things severe rejection sensitivity yea god want dead bad im scared kill basically im depressed,1
im sick itid like say ive dealing lot car accident two midterms taking  credit hours courses summer trying expand nothingness social life im looking friends necessarily mean friends cool stuff im much interested something intimate if immodest someone sex with someone try sexual fantasies with im going lie you sex part mandatory thing me appreciate everything else im majorly affected anniversaries going dates weekly wants thats cool sex reasonable time  weeks right now nobody seems like hookups wouldnt bad seems put incel land niceguy land god dont ever want compared that im serious say sex could say stay friends benefits would perfectly fine that ive flipped them always acted like big deal said no ive worked courage talk many times isnt girl interested girl date black guys stood prom college girl looking relationship thought college like sex mania something girl gay happy  days ago brother told girls thought cute wanted set something up gave number give them would text  ghost me well im getting tired shit pardon language dont want around see history repeat itself vital part development celibacy sacrifice willing make life money hookers premium porn connections hookups hate bars clubs entire lifestyle general one thing cant stand seeing right relationships again im getting little heavy worded here fuck every single person relationship shows fucking time dont want see that well anyways thats it want feel way anymore long im alive im gonna feel way so,1
theekween vhulivhadza help those who suffer from depression anxiety heart break or have witnessed something traumatic thelmasherbs,1
im gonna make sucide note im gonna leave thisi hope anymore want criticised anyone anymore plan want say goodbye someone anyone want say goodbye to im gonna say goodbye guys want f chat,1
heard Ben Stiller in an intvw w/ seacrest they are working on a new script for a movie called &quot;Little Fockers!&quot;  LOL  can't wait.  ,0
im trying take test  flies sex right next me want bother swatting away also want get bad grade test distracted  flies sex,0
back at work tired a hell and i feel a cold coming,0
Some of us allow depression with life decisions...,1
found crush boyfriend isnt bait post im boyfriend,0
idk wtf title ive real crushes would call ideal problem straight male lesbian isnt wonderful,0
"First day of school on June 8, 09 and that's tomorrow! Man, that sucks everything up especially Summer. Thanks for the memories though ",0
im giving self  monthsidk wanna die ya want live anymore nothing except tears  months things change ill livei think anything changei friends really know wanti want anyone im scared human beings every human good actorfake emotions  family miss fine happy later on ok heres im posting what three months im anyway gonna die wanna experience stuffhelp out,1
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dont like short people short people like  always really pushy aggressive piss off,0
@puckupdate A phenomenal chorizo chimichanga - or &quot;breakfast&quot; haha ,0
need hobbies pls assist parents case want get hobby besides video games read lot consider hobby used build legos lot still big lego fan cant really take hobby legos expensive heck im looking forward suggestions,0
honestly cant wait overi felt like shit struggling  years opened close months ago backfired im treated like joke almost everyone know knew would happen too tried therapy drugs work either,1
sooooooo busy right now have a lot of custom order to catch up on haven t blogged since the st there aren t enough hr in a day,0
one would believe told anywaysi early s want anymore real disappointing part single lonely all good shape rarely trouble getting date educated two completely different high demand fields traveled met new people money live ok list goes absolutely zero interest anything long remember use activities distract me im running things do years ago diagnosed recurrent brief depression decades high functioning depression taken seriously mental professionals psychiatrist even told people sad one good day every  days rushing negative thoughts despair surrounding it ive tried  different types medications affect even gone strict vegetarian see would help not definitely someone people would suspected would die redflag even way anticlimatic want out depression worst disease anyone burdened with burden,1
@ZaneDiggity That is weird... Weirder than tweeting the exact same sentiment while in the same room? I think not.  ,0
i see fakes so so easy lol ,0
who turned the light on it will be time to get ip then,0
oh jew bus two year worth of class work is alot to organize gt lt i m not finishing tonight it s not possible my bone ache,0
reliable sleeping pillsim planning buy overthecounter sleeping pills called melatonin mg  tablets planning oding them think theyll work really need this anyone knows people committed redflag sleeping pills,1
i had a chick year ago a baby chicken to be exact im in the middle of mental life family probs that time i dont want to talk about it long story short when i wa a split second away from jumping off the chair i heard my chick chirping so loud and i rethought my decision that day my chicken died last year but leaf me some egg now i own a poultry farm dedicated to her name thank you so much chichi,1
life memaybe enjoy living lie close eyes problems world everywhere look feel selfishness abandonment lies deception jealousy dont see happiness quick sparkle maybe almost always gets destroyed overreaction people making look like never happier entire life acknowledge bit good bit good bad mind real feelings left im gonna take example country im currently live  us people dont care others really want bother nobody around oh boy oh boy work environment education here favorite part need pay hundreds thousands dollars  years life receive paper may qualify work come non traditional background abandon home country studied free university dont much money buy education here went free school recognized higher education free course great logic america im good profession nobody wants hire me wait it dont paper nobody even want look direction without it fucked reasons visa status cant leave country  month year spend time partner lives fucking continent cannot move live work reason im still alive gives hope much love them much feel lonely without them thought abandoning kills heart every night dont friends least reddit here random people still reading fucking nonsense life dont want live tried didnt like it maybe others im fucking done pile crap another place another time one,1
my camera spoil,0
brettyboo why were u sleeping ur gon na be up all night now how wa ur bike ride,0
gabrielmansour multiple book at a time although i have a bad habit of not finishing book,0
need sangwoo yeah might murderer hes fucking hot id let break legs ngl,0
"http://tinyurl.com/mdd8d7  This is a great read.  It's great for new writers or people who just want to learn more.    Plus, it's free.",0
againi went th storey stared  minutes so still it im coward,1
"I have started sharing my journey through depression on my blog, go to my website and check it out... we need more mental health awareness in NZ  http://igotyou258991715.wordpress.com #igotyou #nzmentalhealth #MentalHealthAwareness",1
lie lotwhenever doctors people ask you want hurt yourself right always say no wish wake up lie ive spent hours hours researching ways kill effective know ill it know when nothing left feel like end year give everyone clean slate new year,1
im i want way thats redflag im weak talk someone person,1
is sad watching himym sea so i can be cool like everyone else but not feeling it and keep forcing myself to watch the next episode,0
@SaraX1075 have a blast!! ,0
@fakkedap that sucks! Have a good trip tho! ,0
lets try againposted before left personal details out willing try again little transparency even sure post much going post bear me ill give condensed version yo female two years ago open marriage dissolved amicably possible im gay left husband best friend woman family disowned me moved different city got decent job year it psychotic episode hospitalized awhile diagnosed bipolar obsessivecompulsive features upon eventual return work bad reaction medication began seizures go disability able take antipsychotics reason stuck mood stabilizer less effective long after car totalled long that found girlfriend cheating quite time nowhere go resolved stay relationship history ibs managed symptoms point unmanageable last year underweight many many diets suggested doctors specialists again medication effective also sensory processing disorder diagnosed young lucky resources cope now biggest sensitivity sound sometimes clothes altogether unbearable heavy lifting always coping mechanism also severe skin problems psoriasis eczema keep breaking dermatologist calls stress rash body incredibly painful times impossible move today swelling severe arms cant put shirt struggling finding appropriate medication also heart murmur many new generation antihistamines negatively effect that lost disability coverage november  since living savings amazed impossible get job apply jobs indeed bottom posting things like  people applied job bachelors graduate work cant even get interviews minimum wage positions overqualified ive also tried applying without listing background dice currently substitute teacher jobs far between countys system since december managed get one work entire time one day work three monthsthinking filing bankruptcy stopped seeing therapist  name debt month going able make even minimum payments note ive unemployment office joke grateful place live gf familys house  hours day party house spd overload fever pitch due chaos nights cannot get sleep like said heavy lifting always helped cope weak able eat hardly lift anything homeless before think again ten years ago much better health gets unbearably hot here mean people die every summer regularly gets  cool night current state health know could survive that future look good me meditate every day used work yoga times possible level physical pain weakness also keep gratitude journal know lot grateful for try write every day things seem really bleak feel like might me advice find online somebody somewhere cares me that even was would change this please comment care me hardly qualifies odd perceptions therapist calls them returning worse stress feel scared also helpless stop it read lot learned helplessness nothing actually helpless also want note brother committed redflag  years ago know happens aftermath know hard is know hellish also know many hells might one them anyone clue survive this,1
immediate threati suffer almost constant suicidal ideation generally happy with flaws could work on nothing hopeless life yet constantly battling internal monologue seems want die i going kill myself unbidden thought goes mind countless times per day sometimes thought accompanied poorly laid plans feel suicidal imagine ever following thoughts normal,1
giving mum grades b e heheheheh,0
girls resit would good conversation starter nerd usually talk dinossaurs girls find interesting sugestions better things start conversation girls,0
"penny arcade jim dark magic is much, much weaker then automata or lookouts. But the burned/iced girl was damn cute ",0
day todayfor pure shit born bulgaria day day learned corrupted retarded people be wanted sure hope people actual jobs try work like make someone elses life piece shit forever went today school learned teachers say go class bad shit around they like me apparently since really videoaudio proof wrong since get phones away class checking theres something like camera recorder stuff decided say go school anymore always hated since last year decide get screw principal currently deciding make homeschooled guarantees make good grades really since im actually one homework writing class find job pays us enough pay debt since current income   boss lies money yet see rich is thats place work problem really idiots school really want screw life proof text right here changing school really possible right last grade think principal also big plan since said want get like  months ago still works documents anyways  reason hate might first month school year problems sleeping feeling way stressful reason resulting able sleep whenever should knew condition bad way stupid actually get whats wrong me could say reason they like look least thats say im fucked bad grades might even make resulting school since want way wont th grade believe know guys good enough college resulting shitty job even homeless job plan ill see bad life get get heart attack anything might search pretty nice simple ways kill myself day today might hard understand fuckery wrote fist time read it currently stress sleeping problems probably coming back im optimist good thing know im stressed  whole fucking school wants fail wont even shitty life atm ps month sleeping problem  also remember heart hurting thats stress guess heart attackkind thing possibleidk,1
got thrown mental care smoking weedive sick leave  months anxiety got told today wont lengthened tested positive cannabis expect go work agency monday begin looking work even know able work anxiety today feel absolutely shit want die know way out panic attack met doctor asked wanted admitted psych ward refused said might take lvm law care addicts even cannabis use negligible ish grams per month  week break buy more anxiety skyrocketed tried taking emergency medication help even took double dose it happened fell asleep hour woke feeling same could take whole pack emergency medication benzodiazepine mg pills done it want mom live it one finds me able handle fact died idea im longer getting help,1
hope mi seriously hope even possible feel empty,1
quite ways away go fish good films troche bigger budget cast work here film entertaining easy like acting good lots slow burn sexual tensionbr br ,0
i m a year old man and i m in the worst state of my life right now i started out my adult life by dropping out of college after week due to depression and severe anxiety and getting 0 000 in debt it took me year to pay that and my car loan off and i wa finally back to even financially i spent thousand of dollar trying therapy medication chiropractor for my back issue and nothing helped me i ve tried exercise healthy diet yoga everything i ve ever been told to do to get better and it never helped me long term i ve been working dead end job ever since and barely scraping by each month while my body and mind deteriorate i have so many untreated and likely some undiagnosed health issue and i barely have the energy to do my laundry once a week anymore and can t do anything else productive i am too anxious to leave my room and even be around my roommate i ve known since high school i feel like i m never going to escape the poverty loop i finally broke even year ago when i wa and now i m back 000 in credit card debt stressing me out every day my car broke down and now have to uber around town making my finance even worse i failed at any goal i set in term of trying to get a better career i can t live like this working 0 hour a week at a dead end job with nothing bringing me enjoyment except food i have no family to help me i haven t had more than day off a week since i wa in high school why is the world punishing me because my parent ignored my health concern growing up and they were too poor to help me afford college it seems like everyone else who is a bad off a i am ha their family to help support them through their finance and health issue whereas mine just exacerbated mine i just can t do it any more i broke down cry at work last night i can t even stand working a job where i sit at a desk hour a night and talk to people per shift i want to end it all so bad but don t know a painless guaranteed way to do it i just want help and my country and state don t care about me and i have nobody else,1
ever nice people nice better mean youre nice takes over start liking you youre conflicted youre emotions like kinda like literally impossible cant anything also like second girl talk girls best friends scheming friend checks messages sees messages hes upset also likes girl  yeah like sometimes like jerk recognized im nice emotions still shambles isnt working out period time didnt dumb emotions running head great good time tried nice people emotions went fucked up yeah thats fun whats yall,0
shameful revelation probably dont want dieso basically ive lot inner work recently honestly things started turn around come reasonable family reasonable back story honestly nothing big thing anytime see anything reminds possibility redflag self harm becomes overvalued idea cant get rid of im also ashamed realise probably dont want die really want take good long sleep icu wake find everything magically sorted me shame honesty getting quite overwhelming wondering anyone advice regarding shame probably romanticized idea redflag,1
this week is not going a i had hoped,0
knife throati posted earlier going alcohol withdrawal cannot repeat this doctors appointment tomorrow planning tell combination vomiting blood able forgive made decide really time tried kill many times body resilient guess really want slit throat need surefire way die,1
subreddit special placeive misdiagnosed entire life finally went amazing transplant psychiatrist needed kidney first time stayed working someone almost  years worked together finally told bi polar disorder learned whole life suffering borderline personality well im heartbroken lashed family couldnt help it scared sad cant believe made far think poor little kid let people ruin him deserved better care treatment intense therapy ive living im burning fire see feel much long im checking hospital first time willingly others th th honestly pray last thank sharing stories helped ways ever explain you dont know ill get back honestly im rushing time thanks listening,1
time delete  year minecraft survival world accidentally broke netherite shovel made new one instead applying mending it added efficiency  instead,0
calling guitar players im bored havent talked anyone common interests awhile someone hmu,0
west virginia coal opioids worst fallout game oh joe msnchin cant forget correct im wrong think thats state,0
Maybe depression is right. Maybe it really would be better if I had never been born.,1
theekween depression anxiety pain of losing loved one heart break thelmasherbs,1
whf t scc killed derek reese brian austin green i actually liked that character,0
it too much for me to ask one person in the world to like me,1
ha got a cold coming how shite,0
hardest classes im finishing degree applied mathematics requires take lot credits hours wide range stem fields ranking list difficulty field  computer science quite difficult competitive high attrition requires creativity ability visualize abstract data structures  engineering similar computer science less abstract  pure mathematics very abstract many paths right conclusion physics  grounded problems hard favorite field computational practicality  economics you need apt arithmetic manipulating graphs chemistry there lot concepts equations much creativity least lower level  biology  mostly concepts tricky nothing practice cant overcome considering including humanities philosophy would near top abstract similar pure maths is,0
m need friends hey im pretty lonely rn would love friends mainly play apex legends minecraft java valorant amo f us im pst timezone anybody interested please pm me thanks ,0
feel losthow happy yet unhappy time like whole life sick it,1
fear hell thing stopping mei dont understand god makes us depressed much pain ask pain end punished eternally burning fucking unfair,1
dont believe godi dont believe god wish would kill me brutal way possible dont care want die pain cant handle numb yet exhausting feeling wanting disappear fucking air want feel death fucking take say savior love children loved youd let die  times wasnt enough th hopefully be,1
im mums car vroom vroom nah wanna hmu im really bored,0
im anxious moving florida feel like im going lose friends dad lost job department shut due pandemic got new one florida right im arizona friend group  years im freshmen high school really dont want leave friends weve gone hell together cant think living without them dont know tell moving summer dont know going forward make sure dont forget them,0
Finally Twitter is working ,0
"big shout out to past me for being too pussy to actually commit suicide because my life has literally never been better, and I can't stop thinking about everything I would have missed out on if I had let my depression fool me into thinking there was nothing left for me here.",1
major breakdown tonight scared alone knew would anything drastic matter getting closer friend mine really care respect one awake time kept going back forth eventually ended asking check tomorrow really needed someone call me worried pushing boundary friend suddenly since know much mental illnesses right feel like asked want respond tomorrow matter say would rather say all feel like let alone moment tomorrow feel like moved on also want jeopardize friendship one coolest people know never wanted come burden much work with idk worried made mistake idk done next ever since march depressions getting worse again want friend worry too sucks told friend check idk right call,1
theres bridge near new houseon tuesday morning woke feeling exhausted head pounding headache nose snuffed up shoulders hurt chest tight back aching cried cried hard cried rash consuming legs cried little meaningful relationships cried assume people think me cried job living situation cried different pulled together moment decided go walkin clinic something ive putting months went downstairs jumped shower sobbed washing hair screamed yelled myself world anger hate inability change selfsabotage routinely commit dried avoiding reflection mirror microwaved chicken fingers drank bottle water watched youtube video board game cried more called local mental health crisis centre where ive dragged past theyve called twice two weeks returned either calls scheduled meeting counsellor two weeks now knowing damn well might make far doctor know have undiagnosed mental illness im looking crutch something label know fault putting positions do point dressed ready leave house put sunglasses headed out head toward busy main street clinic started toward bridge pedestrian bridge towering jagged rocks river unforgiving current walked slowly confidently street toward park housing bridge mind ablaze thoughts ending it image laying upon rocks hours lungs filling blood cold scared turned last second left instead right walked hours walked road ended exhausted walked back busy main street watching people going days stopping get pack cigarettes quit two months prior coffee went home thoughts still there check again die another day,1
end all  years old male living canada dead end job cant stand friends virgin high school diploma family hates treats terribly brother despises mocks friends tells fuck try invite talk spend time together tried many times mend relationship thought could least one friend could family member hobbies interests pretty much skills anything trouble learning focusing notable thing inherited money year ago around k thats thing name really fucking end it even feel pathetic complaining here fuck life,1
already loved how grinch stole christmas released im still loving now  years later still lots people seem disagree opinion movie never really received much love time came outbr br sure movie overthetop campy also reason movie charming fun watch sets costumes characters done perfectly overthetop fun way without ever becoming truly ridicules visually spectacular movie watch campy movie making best director ron howard really surprises fun little christmas moviebr br main reason movie works much fun watch jim carrey grinch truly carries movie good fun role course helped convincing makeup also received academy award course jim carrey hater even think watching movie movie really movie makes work much fun watch fun memorable roles played jeffrey tambor clint howard josh ryan evans young grinchbr br the movie good morale bit sappy me perhaps im dutch really celebrate christmas enthusiastic big here united states england movie simply fun entertaining morale left quite cold honestbr br the musical score james horner good fun even though average every day horner stuff still works perfectly movie helps make scenes workbr br perfect christmas entertainmentbr br ,0
please dont ignore need adviceplease write off lately ive struggling problem believe video game addiction play super smash bros hours day really high gsp online ranked point system well consistantly lost round lost much gsp main got de ranked feel sick angry know do near  hours clocked game going waist im mad feel like throwing someone please offer advice talent everything good slipping away me,1
@adamcoomes had to shorten your tweet a bit in order to retweet  I'm with you! #funfollow,0
know gotten bad dream someone cuddling yeh affection depravity real,0
anyone stretch marks bad do basically stretch marks caused grow really quickly first back stayed  years now recently forming body now looks like someone slashing knife ive whipped ive recently noticed many inner thighs back legs back shoulders lots questionable places anyone advice bad,0
next time hear chick say cant find nice guy immediately later make fun guys simps im gonna lose it chick know complained never find nice guy go bad luck men wants guy listen communicate stuff immediately goes hooks immature dude turns emotionally abusive her like expect walked right one fourth time row like serriously didnt see coming mile away make fun guy whos actually nice calling simp nice someone seen creepy obsessive dont know why obsessive someone creepy obsessive guy comments something nice thats creepy guy comments detail dont understand knows thats creepy guy walks says hair looks cute thats creepy guy walks sticks nose hair says hair smells nice thats creepy,0
selfdisgust day every daytw  depression redflag possible dysmorphia ive new weird ritual thing past months anonymously go whisper app post photos ask rating look therapist determined im uncomfortable around anyone doesnt consider and thats true cant stand knowing people interact dont think im beautiful makes feel depressed worthless also sides family raised particular standards beauty  standard dont match cant even around dad stepmom without feeling extremely selfconscious refuse let anyone ever take picture me im terrified considered ugly fat even mediocrelooking dont know im going get past one honestly feel like people dont think im  even here,1
want kill dont want dieim happy havent really long time ive tried almost everything therapy moving switching jobs new friends even alcohol sports traveling fun activities hobbies medication weird cause know good life dont much complain  dont feel like person im forced be feel like dont belong skin particular life dont enjoy fun things anymore feel like im fake happy all the time dont want live life anymore also dont want die needed admit every night go sleep wish either wake someone else someone feel me dont wake all,1
care anymorei want kill myself feelings matter matter even telling bunch strangers want kill myself stupid im stupid get rid self matter,1
hand light bulb thats running  hours honestly dont know havent died yet,0
written oliver stone directed brian de palma scarface paints picture easily forgotten al pacino turns stunning performance tony montana cuban refugee becomes powerful player drug world ruthlessly runs self made kingdom crime florida gangster flick harsh violent loud gross unpleasant must hold record uttering word fk number times almost three hours long yes get repulsive stout hearted constitution keeps seat cheering demise ruthless crime lordbr br also playing interesting characters michelle pfeiffer steven bauer robert loggia mary elizabeth mastrantonio f murray abraham angel salazar pacino proves one greatest generation manages bring reality character leaves strong impression movie everyone leave thinking walked away disaster powerful enough you crime pay long,0
one person keeping alive hit head desk till bled,1
miss friend havent talked guy friend seen lowkey really miss gay way,0
guys think found perfect girl might chance need maneuver carefully started wrong foot,0
i literally feel empty and hollow i feel like i m slowly just losing touch of what it mean to be alive i had people to talk with for awhile and it wa great it made me smile knowing i wasn t lonely anymore but look like that disappeared from me the one i talk to just stopped no concern no care just treated a a stranger that really broke my heart i feel so sad and unmotivated about anything anymore it such bad timing because i figured what i wanted to do in life and this come to weigh me down i literally feel like ending it would give me a sense of peace for once i don t know what to do so much stress is on me i don t know how to deal with it anymore what am i supposed to do now,1
@MerkDEnglish Just looking at that gave my depression depression.,1
theres reason live life severely socially anxioushumans social animals need socialize need friends relationships im   friends really care me ive never relationship completely wasted away teen years zero memories scared anything completely useless skipped life experiences get fucked genetically enough im also trans fantastic transitioning totally doable process cant even fucking buy groceries without almost dying cant get profesional help because again thats social interaction difficult one that even want get better like even enjoy living sleep cut watch youtube ocassionally drink im studying fucking hate im horrible it also fucked future career fuck it dug hole theres way get it,1
"With my sister from another mister, Kayla ",0
even when i have logical proof that it isn t true i still can t help thinking everyone find me annoying and hate me one example of this is a guy that work in the reception of my accommodation we get along well we talk more often than we would need to and often about thing that aren t customer employee related he ll asks me question about my family and my life when he doesn t need to in reality the only interaction we need to have is me collecting parcel or if i have problem with the accommodation so clearly all other conversation is optional and he wouldn t talk to me if he didn t want to yet i still can t help but think he hate talking to me and would rather i just leave him alone and yes there is the possibility that he s just putting up with me for those few minute but even then i know this probably isn t true a he suggested i apply for student ambassador next year and he wouldn t do that if he couldn t truly stand me because the role involves working with him for multiple hour so why despite these solid fact do i think he can t stand me and how do i stop thinking like this,1
dont even think wanting bf arent willing give blood put vial wear necklace give blood thank,0
beautifully done lot angst friendship may endure all end matters group friends learn watched again music also amazing kei loses one friend gives meets sho orphan boy repelled true nature lawless streets mallepa struggle place among melting pot asian races learn sometimes top cost ever ready pay surprise ending grips much whole movie does get enough it gackt hyde wonderful job acting proving pretty boys sing,0
It's a beautiful day and all is well ,0
im tired everything dont even know explain hate every single thing existing right even myself idk whats going,0
mjust bought pack cigarettesdont know do maybe ill die respiratory attack ill stop breathing,1
band released new single discoindie httpsopenspotifycomtrackfjsdrunsllfpqjkwpsixjcwfsgpsisgrlgstnyq youtube also httpsyoutubesjttewme  listening feedback,0
options available sistermy sister bad place several redflag attempts shes usually released days hospital family believe needs long term help shes  live illinois im curious options are,1
want better person ive done past let meive kept secret several years know admit anybody without getting kind comment telling deserve die feel told family members would make feel disown me im  turning  less month year ago ive done things think people would discard something put jail life clarity killed anybody feels close deserves sentence ive said terrible nasty things people fuel twisted fantasies never wanted hurt anybody never felt like talked somebody something purpose none irl online chatting ive gotten point regret much tried killing month kicked friend group word spread around feel like immorally wrong im past point redemption want end psych ward either already know knew things awful anyways think would get caught did luckily exfriends agreed long seeked help fixed could leave that last year ive sat ass jobless scared might able make better place die theres hell feel like theres strong possibility might burn since last attempt plan anytime soon every day think might getting better demons remind used be feel like impossible kill side me awful demented deranged side still haunts day want out feel like find sort resolve might slip back suicidal tendencies another year so even know ill find answer reddit want hope theres somebody like might able help find new life life worth living right see hope cant forgive cant get forgiveness people ive hurt used,1
so i ve tried almost every ssri med except a few every single one i ve been on seems to give me horrible intrusive or suicidal thought i don t actually want to hurt myself but these thought are scaring me ha anyone else had this experience with ssri med,1
said yes asked school started  today said yes look schedule idiot ,0
"Ok, probably should get started on today, I still have to buy gifts for the parties I'm attending. Oi vey! ",0
id happily end right second whilst work leave friend alone situation hes inim really losing go on ive tried medication makes feel worse ive tried keeping diary made feel better temporarily ive got point im trying write feel end scratching pen book leaving ripped inky mess,1
isnt social anxiety worsti cant shit been room like  years now done nothing life feel guilty fuck im burden family sometimes dont even eat days food last brother hard worker maybe good job life would easier get good job cant go college social anxiety wish wouldnt born,1
boys need learn fucking respect im fucking sick girl much negativity get boys every single day girls vs boys memes light hearted think im tired seeing fucking meme throwing girls stereotype called boring whole bitchy fake taking normal thing everyone making seem like boys it play lot video games rarely use voice chat times get fucking told go back kitchen every single time enjoyable funny first time never been cant take dark humour either fun games joking womens rights you apparently we cant take joke get offended harmless shit nah girl talking period pains something jump fucking say oh never gotten kicked balls before seriously man come on get choose wether periods not pain lasts week sometimes bad cant stand up cant compare peoples pain experienced yourself stop treating superior gender none us better anyone else handful stuff myself im sure lot people fed seeing,0
 monthsthe winters cold dark summer always favorite time year sun never sets summer theres beautiful forested valley close live thats im going june hiking finding tree sit under ill listen music watch midnight sun fall asleep last time time june im distracting watching movies love replaying games meant lot me havent talked friends now hurts thinking them life death two sides coin live means accept death im going station little bit others hope wont hate much it maybe ill see someday im looking forward june month pass makes less scared im sure sharing strangers guess wanted someone know cant wait feel summer breeze again,1
Out of starbucks ,0
"Hosting Karaoke Friday Nights mps, ROad tripping soon i hope. ",0
film gone fashion often miniskirt triumph postwar period virtually forgotten s except students cinema recently begun get recognition perhaps evenhanded representation soldiers integration postwar life ever made and definitely includes films the deer hunter like it overall evaluation somewhere extremesbr br the tale simple one three different servicemen mustered world war ii the big one fly home midwest town try resume create civilian lives one disability one cushy job waiting him nothing go determinationbr br there good unfortunately uneven performances fredric march best actor oscar playing old sergeant returns job local bank personally think jimmy stewart deserved its wonderful life also deserved best picture award clearly film touched nerve postwar audience said fashionable march one fantastic scene humorous speech brought mind somewhat similar incident involving real wwii hero pappy boyington otherwise solid unspectacularbr br i going grain here thought myrna loy played marchs wife justly ignored academy detected barely hint warmth her fact kept thinking going slap frederic march annoying her practically grimaced every time together something definitely missing there forced smiles air tolerance rather joyfulness think nonsense the perfect wife correct think passionless s homemaker ideal may disagree that academy voters apparently not major problem film terribly miscastbr br dana andrews former soda jerk became war hero winds behind counter again amazing saddled wife evidently married right left war wrong reasons future looks bleak chances upon marchs daughter peggy teresa wright fantastic turn fireworks explode great comes unevenness pervades film moments pure soap opera intrude punctuated alltime classic line im going bust marriage up romance uplifting mirror common condition war returning servicemen finding love upon returnbr br speaking uplifting come harold russell naturalistic quality acting nonacting rings true today doubt then taking nononsense approach situation inspiration best scene one best cinema brings girl likes bedroom show truth condition im lucky still elbows unlike boys truly great stuffbr br the film moments soar also moments belong afternoon soaps take good bad see one high points,0
innocent friend right innocent friend ill call emma stories sake walking lunch school talking right well comedic friend friends hanging emma didnt anyone laugh told give prompt ill make pickup line joke said taco immediately came mind was get ready this taco shell wanna put meat inside sorry said hates jokingly girls btw sorry already done laughing apologizing waaaaaaaaay much friends want hear type joke hates one good day hope got laugh this,0
makeherfamous hmm do u really enjoy being with him if the problem are too constant u should think thing more find someone ulike,0
birthday birthday today great time wanted tell sb  cake,0
love garlic garlic awesome eaten many ways eaten seasoning man love garlic bread garlic pasta garlic rice awsome aswell forget fryied garlic even awesome,0
"@greeneash http://twitpic.com/6rrtf - awww, this pic is cute ",0
thought getting betterhi redflag watch id like make disclaimer exact moment suicidal before fortunately i think made through trying prevent getting back point throwaway want reminded ifwhen make through living depression past  years past summer got help needed proper professionals getting better help meds changes lifestyle unfortunately short lived march year attempted end life made time did met recent significant other beginning helped me knew issues problems helped could exactly needed exact time needed it may well saved life monday blue ended things feel slipping back state meeting her since come light left man  years younger her feel like ive failed myself cant blame her said mental health well long distance relationship hard know case far dependant someone else happiness time felt like option im lost scared want ever go back know next time might lucky im interested making amends getting back together her thinks little throw everything away like that know breakup good thing want feel like felt before thank you,1
tiredive trying hard work nothing ever changes dont want hurt ever feel pain hurt others dont want anymore tired taking calming breaths im panicking dont feel like im episode dont enjoy life wish could voluntarily end mine without chance pain failure,1
flowfy0 kenklot manlikeicey people will just be capping nonesense she died of depression yen yen the word depression wasn t even been abused then like they do now she died of blood clot disorder,1
has post from Logical Awesome! It's an envelope full of Github stickers! Yay! ,0
came ask help people cruel give,1
On the trampoline with bj ,0
cannot see light right now things think change mood feeling really negative  thoughts ,1
Robert Pattinson Topless Pics!! Oh Lordi ! New Moon Has Got Even Better!!!  x,0
i suddenly feel uneasy and uncomfortable at my relative house i feel like my heart is gon na explode and wan na puke i m close with my relative but i don t know why i m feeling this way it rarely happens there s this one time i m feeling uneasy and uncomfortable then i just started shaking for no reason while i m talking to my relative,1
"@TheSugarDames No, you didn't.  I have them on my nightstand. You're lucky I'm lazy.",0
"GOOD MORNING WORLD , good morning peter lindo  ",0
Depression is something that doesn't just go away. It's just there and you deal with it and you stay out of situations that are going to trigger it.,1
"@90_angel Well I am off to bed then Phoenix in the morning, have a great day, and weekend if i don't see you ",0
whats favorite and least subject school excluding electives mines close math sciencei rly like history never good interested learning past like graphic design course im taking year,0
well shes broken asked feelings all feelings saw friend countless hours thought her tears cried her countless compliments worthless heart shattered two fucking words even said gn,0
hmmm sleep time! turtle shopping in 2 min ,0
talk less hate boring talk regret everything feel like shared asked many questions talking people complicated hate,0
much overdose citaloprammy boyfriend broke upwith,1
tried couple different ssri medications doses since october still intense amp lengthy episodes depression amp occasional mania feeling self destructive urges amp suicidal tendencies coming back moved crosscountry rv currently looking getting help amp possible diagnoses mental issues feel really place alone stagnant unwanted almost everyone life also think really need take break internet find focus getting better especially people talk online seem far less invested them hurts anyways going try that wish luck best luck dealing similar things alone heard felt understood loved thank amp best wishes all taking break,1
x0mrsjoejonas im okay im just really really missing my best friend,0
#박봄제발내버려두세요Who ever is fake woke on Mental illness and depression who defended Other artist stay silent and  decide not to defend bom after everything we've seen shame on you honestly,1
@leslegumes ...Which is why I don't tan! ,0
mind blank fucking help lmaooooo want hug life annoying yuh ik title nothin wit acutal post cant think properly,0
progress reports hs im hs got fall term midterm progress report mostly bs part gpa unofficial thanks,0
one worst days had think need hug somethingi hate even considered suicide especially right now urge strong need help one help me one even listen memy so busy busy hanging best friend alone point close,1
try kill real according cruel ultimatumi mean yeah like heavily depends future look like anyways whether not know follow ultimatum still shit might hit fan yeah guess ill happen i hope course,1
think problem feel need say goodbyeto people care aboutthat care me want stop attempting redflag end sectioned taken hospital will time maybe time wont say goodbye,1
hopeit bad thing sensitive logical see good future eats alive short time ive learned everything fades time hold onto everything everyone leaves,1
ulonelyguy ulonelyguyhttpswwwredditcomuserlonelyguy indiansaw screenshots talking hindi obv uwahiyadlaundahttpswwwredditcomuserwahiyadlaunda another assholehis comment history is disturbing also indianindian username reason im saying also indian respected member society refuse claim mfs thats lol,0
longing for yesterday,0
Thank you to all of my new followers!  I appreciate you ,0
feel worthlessi  dropped highschool job parents kepp giving grief idea get one continuously made fun od things mum dad siblings feel apreciated want die thanks reading,1
@Jenna_Glass ahhah i know!!!! i want her to follow me toooo ,0
want die dont villai know stupid hate living city apartement garden swiming pool pet nothing day sleep couch day city live doesnt public park anything fun,1
wanna sleep reddit addiction wont let ig ill reddit then also  thatd kinda early sleep,0
homelessness or houselessness george carlin stated issue years never plan help street considered human everything going school work vote matter people think homeless lost cause worrying things racism war iraq pressuring kids succeed technology elections inflation worrying theyll next end streetsbr br but given bet live streets month without luxuries home entertainment sets bathroom pictures wall computer everything treasure see like homeless goddard bolts lessonbr br mel brooks who directs stars bolt plays rich man everything world deciding make bet sissy rival jeffery tambor see live streets thirty days without luxuries bolt succeeds wants future project making buildings bets bolt thrown street bracelet leg monitor every move cant step sidewalk hes given nickname pepto vagrant written forehead bolt meets characters including woman name molly lesley ann warren exdancer got divorce losing home pals sailor howard morris fumes teddy wilson already used streets theyre survivors bolt isnt hes used reaching mutual agreements like rich fight flight kill killedbr br while love connection molly bolt necessary plot found life stinks one mel brooks observant films prior comedy shows tender side compared slapstick work blazing saddles young frankenstein spaceballs matter show like something valuable losing next day hand making stupid bet like rich people know money maybe give homeless instead using like monopoly moneybr br or maybe film inspire help others,0
really let down by gossip girl it s all i have to make my monday good and all they give are rerun,0
@MrsJellySantos They trip me out. Especially the ones that recovered from situational depression and speak out on mental illness as if there aren't many more severe illnesses,1
suffering chronic redflag eight yearsthe kind feel enemy breathing neck alwaysi want get details matter personal beginning redflag breathing got messed up like alternating breathing hyperventilation shallow breathing day years last five years suffered bone tb stomach gastritis three yearsalso found recurring kidney stones left kidneybefore begun relatively healthy without complicated disease like bone tb stomach gastritis seems long chronic redflag resulting hyperventilation shallow breathing high blood pressure make immune system rather weak damaged,1
chrisexcel 0 hayi suka man you ll give him a depression,1
@ddelonge You got it.  And I'll cheer the loudest for you when you're speaking at MTL tomorrow. ,0
look like rain today bet it bucket down a soon a i step outside front door always the way downhill all the way from today,0
possible distill heart soul sportno pure lifestyleof surfing perfect form documentary done it documentary shows life waves people pioneers modern day vanguard pushing envelope big wave ever beenbr br stacy peraltaa virtual legend early s skateboarding days socal teenhas edited reams amazing stock interview footage essence created documentary masterpiece genre heart soul subject matterand clearly herehis genius fraught pure vision glamorize hype sentimentalize subject reveres surfers surfingbeach lifestyle whitewash either gritty reality sport wellbr br there much could said documentary surfers early history sport wild big wave surfers profiles greg noll first big wave personality arguably pioneered sport jeff carter amazing guy rode virtually alone  years northern californias extremely dangerous mavericks big surf and centerpiece documentary laird hamliton big wave surfings present day messiahbr br there tremendous heart warmth among guysand girls show cameraand deep powerful love surfing ocean comes every word found story hamiltons adopted father met hamilton small  year old boy practically forced dad especially heartwarming and again stripped syrupy sentimentalitybr br if like surfingor even dontthis wonderful documentary must watched student form someone simply appreciates incredibly welldone works art,0
lol i've honestly been going through the worst depression i've dealt with i'm just containing it all so well,1
upset im still hereim upset im still here really thought last ramadan would last fact really drive home fact year passed still live please want wake ever again,1
feel like one feels miserable life right now happy feeling alone,1
passed pain threshold time diethere much take enough say wait three days take action ive waited  months feel surer ever woman told life joy right series problems defeats severas years ago mother died main emotional support left alone close family friends recently really withdrawn them girl whose affections declined previous work id previous bad experience getting involved colleague made life hell leave fought back got back good paying enjoyable government job manager really likes he interviewed me managers colleagues canteen staff even cleaners seem like me went wrong sums life started much younger girl call m made clear interested acted around me glancing smiling exaggerated behaviour works much liked previous experience work made keep distance and tbh prettiness perkyness intimidated little avoided interaction months probably guess going ended working beside awkward days got talking got well similar tastes art amp literature recommended things other seeing someone else work month arrived developed crush shortly going though another dark period took month depression told leaving help ended back medication returned turns moved office mix up moving boyfriend things somehow lost momentum went back slightly awkward other bad way somehow felt odd little forced came one day looked and startled justodd said hello said hello walked on genuinely strange hard explain never spoke shortlyn went train others medication stop feelings pointlessness life managed import n via internet spent lot time researching exit life cut long story short office reshuffle means moving now happened friday really affected self image end day im usually last leave came back up probably check desk items moved saying flamboyant goodbyes last two managers left coming kitchen asked enjoyed training simply said great make eye contact even stop walking whilst focusing two left five minutes later standing another door  yards away phone waiting probably boyfriend looked up saw me turned back continued texting thats realised ive become sad middle aged creeper odd guy unnerves younger women really pathetic sad said nothing walked want upset way shed said enough without word made realise state life in disastrous relationships best female friend offered friends benefits situation fun attractive sexy know feels cant get better repulse younger women incite pity older ones weekend joyless see one way out thank god got n need peach  cant cope terrible hopeless position,1
yayfuckbuddies haha i would but you won t,0
waifu least  tall gal,0
cant believe year year since downloaded reddit ive done lot things said lot funny things created great memes saved great memes gave received awards got banned flat earth subreddits became moderator rfuckgravel reddit truly pog although sometimes little trashy overall im glad got reddit hit k today spend way much time here great experience im glad got share guys ,0
thinking tommorowi see point living life depression continues get worse consume life time goes on way four years im done it want end soon possible ill never slave awful world,1
anyone else heavyweight anyone else get drunk easily downed half pint vodka  ml sambouca im completely fine im little drowsy  morning think im tired,0
think someone done httpsyoutubekafopywzbmm,0
okay make pets vegan as long herbivore dont wtf forcing carnivores vegan tho,0
hit  nine hole golf tournament first place,0
"@dewdropper LOL...your so welcome, I will always be on the side of decadence and pleasure. United we stand ",0
reflections trip home longon trip back home realized something people want see mask real me one wants see real me parents ask doing mask says fine real thinks redflag weekly sometimes daily basis parents ask going children looking forward grandchildren mask laughs says day maybe real goes wtf hate children even meet someone wont raising child hate them people force talk future joy mask real asks future joy cant see future past next month joy watching friend graduate joy joy sadness seen behind mask nearly enough understand it also saw behind it basically told put mask back on blows plans made later evening supposed last hooray moves across country deserts it story life people ask enjoying new location mask says great loving it real hates wants nothing return previous location friends people ask memorable call new job emergency services dont want memorable call want funniest call memorable call one try forget daily basis mask tells funny antidote guy lamp real tries force sound childs voice head people ask it first time mask real agree something dont know dont know able get bed morning dont know able go work every day dont know able take constant abuse supervisors dont know able go classes masters dont know things possibly biggest mystery still alive thought many times night killing since last september  iterations plan adapted changed situation changed well preferences thinking plan weirdly comforting feels like safety hatch pulled point feels comforting know end misery point choosing feels like nice warm blanket parachute wrapped one maybe keeps going thought stuck way out weirdly makes want keep going things get worse always pull trigger allows go sleep night gives courage life gets fucked decision made bail allowed stand boss get fired what drive risky kill car accident sparred grief spurs on also makes miserable still want die still think death much better world would without me life sucks want everything end quickly possible want shit show call life want something different want things get better never seems do hope to expect worse every situation everyone never disappointed tldr reflections recent trip back home still alive yet dont want caring spurs on,1
ever wanted trigger depressionanxiety feel okay little long feel like somethings off itch needs scratched,0
idea waking every day sickeningi end staying crack dawn almost every night cant stand idea waking up im work cant bring almost anything rot bed prefer sleeping day away want feelings go away,1
13 days* depression is hitting so hard that I'm getting dumb,1
carvin lol they are some emotional as men omg all this late night eating both of u are broke,0
school cheat code violently shit middle class go home early,0
urge diehello st post channel english good always urge redflag even feel happy like done well test thought always mind randomly appears im hanging friend eating homework happens mood drops quickly minutes recovers im really tired this im scare one day pushs end,1
@elleashley hewo Ellie Berry  Sho cute wor the name.,0
retired medicalhealth field toiler vinyard never get tired seeing film paddy chayefsky friend college comp teacher  visited  us several clases back  writing ability stood test time  hospital fresh  watch every week  still find something new many supporting cast members went unto bigger  better roles tv  film george scott made comedies timing  patter good jackie gleason  steve msrtin mental humour rather physcialslapstick wins book every time still family film  four letter word entire film,0
used technique torture people past life would lot bearable awake night everyday sleep deprivation alone enough make kill,1
@turpentine2009 yes Issues was a nice song. thanks for the blip  I love the sugababes - push the button lol,0
@Blanquis26 hey there! all set for the day? Have a wonderful weekend  btw Really worked on the pool last night ,0
isnt feelin 00 day,0
@mommyto6kids OMG!  That's crazy weather!! ,0
bucket list kill okay life beyond repair im gonna try optimistic this im happy find next mystery life want end all have sex someone gorgeous try heroin pop molly friends skydive try cocaine hahah writing realize really want much life much drive dreams anyways ill update list done im ready go bye good day ,1
aced ap calc midterm got  ive never gotten score high test takers good luck,0
please someone help diei cant cope this every morning wake screaming mental anguish hate much theres nothing change cant talk people know say wish wake more cant answer phone reply emails everything difficult im self employed people want book jobs im ignoring calls messages stressful please someone help end it cant myself cant anything right want exist more,1
Listening to Bjork  hell yes!,0
@the7thpwr any of my shooter songs showing? waylons boy? like those to~ ,0
my shoes have wheels because the depression doesn't stop,1
family thing keeping ending allas soon dead following,1
ispahanjahane la psychologue dupont marie estelle a trait ce sujet sans oublier la d pression le id e noires,1
whats point alleverybody lives dies go life turn dirt whats point everything become nothing end,1
even know fuck wrong anymoreas right now ive pretty much given recovery want out suffer chronic severe nausea lasts day every day break  years almost  suffer panic attacks least  times week im talking  minute attacks last hours anxiety racing thoughts alone enough want die paired physical symptoms im convinced anything death cant bad this left house literally  months younger selective mutism forever known weird one skipped school lot eventually dropped public school grade  im grade  remember going halls people would say ewww even parking lots would see groups peers would make animal noises me friends whatsoever hospital shit doctors area shit crisis line complete bullshit think staying hospital made homicidal ever before incompetent everyone is hate canada hate fucking  month wait lists feel like smarter doctors know symptoms medications would help yet try tell me im dealing bullshit anymore see life ever getting better changing,1
brother broke electric toothbrush used masturbating fml need replacement brush,0
id like end one way other depression bipolar disorder think redflag ton come extremely close couple times recently couple nights ago literally knife wrist began cutting motions stopped cried sleep kitchen floor live aunt uncle parents died horrible car accident last year gotten it im haunted nightmares deathly afraid driving even though everyone says good driver often think parents im  attending ut knoxville fall im minnesota originally however homesick moving june top that aunt uncle trouble adjusting financial burden sister carry addition two girls feel burden want go back home bad know home is aunt also mental disorders going rough time well psych ward three times past three months give new meds work two weeks body adapts them begins getting worse goes psych ward rinse repeat guess im saying is im homesick feel im burden everyone feel like aunt hates even though know disorders know real her miss parents im worried school fall breaking weight all want die want deal anymore im honestly thinking ending it want end whether death whether end stress know else turn im hurting one help me,1
want harem instead sex vibe tf persona  soundtrack play smash would call friend group hentai tells otherwise,0
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poggers wanna crossdressing im ugly also one would willing buu skirt shit lit,0
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"[Depression] Ah, are you feeling okay...? It's okay to be sad, just don't forget you have people who care about you.",1
patheticcame one life understands cares cant even get reply either guess really nothing either way going pain need get quickly can thanks anyway im done now,1
manifesting keep hearing seeing cant figure means,0
came home from cross county tired a,0
@JaredLeto Not when you suffer with depression  pic.twitter.com/jXfGCxyjxr,1
day  i voice inside mind really one tell suffering depressing thoughts almost two decades way vent out hope guys find solace thisthe eerie feeling numbness crawls stomach bones spine might depressed panic attacks pain never really got used to alone thoughts try shut eyes hellscape mind day  ,1
feel dead inside completely losti really know anymore ive felt dead inside months redflag constant thought front mind means end life tonight backup case wake up know would  effective cant think reason continue trying live,1
cant sleep someone help cant sleep ive got school  hours,0
ask stuff pt  end answer dishonestly,0
idk talk girls ima honest kind sad question ask online like whenever talk girl person head goes spiral dont know talk ends awkward asf kind sad think ab almost ,0
My friends made me join twitter.. so here i am  hows everyones day so far?,0
for the past two day i ve been having a lot of trouble getting to sleep and i m just worried if this is really something i should be really worried about and no one in my family seems to care that i m having trouble with this so am i just overreacting or is this something o should be concerned about,1
with the best friend tonight shall be amazing ,0
seldom see short comments written imdb filmgoers perhaps lightweight dark comedy entertains pleases without depth missing something id watch incentivebr br so whats happenstance french le battement dailes du papillon serendipity fate perhaps event culmination series random happenings weve its called life looked way begin get feeling random might like fatedbr br a happenstance film might occurrence minor knocking leaves lettuce back truck major basing major life decision accuracy stranger tossing pebble incidents cause events  well get picture dominoes multiply  characters average  really stretch imagination accept remote chance scenario could happen think theres diagnosis believe life like this magic world cinemabr br we admit fun watch way writerdirector weaves together unrelated events story enmeshes lives french citizens couple hours looking whimsical escape heres place it recovering surgery going anywhere anyway engage stitches healing br br happenstance go award winner develop cult following stranger things happenedbr br  soren kierkegaard attributed following life understood backwards must lived forward looked detail many life experiences meeting first love finding perfect gift last auto accident would find series seemingly random events leading itbr br thats answer forgot bring along existentialist explain happenstance me,0
Thank you Melissa for all of your support in life and for believing in the things I do. I would be lost most of the time if not for you. ,0
rate finnish edgar allen poe inspired poem english class write poem parrot thats similar the raven edgar allen poe idk finnish it i need  stanzas  lines each stanza  upon lofty journey pirate sick scurvy led crew poorest goons lost gold thier doubloons captain lay sleeping slacking awakened creaking cracking men entered cabin assumed attacker heard polly wants cracker stanza  saw prized parrot perched proudly upon privates shoulder promptly fed bird polly hunger captain returned slumber dreamt something absurd imagined island full treasure riches crew gather filled chests britches pockets grew fatter fatter captains displeasure awoke more familiar sound fluttering feather heard polly wants cracker stanza  fed bird again hoping interruptions would cease polly squawked give one piece pirate gave birds command hoping would quickly find land low food night time coming soon captains eyes grew heavy sky became blacker heard polly wants cracker,0
sorry fit sub feel like need tell people would understand happening always suspicious depressed anxious never felt symptoms physical sensations would read about first panic attack feel like always head worrying next one come cannot even get bed work lot time feel like shit feel like everything feels like limbo watching life go by feels like dreamor get hyper aware bodys functions happen naturally like manually processing everything going brain sometimes think accidentally hit switch brain scares shit me episodes make get existential feel hopeless resulti want die feeling nothing feeling real hyper awareness scares thinking going happen soon hope someone relate know alone first panic attack edibles feel like going die almost everyday,1
friend sexually assaulted me wanna drop deadhe coerced things mocked me day disclosed vulnerabilities,1
advice like wtf even im bit bizarre relationship girl im m senior year high school ive known girl  years near beginning junior year invited house halloweeni admitted liking liked back dated months broke off due fact  classes together well hour long study period ended seeing eachother every weekday ended still friends fast forward summer still talking text messages boyfriend dumped herno big deal continue talking tells still likes shes ready date still recovering previous ex says tell ready date want give second chance add girl likes play girl really bad bfs past genuinely nice person still kind like her wait next r brush off,0
hummiemd i know i wa really surprised since everyone recommends them on youtube i have to call them tomorrow and figure it all out,0
for week i wa cripplingly anxious all day but had a few drink and realised i m only ever comfortable when drunk idk i realise it s unhealthy like soooo much but it s better than my sober self l how can i try and feel the same when i m sober,1
family hates mei remember last day cried go home get yelled parents anything find feel paranoid time watching never relax want go jump building right now,1
expectations id never heard jamie foxx knew film strong character actors it thought highly entertaining fun plot different unpredictable enough hold interest me foxx original david morse terrific true finest role thought chases pyrotechnics contributed film well done expect lot happily surprised,0
decided stop taking full dose effexor taking half many meds sad upsides like losing appetite feel needi bit afraid naturally going hit me think human needs feel full range emotions instead relegated artificial chemical existenceany support welcome went antidepressant,1
cant say enjoyed much the big lebowski raising arizona felt little slighted o brother enjoyable film worthy good laughs taste coens brisk twisted sense creativity dvd edition contains featurette interested find coens pretty simple directorial techniques surprised me course movie best example and im saying comparison worthy oscars many feel robbed maybe depends appeal br br though enjoyed coens previous work ive never fan old westerns the dukes hazzard stuff show daily tnn guess thats feel enthusiastic checking movie seeing revolves around southern folk south reading this mean offend people im sure guys feel way watch movies urban areas like a bronx tale live city life hard get accustomed films nature apologies aside found characters fun quirky think john turturro nailed accent perfectly seeing way talks real life find amazing tim blake nelson also good course george clooneywho assume best feigning accents judging decision chuck idea working dialogue coach developing new england accent the perfect stormnaturally seems little miscast continually struggles accent performance good though also spot coen regulars like holly hunter in short sweet role john goodman also screen short time steals every minute itbr br though normally dig country music liked title song a man constant sorrow dvd also contains music video song br br overall found film entertaining original inyourface quality coens shown us past slighter effort good one still suggest check out br br my score  out ,0
Watching the first Conan ,0
survived fentanyl  months ago overdosed fentanyl thought basic oxycodone randomly time time maybe year offered friend got good deal idea time cartels pressing pills taking one went black matter minutes boyfriend realized something wrong breathing sounded rattling well mouth blue saved extremely peaceful completely unconscious woke felt like removed warm black womb paramedics around asking took mentioning narcan felt dreaming astonished painless was anyways saved two pills reason  weeks ago pushed edge bullshit took fleck started hallucinating texted friend doors began chew pill like cookie call  mystery suffered horrific hallucinations never want go again need live  year old widow two kids need me think redflag legal mentally ill yes im deeply severely depressed diagnosed since age  pediatrician two years molested ive suffered shit endure im still here hate even moment weakness hate even considering ending life without caring consequences leaving them fuck ive tried kill many times finally found key bliss could sing anthem mash emphatically through early morning fog see visions things pains withheld realize see redflag painless brings many changes take leave please game life hard play im gonna lose anyway losing card delay say redflag painless brings many changes take leave please sword time pierce skin hurt begins works way pain grows stronger watch burn redflag painless brings many changes take leave please brave man requested answer questions key replied oh ask redflag painless brings many changes take leave i redflag painless brings many changes take leave please redflag painless brings many changes thing please ive attempting redflag since age  fucking sucked it things got serious years ago jumped overdoses hanging wrapped fabric around neck testing strength closet knew needed help finally saw psych diagnosed bipolar meds really help therapy really help pisses off ive depressed far long feel like ill never relieved im clamped here stapled obligation people wish things would better believe better spouse kids wont help nothing helps think people get laid cant incels make things better wont like drugs wont anything experience love finally seeing cold pallid corpse living breathing spouse hours ago front you seems almost better died redflag blame daily trust ive fucking lived fuck think easier ugly awkward pain inside less real fuck think means anything mentally ill mentally ill sucks matter fucking what goddamned competition lucky i guess survived resigned silent suffering point longer tell anyone true pain point smiles im going fake talk anonymously ill answer studies etc im done one friend calls plastic smile one careful around fuck it ill die someday redflag not im fucking feel you one you im sorry know suffer alone,1
@KaraLG84 @KatyMontgomerie Oh wow. I owe you (and your colleagues) a lot. There's some weeks where my depression and/or anxiety make it impossible to do actual interaction with the world in person. Without the internet (which makes Twitter and email possible) I would have no way to at least let people…,1
taitaisanchez omg i know i am so sad,0
things news taken given shocking documentary fear investigation proceeds producers film vindicated spadesbr br the producers show us davidians government agents investigators faults humanity nothing reviewer say could approach impact watching listening yourself pieces evidence  congressional testimony  tapes news footage expert commentary interviews photos home videos  seamlessly woven together tell disturbing tale br br do wait see film tell friends,0
someone call apart samaritansanyone else im uk happy elsewhere,1
day been mine pretty great got snow day ,0
Time to listen to some depression music and look out the window with this rainy weather,1
im th grade biology right righting definitions annoying formal make sound like weirdo jacks daily like meiosis bit ago instead saying sperm goes egg create offspring shit like the male reproductive cell enters female reproductive cell create offspring organism dumbass shit,0
anyone wanna talk im probably gonna awake another hour ish anyone wanna talk need feel alone im  f matters,0
darwin right beginningi still believe fact creating post subreddit worry personal drama ampxb  years ago top game athletic build socially great even girlfriends drinking problem led major depressive disorder than life keeps getting screwed  years makes roughly  days  months  hours imagine living doomed life long reason alive far hope change strong temptation resist natural selection years view life completely changed many times close friends trying change perspective uttering ideas sounded like taken spiritualistself improvementbullshitbutistillhadyourmoney type books situation broke physically fucked up semisocial pushover some people still respect previous works intellectual capital possess godknowswhat disorder taxes mentally almost tried change everything control order make difference attemps failed badly last  days started episodes anger extreme sadness decided end this people might think writing sign seeking helpsupport subconcious thought seriously fucking idea sharing internet platform another thing want say people reading subreddit thinking like reading redflag notes even trying help them thinking posts really stupid reason kill yourself believe friends position wish project feelings emphateticly words inadequete purpose possible people would understand guygirl killed himself ampxb planning take action  days wish good luck people subreddit hope find another way around yes darwin right theory man respect thinking revolutionary concept ampxb basement bugs calling people weak etc choice ending lives fuck stupid social norms insects position judge nametag another person heshe want participate flawed nonlogical social rules systems discriminating people choice life sexuality bunch stuff fit normal description even describe completely ones shall destroyed god damn retarted primitive monkeys kind majority  centuries fucked entire thing i bang lot hot chicks school becuz cool insta photos hell yeah st century congrats motherfucker exactly humanity needed god damn moron,1
farewellhow foolish think could even keep one promise myself cant even make birthday heres hoping shitty rope wont fail wont wake brain damage hopefully would adequate punishment,1
im hot like literally feel sick high temp,0
tell parents  talking towould date  year old guy im young grade  hes freshman college  friends turning  month two turn  turns  like  months turn  ugh dont know hate sneak around hang time parents would like wtf hes  no would parents say,0
i fucking hate myself i deserve to die i should get run over by a train i deserve to fucking bleed until i die i need to die my mental health depends on my grade but my grade depend on my mental health i cant fucking take this im so tierd of all this i just wan na be normal i just want my family to understand that it hard it fucking hard but they dont understand i need to die i cant take this anymore im so exausted i cant take this i cant fucking take this why cant i be fucking normal,1
cant kill like damn dead cant problems right,0
dont wanna get political but mordecai regular show get it id let hit given day said said want information goodnight,0
last words me mom called lazy fat piece shit face dad got car crash week died  grandpa announced cancer month cant take it things dont look soon im ending all,0
getting annoyed easily today gt gt gt biofuel proposal getting annoyed easily today gt gt gt biof http tinyurl com ceprvs,0
im going try less socially awkward starting interacting cousins going tough since like fullgrown adults lmao nice people get siblings talk fine teenagers well going tough trying less awkward though look way immediately look phone ground something idk that maintain conversations someone approaches first,0
@my858realtor Cute pic ,0
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we live in a world full of hate greed corruption war and much more a corrupt school system and mental health system you have to be normal or else you re fucked nobody care you re born without your consent and then forced to provide for society and fit into society it s all an endless cycle,1
tinder survey hi there im conducting research tinder perceptions brand within gen z hoping find people willing help out shouldnt take  minutes complete survey completely anonymous questions intrusive basic questions use tinder etc im looking anyone ages  active tinder account willing help out link tinder survey httpsformsglemrfhqpthfctgb thank much ahead time,0
republican support whatever bullshit happening dc right letting know republicans support shit ones want support fucking psychopaths fuck em anyone dc thats reading this stay safe,0
gotta honest dont even know ex actually broke lol,0
i can only explain it a a similar feeling to when you re drunk and your head feel heavy and you feel a bit woozy thing aren t moving and the room isn t spinning but because i have a fear or being dizzy i focus on it so much that i ll look at something to see if it move and then eventually it will obviously that s because i m focussing so hard doe anyone else suffer with anything similar how do you counteract it,1
im finsexual literally fuck everything looks feminine yes thing search want to im going downhill even traps relation list cosplayers girls hook,0
methis fucking hard guess im usually type person shows lot emotion especially negative ones i really know i degenerate lazy piece shit one person family constantly fucks disappoint everyone currently go uni good one family former friends relatives consider shit tier school never much student well almost recently figured one tiny little detail fucked future prospects sorry really know im going this basically worked really hard semester theres one class mechanical engineering constantly fuck matter hard try ended getting d since covid floating around school decided offere passno pass grade anyone struggling me lazy piece shit decided wait little longer missed deadline  days now project due  hours im jaded work got knowhere shit happens life fucking over im even cs major im bio major took dad still clung little hope secret prodigy wanted graduate early could pass mcats go med school lucky enough chance fucked badly ruined life im done already emailed people know attempt fix this theres guarantee might kill seven hours knows maybe im pussy kill parents figures raised failure maybe im pussy live rest life shadow failure fuck me know,1
is packing and ready for an early flight tomorrow morning! America here we come!! ,0
thesage 0 i wish i could got ta work though,0
a bad nite for the favorite team astros and spartan lose the nite out with t w wa good,0
anyone wanna talk  bored like movies tv stuff games last show watched wanda vision,0
ive staring fathers riflerecently ive thinking killing myself everyone know abandons im demotivated actually school work end cheating feels shitty moved many times got behind know do want get bad future dont know cheating bad know soon get caught im fucked im demotivated even cheat point fs junior year high school ive given opportunity improve hard stop lazy something once feel pathetic hopeless see anything ahead see society screwing living crappy life really bad say redflag better option keep looking back rifle seeing way out fast feel much pain finally found dad hid shells option there cant decide want possible future possible crappy future im scared soon people find plan get locked up,1
@InnyVinny I used to LOVE that song!!!! ,0
seen since  yet still cant get head stop recommending people find shows impression madebr br just wonderful storybr br i hope see stair least personbr br i know much mr petersen movie seen previous works subtle acting impressed think portrayal grissom csi shows same knows enough let character shine instead actor shining makes much better actorbr br i cant remember enough poor accents comment must say always enjoyed barbara hershey roles well thought also phenomenal job movie,0
@RawatCentral feeling bad that I made you cry so here's another chance: give me one good reason why I should follow you! ,0
"God I love maternity leave on hot,sunny, lazy, baby having good long sleeps days  long may it last.....",0
why must we continue to say hurtful thing when can we be at peace that s all i ve ever wanted grr,0
@nethrow I love her too! Any version is cool! ,0
want commit redflag feel like loserim  single unemployed without car fear strong fear flying driving wonder going mature woman still feel like teenage girl inside feel hopeless,1
alright bitches whose gonna friend get carried away title im trying get know cool people whats you wanna friends unlessjk unlessjk i,0
mom took playstation away  took virginity whos laughing bitch,0
 and hug@ladypn: &quot;Is there a waiting line to get into Club Blip? ;) &quot; ? http://blip.fm/~7d2a5,0
yea it is so quiet around here cuz everyone ha to work im bored to death with nobody to talk to,0
Just woke up. Have much better in my head ,0
woo. its late! haha  goodnight twitterverse! xoxo,0
@cloroks about damn time! lol  can't wait dear. Hear anything about Ky yet?,0
i m an awful person i treat my friend like trash and they don t care about me which they have the right to do if i died literally everyone i know would be better i m being a dick to my best friend and she still tried to make me feel better why i don t deserve that i wanted to overdose today but my mom doesn t have any pill for me to use i m this close to ending this shit i m pathetic and nobody is worth le than me,1
"Currently listening to The Wolves by Bon Iver, very good.... ",0
evicted,0
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life meaningi understand anything anything makes better anyone else could go beyond life ill hate doing anyone cares mourn temporarily theyll get days months years im weak bodied weak minded since im even bothering post this weak willed whats point anything nothing ill hate either way,1
give award first person comment joke makes laugh write em below fan dark humor get banned pls,0
hugged girl today later virgins no seriously like  years since last time girl hugged me,0
fight your depression with productivity.,1
probably last ever hear meim done cant keep going probably going last post anything fro forever cant keep coping stupid gender dysphoria kd rather dead male body di end responding anything means im weak weak kill  tried living work,1
alone dark think took much music indicator sadness usually music one answering think it oh,1
"@CruzanChoklate man, I kept trying to give him the pass, depression, anxiety, mourning his mother.... nah fam, he done.",1
posting random facts almost everyday till get girlfriend day  exoplanet tresb darkest planet known reflects  light orbits star  days extremely hot gas form titanium oxide orbits star  times closer earth sun,0
"The Home Office rejected and rejected and rejected...I entered a phase of total depression...We told them all this in 2014! Why didn't they listen? Sam, 41 years in the UK from Sierra Leone #HostileEnvironment #LegalAid #IndependentReview #migrantvoices https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2018/apr/25/windrush-scandal-immigration-legal-aid …",1
time favorite thing good thing love argue friends family even though im wrong im trying stop,0
@danceaddicted ehiiiiiiii ,0
my throat is still really sore i wa meant to be going on a day camp from friday but not so sure now,0
lied toi girl talking lied said single back suicidal again,1
lonelywhats point living always alone ive never friend one im  loneliness depressed since  crave love friendship family even know me one cares ask me everyone seems want talk stopped talking completely years example play instruments even know im music all thought someone else beside hang out seems good true one ever come see actually like care see me even changed looks dramatically try attract people lost ton weight got fit got teeth straightened whitened started wearing makeup made good looking one cares try best smile time make eye contact people which hard severe social anxiety one cares dog one seems genuinely happy see every single day hes best friend friend one ever show unconditional love hes shown me enough always alone one share thoughts myself feel like im prisoner solitary confinement strong urge kill self like tonight know impulsive decision strong never feel love connection anyone point living life alone,1
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think gonna final post onlineive anxiety years now ive struggled cope it  year old im new world get it need slow think anyway really given up brother dad abusive know what really wanted love them miss feeling hugged dad brothers voice havent house whats going year first christmas without either them ive lost friends online connections im garbage skill try learn becoming increasingly paranoid think hear voices people dark ive accepted redflag im medicated seretonin never helped first place id rather commit redflag dog dies live heart fuck anxiety fuck antifa fuck school goodbye internet,1
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get final wishes togetherim fairly young  severe suicidal thoughts think im really danger right now im also experimenting medications recently started getting help meds could always cause sudden downturn could sudden downturn own id like leave family final wishes talk directly know theyll overreact assume im immediate danger want that also many friends trust something this definitely cant afford lawyer this anyone ideas help appreciated,1
is a twitter loner,0
scared might make mistake ive thinking it cant say would also cant say wouldnt feel weary point feel like im fooling continue trying make something life grew raised mom im halfwhite halfother mom country made things hard especially south dad physically life emotionally lived less mile away id probably see year constantly told could better son need me close friends like said grew south wrong skin tone generally treated outsider focused school making excel classes teachers praised necessarily help made outsider molested young age ive never told anyone besides one exgirlfriend upon time since then never cared sex kind physical love honest repulsed me girlfriends highschool due unwillingness perform made gay jokestongueincheek course still stung unfortunately stuck cliques ive never told wife this married love much event past feels dirty makes feel unclean im scared share it im afraid shell reject meshe wouldnt im afraid change view me want see victim survivor whatever event want see part all guess im ashamed it say past makes depressed maybe makes bit detached life depressed fact see life getting better depresses me im stuck crap jobi went college scholarships dried really funds support continue neighbors racistcant really move old view world changed now certainly stand chance changing it house almost literally shit feel like real excuses reasons depressed theres overwhelming feeling disconnect weariness makes feel like want go time things stopping wife nephew im pretty sure people life move on im foolish enough say others miss me theyll able recover fear wife would blame herself want leave her makes happy im disconnected guy feel urge continue strongly urge stop nephew two going three probably notice passed soon things wanted teach though wanted make life never poor mine first attempt week ago attempt might right word still think wouldve done honest maybe entertaining thought rented motel room planned taking bottle pillsi know wouldve felt bad hotel staff want wife one find me nephew called right opened bottle knows use cell phone tapping picture person listed case emergency somehow got moms phone hes raised grandma told loved wanted come play wept like baby went home late visited next day think could done day im sure really follow this thought keeps popping head constant urge sleep rest forget get with im scared might make mistake in one moment anger fear depression ill something cant reverse,1
even dream thought killing myselfit felt like one heavy days weight ignored couldnt distract way it chest felt heavy limbs help looked down looking way hide end day people finally end it fairly crowded place could see edge felt like jumping saw her swear ignored me though carefully observed place best part it somebody offered sleep medicine spit first cup drank more suddenly went near held me fake doesnt want caught place anything dont want settle lies im awake limbs hurt carried grom dream feel heaviness enveloping me holds people id rather holding me accidentally gave wound recently knife cooking ive wanting purpose help hope dream better tomorrow,1
nothing interesting thisi dont know site works apologies advance  year old indian male means im ugly even indian standards lol  grades suck talents severe acne scarring nose makes look like fucking retarded orange ive rejected three times girls led months crushed confidence study hard still pass borderline play guitar write music  years still sounds like aural diarrhoea spending fuck tons money acne scar treatment my dad rich im still ugly sin really working dont go result lips kinda fat purse time feel ugly think people staring judging feel inferior even beggars street see well developed features people around supporting kind even parents feel unworthy yesterday embarrassed front entire college went stage guitar played notes froze left feel embarrassed ashamed want die cant go back face anybody tried explain parents want die ready dont feel happy anymore anything havent felt happy years feel embarrassed ugly disappointed want quit please dont pity,1
hey guys im bored talk also sleepy,0
crush anxious wrote message crush like want go date second sent it became anxious deleted oh man like that want know im  going th grade realschule germany comment,0
@rocketman528 have a super day! ,0
friend keeps texting friend keeps texting dont know why tried distancing mix mental health shit messing brain trying move little bit real problem friend fact shes one reached past like year now texted hours ago asking question question isnt important kind like icebreaker tier question well im trying contact anyone didnt respond half hour ago sent another random question dont get it feel like straight asking either wants anything anything else guess really dont understand,0
great voices lots adventure clever dialogue make good movie addition character three lead animals gives story lot depth meaning particularly relationship older fellow shadow young hellraiser chance earlier versions film unable give animals real personality motive done perfectly here sally field lovable anything really shines film proud feline sassy great contrast cat dog perspectives life right amount spirit warm fuzzies make plot resolution excellent theres even uplifting score beautiful mountain scenery definitely perfect evening alone kids hats disney,0
im backyou know shit gets real back rredflagwatch last time guys made comments saying you me you friend pm well talk guys know well much bullshit is guys cheer mental case like move next person even stick around different actually able talk person physically communicate them find setting computer screen desperate attempt get help hoping time different time actually help long run friend,1
finally gangster movie worth watchingbr br jennifer tily get nominated role tough murdering femme fatalbr br this movie flies like bird  fast paced non stop gangster mayhembr br jennifer tily beautiful bad moviebr br i shocked find faye dunaway still lives cast movie fitted roles br br a real cool soundtrack rides along side get swept spanish soul filmbr br the story original deep poeticbr br this flick lot substance never restsbr br the gang spanish fire set everything screen alightbr br damian chapa joy watch movie starbr br sit back enjoy ride,0
genuinely whats fking pointevery day suffering im lonely stupid pathetic whatever insults want throw me go right ahead im already fucked is today found something ive passionate complete waste time ruined im fucking devastated pour soul something wether thats someone love passion friend whatever crushes right front you rips apart fuck get it many ways get one insufferable rest maybe im making sense life make sense even know anymore guess ill die,1
wow crush literally dmed sleep staying up cutest thing ever wanna hug bad nopeee stupid covid,0
would happen diedif killed would able watch friends familys reaction death above,1
doriantaylor i had one outside my patio i named him rex then the gardner took him down rip rex,0
im confused distraught life great recently wife kid rising biologist become professor literally dream two years ago though  year old diagnosed aggressive cancer given year best devastated wife devout catholic atheist difference religion tore us apart sons last days convinced agree familys christian funeral divorced shortly it fell depression bombed interview sleep landed half ass th grade teaching job last year students give two shits it top got laid last day school parents though treated students like shit past week ive thought son like die feel suicidal keep imagining like exist want worse am want talk somebody help put things perspective also want remain anonymous call john,1
man is my depression ever gon na go away i m honestly so sick of this,1
want kiss far long kiss would improve life exponentially,0
else learned gay marriage one behind scenes spongebob dvd talked ridiculous controversy surrounding spongebobs sexuality which confirmed asexual,0
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh skechers agist _ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh make adult light shoes _ disappointing revelation entire life needs get checked refuse wear shoes get light skechers adult sizes _gt,0
about to head over to muvico with @nabil_ismfof ,0
hello everyonei pretty upset recently individual read self helpself love blogs constantly reassure okay people successful love value way are but wanted greedier wanted selfish write fanfiction online years seeing people successful hurts online friend recently started writing well successful am understand petty jealous truly feel lot aspects life honest work school hobbies etc wrong want success conditioned believing good successful whatever equates value worth wrong crave success instantly rather waiting future bring dash success later many blogs said talking fame fortune pat head would nice time time accepting fact people successful and talented painful,1
@Pmakedon813 @Satoranskyisgod @JoeyBats434 @boston73bruins My middle name is depression,1
so last night i wa up for hour trying to reset my sleep schedule since i had been going to sleep around am and waking up around pm i still wasn t that tired last night around 0 pm so i smoked some weed a i usually do every night i started hallucinating while making my bed seeing hand grab for me when i tucked the blanket it i tried to convince myself it wasn t real but i wa really freaking out so i went up stair and tried to just chill and find something to eat at this point my mind is racing and i can t think straight and i m wondering what is wrong with me and that s when i realized my heart wa racing like beating out of my chest i quickly pulled out my stopwatch to take my pulse because lately when i get anxious my heart rate get to about 0 my whole body is shaking and i m trying to count every beat for second but i got to second and my count wa already at 0 the stopwatch on my phone looked like it glitched and my knee went weak i thought i wa going to pas out so i freaked out and ran to my dad for him to take my pulse just in case i wa just buggin and just thought my heart rate wa crazy nope it wa resting at a i laid in my dad bed for about 0 minute shaking and cry i couldn t even get my breathing under control because i wa shaking so bad i couldn t voluntarily move needle to say i m going back on anxiety med sleeping more and never smoking weed again and i m gon na start seeing a cardiologist,1
thoughts starting come backhey reddit sorry wall text recently past  weeks so thought redflag become far stronger ive ever felt before im scared end it dramatic sounds ive come close before written notes driven bridge follow through time though thoughts strong im scared tell anyone want worry me ive emotionally physically abusive relationships since  trapped them everyone went shrugged told stop wimp best friend believed guys lies truths lost loads friends lies ex told feel lovely currently wonderful guy totally understanding told far lives one exs though makes hard forget did told boyfriend full extent though blame still friends guy dad left  since run house mother done much meand want sound ungrateful that puts much pressure me billsupkeeplegal stuff works two jobs keep us afloat though dad pretty much interest life brothers two brothers aspergers im pretty much responsible lives turn out find jobs find college whatever them suffered paranoia past believing people going kill me finally told mum it shrugged off theres many situations like that especially relationships past ignored told want hear it feel like give family much see people time myself provide them work two jobs college lot cope with even see tired think ask more theres things see way out ive told makes feel cant cope care thought ending becoming great really cant see way anymore since  ive telling cant keep dad house care know fix this please help something stupid need find way this thank reading this,1
make stoparghh wish could jump front bus probably cut knowing cant yay woop woop life joy,1
getting first car soon looking lots early s subaru legacys imprezas cars would guys recommend live rural town school part time job situated main highway traffic lights traffic bad weekends friday afternoons amount beaches accessed going town,0
almosti tried first time almost it couldnt tried hanging myself losing conscience snapped reality make it felt good calm vision getting blurrier felt like dream felt horrible scared afterward close yet far scared fucking much think ill anymore cant family arrived after id saved probably made life shittier,1
best friend suicidal idea doim sure right subreddit  am im phone im tired read sidebar figure right place someone tell me past weeks ive talking daily  telling love him care him im him ive promised things get better ive promised want stay promised would support matter decision made im sure knows thats lie recently getting worse day two hes mentioned much wants die  would talk much hurting today mentioned specific method done already made choke know else do feel like im getting nowhere feel like im helping him feel like im repeating time feel like talks becoming less effective it also want ask question  normal feel drained depressed trying help someone actually diagnosed like im sucking life trying give him every day gets worse every day get worse problem feel like talk him one will cant leave him like this need advice,1
heard everytime mention awards sub get tons awards so awards,0
anyone else thisanyone else start something think something kind slump sit nothing thinking whats point,1
my dad died almost one month ago and i feel like no one understand what im going through and expects me to act normal i try everyday to do thing to distract myself but everyday i feel worse sometimes i think im not even cry for my loss i really can t stop when i wake up i cry and then in the night i cried myself to sleep i don t want to be with anyone and at the same time i want to be perceived i don t get what is happening i ve never ever been so sad in my whole life i don t want to live everything i do or try to do for someone seems to be wrong or badly done i have always had good self esteem but now anyone can call me ugly a a joke and i would get mad and think for it for the rest of the day i just want it to stop shit hurt like a mf,1
need people help get mind want drag people me maybe sabotaging deep want get better case ever get better know go anymore even want to cannot alone,1
Avoid anxiety and #depression by knowing these things...  https://www.powerofpositivity.com/common-causes-anxiety-depression/ …,1
@jhaubein Let me know when you're ready to market that Laundry Robot ,0
"This smile cured my depression. <Emoji: Heavy red heart><Emoji: Kissing face with closed eyes>See you, minseokie! <Emoji: Face throwing a kiss>#ctto#ManilaLovesXiumin#ElyXiOnInManila @weareoneEXO <Emoji: Two hearts> pic.twitter.com/JRIuAbxx0g",1
"Might wet myself with the excitement of the day!    Footie, sun, wine, pizza, and Liv!",0
got rejected jobbasically got rejected personality enthusiastic enough reserved truly realize bad introvert actually is selfesteem already completely ruined  year old kissless virgin utterly annihilated truly feel like im worthless allowed live wish somebody would shoot bullet head end misery,1
good night reddit good morning good afternoon simply good day,0
i don t get statistic it all a bunch of mumbo jumbo for me,0
dont know anymorei used lurk here id find solace words said others left got better im not life barely started dont know anymore want happy,1
first relationship ended cant copemy whole life shit one reason another always gone fits starts breakdowns inbetween short periods activityworkfriends trying best work everybody elses best friend needed shat used ive worked ten years depression anxiety awful experiences work never relationship anyone never believed even possible met amazing guy  years ago weve never able make work disintegrating mess cant see anymore shot anyone life waited almost half fucking century first person say i love you im fucked handle it intimacy sex trust cant go rebuilding life time time every years cant anymore im exhausted want die cant stop crying every time start talk gets intense held everything back realise ive lost want kill tonight totally enough edit thanks strangers talked last night im really touched that took bunch valium last night top booze fell sleep straightaway must slept like log good whole nights sleep still feeling shit today thanks,1
 two films released within weeks aliens steven spielbergs et john carpenters thing two them et one hearts people world over even though thing debuted first people entranced spielbergs warm fuzzy feelgood alien fable stayed away thing drovesbr br its hard see why two diametrically opposed one optimistic tale designed warm cockles stillbeating heart harsh uncompromising film paints alien life something purely determined destroy us guess audiences felt et much cuter prospect things tentacles slime coated salivabr br its taken time thing gone win substantial cult audience should thing rare example superior remake takes best qualities  classic reinvents startling imaginative ways indeed carpenter job well actually succeeds making film every inch equal genres showrunner alien thats even rarerbr br carpenters film follows source material faithfully thing another world did keeps frigid wastes antarctica setting perfect backdrop trying establish heightened sense isolation although bit thin characterisation remake gets right inside mindset actors amplifies uncertainty fear slowly surrounds thembr br frequent carpenter collaborator kurt russell returns hot success escape new york cast one carpenters perpetual antiheroes plays macready helicopter pilot antarctic research station what theyre researching anyones guess trouble begins norwegian chopper nearby station flies macreadys trying gun siberian husky airbr br they end dying troubles camp tries solve mystery happened take husky add own except husky husky all shapechanging alien norwegians discovered frozen ice thawed out massacred crew capable absorbing victims will duplicate living right smallest detail soon paranoia suspicion works way man crew noone certain human notbr br the thing one john carpenters finest films fact im tempted say best film hes ever made even surpassing classics like halloween dark star reason place thing top carpenters list feels like last film could truly called classic others thereafter felt like carpenter slumming it films flow cool sophistication ragged intensity prevalent earlier worksbr br but thing john carpenter peak powers never generated suspense unbearable degree even ferocious assault precinct  second alien makes presence known carpenter ratchets tension level relentlessly delivers punches come agonising joltbr br the film blend pure atmospherics visceral horror approach often seem odds one another carpenters hands melds together beautifully bringing rob bottin howling fame lays bear astonishing transformation effects ever see horror film amorphous shapes halfformed human features starkly contrasted gaping jaws spider legs fully flexible tentacles indeed films effects amazing squirminducing thing came fire realisticbr br that type thinking misses point entirely shortchanges films values many carpenter stages effects setpiece needs to films quieter moments seems especially attuned story thing often bewildering tale shadows whispers implications characterisation never one john carpenters strong suits works advantage thing hardly know anything cast makes present situation much confusing were never certain one moment next who this thing holds well maintains mystery subsequent viewingsbr br a special mention go excellent film score ennio morricone pulsing thud thud every two seconds creates eerie spooky feeling hard shake whole film wonderful exercise paranoid manipulation scene bloodtest see whos human wound dexterity carpenter may find biting nails without even realisingbr br the thing pure unadulterated classic even ending leaves vague suspicion everything resolved underrated film well worth reappraisal received much better et,0
anyone else shit hair im dude long hairits like  inches long basically touches shoulders throw one side thats itits messy hell dont really mind im wondering im one,0
deserve diemy life past year confusing eye opening awful much dont deserve people things around life cant handle emotions going back forth time feeling like overcome world knowing go nowhere life worst part wont stop bitching it need shut go,1
happiness fakenever experienced it seems like used feel important others special,1
hey chavalesme presento soy un chaval de madrid espaay creado esta cuenta pues supongo que para desahogarme algo asi xd se apetecia hacerme esta cuenta v contaros mis cosas que la verdad son una mezcla entre suicidas graciosas xd,1
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give reasons keep living idk im trynna find some list replies pls,0
trigger warning for the last few week i ve been getting random burst of anxiety almost like a panic attack is about to come on when i m out for dinner with friend in work or sometimes even when i m alone i ve dealt with anxiety panic attack in the past and it went away for a while i can t pin point anything that s triggering it since i ve cut out caffeine etc it seems to come on when i become hyper aware of my own existence and that i m here on earth lol idk how else to explain it i have been drinking twice a week maybe this could be causing it i m not sure it s annoying because i m trying to share valuable time with people and this ha been getting in the way it s making me annoyed at myself and i m trying to not beat myself up over it i wa out for dinner earlier tonight with somebody i ve been dating and had to excuse myself to take a breather i explained to him when i came back that i felt a bit anxious and he wa super empathetic and explained it happens to him sometimes too doe anybody know any technique to counteract a panic attack i tried breathing exercise but i d be open to trying anything else if anyone ha any advice,1
know anymore able go like thisi even know say here absolutely destroyed now even know start absolutely nothing right genuinely feel like dying now seen family  years due political reasons away wife whos one stop killing myself poor literally choose days week eat on cant get job due country rules live in stuck clinical depression able afford real help friends whatsoever completely destroyed tried everything tried making fiverr get money mental illness tried borrowing people know ever tried gofundme nothing working out honestly cant go much longer need help know find it literally cant find reason stay alive anymore,1
slaughter high totally ridiculous slasher flick high school nerd martywho gets pick time prankstersthe prank goes wrong ends getting savagely burnedfive years later tormentors attend reunionjust ten courseand low behold marty murders one anotherbritish actress caroline munromaniacleads cast heroinewho dies anywaythe acting completely awfultheres also suspense allplenty grotesque death scenes satisfy gorefreaksa guys stomach explodesanother female victim literally gets acid batha couple sex bed get electrocuteda guy crushed tractorone girl drownedand doctor gets hyperdermic needle eyethe killer wears decent rather creepy jesters mask settinga beautiful old english castleis really nicehowever dream finale utterly patheticall true slaughter high piece garbagebut enjoyed itonly fans truly bad slasher flicks,0
yeah im pretty boredso fresh highschool cant help feel like ill probably never good time here really feel like ever job certainly interests seems like ill grow old die internal struggle vain like seem reward anything im certainly counting afterlife see anyone actually cares anything indifference led family resent me im pretty tired letting everyone down really feel like going college either point think kill myself born sure kind trap guys sometimes cry lot for reason think may aspergers kind robotic disorder,1
Good morning tweeps! Day 2 begins now! Wish me luck! ,0
cant eat drink or breath thanks to the bad throat infection,0
shouldnt advocating teenagers post pictures skirts big website alot creeps advocating giving awards posts increases chance pedophiles seeing it im body positivity wearing want matter gender however place place post nature site post instagram page thats ok people know would see unless set public however  year old man browse new see dozens underage boys girls skirts im trying tell anyone do im trying help stay safe frens tldr dont advocate post skirt cause pedos here,0
think found song describe every redditor live  wrecks also good listen it,0
sometimes want somone beat murder im sensitive myselfi know theres people would it sickens also think seeking feel cowardly hurt myself feel cant punish kill everything also need punished weak kill myself cycle sometimes thought sometimes gets close feeling impulsive im scared could actually contact someone one day go it also makes want prove wrong power shoot instead looks easy parents guns lying around house everytime see get scared could easily do it look ive picked handgun before scary feel im impulsive enough know happen one day either fall weak let someone else it,1
id like take easy way others wayim totally fed life come to feel like loser still living parents  unemployed im stuck place little opportunity spain find job temporary bad pay rate demotivates even more besides already burnt stage days go mental health deteriorates more feel trapped alone know people around dont want bother issues results isolation im gym hour day stay shape spend remaining room alone thoughts contemplated redflag however want put parents ordeal need help need someone talk to dont know get either please help tip iceberg,1
think curse family realized much bad stuff happening family lately like night great grandfather heart attack still hospital week found grandfather aggressive prostrate cancer think spread hips aunt uncle newborn baby covid great uncle aunt covid mom covid think something wrong eye anyone cure this,0
latest entry long series films french agent oss  the french answer james bond series launched early s spawned least eight films none ever released us osscaironest spies breezy little comedy notrepeat not taken seriously protagonist finds middle spy chase egypt with morroco stand egypt find long lost friend follows standard james bondinspector cloussou kind antics although man something overt xenophobesexisthomophobe treated pure farce as said take seriously although bit rough language  cartoon violence basically okay older kids ages   up previously stated subject line sit backpass popcorn  enjoy,0
Watching season 4 of Weeds. Almost half way throug!  the con is over tomorrow and i get to come home!  it was fun but I miss my bed!,0
hard value one else does wish could disappeari want here,1
believe sixty percent voters voted show ten hell rating five point eight impossible get it totally pathetic mean how anyway show great story great characters interesting definitely ten ten think creatures cool look great wish nimrod great show great cgi hope theres second series lot went unanswered first season nimrod gonna get bigger rest creatures huge rating low votes high br br ,0
nb go brrrr yk sometimes female friend groups like one gay guy thats basically honorary girl male friend groups tomboy thats basically honorary guy yeah im,0
enough drugs house kill memy parents found ive cutting isolated friends really want kill itd easy drugs could get drunk take id dead weird thought,1
keep mind thismost post listen due fact give get facts change positive way,1
I Love my church  ,0
uk looking friends hey im person hopefully read this friend something please,0
enjoyed film finished still makes think it believe jeremy brett brilliant role although death acting little top jeremy brett mindbr br this good piece drama follow oscar wildes novel closely enjoy film recommend also watch an ideal husband jeremy brett lord goringbr br this film gives great insight oscar wildes way thinkingand watching viewer reminded way dorian grey lord alfred bosie douglas basil halward oscar wilde,0
tombot never mind it didn t work anyway,0
@lourdesdonis hahahaha you need TLC / Tender Love and Care ,0
anyone else wanted minecraft since like  never got it idk parents never got minecraft want spending money video games fine wondering anyone else kinda craved minecraft never it,0
today best dayi feel like crap getting piled non stop today need vent risk hurting myself book incoming younger years selfish asshole much teenage daughter barely knows me entirely fault things happened way definitely partially blame head messed up ive thought taking meds able get control aged recently trying figure father teenage daughter dosent know me figured great first step pay insurance daughter live wisconsin daughter washington insurance working well all said head messed up  sure daughter brain meds insurance said getting that  months ago went honor roll drop out switch schools attempting redflag twice admit daughters mom could lying sign away rights even point view seen personality changes acts like young teen now feel like let things happen let someone else adopt my daughters ex husband may end dead hand bluff cant afford wrong on clearly brain damaged version sometimes struggle sucide tried talk wife nope concerned phone ex never commit sucide bad days like wife nags excessively especially today habbit thats slowly getting worse today though happens new level wendsay stepmom brother said going stop weekend mind all dad passed year ago spending time two important normal right always important even dad alive since heard nothing complaining i clean everything never get help tuesday night worked overtime wednesday work loads laundry today nothing got surgery nuts would ran house today dizzy that would drove away piece quiet im diving still little drugged up dad killed drunk year ago im risking it tldr fuck,1
going thru town and traffic on bypass is stink,0
LOL OMG @MissKeriBaby replied back to me out of all ppl!! THX ,0
wonder iter became wonder iter became french nuclear fusion reactor construction really see anything know isits basically nuclear reactor except use fusion instead fissionthat prevents exploding easily fueled uses molecules find water im wrong know projects like countries like russia usa remember name know anything recent it guess may pandemic guys bit tech nerds idk sure lets talk comments idk writing ,0
life the rest are society pressure and those are partially playing a big role in causing depression hence the losing life of many men those thing actually depress,1
it wa in hope someone would come over she ghosted 0 minute after telling me she wa on her way to hang out it s been maybe hour i wa going to shrug it off but it only added to my low mood the last couple day i don t even know why i keep my hope up anymore,1
emptyi made alt person life knows regular account gives fuck look it ive long frank conversation guess ex gf better part decade feels future together felt way long time trust wanted get close her called getting close maintains im clingy crush boundaries put some creative boundaries constantly seem run afoul them thing is cant enumerate ive trounced them ive trying hard fuck let friend die cancer could look decided quit eating him busy nursing melancholy even thanks understanding viewpoint just nothing feel empty too like suffer more laboring delusion ive carrying mm round pocket  months now told threw away may still need it always think using it lately seems remedy pain mind agony body slowly failing heart busted little pieces ive tried nothing left give took offered threw rest trash wish shed tried least front going let wear trying now temptation step back blow top head seems like last option like ive ground down sequestered friends trying something her let think wanted hate feeling stupid thats feel anymore fuck maybe x parabellum clear mind hate leave mess porch shell space,1
I've decided to battle depression with physical fitness.,1
thinkeri feel like might petty others keep thinking life late i amazing gf back broke mutual terms going alot text broke still friends kind added depression job well fun went hell  feel tho friends family far close use  hang one bestfreinds would tell give face aggg sorry thinking much shows facewhat im saying feel like would easier end day day think impact would ppl around,1
ohdatsbeezy don t mind at all behind on my follows,0
hawkmansworld some random person on twitter not hurting anyone bvs helped with my depression match why bvs killed my dog and you should feel bad,1
DA just told Katie that he wished he would have asked me out when he was in college. Not knowing i was here.  Awe ,0
it s tuesday the su couldn t sleep last night btw orange juice right after brushing one teeth with cinnamon toothpaste yuck,0
is going to toe-tally clean up the house - bathroom - kitchen - bedroom and all. ,0
hadtobeyou i m at 900 word it s all can do i ll finish tomorrow maybe,0
@the_beth thanks. have fun ,0
someone bonk late,0
idk dothis whole covid xmas thing making anxiety depression much much much worse wanted ldr boyfriend visit aince march cat got ill cant mix  households wales mu suicidal thoughts definitely got worse idk,1
Bout to hit the sack...got shit to do tomorrow. Happy mothers day MOM! ,0
finally decided to give it a try wish me luck,1
feel annoying like gaslight to me since i wa born i just like to do thing alone but recently i went to see a lot of doctor for a thing that happened to me and all of them did not helped they said i only had anxiety and i needed therapy they did not cure my infection fortunately i had a last doctor that heard me and believed and wanted to help after year ha passed this is annoying my mother also since i wa born spent 0 000 eur on therapy because she believed i had social anxiety because i did not wanted to go to school i wanted to work at a young age so she though wa something wrong with me i am a very calm person if i do not like to talk about tik tok dance that is not my problem,1
im  death away hitting  top life stressor one year im figuring may well mine complete setadd severe depression lifetime struggle failure led here left job hated last september getting fire could get unemployment wanted work since depression wasis bad enough marriage ending im bought half home sent way behavior bad hurtful woman loved cant forgive cant deal anymore got medication time late fix this exwife already boyfriend dumping come back never come back notated do relationship wise never walks path twice path over let go long time ago hiding suffering trying protect her let go too nothing do go one love one love way either acquaintances friends family useless tell devil somehow fairy tale bullshit cant help therapy feels worthless feel better talking pro right now option worse ending feeling better abhor idea cant meet ok continuing live ive done without her even worse somehow actually happy without her person exist think allow it tminus  days approximately everything final officially im sure want make  hours longer love im longer responsibility ive already come several plans signed dead man switch started working letter auto send do hell hit  stressors one year,1
cry help loud want doesnt work ones listeningi want hurt badly communicate pain one listening want slash open every blood vessel cover every inch house blood want scream vomit want break every one bones hammer smash teeth in one see besides paramedics one want care care need someone see pain care it,1
know whats really sad weeks ago camp hanging supposedly straight guys supposed sleep tent playing around acting gaylike which appreciate since im gay im like okay everything fine topic gays came up dude like think gays expected positive answers considering acting night instead got worst possible results ever agreed belong hell moment heart broke why wtf wrong them slightly tried hint arguments statement slightly accidentally myself avail quickly moved another topic atmosphere getting quite heavy day still act gay tbh im kinda attracted one guy occasionally gives hugs tells pick lines then tell one back instant keep head im pretty sure straight thats dilemma dont know actually gay hard read guys acting gay idk every guy high school acts gay least cant read back anyway please send help guy doesnt want leave mind hes got cute funny great hugger cute funny great personality feel like wanna forever person made felt way since previous rejection help im trying keep options god fucking damn it gay hard ,0
birthday coming up spent anyone everi never girlfriend steady job go outside put ear plugs on post online interact people online bought rope thinking driving car wilderness hanging myself parents siblings care world keep spinning introvert,1
something going outside nice nature warm weather bicc shitty unmaintained roads da smell fresh asphalt nice smell better drugs smell local tributary u ride ur bicc hill smell warm air u ride downtown sounds nature  pm summer cars road quiet road jeans shitty shirt idk walking random sewer listening juice wrld artists forgot ampxb feels better sitting chair playing videogame,0
wanna kill girl ever likes back im uglyi wanna die girl ever going like back im ugly idk wanna cry,1
im going iti enough money right would go heroin shoot whole bag im gonna wait til come cash im going going prison court morning one case atleast  seperate charges im going get hit soon probably adding years wife filed divorce  weeks ago living moms trying lose hope  kids age  trying stay sober positive for cant anymore im done,1
comfort someone whensomeone know committed redflag barely knew person acquaintances best im really apathetic person find hard relate people friend need comfort help please help,1
feel like im spiraling controlive depressed now time something could push get over since sudden death mother two years ago feels like everything getting uncontrollable im fairly decent putting show letting out im told recently getting harder put face every day especially deep thoughts ending all used pop head occasionally time span increasingly getting shorter im hard time keeping emotions check im starting fear may depressed quickly mood change ive harmed point nearly breaking hand thoughts turned i could it i could like this feel like one would really bothered it would would bothered feel like should actually would be friends im stuck dead end job even get half recognition deserve im quickly reaching point burden entire family want get that know do anyone talk to im completely lost,1
ilearn is down and out great considering final are this week,0
for starter i ve suffered from ocd my entire life thing such a having to touch thing with both hand in the same spot counting making sure the volume is on even number hair pulling etc etc i ve never had the physical side effect of anxiety though from what i understand ocd is classified a an anxiety disorder two month ago i had my first ever panic attack after smoking too much weed and my life ha been hell ever since it wa the first time i ve experienced panic such a the burning in the chest the sinking feeling in the stomach the fear that something is wrong the problem is that ever since that panic attack started i ve been stuck in a state of panic and my brain is doing it obsessively constantly using the panic neural pathway in the brain this is what i figured and how my psychiatrist explained it also so i ve basically been stuck in a never ending panic attack for two month and it ha ruined my physical and mental health i have a rush of adrenaline and sinking feeling in my stomach every second for no reason at all my brain is just very obsessive an it keep activating the panic button i can t control it either it won t stop no matter what i do my mouth is always dry and i feel on edge and over stimulated my joint hurt all the time and the worst thing is my ability to heal ha been drastically shut down my joint and muscle don t heal from wear and tear anymore so i ve been bed ridden i ve tried ssri benzos antipsychotic etc and nothing ha helped at all some thing may help me cope and deal with it better but nothing stop my brain from constantly panicking i ve been looking into assisted way to end my life a i can t imagine the rest of my life being in a permanent panic attack this is no way to live anyways i need to know if anyone ha dealt with something similar and if there s any way for me to get out of constant fight or flight thank you tldr my brain learned how to panic and it s obsessively hitting the panic button for no reason,1
help lmfao im texting girl knows got relationship yet keeps giving real big fucking hints likes flirting shit dont know without rude like shes cool barely talk kinda weird idk,0
want someone know becquse noone life ever seems notice always trail doutinh even know live anymore want one life hurt die want hurt die aways hated getting hirt hurting others know do one whocannot cry always want bad never able listen sad music see works never even supposed live anympre,1
no body ever reply to me,0
im gonna im gonna kill cant put nuts mouth,0
anxiety attackso didnt sleep night morning go father buy food get energy drinks try every time go buy fod someone get panic attack every time go alone fell like every body watching ext whe entrer good whe go drinks buy whiskey beer ext father go pick something place looking energy drinks alone girl behind starts talk saying dont buy st discont next week didnt know say start think works ask discont answers yes discount wanted one  drinks fell nervous pick also dont pick would fell also impotent leave father reches whe leave father ask talking say girl looks suprise fuck whe leaving see car start think dont work say haplend dad says hiting like nahh says big men laughting felt bad thinking im shit talking pressure fell pressure times talking girl hiting fucked realy bad like even hit me something good happends,1
grumpy old baronet happily unmarried decides send three grownup illegitimate children provide home manor surprise finds bonding uninhibited american daughter find satisfaction new role bachelor fatherbr br this  film gives robust performance marked arrival mgm elderly sir c aubrey smith soon one hollywoods valuable character actors great hooked nose  beetling brows sir aubrey looked every inch part duke general statesman would play often acknowledged leader british community hollywood sir aubrey would also champion game criquet southern california would remain much demand studios town right death br br the films topbilled star marion davies best remembered today mistress media mogul william randolph hearst  chatelaine hearst castle fabulous residence west coast actually talented  pretty comedienne years hearst attempted make queen mgm with production company  huge bungalowdressing room studio already several queens  dressler garbo shearer crawford  eventually moved warner bros miss davies gets chance joke  clown scenes sir aubrey entertainingbr br her love interest played ralph forbes handsome young british actor starting find good films the trail  silent days ended qualities major stardom sadly be celebrity would come ray milland making one first screen appearances halliwell hobbes  doris lloyd also appear advantage,0
"I just feel like crying, when I see all the new movies I GOT!!! Yes..oh yeah ",0
im doneim ready it ive enough life everything hurts much cant even move seriously want die theres nothing live anymore im alone fucking alone world isnt meant me dont place here cant anything im worthless piece shit cant stand anymore im ready go,1
magnitude stalingrad tragedy concisely presented end note movie in battle stalingrad one million people killed action froze death died starvation russians romanians italians hungarians germans austrians  surrounded men sixth army o taken prisoners  returned homeland years laterbr br what story tell fieldmarshall paulus surrendered share hardship captivity men special treatment highest ranking prisonner taken soviet army when presence nuremberg trials asked fate  prisoners declared fine freed war died east germanybr br the film presents first part tragedy actual battle stalingrad however entire picture fate  prisonners also forgotten,0
reason complain yet feel like shit time long remember never felt quite right feel empty never really see point living hate alive deal world tried killing before life fun every day seems worse last  years remember time truly happy thing keeps going something another suicidal friend told me might well stick around see anything cool happens im always waiting looking nothing ever though tried crazy things make life meaningful traveling multiple sex partners great relationships readingeducation social butterfly internshipsjobs etc nothing works though usually get bored tiredi would rather spend whole day laying eating anything,1
man google way late like supposed compliment  sent  am im gonna break google brb,0
well done well done guys guys keep posting boys skirts pictures banned,0
Listening to @joshfullermusic... it's awesome!!!   Link: www.dirtanddiesel.com. check um out!,0
keep bad intrusive thoughts killing sister killing myselfthese thoughts come around couple times month im scared may act one day,1
found ammo box no messing around drugs knives actually kill now best part missed anyone,1
@runnrgrl thanks  ill tweet updates,0
We are driving over water !! On our way to westkapelle !! Dem a bleach ,0
come posts get  comments get none serious people made feel even suicidal thanksi see lot posts getting least  comments mine got one suicidal ideation serious thank sub making feel even alone pushing suicidal thoughts,1
"Wow! I have a twitter! Weets  I'm new here, guide me along(:",0
today th birthday someone please say happy birthday comments,0
"You gta love that cnt eat, cnt sleep feeling in your gut that makes your heart skip a beat ",0
fuck lifewhy born didnt ask shit that im ugly dumb poor please whatever whoever please take me thats ask,1
hurtingis someone talk,1
@jordanknight @donniewahlberg Give us ATL ladies some hints! Where ya at!? ,0
raise one eyebrow itself women please one one  ftdfzguxucuhzgftigzfgcivhigvudrqaq  edf ggixivob week egg egg th tv guide school time car call convenience school time car phone mom going point get ride airport side road like  school time time want days seeing posts facebook,0
return jedi often remembered wrong rather right shame last chronological installment star wars saga shining example epic storytelling manages wrap story lines previous movies one grand finale convincinglybr br yes ewoks  cute cuddly bears arguably served broaden star wars demographic  middle movie tends slow bit final hour arguably best piece entire saga luke finally comes face face darth vader recognizable villain movie historybr br return jedi many things right people tend overlook presented incredible conclusion darth vader storyline which went slightly implausible empire strikes back convincing here exciting opening jabbas palace masterful performance ian mcdiarmid emperor luke finally coming own resolution solo leias romance extremely powerful final moments endor moonbr br yes slight annoyances annoyances generation moviegoers whove time nitpick every single scene still magical moving piece cinema also serves great final chapter good movie  fantastic,0
thing scares myselfdont know anyone else feels biggest danger myself id describe chill asf generally happy one personalities resonates lot people personalities gone gonna really long road get back guess could say im improving slowly theres two sides me side let people see thats happy chill dark side moods change lot bc periodic form depression dark side scares comes goes scary movies dont even scare anymore ive seen worse shit head satan could front would give flying fuck ive imagined itd like hang myself dangling pass out body starts convulsing finally silence im slowly spinning family finds morning mom screaming agony bc sees sons lifeless expression rope tightly squeezed around neck fucked shit think about huh see shit like time honestly dont think ill ever stop seeing depression mental like cant control it could start feel shitty im typing this people think hell place cant reach die thats true everyday wake another day hell im search help already know got fucked shit going ive already started taking steps try improve quality life like getting therapist stuff know moment mind could flip switch could end hanging rafter room thats scares me didnt know anyone else thinks enemy like moment could like fuck shit im out,1
hot deadline,0
my website is down,0
funny people life colleague looks acts exactly like kensuke aida shiftleader planned want get cozy come on seriously take moment appreciate fact work someone looks acts exactly like that lmao,0
going to look for curtain,0
ones loveto wife im sorry mental illness hurt you never deserved broken man husband brothers im sorry big brother strong enough bare burden life you again two always better me mother im sorry baby boy grew depressed failure energy wasted me never repay it grandmother im sorry golden grandbaby lost shine unyielding love barely reaches stone cold heart family im sorry faded away im sorry better friends im sorry friend deserved lot left honestly cant blame you reading this im sorry wasted time problems hope stronger am succeed failed climbing debt potential homelessness matter time now better me reddit faith all ive ever faith myself,1
i m not financially stable enough right now to afford a therapist but my anxiety is really bad and since i m going into university soon i need to get over it really soon can i just do exposure therapy by myself like throw myself out there and just hope for the best and possibly have multiple panic attack,1
remember reading original balzac story college frenchbr br i remember ken nordine wgntv chicago reading one late night showsbr br always loved story never believe could would make movie it surprise wellbr br few balzac stories lend dramatization unfortunate cat lover am always hoping would filmed without lot hollywood sexing up close perfect conversion could donebr br the theater mind always better eye see close think come letting imagination reading meet reality seeing,0
"@laura_corbeth @Headgames66 Are you doing anything nutritionally? Depression is multi-faceted - physical, mental, emotional, spiritual. There are things that can be done on all levels. I hope you are geting help to deal with it. <Emoji: Thumbs up sign (medium light skin tone)>",1
losing fighti feel worthless alone want burden friends family attempted redflag december found late nothing live for wish would over please help me,1
After witnessing so much injustice and suffering eventually that leads to depression,1
first day back mediocre lets make tomorrow better ok want less megathiccc nice people less spam less politics,0
in the big city he wa in depression and now please just look at his face this is the face of freedom this is the face of a big relief this is the face of an islander he always had been a mirror of our emotion and now seeing him like this just warms my heart,1
reddit going kill tomorrow nighti cant bring jump height want anything dramatic like slit wrists throat anything going draw lot attention opted counter sleep pills vodka come boxes  know  shops visit get  they sell one box time im probably going take l vodka concern im either going survive complete vegetable end incredible pain submit it resulting trip emergency room also thinking leaving note things complicated think make things painful leave behind premeditdated months now spur moment descision never tried anything like before so guess im asking likely succesfully end life going cause big mess,1
im tiredfirst all english native language sorry im female late twenties ive never boyfriend never kissed anyone obviously never sex im ugly lonely living parents cant afford rent feel really miserable disgusting feel every person would throw disgust touching maybe even seeing me im diagnosed schizophrenia really hard cant believe myself feel like im alone even head everything unreal on cant stand it tried different meds quit them want fight anymore im tired world better without me everyone would happy im chicken kill myself guess ill let illness kill me maybe one day ill kill spontaneously know im little sad ill never loved ill never live someone love ill never feel safe home my parents really abusive cant anymore thank reading lt,1
whats opinion enbys enby means non binary person case dont know want know peoples opinions,0
know huge accomplishment ive able get back road try again frustrating making much progress id like really miss independent free anyone tips id love find someone relate overcome fear,1
This shit lamee foreal lmaO ? but hey .. follow me ,0
posting till get girlfriend day  reasons would good bout friend  love talk  im asshole new peeps  im gaming movies tv shows internet,0
"I'm so sick. I have fever and cough. FYI, I don't have anything worse than that. Will be resting for a week before going back to school. ",0
doneenglish language all typos grammar fuck ups care today good day visit sea traveld h get there stayed time back home anyway want explain everything day starts  top  shit relived nur loaded gun here would dead one understand people want spend time  clusterfuck person annoying ugly dumb best part start new job soon  cant imagine therapist reach to  well fact accept it fuck hell  care anymore  want delete  done really done,1
groups like sanctioned redflagjust wondering,1
u lost baby girl god hate fucking movie,0
whats favorite food im tryna catch jewish poo guy,0
@cheomitII @ETVPod @thoughtspctrum I'm pretty sure if someone had exposed me to that term and explained what it meant I could have avoided alot of unnecessary mental/emotional isolation and depression. It's an extremely useful term. I wish you could see the importance and nuance that it really does convey.,1
I've got a black eye of a soulMorals in a hole Wish I was still dead But the tv said it's just a tropical depression,1
i hate things past dont know stop hating it damage already done want kill dont want hurt people care about do,1
I've been sleeping late again. And a bit of depression is creeping again.  I just hope it won't be another episode. #worried,1
"???, ???????? 30?? ??????? ? Subway.???-??? ",0
playing game at home my new bos didn t call me yet,0
"@amberback Well if you get a big enough tractor... I'm really amused by you on a tractor, I just don't believe it. ",0
guys little sister knows smoke weed  going stuff idk mustve saw used filters rolling papers like you traitor stuff like asthma acting up honestly really annoyingfunny parents already know smoke mainly started got stash probably figured out plug school still sometimes go stash im running really low moral story keep trash trash also never told parents ik know,0
grandpas hospital pains arm hyperventilating drove er stay night doctors think hell fine theres still little bit anxiety hanging back head,0
"Rode from Faulconbridge to Penrith at 8:00pm - 10pm today. Never riden that far down the mountains before, especially not at night. ",0
and now im eating it ,0
"@djenvy LMFAO!  Mommy knows best hunny.  And every woman needs Louis and Gucci sweetie, its like a right  LOL.",0
still prefer films focusing human relationships  birch street must seebr br by training spotlight family block covers terrain offlimits filmmakers explores common often unspoken family dynamic without resorting hyperbole sensationalism fact film deceptively low key outset br br in addition providing probing look one family  and extension every family  block also chronicled specific period recent history know intentional unavoidable due archival contentbr br highly recommended,0
is going to be flying to turkey in a couple of hours ,0
anyone know much xanaxi need take od im going like sister did thank you,1
really want someone speak honestly totheres nobody life trust anymore talk to ive got fairly long story feel like writing once came group friends care me parents would rather use say ammo other brother told kill myself know much longer ill able take this,1
hell yeah im cutting fuck yes cant wait bleed haha gonna fun stuff still sit around know one really cares me yeaaaahhh fuck fuck wanna cut wanna die badly dont like really dont fuck idc im gonna cut,0
emptydont lie gets better dosnt always idc passes pain onto someone else dont fucking lie love me cant love stranger met internet,1
feeling low good outcomewhen feel bad usually come real account tend help people today really even feel good enough that  years old birthday september currently financial distress single big house myself basically work commission base salary counted barely survived closed deal unforeseen circumstances even closed get paid might sound bad suppose represent years salary also company took hit cant even pay base salary also got debt trying survive spent  amex company expenses never returned still slight chance might get money end month get it would mean able make payments money even gas food first time paid rent amex might send bill collection agency damaging credit terribly finally postponed tax declaration october since suppose get money pay them know might happen kids wife even dog curse bless bless would like suffering me time feel lonely see goal family disappears day really hate worked hard risked much yet nothing show thinking buying gun blow brain out would like nobody blame death feel like deer front pair headlights paralyzed car comes closer closer,1
ok title says sister trying set friend couple months now til recently refused even entertain idea slightly full decade younger me sister thinks im stupid letting age difference make mind me point huge fight christmas refused budge recently however bringing friend around lot me sister husband get along really well hang least   weekends month usually get know girl realizing sister adamant it almost eerie much common,0
@skatagb @bitchywolfhard Oh my god youre right<Emoji: Crying face> im so sad i need a depression nap now,1
going to make a thai red curry this week as well.   i looove thai red curry.,0
ever send nude yes send dont send yes dont,0
need help friend best friend suicidal dont know help family abusive narcissistic would punish found it help him,0
teens think school shootersserial killers cool please go commit die,0
 year old manon rainy afternoon wife suggested go see women reading reviews thought might lead afternoon nap wrong movie held interest start finish great finally see meg ryan looking super again lets face meg looks much better long hair annette benning looked different every scene in candice bergen showing age carrie fisher daughter molly exceptionally acted young indiai able understand dialog tough many current films due rapid speech cloris leachman woman finland terrific housekeepers extend regular duties nyc scenes nice see oh bette midler short role usual terrific gave chick flick  guys go see even eye candy like eva mendes disappoint,0
"@showingmyassets Smiling in accord, in Texas ",0
alicayaba so cuuute hey i miss you na it not the same not seeing you girl everyday,0
really would survived always before gone three four days without eating single thing dozens occasions last fifteen years fine guy wonderful helped great deal felt like intentional attempt act like burdensome charity case know,1
so i live in a small country in asia in this country it s like if you love someone you get a bad reputation your mom or dad is shamed at school if their kid is caught dating someone who doe that and our phone are also being checked by the school to see if we disturb a girl or are in a relationship with them the parent here are like you can date after being married xd so yeah i am very annoyed and sad about the fact that i can t love someone cuz of these,1
wtf last night ok morning woke pyjamas fence outside house naked bed,0
how do i make it in life when i know everything i literally know everything when it come to human nature you see i m a very observant person and i dislike human but i m a human and have human nature in me so wtf do i do guy who are taller with bigger dick get the girl while you re just here with nothing you see i want to not give a fuck about chick but what do i do you see i m with inch i m so insecure that i injured my dick jelqing wa and now but plz don t try you probably get hurt i m still little hurt but it doesn t bother me luckily i m healed not fully but it s doesn t bother me much just a slight feeling that you learn to ignore you see what i mean i m fucked up i see everything i ve been in many people shoe the best basketball player the tallest in school and when i wa younger short and chubby with nobody liking me but i feel a though i m still not enough because they re guy with more than me and since girl only like me because i m with inch she s gon na like the guy 9 with 9inches more than me then the guy foot with 0 inch all i m saying is life fucking suck as it all off of appearance you see i m good looking you might say well don t you have a girl friend that s the problem i can t even find a girl i could have in the past and i should have but i wa too fucking stupid to take advantage of life when you re too busy thinking of all the bullshit in the world and how everybody is fake i feel a though people only like me for certain thing and since they re people in the world who have more than me i will never be able to win this race it s like everything is off of appearance you can t choose what you re born like you can t choose your family you can t choose anything physical appearance in life it s like a video game we all player and are selected random character you try to detach yourself a a human being but you d ant escape human instinct i ve tried and keep trying why can t i ever come to a point where vagina doesn t matter money or competing i used to be real and tell myself that all the time when i wa younger but a you grow older and see the truth of this reality it s a very sad one it s like when you get told santa wasn t real except it s with life everything you thought a a youngin turnt out to not be what it seemed it s like i m a alien observing everyone s else action and re action wa a good kid but all the sudden i grow older and a demon is in me porn is partially start of my demon then social medium is also traumatic everybody is dirt is this game we call life shittiest virtual reality ever i m just tired of competing but when i dont complete they laugh like i m a bum and lazy how can i try when i dont wan na play this ficking game,1
weird practice redflagseems strange like gesture know keep trying find right pressure points block carotid artery jugular vein least amount discomfort decide actually strangle myself ugh,1
guys guys guys realized lego marvel super heroes xbox one came  years ago hell im older thought,0
http twitpic com y s9 he only reminds me of him because he doesn t wash his hair that s all gross i know,0
bitches really thinking arent cute think arent cute ima say wrong fam ur cute thats final,0
bruh yall failing english yall speak english,0
tiredi seriously know much time care have everyday takes something me nothing it im fucking tired tired slog tired frustration tired loneliness end come next month finally end all listen try talk down people care want help care gratification life something tolerated die anyway im done,1
@CGigandet I agree! I'm sick of hackers everywhere ,0
maybe soon maybe next week end it im stucknow months almost everyday kind thoughts end all one wants me soon worthless masters degree real friends family job probably never have real working skills  years self learning studying software engineering recently got interested hacking one wants hire me even making coffee well could economy stuff every week made pact self win lottery kill self never done it graduation closer closer options getting fewer seems anything offer anyone job people true know shit im social able anything weeks get depressed something always im visiting student health center sent away always saying time room public health center says go student center you responsibility thanks lot fuck them feel really leave city even country find something worth living would again job money place go im really stuck here whats point keep living one cares wants care make much sense since im hysterical crying slept much recently,1
suffer deserve itim lonely always lonely treat people mechanisms cope loneliness is course turns away me also often want talk people all intentionally pushing away so deserve lonely see people disgusted people like me deserve too relationships friendships political ideologies achieving better world really want this no dont want someone something magically help me magic exist noone solve material mental health issues expect myself want it want make personal effort fix myself im pathetic cant even kill end suffering so deserve suffer nothing change noone help failed life completely try excuse myself laughable i lot symptoms adhd  explains everything  yeah what im officially diagnosed even officially diagnosed change anything label put myself still nobody would care fact reason work brain problems change fact cant work fact im rude people mental disorder change fact im rude even mom hardly handles it people hate  brain mean you  yeah genius thats case still lonely people show traits similar mine are hated know fact im rejection sensitive mean people reject me sounds like im trying find excuse fact want change life or least end it im suffering deserve suffer im adult child wants mommy fix everything him even real mothers this donkey worthless know it want fix this maybe actually enjoying it thats means definitely deserving this,1
tf  kind strangers following me why support answer example text optional still posts get removed texts dis kola veri kola veri kola veri di many questions still reading this,0
break procrastination lol im supposed working video game ive done hour work took  minute break get back work ive watching movie browsing reddit  minutes lol xd general beat procrastination,0
i ve oded twice and they know i sh and the mental health team ha done fuck all sort of threatening to kill people how do you get committed i get that you can go private but i m broke i literally want to stab myself and don t know what to do so,1
@GoldLabeler Oooh... did you take pictures. I wanna see ,0
back down to 130 lbs... dieting is perhaps working? fingers crossed! must lose 10 pounds and gain a 6 pack by june 29! ,0
new last resort cant go onhi everyone feel ive hit new low posting bunch strangers online deepest sorrows think last another day like this im  ive like years end last summer started dating boy although looking start something gave chance made feel happy  like someone really invested made look forward life again christmas day grandfather passed week later boyfriend left explanation week later started last semester college hate im barely passing one friend lives opposite side country ex got back touch weeks ago today ended things called bunch names told never talk again live parents sit bathroom running bath water cry without questioned picked cuticles skin bloody raw eaten gotten bed want hobby want job want like anything even try feel like one feasible option left besides lay waste away please help,1
shaksiyya what wa going on with you guy over the weekend shak wa not happy my cd collection is outdated,0
hey see dry ass lips nah nah try lick now dry ass lip haver lmao go get lip balm,0
recommend music listen im bored cant fall asleep guys know good songs bands,0
"@jawar thanks for that good piece of tip, I already do that once in a while ",0
feeling like living tbhim hopeless atm know do say feel expect future view current situation,1
every fucking time every time draw something make meme come post realize saturday ffffucck aaaahhhhhhh,0
Rohit Bohra - My Best Friend and Bro alike is now a father!  ,0
wanted say dont care day sorry couldnt care less jk,0
truly hate musicals music numbers start sudden usually spoil scenes one completely different  simply brilliant plot perhaps challenge viewers simplicity people life stories makes movie greatbr br ive seen least dozen times still im tired plot characters music i love soundtrack  soundtrack ive really wanted probably remain one owebr br for mustseen kind movie great characters compiled entertaining songs lot things think movie end,0
never temptation slice wrist itmade secondary account dont want people know worried know thatd id never get far enough actually it urge overwhelming times scares me need vent guess dont know anymore im stuck home live biggest sources negativity sadness life yet cannot leave im still dependent  years till degree leave place good hope ill live see happen im done flame slowly dying cant bring energy keep fighting it didnt check rules sub searched sub concerning redflag went it rules mods please delete im sorry inconvenience needed head,1
almost  years clinical depression ive finally started genuine attempt pull out one people never see best myself ive never able bee good enough standards set myself kinda like anorexia aspects life guess always problem me example swimmer actually pretty good swimmer first year high school swimming almost made state championships fact times good enough place pretty well state team really good youre able send certain amount people state back then saw good enough couldnt see past fact didnt make it never even considered fact first year never even considered fact multiple gold medals jv meets races saw enough last pretty muchyear gained  pounds  pounds insanely depressed ashamed past like  months massive problem me way could pretty much anything sports need get back shape finally got motivation start turning life around right now im going try start getting regular exercise start eating healthier im going get consistent sleep schedule finally start homework sorry sucks im pretty trash writer  tldr finally got motivation start trying pull depression,0
males worst embarrassing boner experience days ago sub seemed obsessed giving advice mainly concerning bobers talking us boys real question is worst accidental boner situation happened,0
morbid curiosityi see many people angry parents redflags understandably also see many parents believe better leave children suffer mother fatherless takethe kids them screwed logic way makes sense parent completed redflag young ever thought at least selfish take also,1
get helpabout  years ago came gay suffered really bad depression considered redflag since ive come ive generally happy situation really changed thankfully less year college away ultra religious environment however recently ive starting depressed again last college may actually able happy first time life wanted know would beneficial see professional benefits would be,1
Maternal depression exposure associated with long term cognitive consequences throughout childhood and adolescence in this 16 year longitudinal study  https://twitter.com/columbiapsych/status/989195001962860545 …,1
always peoples last optionwish joking,1
Good mornin!!! I just got into a fight with Cappy and Ugly Jack... I am not speaking a single word to them the rest of the day ,0
im scared graduating highschool facing future ive constantly considering redflagthe title says all going graduate highschool year scary brings fears future like scary idea possibilities future like leaving parents behind climate change well terrible thing could happen thus ive constantly thinking ending life dont deal anything future,1
many fucking alts pedo jesus christ hes like th alt theyre like  days old wtf,0
thinkingi cant live regrets cant sleep longing lay beside arms made wrong decisions sorry torture whole day night,1
vent cry needed to get it out it s been month since we had our miscarriage thing were looking up a my cycle wa finally back to normal i wa meant to ovulate this week and i felt hopeful last night i wa waiting for my husband to get home from work and he wa about hour late i wa getting so worried when i finally received a knock on the door police officer informed me that my husband had been in a fatal car accident devastated doesn t cut it i can t fathom life without him something that hurt and keep running through my head right now is two thing i am about to go through our lost baby due date alone while also grieving my husband to have my rainbow baby i will now need to find a new partner and then get to the stage of a relationship to even fathom trying again so let s say year minimum by then i will be considered a mature pregnancy and likely find it hard and be high risk i don t know what to do i don t know how i can carry on he wa my world i can t do this without him,1
"When I was 21, I moved back to my parents home with depression and sadness filled me. I had very hard years to go through.",1
lost friend fell pregnanti friends girl since  past years super close spoke day everyday literally everything weeks ago fight wasnt aware even single dollarafter shes started really distant saying shes seeing speaking anyone rn shes tired stressed time  backed off messaged ask okay occasional memes dont talk bar hey alright reply yeah im goodand nothing every days group chat together old work colleagues talks often anyone me shes making plans see people chat breakfast someone else chat clear shes seeing people feel gutted shes pushing away like thisshe friend good one shes world felt worth living for havent spoken seen anyone weeks feel alone dont know go here social skills broken mind body cant work cant go anywhere new feel lost im tired im older ever thought id be im proud think time coming end,1
good morning  good morning e,0
fact day today years old found stressed makes penis size smaller for advice day stressed time also ask found out,0
life drainingit feels like  energy used keep killing myself energy left enjoy things classes job week ive telling everyone ive sick staying alive fucking hard even harder knowing im trying avoid death,1
one days im finally iti cannot believe im weak takes bad days im back abyss again staring it slowly swayed gentle calming voice ive limbo far long  years since started developing suicidal thoughts cant seem shake off markers suicidal thoughts smoking excessive drinking binge gaming procrastination resources world live life entrepreneur cant productive one day people miss im gone least legacy leave friends love me disappointed mistake mistake mistake keeps piling up im fucking failure life im killing life somewhat meditative writing thoughts bright spots least recognize people life love me work god knows people going right now still breathing many more dark spots life consuming hate it,1
@do0dlebugdebz haha. LOL I'm ok with the girl tho  n nitesss I'm heading to Sabah early nxt morning ,0
"Oe CRM, como � perder pro the big Brain?   Haha. ",0
18 today!!!Thanks to everyooonneee i love you guys! ,0
feels difficulti made decision point last  years last day life would be less  days left now much keep thinking maybe things finally changed havent im still weak exist sake financial security people still require me thing is even feel guilt suffer spike trauma feel like ive given raw deal something former would lie latter even know say to know is people heard plan die theyd simply think idiot maybe true never said wasnt snowball anything now ive let physically decay years hygine intolerably bad ive gone months sometimes even straight year without bathing dentist done anything teeth years theyre cracked yellowed likely beyond repair sleep little barely eat pretty much look like already dead nobody really questions it least me snowball moved idea death can turn around well late now truly consider voluntairly socially retarded im  never learned drive attempted find girlfriend let alone lose virginity drink smoke hobbies outside home work pay bills current residence would times id ever bother leave basement suite anymore things myself completely aware that knew knew beyond anything would become anything right now so knowing good could come person like me never found go obtain them final year life right now day th birthday plan die times up point people believe ill around financially bolster themnot support bolster quite obviously capable themselves now problem is needed place let out ive before another name thought maybe things could change said piece time different sure things change said above point feel like takes stop snowball size want now find way let little patiently sit here one year waiting end world one thing though wanted say one last line people truly starting believe this based experiences life listen well possible hero people need make sacrifices people beg times need still lose everything like school specials tell you drugs respect people upstanding citizen still lose whatever do base entire lifetime around needs others fucking easy forget are like now possible never find way get back thats start feeling willingly gave something know what cant ever back,1
 ive seen branaghs hamlet branagh old speaks frequently high pitched voice unwillingly funny  convincing hamlet directors qualities  poor  see also much ado nothing branagh  funny parts dialogues mostly cut speaking directors mistakes dialogue cuts  ive seen hamlet  think scenario interesting idea  lousy actors   orson welles hamlet ok  bbc hamlet best derec jacobi convincing  seems bit lunatic  suitable patric stewart  wonderful claire bloom attractive queen believe actors saying  think best compliment,0
miss dadon june   dad killed redflag hung garage  dad  years miss every day wish here,1
two years girlfriend girlfriend together two years now im  maybe wont die alone,0
@racheltoth deff over cigs ,0
list races racist  brish people,0
theres probably something wrong me care entire life ive wanted live alone completely away family close social relationships besides working going school somebody ive never genuinely felt lonely feel happier knowing deal problems own ill friendly people meet id like remain stranger,0
anyone wanna uhh roleplay lmao im really fucking boredddd wanna try pretty fun dont topics mind knows get lot could group woah yeah anyways filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
used good school s started university longer good it realize unrealistic think would still good  years formal education oh god think good idea really trying trying get discouraged f feel awful want give matter hard trying school sucking triggered school,1
botoxcan die fom ingesting botox,1
hey alli depression social redflag since  recently came decision try antidepressants suicidal thought accured way often usual mirtazapine escitaloptam since two weeks agoi played escitalopram used like three times dosage curious would affect damn thought would die serotonin syndrom redflag way better depression definetly worse feel little bit like watching everything would stuff automatically nothing already read online try cope playing guitar selfcare days quit exhausting thodoes anybody experienced antidepressants advices could tell expect whole processthankfull every helpfull comment interesting thought whatsoever  new antidepressants,1
daughter recovering wife getting diagnosis pregnancy havent able catch snowballing control applied social security wife daughter paperwork lost system went court last week writ possession filed tomorrow morning belongings removed home asked loans cosigners nobody close family willing take hit credit sought rental redflag local charities help got balance ,1
point life could really care die  hour days life past month getting worse worse fueled alcohol help still care around see point towards here seems pointless waste time seems like form punishment feel shitty care anymore,1
recommend families possibleto show older children onlysome stuff film maybe disturbing little ones handlenow thats waylet explain moviethis reality documentary male foxwho beginning protecting territory seeking matethe beginning gorgeous sunrise music scoreis breath takingyou better soak much scenery possibleitll get ugly laterthey gave fox vixen namesbut cant remember likes mehe fights invading maleto win lovethey later create denand vixen gives birth four adorable cubsone blindthere many happy playful moments featuring fox familybut tragedy bad luck strike soonthe first victim blind pupwho gets close high tide washed awaythe second victim motherwho stealing chickens deceived dead chicken hanging poleshe unknowingly walks foot trapwhile trying escape rips part footcausing bleed deaththe rest fox family forced watch die treethe male single dadforced take roll mom dadhe alone teach skills need lifeit later proves enoughwhen two grown pups meet ugly fate own thanks carelessness cruelity mani spoil surprising ending youbut show farmer dogs close tailand well deserved ending audience fox family put throughi wanted say saw first came early s thing called showbiz cablei  saw itbut could never understand let see itnow know whyafter secretly watched came disneywhen i felt emotionally gutted seeing evil going oni moved tearsbut dark ugly wasit serves purposeto let people going kinds animalsand endangeredthis documentary wanted get message across endangered speciesand hoped workedits fake like true life nature films disneythey teach animals going extinctthe encroachment landthe killing foxes main preyand senseless killing beautiful animalshas resulted becoming endangeredi wish would make sequel movieglacier fox to see theyre treated bettermaybe vixen pup named teresa siblings growing upthis movie also kind reflects happens human families sometimesespecially one parents suddenly diesthe surviving parent takes roll bothand tries teach important lessons lifeit always enough protect theyre adultsespecially lives becomes ruinedor fall victims tragedy themselvesbest around soundtrack musical score ive ever heard,0
i m stuck awake in the middle of the night for the second day in a row and i felt terrible yesterday,0
theres song called lizzy come back life cool high schooler named lizzy always feel like lizzy actually crazy old milf,0
Just had my mom on the phone. I will be in Lille next week end ,0
ever cha cha cut yeah saw post ago using self harm means get attention love attention please notice unrelated cha cha time,0
it ll take day for my sister to get her passport,0
first one comment get free award  write something automoderator get,0
"@Flosephine Yes and better still he's tackling his depression with lot of exercise and talking therapy, I'm more happy about this, Flo! X",1
checking out this twitter world... ,0
writing never thing idk even postingive never person whose able write thoughts even know thinking feeling think ive ever written paper whole career schooling thats gone half page required minimum somehow found self wanted make th reddit post ever sub thought id never part of probably first thing ive vollenterily written ever typed  minutes ago got deleted writing even give fuck enough try spell words correctly even close enough autocorrect know mean perfect life anyone could ever ask for perfect parents girlfriend im love withand friends would kill ifi asked toi feel miserable do almost always canteven begin describe bad feel girlfriend afraid suggest things almost shut say fun do enjoy anything anyone like used to play video games almost  time left world pass quickly possible really know tell everyone im okay know start conversation hey mom hey dad know give perfect life im fucking miserable hate everything reason keeps telling reason ive able yo hang far even want imagine hurt eyes ive dreamt many times reaction finding body lifeless room wake tears every time cant go watching sadness disappointment eyes knowing one children suffering enough even consider redflag option know im here know im going know anything all even know care about kind person cant even know feeling right all get upset afraid frustrated without ever knowing why like this search brain hard answer questions like whats dream house know want life never have cant remember anything ive wanted kid never answer what want grow up would tell people wanna firefighter get back kid that know want life least slightest idea know im heading im finding hard picture life  months now fuck year know much longer hang on know many times sit think faces friends family consider redflag cant suffer forever please everyone else cant work know end know im going im go im fucking scarred life perfect happy fucking happy,1
angry want stopim sure say dropped high school work dead end job money indulge anything parents kicked let back matter much tell need move back im  years old im forced adult august went hospital redflag attempt went  times suicidal ideation im angry time ive tried therapy shit ive tried hard happy tried hard normal functioning part society time fighting life want live point struggling anymore want angry anymore want sad nothing works im sure,1
want watch bleedive selfharmer past  years im trying cut anymore scars dont fade like used to want right cut watch bleed,1
ive messed up able graduate ive ruined life really know doive really fucked up have last semester pass classes it would degree job lined perfectly set life depression kicked hard really hard get go class homework became exercise futility keep up overwelming course lie parents telling oh looks little close going finals fine yeah im okay total bullshit graduation two weeks finals week approaching fast maybe deserve it im shitty maybe deserve anything friends family happyness ive tried getting help ive going therapy taking meds like two years everything try makes feel worse worse even know keep trying improve know help im done done school life know hell want do want curl ball cry die see possible chance fixing this ive dissapointed everyone love im much whimp kill myself sure hell want alive killing hassle would hurt people id heartbeat know do want run away all run far away one find me alone sad sorry pathetic self even know im posting this vent know maybe someone get something useless bitching,1
reviewing random things every day get boyfriend day  day  ok listen may may missed past  days thats ok cos none seen posts honestly know fuck going ill continue post  ok today im reviewing quarantine basically already quarantined  months since march september honestly worst thing could happened other actually getting sick course might quarantine  days friend honestly annoying basically lot anxiety i started gcses im really uptight person missing school last thing need right now friend keeps telling quarantine great get nothing im like well good doesnt care school coz even school feel like im falling behind im rly im considered one smart people anxiety levels absolutely roof wont allow appreciate fact im literally ahead like subjects whatever probably made sense ok needed vent second ya know well overall score quarantine still  even though hate coz fucking important people dont quarantine symptoms fucking suck anyways hope lovely day guys lt,0
no picnic my phone smell like citrus,0
@Netra you are most welcome ,0
whos committed spouseive done wife twice life feeling bit guilty  done three time voluntarily totally foreign involuntarily always seems much worse times signed up mostly addiction issues times committed here suicidal despondentacting unusual spoke phone seems scared actually much lucid would love perspective other side someone committed spouse felt right wrong thing them,1
"@lkabbara  Lucky me too, trust me. Can't get that song outta my head.. it's so catchy! Welcome to tweet tweet babe!",0
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i ve been experiencing such a exacerbation of my anxiety symptom that i think it s time to get evaluated for medication doe anyone have any recommendation for provider in the nyc area or in ny state in general since telehealth is a thing and nyc is insanely expensive 00 for a consultation is steep,1
Magic won! Magic won!!!! whooohhaa!! Howard you're the man! ,0
since i wa diagnosed with depression my mother pretty much didn t care about the case that i have it every time i try to approach to her and like to talk about my problem she just groan annoyed about it and tell me to be more positive no deep conversation no sight of empathie only typical standard bullshit phrase every person would say who never had it and can t understand it i went through some ruff shit and after everything that happend i just get those bland annoyed response from the person who gave birth to me,1
cant anymorei cant need hug need someone tell okay fucked am need someone apparently thats much ask cant ever enough feel like failure,1
note to you all don t go to the choclate bar schiphol it is passenger only,0
agree tube mampms taste much better normal sized ones literally dont know is things literally good never enough,0
guy im talking showing interest one friends literally followed one small rappers looks he k dmed im waiting follow back think wil bcus follows like k ppl k followers hes gonna least request see look like im gonna post private story make sure guy sees,0
i don t have motivation to do anything concerning school or work i m constantly tired despite getting proper amount of sleep i don t have any particular emotion towards anything i ve grown to hate the idea of going out with friend now because of how ugly i feel and low i think about myself i always think about my weight thinking what to eat and when i ve never had thought about sh until a few day ago for the past four month i ve been feeling like i have depression hating my life ha become the new norm for me and i keep waiting for when this feeling will end with no luck,1
@okto the brides mom was so cute. She asked me how much all the film would cost to shoot the whole wedding ,0
im m destined fail destined die im afraid let anyone know really am theyd abandon betray mea lot days really feel like anything left give certainly find nothing particularly inviting encouraging life general ive worked hard accomplished none real goals life ive seen many opportunities go others im left kids table hopelessly earning little scraps scavenge theres honestly nothing look forward to nothing really optimism feel working towards anything also realized lately real autonomy life bills pay work many things others tell me life own im merely subservient wills demands others soon begin even stray script others written me im beaten back obey again life obeying die sense autonomy free sordid illusion destiny obey die order cant believe audacity people work people live lives thinking anything ever matter today work number things utterly useless totally forgotten months time yet pretend important thing universe person enslaves paycheck laughably thinks so people fool delusions relevancy darkly amuse me life worth living existence fake putting mask makes others believe im happy reality day torture think real friends know enjoy time character im playing honest got know real me theyd hate me im paranoid might let real personality thoughts get them theyd betray me probably inevitable given moment im likely slip theyll see realize instead obedient singleserving irrelevant human being im consumed darkness obsessed death ill nothing even fake relationships barely let hang sanity destined die soon destined discovered betrayed tldr fear may found really am ill nothing left even fake things drag along life,1
im still waiting im still waiting hot elf appear front gf,0
ayo chess players here hmu play chesscomhttpschesscom lichess bet lot care chess still post you chess player sub,0
love sister sure loves metoday cousin came over me sister cousin hanging outafter awhile went living room watch tvan hour passed decided go back room chat themmy cousin bed sister bed sit down sister rolled eyes continued talk boyfriend facetimei asked about said go die one wants you shockedshe told kill plenty times random like punch facei went tell mom said tell stopwhen went back room sister saysugh annoyingwe even herego kill yourself everyone favorthen walked roomshe always tells this hurtsi usually cry want self harmall mom tell stopshe never anything stop saying harsh thingsi think suicidal thoughts every day lifei want die feel wanted enough stay sister wants die,1
bad dumb talking girl ft joking stuff shes like hate dad like hes broke adopted  kids doesnt even send money laughed thought joking like joking shes like like legit wasnt joking right hanging responding,0
ended toxic relationship morning thought would tell you toxic relationship everything leave it need help talk family member friend help it,0
etherealwater thatemigirl lmoneytm brown eyed gyel bongani dee mizzzidc like doe she know what depression is,1
hate school honestly probably reasons  give us much work literally theatre assignment due end week made watch   hour elf musical movie answer questions many questions asked compare original ferrell elf movie watch original elf movie musical thats like  hours work one class  freedom im male likes hair kinda long nothing shoulders longer ears apparently makes difference teachers get ass ask cut hair cause longer ears like girls hair long want boys apparently dying hair much distraction hair dyed blue teachers mad it girls hare dyed blue teachers dont care stupidest thing  teachers political theatre teacher made fun biden stutter teachers talking kids masks work teachers masks nose like supposed setting good example getting us killed could name many reasons thank letting vent,0
"@jaecka I'm feeling dirty for looking at them for this long! LOL. But yes, paying more to get so much less fabric seems odd. ",0
picked music im considering possibility rest life rather science ive led environment believe destiny even coming plenty realizations constantly ponder relationship horribly ended whether may done something wrong fix bad quality made things end way want forget horribly written think so,0
sadly though i ve never gotten to experience the post coitus cigarette before and now i never will,0
"How you're brought up and your personality may make you feel like being paranoid is a normal thing, but it may get you in to depression...",1
kj presents wave  compilation shower thoughts almost daily part   know kinda like her  music really cant hard make  many people got boned past  minutes  bet someone government seen search history quit  happens die  like seriously please tell me  im scared dying  black lives matter way life others likes instagram  tall  england overrated  celebrities wave up look mirror like woah im insert celebrity name here  god  pornstars reshoot scenes sometimes  bet sex gets really tedious sometimes like literally thing over  simpsons got cancelled  really scared death  timetravel fact exist would never notice timeline change entire lives could rewritten wed never notice  clouds fckin cool  sixseasonsadamovie means six seasons movie  americans look music look theirs  drill music needs clout  minecraft ever die  im damn horny  females underrated big em up  prison hard edit might more got bare ammo lol,0
want stop hurting myselfim constantly hitting head things always scars scabs head feel alone everyday see couple something reminds relationship start punching face pain never goes away feels like eating alive know cope this cant cope it feels like one cares im coward cant bring end it im always going alone dont see reason keep living,1
selfdiagnosed ocd eventual downfall series events late  led intense insidious cycle anxious rumination fear dpdr arose maelstrom angst something whos existence completely unaware of particularly related redflag perceptual world changed reality became crisp shiny radiant yet also incredibly surreal was thrust middle world overwhelmingly vivid yet felt overwhelmingly absent from,1
finally home &amp;&amp; out the rain; gloomy day out guess I'll jus sit home &amp;&amp; watch movies &amp;&amp; eat popcorn all dayy ,0
people actually simping thats bad taste bruh like,0
"Filipino kids as young as 10 years old have committed suicide because of depression."""" — Sen. Joel Villanueva",1
1/2 People loose interest in every thing ... that's the case with many of the global population ... they don't have a focus or a goal that they are devoted to and neither are they 'INTERESTED VOLUNTARILY' in doing so. So people are left with either a boring life with depression,1
see hanging felt likei tied towel tightly around neck little bit wow oh wow wasnt even painful almost blacked out cant wait real thing,1
got stage want help anymore dont careyeh suffering silence depression  years went doctor said couldnt help wait councellor therapist asked medication said wouldnt willing issue it told go away talk family even though said cant talk things ive got stage give up maybe deserve ive ben giving shit life even want help anymore im accepting happiness option anymore accept truly happy forgotten feels like ive started smoking order shorten life die earlier cant stand life people happy theres me shitty sat pushed fucking corner one gives shit about im always blame everything always fault truly give reddit love people try help even though dont know real life never really respect help unfortunately im lost nothing now give up people sad go maybe itll make realise eyes open looked rather fucking time thanks,1
im losing family created actions familys actions shared information something relationship truly understand shouldnt shared asked treat differently started treating like shit disrespected make matters worse lied telling  months bestfriend fianc looking feeling stupid since past told truth fight want son life point would go back time lot shit over take bac eveyythjgv ive done maybe never involved family all miss son time cry sleep cry waking up want pain stop,1
@apt9000 Star Trek was a very good movie.  ,0
still holds back life still finds ways get me yet still talk him always feel worse do ive tried blocking social media still finds ways get me,1
uncle died  want end like him im literally everything wrongmy uncle dads brother died heart attack  poor control diabetes numerous heart problems weighed  pounds died dad worked different jobs uncle would always great first weeksmonths work slowly start making excuses come started almost never going work always inevitably got fired could never hold job  months childhood adult life play video games always struggled weight type  diabetes never good control of im going exact path want fate know continue living going die turn  weigh  lbs im   years old poor control blood sugars i type  diabetes uncle type  theyre different diseases similar havehad poor control blood sugar though ive tried lose weight never find motivation so always end giving up never bring care blood sugar enough control well normally  prolonged exposure high blood sugar long period  years basically fucks nervous system toes start falling off lose feeling fingers eyes stop working correctly etc homeschooled life started high school last september well first months then started missing days sick eventually got point going couple times month where im now really stay home feel sad play video games even enjoy it feel uncomfortable im computer way grew  know anything else most homeschooled life spent pc always start stuff when homeschooled would work months slowly give stop easy stuff homework hard all cant bring it literally exactly uncle growing up dad told me fucking terrified me literally exact things im doing died  really want go path want end like uncle cant bring change need help anyone suggestions id much rather end life end path tldr uncle died  poor control diabetes lack motivation weight issues im issues too scaring me want die im  definitely continue path need help,1
panic never got good theatrical release easily seen much smart audiences would probably difficult time it comparing american beauty probing midlife crisis sopranos analyze study illegal goingson amidst family life though panic may seem derive unoriginal material brommels lifelike characters coupled deft dialogue observant direction make film realistic look undoing middle aged manbr br william h macy stars alex hitman works fathers sutherland contractkilling business leads double life wife ullman son unaware real trade middleage becomes increasingly disgusted done life calm collected facade stirs repressed resentment fathers controlling grasp life meets young womancampbell feels invigored decides time quit family businessbr br the fact writerdirector henry brommel decided make profession main character trying break away contractkilling disposable could easily substituted undesirable profession characters welldeveloped believable scenes handled smoothly realisticly dialogue written insightfully naturally focus falls macys conflicted character rather job hitman brommels script feels like shakespearean tragedy definite theme destiny running throughoutbr br in alex macy creates tragic easily sympathetic character turns yet another brooding great performance always expected donald sutherland also effectively abrasive abusive overbearing father ullmans dramatic turn macys wife welcome change comedian consider scene bicycle shop mood subtly darkens peaks affecting scene emotional confusionbr br henry brommels first feature panic film wellcrafted sincerity firstrate cast plausible script terse dialogue nice direction characterstudy hopefully taste brommels aptness creating characters seem real br br  ,0
i m getting more and more people asking where they can buy the ambients album simple answer is quot not yet quot it ll be on itunes eventually,0
anyone want noodles instant ramen stir fried noodles veggies stuff boring,0
scariest experience class freshman time sophomore now independent study think cant remember exactly said remember joke race couple african american kids heard threatened jump me school instead payed apparently going help me point african american kid walked behind writing something put hands around neck started strangling good  seconds there right front classmates who nothing literally supervised class teacher notice never reported knew would get trouble too,0
"I'm depressed , depression always attacks me , I don't feel ok everyday, I'm just fighting over my depression, i was not supposed to be happy today , people now a days doesn't care about how people feels",1
one best ensemble acted films ive ever seen much plot acting incredible see characters change ever subtly undr influence rented villa italy love happiness film casts mesmerizing spell you much villa women truly enchanted,0
appletv ha died dreading diagnosis,0
im losingim losing fight urge end strong abandoned again like anymore broken many times keep giving hope break every promise abandon over push pull push pull give hope break heart im mourning person making remourn over stranger were someone whos embodiment everything said hated opposite me happy well know im suicidal abandonment issues keep pretending care breaking soon trust again cause depression broken every way possible bad person sure dressed like one days want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die im afraid succeed mom mad mess kick out want die want die want die want die want die want die want die want die urge strong im fucking tired im tired im tired im tired matter im tired let people down let down hate myself know fix me know fix feel im ugly hate im horrible want die fucking selfish wanting endure fuck off fuck you im mad im mad tired im mad tired cant stop fucking crying every fucking day every fucking night cry cry cry work ones looking crying feeling heart rip apart over crying feeling numbness creep over empty hurt numb pain think laugh bc im amused mask im pretending look puppet dancing you seem better hah no fuck off need justify feel mask on come time changes subject every time joke makes laugh everyone leaves one listens everyone goes away fucking fault fucking fault fault fault fault fault fault  hate much bc love you want anymore promised were stranger say things hurt purpose think notice bc brush off fuck you again one knew six years fucking fake fake mean one fell for used hold people made feel way one nothing  still want run though you was horrible scummy person im angry im hurt blame everything chipped walls brought holding spackle coward fuck you hate much bc good enough make stay im good enough loved listened to life meaning purpose one day ill it one day ill gone thank god counselor got back tomorrow might made th night,1
exactly title says supposed strong one cannot talk family thoughts cannot talk friends cannot talk women life supposed strong one like me too cannot talk someone ultimatum thoughts imply cannot bring pay therapist listen sister tried kill called help mother needs protection psychotic brother call needs saving calls friends need serious advice turn to last turned best friend ghosted fell back role vut still lmao women life think mysterious macho tough guy second reveal vulnerability pull back see disgust pity faces hurts like nothing else suicide would hurt lessi strong one others ruining image honour seeking help never again seppuku lived society viewed terms instead weakness would done long time ago supposed strong one,1
In the theater to watch Up! ,0
days everyone allowed whoever want be many rights there right exist unhappy life  years change countless amount ways try change things reading headlines posts see unhappy people belong earth get depressed young still hope  ways going changeto loosely quote doug stanhope if first half movie watch sucks highly likely next half suck welli wish natural way choose be understand unfair love ones happens love ones suicide frowned upon,1
help pleasei need reasons live tmr im actually done please give reason something cant anymore dont feel comfortable explain please,1
@Miyukiko YOU LOVE IT LOL ,0
reddit cant refresh goddamn new post doge version picard reddit extra laggy today hallucinating,0
@smudge372 yeah am ok . You ok ,0
@CallieSink My pleasure and thank you ,0
hopelessness consuming destroying me nsfwthis long post apologize that depression panic disorder i panic attacks rarely gad general anxiety disorder obsessive compulsive disorder premenstrual dysphoric disorder i think officially diagnosed little year ago im day twentysix cycle ive thinking purpose life think help others im sure anymore feel hopeless worthless vagina narrow short tight time even im aroused lubricated cant insert two fingers slide one finger way vagina becomes extremely tight feels like finger going past something hard explain hurts feel angry hopeless one way im glad vagina tight would please partner another way im enraged fact someone would profit pain agony hate people say tight vagina good thing ive users flat tell tighter always better tense vagina feels better ive never abused part disgusted men want tight vagina want profit partners pain suffering like feels good man hurts woman im horrified go in does go way gets extremely tight part vagina ill stop him want take mans pleasure away ruin experience him feel hopeless areas life wish could go sleep never wake up plan harm myself also question sub people feel borderline suicidal arent reported punished right thank reading long post appreciate it,1
@mnstrsnmnchkns  it was a happy cry.. ,0
kept imagining ending life past  monthsevery single day sleep always imagining different ways could kill hurted everyone around me dont even know bad thing good thing since picturing friends mom who perfect anyway keeps trying best raise me cry gets traumatized really makes feel bad also make feels like terrible piece shit cares myself dont think life wouldve gotten better dont really want traumatize kind wonderful people around me also sorry ive said didnt make sense english third language im obviously good it,1
escaping herill honest recurring intrusive thought ill fine cant stop thinking killed id never worry mom little funny people pull but family theyre trying help suicidial thoughts family isnt giant factor want die lmao know people trying feels like slap face,1
@maureencheyenne mommy jst want you to have a good habit  http://myloc.me/2VsL,0
hello europeans non americans americans sleep super late anyone whos discord server tryna get ppl around world cuz theyre europeans non americans want ppl chat dm linkk d,0
anyway.. going <Emoji: Airplane> INTENSE depression nap,1
destroying support systemsits long time coming think last isolation periods redflag scares finally driven last friends away today birthday hear thing people living five months ago even send text hurts also happy going kill soon without them easier never really thought important imso selfish close didnt want say goodbye feel like now so,1
"@nazra Ahh..bila nak kahwin?..man that's a secondary issues..not worried,prefer single life..haha ",0
Sonic Mania Plus cured my depression,1
confusinghi yall doing hows quarantine life wanna share smth crushing heart pieces thought maybe could vent here ive met someone turned cup tea terms friendship goto matter happened always active sure good calming down making feel wanted loved appreciated thought of recently left twitter lpavatar social game communicated using twitter lp imvu imvus go already us play anymore ofc crushed me ive surviving him gave hope horrible life able make go back things used docalligraphy drawing clay lot me left said wants go back school either yr next sy yr covid mom let me also capability online classes yet next yr probably said wants aim high get high gpas succeed know im pressured it want me want him family moms fine inspiration rlly cling hes one understood me listened me etc moms fine get mental health part im sure would understand meant this fast forward tried opening upventing mutual acquaint us know cry things understood suicidal ideation told hang tight life cant anymorei scheduled kinda told her blame me still thankful force live horrible world time theres part feels like maybe earlier planned one bother anyway hes gone now even mom here still feel unwanted unloved irrelevant mom may feel sad know going better without me plan ill deed next year gave  year find reason live find least  reason stay will now everything so gray painful tiring want end pain im relevant like others good happy family lot squads friends remembered time etc im sure need want this free one pressure stay someone tell me fine smth maybe someone remember me even long time talking say hey remember you okay tbh tiring always one remembering tiring unheard matter much reach someone postshare stuff atleast someone see it etc im confused thank reading ever reached point hope yall great day ,1
doesnt feel like option keep thinking iti think redflag time really believe ill never it weird doesnt feel like option keep thinking it im sick everything working cant hold accountable keep things know make better feeling stuck therapy hasnt done thing me exercise helps hard meds scary especially im unstable right now hate much feels control unemployed cant imagine happy great job really begun hate conversations resentful anyone trace insecurities clue make things better suggestions,1
hate telling parents im suicidal took away pills razors went bought razors anyways fuck wish still pills ive gotten drunk high every night since told themi hate another millennial failed living moving back parents basement hate life hate cant keep job month ive  far year hate pressure put go college nearly lasted semester dropping out wish could die accident actively put situations might cause one dont know much longer last would love able die parents home dont find fuck knows happen,1
im defeatedive met people life told im loser pathetic ugly going anywhere life theyre right years trying convince better days arrive true thats way is life completely unfair hate theyre  correct graduate college year ill kill myself incredibly hard making good friends highschool ive heard hard making life lasting bonds outside school alone long gets hard yourself even talking relationship friendships over days dream someone talk daily ever wanted connect someone one wants get know im poison everyone enters life leaves eventually move onto something better everyone moves something better im left behind alive  years nothing show it life added absolutely nothing one better knowing me,1
weigh muchnot exactly time sensitive post weighed ages shame incredible,1
meganh9 same it ha been drizzling all day if u are going to rain might a well pour,0
im sorryi want kill myself literally zero hope graduated high school much anxiety im sad enroll collegealso money sad good student high school community college two days dropped felt like killing myself dropped told going get job save help family one hire me experience ive applying two months cant help family pay bills everyday talk jobs family poor literally gotten new clothes since last august nothing fits anymore drove away friends im sad want bring me cant even afford get help want try overdose ive tried three times never worked threw shaky couple days matter many pills took one time walking home school everyone forgot pick one answering going jump front train one old friends saw street waiting gave ride home nowhere hang noose from listen miserable cry every single day top that shitty mom hope like brain tunnel vision option redflag nothing do friends still always things require money hang house always want go stuff requires paying cant it give up know im young  life ahead me im poor college one fucking hire nothing else want kill myself think im going drown lake something since know swim want anythng public would inconsiderate dont many choices jus venting,1
"@Lucy_Nichol78 @RealMissAnxiety I can see it both ways. When my depression hits, my low self-esteem gets even lower. But when I feel down about myself, my depression seems to enjoy joining in to make me feel even worse. I think they go hand-in-hand and one make the other worse x",1
@Escrove i loveee my SB ,0
cartoon crushes ngl asian girl kim possible bad,0
scroll on lost cause hereno friends life change mind,1
calling anybody hope somebody finds rotting body fuck world took  oxy pills like  vicodins effects starting kick,1
every time ive chance end always regret lateri wish redflag easier commit wanna die fucking bad wish would die accident murder something,1
im bad night aheadive too im change mind part wondering anyone cares something told post tonight  hope hear someone help way,1
redflag option me thats tired saying reality thing think about go herei crossposted rdepression im sorry see twice ive lurking main long time know fit in im sorry situation relatable sounds really stupid great life know many people alone im not matter much keep trying be try push friends family away cant pretty traumatic childhood people life decade remaining family amazing redflag absolutely option me many people care i know know sounds dad grandma pass away much table  friends relatives may sad get it however dad young parent therefore young healthy ive got couple decades becomes reality sometimes resent that thats darkest thought ive ever had ive never told anyone before worst moments upset dad  favorite person world  still alive healthy going stay way means stay alive decades too really want to im also gainfully employed job used love really still love im wealthy support myself job incredibly stressful coworkers good people boss good person believe work pays bills even expensive city friends ability friends instead going socializing keep pushing people away know go here feel like keep  working normal person faking best possible isolate lot never go out still friends there weird confusing know got lucky friends still around matter much avoid them theyre cool people  theyre intelligent successful much going lives know ive tricked people friends ive tricked job keeping employed ive tricked family supportive have need undo without hurting anyone want alive anymore every time minor thing goes wrong thought hits like ton bricks every time im alone im alone a lot same know do feel fucking trapped amazing supportive friends family would absolutely crushed told  theyd probably committed theyd probably try make quit stressful job complaints life framed around job which stressful yeah mentally healthy person could handle  hell even slightlymorehealthy version years ago could handle it id nowhere go nothing do friends family would get tired id situation many people alone like ive got backwards reason depressed right now am cripplingly so tell anyone life turned upside ill genuine reason want die first time since  just know go here im sorry rambling hard follow im sorry sounds self involved bragging  understand ive gotten unfairly lucky life either wish someone whole good things going them would genuinely love nobody would miss me know sounds awful,1
roses red grow grass give chance ill cum ass,0
need help translating japanese phrase friend sent okay sent this  said meant like great person something wanna make sure used right grammer lol still new,0
uh weirdo here just help pleasei actually feel suicidal many people see subreddit but still feel quite lot like it like sure im smarter average yet always get trouble people myself mostly last one tbh like dead suffer anxiety depression hiperactivity matter do always feel like wrong even worth it things matter point part social anxiety think effect redflag would cause people surround me parents little sister girlfriend biggest part feel like everything would better dead even causing death would cause trouble people something cant bear think know theres something worth living everything else makes useless,1
i know how to get out it start with anger first then thinking ton of thinking think my way out of my own jail cell of the mind i m breaking out of here depression is a holding cell i don t wish on anyone,1
hate stereotypes like standard image french man fact expected women higher standards men thought  sucks still expected behave normally like people say weird straight cringe different look furries know deep find either weird strange sweetest person earth still deep opinion course nothing wrong furries nothing wrong overweight people either many skinny people felt little bit disgust looking one blindly assume messed heavier you get started people criticizing lgbtq maybe never met trump supporter multiple good trump supporters there behaving inappropriate assume bad ampxb gotta stop even though day english terrible sorry second language,0
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shes gone nowits fucking stupid werent even together long doesnt care me gone dont want anymore ive never wanted fucking die much fucking life love fucking pointless im going fucking it cant take fucking pain anymore,1
dont understand illicit drugs bro would even waste money something cause problems solves yo btw also include ciggies despite illegal,0
@AshliTaylor http://bit.ly/G4GG8  found it ,0
soenfu http 00 ok date thu mar 0 0 gmt server apache unix red hat linux last modified thu mar 0 gmt content type text plain motivation inf depression inf creativity 0 cookingability 0 isalive true focusingon twitter,1
think might hang latermy dad got fight candlehe like smell its cinnamon told light anymore would fall asleep burn house down despite never laying bed light it watch tv browse internet candle always site light makes room smell better smells humid musty since hardwood floors told fall asleep lite got arguing said useless mooch him called lazy sleep in told lost job blamed anyways sleeping in complained found job yet suck money away also told get feeling sad guess ill get sad hanging myself planning hang closet belt may leave note saying im going wasting money anymore ill later night comes later until goes bed find process it hopefully ill dead soon way im wasting money,1
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stupid year project feel like you ve conquered something then you realised it s only year down,0
im struggling hold life dont think worth anymoreim severely depressed unhappy aspects life worth anymore im alone dont want alive im miserable,1
"@kyujaemin coughcough. still on season one. o.o heehee. i started, two days ago only. ",0
remember kids homicide day keeps doctor away,0
help m came xvideos turned phone watched aot came downstairs phone completely forgetting previously watching mum sat living room along dad sister turned phone show watching boring greeted loudest moan accompanied quote fuck daddy uh uh uh uh entire family looked utter disgust immediately tried turning sound phones volume buttons lagged closed browser got left room sat bedroom make situation better,0
think pulled first allnighter uh basically took nap pm couldnt sleep currently  uh oh school starts  days wheeeee sleep fucked,0
@emilylynchmusic thanks!! ,0
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i like not caring about anything i m at work all day just going through the motion the long hour and annoying customer don t phase me because i m not even all there mentally emotionally failing uni doesn t phase me because eh i have to be numb because if not i ll just constantly feel unbearable emotional and physical pain i have to swallow every bit of emotion so i don t completely fall apart,1
"pretty epic weekend of fun and nonsense.    now?  working, then getting coffee with my dad before seeing &quot;drag me to hell!&quot;  ",0
kelvin cos next seem like absolute zero,0
getting married on wednesday to jonathen willinger ,0
get rid sex dreams please help course virgin stupid brain craving sex want end im tired waking feeling like stupid mistake nobody ever like way make stop,0
bkgirlfriday dude it snowed here today cant imagine the weather in hawaii right now,0
am wanting end itfucking christ life mess act happy jesus christ im point hanging viable option started brother killed himself literally splintered whole life person really girlfriend good relationship broke fucked dude couple days later breakup messy fuck hurts much cant even bring talk her months disgusted sad mom took whole thing harder explain mother walked room brother shot minutes earlier ptsd hospitalized twice told mentally stable enough work worked me ive strong one family im destroyed dropped college semester mom also mental issues nearly killed there miss old life fucking shit non stop  years im sick it im fucking sick it want happy non stop ive gotten nothing shit since then,1
im gay gay dont feel like telling family know wont supported rejected,0
"@jessbooka I think computers and the Internet are a passing fad anyways, like 8-track and Disco. ",0
mitras advice getting boyfriend compliment windows house windows hell know care,0
"@sarahthequeen1 YES!  It's in mid-December   I'm only up to 4 miles now, so I have a lot of work ahead of me.  I can't wait!",0
people who have had this and she say they have all been the same it s vicious,0
got laugh reallyeven face death asking someone talk world give f story life really,1
well ididnt ask get made ididnt ask torn apartand put back together andturned somelittlemonster sucker pain,1
redflag gun lawsif kill gun isnt mine would person go jail dont want harm anybody,1
assume hobbies hobbies include screenwriting amp filmmaking acting drawing watching movies amp tv shows reading comic books listening rock music daydreaming amp watching youtube go ahead assume,0
heard awful lot the english patient finally decided get cd find ballyhoo about found cinematic delight should repeat should always watched open mind religious moral zealot afraid film fail see beauty cinematic masterpiece keep harping moral dilemmas film creates remember correctly watched film read review site thoroughly disgusted views person quote said that protagonists thoroughly deserved got comes morality agree way comment film magnificence br br i must admit rarely seen wonderfully crafted film keep hearing background soundtrack subconscious first foremost love story yes extramarital affair moralists beware lets keep focusing that instead lets focus story told admixture flashbacks present set world war ii tells us story survivor plane crash count almazhy played wonderfully ralph fiennes looked army nurse juliet binoche war torn italy beginning end defeat axis powers burn scarred patient much pain kept remembering torrid affair english woman katherine kristin scott thomas shown flashbacks set prewar africa past present interwoven adroitly story sort transported story get feel first hand viewer locales desert italy beautiful characters romantic ashamed say tears ended watch someone truly love movie starts ends shot desert sand dunes twist curves like womans body breathtaking sense loss grief conveyed overwhelmingly actors makes wonder god wars destroys beauty unforgivable all destruction innocence br br anyway deservedly bunch oscars go hunting works director anthony minghellait kind brings back romanticism david lean genre filmsit almost reminds lawrence arabia also based deserthappy viewing folks,0
 bad marks according parents is straight good marks student grading system is  a   upa   upb gotten as as main exam got bmaths     scholar badges green tie academic awards would gotten blue tie year werent covid basically huge nerd alert parents high expectations me want medical student too get  up want get   marks up full whenever possible best class look insert good boi name cant like him etc etc etc stressing out lot  mark tests going on studying not much last year know wish best me getting head gets deleted probably parents told take down stay safe,0
@patrickthepoet How can you offend us? We love you! ,0
bit long back story here adopted child proper legal adoption residency order live aunt uncle underdetermined amount time year aunt uncle split uncle kept my aunt one actually related to social services never really got involved past point uncle adoptive father started dating woman would come know mum i always knew werent biological destructive relationship adoptive father incredibly abusive towards like attempted stabbing  trying set fire front me never abusive towards fact treated like untouchable fostered resentment mum eventually spilt   years ago ive spoken dad sincemy mum works hospital informed admitted ward works potentially lung cancer mum practically gleeful cosmic karma horrible person im uncomfortable happy hes ill ive really spoken shes one suffered cant really tell deal seems bit much happy,1
i have this constant thought hanging over my head that at all time somehow i m not using my time wisely regardless of what it is if i m taking a relaxing bath to calm my nerve i think about how i could be doing something even more fun or exciting and this task is not worth the time i m spending on it i often have morning where i find myself unable to fall back asleep even if i m awake way earlier than i need to be for work plan that day lamenting how i am or am not using that time to my best advantage it make it so hard to enjoy my day off or the time i don t spend occupied with something sometimes my day off are stressful the most at the very end when i reflect back on all the thing i didn t do but should have done even if that s total nonsense to a clearer headed me there s nothing i have to do on a day off i m sitting here right this second looking at the clock over and over thinking i wasted the last 0 minute watching youtube video when i could ve been playing video game but when i play video game instead i feel bad about not having watched a movie or new tv show instead it s so maddening ha anyone found a way to manage this constant sense of impatience,1
though movie first rate roster fine actors special effects excellent story line full surprises picked studio distribution went directly dvd perhaps contains much antipolice force information perhaps juts one many action flicks released glut whatever reason big screens missed opportunity fortunately new concept releasing direct dvd allows us enjoy itbr br the theme old rookie reporter uncovers inner circle cops corrupt  case frat first response assault tactical team group well trained policeman created clean mythical city edison low point crime drugs prostitution etc working undercover temptation pocketing confiscated goods money proves much opportunity now  years formation frat responsible murder drug trafficking terrorizing innocent people etc lead dog lazerov dylan mcdermott makes terrifyingly real gangster partner rafe deed ll cool j even buff usual proving sensitive actor reporter pollack justin timberlake catches wind bad mistake reports theory fraud corruption papers boss ashford the always reliably fine morgan freeman gradually polack convinces ashford subsequently wallace kevin spacey also consistently fine character actor aid pollack investigative reporting closer pollack gets truth surprises bad incidents happen story runs pall mall toward series unexpected resultsbr br timberlake lacks charisma carry lead especially company seasoned actors cool j freeman spacey mcdermott keep welloiled machine movie rolling end no great movie one makes edge seat action flick message grady harp,0
hey girl touch arm could tell god touched angel ,0
a sad day i morn for my awesome car http twitpic com y e,0
may clinical depression severe anxiety mom care like fine need go doctor things fit litteraly every symptom thoughts redflag,0
anyone else feel like theres ticking clocksometimes feel like im walking gallows like every step take one step closer dying constantly make new plans hanging people delay process almost hear ticking background not literally like time running out terrifies me like either im scared im going hurt im angry im still trying latter never makes sense me anyone get actually angry given up like supervillain comic book anime theyre shouting why still trying give already head constant half brain tells give half shouts even think giving up nothing brings joy anymore favorite things sleeping help hanging friends temporary respite scary used rely fact always wanted family like get married kids even thought things sounds like terrible brain like ugh means wed still alive like im scared even one day im happy behind me ill always think this comes second dying though might make sense hear head sadly feel bones im stuck half wants try keep going depression like no hard get every day things interact even watch tv read books still miserable half like please stop this im terrified sound awful nothing makes sense anymore anyone else wake first thought ugh im still here thought anything makes want die like brain says well clean house dead go work eat anything im looking advice kind recognition im alone like know im alone millions people deal this id like hear specific issues answer questions might get asked ive dealing  years yes im medication th times charm right friends family know im okay hard understand im talking doctor this im trying everything nothing working im tired scared sad,1
im going bathroom back soon though,0
idk point constantly feeling like failure life amp matter much try change always feel like people looking failure enough recently started cutting point sure even worth alive point feeling everyone looking everyone blaming something going wrong much shitty person cannot even fix still feel like ill never enough starting yo hate matter much try correct things wrong life try fix shitty situations life feel like cannot ever shit right everyone looking currently botlle hlf thinkjng blut end thinkingnof long feel like would make every situation better amp everyone around less bothered amp annoyed wits end,1
best friendi want end all know wife kids better financially do life insurance grew without dad feel ok and almost  year old wife thought best friend everything undermine parent time try discipline sons takes wants time try teach something new way always get short end stick love kids want whats best maybe thats gone,1
really getting point need unloadyes created this many people know usual handle made throwaway really want people know heads up sentence structure order damned im unloading comes expect much way formatting anyway sit popping another painkiller wonder hell life got point im  married veteran going college literal dream job cant make ends meet ive looked work nobody wants hire college student ive put applications career type work looks like going go through heart fear getting stuck job ill never chance dream job again wife works ass off cant even find part time job got nice love note apartment complex saying theyre going court tomorrow cant pay rent va shorted us last month housing allowance going much better feel like stayed service soul crushing least paychecks bad veterans affairs concerned numbers actually giving care vets sterotypes true there defeating feeling im trying come woe me begging pity thats style ask younger sister money tomorrow continue struggle even get ahead anything like wife live large american style going eat every meal charging everything credit cards drive beatup  pickup truck pos honda civic thats beyond last leg needs five major things cant afford feel like bum loser failure summer best friend killed similar reasons see it told id never follow footsteps im imagining belt around neck sensible action well ive unloaded enough everyone ridiculous financial troubles sympathy hope overcome them goodnight sw shitstorm awaits tomorrow,1
all the fightin and name callin i can still run my sister nite,0
justice room without room several years basically leaving everything sisters room even slept times live fucking living room need place chill space things looking window instead wait  year old sister leave someday buy apartment finally room me family far bad great privacy space place basically room living room im  rate moved time get room unless sister leaves do know big deal compared things people go families homes attempt chat people this thanks reading far good person reading random persons complains stuff,0
best friend lives  hours train ride away often meet met  years ago meeting online friends became friends remained contact past  years became best friends basically speakplay games online daily basis know gf pretty well sometimes join play hangs us gf travelled city next mine meet best time long time cannot even remember maybe best weekend life weekend eventually passed went home took bus home way home felt bit contributed tiredness got home took shower decided go sleep got really depressed felt sad could sleep started cry really hit hard cried years since awake crying time time know speak tomorrow work know meet future method cope ease pain live map train are feel like fucking stalker now want text him know either sleeps good time want ruin him depressed past years bad times past nothing could get through ever feel sad depressed never happened prior occasion makes sense me happening really depressed really good weekend friends,1
goodbye gavinthis always favorite part day napping always ends one arms around head sunlight shinning blinds look peaceful pure beautiful truly love gavin reece heart left best friend soul mate im sorry every mistake ive made you hope forgive way start this im sorry stress arguments lies ever hurt you unfaithful nothing like that second kissed stared eyes knew loved gavin thought ever could love another person past week so fall asleep ive staying crying burden embarrassment idk hope find someone pure gavin someone change worse make harder you hope life gets simpler quiet hope pass get license hope never remove name tattood leg least hope hatred new girlfriend love gavin reece stop loving you please forget me,1
anymoreim done burden need help feel like im dying ,1
im  want im worn outim emotionally broken lack real connection anyone ive complex upbringing suffered lot depressed  yrs able work meet anyone pursue anything live hermits life suffering even though me wish dream sense is ive learned spirituality understand truth mind im stuck state thought family ripped apart death breaks heart dont know im ramlbing on im crying feels pathetic mind stuck broken state,1
dont know else turnyears ago diagnosed depression anxiety cut regular attempted redflag once went meds worked really hard improving situation eventually found coping mechanisms things going really well while finally finished college  years depression caused fail many classes found highpaying job didnt necessarily love gave funds go things love ive good relationship  years place genuinely happy hadnt even thought hurting couple years went shit since virus biggest thing used cope making fun plans always something look forward to nothing look forward anymore boyfriends mom stage  cancer supposed bucket list year shes housebound cant that anxiety high unbearable ive panic attacks every night barely sleep want hurt time learned tie noose yesterday things dont get better know going end around neck im scared idea deal this dont know can,1
shoot em up blood horror movies come way last little saw hostal saw  hills eyes yes place get wrong went see when stranger calls buddy night why remake  classic time excellent scared know everyone know expect however pleasantly surprised film made mood atmosphere suspense remember people cant see think see cant hear think hear far scarier do love films mood creepiness suspense atmosphere love it brought back roots original halloween thumbs up solid   remember folks well done perfect spooky bloody creepy gory nice see film come long like this minds conditioned warped glitz shock value modern day horror movies forget whats really scary,0
well first cry  great starti live home financially make sense move yet am generally get along parents great obsessed organization bedroom shove mess closet way eyesore according them room mine looks bad guests come over fine way problem unorganized closet problem pile clothes going put away shoved today come home theyre gone fucking threw away theyre shocked im mad said every right upset im wrong im living life wrong im never going amount anything yeah cuz fucking closet messy good job im going grad school soon fuck pretty good  great new years eve come home bullshit criticizing me ive deeply depressed life even though almost completely control calling worthless incompetent brings back really makes want end know sounds stupid self worth already low care feels like hate existence bothersome would throw fucking clothes away like enjoy seeing upset want exist anymore feels like cant anything right,1
constantly myselffalling back old habits hurt today havent bruised long time again bad usually used hopelessness getting me lose little hope every day dont think im worth anymore want kill thing thats stopping make parents friends feel scares bad enough break might stop caring that im tired fucking life bringing everyone me dont want burden anymore convinced died tragic way would help everyone realize need live lives feel like death could good everyone want stop hurting bad,1
@manhnd nghe rồng bay với én bạc nó cũng hoành nhỉ ,0
extremely funny gags one episodes ten years friends good ie funny nordberg fabonlycasted oj simpson movies episodes emerge dvd,0
cant wait longer years ago attempted redflag hanging failed im failure endlessly harassed bullied fucking worthless society ever since days junior high end motivated purely hatred twisted irritating people life aspired this people begged kill myself almost entire grade school started thinking this want win stayed told nobody thinking tried fighting went ok while figured pushed limit school get good enough education escape horrific place live in thats wanted free hell hole town canada problem literally worthless stupid studied non stop obtained perfect attendance across years high school meant nothing barely passed classes teachers say im lost cause point im last year high school failed math course berated every single student teacher fucking pathetic me last  years waste time done long ago see win right id rather dead spend rest life horrific town anyways thing stopping right know im gonna it,1
nobody irl cares im gonna rant bit learned father spent death mothers leftover money gamble money suppose college ah yes also sold computer im stuck room like  months now,0
miniseries revels flaws make us cringe themit excellent storytelling fuses black comedy mateship in notredflag way pathetic waste war without sheer unadulterated manipulation conjob like life beautifulit entertainment meaning lifeand showcases talents actors young oldgive go tell us think,0
im going overdose prozac tonightim  ive psych hospital before fucking help ive therapist fucking help hate myself hate life hate every single fucking thing me chance finally someone understood gave two shits gf met hospital allowed talk me probably never will im sick anyone ever gets close ends leaving cant keep friends cant function day day life like normal fucking person want nothing dead thats that reason im posting get final thoughts out last me goodbye update survived still here unfortunately chose get hospitalized again od prozac fucking terrible,1
Got my new ipod touch ,0
hangin alone rock bottom years sure still existjust pulled trigger skull first time safety figured id survive really hoped miracle would happen safety failed died  real friends thought finally abandoned me reason ive also fantasizing playing russian roulette every day die even see insane ive also several lucid dreams public redflag voices head trying convince kill myslef daily years now fucking lonely exhausted going nowhere someone talk me incredibly sick myself people desert me world general wanna talk someone else shitty postion guess gonna lie feel supremely lonely hopeless right now thanks,1
olabini still here though the site is gone,0
supamagg that happened to me saturday night along with my glittery green lighter,0
"@seekzpeace @GoldyMom O.k., sounds good, I will have the horses ready in my stable... ",0
ever lonelyso lonely friends cant manage relationship dont want wake anymore redflag hard want hang myself,1
sympathy advice million people shouting darkness internet thought one lasts acts would add voice cacophony think web one day become sentient yell us voice hear noise worst something like whalesong best forever unable decipher message about reason another reason perhaps person might able learn mistakes begin brief history born christian parents first memories ozarks father program become minister one day left gone quite time mother i living small trailer began starve father returned two children boy eleven girl ten disneyworld several months wealthy mother starved became homeless children previous marriage mother idea even existed memory goes almost completely blank five years next memory raped older stepbrother seveneight sixteen ish always physically strong managed sort of fight off showing resistance step siblings sat together methodically broke couple fingers memory vague pretty sure incident type lived major city time projects parents spent time evangelising unemployed waiting assignment church long another child way younger brother spent next years trying best raise brother bouncing place place father unusually terrible job fired often would end new church really sure exactly parents  never around age fourteen almost employed fulltime several jobs parents divorced paid bills provided food tried make decent go high school strong pretty athletic well football while classroom another matter spent and still do time reading anything everything midwestern classrooms taught lowest student became bored quit school attend dualcredit college classes battery tests loved academia met girl fell love three half years went wrong girl dumped mother thought would great marry truckdriver run leaving brother fend himself quit school return home became drugdealer survive also became quite addicted heroine one step ahead law one day vanish took now almost adult brother me got clean poison fully entrenched younger brother failings take credit for struggles day addiction time work menial grid kind stuff could get work all sure legal status long ago sure mountain debt student loans trying get without support long ago younger brother called said i ms need help children moved discover watch slow painful death imagine reality less pain associate reality myself tried professional help tell nearly sociopath capacity kind feeling exception younger brother gone collection pills put sleep forever take soon think best become monstrous know post interesting even slightest importantly helpful anyone around questions question would benefit please askyou literally cant bother me,1
i started therapy for the panic attack that i ve been having it s definitely helped and my therapist recommended that i d benefit from having a medication to take a needed he thought this would help me continue to push the boundary that trigger the panic and that those exposure would help resolve thing he s a sole practitioner and a lcsw i made the appointment with my regular doctor who told me that even with the therapist recommendation he wouldn t write a prescription for a controlled substance and i needed to see a psychiatrist i didn t know these drug were controlled another month pass by while i wait for the psychiatrist appointment hour and 0 later they tell me the same thing they will only prescribe something that i take every day i don t want to take daily medication and my therapist seems to think that s not the best choice i m not a doctor and am just trying to do the best i can to get better am i asking for something crazy is there a medication that isn t controlled that i could ask for or reference i m trying really hard to get out of my comfort zone and get thing back to normal both for me and for my family i feel like a drug seeker now and am embarrassed to go see another psychiatrist i m not sure what i m supposed to do next,1
Spammers seem to be starting Twitter Spam accts w/ legit lking twits like &quot;yay joined twitter  my friends wouldnt stop talking about it!&quot;,0
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my anxiety and depression ha been through the roof these past few week i can feel myself taking it out on others it s not intentional but it just happens i think it s time to take a few step back from everything and focus more on me and my mental health,1
people kill themselvesare ways kill besides hanging gun shot ive recently thought jumping something dont want fall take long regret halfway down would want drift instantly,1
matters life bringing place total joy bliss blissful nature every drop life enjoyable matter is also overcome obstacles seamlesslyother peoples judgements coming place joy someone truly joyful life feel desire judge needlessly instead focused enjoying lives people concern with worry others think,1
tonight samehi thank reading this going die tonight want to oh want to need get thought someone thank taking piece life read mine im  tried kill  tried since haha  years clean shit sucks keep telling things get better know every day lie past  years living take care grandfather mother job full time job taking care them spare time home repairs houses im pretty good basically done everything flooring whole bathroom remodels also built house bare hands  sq ft dream home mother suicidal grandfather die every morning wake go check idea makes smile see him father got arrested child pornography couple months ago im thing mother now im dumb two college degrees feel like failure try sit think whats next everything want life im terrified losing everything im sad im wanting more im perfectly content scares me ive looking girlfriend  years found one yet never go even though think im ugly cant find anyone using tinder ive tried dating apps nothing money name money goes mother grandfather odd jobs people like fixing home plumbing remodels guess call job make much require send tax return thing think im missing someone give love to ive ever wanted girl liked  years think tonight night finally lay rest long story whole love life long story last crush knew long got raped wanted stop talking me year ago someone im actually happy her life get better sorry poorly written post much say care write everyone special special ,1
not regularly but sometimes i experience an existential agony wash over me i am not special so i figure there are many others who feel like this hello fellow me s pre tldr maybe you can relate generally i am entirely alone with only exception being at work in an office environment and grocery shopping no friend per say the course of time swallowed those for year i had strived to achieve a normie appearance lifestyle to correct the year of abusive upbringing to my credit i am quite socially competent and financially self sufficient now but new acquaintance just don t click i figure most people have their circle worked out already and on my end i can t easily relate to inauthentic people there ha been positive relationship in my life where i experienced belonging but those each have ended negatively despite my at time to my detriment effort to make a relationship work disappointment fatigue ha accumulated to a point where i have unofficially given up my interest are vast yet spread far too thin i discover i veraciously learn about i try i fail i abandon this tends to be my cycle which additionally sediment guilt of failure rarely i will come across someone who ha those similar interest and is successfully branching into that field and i feel a kind of envy or i could have been like that feeling t h e n i remember that surviving in poisoned soil is hard enough let alone growing tall i expect a lot more of myself than wa logically possible given the circumstance in essence i can not determine if i am in a temporary plateau of development or if i am permanently stunted and will be in this grey area limbo for the rest of my day i take pride in being useful honest and finding answer and i think good karma ha gotten me a long way too hope you have a good day or better than mine atleast,1
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@YipCoyote On a Saturday night? Why? ,0
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year ago i wa a grade student this is probably the funniest class i have ever had before diving in to depression next school year http t co u ufvp ea,1
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finding it really hard to use twitter,0
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i ve so many health issue and i m only starting with atopic and seborrhoeic dermatitis and psoriasis through endometriosis and hypothyroidism to ibs fucked up hip and pelvic floor and that s not even all and obviously only phisical thing that are wrong and i really try to take care of all of this problem but it s exhausting and for what to live in a world where everything is getting more and more fucked up every minute the pandemic the war the famine that s probably gon na come soon a a result of the war i m polish so very much can feel the effect of what s happening in ukraine i m also vegan and knowing that so many animal are still suffering and the price of everything are going up i don t even think i can afford to live anymore and i m really trying going on a walk in the forest everyday doing yoga eating healthy just generally taking care of myself like a normal person would but i just can t see the light at the end of the tunnel rant over,1
circumcision makes feel suicidalhi community know may sound weird hate circumcision infant without consent especially austrian  left intact hate people claim nearly one third circumcised vast majority still happy course are even months ago think something change supressed feelings beacuse considered weak disrespectful parents realised unethical cut part body feel incomplete raped raped knife feel betrayed nad humiliated parents inferior rest society already spoken parents utterly regret could forgive feelings stay unfortunately learn grief feel,1
repeatedly saying brilliant many columbo episodes are time honour episode maximum points etude black  percent perfect certainly  percentmaybe   br br last week reviewed just married compared unfavourably meet parents well heres one parents blythe danner much earlier role wife famous orchestral conductor alex benedict played legend john cassavetes alex affair jennifer wells girl orchestra not first affair one suspects blackmailing alex leave wife wifes mother holds purse strings orchestra alex think itd smart move destroy career marriage overnight instead hatches plot sneak concert hall performance murder young lover making look like suicidebr br enter columbo guess what takes two seconds realise homicide likely suicide take much longer columbo connect alex victim soon hes following around wherever goes even though columbo certain alex man actually takes quite false leads none columbo really swallows vital piece evidencebr br along way topnotch extra characters ranging precocious young neighbour jennifer wells english mechanic sounds like would home coronation street bedraggled looking brass player nearly finds fitted murder he also seeing jennifer wells busy girl theres even brief cameo commandant lassard police academy films leslie nielsen lady waiting impossible take seriously i bet thinking speech made podium you br br but blythe danner john cassavetes peter falk steal show here blythe absolutely divine mrs benedict moment spots alex dialling jennifer wells number memory feels deeply troubled exactly relationship was masterful performance struggles trust alex despite intuition telling something very wrong columbo help matters interrupting game tennis ask impertinent questions alexs relations members orchestrabr br as john cassavetes well shame make repeat appearances columbo villains could jack cassidy patrick mcgoohan one alltime greats show performance superb hes another one falls highly irritated category losing patience columbo rather befriending indulging him despite this game finally grudgingly acknowledge columbos geniusbr br well really really fantastic show loses couple small points rather sledgehammer view classical music highlighted many posters here none bearing logic story characterisations least music good dramatic excitingbr br finally come across it absolutely amazing clip john cassavetes peter falk dick cavett show early s im totally convinced steve coogan watched clip based alan partridge it everything clip resembles knowing knowing you cringeworthy introduction total humiliation cavett guests even orchestra get act playing circus music falk cassavetes friend ben gazzara fool ridicule hostbr br it might strictly relevant review cavett show clip gives nice insight deep friendship professional relationship peter falk john cassavetes clear see quality etude black well pair worked together,0
@leftyjes u will get more done at home...see quack and touch base after. We have stuff to do after my nanna nap ,0
fuck fuck memonths ive tried find real help ive called hotline put hold ive posted asked help response ive tried see reason put pistol temple ive tried tried tried find fucking inch life line there im pos exit clear exit clear,1
"@Teddymasikae I'm gonna do it babe! goin 2 shake my bunns &amp; have a ton of funns, LMAO ",0
hate hotels family im staycation downtown city near live share tiny hotel room single bathroom  siblings mom mom bad all sister disgusting smells like piss shit leaves toothpaste counter flush shidding smears shitty makeup white blankets brother jist annoying entitled makes whole trip physically mentally uncomfortable trip ive ever had  nights hotel horrible im honest,0
Happy Birthday to me! ,0
first all know bruce willis good actor take majority movies see characters moments same character movie far beyond every single one far counting story begins not far future man sent past find source virus swept humanity face earth story seems go towards sf think closer drama slow rhythm story that movies tend faster slower points develop towards end beginning see movie aware constant rhythm story revealing facts speed slow down one speed flows gently pretty good mean ending wont pull nerves cause pretty good far direction goes prefect movies easily destroyed bad directing one become far better so getting ready see scifi movie action miss it b movies like this,0
"In our Asian community, it's now become highly imperative that we raise awareness about depression. I'm sick of people brushing this topic as if it's nothing.",1
hows day anything exciting happen,0
Heading off to yoga class. What a beautiful sunshiny day!! ,0
excercise motivated ngl cant wait get shape know gonna overnight im happy right now,0
start company  years ago ambition goal job stayed    stayed    stayed wasting away s s s role changed significantly currently making ever asked take different roles however absolutely miserable low point job argument person worked  years someone would consider friend upset management style also made ridiculous mistake little ago could problems comes long time feeling knowing would without job would feel adrift job looking at know details would like environment like schedule would probably make half currently making let us say get job sucks would do job way long,1
@melissa1424 You play guitar too? Coolness! ,0
Off work! going to watch twilight! ,0
im waitingwaiting best friend come dogsit dad supposed to panicked freaked out ive lost trust ive pissed people off ive disrupted schedules get back house im going it im finally going one thing ive fantasized years something ive attempted succeeded at im choosing death overdose spare sertraline mg im going wash bottle wine thats living house longer have it reddit redflag note anyone recognises username places please try help me want helped want slip away mortal coil goodbye reddit learn mistakes,1
derldium dojowrld ain t even gon na lie winning this a day before my bday would be a game changer for my extreme lack of motivation and hella depression a of late lol http t co mpurp prsx,1
brilliant film great john waters characters unforgettable acting script camerawork enhance overall greatness film perversion artform must see all easily perfect ,0
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told crushfriend still like ive friends year liked told said didnt like back well bunch shit happened couple months ago told get completely cutting life started hanging hell basically went date last week told thinking going end friendships didnt get mad actually kind caring told doesnt like like told know said still friends keep working getting,0
"Off to Saigon in the morning, n Hanoi from there..... ",0
done itso longterm broke again fault pressuring again thought wed gotten back point could work things without breaking it pushed depression continued hatred me terrible feeling realizing lied several months feelings towards you know messed up everything power make you im sorry became needy thing refused talk happened im sorry kept coming give space home happy find alone friends really understand depth im feeling decided im going end life graduation next week were want die broke up lied forgiving me terrible horrible thing do really sucks love hate much want internal fire stop wanted help you let help you,1
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hi with my anxiety the grocery store ha been a tough place for me i ve managed by going at off peak time so there aren t a many people around dressing in layer in case i get too hot and wearing headphone or ear plug to block out noise my last issue is the fluorescent light they bother me a lot any tip besides wearing sunglass indoors when the sun isn t out and having people stare at me lol,1
stressed work work dairy queen boss laying people getting enough business cause winter im worried im gonna get laid cause bills pay dont know im gonna,0
@kittykata very nice but arent you opening your presents early! Naughty Kitty ,0
fix meits always case grass greener side im goddamn tired im breaking responsibilities turned  two weeks ago attend university im junior premedicine im saying brag nothing brag about one care relevant feel way im taking three hard science courses not like psychology intro level level yeah easy grades slipping last midterm level got  points average me funny thing is im studying harder ever before version social interaction study groups feel tired alone morning til night classes undergrad research study study study losing sleep losing sleep dorm two roommates one early entrance program am cant support me support me kick room every fucking night not exaggeration need stay study frequent allnighters want go sleep wander floors searching open study room sometimes audacity take nap early evening like pm bitch cant socialize room vibrating alarm goes long morning get lectured by older roommate get little sleep ive taken sleeping fucking study room head table surrounded notes way bother them pathetic come this feel like ask permission everything like fucking dog dorm room too right it feel like theres nowhere go grades sinking research project thats going lead publication sucking time social life occasional going getting drunk try escape act like im someone else feel robbed high school life ive depressed since  entered college freshman sophomore years hard make normal college friends fact good deal probably means decent social skills one me one think would want im fucked head stress eating alive way forward fair suffer like this worrying prom boyfriend fair suffer like this humanities roommates coast along classes easy go route another way thought getting better two days ago playing charger cord wrapped around neck squeezed really hard realizing stopped want die want live life yesterday cried quiet little tears dorm room roommates fucked around laptops one asked okay cleaned went class fifteen minutes later laughed talked like everything okay god know much longer tell that please help get this lost,1
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everyday thought passes mind sure do reached healthcare mental health professions live thousands miles away family speak this talking subject matter dark seems inappropriate online glad scared stop lingering thoughts,1
Good morning ppl  Hoping to get rid of this Monday morning feeling!,0
planned kill st even thati finished senior school last year since ive preparing college without everpresent stress school keep distracted mind gone shit sleep odd hours im writing  random amounts time spend night thoughts keep company best year guess th november decided id end st december counted day even feeling weird jolt excitement realised november  days instead  wanted check soon possible wake nd december realise still alive never real plan even note drafted guess hoped could wish dying sleep every night hope actually wish death ill die sleep guess im lazy even that cant believe thought actually guts it im joke,1
automod sensitive like cant even insult anymore thats joke,0
life anime would dead blood loss,0
"Wowww, is pleased about the announcement of Golden Sun DS! That AND Monkey Island?  Cooool!",0
want understand dontim posting place wanting understand im old late s understand posting want commit redflag also understand redflag phone lines ive thought redflag long remember hospitalized  already constant part me never wanting die part wanting live find hard people learned blend become like outside found anytime reached learn felt one like learned caused issues seemed could ever solve stopped landed hospital shoes ive lived life got married created new living being built company helped hundreds people find happiness wearing mask mask heavy ive open close friends go managing logistics leaving life overwhelmingly attempts help find help want put mask attempt appease people important ive started seeing professional mind numbingly easy time want med talk feelings today said part must want help took step coming them seem understand never want help anything personality flaw mine reason came try make predefined eventually easier people care about question many people saying i want kill myself really saying i want kill know stop hurting adulting things needed handled die id helium tent right now like said im wanting die im wanting live different,1
"The beach was awesome today, now for some food at spoons! ",0
that s just about it i m just too tired of myself i wish i wa strong like a lot of you are but i m just too weak to keep going after some thinking i think i m finally going towards my end but i don t feel scared actually i feel some peace i m not gon na do it today there s some thing i need to settle first but i think that s my last month in this place good luck everyone i wish only the best for all of you,1
gf broke cus called communist piece shit worth bros tried share candies me clearly brainwashed socialist democrat poropoganda cant life longliveancapistan,0
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"@EwanB1988 HAHAHAHAHA.  OMS, that made me laugh a lot.   xx",0
i need to talk to a professional but i can t bring myself to trust they won t just throw bullshit med at me until i m numb and addicted i just need to talk and explain why my brain doe what it doe and how i can navigate around pill for a solution someone with more insight than a prescription pad,1
"I keep noticing all of the differences between Los Angeles and Vermont...not too many similarities though, ha-ha ",0
@zamnzaddy66 My depression has depression,1
lemonade still taste bad life gives rotten lemonsso problems problems life way think life story failures setbacks story burden family tale sure want continue live in born cleft lip palate south korea begining story big reason anguish mother name of discarded me feel lot anger towards her may poor unable manage costs feel anger lottery life went great family new country pain knowing somewhere real family bloody deformity live could without lot troubles now times much handle hate it hate life reason live adoptive family see burden hospital  surgeries cost much money hurts thinking it forced things normal people problem secure deformity think end would better without me add body useless love sports kinds body breaks down knees bad back bad shoulders really bad problems feets eyes butt get random pain sports anymore unable to even use bicycle without getting exhausted  meters knees loved bicycle anymore story life thing intellect average much think bit faster average person enough excell anything hurts lot put lot pressure become something family pushes want succeed them make feel proud know able to ability become something more feel completly useless like waste human race truly wish could fix lot things effort study like maniac right go feels like fall behind try get went korea year ago find past found pain nothing family end fled home knowing stayed would sink deeper never get rid cleft lip palate  always bother mind forever scarred it social skills worthless go parties good thing comes drink much else never ever even close get girlfriend bother now things think ignore totally lack everything could possibly never get one hate it hate cleft lip palette hate ripped away country made foreigner land hate missing always tried right thing life gives wrong back powerlessness feel crushing me wish could fix it could make lemonade lemons lemons life gives rotten another rotten one im sure want lemonade,1
@heartoffire okay doke  u with neil?,0
jetshun person who read my twitter can t catch up for another week can t talk about it here but yeah saaaaad,0
heidimontag i wish we would get it the same time at the rest of world unfornately i am in cairo and have to wait for mtva to play it,0
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what a day so busy my head hurt from thinking too much annnd tomorrow will be the same woe is me,0
wondering pedos like usual lol wonder pedophiles ever end feeling bad  year old pedo got bit im wondering specifically theyre quite young thats wonder theyll ever feel bad it dont know older ones s ig feel bad theyre quite old horny teens ever know wrong ever know much hurt people,0
wow thanks advice cleverboti got lonely started talking cleverbot exchange happened httpimgurcomailrxc,1
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im really upset one best friends argument started overreacted lot made seem like horrible person ruined day yesterday texted message saying side argument apologise monday message mentioned sometimes toxic said felt like couldnt around me friendship definitely toxic dont know sounded like happy letting best friendship turn friendship didnt mean like asked could apologise said idk hurt made cry ruined day understand started argument shouldnt get response im still blocked leaving read wont answer questions know upset even explaining doesnt want recognise im entirely wrong true friend normal get answer questions,0
wanna talki need friends,1
Jamming at the Grind! Akadi's song of the day &quot;NO MORE CANDY FOR YOU!&quot; PRINCE ,0
it s so hard getting out of bed going to work and pretending you don t have a million thing on your mind it s so hard having a conversation with a coworker pretending that you re okay it s so hard smiling at the customer while you wonder if they can tell you re not really smiling it s so hard to put on a mask everyday so you don t hear are you okay i don t want people to ask me if i m okay because i m not even sure how to answer,1
hello still relevant still remember me,0
what will happen if i take more than pill of acetaminophen at once,1
@aliwinkthree Neon jelly T-shirts? ,0
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sorting new hi lol fill space gap really want take napgt_lt,0
happy sunday r anxiety it s everyone s favorite day of the week sunday the last hour before monday rear it head again let this thread be a space to set your intention share your goal and concern or just to check in about the week ahead,1
spoilersbr br i blown away movie ive renting movielink bit decided check movie out alot boxing movies seem overblow blood movie shows amature level though wish perhaps attention would brought perhaps improving grades movie points problems families face genderbr br i bit concerned ending ending disappointment eitherbr br i think pretty clear title shed win unexpected two got back together sort endbr br loved score scenes highly recommendedbr br br br quality br br entertainment br br replayable ,0
"@decryption I heard it had a weak copy of expose and dock, looking forward to the post ",0
closei start extremely loving family mom greatest thing life reason still alive right now never want make cry second exfriendex best friendlove life second reason still alive great friends also hate using word depression feel like tossed around lot lot meaning behind it extremely depressed really reason why depressed dont want alive living whole life dont care wake morning dont want here going get help already started looking therapists near me one year anniversary dads death days really sure be tried killing twice year already barely holding on told one been bottling years pretending happy time told one person exactly feel been one getting go therapist sucks cant get win life right now going keep trying thing life want right wake alone want someone love next me impossible someone hate myself means unhealthy unfit everything physically look attractive coming onto year  every girl said me one given chance part reason low past years dads death hasnt helped long  year battle cancer spent everyday time loved much miss him always gave good advice good wingman women always tried set girls previous said exfriendexfriendbest friendlove life amazing unfortunately doesnt feeling towards sucks fine happens mental health crap destroying friendship her love her loves friend ended long talk her came understanding ended saying cant friends anymore now need fix brain go back trying friends her lot stress trying love someone used talk ever day morning facetime bedtime facetime matter what still talk care lot actually special amazing friendship ruining that wish things could work us wont complicated imagine stressful cant stop crying almost every second day alone amount time cry want start telling friends mental health late need big push also go see therapist cant sleep night affecting work really need help dont want end news cant stop get another bad low,1
Can i have some tonic with my vodka?? Ahh.... I love Cruz!! ,0
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so something amazing happened yesterday job opportunity basically sprang face completed two back back phone interviews owner manager boy next thing know talking start dates pay andi terrified thrilled lucky happened jumping joy desperately need job worked year due covid could great fit me keep coming back much want die anxious failing am depressed am incapable am walked road before gotten cool job dealt redflag days broke weight constant suicidal ideation pattern i others life recognize point everyone tell getting news mentions oh well sure handle time timebut afraid depressed want close eyes never open again know need job please help self sabotage please help,1
im sitting contemplatingif want not past weeks ive found thinking ending it feel like im hopeless decisions make turn come around go wrong leaving confused saddened mess cant seem catch break im religious think power keeping like this know im wrong handful friends days family distant me ive meds given doctor  months cant afford anymore feel worse every day constantly keep imagining scenarios real gun enough access to want think like anymore want help,1
"@jared_sheldon jared, tweet the photos of the airport. deffo wanna see it too!  xx",0
yo sky guys looks like white mist plz comment cover alien invasion omg,0
odogwuelder brown eyed gyel bongani dee mizzzidc imagine her doing this drying depression over forgotten sneaker if this one loses her job or a child nkor what will she do,1
guys  messages reach k messages reddit ways get messages reddit message directs btw comments post awards upvoting treding thats it recommend commenting post  faster,0
"Post-Book Depression, Book Withdrawal or whateva' ya' call it. <Emoji: Loudly crying face>",1
need help pleaseive really rough go lately struggling harder usual remain positivenot  suicidal a problem past years know cant talk methods ready keep thinking g im scared guilty nervous sorry ughhh sorry rant ,1
ashamed myself reallyreally longa little backstory home schooled til th grade didnt quite get hang school high school grades never really good felt highly accomplished whenever got c parents day still convinced im kind genius lazy never really group friends people actually barely talked me unpopular much hated talk bad it teachers force words wasnt much hand get comfortable would say outrages things act ridiculously attention feel foolish later chubby unhygienic antisocial discovered masturbation  family moved portugaleurope absolutely hated first kids international school went tightly knit felt completely ostracized age started fall love basketball swimming plus active lifestyle general didnt go either teams though felt unwanted grades dropped even lower first time ever received failing grade class barely passed two others parents caring love much transferred smaller schoolchurch  students high school next two years th th grade happiest years life remember met friends seemed genuine attractive slowly became way learned speak mind eloquently got amazing shape swimming surfing basketball turned  started drinking fantastic time hanging beach talking pretty girls loved people taco kind love people youd happily spend rest life kind love became religious together too moved back america kansas places kansas hot dry completely different culture closest beach texas everyone talked driving sports college every day driving sports college great topics moderation three years theyve started eat away point cant even enjoy watching basketball tv  arrived zero clue drive something people didnt find cool started lying it next people found knew next nothing college football basketball wasnt quite hip either started lying it well first year there started getting ruts negative thought would spiral head leave depressed tired unable think positive thoughts myself was am embarrassed didnt even ask parents drive  made queasy think about felt like couldnt real conversations anyone lies kept leading lies started lying without even thinking it whenever someone would ask question would automatically answer coolest way possible began fear speaking people like child id come home headaches everyday around people couldnt look counselors eye conversation parents without lying something pointless didnt join basketball diving team people would find driving lies started skipping classes probably skipped attend depressed think  attendance selfdestructing bursts charisma absolute apathy truth able keep parents ever finding out reason even got accepted local college excellent act scoresupporting lazy colleges low standards skip forwards year recently dropped college freshman yearbig surprise there chose political science honestly reason seems like specific major smart person would chose maybe average interest politics law first semester went okay last one literally gave class got failing grades five classescumulative gpa  living parents unable drive  pounds overweight although parents siblings acting like  often ask little  year old sister drive work im suppose role model her humiliating sister recently walked room caught masturbating work covered dirt nearly half asleep want move get apartment something  dollars name hope day got college goal try keep parents finding im closet loser a little perspective father retired lieutenant colonel degree math business ut ou respectively works insurance agent makes bank daughter graduated  gpa went trinityfollowing boyfriend could gone many better schools played d womans basketball daughter   gpa graduated senior year planning going school me hoping study together daughter  point guard high school varsity basketball team freshman year  gpa drives car bought money even though offered one parents daughter  near prodigylevel gymnast fluid portuguese english  years old son me pathologic liar barely passed high school due credit hour issues couldnt bother go class wasted year fathers gi bill need go community college able go big boy school watching waste life avid masturbator honestly dont think im suicidal sometimes think giving sounds appealing end could still remembered fondly parents realize much disappointment am,1
easy wearing mask time sometimes carry well times cannot even find strength put on everything fine long wear minute starts slip fun around cannot even open way truly feel nobody really understands enjoy anything literally autopilot constant state numbness like ball chain wife carry around course tired it would be understand constant pain in understand reason even keeping going opening causes pain know wants happy her thing though would anywhere happy without her world know do feel guilty around like this feel like wear mask time,1
terrible things put people terrible things cannot escape childhood emotional stunting followed therapy medication awhile stopped thought genuinely felt better really thought didthen reminder recent giant explosion drama initially nothing dragged life hell popped againand went right back considering ending all feel lonely people care me believe life good me sure rough bad others lot privilege life really cry help thinki think want someone agree tell making sense know would say someone asked could help  reality cannotit justi want die want release pain pain caused others want word forget ever existed want end help think,1
been struggling depression since grade  wish would die haha like everyone else here everyday feel stronger urge think around time soon feel right talk anyone know right im posting here,1
hate cant bring hurt around meas late day feels like struggle get through able see therapist mental health steadily deteriorating ive throughs past several years never acted them things getting hard now world fucked hate im living this thing stops going knowing would negatively effect around me much whats stopping me,1
dont think anymoreabout year ago ruined life went school shitfaced every single day due extreme social anxiety depression little know life would get x worse got caught getting driven hospital get stomach pumped getting picked dad broke families heart let go back school weak later happy see friends return passion violin it performing arts school although got past substance abuse depression continued grow winter break parents found finsta personal information feelings mental health sexuality embarassing due fact wasnt ready come out made switch schools closer one promised could return old school got better april mentality improved therapist said good go back parents didnt even try im still stuck god awful school cannot truly call anyone friend friends old school lost contact me parents emotionally abuse sisters every day escape friends boyfriends school life become one tomultuos torture work hard every day please parents practicing violin working grades losing weight never enough them every day tell year ill college ill life new friends sort partner cant fucking live awful cycle one day havent sober school month smoke wax pen bathroom every single day cant stand existing anymore havent told one person school truly anything everyone else relationship least fucking friend cant fucking hold anymore school hell home hell sleep hell im going end awful existence anniversary day ruined life keep telling self better next year also said last year im suicidal ive ever liife,1
@Teshonna AWWW!!!!! What a blessing!  Congratulations!!!,0
@mileycyrus Do you have Facebook?  Loveee youu.,0
feel though thing stopping thought someone finding body im starting care less less thati feel like clear mind im depressed drunken state feel like im done alive feel lonely time cant connect people met girl online talked months became super close nowhere started ghosting explanation want try anymore,1
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even a four day week seems too long i want to stay in bed,0
mrskutcher lol i wish i only had bad sync in germany right now where the subtitle dont work at all lol,0
know fix it try make everyone happy stay way always find way fuck things up know fucking anymore know do selfish,1
friends able talk themim sure many people relate this people id say im close  around  including online friends  matter close get always hate talking redflag struggles ampxb everyone problems deal feel start projecting mine onto others ill seen burdenonly people know tendencies thats theyve found accident even occasions ive always felt bad ampxb many us plans mine  months now nobody knows though intend keeping wayi put way much effort prepping shut down ampxb would nice able talk cry arms another thats fantasy reality im going die alone middle discovered corpse started decay,1
@raacchheelll anything for my favourite brother ,0
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hey guy movies everything choices times life must pick something pass away movie prove that course life fact like beautiful picture movie shows shows indeed may figure that im trying say full pain love deep lessons live aaron mormon missionary real shepherd digging thing beautiful deep inside chisthian skin feeling guybr br its great end always believe fate surprise turn live like latter daysbr br big deal watch it,0
need someone to talk to,1
@bethanydillon I would like to have lunch with you again ,0
help me girl like text lot im around person choke mind goes black idea say really want ask out im tooscared advice,0
redflagthe difference barely hanging submitting entirely darkness shockingly small whim decision let go look hopeless despair like staring man whos foot one deep landmine noisy yet silence night unbearably deafening seductive air still quiet hear ticking counting eventual demise post probably going buried amongst sea suicidal people sharing similar fates yet different walks life wonderand wonderand wonderwhat world look like im gone like detonating emotional nuclear bomb readily wipe surrounding you devastating lethal experience affects keep living point choosing kill myself greatest control myself consciously choosing clearest either or life either live die somewhat greatly comforting heartwarming know everything life fall apart except conscious decision decide final outcome,1
cancel telletubies terrible show girls class made cult worshipping them please help cancel telletubies,0
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@Misikko &amp; @MissBlondie919 are doing a #giveaway. Enter to win a Corioliss flat iron on her blog! Good luck  http://is.gd/xuu5,0
aripiprazole for some background i m and have diagnosed panic disorder ocd and i m getting an assessment for adhd my psychiatrist also said i have a mood disorder possibly mdd or bipolar she hasn t officially diagnosed me yet i took zoloft for about month it made me incredibly restless even more so than i wa before for of those month i wa taking aripiprazole on the side i noticed zoloft wa helping with my anxiety but not with my depression my main concern is that i recently got taken off the zoloft because it wasn t working i expected to be prescribed a different antidepressant to try but no now i m solely taking aripiprazole do you guy have any experience with aripiprazole i m really scared to be taking it by itself a i wa already going through a hard time where i didn t have any energy and aripiprazole make me more tired which is usually balanced out by zoloft but without zoloft i m scared i ll become a zombie i m also a bit concerned about long term side effect doe anyone know anything about those thank you in advance,1
ahhaha feel great past four hours ive felt sick hearts beating fast body wants stay horizontal feel like im going vomit stand again music usually helps sleep giving headache dont know whats wrong  am,0
generation grown gen z teachers gonna like mr johnson send timmy principals office acting bit sus,0
think suicide frequently sick sad angry miserable cure  happens next sick struggling every day,1
tinkewbeww amazing fwen wish wewe besties but guess thats weality,0
accidentally put earbuds washing machine somehow still fucking work they sound better before what fucknation,0
reached bottomone seemingly insignificant event sent deep emotional spiral hope anything going forward please someone tell gets better false hope cling onto bit longer,1
saw movie flight philly denver screen three rows front  x  really going watch it like malcolm middle thought id watch minutes next thing know im sucked in great time pleased good fast seemed make time go by agree acting good level entertainment one older baby boomers also pleased see lee majors role movie couple actors famous jamiel yesterday spotlight today poking fun themselvesbr br its basic kid wronged kid gets even and some everyone enjoys process heavy thinking great analysis needed good fun way pass timebr br  ,0
wanting kill helping othersi trying positive things community live one counties state extreme poverty rate saying everyone poor here wealthy neighborhoods sure police definitely give shit homeless people troubled youth white poc cis trans straight queer ethnic minority even though definite majority county cismale lightskinned guess straight idk definitely mostly attracted women romantically sexually queer thoughts tendencies whatever nothing would consider queer over feel like id coopting stretching guess im beta whatever def frat bro college lives parents nice part time job campus try help youth community lot raising funds dreamer scholarships hosting know rights workshops families may affected current administration hosting allday higher education career conference every year junior senior high school students feeds breakfast lunch free gets familiescaretakers hair saturday work campaigns would expand certain things help people campaigns people buy way office im fourth generation activist want help inspire next generation help people prevents blowing brains out ive diagnosed major depression d my lame social worker sent behavioral health hospital know getting into thought going scan brain whatever im dumb lot times people make want end all a im marginalized bad person nothing even though im ignorant do helps tell help shitposter commonly found found helping others community let alone fighting chains also unaware current evil representatives smaller local laws elections want help tell fucking help tell campaigns critical you im going waste time listening shitty panel campus three hours results progress plan fight system b thats liberal me ill stick shitposting commie never helped person life audacity tell activists do constantly found confusing radical philosophy know nothing banter tactics affective breaking chains know keywords memes call radical c i think shitty ambiguous art project profit activism choir preacher hyper derivative works art think activism merely existing commonly found disinterested politics expects laws know change based outrage knows keywords radical leftist stalinist whateverists locks echo chamber build audience passive art meaning make artist look like socially conscious edgelord instagram hate people annoying inactive too want people help others know might something bring playbook experience knowledge simply fine echo chambers unchallenged oppression privilege  know privileges social constructs wealth guarantee want kill reason besides hate height tremendously  good day general body my face okay guess work overlooked abcs millennials listed want help people lack support get upsetting help less shit talking me could help many lives want die ill regret posting this,1
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posting picture guy dipping pizza milk  day never day  httpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpghttpspbstwimgcommediaciwxcuaeimqjpg,0
JK Rowling has magical words for Harry Potter fan suffering from depression (12 Photos)  http://thechive.com/2018/03/22/jk-rowling-has-magical-words-for-harry-potter-fan-suffering-from-depression-12-photos/ …,1
Check out that peace sign in Donnie's hair!  Damn Joe was sooo young!    I can remember when!!!,0
i had an alternative account where i post in subreddits related to video game i like asking for strategy i guess i did that too often without noticing anyway i got an anonymous reddit care resource message and i already got the feeling i wa targeted by troll or hater i have another alternative reddit account where i post in a controversial sub and i get reddit care resource message basically every other week lol i should have deactivated my account but i didn t anyway a while later someone sent me a message on reddit calling me a c t who should f off a i spam the sub in a brainless manner and ask about everything about the game so i m a loser who is too annoying without the asterisk i couldn t see who sent me that message a that person immediately deleted his or her account anyway this made me uncomfortable that person used really strong language and i don t think calling me a c t wa justified i guess i should be smart enough to deactivate my reddit account a soon a a i got a reddit care message ironically i never got such a message even though i posted in mental health sub numerous time with a lot of alternative account or just turn off private message didn t see the need to do so a i never thought i would get such a message by posting on such a sub it s not like i wa posting anything controversial did i do the right thing deactivating that alternative account i don t think there wa a way i could win that argument so i guess the best thing to do wa just to vanish from the sub another thing is i m worried that the hater or hater will find this thread and know it s me or maybe people from that sub will notice how i m gone and will find this thread or maybe the developer can guess who i am a in which gaming account that alternative reddit account is linked to based on the video game info i described a in which stage i got stuck in how much game money i had stocked up etc am i being paranoid,1
im nothing waste lifei give up supposed good things supposed person end body broken want die right now,1
damn covered thorns way horny ,0
"off to bed as birds wake-up, it's been a while since i did that last...great night out with my older cousin her husband &amp; their friends ",0
that was the last day of our school musical. We had a ridiculous amount of fun backstage and got shushed soo many times xD. good stuff ,0
you probably know how i m feeling about it lately when my mom s been calling it sound like she s been cry i wish she hated me like she should,1
know doi recently left husband ran away another state living friends right figure im doing know im depressed again sleep time barely eat see point anything husband abusive physically abusive past take mental abuse anymore even ran sticks me recently developed feelings someone else fully believe hes leading on sleep bed weve kissed feel like really want me wants warm bed nights stays unless staying things awkward weird us cant get mentality starting nothing money im pay rent apartment lease cant even stay at feel like burden everyone want anymore,1
@Naimahkinz why thank you darling ,0
hello i am neurotic with symptom of anxiety disorder and ha mild suicide ideation i am generally better the last month i have taken the past year off college to focus on taking care of myself i went to therapy but had recently stopped so i could afford to go to school again this year i think i have been doing well in implementing lifestyle change that improve my mental well being such a setting clear boundary reaching out and eating which is one of my biggest challenge i still struggle to be consistent in aspect of taking care of myself but i wonder what change do you suggest or have tried that helped you a lot in continuing to live i struggle in finding joy or even interest in living and in time of difficulty still ideate my death i know i m sick and that is something i should fix i hope you could help me with your answer they don t have to be big since small change are more sustainable and le overwhelming thank you,1
"listening to Jack Johnson. aaah, sometimes rainy days just feel so relaxing ",0
know life failureim highly considering going music education music performance both admit skilled musician comes academics anymore solid  gpa high school freshman sophomore earned two ds chemistry  cs algebra currently im junior ive earned  potentially f bring months participate music group bands outside school time take private lessons two different people feel like comes academics colleges even look me defense taking  ap classes year junior year rough guess work  hours week feel like shit honestly kill cant get college bad grades in classes unrelated music please someone try reassure chance ahead me tell stop trying late please would college take good musocian even shit school hope chance,1
cant people suicidal peacei dont understand much stigma redflag everyone think suicidal person needs help understand redflag personal decision death takes make someone happy let it ive fantasized various redflag methods since  im  day gone believe im better planet dead look forward death accept it invite it thing stopped far im scared failure fail kill treated like criminal actually get charged waiting right painless opportunity im jumping right it nothing stop me never happy life good find happiness world need understand dont feel way vent,1
my life is essentially perfect i have a good family great friend loving pet and a fantastic home with opportunity galore but i still want to end it all to take that trip down a road that i can t come back from in theory i should not be sad but i am and nothing help people in this world starve to death and some of my friend don t even have parent left because of terrible accident but something a simple a having a slightly bad day make me want to give up how do they keep going after such awful event i am not even worthy of feeling sad about my life let alone end it why do i feel selfish enough to feel this way and to act a if i should be allowed to be depressed,1
 pleaseprobably gonna kill soon im stranded small town middle bumfuck nowhere  theres option employment jobs here car broken cant get new one fix without job im allowed see son  times month something mother did yet im one punished  im running fight here dont friends really reason stay alive,1
minecraft dog died named lucky went mining fell pit lava miss ,0
@MrsSOsbourne Hope Kelly gets better ,0
hetty christ heh yeah i shakily conquered the ladder pointless job tho we re too far away to receive digital signal w antenna,0
factual statement real girlsgtanime girls ampxb anime boobsgtreal girls ampxb need real life anime boobs also need better jiggle physics,0
im lostit started  months ago family moved lost friends pretty much irl social interactions would have school made worst im scared letting family down theyve done soo much thought letting kills me get universities missing credit feel like disappointment even school ended ive thought ending life wanna hurt ones leave behind lately gotten worse everyday feels like chore idk do ive problems eating sleeping lately resulted loosing  pounds reason im posting vent one home confined keeping inside hurts,1
cant save anyone understand im trapped herei cant save anyone started feel better tried help someone close back feet im scared cause theres chance might attend funeral im supposed to ive said everything ive tried can ive tried good person ive tried help them ive tried help find meaning point purpose put needs theirs put wellbeing helping them im trying work ive lost purpose cause purpose dream blink gather ideas time theyre always wrong ideas im gonna change fit person power local dreamer tyler lt,1
look ugly suck everything always fuck everything up talent i cannot sing cannot dance cannot draw etc keep getting yelled annoying voice hell friends nobody loves me single and likely going die alone still here redeeming qualities,1
@Eyglo We've got to make the most of it before the weather changes. At least we do here in Glasgow lol ,0
hi hope wonderful  hours cause yes totally lizard thing,0
want die badly ive basically given lifebecause think death often literally dont give fuck anymore meaningless me college work pointless temporary life things anyone relate this guess thought process im going inevitably end life point doesnt matter im still here,1
"We finally spoke about my depression and besides not believing in this whole disorder, she gave me her blessing to go ahead and admit myself at a hospital<Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face>",1
makes someone interesting person im curious others think,0
like fuck am i invisible,1
unable kind funhi like title says used like videogames enjoy anymore sole source fun life friends hobbies never mind girlfriend body feels languid sick time enjoy anything physical find without fun life idea could get any little help,1
fat rant  seasonal affective disorder coming  ahhahaha im really behind homework dont energy anything wanna lay cuddle cant bc  hr drive girl wants to like feel like shit dont wanna anything wanna ,0
like feeling like thisso im last year college lost close relative feels like want work course work anymore let alone think hardships college like getting job find place stay again idk guess im really tired forging ahead wish take care things anymore commit redflag want siblings little cousins say wish couldve known like guess question would be get motivation go get need get done done thank input greatly appreciated,1
better die lose morality need help im point im ready fullheartedly prepared commit redflag planned every detail need im stuck time passes worse feel want die so knows this know do im trying think affect cant even think straight background life never good lot disorders mental illnesses caused trauma born with hard time living life constantly feel like dying old home dangerous new home religious beliefs conflict identity im uncomfortable am theres therapist psychiatrist theyre supposed help think im insane others say im fake liar never even understand myself find trying die lot also realized years become destructive agitated aggressive ive started thinking killing more become something think normally end hurting people lot mean to basically im becoming like parents want like keep failing changing  days plan end life  days make final decision know best path take die thats metheres nothing left existence everything would gone suffer anything live ill become like them ill continue falling apart someday able resist shitty thoughts anymore know ill act someday know do help,1
hate learn much bout catholic rant hate fact learn much bout bein catholic like im even chatholic christian dont believe god fuck need that dont want get married hate believe cannot sin go hell hate fact bibal stupid ugh everythin bout makin angry like dont even remember none prayers like christmas family praying sitting there knowin fuck say tryin get by day dead visiting graves expected say prayers like bitch dont fuckin remember em ya know tried swim trough dumbass classes cant use knowlege bout diferent sins fuckin bibal anywhere unless creating characters ,0
ask out alright bit background here crush friend ive known like  years hang school lunch break days one point liked scared ask out fast forward maybe  months later finally got nerve ask out literally day gonna ask find started dating someone really fucked up ended depressed months it almost killing myself boyfriend broke two months ago get back school find still feelings her do tldr fell love friend got depressed cuz it shes single im wondering do,0
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"Forms, even ",0
skylineking connor it s me febi are you really really mad at me,0
i m probably most content when i m by myself don t need anyone to talk to or try to impress but the moment i have to fauxalize fake socialize a i call it and then i get completely irritated and annoyed by any and everyone if they re too happy if they re too talkative if they stand too close etc my irritation level go from 0 to 00 and i just want to completely remove myself from the situation before i blow a fuse,1
u think corona end im thinking  feels like im jinxing it anyone else,0
well disagree leonard maltin animated short loves claimed hilarious enjoyed see humor even like hockey know anything it still loved story living right across border canada watched hockey  years buffalobut think much cartoon oh interesting know would happen wore toronto jersey quebec area  disaster especially holds true glory years les canadians however make story funny br br back s everyone quebec provinces idolized montreal canadians star player maurice richard everyone wanted like him mother orders new sweater toronto maple leafs emblem it kid want caught dead wearing it finally heads local rink gets ostracized rest hockey buddies whats funny that could see thing happening kid boston red sox diehard mom gets yankees shirt horrors wear it viceversabr br maybe someone follow sports all like maltin situation seems odd humorous himbut fact life bittime sports fan favorite team interesting story totally believable nothing made laughbr br the art fun look throughout almost like looking long series crayon paintings done talented school kid french canadian accent good too movie part dvd leonard maltins animation favorites national film board canada,0
Good morning everyone!  It is such a beautiful day here in New England!  ,0
damn  one girls class said feminine features feels good tbh im one tells stuff like tothis made day tho,0
@daveascott Thank you so much for the quote. I really appreciate it. ,0
im suffering liver failure either way dead soon exit world way insteadive suffer liver disease quite time doctor almost  years ago told developing stages brain dead teenager giving two fucks ignored advice simply simply lose weight liver heal back normal time brain dead retard time realize importance situation hand time well guess  years untreated liver  overdoes attempts pills shit ton throw liquor wow really smells like liver failure me money would cost get liver transplant fucking godly amount option practically shit creek sad reality basically option way hell going put burden parents so month ago decided ill push loved ones away make hate including girlfriend ex girlfriend pushed away keep mind ive chicken shit let anyone know this way die care anymore least hurt less last monday attempted redflag failed got discharged hospital turns one people sent letter blocked without even saying anything sat sidewalk waiting ride come get me realized ive accepted decent amount time ago fate sealed clue much longer left considering pain keeps getting worse worse point cant sleep id say long its currently am live turns alot say redflag note dont think really want thing winning know like said really fear death anymore fear tomorrow point feel happy thought going terms know going way seems like peaceful proper way me,1
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when hell devil help outi cant keep anymore tired tired,1
can t get past in flight control http twitpic com y f,0
strongly seriously considering hanging myselftheres much want say doesnt feel like matters screaming void,1
anyone gpd im seeing others,0
struggle constantly laughsmile every months  seconds sounds right life even once,1
rape  redflag sexslept two guys   slept two guys basically dont even know true fwb would sleep together lot even drove exam one night came invited friend drink literally woke see three used condoms ground called said sleep friend message saying fucked last night freak shit called fwb said didnt happened friend like im joking happened fast forward three months later stop talking fwb roommate get argument called landlord told fucked two guys house called fwb saying didnt happened u drunk loud sooooo idkkkkk couldve fucked two guys raped illl never know stressing want commit redflag mother told something happened deserved ive committed redflag three times sent hospital doesnt come visit says next time properly dont house stuff like u die ill cremate dont care honestly feel like ill better stupid planet feel alone,1
mhm not having a good day blah blah blah,0
"@HippyDi I'll have a cup of coffee soon, find another bottle to open and sing something happier too ",0
feels like summer idk man feels like beginning quarantine again ik thats year passed like ate bag chips exclusively ate summer im rewarding greys everything simple lowkey hope school gets cancelled  months,0
girls saying no body shaming every tiktok see girl saying small  inches are body shaming lets go,0
take privacy granted mom forced put parental controls phone blood boiling rage literally privacy now cant delete browser history much less open incognito tab  know know  good intentions wants know location case emergency going become much more dad sus heavily it guys listen close never ever take privacy granted enjoy every minute porn enjoy every incognito tab open enjoy every text send one day might come crashing down first probably last post sub please heed advice,0
zerohedge depression is spelled with a d not r,1
i cant put the feeling i feel into word im stuck in an endless cycle of dopamine consumption all i do is work school scroll i have no hobby no interest nothing brings me joy but i dont have the motivation to actually do anything i think im depressed but i dont want to go back into therapy psychiatry because im tired of feeling like a patient even writing this is tiring and i cant thinj of how i could describe my conditon my dad tell me he s proud of me for doing basic thing like showering or going to school everyone s expectation of me went from sky high to so so very low in a matter of 0 year i hate it i dont know where i went im just empty now,1
im physically exhaustedf throughout entire life ive felt like birth unnecessary constantly get reminded mom planned aborting hate it high school definition hell im so tired it plan killing soon need stop need everything stop friends nobody cares theres nobody talk to mind wont stop racing,1
staying alive people around mehi sorry short self centred suicidal while family bf know supportive im staying sanity feel torn easing pain redflag staying know bad would break hearts soul im desperate,1
hey there feel good to talk to people who just a me suffer depression i never talked about it much on the internet though one of my best buddy who is a psychiatrist my parent and some other people know about it it s not many and i feel it s better this way but at least i can talk about it here a i am anonymous on the internet i hope anyways for me it s been many year that i am in a severe depression mine ha developed through a chain of various dumb decision i made that lead me to the place i m at now thing i can t change now can t simply make forgotten since the wheel of time keep spinning it s really interesting though a a 9 year old me would have never believed to suffer severe depression year later though it started many year ago back a a 9 year old i just graduated from school successfully and had every possibility like the world wa open to me a luxury many people sadly don t have and i wa dumb enough to not see clearly ahead of me thinking about what i wanted from life or where i would love to end up now i know and thinking back my 9 year old self should have known it s not really hard to figure out and i would tell my 9 year old self to think about it and keep chasing his dream especially since there wa so much time for it the path i walked though wa a pretty dark one nothing criminal nothing that would at first glance appear a particularly dark but i managed to scare away many people that in retrospect would have been great buddy friend and even girlfriend relationship like the old saying say you are your own worst enemy it s true it really is i have experienced it myself a far a i know there are two kind of depression depression that is genetically biologically caused and depression that is the product of bad experience and decision you made let s call it a reactive depression for me a you can imagine it wa the second and i could punch myself for it a what i did in all these previous year wa almost a textbook example of what not to do bad decision the worst part is that i have this mental image of an alternate reality where i didn t decide the way i did where i wa smarter and while i know it s a mental image it doesn t feel that way the worst thing is it s a devil chain a bad experience lead to me feeling worse while some people learn to hide their depression and keep smiling and joking in front of others just so that others won t realize how you truely feel i don t have that gift a i am usually in a bad mood and are perceived a a very unfriendly person by others which again lead to social alienation which make my depression even worse it s gotten really worse the last few year interestingly after coming back from being homeless and living on the street for half a year to a point where i don t want to live anymore where i want to forget,1
make post something im really bored therws nothing pc shit cant play games youtube boring cant go outside,0
need disappear leave tracei mean anything world anyway close family want dig possessions especially computer looking answers  simple  im worthless garbage hyperaware real chance recovery cant stop for example funeral really why mourning exactly anyone thought come ideas ive alive far long sad pathetic ive even tried save worthless life meantime proved im use world human being thanks advance,1
@nakrissimo Can I come?  I could use a nice decadent party. ,0
 year old struggling cfs decade looking end life dignitasim  year old guy ireland life going right almost ten years ago health took turn worst ended chronic fatigue syndrome struggled college it proudly got degree finishing top class time finished everything gone shell former self struggling hard illness appears absolutely futile continue life nobody knows difficult cfs unless live it every single day life unrelenting exhaustion along array food intolerances lack brain clarity means longer even watch movie takes much concentration follow it mention severe depression makes everything worse life fucking hell nothing smile about cant work put degree use scrape week week disability allowance never feel well enough hold relationship get married kids dreams impossible achievements im tired all im tired life ive fought long cant fight longer want out want go dignitas assisted redflag know would tell parents know suffer know bad really is anybody considered this death really scares as normal person idea growing old gradually losing faculties scary ive tried committing redflag before difficult actually push finish job,1
breaking bad habits im trying strive away feeling wanting drink smoke stopped fun started wednesday night alone lose self control it best stop now forget feeling act it,0
admit ive seen three shakespeares plays romeo  juliet macbeth  course hamlet one liked found soso macbeth hamlet found masterpiece im pleased tell adaptation every bit good intense dramatic play acting extremely strong with cast features kenneth branagh robin williams billy crystal lose change time period looks like somewhere  s plays beautifully characters move say infamous lines straight script fan shakespearean play get chills from popular drama highly urge watch powerful  adaptation shakespearean admirer kenneth branagh,0
real guys real yall im aliens ive watching many many years think perfect time invade earth kill evaporate everyone special form water xshot super soeakers see ya,0
friend love anymore broken mei made post monthish ago saying friend thing keeping redflag drifting apart one guys said talk falling apart probably cares much plutonically talked her anymore called many times mental health help health stop friend totally understand forgive for one life care enough stay for think redflag her cant cope know do im scared,1
one think hugs great never hugged life look like people getting really close dont even like people begin might biased look uncomfortable fuck,0
ive enoughsorry long rant advance lot say way get out dad really bothering lately thinks im depressed stop asking it hes right depressed be maybe four friends almost never see them still virgin  im turning  next month ive never actual relationship ive come close maybe couple times girl truly loved used me presumably used mental illness excuse asshole said never official threw away someone else behind back telling kill myself since then several relationships since then im sure happy new guy now not months threw away one best friends killed accident killed me dad diagnosed cancer know what part wishes killed him horrible say right no living rapist child molester whole life dad used force sex young one knows mom bad relationship him know fucking guy nerve ass time asking im ok every second day motherfucker probably reason lonely antisocial miserable piece shit today maybe thats cop  play part able form relationships people right ive lived man raped child whole life way  evidence nothing use reporting anyone  would make things worse mom work cant even drive dad gone wed poor especially since cant find fucking job thats whole different story bottom line  ive lived entire life someone raped me balls question im depressed lonely hell biggest problem sleep day go nowhere one see nothing do matter anyone top that im recent graduate degree care about cant find job get call back never job would enjoy doing never follow think im aware im going hate it either im unemployed bum im employed also miserable job want interests writing sports travelling music video games kind hard get industries business administrationmanagement degree know sorry seems like pity party needed write get chest know do funny everyone else seemingly better  lots friends good relationships parents significant others jobs reason go live things life incredibly broken want give up,1
dont feel real anymorei nearly killed three months ago heres started freshman year highschool came gay family five most peers thought people could trust course highschool started regret decision massively regretted every second every day close people came didnt even speak anymore everytime walked passed one felt heart race body tremble wanted turn back time take back drove deep depression didnt talk anyone outside school gained alot weight sleeping schedule fucked insanely paranoid junior year thought killing every day towards end junior year talked parents decided online homeschooling would best solution better mental health april   september  started getting fitness lost lbs throughout time felt better ever felt didnt think redflag thought future offer me changed homeschooling started first three days homeschooling isolating spent  hours dark empty house work knew something off started getting feelings again knew going work put next three days decided anymore told parents isolation feelings coming back decided maybe could put another year highschool transfer back final thought its senior year everything different fucking wrong first day back highschool okay second day little worse still okay third day worst day life now since homeschooling first three days states schoolyear started missing work first three days highschool problem that but get know me paper teacher im sure know go teacher gives piece paper tells fill class starts work it finish it go hand in teacher tells present class heart starts racing body starts shake little bit start think okay itll fine act like uninterested nobody think anything it sit computer start read paper a little awkwardly noticeably awkward get two words teacher goes up up look hes motioning stand up shit hits fan stand start read voice gets high pitched shaky hands start visibly shaking get little misty eyed hear people giggling background hear someone say something like yo fuck get sit down try hide face whatnot thoughts race like never next  minutes class ends everyone goes lunch walk around halls feeling completely hopeless first impression made everyone perception rest year  people know im gay im stuck year im gonna make it lose rationale walk side door empty staircase leave building text mother love im sorry start walking towards traintracks pouring rain getting soaking wet care totally desensitized everything around me thing cared ending it start getting closer tracks hear train coming im getting ready die train goes front reach it say fuck cares start walking around thoughts get worse think stepping front car no cant that someone else could get hurt alright ill go home slit wrists im walking home mom calls calmly trys reason tells well figure calm anything hearing voice went home waited later day parents withdrew highschool saw therapist  weeks diagnosed severe depression nothing me felt like chore like there felt pathetic theres nothing therapist changing someones sexuality the stem suicidal thoughts positive hang there it gets better shit turned away even more stopped going things cooled bit three months ago dont feel anything anymore time im happy im distracting myself look back pictures kid recognize myself feel like im playing role playing poorly im completely desensitized world around dont see point sticking around whats point living life going end anyway doubt someday im going kill myself everyday thought everytime walk bridge next busy traffic always there cant see living much longer thoughts cant see way thoughts changing even know replies im hoping get posting whatever,1
@pauladeasis Happy birthday Paula! Have a good one. ,0
"@siftyboones @DenierNyc hair growth, abatement of depression, possible increase in PSA",1
dont know anymore hi guys know anymore slightly serious relationship girl kinda ignored me care though big thing happened life go hospital sucked corona started everything wack really hard time deal entirely new scary medical condition left hospital days said might break next days could never say people really anything way saying it although eventually ended could handle tension really broke me around  months ago still feels like yesterday freshman highschool really miss relationship ive since thinned im heaviest kid world flat stomach im skinniest miss someone parent matter what someone talk to main friend would rather play video games online hang person covid lazy sucks play sports usually wind nothing day know future smart work ethic big world know get try without someone side day getting difficult cant even talk friends school make new friends masks divide everyone im masks think agree much harder approach someone wearing mask rather not text girls goes where never text back im really nice guy reason girls decided make trend cool date nice guy makes sense really sucks got bullied alot summer political opinion right made harder show face school again im really sorry half baked scattered paragraph needed tell people im going either need feedback people tho unbiased parent interested getting know dm me still want help out comment post give advice helped guys thanks,0
know anymorei feel lost right now cant help feel like im terrible person like one part complete sociopath sometimes empathy could destroy someones life without feeling thing scares me ive done terrible things past messed every relationship ive had think world would better without me want keep hurting people care about,1
looooooooong day at work .. glad I have my 4th Twilight book ,0
said yes mom got new lego set im happy,0
@evAllTimeLow haha yeah i'll put the @jonathancook pic up now ,0
i feel like i have had this crap since i wa young and depending on whether or not i can convince myself everything will be okay is where my anxiety level are i am constantly plagued by my own thought about dying and more specifically what happens after and the wonderful memory throughout my life that will just be gone i love life so strongly the sunrise and sunset the connection with family friend my husband potentially future child that i ve been holding off on until i can come to some sort of conclusion with this anxiety and the companionship of animal sometimes i spiral into panic over it and just don t know how i m going to keep doing this for the rest of my life the anxiety is so bad that i would say at this point i have depression that i ve never felt wa a label that ha matched me in the past doe anyone have any kind word or advice or anything ha anyone had success with finding their way out of this anxiety i m not religious but i am spiritual and look at life very factually and scientifically this is just one thing that i don t have very good answer to or hope about,1
im tired tired timeevery month post something here delete forget pain come back going past five years keep telling get better someday ill one normal girls ill happy feel void ive already died many times ive already walked path one many times wanna die,1
sadi dont anything sad about im straight student wonderful mom dad little sister yet night battle want end it want someone tell yet time dont want tell that times battle night time tonight far worst wonder ill make see morning,1
big splashy film broadway music nathan frank sinatra loves roll dice organize illegal crap games blonde loving adelaide vivian blaine wants marry gives craps decides one last game sky masterson marlon brando bets big town bets sky cant get mission worker sarah brown jean simmons go havana may sound like strange plot summary moviebr br this real mixed bagtheres wonderful stuff here songs good dancing incredible real show stopper crap game end also brando really quite good hereit might seem strange think singing dancing pulls off admit seeing big bulky brando pulling difficult dance moves lot fun also sinatra pretty good blaine wonderful longsuffering girlfriend song dance numbers definite highlights herebr br now bad partsjean simmons wonderful actress stuck drab colorless role cant much it movie far long  minutesthe scenes brando simmons really drag shortened also characters speak precise englishcontractions never used maybe trying amusing coming mouths gangsters found jarring kept throwing moviebr br its worth catching songs dances length get while give ,0
hit run shattering story starring always wonderful margaret colin society lady has all hits child car leaves scene hence title tragedy goes call help returns frightened away angry passersby think hitter abandoned scene made days everyone cell phone storybr br colins guilt anguish palpable cause act strangely detective gets onto right away lies sink deeper deeper selfloathing hole causing make bad situation worsebr br this thoughtprovoking story one cant help feel ladys pain wishing throughout would simply come cleanbr br as tv movie thanks colin strong script well average tv movie,0
I got a new Tattoo yesterday it is a mama lion and her 3 cubs I love it represents and my kids soooooooooooooo cute    I am so happy,0
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"Depression, anxiety and mental breakdowns...",1
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need someone talk toas title says explain little detail father recently passed away im stuck crossroad life nowhere go every time take step forward take ten steps back im lost getting closer redflag really care gets lost needed somewhere vent,1
girlfriend hiding redflag attempthello all first off thank help community so gf early s lately case blues despite worries assured fine hindsight lot warning signs overly apologetic blaming many things tried get call professional resisted last week confided got really sick drinking assured things peaked felt better less spiteful herself got hill speak ive kept eye spent much time can yesterday found friend actually trying die night actually admitted publicly fact alternate social media accounts brought yet feel like ive probably making things unintentionally worse lately overly available vocal coming problems however brought either sitting together browsing account quickly scrolled post recognized see general communicative feelings im worried confused next let know knowwhat else do,1
dog died recently died recently got new adopted brother dad promised father man helped carriage accident still baby father died month ago dad returned favor adopting son worst human planet kissed girlfriend without consent bullies constantly made friends hate me yesterday returned home school heard crunch sounds oven looked inside saw beloved dog danny there burning heard brother laughing burried dog outside brother walked inside punched face broke jaw started crying dad decided punish me me brother got away without anything fuck dio brando hope one day drown burning ship,0
got drunk existential crisisi drink times year maybe  times night one times drank ever  shots worth vodka settled night sleeping friends house slept couch kept waking various times night point laying dark realized remember anything myself cried realized existence human construct fact entire completely dismantled beverages proved that already depression before kept going hoping find meaning know people satisfied living lives without meaning cant nothing matters truly doesnt actually exist see point going anymore cant live knowing everyday empty,1
cant moving forward life sleep without alcoholhi ive trying get decent job since graduating high school  anyway since ive job sucked quit job promising let several others go without supplying reason one half weeks think anxiety disorder depression cannot sleep night want go college without job cannot afford books shit live parents need move apartment cannot sleep without drinking anymore drank lot vodka pass realized slowly killing moving alcoholism make kill myself need help trip gay street bridge ending life seriously considered it im pass vodka please help success cant move forward without getting fucked back was want thingsmwith life im moving forward killing would load off help move forward want success happiness,1
@ashlee_amazingg haha dude i'm about to fill my pool with soap and just throw pat in. bring tom  haha. i love how he was SUPPOSED..,0
Changing password for benjamin. (x -&gt; aBc=1xQ - pelda csak  aztmondja: Bad: new and old password are too similar.,0
dad jus told something real world supposed that middle pandemic here playing puppy bit me proceeded blame listening music it dont think parents understand something listen something else,0
about to go to work.. i had the best night last night ,0
finallly told mom im suicidaland go well thinks im sad overreacting ive suffered depression years ive gotten really good hiding feelings cant anymore putting facade everything going well energy consuming much begin with really need help feel like cant keep going anymore,1
thepradeeprawat aastha tiwari sir please help state baord student we want internalassessment we are in mental pressure and depression,1
being in pain a i have done my back in,0
george clooney directed sam rockwell directorial debut confessions dangerous mind starred together movie george clooney also involved movie producer along steven soderbergh shows really believed project potential also seems like fine entertaining project line movieremakes oceans eleven the italian job somehow movie halve successful least good could beenbr br the movie characters played fine well known actors shame characters really given enough room develop even though potential could turned fun enjoyable characters characters mildly entertain mostly quirky sequences movie fact played change much this even though prevent characters ever becoming total bore perhaps even annoying anything like allbr br its course due writing characters used full potential assume original italian movie i soliti ignoti works much better movie does movie relies much simple story predictable way storytellingbr br nevertheless movie simply still fun one watch maybe simplicity harmless little caper movie simply worry much story regard welcome collinwood still movie works simply serves purpose wellbr br its movie regret watching finished also movie really easily without ever seeingbr br ,0
ha 0g of milky bar left and around 00ml of coke,0
today birthday thinking ending tonightyears months torment alone im fed everything tried fix life got back music working out help much im tired trying happy trying think people me today didnt even feel like anything important another lonely day think point birthday point here ive complitated months now ive attempted redflag twice already im ready leave enough enough,1
yall ever parents wake work them cuz thats parents do every fucking day,0
autistic hates everythingim  asbergers syndrome growing always trouble school students teachers principles pulled school around   never got opportunity build social skills growing makes everything awkward todays life im quiet shy barely burned rest bridges neurotypical people im done everything everyone im done working myself im sick everything turned  made prediction turned  id absolutely dispise life everything offer turned  hated everything everything mental stability quickly went down really want around another year ive never partner never dated akward fuck meeting potential partners scaring away hate neurotypicals neurotypical society like everyone else whos considered nuerotypical different everyone else living day day nothing except browse internet day bullshit aspirations anymore desires fix anymore world miss me family dead someday too repercussions result redflag matter get forgotten destroyed room take anymore snapped post last know im writing bunch sentinels basically wholl see this act like care continue life ive always envious person growing wondering never could get opportunities cousins whats wrong barely function mainstream society hate everything everyone hope become statistic year up downvote care act offended like everyone else does screw planet every nuerotypical every disabled person too,1
feel like worthless amp hopeless idiotim three years university still doubt myself classes getting harder progress major know want mentality awful see graduating little hope myself im far behind help feel like ill forever long history depression anxiety ocd suicidal thoughts everything treated ive many in outpatient programs always get better little while new medicine changes work many years therapist great see breaks months time summer oncampus therapy garbage insurance military places accept it feel like lost cause really want die yet think semester over feel hopeless pathetic  stupid much look forward many reasons live grateful opportunity go school  covered financially hardly get bed let alone go class dying means worry sounds ideal right now im tired worrying anyone else feel way cope motivate keep going,1
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depression ya teacher f worst hate cus gave  even new could homework fullest strong feeling hates ya pls advice gains depression thx,0
depression something talk much wanted say men saying females go depression actually makes depressed kind downgraded situation females in saying men times harder comes expressing feelings girl never got express feeling scared depression,1
can t wait for bring me the horizonnn too bad curtis ward is not in the band anymore,0
still slash wrists punching lot recently mostly head suicidal anxious feel crazy it normal self harm via punching myself,1
brightillusions only one to fill that position they ve just tightened our border or something which suck i want you to move here,0
heard jerk someones photos immune system go stonks,0
"@Jawslyn @butterynipple thanks babes for the concern, me feel loved  i'll be going for a scan for my heart, hope it's ok...",0
done everythingdear sw im sick tired mistreated whole life ive good fucking person gotten anywhere life im  yr old male im local univ kid grew south major city used get bullied time ive stabbed twice like oh got stabbed small knife like stood myself took switchblade stabbed stomach second time stabbed knee stopped standing myself didnt really try stick got end high school im bad looking kid  dated captain cheerleading squad  pretty popular nerd somehow fit in dad military moved base base lot turned ten moved base base lot fucking sucked bc person ive ever able call best friend ended hard drugs six years left died overdose know fact wouldnt done im child halfsister  dads first child first marriage greedy shit always pesters dad money dad used pay needed support mother and new bf stole dad basically steal able lunch money real young dad found good job right middle school settled down mom got cancer thought going lose her blocked memory section life dont remember iw good son bad son kills me ended surviving one worst portions life smoked weed friends try calm bring back reality never worked every relationship ive im dependent one im always dependent one im looking girl always make happy im looking someone cares equal much care them im good boyfriend know cook i taught growin up used bake stuff shapes hearts write em poems sorts nice things somehow would always get trampled throughout high school people would always start rumors reason dated new girl really liked new friend would say things like oh hes gay something like them tried sports dad forced football three years lacrosse six when middle school_ liked lacrosse didnt like football still made anyways one done anything ever try think me sometimes dad go buy something said wanted never treats like respects son good intentions me always bicker usually starts yelling reason graduated high school thought id start clean slate joined fraternity became best friends  great guys helped girls cheating me parental feud sister stealing money savings finally landing scholarship university able decide fate met her met getting another cheated me met friend legitimately fell love first sight like cared girlfriends never understood word love met her never really tossed around word wanted felt it knew it loved weve dating almost year half now shes beautiful fun around shes gone abroad semester told lovedme went away fight me tell loves hangs up tells danced another guy fight makeup tells cant without me next day tells shouldnt together next day tells loves anyone else shes ever loved rinse repeat rinse and fucking repeat im tired it like one thinks me ever one ever places first even theyre in love me parents dont even place first theyre love think other sister doesnt even care  loves money best friend sure ive got friends one talk anything lately ive dreams dying dying able anything it im tired all im tired pain im tired even considered im tired objectified thing feel like thats ive ever been matter interesting am people think im constant never worry me dont show im trembling inside wnat die havent lived easiest life havent lived hardest life really cant take it know things better kid things financially easier know dont worry much feel like im utterly obviously neglected want kill myself want end it want someone fucking love like love them want someone loves me anyone guy girl want god damn best friend maybe thats consider girlfriend too best friend thats hurts fight person im love real best friend want end pain im tired pain im tired worried losing someone  mother friend passed away girlfriend want lose myself feel like theyd learn dying appreciate everyone around them theyd learn even im smiling may happy theyre driving insane thinking following heart dont even see look pain face completely wash without giving second glance want die dont even want kill myself want end want stop story exist die know theres god friend pronounced dead minute half said didnt see anything didnt feel anything woke back said understood everything knew felt everything turned completely said theres nothing side us havent believed religion since want turn everything want end dont know deal,1
first way remake good japanese society quite different plays major part film explained opening narration adds humor well warmth movie slew different supporting characterspersonalities part making movie wonderful movie full comedy vulgar anyway like todays grossout comedies yet still laughing loud reality is real life choice work go school withetc movie truly emphasizes shows natural good people overcome petty differences mention makes great subplot much humor story dance actually story good one that back stories place actually support main storyline truly well written film dancing great too happen fan movie dancing sort aspect however movie goes beyond dance fact that story first happens written dancing japanse society highly recommendedbr br  ,0
struggling much past  months husband left march separated ever since wants divorce not started job labor intensive terrible need work make money left several bills feel alone intrusive thoughts subside dread waking every day pain constant terrible struggled mental illness whole life seems worse lately considering current situation need help cannot afford therapist anyone talk to come reddit want everything different know do,1
really want to see kasabian at eden project th july just need someone to go with,0
stop spamming bullshit hotlinesthey dont help ive never heard single story someone actually helped random stranger trained call cops say youre suicidal hang say arent fake bullshit want talk real person shitty volunteer people spamming hotlines make wanna die more ask yes ive called one before told wasting time said wasnt suicidal atm fuck shit hotlines fuck you,1
redflagi dont want it im waiting day drop beer open bottle whiskey die sleep thats want it intentionally accidentally,1
suicidalim sure belongs here know go advice needs rules ill delete post suffer anxiety ive going therapist help much lately want live anymore want kill want exist anymore feel much better im asleep conscious almost everyday thought what would happen killed myself crosses mind probably it family bf would sad hand find looking dose pills deadly human know something pass talk someone want look like im trying get attention get people pity also want bother anyone things like this better things worry about,1
i just can t i m too weak too pathetic too lazy too cowardly i m going to kill myself,1
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minor spoilers followbr br this movie even odd unconventional songs second floor main character follow around plot conventional way emphasis happy end crowdpleasing words roy andersson back vengeance instead falling back convention fixed formula roy andersson concentrates film around idea go idea is even get it promise see greatest visual depth ever put film majestic scenes songs pale comparison here work visual splendorbr br so kind fellow man we living power change lives least thought saw final scene movie inhumane bomber planes sweeping city film take lives away br br and course forget see movie gets limited release near you one movies actually power make better person like de sicas bicycle thieves warm humanistic film,0
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"this day keeps getting better i got my tax refund, a free vacation, my paycheck, and a new couch....   ",0
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year have passed but the only thing that doesn t seem to pas is this tough phase of loneliness i have had a very troubled childhood i wa bullied throughout school probably since every grade post th i didn t have any friend used to roam alone in school during recess coz sitting alone in class without friend used to make me feel really awkward and sad i am now graduated college but situation hasn t gotten that better i did make few society friend lately but they only contact me whenever they need my help or vice versa i tried talking normally too but to no avail they would simply seen zone me i tried dating site too many a time but they were a big flop they always ended up damaging my self esteem a i never ever got more than like whenever on festival when my society friend call me to hangout they always boast that how amazing their experience have been with girl in college someone wa hooking up with different chick in a single week someone else just competed year of relationship am the only fucking one in the entire group of 0 who ha never dated even once it make me feel really really sad and just completely destroys my self esteem i have never ever kissed a girl never held hand with any girl and it just go on and on it make me feel like a failure i feel like i got no one in life it s even tough to sum it up all in this post a there s just too much stuff to share the family issue failed attempt at getting a girl getting used by a girl and then getting blocked from her and much more it make it impossible for me to focus on my study thankyou so much for giving me your time lt much love,1
weird think future could day life better look back depressed useless  cause  sounds futuristic like already part life happier feeling like s shit,0
piece shit undeserving life deserve alive better without myself deserve anything,1
even guts iti used tell always get ruts one would ever believe amount crap survived fall ten steps back time promised dear pet accidental death nothing promised live prosperous life her really hard cant take crap thats handed meish years it cant remember ive full good year one bothering dumb drama friend backstabbing hurt boy losing job always crap every year cant take anymore knew last one would send edge last friend childhood kept touch hes ignoring lord knows hes behind back think job right feel little suicidal think things get better get job taking long time even get interview finally might getting one soon asked times would available tldr thought never family really depressing cant find guy treat right time especially anything first jerk me,1
annemarike oh no owies when will that happen,0
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idk somethinghi idk im saying im lost im hopeless inside feel lonely yet people im mess honest dont understand feel grasp emotions happening like whole life dont know feel exactly every time id cry feel im judged even tho im alone like im weak vulnerable stop crying feeling nothing question cry im even feeling try brush comes back ive thought killing many times every day thought makes way across mind try understand im like cant many things happened past parents lying divorce birth never real care them always like lie dont know im typing this appreciate someone read look doubt it im scattered everywhere im sorry want end constant feeling like unknown hurt despair cant grasp emotions dont understand much ill leave,1
everything cruel worldi feel like ive failed it everything makes feel like loser im tired this dont care anymore nobody talk to nobody would understand parents would disappointed look friend dont real friends one person ended bad terms dont think get state mind ever life,1
cant take anymoreim tired fighting stay happy life constantly gives something happy about rips away great pain years ago met girl internet grew close fast talked texted lived together got engaged months ago betrayed cheated me shortly getting cheated abandoned met new girl granted one slightly younger me well grew close together fast happened accident too randomly messaged one day things grew thier live seperate states cant see eachother physicall weve constantly talking phone self harm deal really bad depression balance eachother out talk phone eachother happy feel like depression gone two days ago parents said dont want speaking texting messaging anymore its responsibility support partner think taking advantage im not really happy eachother plan spend lives together start family till friday herafter friday cant convince parents let still talk text me well cant handle loosing another person whos made world happier even sit here feel like giving up im tired life throwing someone makes feel happy feel safe taking away me abandoning me canti cant handle anymore im break,1
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cannot handle cannot know point dropped going school forfew years last every single friend ever family never talks know nothing push everyone away cannot handle around people dread going alway smile make stupid jokes soon get back room sit dark put something tv time something animated since feels like break reality lay day night feeling empty randomly crying tried cutting self nothing put scars attempted times times nothing made feel like shit think going end soon complete something bucket list cannot handle one talk last years even text ever phone point search something never hour day trying get job save money thing end motivated see self hating everything liked feeling like even family seem like stranger kept trying tell self young understand anything drugs causing stopped nothing change going th grade parents going make like make th cannot even recconect old freinds since moved deleted contact information sorry rumbling doubt anyone cares read wanted something somewhere proves existed getting left behind,1
idk what it is with depression but it always make you feel like the bad guy me breath me right after what a po always breathing wrong,1
cant anymoresince june  feeling awful everything explote november relationship end really love tried fight us treated like shit last week came back really lonely couldnt break literally die tried kill self started go psychiatrist psychologist im taking antidepressants sleeping pills make day last week nice felt little bit better week awful dont know whats happening cant anymore last night spend like  hours thinking im going this dont want mother find body dont want destroy life right cant think dont want anymore ex gf told wanted told needed time alright told wouldnt feel better even waited feel better destroyed me broken heart even really loved still do feel like garbage like cant anything right im deadlift family cant get bed cant stop crying everyday wake anxiety attack cant keep confronting here needed told somebody sorry really bad spelling country speak spanish,1
i m laughing coz i m high on depression,1
something terrible happened ya im guessing somewhere world something bad happened probably im fine tho,0
 male rough dayweekive never contemplated redflag before last  minutes ive figured five ways stop time background girlfriend broke last week talking talk friend ive realized entire life instead taking high road good man ive fact ass pushed everyone know away always thought good person helping others like im good job it helpdesk always helpful working best solution client home im selfish complete ass never things others unless im forced to social skills know carry conversation without turning something like me always wondered always start conversations friends turns out im selfish ass mentioned really anyone talk to hose talk to turn things around make me even im like this need help ive pushed everyone away,1
no one care literally no one care even the mental health service they discharged me because i wasn t engaging with them enough and my case is too difficult for them i wa on a waiting list and wasn t even receiving any therapy i tried to appeal their decision but they re not listening and at this point i already accepted the fact that i must unalive myself i don t have any friend family i don t have a job because nobody want me due to my mh problem what s the point of trying i ve been trying to change myself but it seems like my depression is winning and nothing will ever change i know i have to do this i m 9 and i know i m young but i don t have a choice i already decided i will od next week on my 0th birthday my problem started when i wa born and will finally end next week i m scared but i hope i ll never wake up,1
listen to jonas brother i love this band but i come from germany and i can t see them,0
ughhhhhhhhhh twitter is bing sooooo retarded,0
list favorite users sub,0
coughing up a lung again i ve had this on and off since xmas,0
the sun is shining bright  beautiful day woop woop,0
fantastic song  ? http://blip.fm/~7aaxh,0
dynoisthename haha you better watch those two they might actually kill each other,0
new year new xd  bwas tuff  challenqinq  learned wut lovelt iz wut pain iz made new freinds lt lost old freinds lt learned nd  matter wut   liv lyff w reqretzz  stronqer  cant wait    new year new wut abowt guys,0
name dog adopted cute puppy today know name give her give ideas,0
need to stop sleeping all day cause some problem when you re wide awake at am,0
morning  today is gonna be a twitter-less day (basically a fun-less day!) bio revision alll day - wish me luck ,0
subreddit mods harass women do theyre usually rteenagers y,0
enjoy life weve built together think weve grown lot past eight years positive ways id hate throw away also cant allow disrespected anymore thank reading advice may have  tldr two coworkers romantic feelings her one feel emotionally cheated with,0
@charleehissey When I was off with depression I had to have medical proof ( ie what medication I was on ),1
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i need therapy and i finally fully acknowledge it i am an unemployment year old student in lebanon middle east not the u my parent are some old school arab folk that would never entertain the idea of me going to therapy and the fact that i could never share the real reason behind it only make thing harder and the possibility of them cooperating even more impossible thankfully i can figure out how to sneak to therapy behind their back and although i have it really hard money wise i could afford a mid to low budget therapist a long a it will get me anywhere it would be the absolute biggest financial burden ever but i guess i got ta heal my problem among a couple lesser one i am what would be best described a in my own word casually suicidal i have been for so long just wanting to die and although i have no intention to act on it it weighs a lot on you to be jealous out of all thing from people that die around you i am scared that talking about it to a therapist might make her have to break confidentiality another thing that i am worried about is that any therapist i d go to might not be okay with me because of my belief i am pretty certain that my nihilistic philosophy backed by my lack of religious belief would have to be talked about problem is that i live in a muslim community and in these community my perspective on religion isnt taken lightly what is your take your opinion and all of that sorry if the text is messy and all over the place i just wanted to journal and thought that i might use this opportunity to take someone s opinion a well,1
"I brought my favourite vanilla cookies from ikea, got a pack of candies for my baby. ",0
think im love moved new town called stardew valley theres cute dude named sebastian,0
family doctors lost credibility clearly care goi survived traumatic brain injury life  total shit seizures unending headaches short term memory problems moving talking suicidal ideation huge problem me yesterday writing head injury think ideas actually best ive had none doctors care slightest kill myself mean literally asked suicidal ideation back responded i gun car going shoot soon leave here either parking lot little park street response oh thats interesting ended seizure lost memory forgot follow through described specific plan means it never gotten single response stammering subject changes one dozen doctors taken action notified anybody done anything else yesterday get devastating news serious enough put normal person redflag watch spouse do discuss it nope word even raised subject directly decides without explanation go somewhere unplanned kids say word packs leaves disabled require monitoring hour alone usually ok  takes assessment symptoms seizure threshold etc could extremely dangerous said word left saying taking me according doctors wrong dozen ways breaking every rule comes back couple hours later minutes starts packing food saying im taking kids park try ask whats going on long etc questions required ask note responses says i  hours day actually does care must arranged go park usually means hour figure ill ride out nope gone  hours educational thing wanted go to guess im much embarrassment leaving  hours without arranging attendant rules crazy risky refusing answer questions rules considered risky leaving unattended  hours high state stress acceptable redflag ok end result tell anyone know intend kill myself specific time date method say nothing people around actions care stay go prefer go answer makes sense,1
@mileycyrus isn't it past your bedtime  just kidding!!!!!!,0
bruh thought lost bunch old pictures wanted found old hard drive plus tb  tb  gb ssds pc lol,0
imagine my depression healed bc of stupid little acrylic charms of my faves dressed up as cafe employees,1
my Nana made me a grilled cheese so I'm better ,0
tommcfly did you know that johnson baby use animal like cute bunny to test their product,0
why is it always the fat one,0
wa playing around putting in random twitter usernames so many wasted blank,0
next couple days commit redflag one understands melike says title im going kill next days scam ruined life heres happening believe girl ive met mingle committing edd fraud story looking girlfriend mingle hoping mind multiple disabilities one affects thinking ability never told started get along later told cant since job time looking job one would hire fired  times disability ive gotten help department rehab ive finally gotten job month two later asked bitcoin replied back saying ive heard know is showed video bitcoin asked wanted invest claimed many investors said would think first kept asking gave first wanted put money prepaid card add investors money course said kept asking ive asked legal know anything stuff said yeah  months went finally put money bitcoin atm never received money back claimed scammed uphold kept bothering lend  keeps ringing phone try give her later on showed pic hospital bed pic seems strange like doll bed bandages wrapped around texted reply socalled friend said fault friend hospital bed got mad ive asked  starts cursing me later gf tried showing pics asked see pics well regret ever since even know tricking me anyway june finally got edd card tell want pay back keeps saying meet meet said well meet august asked said watching tv asked tv died week ago stupidly told apply unemployment later asked  said give going gave in later july asked put unemployment application investor wanted know told put answers right wrong answers way mother helped edd application struggle reading understanding somethings anyway later begged give mailing address say first since touched money stimulus check past trusted tricked giving social security number believe pic id well reason started get different mail cant even pronounce asked mailed checks prepaid cards later on investors edd cards mailed place asked whats okay said yeah investors permission open letter give pic card august finally came feeling really depressed told therapist told scam taking advantage heart dropped felt scared wanted commit redflag ive texted roberta claims danii banks instagram model finally told disability said still loved tried deny scammer ive contacted therapist told stop texting going report said shell post pics social media family friends tired apologize ever since ive stopped talking keeps calling back im scared know finally told mother disappointed hopefully solve problem therapist trying help too wondering report trouble knowing scammed penalties therapist discussed told wanted kill want hospitalized mental health want get trouble please help guys really know thats want kill ever tried arrest something therapist said tricked into think police unemployment people would understand situation think might put prison way im using grammarly help type cant time,1
mind meto care clicked post feel l ive crying time every time get knocked feel like fall fall every time crawl back im shoved back further fell like im suffocating wanna cry cant want collapse every second ive cried much come anymore,1
today cheesecake tomorrow knows,0
hello world tried everything counselling gave time spent time frnds yet cant stop lovin her movin outta city stop fuckin thin king bout also coz itll move away family help fuck upmy life much wanna  subreddit know felt like postin siomethin  love hurts love dies  siurprise  drunk aint gonna kill myeslf tonight  trust  one else hopen anonymous ppl net  gonna kill muyself fuck life n make everyone hate  rchd yet  soon  yet  drnk n wanna say ui still liove  wtf become  hate  bye ,1
almost every day i get intrusive thought to kill myself i m having a perfectly normal day and then one thing happens and i immediately start thinking about how i should just die i just turned in february and i wa planning to do it before i turned now i m planning to do it before i m an adult i can t go into a store without going into the tool isle and looking at the dollar rope i can t stop thinking about it right now i m on a school trip in fucking hawaii for god sake music festival and all my classmate are having the time of their life but i wa sitting alone trying to stop myself from cry on the bus now i m in my hotel and the only friend those friend fucking got in a group without me so i m in a room with sophomore that i don t even know my class they all begged me to come here on the school trip for month before we came here but i didn t want to because i thought i would be dead by now now that i think about it hawaii would be a good place to end it my room in the hotel ha a balcony we ll see if i use it this week before i leave also i have derealization all of these thing make me want to just leave this world for good there s more thing to but i don t wan na talk about it,1
@CalebFTSK I BET YOURE WRONG! ,0
struggle hiding low mood act happy not children pay attention energetic loud interesting put happy face work children smiley energetic,1
in certain class i constantly have sweaty palm i sweat and blush extremely easily i d like to be able to fake it till i make it so to say but you can t really act confident when your face is a red a a tomato,1
http://bit.ly/5gvni  hey tweeps please go vote for @CharissaCowart only 8 hours left on this  no sleep,0
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year turn    months tell truth sitting time bomb impulsive liar forever going justify like plan it lie everything things mundane time something extreme grade in parents think going senior year never even passed first math class reason got third time passed everyone virus turned upit clawing every day hell even enrolled year lied showing classes bullshitted way whole year playing video games instead school work always told if tells work always justified i would get paid work would it thing even true fuck mater earliest graduate time drinking ageevery day stuck thinking morning damn thoughts what life every fucking day keep waking thinking every time go play games thing enjoy even sure fun anymore know anything else tried going outside taking dog walk bunch things none gets heart problem actively avoiding work kind mentioned time bomb earlier meant   months parents find sign classes probably even get higher  year classes last yeari t diabetic sometimes night get dark thoughts head straight think all would take sleeping pills could od insulin would go coma bed probably die anybody noticed known sleep sometimes pm would easy thing holding back knowing friends family would sad happens realize nothing manipulate people liking never work already see kind person turning like staring ati would live handouts like leech stuck thinking what better die think suicidal realize lies go deeper far let see ending avoid confrontation always suicidal thoughts ever since  never intense long know could think straight could think something cannot every time start thinking things come back this panicked thinking suicide want kill firmly atheist expect anything eternal rest diei stupidest things try fix depression word besides maybe intense redflag thought tried social friendly tried funny guy time went would get better tried getting better shape see everything else would follow starting better hygiene tried getting back touch close friends nothing worked served distractionif name worse thing though fun anymore maybe started lying tricking people fun though fun anymore lied corner got claw way out spent past  months playing games ignore responsibilities  months worked hell might even work  but passed collapse yelling screaming know comes considering thoughts even now doubt something smartto tell truth pretty sure wrote pity true looking solutions already know them tell parents classes contact school sign classes work ass pass works well easy solution mundane problem asshole know am asshole shame admit truth fix life lazy piece shit like putting forth effort live better happens live life play work money back it maybe one day door door salesman piss offsorry bout long night thinking bad thoughts going go sleep stupid post situation internet tell thoughts situation tend overlook solutions one headtldr lazy piece shit wants pity lazy piece shit story guess,1
day  asking day day people woke great day,0
messed headi crushed finally confirm fucked head one police visit see alright time seriously considering hospitalization good news enough experience feel confident writing worth it got person liked hate me need wait die place hear news get hurt now intelligence personality may good future bet care never added up always useless always tried emulate something own something keep derive source materials fuel need emulate much worth it first earning emotions worth it earning content heart worth it messed need people talk to,1
ooga booga lonely standards are female born female still female nice please play games please preferably brown hair really care much will make toast cuddle nice respect treat like human not sex not ready that buy stuff dont job im workin it  older least  years im  mean unless im angry case mean it understand girl language be simple im guy god dammit,0
lost hopeim pretty much close giving up best moment me well almost every moment horrible im ever seen positive light contuing let introduce myself im vic  yearold  last another month hell female im iranian things best since born here everything going south know do lost someone dear months ago hurt aching heart imaginable dear generally sweetest thing ever seen im relationship girl love me know wants pretend go on feel like let her feel like im unlovable thing is friends nobody likes uncared for expect id used now im not pain got worse worse really cant wake feeling like want start day abandoned things loved life bitter want wake up leave whatever reality im living in seriously hard cant im sorry appreciate reading this left response want thank advice,1
got quarantined day asked kinda crush snapphone number yep going go next home volleyball game death walked room grabbed history forced home way asked come game,0
day  posting get girlfriend dunno write im boreddddddd,0
movie freddys dead final nightmare horrific disturbing every nightmare elm street  yes comedy essence  films anyone possibly say find freddy krueger scary  come across man dreams find even scary comic essence comedy shows care killing finds extremely funny freddy also plays comic mind games them way disturbing  using comic ways think makes horror movies nightmare elm street today writers extremely clever making krueger comic scary oppose jason vorhees  say anything got wit truly frighten victims movie good freddys wit gets would recommend anyone sense humour way  fall asleep,0
ive made mindim pretty sure soon ill gone wanted say hope every lost soul looking comfort finds happiness even small fleeting moments worthy life matter much youve abused unloved abandoned matter horrible things tell matter evil world seems possible climb pit find makes happy even depressed cant shower weeks get bed hope least one day smile favorite pet snuggling you hope smile beat favorite video game find small hobby gives joy hope find joy small fleeting moments enough keep going even minute more,1
found something worse tik tok called kwai basically knock too even degenerate x ads youtube hate lot lot lot,0
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way im eating healthy im overweight want loose weight healthy able athletic things stuff im overweight think whatever im eating still skinny people eat though might unknowingly eating little heres generally eat day breakfast small lunch  maybe  half cups leftovers previous supper black tea honey let eat something unhealthy like piece chocolate supper eat little less regular serving whatever mom makes ive weeks working   times week havent expecting bad health effects dont think stomach grumbles lot thats probably normal someone calorie deficit maybe isnt idk need outsider opinions,0
@Mummyofmany I was joking... As you should know but you are still being followed so all is not lost ,0
months still cannot get together even want get bed anymore even tired want sleep think much longer point living trying trust people one person said theyed never hurt go around exact thing,1
the worst rteenagers twitter account literally goes top posts weekend screenshots them dont even bad screenshot them em followed standards les gooooooo,0
need help asap im snapping girl said likes me know say since like still dont know say ideas,0
going school person first time year im happy it also really anxious ive never even seen face majority students much less spoken them one good friends went tiny program biggest school populated county schedule going change they havent told will website use school deleted and me reason couldnt even see assignments theres testing tomorrow top off theres much im really worried something going go wrong social anxiety doesnt help either wont stay much longer get  tomorrow might look replies morning miss them,0
tf heart hurting pain physical metaphors,0
@Beautyinblknwht u mite need to check into rehab... ,0
got kiss girlfriend first time today literally shaking way home house excitement love god damn much,0
stupid movie we watched mirror ugggggh stooopeeed rip off,0
i m not going to make it after school won t pas and be stuck there i think going out is hurting me i do thing and when i get back home i think it over and think what a failure i am i say something or do something and then i think everyone is gon na laugh thing is i ve got year before i leave school but i m still worrying i m worrying that my friend will leave after the mandatory time needing to spend with me even if i do go out with them more because it s spring i m worrying that this isn t my lowest point my mom already ha anxiety and depression and my dad who is an arsehole is moving out and i m just gon na leave her for the rest of her life however long that is the title is a tiny lie though i hope my mom carry on when i m gone i hope she carry on with the memory or just forgets me entirely so she doe need the grief without me i ve never told anyone except just a few joke with my friend and i don t think they caught on this one time i written a suicide note in my memo but i m so stupid i can t tie a noose not even a shoelace only thing i m good at is writing my handwriting is terrible look like a preschooler written it and i can t even join it up i came on here because i couldn t find anything to cut with and i can t go downstairs to get something it got a bit of the weight crushing my chest off but there is still some,1
best friend started dating exhe really felt like the one breakup came nowhere never even gave explanation why im still him feel broken worst break ive ever through dealing hard enough broke two weeks ago now best friend dating him know whats happening know anymore,1
anthony works grocery store savin pennies someday mama leone left note door said sonny move monkey,0
whats recomended dose icecream friendzone id like three please,0
doneim done phones  dies im dying too gone long,1
uh oh i think i am getting sick,0
anyone wants chat welcome send pm everyone going lot lately want talk yall,0
"Teen Charged with Manslaughter; Encouraged Friend's Suicide - Maya Murphy, P.C. #teenagesuicide #depression #peerpressure #suicide #criminaldefense #mayalaw #lawyersinct  https://buff.ly/2JR5Yj3  pic.twitter.com/vkReUW83jM",1
hurt head felt like going explode never make past seconds another trial run,1
i need a camping fest at least once a month cuz okeechobee only temporarily cured my depression. nothing compares to the pure happiness. reality sucks,1
want kill myselfi money power abuse got feel everyday like im nothing everyone else me judging me mocking me looking me hate everyone too hate working others making rich getting paid crap hate disgusting rich people act like model universe figured out yet built taking advantage people every area society scam take advantage younot financially emotionally slaves chains dont even realize it getting taken advantage every way think went business good years got injury put business im pulling fair share relationship anymore things new thought would bring success failures debt companies constantly lying charging late fees overcharging me put payment plan decided abandon last month wanted  me charge late fees ever month even though automatic deduction dad emails time telling angry disappointed me mom insults constantly calling fat ugly failure also developed health problems escape drugs im gonna kill myself really will believe god think evil sadist self righteously disguised teacher die hope go straight hell stops people see friends,1
weird feeling hi all i m on my th day is buspirone and i m doing really well though when i go to bed it s tough to sleep with this medicine when i fall asleep i m okay but trying too it make me feel like i jolt internally or like when you go over a hill or a rollercoaster and your belly drop and it doe it a lot until i fall asleep i don t know how else to explain it and my doctor this morning didn t seem to concerned i hope it stop soon wondering if anyone can relate,1
is talking to Kath and Johann about going to Vegas.  http://plurk.com/p/xcr4y,0
Had a amazing nite!  but now im really tired! showd up 2 wurk late again! haha o well it was worth it!,0
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trying something newhey everyone name callum im  live england know safe share kind information internet really care less ive diagnosed autism social anxiety severe depression im currently four different types medication make feel numb ive lived life thats privileged  comfortable life really supportive mum two adorable doggies ive counselling depression anxiety always temporary fix problems feel incredibly superficial makes uncomfortable seeking help them title suggests im trying something new  dad left mum im still contact him still see every then still shocked core ever experienced anything like before still adjusting secondary school life getting bullied lot life really strange me got seriously depressed im nihilist always been always be find world live absolutely disgusting  everything big corporations personal gain adverts blaring tv huge boards make spend money irrelevant junk need someone sensory processing disorder courtesy autism barely leave room without subjected kind sensory battering ram world care people makes sick thats kind world want live in cant even leave room thought around people terrifies me sit desk watching youtube videos gaming thats like spend time nearly year ago yay happy anniversary broke girl loved heart relationship harmful mental health right thing  hadnt would worse state  tore apart same im overweight secondary school walked four miles every day two miles in two miles back meaning good shape kind ate wanted  lot since used eating coping mechanism depression started college kept eating much  since walking anymore burning off like that im fat cut myself often need to im addicted anything helps like said world series overbearing stimuli  like whirlpool pain cutting gives like anchor me steadies me relieves me contribute this nothing failed gcses teachers get access arrangements place waste year life retaking them im computing course wanted teacher like me even gotten onto second year im waste time waste space ive contemplated redflag many times thinking ending life become perfectly normal occurrence me im incredibly lonely  since broke her void life makes develop crushes girls far easily try something crushes laugh me think killing every day one day think ill it soon im pathetic terrified actually act now one day soon enough though read far im grateful incredibly grateful maybe needed vent maybe im actually looking help know thank reading seem like anyone cares anymore fact someone listening would help please read entire spiel let know sort advice all even hug please guess sums entire thing please,1
im so tired this morning and there wa only cold shower water not happy,0
reached peak evergoing quest self improvement way down everything try life fails every time try improve fall back original situationfor trying make feel better increased social experiences greatly go gym  days week eat well get  hours sleep every day everything make feel better nothing works lost attachment goals always return low state depression cant make situation work favor things attempt fail really point trying make feel better constant state depression live hard life guaranteed die,1
"@CandyMaize  candy....dont, stop, believing... ",0
say mario party ruins friendships obviously none played  demotion gun game bo,0
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life great cant stay alivei wanna die bad hate myself hate alone ill always alone im trans one ever love me job hell work ex friend hurt really badly everyone gets hurt never face consequences tonight refilled scripts propanol new job starting days got nominated prestigious scholarship im getting top grades cant throw away fuck want loved and cant need die,1
why do other people get reply,0
death starvationmade earlier thread probably monday lived long sleep due hunger pangs knocking out ill probably get banned heres paypal case anyones able donate bread milk paypalmediafuckinbetes,1
fuck it donedont know anyone cares whatever  years old germany know  struggle myself know start dropped school  yeah behind final exams couldve gone studying next year made worst school hauptschule middle school full energy gymnasium tilt take anymore stopped going end december finish driver license too power anymore feel empty  well last week work working parents store saw pretty girl felt love her even gave love back seemed clear wonderful came place last sunday kissed hang out talked much and wanted live her never ever felt power  since yesterday says worth time good her never really girlfriend know react got hurt much ex wanted help her show feel like normal girl ever again  bitchyshe turns  next month thought good no doenst want contact know whyi frustrated body full hate hate mysellf all best mother earth sister shouting them friends want help refuse know start again feel lost  want stop go die addicted videogames dota well least gave smile good it k mmr something proud  tried break competitive gaming really never happened i confused life please guys share warm words not cant otherwise crying right past weeks specially last days cuz her  want visit stars upon me maybe day visit them knows,1
today get drunkits months since last time want drink till pass out least forget miserable feel everyday severe depression gonna lie im taking meds really care point something happens alcohol,1
realized friend better every aspect life ive friends years noticed actually better everything naturally talented know build selfesteem want always compare him want hobbies talent feel unmotivated know practice makes perfect know better look realize much better person me,0
trauma dumping another word tik tok learned ran with ngl trauma dumping nice hear dont sympathize you like im mood would much rather rant input bc everything say embarrassing thinking trauma bonding lol three significant relationships ive like tied trauma bonding two ended horribly far lol anyway u anything dump go ahead,0
even redflag im failure failed redflag attempts im fucking daft loser please dont tell must divine purpose im still here im currently work right im lose it ive staring screen  fuckin hours cant make anything except post nonsense reddit still here someone shoot me holy shit,1
so im done editing quot the phipstape quot back crack a brew and see what we got no tree though,0
i m in my 0 and talking with my coworkers made me realize how different i wa they talk about the different party they ve been to and how drunk they got i don t think i ve been to a party with more than people where we were drinking i mostly drink alone and have no issue putting a liter down of 0 alchohol in an evening my life feel like only pain and alchohol is the only relief i get why do i live with this curse i have been severely depressed since i wa 0 i can t hardly remember life before depression i ve had a few attempt but always chickened out before i could take off the safety so i drink i dont like bar i already spend to much on cheap bottle of liquor i dont like drinking but it s the only relief i feel cheated out since i never experienced the fun of party where drinking wa about having fun rather than just drowning,1
dohi everyone new friend starting get know pandemic hit touch regularly started work home get locked drifted part reached week ago said looking change thinking moving new place find alarming all yesterday sent message ask said bad giving short responses something alarming me asked could call tomorrow said maybe went completely silent stopped responding messages called morning times throughout day sent several messages ask okay got responses know well know lives alone works healthcare think would likely understand concern send text back let know okay maybe embarrassed something ignoring reasons know do know address last name first name phone number know anyone knows know reach to us worried fine may really annoying her not needs help late tips advice do please let know,1
oh god help im hungry theres people downstairs kitchen stale hot cheetos sink water send provisions,0
belive happened made post reddit karma way post rdankmemes,0
@jonesware you might want to check out the Dolphin Hotel pool and beach. It's very refreshing and order lunch poolside ,0
carl brashear cuba gooding jr born sharecroppers deep south joins navy whereupon tells father back father gives old radio brashear leaves navy bus valuable thing unemotional father taught was never quit recommendation white commander powers boothe admires drive guts gets sent navy diving school bayonne nj endures harassment pals uniform trainer chief navy master diver billy sunday robert de niro commanding officer called pappy hal holbrook has almost many loose screws old car want make drop out prejudice quite fiercethe dangers diving prove setback loses leg due accident board ship despite setback tells wife train achieve objective help billy sunday now joined commiseration sufferings train able become first black navy diver artificial limb despite skepticism highly mocking doubtful captain navy department hearing washington dc determine meets criteria inspirational movie showing determination overcome odds,0
stumbled across film channel surfing blown away broadcast lesser known short films program australiabr br it long time since impressed film especially one short br br the power story quality acting stunning cinematography wow available would make worthy addition dvd collectionbr br i undoubtedly impressed look forward joshua leonards next filmbr br an exceptional experience ,0
@JamesSpiller Thanks!  (LLLL),0
movie amazing funny sexy violent sick holds together brilliant troma rendition romeo juliet mind grossed bit ok lot funny grossed out see movie worth ittheres one level deliver ive seen thrice now still amazing recommend it go get it,0
loneliness gotten muchthe think stopping redflag mother knowing distraught would be starting think point waiting fucking lonely every night come home cry want end pain suffering,1
anyone else hide things solately ive talking less less so ive waves im getting pretty low lately even though repeatedly told tell get bad still keep quiet want burden make feel like more feel like im always one taking time like never listen him feel like im always telling problems lately ive wondering simply breaking would best let date someone thoughts,1
want wrong help help helpi keep burning tonight cant stop thinking easy would please someone talk something random please let go edge  know im pathetic would easy cant stop last time cut wrists got hospitalised want please chat me anything,1
princessshorty aww sorry to hear hope it get better listening to a podcast of the debate now you spoke brilliantly,0
http twitpic com y e cant see the flower falling i dont have a camera just my cellphone,0
world fucking cruelit sounds fucking stupid textbooks arriving late getting charged fuck ton money fucking breaking point world fucking cruel nobody cares anybody everyone fucking greedy everyone fucking mean im fucking lonely friends like one loves me mom entirely disgusted reason ive tried getting help wont let me job im limited due transportation bc covid cant fucking find job cant drive keep gaining weight tired it keep going sub ranting ranting never going get better way kill myself would it tried many times always failed take anymore hurts much anyone hurt me wake morning wishing dead make stop much cant this death closest thing peace could ever find shit fucking world,1
bruh wish dumb  years ago ignorance bliss im aware fucked people enjoyable,0
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the audacity some of you exhibit on this app is a lot then spice it up with talk of depression please si,1
going naturallydoes anyone else feel like this know gonna go naturally going hand know when,1
@SadeXposed thankies ,0
quick diary someone might depressioni dont really expect people even ready this quick diary happened today pm rn im cafeteria college im first semi panick attack think im fuck up hate life even though lot better lot people im fuck up singlehandedly fucked life think point actually see future nobody job college drop out one around me friends family wrongdoings dont ever cry dont think im physically capable so ive felt like absolute shit tears cant come out im sitting table eyes starting water dont want let out reason im panic attack missed final exam important class semester taking two classes im fucking idiot thats classes take since ive failed prerequisites get major courses pass bullshit class semester important class math im failing hard im depressed piece shit missed class month literally two classes im failing this fuck wrong me hate much havent even studied final exam which ive missed thought going wednesday morning going cram tf go take exam even im failing anyways no im typing stupid note reason called professor three times obviously hes office didnt pick up going email right now fucked obviously though oh im adderall thought today going study ass exam also high xanax backpack later tonight go bed say im fuck up mean im fuck up friends family dont know anything im pretty sure im kicked college semester find obviously probably rather die wait happen know told since beginning fuck that never put situation parents always given support world everything literally best parents world love family love close friends one knows im going through ive many opportunities change better always seem throw away hate much dont know depression is dont know im fuck up  blow face soon im afraid that though best thing thing tell parents myself cant imagine heartbroken be would worst letdown history cant them would never ever even consider killing myself never died reason wouldnt mind thats hard say or type even though dont actually wish ever happen me wouldnt suck reason spontaneously dying would suck wouldnt want family suffer like that love much them much would never hurt myself think im much pussy anyways would hate randomly die pain id inflict others wouldnt suck me think way id happy really happy way finally feel anything tried xanax first time last night smoke little pen love smoking weed makes forget everything sometimes watch comedy movie laugh block world laugh movie whatever well xanax something else laid bed floated earth typed realize stupid ridiculous sounds read thing ill probably realize doesnt even make sense now thats im going describe it floated earth bedroom lights laid bed blanket literally floated earth one thing mind meditating mind body blank like eyeballs floating darkness see dark room with tv playing  jump street yeah movie playing getting sleepy next thing knew from remember right now turning alarm set am wasnt sitting watching movie laying bed normally sleep xbox tv off cant remember happened really guess thing people usually black forget happened took small dosage though wasnt expecting happen anyway dont know got sidetracked whats going on yeah entire life fucked even crazier think fact worse gunna be still find im kicked school still tell parents everything maybe drug stuff son failure yeah guess im really panicky anymore feel bit calm now typed heart rate started going feel like might pass again anyway life today actually  pm now lmao im embarrassing emailed professor yet friend college library im cafeteria told earlier today study together im head pretend like im happy okay nothing happening dont actually hate every aspect literally failing every aspect life thats fucking crazy really me fault im fucking loser anyways ive now im going go pee friend study math final already missed maybe next diary note streets make far thats joke yeah bye real quick want point fact knew going happen last year even knew kept way being would position yet continued almost like asked this like wanted this didnt stop myself dont know whatever late start giving shit life anymore obviously do bye sorry long didnt realize long stopped typing dont know posted here did yeah ask questions remind stupid want list much hate could go forever,1
finally happened finally got girlfriend  never dated anyone before last night crush wanted hang out went walk drive which done times said likes too first girlfriend happy,0
im cry cant even tell mom bad anymore ffirst all open talking pm makes fucking anxious idk why bunch mental bullshit drop regular highschool graduate using independent study failed community college now know dad disappointed like me like either ive sleeping lot lately hard time getting up pass again woke yelling dad yelling mom im stupid failing school blaming kinds stuff know heard shes trying mom said well thats enough dad yelled ok dad like either know im enough mom mental bullshit coming breaking makes worse dad bitched side im dark refusing let worthless ass cry cutting help anymore next step death feel getting close it ive tried cant even please dad cant get shit together im surprised kicked streets threatened able hold job want waste welfare disability money wish mom baby miscarried me instead me edit comments welcome may caused misunderstanding,1
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it s been year of fighting with my brain everyday i last attempted a month ago and it wa honestly traumatizing i know it s only a waiting game till i give up again i m just sick of failed attempt and it s the only reason i m putting it off i m so over everything i didn t go to therapy this week because i couldn t face having to talk i feel so broken and unable to deal with anything and idk what to do,1
honestly f livingthis morning sucked nitrous two cans cream cough syrup ritalin couple drugs preparation ending it put favorite alice chains songs writhed cried floor  minutes tying noose daddys elastic bands was survival instinct kicked cartoids crushed got undone barely hate it bulimia acting back up feel physically weak it bipolar killing me depression endless turned  month ago job cannot drive nobody loves me one ever has ex boyfriend raped me dated please mom girlfriend killed blamed addictions nobody loves me want loved ive never known that since nana died five years ago know endless insults hate recieve get put daily im freak nobody loves me really must useless one friend little time me doubt cares therapist paid care mommy yell daddy screams back feel lost hate myself whats point whats point feel like complete failure life nothing offer last thing world needs another tortured artist,1
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ghosted ghosted meso ya called said really needed friend posted reached out every one friends knows progressive brain disease step come maybe walk little dog help w grocery store trip heaven forbid help get medical treatment nope fucking one ya one message sorry cant hope feel better even empty platitude cliche meme im trying get better ketamine mega infusion numbers   week get better fuckers better even think showing funeral ghosted ghosted me,1
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feeling mother driving crazyi saying evil intentions unintentionally so diagnosed mental illness know is takes clozapine past  years everyday believes lie posted internet try talk it exhausted drained energy anymore baby never learn think herself unlike typical babies start make good arrangements come teenage diagnosed schizoaffective disorder unsaid advice never leave family able handle life would kill myself feeling playing game me perpetuate suffering subtle way makes feel good themselves put two people side side lets say well groomed person mentally ill person people realise awesome well groomed person is invisible ego boost feels would hate mentally ill person die would equally hate person get healthy mentally ill person becomes healthy actually better well groomed person people would start looking person used ill past better groomed person would invisible ego deflation well groomed person would feel would hate ill person die get better well groomed person would everything possible maintain status quo would pretend help ill person watched  scenario hero remain ever obscure qualities become visible  enhanced would villain hero needs villain hero benefits villain  start lose temper explaining mum magical cures shared whatsapp youtube etc lie next appointment psychiatrist dosage antipsychotic greater dosage antipsychotics would come greater side effects level testosterone would go down level prolactin would go up would become slower fatter dick never get hard would semi erection best would emasculation systematic emasculation expect girls partner bringing much table expect woman partner able earn money satisfactory intercourse human needs wants human thing understandable would remain family would essentially neck beard living moms basement free loader incel etc bullying would take regular basis daily dose insult would burden society parents etc talk male friends would hide depression would draining counsel me understandable would pretend happy would smile laugh would feign interested depression anxiety would start oozing ask pretend just yourself would talk truly goes mind silently ghost me cant confront depressing presence want hang around me internet always suggesting people cut toxic people life etc  talk counselor friends say  try interesting etc etc etc  tired now writing this go on feels like two options have lose lose  third option,1
i am and have been battling depression since throughout the year i ve been on anti depressive pretty much the whole time just when i feel like i m maybe stabilizing or dare i say it getting better i go crashing back down to the bottomless pit of sadness right now i m on vacation in a tropical island a dream for me yet here i am constantly emotional and unable to find joy ha anyone ever gotten over depression for good or will this plague me until the end,1
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deserve die knew would agreehi thanks clicking this never used verbalize frustrations life first clicked assume know depression suicidal ideation depression number psychologic physical factors range severity without possible symptoms suicidal ideation thoughts redflag may may intend act upon thats technical explanations go me believe deserve die irrational belief something done hate myself failure never good enough anything burden family cause pain suffering needlessly fail help around need most turned back unlike social pressures permanently ruined someone extremely close way fix it asshole around whether mean not mother thinks failure family would think failure knew sexual orientation failure father tell depression unable join military feel happy feel like want cry try cant plan kill soon make aduot hood plan attain low risk life insurance plan either drive cliff shoot one fathers shotguns failure everything else life family friends myself never plan life seems pointless look hope someones words sites like make feel something dont feel like coward already killed myself seems someone failure around told crimes would despise me despicable waste human space feels generous saying that hope understand premature death fairly inevitable feel need reply verbal manure supportive way rather way reminding atricities thank goodnight,1
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feeling keeps coming backmore im getting idea end it struggling depression  years now started hit many moments determined kill never courage eventually wanted make better distracted things soon suicidal thoughts went away things ok while im new school ive faced disappointments im realizing depression destroyed work id done previously become sociable motivated person cant quite relate people around dont think like anymore ive never felt unattractive dumb sometimes feel like apologizing others present doubt things really better wake every morning old thoughts wanting die help please,1
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anyone give legitimate copes stuff like go take walk nature dcan someone give ways cope this preferably drink drugs cause hard itd get it fucking immerse feelings finally fall asleep takes way god damned long advice coping bs like spend time family take walk nature d give something anything would appreciated,1
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help meive suicidal  years whilst able distract jobs short term relationships ect feelings always there last  years ive looked excuses get rid close ones life right gone im yo male know family friends would deverstated seems one cares right now im included anything am feel bring mood despresive state feel disconected like im im somewhere else dark cant see ive used hotlines chats online help short term alright night weeks tell go gp refered mental health teamim uk find like consending help aww thats good sounding symphetic do hobbies uplifting voice feels forced stopped answering calls know many people blame cause much pain years come time dont want existance ive got feel like im rotting away flat own honestly think would take  months anyone would notice gone one regulary checks me contact them spoke pyhcolgist years back proffesional setting someone knew personally time intrusive thoughts asked worried said whenever put plan action although ive gone got rope scares much ive pushed eveyone mattered away making easier something ive also decided wont home wont found while ive recently decided woodland would leave notes paths warn dog walkers go call police im stupid im told im bright quite articular know feeling temporary mindset know recent events made feel way know wont feel like daysweeks also know come back around dont want want long term fix feel im edge im tradgedy argument taunt away goin edge diagnosis acted was violent child screamy self harm would scratch punch self face terorise taunt siblings parents bullied kids too see phycolgists child think whit cheek cleverness convinced otherwise conclusion always hes perfectly normal parents horror think suffer sort phycosis schizofrenia think im bi polar anyone know true bi polar detected balances hormones blood schizofrenia detected test anyone know force doctor tests mentioned  never diagnosis ive never given meds dark depresive state also dont think im getting everythink across really feel go speaking doctor mental health team help im looking for know profesional couldnt give diagnosis online written would tell seek profesional indication would really help think could suffering from think medications could help please offer meds advice uk also know need change mindset anyone know books could read change mindset find better way coping understanding things thanks reading support given anyone feeling way talk help even stranger chat hotline everyone else kind world dont judge anyone even drug user thief never know really feeling get state theyre in go nice stranger never know much could make day nicekind even noticing giving warm smile thank you name tom,1
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lately all i basically is sleep i just don t have the energy for anything else these day i wa told i need more intensive treatment but i just don t have the energy for that a sad a that sound lmao i just want to end this,1
someone else commented feelgood movie got glorious scenery wonderfilled voice luciano ive seen movie many times saw afternoon id forgotten much miss pavarottis singing nessun dorma need get cd great movie away afternoon engrossed fun reverie eddie albert grand agent bit top agents anyway italian countryside gorgeous nothing tops balloon ride perfect view need acting olivier proportion movie you want flight fancy wonderful music watch film enjoy,0
current bf care guy friends trusts put precarious position feeling guilt go away cant spend rest life working spending time home away people level redflag near panic attack occasionally leads one point dont eat barely sleep days tldr feeling guilty nothing conditioned previously abusive relationship,1
mizzzidc politely i ask are you mad how dare you speak to you mum in this manner and even type it in word this is absolutely rubbish depression ko depression ni this is complete madness i pray you become a parent soon and get to experience this with your kid,1
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bf broke mei thought everything gonna ok us hurts know always fault everything bad happens me tried fix didnt care im honestly done time drown drugs physical pain everyday try forget cant,1
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i feel like everything i do i get tired of very quickly i dont feel like challenging myself or bettering myself when something happens to me i put myself down real quick im functional enough to get out of bed clean myself and go to work but thats really it nothing else my interest in activity isnt there i used to be on 0 mg of sertaline a year and a half ago but i got off it thats back when i wa suicidal and to be honest i have improved just not to the extent i think i should have i thought my brain would start getting back into a completely healthy rhythm by itself but it didnt thankfully im not suicidal and the fact i admit i want to improve is a very good sign,1
hurts physically one still takes seriously  it hurts chest hurts physically im sick living like this im wreck wish pain could end all im sick living like every single day would anything pain end beg help one sees it dad destroyed eyes look away havent found enjoyment life years want enjoy it even day,1
feeling like ghost everyonethe past  months hardest ever come home cry sleep disappointing worst feeling ever friends thats im mad myself im sad time amazing people life feel like disappear would completely fine without want happen bad dont want feel anything dont want hurt anyone actions wanna give everything im failing classes disappointing parents teachers cant get therapy cant talk problems like theres use cant even happy im around friends theres always something comes keeps happy ill never happy,1
stimulus alienation feeling kinda annoyed us government giving  every kid  independent adults leaves gap dependent yearolds get money whatever reason seems like oversight give money  year old dependents me could use cash get school supplies college save for anyone else see weirdness dumb,0
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ill start right beginning saying i like movie sweeping grand gripping fun sinhue physiciansits front small stone hut writing memoirs story is taken river reared elderly couple doted him becomes physician poor befriends horemheb sees glory sinhue sees healing run future pharaoh anknaten forgive spellings endures epileptic fitbr br and pharaoh another flaw believes one god instead pantheon gods back then totally revolutionary sinhue horemheb grow up one night sinhue sees woman makes lose senses gives practice sells parents home even tombs spend night her he tell meanwhile merit tavern maid played sweet simplicity belying strength jean simmons falls love sinhue falls spell spell belief one godbr br victor mature overacts perfectly horemheb edmond purdom sincere sinhue lost physician does find redemption stay tuned even bela darvi woman steals sinhues heart bad everyone said fact daryl f zanucks mistress nothing casting  right yeah rightstill bad _ ive seen worse think better the egyptian many todays young actresses done anything said ill say  like movie recommend it makes think despite hammy acting fun movie worth it,0
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i feel like this is a flawed perspective i m having but sometimes it s hard to take the day off like to just relax and lay in bed for a day without guilt that can be hard for me but i feel like in a way im making it hard for myself by putting so much thought into it rather then actually just doing it,1
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adam thanks telling cant problems dont know honest anymore treat life like equation constants variables ive proven wrong anything attempt quantify accomplish try live life momenttomoment end nothing lack success opposite direction ive disciplined nice mean chaotic ive changed everything many times dont remember used be still outcome always same im alone worse that im desperate shows everything do everyone read like book open mouth shitty feeling know one wants you good enough them anyone whats worse though knowing ill probably settle someone tolerates me id rather own oh boo hoo fucking ric boy sad thats reaction always seem get focus college youre find girl well dont even know fuck you like im allowed problems resent come from like im less are youve rough fucking hypocrite think enjoyed telling folks depressed counselor explained feared safety think like fucking attention like want problem like attention whore remember hyperbolic sometimes im bothered lot questions one im usually centered on think maybe meant alone forever would explain read many things strength takes walk alone see glimpses life id live good company someone loved throw everything learned window desperate telegraphed scramble keep little bit memory time impose reality world forget look is never relationship never intimate level anyone didnt pay for writing know going come around someday looking answers heres one needed find want care anymore want keep failing getting hurt broken nothing rebuild flawed person always was failures shortsighted dreams entomb in care enough pull eject lever enough actually change see wrong myself thought could wait died bury me didnt im sorry that intention problems seem petty everyone know everyone thinks im well means im happy wont today wont tomorrow never shake feeling unless fix this wont get images head put friends pistol head played russian roulette could feel something know keeps it matter timing then initial shock wears off ill use like drug kills me might monday saturday fuck it start today dont want feel alone anymore even means feeling nothing ive alone entire life nobody wants me one ever wanted me feel stuck me tolerate me sickening terms now,1
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@jimpeel Exact same problem I had a few months ago. Ended up having to buy a new one while they fixed it. Result = ;-( mixed with ,0
probably end rant whoever reads this thank you trigger warning  sexual assault  going summer camp state first time ever away family day time,1
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dead alreadyone day july going myself take bunch pills end it pathetic stupid reason thought girl care lot popped head got thinking could kinda stopped since ive felt numb time even feel like im person anymore im failing classes little hope pulling back together ive started cutting even literally anyone talk with im terrible person burden ugly be one care right anyone should im getting closer offing again soon enough ill gone one bothered made uncomfortable existing ever again,1
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know top post already wanted write hopefully get chest life seems completely meaningless like nothing live for surrounded people people fucking everywhere lots friends possibilities something endless seem meaningless know live for cannot make progress entertainment seems pointless know live for feeling meaningless know intrinsic meaning found there know triggered boredom loneliness two days ago family whole day speak anyone yesterday today feel like long all able entertain how life seems meaningless,1
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kill myselfi  year old kissless virgin almost done university social life literally spending entire day room feel like nobody would want friends low value male like am might good idea spend less time internet feel like slowly getting corrupted incel reading much stuff like social status  rule women go  men,1
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stupidi cant live without her want suggestions get better want post thoughts left her uplifting energy went her probably karma wish knew frequent day dream committing redflag would talk it last time talked cussed said deserved experience fours years still experience much negative emotion feel worthless think im narcissistic little punk started trying get another girl happen timing issues trying get intimate another girl felt like upgrade jerk was bet would still jerk females would show interest me anyways without somebody loving want kill myself nothing want live for thing want die things might get better also parents done much try make feel better things might get better fuck that might win lottery buy ticket mean buy one ocd depression also grandfather bipolar schizophrenic im sure genetics favors far emotional well concerned happiness leave ex want hurt talking also want feel like again stubborn always seem reject taking path getting better,1
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wishing someone elsei know break cycle im desperate someone tell im awful person cant tell anyone thats exactly would think me even bothering write here utter desperation feel alone core day die thought just well cant put words im sorry ill stop posting now,1
need helpso laying bed agreeing initial posts reasons people want kill themselves cant help think would like go it lately many thoughts ending life dont like life headed know things fix it opinion itd like plugging flat tire see point living life weekends speak trading life money something want  years ultimately die take short cut end avoid dissapointment look forward go downhill slope going life thing holding back parents love them love me relationship father nearly nonexistant argue exchange words thats it mother extreemly close one holding back really want keep typing stop here long story short sick life want end it edit im going try get sleep thanks,1
i m year old live by myself and i m losing my marble i wa with a girl for two year up living together for until a week before my birthday when she dumped me cut me off and told me how horrible i am i ll admit i ve been controlling i had caught and been told about her having an affair with a coworker halfway through and still forgave her around new year she told me she is pregnant with my child i m pretty positive it s mine but now i m hoping it s not im off the deep end i think horrible thought all day a i mindlessly build door for 0 hour i imagine just ending it after work and how thing are going to be so much better when i do it im broke with bill i m court ordered therapy and today wa my 90 compliance order time now i get violated i don t want help i want to die i m just scared what s it s going to do to my fragile parent i m a psychopath i m adopted i don t even know who made me i wa never even supposed to be here i don t think anyone will read these but i need to say it somewhere and i dont want help i can t change my mind anymore i wasn t made for this bullshit i ll do more harm to others if i don t end myself before pray for my daughter pray for my parent i can t do this shit anymore,1
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i want to get my life together but i feel like i haven t accomplished anything i m taking adult education class now and i m trying to get a part time job but no luck so far i haven t had a job before so i m not very optimistic i live with family and i feel like a leech i m trying to contribute with whatever i can like cleaning but i feel so worthless unwanted and like a burden my father died recently and i want to live the best life that i can for him but i m wondering if i even can i just want thing to work out i ve been trying to be positive but it s so difficult,1
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original text in german translated with google translator sorry for any mistake i hope it s still understandable unhappy with myself constantly comparing to others what do i really want need to get my life on track want to solve problem myself don t accept help don t say how i really feel say everything is fine even though nothing is fine gt pretend to myself dishonest to myself gaming training etc distraction self therapy i have the feeling that something is wrong with me everyday routine make me sick depressed every day at work and at home everything the same there must be more to life look for a sense in everything gt no sense waste of time aversion to social medium gt constantly comparing and seeing the perfect life of others make me sick thought what if i jumped off the bridge now or what if i would jump out of the window now what if i drove my car into the tree now obsessive thought suicidal thought constant dissatisfaction gt self improvement self optimization very present topic e g room training except in one s own head feeling i am different nobody understands me and nobody will ever understand me feeling of not being myself not knowing who how what i really want reactively bad relationship with my sibling why thought what if my father is dead would i be sad would i be happier thought i just want to smack my dad in the face for what he did to me and my family i m worth nothing i am a bad person because of my bad thought try to distract me from my problem youtube gaming etc if i m asked about it i don t want to talk about it avoid it mental breakdown in the car 0 0 0 on the way back from vocational school completely cry all the time and resolve to tell my problem and change my life when i m at home gt not done thought i m breaking off my education i hate my job i can t quit again i ve already dropped out of high school and college i m a piece of shit everything get better after training if i could do that summer 0 is now and my training is over i would do it no self confidence self esteem completely screwed can t express my feeling emotion erectile dysfunction because of depression very emotional video in which i find myself e g depression what do others think about me do they notice that i m weird different gorge on everything don t talk about my problem feeling of not living in the present but in the past lack of drive lack of motivation why am i doing all this what s the point unhappy feeling wanting to flee from the world and everything disease unresolved childhood trauma depression social phobia anxiety disorder alcohol problem obsession personality disorder who am i what do i want need a lot of love feeling to be loved at work feel uncomfortable shy and tense gt situation in which i sit in the car driving home and start screaming and banging on the roof i find it more and more difficult with other people to get in touch i m getting more and more shy and withdrawn i feel lonely and sad what happens after the training how doe it go on afraid of not making the exam no strength to do school stuff afraid of a lecture at school finally want to find me and be happy with me and my life mental breakdown christmas 0 with daniel and thorsten topic father mental breakdown at grandma in the garden with michael reason longing for day when i wa happy and carefree i m turning already and i still haven t gotten anything right in my life don t let any feeling get to me only laugh very seldom strong self doubt feeling in society there is no right place for me feeling of having to be perfect not accepting my mistake myself seek my luck in thing like alternative way of life world travel etc want to get away from materialism consumer society capitalism fast life,1
never posted something like beforethis going sound like jumbled mess goes cant stop crying dont know why one things think youd grow get used feeling never do feel like im pushing husband away anything try fix makes worse knows problems tell im broken dont know fix it ive like long remember started cutting again days feel numb helps feel something know hes struggling knowing that feel like burden hes constantly trying make happy cost happiness doesnt help makes feel like financial strain doesnt deserve that hes good deserves better me get angry get angry selfish different try mold something need like dance doesnt selfishly force something doesnt like make happy got fight last night started crying know fault hate knowing hurt him dont friends course family ive always bad example daughter know love me feel like every decision make isnt right one feel alone also know im not head since started writing this feel better needed vent,1
i recently lost a family member that i knew and met i ve only lost so far in this same criterion i ve been not doing so well even before any of that i feel like i m on autopilot daily i feel empty and nothing brings me joy even the thing i used to love and be passionate about i have a hard time communicating anything to anyone because all i want to do is be quiet and pas through people life a an invisible specter aimlessly living to survive and be away from everyone even the one that want to be in my life i have trouble sleeping at night drinking make me worse smoking only amplifies my anxiety and existential crisis meditating is useless now and i have no way to cope with what i m feeling have been feeling for the past few year it s easier for me to type thing out than it is to say them out loud i find myself losing my mind in work and zoning out while staring at my wall on a daily basis doe anyone have any advice for what i m dealing with and how to manage some of this i m not one to normally ask for help but at this point i m willing to try anything to get away from this darkness that haunt my life,1
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Bean Encounters tonite- thank you shot of the week! ,0
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it may or may not make sense to you guy but i don t want to kill my self but i think about it a lot i m a sophomore in college and a everyday pass by i get more and more behind i don t have many friend up here and if i do i wouldn t call them good friend my schedule is so busy that i haven t been able to go home and see my parent or sibling in almost month these thought seem to be escalating but in a weird way some are soothing for the past week nothing help me sleep unless i think about what i would say in suicide letter to my friend and family again i don t want to kill my self but some of these thought are thing i can t control i hope i m able to be better than these thought and regather myself before it get worse,1
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@elmoss1 Have fun! I'm just cleaning up &amp; waiting for Gabe! ,0
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"&quot;...begging, begging you ooh ooh ooh...&quot; ...i don't know what that song is called or who sings it, but i love it!!! lol. ",0
Twittering .  And looking for Miley Cyrus LUv her ! xo,0
i had a meeting that i knew wa going to go well but i couldn t control my breathing and my heart rate wa insane i wa filling time with some paperwork but i couldn t focus i tried box breathing and it didn t work forgot to try grounding technique but will moving forward just to mention this pre event anxiety is normal a a kid going to birthday party made me anxious happens all the time still but this is the first time i just couldn t breathe this wa such a worrying experience i have something to actually worry about tomorrow and i hope it doesn t go the same way i honestly don t think it will because my body seems to react to adrenaline differently based on specific situation i am stressed thinking about it now or stressed because i m stressed maybe a soon a i sat down in that meeting i wa completely fine thought it might have been a combination of walking too fast and then my body not recovering from a weird breathing pattern but then i wa walking the same way later completely fine i ve been sighing all day which is what i tend to do when i am stressed i am trying to get help but yeah thing aren t moving along very well i m going to make an appointment with my therapist a soon a possible we are working together on an unrelated issue but i think we ll benefit from talking about it also worried about an upcoming wisdom teeth surgery anyway going to go cry so i can get some of this out of my system,1
Saw the gentlemen of honor society during soundcheck ,0
having a niceee cuppa ,0
@WorkFromWithin We were so busy I didn't even get to talk with you!!  Please tell me you got your lipstick?! ,0
cowardwhy cant bring kill myself get hung dumb shit like much itd hurt dumb stuff doesnt even matter dont know get feeling hesitant,1
want go back orange black meant halloween know im probably gonna get hate super straight community care thing straight people wanted parade get parade flag straight struggle get looked straight get bullied straight disgusting invent whole sexuality wanna date trans person im saying to find someone trans decide comfortable dating fine hurting whole trans community,0
overdosed xanaxalcoholand norcos six years ago nyeit also birthday got diagnosed graves disease yearand thyroid radiated outi abusing drugs hating life foreveronce got diagnosed couldnt get med levels righti gave up ended eating ton pills drinking whole lot gin want live anymorei ended blacking outinstead dying got duicops found passed vehiclei crashed fence outwoke jail memory happened got years probation thing vehicle blow two years ended getting med levels right probation got xanax drugs xanax withdrawal fucking terrible happy nowwhich totally fucking insanemy mom died last yearmy dad brain damagedementiabeing alone dad taking care himwhile dyingis something couldnt dealt withand maybe getting close death made understand others suffering way feel help comfortable diesi every reason world get depressed want go on somehow getting meds right graves diseasegetting medication help anxiety cymbaltaand taking right sleep medication trazadonehas helped able cope better hope someone reads thisthey maybe see somebody got thought worse part lifethought point going livingand still able get could happyand deal things would destroyed years ago pictured finding peace lifebut peoples idea happy meansand must admit thought would like eitheris crazy thoughts peace felt likebut understand nowand hope ideas impossible ever happy lifedont get ramped ideal form happiness isits really reach feelsi really fucked childhood even crazier run drugsdepression panic attacksthings dont go awaybut way deal themand even way think changed forever didnt find religion anything even followtherapy never helped eitherbut knowing almost died would never even got point feeling happyand depressing anything ever went throughand thats saying fucking lot hope one gives living mei sure nothing deathi dont wish felt anybodyi know lots people worse still middle able decide go livingi dont want anybody die sad destroyed lifei hope get iti hope everyone find peace livinginstead dying,1
heloo sirmaam tell birthdate please need scientifical reasons fr tho meed tell happy birthday birthday,0
i need to go to the bank tomorrow before i go broke,0
"@xEvenstarx Yep, 3 shows in a row! Never had this many before. Never been to MA or CT either, so I'm way excited!!!!!   ",0
quarantined thanksgiving isolated quarantine last  days college dorm different city one live in wish could turkey right family,0
chose live got clean options againive never done anything like before get thoughts somewhere im  years old live united states highschool since  spent semester away college got addicted klonopin xanax prescribed drop couldnt remember anything spent three years daze eventually got sent away get help ended incredibly abusive facility florida girls made get middle circle call whores screwed stuff based principle attack therapy where break build back up finally managed get hellwhole after threatened would committed saying suicidal got clean managed start life back there talented web application developer got business running months got apartment things great made mistake moving people problems made one business partner learned real hard way working someone live bad idea especially psychotic tripping mescaline days putting gun mouth deciding give life last chance flew back homestate checked psychward getting plane got help again august since then ive lived various halfway houses successfully went intensive outpatient program completed however getting stepped week outpatient program filed grievance therapist told go suck dick would end assraped jail came gay fired moved halfway house apartment back family now months later attorney getting letters exroommate florida extorting threatening report police things leaving florida unless pay amount goes time attorney talks tries settle and ive long since tried settle original amount wanted ten times that im literally going crazy stress honestly tried everything make life better got clean came gay im stuck paying attorney  hour deal bullshit doesnt think proof extorted drug using idiots cant keep putting parents siblings stress constant bullshit really want peace relax seems option get rid fear unknown regard prosecuted either leave country kill myself dont know anymore want live life peace,1
brain posture brain growth questions couple questions brain first wanted know bad posture could somehow damage brain affect brain activity anything sort say neck bent wall looking down often im worried this secondly often said growth happens asleep mean missing crucial time brain development anything like sleep quite late get around  hrs sleep only,0
ok out ban dumb people ,0
im fucken hyyyyyyype lab coat came today lets goooooooooo,0
hey uh happened utotalpower utotalpower guess ill click username find out               ,0
"Finally on the road, txt me when you wake ",0
You have everything you needwithin you to win your battles. You are stronger than you think and more capable than you realize. #hope #YouAreNotAlone #MentalHealthAwareness #depression #anxiety pic.twitter.com/acl7ZPbbwF,1
Happy birthday to my wonderful mother and to @katiesantry ,0
cant stand morei wanna die good reason alive im coward kill right now someone help me,1
wonder like roll stairs ill go try update guys later,0
need help gfs redflagjust context gf years ago committed redflag brother sold drugs still dating time might sound real honestly need help ive tried therapists going grave daily writing things ive told help im still stuck bottom,1
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i won t share detail and i won t help anyone with their plan but when you know what you want to do and how to do it being alone is really hard especially when you promised to live i don t want to do this anymore how fucking unfair,1
jesus cool win,0
cant stand mother school deserve deathmy mom angry person always back everything even enjoy couple moments video games yells me dont anything upset her good grades school good friends see school going home feels shitty now nowhere else go im done hanging out must go home mom yells me even nothing wrong explain myself wont ever listen im trapped nothing good right now want enjoy life like normal person cant mom yells often everything im sorry whatever do brother never yelled at always am hate yelled everything may well end myself dont know solve anything angry immensely selfish too asks everything her going somebodies place dont even know say feel uncomfortable get yelled at blames mother everything does mother angry own looked kill myself app uses lets see everything phone allowed see look kill myself yell me made her concern wanting kill myself want get help cant handle living her considering much treats like shit im done dont want live insignificant waste life nothing matters future anyways might well kill mother live painful emotional scar haunt rest life making feel like worthless trash hate school well want exist please teacher get thrown life helping nothing work replaced far future hate much everything dont know so,1
@vismajor I'm so glad you guys are having such a wonderful weekend. ,0
"wow, today was an interesting day. tommrow isnt going to be any better.im sore from lifting. yea so txt me im going to be moving all day! ",0
oh no hangover kicking in now like. how is everyon this sunny sunday afternoon ? ,0
reached breaking point im fed upim done cant take anymore  years feeling like shit every day  redflag attempts years ago want taken shitty planet reason want shitty fucking rock full dogshit people really want try kill want let friends cant take living anymore wake tired go sleep even tired every day tired cannot take anymore,1
is listening to Gary's 寂寞先生 ,0
u guys ever cheat test study cheat french im bad it cheated together friend first part multiple choice signed eachother answer would fingers second part french grammar used small note hid sleeve anyone says bad well shit man try pass get succesfull life going fail language never use,0
bourne ultimatum  review thrilling set two get final installment heres takebr br the bourne ultimatum all jason bournematt damon coattails ones know everything running long time endsbr br the bourne ultimatum great plot awesome writing fantastic direction suspense best action summer matt damon delivers possibly best performance date conviction swelling desire troubled assassinbr br there intelligent humor fine suspense reactions certain events either laughingin good way cheering on or both heard lot intelligent laughter theater lots clapping audience loving itbr br the bourne ultimatum delivers nicely giftwrapped package goods some is opinion best movie summerbr br the last word excellent conclusion best trilogy summer movie thrillers done love bourne trilogy,0
got bed prepare redflagi took shower shaved legs drinking coffee ill miss coffee cigarettes damn im trying clean apartment someone finds fucking mess im thinking goodbye video instead letter im scared mom blame someone want try stop that im scared scared die also scared survive started thinking afterlife know dumb im scared exists thought reincarnation too scares hell im crying reason dont feel relieved yet im aware im loser giving up im scared pipe im planing tie noose break fuck im terrified cant this im lost im already dead ending body functions now,1
strategy  get ready morning even anywhere be xpost getmotivated thought might bring bit motivation here  days offweekends paradox go work sounds like great time get things done productive right yet many us lie bed half day wake up mull around house shorts tee shirts probably watching tv playing video games internet whatever long day wasted heres strategy day off get time would go workschool get though get ready day cook breakfast shower brush teeth get dressed whatever get ready normal day gets ready take world days workschool get ready take world days too great way set mind right state,1
think killing everyday tried hard deny literally truth matter good day think alivei constantly immerse art keep thinking it put happy face family get worried face  like past triggering none really care like oh wants kill let find leavegossip doi tend isolate friends know struggle this sad calls everyone laughing back mind literally know severe breakdown hour ago feel like fake sometimes want overwhelm people problems shut upi struggle feel empty matter achieve helpful tons self care matter know happiness feel shift minutesi know disorder strong effect draining hurts live hurts even know sometimes often lose interest whatever comes back leaves cycle feels vicious exhausted,1
wrote notei wrote redflag note short explanation anything apology dont know going use it wrote case need to promised partner would check psych anything would talk someone see nurse pull stiches thursday dont think im going kill myself maybe maybe wont dont know dont know anything really know  miles away love cant get world collapsing around me partner said maybe come home cant go back living parents cant partner lives halfway house eating disorders cant live her cant live one friends couches tiny apartments schools open back job love dont know do im hoping pass im sure will mind hell  years dont know take much longer,1
want die tragic accidenti want die tragic accident half selfish want people know someone took life want people think this tragic much potential want know truth me fear people perceive me even death terrifies me half selfless want people feel guilty leave want beat thinking something could done dying accident would still cause suffering much less blame themselves,1
@eLi182 with ya!!!!!!!!!!.............#10yearsofEnema ,0
feels like ive pushed edgemy mind reset feels like newfound clairvoyance bottomless pit kept emotions mind mere colander see ever happy never achieve satisfaction happiness sure it incapable feeling sort positivity want spend life slaving away corperation survive unable appreciate anything want unable retire live constant paranoia anxiety may good enough gained home want deal anymore pain life offer ive enough experience every ounce pain hardship die ive felt like since  specifically thoughts awful years today felt far deep now ive started let go hopes die faster disguised health issues cigarettes substance abuse alcohol binge eating sitting around moping name it feel almost certain one point was certain flawed doomed individual feel much time left place here im simply meant earth happiness unreachable want worry family friends came strangers maybe one day heal allow time gamble point,1
first joined reddit found place thought kinda dumb still im stupid enough apart it thats all,0
redflag others comforts methat sounds terrible retrospect let explain seeing posts people going saying disappearing makes idea easier me dunno weird guess makes feel like pool bigger ill seem even smaller comparison people care slightly less im tired im confused im lonely wish nothing,1
today sad day ukermitsfatass deleted account point life anymore,0
why doe it take so long to go through one lecture which only took min to give and it s sunny outside someone is mocking me,0
the past three day ive experimented with milligram klonipin everyday it made me see life from a different view ive never been able to talk to people talk on the phone make eye contact talk to a girl and im in constant edge the klonopin ha helped durastucally today i applied for three job called place asking to hire and wa able to make confident eye contact can i be on klonipin long term it help so much i really believe i have the world worst anxiety my brain is on like turbo mode all day without it,1
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fuck existi wanna exist put back born forced existence reason would rather exist go heaven,1
online therapy found site free online therapy anyone either make personal make anonymous anyone talk problems give site shot mean advertise btw cupsofteacom,0
yayheart palpitationsmy heart going crazy right now hurts like hell fuck it maybe end goodness hope so maybe finally give pass away peacefully sleep gonna take  diet pills seal fatei hope lg,1
parodies star wars ive seen probably funniest premise star wars simple electronics instead spaceships poorly acted is purposely overacted makes hilarious since everyone knows purposely overacted one complains special effects also purposely awful be include toaster visible string shoots toast egg beater string short funny fan star wars which im not anyone  minutes kill great short br br my rating    mins rated,0
please someone help meim sad fall asleep cant stop thinking much hate ive ruined last thing made happy want kill myself cant live pain least want fall asleep cant,1
@heydestinyy haha that made me laugh ,0
@PaulFrankRizzo Hope you're enjoying your tea. ,0
alright goesi  year relationship  months ago found cheating me  guys bought ring going marry her also took  bucks plus ipad fucked thing still love her even shit id still take back got laid days ago im going move back parents leave friends behind first real friends ive  years top off dr says might pancreatic cancer fuck sakes need someone talk to called  suscide hotlines  put hold way long one shitty connction counld hear them last one told teenagers someone fucking message me fucking call me im end here,1
life interesting spend time gen x conspiracy theorists midst pandemic think government something behind scenes mom told believe government says boyfriend telling even people causes related corona virus still marked covid asked could find information said facebook so im supposed believe government im somehow supposed believe see internationalgatheringofboomerscom also used fact people died diseases werent forced live way do back argument think government wants control,0
iamnipper last week they ve got the bike minus a saddle,0
foundation future lost hopei lost younger brother redflag nowhere last fall strong one future ahead wasted  years degree chance succeed interested found out doubts since  years still went on alternative live outside us expensive country not scandinavia either get masters degree work minimum wage bare surviving minor alternative formations without uni degree old interested jobs theres branch would interest enough university degree choice limited since brothers death need live parents pain big literally get bed otherwise feel even worse pretty intense agoraphobia meaning practically friends none meet new people with know im strange pretty asocial phobia together intense anxiety disorder depression of make impossible go classes leave alone work  hours day hate monotony jobs mostly private life monotone problems leg often immobile cant walk cycle thing making happy giving feeling success currently nothing gives feeling success always phases depression  years ago deep ones went away education crumbled health problems got worse soon thrown current education goes complete shit find job pays enough find one all housing expensive home country means living border hours stuck trafficday less life quality practically social security fucked big time masters degree friends girlfriend bright life ahead instead nothing besides end all making parents grandma even worse killing last chance legacy have siblings even cousins see psychologist monday seen therapist weeks ago tell solution redflag prescribed ssri work pill make calm evening makes sleep day might tell psychologist monday break parents kill big trust theyll cancel needed holidays definitely fall real pit now much think go studying get serious pull through chance succeed even try hard possible going downhill sleepy time motiviation anything even enough play video games leave alone study bit exams month tldr see future me family left life sustaining education friends girlfriend uncertain health i already best with failed big time shall  besides ending life destroying parents life sorry missing structure anxiety attack again,1
got new family membermy brother sisterinlaw beautiful baby girl makes heart melt see her like whole new life entered family omg right totally happy crying sleep telling ill never graduate college ill never loving relationship like brother sisterinlaw are ill never wellpaying job support family ill never raise children ill never cool progressive aunt ill never give newborn niece future nieces nephews christmas presents ill never even able hold one last time say goodbye already wrote redflag note,1
teahcer said qoute you cute cucomber english class idk man seems kinda sus,0
" i wanna write some reviews of films &amp; music releases, so i go &amp; leave this place. Not for a long time of course.:]",0
despise skittles cause slogan lying slogan says ill taste rainbow many colors like bitch skittles come  colors red purple orange yellow lime green fucking taste rainbows actual skittles come  colors smh fuck skittles,0
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cant manage really irritated incessant theres still hope nonsense find looking solutionmy latest attempt sort shit came abrupt painful end yesterday dont want live find information wise redflag isnt answer disgusting think people youll leave behind hurt bullshit shuffle misery people dont mourn while entire life mourning problem want find sure fire way die successfully peace without much chance interrupted living worse shape now wouldnt want cause trauma somebody going business eg train driver pedestrians etc know isnt place advice methods find aforementioned attitudes towards redflag totally misplaced forces people utterly brutal things order escape demons,1
shoulda done ittwo weeks ago today planned out wrote note told best friend nice things say her even tried contact ex boyfriend tell hes entirely responsible death around am everything set up gonna hang necktie closet partial suspension hanging put neck loop pushed down felt spooking tighten around neck began feel light headed began pass out it tellyou why reached undid knot around neck psychiatrists ive seen my parents found sent hospital ive ever since told really want die thats total bullshit ive never wanted anything die maybe way cat meowing me scared someone saving me maybe instincts anyways getting tothe point this ive spent every day since regretting choice going it ive miserable thought death since longer stay alive want be made harder alone whole redflag thing write new note since therapist yelled gave mine read truth is nothing changed two weeks ago now except maybe reaffirming choice end everything anyway guess im venting whatever shit still sucks sorry spelling errors im writing ipod,1
@emity - not much - perhaps if it was a long weekend ,0
ha now gotten somebody to read his tweet but cant get them to make an account,0
help cant stop drinking gfuel ive  scoops today im make th,0
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off to see my german girl for her last night in brisbane,0
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@BienSur_JeTaime Thanks. After a year of abuse at my old job & 18 months of worthlessness due to depression & unemployment I've done a complete 180.,1
shutting off twitter,0
Ask HN: Effective methods to fight depression?  https://goo.gl/fb/q2McPX ,1
Kudos to Michael Phelps for breaking the stigma around talking about depression & suicide:  https://www.cbsnews.com/news/michael-phelps-reveals-he-suffered-from-depression-thought-about-killing-himself-after-olympics/?ftag=CNM-00-10aac3a …,1
tea oh i m so sorry i didn t think about that before retweeting,0
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@joegreenz - absolutely loved your children's book  Have you published it? And thanks for the link to the band,0
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I love it when u r sad n so u reach out to almost everyone to just grab coffee so u dont end up crying in ur room but NO ONE WANTS TO SEE U CAUSE U R SAD l0l depression is fun kids!!!!!!!! Dont trust ur parents either they wILL also DITCH U,1
early weekly post as promised would post weekly annoyance sake going therapy appointment tommarow personally dont trust need tell someone want kill anyone even me slept horribly again choking sleep like normally do woke wrote fury filled speech fatherwhole story call him dont post due trust therapist broken another bakeract  much runs head now dont want help thoughts want solution dont want we help right government assisted redflag legal id apply courts not blame shooters killing people demonize actions dont realize ill know many us page thought bieng like them digress like always do,1
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dougiemcfly morning i m really upset my rabbit ran away last night and the postman woke me up early reply ilu x,0
i so hate homework my head hurt so bad,0
nothing personalgood evening reddit im typically never site much though things started spiraling downward recent i apologize advance cohesive speaking mind tldr end something please feel like caused it entirely selfishness ive thinking recent panic attacks getting worse worse meds helping access therapy moment feel like im letting people around me little bit context turned  back march im military users military im sure familiar tough love love shop theyre family nothing support betterment myself marine person though theyre also brutally honest comes criticism genuinely respect everyone truly dont want feel guilty anything myself want state now now moving that lot personal issues affecting outside work past couple days could think nice must die qualms anyone loving significant other people closer family me good head shoulders though seems though let everyone down ive recently diagnosed manic depression currently taking citalopram combat this well needing speak cardiologist feared may issue heart ive never one give personal issues feel though beginning affect work performance maybe pride telling never let people suffer faulters hate feeling though id nuisance ones around me know avenues support try help current state society response covid lot pressing issues seek support put hold things getting worse dont much opportunity get better again last thing want people around feel responsible actions may take want die fear forgotten im scared death everything know come end one point another matter when life meaning try make impact people positive way want people happy purpose life though feel like im succeeding ways im sure ever again hate letting people down feel like failure im giving weakness truly vicious cycle dont want let anymore guys wanted dependable lead example feel like succeeded wanted make impact lives feel like did know bad blood anyone everyone stuck necks help get times love family wish could more help support motivate achieve happiness dont feel obtain something myself please know nothing personal wronged me forgive forget life race everyone decide sprint marathon,1
my house had a flood one day when i wa home alone it wa really scary in the moment water running down the wall and moving faster than i could handle on my own it wasn t terribly bad but damaged our basement floor so my husband and i had to move everything upstairs we waited for insurance to approve the claim and then decided my husband would do the work himself to save some fund before we bought the supply we both got covid thankfully his symptom were minimal but it wa not a fun battle for me i managed to stay out of hospital but i wa sick for month the family friend we contracted covid from died we also experienced another significant family death during this time not covid related my husband then ran into several setback with the flooring all together by the time the basement wa put back together it had been month month of extra furniture box christmas decoration gaming equipment and other junk all over the house in a jumbled mess a good chunk of the month i wa sick grieving slowly recovering and isolated because of lockdown i also lost all my front gardening work by the contractor digging up and water proofing our window well ever since i find my anxiety go through the roof whenever i hear heavy rain i used to find it really soothing but now i start to panic about flooding happening again or just something bad in general i can t focus on anything other than waiting for it to stop anyone else feel this way about storm,1
theekween the herb help for those that suffer from depression anxiety loss of a loved one heartbreak or have witnessed something tramatic thelmaherbs,1
living others myselfive diagnosed depression last four years ive felt apathetic fell love made feel like living makes want die even more dated less week break dating someone else someone much dislike yet wanted friends cant say her treats like mistress cuddle comes problems also brings dating him feel horrible basically cheating her whats kept going long wanting hurt people close me imagine sad passing want sad care much less them people closest treat like know care much even feel like living life solely others good all know something holding back since im rather jumping bridge feel like im even living good reasons anymore ever,1
well almost everything done tomorrow rest world  go test leaners permit drive except one final drive   wise captain said may fortune favor foolish,0
many american peabrains worship support political halftruths hucksters like michael moore would well sit movie see hypnotic manipulators scare intimidate lie underinformed public get people fear loathe killed spindled mutilated robespierre fine epic kills opposition remote control fit selfrighteous devotion principles get impression robes felt quite justifiable snip opponents heads even sent minions trump false misleading charges state today captains rotting media institutions much sensitive robesthey merely murder character innuendo false charges laid without foundation sources witness dan rathers attempts assassinate ws character eve  election constant drumbeat  election stolen although constitutional scholars continue scoff irresponsible drivel,0
accepting itll end matter timei manic episode yesterday hasnt happened really long time though think killing everyday dont like am things ive done said nothing makes happy anymore spend time alone feel existentially homeless new york city eating alive wanna flip switch cant stop thinking fucked world is irreversible damage weve done environment corruption greed atrocities committed every day stole pair fabric scissors work year ago particular reason weight oddly comforting theyve hidden dresser yesterday crawled bed sat floor sobbing squeezing them adjusting grip every seconds thing sometimes ill falling asleep feel like want stab chest right rib cage id imagine scissors every night usually something mightve happened intrusive nonetheless mall recently looked ledge th floor immediately envisioned jumping it lighthearted conversation coworker feel much shame things ive done things people done me didnt ask life didnt ask this know need see psychologist probably medicated dont see point anymore none real life meaningless world billions people infinite universe fucking dumb cant even articulate anymore killing tonight god damn come close yesterday,1
title says feel empty inside feel like everything pointless ambitious person why be finally happy would rather rich sad poor sad cases still sad surface tell things rich successful happy happy get there want suffer maybe happy someday feel sick tired everything makes lazy makes depressed lazy makes lazy endless cycle depression abuse point right feels like nothing get rid emptiness feel inside know feeling pass before questions always back head i anything point feel little better typing though everything feels pointless fake feel empty,1
reddit update anyone else update driving crazy whenever sort new exit app goes back hot bothering much annoying literally might use reddit fix,0
not sure if my adhd is on a slump or what but i have nothing i m really interested in right now and then the thing i wa doing also lost my interest so in a desperate attempt to stay occupied i tried some of my old game that i realized i lost the skill to play so then come the rage quit and now for the staring at the ceiling contemplating if this is a normal thing my depression or even just life being cruel i wish i could just enjoy something again,1
Nearly the end of year 8 ! Nearly in year 9 ,0
@dewbelle @kulturbrille congratulations on your new home ,0
think roblox think roblox,0
 exams due today one first history math learning history history georgia math geometry,0
maria0 0 9 depression,1
morning good mood bad pain lovely day for staying in bed again,0
would rather look like chad smell like fart every day rest life look extremely ugly smell good every day rest life take first one cant ever stop smelling like fart try wear cologne smell like farts bc chemicals ur skin counteract,0
mind often months ago online friends family found gay i knew already comes place people really accepts gays worrys suicidal hope hes ok,0
cant take anymore im uk call someoneim incredibly lonely see way anymore lot online friends either suicidal cant talk dropping am means kill im considering it know think alone right now promise despite bad im coming across im bad guy im respectful feel uncomfortable hang up give rules guidelines ill follow them,1
keep ruining every friendship havefor many years ive known something wrong me go depressive phases push people away think killing myself kind ruin every friendship have little week ago tried kill baker acted days talked doctor diagnosed borderline personality disorder still think killing constantly throughout day constantly think go far again know complete right place post this figured feelings would every friend pushed away one support group had lost ive resorted drinking taking pain killers im drinking numb pain have im supposed getting meds help depression going wait insurance kick in know much longer be think weeks least know every day things get harder harder friends talk acted im victim this could controlled actions said things did tried push away still make pain less feel alone want friends back,1
limbecky i m doing the time warp without you and am sad,0
havent talked year he backpedaling dohttpsimgurcomalrxiqa still dont know friend going school im going cuz apparently hates,0
hard convince people death million times better living trans person closeted notim desperate hopeless im pissed spend another day cursed planet cursed body people would feel sad like god damn it could nice easy could peace no wait natural death fault everyone satisfied probably ask increase antidepressants feel less emotional situation make anything better,1
imma just give a head up incase my brain want to fuck me over more in the next few hour im in a really rough spot mentally rn so tweet will be really weird sad funny or just irl b idk expect fuck shit here and there mixed with depression it s hittin hard,1
back at work have to go to zeist in a minute but want to stay here to do some work,0
im kind retardedim kind contemplating redflag like know sounds retarded straight bat genuinely feel fucking shit like cant anything help myself cant even get try im gonna sounds even retarded say friends family think friends care family seems distant me know sound stupid selfish hell cant fucking help it things built one another dont know help do really want drop school im failing everything cant bring type work generally cant bring anything mope around complain myself never actually talk anyone shit like ill sound unbelievably retarded dumb person ive hinted ex whos one closest friends lives way finland im uk sometimes really feel family doesnt care know im probably wrong know probably care dont show yet way talk act sisters theyre pride happiness joy obvious feel like im fucking left know shouldnt compare sisters hard parents brought saying shit like you act like elder sisters look elder sisters wouldnt something like this cant help feel fucking inferior them theyre smart pretty im retarded im smart knowledgable anything im even good anything either sister also attempted redflag one point parents realised hard putting much pressure theyre treating like princess isnt bad thing return treat lot worse comparison theyve learned grown parents experience almost losing one daughters theyre applying growth sister though sister doesnt even live city anymore university im stuck taking parents shit sister still lives me gets treated exceptionally hell even tried talking parents neither give two fucking shits mean might give shit dont see plus theres still much fucking gap sister know redflag probably bit far fetched im even bad situation thought redflag fucking tempting cant help think every fucking day friends im somewhat convinced care cant help feel like im bringing know people go rough spots friends time group internet friends one point ended dating one week broke deactivated account day told wouldnt communicate him left group chat group friends bc obviously wanting leave did asked someone chat could come back ex kept making scared tense fucking existence pops up didnt anything except talk fucking day hes already making fucking victim didnt jack shit also ex different one one lives finland know fact sound fucking retarded nothing particularly bad occurred know im abused pretty okay life best redflag keeps clouding mind nothing helping it family wont try help either side wants talk it dont want talk friends either ill feel bad burdening like dont want feel im guilt tripping well fucking know killing wont solve anything could easily solve talking problematics reason another im stopping everything peaceful right dont want fuck up situation redflag dumbest thing least helpful thing could possibly do know everytime chance arises always want fucking take but now heart isnt completely set redflag thing ive contemplating long hate it hate alive right now dont anything things carry maybe things get better idk ill probably ditch internet group friends bc lovely irl friends well closest friend whos online really hope things dont escalate point actually acting thoughts because now redflag recurring thought really hope things get better also everyone else subreddit hope things get better well although think things may get better theres always chance especially havent lived entire life yet could meet someone find something really love whatevers going on really hope things get better lt,1
david henrie thats people mag haha i couldnt fit it all in i dont think those picture ever made it in the magazine tho haha,0
jump front  train th shoulder dislocates  fucking time year,1
get bf breaking ive damn sad wanna cry,0
many movies think see movie like this cant count sure seemed like movie makers trying give hint reminded often movies became big distraction one borrowed memorable lines came movie   day tomorrow one line itself bad movie borrows much many movies becomes bad riskbr br butbr br see movie despite downfalls enough make interesting maybe make appear clever borrowing much movies never goes overboard fact probably find battening hatches riding storm out why costner kutcher played characters well never fan kutchers nearly gave guardian surfaced good fashion costner carries movie swimmingly best costners ability think mrs robinson anything successbr br the supporting cast around played parts well problem end characters used muchbr br from nitpick save wear tear enjoy movie parts work work well enough keep head water expect smooth ridebr br   almost ,0
for some reason my depression just hit me this morning lmaooo,1
run people likes golf fuck u liking golf bruh,0
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please help mei suicidal almost eight months now ever since considered viable solution problems tried meds luck therapy yet am still obsessing redflag know stop medical condition causes ill quite often trying cope things progress becomes harder harder mind keeps turning back redflag logical answer know even thought first place strange maybe body telling fit continue lost afraid want feel better again,1
@ethomasson is a senior correspondent @Reuters and a member of their peer support network #mentalhealth #journalism #trauma #depression  https://twitter.com/ethomasson/status/988753725492690946 …,1
FINALLY done with my bathroom after almost 2 yrs. Its late but Im happy to be done. I'll put pics up tmrw  Good Night or Good morning ,0
last night gave permissioni chambered round revolver spun wheel perhaps practicing building nerve ive wrestling years ive alone long ghosted many women interested in want feel pit stomach anymore im tired put facade confidence im scared death fear ill longer attractive her im tired waiting shoe drop im tired goddamn scared alone rest life ive decided really want go route permission keep feeling awful whenever get even remotely close someone watch lose interest vanish  even promising to even ive remained aloof,1
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im tempted see go day without reddit also im pretty addicted dont think would able also kinda wanna try im going try know nobody really cares im gonna reddit  hours unless fail would pretty pathetic starting   minutes goodbye bit,0
cutted dck accidentally last night fun vacuum cleanerhowever consider bag inside divice sharp pieces glass picked earlier many different positions tried night one really messed physically brother busted room caught red handedi immediately took dick rubbed pieces glassit aint serious hurts even pee,0
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aloneim tired alive hate life im never happy worst part cant even talk anyone it family friends would stress fuck throw hospital want heard trusted hurt myself fuck im tired dont even reason tired,1
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yall ever spend way much time making something dumb cuz did dunno feel tbh,0
im aloneso know im suicidal im definitely feeling self destructive kind long story ill try ramble guaruntees  months ago got fired job everybody promised try make feel better imediately started talking problems including girl ive head heels love years well call a telling new guy shed seeing dick dated like  months year ago never really got her days later nobody really even tried talk whats going life like forgot me would play fortnite together every often chat nobody really even talked me got new job people incredibly verbally abusive me started going back college stress really getting every chance escape stress disappeared thin air last second last hope little stand alone date suggested well started dating new guy well call t go way back dated last year due drama as life basically cut out destroyed spent almost entire past year helping feel better it wanted back also best friend hate see depressed eventally started get t started seem like old self weeks ago comes back starts getting close again insisted theyre friends still worried cut labor day weekend really good mood decided ask stand alone date said maybe knew immediately making happy asked het date started telling bad idea was never seen go dark place willing admit im jealous also concerned well being last night feeling really dumps drunk saw online xbox send party invite sends text sorry about brought xbox date morning saw online again opened messages sent last night before knew date friends all assume stayed night immediately got jealous upset again im feeling whirlwind emotions first even know stay last night know matter want happy also cant help sad want find happiness me im terrified gonna get heart broken again also terrified wont know feels way her worst case scenario gets heart broken help pick peices best case finds happiness end watching relationship always wanted girl dreams know sound like incel im not understand friend entitle anything know want me theres nothing do hurts none friends talk much sometimes actually tell theyre hanging without me one least pretends care best friend girl dreams hate im jealous upset even though genuinely want happy cut life ill nobody talk to im stuck knows long im stuck rock hard place help women even give time day need help im sorry long just need talk somebody tldr life started going bad exgirlfriend girl dreams dating guy ruined love love life friends even remotely close her,1
Going to sleep! : D Tomorrow studying! arggg but worth it!!   0,0
@RussetWolfe I had a falling out with a shipping partner because they pulled me into a depression by constantly saying I was leaving them or they wanted to delete so I dropped them. I flipped he account I shipped with them on and they got someone to make the same character to—>,1
update  telling crush like said obvious also said needed think it but ended sentence heart emoji hopefully says yes really like ill post update happens,0
mom agreed redflag cant beleive itok last night busted crying first time  years mom came talked me told everything told everythng guys last post idk guys im talking feel better way trick someone listening me ok told everything first slapped hard whem told redflag told im person life my dad good person family another country dosent anyone truly calmed solid conversation came real good plan going get pipes heater oxygen ran suffocate sleep best idea pain die togheder thats best told needs time somethings next week it idk wierd im soo excited never existed many years life dont know post self redflagwatch im going sw think related idk,1
@detlef_c lol  just a tad bit more but not much complex ;),0
cant keep living like foreverive miserable long time every time think things get better never end feeling even worse cant even things enjoy anymore moments actually fun become ruined get home remember im still alone happiness illusion cant keep going this one seems care feel all keep thwarted every turn try kill myself none people want anything help situation get say anything control life get choose whether born im trapped miserable existence cant anything about completely ridiculous im okay this im okay anything never want be want small things make happy want taken away would rather die terms old die alone one close me refuse let future,1
embarrassing story time two years ago tried giving bf time head yeah never done anything like life didnt want to well eventually got alone decides try forcing next move me little bean started shaking uncontrollably started anxiety eventually passed out ex carry bathroom good  minutes funny time whenever make jokes around friends giving head start shaking act like passed out lowkey pretty funny now also shit every time spawn minecraft always freaking forrest hope good day btw ciao cuties,0
parents fuck honestly want end,0
im tired i m so tired a tiredness that i can t describe anymore i really can t believe that my life is really the one i have now when i see myself in the mirror or just at random time during the day i can t help but have tear running down my cheek hurting myself when i m wondering how i went from an innocent happy optimistic person to a destroyed and sad who just want to die i know others can have it harder but for me that s all i can bear i can t take it anymore i m unhappy but also angry angry because i wonder why all this happened to me why do i have to live all of this at only this question will never have an answer i just deserve it idk why im writing this so late even tho no one will see it in short i ve definitely given up and this message is therefore my last straw,1
rock world ways girls never done havent even noticed yet ,0
with applying to college i m currently a spring admin freshman college student and i d like to transfer specifically i want to transfer to college out of state i know this doesn t seem like the sub to just ask random people for help with this kind of thing but i just find it so hard to get myself to do so it s just so hard and i don t have anyone to turn to there s sooo much to take into account it s extremely overwhelming i just need some kind of tip or encouragement i literally have no friend or adult to talk to about this or help guide me,1
just remembered that doctor have told me i have depression amp that make a lot of sense seeing how i took monday off saying i wa sick but just could not for the life of me bring myself g work amp i m literally writing an email at am saying im not coming the rest of the week,1
think need someone talk tohi im feeling really well right now theres one irl could talk kind dark stuff chitchatting someone knows deeply going i mean were rknittingwatch right would helpful guess,1
@girlgetstrong2 none did lots yesterday and today is mt rest day ,0
tried expose dad cheating mum went badly  dad sitting room alone started talking weird apps phonei hinting tinder knew that also talked talks strangers laughed said proof im lying told mum disrespected im grounded  cat mightve actually k,0
feel like stupidest person ever honestly im tired this keep thinking everyone around judging me cant stop,0
Yeaaahhh Diversity won Britains got talent :-D they were amazing 2nite  xXx,0
"http://twitpic.com/5ezs4 Tigger on his way to be Neutered, don't think he had a smile on his face on the way out of the clinic ",0
handcuffed thrown back seat police car suicidal idealationyes folks suicidal tell someone treated like criminal escorted forced go hospitalkept observed cops transported loony bin handcuffed thrown back seat stip searched loaded meds say want take want sleep nothing wander around watch whatever play single television ar ekept lie pretend longer suicidal insurance runs out happened twice two times lied evaluation hospital avoid commited great insight society handles people tremendous pain suffering huh,1
anyone new wanna chat finish math test im bored depressed tired trifecta dm comment chat little while,0
seriously i should not be this tired i need deep sleep not this pissy tossing and turning moan moan moan,0
th birthday today th birthday im drivers test ive stressing past week girlfriend angry stressed tired leave house meet her understand stress gone towards little bit asshole almost every week wanted distract stress seems like wasnt dealing shit much asshole mean started arguments fights arguments stupid shit mean felt like fucks felt like it ive tried tell dont like yet still it started yesterday fucking tired leave house like cmon havent able sleep well yesterday wake am last drivers lesson booked early lesson due school im asshole tired life stressed driving school normal school like like yesterday couldnt come instead well said house boring pack stuff move doesnt allot stuff doesnt pack last two days move usually might end im tired stuff good family plenty pets  cats dog yes every family problems ive told im jealous has allot shit relationship recent ones life going well school going well im home alone i live alone due fact parents moving portugal im really lonely due covid aswell friends dont even contact anymore hope pass exam today borrow dads car drive whole night really thankful loving family feel lonely spent days alone sorry long text want ask anything ask ill answer,0
"@rickylacy on the other hand, a man is as young as the woman he feels... ",0
miscarriagei wish mom didnt miscarriage wouldve stopped sister wouldnt born family go hell inside outside family,1
@lo_ferrigno YES!! YOU FTW!!!!! LMAO i wasnt watching ,0
girlfriend  discovered  page essay brother written  years ago goes detail used really really depressed  years effects familys lives self harmed attempted suicide would cry every night could hear walls much much better lives way happier healthier life broke crying first time tried read got second page says needs read give closure afraid read feel guilty become depressed again knows supportive whatever chooses read which likely will help best suggestions beneficial happening tonight girlfriend found essay brother,1
Aww @kynk  At least you only have 3 days of work this week ,0
@TwistedMacSista anonimity has it's advantages! ,0
More great evidence supporting daily exercise to create a more positive outlook: Exercising for 20 minutes-a-day cuts risk of developing depression by one third  https://www.telegraph.co.uk/science/2018/04/24/exercising-20-minutes-a-day-cuts-risk-developing-depression/?WT.mc_id=tmg_share_tw … via @TelegraphSci,1
birthday yesterday wish deadim love someone never chance again attempted redflag  years ago life since worth it wish died suffer life live everyday bitter disappointment hate living,1
fellas im super duper hungry right now good idea eat gfs ass sustainance asking advice man filler filler filler filler,0
something really enhances someones attractiveness mean something thats physical trait like article clothing piercing something like this me probably jeans hoodies also recently discovered girl oversized baseball jersey something attractive,0
discord server like join discord server dm ill provide link come chill us ,0
night twittz! Jus came home from partying  loved it ..hella tired Allergic to cats ew! All irritated,0
got better mean became okay ive never known like okayso exactly suggesting moredifferent pills im already drugged  different medications day took nearly four prescribed batches get here cant afford grasping medical solutions entire fucking life real solution right there calling everyday im much goddamn good person family suffer every fucking day selfish bastards to really fair never asked born want end it never wanted start first place thought everyone felt way sort put lives forced into no me im fuck up cant keep making best it bullshit throw birthday party someone hates birthdays worst all party never ends theres way out,1
pretty good coaching with exceptional talent trounces exceptional coaching and pretty good talent msu,0
@CorporalKitty Lol I live in Wales but I'll getyou added in a minute ,0
turned  turned  bit ago blah blah blah im lurker blah blah never posted blah blah blah goodbye good one teenagers im feeling arthritis setting in get lawn,0
living mental illness former drug addiction cant take anymorei insurance way counseling therapy medication cant make another scene parents put homeless shelter work part time minimum wage car younger sisters successful tired burden everyone every time used shoot hope would kill me reason everyone sad dead,1
kremsersenf away from tubingen and the germ yes away from friend not so much,0
done feeding horse this snowy windy april morning,0
right remove trump sign said biden burn loot murder would ok possibly people would treat praysite shit,0
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anyone tried stab wound chest specifically nd rd costal spacessince options minimal thats way have hanging option house fully occupied drugs option dont access to,1
ive ruined yet another friendship im ready give upi think im ready give ive always mess person week ive fucked everything ive never meaningful relationship only ever one girlfriend didnt last long never able keep friends thing every time meet someone become close become far clingy overly attached become overbearing try hard eventually push away happened happened never mean harm im sad lonely person wants friend always take things far im insecure worry every little thing get paranoid everything overthink everything killing me causes problems everyone love eventually take things far last year ive one friend girl work with think world and like said became attached her put lot pressure depended lot boyfriend ive honestly never wanted anything friends obviously ive become much ive never ever meant harm cause trouble never meant upset worry anyone two use worked together team two months loved it however couple months ago swapped someone else work basically lost plot im never going defend way ive acted thats point threw tantrums things attention didnt want work anyone else attached her ive acted lot ive upset friend caused stress knows self harming suicidal thoughts broke front saying shes terrified shed blame anything happened last week supervisor spoke manager im told im good friend boyfriend isnt happy i completely understand ive told outside communication needs stop needs boundaries sounds like telling cant mates friend ive got text saying wants tantrums stop wants us go back mates laugh said boyfriend wants block doesnt want wants happy joke around like used to said doesnt want stop texting outside work working together doesnt want lose friend which obviously dont want either others work telling needs boundaries ive ducked like always nothing going same even ok wants friends im worried others going try separate us keep away completely understand fault thats problem ive done know ill again meet someone get far attached person eventually fuck up ruin every friendship go far cant keep im ready give up cant keep living like this im worried friend blame kill thats always reason havent dont want upset family dont want blaming ive got worry blaming selfish side wants end,1
@heritagesoftail They are. ,0
@LizJonasHQ he does? that's awesooooooooomeeeee  ..but how do you knwo it's true??,0
hi i ve been up and down over the year and have been diagnosed with mdd and add i take med and am in therapy off and on for period of time i can not afford regular therapy and generally i am not doing too badly i wake up each morning and get to work i come home to my family i do some yoga and try to move regularly i do not feel myself i feel another cycle of darkness looming i use cannabis daily and drink alcohol on weekend i think if i drank during the week it could become a regular pattern i want to shake this and i try different thing it is a if there is too much going on and filtering what i need is difficult i ve always had the mentality that we over complicate our life i would like to live out in the wood with no electricity or technology and not in an effort to isolate but just to simplify not sure my point in posting this i guess i am looking for some support and suggestion from others in how to feel connected take care folk,1
would guys interested watching like  minutes videos forza horzion like first boss response comments filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
am trying to fit all my stuff in a tiny bag so i can take it on a hand luggage dont think it gon na work,0
lost good friend today  name ailee met roblox  years ago soon became discord friends meme sharers almost month hasnt replied memes texts im sad think dead ,0
pear amp brie bottle of cabernet and quot win a date with tad hamilton quot oh gawwd my life flashed forward to when i m 0 with my cat,0
guess lads ive officially joined  year old totally cool kids club,0
im currently looking little electro shockers amazon ease ocd im finding sex toys literally know xd mean theyre cheap use for know please help,0
spend life computeri many reallife friends family ones always busy online friends feel detached cant see touch them im trying make new friends hard okcupid craigslist kind hit miss seems like whenever get tired get suicidal fucking sucks disability know heal mental physical illnesses permanent solution permanent problems even work bc x offed got sent back entities side whats point really time yet well get time im tired human form want nonphysical realms let reincarnate better avatar memory wipe time fuck gotta love kids start chanting head saying stuff like cut bleed pool blood need shoot head pull trigger im dead whatnot mouth babes right non physical friends physical friends plus dad died weeks ago would nice join him guess sleep ill wake feeling better tomorrow til tomorrow night ill probably get feeling way again every day exactly same fucking mood swings guess stuff live enough reasons too,1
guys party tonight regular show goddamn fucking good like come guitar melody slaps harder boxer steroids song written specifically cartoon goddamn good rant goodnight dm want ill respond im six hours im going bed,0
someone help homework im stressed overwhelmed im behind  assingments got infected school  weeks assigments im understanding them please someones there need help,0
Depression. I care barely got out of bed.,1
want painsometimes hands shake want smash hammer talk much really ever anything nice say myself still feel like im better friend anyone else ever be someone me sometimes really hope not always convince im best alone time spent time wasted want die im sure people would barely notice care seems people say feel bad someone knew maybe school work kills themself selfish theyd ever admit anyone really care life care uniform routine own feel like everyone would sad something different people like change lot people like either maybe death would good change kind everyone wants life sometimes want become rich maybe famous maybe want meet special someone want happy want life change good way feel like everyone around could ever happy died slowly painfully maybe im good change life death,1
recently read north korea defects human rights violations made feel hopeless know evil world nothing changed think ever will vent,1
attempted  years thoughts getting worsei started college recently going well far love professors subjects get interested time hold focus class get anxious every day little things get depressed im anxious be im feeling like future worthwhile back attempted redflag yo yo exact thoughts were if life really this want here getting anxious every day putting borderlinenarcissist parents another  years want here four years spent high school living parents long painful im looking least another repeat going college parents paying job job experience im one took therapy parents disorders worked alone wanted stay could become doctor college realize much time effort money goes that would rather assistant parents look say salary im looking  ptas small wanted day get small rural home acres continue breeding small group animals like ive farm told got bad stay anymore would enlist military happy law enforcement later like field work im worried would letting rest extended family expected doctor like im quitting myself ill end live citysuburb never animals rural life feel trapped hate city suburbs also horse therapy animal years kill leave feel im letting down would get rid animals left im concerned horse love much cant imagine bonding animal closely im attached thing keeps going know much handle know impulses going get strong ill scream public know call quits leave everything behind cut parents enlist im afraid fail college fail military feel guilty either way keeps popping head maybe better leave entirely even im actively thinking it thoughts purposefully crashing car jumping top parking garage come up want die,1
adviceim going kill tomorrow  im worried survival instincts kicking following though ive decided hanging im going tie hands way well live fricking bungalow im going hanging window security bars dont want pussy like attempts especially due high risk brain injury hypoxia wont sudden drop snap neck hanging suffocation hanging reddit darkest platform im im asking randomers helpful tips ideas right  rope delivered tomorrow,1
@JonathanRKnight  I've decided to just let it go. I can't stop rudeness and hatred and it's a waste of energy.  You know how I feel ,0
wonderful fanciful movie stardust isbr br i could easily end one statement suffice say one could take strong recommendation go see itbr br at time hollywood seems bent forcing remakes sequels throats stardust makes us remember go movies first place  escape reality couple hours explore lives times planets ironically stardust takes us three places effortlessly childlike glee long forbr br stardust full characters remember children princes witches pirates ghosts scoundrels damsel distress hero rogues obstacles spells antidotes charms even touch lightspeed make quasi modernbr br stardust man town wall conveniently situated next wall separates town magical kingdom way past wall breech diligently guarded scruffy old codger played wonderfully david kelly one day young man wall named ben barnes maneuvers old guard escapes breech happens upon enchanted kingdom called stormhold meets chained and sexy young lady named una held captive witch leashed unbreakable chain witch away una seduces ben sends way ben returns wall without incident continues life nine months later summoned wall breech old guard hands might expect  baby boybr br the boy named tristan grows rather hapless young man charlie cox smitten girl way league also betrothed another nevertheless young lady named victoria played sienna miller goes tristain confesses love her espy falling star tells retrieves star brings back her agrees sets quest take side wallbr br meanwhile kingdom stormhold old king perfectly played peter otoole dying calls remaining living sons tell shall succeed throne sons names primus secondus sextmus septimus sons killed brothers humorous competition see lives get thronebr br anyway tosses ruby charm sky voila brings star earthbr br the star crashes form beautiful woman named yvaine clare danes she course wearing charm little know persuaded tristain princes also aging witch named lamia michelle pfeiffer wants cut stars heart regain youthbr br complicated yes comes together adventure unfoldsbr br tristain first find yvaine blinded devotion victoria recognize growing bond yvaine initial interest lie returning yvaine victoria proof love must get past princes lamia first princes big issue constantly trying kill  pirates caribbean  never death funny br br but tristain also encounters witch enslaved mother though know mother band flying pirates led robert denirobr br his important character movie deniro plays tee steals movie toughness soon learn undercover secret leave audiences floor laughter though role small length deniro extraordinarybr br michelle pfeiffer wonderful lamia  sexy evil witch claire danes appropriate confused distressed yvaine makes perfect damsel jason flemyng adam buston rupert everett mark strong add perfect dose levity fighting princes whom die return ghosts ala blithe spirit high spiritsbr br moreover director matthew vaughn whose directing experience layer cake weaves enchanting tale everyone enjoybr br stardust may complex young children anyone age  want see movie multiple times good stardust movies supposed be perfectly written perfectly cast perfectly directed perfectly acted wordsperfect,0
dog died dog  years shi tzu passed away recently playing backyard little sister ball passing around bounced off cookiey my dog ran get bumped farther point bit worried let go bit more unfortunately live right near road time figured would go far late car hit him,0
lets see make where even begin ill f try bore details everything ive depressed past two half years brought death father tell single person year told doctor started getting help recently told mom tutor school also friend class cant talk depression mom standing trying get open giving one worded answers barely getting words avoiding eye contact whole time said something hit guess next thing knew full sobbing arms like kind crying cant even speak keep hicupping breathing weird runny nose said everything could comfort me ended felt awkward around again like id shown much myself even though shes mom like one person really open with family think im freak really do act strange around extended family probably knowing well wanting make bad impression usually end im backwards idiot gotten much worse since father died sure exactly why probably reading thinking im overreacting im not act like fucking idiot front family say stupid things react inappropriately situations im comfortable with im weird around guys mean im straight girl im shy around people im attracted to well am thats story another day ive like long remember even developed attraction opposite sex around menboys felt like tosort prove them like search validation im talking guys girls completely relaxed normal girls feel need make like me strongly feel like linked relationship parents theres reasons feel like existing anymore main ones some get suicidal thoughts waves throughout day massive little smaller painful none less moment sleep deprived state see way im feeling moment drowning foot caught plant bottom river chance swimming back surface point though occasionally manage get high enough breathe bit air feeling sunlight warm face sucked back reminded people like dont belong sun place bottom river nobody see us put bluntly seriously doubt ill still see th birthdaymaybe even th thing keeping around thought mom deal death thats always enough keep planning it,1
trying really hard not to get sick from all of the stuff i just took to get rid of my cough,0
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hating body time _ tfw u sleep pillow ur thighs ur ur side rest upon eachother cant stand feel touch,0
where do i even start this feeling ha been going for year but now i reached a point where i am fully convinced that my life is just pointless purposeless empty i keep finding way to help myself to get better socialize talk to a psychologist then i got refered to a psychiatrist and talk to god i don t blame god for anything okay i still believe in god the psychiatrist did gave med escitalopram amp na divalproex amp quetiapin amp olanzapine amp vit b complex for a year i took those med constantly after a year i wa only prescribed with the first two med then recently the psychiatrist needed to move up my med to something more stronger because i said the med didn t work in socializing i tried to talk to friend but i couldn t open myself fully to any of them it is because no one listened or no one gave anything to help same go with my family i even tried looking for a relationship but with the trauma that my past caused me my ex s mirrored my depression towards me i also tried dating apps but every single one is either horny or just hard to talk to i tried to connect with workmate but you know that feeling when just can t connect it s hard to describe but yeah bottom line in socializing no one listens or give help in talking to god i still believe that there s a purpose for everything that s why we are created right i really don t blame god for anything even though i am suffering so much the only question is how long will i have to suffer more detail about work right now i m happy with what i m doing there s stress problem and shitty experience but at least i get task that need to be done yeah so when i m given a task i can finish it regardless of my mentality so my background well i ve been bullied since elementary until highschool for being different in the look it wa nd year highschool when the whole class bullied me constantly the teacher can t even help lol my depression really attacked me in nd year college there i realized all my suffering all my mistake and all my regret i attempted suicide for like time but always failed unfortunately twice i got caught by my family they were concerned at first but a time pass by so is the concern after all that i gave up trying to kill myself because i can t i m too much of a coward to kill myself all those physical abuse i tried to do on myself i can t do it twice so yeah i m like in the middle of trying to live and trying to kill myself if only i m brave enough to just commit suicide i would do it but i m not i actually tried to do sport in the past i wa very active in physical sport like taekwondo athletics and mma i even went to the gym right now i m doing biking but all those physical activity stopped a i lost interest or no motivation anymore i continued biking but everytime i do it i go full speed thinking i would die unfortunately my body just hold the break to slow down and make turn right now i just literally gave up on everything i m convinced that i ll be living my life like an empty shell med don t work socializing don t work and etc etc i just do my work then after just back to emptiness again i am able to do task but is it still living when you just do task out of obligation for advice sorry but i already heard too much but it didn t work anyways just trying to vent out i hope this story is clear or understandable thank you for reading,1
"@LBCIslander That's always a possibility   I'm no MP,  actually a full-time soldier, part-time local cop. Just a pastime really.",0
misterskull awwwwww what a shame you re mile and mile away,0
give answer guyshey guys young man cis region little bit lost studying abroad made decision change country subject studies done everythingsuccessfully enrolled another university unfortunately got half scholarship wanted mother supporting application processalso friends supported me came home got information decided tell father elder brother brother completely disappointed decision told wont let ruin life mother changed mind  dayso told studying business useless cant finish current studieshow sure finish future business degreethat weaka failure made everyone suffer selfishthat wasted lots money me people things dont wanna dobut supposed to family members lot problems think even worse problems dobut wanted make everything better family said many horrible thingsthat would never say thembut understand that diagnosed clinical depression brother laughed it dont know anymore maybe righti got sick mindset stupid unrealistic thoughts closest people lost faith me realize fault didnt fulfill parents expectations  dont understand point view anymore sent back place dont wanna studybe couldnt anything agree  fault super selfish decided enroll university completely different country kinda dream would say planned lot things except one feel super badi cant sleepgot constant headache getting little crazy even though trying stay strong want disappear leave worst mark familys lifeit break completely till end days think better,1
love movie great film combines english indian cultures feministtype issues girls wanting play sports previously reserved men shows struggles indian person wanting break outside cultural barriers women wanting break outside gender restrictions found sports especially england time feel cultural struggles emphasized issuesbr br in contrast comment think movie anything like dirty dancing chick flick move loved many types people men women young old alike,0
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im usefuli use infact since im deaf parents buy cochlear implants upgrades them seems selfish costing parents thousands dollars dad unemployed mom losing job april nothing going well so im depressed none friends take seriously since im always one trying happy even though cover please help cant handle life much,1
im sadim  years old dont want live anymore parents voiced inconvenience im losing friends ive become distant family barely even knows anymore boyfriend love dearly feel like hes losing interest doesnt know tell wants end things tried calling redflag hotline left hold long time gave up im stuck dads house january dads new wife makes miserable feel bad sad know people way worse oh gid hurt bad,1
theekween depression anxiety heart break thelmasherbs,1
live livemeh suicidal long time now always put thought stuff would improve future realized worth effort sure life could improve put effort far away tired willpower resolve make effort thing scares death what die life improved kinda like the mist indeed cry help someone save me someone guide towards peaceful quick dignified death important bit here  i thinking using numbing spray sharp knife get carotid artery good plan pm suggestions make painless quick thing note probably say please fucking bring back irreversibly brain damaged cost family lotta money keep alive stupid hope recover day kinda  sure this rest  what if scared scared gotta done guess must suffer more,1
hanging soon cani bought rope im writing inside mcdonalds wait ride home wont able tonight plan wednesday afterwards whenever get house i live parents im going hang stairwell really hope works cant afford mess up cant tell friends family want time thanks reading,1
wrong answers only make life better wrong answers only make life better,0
know hes struggling depression really bad lately tried best much can got worse stupid girl whose playing him hes good looking fit even know begin talk ask really worried starting seem like might actually it cannot watch  cannot get realize hell ok get little better recently started seeing therapist going good started seeing girl again parents know tried get help know think friend going kill,1
little pain therell hatred anymorei hate humanity hate part it hate someone world bear much suffering theres free will theres fate hate bound it im going break free itll painful thats way people miss me probably wont miss anyone another world calling me goodbye,1
jerrrm today can not meeting the whole day gilaaaa,0
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mom im trying appease opposite sex no whenever want wear smaller cut bathing suit isnt attract teenage boys no whenever put makeup im trying impress someone no friend opposite sex doesnt mean want date him dont know guys moms eyes everything im impress boys even though ive never shown slightest attraction around little know im actually bi realize dress look best myself others definitely men,0
homeless fucking gain fmli cant fucking fucking bs fuck man im fucking done,1
first time busted nut ok like dry humping pillow felt like needed pee like ok ill finish pee finished didnt feel need pee like weird dont need pee anymore said might well go bathroom try pee went pulled pants saw cum didnt know little concerned minutes later older brother comes biggest mistake asked weird peed white sticky liquid remembered little bit shocked face said anything weird thats knew happened said obviously like  years ago end,0
got fucking demon slayer spoiled fucking hentai sub like bitch kinda mothaasshole spoils shot hentai sub piece shit go hell tell im quite pissed turn events,0
want put thoughts therenot really expecting anyone care reply nobody really ever did ive read peoples posts thought could feel better myself too nobody around understand im feeling even though im really alone i family girlfriend would never understand feel tell would hurt make feel weird me feel like im even living life now stranger trying make things work somebody else know feel like im wearing mask im allowed show real self anyone otherwise would hurt them ive thoughts lately hoping die way manner would do im much coward myself im looking thinking way end life way would interfere lives everyone around think is want disappear feel like im worthless pathetic look mirror want spit face im looking at am live and now almost month theres single day thought killing hoping die deserve life theres people world want live normal lives cant medical condition id like disappear give chance life could finally something good instead volunteering helping people way contemplating redflag hoping death come deserve shit things happened life worse im thinking it seriously fucking hate asked why would know answer question matters course would still hate myself today ive magnetic resonance brain dysfunction hormones doctors wanted sure pituary gland tumor giving treatment hope ive read highly unlikely die it im  want live anymore apologize anyone took time read ungrammatical piece shit english first language,1
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something would like tell someone made mistakemy best friends brother committed redflag  years ago something unexpected since never gave signs it  months later first granddaughter born made wonder event could something like fresh air life would finally lifes present arms new motivation live work highschool student comes vent sadness plans end life always tell story time really wanted die thank god never happened many good things see get see something new something good think anymore theyre behold good things life brings us,1
know keep living anymore like die happyi posted rdepression aswell im depressed since im  always like this strong immunodeficiency made fail school everything else since always looked ill everyone school looked bullied me fine kept living till  im  now got girlfriend even work fine everything seemed okay since then always like this everything fine girlfriend suddenly problems boss work i  weeks vacation called said wants fire me never said anything like before far good came work almost everyone work started bullying aswell said things like he doesnt work chills handy hes lazy get place time quit much me several month later still everything fine girlfriend found another workplace  week practical training everyone nice really loved work there yesterday got confirmation accept start working there finally got new job awesome aswell since seems life suck girlfriend broke  years dont even know why never told anything said hey dont love anymore cant anymore much plans even lived together went school it long distance relationship first moved parents house me feel lonely shit honestly dont want live anymore dont know do important thing life alone well thats gone nowi cant enjoy anything without her thing like think right dying even want help,1
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ok goodbye reddit ill back workout,0
Hello Writers! Hope you're weaving magic with words today. ,0
last day teen well everyone it kind spontaneous post time surely flies realized last day teenager lots great memories great childhood lots time wasted browsing subreddit too ive great things look forward applying med school  months ugh still feel like kid suppose really ambivalent feeling step next stage life  manufacturers warranty  manufacturers expected life span yay probably worse cuz allnighters anyway enjoy time  cliche really live once remember wherever go are keep fighting ill see yall side haha,0
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We shape diverse transformations can we escape the political body depression of bodies borders definition architecture shapes,1
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day  electric boogaloo ive left delivered  days now suspect maybe shes busyi hope pain,0
im fucking scaredso fam outside room finish went next window saw view body shaking scared managed calm fantasized jumping would feel mind telling jump much fear accidently dropped phone cousin came room cause felt something wrong saw next window didnt even realize tears coming eyes asked wdong like nothing wind laughed didnt believe worked wanted leave time didnt want late ask help left feeling scared nervous wanted write made sad wrote went my immediate family talks behind back makes sad real sad laughing living room im contemplating redflag single tear drops eyes silent scared someone find im crying cause half family sees positive dude suicidal depressed teen hates life learned cry silently know shout tears wouldnt come early age cause man isnt supposed cry honestly pains cant cry infront anyone whole family thinks im failure even tho failed mom dad every one failed went therapy didnt help first time life im telling story apologizing people lied never abused well bad say emotionally tho thats whole different story mom loving bat shit crazy matter seconds country fucking shit hole life bad country probably even shittier uncle came room told close window doesnt know wanna jump brother entered shaved shitty beard looking smiley happy told gtfo hate hate fucking face voice everything everybody tells look like tell im starting sound like used beat fight cause dad used beat still dont know wrong ghosts real turn one die  haunt scare shit hit way hit scare even worse scared type older brother beats younger one idolizes uncle older girl wife funny dick honestly failed didnt go get brother shitty situation lived block  year moved another block two blocks apart wouldnt see months honestly im tired life way things going especially covid quarantining shit probably going last words unless dont kms one friend talks time time lucky bastard one lotto got green card sometimes fantasize winning lotto letting fam come wont ever happen sometimes leave small hints know im suicidal even told brother dont think really care cutting lately redditor tell becomes habbit didnt listen frame cats scratches wont help long honestly wanna put redflag note wanna jump every time think cry silently always playing knife game hit knife space fingers im pretty good cut last time fun risk surprise pain theinsanity know anyways might last thing ever wrote might night wont save survive fall bye world sad depressed like ok time jump bodys instinct called brother told get uncle could talk cause didnt want die dont want fo die telling self body still feels scared think im still scared well unc sleeping like must sign already went ledge room holding window jump told shouldnt fear fatass breaking window jump held thinking way fall one leg slipped body nervous cold felt iran _ celcius weather freezing outside managed grab window make footing write yelled mom come mom come panicked told didnt care gonna break window roll thats got hugged mother ages feeling alone cried asked happened pissed told sho could gtfo let die peice well thats uncle woke coming room hughing like wtf said dream jumped window fell grond paralyzing self still living managing say one word lonely fucked well half cried tears little whimper told going happen got even scared nkw dont wanna kill self im done fear already pushed boundries went ledge heart hurts thinking last night idk end please kill know terrified,1
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"It eats me up knowing I literally Lost a piece of myself to someone like you. The emotions, the vulnerableness, the uncertainty, it never left me. You never cared to help me out of the depression, you caused.",1
love bread everything get much bread possible love bread whole life life dedicated eating bread love im eating bread every day always delicious bread made life worth living think could bread help support,0
held loaded gun head tonightim  average american white priveleged male job make great money lot friends serial monogamist entire life engaged before since engagement broke seeking mental relief forms relationships eating put close  lbs made things worse recently broke girlfriend  years never love comforted me since ended ive tornado lost  lbs  months gym diet decent single life tonight everything came crashing down open woman relations shut down nothing abnormal deal rejection fine triggered something scary feelings self worthi hate typical american soul crushing office job idea life supposed about hate american dream slaving away office order afford buy stuff dont need yet say anyone im ostracized made feel worse shortened version everything going didnt get responses text messages put didnt balls pull trigger need outlet,1
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think about it i cant do a single thing anymore and the fact that i just suck at everything is just totally fantastic sarcasm i just keep bottling up everything and everything i thought about running away and dieing alone but i don t know how brutal that is,1
two video shot movies troama decided horrible desperate move turned one movie perhaps bitterness troamas side helped spark comedy whatever reason funny stuff inspired bit oliver stone commentary movie lots cameos lots use lesbian cannibal hoedown song add fun trey parker ted raimi julie strain etc etcbr br one best recent troama releases yes place know going in production quality lack of becomes one many running jokes go good timebr br the behind scenes frequently best things troama releases also average time around really think anger felt two lousy films helped drive to well greatness drove fix film way thats better either films would originally planned,0
im goingim tired shadows puppet im tired one loving me im tired everything so im going forever bye,1
thought homework realized skyscrapers made concrete glass things concrete glass made sand skyscrapers tall sandcastles,0
carobode i m starting to have an headache too am school amp i m so sleepy got work do this am,0
think im almost doneso ive feeling recently im  ive never sex never girlfriend get hungry anymore eating makes sick libido hair already thinning video games movies excite even slightest anymore death inevitable way want fade nothing,1
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i m fucking and why the fuck do i still feel this shit fuck fuck fuxk fuxk fuck fuck this i hate this,1
broken ever beforethe boy love lying beside me sleeping soundly break down melt down every memory tormented last two years life flashing eyes like sort twisted film depressed since twelve reached climax im sitting floor listening boyfriend sleep knife lap wondering could bring end pain hate it im even wondering whether ought put pain hell never hurt person way hurt me love ive pushed far beyond handle cant live like this cant person one day im much pain months one sees im suffering one understands weight lies try haul bed morning one thinks im trying am tell im lucky makes worse keep reminding life could chose happy choosing happy walking around eyes shut ignoring every instinct know anymore im end take,1
first timedunno wanti felt empty since  long time since then cant keep job woman left left fiance  cant tell much went school sucks done maths like planned pli sci stupid geuss wanted change world cuz military wrong im teller bank maths one cares oh also medical bills lol got genetic heart disease  years ago could kill anytime yay,1
cant go back school end soon possiblei truly think strong enough deal anxiety suicidal ideation month obvious unintelligent high school may well give dreams university learning career paths im worthless idiot cannot deal stress again need kill january scared dont know how,1
drunk ok guys want ask u smth u ever went ur best friends drink party next day waking different city town  cuz happen me let coments happened u u case ,0
good morning dear family i wish you a great day good humor is a tonic for mind and body it is the best antidote for anxiety and depression it lightens human burden it is the direct route to serenity and contentment grenville kleiser http t co zdi0 0 evc,1
glitch human body really strong ok evening trying cut something knife put left hand opposite side knife keep still pushed knife object hard ik im real dumbass  anyways knife eventually went straight object went half way ring finger hit bone finger started dripping shit tone blood weird thing literally felt no pain like  pain thankfully nobody kitchen rushed bathroom fast put rushing water sink still pain little bit underwater tested could perfectly move pain could literally see bone meat inside damaged knife too went hospital gave stitches tell think,0
lets thisno friends family boyfriend hates thinks im pretty fucking ugly cant go on cant wake face shit every single day tonight night,1
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would like helpedi apologise clunky grammar various mistakes advance helped subreddit dedicated helping suicidal people helping mean preventing people killing themselves would really like helped want continue go living see realistic outcome im still alive pain kind help use  might share story oh wall text thats going be sharing help me see how shared story others never helped  might receive advice see fancy rather smart man advice contain truth already thought or heard shrinks people want truth there sincerely doubt it  unlikely might be might find kind caring person weep shoulder anything temporary reprieve honestly see how genuinly trying find way helped subreddit fail redflag passionate impulse me premeditated mecry kill given might well couple days live unless chicken out suppose case nothing power subreddit help me cases really able help people someone like looks like impossible thats really sad if ask me well interesting observation guess ive suicidal many years now always able fixate goal work towards recently goals lost meaning pain intensified wouldve gotten that time saw utmost clarity reason failings life personal flaws ive trying many years fix avail yes without context cant really make sense whats written above undersand theoretically additional many years efforts might only might mind you able finally become normal boy love god cant find reason end spare suffering apologise incoherence ramblings never able pour thoughts paper clear enough,1
i feel like i shouldn t get help because i m not depressed enough i don t mope around in bed all day i m doing fine in school and i don t cry myself to sleep at night i want to feel worse so i can prove that i m depressed i feel like i m on my own and don t deserve help i feel like nothing ha happened to make me feel like this and i feel it s selfish for me to ask for help,1
honestly verge redflaghey hey im eileen or whatever wanna call change name often doesnt even matter anymore im  year old trans girl honestly im practically verge redflag long time every day wake knowing ill never myself never happy die alone honestly idea havent fucking killed yet everyday think fucking ending it friends everyone know hates me im close end might honestly kill soon dont know anymore honestly need support,1
hospitalization feels goodi like hospitalized anyone else effed feel same,1
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please help hot wheels inside me long story short bone shaker model hot wheels car lodged ass im afraid stuck originally rectum think entered colon dont want tell mother father obvious reasons feel pointy exhaust pipes poke around lining large intestine im really afraid shred insides push perhaps guys give advice get out,0
whywhy parents invalidate hurt ones caused it like say sorry because do whenever fail hurt one say hurtful things apologize say stop it feel like im feeling right valid something wrong even crying feeling way,1
at my mama ji s place everybody keep giving me new option to study or work now i get more confused with each passing day,0
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apocalypse short thing based ucoffeeman s post warnings violence character death     hours  hours since world went shit do im fourteen year old fucks sake gun im athletic really browse reddit watch minecraft youtubers day ive holed small condostyle house laptop praying some upper deity end gets dangerous go outside seventeenyearold going alias coffeeman patient zero know cause thats news stopped uploading info went insane died came back right took buried knew zombies could quick agile fucking aggressive people going down left right friends gone well kyle aries last heard nickname chased hes gone radio silent ever since stormy hook ivan tmk confirmed alive though im surprised ivan hes called murder kid reason stormys pretty quick zombies quicker hear scratching door stiffen grab vlog knife pocketknife gained goofy name story id read gets less goofy stabbing someones eye though door handle turns two quick knocks relax zombies may fast agile theyre dumb shit cant open doors kind like minecraft zombies think except minecraft zombies run like rabid animals nothing left lose whispering bitehttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentskpcabite_wanna_start_a_zombie_outbreakutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf they well manage bite someone hard describe sounds blue sad type blue cold disconnected type blue sounds like something see antarctic ocean alone sup say hook looking him hes pretty shaken up trembling bruised looks chokes out stormys dead flinging something bedside table passing out run check pulse still there barely notice something right sleeve check it small bite barely there bite nonetheless jump back stung nonononononononono hook stormy im speedrunning five stages grief two minutes but might well put misery grab vlog knife carefully dutifully slit throat blood spatters onto clothes simply look it used gory sight like movies sever brains neural stem rest body damage brain beyond point repair zombie dies saw neck off flesh throat soft tiring work theres bone almost takes nick two knife but end get done standing up pop back shake pins needles legs theres use crying him think everyone dies cest la vie dump body window good longterm need decomposing corpse house right now remembering hook tossed something onto table go pick thing package opening package eyes widen grin wide mouth starts hurting probably look like cheshire cat right now care less set lighters remember said physical well theres exception start walk house forgetting fears worries right now zombies burn right now things test time commit arson   hi howd like it characters used friends pov multiple nicknames call arson mayonnaise chaos hope enjoyed,0
hmmmm lot probably wont like lets it know  worst year us minute put away bad things happened go back try remember one good thing happened  ill list mine  started watching anime  fell vtuber rabbit hole  started playing tf team fortress   got better talking people strangely enough tell good thing happened last year even something super small doesnt matter,0
today got caught watching anime online classes but it regular anime kiss x sis ova version it last episodes staring so dad came room watching hurriedly switched class noticed asked what  checked laptop opened tab saw it got scolded would say got saved cause sex scene  second dad opened tab scene girl naked top boy naked  second closed tab straight sex shot moment dad saw  frame boys face nd frame girls face only got saved otherwise knows would happened me,0
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i feel like i am getting closer to giving up everyday and i can help myself it like i am watching a ship slowly sink i don t think i will see my next birthday i know myself pretty well and i know i can t hold on for much longer i feel like a cancer patient with few month to live i have had suicidal thought before but nothing like this it feel like i am already dead,1
i just told my parents about my depression and it's so hard to get gen x people to understand that this is not something that i can control all the time or just cure with a walk or by keeping my mind busy,1
rare fine spectacle allegory death transfiguration neither preachy mawkish work mature courageous insight northfork avoids arthouse distinction refusing belong kind unlike memorable accomplished film impose obvious comparison wim wenders  wings desire der himmel ber berlin sustains ambivalence narrative spectrum spanning mundane supernatural story earthly celestial eminent domains american west withholds fairytale literalness marked german predecessor ad hoc genre angels shedding wings obsequious sentimentalism celestial transcendence inspired doleful faith impelled fever dream never parts ways crud rot firm grounding redounds great credit writers directors mark michael polish,0
broke my tooth yesterday it feel like it s spilt in half,0
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know need someone talki think need talk someone last   months anything productive home went outside rare possible live alone really close get bachelors degree shortly registered topic thesis started realize frightened many trivial things since tried avoid people stopped replying messages started college always thought writing thesis seminars hardest part even testseminar never problems exams mostly one best  seminars practical parts where supervisor watching me always really hard managed finish thanks teammates always shy rather introverted type never thought something norm needs treated moment im really afraid social interactions matter real life internet never talked anyone think one knows shut room last  months though often redflag actually wanted  times never could mostly family wish could simply disappear waking morning die accident im pretty sure non ever happen today wanted drive home tell parents it  hour train i need  hours go back home ride returned back apartment know tell arrive also thought calling parents via phone feel could explain phone another idea go old friend he lives doors away asking help cant think way could help me moment really know whats wrong escape current situation hope give advices,1
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acceptancei believe things never get better and people meant here sadness inside never goes away ive never seen point living im empty lost things look better crumbles im incapable feeling happy think lifes anymore everyday struggle matter hard try get help one can im alone one understands feels far gone one try hard let everyone down ruined six months clean two weeks ago want actually die time take bottle pills throw bridge im done,1
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controversialhello everyone  title suggests bit crazy question really typical usual self basically normally love life im lucky incredibly lucky clue word make sense one seen terry pratchetts documentary choosing die seen you felt like although know life amazing really bloody isnt anymore know based past experiences knowledge yourself youve messed although youre physically disabled mentally cant cope version youve become would literally saw arm erase shit thats works unfortunately recent experiences made question right die idea trust me wouldnt normally writing thiswe put beautiful pets sleep deem much pain dont fellow human beings odd although arguments idea fairly obvious still seems cruel me live strange world dont want advocate redflag believe least many cases unnecessary could treated people suffering much body gives up ok lovely labrador love heart would like see consuming pain day day out id rather put sleep although would heart wrenching me humans dont option either suffer die naturally  resort diy death pay ludicrous amount money visit dignitas switzerland im interested peoples thoughts this course realise problems idea could easily abused yeah people think,1
really hard time so might sound exagerated first life just overkilling or us matter ampxb basically im venezuela heard stories thisplace know rather nice havent resume you every single thing sucks theres literally single good thing think damned place situation drained even last drop sanity left things mean are ampxb the energy supply umbearable is everysingleday theres blackout usually last  hours random but course year become  hours random thats without taking count one happens randomly every month last entire day aditionally sometimes power comes back like half regular voltage would something like v things like fridges ac televitions computersect working undesirable v and guessing mine could lower that ampxb the internet sound like big priority times really necesity need internet order make bank transfers pay credit cards service bad last one example fact venezuelas internet one slowest world  mbps last time checked meaning that say g download takes like   hours complete thats all like wih electricity tends dissapear randomly daily basisand many cities pieces shit started stealing internet cables streets sell copper leaving anyone unlucky enough cables net internet the company distribudes internet decide fix which never last one happened grandmas house  internet ever since ampxb not alot food alot water well dont think explain one basically that theres enough food expensive compare people wages thats local food anything grown last automaticaly unreachable example aples everybody knows fruit right well here luxury get crosing borders either colombia brazil fucked normal parents telling story kid asked aples real never seen any theres water limited water tank house bad time example maracaibo city grandma lives gets water like  days every two weeks water since friday sundays night gone wait friday  fucking weeks ahead refill water tank imagine living place take shower every  weeks oh know constantly wash hands thing yeah ampxb fucking corruption seems thing bad countries adapted bullshit country have example fact could go prison food car sounds unreal believe me ampxb top that exclusive family personal problems form last drop cup ampxb one im going cut short basicaly notsolittle dispute family terrain father left died last year scaled sort agressions instance fucker threatening knife fucker telling mom hes gonna get us my mom me cut pieces bitch even part problem calling mom something along son whore kind insult and last wednesday main troublemaker fucker attacking one friend rocks last one counterattacked moment hit nail stuffed club carrying around protection problem much now weve reached autorities and well corruption again weve gone  times local police station say cant anything due covid thing were basicaly luck oh get agresive bad guy cause supossed let autorities handle sort conflict again ampxb yesterday mother went bigger instances try solve constant threats thing told anything unless becomes physical thing way back something car broke left place one hour away ampxb bullshit really gotten best right cant stop thinking about lets say ilegality fucking end all least way others familiars whould able conflict solved were really runing low options ampxb im really verge insanity cant stop thinking one honestly im kind looking advice issue thats even posibility anyone even bothered read,1
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the people that sh why do you do it i ve gotten this question a couple time since a couple year i m self harming almost daily i do it for three reason comfort seeing myself bleed physically is for some reason comforting to me my question to you do you see yourself in that too distraction it s is a quick temporary conversion from emotional pain to physical pain relieving my mind and thought for a quick moment shame the third reason is more of a response to the most asked question aren t you afraid people will see your wound scar and the answer is no people won t get to see it anyway it s on my torso leg and shoulder i never am in situation where those body part are exposed it s a simple a that,1
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i m on lexapro 0mg i feel is going well and i think lexapro saved my life but somedays i feel like i have no energy not interested or is super hard to get out from bed is this normal i mean i have a good experience with lexapro but for a reason that i don t know somedays are just awful i ll talk this with my doctor but i would like to know if someone experimented the same,1
thought id sharei truly want go current life absolutely toxic live home without work covid folks relationship toxic sometimes question one day mom push father edge buys gun executes everyone father abuses mother anymore murders sleep wanting divorce threatens leave country attempts divorce him father treated mother like dirt since born mother recently started stand herself ive even begun standing her takes extreme throwing things him hitting hits back putting position intervene gotten hurt numerous times almost put prison money would move out cant even find work im antisocial type so moving friends house work dads side family middle east mothers side family psychotic maybe even more im  nearly enough money leave friends literally family go therapy money sessions feel options truly redflag,1
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anyone else hate getting bed theyre sure spiders insect around bed andor room know important found spider somehow got window screen opened window screen doesnt look like holes big enough spider get through kind concerning almost validates mild anxiety getting bed always think spiders insects either bed nearby,0
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weird quick add random people snap got bored went quick add added like  random people dont know started think realized may come across really weird dont plan messaging anything wanted add people see stories log on guys think shouldnt done this fine,0
natasja cupcake that would be great havin a crappy day again just can t seem to get in a good mood some sun would help,0
know hear joke gets less funny every time life feels appeal completely worn off every day gets stale tried different variations myself worse next best one getting old good begin withdoes anyone else feel way like life show gone many seasons feel like joke gone old,1
george sanders playing saint penultimate time good job good script  usual good rko cast around noncharteris story too bristling murders good clean funbr br thread  new york police inspector fernack templars friend framed corruption scandal disgraced  st comes london try put things right nice simple far  really  world thread  another tale woman taking revenge people murdered brother wendy barrie well bumping nasty men saint fall love boot including baddie direct protection fernacks cellar  theres creepy shot dead staring car theyre taking back theyd got him paul guilfoyle pearly gates must supposed homosexual  witness dressing gown beginning later beguiling comment st thinking keeping pet  palm springs fernack played jonathan hale usual time beaten deflated attitude really needed good slapping templar liven upbr br the hays office also made sure got picture right threads tied straggly bits well worth watching us like kind thing val kilmers version yardstick bother,0
school presentation presentation supposed yourself damn hard task since om normal person normal life im basically harem protagonist every anime without harem interesting personality,0
Engaging in physical activity decreases people's chance of developing depression  https://ift.tt/2vJK3Hi ,1
seasonal depressiondoes spring summer ever make anyone depressed like winter validates depression makes feel normalsunlight make feel better im fucking low reminds hell need climb of im curious anyone else feels like thisregardless this im gonna try fucking hardest embrace warm weather positive vibesi cant afford feel like longer,1
Lads it has been a solid While since I've played p4 and I'm tempted to replay but like I Know that's the depression speaking  pic.twitter.com/UsyKY6yxAi,1
i ve been distracting myself with hobby and uni but at the end of the day i always get reminded that none of it matter they re only there to stop my train of thought from entering my mind they re just bring a split second of feeling recently picked up smoking again and it s the only thing that can temporarily bring some emotion back there s nothing worth living for why am i still alive i just don t know how to feel anymore i just want to wither away and be forgotten to close my eye every night hoping to not open them again,1
music work anymore lost truly numb music even work anymore,1
wow everyone ha abandoned twitter,0
trying get back  years worth pictures files corrupted hard drive funim fuckinh idiot thinking since computer fairly new nothing bad would happen shouldve known better shouldve backed files didnt cause im stupid idk ill ever see stuff,0
worried dadso grandad died day us taking well one knew long time coming dad really really taking well it help matters mothermy grandma also couple months left cancer long story short keeps getting really drunk telling mum parents die theres point living anymore anyway mum dad exactly get they see mum worked carer elderly people many years looking grandparents dads side family pretty clueless stuff pretty dismissive all saying hes attention id agree dad massive exhibitionist say least style attention seeking all dad pretty volatile character though  hes alcoholic long remember last couple months as grandparents got sicker hes gotten lot worse im worried one parents died going cause go completely handle exactly close as honestly dislike lot dad end all idea approach concernwhat do advice would appreciated lt,1
talk everything want talk everything want ask questions ill reply every comment,0
Happy 50th Update Thing  who wants to party in my pants? ;),0
cant selfharmi really wish selfharmed im much pain feels like pulsing adrenaline hate much burden others want hurt myself want punish myself want something focus onbut cant quite bring it not im really depressed im wimp whos afriad pain feel like scam wanting self harm nothing proof without scars cant quite make it guess settles it must really depressed im justwho knows fucked up,1
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want see true thriller rent this director screenwriter scream feature overacting overpaid tv actors passing stars run mill special effects bonanza instead get topnotch edgy strong in violence yet thrilling nailbiter,0
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@danstrange Have fun!!  That's a beautiful area! ,0
want join military selfish reasons  male alwas wanted join military really dont care helping people feel like real reason want adrenaline stress thing people dont want like feel experience dont wont really dont care benefits status reason want structure also anarchy selfish reason wanting join also feel like redflag thing dont fear death doesnt faze anymore could care less died wouldnt want nothing selfish this,0
you hope guys well hope gets better soon ,0
listening weezer whats move anyone else like weezer really like weezer cool,0
german speakers here want invite discord server,0
@Syu4u - hope you are enjoying the new task at hand  ...,0
yall really proud grown ass  year old sleep room man  come now slept room  get balls man woman,0
honestly fuck mei cant anything right seems like live one embarrassing fuck next cant speak people including family without freezing looking like dipshit feel touch fucking boring self esteem shitter led walked on openly disrespected family members ive never many friends attempts make new ones usually shot oddball am like smell lack confidence weird come across run like fucking plagueit sure aid things im losing hair  acne short skinny social physical issues aside graduation coming soon really know want living im much pressure know fuck do suck eat fucking bullet already one would care,1
sleep pattern ruining lifeim asleep day awake night ive tried everything change sleep patter nothing worked night im awake alone sad unable sleep,1
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loneliness  hello suffered loneliness isolation basically life traumatic childhood bullied suffered severe discrimination think contributed lot this seems like something never get of times friends all live alone well distance study literally totally alone two sort friends right now one good friend all many things happened bad held onto friends friend roomate met her moved months ago like best friends know feel really alone live like  minutes away whenever go walking never ask even though already said would like come her text often takes forever reply usually gives short replies basically never texts first same whenever ask something often invites along never me really tough know people know might alone still chose excludeignore claim friends know overreacting really mean example today went walking together could asked along really hurts feel lonely feel like matter try cant get people around cold disinterested say around people hard connect because life story often feel trapped loneliness think lot comes mother always telling loneliness child making feel responsible this carrying around me parentified child also ignored child try make contacts good tough als looking trauma therapy nothing works out feel like trying life become severely physically ill due well abused child mentally physically mother stepfather grew european country father foreigner look nonlocal put way hell child felt misunderstood developed behaviours offputting others due abuse think also judged much harsher bias people claim friends reaching let sink would kill myself thinking lot would pretend sad lies think stop seeing friends really pulls down would alone really cant take rejection anymore think really seem interested knowing me,1
easy way outhome alone tiny apartment easiest way out dont guns sharp knives want done tonight within next hours,1
life really great loser faggot one solid friend pissed now still going trip weekend ngl struggled suicidal thoughts years alone gay hate many aspects life myself dog would parents watched would need worry know point going kill instead hope live short life optimism life need way get friend passes minimal contact finally peace life conclude easiest way give festival tickets friend suicide,1
dm u get  minutes never talk whos it first come first serve ulcztie speedrun,0
important discussion opinion men,0
got to take cleo to the vet not sure what s wrong with her but she s feeling very sorry for herself,0
th m m t l n n i d i,0
ashamed write notemy life well myself pathetic cant write note maybe theres need write note people care enough want know feel ive never popular part reason fucking mental disability came broken home little name even wanted to enjoy life terms im mentally defective able to im afraid option cant bear another minute living shitpile theres reason keep living cant enjoy life properly shit tiresome twentythree years desire live see remaining decades,1
dvd player almost died joke one stories yesterday pc stoped win  yeah still use it starting windows  dots appeared stopped turned pc appeared two options recovery mode normal mode nothing worked  day later thing several hours later now goingto remove back cables found something usb usb games like skullgirls ktne keep talking removed tried turn worked pc trying boot fcking pendrive usb angry almost threw dvd player ground,0
just sitting here. having fun with my grandma  ,0
miss mom miss great grandma mmshe used vibrant independent tennis player volleyball player dancer swimmer first grade teacher put entire heart job shes epilepsy years doctors found matter brain epilepsy medicine combined lack independence she cant drive swim etc risk seizures changed her shes depressed talks killing wanting live im scared depressed mostly feeling like failure maybe would want live somehow better daughtersisterperson actually am wish siblings enough reason keep striving life great grandma mm died little ten years ago id give anything around right now shed know say taught sew tea parties time,1
depression want diei pretty sure depression used to left sure almost always happy still want die reason why,1
uk sexual assault crisis uk among women aged  astounding  say sexually harassed women admit sexual harrassment  report authorities  took legal action source survey un women uk,0
whenever think childhood want kill myselfi try think cant comes own always still quite often whenever wander trough city whenever working whenever sitting school whenever home always bad sometimes even good memories made friend elementary school come up usually horrible memories comes up memories father drinking beating mother memories trying force problems memories acting like clown school could least bit cope sadness despair head now early s personality fully stabilized many ways different used be thought memories would leave alone least hurt much mistaken know problem mother path father drinking smoking taking pills makes memories come huge scale know i good son something wont  never good son fine it tried spend little time home could coming home sleep weekends eat hoping would help  not now know help death even lifestyle take time all human body much durable us would thought last longer mother i want free,1
someone talk meive wanting murdered  weeks now want throat cut bad ive tried hire people it im  live usa,1
weird creepy like organize lifes photos specific folders specific ocd bunch photos computer whole life came camera real titles anything numbers let long time interested theyre photos   today ages  below paper photos anywayi looking themand disorganized mess hard keep track of made  foldersone named child photos ages  another named preteen photos ages  another named early teen photos ages  and last least late teen photos ages   much easier me helped get rid lot anxiety then one friends like you zero posts instagram even take photos life like sure actually organized photos whole life ages   organized specific folders child photos preteen photos early teen photos late teen photos like dude thats actually creepy weird hell id much rather photos shit like how weird seems normal me like its weird fuck trying do make fucking portfolio entire fucking life till die honestly kind hurt this even weird creepy though believe reason ocd makes justified plus theyre photos whatever hell want them others think matter theyre photos,0
am live good morning anyone timezone lmao since woke early,0
death like friendhi anyone else feel death thing wunt let,1
im going tonighti enough girlfriend broke me happy long time im just im it im way target buy  helium im going asphyxiation myself,1
help essay im writting essay english class need explain cry not like cause sand eye something emotionaly cant find anything googlehelp,0
sigh rain why did you decide to show up move away you were not invited to the tuesday party this is not the start i hoped for,0
revenge redflagdoes thought ever cross mind ever alone isolated uncared for feel like youve reached over over over yet one hears takes seriously ever feel like everyone life given you feel like jumping roof right way anyone ever notice care much pain feel onewill care im dead people finally hear me theyll understand serious theyll understand much pain im right now theyll wish would tried harder listen every time spoke hurting myself ending life past twelve months may dead may never see it butpeople finally care peope finally notice pain itll okay ill dead wont pain wont anything thats really really okay im coward im enormou fucking coward im sitting here roof slowly dosing medication hope wit long enough take enough ativan wont coherent enough feel fear regret second thoughts ill dead near instanstly jump finally gokng over feel happy,1
she is such a narcissist and not a very loving person i m and she treat me like a child i ve grown up to be such an insecure perfectionist because of her she act like i can t do anything for myself i had a job interview for something that i really want and she tried coaching me on what to say and to memorize it so i nail the interview in the way she want me to if i get the job it ll be because of her and tell me all about how i should be grateful that she help me but if i don t get it it s because i didn t do what she told me to say and did what i wanted to do any time i have an achievement it can never be because i did something right it make me so anxious to think about her approval and her reaction because if i don t get this job i already know the lecture that s going to come with it,1
mark mulligan exactly that wa the core of my concept for virgin just a shame the money ran out before we could realise it,0
"Heading outside with the youngest kid for our nightly walk about the garden, then back inside to work on the book. ",0
"@IAmJeffEmmerson We all have loved ones who suffer from depression, anxiety. How do we help our loved ones when the medical community makes it difficult. Do you know how difficult it is to get a mental health professional through the current channels?",1
holy shittyt barber didnt cut hair short,0
"A video of my new invention, 20 TwenTea:cancer, diabetes, dementia, depression, brain, heart, liver disease, eyesight. http://youtu.be/zPqrsABlkC8 ",1
hour list utinkerbell   like boss   tad   froggo  ,0
people use end completely disregard suits them either make people feel insecure uncomfortable annoying cold either way never felt alone entire life good things happening career yet one share joy one live life with take walk with build life together one nothing even real friends more sense people talk me want around clearly fault know know do genuinely think one likes,1
hi im  years oldhi know probably thinking point oh hes teenager hormones well no thats all still remember depressed somewhere rd grade somewhere around time see point grades always shit ive barely scraped pass every year mean theres doubt entire future depends grades throughout life cant even see getting local community college around two weeks school left passing no gonna happen cant tell anyone im depressed days friends barely care enough anything im compulsive liar idiot overall failure family point even somehow managed drag middle school high school theres always going grades head constanly reminding shit future waiting me end now save extra bull future time anyone cares me even little move forget time theyre high school thanks reading first post reddit jerk something wrong alright sorry wasting time guess,1
"After BCMT will I ever stop evaluating gait patterns??  Every where I go it's LPT, APT, PPT and &quot;Oh, I'd love to work on that!&quot;  ",0
"She took depression to Times. No offence, but she stretching it  https://twitter.com/dp1stday1stshow/status/989055949016051717 …",1
could anyone help friend suicidal felon m florida start clean slate another country overlook check criminal recordforeword riwantout keeps autoremoving post odd reason automods programming aggravating repost instead title riwantout iwantout m suicidal felon florida gt anywhere clean slates expanded title actually hewantsout friend florida considered redflag subtract felony id like guide emigrating felonfriendly country instead matter poor is know emigrate care record  body id like think rdworld countries look ask record countries assume could teach english countries make decent living tutor there rebuilding life clean slate crime burglarized car weapons high left something car traced back month later  arrested house arrest  years or probation  years either both hes  now posted hes house arrestprobation hell get antique gun apparently hed allowed purchase those forest id like prepare instead leaving country hes house arrestprobation want beeegyoshi know better answers life situation redflag like countries emigrate record id hope could get new name  identity  passport hes there work reemigrating desirable country gets new identity first host country ditches old identity use clean slate first host country move second host country but first  countries exist ones overlook record or check it take anyway felt led anything save life thats im trying help here would help help please thanks know ways possibly get clean slate way shape form,1
@linzzerr Ialways thought Pauley Perrette(Abby)was hot. ,0
"this summer is pretty much just gonna be consecutive bouts of post concert depression, i can feel it already",1
im thinking admitting myselfim meds arent helping enough ive trying get psychologist therapist something cant get see anyone nice tried least six different therapistpsychologists cant help feel something wrong brain anxiety spiral hard im sure protect anymore im visual thoughts could do know need help ive trying get it hard one listen,1
whats pointmy life pretty okay guess im stressed time im never happy like anything do want study want work want anything would easier die instead dealing crap whats point ive tried talking people before act like want live act like life somehow important means anything im sure died people would sad thats true anyone weeksmonthsyears nobody would care more sure woulds still sad nobody torn anymore think theres point life im religious guess thats part it see humans living thing special  were different pile rocks see life another feature universe like stars oceans mountains rocks things universe people were things made atoms like everything else make single bit difference died whats point feeling like shit time,1
god really gave juicest bounciest boobies wet phat plump scrumptious pair lips cheeks clap walk teeney tiny waist said make work perfect didnt ask made way,0
just got home going to sleep for a couple hour no age of conan i hope i dream about eating delicious sushi,0
go norway good songs can win industrialized fiests like eurovision after all ,0
life actually insufferablenow reading retrospect almost seems like diary ampxb hate this sucks makes angry people think right try press feeling better faking enjoyment im upset ive always last  years so  now parents suck cant hold sustained friendship anyone hour since im boring fuck hate parents putting planet horrible lonely wish upon worst enemy school literally one even fucking interact with crush hates me as per usual parents act like care dont give fuck whether alive dead main thing theyd probably care killed how much money spend failure cant even talk anyone this since know talk it parents care heard talking ending life something along lines that id probably get killed life sucks everything sucks no phase kill myself probably not human natural fear death like people however pain insufferable promise you tomorrow definitely add this like sure hope not will cant hold sustained happy emotion hour so however need to order make people feel even uncomfortable around are counselling sucks since get judged every decision make on wish temporary feeling since ive seen posts people depressed way longer bet almost anything feeling aint temporary whenever talk anyone hear thoughts saying want leave conversation soon possible say face is ampxb ampxb get it know ive done deserve acute pain life sucks whenever put mask pretend im happy get detention fuck life even more,1
accept parents never accept youmy mother probably one invalidating human beings ive ever met first asked see therapist told work would make stop feeling sad first found cuts yelled me attempted got angry told selfish never understand people say stay moms anything would reason couldnt anymore shes catalyst many problems everytime even mention depression ask set appointment psychiatrist asks really need it sad youre happy youre around us doesnt even notice wear hoodies summer hide cuts isolate day cant even eat shell ask dont ever leave house get mad do ive accepted never truly care me never validate me never need be im gonna go listen mitski,1
birthday want make post least birthday,0
say nice cock never nice balls,0
Just got a hey monday shirt ,0
Is going to see my best pal graduate from nursing school today...got the airhorns ready ,0
@srkneo thaanks for following! ,0
And so the twitterl works with OAuth! The e_component is almost ready to be released ,0
"@kurarinetto Yeah man, wouldn't miss that for the world... vacation lines up perfectly with Vancouver Jazz Festival ",0
suicidal thoughts lately thinking terrible disgusting things people do makes think surely afterlife even one could bad want gone forever,1
Good Snacks @cfsmtb Better to burn em off the next day on a bicycling ride. ,0
Debating whether to delete all social media over summer COS don't think it's worth the double depression seeing everyone on hol when mines been cancelled <Emoji: Crying face><Emoji: Crying face>,1
 job depressed high anxiety way life maybe ill better luck next lifehi im  ive severely depressed life severe panic attacks occurring almost weekly ive tried medication fluoxetine sertraline wellbutrin adderall luck im constantly tired everything monotone get panic attack wouldve ended everything much sooner redflag would devastate parents wish happy,1
@Denese25 Awesome background! ,0
quite sick going to doctor now,0
looking place hang out meet new friends allaround good time so kindly invite join server well organized wellmoderated discord server able fun things meeting new people participating daily gettoknowyou questions generally fun time people world anyone ages  kindly welcomed join fun lollygag  special places share things made selfies memesmedia even participate minecraft server well safe well organizedmoderated way were looking members going active interact community quite often wed absolutely love community interested please dm comment hope hear soon ,0
melancholy haruhi suzumiya anime left quite impression me partially characters many fall anime fantasyscifi stereotypes placing stereotypes rather mundane setting high school twist appreciated theres somewhat insane titular character something else headstrong almost amoral girl ridiculous amounts talent secret aware ofbr br the setup series bit mindtrip essentially suzumiya unbeknown herself sort superpowerful being capable godlike feats creation destruction destroy rebuild reality whim narrator primary character kyon high schooler whose sympathycuriosity haruhi appears cause drag him will club starting spice life bored normal life searching adventure claims three unusual members secrets end dragged crazy schemesbr br there bit crazy enjoyable philosophic consideration early debate whether world merely haruhis creation gets bored old one whether characters exist serve serve continue exist whether could exist without her bit conundrum enjoyable one same scififantasy scenarios occasionally occur series think joy series lies normal things are remains tension knowing things boring haruhi might destroy world hopes making interestingbr br the art clean line ive come expect anime typically gets imported us like character designs whole lot action series think sits better way series narrated mind kyon play omniscient narrator comments knows feels hes lot going head actually speak whole lot good get hear itbr br the voice acting english dub acceptable enough prefer japanese acting it stranger aspects series parodies traffics fanboyism found amusing first season admit theres lack closure series really larger story arc seems take things one time easy series pick put down although think rather entertaining qualities still quite hard put down also based series light novels author directly involved writing seriesbr br even though based novels still wish series stronger story arcs love naturally get watch characters develop well series play quiet moments well crazier ones seeing haruhi grow quite treat well watching relationships develop sos brigade haruhis clubbr br its everyone due mindtwisting premise extraordinary beings mundane world setting probably sate fanboys actionscififantasy might little offkilter relationshiporiented drama lovers willing try something little different like strangely quirky series like this think melancholy haruhi suzumiya rather refreshingly unique enjoyable series please ,0
turning nocturnal fuck timezones mfs making spend less time gf shit,0
horror wench me toooooo i feel like i ve been on the verge of an anxiety attack all day,0
i ve noticed that for a few glorious minute in the morning right after waking up i m great calm unbothered soft but then i can feel stress in my body and then i m not sure how to get rid of it and it build a anxiety doe how do you all get rid of body stress in the early morning,1
cant fight anymorei overwhelming feelingdesire hurt kill myself want end want anymore,1
remember sonic fans fucked economy lmao time check sonic inflation google toure unaware,0
finally got my med so hopefully i climb out of the depression slump still a bit rough for now though so i ll take this photo a a future benchmark http t co ytl xwedd,1
Finally my day has ended and im am turnin n now...goodnite/mornin'....  ,0
saw toronto international film festival beautiful elgin theatre blown away beautiful cinematography brilliant adaptation tricky play last least bravura performance al pacino born play role perfectly balanced equally strong performance jeremy ironsbr br the film deftly explores themes love vs loyalty law vs justice passion vs reason might protest content inherently antisemitic however consider historical context story delicate nuanced way told adaptationbr br ,0
Lifetime and LMN are lifesavers on a sick day ,0
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"@darklajid Out of interest, why would you want a US one?  You live in Germany?! ",0
"good nite everyone!  best wishes on finals for the students out there &amp; for the rest of u in the real world, try 2 enjoy ur work week ;-p",0
told post herei asked effective form redflag instead answers someone directed here im sure even understand purpose sub,1
itthinking redflag again time want fail like last  times using sleeping pills im thinking ecstasy pills full hanging woods perhaps guys think itll work time perhaps method,1
whats pointi cant believe tricked thinking friends even remotely cared me like kinda funny ive never good friends anyone soon start well mental health turns shit cut everyone off like keep thinking friends hate blame lmao im shitty person idk anyone even tries anymore think good fucking life still scream parents put much stuff selfish im scared actually kill once would better stopped talking space breath contribute jack shit world literally nothing good coming sorry fucking life,1
please turn camera zoom class meetings hi im one english teachers important stay safe understand high schools opted distance learning start new school year still rough im effective before quality instruction ability develop meaningful teacherstudent relationships severely lowered ive never felt useless ineffective teacher before really weighing down want help you empower you inspire change world messed up im trusting responsibility ive spent hours unpaid overtime trying give best strange year im emotional teacher monday first day school cried hours second cry whole career despite stress struggle endured fail to majority students bothered turn cameras even look eyes kids ive made sacrifices for discouraging week please us favor show us face care dirty rooms go ahead curled blanket bed take chromebooks wherever want let us see you,0
Making popcorn ,0
question femalesonly post baggy boy shorts boxers show skinny jeans like panty lines black dark jeans help pls online shopping underwear dont know choose,0
redflag coward redflag way get fucking horrible worldthe reason im post people school understand condition did suicidal thoughts people at school told redflag bad it people etc really consider redflag way out bad,1
im missing  assignments school would take  hours nonstop complete want dieeeee,0
i fell pain on my left chest and on my left back when i looking for an answer on google i feel it s a symptom of heart disease my mother also ha this and a far a i know heart disease can be inherited i didn t dare to go to the doctor because in our family there is a saying that say it s better not to know,1
Waking-up bright and early on a Sunday. Feels good ,0
week going helli hellweek work school coming up theres nothing get it triggered depressivesuicidal episode me im trying distract lighthearted tv gaming cant wish rope could hang myself also wish razors could cut myself want die badly cant stop crying,1
dog extremely sick family know afford vet bills please help way can even cant pay share it every bit important httpswwwgofundmecomfsickdogvettreatmentshttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvisrcitya,0
bye needed tell someone actually it hope death bring happiness life unable so,1
Warning Drink Then Swallow ,0
scared upset angry romantic rant told guy liked text worlds worst texter checks maybe one week messages everyone friend knew liked him days tells  days ago said wanted friends forgot tell that waiting rejection thats worst partthe waiting days days coming terms fact doesnt like nothing ever happen wait fear hes judging me im angry friend dont know do ,0
"@TalulaKim I have the yearbook in the closet-I'll look it up 2moro if u are still curious  -Um, where did @Ki6bjv go to school exactly?LOL",0
nonstop action every conceivable and inconceivable scifihorror cliche found blatantly silly fun bigbudget epic pace never lets up especially shorter us version tightens things considerably,0
give hell upi cant keep ending swear god wanna shoot ir slit throat od dont fucking care anymore wanna die tired fucking life,1
heidimontag why do you put up with him you should listen to your mom,0
wish could end all tired living fake life around fake people tired putting soul work earn live fake lifei know vague really fed living like this tired even thinking this want end feels like reached mental limit earlier used vent frustrations feel bit better lost energy talk all looks dreamy thinking end desires anymore problems somehow magically disappear still would like live want put stop dont energy myself wish die,1
ok know friend going talk something happened today kinda embarrassing im internal battle trying stop saying ngl pretty pog help,0
hey guys normally write stuff ever basically suicidal since like idk   probably suicidal back mind  time since super suicidal like  time nobody rly knows depressed level am closer friends know anti depressants it would appear depressed average person try super positive like rlly nice things homeless people donate stuff like actually sit talk make feel human great heart idk tired lots people would say really pretty self hatred aside average sure reason killed scared pain andor surviving living worse life usual big dreams would love live life would rather dead honest work hard  jobs apartment grades high school good cannot shake feeling think felt alone long hated head fuckint hard long permanently messed brain love also hate myself either look mirror take bunch cute pics even get look mirror ill feel nauseous feel like shutting disassociate think ways kill myself even know writing guess see anyone relates think bothers people take depression seriously pretty nice  sure thanks listening idk,1
itive enough life miserable friends parents hate me everyone around living good life im constant pain every day summer ive looking job well week finally landed interview time turns need id required paperwork one need transportation told mom it tell me shes busy cant cant fucking summer shes fucking case constantly constantly telling get job heres fucking opportunity happens jesus christ guys cant anymore ive sober years great school want enough money drivers license car impossible without job  fucking rate wont make life cant really cant im good literally nothing fucking loser coward wish life even slightly better unfortunately not overdosing fentanyl later tonight looking mind change ive made decision smoking nice blunt listening help hako yamazaki beautiful song sleepwalk santo johnny could peace happiness final moment never wanted come this think happy child ive turned to one talk vent goodbye guys thanks took time read useless post,1
timecant shit anymore struggling mentally  years im fucking bald needed cherry top doesnt get better,1
redflag felt like option option headive always kept redflag option things really bad could it comforting that everytime struggled life felt empowered also reassured never wanted actually take action knew id ok end now became active plan last year distinctly remember wrote journal left since even right infront me shutting door makes outside world disappear there waiting ive done lot research methods disappointed find method choice high failure rate im planning use combination approach pharmaceuticals alcohol blood loss big  ive therapy ive got support friends family although would never burden intent theyll suffer enough im gone without foreshadowing it ive got decent life outside perspective little justify thoughts truth im struggling anyway heart hurts body feels lifeless weight feel cant sleep without medication just ive reached end whatever strength kept committed life everything hurts wanted tell someone,1
ever feel like pissing teen years away ive never party never hugged kissed girl real life people terrify me feels like im stuck trapped,0
Good morning ,0
caitlinoconnor i want taco and margarhitas telll gay i say hello lt,0
birth beatles us television movie released fall  actually been far best movie tells tale four lads liverpool revolutionized music industry world told point view former beatle pete best performance entire cast excellent but especially performance stephen mackenna john lennon rod culbertson paul mccartney film produced legend rock roll eramr dick clark year earlier  produced another tv movie stood test time starring kurt rusell lead role another musical legend elvis movie directed unknown director named john carpenter went direct successful movies as halloweenescape new york the thing said director birth beatles mr richard marquand went direct theatrical blockbusters star wars return jedieye needleand jagged edge among many film tells story fab four know ofis back beat theatrical release  however critics care itnor public long life span theater birth beatles charming simplistic film gives essence beginning legend struggles  hardships went thru ends pinnacle success arrive nyc appear ed sullivan show  highly recommend film,0
whole account joke feel like people dont get vibe kinda make obvious,0
"@mayhemstudios they should, for that particular film ",0
Love my G1...easier for me to use Twitter! ,0
ever get easieri wish easier die know would simple could point thing stopping little brother would heartbroken cant him reason im terrified comes after point hard to dont trust around sharp things near edges tall places easy hard,1
"People continuously fall to self related stress, angst, depression BECAUSE of the LACK of love for themselves. It's easy to hurt for anything ESPECIALLY when you haven't even cultivated a beautiful relationship with within yourself.",1
"going for a bath, gotta start microcontrollers  prep 4 2moro's xam  ",0
i really just need advice right now it s current am where i live and i ve yet to sleep i suffer from emetophobia the fear of throwing up if anyone need context my anxiety usually at night come forth it always wake me up but i wake up with panic attack because i feel nauseous similarly like tonight i m losing sleep because i feel nauseous despite me being so exhausted i m scared to sleep my stomach doesn t roll if i try to drink or eat something it doesn t go away i m on med too i just want some advice i m tired of losing sleep and worrying people because of physical anxiety and a phobia for more context i could eat a spoonful of something and it didn t make my stomach roll at all it sat fine there yet i feel nauseous and have slight pain right now it feel a if i m hungry but my anxiety is making me avoid that i don t know what to do i m very afraid right now,1
"@ddlovato amen. you're my idol, and i cannot WAIT to see you on july 6. eeee ",0
clever entertaining film backroom battling went choose successor johnny carson tonight show however movies ultimate thesis david lettermans superior comedic talents overlooked controversial nature show diminished enthronement inferior jay leno leading comedy program television simply untrue anyone watched leno letterman perform see themselves hard simple truth exactly one nbc exec stated film jay leno funniest man america david letterman not realize this much machinations film become irrelevant ultimately whole film amounts little sour grapes letterman fans cannot accept better comic chosen people whose business know kind things final proof despite lettermans early lead possibly hype emerged battle tonight show succession lenos show consistently proved popular thus mind least refuting lettermans claims unfairly robbed rightful inheritance,0
single fun relationship wasnt particularly awful random panic attacks right breaking him honestly feel pretty rad like talk two people now honestly great feel like focus aspects life arent social know also relationship lasted year changing passwords exs name bitch,0
so for awhile now i ve tried multiple time to hang myself and also tried to slit my wrist but all my suicide attempt have failed and im trying to find happiness in life and find a reason to live but everday i just wan na end all my suffering anyways here s why i feel suicidal so basically my mom and dad are abusive and make me feel like shit and then my brother and sister don t uderstand what im going through so they make it worse and my parent threated me if i call cps or anyone about what happens at the house i would get whooped till i turned red and got brusies and alot of bad thing somebody please help me before i take my life,1
@campbellclaret oooo they're in the play off's then. ,0
ryangtweetstv i absolutely agree it seems like he s running away from the issue here rather than facing it head on stacey made it very clear how dangerous mania can get and the depression that follows yet he choose to basically run away i think you may be right about harvey s wife,1
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guys realize youre getting older like almost extra conscious age think started turned  got older older kind felt old like im child anymore longer feel  years old,0
thing left gone continuedeven fucking better girlfriends laughs saying gonna kill myself one person still needed moment getting angry saying wanted to said gonna kill fucking laughed said bullshitting im fucking overdosing dont care anymore honestly theres point,1
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trying find psychiatrist going well allhey sw ive suicidal last months posted sw week ago thought finally going it kind people helped get through im ready start taking responsibility situation told family ive trying find psychiatrist going well all ive called something like  numbers half say this number longer service go straight answering machine wtf psychiatrists doctors right think trying find new dealer finally got someone phone told dr ____ taking heroin addicts right now dude wat person ive gotten phone told take insurance know do someone actually successfully navigated charlie fox give advice thanks,1
existing waiting death happen du much else disabilities issues really cannot take anymore extremely boring cannot anything life due illnessesi hope make   years existing boring what cope fach exist waiting death happen,1
ever stop hating getting helpmods let know proper sub ill best girlfriend  years told suicidal last night said tonight would night really know point talking  hours phone texted sister gf still lives parents gf taken hospital upset me understand hold anything her blaming stuff control berating every time ive tried talking today im trustworthy anymore according her would lying said hurt lot now trying look bright side taken care family never big fan seem see better light apologise word soup im trouble focusing right now thank reading,1
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helpim tiered know great things want im mentally damaged even know tell therapist want kill please one tell cleanest way kill always pussy really want live anymore want cleanest way want parents clean huge mess,1
holy shit didnt get caught update last posthttpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentslxdi_wanna_go_outside_so_badutm_sourceshareamputm_mediumios_appamputm_nameiossmf  im living room wondering didnt get kidnapped caught  nice doe one besides cars passing,0
want face struggles life anymore im scared call wuss give crapm progress report came mail today c history class  project parents disappointed told turned in mustve mistake that course lie turn due extended spring break thought would extend week week went by nothing mentioned let go idk conscious decision not really matter point is could contact teacher ask could turn assignment due month ago want assignment want deal it want grade decent im willing put effort im lazy scared draft due final paper  pages abstract least  sources writing class due five days thesis statement final paper due week that want it like normal flow homework assignments want work harder right now like getting assignments done free time reddit youtube switch family im lazy scared responded friend almost month since whole thing started owe response im acting like jerk replying her im scared respond getting back long im lazy scared im tired people telling need move get up screw them think im willing to really think calling laziness apathy going make feel better know awful behavior is the one knows best cant change behavior gods green earth think going make feel better know going change become adult college probably going worse adulthood responsibilities im going try ignore ill eventually curl pathetic little ball apathy thats want end prematurely research appears suffocation nitrogen or gases easiest painless way go trouble is know easily that problem post another time ones probably going read this thats fine posts never get read anyway read far want thank listening know kind response im looking for want dissuaded unless flawless argument bring apathetic seminihilism doubt one exists also want encouraged want decapitated anyone got guillotine screw stay home orders cant spread disease dead,1
need some feedback if it s just me amp im insecure or if some of these girl are getting out of hand i m a year old girl whose instagram feed look like wan na be influencers i can t deal with how many picture they re putting out there on top of how edited they are it drive me insane because it make me feel so unattractive but then i remember these girl are smoothing their skin lightening their eye whitening their teeth modifying their body etc should i delete instagram cause i honestly don t know what else to do at this point it s deteriorating me,1
rant older sister shes great really fun hang around stuff love kinda shallow whenever go always buy food something without even really thinking im like that dont really expect anything back christmas got things knew shed really love spent  fine loved expected didnt get family anything like oh get paid will like oh okay biggie like didnt money goes spends like  friends gifts like right really pissed went see guy barely met wanted fuck gave really thoughtful expensive gift put time effort asked wheres gift kept saying didnt money got paid like op look new clothes literally bought whole new wardrobe top that shes getting eyebrows nails done stuff see new guy wednesday dont even care point money wouldve really happy made something puts energy people barely know sucks doesnt even gift wanna spend time like shell like im gonna go beach snow hiking im like go shes like no sucks dont see fuck boys helping clean car comfort shes crying anything,0
life boring hope diei  life boring childhood always lonely never friends family always fighting kinda sad childhood abusive teachers amp parents day getting boring even feel depressed now want redflag either hope die soon without redflag,1
Another day of being fighting against sadness and depression.  https://twitter.com/yesmaahrukh/status/961928911738335233 …,1
empty ready end allheres one thing saved lifemany us there made feeling unique story today time start yours mine life m ive depressed unhappy felt alone even presence wife family friends live pretty normal life outside inside im appear be dont know feel like this but two years police officer pushed edge wanted way felt stuck wanted end wanted pain stop hopeless couldnt family never would hurt like that able find one thing give hopea purpose life nature todays society people focused working able live takes away life really about forget world around us stressed whatever experienced experiencing life time amazing beautiful world full tremendous places landscapes animals goes on take solace beauty nature comes it clear mind pain worries take walk trail go overnight camping trip take day photograph somewhere never been pick trash think things nature assure focus right then pain go away even moment thought nature thing gave hope could find better place may may help you urge try even cry alone woods could one thing saves life always anyone ever wants needs talk one another,1
hey need help much brother youtube channel quite works hard would great guys could watch stuff dont let know sent though thanks merry christmas httpsmyoutubecomchanneluckrcwfqnbusvceoqha,0
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need somebody talk unfortunately sucks another account believe honest letting people know really youre going throughso looking support right now shrugging shoulders hope everybodys ok there dont want die im frazzled everything life ,1
want die heroin overdoseim literally piece shit choose substances people lie manipulate love hurt one person means everything broke heart really really shitty brain mess want alive rn nothing going rn im literally bum druggie self respect apparently self respect people love me im going life direction motivation dont even energy even think ab trying get motivated find direction cant even trust fucking brain nothing safe safe doesnt exist im already traumatized forever brain always wired like this dont want live life like this im lost im tired searching,1
4 day work week  then off to Seattle and Vancouver!!,0
know diff girl likes u nice you cause honestly dont know im scared ask them since already told crush them,0
girls dont want boyfriends girls want food,0
oh boy sure love spending time alone vulnerable spot like big window near lots strategic sniping spots oh wow cool really hope get killed  cal clean shot skull would shame,0
genuine question everyone skirts guys thats trend right guys skirts dont understand came from probably sound stupid curiousity killed cat,0
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finei guess kind rand if thats right word im english suicidal depressed years age   still feel depressed getting much better im older still one main problem and problem simply ignore im struggling somehow breaking me parents know was depressed mom really believe still pressured talk people year talk many different people parents apparently gave choice get serious help go christian camp weekend someone know phycology degree  year old obviously chose latter hated talking people not remember getting choices remember anything year better met amazing people lately feel like dead would better guess thats wanted say,1
iti fucking it tried many times hang myself felt time vision getting dark sounds becoming surreal head getting heavy me getting back toes grasping air hating myself want die cant live fucking hate coward let go die already,1
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struggling teenageri young  feel lost please tell lot live know the real world like want hear now read story going quite long since small kid always different reason insecurities enjoyed alone always drawn idea death principle someone vanishing world intrigued losing people close age  previously surreal concept hit hard death grandfather death friend due brain tumor young too impacted think them legacy left behind day friend died brain tumor died shortly birthday vividly remember last interaction birthday gift picked me obviously could bought barely able talk siblings gave gift idea book honestly never read left behind way cannot get read it sometimes stare book cover drown thoughts angry while great person great soul last person derserved die think reason could religious would never understand god would kill kindhearted child destroy family grew up despised death never feared however fast forward years to exact  fell love really bad perfect caring loving beautiful best friend ever had dated onoff year broke multiple times me know fault broke heart times count insecurities bruised ego stupid things loved anyways put she never have started hate damage caused like drug soon high us suffering perfect description relationship broke well never get back together wanted turn new leaf denied sad every single day neglected emotions honestly stupid however beyond broken needed help want discuss respect privacy ugly say least long time ago short conversation joking around smile filled joy soon alone realised doing denying pain bursted tears worst time life followed lost lot good friends breakup everybody judged rightfully much me since then crying time reason hurts much destroyed someones life barely consequenses little love left myself additionally anyone trust enough go to friends afraid telling others pain nobody knows much struggling now hate waking everyday hope die proboably thinking calm it relationship anything feel unworthy live young handle emotions hard continue usual life care anything happens whether school personal life anything becomes worse could end spot ex school seems happy now last time smiled without faking ago often fantasize people would react death anything thing holding back pain would cause family sick pain crying alone want die ampxb,1
mental health deteriorates day theres little stopping ending it poggers anyway need therapist honest gtim gonna kill anytime soon worry still lot things want dolt,0
unsurehi  really sure im aiming posting here struggled depressed adultadolescent life get people saying say like think good things could happen future etc time every moment feels like constant emotional pain anxiety head constant strong inhibits ability function correctly alot time people also say think friends families reactions etc idk thought overrides terrible feel time sorry breaks rules thanks reading wondering anyone maybe new ideas basic things could maybe push right direction convince away suicidal thoughts,1
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thought gotten major trouble school lol managed make vtuber avatar get obs virtual camera plugin working joined google meet for school today avatar shits gigs made sure background everything screen sfw too accidentally joined personal account which would security breach tell another account avatar got immediately banned call kicked banned freaking out though gotten major trouble avatar realize wrong account lol rejoined cool scary lol,0
"Sadness and Depression are serious cases, you don't know what the person is fighting inside.",1
would posting straighti cant accept am know ever will im denial parents would look differently want way watch gay shows movies gay know mean ive never woman maybe end im not im asexual im  ill  soon know one gay minute turns shed rather party spend time me blame though want either purpose im scared past eds pop up ive done anything stupid yet know actually miss itthem almost want self harm cant even that live south mom devout christian believe god honest believe im going hell think might be might be would like this feeling like this thinking like this straight bit actually thinks so ever feel overstayed welcome earth do like borrowed time went somehow still here kill myself hopefully never sucks thoughts,1
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last post lie still need male names teacher said name racist yeah stupid ik casper change it though people dont think im racist please good names serious names although kinda wanna name dolphin,0
"Aggitated beyond belief, but still keeping my cool. ",0
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deep self hatred mixed depression loneliness regret mix everything might call it suicide going writing see feel after scared actually though probably seeing again longer desire life,1
help someone contemplating redflagtrying come good things show someone suicidal want show life ending life isnt option good ideas im planning using need outward support want give much hope faith know comfort much please anyone knows anything words attempt use please let know use advice,1
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im giving upi posted earlier seperate account changed one want family members seeing it im running places turn maybe ill find right advice ive suffering depression along side mental health issues since around  sudden theyve got worse worst part believe im horrible selfish person feeling way because people around keep reminding me life isnt bad im quite young ive seeing partner almost  years great right entirely fight almost every day left flat since got together makes feel he also suffers mental health tries help try help feel trapped flat i dont call home feel like it access accounts including banks relies marijuana i hate stuff driving mad feel like relationship never progress yet cant leave fucking adore man wanted since  became mother  beautiful happy healthy little girl ray personal sunshine and honesty reason done in yet cant seem provide anything see future can parents pretty much taken parent role hate that im mum try hardest due low ive recently ive even parents suggest let dad take custody her my partner dad cried heart mum balls ask whats wrong brings parents relationship seems disintegrated point return im pretty sure reason tolerate daughter feel like hate want nothing me ive even tell die ditch come funeral little sister best only friend try talk much possible hit teenage phase friends boyfriend important though im happy good social life tearing apart friend seem care think thats also partly parents argue lot apparently solely me gets backlash clue tell people assume bad put sister much growing im grasping straws trying fix it buying gifts art games figurines movies anything could possibly want im trying buy best friendsister back im alone fucking world older sister nothing tearing apart despite different lifestyles weve led not going details made questionable downright terrible choices life position want in parents would give anything love unconditionally shes half sister dads side talent family fiance friends apparently have arent theyre partners friends basically sit around drugs not marijuana dont want around certainly want near daughter berate tell terrible every oppurtunity much slut am ugly am fat despite knowing history bulimia anorexia tendencies stop eating im feeling self conscious stupid am large forehead i got ran  result permanent swelling anything else think hurt me kicked college due needing help site support person forgot term person go major issues one  guys sexually assulted attended college reported said theyd get help call police got kicked missing much class never got help called police im lost scared alone reason im still holding little sister daughter though even constant struggle wrote redflag note  nights ago one found it started cutting completely clean long time theres wound arm partner knows lectures belittles them ive sat thought ways ive attempted before last serious attempt daughter  months old almost took away fearing id danger her ive never ever hurt personal sunshine try fail theyd take good family would abandon as theyve already told loose her id nothing go for times ive tried drown partner snatch pills hand nothing dire ever really happened dont know im expecting come this see local mental practitioner hes put meds working reached sexual abuse team replied im even trying contact organisations help self harm suicidal thoughts one replies im stuck ive tried everything nothing one things world truly support sister daughter  cats they meow see self harm im breakdown come calm down theyre best feel way yet also feel hollow numb im suffering insomnia sleep sleep hours think bodys way almost dead staying peace long possible im scared need advicea friend anything really cant take life much longer sorry long rambling post,1
think fucked worki dealing depression life gotten worse past months since college graduation bad tendency selfsabotage succumbing pressure others disappoint took crappy parttime job loathed parents would stfu working choose unemployed would go work barely acknowledgement boss work mentioned job description enough today got offered another job today went office let key id walked back entrance one see me nobody called anything figured notice even bother email boss quit send work finished point even care paid hours worked since means going person hand worksheet logged hours cannot bring it finally got fulltime job got scared told start week emailed boss start th november new boss know wants talk phone coming monday wtf say feel like fucking loser maybe say start wednesday idk feel like fucked majorly end it,1
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im going kms tonightand im afraid send redflag note im terribly sorry ive hurt hurt again hope find happiness deserve love much im sorry keep fucking cant better youve always deserved could give ive never understood cared,1
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best thing myselfis end suffering all waiting perfect time,1
@LordShaper True enough.  Though I don't push my luck that far at work.  ,0
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amazing people act attentionseekingly social media people die one reasons wont kill myselfthe subject speaks really cant get many fucking worthless maggots would try make redflag big deal them even afec fact none even cared slightest bit wellbeing f people,1
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trying to extend reading the watchman by not reading it at all i dont want it to end,0
turned  wish hadnti cant forgive did become biggest regret life made question even am regret pain caused eats every day cant bear much longer want people care remember worthless piece shit am drifting life,1
cant anymore ill probably kill tonightim  male college im nearing end rd semester learned one thing hate college like never hated anything before majoring comp sci actually hate sure tell looking schedule currently taking bunch stupid religion classes hate awful go liberal arts college want broaden horizions suppose means taking classes absolutely nothing major college dad works means get free tuition blessing really feel trapped quit pissed away free education id get shitty job leads nowhere live home like  minutes away cheaper want share room roommate one shitty dorms campus could afford also means really friends alone hurts really want friends high school found even like going hanging people find stressful expensive ive never girlfriend either bother me fault ive never one never tried always terrified rejection really know say speak girl people say really nothing interesting me anyway ive always assumed college would break miracle made would get job really like eventually decided done alone miserable time life seems like lot hard work cant even enjoy things used like mostly stare tv free time easy enjoy it yeah im done sucks ill die virgin would case anyway prolong inevitable,1
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that tiktok ab trying combat depression daily wow it is so right,1
apparently nobody relates wish never came out stupid redacted name that im impulsive could stayed happy secret know everything me apparently people dont think valid complain thats lgbtq community you say theyre inclusive arent full communist idiots bi girls hating men cant even slightly right leaning make us look like idiots im snowflake dont care youre homophobic keep dont stop rights literally dont care disagree gay marriage maybe youre parents something idk lgbtq community made think offended everything dont theres genocide going on theres gay people getting killed muslim countries care celebrity doesnt like gays know lgbtq community fine sometimes idiots get nerves maybe privileged coming doesnt mean cant upset came out,0
@GentlemanJervis Small question. Are you already getting medical help for depression (Because i did the same today) ?,1
nine half weeksits nine half weeks since started think dying death killing myself im going it nine half weeks ago best friend killed herself feel empty worthless want die want put loved ones im going through want feel emptiness nine half weeks life never worse nine half weeks grief escalated grief sort depression theres big part world thats gone everyone keeps moving forward,1
keep thinking horrible situations likely happen end hurting feelings seriously sucks im sensitive,0
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need help virgints theres girl class like im sure do almost always laughs jokes feel like might like back also boyfriend could sees friend want ruin friendship decided tell herask hang feel like could awkward told class know instagram feel like would kinda weird randomly sent message too give advice handle situation,0
point survivingthats im doing surviving existing merely going necessary processes live biological level every person must find way given journey cant make walk cant change neurochemistry cant find reason live me cant find myself sought respite selfless service found unsatisfactory sought respite expressing artistically creative endeavors soon went gray keep seeking even small steps one simple reason snuff light better exhausted ideals better walked many paths dissatisfaction deciding purpose ideal galvanize live life living surviving,1
dont post often im mobile apologies formatting errors etc ill try make easy read background ive struggling alcohol abuse im currently  months sober yay first month without alcohol withdrawals intense became angry redflag charts couldnt focus anything hand time taking mg paroxetine gp doubled mg  months body tried cope without alcohol,1
crucifire damit that wa my idea for today s comic just wrote it down will give credit then,0
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found amazing video internet please watch like it httpsyoutubegqnhfwprshttpsyoutubegqnhfwprs,0
went to the dentist today totally a a last resort totally broke now too god damn the dental industry need competition policy,0
think know way cant bfgf think reason bc ill either crave attention text  times day ill ghost two days,0
getting worsei posted little ago shit getting really bad fast tried reaching friend real life advice get drunk theyre ignoring me began giving cold burns deodorant mind think tying plastic bag head filling deodorant im sure side effect zoloft thought id post case go make it,1
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wanna grow come want im confused wanna im older thats im posting appreciate reply,0
bullshtim tired cant believe anyone said care everything looks half assed insincere make feel worse cant take anymore said thousand times hope wake ever again please die me,1
read helped lot artist people hate helps me hope helps many moreended crossroad try figure way go like stuck treadmill running place got hazard lights hoping somebody would slow praying miracle wholl show grace couple dollars quarter tank gas long journey ahead seen truck pull god sent angel help gave direction showed read map long journey ahead said aint oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living relationship ski slope avalanche comin slow enough time salvage love feels like blizzard april cause heart cold skating thin ice strong enough hold us seen scream holler put us blast tearing thought god sent us angel help us gave us direction showed us make last long journey ahead said aint ever oh even midst doubt life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes mean give life worth living life worth living get reflection different perception world may see try crucify aint perfect deny reputations line im working better life worth living life worth living live another day meaning forgiveness people make mistakes god judge life worth living another day life worth living,1
one oddest strikingly eerie creepy horror films come s tourist trap even loose freewheeling conventiondefying anything goes standards time rates real weirdie yet pictures strangeness  masterfully mounted uncanny atmosphere pervasively offkilter supernatural dread getgo registers powerfully spooky becomes increasingly opaque frightening film progresses offering ample shocks amid scattered moments surreally lovely dreamlike elegance ending bitterly ironic crushingly nihilistic note haunting final image thats hard shake  makes unique singularly unnerving experiencebr br five teenagers traveling desolate california desert car get hopelessly lost stumble across slausens lost oasis seedy rundown roadside dive thats one part gas station three parts crummy wax museum parts ratty foreboding joints lonely seemingly friendless harmless owner slausen juicily overplayed infectiously hammy brio chuck conners turns deranged psychic killer lethal telekinetic powers slausen brings freaky assortment uncomfortably humanlike mannequins life picks kids one one add evergrowing collection victimsbr br director david puppermaster the arrival schmoeller adeptly wrings every last ounce tension squeeze pleasingly ambiguous openended script cowrote j larry carroll said scripts stubborn refusal provide rational excuse bizarre stuff transpires throughout movie often wrongly criticized one films principal weaknesses actually movies key strength giving picture scary anythingandeverythingcanhappen commonlogicbedamned quality true nightmare come horrifically life never would achieved kind credible explanation offered whats happening pino donaggios beautifully chilling understated score nicholas von sternbergs shadowy cinematography robert a burns grubby cramped production design add immensely films profoundly unsettling mood excellent performances another significant plus pretty perky jocelyn jones elliejo turner the great texas dynamite chase particularly fine personable resilient sympathetic endangered teens even tanya roberts fares well luckless lass knife levitated head offbeat unusual tourist trap well worth visiting,0
alonei feel alone like one wants around know may people bigger things going lives always feel second fiddle everything do never feel like dont know ever feel like never ever hold true relationships anyone ever like me even like spend days skipping classing smoking nic taking random pills save laying half passed bathroom floor motivation since weve started online school plummeted people see lives realize little none like passing day realize mean nothing one get close ending day moves forward,1
@CarlyAnnMiller every person you know minus meeeee! I couldn't go either so you and I can see it together ,0
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bought gunits two weeks since purchasing firearm lot long nights wondering whether ill ever muster strength fire gun one time ill need fire man life really funny isnt it,1
y male so for the last couple of year i ve been sad depressed at first not too bad like just gloomy but progressively stronger but maybe for the last maybe year to year and a half it s gotten pretty dark everything seems meaningless for a little back ground i m in a very healthy relationship my relationship with my parent wa pretty good for the most part up until recently but everything s o k just regular petty thing i grew up an only child spent allot of time alone parent worked day allot love them for it so i ve gotten pretty good at hiding most of anything that s going on all smile and small talk but recently i get this deep deep sadness it almost feel like i m in a vast dark room by myself screaming but it s silent and then i think of a bliss darkness like if only i could keep my eye shut it ll all go away when i feel like this i hide in a dark room usually cry i don t really know why i didn t proof read this i ve never told any one these thing and i feel like if i read it back i m gon na back out and erase it so sorry if it s all messed up,1
masithoko dlomo mizzzidc you and that depression should be buried inside a casket since you ll want to pin everything on depression now no accountability,1
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doloim fucked person ive tried attempt redflag multiple times hopeless sometimes felt like soul losing bad shakes core sometimes feel like ive lost realize like phoenix im going rise despite path people want go down hate anger bubbles leaves bad emotional state sometimes wonder even deserve feel good time drugs helpful thats temporary way feel happy im alright temporary happiness right now kind ironic im depressed time yet im antidepressants take awhile kick in ik one reason im really pissed right havent able actually find happiness anything itll come,1
LIKE I HAVE SO MUCH FUCKING LOVE TO GIVE THAT AS SOON AS SOMEONE STARTS TALKING TO ME I GET SO OBSESSED BUT THEY DON'T FEEL THE SAME WAY AND THEN I END UP FOREVER ALONE WITH FUCKING MISS DEPRESSION RUINNING MY LIFE  pic.twitter.com/CfhTKxqqqa,1
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someone please help efficient painless way end life one people meant live normal happy life bring joy peoples lives simply waste resources space id family favor advice would appreciated help leaving,1
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think might omitted psych wardim going talk new psychologist end february dont want tell truth think put psych ward want die that think february nd deadline,1
it s one thing to feel bad mentally but when i m constantly feeling physically ill a well it make trying to get myself to do positive thing so much harder i can never just feel okay not mentally or physically always in some sort of pain and always feeling like shit then when you ask for help you just get out on a month waiting list,1
so want kill stop existinglike rn clenching teeth noticed it ive lot lately without realising it chest aches theres piercing pain heaviness around heart feel like im lost abyss emptiness exhaustion pain im falling apart body mind want give up cant escape know fault im slipping away sanity happiness happiness feels far away now im tearing apart inside alone hell around people tiring makes anxious feel lonely empty theres way comforting myself ive pushed everyone away im good anyone just want stop existing asking much no im coward hypocrite fraud truth deserve die im useless waste space,1
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im old  day older yesterday comes much wisdom,0
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world would actually better without itim drain society know im here go motions sort of barely im able provide im enjoying it cant find reasons live,1
@Exoticqtee u a learn! ,0
ive bad thoughtsneed advice dohello all  year old female graduating month ive diagnosed bipolar psychotic features well know anyone relate this ive feeling strange lately im depressed  feel like inner force drives want kill myself think killing myself ways things need get done die ive  different plans already got materials needed one them weird thing times get temporary relief depression times really desire death much think it mind thought it feel strong drive im depressed im depressed manic get mixed states get completely obsessed killing myself really know do im seeing psychiatrist therapist last time disclosed information like got sent hospital think hospital would benefit me im sorry rambling thanks reading advice would much appreciated,1
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7/11 sushi. Could be a mistake. I have made bigger ones than that. ,0
@tommcfly i'm enjoying the toy story quote in your bio there mr fletcher ,0
im hitting hard restart life long ive aspiring content creator ive always tried making online presence known recently ive given actions far though ive realised ive faking happy ive done sure believe life far pretty good ive made many mistakes want undo know cant done push button im gonna making new google account new instagram new reddit new youtube new me im sick never fun enjoying myself im sick listen others go making dreams come true want something done im gonna myself one way another includes making sure education get way dreams hinder ability progress education stuff love note im gonna quit school anything im gonna subjects actually enjoy,0
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going serious existential crisis please help meim  nihilist best describes me  motivation im compelled anything life completely pointless tried killing past someone please tell redflag irrational good decision,1
week  weeks month year  know last never dose sadness hole come back always dose feel good never stay live fear comes back ifs always back mind hardly enjoy lasts know desire die back sooner later years ago though free first time happened came back realized never probably never be maybe stop fighting it let happened comes back enjoy slim success let take comes back idk many times this maybe best end high note idk know keep going happened till longer take it noting anyone stop it life know normalcy last,1
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im like people age actually use lotion side computer desk meant for arms legit get soo dry winter feels like damn scab lotion solves swear,0
goal life kill myselfthats it im longing friendsa partnera career anymore im able make meaningful connections anyone as cliche sounds nobody understands feel im tired surface level bullshit dont start talking depressed soon meet someone new im planning work ass find better job like yeah fill emotional void material things satisfactory feeling doesnt last long anyway survive current salary thats matters me ive enough trauma abuse im curious life offer anymore price ill pay even suffering dont wanna deal depression chronic illness puts pain almost every single day anymore sense purpose dreams besides dying thats way,1
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crummyasshole i don t like that they only had him in the first movie cillian murphy is hot,0
hey guys know probably right place ask feeling way idk feel numb atm struggle sleep struggle enjoy anything memory horrendous relationship gf bad place goes beyond us literally nothing work go gym sleep one thing able enjoy absolute slightest gym struggling even go able watch full film without getting bored mind lifes become boring feel like robot lost friends due adult   work full time expected go drinking pm wednesday work full time bills pay lonely shit parents live abroad spain living best life ever stuck miserable  idk anymore feel like destined much life hate atm yeah idk else say depressed,1
@JoyAndLife Thank you so much for #ff and have a beautiful Sunday ,0
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 years since relationship hook ups between im tired feeling aloneive wanted cry cuddle someone care about thats want fantasize sex,1
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life death really bad year me allergy broke nowhere leaving k bill er surgery tim got got sent icu crashed car stupid way got really bad haircut hair growth slowing about recede renewal visa marriage falling apart anxiety depression insomnia stress  cant believe im still here ive suicidal thoughts around  years ago  learned could deported away family things actually go wrong started saving back then sometimes friends family would think im cheap frugal im actually saving coffin burial parents worry costs clean room lot do might think ill run things time go every time renewal visa date comes up would stop seeing friends get denied commit redflag would make easier watch go away used scared want  right im going hell  made excuses left right move forward nowadays feel scared anymore actually worries whats best way it gun hang jump something would end quick remedy friends nowadays everybodys busy work dayoffs matching everybody close friends mia busy relationships school whatnot group changed met new people connect  feel place first time life  feel alone im living  like last year go every weekends ask friends lot usually hangout invite anymore thats ok im trying new things soon ill sign organ donor somehow could still use people want live ive saved enough money burial support siblings college ive distanced self friends quite bit im almost done bucket list  thing done clean room im almost  ive always wanted tell someone im scared theyll probably think im asking attention overreacting talk anyone nobody knows give single hint anyone feel way look happy whenever see friends family thats time feel something  rest blank page life probably shittiest game ive ever played might game ill never get finish visa gets denied year guess thats  im exhausted,1
failed every job ever redflag cannot even talk people  always panic attacks work ugly get girl used look forward watch madrid player weekend nkw shit look forward nothing ever goes way,1
dying doesnt seem bad nowat point could kill self one would notice ive gotten place im scared alone might do dissociate days end im slipping back eating disorder therapist closed corona im thinking ending would much easier putting much effort alive im waiting tomorrow night im tired im tired,1
alive parents brother cat dog im patheticwho else hanging dont cause people pain want alive anymore kill myself would destroy mom cant imagine inflicting kind pain onto her dad thinks im huge fuck up would sad think brother would sad dog cat wouldnt understand would miss me makes sad thinking like that boyfriend would probably relieved im gone wouldnt listen problems anymore everyone else simply wouldnt notice all,1
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people say metal music makes kids depressed wrong actually cheers since usually something relate to,0
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@ThePUSSITANT1 only if they are sad human beings. I ADMIRE in others what I lack myself and try to emulate them or get them on team ,0
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@glovely  Thx for  the advice! We are just waiting for the Petosin to kick in ,0
im sorry guysive posted lot past everyone really helpful appreciate everyones help hate seeing suffering too hope find way happy day maybe well see side someday bye everyone,1
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w every person there i didn t get a pic my phone died but he signed my shirt so amazing word can not describe should ve skipped mel lol,0
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someone help t_tso dont know begin honest guess ill start talking im depressed so reason im depressed im scared becoming something horrible like pedophile murderer rapist ect intentions that hate kids hate rape murder guess im paranoid one day one those im really paranoid person ever commite redflag sure day thats promise forever keep  miss growing life im longer excited anything really  used die excitement xmas holiday im like  oh cool another day fucking miss like  years old playing little toys watching pokemon everyday  deep web knowlaged deep web alot find child porn forums animal abuse sites scared me remember visting cp forum curiousity people discussing months ago fucking gross wish painful depressing tortuous unbearable death fucking pedos seeing cunts talking posting site disturbed me everyday want go back site read fucks saying dont want fucked was tears inside knowing want know idiots discussing forum plans ddos site till corruption decide remove site dont care consequences long fun ruining pedos life also dont worry im skilled vpn ddosing without getting caught scares wondering whats worst site deep web would be  thats say im going end life buti guess im fucking pussy cant dont it dont want set friends family called redflag hotline  times fucking stupid worthless also applied  depressions redflag therapy refused take me one gave email saying something like  sorry refuse take you control please call  help nad said something like  sorry suicidal us take you call  life fucking difficult fucking hate cant die alone im sleeping without it hate seeing happy people makes depressed dont know think im lost,1
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"Extreme sadness, lack of energy, hopelessness, irritability, trouble concentrating, feelings of guilt = symptoms of major depression.",1
childhood best friend left amp im redflag watch basically grew together ever since moved here terrible childhood step father would always drink call bitch amp threaten me mom never showed cared tell loves me etc importantly ex best friend still alive today would come try cheer would crying wanting attempt time passed things started become weird started getting relationships slowly everything became distant still tried hang wouldnt engage conversations anymore even try like uninterested me think made believe wasnt important me text argument whole situation believes meant different paths said goodbye never made sense chose go different path rather tell feel broke me dont know life anymore friends drink everyday cut desperately hit myself really think wasnt good enough her please help,1
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pumping halsey and kehlani on the drive home cause post tour depression is hitting hard,1
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im ashamed amwhen  became truly depressed first time went public school finished grade  part time job realized life hard would need learn get fall nothing could prepare state mind ended in way people towards structure western society appeal me experiences peers school adults like parents teachers made miserable dint want grow things expected didnt want it took bike one night rode part town theres lots homeless drug users founds one buy oz rum liquor store rode back across town favorite place near river drank bottle tryed open wrist enough bleed ended passing drink pain lots crying beforehand next day hot day mid summer sun high  soo dehydrated could barely move sun cooking open hours didnt river close im pretty sure would died dehydration minor amount blood loss later tried get back bike go home made back road lost conciseness moment feel ditch side road filled black berrys someone driving road saw fall managed pull out family devastated learn done rushed hospital soon got home police already talking parents spent rest day hospital vomiting river water talking blood samples  years ago now last night lost drivers licence third probably final time  pretty much destroys future career plans little self esteem had life feels like nightmare everything wanted avoid killing  happend worse imagined even things going good theres piece missing cant happy shut world  friends  girl idea happy theres something clearly wrong here im good looking well mannerd young man family loves supports way live im clearly ungratefull peice shit  dont deserve family ive caused soo much pain years thought hurting thing thats stoping another attempt dont think im going make anymore  cant man want cant even take care anymore,1
@Rosa128 OMG so true...women have what men have and then some ,0
looking external reviews ebert etc film pretty much negative however reading many them noticed made point critics upset film centers around appears senseless murder autistic child certainly disturbing image critics like ebert want traditional detective story uncovers killing happened squarely places blame guilty want blame cast resolved well statusquo theme kind movie parodying like society critics wanted quick resolution could move next tragic opera perhaps simple question answered here whole lot happened surface film seek rationalize happens rather understand why also steams much inane reviews look way performances spacey cheadle great and generally are great performances work two current icons hollywood gosling gives incredible performance really somebody extreme talent could deliver somehow gosling able make killer autistic child sympathetic irritates many sure however one watches film see leelands motivation is wrong evil malone also top game yet another confused young character basically killing child film main theme movie main theme life people go dealing it highs lows attempt sometimes help others deal lives which seem work well lot good bad world handle direct impact much good bad take place sometimes confused attempt good lead whole bunch bad think one memorable films sometime ending touching anything recent movie history strongly believe people view film open mind,0
really know do nearly first time lied also things like unemployed  months looking job parents pay foe everything lives me get life hard sometimes get down feel like trust broken again know do,0
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think im going kill sooni think killing time im always much pussy actual follow through first problem never find anything relatively painless with methods guaranteed kill me embarrassing would attempted redflag live deal pity people know second problem father already lost mother long time ago know im like last link her want father honestly im getting point think might selfish end all sake know hurt people know honestly im sure care anymore ive lived like long want control fate hate ungodly degree sometimes imagine ripping skin crawl out im trash useless death mean nothing life meant nothing really nothing confess plan do exact plan yet idea im either gonna swallow bleach bug poison high drugs dont know drugs yet hope kills me thanks reading guess please follow footsteps im idiot last resort,1
im done want die know howi depressed past  years life im still high school im kind popular  go christian school yet im atheist get terrible grades family hates it im little fat terribly ugly big problem stress cant handle it every summer forced work dad construction hate passion dad verbally abusive tried commit redflag  months ago took  bayer aspirin work damage told family next morning it sad got week went couple counseling sessions work put fake face parents hated paying it honestly dont know do dont know could fast painless gutless,1
love myself please tell melet tell everything absolutely despise theres anything makes think hey guy might even slightly redeemable then idk let know guess lol dont really read answer question guess  born narcisstic mentallyphysicallysexually abusive hellscape  spent  years life circuslevel fat whole time obese avoid looking attractive rapists guess im guy btw  never friends talked anyone would go entire days without speaking did id startled hear voice like dog farting awake  im gods original joke ive never laughing stock whether appearance attitude people around scoff find grotesquely amused  attitude feels like rage loneliness despair sit chest like calm ocean probably like pressured container slowly adding until well needs die naturally anyway im horrible im insanely short people im sensitive mbv extremely paranoid  attitude again beneath first level rage water theres striking sense fear anxiety core used make even saying here roll call school unbearable literal bright red face  seconds attention me  weakness probably thing im disgusted with front like im normal person wards assholes now knew easily could destroy me im utterly pathetic  desperate need friendsrelationships feel like ive locked inside glass case observed reached people tried friend years shut  time ill talk now barely stand people exhausting ive done without people  years hell manageable cant go single day without fantasizing sweet death  spent  years losing  pounds it strangers noticed congratulated went along far family even good family members seem care much though didnt reach goal  lbs never felt better high lasted well gone now good undo ideal way die  procrastination ive never guidance life sometimes people dont get heroes role models stumble around dark find match ive never tried find one never seemed point im  nothing everything seems worth working longgone terms actionable time foot mountain im watching people age finish scaling top start climbing now ill die fall maybe lived long enough retire could  lol enough time realize killed decades ago  social status drifters friends me abusive evil piece shit dad friends me cant matter try actually took  figure much loser really was took  learn fatally unalterably flawed taken realize sacrificed good years nothing fear really im like cockroach survived nuclear blast mutating hateful skittering fearful little insect theres more god theres more therapist seems think best course let slide suicislide bakeract finally force take medication want someone tell im supposed be people supposed permanently pills im pretty sure darwin said point survival fittest right idea cant survive without troubling idea dependent something life theres nothing physically wrong troubling cant live own i love myself feel like deserve it,1
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is she still up is she is then u shud be online dunno how to find out,0
world doesnt deserve someone like iti thought long hard them mom always nags tells fair pinpoint depression childhood experiences tried hardest well too bitch look now know problem well gave birth good world didnt even know handle properly dad tried tough love approach always wanted push guess send vibes work wasnt good enough ive honorary school awards got high schools infamous engineering program im list honors student teachers see good boy dad could say eh go that oh yeah also said depression anxiety ones head get find cure real illnesses like cancer fuck him isnt obvious im better couldve ever age im completely different level hell talk me younger brother didnt always get along him ive started like company recent years feels like acquaintance couldnt understand much better am kinda sad even though brothers im clearly nothing like average boy like him other relatives dont care them dont see often however grandma surely someone talk to guess somewhat comprehend superior am school person  give good rank books clearly sees respectful light though hes nearly close comes education still say thats hes exceptionally smart hed understand whyd want leave filthy earth probably wont sad died even really dont care school person  cant seems realize compared him compared school person  hes dumbass hes still called friend group probably wouldnt care died hand hes loaded lot cash spends us without expecting us pay back debt thats respectable school person  shes bitchy tries challenge me blatantly obvious im always better wit shes fairly athletic probably fucking dyke lots school people arent worth speaking about  thought most teachers easy walk over talk whoever want put respectable act whenever theyre around dote me house pets dog cat wont miss fucking animals dont even know people think pets feel consider redflag therapist parents got therapist went mental clinic got diagnosed npd possibly aspd go fuck herself theres point go trash therapist a person somehow know dont even remember first met her complicates things lot treats like im best person whole world am know already something favorite person makes question superiority everyone realize great am dont makes feel something im sure like it generally dont feel things usually feel rushes excitement something interesting happens get bored pretty quickly shes complete dumbass cant read normal books without getting bored easily reads nothing manga graphic novels shes ok baker breaks stereotype asians decent math b list student dont know even bother know stuff her barely friends follows around everywhere shes obviously love me shes also probably depression used get bullied lot people would tease front everyone else pretty amusing see get laughed at however kept happening dumbass teachers wouldnt anything it even shed cry feelings getting hurt point got tired hearing cry told group boys usually pick piss off backed pretty easily ever since ignore her quiet girls crushes me im asexual interest relationships plain looking annoying bitches however girl makes feel differently dont like it told doesnt care sexual romantic relationships happy me still dont feel shouldnt care find amusement hugging making blush art student guess shes ok painting complemented artwork started crying made happy inspiration art work actually likes it deals suicidal thoughts found talking once itll difficult want live commit redflag shell follow actions actually take life shell one ill write redflag letter to one else deserves last words her think reason seem care actually treats way treated think im starting hate fucks brain makes harder want commit redflag want know do im throwaway account dont embarrass someone know finds realizes someone great like forum like this,1
attempted january got job last week relationship everyone ruined today bf one year left againwell again im loser shitty excuse human being fooled thinking could get better functional adult truth im not piece crap everyone hates me strong anxiety sometimes feeling overwhelming cant breath heart racing everything turns dark attempt tried make everything better failed cant help feel everyone must better without me finally got job company right next one mobbed last time working ex boyfriend understand anxiety going close people work cos starve kids family hates stated clearly could taken away kid hospital didnt child support live mother hopeless narcissist every day torture everyday hope courage jump infront train nobody would miss me stated fucked nobody needs me well illusion everything lie im loser really regret poison work completely last time guess later cut arms tomorrow stand infront station build courage jump kill sorry self im shit sorry read that everyone struggles much here know what freaking amazing send hug every one you im giving up somehow thought death makes feel relaxed like finally sure piece shit deserve die rot deserve anything thank reading sorry again,1
reasonim serious dire straights one person read today would enough ive come reddit many times seeking help various problems years let keep quick im worst state depression ive ever in theres huge lead past three years ripple effect huge onset panic disorder agoraphobia coming dangerously close developing eating disorder depression bad moment im physical pain im pretty much frowning time whether want not result chronic headaches time cant sleep binged eat im supossed go back uni next week six hours away folks parents desperately trying convince go back think depression get worse ill kill myself worst depressions even probably ever be mom knows suicidal thoughts only recently help ive medication since may much im depressed suicidal usual say suicidal loosely feel like fucking imposter guess feel like id everyone huge fucking favour die think necessarily want die feel like inevitable part future fucking hate im convinced feeling like result eventually killing myself desire grow old ive never anyone im  cant keep job keep school im fucking depressed days really wanna something takes everything shit ton pills write redflag note yet again wanna die want pain end cliche sounds pains getting bad think im beyond point fixing this either redflag live rest life barely hanging suffering sometimes wonder suicidal depressed about im  reasonably good health wonderful family live safe country never really want anything go good school im fucking ungrateful could many amazing things life motivation deserve achieve things even deserve get better ive tried fucking hard many years beat this ive really really tried get hard work ending exactly place started sometimes worse im fucking alone mom knows anything even know everything friends acquaintances uni many people like honestly think really good people living campus keep telling really care me care died even fucking care depressed fucking deserve this humour anymore dropped killed even want consider dropping choice have amazing friend group even tried hard go along every event every event smile funny go majorly way help get around everything wanted city theyre exchange students ended ditching me tell amount times id crying eyes out talking jumping window full blown panic attack moments headed them nothing excluded plans never replied messages calls but regularly talked group chat ate without we live hall things without constantly quite rude times happy call overly cautious paranoid acted anxiety no didnt know anxiety depression thats fucking shitty thing say anyways trying hard brave expect anything life honestly dont seems matter fucking hard try im piece shit one really likes enjoys around dead friends people life actually care would much better off feel like alien something wrong im different connect anyone im indifferent death im becoming cold fucking hate it ill never good close friends partner future thats possible me big part wants get better going years reasons anyways get better grow old cant even shit remember loved ones bust ass get degree thats gonna get salary thats snatched taxes constantly pussyfoot around others im terrified offending them spend every second life living like this keep going family worst days brain convinces want die ease burden care someone mental illness not true family amazing fucking believe anyways two questions said consider dropping uni this second time do really go back live six hours away folks tiny room friends people rely on im depressed suicidal good idea let folks convince staying home six months finally anyone give reason keep going one fucking reason would enough keep fighting good fight guys,1
I forgot how relaxing watching the ducks can be. Classic when grandma tries to get away from the geese ,0
kristencampisi is this it u it officially over me this go round,0
idk how to elaborate on it i just started suddenly cry for no real reason and couldn t stop for like 0 minute doe anyone else have this problem i m just wondering,1
@ethansuplee are you in Oregon?  I got married in Oregon. ,0
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cant see point anymoreill ending life next week still  days say goodbye everyone good deeds even know ill go hell do im tired cant seem find purpose life college stressing friends anymore since former friends left spread rumors me cant go university anymore everyone secretly judges me even professors family seems make feel im burden think im also hindrance girlfriends goals dreams maybe ill this life would much easier people carry without me im tired life cant even express feel without anyone worrying even judge me im dying got  days live,1
big pussy end allive thinking offing time  ive gotten relationship lasted  years already found someone moved although spend time together occasionally nothing course ive realized mistakes regret dearly every single day also financial struggle moment well almost next social life horrible academic career  things used different life  used able anything want good circle friends nights lay awake thinking ways kill unfortunately pussy even thought  know balls wouldnt writing right now long story short thing keeping killing cowardice,1
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so today i had a public presentation in school which is my worst nightmare i got really sweaty shaky and at the end i felt like i wa having a seizure everyone eventually notice and the teacher finally stop the presentation and i had to sit down to not pas out on the spot i have almost fainted during presentation before however not at this level this wa hour ago and i ve felt so freaking exhausted since it happening and i m so embarrassed i am taking medication for anxiety and depression,1
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Had fun at the baby shower....I have procrastinated long enough. Time to write my paper. Maybe! ,0
thoroughly enjoyed gabrielle burtons story mysterious gift effects recipients past present talented burton family five filmmaking sisters author mother dancing dad offer charming plot respectfully edited clarity  memorably chosen songs beautifully filmed piece made laugh cry characters vulnerablility invited predicamant farcelike attitude work touching undertones innocent wonder fanatastic,0
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think go like anymorei even know begin person talk walked morning fight last night first time ive caused fight lead leaving first time come back even responded me know whats wrong me never think putting others first myself realize im selfish careless plain bitch late blows face thought good were going stressful time im never good stress let little things get lash people response thats friends left im introverted make new ones im weak emotional never advance career end fucking relationship even married two years yet think redflag occasionally everyone would better without constantly screwing up honestly think things keeping going sleep last time cat i imagine getting put back shelter something family freaked answer anyones calls day im tired screwing time feeling way think make divorce man love much ive built life with know would happier without problems cause cant bare lose him guess theres selfishness again ive tried medications tried focusing better person theres hope me guess sorry rambling one else talk to especially this want give everything im tired trying failing,1
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anyone else instead of sleeping more when depressed stay up all night to avoid the next day from coming sooner may be the social anxiety in me but life is so much more peaceful when everyone else is asleep and not expecting thing of you,1
Spaniards can notice my Galician accent when I speak English. They find it funny ,0
cant anymoreim honestly sick trying reasons im still my boyfriend i realized easy kill yourself im scared dont know anymore cant put problems people right really want die cant it hurts much one understand see it wish wanted alive dont every single day wake wanting go back sleep want sleep forever dont want anymore dont know do im sorry im like this,1
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keep praying deathi keep praying death every night wake curse every morning always think would rather die live long remember last days ive feeling much severely tried kill  nights ago overdosing pills passed could take enough woke screaming failing finished nightly workout used make feel better normally feel normal think much want ive told family tried commit redflag one said anything act like say it im seriously considering something illegal go jail get away really cant stand anymore im sure one times fail one night ill get idea work hope tonight,1
college happenedhi  year old male started college awful fardepression started soon began thinking future happen fail college feeling wont go away keeping functioning well i cant sleepeator study thison top social anxietyi met decent people college nothing helping get better want drop staying make feel worsei wish constant feeling depression would go away always therewalls closing around im afraid cant break themand top im gay homophobic country lovely,1
confessioni feel like point life purpose world school people always make fun ask help everyday feel like ending it want pain end,1
anyone need friends dont irl or someone talk toeven pandemic irl friends aways thought boring alot people think way get know yall need friend oe anything,1
my clock ha stopped some time few year ago and never worked again i am literally living like a zombie without purpose without passion and definitely without hope i lost navigation in my life and grew indifferent to whatever happens around me i don t know why am i living till now or why should i be living in the future i started losing my ability to communicate with people my social insecurity are growing bigger and bigger sometimes i need someone to listen but i always fail to put my thought into word and end up being misunderstood my friend are awesome and understanding but it just feel terrible not being able to explain how empty shell i have become no one would believe it when you show compassion and humor all the day long right i have been suicidal for year but never had the courage to exit this life my silent life always tell me to keep it silent and never create drama out of it i am living in the shadow of this existence and i want to die in the shadow too i tried many thing to get myself out of the zombie mode i tried pushing myself into social activity i tried to exercise i traveled i met new people i tried to do what i used to enjoy i tried to experience new thing i tried to read i failed to do all because i couldn t keep my concentration enough and my thought always drifted away eventually all these attempt of escape drained my mind i am a master s degree student who should be working on thesis now but i always push the workload and procrastinate till the last moment before the deadline to be honest i don t know why i am even studying it is nothing more than another failed journey to find myself i feel that time space water food air and everything that my biological body consumes are wasted for keeping me alive while other people with actual dream and goal out there living in the most extreme hardship i am just jealous suicidewatch community what is worth living for will i ever be able to get through this,1
ill start relating first encounter princes music bar th birthday girl dancing bare breasted  playing speakers asked people singer told prince good distracted beautiful topless dancer later started hearing prince songs really digging them purple rain came still knew little fellow minnesotan movie blew away instantly became princes no  fan war baby generation later found one cousins secretary got me nephew vip prince concert sat next motherhow cool that getting back topic hand agree siskel  ebert called purple rain instant classic seen  times absolutely love it thought princes acting fine apollonia struggled bit acting fine john gielgud available play the kid prince took role film visually stunning brilliantly paced it never gets slow terrifically directed rank among best movie musicals time last time watched  year gap still delivered proud fellow minnesotan prince rogers nelson would love tell personally walked right front mentioned concert said hi nephew me chatting mom bit crushed hes still no  me,0
in the garage getting an estimate for the wheel damage on my car from sunday s little mishap not looking good,0
absalomjuma kukufa na depression,1
im going tonightcan someone tell many dolipranes  kill me dolipranes  home,1
@msluce  that would be good thanks  me fully just blupping around doing nothing sighhh,0
"Oh, okay... So I totally forgot to Tweet this, but... Night At The Museum 2 was AMAZING, just like the first one. I loved it ",0
suicidal leaving psych ward nowhey everyone im  year old girl recently december rd attempted redflag ended mental hospital month left january th past days ive bad thoughts feeling suicidal again im trying fight want alarm parents friends knowing feel like im going again please help me im loss know myself,1
working my life away,0
ladies ive got offer cant refuse actually refuse necessarily lady even female matter even male could nb point is please dm im lonely,0
would go asking girl without mother knowing swear god give bro young slap internet wanna know future use,0
transphobic want date trans person preference dont hate trans people dont wanna date,0
hehe time weekly sunday mental breakdown horrific time stress management skills much homework im ready highschool holy fuck someone please tell gets better,0
dragonlord sees chan returning role dragon the young master much carried first film though tiger older brother nowhere seen neither marshall daughter son played superbly yuen biao original film dragon master though  presumably students moved things dragons laziness training portrayed heavily film maybe hes still studying br br originally titled young master love film sees dragon for first sixty minutes least pursuing villager girl various idiotic slapstick ways rival affection friend inappropriately named cowboy played comically longtime chan stuntteam member mars see various scenes silly schemes backfire one scenes thankfully find dragon headbr br this film notorious failed expectations box office said im sure expectations pretty high feel film never fair judgment based merits even try this still feel problem film seems quite unfocused sometimes rushed think action sporadic brilliant chans work periodbr br the thing really saves film ending sequence the young master fantastic final reel full incredibly exhausting action  really feel every blow again chan goes rival the young master is character timing energy brilliant chans style using every last bit environment help defeat opponent  relying pure physical ability  apparent anywhere else barn fight full clever little prop gags improvisations absolute highlight film one chans incredible careerbr br its necessary see prequel seeing dragonlord fact might even raise questions hopes answer must said original film superior film dragonlord focus girlchasing teamsports seem baffling luckily fight scenes offers plus fantastic shuttlecock scene push line mustsee film genre,0
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http://twitpic.com/6u0zw - My beautiful Molly-cat ,0
pogba is one of the most irresponsible player of this era man tried to pin his depression issh on mourinho who insulted the class of 9 co him he sanctioned a big contract for him and helped him win trophy,1
change mind hottest thing someone chow theyre attracted,0
endgamehopefully movie great say is im going see tomorrow,1
3 hours of chillin wit her  the bestester lol idk but im im even more blown away lol lmao jk,0
see it smart movie hard understand first time see once everything seen heard screen intentionally crafted evoke feeling sensation tone clarity certain visuals crispness certain sounds deliberately contrasted blurred images pops crackles hisses barely audible sounds structure nonlinear cyclical motifs recur time runs clockwise counterclockwise expectations regarding plot character broken signaling nontraditional use film tell story contemporary old humanity part review usa movie emotionally intense intellectually intriguing profoundly disturbing surprising unconventional ways dion dennis phd,0
anyone wanna chat somethin feeling kinda bored yeah,0
@anitafiander Thanks... Happy Mother's Day to you too ,0
really hate adobe one computer phased last two updates installed really hate adobe,0
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i believe it s a psychosomatic symptom in my arm but what s it called when you overthink about a limb and hyperfocus on it it feel weird like nothing actually wrong but it s a constant focus because you re thinking about it it s like if you overthink about a word it start to sound weird i hope that make sense i m not really sure how to refocus my attention off of my left hand feeling uncoordinated when it s not but it feel like it is like i m hyper aware my left hand exists and i know that sound so silly but any insight on how to stop this or redirect my thinking i don t feel like being in this rut any longer,1
realize bad problem nowi stared pile pills like fifteen minutes okay legitimately think im going soon could probably use advice,1
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help plz say figure crush likes someone else wanna heartbroken it sometimes mentions one friends texting like spent whole lesson talking break heart please even joking want people confirm dont chance girl,0
"@adragonswinging That's absolutely not true, and you really shouldn't talk like that about yourself :/Depression is making you feel like that, but that isn't how you really are!",1
flowersophy i slept so much when i wa a little girl i just started to not sleep a well when i turned 0,0
honestly want one reasoni cant think single valid reason live me every single aspect life harrowing disgusting putrid want it need find way,1
online class obs fully configured green screen photoshopillustrator audition do my teacher chill long im racist ect care,0
@MysteryGuitarM Happy Birthday! May your day be spent so well that you will never recall the events of said day and night ,0
movie go one funniest movies history cousins mighty wind spinal tap waiting guffman terrific right best show takes cake br br a movie idiosyncrasies dog owners show dogs competitively intricacies characters make good watching movie  times come conclusion weak character actor film little interaction groups characters seems add beauty film br br if watch movie find funny billing as watch again first time saw thought serviceable overly hilarious film grows you defininatly movie find quoting frequently br br characters hamilton meg swan a get dvd check characters born amazing two could hit head find really go script sort made went br br gerry cookie guggleman cookie especially funny fantastic job selling cookie character gerry eugene levy delivers standard stellar performance hilarious discombobulated type weaker half br br stefan vanderhoof scott donalan a find funnier character scott donalan dare you forever typecast character natural seem forced point stefan micheal mckean good well interplay and brief appearance gugglemans goes show always films great actor razor like wit br br harlan pepper b want seem like funny sure solo act cant quite funny others above use dog others idiosyncrasies going himbr br the rest great well weak character see film least twice buy it regret it,0
feeling like fraudim mental health nurse job basically stop people want kill selves make sure get right support ive  previous episodes depression required medication recent years ive always able deal dips mood got bad ive downward spiral  months nothing working feel numb nothing outside work barely take care myself im sleeping lie awake end thinkingfantasising killing how im stage think would feel like inevitably end there try get help honest feel probably get referred team job positive would rather die lose professional reputation want help everyone else know answers feel trapped isnt way get help without making everything worse,1
typed middle word kebord like didnt even want lol dont know say lol dont worry didnt know lol dont worry little much realized dont lot lol lol didnt know didnt want much said didnt want want saying dont job said dont good time said going dont want money dont worry mom dad want money dont worry want lol dont want lol dont worry want lol didnt even want like like man want money good man want dont worry much better didnt even want lol dont worry want money dont worry dont worry nice dont worry going money want didnt know didnt know didnt know didnt want go didnt know want didnt know like man like going hell going dinner mom going realized dont money didnt even know didnt know didnt even want much money going give mom birthday present didnt know didnt even know mom,0
lies burn like sugar wounds sweet bruises time ill forget done time wound scar,0
want someone kill quickly whether intentional not maybe shoot back head someone run truck someone decides push front high speed trainmental health issues make extremely difficult enjoy life especially paranoid intrusive thoughts tried therapy helps temporarily comes back shortly becomes even worse drink take drugs eat healthily exercise yet nothing helps reason still around want hurt friends family hope someone kills,1
f turned sex disappointing dateencounter know want sex like person wanted company made mistake going back place tea things drew line intercourse get message or care  kept trying get give in did tired feeling pretty unworthyunlovable want alone missed feeling wanted felt generally if now later beat long worked shame allmy sex drive pretty high time kind added depression think good took time out now genuinely headspace want worry selfish desireshow bad mental health would look someone strictly sex whole  am match thing always done basically ever exhausted mei know worth yaddayadaya horny sad going detrimental overall undo healing healthy way me sexless year,1
cannot jump bridge maybe hanging callingi cannot get ex mind want become stalker want get trouble again want pain suffer others,1
hate feeling idk anymorei feel empty numb genuinely cant deal anymore dont anyone talk ive tried nothing actually helped nothing look forward to feel like everyday waiting actually kill myself stop every time dont know why,1
play game phone get girl game pin hoodie grind lot damn worth it,0
want lose weight believe im depressed fucked parents overfeeding kid,0
@laughingteres Eeek! I must get that full story! ,0
@bethofalltrades http://twitpic.com/69bs9 - happy birthday! ,0
yeah man feels aint good right worrying college school life jeez enough make heart drop try think slip every while isnt pretty does though,0
"Está a começar o 'Poltergeist' (Tobe Hooper, 1982) no canal Hollywood! Acho que vou ficar a ver ",0
@Sherksgirl ;O  Im excited ,0
lived five attempts far debating sixthim total waste space saps life everyone around me hallucinate experience delusions horrific anxiety focus issues almost never leave house live pathetic existence ssidisability drain family theyd never tell that certainly exhausting deal with friends cant help me ever want say oh positive great guy im  ive one relationship odds schizophrenic male getting married onset something like  last looked oh theres someone everyone keep chin up real world know thats true nobody wants  year old schizophrenic crazy baggage cant work useful skills world unimaginably cruel im getting sick again like thought alive right would much prefer cold grip oblivion maybe im failure redflag too maybe thats cant get one stick id rather die get tossed onto street mother dies brother job funds keep afloat id bankrupt him disability pay shit reason im grateful medicaid life medication literal torture id rather return again im running reasons live again,1
im starting think im allowed feel okevery single time things going even alright get ruined like god universe something wants fuck me well whatever won long time ago give up wish killed many times even guts attempt it,1
came best friend im sooo happpyyyyy omg omg omg sooo scared actually really supportive supports fact dont want anyone else know parents wont find would goodbut ahhhhh im sooooo happyyyyy could well best day life ,0
hello lost virginity im never going tell put it sorry,0
wish meant somethingwe die eventually everyone love die eventually evidence ever existed fade eventually universe end eventually think are act were special somehow could possibly believe are babble itll change things hope ever amount anything delusional bits carbon chemical reactions everything forces particles wish point wish accept stop whining goddamn pathetically wish something anything mattered all wish meant something,1
cant watch film history lesson first heard barker saga could tell almost immediately facts way off little internet research realized course right barker sure hell sexy calculating woman movie portrays as apparently orchestrate bank robbing schemes kiddnappings murders criminal boys carried outbr br but expect brilliant crime drama script acting adequate gunfights excessive mostly unrealistic laughable slow motion death scene give  br br because damn entertaining gunfights fun watch deeper themes emerge them movie strong sense ego intimidation among cast alpha males agenda appreciate minimal use swears period set pieces great reproducing convincing s erabr br so watch film like would cult film take excessive bloodiness ruthlessness stride cheesy ultra serious comments fbi man wants take barkers cost inotherwords take seriously fun it like this love serial mom,0
masithoko dlomo mizzzidc i don t think depression will make you post such on twitter but i think there is more to her lash out than just the sneaker ugurl uyagower,1
i talk to myself for like minute sometimes this so intense that i my hand gesture too there is always a intervention from my brain asking what am i doing this happens when i am stressed with some hypothetical issue which probably will never occur for example what if i park my vehicle in a spot how will my neighbor react if i some what unknowingly encroach on his parking spot if this scenario play out then what would be my reaction this issue i just make some hypothetical scenario about my interaction with my neighbor and how would i react to this so called dispute there will be several different scenario playing my mind with realte to this example please help me if this related to adhd and if yes how severe is this if not adhd then what is this,1
everyone lgbt like sure acceptable didnt expect increase lmao presume youngs lil confused,0
fucking died definitely interesting experience try out,0
im held gunpoint sign adoption papers do help,0
finally decided datetomorrow big day im tired feeling way even long literally one cares me good guess cause really hurting anyone ex want hates me hed rather live single life give another chance someone claimed love much feel like whole  years lie feel worthless alone ive never felt way whole life im happy tomorrow soon goodbye,1
boy nothing funny boy,0
im kinda sad ive binging walking dead first time watching it finished last episode season  shi getting juicy find gotta wait till end april earliest end summer latest come netflix release season  already,0
well shit am cant go sleep anyone want talk anything standard stuff dm ask dm want filler filler filler bot doesnt take,0
@RealWorldMom ,0
that stage of emergence from the Depression Crust where u don't have the energy to cook yet but u ARE ready to consume a certain number of protein units instead of all corn chips all the time so u eat like 6 joyless hardboiled eggs per day. amirite ladies,1
"Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests  http://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 … pic.twitter.com/z8NMgBVeBU",1
want stop ghostedi get im pathetic annoying piece shit please least tell im sad get left read see cant message person anymore fucking defeats me puts sad depressed suicidal mood want end happens even worse see person talking group chat even bother message back understand sound like selfish person please im begging longer want talk tell me makes things much easier instead leave read make want die even usually do,1
i m not joking been having a pounding headache after a meltdown why actually i m personally not surprised since i have like a laundry list of trigger it s just like damn really i can t even cry in peace depression is a bitch weirder part is if you are cutting onion or even cry because something good happens it doesn t trigger a migraine or a tension headache it s just negative cry that doe it,1
hospitalshas anyone voluntarily checked hospital suicidal thoughtsplans im anxious going worst ive wondering happens go helped you thanks advance,1
 ruined felt like reflecting past year heres list nobody asked ways  bitten ass overall less enjoyable school life still gotten better my first amp girlfriend left feels awkward talk covid causes get laid work march still zero sign getting back even though im small town  cases within km longest time nobody area fucking hiring dad walked job due anger boss new job cant afford house need move town people and still are goddamn persistent covid hoax cases area skyrocket tried start twitch stream computer barely run task manager let alone obs computer mouse like fucking broken lmao get rekt seemingly everything looked forward either got cancelled ruined complete letdown was recovering diagnosed major depression keyword was the reputations favourite youtubers get fucked grooming accusations cancel culture makes want knock someone head daily got glasses first thing told look like impersonator dwight office grades start get harder manage my social life starts struggle always less energy see anyone the girl kept trying manipulate relationship attempted manipulate often cut completely graduation half year still plans feel ready fend enthusiasm enthusiasm dissapeared beginning year truck insurance company unfairly bounced bank account  times month costing  overdraft fees truck insurance also went up despite record clean promises would go down fuck my trust gets majorly betrayed friends heartbreaking way possible ace  heteroromantic  fetishism  confusing mess feelings the aggressivecrybaby nature internet cough cough twitter caused close political conversation anyone everyone starting question point alterego turns false personality schools teacher gave free computer without hard drive friend tell  years old useless one already sparked interest initial d talk much toyota sprinter ae trueno eurobeat trying hardest work approx  parts new pc may likely happen my closest two friends years started dating later decided cut things know doing causing look counseling was going featured voice actor nd main character friends indie game later find happening due previous reason why people suck talk general now and top last time drove truck december rock put fucking chip windshield anyway guys doin ,0
on monday i woke up and had a temp of 9 degree celsius 0 fahrenheit so went to the hospital after waiting there for hour i got diagnosed with a rare genetic heart problem called brugada syndrome and gastroenteritis been a fucking shit week lol i m just venting just because i ve got a problem with my heart doesn t mean you do and i m not trying to create any doubt in your mind just need to get it off my chest lol,1
film would particularly fun anyone film industry especially indie capacity whose inheritance includes film introduction may appreciate quite much hard please documentary category doc different though pleasure comes earthy realism indie filmmaker punks hoot around watch whether ever wondered like films front behind camera whether worked way sometimes painful hard rewarding indie world certainly get kick film,0
got first real gf ive never really dated kinda stumbled relationship gf nice amazing need talk somewhere lives side school little older like  months ive spent bunch time house parents siblings cool let chill last week ive started dinner become pretty regular thing thanks listening rant also sorry mobile bad format,0
i have no friend i have no talent and im not smart either im not loved i am just their utility i feel like this life is not worth living there is nothing ahead of me i have no interest no passion nothing,1
duncn revision again oh and morning itscammy,0
could stop nnn posts like pretty damn annoying joke extremely used point,0
dont know im doingi  year old almost completed bachelors degree fine art art dont know im doing every thought every action brings conclusion kill myself basement ceilings whic could hang im  dont know do drinking feel way every day every second dont know want dont know anything ongoing problem masturbation drive creating anything girlfriend tells one idea doing parents ask make something dont know passions are passionate anything dont drive anymore dont know im lookin for accrued incredible amount debt thesis show may smoked weeed fucjed around think im fucked dont want anymore wrong want die dont want anymore dont want anymore,1
young seemingly promising college graduate played blair underwood sent jail murder innocent young girl put death row sean connery plays happy go lucky attorney young mans grandmother tracks retirement pleads take case hopes freeing grandson laurence fishburne plays police officer well involved case hell bent debunking theory connery might dig try free boy entire police department swear guilty crime ed harris kate capshaw ruby dee late lynne thigpen costar intense dramatic thriller,0
@stevey88 You are very dedicated ,0
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love surpassing lucas sport edition lucas sis played football younger best lot goals sometimes one two three three times often best could it me three goals one match thats nothing man lucas why not me i scored twenty goals one half one half forty goals one match lucas sis me i scored header volley bare feet lucas lucas chill me i even scored heel scored every time scored often messy,0
feeling everydayim  years old seems like peers went school graduated going college cant afford it girlfriend lasted  years recently broke me ive always struggled thought redflag last christmas day went hospital took  gabapentin started overdosing got stomach pumped anyone father never there mother passed away  im  trying make ends meet own struggle get good job pay enough actually survive girlfriend left im insecure kept thinking talking guys even though way thinking guess never know anyways sum up feels like theres way out life hard life short anyone anything barely feed myself really wanna anymore everyday front mind thought redflag think everyday soon wake throughout day ive always thoughts im bad theres way out wanna anymore name anthony appreciate read this thank think time up im worthless,1
want post facebook even sure whyi want make post facebook want slit wrists bathtub good would come that know this like mom call everyone freak out haha would totally disrupt life maybe worst send hospital sure graduate year think ill much better graduate get job sucks bad money car independent right now want graduate yet get depressed cant single thing schoolwork might graduate anyway,1
i hate the new facebook look either so messy and everything is all over the place i want the old one back,0
mitten squad betrayed called metric something like pretend units useless people est time zone canada mexico parts south central america united states,0
nicorightsclub adridaplagueboi lowkebee bitducc mediumguyenergy dreamwastaken yea self diagnosis is important cuz how are u gon na go and get diagnosed in the first place lol it also depends on the condition it easy to tell if u have depression or anxiety but something like idk bpd is super difficult to diagnose cuz it share symptom with other stuff,1
join discord server chats homework venting hobbies memes gaming politics if that music etc dm interested,0
right now want die hate meits bad night alone drunk want fucking kill myself reason here mess  hurt friends family hurt eerybody cant sleep anymore barely think want fucking die knife hand icut never deep enough leaves ugly scars need die,1
im just a little bit bored down here in warrnambool only so many animal docos you can handle,0
@sarahlikeswords and im glad your back on twitter ,0
"@NotAPretender I've not even watched an episode, just clips of the #humanfails ",0
Omg I haven't tweeted in forever! How is everyone ,0
@nickolaimathews what time is what due tomorrow? mgmt is due at 2pm and sociology before 4.30... but i submitted mgmt yesterday.. ,0
"@Skiingfreak77 and by the way it's short stack, not sway sway  sway sway baby is a song of theirs",0
Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression?  http://dlvr.it/QQjQSx  pic.twitter.com/4HJlzVzMGW,1
cube creepin me out dude may have to cancel my trip to sydney now lol,0
But that's it his personality was all bad and homie thought he was a player...you can't play a BAWSE like myself. ,0
hate white rant playing among us met girl called belle pink random match went task date among us rounds argument white annoying lobby pink asked snapchat said yes right put username white fucking kicked game host feel sad now belle reading blue aka kakashi,0
"Lonely millennials twice as likely to experience #depression or #anxiety, finds study  https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/millennials-lonely-depression-anxiety-mental-health-odds-doubling-unemployed-study-a8319686.html … #mentalheath #therapy #mindfulness #daisyretreat",1
hurt confusioni know do theres group people downstairs left right came in still hear talking cant stand it friends want live house anymore year ago did year ago lived somewhere else want live anymore thought id happy here like people live with friends talk them well can long supposed take make someone like you can wrong cant supposed do never know say head feels like cloud chest feels like cave im interesting im funny i go outside comfort zone talk people every day anything comfortable start comfortable everybody get automatic work hard form every word like anyone else get easier gotten harder know need help getting help while felt good youre supposed medicated life else supposed feel good make progress then ever happen need help need someone help me know works know am know anyone else really hurts hate self pity goes circles cant find way out,1
get feeling waywhat do,1
i don t want to fight cause i know that won t work and i also know it s odd because they touch my poofy big curly hair probably because i m a guy and also when i sneeze they laugh and stuff and just say stuff like oh covid kid with the lion mane is spreading covid when in reality it s just my severe allergy,1
why oh why wa the red sox game rained out i wa so looking forward to opening day,0
katestar oh yes extremely fun when whoever you talk to actually doesn t want to talk to you i m so lonely,0
anyone want chat f netherlands idk say apart listen lot music,0
i feel like my whole life wa a joke i have problem with concentration due to depression and my mom start rumor that i am dumb cause i watch porn,1
told bossive suicidal ideations couple weeks now come go days better days becomes dangerous drive work today told boss scared nothing would happen told mental health important would make sure tasks covered take time try help myself idea time have im pretty scared im going take time put strain coworkers feel better possible wont ever better live like this,1
But I know depression and drug addiction don't blend - @JColeNC,1
often think friends ate drugs cool shit sometimes stay past bedtime feel like cool one,0
peace week thoughts back vengeancehello got email drafting company indeed asking apply company ecstatic thats went college for said would train me awesome salary benefits assessment week quick back fourth turned radio silence probably called lowes worked for learned walked out deserve it fucked up cant help think could though go bed hungry nights could afford properly fix car hell even buy new one would able save money retirement could stay late see friends nights could watch football again going happen thats thoughts began turned worse yesterday kavanaugh crap like admitting this voted trump back angry vitriolic nazi hated minorities women piece shit felt nice accepted once ive always outcast comes group people saying welcome fell it luckily since then ive met amazing people slowly poor world views turned around however hand helped put one final nails coffin glorious nation love country really do dead now trump going win reelection well conservative court next couple decades going go military try get shitty situation whats point now fight for die for society fragmented probably irreparable people cant see bigger picture dumbing america succeeded think go back sad ive gotten everything wanted cast vote day that deserve live,1
@marcelekkel Not mine. ednacz's  My MB is fine. /me pats MB,0
everyone hostile americans like understand disliking government that dont cunt american people didnt shit oh well ancestors owned slaves um family came escape world fucking war one like jesus christ one civil anymore,0
&quot;It only takes one person to retweet it&quot; http://bit.ly/PDwH7 ,0
has a clutch again ,0
miss toddler honestly cant really remember like baby toddler,0
where is my phone amp good food aaaaaaaaah,0
oh fuck cant stop falling love let sleep shoulder gave jacket cold called pretty im crushing hard rn,0
okay time decide this best group rteenagers group mean age coolio all think already know wont say biased,0
let's plays are depression culture,1
suppose i should start revision and stop putting this morning session off tweet soon,0
im gender equality hit im gonna pound like like cremated matter gender,0
money saving hope get want be cannot wait longer saving year struggling heavily alcoholism depression redflag isolation last seven years turn caused fail drop college two years ago six years never able gethold job long past year starting feel somewhat better passed opportunity make  stock market january guess what missing golden opportunity caused chase getting money again caused lose k  nearly  months paychecks opportunities best life ever since got high school messed up  year old virgin friendless college dropout loser lives parents social skills trade skills talents useless nothing special me make mom depressed already due failures want think anymore drowning shame regret know myself cannot undo it thing jump cliff smoke cigarettes lungs collapse hope life nightmare know one really help want nothing okay loving positive force world mind fucked up lost half life savings stock market taken profits could got greedy lost money instead truly crushed me nothing else,1
quarantine birthday th turned  im uk means could legally drink alcohol fucked up bought jack daniels whiskey drank night good birthday got super drunk dont remember it advice people turning  quarantine lives uk make mistake ill next day,0
school transim trans mtf  currently present femaleyet everyone comments boyish look masculine am voice sucks face sucks body fucking useless piling much,1
@PaulaAbdul good morning! have an awesome time in NY!  and make sure u relax after all ur work! i luv u! ,0
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today wake moms phone call crying vacation tells something attacked dove saved left blood feathers chest feels like someone sitting it feel sad empty also full pain sure sounds stupid hurts bad feel dead inside hurts much bird killed,1
strange series dean learner really understand guests knew serious whether really unclear becausei guess im stupid know classes spoiler guests real like ali g anything theyre played one man believe love serious look hes got going on like programme sunday morning forget name lol also really like suit moustache thing got going on quite hot hes insensitive one funniest qualities also like way subsections programme makes seem authentic,0
nowadays it s a if my body is just tired of being anxious all the time like it doesn t really care anymore like it s just an annoying pest i get intrusive thought which fuel my anxiety and my neurosis it seems that after dealing with it all for so long the constant worrying the obsessing the hyper fixation the pacing back amp forth the chest pain and the dizziness the shallow breathing i m just tired of it so tired of fighting my mind and body is basically starting to tell itself man what are you even toiling over what s the point why worry about what s not there what you can t control it s one thing when others say that kind of stuff to you but when you realize it yourself it hit different somehow i m starting to actually feel some relief for the first time in a long time this is an interesting development in how i feel towards my mental health i guess it s some kind of progress though not the ideal way to overcome the anxiety it s better than nothing i m sure i m not out of the wood yet but hey i ll take it i want my life back i don t know if anyone else ha made this realization too i m just kind of venting keep your head up everyone stay safe out there,1
alienated scaredi emotional person invested time energy feelings friends ones abandoned recently dont live anymore im scared myself im also losing trust myself im becoming interested slitting wrists even though thought stupid before im sorry seems stupid want help anyone,1
tracing callsfor us users anybody know long would take redflag line trace call get police residence quick process end lengthy,1
weird kids cool post made weird kid gang filler filer filler filer filler filer,0
stephenkruiser i m so sorry to hear about your dog,0
"God of Wars writing is so good, it's giving me depression.Poor Boy. He's a badass.  pic.twitter.com/sfuQeTzsBH",1
excellent anime movie well animated good intricate plot good music understand may think little long think good length animation good traditional animebr br three charactersbr br the way use tenkai masterly example body double showing locations adds ominous tone movie design tenkai good too way looks monk end scene armour wearingbr br the old man andou earth likable character jiro meets turning point moviebr br sanpei satsuma shinobi infiltrated tenkais clan saves jiros life twice stays background movie though really one heroes moviebr br the plot plot good traditional without unoriginal historical time acted interesting meiji restoration treasure sought tenkai restore shogunate jiro finds uses help antishogunate forces overthrow shogunatebr br the way tenkai tricks jiro interesting sort hamlet feel it also sweet irony fact tenkai gotten jiro become shinobi think able kill endmaybe firearm hand hand combat weaponsbr br the plot death makes mostly dark theres light moments see jiros childhood memories good dark intricate plotbr br the music opening theme example good electric guitar drums occasionally piece use believe taiko drums im surebr br there lot good music like one played traveling iga shinobi believe piece called numatou incredible flute it flute might pan flute probably shakuhachibr br the end theme kamui komoriuta calm delicate vocals beautiful song generalbr br the animationbr br the animation good perfect blood runs characters sometimes appear orange transitions interesting think transitions nice one example nice transition jiro iga shinobi running sunset background music playing transition simple effective nice feeling itbr br my final words think plot animation music characters make one best anime movies ever seen,0
studio day. ALL DAY ,0
ive made plan head kill mother ever dieshonestly much going right now ive got friends though recently talking pity anything father died couple years born mom sibling family left part growing kid watching mom cry dead husband really takes toll even though im worthless scumbag asshole thought mom crying dead son killed thought thats little much me siblings never really close doubt would affect much distant relatives course distant probably care either basically point moms reason im alive right now know multiple guns could get hands without much trouble figure whats point really ive spent life trying least treat others better treat would really bad one selfish action feel like honestly things would even end neither selfish selfless dont know im bothering even think im fucking god awful person like seriously im worst think id world favor also im posting mainly confession cant think anyone irl would listen let alone give shit im expecting anyone might good read idk oh btw im pretty sure rules anyone tell anyone know exactly aiming kill instantly cause ive seen mouth thing temple sorta head area like aiming brain general like maybe brainstem idk tips would appreciated,1
im asking kinda need hair advice  here post selfie asking advice go irl peeps,0
getting ready to go to the movies with Mike ,0
gtg.  gonna take a bath then watch a movie XD,0
amazon s plugin not worked in my website it need php but my hosting provider ha only php very sad,0
mizzzidc depression for shoe ma am sit down,1
msjodiodie it such a sad situation though in of u will be beaten in u every second amp killed a day it s sadly commonplace,0
well that wa a waste of time,0
boom headshotive thinking redflag long time depression started  years ago followed severe anxiety social paranoia early stages depression reached close friend told thoughts going head everything felt bland nothing made happy anymore told phase everybody goes would get better time waited anxiety started friends started notice behavior began ask acting crazy started ignoring calls making excuses alone answer questions social paranoia came last least hit like truck everywhere went felt like people watching judging everything did like whispering behind back even friends get me weight  behemoths much handle confined house  years dwell selfloathing disgust  years im still waiting get better seems get worse im running patience know redflag selfish act hurt people left want deal anymore ill remembered coward face problems care less end ive decided rather messy ending myself ive read painful high fatality rate concern family see need identify body want scar image,1
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woke thought saturday yeah woke thinking saturday even though today friday convinced thinking saturday checking phone realized friday  minutes late school dont remember anything last night yeah confused feels like took drugs something didnt,0
around  years ago really sad suicidal never told anyone thought life me girl entered life became whole world became happier ever felt joyous kid everything together knew life meaning her controlling prioritized number one got jealous bitter moments could seem anything without one another made boundaries broke boundary felt dearly about broke felt whole world fall apart filled guilt loneliness bitter sweet nostalgia cannot seem get over cannot think reason alive ever wanted gone feel worse met cannot stand feeling heart desperate sadness longing someone never either again hate sound vulnerable idk,1
alone depressed anxious nothing brings reliefim prime life means beyond neglected hitting puberty teen rejected high school bullied college finding job  something losing job losing family institutionalized going rehab system beyond new job changed routines sought help im right things im highfunctioning say show temporary problem demographics irrelevant something outgrow problem inherent within me regardless whats happening me matter im with existed isolation entire life anxiety depression ensure this ive seen councilors ive seen psychologists ive hospitalizedinstitutionalized occasions ive monitored group therapy ive ect im taking prescriptions im seeing psychiatrist practice mindfulness remind drink water force moderate amount exercise every day hate feeding myself graze healthy food eat things prop enough hold job rent apartment keep alive everything consume wasted dragging life many years im incredibly tired family smiles pretends im making up two friends sick hearing bring anymore easier keep friend show interest twice month without mentioning anything myself attracted someone makes suicidal always has unfortunately im asexual situation arises every day work online whenever go out know like close someone tried never beneficial either party closer get extreme anxiety becomes overwhelming unsustainable break down scare them relationship ends begins tried trying help ive gotten feel guilty still feeling way right im wondering im trying suppress natural im fighting body telling do want exist life death meaningless know im asking for sorry bitching least internet now,1
finished the second research paper of the week it s tuesday kind of kill me test friday,0
german peoplebefinden sich hier auch menschen die deutsch knnen,1
plan living life longerim  m currently th grade months im expected college dread every month upcoming college years transition early adult life relatively get good average grades throughout highschool parents still see smart child know im barely keeping together school expect much like want become that even know want be cant even picture future without dead thats goals life im limited high earning careers choice becoming something else feel like im becoming stuck course career want want nothing get it lately ive becoming worn tired everything cant get school requirements done time cant focus studies without distracted addicted whatever videogame im playing let group mates research paper without making progress far failed student group leader son want die now immediately almost passive redflag thoughts everyday becoming active actively planning eventual redflag want face living life future knowing ill fail harder spiral downwards shit hole,1
wa recently hit with a major wave of depression and memory i cant seem to get it out of my head and the thought of oding sound so enticing to me right now year of religious indoctrination is the only thing holding me back is there any way i can quickly overcome this fear of burning for eternity so i can just rest peacefully in the void,1
difficult try ignore thoughts night get worse try distract forget hard night,1
therapist want quit meds want become suicidal im pretty sure already told ive suicidal ideation decadeforgot clarify want suddenly stop meds sorry feel invalidated said meant sound caring makes feel worse want cry sure post im posting here maybe people understand want bring case im wrong tell already would hella awkward,1
"@jjooss aww, thank you soo much! I'm going outside to enjoy the gift now!  again; thank you!",0
black water one tense films viewed long time story moves fast follows three tourists all great actors swamp tour butch tour guide small boat soon dropping anchor remote area swamp flipped something huge waterbr br hastily three manage make tall tree nearby realize crocodile attacked them throughout next two days desperately try escape crocodiles evil watchful eye seem want go away movie drags tad bit expect setting limited budget much better primeval recent crocodile underwater predator thrillers tension heavy three leads give terrific performances truly chilling movie struck deep chord claustrophobic fear me apparently based true events,0
i LOVE pinball wizard i have decided. oops i was meant to be going to bed ay! hehe SO CHEEKY! not. nighty night! ,0
ta dada feeling happy okay bye,0
to be fair i don t have access to much of my family s history past my parent so i don t know if there s a possibility that someone in my family tree had anxiety but when i wa younger i remember taking online test about anxiety because i couldn t see a therapist then worrying about the result did i somehow create my anxiety by self diagnosis then spin it into the real thing,1
nothingive feeling bad years now starting small gradually getting worse point last year year ive wanted die ive posted feeling like garbage essentially told still things live blah blah somewhat believed it thinking family friends never thought myself i week decided take look life family away skipped weeks classes saying ill finally want hate usual things wanted change came however found have nothing job car family friends many possessions look life see clearly mean nothing obviously family friends everything else something fill void nothing enjoy never feel like make choice never wanted drive family made could go own realise never go anywhere never wanted job family wanted earn money waste things value importance try make happy cant top that one talk this tell parents im depressed i went bad state  theyll assume im stressed work uni tell get grip like last time best friend drifted away newer friends people talk stuff to would get contact best friend awkward since met fianc if guessed fancy lot one many reasons hate myself going doctor drugs help  super depressed chunked antidepressants like smarties speaking smarties im lactose intolerant cant even eat want favorites foods gone instant come about doctor said likely triggered stress feeling fucking stress jesus christ thats true im gonna intolerant fucking oxygen time im done writing this anyway digress used go counseling waste time sum told year half four words dont think it wow good advice right there hey everyone feel bad well dont so conclude nothing choice one talk to nothing important me take back one choice whether live die man die sound like great option,1
considering redflagi feel like reason live keep bottled friends family hell throwaway account wont impact regular one feel like blow brains out make difference ill die anyways would change pressure goddamn work seriously making think im extremely depressed writing quickly one sees im going bed writing this somtimes hope dont wake up,1
fun getting pedo install tails ass wears thighs make people think cute girl  go jail normal get  core  duo power w psu cant ill buy body pillow marry commit redflag ill sex body ill cum jar change sex female put cum pussy get kids,0
today i pretended i wa okay to my mom so she would continue to let me stay in her house i choked down food so it looked like i had an appetite and told her i would go draw so i could be myself alone i can t even draw anymore anyways i saw this a fake it til you make it i ve been told it s actually that i m not putting any effort in and using people so i guess i ll sleep a long a the people around me will let me then hoping i never wake up,1
conversation redflag prevention line sounds like i curious exactly  met psychiatrists years listening  know strictly european not someone could judge mentor me,1
third times charmsorry formatting im mobile im  suicidal thoughts  years now started side comments oh ill kill things go well evolved comments actual possibility could take currently senior year high school doubt even graduate back freshman year urges lowest recent years ive struggling coping whatever fuck have therapist told showed symptoms bipolar ii anyways ive attempted twice recent one second week senior year discharged therapy beginning new year due wanting participate group therapy prior planning commiting back november go bang decided present poem writing club school received decent reception decided stick bit met current girlfriend due pretty great im waiting school poetry slam which thursday finish decide kill myself grades time low im missing classes cant bring get morning get get scared going school surrounded people stay home hide ive disappointed parents siblings going school family amazing cant even blame turned out feel sorry put years really deserve family theyve done especially dad dad incredible person ive ever pleasure knowing just want disappointment think ill able redeem mentality think contemplating seeing psychiatrist last month considering fact got discharged within last months think consider letting get appointment like ive got skills going me ive got writing video games neither going helping life anyways week maybe see infinity war go im going head buy rope go nearby forestwoods want family ones find body cant bear idea that feel bit guilty next week dads birthday oh well cant feel anything im gone right wish luck,1
wear mask elderly people actually die covid saying okay kill grandparents,0
im ok im ok im ok im okjust went round house taking eything downing bottle wine idek tok except mg propranolo whats point trying reach tell go hom eand die floor wan dont hope,1
 months plan ending life cant anymorei struggle cptsd severe chronic depression severe social anxiety grew horrible child hood raped molested step dad beaten daily him forced incest two cousins aunt him tried killing many times family hated always things reason grew watching mom trying end life  succeeded lost real dad  knew  months died liver failure spent ten years homeless witnessed many things murder dozens redflags live right front unable stop it robbed shot many occasions know read write  learned friend mine also homeless homeless veteran served vietnam mid s ended taking life right next unable stop it got tired fighting every day homeless help money family spent past ten years trying get ged unable learning issues second grade level first grade level every subject learn firstsecond way th every subject spent past ten years trying get career job apartment bought first car last year get scammed car dealership  thousand dollars took  years save supposed move apartment wisconsin back february needed eye surgery march remove cataract right eye needing done left eye spent past ten years trying find room rent afford  month bills incl everywhere find want that cant afford living disability unable work getting  month live on struggled obesity since childhood even homeless pushing  lbs unable lose single entire life spent past eight years dating scene person online get told worthless ugly disgusting mocked at laughed at made fun of trolled bullied told nothing one wants even told end life many occasions even family even mom absolutely friends family support kind struggle day day severe loneliness even good conversation anyone  years woman lead pretended love want turned married used attention watched movie tv show anyone  years now wake nights tears shaking cptsd nightmares sometimes confused takes awhile calm get mind set right tried  years therapy meds counseling mental hospitals none helps none works either makes feel like zombie makes messed even worse tried ten years turn life around unable to  months hit  going celebrate birthday pizza whiskey wine coolers favorite movies music going euthanize go peacefully get peace rest hellish life living know make past ten minutes else post tired holding in call liar troll call whatever want vent this hold anymore tldr horrid shitty life nothing works fail everything set turn  going nice little bang end life,1
who launch yearlong campaign to fight depression slogan is let s talk http t co v0nvzbxxzs,1
"@Smuggiess Dani my babe I didn't draw during 2013-2016 cos of depression. Drawing should be fun and enjoyable, not a burden!",1
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please helpi graduated college beginning may day mom told diagnosed breast cancer ive move home enough move out along personal issues boyfriend broke me history depression anxiety making difficult cope literally idea make through top off im allowed express feelings mom says want hear it also friends mom moved hometown college tldr finished school crippling student debt job yet mom cancer friends hometown boyfriend broke me,1
im awaiting results medical examination im counting worst want terminali want get somewhere typing text file computer give release want tell anybody know know anybody know handle it im waiting medical results come in though ive never admitted last days realize much want fatal complication life pathetic mess long remember remember happiness contentment feels like im socially anxious handful weeks worth dating experience sexual experience im love girl love ungrateful idiot knows love her hold back letting know much wants guy want return ive trying find fault ever since get her hard nearly every close relationship ive resulted person leaving me always ive let guard expected harm result version protects always anxious outlook things expect worst worst happen relax worst happen soon subconsciously feel way consciously notice stupid is cant make feel differently though spend nights alone writing write lot wish could know steady foundation career know want do making feel even worthless subject redflag think would able bring to means fear pain want desperately something take to want prognosis tests terrible one things actually keeps depressed am think tests likely come back healthy think going hardest me anyway thanks reading this know hoped achieve this except sort release thanks clicking reading,1
need someone chat withi made questionable decision hurt people really care about suicidal thoughts mostly muttled severe depression getting lot frequent realistic,1
a man in my neighborhood just killed himself in the same method i am planning it happened a month ago but i just got more detail about it today from my mom she doesn t suspect a thing about me all the story i have heard about when something like this happens is that people rally together but that didn t happen my mom talked about his poor wife and how much his kid are going to miss him and how it must have been some of the medication he wa on she didn t say a thing about him other than it wa sad that he had mental health issue the people in my circle think that people like me and him are worth le than someone healthy they never said that but i can tell they think people like me are hard to love that we have too many demon inside of u that people with depression are letting the devil get to them none of this ha escaped me am i really evil am i letting the devil win the worst part is that they don t know what i m planning to do but i could never say anything because i don t want to hurt them i don t want to destroy the image they have of me while i am alive,1
got plannedim end line ive addicted opiates adult life im stealing family again im living aunt rest family kicked out soon finds stole im kicked living streets felon im probily gonna go back jail none friends answer phone calls anymore move city  miles hometown im huge disappointment family ive already got planned im gonna take lot sleeping heroin fall asleep car running garage would slit wrists im big pussy im huge piece shit waste breath space want fuck anymore want keep im tired everytime tried get clean ends failure cant really see way this even know im posting this may cry help im anonymous internet like anyone know going read this,1
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well the title say it all i ve decided to off myself after thursday im not sure how i m going to do it but i m tired of fighting for my life my in law kicked me out and i have to leave on or before the th of april i have no one and no where to go my husband refuse to get an apartment with me because he s not ready i have nothing good to look forward to and i know a soon a i move out he s probably gon na file for divorce so wtf is the point of being heartbroken and alone i m scared death is gon na hurt but it s what i have to do of course i m scared shitless but not being in pain anymore is better than surviving the worst,1
i used to be quite smart aced everything in high school had best result from my school in maturity exam european equivalent to sat used to do extra curricular shit like attending science fair going abroad for competition and shit used to play the piano play sport i wa in a pretty good shape etc i did well even during my first year of college then covid happened i stayed home got lazy played video game all day kinda stopped taking school and friend seriously year later and i am still in a slump i somehow managed to not drop out but nothing interest me now i dont want to do anything nothing make me happy most of the time i am alone and just sit in my room and watch video or play some shit while procrastinating my duty my grade got worse my back hurt i lost my shape can not run for more than minute my sleep schedule is all over the place i stay up until am and i either sleep like hour a day or hour all the time i am thinking about how i peaked in high school and am just wasting my life now i dont cry or anything a i wa never really in touch with my emotion so i dunno if this is depression burnout or what i just want to not feel like a piece of shit all the time i used to have high standard for myself now i cant seem to reach the bare minimum in order to exist normally doe anyone feel the same how do i get out of this state of mind,1
theresaxo i still can t believe you have to move i will be over after work to help paint aww rip your walllllll,0
ok never really used place rant horrible childhood led become overly shy public yes man socially insecure already hear everyone running away seems like worst thing people reason comes lot problems cut right chase  much trouble finding woman would even believe told stories many opportunities women coming me seducing me first steps messed them  times tried first steps worked well chocked could handle pressure also would give examples doubt place nsfw even though people openly discuss death something happened yesterday pure torture seriously like devil bad luck playing soul anyways wish way find love easily overly shy people whenever cute girl comes talk freeze like cannot find anything think say either think rude interested well presume least sometimes even ignored even though really wanted them wrong me tried seeing doctors shrinks shyness issues work live sucks seeing everyone around me every single person couple dating someone seems easy them could try dating app depressed even try plus feel lame know say real mess pisses know know maybe stop caring maybe stop giving shit start drinking feel like trapped thinking ending recently life simply worth it never drinking tonight might get drunk overly shy really sucks,1
everyday tug warof stay go,1
@chxnguye haha yeah ! of course I watch Twilight ! haha. I love ALL the books haha. ! ,0
i m so done with everything i love my career but everyday is harder and harder to get up and go to class i get home and just sleep instead of studying because i feel like absolute trash i feel like nobody love me or even care about me i feel like my friend don t care that i am skipping class and that i have literally stopped talking to everyone i just stand there with them but don t engage with anything because if i do i m scared i ll bust into tear my best friend completely changed his behavior with me a few month ago and now i feel like he doesn t like me anymore i feel like the most unlovable unlikeable person ever nobody ha ever been in love with me i have never kissed anyone or even held hand i just want someone to care about me to ask me about my day to ask me how i m feeling it doesn t even have to be romantic i just want someone anyone to care i fear that my depression get so bad that i stop completely going to class and i fail this semester i don t know what to do,1
 Well we have 2 new colts. I'll be posting them on our MySpace and Website join us on MySpace http://tinyurl.com/cnyn7l,0
stylish moody innovative revengedriven bloodbath also cheesy course sporadically cheesy reminded lot big heat revenge plot set exact event girl comes around good guys side bad behavior bad guy sad theres gloria grahame fantastic alain delon glenn ford could anyone beautiful alain going around cashmere sweater trenchcoat yet hes totally tough icy cool one nowadays touch himthough someone like jude law could try guess hard girl look good him music funky perfect several excellent car chases and generally cup teaespecially one willy nilly one woods people also met dooms creative bloody fashion instance junkyard cruncher beyond cheese overall atmosphere affecting expertly pulled off creativity excitement freshness forgotten movie ive seen lately,0
life never present answer itit veterans day yesterday me god wished seen combat instead wounded job always state side instead wounded bullshit ts rate instead wounded man enough pick gun go infantry every movie loves show fun parts navy loved always made interesting cant see movies ship ship brings back couple good buddies say soldier dies save lives two first save brother second save themselves mean closest ones commit redflag mean even fucked tried worthless shell body still fucking wakes three days later even accomplished goal woke back here fucking,1
even delivery guy left read wanted order new screen protector nearby store want go bc really want catch covid screen protector if essential would go not got hisher phone number instagram messaged whatsapp left read f,0
gn tell productive things tomorrow morning wish school done want try productive,0
searching answers discovering questionsim tired tired questioning every aspect life thinking answer lead kind breakthrough answers open questions confusing more ive selfdestructive lately ive taken risks know take ive driving without usual caution drinking become common started smoking cigarettes get fucking head think im freaking people out ive open suicidal thoughts take well everyone always tells stop talking like that want that want someone understand stop telling tell understand want to listen make feel accepted like freak cycling constant ups downs stability feeling control like think entertain redflag way take control honestly like it think lot meaning here believe fate destinyi believe ultimate plan caring overseer fault believe thingsbut cannot it ive tried ive dipped toes many different streams think im ready drown want hear acting like coward reminded hurt everyone around me think know that think feel extremely selfish help me ive tried discuss doctor therapist get dangerously close getting sent hospital need coddled like child told defective taken care of people understand mental illness makes feel lonely want someone understandswell understands actually willing walk beside me holding hand need it pushing feel stuck guess kind sounds like coddling know difference feel like wasting time trying explain it death tonight thinkbut constantly feel lingering waiting hug let with im starting feel stupid want sound melodramaticill stop typing ill try chill out think ill sit porch watch sun go down,1
Handmaids Tale tonight! Going <Emoji: Airplane departure><Emoji: Airplane> depression,1
ok reading couple reviews atlantis lost empire want clear misunderstanding direct rip nadia secret blue water part ripoff nadia pendant nadia pendant atlantis bear much resemblence terms used origins created source life theres doubt copied want consider kida nadia dressed alike could put disney tooit kind wierd nadia kida wear bikini style clothing adventure scifi mention move similar style too anime fan agree theres degree copying minor details even though many ideas original like encryption design wall laputa ancient mask princess mononoke resemblence vehicles garfish submarine nadia etcthe plot believe highly original quite amazing disney pull without use captain nemothe main character jules vernes k leagues sea also main character nadia mylo jean wearing similar style glassesas shown novel lord flies glasses symbol wisdom intelligence think mylo jean main character stargate dozen intelligent characters would look kind unfit role went without glasses submarines submarines fightwith wide blast torpedos really resembles nautilius does want state required element either one atlantis involved plotafter sunken city beneath waters crew charactistical resemblence crew nautilius nadia might artwork sense copyright infringement characters personalities perfectly original me anime fan rated nadia  best anime ever watched even today doubts atlantis first saw preview watched movie regained confidence disney high hopes future movies atlantis overall best disney movie yet without shivering sound songs middle movie plus revised cheesy scripts make even better also amazing actually portray bad guys look normal making overly evil beginning i wondering bad guys blonde girl kind resemble looks bad character terms disney draws aka make bad guys look really menacing,0
linda james im not a morning person never have been prefer the night,0
Having an off day today. Depression has won. Don't think I'll be leaving the house today,1
swim think laps usually  selfloathing  pondering sexuality  pondering gender  wondering boy next lane likes  wondering like  song stuck head,0
My mother put me in this world knowing that life is hard n jinks I blame that bitch for all my depression,1
hope never become cynical society appreciate simple beauty movie beautiful look romantic english countryside beautiful message faith loyalty watch children especially young daughters velvet brown wonderful role model girls one daughters favorite filmsbr br the story based best selling book enid bagnold girl velvet whose whole life horse pi singleminded pursuit impossible dream say anymore plot less spoil firsttime viewers lives big loving family small coastal villagebr br this movie made elizabeth taylor star watch film understand why natural actress radiates inner beauty matches outward beauty trusting passionate innocent emotional core moviebr br mickey rooney gives wonderful performance mi young man arrives doorstep one day stays helps velvet train pi one finest performances also standing anne revere velvets mother academy award winning role strong loving wise character understands life much value unless follow dreams were alike i too believe everyone chance breathtaking piece folly life br br i heartily recommend sweet inspiring classic hollywoods golden age,0
so asked would want found deadwhat hell say want one dead,1
hot compress not rily workng for pulled muscle gng to bed good night,0
someone know compulsively chattering teeth told started could feel teeth wobble little clenched teeth together feeling finger we know one weird tricks teeth play you become compulsive now told feel ill it redflag issues chattering result see would become one done make go away,1
hello this is my first time posting to reddit i am having difficulty choosing between two job opportunity the first is a one hour commute one way and is on site the job come with pension and benefit a well a potential for career growth the second is 00 remote with limited potential for career growth the hour are flexible and i would not have to go into the office the downside is that the job appears to be boring and it will be difficult to get to know my coworkers the downside of the first job is that it could turn out to be a more stressful but maybe more stimulating job i have been so anxious about the decision that i have been cycling through choosing one or the other job over a period of several day i have been having stress headache and trying to solve the problem internally but with little resolution what is your opinion on wfh versus on site what is your opinion of taking a job you know to be boring for people with anxiety how doe wfh work for you doe it increase your worry or doe it help you manage how do you make a decision when either option doe not seem to be a clear winner many thanks,1
@pinkchristine really well thank you!  slept till 4.30 this morning - new record! ,0
im posting third time ignored everytime so feedback poem mother nature  merrier quite erroneous us presenting nothing  making demon scarier time go back square one things done  since one quit parsimoniousness  consider mother martriach expelling class half halfwits seems near ,0
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scared im going kill anyone fucks family cant stop thinking smashing someones head hitting bat im scared something starts im going stop fuck wrong,0
literally cant stop comparing everyonei feel like people around well perfect college applications stats friends living cant help look people around feel shit cant like that causes constant anxiety hate much wish could stop feeling everything,1
whats long hard unbearable  life,0
im gonna walk favourite place swallow pillsi think today day done understatement cried first time years today ive finally enough currently waiting phone charge im gonna buy whiskey painkillers way favourite place walton gardens dont know whats going happen yet im  sure it dont anyone want talk feels fitting tend read sub lot,1
anyone think way whenever feel utterly defeated sad which often always think someone else going worse stop bitch pick dont let brain push around get intrusive thoughts tics tourettes life  constant thats im gonna say know mean always remember theres someone worse,0
sometimes want make almost everyone hate mei want stop helping people want take old dream shatter it fully abandoning process yes know selfish hypocritical almost noone reciprocated entire life but so would  sincere longer condescending well once enduring insults rejection indifference pity fake andor empty words promises friendship instead fighting back yet would confirm im faker video guy said good person pay became bitter angry lashing others would mean never good person instead acted like expected reward thats worst fear almost never single selfless act entire life someone else instead get benefit myself would mean im complete fake would get mental breakdown,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
@barbd00 I would love some strawberries  (and if you have any too smooshy for people the turtles could help. lol),0
@selftitledebut I am depression,1
got crushs number two months talking ig finally got number also debating whether take chance person like pussy never know far simple hey get you,0
get boyfriend turn  never relationship i go girls school perhaps may issue here yet feel lonely genuinely  school  would somewhat introverted girl find decent cute guy feel corny even typing out ridiculous point,0
im donegood job l h everyone community figured knew enough pass judgment give shit all everyone else helped keep fresh left one nowhere go drained inertia hope faith people im heading week probably live long definitely coming back,1
ik this wa his depression outfit but i couldnt no laugh at it look at him he wa wearing stede s clothes and writing song abt not wanting to let him go izzy how could you do this to u http t co avvlcv ixx,1
letter myselfdear self hate you hate much thought many ways ive wanted die stupid things thinking actually going change youre parents think disappointment embarrassment said many times ive practically become numb words many people tried reach out tell fine obviously werent didnt accept it didnt want burden them want good image yourself want others believe everything control stupid sounds couldnt done work done everything correctly shouldve done everything start look brothers everything control great life ahead them always get compared theyre far smarter better looking overall superior you shouldnt born family mistake reason mom dad fight always you enjoy messing peoples lives still here everyone favor leave hate you hate much die,1
therapist decided longer person therapy even though feel unsecure privacy safety dad told shoot myself plan using extension cord random electrical device find it tell life worth living please not heard all mentally tired exhausted dad told get gun shoot myself considering it,1
isnt worth itlife one problem fix another one cares youre okay dont want anymore,1
"I started my training for a 5K today, and I'm pretty sure I burnt more calories than I consumed today. But I feel great ",0
please please please beg give actual good reasons stay go itplease,1
f hmu im low key bored midnight im bored hmu lmaoo,0
anyone way get getting heart broken would really appreciate rn thanks,0
mil chesthas anybody else shot purpose survived feel like nobody relate with almost everyone whos shot selves dead makes sense ha fuck,1
whats problem tornadoes hurricanes america like bitch build house bricks concrete obviously wooden fucking house gonna stay together never heard three little piggies,0
the godfather television aside acclaim mobster characters two nothing alike tony soprano forced go psychiatrist series panic attacks psychiatrist learns tony actually part two families  one family loving father yet notsoperfecthusband family ruthless wiseguy analysis dr melfi concludes tonys problems actually derive mother livia whos suspected borderlinepersonality disorder gandolfini rightfully praised main character yet bracco marchand nearly recognized equally talented performances psychiatrist mother respectively falco imperioli dematteo acclaimed brilliant supporting roles van zandt from estreet band plays first role tonys best friend quite convincing latching chianese recurring actor actually appeared godfather film plays tonys uncle onandoff nemesis many fans also enjoyed characters played pastore ventimiglia curatola proval pantoliano lip sciorra buscemi tonys children okay notable with exception ilers stunning performance thirdtolast episode the second coming sirico schirripa unconvincing overthetop show strong hold back even show continues six season ceases dull predictable momentbr br  out four,0
thinking the short and flip flop may have been a bad idea,0
think im finally ready dieafter  years struggling latching onto false hopes think im finally ready die peace happy accept defeat,1
 film improvise impressions given changes know score schooled genre always problems following chord changes anyway trumpet player yknow pretty well limited basic keep tune mind ad lib around that jammed incredibly moody black white blues piece knot gave head heart trying figure whether go ensemble pick path along tune story guess went tune usual kept getting lost changestoo deep extensive head probably still gas try keep pace admired actors playing theme story line see things heare things others seem to feel light skin gal trying pass much either oblivious color issue trying ignore itat first later came back fighting brooding light skin young man his trumpet noodling mas ludicrous ambiguous ambivalent perhaps best featureremote what thought shadowcurtain closed provocative pieceis foundation thing like this way finding reality setting stage peopling expressive characters giving melody theme real truthful wellcrafted scriptwithout benefit editing revising improvisation heroic artiermoreso crafted work greater clearer truth retrospective artcraft fabrication reformation well still lost question loved film got lost cool blue foggy evening go home get horn guess what broke twelvebar blues riff tried truecouldnt make stray tune reality scary jaime says give  more im break,0
new article from obmneurobiology the potential impact of covid 9 on depression and suicide risk in older adult http t co brn i tcp http t co aw fkdqvzm covid 9 pandemic,1
part want die think instinct to larger part feels like option every day week month feel getting closer scared f,1
@NeilDenny hehe yep I love car boot!!!  Never usually buy much heh ,0
i regret backing out of committing suicide pretty often i ve done it three time now overdosed once from the outside i know for a fact i look like a whiny teen i ve been told so many many time i m just tired of relapse i m tired of constantly putting everything i have into being better only to barely get anywhere and then being exhausted i m tired of being yelled at for thing i can t control and being told the same pathetic motivational quote like they ever mean anything i m tired of people praying for me saying i need to ask god for help god wasn t there for me when i wa being sexually assaulted god wasn t there for me when my mom got blackout drunk and beat my sister in front of me god wasn t there when i wa left alone for week because my dad would rather be anywhere else i don t care what people say god isn t real there is no divine protection and there is no savior there s life and death what happens in between is your problem i m tired of being labeled a mental case i m tired of seeing hallucination having flashback and i m tired of feeling manic i m tired of relying on prescription drug to be good enough for society i wish i had done in then because i have thing to live for now i have responsibility and thing that mean something to me it s like a dog having a bone dangled just far enough to where they can t get it i ve come to term that i ll never be what my parent wanted me to be and that my sister took on that role for me at a young age a nurse at dating to marry with a nice house in a nice neighborhood i m struggling to even have the will to get up and enroll myself in community college it s pathetic i work but i work at a sport bar and because of my disability my hour keep getting cut turn out nobody want to hire someone who can t be around many people or loud noise that go into a manic episode if triggered the more i think about what i am the more depressed i get without the medication i d most likely be labeled insane and put in a glorified prison again i take a lot of drug and still see and hear the shit that i do and i don t remember half of my life when i wa off of them i keep getting told that it s my fault by my mom and she is basically begging me to do something but nothing i ever do is good enough so why keep trying i don t know it s not logical to commit suicide at this point but i can t deny that i secretly hope a semi turn my car into a crushed can on my way to work ptsd severe depression crippling anxiety and psychotic disorder are not a good mix especially when you re lucid i don t know if i have a future i ve proven safe for society with reasonable accommodation but at what point doe it even matter anymore the fact that i need a crutch immediately set me apart and people notice,1
im thinking deleting reddit running away never coming back feel like ruining mental health like want get rid it i,0
late everythingim suicidal fuck know died tomorrow one except family would show funeral would obligation ive depressed panic disorder whole adult life caused isolate lose friends even though ive tried best stay contact them im enough makes feel like never enough none friendships true wish would killed self still friends people would cried funeral maybe wouldnt cried,1
janurary th supposed dayi going day yet am planned out spent weeks nailing every detail yet woke up no surprise there things looking up coping happy even am sqaure one started planning again hopefully ill see time,1
one talk toim probably going post lot vent feel like read last night sat dark shower blade wrist min first wanted touch wrist blade  redflag attempt sat like that started shaking pressing blade harder skin bc really wanted it im supposed enacting safety plan feel like but cant bring seriously talk anyone this im afraid tell husband therapist ill sent back hospital really really dont want that,1
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really suicidali mean want die long time attempted end backed out made far maybe everyone right im suicidal looking attention mean want die ive never killed really suicidal,1
need die kill mei really cannot take anymore,1
@toddbennettjr @Elvis0725 @derrich @adam_goodman @ect000 @sisita41 @BlaqIce10 @SandyBarron @AnnetteIngersol THANKS FOR THE FEEDBACK!! ,0
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i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1
"@JustPotts thanks  u would be to, but ur A LAKER lover!!!...l0l",0
even distraught tired giving birthdayim calm im rational im overreacting im fucking tired overwhelmed ok deal stress birthday  months im going quickly get with itll nice deal stress anymore least,1
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controversial opinion thread whats ur controversial opinions feel free argue personally attack people u disagree,0
ok brain wtf this emotional burst cried literally never cry get emotional wtf,0
feel like shitim anxious tomoro presentation day sisters hospital nasty dead scared cant even sleep pls chant me pls pray pls wish well,1
 wished make highschool  sophomore school start august nd feel like school ended suicidal every  mins think killing hope year highschool,1
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fiance abandoned one day left nothing place safety net trying live friends feel empty inside place world worked much therapy anchored much past trauma thought nothing works anymore lost ocean agony trying best live friends cat know long hold for lost much weight already trying eat taking vitamin try keep stuff okay love life finish sentences sort love suddenly gone trapped apartment alone want belive light side hard see it anti depressent remove ability feel cannot smile cry laugh tried finding work disability work hard find issue needed work right away since better off everything name id lose healthcare joint sorry formatting make posts often abandoned,1
Could 'one puff' of cannabis ease depression? - Medical News Today  https://apple.news/Ar5pMtb6fPkSkPHLyMRTZZQ …,1
ha got work again today,0
@KuriousTrina awww thanks for calling me sexxxy......and I thought you forgot about me... ,0
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"@tankyknight sounds good!! Not at the moment, unforch...have to work today, maybe I'll hang out with some friends after, we'll see..  You?",0
five show made debut  later point regular viewer remember really enjoyed show along leave beaver my three sons ozzie harriet dick van dyke reruns i love lucy the real mccoys etc enjoying first season donna reed dvd watched first two episodes donna stone shown intelligent wellmannered problemsolving serene stayathome mom similar june cleaver contrast lucy ricardo episode  especially like ms reed becomes surrogate dad trading dress sweats boxing gloves teaching son defend physically much larger bully none mothers neighborhood grew in including own exactly met idealistic standards portrayed ms reed refreshing see good manners intelligent decisionmaking prevail end day contrast todays accepted standards vulgarity selfishness indifference among ones neighbors cannot imagine jeff mary stone told parents trespassing neighbors yards okay leaving dog outside bark day acceptable telling mother shut up supermarket front everyone,0
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giving  last weeki lonely searched love church online apps school speed dating friends lounges found luck seriously considering redflag please help me honestly even know could help me ive given one week live really want die want alone anymore thank taking time read this,1
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utdcynical crossydailystar fan got depression watching the bollox,1
How exercising can slash the risk of depression  https://nyp.st/2vGw2Kq  via @nypost,1
kinda long story playing among us saw someone go vent sure color called emergency meeting said pink realized wait get wrong could get launched said white teal made excuse colorblind see exactly next  games played color blind guy get launched lol tldrplayed among us color blind guy dont seem sus,0
Jus found out sum GREAT news!!! All imma say is I can't wait 'til 4the BET awards!!     ,0
going 2 gran canaria soon. Cant wait 2 see my friends again. ,0
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cure ugliness without plastic surgery course ive tried everything burning face slamming concrete  mph nothing works,0
friend diedyesterday friend died met strange circumstances connected us mental illnesses made redflag deep issue she much stronger me flailed cried begged end it fierce strong witty tough loud loud much energy walked room took notice talked shut up laughed echoed walls embodiment getting better two days ago attempted redflag yesterday died im suicidal im lost afraid hurting woman woman stood illness told go got there resist pain end  could ever hope to im wondering push forward toughest among us failed,1
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anyone gives flying fuck made lyrics made tune yet supposed lofiraphiphop umm think ofit like kaash paiges music u know cocoa butter kisses girl circles kayla think know this loved start think noticed master heart say distance makes heart grow fonder theres lie think last without longer id waited little talk you confront you maybe id fully love saying already before waited wouldve loved even more think possible guess theres always know oh know love love love youuuu know know wish loved respond texts wondered really worth time know little hours seems pretty small know time respond knew half sentence meant much give need baby bring dopamine high self esteem yet always cycle bicycles first ignoring yet say busy second apologizing get tizzy last forgiving cuz else would girl im blind go circles wish true loved,0
so suicidal along time actually started get better really depressed so got job taco bell seems back old self self pity party wanting nothing end it working shows fucked worth it worth working trying save money stuff would easier gone point working   everyday hate pay bills life worth living actually thought would feel better getting job feel ten times worse wife noticed hope worth itthe strain marriage mental health hope extra money worth itdoes feel like it trading happiness happy marriage extra cash maybe fault sucking up sostuck behind money ruinsmy life getting better going backwards,1
lots sunshine gauzy light shadow filtering windows rooms tracking shots moving crowds handheld camera quickpaced editing extreme closeups there photography thing interesting artistically done filmbr br the plot film starts bit fluff beauty contest film begins warm sunday local swimming pool meet lovely lucienne aka lulu played louise brooks  bit showoff front gawking men poolside soon decides enter represent france miss europe beauty contest much chagrin jealous stickinthemud fianc a pretty annoying fellow really strutting runway ten contestants display swimsuits winner chosen contestant receives longest applause i wondering girls walk slower prolong length time  thus applause  catwalk lulu soon chased prince maharaja hotheaded beau like attentions paid men adoring public matter i guess wants house cooking meals staying sight ehbr br louise brooks beautiful charming presence helps enhance film really way photographed held interest most bit distracting odd dubbed sound bit off print version looked clear full nice contrast though watching tried overlook sound problems watch film visually found movie excellent well worth seeing,0
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It's my birthday today  Running the mile tomorrow ughh. But then choir concert ,0
never look like woman point living regret staying alive longwhy even bother hrt fix stupid male face nothing will poor afford surgery im sick constant hugboxing people telling id pass cis woman know trans mom thinks im guy still always uses male pronouns friends know face ugly highly encourage surgery done life cant take anymore nothing ever fix me never want born born life literal torture,1
i m so sorry fernanda today i took different pill i don t know if it ll hit me in a few hour or when i close my eye and go to sleep maybe i ll survive i took what i have in the medication cabinet and today might be the day i give up fernanda my beloved i m so sorry i m dragging myself and my system to death some shout in my head saying they don t want to die that there ha to be another way but they aren t the host they can sit in the innerworld without a care but i live most of my life fronting my head hurt a i type this and i feel strangely calm with my heart slowing down to a normal pace something i wasn t used to anymore due to my sickness fernanda my love even if you don t read this i love you so much i mean everything i said in that message you make me the happiest man in the world and your support to be by my side made me feel a if i can continue just a tiny bit but i m so tired i can t continue studying and i can t do my passion you make everything so worth it i want you to live life with your fullest energy thank you for shining a light in my life i love you,1
aaroncikaya fcuk off playing the depression card he can t handle the english premier league and the micky mouse french league will suit his lazy style of play fcuk off to psg you premier leage flop you re a lazy sack of shite,1
hair messy hate hair keeps flying place sometimes get eyes make eyes itchy,0
nothing lefthey yall first post burner account ah well goes im  f im pretty done life im going kill month  great academic success beginning college im barely scraping by never show class im going fail again ive local community college  years almost  unemployed psych hospital used work got shut due lack funding im social major helping mentally ill people truly passion love connecting people taken away me  havent able find job dont know ive literally applied  jobs last months nothing follow up interviews etc  debt isnt debt seriously im fucked much fucking debt pay ill never able do  deadend career field social work mental health social services disgustingly underfunded know im never going get job makes happy pays well im even trying rich im literally wanting able afford  bedroom house bills  relationship well im engaged fianc weve  years by choice moved engaged feel suffocated sex experience guy ive life consensual im wanting get explore open sexuality feels dead end  overweight isnt overweight lol yeah im fatass fuck addicted sugar diet im highest weight entire life  lbs  job promise didnt work out applied residential care assistant mental health facility deals women children affected addiction amazing interview passed background check drug test well said get case work hours would start full time case manager good salary fucking happy called told found someone else work dollar less requested crushed told problem ill work  hour instead  well nope new lady already starting got case worker rca fuck right basically plan kill sometime month everything eating alive medication doesnt help nothing helps one fucking soul empty feel absolutely nothing plan slit wrists bathroom bleed out ive struggled long im done make loved ones dont anything super expensive really valuable eh not,1
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posted yesterday needing helpi found writing goodbye letter mom yesterday wrote goodbye letter best friend continue write letters form therapy dont know ill ever send them writing helps putting pain somewhere find thoughts day im writing post telling im writing way therapy head im thinking ways could end tonight sorry messy post needed spill thoughts,1
talk achievementsthey love judge others invalidate others bc fcking insecure inside value integrity worth higher regular person people talk dirt people work hope end poor dirt bc well worked it despite societal benefits took achieve it want threaten kill people like this bc like attitude jealous have sometimes seriously want something people like this despite consequences bad know exactly successful people talk,1
when i get mine i m going to do a tour of copenhagen with it hmmph i can t top that must get thinking http tinyurl com c trgj,0
lush afternoon lots of sun bathing in the park with my mateys...got quite a good tan ,0
theekween depression and anxiety loss of loved one and heartbreak thelmasherbs,1
got free award going it im giving myself why fuck thats,0
emptyi know anymore im  ive living void emptiness hole heart   years now ive avoided life much get stuck negative thought patterns every day get exhausted im looking end life cant find courage actually hang jump bridge im stuck suffering meaningless life,1
Some people may say you can't be sad because someone else may have it worse is just like saying someone can't be happy because someone else might have it better. Depression is one of the most dehumanization and tiring emotional experience anyone can encounter in their life,1
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i ve made like post already in different part of reddit trying to explain the mess that is myself and my life story but i swear this time i m gon na try and get a grip on all my thought and what i think is messing up me and my life ok first off i don t think i ve had anxiety or at least not nearly a bad until like year ago after i quit my job it wa fine at first but a the year went on i just slowly started to feel more and more like shit right after i graduated high school like almost year ago my dad s alcohol problem really started getting bad and he wa already sort of an asshole but it really ramped up when he started getting wasted every day ditching work not taking care of himself a much etc he started guilt tripping me into taking care of him and it got to the point where i basically had to babysit him until he either fell asleep or ran out of booze mom eventually got to that point too and from there it wa basically constant verbal abuse and a sense of worthlessness until mom finally got disgusted with herself and him and slowly began shaping up but that wa only because they ran out of money both theirs and mine by the time they started becoming relatively functional again my mental state wa fucking shot and i m surprised i m retaining enough sanity to not kick the shit out of them and anyone else all i got out of it wa the neverending fear that if i do anything to upset them they re probably gon na kick me out of the house more on this later now we re living with dad s mom who s crazy but still function much better than either of them and i would be fine around her except she doesn t even want me around and if dad keep getting fucked up then i would be kicked out while he get off with basically no punishment starting the year i quit my job i developed a porn addiction that i didn t even think wa possible until just recently i don t know if it s the main cause of all my problem but if it make me feel any better i ll quit on the spot i want to move out go to college start my own life and all that fun shit so badly but there is no way in hell i m gon na be able to pas class get financial help or even take care of myself in the mental state that i m in right now i m trying to avoid online college because i miss being able to go out and meet people and be a weirdo and there s no way i m gon na get anything done sitting in this house i don t have any idea on what to do except sit around and pray for some sort of miracle because i m completely fucked at this point i can t even bring myself to get out of bed most of the time sometimes i ll fall asleep for no reason and i can t tell if it s because i m freaking out too much or there s something else wrong with me after i ve spend the past couple day reflecting on everything that s happened and constantly fearing that my family will eventually throw me out i think i ve lost my mind i want to believe it ll pas but i have no idea anymore right now i think my best bet is cry until i get enough financial assistance to move out and start college but i have no fucking clue where to begin on that i don t care how low quality my life and housing is i just wan na get away from my crazy fucking family they re one of the few reason i have anxiety whatsoever the only other thing that really give me anxiety are project because i can never finish them presentation because i can never finish them properly and driving to a destination for the first time because my sense of direction is utter shit if i have any other random related thought i ll edit them in but for now i think this get my point across if this post doesn t belong here i ll move or delete it or whatever if this post seems like a mess it s because it is and i m sorry edit ok another thing that really fucking bother me is my parent are always telling me i m so smart and all that but then treat me like a dumbass i really don t feel smart at all especially after how much i struggled in grade middle school and how much trouble i have figuring out anything past basic stuff the only reason this give me anxiety is because if i can t do normal schoolwork there s no way in hell i m gon na be able to do college level work like should i even attempt college when i have nothing going for me edit i forgot to mention the reason i hate when they call me smart or anyone really is because it s just an excuse for me to do more work instead of it being some sort of compliment edit will having a sugar addiction give me anxiety make it worse because ever since i got to grandma s house i ve been eating a lot more sweet junk food because she won t stop buying it if i need to cut that out too i ll try my best tl dr family crazy terrible decision from everyone how do i stop feeling like shit and move out,1
fr want alter ego cool name feel like created alter ego cool name would feel invincible people would like omg wow im sttarstruck dont wanna sit think names bc greatness comes naturally forced u dig,0
"@SheffMHG @HWSheffield @davidluck13 'Mental health matters because we all have it and a mental illness can affect anyone. Depression, anxiety, whatever it is, none of them discriminate between who they affect' 25, Oughtibridge.",1
whole homo sapien social creature thing messed upupfront apologies walls text multitude reasons shouldnt thinking this family frustrations them cares overall sister always looked me love death like line work overall include coworkers ive met lot interesting people last years all im poor dont chronic health problems im completely honest lot people would kill life guess thats much different sentiment could always worse though am go court restraining order days ive broken mended heart times before different werent together long didnt take long get hurt still bruises part hand still numb antibiotics bite almost with remember screaming help realizing could actually loud knowing noone would answer chilling even moreso chilling knowing everyone taken story face value deep down im actually believed probably because great disgust im male like slowly one one ive shared trans mtf variety close me everyone listens doesnt get it still say hehim still deadname me dont look prototypically female im military present male almost everyday havent hrt long enough dont sound female hormones dont change it self taught shit hard challenge ill rise to find even closest dear wont care fact noone outright pushed away little comfort fact noone embraced old new either im here stray cat hold together  time everyone gets along with greater arms length distance social shell confusing anyone crack flavor anxiety native close relationships cant name describe  different psychiatrists one one becoming perplexed absolving responsibility almost always choosing run risks loneliness familiar pain ability precious somethingsomeone come from daydream affection persistent cant find anywhere did her abuse price im meant pay ive got howwhenwhere settled dont end it survive this could even come wiser resilient it im humbly bowing existence ive part play said much already anyone read this thank you wish well,1
kellymreynolds yep it s been week a lady at our church is watching her,0
actually wrong redflagaside itd family course people cant help disturbed death redflag devastated think pain could cause others that live dont want to life constant struggle difficult fulfilled uphill battle alive daytoday basis extreme mental illnesses dont know id diagnosed therapy hasnt helped far carry relatively well therapist doesnt really investigate ask difficult questions dont think thinks theres anything wrong is objectively something wrong me im happy person im constant pain im pleasant person around irritable moody often terrible mood resting bitch face hell short fuse people dont keep plans care people much hardest time showing it struggle express pain way people understand getting worse dont think want continue life never normal healthy happy person never been,1
@MoondanceK glad to know you both survived! JoJo got a bit pissed eh? ,0
truly truly one best movies love ive ever seen closely followed none before sunset technically another movie all since two people romancebr br this love real world ok thats people intelligent eloquent leads movie reading reviews pleases know many folks crazy dialogbased movies well makes before sunrise good dialog perfect real engaging funny hardly surprise jesse celine fall love coz fall love timebr br my favorite scene one coffee shop pretend phone best friends pretending said best friend perfect brings back moment fell love first time lifebr br i must say choice watch before sunrise watching before sunset like me watched sunset first hard shake feeling pity sadness two young lovers throughout entire showbr br once again greatest romantic movie books wonderful acting excellent script beautiful locations young love best,0
find kinda annoying people try sell religion street minding business guy walked dad tried make small talk started saying religious stuff pulled religious book answers kept trynna make us ask questions religion like dude no im happy satanist believe god im gay trans think god would hate anyway,0
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feel like there s just too many problem to address at this point everyday i try to hold out in hope of something somehow getting better but it somehow feel like i m never at the bottom of the hill at this point i m only alive so that some people don t feel sad or guilty but honestly i m getting to a point where i don t really give a shit if i m dead i won t have to experience or see the pain that they will ultimately feel from the death so who give a shit,1
people participate group projects  why im throw hands please like participate hard ask people know im social per hush type then know type ill type hey part project would like do they tell reponse either okay im it exclamation point optional i really understand part could assign something else explain do please part everyones gonna happy awkward,0
it so tired that im cry for no reason at all im about to try to get an hour and a half in for tonight half what i got last night,0
livehey im  year old girl th grade cant find reason wake tomorrow morning one friend anxiety terrible school never anything mom told if want know happens area  send ass there crying since then want dose know anymore im tired it,1
what happened to last night s twit they ve gone and run away,0
tired alivethings going hill longer remember ill list now cant keep job cant afford medstherapy help depression family moms side could care less me mom blames pill addiction know everybody said itll get better dont think thats case me life meant bad im track want life over,1
helpi need someone talk please dont want kill way,1
nobody else depressed  like sounds like death fucking close,0
@WoWDawgs As long as the diarhea is gone...  Sure.,0
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tired living every day wish die instantly car crash painlessly dread think surviving s s still clueless meaningless life,1
bro heat thing hot seriously got mad ice wizard said use ice magic cool down like yeah okay permafrost us talented bitch,0
teacher said someone class th best ever compositions ever seen grade  yes know him hes me great achievement life ask anything compositions time cheers  people see post,0
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fucking donemy dad night irrational hypocrite doesnt fucking idea talking hurts deeply nicest guy day fucking done bullshit give problems family get shit get one argumentwhen right mom cant say anything fight mention brother sister rewarded fucking shit stirrers friends  dont give fuck punching bag doesnt deserve wouldnt care disappeared grandparents thing keeping afloat ship sinking rapidly want end done unforgiving world hate bullshit want,1
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just gone done swimming wif my mom and my aunt!!!! ,0
thinking checking outbut im feeling defiant fuck life u win continue struggle fight scream cry happiness feeling pain life would know happiness dont know pain give wether get cancer aids god awful disease fight last breath life awful times also great theres always chance things could turn around maybe tommorrow hope hope keeps going thought,1
im scaredim scared hurting people lovebut every time think improve things always seems lead here mother thinks im useless think regrets me long remember ive wanted die things get bad im tired loop pain someone give easy way go,1
am soooo tired but not sleeping yet...not good!! did some more silk screen posters today...turned out ok  very andy warhol lol,0
nothing feels good morei went awful breakup two months ago complete mental breakdown cannot function study work suffering feel worthless useless never felt disgusted myself dont want more,1
messed beyond repairi even know start this november quit delivery job wrecked two cars handle stress anxiety working inside pizza store mood progressively gotten worse thought would able buy car tax return worked  jobs last year made close k got hopes high im even getting enough cover tuition one class community college ive always depressed since maybe   ive meds whole life im  now expelled high school freshman year buying drugs trying kill school hours kid  boy dating raped abused me abort genuinely thought kill himswlf would find someone else it went prison trying bomb school failed first semester college keep class work new born tried get job keep one either juggling child care job hours anxiety interacting people tried go college last year another abusive person dating kept going classes told allowed there dropped out friend helped get delivery job things ok month two boss job started blatantly abusive workers singling others out freaked tried jump bridge hospital stay put k debt total ive hospitalized  times ive tried kill  nothing seems get better every time try something fix situation backfires makes everything worse even see point trying anymore cant take care myself family resents me ive messed life badly theres really way get hole im considering trying end again permanently time,1
miss om aww i know i felt like that yesterday at work,0
for once in age i cant hear that bloody tap driping but now we have no cold tap in the bathroom rip tap,0
I don't care what n e 1 says Will Smith rocked back n the day.  ,0
lordreginald same but if they survived the great dookie depression they ll be alright,1
ohhh not very well and i ve lost my voice,0
know nobody cares friend recovered covid hes great thought id share,0
yeah I'm a master in the STEM fieldsSocial anxietyTense disposition Everlasting depressionMajor need for constant validation,1
Swing Night was great! hahaha  its my last swing night!!  :'(,0
"@RainBlackKat @arisenSpirit Also CSA laws already exist so anti-trans bathroom bills are 100% about pushing a marginalized group the fringes of society even further.Which, y'know, causes trans people to suffer from higher rates of depression and suicidal ideation, but go off I guess.",1
i see it a the only solution that will make this everyday pain i feel go away forever,1
@Carly109 love the new song. and the chorus is real nice and catchy.  gud job. who did the track and recording jordan?,0
push people away hurt anyonefor almost whole time ive actively suicidal thing keeping friends ones id never want hurt every time try kill myself get overwhelmed guilt sorrow id leave wake time depression pushed everyone loved away times happens own like girlfriend becoming ever distant however times tell im intentionally pissing people off cold ignoring loved most ive literally made new friends since started ive reached nobody want hurt people im already going to good days fear ill push last friend away next attempt make nothing holding back deep down im glad going nobody finally lay rest,1
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years addicted scrolling posting social media want take back control want go cold turkey anything want self respect time back day anyone tips cut down post days depressed need external validation social media addiction,1
whats point stupidill always inferior everyone struggle basic human things like speech eye conact social acting impossible dont think theres reason even try anymore,1
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whoever says pokemon stupid die movie superlative even shead tear celebei died cry much film touching animated thriller br br in fourth installment pokemon ash friends must stop bad jerk making celebei ultimate evil weapon dark ball time sam celebei travel time continuously hunted game hunters like part double battle sam apricorn pokeball if played pokemon gold silver crystal know isbr br i also enjoyed miramax charge instead warner brothers putting mini movie end great idea pokemon movie come life ever,0
i don t like the previously on skin thing that start at season two i like it when it went straight into the intro like before,0
gender reveal parties bs gender reveals parties dumb excuses parties stuff say things like baby may vagina hes boy shit like that cant decide babys sexuality cant anything cry sleep shit itself plus lets honest fancy things modern parents follow social standards,0
know whats next weekend everyone lets pppppppaaaarrrttttyyyy got apple juice got tacos got music never gonna give up lets celebrate survived another week,0
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ive lost hopemy give fuck broken fixed anytime soon hope anything anymore want death take away hug death open arms like old friend seeing none,1
change da world final message goodbye gn homies imma sleep,0
someone please inform fuck happening america friend pennsylvania im worried shit going nuclear treaty america russia expires february im confused means,0
going to sleep with lily and rocki lt johnathon is too busy watching batman movie http twitpic com y j,0
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it will be two year this november since my brother died from a fentanyl overdose this completely shook up the family dynamic i moved back home to be closer to them about a year before his death while i am happy i did get to spend his last birthday with him since he is gone and the family is all split up now i hate living here i used to make double doing the type of work that i do here where i last lived my job is actually financially draining me i am a caregiver aid for disabled kid and have been for over year but ever since my brother died i find myself in very dark place then i get really angry for a second because i know he is gone and never coming back then throw in the caregiver fatigue with the grieving depression and i just feel so crazy in my head sometimes one minute i m fine the next minute i hate everyone inflation isn t helping because i am having to skip meal to make sure my kid are fed which also isn t helping my mental health i dunno how do you all cope,1
give reasons stayanything besides parents love people sad purpose offense annoying want stay im tempted it,1
depression everywhere depression is killing the youth rn i hope that sh t don t come near u everything will be fine let s try again bro checkonyourlovesones,1
wish way could start life again destroyed body eating disorder made many mistakes spent past  days fantasizing something impossible,1
want to play resident evil but school and work getting in the way,0
getting blasted myselfits official today day crossed threshold bare going finish bottle red finish myself goodbye,1
"@babavaranasi yes, absolutely ",0
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im ephebophile deserve blow brains outim  fucking hate ephebophile mean id never act still attraction bad enough kill mean fuck cant normal guess ill try get drunk try end,1
my exam was easy today  lol and i was in asda at lunch at got excited wen i saw the mcfly dvd is a cd boxx haha  funny day ,0
well actually concerned myselfi feel like sw next step depression subreddit want make clear yes feeling certain way right im making light mocking anyone uses either subreddit im well right now fact im pretty scared myself always come im slope point helps feel better momentarily take away rest pain went talk someone hotline chat cute literally  deep area broke heart think people sitting waiting heard feel like do often feel like echo chamber sometimes too saw post made really mad guy took picture bullet father took life said please talk someone anyone done that ive reached out ive tried talk think people get though unless empathize deeply people make worse talk always feel afraid talk going locked up guess ive locked several times this psych unit put emergency hold days pretty much bullshit way wanted to either way meant temporary stay unless exhibit signs harm towards others point decide insurance pay longterm treatment say ive pretty crappy experiences psych unit myself people work working mental health ever want discourage anyone seeking although im snarky right probably would alive put cuffs throw psych unit wish people knew talking always going fix problem sometimes talking feels dangerous saying anything im trying discourage anyone speaking think good idea seen go badly seems like people want say go get help thats say thats give advice people said regurgitate without really thinking feel way want someone tell care want hug feel acknowledged way want go walk get house go something sitting around want friend listen judge understand happen anyone really different needs mine word scares many people almost shut immediately speak brick wall anyway im really good ate today took lot even that yes feeling suicidal yes pretty vivid thoughts it mood swings chaotic mind less slow research buddhism selfhelp stuff thought redflag state perception change temporary right fleeting could let one thought dominate us point ending all right im convinced always simple im tired feeling weak though thinking weak able push thoughts like apparently people can feel empty dead right inside feel complete hopelessness sense future anything like that reason articulate therapy past moved state currently living lost health care unable afford another therapist ive without therapy months know making worse need support,1
broke found money drink like usual drinking problem escaping feelings problem sometimes food tv games phone but thing week important several interviews high paying jobs broke anymore instead celebrating still want die want anymore alone financially supporting bf animals love want leave deserve better know broke lol,1
just found that if i use window to browse twitter com the firewall software will automatically turn off and the pc hang,0
kitten got ran  month old kitten split  truck morning crying past  hours do sight traumatized me left unwatched  minutes happens please make happy,0
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made sub ive done basics cant add rules  link comments  dm would like become mod  like said need mods add rules thats possible questions feel free ask rthequantumversehttpswwwredditcomrthequantumverse,0
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wavesmy suicidal thoughts come waves theyre hitting rn work fast food restaurant im currently hiding fact one coworkers sleeping manager hes already starting show favoritism idk weirdly contributing fact feel like everyone hates said shit wanting train job want out im fucking college dropout im failure familys eyes whats point cats even would probably happier roommate dont know want jump fucking bridge,1
come back brink stress put body caused lasting painthis kind weird question night almost hung myself im trying feel better feel like intense stress put night caused adverse effects body chest feels like going burst heart constantly pounding psychological trauma cause things happen anyone else felt this go hospital this im already least planning see psychiatrist,1
cant think fucking titlei hate fact cant good fucking anything everything anything important distinction saying wish could win every fucking battle could maybe win one every while course im talking anything major serious absolutely nothing life important all every stupid little fucking insignificant little problem encounter day day life specifically moment video games  years old playing video games back young even remember so parents tell me always part life every day well depression got hand almost completely lost interest altogether life played games another free time thing thats got fucking worked much life ive wasted bullshit absolutely fucking terrible video games mean comparing others kind way mean struggle play pretty much anything easiest fucking difficulty matter genre matter specific game cant name one single game ive ever good at now fucking pathetic even give shit mean anything effect anything life realistically whatsoever even bother worrying it principle thing waste life hours upon hours time day day out ever fucking do thing remotely close hobby have cant even fucking well cant anything well even fucking thing ive ever spent time throughout entire life could talking thing do matter anything else anyway thats really point here cant anything right suck even basic fucking shit everything do suck at im fucking terrible everything real skills anything relevant real world would actually mean anything anyone little things do do cant even fucking shit well whats fucking point trying anything cant even things every god damn day well theres literally point trying make anything theres  chance fucking every fucking step way reason alive absolutely nothing offer anyone theres reason person like even fucking exist yet anyway sick twisted sadistic fucked reason society decided ok someone to put take easy way out im fucking sick tired worthless waste space hope ever changing that im sick people giving fucking advice make better person whatever fuck flavor month bullshit want pretend actually fucking believe look like give shit happens fail everything say id rather stop trying make anything happen years trying ive come conclusion life worthless meaningless theres reason im alive theres fucking plan me theres fucking light ahead theres fucking reason anything ever change anyone thinks differently completely fucking delusional theyve level success life understand life like someone whos never succeeded literally anything complete fuck up hate world hate people it hate myself hate alive hate expected hate everything hate pretend like hate everything fucking want way out give shit gets better give shit worst behind me give shit nothing ever really gets fucking worse i just want out,1
thank i decided seek help next month afraid decided going see one doctors help me id like thank everyone helped here thank much time talk me huge thank people meet talked too day internet speak strangers makes anxious worse stay away good id like keep talking know better help people here know like even talk much someone side huge hug one person meet here really made diference ,1
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neighbor invited block party big problem feeling like everyone hates me live south middle eastern intersections strangers negative work retail wether working get antagonized random white people age  everywhere go mind business one tim gun still holster flashed cvs asked old man wart remover holding worked not dads egomaniac cannot talk cares right in mind win every conversation has always fault well anyways decided get bit try friendly baked baklava made three different kind dips made homemade chips went party worked beforehand made sure looked nice went bring food party surprise everyone typical middle class urburban type felt like rector staruing me waved lady really staring turned away ok whatever say hello kids playing driveway say hi sheepishly adult wanted talk me set dip tried start convo dads standing around nothing cold shoulder home leftover baklava dip fault giving like  minutes really tried guys introvert tried hard awkward felt like alien everyone looking studying one wanted talk me might looking much one guy think actually walked way around little tent table thing avoid me say would wayyyyy quicker walk past me halfstepped trees bushes idk know pathetic cannot help feel alone know need move north hard poor family friends besides dad thanks reading one cares sorry end rope here infinite amount patience many times put get rejected actually went neighbors block party spent night making dip baklava eating alone,1
must admit one favorite horror films time unique way john carpenter directed picture opening door many mockgenres chill bone whether first time watching fiftieth sound menacing horror michael meyers infamous scream jamie lee curtis gives film instant cult status great start independent era love music love characters familiar yet spooky setting simplistic nature villain random chaos all really rhyme reason killing first film giving us taste michaels true nature insane way brilliant beast question may never truly answered carpenter gives us  devotion amazing masterpiecebr br john carpenter master horror lately films caliber see ghosts mars halloween began powerhouse career ultimate film release greats always remember one film caused turn lights beware babysitting check behind closed doors never knew evil would appear next carpenter amazing ability bring world weaves power camera places images meyers places least expected giving perception murderer right next you loved every scene panned back michael watching distance without anyone wiser scary yet utterly brilliant loved scenes carpenter pulled fright nearly thin air would be minding business suddenly horrid mask would appear nowhere like characters thought trick eye carpenter gets you isnt michael ghost human or least think yet stronger mental ability main characters leads really dark themes unexplored symbolism even without that spooky filmbr br then enough michael vaporizing windows house carpenter adds chilling theme music still tapping piano keys mind constantly wondering meyers looking window carpenter found perfect combination visual frights chilling sounds foreshadow may happen unsuspecting victims next lethal done refreshing originality unique thrills anything released todays horror hollywood could muster carpenters halloween breath fresh air midst could rough horror year actual scares replaced paris hilton know quality quite samebr br finally would like say even simplistic nature opening murder film terrifying chilling use clown mask sent shivers spine way filmed elongated one shot using childs mask eyes still one best horror openings ever completely sets tone remainder film babysitter theme childish behavior carries michael throughout film art talent carpenter rolled one could literally speak hours upon hours film instead would rather go watch again worth repeat visit many times br br overall think one outstanding films cinematic history skip foreign films think going chance face movies leave budget tight carpenter slasher film genre singular movie redefined whole generation horror films still continues influence modernday horror treats lethal combination genuinely spooky murderer powerful cinematography events which normally amount much horror films beauty jamie lee curtis exactly makes halloween film rest sure freddy cool feel sympathetic jason michael real troubled loose lusting blood babysitters better br br grade  ,0
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i spent a lot of today thinking about killing myself i made joke about it my friend laughed because i do it all the time but today i really did think about it i miss my ex i want to be happy again but i haven t been able to move past them and i m afraid that i never will if i can t be happy why should i even stay here,1
Going to work for the first time in a year and a half  ,0
@MLescaut  Danke  *freu*,0
@Tas_Sakka And then send him back to his mother. ,0
seeking life adviceim one people who kill myself would probably generate reaction he everything going him which surface somewhat true grew without financial care world went top private university adult im perfect health decent physical shape im close family really good friendships dated continue date accomplished attractive women problem im early s completely financially dependent parents dropped law school decade ago pursue passion career arts received legitimate positive notices work generated meaningful commercial interest  years honing craft putting there made penny seem closer anytime soon meantime ive held lowpaying unpaid jobs internships recently quit job  years small nonprofit paid little clerical tasks eventually took marketing position someone else left knew nothing marketing relatively terrible it ended quitting year poor performance reviews im shysensitive feel highly unsuited office jobs seem fit coworkers discovered towards end time mocked behind back though still middle school degree useless liberal arts field despite hundreds job applications received responses positions ive interested applying to probably lack experience even know applying anymore true passion creative pursuits continue hold hope eventually people take interest creative work feels like pipe dream network draw upon find good jobs cant identify practical graduate degree would interested attaining best take yet another clerical position somewhere seems like ticking time bomb feel horrible guilt shame living nice apartment cant afford ive therapy years various prescription medications done little help also feel guilty even feelings people real traumatic experiences lives want die suffering pales comparison still think killing time want live life failed dreams zero passions want office drone want kind recognition intelligence creativity use way earns decent living earning money something hate enough creative pursuits satisfy hobby know killing would hurt care me obviously feel guilt or anything died reason enough stay alive one choose stay alive sole purpose preventing others unbearable grief feel like im failing life guidance disappointment welladjusted family often go sleep wishing wake up life feels incredibly disappointing unfulfilling given choice whether exist picked this said before know problems first world anybody advice move forward kind situation way trick brain caring passions finding meaning bland existence thanks helpadvice,1
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friend decided todaya fiend found girlfriend today history substance abuse prone depression remember great sense humor bright smile still cant believe it,1
watching movie mom sex scene came looked directly smiled whole scene sitting next mom,0
i m writing this in hope i get a sign but it s been year already and no sign of life getting better my mom hate me she already told me that my family doesn t give a shit about me and my friend they also don t i ve been trying to get a job i wa just fired from a job where i wa happy learning and getting good pay they just sent me an email saying they no longer need me no feedback except for you are great but not what we need i have tremendous stress a i have to help pay rent i don t want to be a burden anymore i really tried but i m not getting anywhere,1
anyone who read this pray for my grandma she s in pain,0
really need someone talk toim nervous posting dunno else hour night long history trauma mental illness therapy need someone talk right httpwwwredditcommessagecomposetosadthrowaway,1
DON'T GET SCARED. DON'T GET NERVOUS. DON'T GET MAD. JUST GET USE TO IT CAUSE ITS HERE AND ITS NOT GOING ANYWHERE! ,0
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ive hit rock bottom cant see anymore anxiety drugs covid lonelinessthis first post here anxiety disorder ptsd utterly alone started thinking lot death months ago  idea dying past days ive begun think killing myself im afraid make phone call anyone want family find out im putting here anxiety really bad months spend days feeling uncomfortable shake heart pounds feel disoriented experience depersonalization ive house several months due covid anxiety even going outside medications issues seem ever make symptoms go away fall relationship longterm became strained due issue family began smoking weed every day rarely saw sober also started treating badly sex ridiculing perform wanted got point started panic attacks wanted sex stoned covid came followed stayat home rules finally saw other apologized high around time said hed stop also apologized behavior everything seemed like right path  ghosted me three years together quit communicating week ago heart physically hurts answers started smoking weed time also started could headspace was made feel terrible  depressed anxious cloudy headed confused swore id house covid came broke promise brought house ive smoked every evening since absolutely hate it oldest kid transferring college far away weeks coming home weekends anymore youngest kid planning leave distant college well came shock thought theyd stay community college first two years kids father lived nearby coparent moving away well family now company ive worked thatn  years restructuring end year lose office work  home longer see workmates possible may decide worth keeping fire me might able save job move states away leave home  years family friends state gyms closed social events shut down travel allowed ways could even try connect another human gone days pass even know day unless meeting reminder comes im working belong anymore purpose physical mental hell utterly alone,1
im hypocriteim drunk fuck apologize advance errors know ill regret tomorrow threw husband surprise birthday party today spent lot money lot time lot effort putting together real desire get drunk initially getting drunk better idea going another ptsd episode went one one worst around    weeks ago know ill regret posting tomorrow know irrational side control point however rational enough harm myself im hypocrite want help others give or try to words wisdom am dont actually shit together cant even help let alone someone else,1
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Shane responded to my lame mothman pun and any depression I had has been cured,1
perfectly ripe and fresh banana go in the bag arrive at office it look like it ha been hit by a freight train poor banana,0
best thing one say film traffic brought attention superior british miniseries traffik many people noted current film suffers truncating story accommodate short attention span cinemagoers turnaround time theater owners measure films success overpriced food salesbr br i first recorded mini series  shown public tv watched many times whole documentarystyle series strong element tragedy doom it characters moving toward eventual fate strongest three tales pakistani family forced city find way keep body soul together poppy crop burned army staged show force put benefit western politicians hardships family similar rickshaw pullers family city joy eventually farmer finds work compromises pride honestybr br the pakistani segment film particular relevance today fight supporters al quaeda gives understanding support movements among disadvantaged poor pakistan afghanistan rarely receive money going countries film makes point farmers see barely  aid supposed encourage grow cropsbr br with american inability see anything terms black white  good guys v bad guys  interesting see another view black white shades grey br br possible spoiler ahead problem story rather things continuing before would real life work fiction wrap bad guys getting coming them that fine piece work kind see rarely cast outstanding german pakistani locations helped give film different feel what change made seeing germans something villains wwii film,0
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i know my problem arent a bad and probably much le important and im probably dramatic for feeling this way but please,1
im unable love anyone apart ex fiancee im lonelyin august  living nice apartment partner seven years engaged two years wonderful relationship travelling world together shortly engagement sister passed away breakdown ampxb spent next two years trying get back feet emotionally unstable lean ex support me although accommodating  months so eventually started seeing doctor anxiety disorder cope relationship anymore ended leaving someone else ampxb first committed getting better whatever took getting relationship back track got good medication went gym daily went vacations alone busy stuck home made quite friends one biggest issues many friends lean on myself course also missed her ampxb still person left   years ago reached couple times told missed me contact months asked last month relationship give yes answer even though friend facebook friends see still together ampxb  months ago tried let go went lots dates even got together girl little while cant feel attracted romantically anyone ex dream multiple times week wake thinking sometimes want drive place pick another incredible date together days seem past point im starting another breakdown cant her want horrible struggle end,1
want diebut dont want kill self,1
despite rage hes still rat cage httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvoarhkpfdrchttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvoarhkpfdrc,0
can someone help me out and give me the most effective way to just get lost money is not a problem nor making a mess,1
my on and off boyfriend of two year left me after i got diagnosed with bpd le that two week ago he decided to read the bplovedones subreddit and like yeah i will not invalidate their experience but the way they speak of people with bpd is dehumanizing everything seemed fine sunday and then he read the stuff monday and dipped on tuesday i don t want to be alive because i don t want to hurt anyone else and i feel so disconnected from the world it s not because he left it s because i feel so alone and i don t want to hurt and i don t want to hurt anyone else i also feel so guilty for the shitty thing i did do i m worried i will never change and die alone i don t know who would love someone like me after what i have done,1
gets little difficult day keep goingif assisted redflag option us burden society point im ready pack go take chances somewhere,1
here i am after another failed suicide attempt back to the stupid fucking mental health hospital so they can shove more pill down me i take fucking med for my mental and physical health the lastb year i have tried to shoot hang stab od and purposely crash my car on the interstate at night i barely eat anymore i drink bottle a day just so i can fucking stand myself my mom fucked me up she tortured me for year cutting burning beating and my father knew about it the court failed me when i spoke out parent got divorced my dad took his baby my older sister and said fucking cya now i feel like i m never enough for fucking anyone i just lay in bed now just slowly killing myself i sleep so much that i m getting bed sore if i do eat my jaw hurt and is sore now i force myself to sleep i live in a fucking stupid town where i m the laughing stock i m known a the so people just make fun of me and it s ironic the good fucking christian s that pretend to be something and i get dragged to church and i see these good people that make fun of me me a god damn fucking stranger i hate it i hate this fucking world and everyone in it i get used i had a large some of money and during my worst time when i wa constantly in and out i had friend and people the like me ask me for money it got to the point where people weren t comfortable talking or hanging out but would still ask for money for fuck sake i m such a disgusting fucking piece of shit filth that ylthey couldn t even see me i would be asked and would go fucking put money in mailbox and gas cap in car this is me this is me fucking stupid worthless existence i look forward to the next day hoping it ll be the day i die i d fucking shoot myself but for fuck sake i can t even put the gun in my mouth and pull the trigger without fucking it up i live in a fucking town of k people and there is only one place for therapist and fucking therapist is what they have i see my therapist every month then of course in a small town the last time i tried to kill myself i had er nurse who i know think i wa still unresponsive curtain in front of me and i got to listen for 0 minute about what they thought about me called me name made fun of me this is my life this is my worthless stupid life i want it to fucking end more than anything,1
theekween thelmasherbs make people forget unpleasant event such a depression anxiety loss of a loved one heart break and any traumatic event,1
anything worth allive really fucking tried cant seem find anything worth living for everything pain end finished cutting thighs wanted noose find anything with im goddamn tired,1
marge inovera i tried tweetdeck once and i hated it with a passion or it hated me i m not sure,0
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is there anyone here who managed to get out of depression if so how did you do it i got stupid lost my creativity and memory lost my energy just everything i am a useless piece of meat who can t even do the most basic thing this life is not worth living i don t want to spend my 0 like this where do i start and what are the thing i should do,1
today would be a perfect day for a wedding!  happy wedding day @lifeasjean and @ryancmartin!!,0
loneliness killsi asked advice lot tried follow it things love tried happy myself works enter relationship feel companionship time time cant that come back every time love enough im  now get see people grow persons partners like positivity around virgins people never relationship iml still someone learned single thing lags decade behind matter people grow learn get know give want know none it im basically cowardly teenager every person asked turned down blame them interesting learned things free time cook build library home read lot means nothing dull always alone makes hobbies feel empty im traveling anymore nobody share souvenirs with come home room like books around hopes forget worthless existence look back fondly upon books ive read thats it good memories fantasy none actual life build connections fictional characters none humans dropped clubs going to seeing people reminds takes worthy friendship companionship cant basic part human existence companionship im fine stopping altogether quit life reach age  finish things want finish im off lonely life never worth it,1
@SaharaDamore @girlonlaptop Maybe.  It was when Obama was in town the other day.  ,0
recently saw film d film festival hollywood polarized d gray glasses red  blue much fun watch film audience print excellent d perfect performances top added fun surprise ending that supposed share fellow movie goers least according movie trailer poster people howling laughter todays standards probably comedy horror added dimension d complete cobwebs bats coming screen film entertaining romp s horror,0
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want do im genuinely curious choices people want future like career choices people like people want go college high school weve asked degree want pursue next year im getting associates degree high school right automatically science think im going pursue music degree want go college somewhere obscure europe like czechia slovakia become puppeteer like puppets work either musician like playing clarinet composing want feel need it,0
 spaghetti westerns made got top twenty somewhere believe received reviews gemma excellent this van johnson good though dubbed voice little killter thats charm italian style beautiful photography excellently staged action supporting characters well played severity racist streak bad guys pretty tough even todays standards creates emotional depth gemmas character situations take place absolutely fantastic score luis bacalov see wonderful wide screen dvd japan spaghetti must have,0
see one empty platitude im actually going kill myselfit pisses much seeing shit like it gets better redflag permanent solution temporary problem like fuck  know going get better problems temporary people like assume people suicidal irrational something idk get better us,1
worried dadi got text aunt asking call dad worried answer her talked earlier today call goes right voicemail hes answering anyones texts nobody knows exactly hes working somewhere missouri hours away anyone know lives anything try help point although really remember this mom says admitted  years ago kept hospital days prescribed medicine good while last couple years apparently sort thing becoming pattern he took meds ago hes posted dramatic things facebook make everyone comment whats wrong do etc done anything hard worry anything do,1
"You could laugh at her clothes, PR, and her boring interviews but don't you dare question her depression bitch.",1
hurt film everyone aunt matilda comparing illustrious predecessor always going hurt show take western darned good show discover characters lonesome dove wind situations start such as two texas rangers live adventure wind dead town gus manage lose love life performances good see exact mannerisms characters road actors good job cinematography superb music live legendary score nearly two decades past impossible task still finebr br it also helped three episodes see miniseries anymore heck downright impossible see two part telefilm daysbr br fans western rejoice,0
i just don t know how to,1
cant even google kill painlessly anymorethis sucks google try find information get bombarded bullshit redflag prevention hotline ive called made convinced kill myself sick trapped here anyone else close it im fairly close closer ive ever life shit,1
know im average dude mean treat like guy  ron almighty rat king,0
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@uliwitness that depends on how well you pull it off! ,0
emotional powers characters dominick eugene things hollywood make anymore one emotional sensitive heartfelt movies ever seen roy liotta tom hulce supporting actress jamie lee curtis deliver oscar winning caliber performances enough words express great movie is sure people sentimental movies may care much rest us dominick eugene rest us movie goes right heart sole compassion humanity never forget film everbr br spoilers belowbr br the simple yet eloquent story masterfully told eugene medschool intern faces long hours demanding work load hospital fraternal twin brother dominick born  minutes earlier little slow awkward brain damage due victim abuse father a heartbreaking moment found film leave tears eugene aka geno faces painful dilemma must decide whether finish medical school would mean accepting residency another city leave dominick aka nicky behind forfeit rest education take care him nicky helps pay brothers medschool tuition working trash collectorbr br the questions ethics morals responsibilities masterfully blended landmark movie gino thinks nicky might making progress toward independence dominick turns around winds things like helping drug dealer tying use faulty cord finds dump electrical appliancebr br larry the character nickys partner garbage route fills gullible dominicks head kinds stories like geno jennifer his girlfriend tutoring clinical pharmacology going atlantic city gambling away money deep down see larry cares him rounds nicky also befriends little boy find also beaten father end result also tragic pain see nickys face happens speaks volumesbr br the sensitivity two brothers share overstated enough nicky wants loved look acceptance anyway can ie goes church loves hulk hogan geno loves nicky anything world brother become independent enough geno pursue dream becoming doctor brilliant film gotten tons recognition deserved unfortunately came around time rain man dealt similar issue however like dominick eugene better far stronger emotional component forewarned movie aimed right tearducts kleenex handy film,0
overheardatmoo wish i could have participated this time,0
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heres difference horny horny  see cute girl horny  man wanna cum face arent horny  man id cuddle death,0
im diagnosed ocd couple years ive suspected ocd want visit psychiatrist kinda went it days ago finally decided visit psychaitrist appointment today yeah ocd take antidepressants yaaaaayy,0
@glennsmyth haha those were the days!!  you should sell some of your oldskool mixtapes on ebay!,0
first saw ice age subiaco cinemas came out back   time even liked it sort warmthbr br weve video number years matter many times watch it never gets boring one element makes different d animations made time  characters particular home leave nomads thats really refreshing uplifting watchbr br also individual character surface appear putting other theyre really good friends well characters charms even bad guys sid sloth charming annoying overaffectionate naive sort way manny adorable depressed reclusive character forthbr br another great point movie beauty animation environments characters modeled originally clay giving film artistic edgebr br another aspect adds feel movie gender means little hardly female characters really realize watch times even little effect way view film due this theres also mention nuclear family would really pathetic setting like ice agebr br all all ice age great movie proof much effort put d animations shrek  incredibles came out,0
@prongsiedear I made a mistake on when I'm going to UNCC...don't plan the party on June 12-13.  ,0
chemically physically possible things get better me tldr endi got diagnosed severe adhd dream job work recording studio  out work around this moping spent past  years life learning audio technology sound engineering stage work everything inbetween dad forhire bass player years still works av assorted events meeting people networked years deep look music tech work scene like extremely networking heavy entry bar set high significantly luck based maybe   years get established make steady career first several years require  hour weeks full dedication help live oklahoma music scene since s neared end highschool worked hard develop least social skills would need college hit hard nearly killed myself tutoring help they literally told get checked mental disability getting less socially awkward sure becoming lot angrier everything well took advice got tested expecting negative this silly thought nope brain chemically deficient problem medication might enough get college plus give accommodations make easier just even less ready real life workaround adhd music space enough sure maybe could happy life eventually would find something else would give recording studio dream forever wish could it nah im done stupid want part anymore nothing left me tldr adhd means cannot get dream job know learning career  years know cant done im making assumptions one things world actually know stuff about workarounds chances hopes thing happen,1
dont get happeningim usually dead inside dont usually cry laugh past  days crying much something like litteraly crying couldnt even sleep made little happy know still emotion im sad depressed,1
damn guys want girl cuddle like idc fuck want cuddle told im loved,0
m since covid hits barely got go outside first months okay people talk to now everyone seemed go lives cannot prolong fb activity feel depressed seeing people friends also happen graduate last week highschool one top students however feel like going college spend time phone reading books seemed trivial wish killed myself also feel familys frustrations confusion take college suicide mind lately feel waking every day go monotonous schedule loneliness depression redflag,1
Cleaning and getiong rid of skin on a chicken is so wrong! :/ i hate doing it!  but i love cooking though lol food is my best friend ,0
ok like please someone explain smelling cherry perfume whole night like constantly get whiff like someone walked past streets u got smell like dont used perfume parents dont one house even uses cherry smelling items happening,0
power get live life impasse whatever means guess im going toss food outside something relevant individual not sure thats true honest power also please expose location currently trying die,0
i promised my girlfriend i wouldn t try to end it again but i m too weak tonight i m on the phone with her right now i don t know what to do i just want it to stop but i don t want to make her cry again i m worthless,1
Hi  school model search @ work today: AKA employees get to dress up like they're from the 80s. WIN.,0
chance watch blind spot barcelona enjoyed tremendously thought one captivating movies id seen long time one best points film meet new fresh faces great actors behind unexpectedly brilliantly filmed great locations three heroes share chemistry screen runs across film making thrilling set outstanding landscapes spotted original eye the dops work great makes feel like discovering first time mood desert floods everywhere even scenes filmed streets los angeles san francisaco seem natural extension it story rides smoothly beautiful settings lead bittersweet ending perfect climax perfect journey construction film master craft skilled use innovative resources like stills stitching dannys memories film compare handmade pieces work rare enjoyable blind spot achieves capture essence desert taking universal common ground anyone us feel discoverer native,0
Sofia!!!! you wont  read this till you get back youll be waiting in line right now.lol. THE DAY IS FINALLY HEREE LOL HAVE SO MUCH FUN!! ,0
my spouse say they are a highly sensitive person based on some reading that they have done they re also a mental health professional so they may not be jumping to conclusion too soon but i have some concern they have a lot of mood swing low self esteem and self confidence when they re not working they re almost always doom scrolling on instagram they have no interest in outdoor activity and they re also easily affected by the issue of client they see a a part of their job i see all this and tell them that they may need to see a therapist themselves because i had similar symptom and got mental health help myself but i m almost always met with a snappy response saying that they re just highly sensitive and don t see the need for therapy thought anyone,1
going kill myselfhey bs ive past months realized shouldnt alive entire existence waste really shouldnt here im going end life im going corner store im gonna buy rope end fucking nightmare all even song im gonna listen im strangled death rope song httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvihmqcg im  certain exactly want ive turned emotionless cunt desires care emotion passion anything want die badly even things get better still want die dont see ever happy again,1
i m really desperate i m a yr old guy with no job even if i graduated from college no girlfriend never kissed or hugged a girl in my life no real friend most of them are toxic amp manipulative nothing special about me i don t know if i m pretty or ugly smart or dumber i m so confused about my self image it s like i live in hell get rejected by ton of girl ton of job offer i feel like i will live my whole life virgin single jobless loser i m too nice too shy always extremely anxious and stressful dealing with brain fog bad accent shitty voice low self esteem zero talent nothing good about me only good at math amp coding i can t hold a good conversation with anyone only with my mom amp my brother i feel kinda confident speaking and it s been a while i m depressed living with a dark mood i feel like i m a loser amp i can do nothing i can t even go to gym practice favorite hobby or enjoying any movie youtube video video game etc i don t know what to do with my life i only think about option therapy ending my life sorry for my english it s not my native langage,1
@mr_gadget  Do you care if @aplusk quits tweeting? http://tinyurl.com/pkrppa via @msaleem // nope quit talking about it do it now ,0
is physically tired but can t sleep,0
redeemable qualityim trying hard negative towards suppose working regard nothing really changed terms feelings plans though still mess gun time time know  one step time guess anyway one thing feel essential still getting stronger feel like redeemable quality  way really change look everything else garbage  ive come accept that chance have get stronger maybe confidence selfesteem finally rise maybe ill good enough talk to maybe ill stop alone itll take hard work im dedicated im hoping sink enough effort get routine going everyday work change feel myself know bothered share  suppose offer support clinging one thing save you,1
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right dielast night caved in started harming breaking internally please get wrong used love living despite redflag attempts illnesses etc living still something good afflicted conditions slowly eroding capability live sanity mobility upkeep etc feel though ready end life im sure yet want another failed attempt want make sure works cant risk condition getting worse point long attempt end life realized wanted last night wave happiness washed me first time long felt calm peaceful nothing noone able provide feelings since first redflag attempt child please bring family etc try talk this guess part here cannot spend whole life existing purely purpose people feeling better comes point consider myself continue put through feel though right die were going die want make happen sooner rather later tried treatments professionals alternatives everything could find conditions continue get worse want die dignity decrepit unable move ways want live knowing feelings peace happiness still exist makes wonder life could been like this know ill this left unchecked know will comments appreciated feel conflicted deeply saddened right now,1
"@LiiLiii el shar ma yjech  , I feel better than theis morning,  but I stell feel deazy, it's nothing compared to the tommy pain.",0
today i felt like i wanted to die but i didn t really what sitting with someone in a dark place really mean depression shadowself emotionaleducation http t co fwhl9d jue,1
plastic bagfor past days ive putting plastic bag head hoping time wont untie it theres life future dont try convince me wanna get thoughts head,1
become extremely difficult find good horror movie anymore thought movie good thrillerbr br could better production values kept going suspense twists real reservations seeing movie because cover afraid would excessively bloody gory wrongbr br although lot scary parts lot suspense drama toobr br the acting dead line better would expect micro budget horror flick characters believablebr br the movie really thrilling quite scary moments makes grab seat ending credits rollbr br because production values the sound good example ,0
think tonights nightim tired im tired job im tired school im tired alone im tired nothing day nothing fun anymore people used ask wanted life idea anymore maybe never did friends care guess lost years ago quit swim probably biggest mistake life filled them better tried harder better friend fucked up another one failings tried much harder could done much more could much more im even sure im making post know me care last time made post like told cut self pitying arrogance sure expect  pills  mg citalopram here im sure thats enough kill me im also drunk another bottle generic version lamisil here lamisil even real medicine think prescribed fix weird fungal thing toenail would even anything probably not maybe im lucky enough send way maybe ill end psych ward might fun find out funny feel depressed now sad either kinda relieving choice could bottle maybe go somewhere better im sitting staring bottles old swimming trophies ribbons guess thing good at real accomplishment  fucking years talking friend today whos swim meet would give another one would give anything one day high school swim good old days go ruin i miss days never get back i im sorry fucked up fucked badly done better im sure ranting boring point guess ill stop care,1
"@justtidbits Thank you and yes we are expecting #5  Not sure yet when I'm due, ultrasound on May 14.  Growing fast ",0
scott henderson alan curtis meets mystery woman fay helm bar invites see show him agrees condition swap information  even names sometimes best kind dates however returns apartment inspector burgess thomas gomez team waiting him scotts wife murdered alibi mystery woman noone remember seeing and result this scott sentenced die murder wife secretary kansas ella raines convinced guilt sets find woman save death penaltybr br this good film viewer  behind attempts kansas get truth follow memorable scenes eg pursuit mac bartender andrew tombes night claustrophobic venue cliff drummer elisha cook jr takes hang out drink dance jams friends blatant depiction sexual desire standout part film everyone sweats intensely rhythmically duration scene ella raines good female lead role thomas gomez makes likable policeman alan curtis started well confused innocent man arrested performance took left turn became thoroughly unpleasant kansas reason god knows stuck himbr br the film keep guessing murderer know halfway film matter fact adds tension dramatic development story kansas discover going get hell out good film great scenes although elisha cook jr memorable role never like anything see in someone hand necktie,0
alternative kids yall think ekids making new subculture posers too think theyll die eventually ekids like inside tiktok thing every kid tiktok days ekids dont really music genre ideologies mainly fashion alternative tiktok think ekids,0
missed and the hill now i have to catch up tomor but i have real housewife ugh i need to figure out my priority,0
upon stonenow sit upon rock listening creek walked stuck home could longer resist told parents goals bliss happen one might say youre life beautiful every day beauty ones perspective days like inclined take something dear mine dear others debatable none shown graces attainable pushed far today last life crumbled last longer attempt rebuild broken revealed found owl next stone lifeless cold want fate would like trade theres response expected suffered wished away home sit waiting upon stone,1
i ve been having some sleepless night lately with some racing thought i cry everyday because i fear i might have bipolar or schizophrenia the fear use to be that i had a heart problem stroke brain cancer etc now i worry so much that i might be going crazy i have a constant ear worm and an inability to sleep please help pray for me,1
guy considered best friend told go kill gutsive suicidal around two years now used self harm daily time yesterday two friends accused selfish problems meant everything care others guy thought best friend told low eq maybe theyre saying true maybe whine around lot im boring sad person trivialises peoples problems deep try help everyone try care others me anyway told reason happens im severely depressedim medication suicidal used cut myself best friend told ive whining long time told go ahead kill myself told guts also said home would trouble then know do attempt it,1
fuck everythingi fucking hate life hate much everything shit done,1
spend time researching redflag methodsim unemployed refuse work job amplify depression want work walmart although im pressured family take job become leech brother would covering next months rent cant live shamebut perhaps people believe might able to im tired running around things best interest others im tired listening advice others taking it realizing never i wanted all instead use researching abilities know things im good at find effective way completely obliterating form consciousness person called ever possessed people hate me probably cant feel hate side feel anything anymore,1
sad broken toe sad multiple things wont get honestly dont know productive anymore also closed door toe painkillers bandage toe hate life point,0
Party any1 ,0
Love it or Hate it ... I don't care ... Just play ! ,0
guess got attention looking formy dumbass thought would good thing get random people raid spanish teachers class shes jerk somehow trace without evidence im pc use vpn things prevent seeing talking expelljuvie go juvie im offing myself wish luck friends mental health problems bitch top hurts me let guys know whats happening later wish luck,1
@MrPeterAndre just wanted to send my love and wish you all the luck in the world ,0
college makes want commit redflagi hate college much want get get job live life stressed every goddamn moment feel like school completely consumes  im exhausted morning sit hours lectures studying rest day less  hours studying high enough quality work feel insanely guilty myself would force work late night tired cant concentrate late also makes failure  years old never internship meaningful job done research care major picked hated least would make somewhat employable hate schools stupid fratboy workaholic culture every moment filled anxiety thinking everything wrong never amount anything choice though parents would never let leave transfer again desperately want school over still two years ill probably phd thats way really successful industry something like that stress constant selfhatred shitty people make want end now want go rest college want out,1
so my husband i are planning to get a dog in may and we ll need an esa letter for our apartment in chicago i do have anxiety and have seen a psychiatrist and therapist but not anymore due to scheduling conflict my next appointment with my pcp is in june earliest available appointment and i m not even sure she can write an esa letter what s the best way to proceed there s so many different website for obtaining a letter but i don t know who to trust any help is much appreciated,1
planned everything tested stuff see could work actually scared it decided tell long distance boyfriend it break feel guilty online friend going block himi know sounds bad going easier forget way cannot seem thoughi want die alone think asshole scared hurt lot really want end mental hospital would worse dying would fucking hell me scared,1
need urgent helpneed something badly need kind escape relief dont want go hospital talk anyone need options else feel though might hurt need options something help relax feel ok right,1
question answer time people actually fake cancer relationships get internet points like low person that also percent people lie according you,0
long story short someone made fun of someone s stutter in front of me cause they weren t aware i have a stutter it s mostly related to anxiety after that i kept asking myself how do i know who i can trust and in that time i told myself i felt crazy for thinking this way i told myself everybody can be made fun of for different aspect of their life and most people won t even bat an eye i wa going about my day until someone on my post said they thought this way and it led them to be paranoid and go psychotic this is my biggest fear and after reading that i almost had a panic attack and it took me 0 0 minute to calm down ever since then i can t shake this thought i realized tho the reason i think everyone care i stutter is because i m looking through my perspective not theirs i realized i wa treating my stutter a my identity and not an aspect of me if someone make a lighthearted joke about it depending on how they say it it could just be a joke and not devaluing me a a person realizing this actually make me feel like a huge weight ha been lifted off of myself but it freak me out cause i also heard before people lose touch with reality they feel great but now that i found a way out of this thought that ocd ha attached itself to it s still going over scenario that never even happened or will happen going over certain people and i m asking myself would they make fun of your stutter in this scenario i m afraid it s because i m paranoid but i think it s cause ocd is trying to keep a grip on this fear it s le of a fear people are making fun of me now and more of a fear of believing they re making fun of me doe this mean i m going crazy since the original thought didn t start a an ocd obsession,1
make neck stop bleeding cut shaving enough blood coming dangerous enough blood mom think tried killing myself do,0
a way guns,1
i tried to tell my boyfriend another family member and a few different friend how much i ve been struggling and have been completely ignored i can guarantee if it all got too much for me they d all be the first to ask why didn t she tell u,1
theoryofmind woppygook omniaaaa i said no to the crackberrryyy time to depart with my flip phone,0
can t sleep i have to wake up in hour,0
feel like shiti took  grams ingredient tylenol exactly why good day now hate life now want work,1
"@HerRoyalHeinous -again, it's overcoming the inertia created by depression, to actually do the edits, sent it to proof-readers etc. And I've been noodling along with sequels to both Square Peg AND Strangers & Pilgrims. But I'm feeling so ill lately it makes creative thinking both hard & agony.",1
anyone else friend ltlt ill put warning cuz touchy subject wanna cause ptsd anyone gtgt anyone friend everyone loves hate time one everyone vents even tho cant handle anymore one kid allowed step line start venting cuz start calling self centered well im friend if even call friend try best appeal everyone somehow turns me best keep everyone together everyone comes like im miracle worker ive carried burden many peoples redflag thoughts even parents struggling hard carry that tell people cant take care anymore get mad me ask whats wrong keep know comes next finally pry me start venting thats everything crumbles why allowed vent anymore huh tell time try vent push away saying cant anymore you allowed vent im not self centered hear words echo over made self centered one call selfish instead id understand bit better become self centered honestly haunts me idk anymore friends ruining mental health seem understand actions tell need take break them look like one stirring trouble hurt know one problems,0
@GirlsWithWings Staying for as long as we can stand it  Good sugg. on bikes. Need to get a hitch for the car for the carrying rack.,0
#3turnoffwords I'm wearing tights! ,0
so rylee grace wana go steve s party or not sadly since it easter i wnt b able do much but ohh well,0
need help look ugly  years whenever look mirror saw really beautiful care others said today bathing looked mirror felt ugly also relative hate much face seems resemble lot today feel like people look good least average taken seriously person like neglected whole life,0
even keep going im useless world hates ityesterday average day went work job friendly small talk fun colleagues shift over sat car drove home switched light set pc chair booting pc comparably good day could happy felt nothing went online played games talked online friends went bed woke next day went back pc looked steam profile page looking high level  smile felt sad life im skyrocketing steam level compensate emptiness soul one real life friend hardly ever meet hes deeply buried uni work live alone pets interact neighbours online friends impressive steam account yet switch pc feel nothing nothing hobbies everything ever dedicated energy eventually dropped tried learn drawing express myself dropped picked bass make music dropped tried think third activity write here dropped lost motivation life day playing games chatting people never met life pass time work fast go back empty steam life online addiction probably started young five six years old got first pc game playing games way dad found interact me lot got drawn towards games more first always single player games thenth grade school discovered online gaming fun new exciting totally emptied anything else interest in spent hundreds maybe thousands bucks pixels neglecting everything else ever interest in top that seriously dislike job im number single cog machine instead something like im good at rot away company simple worker im pretty good english especially consider even native language yet never got make anything useful besides chatting people online first redflag thoughts came second year apprenticeship which different company job now five years ago now stood top floor warehouse looked ground floor jumping seemed like solution emptiness colleagues hated me vented anger every day already knew job nothing me wanted end thing kept away jumping fear pain landed stupid way survived seriously injured broken life even now stumbled back edge shook head went work ever since then wish could bring it minutes pain ends then keeps alive nothing really fear pain want end redeeming features nobody likes me parents divorced family shambles job crap cant get better one cant imagine id ever graduate better school bad maths cant end,1
want kill today mehplanning killing around   today middle class white male never anything go wrong ive never happy know why live never happy etc etc also know cry help im okay that im almost positive need someone say stop dickhead dickhead ill okay today looked pictures people actually struggle life told look shit life fucking easy compared that know never life hard get anything it need someone say youre white middle class privileged dickhole kill yourself anyone understands weird feeling my life good im not comment thanks,1
theekween depression anxiety trauma thelmasherbs,1
ive given upi need someone talk to im close it im new reddit idk dm thing works btw,1
im losing myselfi cant fucking handle anything want throw wood chipper regret after beat piss thighs hands theyll bruise itll hurt walk again scratched hell scalp face fucked hair silently screamed screeched gods name him pent hardly act cant say anyone thats fucking dramatic feel like lunatic stuck head imagining getting ripped apart hurting fucking school work procrastinated fucking due tomorrow end term want eat shotgun shell paint wall red brain phone silently girlfriend couldnt bring say thing despite raving happened hung eat dinner silently stewing half hour even though help words away want beat legs grind crunch hydraulic press want rip hair scalp pieces im losing goddamned mind saw sticker teachers door said god gave life thought youd enjoy it shouldve thought twice end this end me,1
i just wanted to put it out there for after the fact,1
almost jumped off a bridge the past two night i don t have the energy to walk to it rn but sitting in my bathroom with all my pill i m so tired i don t want to leave my cat and have him stuck with my body but i m so tired and tempted,1
guys doing wanted ask everyone bc tf,0
movie would typically watch  morning got stop overbr br shia labeouf demonstrated young actor here could handle demanding roles fact handed roles last two years testament abilitybr br it really movie sure others involved pale comparison rolebr br this time gold reserved privileged victory opened masses much way tiger woods opened golf racesbr br like harry vardon stephen dillane said lord northcliffe peter firth  if mr ouimet shia labeouf wins tomorrow hes best is father was much money hes got bloody is ill thank remember that go get charged up,0
kill make familyfriendsso sadi sorry spent whole life trying make others happy making happy restful may finally dying live others basically,1
christieeee aww i m so sorry dearyy,0
anyone else interested joining military trying find friends call duty army man bleh,0
Doing Nothing! DOMINGO! ,0
so my wish didn t come true go to hell carolina,0
know life none cares ask decided talk place still talk year ago started felling empty angry time lost interests everything became boring fake  tried tell everyone know want feel way ignored acted like see me became another person insecuredepressedsad none ever tried ask day bullied that instead helping started self harming myself tried end life many times lately became aggressive mad everything even simple thingsand yesterday severe mental breakdown mom saw teary eyes even aski really cannot fight anymore tired lost really know life except ending itbut religion cannot let itin end sorry talking much nowhere else cannot keep anymore,1
feel like one way enddo ever feel sanity slip im aware depression feel stupid thinking wouldnt come back,1
urgent convince mum let stay go vacation basically mum brought tickets benidorm spain leave tommorow first excited gonna family thing aunt  year old cousin older male cousin friend uncle gonna fun till gonna leave  days uncle friend aswell gonna stay  days im anti social type cant make new friends really talk cousins friend im also fan beach going stay cousin mainly ruined im gonna stay  middle aged women one little girl yeah shes cute shes  years old annoying normally gonna cousin uncle cousins mate one apartment whilst ladies stay another honestly  fun last time went holiday boring annoying thing life wanted say mum spent  basically cant say dont wanna go cuz spent much arent richest shes disabled women honestly dont know cuz basically gonna ruining summer really wanna stay rn normally leaves country easy someone gonna hard stay friends could invite,0
thought redflag comfortingim senior year high school everything kinda getting me im worrying college im completely socially awkward speaking skills even drive yet gonna year start im completely dependent parents idea adult things become overwhelming thought dying almost calms way almost like cureall die worry stuff go college going music ed im really worried im gonna prepared go college whenever gets bad tell gonna okay die creepiest shit do,1
ate whole cheesecake ate whole pizza whole cheescake im prolly gonna die goodbye im fat tho im underweight,0
ok redflagwatch ive ruled redflag fuck myself ive mostly miserable life finally resolved kill last april miserable depressed miserable although life job social connections you ive never found anything really enjoyed sustained inspired me life simply long depressing occasionally painful slog gearing finally folks life guessed intention made clear much would hurt went though it well fuck made promise it cant really take roading knowing much would harm people around me what well good say im gonna kill myself theres still nothing live for thought going indefinitely nature takes course horrifying close worry anymore want keep living default want hurt anyone else honestly want die peace thats sustaining day day existence long time idea go now need reason keep going people live,1
main character whatever im calling game ampxb httpspreviewredditowtzjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsfbdcfceaccdaba httpspreviewredditvassytzjpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsffecffba,0
hi i am male i used to have a very emotional side but for the last year or so i am not able to feel sad especially for others sympathy i used to cry when my best friend cried to me about her break up but now i couldn t shed a single tear during my grandfather death i hated the feeling did i stop loving my grandfather even then why didn t i feel sad when i saw my mother cry she is the first person i don t want to see cry off late i feel it s affecting my friendship a well just to be clear it s not a overall numbness i still feel happiness anger and other emotion but this is really frustrating especially when i am getting into a relationship for the first time in my life i keep questioning my love for people i keep asking myself if i can t feel sad for them do i really love them,1
@Babyjobamboo @funkyfabrix   Thanks ,0
im weak im tireddont even know write here writing feel kind human connection im miserable want turn,1
extraordinary singer cares anything else final scene one best moments show biz  bar none im glad kept camera ten minutes  deserves iconic status  power voice br br i first saw film five huge impact me see today yes see flaws like esther wanting leave grammys right award announcedbr br but user comments plain false  mean gratuitous nudity  maybe saw different films br br streisands singing ability monumental big ego  fine br br shes earned it,0
whatever do post kind stuff rteenagersso today posted advice post titled do deserve die get bad grades one guy told attention seeker cunt give reason kill guess,1
tried overdose last nightwell got grades back semester failed one bio classes got overwhelmed think ill lose scholarship now freaked it made throw right though feel better today didnt take enough anyway maybe like  family watching closely im headed therapy today weird almost feel better since trying like voice head tells kill like well mean got try cant tell thats good not im glad family didnt send hospital,1
hi i 9f just applied to become the disability rep for one of the society at my uni this is kind of a big deal for me since i ve never really interacted outside of the bubble of maybe 0 people in total of my year and did not visit any of the society meetups but with the way the application are looking they re letting just about anyone in several people who happen to be my friend are also applying for other position and i know it might just be our little bubble but i am so very proud of myself for doing something i have never done before i got diagnosed with anxiety and depression just very recently and i had to take the rest of the year off from uni so yeah this is a big thing for me omg,1
saved mei metro station recent worries life problems waiting train come thinking must jump felt sad moment know why hearing voice said it knew running direction heard him closed eyes let falling last moment catch hand pulled direction train there saved me strange fact man saved girl beautiful one watched silence half minute left followed started crying said must see someone help offered go me know do stranger carrying much ever experienced something like before,1
"@khaled74 hater  You're done so soon, you should enjoy your last time here hah",0
gotta go wake up antwon.. she fell asleep on the coutchh... then its off to bed ,0
tommcfly have fun tom i need to buy eclipse too but i have no money sad times,0
ijustsawabillboardoutside itsaid cannibals rule world likeyeahsureasfuckido,0
understand feel wayi cant shake notion constantly mind day everyday even im friends enjoying myself theres still looming presence feelings worthlessness depression anxiety want stop cant think way im constant perpetual pain agony never seems end cant catch break im  years old school right now friends family think love care much them theyve gotten tired apathy try hardest normal hard getting point even thought people important enough keep thinking redflag plan timeframe want relief please help,1
@Janine_Abaud me tooooo!!!! Yesterday at 600 ,0
things ive learned first relationship and take account uh hi everyone ive really thinking now im feeling like share guys means helping get this people would probably benefit or all information here tldr end post like listening stories which understandable apologize advance long say buckle in anyways lets get this ill start providing context first mentioning names places save harassment last weekend visiting working local event town girl came asked number time pursuing another girl really made moves yet so happily provided which mistake kind flattered excited finally girlfriend course never one before little know first happy talked phone texted hours end next days happiness faded told things think smartest choices example vapes  thats huge dealbreaker me eventually ran mental block although nice enjoyed lunch took on learned personality mine really go well together began run things run about conversations went around circles went bed night disappointed kept feeling disappointed depressed taking free time couldve used learning guitar failing math paper which uncommon me wanted get live life nothing happened happy relationship eventually fell talking texting her all within span of  days now anything did thought told her i made impulse decision thought telling wanted relationship       today mom talked stepdad talked it noticed acting usually act asked another parent her basically told information girlfriend friend group basically found really weird disturbing apparently all vape thc illegal state stayed her couldve possibly exposed got caught it wouldve got serious trouble im innocent told that said think really want girl consider rethinking relationship her       evening think im going break tell really want relationship right now unfortunately going hard im nice everyone im going direct honest ill stand ground ill also allow emotional healing time decide get another relationship ultimately learned experience and take away post anything i weighed pros cons thought minute diving right in compiled list dealbreakers requirements must meet a big one loving animals ive lived learned ill know better next time ampxb tldr  know want relationship diving in  decide really one quick evaluation  happy direct remember live little fun afraid happy whether thats getting or of relationship anyways thanks taking time read did hope nice day ,0
nnn log  day sixteen another late log entry nothing happened yesterday alls good stay strong fellow teens  days remain,0
make stop,0
friend opposite side equator getting internet cut makin kinda sad tbh hes good guy deserve id explain situation right talk life almost feel like put rant hope get back quickly anybody want try take spot zeusar,0
anyone die hard codingprogramming interested entrepreneurshipstock investment love coding computer science engineering learning stock exchange hmu conversation gonna cool,0
im even sure im postingi recently diagnosed bipolar disorder dragging girlfriend year behavior fathom myself im currently going treatment though witnessed first manic episode entire life im embarrassed mental health getting better good friends life anymore consistently moved bullied high school one two good guy friends high school came thanksgiving break last year im lesbian met girlfriend freshmen year university fell madly madly love  months dating month  manic breakdown im currently home treatment going really well get back prove balance school relationship mental health ive feeling really really suicidal suicidal thoughts flared years past month every night kind thing want burden talking it know tell everything okay believe it,1
crazy person hereim sure belongs here think years ive becomestrong guess enough make real attempts taking life thoughts lately thoughts become loud again know society stigma redflag depression get tired fighting tired fighting pass pain ones love know know thats redflag pass pain others get so tired thoughts get loud  years ago friend found getting ready hang myself  years therapy  years trying antidepressant new antidepressant nothing makes thoughts go away makes less vocal them makes shy away people one ever know know never normal think would nice if life could talk someone frankly honestly without fear locked up medicated treated like nut case almost wonder would even help,1
so i have a stutter and i ve always been insecure about it i wa with my best friend and his friend and his friend made fun of someone s stutter because he s not aware i stutter this made me realize how easy it is to make fun of people behind their back i felt really bad that night and started cry when i got home cause it made me realize i didn t know who wa being real with me and i felt a tho i wa devalued flash to today and it wa still bugging me but i realized something those people aren t exclusively making fun of people like me but making fun of a lot more than a stutter people are made fun of for stutter tic religion sexuality lisp appearance and more i realized it s not my problem to worry about them and most people that make fun of others will show themselves with time and real nice people will never do that this made me content and i wa happy i forgot about it for the most part and went about my business but i posted something to reddit about it and someone said they had a similar experience and it lead to going into psychosis and being paranoid about people talking badly about them this made me almost have a panic attack when i wa eating with my parent because going psychotic is one of my biggest fear ever since then i ve felt so anxious it took a good 0 0 minute to calm myself down and not be on the edge of a panic attack ever since then i can t shake this thought but now for a different reason instead of worrying who s judging me i m worrying if i believe it i ve had this fear before but when it s bad it get so bad it feel like i m already psychotic even tho i m not and today wa one of those day it feel like the thought you believe if fact and i have terrible depersonalization this ha happened time before this and normally after a good sleep my anxiety tone down a bit but since this is a little different and it started out without that anxiety doe that mean i am going crazy instead of thinking anyone is judging me i keep asking myself if i think these specific people at my work would judge me idk why once again that wa cause ocd started to ob on it now but since i had this thought before ocd doe it mean i m going crazy or am i sane since i m worrying so much about it,1
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angry suicidali get really angry want hurt know people piss off,1
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happen love show refreshing take older scifi feels styles afraid shoot people tend die far many shows afraid end pointing guns standoff farscape also comes complete large amount heartwarming characters grow till point confuses hear discuss taking animatronic ones boxs make miniseries beginning end farscape leaves feeling hope dispair new unexpected things happen people live die surprising every time worth watch even time,0
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suicide per se sometimes imagine blinking existencejust gone point feel right anymore know explainarticulate going onmostly people tried to told dramatic attention seeking right feel empty sad family loves me talent more them worsei even know feel like this sadly coward doubt would end it cannot ask would care disappeared get offendedsometimes want leave everything start again sometimes fantasize disappearing,1
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is feeling like dancing in the rain like a pixie but the rain stopped ohh well lol i ll watch flight of the conchords instead,0
alivei nothing dragging others time feel bad me reason purpose live sort way find purpose anything idek try itd much better go im still young rather im older many responsibilities even try anymore gonna get this happiness even feel great anyway,1
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"Fuck depression, it should honestly just kill itself already",1
im feeling like redflag easierso throwaway obviously want shoot head instead dealing life sum im premed thats failing college im crippled fear funny enough failing recently married wonderful wife adore beyond else cant support us cause job skills college turning bust dad supporting us part know im failing would likely cut support long tell him hes also doctor hate religion long drawn reasons giving identity problems it whats really putting edge right now ive dealing wifes sister extremely overbearing always knows whats best never wrong belittled wife last night super bowl game nearly  years married biting tongue decided speak said youre rude wife please dont started get upset correction said youre pill asked wife leave everything seemed fine  minutes stayed shit not exactly happened seem like big deal right little argument nope half hour sister law leaves room starts bawling bathroom course parents laws go aid turns huge thing morning brother lawher husband asked could come help tile things course wants discuss argument witness turns sister law thinks poisoned wife her whole littany awful things always bit tongue starts exaggerating lying speaking empirically things knows nothing about one time defend wife get made terrible villain brother law begins tell stress theyve may acting waysince ive known her asks considerate speak rudely like last night yell like did get passive aggressive like did asked nice crime calling bullshit one ever reacts way lived together house year sister law pregnant learned thing two always kept mouth shut every fiber wanted tell constant belittling younger sister wife well nice person said okay come home tell wife cant tell im feeling inside poisoning her hate am hate job hate im weight hate cant ask help premed program cause get laughed advisors office need help hate sister law manipulating everyone always get way hate wifes family thinks im terrible person hate friends getting accepted medical school cant even get gen chem class cause panic every semester point cant even register classes means look gpa hate myself thing keeping blowing brains right that would made inconsiderate person taking cowards way out cant anyone considerate feelings stress cant anyone come aid try god damned hard simply good person ive thought killing time actually want it im scared im alone know do fuuuuuuckkk,1
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using hard drugs kill myselfi way capable redflag methods read about instead much meth cocaine possible im trying od die im still stuck here confided good friend threatened call police cant tell therapist either hell call authorities me live mental illnesses chronic pain multiple unsuccessful back surgeries feel ive done im ready go side cant believe im still here,1
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im terrified getting helpfirst thank taking time read this please excuse bitching complaining ive struggled suicidal thoughts years past several months become intolerable ive made several attempts pills husband stopped time threw away medication house times desperate commit redflag method far ive told husband every time thoughts impulses come up reason stay alive attempt make life work least three times think needed go hospital however im terrified going cant stand thought going hospital idea happen im there patients would be happen get out much cost insurance husband work  hours week im terrified doctors care think im fake deserve there think deserve go all im getting better need help know get it cant afford anything think deserve help deep feel like phony do edit thank help suggestions,1
gotta keep numbers up hows work coming along eh l why even this for were others noone see it were ourselves bring us down whats point all fulfillment it pay ask questions,0
redflag starvationhave decided finally time think starving taking form amphetamine speed process anyone tried this,1
big fat liar comes welcome  shallow welcome  breath fresh air one many films featuring bathrooms bodily fluids pets acid gaseous jokes crotch gags all see spot run max keebles big move snow dogs signaled degenerative spiral kiddie moviemaking worse realization young audience would later satiated smuttier offerings not another teen movie slackers written nickelodeon producers dan schneider brian robbins who coincidentally costarred s sitcom head class film stars frankie muniz jason whos always ready good lie get scrapes wheres english paper dad choked swedish meatball teacher sandra oh issues ultimatum turn paper end day take summer school jason whips story called big fat liar struck en route school limousine carrying insensitive hollywood producer marty wolf paul giamatti wolf gives ride jason leaves paper behind one hear truth time dad tells hes lost trustbr br months later jason best friend kaylee amanda bynes see movie preview big fat liar head los angeles wreak havoc wolfs life  get confession stole jasons paper make film even gain sympathy wolfs abused employees including assistant amanda detmer former chauffeur donald faison movie star jaleel urkel white playing himself stunt coordinator a muchaged lee majorsbr br because big fat liar without edge sitcom malcolm middle known for muniz easy root much work with likewise bynes headlines tracey ullmanlike sketch show nickelodeon hamminess given giamatti whose eyes bulge cheeks wiggle every sneering insultbr br the film gets snaps attempting high road enjoyed target audience especially since high jinks occur universal studios lot heres one headscratcher message pays tell truth see jason getting payback telling white lies throughout film well least theres poop,0
nearing end guessiv finally pushed last person away me feel like it hate myself disappoint everyone dont want life anymore work shitty minimum wage job im fat ugly untalented feel like burden family im socially awkward hard make friends overall im alone nobody would miss me thing thats probably stopping know it want long quick sweet point also could never bring it im burden world better without me,1
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bruh cruchyroll really baited browsing list anime said miss kobayashi dragon maid season  season  still never felt lied,0
want end itmy life nothing disaster arrested falsely accused no cant guess it try still ptsd although over depression panic attacks currently obese failing religion god hates if irreligious thats alright debt unrecoverable id live like monk  years spend dime pay probably ampxb think time call quits know im here,1
appointment tomorrow sure stupid idea go feel empty numb cannot feel emotions feel like shut down tried cry like even capable cry anymore know say psychiatrist asked here thinking hard answer question even know truly bothering me people much worse do yet even see psychiatrist ,1
self hatei feel bad lot recently feel bad get intense thoughts cant get head like hearing someone say die kill again tried hang pussied hate much it im  recently split partner  years feel never find someone else great girlfriend ruined all shes moving country now cant stand here feel like cant handle good thingsi dont deserve them,1
even speaki fucking hate myself cant anything right argue others treat like idiots im real idiot im aware yet cant stop myself try talk prevent littlest thing sets off try fill say jokes counter act jokes find funny people think corny stupid im life still lives home im piece shit treats others like piece shit im tired it im tired existing one ever going love never loveable even bother wish could stop talking wish could stop existing,1
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jabated friends house introduces girl kinda like try make small tr alk ask age said  like great im   gonna work go park play bit make moves stuff go like actually im  like say tall looks like  im never talking girls seeing birth certificate first heart broke,0
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may contain spoilersbr br all dogs go heaven great movie saw  two years old understand well saw times started love it love songs movie favorite songs let surprised soon come home beautiful songs thing bothers movie charlie dieing little sister even watch part movie wonderful br br my favorite part movie annabelle charlie flying around heaven heaven beautiful movie clocks clever also love itchy fact  dachshunds own cute br br overall love movie suggest everyone see it give movie  stars,0
feeling truly awful hate me hate world is hate everyone world ugh,0
fun fact belle delphine made big younger watched room tour thinking cute without knowing living rewatched realized meant cutesy yt video th grader watch,0
nightbreed definitely favorite movie ive worn one tape is makeup awesome story lovely takes different twists quite deep story based cabal clive barker movie adaption stays true source material problem movie producers vain attempts turn teen slasher movie hence changed ending allow sequels eye rolls apparently someday were going getting directors cut i hope clear bit nonsense then id suggest anyone like dark fantasy type horror opposed freddyjasonmicheal type slashers really know would comparable,0
cluei turn  couple days cant even bring happy ive struggled bullshit life many attempts teenage years idk anymore keep pushing things life thatll eventually make happy going uni stressing half death may one day job actually half enjoy go back christmas break im struggling financially applied many christmas break jobs denied every one cant keep living ends meat happy time want end thing called life fucking hard give up,1
wilshipley i am sad the dutch localization in dl is bad it s incomplete and ha too many truncation,0
sadi feel guilty better life lot people still sad selfish lazy obnoxious overall nice around feel like deserve support anyone yet oppressed born lazy also feel like punishment well deserved that less sympathy average selective mutism uncommon interests bad making friends try cry attention yet crave it craving attention makes feel evil even though try best act it split feel everything get undeserved including unconditional love people around me know do know im writing this whatever want still feel like im guilt tripping anyone may happen read this know im doing fingers mind now want sound like im looking attention know thisll me ill feel selfish ask help ill leave that whatever is congratulations made far,1
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i just wanted to share something that help me with anxiety attack in case it help someone else there is this show called one day at a time the 0 reboot that deal with many social issue and one of them is anxiety and there is this one episode in season called anxiety that just help me calm down so much for some reason it s almost better than med or plant it deal with how to deal with anxiety attack and is truly amazing you can find the show on netflix in most country and on the internet too,1
scared im going commit redflag want didthis constantly goes mind im scared im going hang one day know always think it last remember started popping best friend commited redflag hanging love life never want end need someone relate to many people lose close friend redflag,1
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im  going nowhere life whats point living anymore finished useless psych degree career prospects romantic relationship prospects life standstill going nowhere days want stay bed sleep life away life chore reason keep going im point know fact going get better anything itll get worse,1
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Truckers of the depression army.  https://twitter.com/i/moments/989121234813292545 …,1
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im tired this morning want shit endim tired waking stressed broken started therapy once next appointment th march handle shit dont believe help me dont believe anything will im work im ready explode im sad im mad dont want anyone talk me want leave guess im venting here better listening people here dont feel good want leave shit,1
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wrongi dont understand im wrong life im trying hard really still slip sometimes people always remember times mess up never times succeed nobody hire date like me everybody stays away except small number friends even wont hang things me friends important need make time for jobs even grades worse mine wrong want happy successful dont even want try anymore hard worth it every time something good happens potentially happens always gets ruined im tired want stop cant make stop,1
emptyi heard people say empty like feelings dont think true feel empty dont want anything future feel empty one confide in feel empty even everything fine seems pointless feel empty dont see happy scenarios dont want get better dont think can dont understand people still live knowing nothing meaning nothing bad even happened me im fucking made like this want erased want end want go back nothing,1
i didn t do the best in school i doubt i ll have any success i hate blaming it on other thing but i wa homeless for a little while and constantly on the edge of being homeless and i knew it i wa physically abused and have ptsd because of it i ve struggled with substance abuse i m just feeling like i ve already messed up and i don t even have good memory of my childhood i don t know what to do i m only 9 and i m just over it all i don t see it getting better im closed off from my friend and family i barely see them im just so lost mentally,1
sick lectured friends drinkingi need told constantly much piece shit am know fuck im driving everyone away,1
okay high staying late crashed feel like im dying wake school  hours im gonna call night goodnight   ,0
Building houses for cheap! Not really making much money but happy to be working. ,0
im outcant take it ive lost closest friend dont know get without her im gonna go drive cliff make life decisions left needed most cant deal pain much long already either drive clear head fall will either way spending another night thinking hasnt texted hasnt asked im doing im done sleeping soaked pillow,1
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keep thinking ex girlfriendshe killed  months ago got q new girlfriend soon a week later lot stuff fully miss lot miss want back wanna talk still love left,1
wow something surprise though flawed far better expectedbr br the brand new space liner arcturus  passengers final days sixteen day trip jupiter without warning ships cerebral central computer sounds disaster alarm orders everyone evacuate br br soon handful people remaining including one ships astrogators penny captain cary director shipping line kenyonbr br it turns alarm false main cerebral actingbr br erratically remaining passengers crew must escape ship andbr br avoid personal conflicts order survivebr br the film starts well opening commercial nice touch obvious parallels  space odyssey historicbr br sinking titanic film slow times pacingbr br problems generally well made well acted,0
absolutely one best aviation movies times many levels hardware junkies drool largest single massing flyable spitfires outside battle britain reenactment less eight flying spits hand accurate ground air sequencesbr br those marvel lore flying get mistyeyed reciting high flight identify central characters reverence freedom fast free high dark blue world warned romantics even dog lovers treated emotional ride movie core message one shared many war vets finest hours period life felt alive fact war everything else sad graybr br the plot concerns czech pilots escape country nazis invade join raf free czech squadron subplots worth careful attention plain old excellent movie even ardent antihardware romantic love keep kleenex hand beautiful photography firstrate acting accurate details raf life battle britain easily candidate aviation enthusiasts personal dvd collection,0
i am told that my perfectionism is unproductive and unrealistic that i can not perform excellently on every task i set to that this is no reason to panic and consider the worst and yet the world itself is perfection obsessed we applaud prodigy exclude people who don t perform perfectly from higher academic program idolise perfect work i can t bear it these thought are not just figment of my imagination they are very real and true i can t just dismiss them because they are uncomfortable,1
parents thisat least mom dont know posted idc ok mom usually like joking girlfriend starts listing dumbass names could get smile smile one dumb ass names goes says ever fuck name gfs name sister  always thing depressing thing dont gf matter many times tell dont listen more dont know supposed make feel better sure isnt working,0
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ventingdepressingshit fucked fucked upill place disclaimer here vent im seeking hang there life gets better lovely butterflies sunshine rainbows crap theres actual advice there would appreciated long story short back wall im tired fighting keep head water basically last  years life pretty much pingpong really good really miserable homeschooled grew two brothers friends lived rural area neighbor kids best friends life younger siblings family relatively normal save mothers drive good scores good university  good life aside getting ged age  things pretty much ok took sport excelled top ten nationally younger brother made world team basically three us constantly shoved one another upwards climbed national rankingsthe first one world team ironically would one never national champion first week university officer walks bio class pulls there accident brother killed himself publicly announced hundred students state quite christianwell get back that parents freakout mode younger brother goes catatonic eldest sibling get call family close family friends get help circling wagons end day brother deliberately kill himself dropped loaded gun snagged hook that gone th inch way wouldve missed left likely terrified alive fast forward pretty much immerse school sport family pretty much shattered trying find way change majors everyone major either  pitied  told hoped ok brother hell nice folks ultimately started transferring colleges  get state  get away family try get head clear  escape everyone knew this athletics made national champion surviving brother told continue making monetary stipend best interests go work national coach  months later shoulder dislocatedi opted limp things  years finally getting surgery learning labrium separated shoulder partial tears along four tendons video analysis doctor physical therapist agreed coach teaching long term effectsi lucky one get early put athletics perspective trained  hours week including gym time cross training etc stayed fulltime student landed top university final transfer life revolved around sport school mom insisted good grades etc got b keeping things line wanted kill myself stabbed arm razor times various halfassed attempts get things dealt with top  events without good reason id feel awful missed olympic team points honestly mind much bad grade losing brother rough met girl awesome thing  yo men dumped  months ok met another girl also awesome love loved figured better nothing occured school im graduate atso now meanwhile years efforti slumped sport last two years ive top  barely winning easy collegiate eventsand often lose guys halfassing it ive worked best coach world two years think hes awesome know form methods workand cant pull out event got depressed making world team got wasted accepted blowjob random girl which still reading yes cheated girl thought awesome moving on ive spent last  months state massive regret trying hide night girl steadily picked apart figured things out morning phone buzzed text guessed password blowjob girl sent text saying hey tested stds blew you summarize apologize long was  im  job skills life aside academics  best friend brother died first week college  fucked cheated one person related me thinks im good guy  knows alternative feelings good guy thing  recently one best sport two consecutive years failure feel like trash  social skills homeschooled friends feel like complete shit  tldr im douchebag trying get life back order figure killing best thing everyone involved knife italy thats razor sharp anatomy chart wall pretty sure time around pull off,1
going get iti approaching  ive started suicidal thoughts since last year ive decided want die feel though nothing live for refuse get problems anyone everyday feels same slightly worse one before living constant pressure frustration emptiness slowly killing inside feel though anticipating change never happen want end im sure go finally ending it ive thoroughly went options hanging realistic would like overdose finding medication difficult scared kill myself stopping me help,1
goodbye world im readyin minutes im going end life friends living family turned  today  vowed would end life still single never boyfriend never date time turned  meantime going live life fully could myself ive done am  today still alone never imagined would actually turn way did sometimes things get better regardless statistics show work nerve chatted someone redflag hotline awhile convo definitely helped convince stalling unfair myself ampxb said friends family home rural area work utilities paid six months debt theres good chance body discovered weeks months wanted someone know this know why feels better knowing someone even rando anons reddit know ampxb im disappointed thats goes time this,1
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feel like weekend im gonna end allive sad long time almost  years things kind seem pointless girlfriend recently treating poorly friends moved away dont like anymore theres bridge house think weekend ill jump see girlfriend one last time tomorrow think thats deciding factor,1
want die see way get betterpeople always say supposed ask help suicidal itll get better ive asking help  years one knows help still better ive mental health services inpatient outpatient therapy tried bunch meds thing helped meds im taking since im struggling doctors saying change meds another antipsychotic horrible side effects ssri never helped before im honestly scared survive med change think current meds thing keeping alive want go back way them suicidal delusional depressed self harming police cells inpatient time it know else im meant though mental health deteriorating im feeling stuck current life  single family best friend shitty fast food job probably money qualification could get job it car much money saved able hold job past  years,1
@blak4ever goood ..oo good for you...and yea she did her original song ...ill tell you if she wins ..or wins ,0
@LaurakBuzz sadly not as deep as i thought. But I think It's farely difficult to describe paralyzing depression and the struggle to stand up for your rights.,1
edging closer closer killing myself never ever thought would actually it lately starting doubt conviction almost  things getting better live parents umpteenth time life breaking umpteenth time woman umpteen years losing umpteenth job call mental health issues people call laziness  thousand dollars debt student loans schooling never helped get single job never made much minimum wage never even put dent paying loans waste time money school wasi violent thoughts towards time often find thinking violence faceless entities like the government the rich sought mental health help many many years many many forms nothing seems help cope lack success pills make feel less angry less sad really thinking may able hold resolve growing instinct would better ending thingswhat do going hospital never yields results done number times quite frankly need put  hour watch crazy end rope  fucks give going tell parents ex feeling keep stopping feel like putting burden them searched suicide reddit am hope get typical internet responses suppose putting like invites matter what tldr never thought would it life seems like gets worse probably it probably going it,1
really like idea going high noteor high note possible anyway someone usually talk suicidal thoughts ideas hate coming reddit this want talk this reasons obvious others cant bothered explain matters much ive wanted kill several times last months acted it every time mess  id angry stressed whatever else ive failed second year uni feel like nothing contribute future also doubt ability simply keep top things go fend myself based depression prevented quite lot past years last night different idea redflag calmed me instead making worse ive felt way before think intensely suicidal then less likely anything towards offing myself long break til uni starts repeat year trip japan lined visit old friend lives now feels good time subtly say goodbye friends like idea enjoying right get back uni struggle reality might sound ridiculous  m capable enjoying now end it thing idea killing whats preventing feeling completely useless suppose im cutting losses ive failed hnc equivalent first year university similar reasons im ton debt ive scraping everything since school im also studying music hard work actually want make money also feel like ive picked useless subject im really awkward space absolutely hating people go full stemlord sometimes kind agreeing them ive struggling keep things lately see getting worse time goes on im meds going second round cbt stick first time really feel im making much progress now minute musing ive method lined ages now things need make work need plan actual event ive felt useless long calmed wanting kill welcome feels right way ive done nothing deserve good things life ive unable anything myself whether ill actually at least im feeling thinking right now know obviously previous experience suggests wont feel like surviving rough patch waiting out time feels like real solution stress selfloathing hard explain know im asking advice such suppose want input coming here also wanted think loud guess,1
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I just did a very creative thing to speed up my experience at jetblue... Though my ankle does hurt a little.... ,0
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7 yr old D has to speak to class on her favorite author. Her choice-mom! Why? I am writing a book + if would finish it I'd be an author ,0
end roadive never posted reddit frank girlfriend suggested do am end road clue im supposed do ive robles depression  years now recent times think ending everyday least visualize slicing open arm depth it blood gushing out always there live developing country social security really kind support system place pretty much anything heavily debt even strength find much recently gave interviews even managed get job cant take hoping job would help debts help get back feet im broke right checking account negative walk back k interview sleep hungry money top all im meant support brother barely give enough feed himself let alone give enough attend college im fucking life fucked mine mom stays another country apartment shed like sell currently resided mother sisterinlaw sil absolutely horrible leave mentioned lot support systems courts backlogged whole family financial rut mum cant come fight legal battle get possession house shed like sell financial support im made poa supposed fight case im supposed pay lawyers know im scared mums sil known crooked friends something disrupt court proceedings top get calls creditors every single day laws governing do hella abusive threatening soon theyll making visits house even manage get job fighting case court im far behind payments creditors making visits workplace get job they really boundaries laws governing them leads termination kiss getting another job goodbye thought filing bankruptcy get breathing room even thatd require hiring lawyer cannot afford trips court girlfriend helped financially much can still helps meals every again even used car go interviews move another city legal case there im scared leaving behind one person support all sometimes feel like deserves much better me brain convinces pulling away pushing away trying help really know right get this cant take creditors listening poorly mum treated mother grandmum told bitch deserves lie dirt broke broke me even think im frame mind id able work even got job even know im looking here maybe need vent girlfriend suggested good medium so,1
clue jane austens production youll repeats novels marriage marriage marriage opinion movies made novels bit boring like austens characters certain personality typical sayings like repeat also emma thing makes emma good gwyneth paltrow shes good leading role also fact one characters movie dont seem able think anything get good partner soon married makes movie hilarious,0
know whats happening anymorei means suffer life friends im somewhat attractive family loves me everyone tells potential whatever want life  minutes ago sat chair middle room knife throat sat  minutes applying taking pressure thought want anymore want life even deserve it im one sees terrible person am ability spend months getting close girl totally love me crush like never mattered never anyway ive done least   times why could started get nerves anyway ive made mom cry times count sit straight face parents try tell feel care feel theyll get soon enough enough though still knife rests bed know next time happens ill want stop applying pressure maybe make art blood die maybe someone help,1
want jump window want cut ears hear anything want see anything cannot breath someone say resson survive please,1
day leave then easter no work for a week except for the long list of diy job to do at home,0
lessened blow yougames over everyone time one thing ask lost loved one helpful thing aftermaththat person died did going happen matter want make least bad situation left behind note better note content helpfulunhelpful comforting meaningful gestures im argue living dying ill ignore posts trying talk whatever genuinely want know best things make trauma perhaps little less so,1
asked girl day said no would like friends little sad but thats life expected it since didnt know well sudden unexpected me least gracious it little sad guys deal kinda stuff,0
i know a lot of people are like you ll get over him over time and shit like that but he wa the best thing to have happened to me at this point it s not even love it s way more than that i put him up on a pedestal and admired him he made me so happy i m not close with any of my friend or family but with him i wa the most comfortable my world revolved around him because he deserves the world and more the way he helped me when i wa at my worst made me feel so appreciated i can go on and on hour and hour year and year talking about the love i have for him but no word can fully express it but of course he left me and it s all my fault he told me he didn t see himself being happy in the long run due to how high maintenance i wa that broke me in just a second my whole world is gone and it s all my fault i just wish i could reverse time and change the way i acted the only thing stopping me from committing suicide is the fact that we can still get back together but i just feel so hopeless right now i have had hopeless and suicidal thought before but he always wa by my side and helped me through it all now without him i basically have nothing all i want right now is him i ll give up anything for him i ll give up my phone all my money my academic achievement even my body part for him he is all i want and all i see and it s killing me and i feel so fucking selfish for that he said he wouldn t be happy with me in the long run and here i am begging for him back i m so mad at myself for making him feel unhappy yet still wanting to be with him he deserves more than me but i still want him i can t live without him and i can t live with myself i just want to talk to someone who went through is going through the same experience a me i feel stupid for putting my whole world into someone s hand but it felt like they deserved my whole world i feel so alone,1
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whats im girl one care but titles see see actual girls sub people keep saying this trying make people mad genuinely wondering,0
ive said goodbyes nowi didnt really give context  people speak even daily basis said wouldnt around needed time alone made mind dont know it leave note it dont want family find me im worried cats honestly dont live alone give adoption honestly hardest part me know im rambling many anxiety attacks last  hrs feel like heart wont slow stops one ever taken seriously parents think mental illness self harm bs guess never grew phase mom took  years redflag method,1
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@MissShellBelle Heeeeeeeey! you're still out there! Good to hear from ya  I'm doing well...still jobhunting though...,0
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ha anyone used seroquel at night for sleep and vrylar or palipidone in the morning my son need seroqual due to insomnia anxiety racing thought but we also need something throughout the day to keep his mood stable we have a call with his doctor this week but just wondering what others have done,1
poetrypart wants die tonight part wants accident part wants somebody notice stop me  like one bad last part ofc suffering easier actually take step die,1
sorry belong herei think dont want die idk im staying alone friends house she let stay gone im going break long term relationship dont place own im th floor cant help wonder would feel jump current thought  thinking different ways die never attempt life scares im feeling lonley failure many aspects life maybe easiest thing end good idk  common think that kind thought going increase sorry possible mistakes im native english speaker,1
dont think take anymorei didnt think could sink lower heart broke completely dont think go long hate life hate everything nothing going right top everything im  sure got broken person important person entire life think ill start self harming see leads,1
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finally opened feeling suicidal one trusted mostand reply people die someday life easy dont pain reason stop you think adult right make decision say this sorry reached ex  years still good terms im stunned hurt cold hearted reply was head messed right now,1
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wish people would stop telling life worth living try understand feelim asking encourage end it wish someone literally anyone would empathize minute say get it say understand hard keep living know wrong want die know need help know life purpose empty statements made people seem like actually care seeing angle ive chosen method added supplies need cart amazon chickened place order know really intention actually using it want comfort knowing need way out need people tell im right thing getting supplies go also wish someone would tell get even want feel better know easy wish someone would understand tired feel constantly waking face thought going another day enough wear out sure want posting this feel alone im scared myself im scared ordering things want time want anything want everything stop want over know anymore,1
im ready goi  year old ugly short fat black guy adhd possibly ocd well hates much silently crying bed im typing this biggest secret ive vaguely told one person either  dont remember telling biggest regretwhen  years old sexual abused someone  years older me would things like sucks toes tell suck would misty think even licked asshole briefly another time pulled pants put dick mouth hate much wish could go back time wish could much hanging head never move past it ive ever kissed sex one person ive never serious girlfriend im broken person high school tried compensate people saying thought gay behind back lying saying fucked different girls never done anything hate much that would also tell people mental illnesses like bipolar borderline ive told many lies attention hate that every friend ive grown moved forward lives way great things lives im broken hate much dont think ever find someone would love me told friend abused im sure took seriously regretted telling told joking soon feel vulnerable regret told anything feel like abuse would livable never told another person wish could turn back clock became person fat ugly social inadequate lonely feel like live head day imagining better life myself days ago bought gun im ready end all,1
story time dream woke house sleeping shreks lap angry reason told going onand told shut spanked ass told okay shut proceeded spank ass telling didnt tell shut up didnt answer question didnt want get spanked again proceeds ask didnt answer told ordered shut told didnt tell shut up followed intense ass spanking kept repeating couldnt wake started crying felt like days woke up pogger epic redditor moment,0
redflag best optioni really feel way killed people would sad feel like would social convention says someone know dies supposed sad really shouldnt be one know enjoys spending time me tell faces way talk much pulling teeth get anyone anything horrible person spend time with everything life seems like shit way always has im  still date never girl friend dont care sex wanted girl friends someone might care me basically really considering redflag really want it need build finally rid crap,1
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lot intrusive thoughts losing loved ones tragedies happening imagining traumatic horrible would be cannot shakethemoff keepcoming back also feel empty cannot find much joy hardly anything hate going depressive episodes remind much life sucks never happy content intrusive thoughts redflag trigger depression,1
struggling decide doim  year old woman suffered various mental illnesses since young age ive abused neglected child led developing borderline personality disorder major depression cptsd panic attacks bulimia compulsive skin picking disorder self harm addiction current situation complicated summarize leave job last fall due redflag attempt leaving hospital sought outpatient treatment put aside fiancs agoraphobia advanced point longer leave apartment reason all result neither us employed im working state ssi hopefully receive benefits help us struggling mentally  afraid coming lazy freeloader genuinely unable go function normal adult should threat eviction electric turned off multiple elements situation making receiving public assistance nearly impossible us im losing sense hope desire alive seems gone afraid hurt myself many responsibilities right leave everything go hospital im sure do know im trapped stay strong handle things us going away try get better,1
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tired life tired disappointment hard fit world good anything absolute waste space like get job good anything tired everyone concerned future future cannot anything right fail everything attempt trapped want anymore want die deal bs shithole offer cannot take shit anymore cannot it want fight want work hard want anything want drop dead right moment,1
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sohi emma young trans woman germany  years old know even want live anymore lithle bit backstory growed small catholic village middle nowhare school big social issues loner pritty depressed school got home watched tv rest day playd console basicly wasted whole childhood alone depressed family neclected left alone later finished school mental wreck absolutly social skills dident realy know bvb something like bridge year get ready learn job around time lot things cleared mind aknowledegd trans still dident mutch beciuse know family would hate even wait till move out lost around kg  obese actually social interaction bvb actually made friends guess second wafe corona hit bvb stopped vor six months got stuff per email stuck home whit family talk lost contact persons met sunk deep depression dysphoria  stuff hate becouse gender related stuff got whorse wanted end stupid useless live dident self harm wanted die whitout pain dident acess medication wanted cutt wrist blead out sometimes sat houres whit fucking kitchen knive hand diden guts it know good bad dident it existance sucked kind opend mum live hell asked could see terapist surprisingly okay that got terapist kind tould everything becouse tould suecidial got put psychosomatic facility stayd two months kind saved live view ways honest first time live everything seems okay turned  stay there kind mentaly stable again helped ne get back kontakt whit dad my parents divorced  moved directly got relesed two weeks ago family cut contact becouse moved enemy realy care tbh proberbly going something like bvb proberbly seeking ambulant terapy figure actually start hrt still lot redflag least go shopping talk strangers mascs actually realy help lot fear future coud need advise honest realy know abaut what feel lost know many people got mutch whorse guess live least importance least mei hope wrode made least sence sorry grammer bad thank kind strangers reddit wish beautiful nightday guess could use advice live,1
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completely losing hope if begin withuh hey again im still here posted yesterday well technically two days ago cares shit keeps getting worse it seems though life tries push edge well basically love girl cant possibly with wanted kill yesterday today mom stopped me noticed shook it pulled girls vk russian facebook account and well said something like redflag option left like  hours point suicidal and kinda knows want gone like all reached her got talking well girl taken knew long ago learn a got proposed to b may cancer waiting test results i know think shit keeps getting worse wounds keep getting deeper im contemplating ending now mean know would absolutely obliterate her want finally stop communicating kill later like wanted to but happen her im confused went suicidalworry hurryabsolutely broken span day know whats happening anymore im lost killed chance,1
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boyfriend murdered son killing year ago dont know go onlast year left home evening pick groceries returned home found boyfriend also father son murdered son killed himself could never express words felt then feel now spent time mental hospital great therapist great psychiatrist take medicines im supposed to adjusted needed resources event feel suicidal even grief group attended lockdown next month  year anniversary dont think it hoped feel even ounce better now hoped find something give purpose feel angry boyfriend didnt kill put misery caused taking baby date approaches feel much pain ive never religious wake ask god take me put misery feel unfair people likely dont want die dying corona virus im alive begging death try still post online like enjoyed happened try watching shows movies try see friends laugh sometimes ive good days nothing ever feel same enjoyed food much nothing tastes same idea feels triggered everything going grocery store like night everything happened seeing everything used buy son boyfriend imagine triggered apples oranges every fucking prius road boyfriend drove one killed inside garage kids mothers literally everywhere hearing child cry going catatonic state wondering   year old son crying killed commercials tv bathtubs son intentionally drowned one honest dont know havent killed yet wanted bad night officer explained performed life saving measures son success begged tell take son hospital said couldnt wanted run jump anything death officer blocked path killed myself literally one life would surprised friends mentally prepared possibility back everything happened dont know cant it dont know hard do,1
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one might little differentlately ive feeling alone dont many friends besides gf relationship little messy really supportive family makes think shouldnt feel like this feel like im depressed havent told anyone feel days get feeling gut like wanna end it always tell theres way could depressed bc care people feel like theres way could it thing way would anything gun luckily family locks theres hides key probably good measure also dont go seeking end life anything happened stumble gun feel like would actually it ive never told anyone feel dont know ever will mainly feel like people would think im using like depressed angle attention something like that honestly cant tell thats thats main reason dont think im depressed dont know anymore cant tell head actually messed not,1
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glorigeous around middle school specifically 0 9 to 0 had my deepest depression fr and i m thankful that i got out of it,1
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canada consequences making redflag attempt recovering long text sorrythis subreddit quiet think question would allowed raskreddit raskcanadian subreddit quiet too hope someone knowledgeable help me please correct im wrong attempt redflag canada police paramedics called event recorded canadian police information centre cpic database as well relevant local police medical databases googling ive found consequences include  able get firearms license a wise restriction  probably able travel to httpswwwthestarcomnewsgtacanadian_woman_denied_entry_to_us_because_of_redflag_attempthtml usa redflag attempts recorded canadian police information centre database somewhat httpsenwikipediaorgwikicanadian_police_information_centre accessible httpwwwcbccanewscanadawindsorcanadiansmentalhealthinforoutinelysharedwithfbiuscustoms fbi us customs border protection person attempts redflag recovers able become mentally healthy live normal life permanent negative consequences there insurance companies dig information affecting extended private health life even auto insurance eligibility prospective employers able find background checks mental health history covered canadian government security screening mean treated like convicted criminal allowed work confidential information like someone helps taxes medical office assistant transport medical supplies like insulin donated blood transport hazardous materials like freight truck driver transporting load pool cleaning supplies security screening focuses reliability httpsenwikipediaorgwikisecurity_clearancecanada cant find specific mention mental health think considered significant factor persons reliability also know negative long term consequences suicidal thoughts involuntary hospitalization medical record also hurt ability get job insurance im afraid admit anyone ive seriously considered killing myself want involuntarily locked three months httpswwwlegallinecalegalanswersinvoluntaryhospitaladmissionofmentallyillpeopleandlengthofstay more years ago psychotherapist kept prescribing different drugs left feeling extremely detached unable concentrate anything lot side effects like dry mouth want again hated drugs difficult time finding psychotherapist seemed right me hesitate say this found unprofessional one spent sessions asking technical computer questions essentially getting paid pester personal support person he drug pusher another working hard academic thesis really narrow focus forcefully tried apply therapy sessions whether made sense not would ignore patient problems issues dream related also drawn paper adamantly refused anything else make tried turned therapy years canadian healthcare might better united states ways theres lot flaws problems too recent days increasingly frequent suicidal thoughts far gone ive holding steady managed find relative talk to resolution even reliable source support pulled back edge also finding this httpswwwcamhcaenhospitalhealth_informationa_z_mental_health_and_addiction_informationredflagpagesdefaultaspx web page centre addiction mental health canada helped slender comfort page explains who risk what warning signs  like brief warm sunbeam whoever wrote web page understood exactly feel thank taking time read this hope someone answer questions screwed records attempted redflag locked hospital even admitting wanted die,1
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want fucking die alreadyi hate height fucking hate retarted tall people fucking lucky stupid dumb asses hate tall fuck short didnt ask pathetic little man going comment talk therapist go fuck shit scam hope fucking die saying dumb advice like that want hurt someone bad hope get shot murdered dont want live life pathetic short man want tall perfect,1
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thing lawyer ace attorney reacts obviously im saying know law lawyer course not thing always got react first case first episode anime like dont think first trial good idea react considering sole purpose world building introducing player game mechanics plus know legal system ace attorney mix japanese american legal systems meant satire japanese law say perspective american lawyer dont see issue much tho would like see japanese lawyer reacting it there probably somewhere niconico think it either way id like see lawyer critique another ace attorney case first trial tbh know long still theres kinda issues critiquing first trial id kinda wanna see accurate whole game is,0
want die know howi know wrong im really tired here kinda attempted end everything today grew afraid even seem like attempt honestly excuses wanting die person weak mentality think family getting sick too sister closest person me getting tired telling thoughts every single day acting way which understand wouldve gotten tired long time ago mom dad gave lot me getting incredibly stressed attitude really see point here im right see future myself im trying hard class know alive sometimes wish died even conscious wish life couldve given person wants live wish selfish human am im tired nuisance everyone else want anymore,1
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jackie chan considered many film martial arts movie fans one greatest action stars ever grace silver screen police story cemented reputation likely successor late great bruce lee enter dragon bared socalled bench mark lees greatness s said police story jackie chan sbr br forget rush hour trilogy us efforts one film really typifies chans excellence mention kick starting status high kicking bonecrushing kung fu talisman well movie career this police story first series successful cop films set mainland present day hong kongbr br ive seen many efforts likewise usbased rush hour rumble bronx medalian tuxedo name frankly many pale insignificance compared police story movies saw less dumbed down version jackie get opportunity utilise fighting abilities maximum mention fight sequences good efforts drunken master police story name br br the stunts movie extraordinary best featured action movie shopping mall scene literally one kind seen believed flying shards glass chan left dangling outside bus walking stick madman frantically drives streets town chan successfully making usage sorts inanimate objects prop devices weapons fight bad guys with br br considering known injuring breaking every bone body putting harms way jackies persistence showing versatility stuntman relying one somewhat testament reputation kung fu expert especially bruises show it thus proved onetrick pony comes devising coming various clever looking movesbr br storywise much discuss lacks narrative makes endto end action fight sequences dialogue well really huge aspect film fans jackies martial arts films interested action opposed storybr br unlike say matrix wires cgi form computer trickery involved see get get police story great jackie chan epic full action pulsating stuntsit miles better rumble bronx rush hour american effortsbr br police story excellent film one id definitely recommend anyone novice jackie chan fan unsure one watch first,0
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sometimes think cant fucking believe im  theres still many long years fucking joke called life ahead meim trying cope different mindsets philosophies really change fact fucked start people designed happy theyre cowards like need resort waiting natural death guess like tools myself could get shotgun live would likely already dead  years ago,1
cant kill myselfi know whats stopping me think enough guts it want brave single moment end everything good,1
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hate brain so  weeks ago got asked out said yes fun stuff weird tech rule house cant text often last talked two weeks ago im writing now a fact appears accounts mine blocked my hope dad find out b weird amount stress seeing have a dads drunkard oldest sister still lives age  severely limiting fact shes one work house b since sawspoke last brain flooded negative hypotheticals ifs because trauma previous relationships honest hell earth especially check back account see text them see account changed dramatically digress whole lotta abandonment issues clinginess first world problems still move forth yes struggle talking long also yes thank reading did,0
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hey never thought would somehow ended here really need let someone guess summarymy dad got covid recently yes shit going wrong mom tried best gave medicine listen always gave reason mom gave medically approved altho many people use medicine mom gave himit days fights quarrel name it there family economy also great since need buy vitamins order make feel better altho listen act whatever wanti want help family tried invest share always make loss nearly impossible start business since feel bad ask money start small business want burden family economy morei knows guys feel like suicide da wae sigh knowi literally plan suicide woud cutting warm water listening rem  end worldanyways guys feel free comment anything whatever is sorry grammar mistakes since main language stay safe guys ltps  agnostic really believe religion people says god provide way know seems way provide suicide least nowi mentally finesorry whining guys dad got covid shit going wrng ever since,1
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I am struggling with depression right now—I have panic attacks every time I sit down at my desk and I feel so adrift—and I frequently regret not becoming an actor. That regret has only intensified ever since a girl from my college's drama department got engaged to Prince Harry,1
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started walking park every dayso lets begin saying bipolar disorder is say least taxing existence began develop early s  now girlfriend  years developed began developing stubborn naive believing nothing wrong me never sought help also lot problems home final year high school university causing lot ptsd me led alcoholism drug use eventually girlfriend ended me despite kept trucking found job field graduating tried dating around continued drink drugs regularly happened less year breaking ex engaged guy always that guy one worried good friend her nothing ever happened always knew intentions one time argument had said argument got fairly early relationship engaged dating girl enabling drinking drug use worse would eventually cheat several people leaving financial emotional ruin fast forward today dated someone since serious longer use drugs getting therapy tried multiple medications etc also sober near  months now meltdown quit job  months ago become shut in every night dream ex getting married  months every morning night think hanging myself financially bills piling im returning calls creditors anxious skipped interviews thought terrifies me im scared even worse taking daily walks local park lot trees mind picked one tree particular memorized tie noose good terms ex talked long time want selfish important time her always understood better anyone feel like talking would help time may make worse want okay want suicidal ideation daily struggle more want want end it look  years old  years old same disappointment never marry person love never comfortable enough keep steady job never stop cravings drugs alcohol never rid disease never truly happy thank listening,1
ed harriss work film usual standard excellence is steals screen away anyone shares it includes formidable sean connery movie bit sanctimonious comes alive scenes harris interrogated attorney another convict breathtaking master class artistic controlbr br the cast members adept connery reliable fishbourne story packs wallop plot depends largely premise black prisoner always mistreated coerced white law enforcement officers engine drives story right wrong makes one feel tad cheated endbr br still worth watching see harris action,0
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im tired mental illnessim tired trying muster courage commit redflag im tired constantly trying medications im sick explaining different therapists ive seven psych ward visits im sick illness,1
want dieive pretty much friends im scared mum kick house bi constantly switches mood know think anymore wish could change race racist bullies hope go kill themselves time talk friend respond start getting worried also depressed im talking watch anime cartoons watch youtube make feel happy eat food help im furry,1
got my loan i m officially 90k in debt now i can t die with a clean conscience dying would put all that debt on my wife i mean i have life insurance and if it happens to be an accident i think it double so financially she should be fine assuming i don t get fired first but now my mood is just shitty before i wa okay with dying now i feel just a much a burden alive than i do dead i wrote this before but there is a certain freedom in coming to term with death a calm malaise that feel good like everything and everyone doesn t matter,1
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marie smooth dan no im smooth im danbr br if anything like me smooth single go together see someone like rare enough be want say something dont maybe say something ends perhaps least intelligent thing ever said life often though stare afar admire without deal taking agree way get anywhere life risk cant blame guy little frightened though maybe hes burned hard maybe hes trying focus energy career reasons valid not interpreted excuses rather reason tell need right time still wish happening way break down easy sound familiar thought yes even little dan real life new comedy director peter hedges mustsee reach inside somehow manage break warm heart oncebr br the dan title dan burns steve carell advice columnist admired insight living balanced fulfilling morally uplifting life four years film opens dan waking day lost wife love life tragedy dan left raise three daughters alone focusing career finding love one dans priorities became functional feeling removed power intimacy dan longer knows means close someone resigned never knowing again is meets marie juliette binoche book tackle shop connecticut quiet morning theyre interaction casual comfortable catches guard one problem really already seeing someone unfortunately involved someone dans brother mitch dane cook entire family come parents country home yearly visit dan must spend weekend pining yearning fleeting feeling marie morning lasted hour took long awaken dans heart comabr br with many family members deal jack mahoney dianne wiest helm dan real life drift away grander purpose time time cyclone kids parents aunts uncles makes trying times dan hedges also uses unnecessarily means distract presumption would ultimately make complete film luckily hedges got carell carry heavy burden pleasure watch steve carell come every picture makes despite occasional evan almightysized misstep charismatic charming obviously sharp humorist dan also selfdeprecating awkward scared carell rare comedian pushes find character roles rather rely solely comedic instincts established persona perhaps importantly entirely relatable dan whether hes flopping cot laundry room subjected sleep single adult reunion fidgeting around kitchen unable stan still anxiety dan every guy even unsure felt alone crowd carell gives dan much heart becomes heart film timebr br i wondered seeing film enjoyed much did despite slight shortcomings juliette binoche know might like lighten every recommend unless chocolate involved life would someone found someone else derive much meaning comfort film cant say say someone knows means lonely dan real life knows means surprised life love moments people need appreciated cherished also knows anyone might feeling lonely given day months time needs reminded surprises still happen,0
want someone talk toevery night thoughts come again im going insane literally nibbling away mind its driving crazy hate admit it im weak know many people subreddit probably deserve attention me people suicidal things way bigger me im probably making storm cup water but know want someone chat bullshit life flings me ive really serious argument she kept saying stuff downright ignoring me probably one tamer arguments had mother today feel lonely wanna curl bed wither away guess feel meaningless well reality guess am meaningless im lump flesh blood robotically following day day life feel like im shard was every day continuous cycle waking up nothing going school coming back sleeping world feels grey mother hates me hate mother boyfriend boyfriend anymore everything just sucks want feel like someone care end killing myself know selfish fuck but wanna feel somewhat important like matter someone ive got lotta friends reddit just feel like burden them everyone really im sorry making read this but thanks did appreciate it,1
im convinced coronavirus test came back negative think right though really bad cough point getting difficult breathe whenever get cough gone next day lasted   days also really hot conversation whatsoever smell little bit different think taste fine anyone know reliable test is said  also said id get results next day reality took ,0
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s hong kong man woman move day adjacent apartments respective spouses soon suspect ever absent spouses affair oneanother strange bond emerges man woman cope sadness taking turns playing others spouse complex bond emergesbr br no summary justice hong kong auteur wong karwais in mood love nothing short miracle story sadness manages touching times funny romance never feels forced fake doubt directors method lot thatbr br directed inexistent screenplay though concept largely flows japanese short story favor improvisation film immediately set apart freshness performances film revolves around rest pure enhancement core film two characters ease heart stay long end credits roll maggie cheung tony leung simply amazing language barrier undermines single fragment immediacy truth display additional material also topnotch films magnificent behold in part lensed heros christopher doyle music heartbreakingbr br this something everybody must see far heartfelt mature authentic love story there unmissable,0
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just got home and counting the days till friday ,0
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pretty convinced done i coming around idea killed  year columbine year saw school district anything bullies  bullied severely realize abusive home life got adult realized people healthy families drug addiction rampant said family nightmares dad normal  first year thought killing feel like wasted chance chickening out likely mom would left dad younger brother would better might gotten help maybe would looked bullys lives see made want succeed destroying me destroy me one noticed got adult cant function cant love people love back love people like enough fuck chuck me thus havent touched anyone years unemployed almost year half living lady paying rent privilege watching kids  bucks hour never time get mythical second job would made worth ended moving back mom getting trapped lady stuff perpetually enough money get place own live mother lives place bus comes cant get job anywhere nowhere hire soon find car missed chance make death meaningful look like useless fucking fuck up,1
don t worry i m not taking part in a trial under false information so even though bipolar people suffer with depression apparently only people with depression and then add on diagnosis eg anxiety can take part,1
anyone actually found helpful crisis line contactive tried different ones every time id end conversation feeling worse times need support cant talk therapist need something whats actual helpful one yall experience with in us id prefer texting online chat,1
goodbyeits late ever want talk cant help set free,1
hey good day,0
dont feel like dieim scared cut scared medicine hanging seems awful im afraid heights wtf,1
girl instagram might crush girl saw instagram tried dming respond boyfriend  followers  guys suppose happens almost them know do,0
really realistic sensible movie ramgopal verma  stupidity like songs hindi movies class acting nana patekar br br much similarities real encounters,0
care anymore death would mean otherstoday went funeral uncle saw whole family sad death beloved men many tears shed however whole funeral one though mind funeral could really kill self family would much pain it realized matter anymore me always one reason ive waiting long it realisation sparks sort happiness me longer fear consequences,1
havent made friends unless consider briefly talking person comments every ive enjoyed brief interactions people think almost prefer talking one person long time,0
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boredim entirely sure im even writing this im bored life nothing horrific ever happened me im done beauty gone toodaloo,1
I really don't know if twitter enhances my depression or if it's the cause of it  but I don't have anything else to do so I'm gonna keep annoying the mutuals who don't have me muted,1
@eve76 Yay! *scarfs blizzard* thank you  what!? :O you didn't get Maggles ice cream!?!? poor Maggles,0
@cheth thanks! love elvis ,0
feel like anything worth living anymorei dropped high school last weeks school  since ive gotten extremely motivated make college enrolled community college lived home  years absolute hell hate city lived in felt trapped parents house hated life solid  incredibly lonely years last august finally it accomplished goal made real university finally space ive made friends first time even got tiny bit attention girls completely foreign concept me first semester realize hard would adjust new life failed class got put academic probation im certain meet minimum gpa requirement dismissed end semester saving grace retake classes summer ive lost financial aid able pay them also losing apartment become home love apartment world falling apart im going lose everything worked hard for thought packing moving back home making feel suicidal ive awake several days ive eaten couple times week feel sick time appetite im trying desperately pass finals im angry ive done myself suffered much get pissed away like nothing finally made actual real human contact people little bit social life first time going lose all everything world going taken away fault im fucking stupid social retard habitual failure im fuck like everyone told childhood want live anymore want die cant anymore hate myself cant go back personal hell again cant face truly want wake anymore life lonely terrible short time school best life know bad killing hurts people around you feel defeated want anymore worth now,1
my girlfriend left me and is probably in love with my best friend my best friend stopped giving a shit about me and flirted with her they cuddled when they were here he wouldn t even check in on me my dad is having a baby my great grandma is dying my health is getting more and more fucked over and turn out i might have a bleeding disorder my abusive ex is spreading more shit about me and trying to ruin my life nothing is ok i don t think i m going to be okay everything is falling apart i haven t felt this suicidal in a long time i want to fucking die i can t do this,1
see point anymoreno love family real love anymore daily explosive arguments friends gone nobody actually cares keep thinking keep thinking alone am keep thinking fucking easy would get rid free immense seemingly neverending bullshit pain started hitting walls room stabbing them breaking hands them im hitting myself know matter time something pushes edge give in need freedom killing,1
todayreally thinking pulling trigger today matter well do depression kicks ass feel shit time wife treats like atm wrecks ii dare question money going acts like victim wont work contributebeen thinking since young  years later fuck alls changed fuck this ill die anyway,1
shit bad im gonna kill myselfi live hong kong theres protests chinese tyranny almost  months way government use police force brutally suppress protesters heartbreaking lose kg many sleepless nights months like hk people do heart aches protesters beaten might already killed police also people redflag could stand government anymore tbh sometimes cant see hope things gonna turn out bad thoughts creep up slogan means we cannot lose anyone anymore motivated carry since day  protesting wish could share yall thinking ending yourself please remember matter bad things you alone always look help whenever feel like youre drowning sadness cuz eventually someone would care understand pain dont isolate yourself take care,1
spank tank erection middle class hits different one anywhere else suspense knowing point teacher force stand enhances fear factor spank tank going off kill now,0
having an awesome day! cant wait until tonight!! ahahahaha!! word of the day; piercing.  &lt;3,0
sooo something tragic happened jack black shaved here video httpsyoutubeqmlraimhem,0
since j michael straczynskis babylon  television show captured wonderful art applying story arc television show easily best thing tv right now characters likable one easily get attached care wellbeing villians type love hate leave wondering theyre next brian hensens puppet work innovative there kudos rockne s obannon job well done,0
want man hug im curled lap let tell problems let cry wish man put head chest run fingers hair listen worries wish could support heck man love care for cant seem find man anywhere,0
feel like im drowning insidesorry make sense all past months ive increasingly violent frequent suicidal thoughts hard get day im honestly tired putting charade everything fine everyone find life enjoyable anymore like spending time people anymore work feels pointless life feels like stagnant clear sign change coming first kind dismissive killing convinced something crazy people did feels like cannot go longer five minutes without fantasizing offing myself feels like getting worse im alone feel like im incapable anything right ruin close relationships people im point life family thought best friends want anything anymore sometimes think im poison fuck anything touch honestly feel like giving up felt like owed least attempt talk someone else might understand im feeling act anything feel like used normal know happened dig pit cant climb of thanks spending time read this going something similar sincerely hope everything works you,1
sure trying worth anymoreive trying get life sorted never works ultimately always fail  months year achieved anything time passes nothing ever changes im high school drop out  time tafe course drop job ive ever done cashier year  im  now real skills ambitions ive thinking another tafe course starting mid year im honestly sure even something worth trying know im probably going drop again friends either left become distant im close many family members one here could dissapear nobody would notice care absence know do killing seems like rational option here seems like kindest thing everyone around me im never going get better keep thinking tomorrow better next week better next year better never is anything everything getting worse im progressively becoming isolated genuinely know else except die,1
want dead want live world love conscious able experience existence world thrown nothing pain time time again life mundane unfulfilling sick joke wish waste away here want freedom live life meant to constantly thinking die here maybe ill able start anew different world way know might cease exist accept this know worth putting family friends heavy loss want fade away want stop existing also want stay here wish could go meant go want live life image please someone help me want cease exist want new life,1
anybody else getting spiderman miles morales pre ordered pro cant wait play,0
OpenDemocracy - The Third Great Depression and rise of the far-right: experiences from Turkey  http://leftlinks.org.uk/156418 ,1
cant believe ask whats homophobia lately ive noticed people making homophobic posts saying dont shove sexuality face dont care sexuality shut shit like that kinda thought past this yeah hell going on,0
easily relate  post see here  seems like person posting reading mindat moment one things keeping going day day get professional helpi wish best alone alone,1
trying indulge redflag thoughtsfantasiesim feeling tonight heavy think suicidal scenarios gives peace heavy everything is wrong want take mind away depressing thoughts im triggered self harm too seems like help out want something ease mind want substance distraction friend relationship anything free desperation loneliness,1
shoutout electriciansrepairmen bring treats excited dogs theyre thing holding world together real mvps,0
missed the train to york no wifi and blackberry battery is going to die soon not a good start to the day,0
still fightingi tired want die yet still fighting live why difficult give give in never asked life yet forced upon me want go back existed want this,1
ask trans girl questions  idk saw uonionconsumer version remembered post today lol ask away ig filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
boyfriend killed three months agowe planning together last days chickened out didnt second decided to absolutely knew would always regret it really really do already person basically love life five years die little year ago overdose struggling hardcore depression years deaths people deeply love adding up believe afterlife want badly believe see again even dontim tired world fair left alone im tired sad lonely feeling like absolutely purpose existence really want exist anymore,1
@amalinaaa Martin updated ! ,0
had a flu shot at work now my arm hurt,0
eyrro awwwww bummerr sorry missed it again,0
mind walking people really walk places back then loaned air authenticity period piece perspective technology martians disappointed effects particular thunderchild scene regard one exciting book cant praise film enough faithfulness wellss story time actors likable performances charming also film much worth seeing hear jamie halls truly great musical score interesting see actor play writer brother london,0
i had a migraine and now i can t sleep boo,0
made lego airplane miscalculated ill put wings theyre gonna either tilted bit w,0
hotline sucks cant find help going call called hot line got put hold basically tech support try find help cant im crazy person start alking people usually reaction sop istening find next person pass too called holine try give nuber aned get phone go though im takign deserving people withme,1
want hurt someone please dot post cringe subreddit hear out feel helpless sad angry everything right now hell could even hurt dont courage level desperation yet,0
need helpi bad life ive suffered depression decade now today bad really bad im sure do,1
today already sucks woke  took shet bad legs hurt,0
"I want glittery, fun, sexy, crazy party music back, like from when LMFAO was a thing, and Lady Gaga wore meat dresses. Not overdosing on drugs, and depression party music. <Emoji: Sleeping face>",1
want feel like anymoreeveryday feel either mindnumbing numbness sadness anxiety point wanting anything today one worst days nothing bad even happened hell yesterday got make guy really like guess anxiety really bad today think guy really like is relationship just fucked it dunno awkward shitty yesterday im awkward shitty today feel trapped want feel anxious anymore ive crying day reason cant find reason not cry want feel like anymore,1
bye every one im going to stop being a tfan i cant do this any more im a fan only becouse i want to date taryll and he dosent want me,0
i wa planning to kill myself from the last month i just wanted to spend whatever time i had with my friend and family i met up with my friend last week for what would be the last time so that wa done then i wanted to spend some time with my parent which i did yesterday and only my grandparent remained so i spent some time with them today and i decided that would jump from some tall building in the night but my grandmother surprised me with something she call dosa party so yes dosas stopped me today but i don t know that i can face tomorrow i really don t know,1
die luftfahrtindustrie zieht nach der corona depression wieder voll an allein airbus hat angek ndigt in diesem jahr 0 neue flugzeuge zu bauen gr te herausforderung nat rlich auch dort rohstoffe und energie http t co cdyncinz c,1
going attempt soon another failure,1
f u c ki fucking hate myself theres point life fuck everyone fucking cares me didnt exist could die would break stupid fucking hearts cant fucking that also im afraid death parents brainwashed stupid fucking religion im secretly afraid gonna go hell miserable everyday feel like making difference world fact probably making world shittier place want gash arms want punch mirror fuck person reflection want use fucking shards cut deep skin cut vein arteries rip bleed out could drive really fast slam car brick wall fucking hate everything want punch something fucking hate alive fucking wish never born fuck didnt mom abort me didnt mom abort me didnt mom me didnt mom abort me w h n b r e stupid fucking religion thats why fuck fucking religion could non existent without it fuckin hate everything myself fucking hate myself,1
@UndressJess I used to be the king of four square! I'd OWN you LOL ,0
"@JamesTheKnob Haha, we know - thanks James ",0
gem movie people like fun quirky premises love history traditions scifi classic hollywood movies alien martian crew embodiment classic scifi character member hollywood royalty pure pleasure watching bounce residents big bean,0
@ddlovato you are the most talented and amazing person! May god bless you cause you deserve it  i hope you come to australia with jb!,0
pc solid valve fan games run valve games lmao,0
life alright summer break hell deal going back school genuinely know deal this endless agony redflag redflag boredom somehow get start school make winter seasonal depression top depression good combo genuinely feel hopeless really want go back school fell helpless please deal id rather die go back school,1
"@Lisa_Veronica 5more votes and you'll pass tawnyheath  Voted every20mins for 2days,com. sartin to lagg lol, but i think its worth  xox&lt;3",0
kolchak night stalker hugely entertaining tv series pushy sarcastic fortysomething reporter repeatedly drawn mortal combat supernatural and occasionally extraterrestrial forces based popular pair tv movies featuring kolchak character series died quick death mids due low ratings nevertheless maintains strong cult following today average modernday viewer able dig kolchak weekly clashes undead br br thats actually tough question answer fairly detractors series tend argue formulaic hopelessly dated hand fans argue cleverly written wellacted sometimes genuinely spooky me ive got foot camps thoroughly enjoyed watching  episodes kolchak dvd recently though plainly see series major flawsbr br ill address question kolchak formula fiction first now think agree tv shows formulas  every episode columbo unfolds according pattern example repetition necessarily bad thing itself fact critics long recognized audiences often enjoy actively seek out repetitive entertainment however problem kolchak formula simply rigid  repetitive even generous standardsbr br in almost every episode kolchak investigates murder figures committed form monster tries publish story said monster editor vincenzo blocks him always grounds kolchak sufficient evidence support claims supernatural forces work and alas kolchak also obstructed police so end kolchak independent research monster figures kill it kills it without ceremony reward writing big story itbr br you see eversostrict formula might get tiresome right im particularly mystified vincenzo  kolchaks always raving monsters vincenzo never believes it well then vincenzo fire kolchak committed thats normal boss would do series eschews realism prefers keep vincenzo kolchak comical antagonists result many scenes together profoundly unbelievable  though also quite funnybr br the best episodes kolchak manage vault limitations formula however usually contain kind unexpected twist select episodes good enough think theyre largely immune typical criticisms series favorites include br br horror heights  episode thats noteworthy grimy inventive socially aware kolchaks dialog unusually sharp cynical edge though adheres closely kolchak formula script written hammer studios veteran jimmy sangster remarkably literate delves deeply monsters backstorybr br the devils platform  possible inspiration omen films episode stands villain  young tom skerritt  tempts kolchak satanic contract full goodies and doing reveals lot reporters character br br firefall  episode appears bad reputation among fans enjoyed got great red herring really creepy almost unstoppableseeming monsterbr br though ive singled three episodes praise id say stories entertaining least money two complete turkeys episode run primal scream monkeymen running rampant chicago sentry features dumbestlooking creature makeup history filmed entertainment and assessment coming lifelong doctor godzilla fan br br on balance then good series little repetitive little cheesy perhaps elements greatness even weaker episodes darren mcgavins wonderful performance caustic worldweary endlessly funny kolchak truly shines carries series effortlessly way that example sarah michelle gellar never managed buffy mcgavin one great character actor series worth watching alone,0
reasons live valid reasonslooking end soon sick living everyday miserable nobody talk gives valid reason stay,1
"@davidcsmalley Major signs of depression. Seriously, I hope you are seeking help.",1
Recording sessions are the shit!  hopefully some demos soon...,0
need helphow one make mind stop thinking,1
still procrastinating i hate organizing my clothes there s just so much,0
matter am right bridge hour awayive picked good ones zero risk surviving impactover land  feet even lower risk generating anything article podunk newspaper even name terms world dying zero meaningful impact possibly nobody covid still raging hopefully get wish funeral remembered way shitty part amazing family inexplicably loves deeply tries support im getting point fucking unethical keep accepting help throw side bridge supposed die decade ago jumped balcony yet somehow miraculously survive permanent injury would perfect idiot dying drunken accident today id barely even cross mind accomplished literally nothing life except leech hardworking family last remaining friend sisters professors even hooked as since fly across country totally helped out therapy cant make accomplishing nothing pay crippling debt medication makes easier pretend want alive accomplishing nothing meaningful except make people feel better already know impact redflag need explain me ive read almost every redflag bereavement post could get hands way staving inevitable hopes something might change thing changes get deeper hole zero motivation climb of im done maintaining facade falls apart ive hurting people closest ill continue long im alive im going cause pain anyways might well least damage possibly getting sooner rather later,1
fuck nut november homies less nut november point nut november learn discipline self control fight porn addiction going one extreme functional set number nuts allowed entire month say  porn allowed would save actually want jerk way actually feel good after thus getting rid thing becomes routine would say benefits nnn way way bigger normal way learn healthy masturbation habits probably want stick afterwards become happier unlike traditional way,0
want smother someones head thighs dunno kind mood never done,0
trying hard distance friend strong feelings him hard feel horrible right now says whenever want hang let know want tell really wish could instead typing here hopefully keep saying anything doubt it never good enough pathetic,1
realized motivation live thats likely changei think zoloft past couple months cleared mind many pointless thoughts realize really want kill myself actually motivation improve know would even mean goal life want partner kids im asexual believe god hobbies would amount meaningful progress justify existence sure could spend next however many years natural lifespan eating shitting going work sleeping would want that survive people thing driving forward dont close friends im distant family continuing life burden would willingly put myself reason whatsoever perform mundane bodily functions naturally cant anymore,1
stop bed generating random shit god damnit already infinity stones,0
Life is really depressing #depression,1
reading biography last russian tzar nicholas ii failure secure armys support decided give film trybr br i watched completely open mind knowing anything except reputationbr br these things impressed mostbr br  shots battleships soldiers used extras stopped think if done time place  would computergeneratedbr br  realism it maggotinfested meat shot sailor candle legend killed bowl soup movie makes concessions pc cause which thankfully invented yetbr br  slow descent madness odessa steps sequence first shot limbless man appears get idea something might wrong since overall shots composed though end feeling comfortable surroundings amputee appears people start falling dramatic poses still shots composed cossacks appear scene incredible shot juxtapositions appear scene easily worth price admissionbr br  fact movie  unadulterated propaganda again rambo fought afghanistan also something propaganda different kindbr br overall film marred bit slow narrative nevertheless metropolis cabinet dr caligari movie perfect examples inventive edgy movies still remembered merits today really make modern movies look boring repetitive,0
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feel disconnected real worldi lived  years though thats true inner age still live home fulltime student parttime online job pays enough cover tuition owe pell grants scholarships sort ambition interest real world real life spend day fantasizing dead celebrities aching badly wish befriend them play lot video games spend significant amount time researching topics necessarily use career rarely leave room cant remember last time left house im experiencing anxiety returning school next week hate there like im studying hate around people classroom setting makes super uncomfortable makes feel trapped stifled control swore high school would never put hell again last year reality decided pay shortlived visit realized would never chance life go college get degree thing is desire work career kindi figure choice blue collar manual labor job something im least somewhat interested make better money ill go latter ive always good student quite average actually believe say like school push succeed  feel like little selfworth tied academic success  understand get anywhere life flunk everything im aromanticasexual means feel romantic sexual attraction anyone result feel extremely isolated lonely think big misconception people like us want love relationshipsnot true want kind love thats like omg want date sex blah blah would really love mentor type adult figure cant find anyone like that every adult life treats like one them even though im not im transage meaning although ive lived  years inner age matured past  causes distress imagine know never receive type love desperately long for hate feel like shit every day emotionally deprived might sound insane im jealous celebrity platonic crushs wife potential future granddaughters might have female descendants yet realize still time change yes know crazy literally would jealous little girl huge fear mine want little princess spoils protects literal daughter granddaughter im happy family get gist kind relationship less again desire whatsoever romantic sense typical crush want marry anything afterlife instead little friend know kind relationship jacob renesmee twilight books sort thing like said really goals dreams life basically going motions feel like choice true hearts desire animals meet celebrity platonic crush heaven animal dream enough make want stay earth endure lifetime working outside home suffering emotional isolation nothing look forward to feel tired sluggish days filled anxiety next time leave house thought function real world adult im makes sick full dread even career goals would still transage freak never jacob simply put meant planet im starting finally accept that feel like im one people would seriously better dead im happy here im tired pain,1
im blessed mum woke breakfast bed toast bacon juice stuff like that came downstairs let go ps early bought new trainers little brother started annoying told me woke up,0
is wearing a sydney tech jumper ,0
nothing sounds appealing never deal problems again care little things care sunrises good food love travel anything want stop conscious point blank would rather think feel anything aspire anything wanted die since seven years old yeah experienced good things life change fact would rather experience anything good bad god wish never born,1
feel weakeveryone keeps saying many people would hurt died me im hurting now sit deal pain please everyone else lately seems like much lose somehow im still losing things hardly sleep nightmares lead panic attacks make afraid go back sleep cant win like tell people want die im looking attention try die fail get sympathy we love you go talk leads everyone ignoring anything ever happened going right back stated succeed im hero everyone talk great person was right cause thats goes im ranting feel breaking,1
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want open upi thinki think want tell friends im suicidal addicted self harm im point friendships think open them im sick hiding long sleeved shirts jumpers want wear cuts pride thats fucking am thats me know myself want everyone else to next time post itll tell ive told them really hope im going able post again,1
currently going rough patch again half falling out situation parents recently relationship bipolar girlfriend mutually imposed hiatus wants alone lot lately started new job work year half needing adjust guess someone enjoys needs affection two days ago car broke down came home work summer event professional life going great actually atm feel like functioning came home immediately grabbed guitar started playing singing soul song dead flowers rolling stones playing townes van zandt version happened genuine flashback  years ago kind soul searching trip vietnam sitting rooftop hanoi played guitar sang girl watching brief moment silence looked dead eye said you sing sad you hit like truck know even posting here guess juest need vent really really hope hiatus work out still know get next  weeks manage somehow worth me really good friends deep level years relationship started february year start year everything going well therapy started new career path we happened feels like everything falling apart hope strength carry on moment thing left do know posting here guess words encouragement would nice know hope better night am question felt like shot straight heart,1
im going succeed nut november report back next month wish greatest luck fellow soldiers,0
@pittpantherelle Looks like you've got the hang of it to me ,0
i don t have much of anyone that i can call a true friend and it can be very lonely at time i m looking to meet some people that i d be able to talk with about whatever,1
i m almost and ever since i graduated i have been lost i didn t even look at college university my parent enrolled me in admin and i got the cert two then dropped out two time cert and then a spent a year and a half at makeup school which i regret because i still can t find a job out of it i do want to start my own freelance business but it hasn t happened yet lol then at i actually pursued a hairdresser apprenticeship which i ve wanted to do for a while i ignored all those telling me it s a sht job no money what ended up happening wa working at two different salon and causing nothing but chaos to their business the first salon got rid of me after three month after repeatedly getting people wet and failing to follow instruction the way she let me off made me cry on the way home like it break my heart whenever i have to remove someone passionate about hair but today will be your last day the thing is i lied that i wa passionate about hair when really i really am not then i found a job at a salon closer to home everyone there wa a lot older than me and i found it hard to talk to them but they were understanding and very kind they wanted me to quit my waitress job to focus on my career this salon wa a lot smaller and easier than the other one whole place made up of just four chair i worked there for four month caused abit of chaos bleach dye got on customer at some point failing to follow instruction when super busy fast paced on one tragic friday they sat me down and told me some sad serious thing they said they were dissapointed for one there were a few complaint from customer i wa still getting water in someone s eye and forehead too harsh with the wash brushing that same customer ear then they told me someone had been secretly asking for someone else to wash their hair and apparently i haven t been paying attention or focusing or using my common sense and that i need to speak up that night i started to get paranoid that i wa add or had a learning disability im pretty sure i do all over again or even a lack of common sense to my mum the answer is always you don t help out at home so that s why you can t do anything at work start from home first despite all that my boss still gave me a chance and told me they still agreed to let me stat my cert in hairdressing even though i m five week behind and told me to practise washing hair instead of root colour i wa holding back tear the entire meeting right after leaving i had another mental breakdown on the way home my parent were going to leave for a birthday but then cancelled and were concerned i made an instant decision that it wasn t for me and ended up quitting over text then not going to work the next day or going to first day of tafe class the apprenticeship is supposed to be year five day in a salon and once a week in tafe a few day later they called me to come pick up my pay because they decided to under pay me and in cash until i officially started my apprenticeship they were softer this time and asked if it wa any issue with the staff or even them and i denied it all the guy told me he thought i would have come back after the talk and pulled through you know like improve fought they made me feel guilty and want to ask for a second chance to still work for them and pursue the apprenticeship my mum reminded me that i know myself if i stayed they would end up sacking me anyways my mum think it s better to quit before getting fired and getting a bad reputation it s not good for me or their business it s kind of embarassing so yeah there s my experience on trying to become a hairdresser unfortunately for me i do have a case of social anxiety and it s hard for me to speak up i also get a bit grossed out about touching an old guy hair since my first hair salon job i have cringed watching my bos fake laughing to customer how fake you have to be a well ughhh it s not for me is it now i m thinking about going back to studying admin to get an office job while waitressing on the side or i wouldn t mind being a waitress for the rest of my life just some more irrelevant rambling you don t have to read the last thing i want is to end up a factory worker like my dad which everyone in my family seems to look down on my younger bro went to uni right after high school and work towards becoming an it or something i have always been the dumb rebel sibling lol simpson s bart and lisa balance right there it s fine i ll just be the dumb pretty one like the haley character out of modern family except i m not a party girl or ever been in a relationship might a well get a boyfriend for once anytime soon each year that s passed since finishing school in 0 ha consisted of cry in my room over being a failure the first year i started to have withdrawal symptom from being let off antidepressant on the bright side unlike the other sad year i actually have a job before that it wa so hard to even land an interview i have two hospitality related job,1
need helpim losing it yall im pregnant boyfriend hates strong enough abortion hate shitty job hate roommate disgusting slob hate mom telling terrible mother friends stopped inviting cant go bars sit home alone cry none hobbies fun anymore throw daily pregnancy hormones one reach make even slightly better want die im  months pregnant little girl love want keep safe happy cant cant keep alive like,1
heyim really sure ive joined group im posting here reading posts really dont think anything complain about but life feels pointless good job friends dont particularly dislike alive im lonely bored never goes away matter do engage hobbies distract myself theyre always there lurking waiting moment distractions end ive suicidal thoughts since  mid thirties now theyre pronounced ever already understand theyll go away point theyll also come back ive never actually happy moments im bored every dont feel lonely again even sure im posting this im rambling guess im craving attention dont want bother friends much kind talk anyway sorry writing much guess wanted vent thanks reading,1
@ericaleigh Receive a Hug from twitter. ,0
society brainwashed blinded accept genital mutilation babies genital mutilation legal every single country world also known circumcision baby boys condemn circumcision baby girls call fgm whereas blatantly accept boys st century humans rights havent even established men women given right vote fgm banned decades ago yet boys opening genitally mutilated reasons  circumcision barbaric cruel procedure cut pierce babys natural genitals knives scissors crosses limits humanityethics  circumcision absolute violation human rights violation babys body arent consenting cruel surgery permanently alters body life talk consent abortion sex im pretty sure cutting genitals also violates choice  foreskin natural fully functional part penis contains blood vessels nerve endings sensory neurones circumcision decreases sensitivity destroys natural function penis foreskin also acts natural lubricant protective layer fact women equivalent foreskin clitoris hood however considering cutting female foreskin fgm male foreskin circumcision genital mutilation main points,0
feel losti decided im going start writing things noteson phone similar journal started tonight ive feeling pretty bad lately tonight made everything worse id looking little bit never commenting posting seeing others finding hope am finally posting something first entry journal really know im looking this even know respond really know anything anymore im new this probably good too dont seem good anything really ill give shotlol kinda big fight fianceewanted take names out whole thing almost ended feeling bad awhile now least months money sucks big surprise friends busy want play videogames find boring now spent much money nice computer cool stuff playing games awhile back really enjoyed sitting room alone playing friends give time day outside playing another game anyway back tonight think died mother would get big stack cash shotun loaded hands hours ago didnt want couldnt it obviously im writting this despite wanting to feel like should like everyone would win did idk texted come stairs sat there reason even got heard coming didnt want see gun even though heard thats came down course probably thinks im monster going shoot her feel like im monster one likes cant control should theres key moment life something head forces fuck up act like asshole ive bed  hrs now last hour ive dark staring table dark cant really see anything trittium sights glowing dark definitely staring back me dont want cant feel like should even think could wanted to couldnt that here theres way could traumatize like that im getting mad self right even thinking possibility forcing see blood stuff place worst part thisfor least is im huge gun guy love going range even cleaning guns that feel like ask help im risking losing one things brings pure joy im going bed im sure ill check later point hate you im sorry know kind place im great writing expressing feelings im sure lot seems dumb yall idk really know stop typing feel like justify everything said could keep typing hoursthis post taking  minutes journal copy paste part problem really wish feel like this feel like need someone talk time think woukd commit redflag even though feel like solution time probably better spent talking someone else another post,1
ive single long m want somebody love ive never proper relationship hardly talk girls irl like nervous even though lately ive getting better it theres girl amazing boyfriend thing kind flirts were good friends like even though boyfriend go make dick many questions know sorry,0
I'll be there  So sweet. Amazing vocals! .  x o,0
ive lost liverecently moved ga florida work witch hate job girlfriend dumped valentines day severe anxiety social problems basically lost person truly cared friends im close family terms family go love  miles anyone new feel like people dont like im flee mother earth needs die already attempted past lived mom caught prevented completed im alone another know anywhere close sounds tempting revisit,1
life confusingi dont know disorder whatever ive lurker depressed long time coming it dont know completely still get urges im depressed completely still get urges mean guess im looking anyone talk get thoughts open im pretty low risk certain urges worse others brains pretty scattered comes yall cant tell,1
well life gives lemons  vine remix httpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsihttpswwwyoutubecomwatchvivaktttsi,0
happy life no depressed suicidal thoughts neither crush said yes satisfied life why try push things make get confort zone quarentine lost  pounds kg  also started drawing real used draw study anatomy take cold showers take care skin which full pimples  eat desert many times before improving skills ssbu secret happy  want become better person mean i need bevome better person watch anxiety attacks also happy maybe totally ignored online classes homework,0
another daybeing worthless piece shit am cant make better ive tried people supposed way,1
what are some thing i should get in order before i go i d like to either sell or toss most of my thing plan on paying off the little debt i have writing goodbye making sure nobody see anything traumatic what are some thing one would do or not do before death not looking for help or pitty just something i might be forgetting thanks,1
u check guitar song im beginner im quite proud this please check give feedback would great its first draft btw the songhttpssoundcloudcomusermatthewsacousticprojectrefclipboardamppaampc,0
got yelled dad first thought redflag im adult waymy dad boss  lately getting sick frequently breaking  year long relationship coming family feel really lost something always count though whenever mess dad tells need better immediate thought oh no fucked up need kill yourself cant understand anymore allowing think way,1
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reddit need help long readim sorry advance long read need advice soon  year old male engaged  year old female long distance relationship south dakota usa new zealand like said long distance little backstory met online year ago playing league legends call us nerds whatever want dont care really hit off slowly started learning fell love really got know her born south korea moved new zealand  years old speaks extremely good english mostly self taught dont know way korean parents raise children quite harsh sometimes strict cases dont care child thinking feeling long living standards parents different get later little backstory her told long dating raped age  then current boyfriend planned breaking took mature route wanted person rather phone went house ended it didnt take well said going get pregnant couldnt leave him people could turn family friends didnt feel comfortable telling them family blamed turned away reason idea cruel do started blaming became depressed cut herself smoked  packs day one point time even attempted redflag twice happened met her always blamed since matter try say isnt fault still blames herself understand feels way blaming long believes right way used blaming herself might another way say it idk skype time text time we relatively clingy people serious relationship either us had talk sleep every night skype days depressed talking redflag able calm bring thinking like that would always thank tell happy someone like me makes feel good inside back november took loan made trip new zealand visit her  days god best  days lives proposed there said yes heartbeat never seen happy before expected trip hard us definately took harder depressed more talked planning next visit would come see states felt far away hard stay positive lot depressed keep mind whole time relationship going on getting shit failure daughter would rather disown let wants life stressed weeks ago started new job help raise money next trip also started school week going art school she origionally enrolled psychology hated dropped out needless say parents happy school work even stress hard time meeting new people due past nerve racking her story really starts months since visit still stressed depressed everything going life confessed starting forget felt like next me forgot felt like depressed that sending things hold make feeling go away helped bit never went away completely made friend coworker supportive it happy her told wanted guy like her said even though knew bad wrong wanted things remember felt like me tried best clear thoughts mind  weeks ago cheated me confessed everything without say anything own felt terrible feeling wanted remember wasnt there didnt give feeling wanted feelings guy depressed ever hurt me said forgave her still loved her didnt leave honest me justhad weak moment even tho forgiven her still feels terrible stayed depressed it like almost  weeks now tonight happened tonight im here im typing right now learned tonight learned victim sexual assault early age  schoolboy would touch said told anyone would tell whole school kept silent hadnt told soul told tonight told ages   also sexually assaulted brother   years older dont remember which started saying curious female body looked like asked show him did said wanted play doctor her would play let surgery down there touched her wont go bunch details made give oral gave oral her behavior stopped long met her also never told anyone before happened next scary voice chatting bed said tired wanted lay down depressed again depressed soft sad voice sounds like cry normally listens talk helps calm down could talk anything really would help would talk would ask question right told things past voice changed soft sad voice loud firm voice almost creepy crisp clear didnt sound sad scared sounded possesed angry dont really know describe it started talking wanted kill parents detail telling stop think like that trying talk calm down started laughing happy laugh demonic laugh almost imagine someone would laugh say would kill parents knew didnt really want that like her know angry doesnt like much still like her kept telling stop getting scared didnt sound like listening all voice changed back soft sad voice said scaring me asked why told idea talking about said scaring started cry told everything would okay said loved other sooner say voice changed back again creepy crisp said didnt believe said loved her started telling ever found another family would find us would slit childrens throats right front would make watch blood spray would move onto wife kill make watch too said would burn me whole thing laughing started crying didnt know think say mild panic attack attack crying breathing became kinda fucked up sounded like run marathon laughing sudden voice changed back soft started crying asking breathing like scaring her told why said why would ever say things you thats horrible kept crying crying didnt remember idea knew telling truth could tell started talking long sounded like fallen asleep i talked sleep enough times know breathing would sound like finally slept said sleep tight tonight creepy voice right dont tell do said wanted help said well arnt good help right now creepy talking me said didnt like talking told hang up refused started laughing saying what going then scared going cry again said that started crying right then laughing calling baby crying real hurtful hear fiance started crying why me deserve this got soft said you didnt anything crying started cry again idea saying me im really freaked out ended falling asleep long after last heard creepy voice sent long text talking happened believe wouldnt remember it woke text back said remembered crying breathing funny scared right asleep idea do dont know think dont know means first time personalities appear looked online found dissociative identity disorder describes multiple personalities apparent amnesia memories prior talks cases reported childhood sexual trauma extreme stress anyone help out tell whats going on give advice tell do im scared her dont know do,1
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need advicei want kill girl manipulates left birthday yesterday wearing wrong outfit birthday dinner snap it im legit terrified im thoughts,1
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never seen oliver stone film before films starring eric bogosian know expect film toyed idea buying while finally got free supplement sunday newspaper hugely impressedbr br it tells story barry champlain talk radio host incredibly rude towards callers often putting place realise whats going on though made popular radio show host also earned numerous enemiesbr br the acting film hugely impressive one dud actor it eric bogosian brilliant barry champlain troubled talk radio host alec baldwin turning strong performance barrys boss dan also features voice of cameo appearance by michael wincott my reason wanting see thisbr br the story really well written as despite arrogance feel barry troubled life revealed see vulnerable really isbr br id recommend film anyone captivating and importantly real numerous levels two inspired life actual talk radio host fact actually get radio show hosts callers like ones featured film realitybr br high recommendation br br aye yours cat squire,0
But i dont have a feelin for quantity .. damn.. it's enough fo at least 20 ppl ,0
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"Is trying to get his sleep crud together. too late of a bedtime, especially without the usual movietime nap ",0
long story  need supportive depressed suicidal long time gotten worse past year started last year chose best friend one take virginity trusted him felt honored chosen him big deal unfortunately got really bad ovarian cyst right away promised wait completely better broke promise started dating cheating girlfriend months after another boyfriend cheating best friend made excuses wanting break original boyfriend best friend fact broke promise really hurt me months started dating her sexually harassed way home school public train winter guy started harassing me another man defended me however offender proceeded threaten guy saying going shoot him pull gun threat there got train soon doors opened that wanted see best friend support told happened asked could meet weekend the incident took place monday but decided spending weekend cheating girlfriends place important helping me keep feelings everything anymore decided talk best friend it got fight it turns forgotten promise made permanently changed way saw world people always say think loved ones would feel committed redflag did help think easy forget promise big easy forget someones existence committed redflag one would miss me theyd simply forget me abusive family friends everyone matter also tried justifying choosing stay cheating girlfriends place supporting me thing is like trouble need support anything also work needed him moment need picked girlfriend something promised never do guess broke promise desperation considering many failed relationships hes had said considered guy harassed bluffing gun course considered police however threats using weapon taken extremely seriously plus know bluffing not could been could also serious told work understandable able see time going girlfriends house instead helping important time not go house time said still chose cause wanted to fought more hurl insults there said hes going talk insulting spending time girlfriend eventually apologized made up thing is damage done im still hurt everything completely forgiven either cant look world same combined living abusive household made family family friends eating im skinny taken toll think redflag almost time one talk to ive tried antidepressants ones ive tried far worked me im still looking right one see psychiatrist counselor school summer break cant see anyone now especially live narcissistic mom ive attempted redflag times summer including birthday cant stop thinking redflag know do ive contacted hotlines times want nuisance theyre always helpful nothing seems working anymore want die wish never born hate world want anymore,1
More than 1 in 20 #US children and teens have #anxiety or #depression https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm … https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2018/04/180424184119.htm …,1
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i want to die so badly even just cut do something to ease this pain but my mom took all my blade all my option even my medication i have no access to anything anymore and i feel empty hollow i want to die so badly but i cant because i have no mean thats the only real reason i m alive right now is i dont have a way to unalive send help im not well im cry everything is terrible and i want out there really should be a log out option on life so you can take a break and come back if when youre ready to face this hell,1
im still need talk hey guys roughly  christmas morning am still good hour  wrapping do letting know need talk im up ,1
im close giving upwhen im friends feel nothing im family feel nothing im something used enjoy feel nothing realized little care friends give shit me give shit them im hardly even close reason talk im desperate talk someone even connect real way love family realize much care mebut still feel nothing single good day year day ended felt mind that good day ive realized little person inside really unless express people meaningful way ive realized much shy anxious silent really life cant connect people cant make people like you cant someone ever really know you utter piece dirt inside hey funny impressionable people like you even trying cynical accepted anxiety bars life want throwing towel care anymore romantasize everything life wanting great perfect life never put work get worst part is get lowest point want everything change improve life let things go back shitty normal cant take anymore,1
@Karageorgakis ... for once in a while. Still love my jeans and allstars ,0
getting harderthe man love stupid stupid young man one point got exgirlfriend pregnant despite supposed use condoms amp birth control stayed raised child two years her ditched love raised unwanted child alone another year joins army gets woman take back child tells child means nothing him never wanted child kills child another woman helped raise child initially kills know stupid avoid easily avoidable mistake tells never loved her never truly wanted her matter convenience pain convenient tens thousands dollars spent unwanted child convenient love him want him loving hurts jealous upset child another woman albeit unwanted child part completely love respect man unintentionally hurts bad unintentional easily avoidable ive never real purpose live really one never believed true love met man loving hurts me ive tried hard let child another woman bother me cry every day lost ten pounds matter week distraught became holding together better now still hard know much longer try keep up either im miserable without miserable point,1
ive never worse im scared reach outim suffering im fucked brain time think need meds dont know whats wrong feel trapped alone mind nothing distraction anymore thought art helping hold feel like nothing help now feel like hell find hard talk mum reach truly think im gonna die mental breakdown last night relapsed ctting never hell since then panic attack earlier actually thinking going insane passed almost threw up absolutely one knows whats going brain im mentally sick building longest fucking time much shit brain cant take anymore im struggling ever need stop need something save theres way much going brain wont stop never never will,1
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th birthday thats is wanted let guys know im old now thanks ,0
hate everyone im depressedi recently diagnosed bipolar ii years years undiagnosed depression anxiety many redflag attempts go waves anger numbness long periods depression ive worst pandemic living alone home time little progress made build back completely undone barely get bed now im near constant state depersonalization periods intense anger start suddenly hate everyone seemingly reason want cut anyone life good like uncontrollable urge every redflag attempt failed misery increases like trying force things get worse cant even stop anymore dont old saying hurt people hurt people misery loves company im trying make things unbearable choice find inner strength finally get done successfully im helpless stop dont even care time im here drinking morning whiskey coffee missing another holiday fucked broken mind nothing even feels real dont even know really exist kind jacobs ladder situation needs end one way another cant anymore hate everything,1
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anyone remember time fortnite actually popular among teenagers like around  mostly high school kids played fortnite little kids,0
wanted ask opinion im research debate club im trying prove social apps phones make us anti social less socially active make us socially active helps us express self easily could comment think socially active thanks phone social media think oppositeyust share opinions theme thanks,0
@zachheins comeon didn't u think it was a little silly when he parachuted out of the helicopter?  it did have alot of twists &amp; turns ,0
pedophile problem solve multiple posts subreddit pedophiles people harassing users subreddit heres problem subreddit  kinds users intended users ie teenagers referred prey here group ill call predators predators browse subreddit order find target important understand find targets difficult task however especially itll change behavior prey changes also different predators different targeting strategies everyone target others choose random others might take look age tag one save way targeted seems posting picture face trying avoid targeted specific case someone asked help learning language harassed  year old creep straight texting send nudes started showing intentions while opinion best tactic avoid targeted rather find targeted act right way safe way targeted post comment better tactic identify predator act accordingly important thing careful information give internet long know know live look like literally cant anything except messaging you annoying harmful stop time ignoring said sometimes sneaky obvious intentions advice people following  someone message directly check profiles anything else look suspicious details post history example low karma posts comments weirdcreepy postscomments  think theyre safe message back cautiousness give information gave posts already  less links you easier cut contact reveal predator example way contacting reddit account block thing worry secondary accounts work creates new account leave old one behind however someone email address discord account phone number etc becomes increasingly hard cut life  summarize careful information give people post pictures face ignore obvious creeps careful write make sure cut contact things get weird need help advice want tell someone troubles message me im happy help,0
im close done lifeit started  relationship one exes bad verbally mentally emotionally physically abused me kicked me punched me slapped me throw things me relationship almost killed me th november  first time tried kill myself rode dads bike  mph head metal container flew  meters merely cerebral contusion broken right leg broken right arm fast forward years  broke happy couldnt live like anymore last year september met current girlfriend love life started well looked stuff past also bad ex obssessive facebook posted stuff forgot those got pissed still there time passed good moved australia  weeks ago dont kill ill late june said shes bad making girl friends understood asked shes okay bringing guys house chill her she got stuck balcony guy found  days shes drinking dudes hanging them house house too said topic isnt good talk says ruin vibes ask talk feel like burden cause stress it everytime talk ask gets mad me asked break see ig stories guys post pic boxers underwear snapchat caption up cant take pain said ly thing cause stress pain never done anything good life want kill myself cant take much longer miss much love im willing kill make happy means happy ill anything ill die,1
suicidal caring whether live diesomeone redirected subreddit last post nostupidquestions said post im depressed mind dying time actively pursue guess makes suicidal reddits guidelines guys think need help like something wrong,1
everyone hate mei always kid everyone made game hiding from switched schools kid even first day everyone hated much picked ended day crying front everyone highschool even worse im  friends friends hang pot smoke give place smoke it everyone hate me want good person   finally thought found someone belonged with dating girl relationship first real friend best friend hates too everyone does mom dad hate too want die shame would cause family whats point keep everyones punching bag whole life,1
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closei went would today first time ive something felt different time real called crisis hotline hung know one really wants help,1
bad news wa dad ha cancer and is dying good news new business started and i am now a life coach practising holistic weight management,0
@JoeG17 LMAAAO I know I was as well  great mind think alike. wanna do something tomorow?,0
like one series need see sure would see beginning cool sucks series fun second part season  stale come go want happens many series end something special second part series always goes drain one also somewhat did third part one spoil ruin whole series usually doesnt ending perfect series fits perfect actually pretty angry guys vals life actually wanted end jeff end later changed chose take vic series almost  seasons without him biggest surprise also made series go topbr br see many times series actually cool expect second part good third part needed made series one worth whole thing happy say glad happy series go see two guys girl pizza place seen whole series back,0
also always bite pick lips meaning usually patch dried blood also chew nails though ive found clip nails almost everyday goes away know behaviors typical ocd ocd symptoms think redflag tips would appreciated want share habits go ahead,1
just ughive good past months past weeks ive felt empty hopeless life im tired done everything right now im going college dont really even see future myself im kinda wondering point life right,1
want dieim tired want rest forever,1
alone lost confused feeling sad feel purpose life burden wake everyday here want go need help,1
"Every thought is a battle. Every breath is a war, and I don't think I'm winning anymore..I can't eat and I can't sleep. I'm not doing well in terms of being a functional human. Every little thing is a constant reminder. I cannot escape the depression and sickness no matter what.",1
"@owlonthesill oh the poor birdies! actually, they're prob happy-means the worms will be out! ",0
people depressedsuicidal long time come side or not  shouldnt kill myselfits almost ten years constant agony ten years suicidal ideations past month every day gotten little bit worse tethers life little bit looser shouldnt give up really worth endless suffering reason im alive dont hurt ones love line two sides selfishness sure might selfish kill put others immense pain selfish others force suffer dont feel bad ever acceptable give up ampnbsp people encounter cant quite understand im going through typically use metaphor  maybe relate imagine headache headache never ever goes away sure sometimes might feel bit better sometimes bit worse every second every day headache there try aspirin doesnt work try meds avail visit doctor doctor one seem help you try homeopathic remedies meditation try adjusting various aspects life nothing get rid headache often not extremely hard deal with feel much pain cant anything stop it want end way can advice friends give is try headache change pain affects act around people people perceive you friends start push away  constant pain bringing everybody down would want voluntarily spend time someone inherently depressing somehow fact people leaving side makes headache worse makes much harder deal with push on ten years pass relief progress pain think ending life end suffering cant cant bear hurt parents siblings close friends remain stuck suffer endlessly hope sight do,1
depressive moods pushed away loved ones im afraid ill nowhey im m begin constantly suffering depressed moods came every couple months disappeared week so however ive current period months getting worse family love feel pushing away more girlfriend  years love anyone anything ive pushed away broke reasons know ive pushed point one  right im sitting looking bottle bleach wondering pain drinking bleach worth release death im truly terrified might me even know ive posted im desperate need anything tldr  long depressive mood pushed away family friends girlfriend contemplating whether commit redflag now,1
nobody give two shits people bring value them something suicidal people know about everyone including cases parents in case least give two flying fucks you presence life unless value outweighs mental costs undergo around you however second show negative emotion first ones shit you belittle you negate resemblance emotion would rather believe made reality rather understand truthwhat kind shitty person would rather kick curb order save face rather help something goes wrongmy mother openly stated found boy youngest siblings one bore first grandson grandfather we indian family moved us born brother moved back father died apparently big deal grandfatherits got fucked up literally feel need justify existence picking skills useful future i good computer tinker linux lot disassemble reassemble laptopwhat kind parent justifies saying right simply born her kind parent belittles child extent even fully comprehend effect doingi done life done existence honestly done universe knowing matter many times die reincarnated wishful thinking know die going erased existence like never even mattered always another person going am nobody gives two shits,1
inconsequential ramblingsive hard times long time ago ive come understand troubles life result shit went  years ago now directly comes time everybodys life realize responsible choices certainly am held accountable happened me people change life change without cutting ties massive effort people really capable of maybe included idk im trying though im back school im stumbling across bull shit problems last time around  years ago seclusion hard time life go away quickly really fucks up every day faced dread peers never experienced never will prolonged exposure sort shit changes person literally changes you synapses change different neural pathways become ingrained like trenches ruts become almost impossible climb of brain fucks cope add isolation concoction result one trainwreck personality ie me dad died suddenly without warning mom confessed suicidal thoughts me still boy fucked man gone forever happy family gone forever gone god damn instant little left almost wondered even existed first place holding onto memories like grabbing smoke shit continued years later widow cant afford house anymore lose it fucking home place grew up gone likely forever im holding place heart someday successful enough buy back despite sincere fucking efforts school feel acting vain much thoughts run depraved desperate demeanor alienate myself alone crowd going motions smiling polite happy normal thin veneer nobody understands,1
began watching boku hero academia expected level sadness something added reminded life life nothing pain watching everybody made feel sad everybody improving themselvesachieving dreams mentors adventures feel pain much healthier mine tv screen fades black felt empty sad depression began show mean self again could repeat my life boring their real bakugous real i coward repeats head chest felt heavy shit wish could world lot destructions free there instead house many years even allowed go faraway feel like reality always like thisempty sad boring filled suffering even remember feels like happy something want go fight supposed feelings ever receive negativity quarantine making fucking worst everytime movie music ends stare around room feel nothing immense sadness emptiness sad want exciting life hard sad fact bnha,1
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keep many mistakes know long go like anymoremaybe someone read this apologize bad english im simply native speaker hey rredflagwatch even know writing here maybe need tell someone like title says im someone many mistakes life one serious probably hiding true self everyone love many years many years now around   life day day reason im writing something happend yesterday dont many friends would say  guys would call that yesterday realized forgot birthday best friend day yesterday might sound insignificant people one friend like anchor life since met first time ive often ledge life ready end all one person always dragged back even made soul smile dark times yesterday total breakdown even sleep night felt like greatest sht world able think something different this today talked again like nothing happend cant understand even able hate this worst person world disappointing every single person know nothing ever hurt much know do even deserve live on mean disappoint time many people too also think im enrichment life way,1
ahaha might suffocate ahahaha last six months costicted throat hard breathe moments asthma symptoms read im afraid tell parents cuz doctor set coronavirus restrictions me im really careful corona anyways government controls real bad system counrty really badly done send pics police taken home every  minutes im patient instead  weeks ill corona knows end choose tell ahaha cant get meds way ahahaha help,0
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least alleviate depressive thoughts mean best options least numbs thought process down might solve problems brings everything clear light feel much people nobody feeling much pain going to know solutions this anybody struggling got this keep pushing anyone tried smoking weed,1
kind of quit gaming  yes read right quit reasons  pc crashes lot specs gb ram nvidia geforce gtx a now pc lags bad af completely crashed know would say buybuildupgrade pc cannot spend huge amount money pc dad running temper looking activity pc  bored wanna quit want get productive waste sorry use this gamers time gaming want grow my life gaming kinda avoiding that rocket league valorant csgo minecraft games deleting everything gtexcept minecraftlt refreshing mind mean never will games useless harmful play games people cant move on gtill earn money buy nice psxboxlt im expressing encouraging quitting games wanna say life fucking life,0
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im friend right im feeling extremely suicidlemy ex dosent care me gave tons chances cheats every opportunity gets hurts bad unknown illness doctor figure out im fucking depressed cant drink smoke drugs heart condition wanna die instant painless death,1
miss h going reddit morning noticed friends dm said name one member me user deleted feel like lost part me please come back hope see this devastated,0
happy new year goodbyewelp another year alone im even going lie say maybe ill find love   im gonna end life simple,1
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wooh! June1.. its raining outside.. T_T first day of school.. elem and high school.. ,0
im tiredi dont know anymore ive depressed since  im  now im tired dont want anymore doesnt get fucking better even think is doesnt last nothing lasts fucking miss dog miss grandparents miss happy hope dont friends close friends mom love her know shed lose killed myself cant her wish could cut brain out forget everything drugs cutting distractions dont help much anymore nothing really,1
"Day 1: admitting the problemYou can't exactly help or recovery from something if you dont admit to it being a problem in the first place. I have a problem with depression and anxiety, i need professional help with it.From now on I plan to work towards that.",1
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holy shit trying poop heard loud distressed hiss growl think thats kitten take care of hope danger im pretty sure fighting big ass cat hates everyone,0
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im either cold people come strong literally either brush tou completely block life completely ill make favorite person try share every life detail adore much comes annoying fuck needless say people talk know regulate emotions lmao,0
argh i wa suuuper sleepy an hour ago now i m wide awake hope i don t stay up all night,0
life objectivesthis farewell note thoughts ive witnessed many things years living studying others go own fixing accomplishing objectives since something do life meaning trying get goal finally reach it void wonder supposed here world since everyone following goals rapidly forget you thats kinda scary tried experiment myself stopped giving signs life stopped talking people normally talk to waited see whos gonna notice first result frightening grow up less able talk see distant friends theyre going way cant blame this truth getting lonelier on things goings on im changing all witnessing time going by one knows depressed am im struggling since much time cares ,1
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feel alonemaybe head,1
told family trying overdose medicine told stop even hide box medicines located taking days recommended dose care anymore know feel one,1
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jennlopez i had to get an hd tivo and just got it set up tonight in order to get channel 0 9,0
help need someone talk topreface im drunk rambling strangers hoping help wife issues focusing around intimacy very long time now going seven years  year relationship used great together sex good life good married still relationship time found cheated times like pussy am kept seeing her eventually got married dec  sometimes happens intimacy fallen point think weve actually sex penetrative  all take  blame here know im testosterone deficient on lower end normal took testosterone therapy helped bit things came along losing job depression etc  sort shut down wife telling years get sex feel appreciated relationship leaving mefinding lover end october started relationship someone else rough month her told relationship person id thought like past emotional infidelities come head last weeks read facebook messages know breach trust dispel thoughts infatuated person correct go details worst ive felt entire life wish could make people understand wife saved life bad place came along pulled stupid ass dump since then able give wants ability show love good enough least her cant anymore seeing someone else killing me point redflag table ive thought quite bit would would easier let go happy someone love and show love back tldr wife stepping probably leave me fault id rather end life fall back old self without her dead inside anyway think need help im dying inside rather deal pain id rather dead real,1
feeling like lateim  dropped high school  done anything since never got job anywhere never intentions going school chose nothing rot away isolation instead spent birthday alone earlier month well ive read disconnected youth feel fits t feel ive fucked future already absolutely nothing hermit instead ill talk people theyll say well young figure out really kind passion ambition though thought seeing therapist feel like ill tell ive said theyll say thing else everyone else saying fruitless intend hanging halloween id hate devastate family everyone life see coming anyway,1
Dinner on a rooftop garden with a view of the sun setting on Mexico City. Also sushi and drinks. Very nice  ,0
omg whats with window vista today tried installing it on my window laptop and it died reinstall,0
maammalice everyone s seasonal depression is gone after a few day of sun and we are all now touching ourselves with excitement,1
"@nailbiter2  you'd have to change your baby anyway, right?  it's probably easier than you think!  #clothdiapers",0
ever go shower imagine family dying cry next  minutes,0
scream pain sometimes bashings would bad would call mum work sometimes brother would home alone returned school would torment bash me would run room lean bedroom door weight brother kicked punched side once wood splintered went back still noone stopped him,1
@laumaluf I AM IN LOVE WITH THE HEADBANDS.. MONDAY I WILL GO BUY SOME MORE ,0
im donefucked world work going alright fucked everything world girlfirend barely got family shes family past  tears ger family mine literally fucked up drunk responsed girls facebook messenger extremely innapropriate way hates me right reasons want work things out barely does dont know over lost close friends friends friends family barely exists cant find live more third time past year theese thoughts attack me allthough attack stronger ever ruined life dont want exist anymore without fuck do literally want die right now,1
ask random questions im bored counts social interaction degenerate loser mind,0
goodbyei dont even know anymore blah blah cant talk anyone ive done horrible things deserve worse death honest everyone would probably throw party die thanks reading guess last stitch effort talk someone whats point dying  sounds fun anyway ,1
basically trying imply no head,0
old life everything almost everyone loved gone taken away know hope better die things holding back hurting mom thought dying like this things cannot worsen dead also cannot improve even try,1
ughive crying past probably  minutes thinking should get told even parents dont anything things trying stem academic success always feel worthless like everything would better without me deemed popular im alone actual friends never got form bonds like im thinking itll best fucking die nothing would affected world dying year  ago ive tried kill got held couldnt whats point living nothing life everything seems like im burden feel singled time  wouldve probably done already something would quick  chance dying give life hope why,1
want drink deathand even drink seems like good way go think primarily loneliness gets me hate it want end,1
everyone here know it s difficult to do anything while depressed even getting out of bed or brushing your teeth can sap all your strength appetite usually go out the window a well which lead to low blood sugar exhaustion etc here s what i reach for when i have to force myself to eat any type of smoothie shake i usually use a low glycemic berry oatmilk and kale or spinach protein powder is good also to add a bit more calorie chia seed for the fiber to keep you satiated longer bone broth or soup again very little prep time and you re not actually eating just drinking bone broth alone ha very little calorie but the protein content will help your malfunctioning brain work a bit better any type of nut or seed they pack a ton of calorie in just a handful doesn t feel like you are eating a meal no prep time,1
im going starve deathim weak actively kill myself maybe passively eating,1
hey guy today i opened up to my boyfriend for the first time in a while about all the mental turmoil i ve been going through a part of me want to cut it off i love him dearly but i just feel like i ll be a burden to him for the rest of my life if i stay is it selfish to leave or selfish to stay if i knew he d be fine if i knew he d make it and be happy with someone else one day i would leave i would spend all the money i have chasing fleeting happiness until i m ready to go i wish i could erase the memory from his head so he can just know peace,1
im  go moremy parents abusive emotionally mentally physically dealt abuse  years throughout life many traumatic things happened me im haunted words memories cant shake matter do music escape tells much failure am im sick chronic pain heart issues breathing issues bad memory loss cant even remember say halfway sentence time get lost conversations really know do ive honestly lost live keep fighting ive fought whole life exist get better emotions accepted feel worth anymore husband tries understand help feel like im ruining life one day hell realize horrible am fuck already is im selfish know it know people care me cant go like anymore power change things cant change living situation health issues past emotions  everything control choices left physically feel urge put noose around neck point think would make feel better would feel like relief never ending nightmare im scared void death im scared keep living,1
cant believe comments show show genius sure follow tried true consumers always want things thrust us again option sit back enjoy something new while style realistic previous scooby doo shows supposed be show titled shaggy scooby doo get clue part title states entire beloved cast renditions would constantly join action nowhere say theyd solving mysteries cant even stand monsters would they im actually glad put long standing plot points work scoobydoo show still running jokes clumsy hijinks quickchange outfits chase scenes standard hallway gag even scooby snacks fact im glad show there love it im even glad got rid rest team concentrated two main characters villainbr br sure ridiculous supposed be sure different supposed be supposed make laugh villain cheer idiotic robotic butler triumph intruding vermin matter size supposed get running roobiroo joke whole thing put together well single thing think wrong it writing acting animation top notch title music awesome my computer plays get clue boots up background music gripping,0
dont know dotheres nothing else rest life till something it,1
so here i am at a baby shower only person i know is the expectant mom sitting at a table by myself i hate event like this,1
what a lousy day buh,0
f i m planning to kill myself perhaps next month i m just gon na put it all out there because i have nothing to lose now i missed year of school because of mental health and i wa in a psych ward for 9 month due to this i have no friend at all only my mum and i m grateful for that now i m in year in a hospital school trying to cram year of lost education into my brain my gcse s are in a month and i m going to fail even though i m only going to be doing two of them english language and math i cant even get to college don t get me started on uni i m going to be a nobody struggling to find a job i bet my mum is so disappointed in me but she doesn t wan na say it my future is over i m over even though my life ha just begun i d rather end it now than be known a the waste child i ve been planning my death for a long time now i can t take this anymore this disappointment in myself i can t take it,1
second redflag attempt minutes ago tied neck untied know hell stopping mei  dreamt redflag first time reason parents wanted wear certain religious clothes even though want i know thats weird reason got many reasons led suicidal thoughts like low exam marks bullies etc im  beginning year feeling empty even know reason depressed time im chronically depressed remember reasons often wanted get overdose painkillers got  stopped sat cried know stopped nowadays ive feeling empty again still troubles parents religious stuffs decided love learn im member religion would even kill me believe love always tell no one loves much us parents love benefits religion daughter made feel numb even want talk parents cant even talk them know talk them tonight mom came room even say hi could say this room small better leave angrily left said be happy phone feel numb feel something people everything seems cold mom went bedroom grabbed bathrobe belt tied neck wanted tie part ceiling hands started shaking that get guts that body shaking thinking nothing ah stupid forgot even writing redflag letter written redflag letter told im atheist committed redflag would angry instead sad maybe even let corpse buried would feel die nothing me know stopped me im seriously angry myself im  years old life continue like this depressed time want this want get rid soon possible cant it ps going say encourage commit redflag inside heart sound saying hope people may give advices chronical depression even mean want kill myself im confused yes want die want die well know do ill go sleep,1
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think tonight nighti dont think anymore im going end tonight take bunch pills done it maybe wont burden family failures anymore play watch people stream video games online making bigger waste space do want end all,1
hey guy im gon na be honest here im a year old stoner with a lot of mental health issue i havent ever really had anyone i felt comfortable or safe opening up to and i know it can be the same for a lot of other men of all age i wanted to create a subreddit of some sort a a safe place to vent give and seek advice for domestic or any other reason a men mental health problem seems to be kinda looked over i m looking for advice on how to grow that kind of community i haven t had a safe place like that for me and i dont want men to have the same problem or feel the same way kindest regard safewithus,1
could improve quite ways would like polishing turd still would good enough maybe would go   good enough anyone  friends certainly partner pick hobbies feel like deserve smile ugly thing like smile talent would silly did cannot create anything hate ugly creating something beautiful would ironic would feel like lie early s beginning bald top head god real cruel sense humor let us add messed already thanks feel envious people effortlessly obtain friendships notredflag people time lives partying hanging friends hooking up things never gotten do see everyone around feeling good feeling happy fun here feeling shameful likely never experience anything close daily wish could experience once move done it want keep missing out want life stop laughing me know do even improve still never going good enough anyone ugly talentless stupid receding hair like clock ticking become truly lost anyway bi get rejected absolutely everyone sight wish things would get better wake one day longer care always going alone apologies wasting time writing felt therapeutic good enough,1
one give answerfor get better keep repeating like eventually hold meaning even though words completely hollow ive finally stopped asking ive stopped asking lot things regurgitate pain continuously getting harder swallow back down i am done im done reaching people stifle words done trying show people care constantly slip minds done struggles diminished theres always someone worse you how statement help put anything perspective needing grateful worse lot people would okay comfortable thinking people worse me empathize them well done struggling day day even basic human interactions even family ive known whole life done keeping strong facade navigating bullshit done told im cared ultimately always end alone hurt done trying done never progressing fucking done going therapy trying get medications pushed me done mental physical pain constantly done watching people love life patience worn me done so tired done think im going bother write redflag notes words seem hold meaning think want twist want see it finally know method use know it pretty good idea when people claim see coming even though feels like ive waving around giant lit sign screaming anyone fucking notice me im already invisible might well make concrete wish inner peace hope end better me cant live life anymore,1
bpdeupdim almost  f developed mental heath issues age  hardly went school barley attended college tried hold jobs couldnt im back college trying really making depressed others age driving holding full time jobs going living life im mentally behind everybody else im embarrassed feel bummy idea do ive done therapy meds hospital trips etc idk guess want hear anybody else boat overcome it im struggling give pep talks everything going okay carry brain fucked,1
inadvertently caused guinea pigs death feel fucking guilty dont know go onthis sounds frivolous stupid im already depressed one guinea pigs passed away love dearly left lid cage open kitten went wanted play caused pig heart attack wasnt home drive  minutes get back bury him freezing cold time got home im fucking sick cant fucking believe caused this would still hadnt fucked up cannot handle killed him took life pure innocent one fuck going go conscience im vegan im hurting animal fucking killed baby want curl fucking die want swallow pills done id literally give life come back jesus christ,1
i am male and getting my dream education right now and will be working with young people that can t live with their parent for a multitude of reason anymore in year after year of being aimless i found that to be my dream job i am together with a nice girl and we have great chemistry i am living in my own flat and my grade and praxis are is going great i got professional help after a major mental breakdown i had year ago that made me live like a plant and got over severe depression and constant panic attack panic attack are rare and i know my trigger and how to deal with them i am confident in myself and got to reflect on my messed up childhood and problematic personality trait a couple of week ago i started feeling really anxious tho by far more than usual i am afraid of dying for stupid bodily reason and i am always so tense and have ache in my stomach and neck and my heart beat really fast from time to time and i am afraid my girlfriend will leave me that s what i am most anxious about she is really good for me and she told me that i am good for her but lately she act distant while still showing me affection in way because she isn t doing that good aswell there are reason for her to feel bad besides me but i am afraid that i might be a big reason because she wa confronted with a lot of my anxiety related issue logically i would say she won t leave me because gave me thoughtful present and still care for me by reminding me to eat and she sometimes say she miss me but she behaves so distant and it s triggering me so hard because of a toxic relationship i wa in i decided not to talk about my anxiety anymore because i don t want to lay that upon her and i told her about my abandonment issue once and will leave it at that because i don t want her to feel bad everytime she behaves distant because of her own issue that would be selfish hell she even told me she won t stop loving me even if she cant express it but my anxiety is still there the worst thing is that she doesn t want to speak about what s bothering her because she doesn t want to think about it which make me feel like it s me and then i feel like an asshole because i am not the center of the world so yeah long story short my abandonment issue are the worst thing right now i decided not to bother her with it because it s not fair but i don t know how to deal with it oh and those issue wouldn t be so bad if i weren t so anxious in general the general anxiety came with the practical part of my education but i don t know why because i am doing good i will be done with that in week and that s when i will meet her again and i hope that everything will be okay by then but i am afraid that i will be sabotaging myself before then by ruining my relationship just so that the anxiety go away,1
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colindemar far too out of the way for rail any other tip,0
finally figured crush on not anyone cares okay may sound strange longest time sure liked even like someone yesterday made mind step  complete step  say hi step  accept ill always single forget ever liked her oh well nice dream,0
theekween depression and anxiety thelmasherbs,1
i just feel trapped being alive and death there s no escape for me so wtf do i do,1
day  posting quotes know devil get fucking garlic bread  sorry lied known better  kids trying hard good  guess want to  feel unfair  already good try hard good  makes mad  want prove good already good  that that  think notice that obviously me obviously you  makes so mad  hate place much  either here  here  please stop please please stop  lets just dont doesnt  god stoppppp please hate this  trying fuck venus rest entire life let want stop guess problem kill me  kid look happy you well guess different opinions stop making trying hard be  jupiter want badly so badly  please  no  want good ever  neither want good either,0
@zerohedge Do they teach history anymore? The travails of modern youth are nothing compared to the Great Depression and World War Two.,1
join minecraft server switch im trying get onto rteenagers minecraft server switch yall explain please,0
jemcam well i have uni stuff and netball but after netbal if i ve done uni stuff we can,0
The Lakers got it..  hahaah this is why i love LA,0
long story please read comment feeling extremely suicidal late degree dream possible ways end it typically dream old apartment building jumping pool deck top floor lost lot things life struggled lot strength anymore back story follows born loving family terrific father loving mother older siblings twin brother well father found mother alcoholic would drink incessantly get way older brothers drug problem started getting worse well father begged mother stop time time again decided enough  dad left mum turning occasional drinking incessant drinking twin live alcoholic mother lives drinking never stopped  years father leaves older brother dies drug overdose makes already bad drinking horrible habit starting early   morning smashed  know mum way th grade entered middle school fat loser friends trying care mum always told sick well entered made fun time ears bit large head time i since grown them bullied school came home bullied mother lucky would dinner typically breakfast money lunch could bread breakfast years passed drinking became worse th th grade attempted redflag times really sure actually end it attempt failed obviously time angered mum never got help quack never diagnosed depression knew depressed never anything urge kill myself sophomore year met girl thought loved relationship great first sex time worries later never real relationship thought worked sex day every day year older me left college things became bit rocky stable enough deal time shit went downhill broke times eventually went break around halloween time  break met girl dreams friends birthday party whose birthday rests halloween met absolutely blown away unbelievably beautiful was began talking interests bands way thinking type humor blast night flirted cuddled almost kissed realized would probably poor taste ysee ex one said take break never actually broke up me said distant bit broken up felt really guilty everything done amazing girl call jill confess jill thinking scared pathetic so broke ties her well found ex fucking lot guys telling jill pissed even feelings girls eventually bitch ex break within two weeks jill start dating jill blew mind every single day fantastic was funny witty extremely smart exceptionally beautiful woke every day realized something worth living now happy time within month told love her said loves too amazing person ever met life headoverheels her every day fantastic existed life every day great despite problems life problems escape me well month ago dumped want tied time shitty thing going propose short months  exact know corny going surprise college find her class wherever kneel straight propose girl dreams soulmate will well left realized bad problems really much worse things getting put backburner debt school mounting ever higher know take care it college fund drained almost entirely failed two courses past quarter jill dumped terribly sick month well wait another  months take again know do mother kicking bitter mood even though say thing her also let know loser done nothing life fucked job had dad breaking back help pay school commute hours schools cant get job one area take someone cant even guarantee weekends drinking drugs everything happened life family obviously problem addictions aunt drug addict grandma too another aunt also drug addict problem this spent much life denial deck stacked me go school hate major despise college let transfer  credits money start fresh somewhere else mother slipped back old demonishing state lets know everyday wrong let stand myself ex jill extremely happy broken up guys constantly flirting page facebook constantly trying hang her none friends even give enough damn call ask hang out strong whole life dealing mother take care sacrificing personal life make sure fall stairs drunken stupor get killed strong twin got car accident almost killed him strong twin decided start drinking like mum does mum clean now still abuses fuck me cant strong anymore jill tells loves me wants get back together someday sees soulmate think get better sad me know anymore even remember else put many problems life please need advice dream killing every single night day every day cant help imagine much better life would without alive daydream jill happy everyone else caring anymore get support friends dad tells cant dwell things brother would never understand person understand female friend lives canada literally edge right now close ending calling quits please need advice tldr life sucks mother abusive alcoholic feed days time father never mother let him brother took drinking one older brothers died drug overdose aspirations plan future future saw walked want tied right now verge killing need advice otherwise go it,1
..At least i get to do it earlier than everyone else  a hee hee hee. LOL.,0
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another day another reason kill myselfread antilgbt post front page today figured fuck im wanted stay around wanting leave behind want grow old enough ton responsibilities cant even handle life without them im useless im gonna get worse,1
day  posting everyday manage get bf gf day  double digits baby lol fun fact mcdonalds one point tried make bubblegum flavored broccoli,0
i wa having fun earlier playing video game nothing on my mind but a soon a i stop i snap back to reality and think about her and what we used to be it s been like week of our breakup and day of no contact she say that there might not be another chance for u even in friendship i love her and idk what to do with the pain and guilt i have depression and anxiety on top of that and my therapist said that im feeling this way due to trauma of rejection i didnt have a good past a i wa taken away from my abusive parent at year old being with her made me feel normal like i didnt have these feeling but now that shes out of my life theyve come back but worse i dont know how to keep living the only thing keeping me alive are my current foster family and friend i feel so sad all the time,1
strong enoughi always thought committing redflag think ever hit hard today cant even feel sadness point really angry everything nothing makes happy anymore years cant blame others something chose though angry well cant even honest see look afterwards try hard keep hold wonder much longer take ampxb end blame constant silly choices life ever since child live consequences problem is thats life ever been living consequences baduninformed choices eh must real crap screwing constantly personal professional life ampxb maybe karma mistreating scaring away around me cant love love others would lying everyone still avoid unecessary drama people tell cold cruel person cold yet feel bad themselves ampxb problem admitting messed up even admit point it nothing change whats done done hardly even look people eyes long remember reached point makes sick enraged bitter even wake see people even choice take instead them one healthy im nothing here ampxb used let gaming fulfill even stopped working quickly fading away real aspirations things love became daily sacrifices struggles able coup knows long ampxb anyway want ask anyones forgiveness go back fix decisions hardly ask anything life want gain courage finally kill find peace reason go psychological warfare,1
i ve been feeling rather dissociated lately like i m a spectator in my body i m not sure how long i ve been feeling like this but it felt especially bad on one particular day like i wouldn t have been surprised if i woke up and it wa all a dream that same day i began experiencing what i can only describe a very brief panic attack i m never actually worried about anything in particular i ll be sitting in class or something and suddenly a fuzzy feeling will wash over my body and my heart rate will spike i always expect that something will happen like i ll lose the ability to move part of my body or maybe i ll go numb or thing will start swelling up or that i ll just pas out right there but nothing else happens and the feeling subsides after a bit leaving me in the same disassociated state a before after the panic dy down initially i thought this could only happen while i wa sitting down i usually feel better after walking around and getting some fresh air but i just experienced this feeling while walking and my leg felt numb they worked fine i didn t stumble or anything but it wa like i wa just commanding my body to walk instead of voluntarily moving my muscle to cause it if that make any sense the day this started happening wa the same day that another big event happened one that i m not going to mention because my post get removed i m wondering if the initial wave of anxiety over the possibility of future event ha awakened some kind of generalized anxiety in me i ve also started developing health anxiety regarding food at the same time this started happening i fear that ill have spontaneously developed an allergy to whatever i m eating even though i have no history of this wondering if anybody ha had similar experience and can help me understand what s going on,1
Depression is having an anime club at your school,1
nothing fucking mattersdoes anyone else view similar mine im  years old college biochemistry student track medical school ive got  gpa right now everything feels completely fucking moot lot happy moments even bad moments view humanity existence anomaly tiny speck dust known earth hurdling several thousand miles per hour space were bound die eventually humanity wiped future almost trace existence afterwards even then probability life finding remnants infinitesimally small god afterlife far know cant go living life hoping ill happy still existence im dead cant force believe crap like without good reason,1
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people dont read descriptions idiots imo listing promotes im looking part time jobs really really want buy anna mask description clearly state im free thursdays fridays thursday free time friday im driving school even stated dont take jobs day friday someone messaged me asking go down dont know brain dead something,0
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selfish wishi need someone dump bucket problems listen anyone would me,1
girls actually like chubby doods pretty fucking insecure working take,0
"The thing about depression is that you never see a low coming. You wake up and are bubbling over with contentment. And then it just ambushes you and before you know it, you're in the sunken place.",1
life isnt worth itthe reason havent killed method access right would either take fuck ton commitment result failure ill wake hospital surrounded angry parents stuck huge hospital bill stupid ass want wait buy gun age  life isnt worth living theres nothing it nothing mine least happiness anyone promise wont end getting taken away resulting pain theres fucking nothing fucking failed everything wont fail future redflag attempt good thing cant reversed dont give fuck gets sad sad it sad everything overlooked came me thing im writing redflag note want burned dont want funeral post outside reddit im alone misery misery likes company,1
nostalgia always best reason watch movie often not movies loved kid disappoint adult exceptions rule hard justify owning dvd krull regardless many insightful directors commentary may be stay sharp gen xyers dozens disappointments dominating trip memory lane might stop stumbling across one worth revisitingbr br one surprise film worth another look joel schumachers flatliners supernatural thriller starring s popcorn heavyweights keifer sutherland kevin bacon julia roberts billy baldwin would think stew comprised cast flamboyant flair schumacher ber slick eye cinematographer jan de bont would result something sickeningly stodgy calories aside flatliners aint half bad even though production design inexplicably overthetop photography achingly over stylized replete neon soaked streets spewing endless billows steam flatliners still manages effectively dark compelling thriller theres explanation flatliners forgotten might  saw release another far superior supernatural thriller jacobs ladderbr br had flatliners released year two jacobs ladder likely schumachers flashy thriller would dismissed toned down commercialized ripoff adrian lynes nightmarish masterpiece films released year flatliners enjoyed different fate tripling jls take box office despite watered version similar premise passage time kind flatliners lost atop dated heap throwaway s brat pack dreck jl cemented reputation timeless classic fates aside jl seamlessly terrifying manages keep audiences guessing right last frame whereas flatliners falls victim over simplification hollywood conveniences drag final act predictably tidy denouement comparisons two movies unfair ultimately overlooks flatliners ability represent s quintessential best released end decade shallow excess flatliners always dated hairstyles clothing styles fairness also remembered well executed movie or least near top particular heap dreck intents purposes entertaining walk memory lane,0
im sad karma click button right please  v,0
you havent heard me sing or play the piano ..maybe youd change your mind if you did ,0
bad thing online exams lot good things online exam bad thing thst dont get much satisfaction exam streesful regular school exams idk may emotionless,0
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I dreamed of bekah&amp;chris&amp;swazi ppl last night(along w/PRppl)&amp;they all came to my church&amp;we lived together ,0
heidimontag just got done watching the hill loved it excited for the next episode and im sad this is the last season,0
Screw Billy Mitchell!! Go Steve Wiebe.  http://bit.ly/165sST Currently almost halfway to the DK world record.,0
wanna play kirby amazing mirror again,0
today is what I love about Sundays &amp; sunny days. ,0
first day work earnt  bucks washing dishes helping pub tonight doesnt sound like much feel like ive accomplished much due social awkwardness enough me everyone elses day going hope yous good ,0
im bad place halfway across country know anyone stuck till monday someones sick hurtful gamei may survive night fuck someone,1
movie one favorites hard explain why maybe innocence corin nemec awkwardness paired boldness cheryl pollak definitely something soundtrack also characters little lines movements moments amusing themselves finally story one always tugs heartstrings last scene bittersweet all love movie perfect gooey sentimental girls night,0
quick thing sooo rdeadorvegetable based mods removing posts saying reposts they not block calling out thats bit peeved rn,0
@DiVa525 oh it's undeniably me ,0
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it s been so long i have been avoiding to get treated especially because it s social anxiety i definitely don t want to talk to a stranger but it s been ruining my life so here we are any tip anything i should prepare what question do they ask you i am already getting anxiety attack because of the appointment,1
open literally reason very funny text hopefully funny enough get hot,0
seeing keifer sutherland plays favorite character history tv foregone conclusion gonna go movies spend  this also think applies eva longoria fansbr br the movie revolves around leak secret service agent planning assassinate president investigation unfolds seems likely candidate highly decorated pete michael douglas pleading innocence pete goes fun fugitive style search truthbr br its solid certainly spectacular decent cast decent story left feeling bit empty could certainly far worse,0
call stupid going use wrong form youryoure,0
anyone wanna chat im bored af  anyone wanna chat im m,0
I hate depression,1
smell rain damn relaxing idk something nostalgic crazy cuz im even nostalgic better times cuz ive always unhappy miss feeling existing rain reminds reason,0
school start charging next year depression anxiety fees now smh capitalism amarite,0
"went for a 4 hour drive today listening to music, then went hiking, now watching tv and then going to workout ",0
feel's summeriee ! ,0
things always go wrong cant thisi always fuck time cant save things boyfriend im selfish shit upsets him feel guilty mom abusive piece shit dad even come near us covid asked could stay said legally cant theres nobody watch baby sister swear god cant keep living here nothing ever gonna change always tell always gets worse always genuinely see purpose continuing life theres never gonna time im gonna feel happy little while im always gonna stuck parts ruin life hate im sorry sfdhjhj,1
would change name to would change mine sunshine already really nice name love wouldnt change it december ,0
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im thinking taking lifeim tired me see reason live anymore im gonna bullied pushover,1
anyone else get stuck heads like im anyrhing needs full focus get bit anxious start zoning cant focus anything happens much work cant focus anything make bunch mistakes also makes quiet awkward idk hate,0
stupid regular office job slow fast paced wage slave factory jobi completely incompindent everything do since grade school everyone expect id somebody come find reason week quite everyone else listen teacher suspect dyscalculia since drop cummnity college failing manitory math course  times  still live home mom dies ill homeless pray every day death never comes failure god let die,1
place hereim  year old female im hurting im hurting lot im divorced twice friend group im frequently left out ie fb invites events know way going to ex come party  hours away need ride hotel ask ride crickets moving on  im weight balding female super fun im slightly minimum wage job real room advancement  dont see way start over ive single  years now ive got thought cute pics various dating apps still nothing ive  date  years  im lost feel abandoned everyone dont want taking space anymore feel done like lived should,1
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help please someone overdosed please post anything everything know linked post please httpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentscrgclkurgent_advice_needed_how_to_help_someone_whenhttpswwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentscrgclkurgent_advice_needed_how_to_help_someone_when,1
living forim living bf wish could go see one last time,1
disposablepeople need me people want me people try reach sometimes quickly lose interest realize im worth it replaceable basically person planet would adequate replacement better am kill worth anymore want one person care me pretend matter even best friend abandoned im much bother happens even bother people dont thing keeping sound death lack means swiftly thoughtlessly end myself want over want done this everything sucks one cares therapist friend family teacher boss coworkers anyone theyve let think ever trust anyone ever again feel like time stop pussy end it,1
feel bad spent  hours feeling sad crying room hugging pillow cause ive got one hugi hate feel way hate myself well anyway hope guys better,0
reason havent attempted family would after mean move back burden themi f  start ive never actual attempt ive thought redflag lot even weeks ago researching type pills take specifically ive never done before havent seeked help cant afford im scared hate asking help moved new state parents siblings  miles away one best friend within hour live currently live alone recently furloughed left thoughts hardly real distraction like work used provide started dating someone march million red flags ignored believed different still living ex kids kept promising going move soon live hes distant recently today finally admitted wasnt ready leave soon jumped relationship soon break up dont feel way break up ive depressed long time feeling like losing person confide world person thought future sent spiral main question is admit failed growing moving independent move back parents dont kill myself feels cowardly burden like dont know it hope continuing live quarantine,1
finally leaving rredflagwatchfor longest time ridiculously unhappy life knew moment hit rock bottom day woke justdidnt feel happy anymore foreign feeling like lost feeling alive thought feeling would never go away exaggerating much worse this seemed like everything going wrong time life would never joyous again entire plan written ready go note underwent countless revisions reworkings want anyone think fault even gave deadline said things work th birthday im killing myself im  yet still months go say certainty days me know happened even realize happened woke one morning thought i mind alive used frequent lot another account months ive slowly juststopped coming yet never officially separated subreddit now time official withdrawing rredflagwatch im ending life tonight im starting again im glad longer feel way im glad longer feel need come anymore im glad feel happy again wish best rest here hoping thing may happen you hope nice rest day wherever are,1
@flake86 Thanks! ... only 23 more days ,0
today birthday dad said bring mask tho ps saved slice,0
award contest ended congrats uepicwaterdrinker winning,0
shame transgenderi never son im supposed be want kids want god damn dick girlfriend deserves better this dysphoria bad tonight cant even look long else ill want disappear disgust embarrassment hate body mine amount surgery hormones money change biological birth im never going accept fact wasnt born male supposed put smile say body everyday literally feel like screaming tearing guts throat could cis day would make year mind constantly filled only if gets tiring pain becomes physical people really feel pride facade make okay cant fake anymore life fucked im trans im never going real man im also girl im nothing dont deserve alive anyway im disgusting mutation feel guilty ashamed im exhausted cry nothing help want die want fucking normal life instead outsider like always am,1
@HeidaKuro hard luck i guess... so wats ur name????? if u dont mind dat is.... ,0
dont know wjat doim  tansgender realy want die want plat blue wale redflag game,1
still quite sure tell feel worried ruining friendship saved life wish feel way honestly frustrated vent here started developing feelings girl talked suicide,1
texas peeps sheep follow greg abbott said wants people die use much money keep wearing mask protect yourself let evil satanic temple call austin win if get it keep wearing mask im using arguement insane people use coronavirus,0
fear inoculum  year old thats wanted tell yall gt owo lt,0
online acquaintance mine threatened commit redflag  anything canshould dofirst id like say love community here proud redditors willing chat help folks even theyve never met before past year half so ive involved guild online roleplaying game star wars old republic officers tightknit group people knew previous games one particular found fairly early on biological male identifies female planning transition finish college past ive butted heads individual often acted snippy angry towards members guild minimal provocation always tried give benefit doubt however since straight male identifies male cant imagine emotionally tumultuous could go something like this still never noticed anything serious time went on interest game waned original founders aside one individual quit disappeared months without word again think much it one person started saying things along lines i may dropping grid soon try contact happens night girlfriend also plays us got touch her told rather casually plan killing end month seems ongoing plan while seem pretty determined talked girlfriend several hours failed relationships feeling severe anger friends left gamedisappeared without saying anything things along lines they abandoned me want hurt make miss me indicated sees doctor apparently help interested hotline anything sort im sure authentic protocol is sure know real name live im sure could possibly say already said ive dealt anxiety issues past redflag talk bit comfort zone want inadvertently make things worse anything kill themselves partially responsible ask compassionate redditors would situation try friend even push away call police them give space,1
jennifermf i know i m a night owl by nature hahaha am i a time zone behind you it s almost here,0
really want go back hospitali difficulty expressing text person ive pretty much shut anything everyone since january meds therapy year even treatment think redflag daily get frustrated see changes today rent due money landlord accepts money orders seems think secure way make payment cant seem motivate go bank get printed up im going common arguments even worth effort know simple thing hate always somehow convince simplest things part knows need cant seem find it maybe posting help see stupid im pay rent try deal stuff that,1
almost through with my italian homework weeeeee now if i only understood what i wa doing,0
"@tallskinnykiwi LOL! Hope you're having fun in Portugal, and that the coffee is good ",0
@ marynabadenhors Thanks for the comment Maryna. The explore vids are great  - http://www.explore.org/,0
feeling very offrecently dumped girl  years absolutely loved month ago although long still feels surprisingly fresh thought things subsided going alright ever since week ago slow steady weight pushing being wake morning terrified start day spending time staring vacantly wondering things playing out ever since left really realized much best friend me could tell anything intimate her intimacy never treasured enough gone missing sorely could release frustration her starts bottle inside regardless attempts blow steam creative physical vents like said week ago weight started pile up kept growing growing morning got up waited bed while finally made quick breakfast changing work clothes noticed familiar itch behind eyes matter seconds crying crying hard gasping quietly tried push tears push away gentle numbing pain pushed back much harder time able subside went work attacked again home took shower absolutely broke down kept thinking i broken again feel broken feel wrong feel odd fit am close thought close to ever since week ago fantasies killing garnered attention terrifyingly enough vivacity detail one morning found going intros letters head morning happened felt genuinely scared first time maybe telling everything going okay not maybe things going right ive afraid face that terrifying coming full force struggled entire life selfimage issues overweight unfit fact biked  miles sometimes see way hate myself hate every action do sit now friends voided self image shattered one person made truly happy another man probably okay feel right god im starting cry again know embarrassing is met friend home earlier today could barely choke words face covered tears glad talk to one friend plus shell get tired hearing incessant whining this honestly cannot promise everything going okay feel right feel odd off know happened know anymore,1
messiah geometry class answering questions one graphing lines trying remember vertical horizontal line two fingers pointed know vertical was dog literally laying floor not even facing way stood soon lifted fingers felt like god,0
worst day life hey guys hour ago heard gf in lika month would  year anniversary another bf for  months now damn im dead seriously dead mean could write fucked im right u imagine it advise go school tomorrow staying bed month crying,0
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@HexagonStar @GamingYourWay Times New Roman FTW! I showed it to the artist and he was like &quot;what the fuck happened to that?!!&quot; ,0
guys wanna canceled guys act offended comments cancel become mad act like killed dog something,0
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i m having a panic attack so i can t sleep distracting myself with tv and internet hope this go away soon,0
my peace quiet amp stress freeness is bout to come to an end,0
parents dont allow subscribe netflix disney hbo max im slowly losing mind here,0
really want kill myselfi recently get rid closest best friend least mutual feel empty void now want die nobody understands me nobody wants help im insufferable bastard im antidepressants ive counseling im still it none ever helped people telling try psychedelics fuck that want to want die now life ever gets worse people tell it gets better fucking hasnt never will thats shit argument irl friends im losing online ones bf thats online too want help want someone save me nobody will nobody can im alone,1
girlfriend crush sex nowtime wait sweet karma,0
feel nothing ever good again head keeps replaying quote please want badly good things happen,1
respond hey sc added guy whos like friend friend sent hey without anything else im probably thinking id feel bad felt bad left opened dont know well also hes probably hitting bc barely know havent posted anything story,0
allowed feel sorry myselfi always fucking strong around people acting like things fucking matter shit like everything alright fuck everything though cant anything right cant tell someone hey curse ill kick youfrom game im mod cant go school talking people fucking hard left take online classes even emailing fucking teachers prove fucking hard such always help mom back hurts lot legs give her walks using walker much money finally got tired falling hurting legs give out dad want help her son matter gets mad go get brother school work one time mom asking help something said ugh agree this argument suppose since married through sick health thing agreed take care one else will help grandpa unable to grandpa likes things though usually putting lot work me work bother me taking care mom affects us mentally much im tired cat room meows time anything hard sleep summer hot here try leave door open cant cat im tired sleeping finally affect getting edge exhausted illness also mom watching get hurt when falls mainly makes sad illness sometimes think why me typical thing like fucking unfair things happened me illness painful okay hurts four currently sleep ive done something bad just finally told mod much longer just ugh hard me feel like ive disappointed him rules changed yet again jsut leave leave life hardly feel sorry others feel sorry situations like mine illness either skin condition back issues fall such skin condition rash type thing lesions painful also made internally sick vomiting internal bleeding stomachkidneyheart pain pain aftger surgery messed pain killers waking up feeling like ripped fuck open wheel chair months friends ignoring guess weird person wheel chair scars arms legs skin condition always explain others judged people judging pills mainly steroids for skin know mean know judge like still illness clear still have day joint pains live rest life fear coming back come back time always check body signs it nightmare speaking nightmares those normal things attacked raped normal talk certain people car explode losing house realities me scary cars always break cant buy new car spend time moving back forth parents grandparents becasue drive us anymore cars broken down like grandparents house like bed nbever one year blessing enjoy small things since many big things bed big thing dresser got two things year enough clothes take two washes instead one thatsm ore clothes ive ever before still fit one big wash though good htings life shit always hide sad though ever time cry feel sorry myself without feeling like shit it people handle much right jsut stupid dramatic bitch cry ive cried long hard bottle emotions inside ill sublit change mind stay silent again quite often im tired maybe getting chest help finally sleep doubt it,1
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like dogs people always says dog loyal brave mans best friend one day family got  dogs stupid kept hassle one dog kept jumping fence escaping kept pooping every always finds way get room poop society wrong always idiotic never contributing cats severed much purpose me want much life actually stuck hunting tactics sometimes gifting mere humans free meal like rodent short dogs bad cats good,0
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everywherebeen struggling depression severe anxiety whole life ive attempted  times recent week ago bipolar well showing signs schizophrenia mom believes fully bought yet im seeing symptoms scarring me  also recovering addict current alcoholic need words encouragement maybe someone tell gets better thanks time guys god bless,1
school hated here im wondering personally love school see dislike it school good challenging makes learn means go future whatever want understand hatred it school opens opportunities enrolled best way learn maybe school different us im uk surely bad id like know reasons comments edit friends another great benefit school,0
always hurtsi feel like im running ways cope suicidal thoughts dont really know go here ive suffered anxiety since little struggled eating disorders self harm child age  two hospitalizations got shit together im therapist now finish grad school ill clinical psychologist id like think im good job thanks feedback ive gotten patients families makes feel stupid pathetic cant help myself okay long time months ago fianc struggled mental health years never sought treatment months ago threatened kill psychotic break call hospitalized awhile hes back months meds hes making life unbearable long remember doctors expect handle treatment medication etc career educational background causing chaos home doesnt accept schizophrenia diagnosis doesnt want help hell say wants get better tell hes playing everyone sake it hes putting us thousands debt demands everything working full time school full time managing care full time feel like im drowning mental health worse years know im thoughts im trying take advice reach help nobody takes seriously ive contacted national redflag prevention hotline four times  hours every single time ive waited hour even im connected nobody actually picked sit begging someone answer sobbing started seeing therapist sanity fianc came back rarely get see intense schedule parents juggling depression sisters bipolar disorder glue keeping together cannot go this fianc assumes im angry blows time catches hiding house crying myself try talk starts yelling need calm down tried  cups listeners literally never respond im trying cope healthy ways yoga running working cut today first time long time expecting feel relief didnt im trying hard find ways keep going ive posted lot situation caregiver schizophrenia subgroups people like leave thats problem cant threatened life consulted police victims advocacy groups attorneys see could get restraining order protective order said no physically hurts anything kick apparently could get trouble removing place residence hes treatment would willingly leave ive begged go family across country moved here ive told doesnt want treatment whatever may go home wont gets angry verbally aggressive home name pay bills cant abandon home either im really beginning feel like redflag way out,1
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the future is no more a it used to be,0
so i m nearly and since about age i ve struggled 90 of the time with everything feel lost with my life and job don t have the drive to want or even put in effort into finding a girlfriend in a job i don t really want a future in but have no interest or enthusiasm about anything i am just plodding along and it s so so shit have friend that are starting to establish themselves and live quite happily and progress in themselves so all i do is compare and procrastinate don t like spending money have about 0k saved up and a car worth about k which in the grand scheme of thing is nothing so i just see myself living this shit average little life with no actual purpose and that i m running out of time but don t seem to do anything about it the laziness is mental laziness not physical fail to see any improvement or have any positive outlook because all i think about 00 of the time is what s wrong in my life my whole perception of everything is bad and all in my head can t shift it because it feel so natural now brain fog for about year shit memory no focus can t think straight or rationally don t know if i m too hard on myself or expect too much or if i know i can be doing better i just don t even know is how i d sum up my feeling,1
Memes cover my depression,1
since broken arm honestly feeling really hard one time couldnt get right hand use left hand strange first use ok gn am much energy,0
Did you know that 4-10% of people in England will experience depression in their lifetime? #Talkfest #ItsOkToTalk #ThursdayThoughts  http://socsi.in/32qe1 ,1
iamjazzyfizzle i wish i got to watch it with you i miss you and iamlilnicki how wa the premiere,0
okay pog friends made group chat friends lotta ppl already still chill nice active place u make new friends yes guys girls included weird circlejerk stuff discord anyone interested feel free dm me,0
this thread it s i don t know what i d do without it i m rarely ever on reddit and when i am i m on it for this i m on it because i m so overwhelmed by by everything and i m too scared or ashamed or or just so fucking tired to go to family friend my fucking partner to walk them through what i m feeling and how how it s not how it s not how it is how it is there s no reason it just happens it just happens it just happens and here r depression here here i feel safe and whenever i have a breakdown i come here to rant to feel to collect my thought even if no one read even if people do it s here i go to rant anonymously often drunk on alcohol sometimes but often drunk on emotion here is where i feel safe where i can be not who i am irl but an anonymous eddingsaurus rex amp x 00b it s okay had a bad day hand are bruised from breaking rock all day amp x 00b fuck depression fuck this fuck this feeling i hate myself i hate this i hate this so much i can t and it s working hour for fuck sake it s working hour i m supposed to be prodcitive ficmk this kyuck this shit,1
one cannot help impressed intelligence scale film simultaneously disappointed lost opportunitiesbr br i found script excellent vocal talent edmund purdom quite impressive however artifact time film suffers many hollywoodisms especially poor casting much lushness sets much pretentiousness edmund purdom who plays title character obviously awkward physical acting suspect primarily shakespearean theater thisbr br so movie people reading this propose excellent candidate remake especially cast real egyptians egyptians,0
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need someone talk to sure want continueim sure want go life im extremely selfconscious self esteem confidence speak of ive one relationship  know entered take advantage me see damage done  absolutely terrible luck finding someone love fear never will bad relationship in ive never even woman look want reason  cheating homework need buy something etc every girl talk real interest me hurts rejection hurts ive rejected much stopped counting im good looking like think im decently intelligent ive got lots friends think im lots fun coworkers think im pretty cool talk girls interest lock inevitably fumble ruin it social anxiety crippling know do ive decided im still single time hit  im going end it least try ive low enough try before universe thought suffer enough primer bullet dud lucky _ please talk me help me love world give cant even give away,1
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ive gotten  hours sleep week far pounding headache heart beating x faster should vision getting blurry im feeling pretty shaky dizzy sleep parents ask whats wrong figure im reddit since thats go cant sleep take away phone make delete app lose closest friends ya im vibin,0
i d give anything to die i can t take this pain anymore,1
mostly story growing relationship jeff websterjimmy stewart ronda castleruth roman takes instant liking jeff brief encounter deck steamer skagway longer look hides cabin authorities seek charge murder find things common besides animal attraction neither trusts member opposite sex apparently married spouses cheated them gradually learn trust other journey skagway dawson ronda clearly close dealings corrupt sheriff gannon engages shady practices castle saloon skagway eventually decide gannon jeff meanwhile rene young naive french woman also takes immediate liking jeff gets insulting brush offs return yet sticks travels skagway dawson activities around dawson along ronda nurses back health jeff left dead gannons gunslingers gold claim walter brennan ben serves jeffs long time sidekick meaty role serves soften jeffs hard edges demise symbolically opens door woman companion replacement jeffbr br john mcintireas sheriff gannon makes probably charismatic evil town boss ever see film oozing charm humor go along bullying evidently sees something jeff repeatedly declaring hes going like him makes believable incarnation infamous soapy smith spent last years skagway one premier con men timesbr br jeff quintessential antihero lonerexcept companion ben want stick neck others even knows one right man job respect closely resembles burt lancasters character vera cruz example thus jeff turns job marshall dawson convinced leave dawson gannons gang move clear intentions taking everyones insufficiently legal gold claims disposing miners suggesting rest make hurried exit dawson even ronda suggests jeff make hurried exit dawson still alive then jeff sudden change heart apparently still nursing desire revenge shooting ben himself changes antihero hero leading expulsion gannons gang dawson respect differs lancasters character never reformsbut jeff truly changed handing revenge wrongs committed interestsbr br the main problem see plot  principle women clearly ronda groomed right woman tame jeff although clearly characterized bad girl jeff checkered recent past himself shot least  men us yukon stolen cattle back gannon ironically soon jeff changes antihero hero rhonda makes similar change running street warn jeff gannons impending ambush dies result jeff asks look herselfhis supposedly abandoned creedbr br its clear corine calvert renee make credible substitute dead ronda jeffs mind yet apparent implication parting scene get together even though jeff never visibly gives kiss hug image good naive young woman somewhat compromised job rhondas saloon bumping miners weighting gold dust pushing spilled dust floor recovering later im also unclear relationship rube morris middle aged miner followers around works claim herhes fatherbr br another problem amateurish handling gun fight jeff gannons gang gannon skill pistol killed seriously wounded jeff boardwalk jeff him jeffs badly shot right hand suddenly become well enough shoot pistol apparent ease also wonder jeff friends help save avalanche victims much far away pull alive snow rondas pack horses mules also buried avalanchebr br you see host probably nameless familiar faces among miners gannons gang sequences shot canadian rockies provide breathtaking backdrop action allinall entertaining western major flaws concentrated end doubt film takes great liberties history geography especially part taking place canadian yukon fact much tamer us skagway,0
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realised recently hanging pretty loose thread exams thiubht stuff getting better friends noticed getting positive last two three days crashed hard gone back nearly suicidal thoughts progress seems mostly unravelled actually know issue even anymore took snap friends going without me kind ridiculous go two mental breakdowns day ranting infront mirror usual distractions essentially stopped working even worse day today anything pull attention away want basically fast travel skip day thought issues coming fit got fit thought proper schedule rigid schedule thought grades thought socialising thought teenage issues thought trans idea declined rapidly genuinely know even mitigate circumstances let alone go anywhereanyone got advicemy last resort basically now writing thoughts going back creative writing outlet depression diagnosed sometimes doubt real sometimes think might issues total two proper good days felt like everything mostly fine guess family circumstances migt something it butit seems random things get worse,1
ive raped cant take anymorei violently raped turned  boy thought loved im coming th birthday cant fucking think right now im depressed barely understand happened do couch jeans tshirt still remember television fact parents stairs fact raining drive home it said would kill left fucking stayed like  months treated like fucking object could whatever wanted to grab boobs whenever wanted shove hands pants nothing object force oral sex shoving head down yeah stronger me didnt want sex wanted fucking wait everything felt used man tired memories im tired everything man him use sex told loved would complain didnt feel like sex threatened fuck ex like  times together didnt rape felt constantly anxious wondering anything worth anymore im here im numb except nightmares cry time okay rn dont know im here dead end job want end im sorry needed tell someone,1
im having a miley nite no sleeping boo,0
movie soooo funny acting wonderful ramones sexy jokes subtle plot every high schooler dreams hisher school absolutely loved soundtrack well carefully placed cynicism like monty python love film movie tad bit greaseesk without annoying songs songs sung likable might even find singing songs movie through musical ranks number two musicals second next blues brothers please think musical per say seeing songs likable hard tell carefully choreographed scene taking place think movie comedy undertones romance reminded like rebellious teenager needless say reminiscing old high school days seeing film highly recommended family since youthful also adults since many jokes funnier age experience,0
need help math thing soo yeah say number   thats all imma go sleep hopefully make time ,0
jump dayi stood top bridge climb jump friend goes dont dint want framed murder fill paper work seeing wow thanks dont jump need friend need dont stay popular,1
last week i went on a spring break trip it wa fun but triggered a lot of anxiety in me i took a 0 mg edible gummy when i returned home from spring break i m new to the gummy world so it somehow hit me way harder than any other time i ve taken them the next day i still felt high which i ve noticed ha been normal for me when i take the gummies i felt off though like i had been drugged or something i slept the rest of the day to try and get it to wear off the next day i wa concerned i wasn t back to normal i felt like i wa dreaming i kept telling my boyfriend and family something wasn t right with my head and something wa wrong with my mind it wa scary for me i already get bad thought occasionally so i wa worried i would do something bad i couldn t feel anything taste anything or smell anything i literally slept the entire day and the next day i m only just now feeling more myself but i will go into these zone where i lose track of time am having trouble forming word and can t think clearly i skipped school on monday because i started to panic and cry my dad wa going to take me to a doctor on monday and i started cry and told him to call my boyfriend to bring me back home i went to see my doctor yesterday and am talking with a psychiatrist it s really scary can anyone who s experienced talk to me about this,1
spent hour to reach to axis bank only to find out today is holiday for mahavir jayanti contd,0
posting lyrics like part  cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel ringring phone call depression used past memories weapon line talk addiction huh speaking devil drugs miss cant real fiction somethin feels broke need fix cry help listen ima alone finished part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel sometimes know feel lets real pills keep taking pills here yeah told yall secret yeah tearing pieces really think need stopped taking drugs drugs take part tell im fine im lyin want worry part take feelings hide em cause want nobody hurt cant breathe im waiting exhale toss pain wishes wishing well still luck oh well still try even though know im gon fail stress shoulders like anvil perky got itching like anthill drugs killing softly lauryn hill sometimes know feel,0
way read all like  unread text messages dont wanna go thru read em number go away wanna know apple phones like read button done,0
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downloading nin s new album quot the slip quot when the hell did this come out i m so behind the time these day,0
what depressing is that i have covid stuck in my room for day lost weight bc i havent been eating bc i think im a burden for asking for food i actually thought my sister would at least help me my year old sister is sleeping in the lounge room for the time being and whenever i ask if there food kitchen is step away from living room she doesnt check and say idk didnt look a for my twin i ask her to her me smth and she would say i cant be bothered tell j younger sister to get it i only get snack and food when she s already at the shop i would do anything but why cant they do it for me im the oldest sister and i dont get respect it sad and depressing,1
killmyself think klinefelter syndrome even symptomsim male turning  know whats wrong me wide hips man boobs feminine hands adams apple kill myself even klinefelter syndrome whats point even change body age would get testosterone exercise body correct itself dont fucking know anymore everyone else manly feel like enlarged kindergarden child,1
i m very glad britney isn t crazy anymore that wa one hell of a show now i m sad that it s over next up ap at cook county,0
may last rickroll decided rickroll dads friends went phone pasted link friends chat dads friends posted video naked women dad thought saw video dishearted mom said know think anymore btw im asian muslim,0
come answers test always overly complicated make simple answers instead writing overly complicated answer choices confusing teachers trying hardest make us fail,0
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"Still digesting a (frankly) marvellous wild mushroom risotto and croissant-and-butter pudding. Oh, my thighs have split! ",0
"@NatanGold i am from the south, but moved considerably souther before all that nonsense started, thank goodness. ",0
i don t feel like revision,0
going crazyi know know lot people going crazy whats going on maybe able resonate me im alone cant leave house become im risk catch virus respiratory condition baby im extremely alone depressed anxious one out cant breath cant sleep usually handle emotions certain extent really want hurt myself ive taken drinking since started im spiralling control dont want take time professionals people really really need im struggling afraid im going end it lost sorry wasting time d,1
tired living it feels like burden told partner thinking caring help realize perhaps time move on want disappear,1
One can not B loved if one does not love. Just as one can not be respected if one does not first respect. How to respect? GIVE it  so ezy,0
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survivedyesterday made post jump  ft cliff near house shortly posted remember saying goodbye world slowly falling forwards cliff next thing knew someone found brought hospital gashes body multiple broken bones im still complete shock cant believe made alive much impact body nurses said completely unconscious took hospital maybe something caught falling anyways guess time go im really glad go also cant believe much support got guys previous post feel extremely loved thanks guys support im sorry leave worried me and completely understand extremely mad me know im now im going anywhere,1
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im sorryim tired want vent listen guy really liked first person really liked disastrous relationship another much older man guy age got along really well similar interests started acting strange said want date me mental health issues trying hard strong happy him really loved emotions fleeting worthless heard story million times suicidal make unworthy love hurt mean one ever see anything good me give hurts worse mean know bother im worth love people sometimes ask im dating anyone cant see im utterly worthless would date trash like me want end hope job gets robbed get shot dont went bridge installed anti redflag things bring go somewhere else im pathetic hard live hard die cant either one supposed do think coming end soon ive writing novel nearly done think peace enough bravery want stop pain please,1
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girlfriend diagnosed stage  lymphatic cancer hey guys write this please know thats serious im karma whoring anyways really place vent please bare second girlfriend  months diagnosed stage  lymphatic cancer weve known  weeks now told live really hard lately cope fact soon able hold close like always did were getting acceptance stage really last  weeks lockdown jordan a country middle east weve facetiming lot lately obviously cant see other weve talking lot got mentality lets enjoy time can makes sense all knows behavior changed since told it even told noticed me knows favorite artist weeknd today makes cover twenty eight uploads youtube channel surprise cheer up total  subscribers first video  months would love guys showed type support covers signed the voice got accepted unfortunately cant go perform pandemic cancer always dreamt talked making someday surprised today making cover song would mean world guys shown amount support katies channelhttpswwwyoutubecomchanneluckzpcvvdozibmmvqepvyw,0
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started depression october  relationship could listening understood partner put guilt even thought everything fault shit sees patient person gf home everyone disrespect point everything do got worse partner decide end things guilt still friends really me really thought given false empathy makes edge reason could kill parents want hurt feeling worst still there hard support psy came culture talking seeing psy crazy difficult open someone see false empathy feel sad empty exhausted hard,1
quot fire of anatolia quot is fired costume are destroyed it s so poor situation,0
@hana77 heavy rain in bedok south just subsided. sun slowly coming out to play. ,0
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need guidanceso started lithium thursday helped still want kill bad normal,1
@Pagga Disable all extensiojns to start with ,0
hihi name elle  really yes ive clinically depressed  years im   yk im fucking lonely im really fucking close losing shiit laugh lol im laughing today particularly sad one regardless im angry im frustrated im alone wish neurotypical wish brain worked way depressed people wish cared wish cared school health anything really wish cared,1
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getting ill and very fed up with how thing have turned out,0
guy coming sure wear f hey guy friend coming tomorrow im excited im sure wear ive known since middle school weve talking couple months and honest know really care wear will want wear dress something thatd give way feminine impression like dresses often want give impression me makes sense im thinking wearing cargo shorts friends tell nobody likes cargo shorts though like normal pants know of cargo pants thing is seen person since  want make absolutely sure good impression want look nice like put much effort casual like care im gonna light makeup ive got couple pics makeup im gonna bc makeup like yesterday anyone wants see makeup uh guess ill link it also anyone makeup advice hmu think ill worry nails ill probably something pastelmakeup lookhttpsimgurcomaqaorpl,0
why should i live i m gon na die anyways and i ve tried everything to be happy hobby job everything seems menial not to mention literally no one love me my friend have left me since i couldn t open out my shell and my family and extended family are abusive the only side that wasn t my uncle died year back it s hard to swallow but literally no one care if i did death doesn t even scare me it s just a eternal sleep that ll come and snatch me anyways so why bother and i mean this genuinely those around me seem so pleased but it just don t feel the same therapy and all just doesn t cut it and med only get me high,1
 years constant self harm thoughts tired wish way stop thoughts self harm,1
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@decembabreeze LOL!! Awwww you're lucky!!  I want a son so bad...too many women in my family. I'd try not to make him a momma's boy but...,0
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dont deserve good thingsand never happen im trash,1
i have probably around 0g of metformin sitting next to me right now im scared but relieved that everything will finally be over,1
plani mean plan going not go phases seems endless pretty much cycle thought whats point gets old slightly less bolder people wait idea redflag instead physically acting it plan it like if life get better year ill kill myself sort deal ive given im  im  nothing really changes think theres much point keeping shitty outlook affects people around know ill stick it moment ive pretty cemented long time now,1
skip one im worth saving anywayi mean would be im unattractive eyes many people around me bitter fault afraid conflict even fucking worth sparing anytime for really besides rate im abusing body ill probbly die cardiac problems anyway might well speed up burden family fake friend worthy romantic love all god let tiiiiiiiny bit courage finally fucking it,1
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ok need advice year ago parents got divorced m two sisters mom moved across country weve living different state mom new job shes met people work well  months living meets guy work invited yesterday came hung little bit hes pretty chill dude cool came today spent literally whole day here daughter whos one grade seems decently nice came today him basically need help big changes happening dont know handle them mom knowing her probably going marry man point theyve already gotten pretty close meaning ill step dad step sister pretty soon pls help dont know handle things,0
Crap! Running late to school for press conference! Shoulda slept earlier like @DinoKington! Good morning Monday ,0
need redflag watchi want someone listen me want alive inconvenient itll wife time next week ill dead,1
Just got back from biking. Taking a sip then going to the forest preserve and bike there ,0
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almost passed pe lesson okay boxing pe warmup needed jump rope  minutes straight eventually vision got blurry chest pain didnt tell anyone realized needed watch out also squared annoying kid prob hurted lot like  guys rest girls us boys show see whos best,0
get better whative severe depression entire life ive gotten treatment take handful medications every day get by never gotten better days okay absolute hell whole life ive years felt happy married lot good friends house life wanted ended im divorced  years ive lost everything friends live tiny apartment good job make enough travel go vacations much anything fun besides play online games such ive relationship man  years severe adhd aspergers financially destroyed broken me im severe amount debt love hell love him absolute hell semidisabled think could live alone stay friends family im  years old im fat ugly invisible world spend nights getting drunk staring computer nothing books computer games music cat entire life never leave house thinking checking permanently im much pain seems pointless anyone tell irl im posting here really get better know people say oh get better people like never get better guides one question get better like people say will,1
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laekanzeakemp mental health ha been and will always be my favourite topic to talk about let s connect laekanzeakemp i started my journey of writing to fight the silent battle against depression,1
knew good truehe found someone else ghosted me find myself much prettier me one making finally start feel pretty,1
want endim tired everything rd th post here im tired always brink never actually anything almost got hospitalized december told wouldnt kill things get better year may nothings changed still cant transition yet im trans im still forced boy scouts im still crushed school not even hard classes finals hit like train sit around kinky shit online watch youtube cuz cant muster motivation anything else constantly humiliate socially cant finish anything miss meds daily etc etc would kill could parents still keeping knives throwing traffic sounds impractical want badly im tired everything im exhausted nothing gets better let die know fact anyone know irl sees im gonna get ass hospitalized again thought absolutely terrifies me yay stress,1
just a disclaimer but i love my parent and i love my family a lot i ve been super spoiled when i wa younger and i m glad i wa born in my family in no way is this vent ragging on them or supposed to highlight them a bad people idk what the main topic of this is just a vent bc i got my card like a week ago and i feel horrible i m planning on offing myself before the next school year start im planning on doing everything ive wanted and never done before then go out with a bang be useful for once in my life then leave while the satisfaction is still fresh and before i make another mistake truthfully in the past two year i ve tried multiple time but stopped at the very last second i m not struggling a bad a everyone else so why do i feel so miserable everyone else ha become better now so why not me i ve just gotten lazier and lazier and basically just lost all of my will to do anything right now i m a a child i wa pretty much one of those kid who were constantly pressured to be in first place join competition win in basically anything many time i wa pressured to do thing i didn t want and hand in hand with that i couldn t really do most of the thing i liked too an example of the thing i had to do wa public speaking and basically announcing stuff in front of a crowd i already had stage fright then but it ended up getting worse and became overall anxiety after i humiliated myself multiple time on stage forgetting what to say stuttering etc i knew many people who could do it better but no matter how much i disliked it i guess i had no choice after that my voice became quieter i became passive i didn t raise my hand unless i wa called everytime i wa in front of people i basically just shut down when i wa younger i wa a lot more extroverted the older i became the smaller my confidence fell when i reached th grade i became really paranoid and felt all my worth wa tied to being smart and even now i still can t break away from thinking that way basically my self esteem is now in the gutter maybe even in hell at this point but the difference is just that i don t really care anymore i constantly felt the need to be a role model felt that enjoying thing would make me le of one while the rest of my class bonded with each other went on outing etc i wa so stuck up that i never went with them i wa very rule abiding after all that wa the only thing i ve ever known i remember the first time i got second place my mom is a super nice person to be honest but that time she told me i wasn t trying hard enough really hurt me so much i also used to be a really moody child there wa a time i overhead my mom say that it would be my fault if she died from stress it proved even more to me that my only redeeming factor wa that my grade were high i had the personality of a dog turd i had no talent i wasnt social honestly i wa bad kid there s really no excuse i never got violent with people in fact my sibling were the one who bullied and teased me in a very mild way though just temper tantrum i just wish they sent me to therapy instead of constantly insulting me i didn t even know how to get better i didn t know how to control myself from being angry how could a year old understand that sort of thing i asked them how i could make it stop they told me to just stop being mad i don t know why it affected me so badly now but i feel like the stuff i subconciously learned back then i can t really unlearn that easy anymore even if i don t believe in them anymore i realize i ve never really had dream i wa just going to do what my mom wanted me to do i d get a job be rich and just work and exist i guess deep inside i knew i d never be good enough for that sort of thing i just engrained it in myself that im just an average person maybe even lower and that whenever someone say im smart theyre just giving me empty praise i wouldn t say that the thing that happened to me were extreme not at all but now here i am zero motivation to do anything at all useless and more of a burden than ever before i ve been failing for two year i can t keep up with anyone i don t understand the basic i m always distracted it been two year i still can t do a damn thing the only thing i can do is draw even then it take so much of my time that i can barely do it i have so many thing i want do and learn now but i guess school is in my way again this time i suck at it even harder im always distracted i cant muster any strength or will to study or answer question to make it worse i may have adhd but i dont want to self dx it just that since day people have constantly pointed out my carelessness my voice with an uncontrollable volume etc i cant wake up on alarm i cant follow routine i cant follow timer im really forgetful im distracted and i dont know how to make it stop it horrible i dont know if im just being lazy and trying to excuse it i dont know everytime my mom see my report card i can feel her disappointment i m scared of even looking at her face i dont know why shes trying so hard to keep me alive my parent fought because of me before my mom is already too tired i dont want her to waste any more of her energy on me there just no point before the pandemic i wa still functioning properly hell i even got into the honor list and there were only a few of u now i pas everything late play game all day and slack off incompletes failing grade all of that the first time i remember wanting to pas away to say the least wa when i wa in first grade it wa a weird memory i dont know what prompted me but i gave a paper to my friend and asked her if she d ever thought of dying i remember thinking id never grow past 0 when i wa younger it wa weird but i could never imagine myself a an adult maybe this wa why i thought it wa just that i d pas away because of bad health or some accident i never really cared ive been a burden since day one guess i still am i dont know why i wrote this i guess i just felt horrible thanks for reading i appreciate it sorry for the messiness i wrote along a i thought stuff,1
gone soonill soon probably couple months now taking amtrak dallas finding tall enough building jump from im sick shit,1
dealim tired living want die im gonna give month find reason live cant find reason september th death date,1
i m starting to think i m probably suicidal but i don t really notice it if that make any sense i do thing like overdose on medication i say it s to get high but honestly i don t think that s my intention anymore i feel like i just don t give a shit about my life i fried my brain smoking weed and had a psychotic break and my therapist implies that i m stupid i hate myself and i just want to fucking off myself once and for all who know i might be going insane and i just don t give a shit anymore my life feel like trash even though i had every opportunity in the world to improve myself i feel like a complete failure and and idiot that deserves death i just don t care i don t give a shit i never did and i never will,1
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good evening peoplei know people x bigger problems hereso consider venti suicidali value life going hurt anyone thiesince young struggled nerd guy problems fewer friends bla bla blai diagnosed thyroid issuethe years later diabetesthen failed year universitybecame pharmacisti many notredflag clicksex free notredflag due legalsocial restrictions friendships decreasing drastically lost go except worki cannot wait feel happy attachedi want something years get it feel grateful happy like  seconds flash gratitude back square zero become withdrawn panic future daily basisi work  hours daily  days retail pharmacy pm pm life go out want stare roofi built future around physician like father othersfailed thisthe career fulfilling coworkers people underaverage iq think need something betteri cannot reach know isi approaching  want waste life panicking getting rare disease thyroid nodules turning cancer lateror thinking depressing career possibility developmenti approaching  livedonly boring  something guy boring farce career  daily meds minor inconvenience,1
ngayon lang ulit ako nag stay sa bahay kaya nasuot ko mga sando and short kong sa bahay ko lang nasusuot ta napansin ko shett semexy ako mga 9 hahahahaha chariz wala lang na appreciate ko lang yun lang siguro magandang nadulot ng depression sakin wahahahah,1
daniela 9 hahaa i just realized quot impune quot definitely isnt the word i wanted dang i m so unclever,0
guys annoying theres attractive girl guys go rip ur dms simps incoming unattractive girl guys ignore say nothing shut fck up saying someone hot enough get sexually harassed dms offensive fck annoying same simp comment think theyre hot enough simps come them,0
anyone dm physics hw kinda hard learn velocity stuff laptop anyones willing help please dm  anyways might go eat bread cause im hungry,0
want love loved fear hurting others want socialize similar reason want face future fear hurting people cannot live past mistakes knowing probably hurt people want isolate cannot hurt people burden anymore die completely alone want hurt anyone,1
breaking myselfbf  years ended  months ago said things good now bad times good cant see forever etc mostly due insecure crying sometimes angry drinking otherwise thoughtful generous girlfriend lost friends made grad school process applying logic myself sad happy let lot good things go could there made huge mistakes people close friends love talk even weekly hate alone around people get anxious even strengths thoughtfulness generousness etc turn weaknesses people end taking advantage me always least favorite child parents even though worry current state time feel like mistake even born went medical school get attention less dont know want doctor stuck career student loans graduation next week going really depressing thought bf family giong meet friends moving sos move job supposed person loved anything whole life dont even know want job going incredibly stressful dont want alone times bad good think back times happy think always little bit sad cant see living life the way been another  years even another  think using logic time break myself speak also told i need selfish well understand redflag selfish dont really give shit anymore thing want right hurts people fine rarely ever anything myself could one thing want face one day shit dont know make end graduation say goodbye people,1
someone knows anything computers help me im trying delete epic games launcher cuz use anymore free space laptop cuz told makes run better every time try close it says running when obviously closed app open bar bottom discord uninstall it,0
think call nervous breakdown got triggered slight disagreement wife absolutely exploded ran bedroom cried intensely least three hours probably worst ever felt emotionally dealing feeling guilt plus knowing let wife kids going birthday party them wife confused doesent understand happened really sure myself best guess stuffing emotions finally hit limit breakdown,1
live asian male im unemployed employable skills k bank aspergers think family friends respect me ive spent life socially isolated extreme social anxiety panic attack weed last year ive felt numb depersonalized emotions starting come back think theres chance might kill myself please tell hope situation,1
hey twitter first time i've been able to get on here today!! ,0
@dugone mmmmmm thats pretty much the route im going i reckons ,0
see many posts sorting new say talk im bored like im lonely sort new easy find posts like seriously youve ever made post like sub sort new see like  first  minutes scrolling,0
smile like you mean it wow this song brings back memory still can t sleep,0
anyone else get education fucked corona school decided mark everyone result cant continue second year maths alevelit feels unfairbecause start yeari couldve improved much even able take second year fucking virus,0
favorite show kid man favorite show   obsessed it still remember back seat car small dvd player  different heman season disc watched like  times also remember favorite character skeletor favorite show kid,0
even feel calm relaxed still convinced kill myselfi drink bit night feel calm somewhat serene still thinking killing myself want deal anymore time get drunker goodnight,1
hmm shoulder is making some bad noise if i move my arm back and forth i know don t do it fear a return to physio may be required,0
fellow teenagers reddit please give cutefunny name ideas call gf im trying brainstorm cute funny things call girl friend need inspiration got any dont shy,0
recently done things proud of fact always terrible person blame upbringing maybe really am cold spiteful psychopath hurt people made upset always people me people fact is loser disappear just stop,1
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edit i never really thought anyone would care but thank you so much for each of you for taking time out to console a random stranger it meant a lot and while i spent the night contemplating just ending it in the end reading this comment section again and again helped a lot i m still here and that s count for something i guess,1
this movie just worsened my depression tbh :) i wanna die :)  pic.twitter.com/fygUwhvYNh,1
resent wife keeping alivei want die sure thats going happen since im much coward myself crossing finger someone shoots thats different story reason ive never tried anything know id guilty would wife prompt feelings love within me pisses off like id done bullshit you know want anyone here know else say it,1
"Not all types of depression are the same, not all can be cured by making life style changes. For those of us that have a true chemical imbalance not caused by unresolved trauma this type of shit is frustrating  https://twitter.com/ayanatheoracle/status/988861135142248449 …",1
daniel daylewis remarkable job playing christy brown artist grew cerebral palsy managed productive life dealing successfully handicap becoming respected artist writerbr br the film however difficult one reviewor even watch fortunately caption feature catch every spoken word would impossible saw film theater respect brave piece work dealing difficult subject matter cant say sort film id want view oncebr br nevertheless attention held storytelling device flashback framed present see christy honored achievements see flashback youth struggles communicate around him certainly gave loving carebr br daniel daylewis certainly remarkable troubled man falls love therapist fiona shaw much mothers fear love reciprocated heart broken theres painfully long scene restaurant confesses love others goes frenzied rage drinking muchbr br brenda fricker brilliant job mother taking care him father brood siblings struggling keep roof heads daylewis begins success work complements daylewis performance warmhearted mother shares many poignant moments himbr br richly detailed story family stayed together unusual circumstances attention period detail every frame film fricker daylewis oscars hugh oconor ray mcanally also excellent oconor christy boy mcanally father spends much time local pub loves boybr br summing up elmer bernsteins music added plus factor well worthwhile definitely film everyone,0
"@allevin18 Sadly, I feel a lot of deeply depressed souls have developed an incredible way of masking their depression to the world, in fear of being wrongly judged.",1
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want exist earth anymore afraid kill reasons want failed suicide which likely would be think need elaborate obvious reasons probably kill parents grandmother sister passed away couple years ago already want leave dog someone else do judge mei know people say afraid commit suicide actually want live true want actually kill myself would much rather freak accident occur takes life persons fault wrong ie could never jump front traintruck would never want traumatize person driving anything like that drunk driver would deserve it make sense anyone feel strange time thoughts want live afraid kill myself,1
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im fucking tiredeverything feels like wrong decision everyone ive known probably sees disappointment future bright feels like never ending dark tunnel pointlessness thought never would thoughts again thought id never urge again fucking routine point getting every single day blank face hiding im actually feeling cuz dont ill banned vocational school dont know im holding onto point exhausting,1
self destructionis losing mind ive whenever feel depress want destroy could finally strength end it know longer live spiral down ive already thought way sure id really end all feels like wanna go even ends aware thing called self fulfilling prophecy feels like want use myself im sorry maybe needed get mind here,1
cant keep tricking going morethe world going shit took many years realise really basic important things life nothing look forward to even people call friends anything better really care me send messages days days go past response im old chance fix mistakes ive lost everything actually mattered long time ago realised little really going me,1
"Ahja, liebe Internet-Friendz, Depression hits wieder mal hard. Consider this your last warning. <Emoji: Up pointing index>",1
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theres  ways ends continue going school everyday rate much hatred life expands pretty much certain lead to  redflag cant happy life incredibly painful tiring  run away home ive swapped pressure school worse pressure homeless even certain lead redflag again life waiting game till hate life enough end it,1
wanna sleep never wake upim alcoholic im drug addict hate life much sleeping thing makes feel better motivation one motivates me cant go anywhere start new life nationality got cheated many times girls nowadays dont want loyal guys go rich ones really gave everything nothing works me wanna sleep rest peace,1
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tw sui attempt mention of method invalidation take care of yourself before reading i m really really confused because i keep really really invalidating all the time i wanted to die i don t want to call them attempt because they aren t serious i took redacted amount but not a lot of zoloft the first time which is not enough to kill anyone i didn t know that but i wanted to die so that s the closest i think i ve ever gotten to a real attempt but i feel like it s more of an od than an attempt and i m just calling it an attempt based of my ni vete at the time the other two were the same night so i don t even know if i should classify them a separate or not the first the rope wa way too long and the second i didn t tie it correctly and it slipped i didn t try after that but like i never even got a little choked can i even call those attempt i wanted to die but wasn t in any danger these were all year ago and i ve had some therapist say they were attempt but i don t really believe that i wasn t close to dying like my intention i m so ashamed to even call them attempt because they seem so pitiful this past december i feel confident calling my cut a suicidal gesture because if i wasn t chicken i would have gone deeper into the artery i still needed stitch though because i wanted to die but knew that i wouldn t go deep enough so that s not even a true attempt either everyone else i talk to in my life with attempt is like yeah i attempted x amount of time and almost died and had to be in the hospital and i m sitting over here thinking how fucked up is it that i m calling my pitiful gesture attempt when they haven t even come close to having negative consequence it doesn t seem right to me am i just calling them attempt for attention because i want to make people think it wa more severe then it actually wa,1
a pm would nice maybe friends sub need more,1
"Social support, rest, ritual, food, storytelling, and touch are all common among cultural practices for #postpartum #depression. F Parks #GOLDQuotes #PPD #PPMAD #maternalhealth",1
know weird question ask subreddit curious feeling feeling wanting end things lately though gone wanting here like another world dimension could go would love go there hate everything society today virus pandemic defunding police movement inflation masking etc done it anyone suicidal want here,1
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need help cant stop thinking friends lost keep worrying need stop idea need help guys,0
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quick spanish rant like lang class gonna spanish god hate class teachers incompetent old force thing abt respect arent people deserve reason dont make effort teach us still take class ahhh im gonna kms dude hate old people,0
@vicjustice heyy vic  how are you? miss you girl,0
janebodehouse hey there nope my cuteness hoytfortenberry is away for awhile,0
regret rape everyone knows fucked not popular guywith full prior consent class reputation tainted whore regret decision mean get away saying oh sexually assaulted me fucks guys mental health cost ego satisfaction think fuck,0
lot people online suggested many treatment methods depression last  years tried basically everything nothing worked however beginning think effective treatment options available depressed individuals effective treatments depression all,1
cliche i know but my girlfriend left me we had been together for about and a half year our anniversary wa coming up in july when we met i wa depressed and had been planning suicide she pulled me out of that and gave me purpose and happiness now that she s gone i realize i ve been living my life for her and now that i m alone i don t know what to do with myself i have no other want than her and it feel like she s the only person or thing that can make me happy again i ve lost all interest in my hobby and i have no motivation for school which i only started so i could make money for the family i had dreamed we would have i feel like i m right back where i wa when she met me alone and depressed with no motivation and no desire to continue,1
ive waiting like  years become  fr feel like long since ive turned ,0
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logical reason end life emotional one inferior never happy therapy optioni pretty much tired forced live every day faced nothingness despite trying find different perspectives improve myself care improving meaningless first all guy average attraction weak frail make eating healthy smooth face intelligence lower end average proven intelligence test school resulted going special class pretty bad school college interested able do special ed limited could achieve this failed college get university wanted go maths stats physics barely scraped foundation math even constant revision active reading mathematical textbooks went subject best in getting around c college got equivalent e partially due lack understanding absence interest towards it social person because whilst agreeable enjoy leaving house eating out travelling nature animalspets sports ive tried numerous occasions ive hated every second point makes depressed also little friends throughout life currently one distant friend meet every weeks want alone ive liked ive never liked friends ive kid ive pretty much forced presence ive never girlfriend likely die virgin cant get laid want girlfriend something despite trying smarts willingness involved fetish involves bodily functions least somewhat attractive me compassion willingness leader relationship good talkerarguer educated good politicsdebate plus optional sex means nothing desire intimacy relationship blame issues anybody else desires idea achieve hobbies really occasionally force write wanted writer one point hate every second always have wanted goal follow hate want give offers positive value life hobby interested politics debate history science maths linguistics general knowledge despite trying actively read interested forget try talk embarrass forgot read  seconds ago despite reading over taking notes actively reading it going end life soon believe nothing live for tried find things worked little therapy therapy shit country cant afford private therapy might desire get debating politics science maths etc knowledge despite trying cant retain anything even theres nothing learn academically clubs city million involved anything similar see people younger smarter hate much know comparing necessarily good means fucking nothing choose fucking it family yes care much removing world feelings try convince live care enough spare death want talk somebody im tired keeping myself hope even die spend time talking guys go,1
really crazy thing happened sub shadowbanned me time epic fortnite dances,0
giving up need make decisionquick history redflag wished never born around  wanted die  wanted kill  onwards think period three weeks point past decade happily died pain would cause family sorry mangled sentence need get editing ive taking step speed path death without killing immediacy reason want family know killed myself want think died accidentally stupidity smoke take drugs frequency take unregulated medications transition gender etc problem moving quick enough im kind immediate danger im going swallow shotgun ive thinking taking heroin would equivalent me thats speeding things up heres im here im engaging life cant far gone genuinely want die feel confused like actions saying one thing thoughts another kind of example trying lose job care could use someone talk think could help make decision whether finally give truly engage life halfway point getting down thank reading,1
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first came communists speak up communist came jews speak up jew came catholics speak up protestant came me time one left speak mebr br attributed rev martin niemoller br br when faced intolerance injustice easiest thing nothing  speak risk becoming object scorn enough become much global antisemitic sentiments allowed hitlers genocidal policies thrive equal doses fearmongering ignorance made possible anticommunist purges mccarthyism destroy thousands peoples lives inaction makes one less culpablebr br lawrence newman chameleon man quiet nondescript blends seamlessly surroundings lawrence like get involved  witnesses attack young woman tells one goes business world spirals chaos buys pair glasses mistaken one them lawrences view world view forever altered br br while subject matter film new presentation definitely unique much easier understand irrational nature prejudice placed within certain context  lawrence concerned assumptions jewish views attackers believes corrects oversight everything right realizing logic prejudice never go hand hand br br whether playing schemer the thing liked fargo home nice guy sheriff william h macys roles linked common thread his characters share subtle deliberate countenance gives substance macy nails lawrence smallest detail says furtive glance tremble voice page dialogue showing rather telling lawrence able share fear bewilderment viewer supporting cast brings story togetherbr br laura dern compelling gerty lawrences bombshell wife past trailer park rough yet worldly wise also felt wrath prejudice result a mistake unwittingly exacerbates lawrences situation michael lee aday aka meatloaf frightening fred prototypical redneck next door equal parts ignorance venom rallying neighbours virulent cause midst chaos finklestein david paymer focus aggression voice reason raises important questions paymers even handed portrayal keeps finklestein becoming stereotype someone whose sole purpose engender sympathy making one strongest performances filmbr br the tight editing closecropped cinematography make clean picture distractions mixes air claustrophobia small town usa feel  simultaneously comforting disturbing deliberate use harsh twotone lighting accentuate malevolent aspects piece carefully scored soundtrack powerful without overwhelming finally set costume designs recreate feel era essential component films messagebr br focus unconventional approach dealing prejudice reason enough recommend film consider excellent story solid acting look film added bonuses,0
deadpool spiderman full fledged battle think would win think deadpool would tire spiderman win yall think,0
whole world gone crazy am one around gives shit rules,0
monkey i just found out you my twin and you wont even write back i m heartbroken,0
wanna hear something gross turns probably read school book called lolita read internet romance yr girl  yr old man ewww,0
im selfish one asshole calls memom made marry  chester va gave virginity gave herpes quick  minute ceremony lawyers office honeymoon took place sheraton midlothian tnpk specialuntil said took gfs there year later moved grandma save money get house point proud owners ford festiva  month worked local ford dealership needless say couldnt move apartment full furniture micromachine car bought f month move gmas went see cousins baby gma got mad went drinking drove home train tracks two daughters living basement  motorcycles boat bronco  years got hell out second apartment got job cleaning houses bought   something mustang moved trailer bought new  mustang moved  times got job driving school bus went college inbetween moved mother could attend nursing school full time big mistake quit went respiratory school moved east coast va bought bigger boat since chesapeake bayrappahannock river tried several times buy house turn turn down one point nursing school wanted volunteer resque squad wouldnt allow it would around menat night worked hospital full men things done confused patients room woooo guess got fired found job working nigh guessed it me effing hypocrit daughter turned holy terror didnt listen came went wanted  kids take care night put shit trash brought home didnt listen either begged husband quit job needed killed get away shit hated come home work would stay daughter house filed bankruptcy heart attack couldnt work finally left state get away summer  close buying house saw expedition wanted wrong equinox  month  expedition let known would able house again think cared wined like damn kid couldnt take said go fucking get it im living mother law als im dying quick enough married selfish sob ive ever met came place literally hate him want die get away him im perfect night got married exboyfriend who  years found him learned lot didnt know going life wish would talked it showed tits people got play kiss them years ago hubs dick stopped working due meds seems actually loved wife could make lifestyle changes get heart meds use means get wife off think doesnt care got caught sexting redditors didnt go well diagnosed als morning bitched calling everything could afternoon guess given death sentence forgot delete texts want clock tunes hour go mutter museum die house think would either me nope stay bed redflag searches online want die leave miserable life mine love pa  brothers love daughters emily tiffany love grandaughters peyton lucy love future sons law justinand manny  reasons hanging on redflag still crosses mind hundreds time day read thisthanks mariann,1
kinda feel terrible born later  like idk  anyone else  really weird think everything im gonna miss ill either dead old enjoy amazing technologies well develop colonization mars crazy virtual reality  kinda wish born  even later  feeling like im getting old lel,0
Is now baptized!  we have an awesome god.,0
im probably getting theretldr depression go crippling levels finished university  years ago life pushing towards edge work specific im tired convincing people im dumb basically theres one manager keeps belittling previous experience basically enterprise php engineer im cloud java engineer never codemonkey going year almost even episode introduced feature yet needed laughed overengineering things end ended realizing actually need right make it basically like time  go beyond get laughed see actually right decision maybe last part always im fairly sure pretty good engineering systems work code bad best anyways maybe really shitty engineer though knows im depressed theres literally nothing else life work ive started become depressed situation work ive drinking recently got control today im sure anymore im tired fighting healthy whole life like that someone picks time fight back politeness stellar performance helped past  scumbag professors university stellar work stopped bullying saw im lazy idiot seem work im asking whether want live life gonna like whole life like things ahead endless suffering bullying come think it maybe life people there someone always bullies you whats funny get bullied school pretty healthy relationship classmates,1
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wanna kill myselfhow kill hanging kr suffocating,1
resembles much movies like pulp fiction reservoir dogs impossible think tarantinos films source inspiration thursday however low cost bseries movie bad plot gangsters captivating funny also bit dark humor sarcasm find pulp fiction resources many fore sure film well produced acting also good enjoyed scene girl sat sofa teasing doctor hot funny time soundtrack nice too hear many songs ones heard liked score ,0
Coachella depression isn't real when you went your hardest all weekend.. I was begging for my bed and a shower after this year lmaooo,1
depression failurewhen  forced see psychologist cutting pretty badly even razors serrated knives deliberately saw with despite something fucked up diagnosis nothing apparently wanted attention kind fucking loser cuts attention im  fucking years old im still loser ive never relationship went five years college got degree working  days week two part time jobs making barely enough pay loan debt friends hate im piece shit im constantly thinking redflag even fail that post sob story reddit like little bitch still looking attention let familyi let friends  let everyone ive ever met ive never followed anything ive ever promised life someone please fucking kill know note im aware fact cant really diagnose me im ranting,1
want go onim  yo school student experiencing suicidal thoughts since  despite well school music still feel like disappointment due several bad behavioural tendencies short violent temper lot issues anxiety due constant bullying lot time feel like worth tried get help past worked time ive mentioned wanting kill harm parents theyve gotten angry called stupid feel like cannot get form help due ingrained paranoia something go horribly wrong tried cutting myself always weak it help matters either so long story short feel ready end all feel conflicted people keep trying show good life throw off threaten replicate kill myself know anymore,1
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little sad story guess idk thank read  okay couple weeks ago shit went moved georgia wisconsin drama happened parents told couldnt talk anyone georgia including damn older brother long term girlfriend best friend loved dearly girlfriend amazing person think everyday theres nothing wouldnt give get real closure instead get someone else break tried figure way go behind parents back talk anyway nothing could wasnt gonna let date couldnt talk got best friend break said goodbye him dont know get dont know ever also dont know get best friend amazing person everyday school wed fuck around dumb shit fun playing video games mainly fallout sometimes uno yell top lungs raging fun made promise never give intend keep girlfriend people love arent family count days till maybe see again remember best friend sitting science th grade always ate chex mix halfway class wed split small bag looked choking hard face red hell supportive best friend laughed hard could hit back couple times ah girlfriend class one day teacher handed paper class complete course instead work wrote sentences filling paper front back mine countless amazing times ill never forget chance given meet people better winning lottery chance never able recapture know best friend reddit hes probably sub somehow someway see man love always keep amazing awesome person,0
sianllewellyn ive txt you this morning,0
hate thinking money make happy always daydreaming independent living alone apartment myself playing videogames work going inviting friends drink sigh course depressed lazy uselesscovid only made worse buy console last year see could give happiness looking for spend money saved prepare pandemic help familyi want take backpack run away start new life know make fari wonder ever something life rot away parents house poor happy,1
im hassle really love care for shouldnt even say though im desperate someone say need around one though assault words daily im filled hate actual hatred think im going end killing myself thats is cant get help now im far gone matter time really im emotional wish like guys manly hate emotions feel weak cry easily get emotional sometimes think sort disease things dream never become reality ive wanted one simple thing long time now ill never able get it,1
kms didnt got phone talked friends nothing happenedhere right now laying bed phone dead set killing myself it felt like gonna bigger burden died alive stopped midway opened phone chatted everything nothing go minutes ago talked wanting get wraps tomorrow,1
i have to fill two hour,0
morning bah car won t start waiting for the anwb,0
Depression isn't an aesthetic,1
goodbye everyonealas day come dont feel super upset little bit things im gunna miss on like weddings birthdays sorts family events sure wouldve loved stay honestly deserve see them hurt much would like stop soon possible seems unlikely hope die god shows mercy upon anddd get see family heaven esp girlfriend  although wouldve probably gotten  ill probably leave alone hope one feels sorry really deserve it im really good useful anything anyone lose me honesty would make difference lives wish could wake tomorrow super happy time cant be know im sorry way am never thought id grow like this thought id life figured  im confused cannot wait die rid disease me im sorry hope death family take something it dont really care much miss me dont kill tonight done february st,1
"$25 mani-pedi @ denovo - only for today, offer good for one year.  enjoy, ladies! http://tinyurl.com/kjdhgn",0
"Hey #JonasOnUstream,  well first off you guys are amazing   (Jonas Brothers live &gt; http://ustre.am/2us4)",0
ask yet still seems like much loss words and everything else especially live really want dead say,1
@Kenichan I want to! ,0
dumb get rid myselfwell kinda silly situation considered multiple ways kill finally far im scared failing ending rescued false planning even worse brain damage want speak psychologist would temporary solution clear cant fix  years educated retardation ever reasons low intelligence kind whats next wanna wait till die watch everything get worse worse selfish primitive character,1
anyone wanna pm bit  im mega bored lol,0
Thanks everyone for suggestions r.e. http://elearnr.org. Will keep it as-is for time being &amp; consider using it for staff CPD at Academy. ,0
saamx thanks you too lt,0
What You Can Say If You See My Self-Harm Scars#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #selfharm #depression #bipolar #stampoutstigma #endthestigma https://themighty.com/2017/02/what-to-say-when-you-see-someones-cuts-scars/?utm_source=engagement_bar&utm_medium=twitter&utm_campaign=twitter_share …,1
think im going kill sooni cant take anymore need figure difficult since live dorm im terrified im tired all,1
ive lost ability feel sadsadness had without im nothing ive already started self harming make lack pain emotion feel every second slowly passing ghost friends again thats it wont anything ill spend everyday lying bed staring roof time slowly moves by waiting ive decided ive enough try end if even motivation anymore,1
"&quot;Take a bottle, shake it up. Break the bubble, break it up&quot;  This song is best played VERY VERY loud  ? http://blip.fm/~7d9ph",0
@bigpurpleheart Votin now! ,0
"@AbeerAK go home .. or better yet, some more retail therapy ",0
im stressed  male suffering patchy hair loss really tryed everything since itforst started  years ago doctors told stress id grow back naturally case alsotryed multiple shampoos got patches back head around sides first wasnt noticeable started get jet black patches growing was nice light brown panicked booked consultation dermatologist straight away  also quickly dismissed case saying stress im stressed great life  regularly gym always happy couldnt get much worse top head started majorly thinning shedding also small circle black patches hair forming  light thick hair see started really itch al itchy small spots occasionally thought ill see dermatologist surely cant ignore wrong really didnt careat felt like awnsering questions stressed life ruined cantgo without hat hood im devastated it tryed full head shave absolutely hated really dont suit it eyebrows seem shedding spots getting worse mean much put with  spend day everyday looking help cant find im fed trying different things  ive changed diet tryed many medical shampoos gp  tryed coconut oil  regaine minoxidil  vitamins including zinc tryed eating plenty veg high fibre foods yet carrying cant seem find anyone whos hair turned black  nothing sentence happening  anyone relate please justwant life back affecting relationship becauseim upset time feel discusting know look stupid couldnt even watch child school play im literally house bound feel like dying whats point anymore one help im going left rott away maybe ishould favor end quick im stressed unreal,1
partner time drinking heavily leading breakdown later night selfharming feel riddled guilt partner witnessed it stop feeling way recently relapsed selfharm feel deeply ashamed,1
strokes chin aggressively ahaha whats poppin fuck more chin strokes,0
going kill weekendi all well paying job enjoyed loving mother cared lot me bright future utterly devastating self esteem last internship abroad schizophrenia hit hearing lot negative voices kept ignoring mothers emails held resent reason father raised hate her rude ignore her fair room back house move brother become even isolated damaged brain trying self medicate voices abusing anxiolytics committed internet crime broke morals snapped voices everything im left damaged brain haunting past im currently employed really cant it cant write code anymore im mentally incapable want live dark place anymore temporary problem permanent problem hate did went crazy fucked bad ends weekend,1
Is watching Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire ,0
leah you not going then,0
anyone else feel like human feel like nothing left inside memy emotions left cannot care anything thing pretend ok always feel empty like mean nothing i one feels like that broken,1
mathie make for hard work for small business,0
want to go home and watch the hill,0
feeding fish is fun http://bit.ly/19n8w4  ,0
ever think made worst mistake remember didnt host gender reveal party burned thousands acres cries poor air quality near me,0
i ve been feeling lightheadedness for at least two week it s starting to make my anxiety worse i m feeling thing like chest and neck pain and it s making me freak out i used to have really bad panic attack and i still have a couple xanax from when my doctor gave me a few to deal with the worst of it i know one of the side effect of xanax is dizziness should i be taking it if i m already feeling lightheaded,1
really want someone love meim talking girlfriend specific even good friend family member nothing love right lost hope ever happen know feeling way might irrational dont want wait see things get better,1
failed would like read hell kill myselflets start beginning age almost   dropped high school finally free kind filthy wasting time institution filled monkeys classmates decaying structures absent teachers nation really point thus decided get involved people either decay rest projecting life end december  wouldve  three months firsts april always suffered kind depression since bornt never really gave care always found reason mind stronger along fact never really cared social priority thus getting people youngsters around age follow wouldve explained path political projects would like talk here may sound strange nation situation thats every single child despise interest seems forced bear understand order survive behaviour well finally thought wouldve free live selftaught autodidact throught always believed best polymaths type habitat circumstance able study whatever needed projects kind educations perhaps even graduating high school onetwo years giving exam selftaught possible even though really seems necesarry anymore here considering neither university students get job mention university students show usually behave like arrogant brats whoms school paid daddy flee away country still complaining even anything change situation already projects ready every single disciplinesubject chosen specific type education school could get best advanced details every one for example scientific school schedule subjects chemistry such mechanic institute mechanics language obviously languages literature electrnocis much more course projects sadly mature throught time though becoming thus devided differently mainly studying eight hours lightly training every hour eating every six hours since even working since six years still underweight struggle food take care projects finishing studies going gym two hours eating making food next days going sleep four hours going night job like baker one either security guard starting beginning daily routine least since  comes real problem like really stressed three times trying get kind institute first one pass next class rejected many time absent really say ive never ever absent single class entire school life point barely even really sick started feeling strange nervous slow depressed sometimes remain night awake trying desperately drink coffee studying able remain awake day class thought wouldve better always talking december  third institute scam ive betrayed two girls ive directly trying friends with always happen start getting hated life matter much courtesy show happens be really known enough people tell behavious since try always test people since trying different behaviours spountaneous one emotional either caring getting people instinct even tho always understand others due natural matured perception life thats also school life ive always remained home wasting time now even enthusiastic new life everything started sleeping much usual feeling hope everything else even getting house occasionally every two months period met wrong people made lose time even though met people around internet political projects social personal matters also matured learn various courses getting job music seaplane course region fighting courses usual shaolin gym thus also started refusing parents money also countrys legal age getting job  also wanted travel know people finally train regularry get stronger gain weight im   lbs lose lbs skipping meal even eating six day week wanted finally find soulmate hopefully make spouse  like projected finish projects start writing works along much more another external point ive hypersexual since bornt sexually active sinec  literally entering middle school wouldve done harem determination get stuck home since libido wouldve following seducing girls everywhere bad never couragedetermination ask relationship im inevitabely honest  stupid brat wished sex saw nothing wrong nowaday call friends benefits always believed relation ship needed wouldnt kneel fron woman hopefully time wouldve changed would start appreciate traditions like always defended culture many ancestors mine died it become pure nationalist even knowing biologically shows possible excludeed civilized rational society leaving political views aside made think awful get girl sex thus wanted find girl life wouldve gave love sex with since would even want anyway real sin life im  three months still sexual experience except light touching clothers girl middle school cousins nothing feel frustrated ashamed lost failed really always thought holding verginity  pathertic always sure id lose  connects fact find even girl life with mean reading even novels true story even people  sex makes furiously rage force sleep order feel pain depression like ive done two years now bullshit say everything couldve project life routine finding that finishing else also able  marry live good family house countryside bride since family trees parents usually save money sonsons home even always telling deserve single cent others money legally addressed me able it  couldve moved ass remained active everyday finding girl right properties couldve ask make woman instead anything spent time getting active one week month felt strenght make eat wash myself thats it obviously done something like two travels filled fridge shopping meals one summer it even travel summer like idiot still stubborn wanitng earn money remaining home trying get job four times two years find hope thought deserve travel without constructivecultural purpose like meant to either find girl outside view cultural place meeting people location get around summer fun get laid many years virgin firstly believe fun also thought wouldve finally see bride promise purity last months lost it asked many times parents give euthanasia since strenght finish like two years ago projecting travel around dying get laid like wanted much time since also spent life computer knowing eromanga works maturing culture it getting work even resulting maturing commonly others  personal studies conducted since school like computer science else also get furiously jealous angry much else even finding mere male character  less years works mean i years couldve also studied computer sceince well cant even make program since know html bullshit sql started c even wanted code since  last institute ive girl particular three months older cute liked ghibli movies felt like getting hated suspect reason left also school private scam paid parents never inform themselve even gave warning suggested finally send normal school girls well third institute boys schools computer science studies met girl months ago nearly two years even giggling telling missed me receiving mt  amethyst collar present everything kept ignoring whatsapp considering live far other telling found annoying even nearly even writing fact annoy anyway attention second time fallen love girl considering third school wouldve show front house morning freezing cold shirt since always try give example way youth strenght nowadays even  degrees people act like eskimo first time girl middle school stalked time order approach ever since end school never getting able to end  fel righr courage many times house rang bell asked could talk hear well intercome poor sound could understood couldntdidnt want come reason meet me now except caring three months ill damn eighteen years old hell cope without hanging right now know even single girl entire life since never relation none got two years never could sexual experience holding lose bride get job save money future even finish computer science studies im talking electronicts mechanics bullshit understand jobs get highschool degree train eat properly two days getting depressed again sleep feel hurt even  hours feast writing anything projects work on travel anywhere ive done fucking nothing two years even knowing never able get even sexa age connects everything else make feel shit even give like always ive done life would eventually fail thus feel forced save energies remained look people even work ass anything get every merit last societys burocracy failed driving license driving motorcycle cc strenght motivation study theory lazy ass questions without kind reasonable logic written badly poorly showed discrepance every question answer studied anyway remember notion every single damn one even though impossible remember many were considering indeed possible mentioned everyone remember all would think find trick reason well let tell something question particular logic side could even try reason about thus know mnemonic tracts obviously failed got right next time studying three days occasionally next time drive found forced ask help mothers friends even bigger bikes order learn gears everything since shitty schol sadly paid instead selftaught watch learn either give impossible instructions without letting practice learn gears ride third lession thus three hours next times one could legally make drive road could learn self taught thus thrown road without knowledge schoo get pression stopped every two time never getting drive alone first time failed walky talky used poor audio got wrong side mistake second time drove fastly enough create traffic blockage gave priority it always use lights evetything perfectly got rejected anyway last point surpassed vehicle stuck even remaining line like do problem road indications go straight right left left seen ordered last second due helmet people drived slow even without good capabilites passed anyway reasons day knew kill destroyed everything failing hang myself im emotive person even really sensible usually feel anything time frustration tough bear even remember last time able cry feel touched cry even watching the wind rises graveyard fireflies cinema feeling depressed hurting feeling inside weighting everytime more tried also find anygirl would watch first movie withe desperation since cute girl last institute anymore try work projects three months remaining maybe get laid finish  im still trying see either hang myself get euthanasia gun getting weapons license either drink mix poisonous sedative herbs interested herbalism years well submit fate keep spending days sleeping jerking off trying study struggling eat wash since also stubborned train every shower even weak farely mostly beating wishing if could turn  again miracle could save me even ive fought for even talking miracles change since everyday wake feels like nightmare anyway even real acquaintance know since six years slowly decaying hes always introvert like weve seen years skype youtube far away tried teach make see opportunities had even difficult situation eventually got girlfriend year happy even little jealous sinec hes one year younger well bad days seems getting destroyed personality mantained discolourating hair piercing lips eyelobs like someone really bad likely talk leaving world also never friend life well fact consider bride woman tho mix become one considering wife real right arm helper every man believe person might call freind one entire world one never complains about utmost loyalthy other faith would sacrifice like would himher thats far got contacts acquaintances never wife never finish single project never live countryside house family never able mature advanced studies like medicine engineering never able redeem nation id die noawadys dacaying society never able write anything projected never travel know people never get strong able fight like never got to also defend family never feel satisfaction sacrifice never get wasted youth back get part  know many sounds stupid either lost virginity certain age marry  wanted live fresh period youth showing life short live laziness many people would suffer laziness parasitism id liked girl age two years younger projecting life projects youth would wait  redeem wasted time sensations different strenght different way opportunities come changes everything done right ahead like should thats wouldve perfect get least learn computer science work home gardening diy become indipendent getting girl know mature could finally live together theres little time tho could even bear move  theres still little time redeem two years wasted also thing weights forces feel regret fact even losing whole  wasted time instad panicking getting work thats unacceptable know regret wasted time schedule wanted create step step everything th year considering also person always even slapping cant get strenght except im starving survive either start stink everytime burden starts weight sleep else feel pain ive always even done meditation yers gym along maturing years calm impulsive multitasking machine could think it bad personal everywhere look makes remember well sex implied discussion feel touched explained before cant accept feel like years sacrifices work even phyisically ive passed state could break rocks train even broken bones work even able get bed cooking myself sit watch common brats waste time friends able gym five times me even though time able hundreds better thats want best go read old thread mine wanting hang would read even give fuck remembered else also happy people get top abilities bad leading example sacrificing life polymath reason around kiddos able one thing life praised it considering ive never hand life even parents even care about build staying filthy room year people around either good parents among maybe even one would teach even single profession keep life nothing want end it,1
twitch subreddit  bad tried making post asking help apparently violated rules stating reddit username looking tutorials hating twitch must soso idk please hate me opinion im saying this dumb,0
@h2theizzle Haha... it really would be. ,0
woo hoo another nice day ,0
the movie tells tale prince whose life wonderful evil wizard tells go town disguised beggar wizard locks prince soon becomes shadow ruler baghdad jailed prince meets thief called abu helps escape jail head town called basra meets princess falls madly love with unbeknown evil wizard jafa also love princess tries convince father allow marry her jafa soon learns prince trying win girls heart makes blind turns abu dog leads prince abu going adventure find way defeat jafa restore peace baghdad marry princess journey encounter everything sarcastic genies takes abu flight clouds giant spider thats really hungry flying horse probably gives birth one beautiful sequence old eyes mine ever seenbr br this pure fantasy movie start finish flying horses genies flying carpets wizards actually magic instead hit people staffs cheesy moments love story waste time production designs stunning movie palaces different dangerous traps heroes encounter even though movie  years old production design far better crap gets tacked todays cinema music songs also well done anyone sees doubt hail i want sailor sailing seas one great musical moments movies im usually huge fan singing movies since find enjoyable taxes ill happy make exception moviebr br what sells movie sheer fact get see things see everyday life also reason love stuff like two towers silent hill way todays modern fantasy movie came along realistic cgi blow minds movie blew mind without green screen scattered place one favorite shots two towers one see trolls opening black gates main appeal shot seeing great fantasy beings essentially manual labor thats love genie creatures movie theyre trying make living like everyone else gives real feel even though theyre fantasy beingsbr br its literally impossible watch movie notice makers aladdin got inspiration characters movie pretty much characters movie talkative genie right flying carpet entirely bad thing eyes since nice know im one planet deep passionate love amazing movie first saw kid motherland thought greatest thing world upon watching last week still think amazing thats true testament great movie withstand test time sure effects look wee bit outdated cheesy made way back s give break everything looks outdated though since stuff still hold today scrutinized todays standardbr br if ever wanted see live action version aladdin get wish angry cynical bunch probably good avoiding since cup tea,0
hhs antinestle memes start im happy got see themhow supposed live  mean seriously  know everyone stopped buying mcdonalds pepsi etc including myself world would better off even that boycott believe in hypothetically one wants fucking power say buy different brand guess what im minor income consume brand parents purchase know care important defeatism highly contagious im already depressed hell knowing childhood raised processed snacks contributed pounds pounds plastic production supply demand well family never letting chance recycle feel like piece garbage making much garbage cant fully blame corporations as much wish cannibalize leaders of us keeping business thinking theyre welcome stay make shit like burger kings unhappy meals gets nothing meme buy extra diabetic cholesterol supreme cheeto burger  would mom asks want dinner refuses hear beg us eat vegetable mom cant boss around like that these kids want feed can world falling apart environmentally partially reluctance longer depend offending business im going sit strangling phone charger pass get freedom mom tells take trash third time week much waste groceries produce want stomach hurts even know right complain im too world better without me probably better without lot people murd,1
@shani_epa umm through this arrangement what would be the earliest day  i could get them? ,0
maya is being spayed today i m very nervous about it,0
spanish required subject us least california nearly  population speaks spanish new mexico nearly  population speaks spanish ridiculous taught spanish english beginning school also taught latin american spanish theres much difference would kinda like teaching us british english yeah would fine american english would useful even mostly,0
onlyif never happened spared reprimended affected day nice left alone could couldve succeeded ampxb mind taking life,1
@revstacey I don't know your number! ,0
im fucking done suffering end itlegit eye fucked since sunday im done come home dont shit back hurts arms too eye hurts im writing shit point nothing loose family idc want motherfucking end it end god damn eye pain end constant suffering school anyone tips could end life without anyone close noticing im gone,1
want kill myselfi hate existence im always tired never get energy fix it people say care end lying everyone know always leaves always fault self harm constantly even try hide one cares anyways im selfish disgusting human deserves alone im allowed sad everyone know worse attention shifts whenever hurting talked friend redflag multiple times whenever need help one help im surrounded people constantly feel alone suicidal  months now one cares cant afford therapy not would help parents think attention thats am im disgusting attention hog want die problems would solved along everyone elses im everyones problem mind mess tangled cant fucking untangle it seriously considering taking entire bottle advil whatever shit find fucking ending it im tired eternal sleep seems like answer know anymore need help cant get any im fucking done im tired crying anything besides this,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
"also i cant remember if i ever mentioned it bc like, my memory from the past 7 months is practically nonexistent, but ive been in a hella bad mental state and now this past month ive felt like me again! so thats cool. depression can uhh Heck off",1
people godamn possessive things one friend whos getting nerves tells song catches listening it literally asked why fuck listening im one told it recent one found small streamer brought stream make fun people fun anyway hes mod f try watch mans stream give bits support smaller streamer bans without reason word word said go find another streamer watch ninja something,0
sa s mental healthcare cost rate average on the global scale the mental health price index 0 find depression is average and anxiety is lower in sa than in many part of the world http t co rsaxgsekb,1
today gonna venting hug zone anyone everyone feel free share need share,0
no my goat wool sock have worn through,0
envy towards sister leading become increasingly suicidali close committing redflag sensitive obsessive emotional anxious idealistic bitter miserable lazy unforgiving nature younger sister motivated observant perceptive diligent calm thickskinned confident realistic skeptical logical rational objective intelligent fair honest positive forgiving reserved tolerant openminded independent selfcontrolled humorous analytical quick thinking respectful wise unapologetic keep wishing could life personality gifts,1
nobody cares menobody sees hard fighting carei know belong herei borni died twin probably would thrived well likedim ready leave herewhy death come easy life even dying failurei cannot anything righti someone anyone wantsfriends partners family nonemy father died youngi want go meet belong,1
it s not easy being useless i am honestly just considering quitting my job and spending these last few day in a hedonistic fashion i hate my family so their feeling don t matter i never understood the logic that i shouldn t kill myself because it would make other people sad it seems like everyone is for doing what s best for you until that thing that s best for you is suicide the rule for suicide are different because when you re suicidal you have to throw what s best for you out the window and do what other people want for you and that s fucking bullshit,1
anyone else see people dying young overdoses accidents thinkdami wish me envy dead,1
alt acc dont want friends see thisi much homework get breaks get breaks play xbox friends play idk anymore give reason live,1
@SinnamonS Good Morning SIn Sin ,0
anybody send date video fnaf lore younger obsessed lore fnaf would watch video could find lore later lost interest remember games pretty interesting story anyone know video covers lore games  however many games now know dumb request would really like know,0
need hear this need say thought that many years ago grew up stopped bigoted little  year old matured thought realised much hate speech slurs could hurt someone wrong far recently said terrible disgraceful things ive found things said hurt one closest friends told lie hate speech free speech told right say wanted want warn believe lies hate speech free speech cannot go around ignorance ourselves believing right just need look ourselves make sure completely certain believe think,0
im fat trans cant pass need dieonly skinny attractive cisgender people get lives thats clear now matter cant lose weight cant make pretty attractive  look like ugly man moobs whos starting look archery old im mid s wrinkles shit setting in im never going able attract partner im always going suffer bigotry discrimination hatred im never going even get rid dysphoria cant pass dont female body even paid couldnt sex dont vagina even pass id never able sex children im sick bullshit dont get happy live  cis people get that whats point living torture,1
im fat slob whos worthless air breathei look every one around me theyre happy theyve got good lifes look mine realise disgusting human am want die want happy get bursts happiness day immediately come back want fucking keel die want big red fucking button push end immediately went gym happy set plans get better went gym fell apart fucking know never get better know die horrible death want fucking die already,1
this is a really long rant but i just needed to get it out i feel like i m starting to become a better version of myself one that people like respect and want to be around and i just can t stop beating myself up for not being this version in college when i wa nearly suicidal and i lost some friend who kept abandoning me and affirming the horrible thought i wa already having last year one of my roommate lowkey bullied me and i started to believe i wa a terrible person and wa overthinking everything i ever said wrong especially when a couple other friend abandoned me at the same time over something they were upset i said which i think could have been resolved with communication but they didn t try but i talked to my other former roommate recently and she said that i wa fine that i didn t deserve any of it and she didn t know what i wa going through at the time a she said don t just turn the page close the fucking book and i started to feel like i wa getting closure about stuff so i thought i would text one of the other people who sort of broke up with me it s been a year i just apologized for how shit went down in the friend group without blaming her or anyone else and really poured my heart out about how dark my mental health wa at the time and i said she could apologize to the other girl who i believe blocked me if she wanted i know it wa a little selfish to unload like that but i made sure to say that i didn t expect anything of her and she didn t need to respond and she didn t reply but she did like my instagram post today i know they don t owe me anything and i swear i m not mad but i think part of me wa still holding on hope to some form of closure part of me hoped that they still cared that maybe they would care a little if they knew how dark it wa for me at the time i know that s selfish but damn the last few time we hung out were just me doing her favor and giving her ride before she broke up with me a a friend so to speak but no one cared a soon a i wasn t a fun friend they bounced at the first sign of conflict mental illness and again i m not mad i m not gon na harass anyone with text expectation but it really fucking suck to feel like i ve been going through this horrific and terrifying period just to discover that no one cared it wouldn t have mattered if they knew they just couldn t be bothered,1
want head crushed girls thighs  edit damn hacked,0
I am gonna be pimping Tom's latest podcast show later on tonight as well - it's srsly fantastic stuff ,0
"So,"" I just saw somebody comment on a post about legalizing marijuana that said """"hopefully i can switch out my antidepressants for this""""THAT'S. NOT. HOW. IT WORKS.Weed *can* help depression. But you don't just! Switch! No! Bad! Stop!",1
trashi trash drunk damaged forever broken deserved everything happened me want done already,1
favorite video game dialogue mine rain every agony every violation upon you parade cold body every corner every realm feed soul vilest filth hel promise,0
thank reading this im sorry seems important annoying thought id let someone knows kids please treat nicely idea abusive acts would bring kids would affect treat siblings friends people theyd meet later life,1
remember makes happy even really good moments really good days lately know them cannot remember them hate feeling everythings reach cannot remember things made happy,1
littleyellowjen what do don t think ily nawwww,0
feel lost im tiredhi everyonei hope okay speak mind bit im  years old im england live sweden studywhen around  years old obsessive compulsive disorder really came surface  diagnosed depression ocd generalised anxiety disorder since cannot remember day havent worrying sad upset something craving medication take away numb anxiety sadness im university somehow god knows managed scrape past school wishes family therapist came swedenive year thought moving would help escape old problems followed here real friends here go lectures spend much time bedroom nothing even feel like ive recovered one anxiety another one comes along im freaking ive sleep walking nights ago im worried ive sent snapchat sleepwalking well browsing internet obviously cant tell nature snapchative upset hurt much anyone else ever has happened me deserve this ive thoughts redflag im scared death even think it life aint much better eitherdoes ever get better im tired,1
new here havent dark place  yearsthe world gone mad question thing stopping thought pain id cause others leave behind selfish truly believe pain far greater would temporarily suffer,1
practicing slashing one big daynighti slash deep enough bleed cuts although dry wipe blood wet paper towel lose tablespoon two maybe blood future successful redflag wrist  advice,1
thought may helpfula good friend showed poem desiderata go placidly amid noise haste remember peace may silence far possible without surrender good terms persons speak truth quietly clearly listen others even dull ignorant story avoid loud aggressive persons vexations spirit compare others may become vain bitter always greater lesser persons yourself enjoy achievements well plans keep interested career however humble real possession changing fortunes time exercise caution business affairs world full trickery let blind virtue is many persons strive high ideals everywhere life full heroism yourself especially feign affection neither cynical love face aridity disenchantment perennial grass take kindly counsel years gracefully surrendering things youth nurture strength spirit shield sudden misfortune distress dark imaginings many fears born fatigue loneliness beyond wholesome discipline gentle yourself child universe less trees stars right here whether clear you doubt universe unfolding should therefore peace god whatever conceive be whatever labors aspirations noisy confusion life keep peace soul sham drudgery broken dreams still beautiful world cheerful strive happy max ehrmann  sorry bad formatting ill try fixing problem,1
still hereim still bc family sometimes wish nice could go,1
ima honest really want hugim  hug family shit like want feeling someone hugging you theyre obligated family ironic joke friends man think prospect hug thing keeps goin fuck want long hug someone ive built relationship with,1
vacation make me feel sick,0
@ColdZero2006 cool  what was your highlight game last year? I thought it was good to see Res Evil 5 early. Crash Commando was fun too,0
@samanthaax3 hmmm let me guess.....WHALES? ,0
thought going lousy movie honestly mean rupert grint ron acting movie different harry potter actually really difficult picture it movie started showed guy talent mean best actor hp trio reference seen emma watson trying act daniels acting lack experience even though acted million harry potter movies ben character shy boy incapable showing true feelings everything despise ruling mom resentful anger towards father unable step confront unfaithful wife julie walters absolutely brilliant interpretation old retired actress trying live shadow past tries remember shakespearian sonnets absolutely wonderful also appears many youth wasted religious nonsense acts,0
i wa on lexapro 0mg for over a year and it worked amazingly and went off of it with my doctor s approval i had brain zap and dizziness for like week and then got hit by a truck with physical anxiety symptom i wa off for week total some symptom were the same a why i started it in the first place like head pressure racing heart and a lot of trouble sleeping i wa a wreck before lexapro with constant panic attack and physical anxiety but i got new symptom of forehead and face numbness with tingling and burning sensation which i haven t had before i ve been back on lexapro for and half week and the symptom that are driving me crazy are the face numbness and tingling it s been ongoing for week i spoke to my doctor and am seeing a neurologist i m scared this is a rebound withdrawal affect of stopping lexapro and that it s never going to go away i hope it s just anxiety i can t focus on anything feeling like i have this constant burning and numbness i m seriously freaking out and i hope it go away,1
ive lost hope futureive lost hope future life seems like miserable day experience whats point trying hard succeed everyone ends dead anyway,1
anyone lives philippines here someone send something someone kill methank you done,1
especially appreciate stories similar experiences such hope everyones nice day tldr ended redflag due relationship health redflag cant stop thinking might terminal illness cancer feel weird tingling pain area before even cough freak little alsoused suffer dodid deal it,1
fraking app store is pissing me off http tinyurl com c ooho,0
i suffer depression just hearing jose mourinho s name,1
hey you almost day internet relax enjoy photo i took photo ampxb httpspreviewredditanxrucvepngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampsceeaccbbdfeaddece,0
even seem worth talking anymoreit really matter yes ive made detailed plans past yes still think every minute every day even seem like matters anymore im become totally indifferent even extreme dangerous thoughts even flag problematic anymore normal thought thats head like anything else ive times day place method decided everything squared away ive hospital twice one like weeks ago idk whatever yeah wanna die cant say sure it really matter me talk anyone anymore is therapist see point getting one need medicine refill cant bothered pick up care less it,1
karenlo 0 i am okay tired and still struggling with my depression how about you,1
phillyd wishing you the best lt,0
minimize pain caused hangingive heard painful way going padding rope rope digging front throat true lot less painful put padding rope rope dig side neck im asking friend,1
well im back alright last time came basic issues seems worsened first off brother mental ward might get back guess bad really care thats also coping mechanism tune world yeah might never return electricity might get cut out clue ill living next year im lost one person could talk left nobody started flirting girl guess good distraction time still just life downer man know do im  guess im scared want see sister hurt anymore im sick blamed things nothing with mean talk child services want go system want want to take pause let everything go away feel like im climax tragedy family crumble im starting out feel like im going get suffocated problems family thanks listening sw sorry able keep myself,1
boyfriend broke fault cheated him forgave first time again albeit reluctantly knows told him amazing lost stupid immature please never cheat worth it,0
think geography teacher got fired apparently thing thursdays class students class getting calls asked happened teachers class today worst heard using fword mic talking another teacher  minutes class normally ends we test get extra time iep though paying attention context swearing,0
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made new female friend im guy,0
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got told im lot prettier person girl talked lot video chat idk feel it good thing think ugly video calling prettier relative saw before think,0
online person school so first  weeks ends next week done school year far online but allowed go person unfortunately friday last day allowed make final decision wanting stay online person classes feel like im learning anything kinda stressing out person school even stressful would learn more question is stay online go person,0
meds one side overdose otheron left cup  different meds ive overdosed  times past two weeks one kill me right normal medication make numb put sleep wake tomorrow im tired hurting,1
one last chanceim giving one last chance weekend im asking girl get im finally ending it ive given life while need last push end it getting need,1
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 year old unemployed broke college dropout nearly homeless seriously botherin  years meaningless life never nonshitty job never girlfriend handful friends lost contact with barely got high school went college advice parents study stupid stuff inevitably dropping out ever covid finances tight stands two months overdue rent way paying it parents toxic overbearing would prefer staying streets living honestly everything seems futile point whats point this bother living all everyone go one day now reason killed coward cant figure painless way go,1
 malemy mum alcoholic mum means mom england drinks quite heavily like alcoholics know must schizophrenic something every time drinks acts odd like normal drunk person nasty things say nasty thingsfor example last year family hosted small family drank lot dad showing guests way home could drive said brother things like i want fucking die you later night got arrested started yelling dad beer bottle hard missing dad hit wall leaving dent serial number it another time drank lot brothers rum confronted kicked house seen  times since parents decided move us another part country family lives lost friends south school attend shit couple weeks ago kicked hockey ball ended hitting kid called lucas head fault happening people decided hour detention good enough punishment bully tbh got least  hours teacher understood accident friends started eating rarely speak people school moved months ago struggling lot today prick friends went bag kind joke took stuff trying get back prick came threw ground said this get lucas got rage punched cheek back end even bullying that know seems silly mums alcoholic outbursts life seems really difficult carry with saying attention would like someone thinking clearlys advice go getting bullied mum thanks,1
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long wait get drivers licence read description please ok im  year old mississippi havent taken drivers permit test yet wondering take permit test and pass wait time next year october   time writing take drivers license test could take test end year  cause ive always heard drivers permit year youre allowed take drivers license test also dont know affects anything mother disabled father getting both s im sorry crap formatting im mobile,0
dream job sorry seems bit personal,0
really now time for sleep dreaming of my city more tattoo and other great thing waking up to early morning sociology,0
someone please tell difference iphone   cant bothered watch  minute video  seconds original content,0
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All famous people were people once. Their being public property is a new development.  This is a note to self too.,0
life is so fucked human are so fucked and cruel and hedonistic and trash and mean and disgusting humanity deserves to die out a a specie so this planet and the animal that get constantly fucked by u can finally have their rest,1
reddit option sort oldest posts like seriously ngl wouldnt interested seeing teens posted reddit ,0
april staround  am april st years ago cousin killed himself sixteen time am many years later wondering would like fate day im realizing it pointless existential life is it never understood why relate fully want join him friends online course always say would want live life get have seem fair get live full life gets away nightmare dont want die know fucking do even know im bothering vent subreddit maybe cry help know i just want out,1
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im lonely dont want die sometimes feel like disappearing since im uselessanyone else feel same feel friendless,1
"I guess that explains why I don't normally go on Sunday mornings, though. ",0
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im tiredthats it thats post im goddamn tired know exactly kill  cocktail hard liquor handful lithium either hand get lithium later week well see maybe ill get fat ass stop goddamn coward thing,1
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twoobie tunes day lovely day bill withers song make wanna scream sing boyfriend cute wanna dance around every time hear ,0
livedi tried earlier today hook using ripped ceiling fell ass ashamed guilty emotionally numb initial crying even next ready accept death im still alive feel lost,1
bad idea confront rapisti raped  months ago contact since ive posted ill put below little bit month ago raped say sexually assaulted im afraid admit happened me drunk cousin ditched one friends  morning bar downtown almost falling drunk friend helped home im gay place consent anything been consented started kissing really control actions stopped convinced keep going really basically almost passed started sex point said yes anything push managed make leave month ive refused let even think pretty lengthy history depression ive feeling good lately want trigger anything like ive pretending happen know one day itll come crashing down ive ever thought it also attempted redflag past confront would say,1
whywhenever ask myself killed yet keeping here unable produce valid reason sure could get better seems get worse could turn human instincts survive kill would splendid,1
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point incapable getting betterbecause think im far fucking past,1
ignore depressing posts pls usually like  am get really depressed late night good parents decent friends worry me,0
see hype manifesting things experiences oneself thought would interesting manifest death  experience manifestation works things would work dying too would perfect especially got die way choose to well random thought one people want death look like accident options gruesome likely fail end vegetative statei know people manifest things suicidal would interesting find out manifest death,1
please blame anyone else fact unbelievably lucky make far parents always caring brother sister always wanted best me malfunctioning brain makes unhappy time even happy means something terribly irresponsible stupid hurt close me best thing everyone involved bow now say selfish move couple weeks would rather condemn lifetime misery id like send big fuck guys in case interested still love tessa high school girl called bara met drumming circle summer anonymousps daughters abbey amp zoey never you love much want feel like would fault course not people tend blame themselves guess sticking around love abs lt amp zo lt decided not end life today,1
crippling loneliness unlovablethats me none friends college would miss killed myself theyve got eachother meanwhile sit next annoying shit mum miss me cause pain happiness im rude im stressed im stressed time hit yesterday cousins aunts uncles would miss me im pretty sure ex used kindness gain doubt ever loved me lovable qualities pushed away friends college going hard time back relied spoke problems hate now im pretty sure could try reconnect want bother them people would miss dad brother mean world me things starting really get top feel like ill able change it,1
im surrounded wasps wasps building nest outside house one got house thats all send help,0
romantic love isnt real platonic love real romantic love isnt real might seem real thats called infatuationmy life garbage many girls dont ever reply me give,1
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people realize everyone isnt american right like see posts halloween like realize people come countries really celebrate halloween like yall slow fown bit haloween posts,0
livinginfiction outdoors man can t get to the gym this week no time no time dinner soon babe early next week or brunch sunday,0
trying breathe keep eyes swelling shutit time  preparing magnificent son born july  gave birth perfectly healthy boy completely love name liam james taylor everyone loved him planned wanted perfect was things tell mom reduce statistical likelihood sids even them even good kind soul loves god still wake middle night find son unresponsive  days old hell giving newborn baby cpr getting anywhere course called help took away hospital sent waiting room prayed gave him let die thought god woke could help him let hold little body the police investigate shock agreed investigated course rhese things happen fault found every night awoke check baby evolutionary trait hard wired brain women give birth people complain post partum depression clothes fit life stressful responding many demands growing family postpartum depression baby strange awful try sad time try supress intense negative feelings try control grief sad often contemplate redflag husband often tells contemplates redflag people say im depreseed get bed think sounds luxurious im trying cry desk,1
cant believe killed yeti  years old depression  months know depressed afraid tell psychologist father might freak one day father came room help clean noticed scratch marks arm freaking thats want tell psychologist thats turned here,1
ranking of king me permet de pa tomb totalement en d pression et aujourd hui c est le dernier pisode,1
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please keep family friendly guys mommy watches ipad parental controls please dont want ipad taken away complete fort nite battle pass ends soon,0
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knew itbasically thats going take now access something small easy quiet quick pain anger sadness tears thing thats getting now light end tunnel me,1
Have sympathy you demons. She was trying to cure her depression focus on getting curropt leaders arrested not some innocent girl wtf. How will it benefit you if she serves jail time???#박봄제발내버려두세요,1
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even get virus im gonna survive pandemic anywaythanks making cure worse disease entire world seriously considered redflag since teenager quarantine happened im giving world three weeks get shit together two support friend whos country much worse claim quarantine three weeks watch come excuse extend it everything ever loved cared gone pandemic every single coping mechanism ive ever had everything thats ever made happy ever made realize hey world bad fact actually really good time everything thats ever kept alive might well dead ive got reason stay alive except friendwho may tell  weeks cant justify alive world everything gone go somehow thats harder thought dying ive reached point im willing take chances afterlife covid exist hike trails go carnivals again,1
say worst part movie first half hour really confused who example bill paxsons character long hair wearing jacket then males arrived camp turned character looked like bill paxson wasnt said wheres bill paxson then guy girlfriend said  supposed year reunion camp directors alan arkin memorable later on girl interacting talking camp experiences made sense would one years old said movie turned pretty good kevin pollak nice guy always teased one guy complete narcissist ended losing beautiful girlfriend alan arkin interesting oldstyle camp director admits grown touch modern youth best part none grownup campers successes life none great careers seemed real life movie compared big chill ways exciting big chill lot realistic so even though beginning promising movie ended turning pretty good one,0
posted first tik tok  terrifying meanwhile post  times day wit face pinned profile lmaoooaksnfkssk bye,0
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equipment ready im peace idea something urges tell someonehey all havent feeling well lately thats antidepressants the th one ive tried consistently im away college undergrad currently good grades hand intense theoretical high energy physics research could blame covid im feeling reality im exhausted im hypercritical bodyphysical appearance self esteem show it try workout regularly point body feeling like fall apart cant stop im  thought id stop giving shit cut things friend my true friend around here grew fond kept triggering episodes trauma dont want go detail childhood saverbal abuse related definitely ties self esteem appearance tools needed fix car leak fumes cabin want night uninterrupted plan concealing anyall reflective surfaces little star gazing go sleep something still urges say something,1
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much consideration abnormali fairly certain remotely real risk im concerned find contemplating redflag   times week contemplation im remotely tempted act consider logistics would people would react feel like fairly common thoughts people have so question frequency unusual unusual point need concerned thanks,1
today th birthday longer confines  flair,0
robertzalme yes i do too much theory getting in not much solution coming out,0
It's been a nice cozy night with @SN8KEe.  Excited to marry that guy.... but for now?  Excited for sleep. ,0
yep completely stopped showing up everyday waking am pure fucking torture  hour shift basically getting bullied coworkers overheard making comments weird heard another one make comments tic have always felt like judged particular cunts maybe redflag telling things trueampxbthe struggles mentally ill mess walked away job,1
parents super strict way get snap without downloading phone weird ask app thing phone cant download anything unless sign end dont know reddit obvi lmao,0
know im even writing thisi even know start guess feel guilty even writing this keep telling feel bad get myself friends feel worse do escalates keeps escalating tell deserve die want die im terrified death time also feel indifferent whenever think death feel terrified feel bad want die gotten point thoughts ending it brothers really busy schedules point im left alone time ive decided exactly would it where ever decided when want live bad im scared guess feel alive even know want long time ive told im depressed im making think am wrote mom note wanting see therapist another problem came flowing realized badly need help courage actually make anything happen,1
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i ve been really struggling with suicidal thought these past few week currently i am in a situation where i do not have access to any professional help therapy i ve isolated myself during this time a well so i ve not talked to my friend recently honestly i don t know what to do i ve been thinking about talking to a friend about this but i don t want to be a burden or trauma dump,1
atlantis much better anticipated ways better story come films aimed higher age although film demand solid attention span times great film ages noticed younger audience expected comedy got adventure think everyone tired endless parade extreme parodies lot kids seen nothing parodies short time everyone seemed intensely watching atlantis,0
im donea lot peoples last memory fight bad day cancelling plans me lot people feel bad also wont miss me wont really care gone dont really now theyll upset reflects them proof gone,1
first thing noticed movie well everything set up quality movie round br br i suppose could love film action liked thatbr br this pure thrillerhorror movie offers fullyfleshed script horror films do thought least us version ended brilliantly great throughout story felt honest brutalbr br the film excellent tight script keeps action moving believable characters largely believable situations,0
think im donei know keep amymore ive diagnosed major depression anxiety  years now ive wanted kill whole time got self harm really bad  years ago self admitted mental hospital stopped long time little times there past year ive picked again im old shit feels like thing keeping going support system friends one cares would killed already dog cat dog anxiety issues im worried im going shell put cant around new people cant really want anymore point living pay bills like everyone whats point breathing air every day pay bills die anyway ive planned already animals held back think im point think even theyll better without me im ready over guess well see happens thanks letting vent,1
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purple rain cool dad tracking  callers minneapolis hudson horstachio prepares ride motorcycle  take ride franklin fizzlybear caddy lets go back   movie released prince tripped stardom would think hudson horstachio superstar new movie th century fox movie called vp  purple rain  starring hudson horstachio voiced dan green  played maxs dad  pokemon gym leader  tracks tina turners private dancer billy oceans suddenly headed album prince held concerts time weve pulled plug  movies th century fox fans watching anymore kid yells look deer danger mind  ralph schuckett composing conducting new movie called vp  purple rain released video tom cruise jumps motorcycle  brad pitt jumps motorcycle hudson horstachio jumps motorcycle thanks bette midler beaches keyboardists beholding heroic horstachio  hudson bart writing i shall watch purple rain chalkboard  go bloomington ferry bridge enjoy kids festivities hudson horstachio watching you,0
i hate myself this probably sound cringey but i do i hate myself my friend call me fat a a joke and id like to take it a a joke but i can t i can t i can t i can t i feel like they hate me i have no evidence they do but i hate myself i m worthless i can t even describe myself without wanting to kill my self all my friend are either small and skinny or lanky i m chubby but they make me feel awful they joke about me behind my back i have a true friend well i hope he s true that tell me this even though i ask him to do it i don t want after each joke i hear i want to die i can t tell anyone that would rope them into my mess and i m probably the least suspecting person to think this because i ve been faking a smile for year since i wa 0 at 0 year old i wanted to die hate myself i don t know who to blame but me i m useless i had a failed suicide attempt at age at fucking i tried to slit my own wrist i m only here because i love my parent and my dog but a soon a they die i have nothing but my own thought which i feel like are against me,1
bruh know tldr basically best friend fucked guy helped everything closest ive ever gotten another human no homo ofc homie get hardcore canceled almost nothing please read though youre gonna give advice desperately need rn days ago friend asked hook highfunctioning syndrome girl course told even high functioning thats kinda fucked up provide background girl liked trying hook pretty much since met th grade were th now yesterday told night dms got little spicy nothing illegal nudes sexting moderately intense flirting girl initiated everything way friend also told regretted already reason really tired lonely bored am gets message her mom talking gonna tell parents teachers principal get authorities involved friend responded naturally begging life never contact daughter again work friends parents know mom probably got number school crazy religious woman trying make friend registered sex offender bring court even though neither anything illegal fact anything girl fault since one initiated this fact downsyndrome hold court either high functioning is apparently really bad math suggested meeting sex one time place time age consent both  thats probably worst thing texted eachother last text got friend typing this parents outside work text time being getting grounded big deal girls mom getting school possibly law enforcement involved friend considered killing steered away gets worse think convince even contact try like said anything illegal initiated anything reciprocate whatever girl said fact man accused sexual harassment special needs matter high functioning look good him id love advice could help least insight might play out sorry read bad english first language suck sentence organization,0
theres reason go oni finally came realization im special unique funny interesting attractive everyone know pities want free burden am depressing vibes give off reason im still around right dog even shes got roommate spoil her shell fine cant believe ever thought dude would ever me stupid naive am essentially catfished another dude take decent face pics go meet see look face sees body is fucking hate living endless suffering awkwardness anxiety continue im almost  supposed better now,1
hi all i ve recently gotten out of a pretty long depressive episode i ve cleaned my room and done my laundry my biggest issue is now the dish i ve acquired quite a few dish in my room and today a few of my roommate noticed that some thing have been gone a while how do i put them back without them really noticing that it s back all at once and saving me from their anger and even more embarrassment,1
parents always saywhen kids understand never question actually take care kid,0
saved random guy im  yosorry bad english thinking killing years tragic thinking know think death could answer problems overthinking depression strong me dead compromise cant feeling good cant feeling bad neither really sad unconfortable going do able think anything moment took train went near city used love wanted fell high bridge like  am random guy came nowhere nice man lost daughter travelling africa country really quite peaceful bit upset also surprised stopped it said think family going feel die much love me right family loves want anymore nice family studying university lot awesome friends one reached city night life damn hard know theres people going lot pain someone without family someone cancer someone far unlucky me feel guilty this accuse sad make even sad still think sometimes redflag will flash similar dreams wich im dead thought control maybe see doctor someone help know think know night tried sucide got saved want anymore want enioy life family friends till can im frightned thought,1
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ive seen porn addictionrelated posts recently want help everyone conquer addiction stop watching porn altogether intro porn menace ever think it quickly find porn starting now probably minute less thats insane awful problem teens adults even adolescents  succumbing porn addiction according psychcentralcomhttpspsychcentralcomblogsextheprevalenceofporn average age person first views porn eleven eleven young super young eleven year olds playing legos watching dantdm instead watching porn jerking off what porn porn pornography footage images animation sex includes irl porn animated porn hentai included heck even fortnite porn yes exists  often porn studio produced scripted fake guys often pumped full viagra drugs girls faking orgasm orgasm well  plastic  flesh how know im addicted porn addiction pretty prevalent todays society httpswwwtherecoveryvillagecomprocessaddictionpornaddictionrelatedpornographystatistics adults chronically addicted pornography may seem like huge number keep mind porn getting easier easier access also aswell increased access porn small day day usage increasing addiction seen grow addiction yeah sure use it whats bad porn porn usage even day less lead several negative effects road continue using it negative effects pied porninduced erectile dysfunction basically means pp gets hard porn nothing else unrealistic view sex objectifies women sets female beauty standard big fake breasts skinny figures also hand failing sex education america many young kids first view sex porn young boys grow expecting partners women porn do leads sexism abusiveness slew nasty stuff men sometimes women how stop easy stop watching porn believe me stupid difficult start making excuses like well day whats harm or ill take peek once eventually start realizing dangerous porn is learn jerk without it actually feels way better since lasts longer porn start disgust you even horny hell me rpornfree helped addiction alot may work people theyre small super supportive community helped reach  days pornfree another thing helps setting counter amount days pornfree all stopping porn possible hella difficult might believe im saying but hope try nip porn butt kick balls shove empire state building tldr porn bad lol,0
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thank youi contemplating it seriously enough ive thinking it read subreddit see people problems fuck werent nothing grounds suicidal real reason fucking people gone hell back someone subreddit got raped front girlfriend made realise ive gone something like that im sticking through,1
ending life easy found perfect method coward throwaway account obvious reasons  found it perfect painless way die want much ive terrible childhood still living abusive parents gay male  years old people around always told go hell never considered christian years brainwashing manipulation partly also not good school nuns know scared really eternal suffering death waiting me scared dying itself big deal already almost died hospital bed once know feeling thing stopping hope hope would get better patience run out want hope want live never lonely britney said my loneliness killing meeeeee,1
wanna speak aboot stuff discussing anything dont care what dm dm idk,0
excessive risk takingi typical unhealthy habits drinkingsmoking im prone excessive risk taking redflag conscious deliberate active choice theres risk me risky situations present us have act often make decision very fast intuitive level high risk situations very nice distracting nearly uplifting effect maybe theres short term gain eg sex seems difficult tackle this ideas,1
numb pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely verse  tried learn love myself cause people arent always real put face pretend maybe friend worst part always believe get hurt need abandon see im left sad lonely think point wouldve learnt believe say need chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant verse  ok thing fault dont try hard enough give pain wonder im damn hurt cause got nothing numb pain thats ok suffer like matters want change cant life unfair got say fuck world pain chorus nothing numb pain hurts everyday wish could happy lonely postchorus wish happy tired lonely im loner meant,0
solemnly sweari solemnly swear although soon take life redflag nobody disuade otherwise kill otherwise hurt human plant animal take action upon only way punish myself living being help god,1
atone sinsi hate every every every single fucking human earth made way fucking fault fuck assholes,1
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bunch loud bangs outside house past  minutes hearing loud bangs sound like gunshots close house whenever think stopped come back love living murica,0
hate brotheri hate brother much im thinking killing myself theres food house made some hate much want eat anything made ive eating deal depression suicidal thoughts money food eat im thinking killing myself much hate heart family wtf wrong,1
think ive decided itive going another bad patch dont know keep going main reason far cant figure without fucking someone else process inevitably someones got find want way thatll quick traumatise someone else think ive figured out least way parents wont know meant deal afterwards another week till can still feel shitty beyond belief least nearly over,1
wish luck guys imma tell crush like monday thats it ulterior motives whatsoever,0
dealing false rape allegations  year old girl probably get lost new go basically titleso m dealing false rape allegations girl contexta family friend invited us cousin m ill call sfamily barbecue family friends daughter f ill call b invited friend f ill call p fun fought pillows listened trap music ect ect exchange word p happened early august fast forward beggining december p told b shell tell mom raped her hit her went police cops told cant anything good thought over nope next victim told mom stuff going police hopefully nothing happen even talk also cut hand wrote hand knife likes s tldrthe title,0
@brianDhawkins not gonna happen wife won't have a jungle out there she is afraid of snakes ,0
"@merrymorgantown not really. [hopefully] arrive on the 3rd [or 10th :/ ] paris on the 22nd for a week, then back until august 20th! ",0
my birthday today feel so old,0
@SusanCha Hehehe I love you too ,0
want kill dont ive struggling lot past year ive bullied weight parents would sometimes add that started self harming which immediately regretted mum found out havent therapist cause didnt want school find out started feeling better  quarantine got hole again want kill im going cause selfish people love life ahead me pain feel eating inside nobody understands dont want call redflag prevention hotlines speak someone something im going get over thoughts back head thats bugging me im like funny people super sad lol know im going fine,1
Such a perfect time for depression,1
interesting rant ok make clear im homophobic anything like rant pride month veteran week vote listen rant fuck veteren get  week aprecation make feel nice shit like that gay people get whole fucking month make feel special sexuaility wouldnt happening veteren fight wars keep country safe rights gay fact everyday respect  do call stone cold killer killing people life line could die blink eye benefit gay people nothing sure guy fought rights cool veteren fought country ensures right gay rant rant apply canada usa countries kill gay,0
anyone talk withis anyone talkvent to feel really right need someone talk,1
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dae wish could actually get encouragement commit redflag instead bullshit mental health advicebecause honestly im fucking sick able talk freely methods ways acceptance sometimes truly solution know cases is recently rewatched short documentary young woman belgium applied assisted redflag due mental illness probably lot heard seen it youtube search  ready die felt jealousy live belgium diy painful way amount positivity change mind kill myself im still scared though really want someone encourage it understand bad die special little snowflakes worthy life life live want it idk might get trouble posting whatever,1
ha got combined ear and toothache and want to rip her face off stamp foot,0
FINALLY won a game of Settlers Of Catan. Also booked restaurant for birthday dinner. Life is good ,0
Ooooo... what a change! ,0
suffered depression since teen years past absolutely isolated abused drugs alcohol complete  live pretty happy sober unmedicated healthy lifestyle year lot going recently felt getting various things feel super overwhelmed cannot stop crying found turning alcohol wanting shut quickly caught decided speak openly family feeling sister told big deal uncle told top explained hurtful fiance told right week frustrated angry too feel awful even tried reach feel numb pretty resentful also feel kind stupid  tried reach family shut  wish said anything,1
females late teen mark  need help context m autistic social understanding recognising someones emotions based facial expression voice alone hard me want ask like someone do either get attention something try hide feelings fail miserably dont suspect girl know likes way like case thing yknow,0
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monster sweeping garage accidentally destroyed two spiderwebs one little baby spider one dad it think mom died saw dead spider web walli partially destroyed spiders homeam monster,0
"@pameladetlor I kind of want one, but I have no idea what I'd get, and I have a strong no-pain policy about life. ",0
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@daisyrjordan  i saw that video your mum put up of you singing the climb. very good  nice voice   Do you like Miley Cyrus?   Xx,0
monkey koala im sorrythis might goodbye reason live enough money rent let alone medical bills im starting believe im cut dream career want believe lost love life read messagesletter friday night first time feels like im wearing promise ring dead man feel sick cant eat cant sleep trust me ive tried ive wearing shirt feel encompassing me want parents know happened year rather pleasant last memory me want see either ill write letter mail them tell starcrossed lovers story know best understand news interfere parents ive tried come countless scenarios extended silences trying believe good koala hurt me even though ive hurt ways one couldve imagined koala great person model human future children koala possibly discovering hidden gems delicious foods hometown without me koala classes focus anyway needs save money began question beliefs said continue see her notice two rocks photo sent me go her please take aroma via cibo mahas dying wish wanted call last night could hear two things you  love  chapter over reason want live fall back asleep last night waking within  hours falling asleep puked last night puked morning bed bathroom sink realized more yellow vile liquid stomach empty without side want run away life you person asked marry you albeit lightheartedly person cared loved intensely maybe start new life nomad money life ends result early nothing look forward to imagined future future supported rough times knew even dream career attainable would support plan b c way z met freight member hd walk away let peoples thoughts cloud own have know way know you love you ill wear rings always shirt wore first date seems fitting end full circle love last breath well recreate moment met heaven ill waiting goodbye,1
like memes happy guy last post making comment section controversial tries prove point cant like memes happy,0
point going forever aloneim haunted times life bearable family died young given life gets worse age forever alone ive become isolated old friends theyve progressed formed families own im trolley pushing forever alone  year old constantly thinks redflag hope future ive become bitter hateful circumstances id rather put misery go living shitty life despising it pray get courage end soon,1
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guess im going give another chancei found rudimentals song free ago listening sorta realized might person always wanted bestinsomething person always freedom choose path,1
@gregzimmerman @PerryNunley  thank you!!!!!!  #hhrs,0
reason left livei run reasons continue live completely numb life everything around me pray death every night know everyday wake another day pain,1
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rock bottomthis may long understand want read im m rental manager toyota drive acura tl amenities could ever want make good money love job one semester away receiving associates computer information systems live nice place lot acquaintances aside main job also club dj side im going mention dj dealership work for sake people coming actually know meall say live north central massachusetts ive suffered depression many years count come realization reason gone relationship relationship looking happiness parents divorced period mentally conscious enough know whats going time impressionable now found many great relationships everything going perfecti find way fuck up go looking trouble start arguments cheated seen people behind backsi hated knew going become second half relationship said done im alone again sit cry regret avoided relationships sole reasonthen one day met her fell love talkingdating awhile knew one planned remember rest life asking birthday march a choice regret birthday july  everyone supposed celebrating ill weeping march   marked official start relationship things great ended back old ways cheated her never forgave me expect too september year ended me cheated back july which regret every single day life ive gone pain ive lived car dealed drugs pay rent slept floors parking lots ive much want tell anyone fell family thankfully im back lives now  lost met changed remember honestly ever really happy her im talking about oh wake stressed bills still put smile happy talking about romantic novel notebook movie unicorns shitting rainbows type happy believe it gone memories happiness replaying over professional life ever decreasing work performance toyota dwindling im late work everyday simply engaged there cut djing nonexistence  maybe  gigs month loving itnot barely  hate it hate booth seeing couples floor good time show good time torn inside ive neglecting car falling behind maintenance even cleaning it grades gone draini passed  assignments per class semester deans list  gpa last semester nowi academic standing health falling too lot cocaine drinking nonstopi drinking every single night since left september discover amex  mcvs cards running fuel selfdestruction ive hit rock bottom reddit first guys hear this best friend know itat least best guy friend became real best friend started datingevery second magic went making fun romantic comedies chick flicks living one believe amazing felti found tonight hoping never find out exclusively talking new guywithin month one good female friends whos always tried looking her broke news tonight lot connections lot underground people asked picking gun really much thought would be acted many times would it would leave short voicemail brief point would park car driveway would blow brains out information come light inclined follow through honestly sick waking hangovers waking exhausted groggy going bed night tears waking tears time let go come close faking smile im drunk want driveway let know driven to im scared it hurt long take bullet cease bodily functions whats afterlife like know do,1
death sounds pretty good right nowive hit really low part life probably lowest ive ever been recently moved utah california huge change left behind friends ive ever lifestyle im used living mother dragged middle school year really bad since curriculum new understand works school system different nerve racking me hardly talk people due anxiety ive always strong disliking mom realize hatred basically life used religion abuse me stop acting like faggot i call faggot im parent since parent obey me she actually said that dad likes slap punch tell mom stop acting like jerk im sorry confusing mind lost right now really thing thats pushed edge is mother arranged go back utah week since spring break see friends hang them well yesterday mom left sister home alone sister complaining mother day wanting go swimming however mother would let her mom left told sister could go swimming twenty minutes chores agreed hopped pool well mom came back pick something saw us pool started screaming yelling knew sister chores getting pool huge health risk now that going take back utah see friends now destroys trying keep sister mom happy ugh know im tired upset everything death seems like easy way pain,1
want anyone try help want diei want die people give shit would not fuckin life one decides die,1
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last night dealt crazy shit getting downvoted here wtfop httpwwwredditcomrredflagwatchcommentsyqbrthe_redflag_hotline_just_hung_up_on_me last night quickly asked leave er even though trying selfcommit found catholic hospital mentioned certain priest asked another group legal advice searched history getting grief here wtf redflag prevention not,1
dad got figured guyslmao think this apparently want play victim doesnt know half shit im dealing myself fuck right off oh daughter hinting depressed lol get hobby again oh kid literally crying next family member talking shit god sensitive imma laugh it fuck hate goddamm much,1
friend told want live anymore go support best waycross posting relevant subreddits really need advice here apologies advance grammar mistakes long im mobile typing bed still fresh mind also happy new year tldr among another stressful life events friends mum recently diagnosed potentially fatal cancer friend coping tonight broke openly talked wanting die also talked would it scared friend need advice next steps would appreciate support this live northern ireland uk background friend relevant this relationship brother like sister me mum recently diagnosed stage  pancreatic cancer far know spread systems receiving chemo present waiting find effective chemo determine whether may candidate life threatening surgery remove much cancer possible going little info doctors said prognosis going great looking months years lucky perhaps months weeks not mum may day operation table soon due high risk complications surgery small new years eve get together friend hosting suddenly got absent quite time went check found boyfriendmy brother upset sobbingstruggling breathe asked wrong said several times wanted die wanted kill herself want planet anymore newly qualified nurse heard friend talk killing which never heard say before naturally tried active listener ask getting making want die etc also ask intentions harming moment later on asked made sort plans would try felt like it told would slit wrists knife soon mum dead reason exist anymore that listened her hugged didnt try fight suicidal thoughts judgemental made sure heard told loved much many people life would devastated anymore mentioned things too feeling pressure multiple places people work friendship issues feeling lack family support mentioned perhaps reach hr job let know coping perhaps granted leave absence mental health reasons broached issue seeking professional mental health support health service clearly struggling cope says already sort  month waiting list im living northern ireland mental health services notoriously difficult seen even crisis suicidal suggested opening counsellor talk doctor depressive feelings hopes medical professional may signpost real help perhaps try medications might help type open medical staff past seen counsellors anxiety honest initial session pretended problem return second going cycles normal apologising getting upset could barely breathe talking wanting die again eventually went sleep im lying knowing knowing something seriously wrong friend needs help reddit broach subject tomorrow sober wait talk me go get real genuine mental health support friendlive northern ireland uk  get family members involved try get friends reach let know loved let friend feel safe enough open tell needs me nurse would feel icky sharing details people medical professionals able help honest feel torn respecting friends wishes remain silent vocal others may able help know something needs done asap see friend drowning front eyes see needs help im scared lose someday soon,1
please help someone stole like  bucks pokemon wednesday i small time martial arts studiotrading w frien ly realised got back sounded pretty said realized told one instructors happened reason told memories elementary school friends avoid looking petty,0
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Depression works very much like this.*minor inconvenience/stressful situation happens*My brain: *banging pots together* DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH DEATH!,1
think hold longeri feel horrible head hurts heart feels heavy little hard breathe cant think focus all everything foggy like head full invisible thoughts feel lonely alone feels like noone me used to cant depend longer really enough shoulders hurts receive things gave keep asking need want obvious want talk me even feel like it thats did literally told you like noone understands me feel misunderstood disrespected noone bothers message ask im feeling even said knew feel like crap hurts theyre ignoring me even get mad addressed issue emotions feel like driving frozen hill using summer tires actual health sinking like old broken ship grades terrible too funny used top student ive never beach ive never another country even visit capital country achieve much inspire anyone live start something truly awesome thats okay lived long enough emotions finally letting die sudden fake overconfidence happiness never happy extroverted feelings feel truly fake things want address  mother never hated you always loved you really hate actions towards me im sorry im way never asked asexual dumb burden im sorry tore dreams apart like hungry wolf searching food im sorry could never someone proud of  friend really enjoyed playing minecraft together hope like cathedral built friends wanted see  update axolotls stuff think happen maymays really cool too keep going  friend im really glad life ill never forget philosophical political discussions even though opinions different still respected eachother ps trash assassin go back support  beloved sunshine snow lungs below diamonds crown would never let drown keep promise made life harder stopped whining would never judge emotions judge hurt little fine really wish best find someone better someone whos pretty smart healthy selfless kind warm empathetic made life easier found happiness is calm peaceful extroverted loud uncontrollable im glad life really do really polar opposites  one classmates never knew feel way do hard it hard hide feelings hard stay awake night hard uncontrollable confidencehappiness episodes sorry let everyone down shall anymore,1
first cg animated film ive ever seen usually look animated films made reticent see them ice age wanted see moment saw trailer scrat hilarious sabertooth squirrelbr br ice age sporadically funny overall fun film watch story basically animated version three men baby set  years past visuals great simply beautiful one thing create convincing aninmation another thing altogether create visually arresting stuff ice age great look stylized visuals blue sky studios company look future,0
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upset memy mom got upset said i hope die sleep said something like dont say something like that used far vocal still always want die said got shocked,1
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excludedi love family dont feel excluded home school everyone battling become famous friendship there feel like dont belong dont like people talk upon others wrong dont like people act friendly arent wrong dont want spend time would ruin social status respect wish respected well fellow human being dont like hanging parties spending time big groups want get know person spend time with them maybe thats weird love people much every evening wish could selfishly die dont live pain loneliness depression have good eveningday dont know time zone ,1
please tell me if this isn t the sub for this i ve been preparing an exam for a couple of month but everytime i try to revise it s like everything ive written down is wrong so i go over the material again and find bit that i didn t catch the first time and it s the same the next week it happens so much that i end up going over the same 0 page text like ten time even worse when i go to my note i don t get them i just recognize the word i m using when i find the passage in the source i took the note from i m really tired and almost feel like i have some kind of brain problem i assure you i m not a perfectionist i d be completely happy knowing only just enough to pas but it seems like i never even get the basic right i m assuming it s some sort of anxiety because it can t be explained by being a slow learner i ve been pretty constant with my study schedule just not assimilating anything i don t have any diagnosed learning disability i ve been to a psychologist a couple of year ago and she said so when i asked her so it can t be that either ha anybody got a similar experience did you manage to get through it i d appreciate any help,1
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end clear murderers planted murder weapon mrs columbos car police ballistics lab br br but gun hood used demonstration come from murderers cleared stuff hood whole week columbos cops replicate cameragun hood used demonstration without breaking entering car perhaps murders seemed surprised end could columbo replicated cameragun device gotten calibrated key fob columbo must gotten gun back ballistics replanted hood car lucky rest device camera still transmittingbr br this  show glaring plot error end,0
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betterhelp cost much something im sure work ill try guyshey ill honest you know work help me im quite desperate something feel better goes little piece story begin with story two sides it family friends quite happy years back maybe around ish began change essentially continued rejection street girls kind rejection bar try get lucky kind friends build long relationship with say least longer idea boyfriendgirlfriend relationship work longer see self capable that still think feelings workpartner know go down already good sense see way cant bring accept that im also virgin however personally mind feel like long physical connection compassion sex feel like saying virgin call physical affection sex i course say friends girls think enough get started family part  years ago parents got divorced common story personally take bad saw coming time happend got prepared it however every one else took way worse me might felt quite bad before tip scales much everyone else though trying help everyone else felt like shit myself become quite apathetic family it resently father tried commit redflag often thought taking life comes goes times gets bad thinking everyday times think months one things always sure never did aside cowardly kill myself thought family friends would react often told one would care know deep might tip father past egde already tried once im even sure mightve right still hate try keep family together cut contact thats good start family side im sure thats enough dig to please ask away im open book helps wrote needing pay guys,1
feel sickto get bit understanding read this httpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsplketgay_teen_in_need_help fast forward months life back normal except feel sick in physically sort way ever since  felt pretty intense self loathing want turn to feel sick hey reddit cookies whoever make happy while,1
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hurricane coming live louisiana us things called hurricanes wheres like huge storm like th one past year usually get one two  awesome anyway hits friday night last hurricane took neighbors roof unpacked roads wish luck update every,0
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best movie ive ever seen bulimia hit exact spot bulimia really always skinny dieting showed people bulimia tend think things outlook life friends themselves best line part really shows problem bulimia is beth saysits you line really showed lot character others problem showed people bulimia problem anything anyone else only shows time talk person problem instead putting attention themselves showed beth needed call attention moment needed moms attention time most,0
generally speaking plot much better expecting laugh track bit annoying times tend get way however enough real chuckles episode make it biggest surprise finding best lines situations shown trailers spade particular presented best light earlier promotions character comes across quite well pilot enough eyecandy please almost anyone regular characters seem task ahead them now writers live begun,0
personal feeling cannot divorce movie politicalhistorical underpinnings like many american reviewers tend do growing main street usa growing yugoslavia time torn east west like guys torn esther everybody else esther torn tovarish joe guys shame certain situations lost audience never lived tito feel movie underrated bad lost director movies like make freedom feel important another eastern european coming age filmit sensitive portrayal teenagers walking fine line might eventually lead real freedom,0
finally gut courage write hereim anorexic ive anorexic almost decade got better lost many friends destructive souleating disease one day managed somehow get start taking care myself started dating awesome girl really fell love head heels relapsed want vent even writing met lied hurts much confused eating disorder coming back hard fast handle it asked reddit back  the reason even started accounthttpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentsxweeim_a_male_anorexic_and_have_been_keeping_it_a  end chose cowards way tell her left her told feelings anymore want see again tried overdose night failed woke next day covered vomit took soo long much courage attempt one time disappointed woke again afraid try again ive come close im still trying work courage final redflag attempt kill me eating disorder sooner later weight lower whole life ive admitted involuntary hospitals higher weights weight now told seen anybody weeks now im waiting over miss every day ive broken possible contact anyone related her hope never find happened know finds blame want that suffered much already cant cant let happen never dated first place fear might find redflag eating disorder thing actually motivated eat something time time im sick now want over energy almost non existant already make  breaks writing get dizzy sit long bones hurt time now two days ive really sharp pains chest eaten  days straight want fucking over im much coward shoot myself eating disorder kill anytime soon want take pills actually fits decade ive told only girls get eating disorders men get eating disorders cant even get together shoot like should wish would done long time ago even still hope heart stops beating get courage take pills really hope sharp pain chest heart be ive problems heart before pray god finally giving up know im coward hoping that really cant take anymore im gonna die coward gonna come surprise anyone anyway edit sorry felt really dizzy take nap im going answer now promised,1
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alone depressed want drag people shit catch drift literally make friends become far emotionally dependent me highly toxic emotionally imbalanced relationship want another person simply satisfy ego would make even depressed quite frankly far happier alone reason quit pressuring make friends fucks sake depressed alone,1
hiim damn depressed know im overreacting im probaly lazy im th grade wanna kill myself everyday nonstop cycle work relax work relax every fucking day wake work go home thats it im miserable everyrtime think times could friends family cry cry sleep bored shit class dumb ass work literally use rest lives unpleasant cold room full bunch idiots so redditors reddies would kill myself,1
remember covid first started went outside felt like supposed nuclear fallout shit lmao like everything completely normal nobody cares anymore,0
im tired fighting this want over peace finally find meeveryday fight im tired fighting it want something help me someone hear me small sliver happiness every time nearly manage get one universe beats back miserable dark place beats harder attempt cant keep fighting this fighting alone treated like leper black sheep whenever try teach someone anyone im tired constantly repeating myself reaching out trying find happiness one listens one cares im tired insurmountable guilt feel every day breathing strength mother children need wife husband deserves killed daily guilt knowing much pain theyd id left energy fight anymore cant live guilt knowing id them im tired want fight anymore,1
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goodbye guys im killing myselfmy story weird wanted say lied abt  thing story  thing age im  ,1
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think im gonna itim actually sick it cant anything right want end sorry dad wasting time money sorry mom ruining life im gonna end soon dad even thinks wont it goodbye everyone,1
heromancer come back to orlando again sooon i couldn t make it to the show sadly,0
nobody really caressad true least me im done,1
idkmy mum said itd peaceful killed want die im scared dont know id im scared death would like dont know dont want want parents get wish regret,1
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hi i hope you re alright erm i dont have anyone to talk to about my problem so that is what mainly lead me here i have been experiencing a very confusing and frustrating situation the past year well technically year i m 0 yr old so through hundred of small bit of information and realisation from family member teacher friend colleague and self reflection i have realised that i have some sort of mental disability my parent and family have tried to hide it from me my whole life but since about year old i have always known i wa different to other people but i just assumed it wa my personality i have suffered from anxiety my whole life and severe anxiety and depression since year old which no one know about not even my parent i have always wondered to myself why i wa so different to other people but i guess i never really thought that deep into it untill recently i went through an awful lot at the age i wa suicidal i used to self harm bad ptsd i d say i went crazy i wa just lost and confused so i guess you could say i experienced a life time in year so i defintely learnt alot and i came out a completley changed person for the best not worst which i am only seeing now i learnt to appreciate life family friend mental health and relationship while you have them i have always struggled to make friend i have been bullied on and off in school and i struggle to keep my existing friendship i struggle to talk to people i also had to go to speech therapy session and haven hand writing session outside of school everyone say im quiet which i am but i wish i wasn t i have so much i want to say and express i just really struggle doing it so so i dont get embarrassed i tend not to talk too much the past year i have realised that i have some sort of mental disability which ha been quite alot for me to take on especially on my own through alot of small thing like when my college teacher refused to tick the box on a form which stated i had no learning difficulty for 9 month staright well dom how about this let leave the box unticked for now and if at a later date you decide to open up about it we will tick it making feel like a fucking mental patient so i told my cousin about this and his response wa wait your parent haven t told you so i left his house immeditetly started driving home and broke down cry i eventually got the gut to ask my parent but their answer wa we got you tested when you were a kid but the doctor said it wa unconclusive then i told my friend about all of this and they all agreed that they think i have a disability s like aspergers autism adhd ocd which shocked me even more so then i started looking back through my life and alot started to fall together and make sense which wa extremely emotional for me then i found out that my uncle and cousin on my dad side have aspergers and that auntie amp cousin have aspergers and auntie ha dylexia on my mum side my mum and dad definitly have something too but no one will tell me this then made me realise that i am an extreme cocktail of this i have struggled my whole life but assumed it wa just me but the thing is i still dont know what i have and it making go crazy my family are hiding it from me i think i have aspergers but then again it could be adhd dylslexia something else autism i dont fucking know and i have no support off anyone i have no one to talk to and im going insane ive been feeling so lonely for year i really need a councincillor im ashamed and afraid to tell my parent about my depression anxiety and everything because i dont want them to start worrying about me it also alot for me to admit it not that easy for me i dont want my whole family knowing too so everything is locked up inside me then it come out in weekly or monthly burst where i just break down i am writing this at that time what would you recommend i do about this do you have any advice i would really appreciate it i would appreciate talking to anyone who want to share thing too thanks,1
diary isle today super market saw man standing front yogurt section talking someone phone get something next heard went down phone someone asking guy get foragers yogurt things right front him looks dead yogurt says phone person theyre here dont see them hung smirk face devious man,0
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want cut away society get away everyone delete ties history somewhere nobody knows am want run away foreverso sick tired expectations want time people roles,1
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lockdown highlighting everything wrong lifei able ignore going routine going work cooking dinner taking care dogs aa meetings whatever distraction phone provided work figured little working home wonder cut hours something dull job im overqualified for couple friends dated two three years think chance family passed by other much deeper issues im terrified virus going take away everyone love leave alive suffer it cant stop looking news think would destroy family ended tempting right now right things really go hell,1
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izzy artest miss you too it s been too long come back,0
supposed better thoughts ending life still plague everyday existence truly believe death would relieve many people burden immense potential pain stop imagining escape stop feeling way deal suicidal ideations,1
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add emoji end sentence becomes funny in sexual sort way today bored sent message wrong emoji end realised this did eat breakfast yet  try it ordinary sentence becomes funnier add emoji end lets good laugh,0
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well time now probably since early spring clue set off enjoying new job much new feeling took job january woke tired today day went on ability focus work maintain motivation get work day quickly deteriorated dinner plans eating managed protein bar lunch usual  normally hungry and depressed binge eat often boyfriend decided cook meal meant make us eat healthy dinner laid made bed get again things around house cannot bothered matter moment but time do redflag wasting time laying here cannot find good reason actually get up hour ago started crying feel heavy like lowgrade electricity skin uncomfortable idea feel sadbut know boyfriend otherwise ignoring night dinner help sure made food though also eat never checked me got mad asked for probably millionth time last  years touch stomach came say goodnight went bed like stomach touched explicitly clear relentlessly care boundaries called via asking thing doing curtly said goodnight left without giving kiss usually would done punishment guess often withholds various forms affection usual behavior him so surprised surprised never checked also selfish selfcentered likely narcissist talk many problems impact me behavior way treats done absolutely nothing improve overall mental health depressed long sure long after expecting help today anything really brought wanted mention still nevertheless feeling disappointed person care give care past would given positions reversed today knew would not still sucks not either way already sad know why help situationbackground depression problem life last  years off min mids now better not go long stretches almost months completely fine feeling curedand something set downward spiral usually quite slowly see coming getting better identifying symptoms starting onset start employ various countermeasures sometimes often really tough identify triggers come back depression bad insatiably hungry tired unfocused unmotivated sad crying off experience loss interest friendshobbiesfun loss sex drive cannot sleep sometimes accompanied redflag attacks onetime panic attack redflag new party last  years nearly much issue times sometimes depression sometimes own fortunately able force work never really impacted career cannot much else depressive episode last days months though awhile since weeks live boyfriend love despite narcissism he bad swear lot problems problem putting first andor selfish hes almost  lived together almost  years manageable cannot afford option anyway might helping depression purposely making worse lot better last several guys us employersupplied health insurance cover therapy cannot afford therapy outofpocket i researched extensively lethargic lowgrade redflag sad reason,1
ironywhen kid never really understood concept depression wanting commit redflag thought pretty stupid pointless thing do well guess fate decided make joke ive dealt past  years neverending thoughts redflag aspirations life talents motivation anything deadend job nightshift friends whatsoever social life live tiny town without career options even attempt improving situation ive attempted redflag times failed time thought mightve failed things could get better seem light end tunnel think im going kill time soon feel like eventually happen venting,1
almost committed facility tonight willi got home terrifying strange day intense panic attacks triggered confrontations others problem morning spiked worry obsession spiral im unfortunately growing know well went facility behavioral medicine looking web site thinking looked like promising place get direction counseling medication needed brought wife me went room asked lot pretty generic questions tried honest possible could get help would best me answered questions ways apparently red flags asked wished dead made comment feel way sometimes desire kill myself opinion life worst indifferent next asked front wife knew would kill myself started crying said care question kept asking ask wife leave asked clarification said if going kill today know would it cried bizarre hypothetical told thought car garage would easiest way asked so thats planned do said no asked would if would it apparently enough red flags start threatening hold me even go help suicidal thoughts made cry scared ive scared long time whole thing incredibly bizarre took recommendation doctor said panic attacks threat myself incredibly relieved somehow saw intent answers clearly despite interpretations anyways left abnormal amount questions people supposed get help genuinely scared hurting knowing honesty get locked up normal legal placed facility will importantly anxiety issues escalated abnormal level chest tight im afraid feel safe feel like chance keep ever return go help im risk myself really thought subreddit would knowledgeable,1
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caused someone commit redflag feel like shithi everyone im australia caused someones death never really liked person begin with acquaintances talked times every months circle friends met up plagiarised university attends person reported university show evidence dont ask got evidence did plagiarised multiple times done things caused take action really wish didnt days later found expelled university happy outcome although know consequence severe expected warning days come figured friends lashed me believe right anyway dont get anywhere life cheating  days found killed himself shell shocked devastated feeling extremely guilty every time think makes stomach feel sick devestated although never liked would never wanted kill himself friends said right thing death wasnt fault feel  fault words advice welcome feel less guilty great would also charged death one friends messaged said hes reporting police did,1
ha the biggest headache but a second job woo,0
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plan dont know im waiting forit sucks waiting around something dont know itll ever come around plan somewhat feasible imagine ever hit point needneed shouldnt issue hope future pulling back likemissing past miss was annoying loud zero self awareness cringe fuck least happy count finger notches many times ive spoken loud today looking old pictures struck circle dwindled little people people cared dumped maybe shitty friend tendencies reared ugly head ones smart enough get fuck away me want over dont want senior year dont want go university honestly want lie never get back up,1
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Me logging out of twitter because the timeline is full of politics instead of jokes about depression  pic.twitter.com/UPEP0v9FWA,1
im tryinghi im sorry writing bad headache feel dizzy today tried hang myself reason succeed method used research read lot going feel discomfort would also black  seconds anywhere traditional way get creative thats able get rope problem black out im sure many seconds rope felt like forever breathe trying everything get air feeling lot pressure face painful somehow strength brake free understand ended backing it sure ready know chose complaining pain ive depression anxiety since teen ten years since started keep making everything worse finally job moved parents job anymore lot things need pay depression anxiety got worse difficult go outside know im supposed do anyone talk else im supposed do reason moved parent wanted live own said difficult live someone else stopped talking everyone knew im lazy irresponsible liar cases would go bottom im probably thing hate most try right thing end making everything worse know do,1
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unhealthy obsession hank green hes smart knows much stuff literally intelligence ask for listen man talk world like whenever id never get tired,0
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catharsis you swing rtalkregularly maintaining emotionally extremely important one best ways talk others going through rredflagwatch last line defense get desperate often times people feel like open anyone regular basis want introduce rtalk goal catharsis aka releasing pressure built internally happens telling others going getting feedback topic personal upsetting bring rtalk consider swinging time time letting pressure itll world good,1
want kill myselfi think better said know life completely pointless bother,1
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absolutely notredflagly loved movie saw cant wait come dvd beautifully welldrawn masterpiece always amazed intricately drawn work ghibli studios br br others commented sosuke calling risa first name never calls father first name unless speaking someone else get impression risa mother never even mentioned implied anyone quite obvious stepmother makes promise come home gets upset finds empty car mother must died infant mentions nursed risa coupled father sea lot abandonment issues everyone also talks mature is usually occurs child loses parent,0
kk i know it sound weird and i can t quite explain it myself so i wa hanging out with a few friend yes i m surprised i have friend too and anyway they invited one of their friend who i didn t know so i started hanging out with this friend of theirs and i wa genuinely happy while hanging out with her i can t really describe it a anything other than i liked her i would ve tried something but i started thinking about how much of a shitty useless person i am even if i tried anything there s no chance that she d even want anything to do with me fuck i just needed to get that bullshit off my chest sorry for wasting your time people,1
question steal scene expert expert scene stealers walther mathau full furious brilliant grumpy old man mode answer quietly deadpan perfect timing george burns herebr br i know nothing vaudeville remains favourite film two leads hilarious script funny direction pacing fine richard benjamin funny straight man  trying get burns window etc even small parts greatbr br there many funny scenes mathau messing commercial burns repeating answers senilebr br a delightbr br enterrrrrr,0
im tired want restive depressed since age ten started parents divorce watched father leave went onto middle school bullied three years day day escape sight friends make feel accepted constant abuse suicidal thoughts would start mother moved three brothers back orlando abusive step father wrecking ball family causing pain domestic abuse ive write two police reports actions eventually completely pushed lives went on oldest three brothers single mother household responsibility meant always locked home never close friends know like form close relationship anybody ive always friends throughout high school fact id say always well known liked craved childhood best friend person go with talk anything generally time life with wed eventually move texas man mother seven years steve current step father whilst ive constantly barraged them theyve become bullies im dissapointment son bitch motherfucker bitch dumbass retard devil im atheist mother blames bad things happens single phrase said ounce sarcasm would hear casual friends mean every single time would beat myself literally punching head things went fuzzy got multiple relationships texas try supplement desire loved getting home one happened guy consider bi experience one would scar home life mother saw another reason dissapointment coming senior year heavily restricted when could go friends chose stayed locked home like always been mother would continue treat like shit whilst also coming emotional support stepfather fought eventually met girl made feel wanted finally felt happy even things always great feeling longed for felt loved parents extremely restrictions would damage relationship mother takes large portion pay checks expenditures theyd ground going home simply mistakes forgot lock front door become dictator life source depression girl loved perfect life clinical depression would leave blamed making depression worse depression eating away apparently making worse point hope things would get better ive lived eight years waiting things get better theyve gotten worse suicidal thoughts become much intense fantasize putting gun head driving car id get graduation tree jumping bleachers christian school behind house wake feeling empty go day sad breakdown night repeat urge beat back cut first time two weeks ago since closest thing ever best friend mind went back her trying get help get anybody else would turn away telling find someone else told sorry life basically shit care confessed wanted life end never responded completely abandoning begged help im bad child ive never done drugs never drinked never smoked hang everyone narcissistic football players humble scholars vice versa ive got  college payments unt paid without dime pocket goal become police officer grow up nobody knows suffering feel ex girl loved one left shitty life ideal boyfriend mind ive beaten bruised abandoned want die ive carrying weight shoulder eight years im tired cant hold anymore want kill myself willpower to continue grudgingly going life wish someone would kill spare pain cant myself ive moved around thirteen times life know like someone close me sort childhood best friend ill never know thats like lost one person thought with know reason im depressed im longing desire wanted accepted loved moment life gone person willing help continue on im losing hope things get better im waiting life end,1
@imogenheap Rosin!!  Yes.  I hadn't thought of that. Maybe I need to use that every day so I won't be such a butter fingers.   Thanks.,0
feel cold hollow insideive never written anything like before everyone know getting married long term relationships cant seem even garner interest thought never anyone puts deepest darkest depression want beautiful woman feel like utter failure im friend intimacy feel like im always awkward embarressing want end waste life really want die ill struggle along really want stop know im typing this get chest perhaps whatever,1
added bunch security url specific scenarios comfortable keeping things reddit put lot information roperationsafeescape either way feel computers monitored check secure url guide also were hosting first url october weve also busy building partnerships security sector allow us bring even resources audience serve,1
missin my son he went home with my monster in law last night i can t wait to get him back this afternoon after work,0
argument mom feeling super good me m today lunch mom said french fries argued  mins sick let fries the frozen ones get walmart fries argument mom,0
naughtyhaughty i had on my page for sooooo long until it got deleted sad day in history,0
based fact story teenager named homer hickam jake gyllenhaal growing coal town west virginia boys usual destiny end mines homer eye sky love flying rockets dismay mineforeman father consternation townsfolk generally misfit sure three equally outcast buddies begin making rockets fly patch barren land eight miles town longer terrorize community ofttimes errant rockets unfortunately town especially homers father chris cooper thinks wasting time however people become intrigued soon start coming droves watch rocketboys send homemade missiles one teacher laura dern high school understands efforts lets know could become contenders national science fair college scholarships prize gang must learn perfect craft overcome many problems facing shoot stars director joe johnston always famous name movies jumanji  jurassic park   october sky surely stands films without doubts october sky best effort  obviously best film true story filmed extremely well even movie every single thing required top level cinema along johnstons extraordinary direction exceptional performances jake gyllenhaal around  movie released  gives beautiful  natural performance perfect actor chris cooper father also gives fine performance goes laura dern  also looks beautiful even rest performances extremely well background score fine highly inspiring movie lifts spirit sky high one movies definitely inspires life amazing inspiring movie along loads entertainment missed,0
dear rredflagwatch christmas card yousuggested repost rreddit ten years ago almost almost killed girl broke me stood bucket rope around neck chickened out stepped down pathetically wept sleep slip step away dying tonight finished baking pumpkin cheese cake beautiful wife sitting couch wrapped fleece blanket watching christmas story five month old daughter lily asleep crib little red reindeer foot pajamas say babys first christmas tomorrow well wake house own ill cook breakfast well celebrate first christmas together family im newer reddit new internet message boards anonymous friends give us somewhere laugh vent cry scream theyve got really dark times wanted take minutes go bed thank you merry christmas faceless friends hard time gets better love yall valjean,1
redflag live streamyeah announced social media might try live stream next redflag attempt big fight people think suicidal thoughts real much coward really commit redflag so many reasons reasons paranoid schizophrenia childhood trauma loneliness sexual abuse assault child abuse hopelessness stupidityampimpatience,1
"playing with Mr. Higgins, wishing I had my own Yorkie ",0
@writethevision Hey Adrienne! I hope u &amp; ur sis had quality time yesterday. Reading my *signed* copy of &quot;Breakthrough&quot; asap! ,0
destroying every last photo depicts itsorry event anyone wanted save bullshit memories youre late would also make disappear,1
dont mind putting together free hugs stand ill let ya know done also comes free chocolate milk,0
dude month since broke still miss dont know wtf do gave much emotional damage miss toxicity bad fucj fuck fuck fuck,0
girlfriend abused cannot comfort right months still spent time together literally anything birthday ask actually ask ok admitted forgets cannot vent gets overwhelmed dealing much shit feel like one vent to therapist said something really hurt therapy makes feel pained maybe reason need vent people feel validated shit felt like trauma never validated child alone one worst things mei wish someone hold me kiss scars tell protect like one child make enough scars people womt able ignore thinking offing know would tear friends family logically  brain stop feeding thoughts worthless alone am recovery hard one sees read this thank giving shit minute feel free put mind forever knowing life would affected recovery hard one sees you,1
faultlong post here feeling lot emotions past months one really talk with ill post see happens ive married almost  years february  wife got married  years dating legal issues rush marriage matter days lawyers advice talked marriage bit before expecting make decision way fast forward around september  living together feeling happy feel like girl fell love changed marriage also things learned marriage know before fought lot clear different try talking times reaction always felt complaining her stopped point back september  met woman religious community  years older at time   married  kids worked together volunteer initiative community quickly became close month met routine texting every day almost day long fell head heels her made feel special like one ever before made feel like someone truly cared me really friends friend would tell things like would together next life met late life said husband together would together nothing wanted her certain would happy still feel way would share everything other time hiding conversations spouses never physical relationship never wanted that partly married partly emotional connection me continued year around september  told pregnant able talk like usual since husband would often she housewife husband would stay home often hurt lot  months okay work project kept mind november project over started thinking her ever since ive severely depressed reach her ask talk get treated almost stranger friends always tells time since busy always family always trusted her believe lying kills someone close made feel special could leave alone like pretty much been ive thinking redflag feel happy wife feel like friends feel like source depression something tell anyone know know situation get better think work family none enough make stop thinking ending all expect sympathy anyone know wrong feel whatever happening completely deserved bad person im reaping sow im simply sharing anyone else share with want happy,1
i have to attend this place once every week and while i m there my mouth constantly generates saliva due to me being nervous this then lead to constant swallowing and i m a little worried people might start to notice is there any way around this any advice is greatly appreciated,1
playing animal crossing am watering plants,0
social interactionthose days upvotes random strangers reddit attention get,1
tell someone want dieive suicidal thoughts pretty much everyday past  years somehow im still mostly cant boyfriend love much dont know tell im extremely suicidal person breaks least week wishing could take miracle death pill weve dating  years knows depression dont think knows bad is feel like cant tell bc die blame knowing cant burden another person anyone relate here dont need convincing stay alive bc im afraid end rn need advice this,1
guys send horny jail pls dont want horny anymore want happy,0
weak fast multicolorthis valvolines movie fact see always brand oil lot scene real protagonist carsweak performances cage duvall intresting angelina jolie unlikely mechanic lovers dream carlamborghini ferrari all,0
hi i suffer from mild anxiety not many physical symptom anybody ha tip to deal with anxiety that aren t in the stay positive realm usually the help i find online is about staying positive however that is not my mindset i think life is not meant to be positive always and i genuinely believe it s bad for mental health to try and see the bright side of any situation negative feeling are just meant to be lived thru at the same time i know my brain lie to me about people disliking me about sounding like a fool about my future the most tricky part is that i also can t stop thinking about the truly awful stuff mostly about the world being a terrible place the stay positive people can not tell me the bright side of my shoe being made thru human exploitation in a remote country you know how can i be happy knowing there s all this pain in the world,1
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i don t know how to get better i m gon na pursue help because of someone really important to me i feel like i ve been bad to them or just that they deserve better and sometimes i just don t know how to try hard enough or feel something sometimes and it kill me inside i m worried the people i go to for help professional won t understand me or won t be able to help me i just wan na get better for this person so i can always have a clear head and understand what s going on and try my best for them all i wan na tell them is i m sorry i m sorry,1
want die peacefullylife senseless nothing life worth living for weird confusing dream point it life good guess get good grades roof house loving family thing sucks life im it put torturing world energy anything fixing life itd much easier die see therapist  months parents made stop seeing get evaluation hospital perhaps stay week so truly even help even point strength cope feelings itd easier let eat up death would ideal everyone knows me cant die certain people would get hurt lot im cutting compensate desire kill myself death would ideal solution really,1
feel wayi aspersions family im well off im healthy decent job feel like hopeless terribly sad contemplate redflag weekly living hurt much,1
@nannyf my pleasure Fi ,0
mess words flirting irl kinda sucks innit words slip mouth brain chance process it,0
dear fbdimms please give me my gb of memory back i used to have running 90 full crippled pc,0
i don t wan na go to work i wan na go to bed,0
people still getting rejected crushes seriously soda drink it,0
technofailsanyone else feel like technology failures play huge part suicidality sometimes me computer freezes phone kicks website takes sad weepy semifunctional flopped bed sobbing unable get up feel like makers technology realized trigger be maybe theyd make suck less,1
@JohnnyBardine Salinger needs to take a deep breathe and realize fanfiction is a fact of life  I know. Trust me ;),0
going die anywayi feel numb ive always depressed casually suicidal im numb nothing feels right ive thinking killing again got thinking even happy killing speed whats coming would want things get better going make much painful hurt people pass naturally truly understand people try convince strangers live reason anymore understand wanting lose loved one extent even seems pointless bit selfish know whats going me feel like im basically waiting day stop fearing death point way end things terms,1
many rich people florida hate military heard trump son trump jr made fun veterans many rich people florida make fun military people opposed war iraq believe people like deserve wealth power,0
love life left im emotional ruins right nowso heres storyits long one years ago met girl video game yes video game pleasure talk conversations quickly went video game talk personal talk next thing know added facebook exchanged numbers taking place last  years high school somewhat young  years since then anyways never interest romantically back would occasions would drop grid months time okay that lives half way across country life live i  one day get text blue her high school get talking like old days admits feelings towards admit her things went  real quick talking finally meeting real life plans future well times needed time herself straight admitted handle long distance relationship would get lonely always waited come back feeling back head would back always was months ago came back nonexistent months said sorry distant things went right back been everything perfect practically counting days could finally meet her date set said wanted run away me excited nervous finally meet her well things went south blue told living guy dating never ended like this know pathetic strong feelings girl ive never met honest one friends years fact ive technically physically alone  going  years leave like that kills me kills know wasted many years hoping fantasy would finally come true kills know never cared me temporary fix loneliness found someone real life promises made meant nothingi feel betrayed humiliated go here move on ive thought making tinder something hate rejected im interested casual dating want something serious want know someone actually cares me feel empty insideive turned alcohol sleeping pills save me sleeping pills worthless alcohol much make daily habit want die really see reason keep going first time life courage end all help me ,1
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want soggy dq fries also im  days sh free sitting staring arm thinking tomorrow ill  week clean thought dq fries want now christmas kinda someone could maybe slide dq gift card id trade mcdonalds gift card s also think imma try quit cutting entirely ill able wear tshirts again atm three cuts healed turn scars ill wait em fade quit cutting different note want short shorts skirt want get body waxed hairy legs cross dressing looks fun honestly id cute femboy ive thinking lot body it oh well,0
@spurofmoment ,0
told floating whole time without even know heard atoms able touch right mean floating whole time may feel like were touch ground actually,0
please help meimy old male obsessed sex got point im mastrubating atleast  times per day started  years ago  years  times day started cutting  month ago cause cant take anymore feel like someone stabbing see hot girl know cant cause im stupid lonely coward cant anything tell im cause makes feel even worse top everything cm belt nail coffin want pick stupid knife instead wrists cut fcking throat need stop agony im currently watching wrists cant stop crying im sorry bad language stupid post sorry wasting time im still piece shit moron deserves burn hell,1
irl friends found account id forced nuke orbit share way much here isnt something want see lol,0
theres nothing much story young woman steals money dreary vermont supermarket works decides run away florida dreams attending school friend julie encounters odd couple highway remember elderly couple rosemarys baby idea two like bill comical face retired army sandra ex stripper become truckstop whore although find once theyre affectionate helpful full common sensebr br they less adopt girl alice promise give ride elaborate rv although driving directly floridabr br this film could gone onehundredpercent wrong film makers turn elderly couple personification evil would take virginal alice handcuffed bed whatever sell body greaseball driver lot money likes rough sex alice would heck time escaping lots aborted attempts final shootout but no couple really pretty nice alice far virginal alice overhears sandra customer asks business tries turn trick own bill prevents anything happening insists job right going all talk it guide herbr br alice makes several hundred dollars several hundred dollars met couple bill sandra keep money safe customers going find it alice misunderstands find whoring pleasant work thinks shell never paid every time asks dropped off sandra responds with what here honey middle nowhere however talked handing gun sandra couple give money wants rather lovingly release continue trip floridabr br you know found tragic moment film nothing prostitution thievery alice expecting room friend julie arrives miami julie legitimate student alice calls friend someplace alabama assure way late julie hesitates says well  mother think room us tell truth roommate cool either invited down sure thought like visit week something go back milford alice long silence alice hangs upbr br only one shot fired a white frames film one hit tears appear once nobody slugs anybody else car explodes fireball cop chases interstatebr br the direction occasionally clumsy much crosscutting sandra trying disarm alice alices hand holding wobbling pistol hardly musical score brief male female nudity awkward probably supposed be alice unattractive babalicious either sports asiatic eyes kind robust version molly parker cinematography looks cheap colors washed out direction straightforward narrative illuminating flashbacks nothing wasted evidently shot around danbury connecticut city sticks mind drove one floods remember cars caked film mud way door handlesbr br i know exactly alice found i dread even thinking answer riddle she found herself acting bad all judith ivey better that definitely worth seeing quiet orderly film treats audience like adults,0
Can Placenta capsules help with postnatal depression?   https://buff.ly/2FnVNnd  #ppd #pnd #postnatal #mentalhealth #pregnancyproblems #childbirth pic.twitter.com/R06LBHr1wg,1
two weeks ago im okay dont remember much nothing serious happened btwi think ideas got best me called bunch people keep it think none immediate friends family know im afraid happen,1
hebb i wish i could go to bed,0
found car keys clicker lock unlock doors idk actually called onve near car start,0
time birthday boy bday jus hanging wanted ti tell yall hope guys days good,0
i m pretty sure the gym is curing my depression bc i ve been a funny mf lately,1
im sorryi cant anymore really really want it im tired eating disordered eating habits lack self love super low self esteem matter damn much hate much want kms dont dont want hurt others cant suffering head everyday im exhausted,1
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im sick bullshithello  yearold marine veteran koreanamerican ones going read shit wanted place vent anger frustration diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type antisocial to extent spoken two words six months barely post write online try improve empirical evidences mood enhancement exercising trying new hobbies taking cold showers taking social classes improve awkwardness people yet even initiations looked hate dread students penn state york campus professors psychology professionals look behave retarded deficient human being often would skip cut short input seminars students would groan silence i still hear it everytime talk feel belong need classes fucking graduate committed numerous acts redflag various occasions used methods overdosing someone elses prescribed sleeping pills hanging noose attempting jump bridge push relationships away fear getting emotionally damaged used proceed ignore me blame believe deserve good people life yet want social connection family rejects conversations feel depressed feel suicidal proceed get furious tell shut fuck up friends literally fucking tired emotional rollercoaster rides monthly tried fit americans berate skin color pennsylvania state brotherly love ass tried make friends koreans cast away individualistic rather collectivistic mindset like them feel like ignorant unintelligent bigot future live home father paying house utilities im tired progress stupid fucking lie life gets better tired hope also penn state york reading thiswhich highly doubt fuck you ill see hell,1
going home make me want to kill myself,1
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film totally mindblowing manages thought provoking funny tragic cinematic yet claustrophobicbr br although flashbacks unnecessary film maintains pacy punchy grip performances excellent particular alec baldwin mesmerising eric bogosian films antihero barry champlain,0
hopelessi know one care even read this im sad feel hopeless someone betrayed really badly girlfriend hacked social media everyone hates me making think said things say nothing do one believe me choice anymore redflag,1
love to get drunk just not by himself,0
found highly intellectual artistic every way felt script conveying things feel physically emotionally got home work watched it tribute cinema highest form formatbr br holy guacamole wish days would come again tried putting bubble window side car honda civic  vacuum formed muffin trays quite cut it also civic sexual positions limited supported water bed brilliantly depicted the vanbr br the van utmost side splitting hilarity even substitute porn watch scenes privatelybr br i highly anticipate sam grossman the director achieved opusbr br ratings john  sam ,0
struggling sure cope anymore cannot make wife happy job hate cannot quit cannot afford to mum dying side planet able see  years know more think might need little help,1
looking optionsso im sure options try cannot go therapy anymore want institutionalize me tried therapy want ect me cant call hotline anymore need distraction somebody talk call police cant talk friends anymore call police tried medication nothing other give massive headaches hours cant try that tried exercise three years anything tried vitamin supplements anything know else try want die sometimes break head things nobody see bruises hair helps minutes want finish right now cant want hurt family since cant go therapy dont tell try another shrink ive tried many sick cruel joke try another absolutely refuse drugs work exercise work food work else there refuse submit institution go ect ive  years tell ever get better know else try,1
i m so numb i m now living just because i m alive but i m really dead inside each day is a loop of sleeping and drinking i barely eat i don t do anything at all,1
@bubblewrap_x Hmmm not sometimes......Well ALL THE TIME ,0
im fucking done shit little brother never behaves im one actually something it parent dont anything think im crazy upset share room fucking animal six years always talks us none give shit ask stop get out starts mooning streaks around room cant deal shit anymore fucking hate life,0
i live at home and i love my parent but i m beginning to spiral after an incident month ago i ve been profoundly depressed and stressed out i wa renting but moved back home to save money while trying to get myself back in order especially because my med stopped working i m an only child and my parent have no friend so now that i m back home all they want to do is constantly talk to me i already have poor sleep a it is but it could be am and my dad will shake me awake to talk about a car or his work day or my mom will come in and talk to me about my finance or why i never talk to her about my mental health one time recently i had been woken up so abruptly i could feel my entire nervous system jolt like i had been struck by lighting even thinking about it make my entire body randomly hurt i never get to be alone anymore i try to get alone time but i never get it for more than a couple hour at an time bc of the sleep deprivation i hallucinate now i hear and see thing i honestly wish somthing would happen to me and it would just all end life s so stressful and the little thing aren t fun anymore i hate myself i hate everything i used to love nothing fun anymore what s the fucking point,1
post follow upsoa couple minutes made previous post things took turn worse got told unless pick start functional member crew getting sent back home im wondering ever choose job occasion actually get fired im going help family financial problems anyone talk to cant seem see point living anymore actually happens im afraid im far emotionally weak handle,1
teenager sucks weird phase people expect act like adult actually get perks one sure get ton free time cant enjoy really good anything teenager like skydiving thats expensive af spent  years saving one jump unless get licensed basically free cant get licensed young would like try mountain biking a live basically flat dessert b enough money buy decent mountain bike like badminton place around cant go know drive even want learn need least  public transportation system nonexistent goes pretty much everything like like traveling hiking etc good activity done doors like drawing playing music pretty much things  read watch tv stare phone day cant wait financial independence stuff actually like also teenager makes people automatically think stupid whenever topic discussion brought up role play learn adults opinions often disregarded apparently know anything real world even though adults total morons less intelligence average teenager would always act like know cuz years older yes im looking karens forget mention school sucks mean study thats actually pretty ok talking people school students urge super cool alot stupid irrational decisions trying validate decisions making fun everyone iq average higher chair course teachers whose dreams got crushed found work teachers planning take us students sports wise suck football always nothing guess apparently decide go library a nerd also social status becomes sort big deal reason got douchebags wearing gucci whatever bragging day order popular problem is works course people nice overall experience really sucks especially that often not give damn whats taught also young anything young drive travel alone work even part time heck even volunteer sometimes old go college live alone basically anything like already know want do wait  years people adults often say childhood teenage years best years lives honestly best years life nothing much look forward then thankfully believe know time get me sick waiting little rant reason managed read till here thank you hope enjoy experience teenager do,0
@Pinkis4gangstas I'm pretty sure they are amazing... I love the Maine.  I just found out they even existed.,0
good byehello name randall live costa rica wanna die want jus go sleep never wake up im  years old feel useless never thing life feel like time running know maybe one first post reddit maybe last,1
want die see way outlong story short convinced parents going community college two years actually faked it theyre case transferring idea do cant stall more job probably summer think live wages living home could move out would tell im much pussy,1
Do you like Y eats or Keats better. I like Keats about totally lapped him up or ate him up I should say haha no joke ,0
know this live every day perhaps send good words other team depression sucks,1
ever get betteralmost five years now im fucking sick people telling itll get better im good enough life good enough work myself appearance mindset etc ive tried all subliminals hypnosis nutrition lifting looksmaxing confidence whatever im ace certified nutrition coach personal trainer fucks sake nearly  bench   spend money right products maintain improve appearance im still good enough women anyone says anything personality literally nothing anecdotally according hundreds university studies face  personality whats issue well appears face im  blue eyed muscular lean well groomed matter nothing changes cant beat god awful genes ive diagnosed bdd depression mean bullshit bdd simply opening eyes source plight makes depressed want good enough loved like ive without relationships ive few theyre negligible reasons need go about end feeling like shit before last one  months ago ive wanted kill gun would want hurt family want happy alone people feed platitudes tell im good looking dude whos much good enough hell gay dudes buddies think im chad clearly case know anymore im  finish college soon life seems never ending loneliness depression im watching youth go theres nothing despite trying best want alone ive bad place now truly believe im meant happy hearing name makes sick ever get better,1
how do i go about telling a friend i m suicidal i feel like i m just being dramatic but i m having intense thought though i m not sure i d act on them and i don t have a proper plan though i m always thinking about it at the same time i don t want to bother anyone it must be a horrible thing to hear from someone and there s nothing they can do really but i m not sure what i can do at this point either i m just so desperate,1
im going kill next weeki tried talk brother shout one cares dont try fight world clearly dont want im done,1
happy birthday jaime loveyou lt officially screwed right now midterm quiz project and 00 page book shoot me please,0
reddit void  headachesi know say without sounding insensitive unmindful problems people face theyre feeling suicidal really need say someone im suicidal anything wrong life live okay steady job take care myself want live anymore relationship family distant know care job dead end pays well amp know im capable moving wanted im single thats know im overly dependent so im toxic general i want put anyone that im lonely im mistreated im sad ans know why ive annoying headaches going long cant quite remember started seems like ever go away even interfere day day still feel buzz back head driving crazy   want say headaches like metaphors thoughts redflag lately head stop pounding cry,1
life honestly purgatory not suicidal yetim curious ur guys answers feel like maybe fucked life maybe im supposed help lost souls along lost soul feel like people intentionally nasty im unable make defintely uphold relationships cuz past traumas ratio  bad things minimal  bad things happening around fucked shit next life finally going void going void getting woken occasionally get drunk yell bartenders,1
i don t know what i deserve anymore but i guess it s all about the pain,1
one brilliant young men went dared make teen romance film actually call that would invoke devil fanson micro budget packed taste sensitiveness maturity peter sollett deserve admiration respectthanks demonstrating powers industry stereotypes flushed toilet one locationa handful rich characters low budgetgood actingand amateursdecent lighting  worshippers true indie cinema watch stop watchingwellyou know what,0
"Thinkin' maybe mojitos are in order this evening. Gotta make use of the mint I'm growing, right? ",0
cant iti born raised fortunate family two loving parents brother needs far need him fund late grandparents put college im monster im pedophile discernable source myself years therapy my parents insurance told depression still beast castration extremely expensive covered insurance thus far nogo cant myself owe parents productive life resources theyve poured me owe brother nothing help him hes brother im loss myself many debts cant filch on im among worst category human and no defend pedophilia deserve downvoted set ablaze just do,1
dont love parent cant realize negative reinforcement doesnt work im already depressed anxious already feel like deserve things gonna realize way make things positive reinforcement like go ahead take away phone computer everything dont deserve it gonna make shit gone live without it contrary popular belief life source something stop thinking offing myself,0
"Right, tannwick off out to enjoy sun with aid of GPS and cachemobile ",0
for anyone who s contacted the suicide help hotline ha it actually helped i don t think i ll make past this week although i have friend here for me and therapy i ve written all my goodbye and i m ready to do the deed a i ve got nothing left to lose any input is helpful,1
need help deciding resolution record in resolution primary monitor use watching youtube please leave comment resolution often watch youtube in,0
"@KatyLewy9 We all suffer from severe depression at least one time of our lives. But we all rise above stronger than ever, just keep going and fighting!!! We support and love you  pic.twitter.com/VlhaVrTfuJ",1
cut self first time todayevery problem happens me makes want cut myself bought pack razors ago cut never really deep cut before touched while today stuff happened made try razors first deep cut today deep enough bleed while weirdly happy closer able cut really hard end life wish things happened made want cut myself new stuff happen small remind shit stuff happening me normally try think hard sometimes feel like family friends trust almost everyone done damaging stuff back stabbed me literally  real friend completely trust even know im going terrible path sorry know one cares help get stuff out without actually it,1
final stances nnn here final stance nnn participation required okay fail addiction really depends whether already multiple times day every day moderation far made nnn tried it many factors think failing say anything certain like nnn others know it ok please take break reddit stuff gonna stop could swear saw posts disliking nnn disliking posts failing posts nnn higher others completed deal here good display self control stuff get look others though participating ddd no going one month horny go one extremely horny participate depends personal choice comes think do nnn good bad no whatever make it good bad like social media like world,0
I'm a tweetin' ,0
u guys ever post thirst traps fun like dont even wanna talk anyone ill post occasional thirst trap instagram tiktok feel something,0
i miss my old friend from elementary an middle school,0
off to the galapagos! be back in a week! or maybe i'll stay with the turtles ,0
vip guest today quot blohheeee i hate it,0
i JUST deleted a bunch of people off my myspace. im feelin very accomplished rt now haha...time to eat something ,0
normal people hope posts gets hot me put award post people think good way get hot,0
strong urge confess crush ok nd week highschool really want freak damn im hard time confessing maybe could wait winter break confess would give time think it maybe ask meet behind corner confess there maybe could ask advice girls elementary school god cant sleep cant stop thinking every way confession might go please help anything works ill check back morning btw using alt due privacy,0
"@tommy_landry oh that refreshment was everything it was supposed to be good sir.  And how! and who?! btw, congrats on Beck's arrival. ",0
wish someone would sell gunbut california rules tight im  oh well,1
the phrase and concept it get s better eventually how can anyone keep living without something other than that flawed statement there s no trick or ploy here i just don t get it i m tired of trying to convince myself that idea ha merit or is at least worth pursuing for myself i m tired of leaning solely on that because time after time i can t find anything in this world to look forward to anything to believe in to want maybe no one will read this post maybe everyone hyperbole will i know i don t have a flashy premise i know i m just some random person the average scroller doesn t have to get attached to or invested in because they may never hear from me again i know this question is gigantic and a colossal ask to any one person i just need something random aside fuck betrayal fuck blatant liar,1
admit approached movie sense expectation dread louis de bernieres bestselling novel one favourites anyone read realise way hell screen adaptation  faithful br br all way found convincing movie unsuccessful stripped books plot back far render redundant ending however much better novel could stop thinking movie afterwards still plusses john tolls magnificent cinematography stephen warbecks great score etc felt outweigh initial negatives cages miscasting heavily diluted scriptbr br but two days later queuing see corelli although perfect admit movie best anyone could expected cage actually brilliant role even de berniere concerned fully rounded character carefree spirit gives way shattered remorse spot on complements superb double act penelope cruz john hurt perfectly david morrissey quietly effective weber nazi officer trying reconcile feelings newfound italian friends inbred superiority complex around him fine grecoitalian supporting cast bring de bernieres sundrenched world cepholonia dazzlingly alivebr br on leaving cinema second time around finally let go passion novel prevented fully appreciating story ww cepholonia cinematic terms hat goes john madden who despite almost expected critical drubbing receiving british critics any director major success like shakespeare love behind always target moaning ninnieshas managed transfer terrifically difficult book big screen heart verve humanity the core virtues novel fact created another classic love story probably fully appreciated dust settled years nowbr br if fan book like me hard try make mistake initial viewing try erase book mind two hours bathe glorious mediterranean atmosphere discover corelli pelagia mandras dr iannis first time pretend watching something made original screenplay guarantee disappointed br br in fact eagerly waiting copy delightful movie video dvdbr br ,0
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 nearly  year old trans girl come anybody know irl started transitioning anything love girlfriend much dating almost  years april  realized trans way keep living boy every cell body wishes would told questioning gender first started like  years ago sure trans thought id tell questioning come non binary test waters scared officially come out started crying said scared lot stuff exactly remember feel stuck make worse sister also trans come publicly moved coming parents constantly deadname misgender her including face parents paying go college know would keep paying came out want girlfriend live rest lives bpd fp coming go well probably kill herself would make kill myself might make sister kill herself idea much longer live boy know would come much less ever can feels liket way things go well live please want heard feels like way life go on want kill love life,1
date approachingi trying commit redflag past couple months ive trying hang belt doorknob got  without passing out chickened take anymore plan commit redflag next weeks rope im going duct tape hands cant untie noose,1
cant begin summarise feel her want spend rest life person want help work stuff together goes redflag spiral im completely loss apart hold stroke hair strategies help break spiral starts one approach topic seeing counsellor developing mindfulness strategies without going panic attack help rredflag hope,1
hate myselfi hate myself everything went badly today dealing social services people aunt trying help yelled honest didnt want get legal trouble so honest really dont see point living anymore but want kill myself aunt said house maybe ill tomorrow instead going friends place,1
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"@LixMgx : as someone who has also been single/celibate for quite some time, I can't understand sex being that central to their being that they have to turn it into hate. I don't have sex rn, sure, but there are other things in life to make me happy (and I say this with depression !).",1
ive done it ive achieved maximum djent wanted play specific song guitar tune  string ebeadgb leaving high e need it neither snark phone tuner pick sound lowest string anymore hell amps built tuner hardly does like play peak performance,0
listens to Hilary Duff - Jericho. old song but still VERY GOOD! ,0
shoutout unnecessarily strict things parents sometimes really hot day today nearing c dad refused turn ac angry staying inside,0
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checking hotel itthis question told someone a close friend checking hotel end life would able get police find hotel in words would hotel obligated tell police occupant name obviously want able find me want know,1
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 job license still living parents anyone else situation turned  back november last year ive dreading day turn  feel like manchild already feel less compared others take responsibility much anyone elses fault plan get things done like getting job reason feels let others irresponsibility,0
@alecstanworth That's nothing: http://bit.ly/better-bragging-rights and she resigned too ,0
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Many thanks to @CattyG @poptopvw for noting little old me on this happy #followfriday. Very flattered ,0
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want kill tonight dont know definitely want toi feel terrible extremely anxious right now things take hour take whole day im running time important deadlines yet barely make things know important apply colleges whats point know ill rejected anyway im exhausted used miss younger didnt feel like whenever think back point life get bad feeling feel disgusted dont like fact struggle get along others proves people feel too reaching long term goal unlikely finally got confirmation today wont happen pretty much one friend feel like im huge burden hold back go college might upset week two long run itll better,1
know help friend anymorefor weeks trying help friend constant urges self harm bit got slightly better something happened became far worse suicidal thoughts isolating emotionally know feels anymore therapist helping father knows cuts told hed put mental institution im struggling get ask help talk people here,1
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br br i must admit expecting something quite different first viewing cut last night though delighted unexpected australian horror gem true horror fan true come found cut best genre australia ever produced one great parodycomedy films latebr br my concern mainstream audiences may pick lot comedic elements  film overly clever application made laugh every turn trying fit every possible cliche horror genre could certain intended humourhoping intended humourbr br and course gorebr br the use customised garden shears brilliance  besides expected stabs slashes short huge amount variety creativity many violent deaths enough please even skeptics films worthbr br the appearance kylie minogue short appearance was molly ringwald another reason see film  performances fantastic well simon bossell the castle brilliant role jokey technicianbr br all all think movie one best horror products last couple years well beautiful satireparody  toungueincheek till endbr br loved it go see it,0
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approaching end line longish texthello let preface saying english first language due length text proofread it sorry fragmented text also im really planing commit redflag immediate future although designated end line me im entirely sure feel need write years beeing miserable suppose theres number reasons stopping procrastinating sharing people might driving force behind desire one hand want present relevant aspects story hand want identity known ill vague regards  summary current circumstances im western european male late s late  graduated university masters degree computer science since hold average paying software engineering live small appartment siblings pets car  situation face mother could love go details since would probably enough identify would take k fix worst problems nose ears would probably make roughly plain facewise actually look attractive would need least k more since im also pretty short man  inches average country plain probably cut it since social sexual experience even might enough point known im ugly since   become ugly earlier took years realize lost friends got zero interest girls childhood actually quite ok lot friends even girlfriends since struggled accept reality way procrastinator sense people procrastinate postponing task piece work postponing final conclusion decade years running red numbers cant recall day worth living true better others never close good enough measure days happy good managed suppress fact unhappy given day justified living days borrowing future happiness would tell could endure suffering long payout somewhere line never really specified payout would happen long somewhat reasonable excuse keep waiting willing keep hanging there initially waiting turn  finish school start university finish bachelors degree finish masters degree get job cant make milestones yeah could get phd sure could save countless years start financing house cant bring believe anymore im getting younger already spent half life alone lonely cant go chasing next elusive milestone anymore many people desire nothing fact born better genetics invested much effort help all know attractive people study studying consisted  actual studying  depressed stupor took much effort still achieve results got im empty cant keep it recently noticed get less less work done ad work boss notice far tell drags even more work ethic one things really proud working summerjobs  years ago also become increasingly frustrated fact pay huge percentage income taxes mandatory health care etc hardly save couple hundreds month even living extremly frugal hardly benefit either bet people get government hand outs health care andor average way happier lives me therapy antidepressants  years neither really helped besides gained weight became lethargic ssri see point trying either again  dating tried asking female acquittances fellow students out  rejection rate tried online dating joke made account dating websites like plentyoffish okcupid hardly ever got message return never got date matters doubt woman would want stay getting look face real life made tinder account swiped right everyone till matches run out hundreds women several days got one single match bot  outlook next summer ill saved enough money first big surgery the complicated rhinoplasty hopefully ear surgery latter depend whether get loan raise additional money ill likely pay high interest winwin situation me works mind slightest paying loan worry anyway plan clear somehow make till next summer hard confident wait one year get surgery give dating one try turns physical change severe enough andor personality already damaged beyond repair end life promise follow that thats colateral one year borrowed time given detailed thought it recently atheroma maybe quarter inch diameter leg cut away sharp knife without anesthesia unpleasant and bled lot till taped it im confident withstand pain handsonapproach comfortable methods available me ill go sleep soon might reread tomorrow add important information slipped mind today,1
shitty weeks lately nothings going way never see light end tunnel happy anymore workload keeps piling work endless amounts work cannot seem catch up that wanting hangout one favorite coworkers keeps blowing off one thing liked wanted blow steam shoot shit keeps blowing canceling me asking like week advance something oks it suddenly randomly invites someone else take over basically ruining everything me weekend good next weekend next weekend comes still good shred hope happiness barely gets taken away me hanging coworker like said work get happy split second think almost top get knocked down think going blow steam coworker keeps canceling me probably never wants hangout whatever care awfulannoying point want hangout anymore considered older brothermentorbest friend much anymore life shitty lately got slight injury last saturday start feeling better yesterday could gone work feel like it place depresses coworker helping already feeling thought maybe coworker could hangout like used to really looking forward it nothing set stone felt like weekend would good one guessed wrong hate life wish could go away never come back know friends coworkers hangout different notredflag different people everybody does disappointing someone thought close blows basically meh cold towards you need fucking vacation something feeling depressed hate it one person thought clicked really well distant me life one big disappointment another,1
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do you have a channel that you resort to kinda feel at home watching especially if they re underground not that popular i feel the loneliest watching out of touch with reality youtubers or heavily edited one with ton of sponsorship and shallow content attitude so i m trying to make a list of realistic authentic one to get to feel better i dislike the b and exhausted method of popular youtubers,1
love everything great way late wondering tf exist redflag socially acceptable people try prevent someone theyve never met whose life story know making call end life fuck like this life shambles cant even bothered fucking im pathetic piece shit even dog likes me ah well fucking yell wall guess,0
it take jump scared fucking too overthink understand suicidal people considered selfish cowards opinion incredibly brave brave taking step unknown pulling plug brave taking matters hands never saying born saying way ends hope display bravery time there really hope will brave,1
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well almost choked outsince house crumbling doubt even shower rod could hold weight lbs went head tried essentially strangle using rope bathroom door managed chill minutes guess feeling like face swelling much bitch ass handle real reason stick around anywayi cant stand burden,1
another failed redflag attemptim sorry need get chest cant take anymore pain numbing sadness feeling guilt reason selfloathing voices everything want stop tried end again always fail lost count failed attempts im weak im failure cant even kill properly mind wouldnt shut up numbing sadness wouldnt stop none would stop gotten fight mum couldnt take anymore already ledge pushed me got noose already tied hidden closet mum wasnt home moment father work time tied bar closet high up climbed onto shelf closet closet small easily able reach noose there stuck head it tested moving ledge shelf would high enough properly kill me it thought it would over slid shelf held arms almost there let go close saw picture mum i picture hugging me light still eyes hadnt left looked happy picture mum happy mind filled memories mum i remembered words told me would always love me broke crying pushed back onto shelf sat crying couldnt it wanted it couldnt scared it scared mum would react remembered say would mess one kids died still alive remembered said shed probably kill herself selfish tried kill even heard mum say painful would loose child devastated would be im still selfish want die still want kill even though mum would sad im terrible im coward ever run im ungrateful people dying cancer hospitals people much worse me yet am hating fact im alive trying end life much better people yet wish could die im ungrateful selfish coward shouldve never born,1
mom care me ive spent last three years life learning programming d modeling animation sound design become programmer computer scientist taking dualcredit college courses as highschooler today grade dropped  forgot assignment already resubmitted would graded tomorrow mom came room mad yelling spending much time building stupid stuff code enough time doing school care me want do never has understand teenage angst life care ampxb want cry,0
Depression is the hell inside of me and it eats me up daily.,1
Raise your hands if you need to cop more shoes than you can count: damn! I need a new job... two new posts on the site. two more tomorrow ,0
years since ive seen movie forget details however loved time found plot intensely gripping climax heart stopping remember literally edge seat theatre back br br jane fonda plays los angeles reporter kimberley stumbles upon accident local nuclear power facility wants go public story aided hippie cameraman michael douglas photographed event sinister conspiracy attempts cover up jack lemmon absolutely wonderful role nuclear plants conflicted middle manager torn loyalty company doing right thing reporting perilous situation facial expressions speak volumes herebr br apart engrossing plot riveting tension film jack lemmon character superb acting performance jane fonda i huge fan time suspect moved antiwar protests taking nuclear industrybr br this movie seems intended nuclear scare tactic chernobyl three mile island notwithstanding theyre different types reactors canadian candu reactor safe well respected around world hesitate reside near nuclear power plant hours drive away friend works competent engineer apparently shut every teeny problem irregardless financial loss sincerely doubt conspiracies afoot there one hardly imagine managers highly trained operators willing risk sort meltdown whateverits absolute tomfoolery course moral spare expense effort either building facility ensuring ongoing safety br br if want western lifestyle get energy somewhere claim nuclear power never made completely safe true course perhaps volunteer coal miner else return pre electricity horse buggy days br br by means enjoy entertaining highly suspenseful movie apparently based loosely embellished true story real chiller thriller maybe  even killer please get attitudes operation safety nuclear power plants it,0
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Study shows HRV testing can differentiate between bipolar disorder and major depression.  http://bit.ly/2FhgNYS  pic.twitter.com/r726xud64W,1
help friendi made post yesterday responses immensely helpful thank everybody replied reason posting friend told suicidal thoughts ive comforting best abilities found today denied something comforted said im sure theyll another opportunity keep hope replied hope anymore makes fair bit worried see topic losing hope anywhere online im hoping someone emotionally dense help instill hope tell proceed also completely going type psychiatrist psychologist anything similar despite heavy encouragement me,1
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wish committed redflag moment wish easier dont want liveanother monumental fight house time brother mother hit much moment much pain sadness rage act seemed like nothing hours dad wouldnt leave alone dont feeling much dont want live either wish committing redflag easier,1
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Kanye West loses 9M followers in a day for liking Trump. I lose 2 followers for not liking #Trump and I spiral into depression <Emoji: Face with tears of joy> Guess its all relative!,1
feel like im kind annoying like  posts complaining pissed lot people even real life done,0
i ve come to the realization that i am without a doubt suicidal but at the same time my life ha been more or le defined by suicide and i know all too well what it doe to the people close to you and because of that i know that i ll never go through with it some background i m year old and my first brush with suicide wa when my father hung himself when i wa i doubt i ever really healed from that and is still such a formidable age i thought i wa doing okay but the last couple of year have taken a toll i m also an iraq veteran i deployed in 0 0 and in the last year of the guy i served with have committed suicide the most recent being week ago it doesn t get easier i guess what i m really getting at is i feel like now i m just in a run out the clock situation with life i have no motivation for anything i don t really enjoy anything and i just don t want to be here anymore but i won t put anyone that i love through the pain that i ve felt and continue to feel is there anyone that is ha been in this frame of mind is there anything i can do to get out of it is this it thank you for reading much love m,1
@ReemaHamdan Don't you dare get sick!  ,0
help parents need help feel swaddled parents necessarily spoiled lot things me want get able stuff self parents really let happen thinking hanging friends know big rona hit kinda cant that advice would helpful,0
"On the way back home now to catch up with the F1 I have on record, then barbecue + banana beer... ",0
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friend beat  sure whether sad jealousjust got phone call sister let know k paramedic no paramedic bloody good paramedic funny kind would help anyone apparently problems work his sister tell kind muddled understandable k retained left opiates patients need full dose injected himself found turn shift yesterday many friends afford lose one hand guess one less person disappoint die godspeed k love you,1
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devil knows dead starts promisingly setting simple heist goes awry told varying perspectives in rashomon style around hour mark sidney lumet transforms film something much sum parts eventually morphs multifaceted family drama exploring full realm human emotionsrelations story comes chilling climaxbr br as case lumet manages coax exceptional performances starstudded cast without notion overacting hyperbole philip seymour hoffman one best roles complex mysterious interesting character oftentimes dwarfs ethan hawke plays brother hank thats say hawke bad fact quite adequate troubled role suits style marisa tomei excellent relatively short appearance the fact bares flesh adds this albert finneys character andy hanks father intriguing opinion deserved bit screentime amy ryan also performs job adequatelybr br before devil knows dead exceptional movie proves lumet still near top game apparent twilight illustrious career many characteristics trademarks appear here least involves use characters infused killer script no pun intended smart dialogue pacing decent score devil knows dead mustsee truly underrated gem   stars out  enter top   highly recommended,0
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well hello everyone i m in a bit of a crossroad in life i m year and currently in my rd year of law school but i will have to repeat it probably again because of slacking off it all started during the pandemic when university switched to online mode i slowly slided into video game addiction and eventually depression i got very behind on my study and nearly forgot the thing i learned in the past now that uni ha started to have live lesson my body and my mind are still living in pandemic lockdown mode i go to part time work in retail to sustain myself but other than that i choose to skip class almost entirely i started being afraid of university itself lost all interest before the pandemic i wa very keen on my study every time i look any of my friend up i get a panic attack cause i feel like life is moving on and i m stuck between these dormitory wall cause basically all my peer from high school have graduated or are other way succesful in their life already have purchased home of their own etc i m in this limbo for year now last week i kind of had a mental breakdown i don t know if it wa a side effect of the rabies vaccine i took not so long ago cause the doctor told me to avoid any alcohol stressing for at least a month i dont drink at all but stress alot about my past and the future but after the so called mental breakdown i decided enough is enough and it s time to part way with my study i called up a relative of mine that would vouch for me in a job interview for a international cargo transportation company and let me try out a a intern sale manager tought this could be a interesting choice for me cause i speak language of them very common i live in europe but i m now in the last step of leaving uni almost got all affair in order and went to in my mind to the last chess practice in the evening i m also an avid chess player been playing all my life and after the training session i discussed my plan with my chess coach which opinion i value very much told about how i feel and he urged me to stay my main point wa that i m not progressing in life and he motivated that i ll get through this and that he know many people who spent 0 year until they have finished university that he would help me anyway he can ect and walking from practice i had a chat with some colleague from the chess club on my way home just about casual stuff and it hit me that i don t want to leave this place these people and want to persue the dream diploma and when i entered my dorm room it hit me again the same place with the same room mate who i have seen for the last year who i admit is a bad influence cause he gave up on his study long ago ha a full time semi dead end job and spends his off day playing video game all day so before going to bed i jumped on my laptop created a reddit account and started writting this text sorry that it is kind of a mess cause i m just typing my heart out i suspect also that i m kind of a bipolar guy cause of constant mood swing between motyvation and helplesness also possible add but never diagnosed never considered psych evaluation an option cause it could disqualify me from numerous position in law sphere of employment my parent suggest i change my living location from the dormitory and rent a private room somewhere in town a of this moment i have conflicting thought about trying to get out of this mess by finishing what i have started or just leaving everything after year and starting new without a degree i feel atached to this place but i also im sure it s killing me regard a depressed law student,1
guys suffer from im depressed im suicidal im happy life emotional problem disorder im ugly im great academics im great sports suffer trauma daddy mommy issues family problems im poor im lonely many good friends anxiety trouble talking girls im fat im good shape lots hobbies interests enjoy life life always good okay seriously tho normal,0
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usually what happens when i try to talk more...#anxiety #noonecares #depression #sad #depressed #bpd pic.twitter.com/hmwNcFkEFr,1
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day made decision get rid means ending life had finally talked someone feeling do live eventually kick proverbial bucket due old age continue cycle suffering brief moments peace happiness living corpse people say it gets better even said couple times really skeptical it wish knew do best decision ever made,1
very tired this morning no idea why great start to the day,0
stop scrolling help fellow teen out theres girl ive liked nearly  years wanted tell feel one problem best friend im worried actually dating her unlikely shed want to least want know feel trust her want able trust me tell her,0
'Suicidal' Mini Me actor Verne Troyer dies aged 49 after fight against depression became 'too much' https://butteredpopcornsite.wordpress.com/2018/04/24/suicidal-mini-me-actor-verne-troyer-dies-aged-49-after-fight-against-depression-became-too-much/ …#Depression #Suicide #MentalHealth #VerneTroyer,1
elitist attitude drink dont abide conservative values youre saving marriage done drugs drank anything before mean youre better anyone else annoying man let vibe without judgement,0
porn addiction  want die cant kill myselfim limit like im bad dream im awake   hours pass wake it im barely making work ruining relationship fiance cant seem control nowhere turn feel like addiction symptom depression cant sure went therapist freeze cant say anything get guilty dont want actually get better,1
hate hate maybe everything maybe nothing hate fuck happened me  years downhill got dumber fatter selfish angry irresponsible careless piece shit gets jealous fucking self  years ago that fucking who,0
I'm gonna go into deep depression if Killary and Obama don't go to prison for life SOON !  https://twitter.com/ThinBlueLR/status/988967121697767424 …,1
poems stumbled across travels across many subreddits roses red sun shining mental health rapidly declining ampxb ampxb roses red walls plaster children fast big bird faster  thats year thats kill streak,0
@ViolaJaynes try asking @tweetdeck i'm sure they will be happy to help you. ,0
every song somebodys favorite song think shittiest song youve ever heard give thought take moment thing that someone may absolutely fucking adore song fucking blew mind think it especially songs like living legend scarlxrd thing screamo rap mumble rap basically rap overwhelmed bass boosting shitty lyrics barely understand fans ultimately complaint music choice criticized family literally sit bullshit brother plays including limited tooooooooo rap drugs murder rape crimes god awful country songs  oldies whatever fuck chill step parents eat shit up moment play anime shit say listen real music turn music car like bud driving radio mine didnt automatically connect phone it thats thought okay enough guys been also might covid lets goooo big dubskis ,0
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down maybe relateive down dark imagine waking paralyzing fear sure im may dreaming didnt know afraid felt like everything afraid turn head raise arm paralyzed id sit bed scared negative thoughts racing head would go days weeks months id look outside window trees appeared fake almost plastic nothing beautiful one single happy thought could penetrate concrete wall encased brain fight every second trying keep head water driving work daydreaming crashing listening family voices unrecognizable ghosts taunt me keep going one morning wake feel it crack concrete restriction mind lessened ever slightly thought one simple thought maybe chance hope hold onto thought dear life one thought keeping going weeks go day new ray light somehow someway managing pierce thick fog clouds mind one happy thought fog breaks im driving happening feels though shock waves ripping body breathed first time dont know else scream cannot contain emotions coming trapped ride wave long lasts long hit another slope cycle repeats itself im stuck idk many fights left me,1
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Real Food Is a Potent Ally Against Depression  http://www.wakingtimes.com/2018/04/20/real-food-is-a-potent-ally-against-depression/ …,1
cuttingi havent cut since november  well tonight emotional winded trying cut again didnt even break skin ,1
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scared call redflag hotlineive mentally debating whether call hotlinei know tell call ever begin kinds thoughtsbut ive read well couple people know experiences seems harm good them,1
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@alyscharles what isnt it people with a peg leg and a parrot on their shoulder ,0
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one actually careshere again seems pitty waste breath scream shout none one really gives fuck matter times last nice people dont try ask cant helped cant stopped youve tried youve never stuck care im here point return well one last time end good time goodbye fun thats god damn lie goodbye one,1
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hello advice pleasehey guys first up happy easter all im posting tonight sure im right place need get chest ask advice earlier week daily hike mountain trail frequent nearly every day near end hike stopped side hill walk past daily usually never stop at warm particular day exhausted climb sitting taking view immediately noticed couple bags neatly propped sitting right front me also noticed thin rope tied one guard rail posts dangling stairs cut hill however even though mere foot away see edge thought crossed mind might someone end rope seem tense enough holding anything kind weight plus trail busy park attendants carrying repairs maintenance trails guess assumed park workers taken lunch sitting taking lovely day kept coming back scene directly front eyes thought that shit someone going this thats kinda exactly would look like go stick head hill take look sure immediately it blunt exhausted needed rest even petrified might see took another  minutes getting breath back continuing way knew must check leaving scene approached gingerly reaching drop hill saw it top poor souls body rope around neck hanging sitting slouched side step instead checking further sprinted hill rangers station  minutes away raised alarm good  minutes led rangers back scene watched they raised voice addressed victim make sure ranger gave depressing thumbs think ill ever receive confirming yes id seen real there spent next hour waiting emt police arrive take statement also noone else it ward hikers coming past scene admit rough week sleepwise thoughts still there forced return scene next day mainly park love dearly would ruined also pay visit wish farewell right decision im confident trouble hiking area last day two ive feeling incredibly guilty immediately checking side hill maybe still us could done something help incredibly empty police took statement told could go amazingly nothing press all guess opened eyes sadly redflag daily occurrence live keep thinking alone hill keep feeling guilty courage check immediately talking professional expect near term thanks listening sw ive posted wrong place please accept apologies,1
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oh god kid kind messed uh family kinda going bonkers rn yelling cryin usual ya know im downstairs hear mom full breakdown upstairs kinda telling  year old grow cause incredibly tired brother trying talk sense her think moment does everyone household victim complex fuck wrong me like stop feeling empathy point thats nice thought feel like narrator thats best description give fr like im takin whats happening like has calmed enough go upstairs need homework actual fuck though mean grades due today see big issue oh god feel kinda fucked up literally like narrator empathy uh end rant ig dunno else say lol ranting reddit reddit,0
tw mention of anxiety ocd allergic reaction back story in 0 9 i had a bad batch of sushi and developed scombroid scombroid fish poisoning or histamine fish poisoning is a syndrome resembling an allergic reaction that occurs after eating fish contaminated with high level of histamine i had every symptom of anaphylaxis and wa taken to the hospital in an ambulance where i wa diagnosed with a scombroid i had never heard of this neither had my parent but god ha it ruined my life and all the progress i ve made regarding my anxiety after this happened i developed a serious fear of becoming allergic to food i ve eaten all my life to the point all i ate for eight month wa plain chicken tender and tater tot and even with a basic menu i spent every day having panic attack convinced i wa having an allergic reaction flash forward to early 0 0 my fear extended into what wa diagnosed a ocd i spent every five minute lathering my arm and hand in hand sanitizer because i wa afraid of touching something i wa allergic to and not knowing i would even put hand sanitizer on my lip if i accidentally touched my hand to my mouth before i could clean them i have since sought out help and have stopped my obsessive sanitizing however the fear of an allergic reaction through eating ha not gone away i still struggle to eat but it really hasn t been an issue for me lately until tonight my food tasted funny and it sent me into a spiral it s so hard to express to people that hey my body is creating fake symptom that aren t actually happening and i am freaking out and it s so disheartening when i let it get this bad i know progress isn t linear and that one bad day doesn t set you back to square one but i can t help but feel like all my hard work is erased when i let my anxiety win basically i m trying to see if anyone ha any advice to handling serious health anxiety when it get to attack level maybe someone else ha been in this exact situation and i m not alone it would be nice to feel le alone any kind word or advice regarding my situation would be greatly appreciated,1
elmartinsz she said it will spiral her back into depression she might actually need help sha and maybe the parent too sef are being hurtful we don t exactly know her struggle but omo we always tend to support parent in these sort of situation,1
access tall buildings guns sturdy enough ceilings hang from cannot face another fucking day going long know finally end it want kill know to trying past  months would end torturous,1
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ive been suicidal for a long time now ive actually pussied out twice now and no one know i have a s o but because of no free time we only really see each other at school which is not the place to cry every time we try and plan something someone s parent are always there so it s never really safe to just vent alone and my parent are half the problem i face constant pressure for my sport from my mother meaning i barely have free time in fact ive barely been free at all this year with the exception of a few weekend and day in a holiday period even then i m usually busy at some point either the next weekend or every other time in the holiday my father left when i wa five but that s a whole other story the reason he left ha been bothering me for so long and despite how much he talk good about other thing i do he belief that i shouldn t follow any dream and should just become a lawyer and im too scared to talk back a he ha beat me before for littler thing neither of them believe that they are problematic and if i told them they would blame each other which would only make me feel worse every day i get closer to truly killing myself but i don t want to make my friend sad,1
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she wa my only hope the only person i thought loved me she only love me a a brother her ex which i m friend with showed me a message of him asking her what if i had a crush on her august 0 in january we kissed and everything then after a couple of day our love stopped i keep telling her that i love her and care for her and she doesn t say it back i m alone alone forever i have a knife next to me i m scared to do it tho i m scared of death but wan na die,1
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it must be annoying to be my friend employer fellow employee or anyone else who need to contact me i am scared to death of receiving bad news from people bring angry at me plan not working out or more responsibility being added to my plate that i just out right avoid any news all together im really scared that the government is going to come after me for incorrect tax breaking law which i have unbeknownst broken ect so i just avoid any and all thing that they could contact me through i dont even like doorbell this ha damaged my gpa because i don t even look at my school website so i miss homework and even test i guess i m just paranoid feel like the end is always drawing near and i d rather not see it hit me but it hit me regardless and it s impact is worse because i dint see it coming but because it hit me it reaffirms that bad news is coming and the cycle continues,1
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reddit sucks ass  voting system makes impossible opinion  memes shit theyre jokes results later life convo real life cant think anything haha neighbours kid weirdo even though nothing actual conversation  redditors obnoxious people  years karmawhoring trying considered edgy get downvoted make basic uninteresting person furthermore nobody able change  original self left instead husk npc  op circlejerk idk many times ive seen op say something stupid instead upvoting answer calls op out people downvote oblivion never seen casual scrollers by fake news easily spread reddit long something overlaps groups beliefs  social networks suck ass everything made make dumber depressed easier companies feed you all easier abuse one sad stupid person deal happy smart one  post then think anyone going say themselves think veteran karma whores husks going risk getting bad reddit points do post here itll probably never get seen  one reason btw easier click arrow like something read long post post get seen  people even bother read system rewards short simple things long exhaustive rants easiness upvotingdownvoting all easier quickly scroll silly relatable simple short jokes pay attention rant example would be ivan smart thoughtful person andrew redditor ivan saw post commenting long text andrew said silly trendy phrase got opportunity person you scrolls site sees andrews haha drill go brr likes upvotes matter seconds thousands others person goes read ivans text many many clicked arrow andrew understood fast spent time reading ivans text thus less people upvoted answer amount time took upvote andrews short simple phrases usually repetitive brain loves that rewarded long thoughtful rants thanks  people read all,0
i think this is mental breakdown but over the past few month thing have been slowly building up for me and i seem to have finally snapped last week my daily routine is basically wake up shit shower brush and sit on the pc until i go back to bed i eat whenever i feel like it i know it sound and it a shit schedule but it s like the only structure i have in my life a boring and shitty a it is it s always the one thing i can kinda find comfort and stability in anyways the final thing happened that made me snap last week i now wake up and just kinda sit in my bed for a while brush my teeth go walk outside for an hour and then drive around for a few hour then i come back shit shower and the only thing i have left is to sit on my pc but it is borderline painful to do that idk what it is but i just can t handle wasting my time on the pc anymore i ve more or le ditched my online friend and any game video song that i used to enjoy all day i want to be out of the house a much q possible and dread the place that i ve spent so much time in comfort i dread going back to my safe space and wan na avoid it for a long a possible,1
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starting feel like im heading direction feel lost stuck like able get outi think im starting run energy life ive stuck grad school longer coworkers lab ive able get new friendships people many friends left new jobs friendships thought could something good ended rather abruptly bluntly meanwhile ive destructive one ive wholeheartedly wanted want fix feel one know theyll want that therapist asked discussions come emotion feel like put enough emotional energy upset happy sad briefly nothing left give emotion wise think eaten every aspect life right feel motivation care something it ive always told therapist extent close friends feel like want end life finally absolutely alone feel like day day indecision move forward things gonna slowly push people opportunities away days im sad woken again sometimes thing keeping excited getting say hello someone else going difficult time knowing still here know posted here maybe get without overburdening people anyways,1
feeling like worst version personlike title says feeling like absolute worm feel like ruin hurt everyone come contact with remembering words parents second grade youre mean person ones ever gonna wanna friend feeling ruin hurt everyone  sad hours also quite bit drunk shfjekskfjd,1
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want die im scaredi want die wish could want guts it fucking it cant im pussy pain want endless torturous cycle end want feel true happiness feels like this fake ass im okay version happiness want able wake want die able go day without sinking feeling chest feels like feeling chest cry alot heavy gray sinking feeling time every second every day want lift weight chest let someone else carry it im sick small flashes happiness torn away me hate it hate this know sometimes feel depressed thing always helps going website anonymously listen vent people go listener always listen problems give heartfelt advice years living nobody done me nobody ever sit listen me give actually helpful advice things get better hell start cant go on stop ruins sleep happily able walk past someone look eyes happy hate want throw up im sick shit sit earth suffer deep inside hate everyone,1
sister attempted redflag help hersorry belong here know else post live states away home right now im considering going back see mom second time attempted redflag one knew first attempt second one psychiatric ward feel safe release her going college month attend school far away home school two hour drive hers care person thing earth kind support offer her,1
hang folksi feel terrible reading stories here embarrassed thought things bad im early s struggled depression whole life times feeling almost normal always susceptible trough series poor decisions depression flat broke truly awful financial moves very poor career outlook yet worthless certainly feel angry time good friend commit redflag several years ago completely ruined family cant see yet know would easier someone something blame situation stupidity know im prepared unleash family thinking nobody cares nobody miss gone case know buddy feeling way end true all best luck us,1
im happy today proud say today good day able eat properly problems able watch anime brothers whole afternoon finally earlier pm timezone it currently pm able play among us friends little brother im mostly close guys one best friend  years someone consider little brother group call fun playing really miss them may much u guys im proud say fun happy hope ill days like again im really happy today ,0
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hi there i am someone who suffers from health anxiety in the past month it started the day after two terrible thing happened to me my dog who i wa very close with passed away and i found out that i tested positive for covid so quite the shellshock to say the least the night after that i had a panic attack which really scared me since i had never previously had one that night i wa in the hospital for a few hour and aside from the fact i had covid the doctor told me i wa completely fine after that night i would go on to get a blood test and visit the doctor multiple time needle to say that everything came back fine nothing bad wa found in my blood and despite having multiple odd feeling the doctor said i wa fine and basically confirmed i wa suffering from a form of health anxiety meaning i would feel like something is wrong with me but in reality i wa just fine around the fourth visit he recommended i see a counselor and suggested getting a neurologist exam to remove all fear i have been seeing a counselor for a few week now and the earliest neurologist meeting is in may a for my physical symptom i currently have a pin and needle feeling in the back of my head and my neck ha been feeling a bit stiff over the course of the last month i ve had other feeling such a pin in my left hand rough skin emphasized feeling in all sort of part in my body and other feeling i probably forgot about i m posting here because it seems like a welcoming community and i want to share my experience with others who have suffered similarly and hopefully get some reassurance for my self from others i just need an outlet to cope to because i hate constantly bother others i live with for reassurance either way thank you for reading and for those out there that are suffering just know that you re not alone and you will all live long happy healthy and successful life and your pain will soon pas god bless you all p for those wondering yes i got over covid,1
even cares anymoreim fat cant get fit im sad cant get happy nothing matter  years whats even point anything get feeling lasts  minutes wish reset button life could different person different family different country probably live see next solar eclipse world turning trash,1
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cant stand living anymoremy family abusing  years  cant take anymore cant stand living anymore want live  feel disappointed self  feel hella alone sad havent talked friends almost year tried reaching me family doesnt believe mental health issues nun checks me dad brothers beaten since child till today im  turning  january im tired life i cant focus school im stressed depressed sad crying time,1
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dont know doim female  years old ive suicidal thoughts since  life literally unbearable dont know do cant take anymore anyone tried therapy help feel like chemical imbalance brain makes feel worse,1
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knows anymorei gone depression since around end highschool tried kill failed never knew body could tolerate much advil point life regretted almost everything ever done fucked relationships fucked previous work find hating university degree ever first year university one first times ever even stand face saw mirror find completing university right still realizing really motivation anything life keep telling things get better find job successful get debt find girl love often find exact opposite above feel love love anything world especially myself every time try open person find hurt ever know seems like typical cry attention absolutely zero clue do matter many different jobs apply never seem get call back semester left university able cover rent even basic living expenses ineligible line credit way world parents help try get mess seems like people meant live life reddit almost convinced one people sure else point maybe get lump maybe wont absolutely tempted try take system time ever normal life drunk ass high kite since least problems matter me guess exactly really call attention could form advice lead right direction sorry bother guys absolutely clue else turn to,1
the past almost 0 month have been the hardest worst time of my life i ve always had a decent amount of anxiety and a little depression i wouldn t even call it depression just a little blue sometimes but these past 9 0 month have been so hard for me every day of my life i feel the deep almost debilitating heart beat making it hard to breathe waking up to that feeling is the worst thing i can describe just make me want to bawl when that s the first thing i experience when i wake up the constant feeling that i want to gag or puke from the anxiety having no true enjoyment out of anything no matter how hard i try i can only fake it i haven t been truly relaxed and at peace for so long i have a wife and a little daughter who i love so much i know they deserve so so much better than me the way i ve ruined their life with my depression and anxiety i know my wife get frustrated going thru this for almost a year i feel like i ve wasted the last 9 0 month of my daughter life and that absolutely kill me missing these special little moment playing more with her etc i just don t have the energy to like i should it kill me i try to talk about how i feel to my wife and my mom the only two i feel comfortable talking to my mom ha so much on her plate and my wife is going thru some family issue so i feel guilty even burdening them with my feeling and issue aka why i m posting here i honestly feel like i ve lost my mind and i m just so so so tired of feeling this way i ve dreamed about just going to sleep and never waking up and then ultimately feel guilty to even think of that with a wife and daughter i know my wife deserves better than me and she would probably move on at some point but my daughter is the only thing keeping me going i know i need to be on med but i m so scared i ll be put on the wrong one and make my mind even worse and make these intrusive thought even worse i m so scared of it i just want the suffering to end and have my life back i ve never been much of a user if reddit but this is the only place i can think of to vent how i truly feel anyone else struggling too i hope you find peace,1
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ive always been extremely considerate for people need even sacrificing my own for the sake of their need always just never telling the full picture or always refraining from saying certain thing a i do not want to offend people i just never get that level of consideration back not even half of it i must be a prick asking for this stuff i shouldnt expect anything for being kind but it always suck when you always get the short end of the stick always ignored no one give a shit not even from redditors though ive met some pretty kind one but the others are honestly garbage i remember i once typed something about killing myself and some random person messaged me sayinng that they want me to buy something for them a i anyways would not stay here for long that wa a year ago on this subreddit there wa a deleted comment in that post but i guess it wa the person who messaged me that one year ago ready to kill myself and here we are a year later and no progress with that i also remember another dude who said tick tock when i mentioned about killing myself not in this subreddit but from the trueoffmychest one i honestly fucking wonder why im even here ive amounted to almost nothing im tired of caring or expecting any form of love ive had so much copium in my entire life that i just never realised that no one really give a shit about me and im just dangling on a fucking thread that just wont fucking break cuz im a coward who secretly want to live but just want this fucing contant pain misery and dissappointment to just go away for once in my miserable life tldr fuck everything and everyone goodbye and goodnight,1
embarrassed talk anyone thisnot going lie drunk high contemplating swallowing pills saved occasion occasion near future breathed word anyone therapist group councilors embarrassment efficiency if someone knew presumably would stand way afraid call councilor monday tell feel think im trying get attention believe all happened would probably put edge reason writing told councilor would call crisis line came chicken too im even sure want this ive read many pretty sure ive heard all,1
almost killed myselfi loaded ruger mm head cold barrel tempting wife would fine kids tells every day shit help way hate myself life joke thinking funeral today people would would wifes family would feel obligated people want day work paid day work everyone redflag living twelve pounds force trigger needs pulled put  lbs force mine close think ill start saving bullets see many times get close first time ive close like this tried hang tree limb broke ive also taken handful oxy ended throwing up documentary saw redflag forest japan base mt fuji bet view amazing ive always wanted go japan  one way ticket sound bad maybe ill go actually it,1
one asshole call older brother absolutely fucking sick him selfcentered insensitive narcissistic disrespectful irresponsible piece shit make cruel jokes others makes faulty actions denial brush laugh whereas anyone makes small mistake  especially mistakenly touch stuff   would yell shout aggressively putting rage people ego control take fucking blame also man child  year olds zero motivation ambition lazy fuck overweight skipped classes university got failed subjects went home sobbed first quit studying blame parents crap shit refuses grow he fucking regard peoples wellbeing i one taking shit younger brother thinks permisson yell face whenever angry even good reason takes pleasure  like said before making cruel jokes demeaning belittling others suffer most say one biggest blame mental issues like low selfesteem confidence makes fucking depressed right now quite sensitive person absorbs people energy really frustrated hurtful words long term problem unawared long time realize mental abuse things going bad meso got brawl hours earlier today attitude  completely denial action mistakenly spilled broth shouted me tolerating longit like outburst mine parents going come home later going act like victim hope words describe much cunt them sick narcissistic sibling,1
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i ve tried therapy i ve tried medication i know i m trying i quit nicotine i ate better and exercised i don t know what to do it s tiring living like this and having to do it alone i don t drink anymore and still feel the same i m too embarrassed to reach out i wasn t raised in a mental health conscious family i keep flaking on friend but it s because i m so tired man i don t know what to do i don t need anyones help i promise i m not a nice person who deserves it i don t know what to do anymore im just exhausted,1
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so in december i wa admitted to a mental hospital after developing psychosis i only had delusion no hallucination they ruled out schizophrenia and left it at marijuana induced i have a medical card although fitting the timeline i received a covid vaccine and wa hit hard with covid a week later right before all of this i did research into what other reason cause psychosis and covid and or the vaccine actually ha caused psychosis due to neurological damage from the virus i have always struggled with anxiety and have been on lexapro for the last year although nothing could prepare me for the withdrawal i had when stopping zyprexa i reached a point where i had an existential crisis which lead to existential depression while trying to recover i m a person who hyper fixates on thing so of course i couldn t stop thinking what s the point of doing anything i lost interest in literally everything i wa prescribed wellbutrin which helped me out of bed but did not let allow me to just relax outside of work i used to love movie video game etc now i can t even enjoy those thing without being in my head about how much i dislike everything i m curious though i m stopping wellbutrin today and have been switching over to buspar and lexapro combination while on wellbutrin i couldn t get drunk or high no matter how many shot 0 within a few hour i m definitely not going to continue that habit but wa curious if anyone else had this issue and did it resolve once stopping wellbutrin i don t mind living a simple life i have a good girlfriend good family good job and live in a small town in oklahoma i own a gym so some of my hobby are lifting weight and doing yoga but i can t obviously do that i need to be able to turn off my mind and watch some television or game i m hoping once i start being able to smoke again i ll be able to start enjoying the relaxation of video game and television also how is buspar tldr had psychosis developed existential depression on wellbutrin but i can t get high or drunk will that resolve when stopping also how wa buspar for your obsessive thought,1
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cant face family againi flunked college second time cant see recovering this everyone high school already graduated finding jobs cant even pass first year family doubt kick house this im looking methods cant help feel extremely sad leaving little brother behind loves love him ,1
loseshey past months ive lost things made identity live gone leave school financial reasons move back home best friend girlfriend  years separated completely fault wanted marry her im allowed near her cant even drive time license suspended bullshit law ive flashbacks sexual abuse kid mothers relationship isnt best feel completely alone even tho feel closer everyone love point life still feel really fuckin alone ya know focal point light life taken one one empty battle self harm daily basis cant even wear short sleeves outside work scars left ive never depressed entire life hurts light end tunnel turned giant forrest fire serious problems thats effect relationships im paying price alone  months ago never saw like this never saw license school studio friends girlfriend ive attempted slitting wrist didnt work idk dont trust alone support gone long time forever im point giving life trying kill again feel like burden pain everyone around me never enough wrong things stress people good intentions darker sides psyche get way abused emotionally neglected childhood feel like constantly fight demons adult life ive lost everything due fact ive abused others way ive abused isnt fair anyone ive tried hard change stop shitty person always always insecure ass loser im really interested living anymore due fact everyone everything left life fault fault understand need help serious help positive youtube video numb pain drugs sex years professional therapy want happiness back confidence self esteem live creativity girlfriend best friends money license freedom sense self attempted hang wasnt strong leather belt seconds broke fell floor im alive im sure else do want get better need get better ive depressed suicidal almost decade want breathe once childhood crushing weight im gasping air breathe itll okay youll fine cuz every time think itll okay im severely disappointed wish wasnt am im good people life lot people good me wish didnt let bad events manifest inside deeply are yes vague didnt want go much detail feel relief writing little since bottled up since im alive ill try best remain healthy mentally even tho easy wrong thing ignore problems want anything care back cant keep letting demons control me thanks rredflagwatch existing,1
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battling depression lonelyness suicidal thoughts redflag selfharm  years without ending sight finaly opend family willing go therapist two years would last days living disgusting existence searching ending horrendous live terrible afraid moment see new therapist hope turn first last post supreddit thank much showing never truely alone finaly getting help,1
want shoot facei always say make post either stop feeling suicidal feel unnecessary hate everything right now just hate hate live hate im doing hate much today work absolutely nothing hate nothing want kill myself get terrified prospect tried  right around time last year actually  failed however feeling euphoria got trying indescribable kept going weeks weeks afterwards happy tried live somewhere decent gun control laws id shot now know this high level concern actual methodology keeps considering methods fantasize stepping top parking garage think high enough kill me not want live horrible way would cost family lot money actually money right now got little manic overspent first week april month car insurance payment wiped money get paycheck friday many friends really wish people go things with miss friends high school would drop house say hey come us people seem that  never sex ive never even really dated anyone stupid want someone time get married kids someday ive never even dated chances point something horrible wrong me know people seem think im really strange sometimes therell someone likes me never someone like people like understand me seem interest romantically feel like paranoid freak want somebody anybody somebody love loves enough want keep around want discarded im bad friendships stuff people nearby me overthink things cant turn brain off want included seem like people interested including me think im badlooking fashion hairstyling things come naturally me know probably look good girls city im smart im usually pretty funny cant make stupid hair cant figure anything with ive gotten good fashion thing guess thats it reddit like site lot know everything else point im tired broke miserable,1
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life scares me cant stop thinking  know anyone theyd want want tohomelessness mistake accident illness away people almost every week battle deadend front line member staff trying assert miserable fucking right mine around corner disease ill fight get diagnosed treated battle another system full people hell autism low pain tolerance compounded effective lack compassion nhs shows people pain want wait im actually pain stuck hell prepared put that deserve right treatment also deserve right die pain living systems much,1
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i have never felt this feeling so strongly before like my borrowed time is up and my life is just a whisp away from being gone i feel like it s inevitable and i m almost at peace with it it s time i think and it ha been for so long,1
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venting bother readingive depressed long time now starting feel little better lately tonight however im feeling bad started wondering worth im  single living wellfare life actually came conclusion item appartment actually worked tv everything else either gifts stuff bought money people worked for taxmoney im nothing burden society im worthless piece trash accomplished anything life cost money resources even get better would reason anyone tell me whats reason keep living become productive member society fit in consume work  hours week earn money spend crap need make feel better ill still sitting alone every night staring monitor wondering life person would actually care live die mom friends would forget heartbeat family really care see hear family uncles aunts cousins nobody dads side family even want anything me repulsive  good friend thats it cant even talk problems serious trust issues want end im tired living im scared dying,1
feel different last time attemptedhello so wednesday overdosed went hospital tell anyone hospital  days afterwards people worried stuff obviously want tell want careworry uncle called day after said get sympathy said ever need help call theres anything need hell give me next day order somehttpwwwamazoncouklifeafterdeathelisabethkublerrossdprefsr__sbooksampieutfampqidampsrampkeywordsonlifeafterdeath bookshttpwwwamazoncoukdepressionworkbookguidelivingseconddpxrefsr__ieutfampqidampsrampkeywordsthedepressionworkbook amazon told uncle bought books would like reading more said you get computer get life experience find job instead so gonna lie im bit disheartened amount belittlement obviously sometimes life struggle me feel like ive enough thinking overdosing still pills used day know anymore feel like crying,1
people fragile think fragile scared things cry anything cry also move on scared things try overcome fears mean fragile people take everything personally accept opinions etc example twitter creatures,0
offensive joke scroll youre truth like people virgina vigins people hungary ravenous people turkey turkeys disguised humans avoid thanksgiving likewise spanish snakes pain canadians tin cans aids japanese real spanish people whove fled sad snakes tried laugh panty jokes china wanted included chimed big continent theyre famous portugal full pilot seagulls guatemalans love eat guacamole watching mulan guate movie is russians tight schedule must rush rush fast thailand land kinks india jojo fan decided live fantasy land female version dio australia decided better us left without trail hence theyre upside down argentina really worshipping site pirate gen z named tina founders belgium love spongebob favorite character plankton hide fact ring bell time chum brazil kink country sick people person named italy bad accents tried say leach people mistook name country afganistan stans afros want bring back again dennis marked territory directly denmark bangladesh food kink tell need more im way tired awake rn,0
wanted another child much lifei  kids ex wanted another one ididnt longest time time went clock started ticking year since past since left still want another child dot want multiple baby mommas dont wamy kids half brothers sisters wanted normal life normal mom dad living together dream shattered life shattered crying type this every night feel like getting closer finally getting ablity ignore fear end lifei hurt mentally physically emotionally right lower leg hurting weeks point lay couch crying heart hurts much hurting bad think maybe miniature heart attacks hope every day heart attack wont call  feelings trash try meet women force like someone else real wish would talk me wont hate life done it every day slip closer ending life want end it keep thinking committing crime killed cop dont want earth anymore sad part thought dying makes happy finally get happy think times skirted death wonder why survived ramstein airshow crash caught falling cliff checking castles germany barely missing car wrecks why live life pain dont want live pain want happiness watching smaillville type this watching marriage couples scripted tv course id kill fake relationship her dont cant anyone else right ill die alone ill die without true love die thinking her,1
trying win white mans game heart intact dollar dream really kind hard sleep thoughts streets,0
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curse this planet curse that most woman want an above average penis size curse most woman enjoy above average size curse i can t do anything to change mine curse i will always be inferior and never satisfy anyone fully curse that life made my life hopeless from the day i wa born curse people who get mad at me for giving up when there literally nothing i can do curse the people who dont take my problem seriously curse this planet i will go kill myself now,1
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it s been over two year since i had a real suicidal drive and made a plan to kill myself it is coming back i file like at the drop of a hat the most important person in my life my great and sweet girlfriend might not care about me anymore she know she ha to go to therapy to manage her strong emotion and to sort out many thing inside of her but every time we re close to getting help she back down it s been really hard on me i feel really worthless i feel like the only way to help is to stop being a nuisance the feeling of dread and misery is returning and it s tough i know this is fucking stupid and minor anyone active here and reading this probably ha real problem and maybe i should go vent somewhere else but i m just scared that the thought are coming back that those scary dark thought are actually back in my head,1
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sure im pregnant kill myselfno one probably care thought might help reach out  year old female missed period honestly dont understand itspossibke didnt get semen  says pregnant cant go parents idk ill even abortion already stressed enough school im academic magnet program hate honestly hate life im looking way out maybe pregnancy that ive depressed since ive  suicidal long time planning killing  feel like maybe shouldve  life hasnt gotten better im going feel rest life id rather die ,1
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bruh rn dude like told look like mr e scooby doo mystery inc im gonna fuckin go postal stg,0
idk what to do i dont wan na live but i dont wan na live either wtf should i do,1
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bad dayim terrible week wanted talk nice people relationship trouble job bright future nobody talk to honestly hurtful thing relationship feel like torn apart girlfriends parents still young early twenties different tracks life she goes top university community college student parents concern drag daughter might right weve dating two years always promised would something great life wanted firefighter want microbiologist problem see trying agree well blame her feel like everything futile life like nothing matters want get shit together want able succeed feel like cant im tired im tired trying fucking hard world nothing matters guess im intune society everyone else need newesthottest clothes need mansion servants nice shiny sports car feel like need someone loves me want help others part make world beautiful place live in want good husband son father friend brother desires disappear world go be good person fuck everyone else im get mine guess know want fit in thanks listening,1
anyone else absolutely hate situation mean getting scolded parents remaining calm trying explain everything time finally getting annoyed situation exact second turn theyre calm nowhere trying act like nothing happened getting even angry annoyed get instantly happy like second ago,0
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I'm so addicated to Twitter..  Mom just left to go to a special event her friend is hosting.. Home alone.,0
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depressed disappointedim seventeen years old feel like life going want it people always tell good am rhchaotic handsome youre smart rhchaotic life ive believed jumped hoops maintain status wear expensive clothing keep groomed keep grades up take college level classes etc yet enough find difficult bond people hard make friends hell people school try avoid talking noticing me probably think im awkward asshole ive thinking maybe im smart everyone thinks im handsome ive looked ways able connect attract people theyve failed ive decided im good enough this feel mind failing me cant focus anything anymore causing grades slip memory getting worse forgetting things happened mere seconds ago refuse become idiot id soon kill myself im good enough anyone im good enough myself whats point living one family wants around you end this want make things clear stated title im depressed least think am im disappointed whats become me mind good was attractive people certainly show ive started consider redflag more maybe theyll care im dead worry impressing anyone anymore id free,1
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two nfts worth 0k now worth 00 i m slowing sliding into depression,1
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excellent movie made even fact wife stumbled onto serendipitously channel surfing nice frozen day north texas kathy bates usual best leading cast normal human costar characters thru one wonderful feel good movies weve ever seen movie given attention deserved release  difficult understand head shoulders many boring pieces trash released greater fanfare attention evident viewing obvious general public forcefed deemed great wonderful powerful influential true gems unconditional love manage shine thru pretenders really enjoyable cinema rent buy movieyou regret it,0
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i do not want to wake up tomorrow,1
well final wordsi know simple way die without anything harmful myself dialing number curse eventually die afterwards keypad im ready push shiny green button hoax ill disappointed never prove kill call it so might final words im bitch bye,1
sure doi tried self harming last night go knife blunt currently seeing psych since start year feel helping much probably late switch psychs medicare subsidises number consultations per year lot lack self confidence self worth feel like useless bit background myself  hold numerous university degrees psych education criminology struggling find employment work dead end job supermarket hate place treated supportive girlfriend asks help honestly know help feel useless dragging down family make token efforts towards usually monetary support receive them really want comparison hearing actually like love something anything positive myself currently given hope life finding meaningful employment know do,1
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someone please explain everything hurts time hurts fucking much scars count times tried feel something everything screaming loud cannot hear think want stop please make stop want help want pain stop,1
think tried hang myselfi know happen ive depressed anxious stressed months now today particular ive extremely down way worse today anyway know it like acting impulse think all happening stopping it nowhere grabbed phone charger one super long ft phone cables tied shitty noose went closet looped end around weights top shelf tied it put noose end lowered relaxed choking decided want anymore tried stand couldnt heart beating fast legs shaky finally got grip stood took noose off walked closet like nothing happened,1
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honestly i just need someone to talk to this ha been the worst month of my life im holding back tear just typing this because it feel like im getting closer to the end because i never ask for help i wa homeless for year with bed bug now i have a voucher so i live in a place now and im safe i just feel bad complaining abut this because it feel like i dont appreciate it and because ive been by myself my whole life it make everything so much harder because when thing go bad im on my own and im just tired of it i met this girl recently that we both practically fell in love with eachother instantly pale blonde brazillian girl she wa super sweet she might be bipolar to because this shit blew up in both our face within a span of a couple day also earlier this month a meth head tried to take my phone the bitch at the ssi building tried to 0 me then a dog bit me all in the same day but i wa chillin i recovered almost instantly but thing like family argument or the situation with this girl leave me feeling so upset for so long and dont get it im just tired of feeling sad i dont wan na feel like this anymore,1
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smart isnt blessing fucking curse one second youre taking iq test next youre mostly ap classes sophomore year high school shit sucks miss free time id yall people help them cant that much homework im done it time go school and get homework fucking hate this want quit school isnt beneficial makes depressed wtf wrong education system,0
whyim breaking point mentally emotionally physically school relationships health appearance habits room terrifying disgusting blight look at energy clean up want to think time it skin ruined forever thanks compulsive picking oil glands confused pores huge scarred skin dry acneridden nothing fix it perfect ruined it gpa  falling made  sats come this skipped everything midterm last semester  weeks semester ive skipped week completely  days one class particular im diagnosed handful mental disorders fear experienced first psychoticschizoid break im sure evidence strong terrified never believed god afterlife ive never tried take life ending life would end suffering merely ensure family suffered absence know believe now believe universe im tired planet want set consciousness free mortal coils,1
good lasted go alright turn  five days figured id say words teenage years ill never return never get try again got many things way teen im glad jump hurdle adult came parents trans little three years ago dad started use chosen name big step graduated high school something saw near unnatainable goal kid fell love got hurt fell love learned importance loving relationship learned importance trust loyalty am school done teenage years moving new chapter life strange think mom age born teen years amazing lived lowtomiddleclass family afford lot always best parents always wanted best me even methods made fking sense sometimes advice everyone younger me burn bridge family almost turned  im glad didnt ive got  year old brother im glad im going around see grow up miss teenage years im glad experienced them im glad two three good friends stuck years im glad learned learned finally im glad shit over farewell teenage years ill remember bittersweet nostalgia fondly,0
And I was the sober one and having more fun than anyone. Thats how I roll- life of the party style!!! ,0
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ha anyone been prescribed mirtazapine or other alpha receptor antagonist to treat their anxiety i would prefer not to use start with ssri s what wa you experience,1
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prescribed something overdose guarantee death today im worried ill itim terrified ill swallow whole bottle moment despair subject loved ones seizures death drawn week,1
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find motivation severre depressioneveryday radical mood swings go content wanting die really getting much tips,1
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see lot yall asking somebody close suicidal thoughts answer them make sure know positively impact life crush suicidal thoughts maybe go it give self esteem boost love them youre going something similar talk problems makes feel safe opening theirs talk think theyre gonna great future coming someone wishes friends lost friendcrush redflag id like think know thing two,0
"i was @ the beach yesterday with my friends, after 4 years i haven't been there. it was fun!  the waves were great ;)",0
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excellent film no mel gibson braveheart then trying be actually the emperor assassin probably thankfully common shakespearean production hollywood blockbusterbr br in third century bc king qin attempting unite in words conquer seven kingdoms china already overthrown kingdom han needs excuse invade kingdom yanbr br this lady zhao comes in king friends since childhood obviously much love cannot marry political reasons together devise plot pretend fallen disfavor king escape yan convince prince yan send assassin back kill king assassination fails king excuse invade yanbr br once yan however lady zhao begins reconsider hearing seeing examples old childhood friends ruthlessness begins wonder king may need assassinated realbr br one sure sign watching hollywood production final encounter king assassin unlike hollywood movie hero villain clearly defined final outcome already predetermined fight could truly go either waybr br this well crafted well acted story tumultuous time chinese history mixture incredible beauty incredible ugliness beautiful all however gong li lady zhao grow convinced every time see gong li beautiful woman worldbr br i must say however one unintentionally funny line film early gong li asks one servants do beautiful facebr br duh,0
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im gunna die youngive always know id die young im really thinking taking bunch sertraline overdosing thing holding back family feel like death key truly happy hate myself hate situation hate everything want put misery please,1
sitting car contemplatingon whether not drive erratically interstate crash median take life raining end ill turn traction control see happens,1
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Just got home from hanging with Tyler and the guys in NYC  tired as helllllll,0
bitch fiending rn also unrelated yall know feeling random trauma surfaces lmaoo shit sucks,0
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note good enough need opinion sympathy attempts stop mei know never enough anyone though really try seemed like matter continually fucked up could never make anyone proud love me always disappointment everyone met terrible father tried know how wanted different felt like child swore would never kids end perpetuated feelings inadequacy pain felt xxxxxxxxxxx amazing special person ever wasted every second it knowing hell always hate hurts know luckily turned amazing influence own hope carry torch speak much offer world xxxxxxxx came life another truly unique incredible person felt like second chance possibly child hate look resentment sadly disappointment squandered chance again like xxxxxxxxx was young realize poor parent person am grew understand one day too like act like mistakes led this really end day im failure person empty shell someone be ill never anyone ill never really loved anyone kind tolerated hate myself know one meet could possibly love me im black hole nothingness lead nowhere good best thing anyone world cease exist cause nothing pain suffering wake least im gone pain eventually fade everyone around like deserve ill forgotten entirely im sorry you really tried wanted good person know how failed every attempt change maybe old adage true cant teach old dog new tricks however could simply ever learn tricks failure child failure adult ever wanted better better enough worth anything speck insignificance creator would put someone path boggles mind though maybe piece garbage could graduated past piece garbage ill never anything hurt disappoint you best thing life forget me im sure easier possibly imagine im sorry more im sorry failed over really wanted make proud me im worthless disappear quickly came feel bad cant save worth saving worth time energy always lost cause better burn fade away ill never lit first place hope carry forward feel fulfilled happy loved thats wanted always want world better place without someone flawed me wish could am love xxxxxxxx,1
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the worst part of anxiety and panic attack for me is the sense of impending doom it s the worst feeling in the world it s like your body trying to make you feel bad about your hypothetical death i can t sleep because i feel like i m living through my last minute on earth even though i know it s probably not the case not gon na lie not fun,1
way start well  year old male thoughts every fucking day get gun shoot injure myself course life rough  fall mega christian church completely fucked life making religious subreddit first religion made happy exploited music back ground dining playing guitar bass electric guitar drums etc talented touched instrument months well would serve church everyday joke cuz service everyday even getting paid wanted thought serving lord job fast forward drained want fucking blow brains tell take break say leave turning back god left turned back spoke since beliefs god dead probably borderline atheist fear going hell stops wanting end way miss old church life gave false hope depressing happy thankfully got health insurance want get therapy psychiatry help adhere feelings yeah venting feelings incase anyone gone friends high expectations hate live day day yes thank listening wanting die constantly mind,1
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students lil cousins kids worked withworking guys probably one best parts life say guys keep guys safe happy all little turds helped helped bet made feel like worth something like purpose sort of shit job would able make feel safe happy could manage make smile laugh felt least accomplished something guys always joy around honest sure knew drive crazy sometimes bet guys intentionally trying make upset still loved like little siblings maybe thats good teacher view students like part family well guys never read sure pray dont actually almost none read worries eh quite sure already forgotten since got fired since longer want work church either rely bunch little kids feel belong planet truth is guys make feel important even though truly believed worthless maybe worthless considering keep getting fired nearly every job get oh well know least able make guys happy sometimes feel safe times suppose good something every then none remember know happened me thats good miss guys constantly sucked every time one moved away cousins miss guys time time really wish could spend time yall guys always fun around know writing this sad many things really intended anyone even cousins students sorta rambling now want friend back miss much friends meant world like students did lost many them fuck even saying anymore writing want die hate myself writing deleting things hour believe probably mess fuck it posting mess want die bad,1
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i just want this pain to stop and i don t know if it s my fault that i am the way i am so maybe i deserve this feeling maybe this is my punishment for being a bad person i have a fear of my parent touching me and most people would think that s ridiculous it s ocd and it s killing me i don t live with them anymore but every time they ask to see me i wish i could stop existing i feel like a bad person for wanting to avoid them even if they gave me trauma so maybe this is what i deserve maybe it s all because of me i wish i wasn t like this i wish i didn t have to be alive i m ready to go,1
cant make dreams reality continue onthere zero benefits late bloomer graduating late especially chose wrong field marriage statistics show best time get married  httpsifstudiesorgblogwanttoavoiddivorcewaittogetmarriedbutnottoolong problem woman wants marry man make money yes money important thing world almost  still solid career direction engineering degree useless since worked engineer almost  years internship couldnt find engineering position graduation makes think find one  years later fresh graduates even went debt graduate degree  time graduate since takes lot time find right woman far late thats good field get saturated semblance hope miracle happen someone give chance time realize could easily fail achieve dream beautiful wife suburban neighborhood full caring loving people,1
like show comeon writers get action it quit dragging on great concept could whole lot more miles jenkins great performs kid age act situation finds in hey get creative creatures may telepathic capabilities outworldly powers kid actors series good convincing parents miles appear little outofsense going on develop this come on great seed whole new twist next season lot new characters creatures kinds neat scifi stuff could make series witch able make one creatures kids,0
moved young life experiences man rose high academic world hard life surrounded love close family extended family companion workers created person able succeed world part hispanic culture shown always observed admired  hardworking optimistic truly family oriented points religious superstition quite authentic catholic church without doubtthe actress played mother deserves academy award prayers missing son moved tears recommend stunningly thoughtful film friends family,0
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want talk physical person thingsthe minutes counting down first attempt seeking someone talk face face probably last attempt anyone tempescottsdale area id like hear you want say hour post able respond reddit keeps post blocking me oh well give hour posting time,1
currently  am work  hours know do much pain cannot cry express want cut actually feel something trying tell family friends need help falling deaf ears cannot fucking stop acting like okay just tired think gotten better not scared one day going give thoughts terrified going lose job go work tomorrow mess do work medical environment think safe anyone mental state lack sleep need help able sleep past three days feel numb like going cave,1
@iKniter Oh she'll definitely be featuring in the mix multiple times ,0
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@chrisvanb heck yes! She hates the stuff anyway so she doesn't have a say in what I buy. ,0
me and my mates are gunna chekk out a movie next week..i really want to see the boat that rocked. ,0
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therealsir ambassador dick s go legend during the depression when all else suck ish,1
Dunno why we played for 12 hours - steve already knows I won't be beat.  Stopped bc I had appt. Fucking tired but clawed up enuf to split,0
i ve never been so fucking miserable in my entire life i quit my job last week and i m failing school and want to drop out for the rd time i have no money and i m disgusting and i have no worth in this shitty world i m tired and i can t even get out of bed i don t have any energy to do anything and i want to die fuck everything and goodbye,1
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hey i posted a question here a while ago but no one answered i don t know if maybe my question got private it or something i don t think it broke any rule it s just that i m afraid death will leave you conciouss until you decompose or get cremated or that you ll suffocate due to not breathing do we know that being dead mean you re definitely unconscious,1
sometimes i have strong emotion when i think about thing that happened in my life and how fcked up my life is since when i wa a kid till now and it seems that my life is ment to be doomed and sometimes i tell myself that i m tired of feeling emotion and i wish that i m completely numb to it sometimes i succeed to be emotionless to these feeling and sometimes it overwhelms me i m not sure what s wrong with me is it depression is it something else idk anymore,1
@gerardway I can't waight  till the new albam is out  you guys saved my life you rock,0
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need helpim honestly quite new depressed ive depressed since february came really bad wave im sure became depressed did late february made first attempt bu drowning told newly made best friend hour later said would always support me was one point july become much though said couldnt deal anymore causing much stress life respected stopped relying her mid august made next attempt od went bed woke sick didnt tell one while finally mid september said wished told sooner couldve prevented it on began get better ive really well today ive known trendy political views im total conservative california last saturday fucked made post thats downright horrible today got call hss vice principal somebody apparently reported me said go saying things like did ill expelled really bad anxiety ill expelled really bad  gpa cant lose that ive put life school cant expelled cant ive talking bestie says im fault wont even acknowledge anxiety says fault shes person talk problems about doesnt even care said really offensive general ive always never knew think im terrible asshole feel alone nobody support im lost  hours plan take knife arteries want send bestie text saying much ill miss her fear shell call help im gone,1
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opened papers folders today saw drawing hot guy hot girl made remembered last year tryna figure bi bi know figured drawings well anime big part whatever thats it thank reading like ducks,0
"2day was terrible but napped, showered, and now I'm drinking coffee in the car listening to bright eyes. Checkmate depression aha",1
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feeling really really ill,0
grown hate everyone cannot care them care fuck i deserve awful depressing lives well wish dumped jobs fired wish parents friend family would abandon them want anything good anymore want others hurt like have earn good things shitty self centered ppl would ruin wish everyone ik would drop dead,1
point im even trying anymorei really hate reddit place vent anyone know cares check me use friend ok everyone point cant even talkto anyone cant even convey thoughts online always feel im judged days since last ate anything think deserve even here want dissappear somewhere else voices head getting louder would shut room days hate people know saying sad  depressed know might seems like im invalidating people feelings knowing really make feels like crap ive tried open feelings people one wants anymore everyone better without me hate heart beat faster whenever im crowd hands always sweaty lips always dry worthless people eyes also hate cant sleep many time would wake middle night reason hate short fat ugly whenever im everyone else hate every moment breathing im waste space,1
lol. i just realized my room has a color theme. green is definitely growing in on me. go green! hahaha. i still love purple though! ,0
nach jahren die ich mit einem narzissten einem mann dem alles egal war und jemandem mit depression verbracht habe wird mir immer klarer da ich absolut keine vorstellung davon habe wie eine sichere vertrauens und liebevolle beziehung eigentlich aussehen sollte,1
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let me start by saying i am in the same boat a all of you i wish i could help you all but i can t sadly about me when i wa 9 something clicked and i started to view the world a a negative place the realization of not being able to form genuine friendship my friend dying and my father not really being there for u this sent me into a depression which i am still in today i won t lie i think about suicide quite often but i control myself by distracting myself with other activity instead of letting the thought get to me all they are are thought and they have become a coping mechanism i have gone through a few therapist and psychiatrist too although i stopped my ssri and adhd med when i wa i then became quite angry knowing there is no escape the day blended together day after day rotting away i became angry with myself and others and became very angry at others and closed minded in no way am i telling you to do anything i wa in a funk this winter and a friend of mine happened to have a gel tab of lsd and i asked to buy it later that night i took it and hopped on discord with a good friend of mine who also ha some of the same stuff going on a me and ha done mushroom so we relate well it wa unexplained the most beautiful feeling i have ever felt to explain it for someone who hasn t done psychedelics it the feeling that you are part of a bigger picture and that every moment ha lead up to this you are loved i am you and you are me i am still having a hard time putting it into word i laughed the hardest i had ever laughed and then realized what life is and started to get in my feeling and cry i cried for a while and hard too and then i thought the situation wa funny and started laughing again because i know wherever i end up i will make it and that life is such a beautiful thing not to be wasted or taken for granted i then went on to trip more time on lsd and twice on mushroom i am not saying go do psychedelics but for me they have done more than ssri ever did for me in the course of a night the feeling of having a clear place in the universe and being able to question with such a reduced sense of fear is amazing the feeling of going with the flow and seeing where life take you is a liberating feeling we were put here to love one another not kill ourselves and waste potential here are my final thought do your research before doing any psychedelic because if you take ssri it could mess you up real bad also i truly believe psychedelics are the way of the way of the future i still have depression yet it is a lot easier to cope with and feel a sense of calmness instead of absolute terror about whatever you are facing know that whatever is bringing you down i love you and the universe doe too you were put here to serve a a part of a much bigger picture just a small piece of a puzzle learn to love yourselves and others and peace will come to you in all aspect of life,1
ask people suicidal thoughts much go hospital like everyday feel like ill take life everyday new way id go it find hard look rope hold knifes cooking feel like ill stab least cut more talk doctor everything every week twice week seems going something get put hospital i going anything point writing  feels like venting maybe really think scale suicidal thoughts tendencies id place high anyway wonder still alive want never wanted be think one time woke said loud happy alive everyday wake usally say alive come meee hospital times terrible mainly involuntary think voluntary probably would better wonder alive point others humans needed world world matter think humans commit mass suicide everyone pops pill government hands take day time outside public place ofc shutdown nuclear plants anything else could mass destruction maybe buy gun run around shooting killing people someone shoots me going die id take many people animals could well anyway question much sense suicidal thoughts go hospital much question venting,1
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want someone something know herei cant take crushing loneliness anymore friends family im sick work stare four walls day anything else fills horror going anyone finds me remember last time even conversation good place leave note universe saying here may defective human unit still felt something brief period here,1
idioti think idiot could well darwin awards nominee couple years ago arrived canada intention study university get degree new environment homesickness depression cultural differences long desired freedom countless reasons hindsight smart sounding excuses created changes plans first year uni got drugs alcohol parties nothing serious drugs alcohol wise end year certain gonna make second year would leave canada go back home didnt want that like complete idiot simply said parents everything fine still studying  years kept saying lie reality lived canada without visa without degree without desire change things lived alone rented apartment reading novels watching films basically unproductive antisocial waste simply didnt think consequences didnt care would end up even right care much happen imagining mom makes feel immense guilt things ive done less year ago started translating novels native language english fun ended earning bit it last something started going life started cleaning habits recently reminded passport soon expire knowing do honest options quite limited come clean get deported create another convoluted disgusting lie got passport renewed live without passport illegal immigrant go full hollywood style get fake passport even seriously contemplated redflag solution one hand truly dont want face consequences actions hand something finally started make sense life sure chance go back time wouldnt happened wouldnt lie parents living life disgusting parasite hurting them living without direction desire regret last  years life go back hometown would probably face jail time draft dodging that honest writing everything right made realize dont want go back home face parents option right seems whole lot appealing logical right thing do even eating bullet know cowards way but,1
know people could understand me people busy life trying reach dreams learning improving spend time friends love ones focus trying find ways end life try remember peoples names try make lot friends study hard compete fun friends could remember teachers name even places  people met bother remember thinking would useless wanted die anyways twenties times feel better wanted go forward cannot know live like normal human being feel like know anything wasted years life learning life wanted live sometimes cannot know how feel like alien seeing people try mimicking things even though cannot fully understandi different sole purpose die everyone else wants live live,1
i am so tired. going for a shower then to bed..  NIGHT!  oh and its so cool that @metrostation is here in the phils. yay! haha ),0
question asking myself months underage less  think asked fricking question live mom two sisters dad live another country another family care asking that one sisters  years old said when wad  big baby needed suck problems grow up adults do  fvck want act like adult  little sister admired it sister  years old one really talking to age difference interest book anime japan culture started talking together sincerelly regret it thinks older me mom scolding something wrong that think it way much example one day best friend home noise drinking chocolate milk smashed head cup started crying bleeding friend told exagerating say sorry help no think right thing cared example  started fighting verbally pinned sofa hurting shoulders pushed stomach cn go room there sis  literally started beating up till floor crying screaming stop  hurts  stop fucking beating  sis  said stop  get physical  one pushing sofa called mom said want know anything example  yesterday  july  playing fortnite cousin  stepsis  used curse know sarcastic said shut f step sis syam  yo big sis name started yelling do talk like that like xas talking ti bitch said things like y responding because conversation works end said to think friend like well pick people petsonnality friend but since wanted finish argument said uh  smashed head switch playing with screaming what wrong  pushed stomch crazy would go away conclusion scratch face maybe keep ever yesterday that scarified myself  days it care mark fact would want face hurts tried end life multiple times since  first time person family rped me since cannot feel pleasure life even forgive person still horrible me sexuality problem mom said you lucky accept you like think accept me kid  people get kicked out guess lucky gender problem identify genderfluid person hehim pronous one love even use pronous even it problem need smile always even eating mom said exact wordssmile said smile  ugh  smile  like unhappy either  even reason hapoy smile  well reason smile happy anything except eating  last least asked never asked born live mother go see friends go someone birthday live feed house go school asked things one go see therapist asked it asked three time even said yes anything so supposed i supposed smile  supposed stay mom fighted years even care mental health well  supposed let sisters hit me years older  supposed things cannot even take care  supposed ,1
"@ryantufo Yep, PS2, I'm replaying it, my favorite is KH2.  I'm avoiding homework to play, save that for tomorrow ",0
@radiogrinch ??????? ,0
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congrats to steve stricker! my fave pga player and man from my home town!! ,0
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georgeruiz unfortunately one of those moment wasn t a giant squid monster,0
i am not sure if this is the right place for it but last friday one of my classmate told me jokingly to jump out of a window she ha been doing that joke for over a month i ve had it up to here so i said i d blow my head off on the weekend i tried to hurt myself and went to the emergency room on monday they prescribed me some lexapro and i went home relieved that i finally got some help half an hour after i returned home cop stormed my apartment saying they received a hint from the school that i wa gon na hurt myself and they searched my whole apartment for a gun which i don t have so they obv didn t find one and restrained me they then took me to the same hospital i wa at just half an hour ago and i spoke to the psychiatrist there again who told the police i am not a threat to myself or someone else so they let me go again during that they took my phone and it ran out of battery and i didn t have access to it for like hour or more during that time two of my classmate messaged me asking why i blocked them and they attacked me not knowing my phone ran out of battery and that s why i didn t answer they then blocked me and i explained to them on instagram what happened and they read it but didn t care apparently my classmate apparently told our headmaster they were worried and then he called the police i am getting the proper help from all of my teacher and my headmaster and i have an appointment with our school psychiatrist soon it s just that this whole police incident ha left me panicking and cry when i see a police officer car and everytime someone with heavy boot walk on my apartment floor i sit up thinking the police will come back again i also can t sleep properly and can t distract myself because i keep having horrible flashback of the scene when the police stormed in which leaf me breaking down it left me broken traumatized overwhelmed and desperate because i don t know what to do on top of that my classmate all blocked me are ignoring me and not even looking at me talking about being worried and not even one person asked me if i wa alright or how i wa doing i am considering going back to the emergency room and talking to the same psychiatrist from before but it s not really an emergency you know sorry if this text is long i am just overwhelmed and don t know what to do anymore all i know is i am traumatized a fuck and broken what should i do someone please assure me that everything is gon na be okay because at this point all my hope ha left me,1
wish everyone else hated much dothen id feel less bad killing myself ive come close finally ending many times theres always tiny bit doubt mind says things might get better know thats wrong though need find way squash thought im fucking sick alive cant look mirror seeing disgusting face makes want vomit thatd probably good though im stupid control eating lose weight normal way somehow managed land decent job fully expect lose lazy ass never time desperately need job help pay husbands medication even goodrx  month need get away toxic shit family fuck anything everything ever touch school grades abysmal getting fucking  taking  classes could gotten  higher id turned assignments time or all nope stupid lazy that cant even kill right last time tried need stiches blood transfusion tried slit wrists know better cut though maybe ill able something right life once practicing cutting deeper too hit fat yet im working pain tolerance fucking existing painful me every minute breath reminds dead pulled god damn trigger chance hate much im complete utter failure understand friends have anyone else life put me nothing useful give them im funny advice give cant help problems absolutely worth human whatsoever feel like really matter time say fuck try slit wrists again really close today lost nerve better yet wait till first paycheck two comes leave husband something hell point id enough money go buy cheap gun know store nearby sells pistols around  least wasting much money death fuck it im going give tuesday morning week try something right cant know cant ill kill then id monday morning cast one arm blocks access wrist could keep rambling much shitty person am ill cut short here sorry taking space feed,1
school's canceled... bummer. but its also okay. ,0
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support chat group availablei always suicidal thoughts im actively suicidal speak wanted know know support group thats chat based im already therapy enough ive tried cups feel problems bit dark reply appreciated hope everyone reading gets better,1
waiting die nothingi stopped eating drinking yesterday ive given up bored isolation watching civilization implode tried reach friends soon opened little dark place pulled away one cares deleted social media least get crushed hope researching methods weeks seem messy came across vsed meant old people still work im passing time laying bed mind body shuts good im sorry too,1
"@Shaebaby09 my niece's friend, now I feel bad when I think about him.  I'll reclaim him after the shock dies down. lol ",0
Its so hot.... I love it ,0
Doing homework on a Friday night...and not even complaining ,0
allowed posti posted hour half ago nothings showing up moderation sorry ignore test post see shows up ill delete see showing up,1
kill myselfpeople think im dangerous live want trust im afraid going hold grudge me want friends girl home keep trying assign diagnoses without psychologist dont agree make feel bad,1
sad years therapy worked im interfering parents success happiness even first place,1
know created post please talk random stuff,0
"good morning  it's #followfriday! @afinefrenzy, @tfln and @mkald (because she's a twitter virgin)",0
cant stop screwing familys lifetoday got car accident think anybody hurt physically fault insurance damages excess  partys vehicle alone even though damage purely cosmetic finally managed pay speeding ticket last month  medical disorder keeps working many kinds retail laborintensive job besides traditional office jobs due age lack experience office work kinds places interested me spouse stuck working long hours make fact im piece crap cant even kick jewelry business ive trying get running years now ive contemplating ending life since even got together always thinking nice would alive since day turned thirteen middle traumatic relationship im approaching twentyfive twelve years ive countless abusive relationships scared alone stayed anybody gave kind attention ive miscarried two children biggest achievement graduated high school eleventhhighest gpa fifty people ive never college applied accepted even genuinely wanted go dreams aspirations life im damned letdown act small good thing happens theres always massive bad incident waiting right around corner good stopped outweighing bad long time ago cant even successfully lose weight without falling stairs breaking ankle two weeks diet workout regimen want end it stop screwing life husband daughter car insurance  life insurance policy make look like accident somehow theyll still get money plus deal constantly messing making lives much harder be first thing ive done right decade,1
@kdelarue going to? already has. please don't add to the noise ,0
"@mydc no, it'll lay eggs in ur mom ",0
feel like cry that s how sick i feel,0
she asked me to go out and do thing outside of school which i don t do often she s so nice and cool and creative and i care fo her so much but i feel like i should just leave her alone im such a terrible person ive done and said so much messed up stuff and if she knew who i really wa she would hate me im a fucking shit head emotional manipulator i cut my arm and palm to shit just hoping that she would notice and comfort me or tell me to stop and she didn t notice and now i want to cut myself more for being an idiot and thinking i could get someone to care for me by ruining myself she d probably be disgusted by my scar anyway i wish i could go to therapy or get help but i can t and at this point i feel awful all the time and i just can t do it anymore im gon na kill myself soon probably this year whenever i fuck up to the point all my inhibition about death are gone thank you to the people that dm d me on my last post i didn t respond to one of you but i appreciate it,1
idea im started discord server idea im server about chill stuff guess also hentai server need help gotten dm interested,0
secretly wish got universe id love pet dragon name barbecue,0
rewind  isnt happening year would put it im thinking making one something free time dont really know put it obviously unus annus also think jacksucksatlife cheating way play button else,0
lets take moment appreciate online friend shocking sometimes makes think holy shit beautiful person actually likes  wow cant six months felt like years since met you really amazing find people like online make feel happy anyone else can shocking people far way make feel safe family hope anyone friend way across globe cherish friend reading thank much ill always matter what homo tho marry want,0
telling crush like tomorrow ahh nervous one friends ive liked weeks advice would appreciated,0
haven t written here in a long time let myself believe i wa getting better but seems like it s all just a scam i just wish i had my escape route open we shifted a few month ago and now my escape hatch is gone too,1
is hoping someone wont check their twitter so I can surprise them later today ,0
life overive thoughts urges last month so bipolar went meds consultation psychiatrist due covid pretty isolated kept working out more months later ive destroyed body due overtraining future wellfailed attempt start college again ive started medication again seems hopeless do,1
redflaghello reddit thinking while finally pushed self post this  year old male turn   days now life best worst want talk about want talk is redflag views redflag this like playing game using cheat skip end completed it soon forget entire thing entire time spent playing would pointless constant suicidal thoughts plan enough emotional physical strength bring self it life driven wrong direction good parts left behind future looks bleak best miserable depressed social anxiety constant anxiety attacks ripping emotional strength left get by depression social anxiety bad parts life make think redflag fact see point life see point living lost even live happy life end pointless one day everyone forgotten everything becomes pointless live fear one day soon get tipping point go ahead plans thought post get peoples views mind constantly taunting thoughts feel pointless life nothing help reddit used scared suicidal thoughts longer fear them really consider them tldr hard time getting life view life pointless thing suicidal thoughts longer scare honestly consider going them edit views life want anyone read agree me personal thing feel way please comment maybe help,1
@thinkmaya Get on stage and go O-H-I-O!  #lamebuckeyepride,0
jonnypotter the simpson on demand thing doesn t work in the uk,0
a few year ago there wa a pretty big hurricane that went straight through our city and i thought i wasn t affected by it until i started noticing that i get super anxious when it start to rain really hard or there s a lot of wind i noticed this bc i used to love the rain and now i start to shake when it happens anyway i m writing this because it s currently pretty windy maybe 0 mph my anxiety is already spiking because of that but i just checked the weather and saw that tornado were possible for the south aka where i live they kept saying possible not likely not low just possible so now i m terrified that the worst will happen our roof will blow off something my mom said she wa scared would happen during the hurricane and i ve remember that moment ever since our power will go out a tornado will end up forming etc the gust of wind alone are putting me on the verge of a panic attack and this weather wind cloud possible thunderstorm is supposed to go on for most of the week i feel like this is irrational but like i said i can t help but feel my heartbeat go up every time i hear the wind,1
thinking leavinggetting things heading alone far walk elements inevitably kill me always thought im seriously contemplating spent majority money month gambling suffer porn addiction gambling addiction im debt paid certain debts months bad arthritis everywhere body got treatment really hurt itll come back day rapid mood changes dark thoughts  sudden urges harm harm people hate body hate personality hate everything really maybe ill head woods hang days cold kills,1
ive really turbulent month unexpected bills trouble old landlord resulted almost minus account almost rice feed myself moved got scammed deposit landlord still awaiting buy new things aswell take care sick mate would really appreciate help could feed upcoming time sure offer much return except utmost gratitude though tell need anything might able help really last resort me food banks nearby family could get help unfortunately thanks advance reading cheers location denmark,0
always faulthello past never really someone talk to even still hard talk people problems instead ill post relieve sort burden eating past years born parents families mom  sons dad  children though mom dads family shattered met  year later  us moved different place fathers work mother father would fight every day resulting father beating mother multiple times knew mother would dumped since married my father still married another woman though cant separate due expensive filled deep regret knowing mother abandoned two children beaten dad everyday would reminded past memories mothers cuts wrists school bullied lots appearance top heart condition made fall deep depression tell mother it thing changed every time finished argument would yell accuse afterwards would hurt angry manner happened time turned age  prayed prayed life get better resorts did dad stopped beating mom started good friends me matter try forget couldnt im  even think friends mother father abandon still cant help feel like existed familys problems would happened always felt like shit useless individual never tell anyone one knows im like this sorry making long wanted put there thank reading far tho makes feel little better,1
losing head feel traumaticthis story got depression little kid  years age two classmates also neighbours come house often used play games talk one guy rude aggressive me mean ignored hate cus classmates guy comes house often soft sweet kid made believe nice guy believed could nice friend general later things gone worse realise worst enemy often visits home sits home day long even spends entirety summer holidays home welcomed home thought nice guy compared classmate rude nature continued long time came tenth grade visits home th grade became ultimate bully would often bully house would say disturbing shit me actually put two phones believe intentional guy poor background luxury house comforts house would make nasty comment everything own comes house gave negative vibes dominated things own later somehow avoided him days later rethinking makes depressed traumatic puts place like allowed early age needed friendship him feel like taking action form made solely mentally depressed coming house  long years came house friend end became bully house feel depressed every redflag trauma gave me situation sits head day long day night almost  months want get depression lead happy normal life please help can heavily depressed conartist pretended best friend,1
tell parents consider redflag alot tell them idea think much tips tell them im scared say looking attention would want commit redflag life great,0
xi already accepted living cool it suicidal ready death accepted it talked every day looked every day thought every day see anything wrong death happens ugly tragic see death waste live every day last yes now know it scared nothing bothers me okay nothing hurts,1
twittering for flyff ,0
feel hopeless stupidim really struggling tab laptop open nearest hospital get get back medication anxiety high im afraid it feel like made mistake moving boyfriend feel like everything mistake annoys him know feel relationship anymore got owi pay ticket plus pay  drug alcohol assessment addition pay rent water internet upside im taking semester work try save money im severe anxiety making rentwaterinternet also paying ticket assessment feel lonely ugly feel like would easier went away forever im unhappy myself morning ripped apart painting started knife excited start it feel like deserve happy hate myself worst part feel frozen seek help im afraid move apartment even month yet means relationship feel like human garbage,1
send unwanted dick pics hour ago put post hard time school people mean im trans pan rando guy told hes transphobic thinks end called gay fg sent dicpic confused happens much gotta ask whether hate like dick picks people hate people send dick picks to why call trnny boom dicks waggin screen also send dick pick thats homo im ftm,0
anyone central ohio area willing assist redflag would greatly appreciate iti cant continue living anymore,1
cant anymoremy country  days nearly full quarantine feel like absolute shit feel like life either gonna end redflag finally snapping hurting someone love since start quarantine whole year same wake up finish homework attend classes go sleep cant keep this  ended good things looking better felt like mom finally settled new house suicidal thoughts finally going away  started pretty good grades classes hanging much friends quarantine hit schools shut down able see friends anymore able see dad every week first weeks bad kept going downhill though began feeling like wanted vomit throught day always felt sick slept much less used to felt like verge getting ill every day everything got worse there want speak friends fear lashing making feel bad hated mom hated school hated pets hated everything got better months mom wants move new city hundreds kilometres away live able see friends dad anyone lives every week like used to feel like nothing life anymore everything point end way dad already told paying current school year ends meaning even stay longer see friends now got told school apparently grades year count got told last part year grades midyear sucked means ill probably school much longer friends meaning able enjoy summers feel angry wanna anything anymore feel like running away throwing train track want live like anymore survive adulthood ill shittier life countrys economy shit,1
tomorrow birthday money going redflag fundi really believe anyone anymore believe myself im gonna  really think ill see ,1
birthdayi posted something rdepression but end day thing sit here trying get people come over nothing one girl makes feel okay i rely ever lazy text back nobody knows severity situation sitting razorblade enough pills alcohol finish off it hate myself possible obtain gun admitted hospital depression california edit also posts rstopselfharm rdepression care read more,1
time go me othersi lived fairly full life time go children young enough suffer absence passing afforded far opportunities able live full life without father likely disappoint them believe good father mother whomever marries allow live single two parent household given advantages need ensure receive best outcomes death provide that clear ever logic sound side benefit shame pain end want go ultimately best children wish best lives incredible human beings,1
im tiredfight keep fightingcontent displaying derivations idea always common part internet yet one talks hard that easy say build ruin one talks process path reconstruction every new day become new battle try hard fight stand useless every day try build every day theres new shock new pain ruin me becoming hard build up ive already lost every shred identity im nothing skeleton wearing previous self costume ive started feel like cant anymore broken getting tired tired ive lost ability smilei cry cry im tired want rest once,1
is chilling at home with m&amp;ms ,0
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hi y all i m currently struggling a lot to do my homework i ve been sitting at my desk for the last probably hour just staring at my laptop and my textbook and i ve barely gotten anything done and the more i think about everything i have to get done the more anxious and overwhelmed i get and the le i can do and it s getting really late and i m exhausted and just want to sleep but i can t go to sleep until i get everything done but i just don t feel able to do anything anymore doe anyone have advice help suggestion,1
it seems that twitter lost some update yesterday again twitter fail,0
jonathanrknight aw ok goonite,0
happen memories mental health live upto  years  go crazy  would result us killing itself brain capable storing  years worth info  literally everyone know everyone earth second would dead then,0
"@Sarahies haha I guess so! Not sure, Im not going out. May have a wander over to a friend's house later ",0
ok basically need help guys im dating someone rn mom doesnt know plan tell today start off,0
want help social sciences homework teacher social sciences gave us homework supposed find least  people fill anonymous poll topic choosing this minehttpsformsgleijiweqnsgeujigb would help lot filling perhaps even sharing already shared apologise promise become spammy idealy want share post also know flair it sorry misflaired it thank you,0
waiting grade back required course major fail ill kicked major probably give lifeif fail im gonna drop think like poker think ill buy highest stake game find see do go bender kill myself done here wish could put clearer words existence enrages me im christian im mad god parents part bringing relationship three basically nonexistent funnily enough fact makes crazy scared going hell im actually sure believe in im questioning faith god good part thinks hell peoplechristians traditionally think of think might complete ending consciousness basically atheist would view death honestly thought comforting fucked hate much im sure would even want go heaven idea forever fucking scares me hate fucking much,1
read novel the kite runner based wife daughter did thought movie fell long way short book im prepared take word it but own movie good  great good accurately portray havoc created soviet invasion afghanistan convincingly show intolerant taliban regime followed id rate c first b second human story afghanamerican returned country rescue son childhood playmate well done count particularly im told book far convincing movie exciting part film however  kite contests kabul and later minicontest california  cannot equaled book id wager money that,0
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finding meaning life accepting none  udabutteryboy                    ,0
once i hear niphkeys my depression disappears i will not tolerate any zino slander please,1
fathers last testament gifted bus ticketmy dad dying sometime minute now hes care comfort stage heavily medicated icu always lot firearms hoping pistol willed single shotgun dont really want go way gruesome brutal id rather pistol hang maybe exit bag lot pills drugs mostly psychedelics alprazolam think thats zanax googled wont kill me also thousands mg ibuprofen but suppose thats like normal headache pills dont want vomit death found  revolver drawer supposed go another family member id feel bad using it know gf mother id body dont want see gory skull blown apart shotgun love take badly,1
finally figured reason look bad photos face,0
do someone talk think actually going end tonight,1
dont think teenager moderators subreddit ok lets rational people one second bere ok bear im blow mind moderators supposed teenagers guess teenagers attend school ok might thinking penis multiple mods cover multiple time zones well im blow mind checked moderators list turns mods left despite expiration date passed mean internal conflict worse theory moderators nothing get adults moderate feel comfortable groomers rise up change world,0
seriously anyone stay alive  life anything  religion ever managed prove anything absolutely logical reason something like exist soul god happiness chemical reactions brains were insignificant species insignificant planet insignificant universe nothing matters nothing consequences stay alive ,1
update tried hang myself much changed asking help againi posted day failed attempt hanging myself guard rail broke woke several hours later many problems complex ptsdhttpenwikipediaorgwikicomplex_posttraumatic_stress_disorder borderline personality disorder bipolar  anorexia improving still difficult therapist ive never told anything never told child prostitute witnessing murder gang raped  drug addict hard talk things person hard trust anybody irl information im alcoholic addict hurt everything else year best year life terms target behaviors im still miserable wanted vent thanks,1
@ladyzee70 did u listen to mix's chart today? I over slept. But @NKOTB is at # 2 now! ,0
hey my name luis and i ve lived a very hard life on march 0 0 my friend kidnapped me they tortured me they sexually assaulted me they beat me up they lighted my skin on fire and they shaved my hair and eyebrow off i thought my life couldn t get any worse after that traumatic experience but it actually did i ve been bashed i ve been portrayed my window have been smashed my property ha been stolen my mother car window have been smashed and i get made fun by people for being gay i wan na jump off and die,1
hate relapsinga days ago thought finally getting better course one little thing happens today im feeling shitty again relapsed self harming suicidal thoughts coming back im starting think maybe offing would best cant keep dealing cycle feeling happy days feel shitty weeks,1
supa bored.. fixing up my AIM so it'll have everyone get my twitter updates delivered to them. ,0
would helpone best childhood friends took life last year ive wanting talk help others going similiar horrible situations know theres lot resources would find helpful website provides realistic everyday suggestions help state mind theme would something similar its normal feel normalie everyone going something going difficult time others individual something today help get deep dark tunnel depression suicidal thoughts time would include  everyday strategies help  stories aftermath redflag  stories former suicidal people feeling better better track thoughtssuggestions welcomed appreciated,1
nobody like me all my friend are asshole and just make fun of me isk if they think it s cool or something but it s really annoying i m thinking of dropping them i m fat and annoying my grandfather in the hospital and my family is a complete mess i have no faith for anything and the only thing keeping me alive is a concert i m not gon na hurt myself just suck being this way yk so much more going on but i only wan na talk about the loneliness right now,1
life crumblesi need supportwith friends speak figured maybe reaching strangers help me toughest point life ever reached ive actually thought redflag girlfriend  years left me  month old son together kills knowing ill see weekendsmy days work never perfect relationship flaws struggled get together becoming father admit wrong that originally break told needed change didi changed everything turns didnt love anymore  years memories rest mind tormenting me taken toll im even work look old facebook messages look used beand everything reminds her told wouldnt okay ive thoughts redflag before never actually wanted nowand one talk to,1
always like people start showing interest back happened like  people idk man chase better problems lmao,0
@prophetlady i'm not a christian but i read about persecution alot so i recieve them alotsince march ,0
@omgitschelsea aww thanks girl ,0
actually go la know way around played gta feel like bigger prob houses idk,0
i am the definition of a failure i have mental diagnosis no job or education have money problem and poor health due to all the stress of life i have no idea at all how i can change my life so i become one quite normal person with normal success in life im 0 and feel so behind in life,1
so i ve struggled w executive dysfunction for 9 year throughout my year of college there wa not one assignment that i did not do the night before it wa due i studied late ate terribly amp went thru a terrible depression a year after graduating i still have a really hard time doing thing in general i stall before i do anything at all amp it oftentimes lead to me not doing the thing at all also i kind of live my entire life on pause only taking care of myself when i have something planned or to look forward to i left my job that i wa insanely good at bc the commitment amp longevity terrified me why can t i function amp what ha helped u work thru these feeling,1
thing are not going to get better so why cant i just find the courage to die cant even cut cause school just found out and took all my blade,1
want blow brians outgoodbye world im gonna kill myself sweet rest come,1
watching dj emir battle his computer for supreme ruler of the studio i think the computer is winning,0
reading buyology before bedtime great premise but only turning out to be an quot ok quot book lot of info i already knew,0
feel like manipulative abusive person pressured ex come back selfish desires want ruin reputation future cant find way outmy first relationship ever  girl dating also  early know everyone school beginning date age happy couple kissed cuddled told much loved gave gifts thought everything going great good things come end wanted break me reason felt good her disagreed much possible true ive low selfesteem long could remember ended breaking me still give up thought kept asking come back me would could happy again things before missed seeing her thats did kept asking come deeply missed her want get back together eventually agreed unfortunately relationship beyond repair eyes broke up again talk several years now realise done kept begging come back selfish desires want to end made give coming back me blind fact want relationship anymore yet made come back me feel absolutely terrible thing guilt feel every day last couple months overwhelming fast forward   finally talked first time  years apologised everything told changed desperate selfish kid was bit confused apologising accepted anyway im sure forgiven me mad first place maybe forgotten happened shell remember one day realise dumb mistakes made im pretty terrified past affect future especially pressuring come back me could kiss cuddle again would affect rest life mental health know get rid guilt feel every day long time ago remember like yesterday overthinking things reasonable thing worry about tldr pressured ex come back did work out think still good terms other feel guilt feel like manipulative person pressured ex things want do know better something worry future common mistake someone age make,1
english isn t my native language so please excuse possible incorrect grammar hi guy so a quick explanation to why i f want to get diagnosed i ve been struggling with panik attack and alot of anxiety since i wa a toddler i think about or yr old i ve done quite alot of research about gad and the vast majority of the symptom i could find describe what i m struggling with quite well so lately i ve been thinking about telling my physiatrist and i have a lot of question and worry surrounding that it would really mean alot to me to read some of you guy s experience with getting diagnosed feel free to share in the comment first of all i don t really know how to approach this conversation with her like how do i start it and what kind of question could she ask me im diagnosed with adhd i don t know if the process is similar to that of an anxiety disorder diagnosed and second what if i don t have an anxiety disorder ive been struggling my whole life it honestly feel like my anxiety ha pretty much full control over what i do and especially what i don t do thanks lt,1
br karl lauterbach bundeskanzler c lindner ziehen wir mal milliarden von den 00 milliarden f r bundeswehr ab sonst kommen die an au dem frust in die depression da wird volkswirtschaftlich teuer,1
@princewonder lol SoAfrican wines aye?  haha i'll see about making that happen lol ,0
ive solidified suspicions parents would feel committed redflagmy mom colder lately anytime talk always criticizing making fun me mentioned dying passing brushed saying everyone dies day dad might little concerned doubt it im tired living people gave birth hate much,1
attempted  first  uproots wins im playing dont vote anyone elseyou win medal im easily bribed edit make rules downvote didnt want easy,0
@xohpanic eat chocolate or just talk with your friends ,0
reznik 0 bonbonfire another fun confab no matter what come of it i wish i hadn t worked until 9 i m gon na miss next week though,0
somebody tell one fucking thing hell rasktrumpsupporters taking election results way fucking better rconservative non supporters trump cant make top level comments megathread rasktrumpsupporters clearly genuine rconservative bitching crying rasktrumpsupporters like well biden supporter support loses congrats him hope country moves good direction like rasktrumpsupporters wish could take things well you,0
everyone gets love want diei failed attempts loved general really need anymore,1
ive attempted redflag twice failed timesi always hear people fail regret afterwards appreciate life again reason dont dont want alive didnt ask this wrong me,1
cant decide cant make mind want try find someone leave life is really starting bother im end rope this,0
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sons friend attempted redflagmy son  almost  good friend sort girlfriend last year couple months hes distanced her found better friends tried commit redflag wednesday asked see today mother said  extenuating circumstances  please tell anyone  get doctor bothered mom even want me know son going emotional support level need know plus hes going hide something magnitude me thinking whole thing gives pause mom highconflict drama queen want son hurt want friend get real help suggestions,1
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@azthunderpony Nice.   I think I'll get to sleep so I'll have enough energy to enjoy my horsey day.,0
getting fired tomorrow morning really want kill thatpretty sure im getting fired tomorrow morning know method redflag want use spoke boyfriend says hed never forgive killed myself long distance relationship unfortunately pretty sure people care boyfriend father ill owe apology afterlife probably truth is ive suicidal long time attempted redflag failed once self harm too whole thing want end life isnt getting better wish dad boyfriend would understand,1
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potential future tired suffering god fuck even going finish post nothing matters many reasons die live,1
"@freemandpth come on... in the end, you are not a &quot;superman&quot;, just like me keke ",0
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finally asked crush  years yesterday came little bit hang me decided watch movie talk eventually conversation topics slowly turned romantic flirty next thing know shes shes wrapped holding tight weve texting since plan meet wednesday thursday wanna surprise big meal ideasadvice,0
sometimes that depression pack really do be hittin,1
it s just too much how do you know you re close is it when you start planning the detail,1
need friend im yahey im kevin need help want talk im absolutely glad talk you important im m bit crazy past im you feel free dm,1
@meday  right back atchya!! Hope you're having a great day.,0
fardachev reasonablemangh telefootball but we were winning thing it wa just imaginary depression on part of the football they got ole a manager and what did he do worse than moyes,1
issue people dont relationships teenagers really imo ur teenager period growth ppl develop different rates ppl insecurities ppl expose hence bullies ppl dont self confidence project girls dont like looks factor youre average somewhere close really matters,0
"@awg_allan @TelegramSam100 @happycishappy If they have clinical depression, it is because the way they choose to view the world that is causing it. They are churning toxic hatred through themselves.",1
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lost cati came home work today find one cats missing brother wandering around apartment meowing looking her roommate tore place apart looking her think might gone open window backyard apartment building im honestly unsure got out wandered around looking cars different stairways looking hour spoke father friends gave advice morning ie put flyers ask neighbors etc however feel though ive checked mentally logically feel like find her im going give life know live thought cold starving there know extreme hope offend anyone triviality problem fighting deep depression time ive working hard keep busy productive simply know give anymore reasons keep going this,1
even feel human anymoreslowly surely everyone life left alone cant remember last time even felt anything besides sadness care life whats point living cant share experience people sad part ive lost hope ever friends everyone hang never talks even cares me shittiest feeling knowing people called friends six years even like around even trust anyone anymore im terrified im going scare everyone away whenever someone shows even little bit attention know do im scared next person show attention become sole reason want continue living inevitably leave left options days feel meaningless sleep much literally enjoy anything anymore cant bring make sort effort towards anything meaningful cant see point living like this think anything could possibly worse,1
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@adamlloydjones we'll go there soon enough ,0
theres nothing left mei alone want alone anymore,1
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comforting thoughti think two possibilities die death feeling nothingness afterlife get hang cool people like chester bennington ernest hemingway robin williams etc least someone unterstand there,1
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feeling suicidal m shy loner outcast virginim s alot people age married children busy work already clique friends hard make new friends age went lot verbal emotional bullying school continued college office jobs adulthood seems like geeksnerds least geeksnerds friends growing up even friends people said condescending ways talk look lonely study time ive never girlfriend im short etc ive deal much bitterness ptsd flashbacks pretty much whole life since middle school past bullying affected life right now is social anxiety people absolutely no empathy shy people victimblame weak cant get it even consistently try make friends confident outgoing attending meetups many people cliquish unwelcoming towards shy lowstatus males many times people ignore say talk interrupt me treat like rd wheel talk others instead me left alone make excuse leave me etc ones friendly actually listen alot show following meetups whats frustrating feel im way proactive people yet nothing show it regards always go meetups go alone whereas people already friends need go meetups also strike conversations people whereas people already friends cliques get away making effort socializing new people lesser status them example one common advice ask people questions people love talking themselves ive asked many people many questions shown interest them either show disinterest give blunt replies talk length themselves asking any questions showing no interest another example proactiveness ive spent nearly year weightlifting bjj yet really feel confident less shy less ptsd flashbacks before also tried meditation many times hardly noticed improvement ive also attended plenty toastmasters meetings given numerous speeches yet noticed improvement life traveled nearly  countries spent months living them friendly rude towards me possibly judging loser back home came escape problems back home another common piece advice society introverts play sports fun without talking much often taken seriously get picked deadlast many times deal rude immature pricks trying shove such rude teammates cliquish showing obvious favoritism towards friends guys taller me etc im ok shape im around   lbs another common piece advice society regarding getting dates its numbers game you got nothing lose asking out ive literally coldapproached  women nightclubsshopping mallscoffee shopsetc get even one girlfriendlay it got around  girls willing go dates none wanted nd date maybe one wouldve interested hookup nightclub another guy took see again angers many guys easily get girlfriends despite never coldapproached woman always get introduced statussocial circle use dating apps photos demonstrating statussocial circle choice coldapproach ive rejectoutcastloner whole life ive also seen numerous therapists none really helped sure listened showed empathy really offer solutions since im socially screwed least well career financially right much high net worth income age chump change compared software engineers age angry underpaid im finding nearly impossible get new higherpaying job competition often feel unmotivated depressed lack energy study coding interviews etc make x make friends refer jobs employment gaps like workplace bullying concentrate preparing interviews depressionptsd like me etc people crueljudgementalcondescending towards lowstatus males cant join cliques empathy go never experience excluded ignored bullied etc hurt people hurt people theyre hurt instead helping social rejects want project hurt onto them shitted much even though nothing wrong hell else supposed do kill myself,1
theoryjust rantive always theorized world needs balance order happy people need people never gain happiness im   next month female virgin ive never date never went clubbing hung friends adult fat ugly depressed probably since middle school college grade sister still friendsmade her that ive alone never supposed happiness every time get taste it goes stripped away worse things happenim tired tired struggling live why cant take life bad give up why happy people happiness without misery happiness cant exist people suffer well im tired suffering im tired late change anything know much longer take pain im tired,1
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anyone else think redflag every secondsits constantly mind matter im doing im work home outside thoughts always there im talking literally every  seconds think killing myself,1
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ever since first played  goldeneye one favourite video games fact recently bought n purely could play often game pretty much nearperfect singleplayer mode fantastic job immersing bonds shoes varied mission objectives convincing weapons great level design even though enemies artificial intelligence pretty basic todays standards adds goldeneyes appeal method obtaining cheats completing levels within strict time limit also innovative title released even still cracked thembr br the game comes wonderful multiplayer mode four players advanced combat simulator games sequel perfect dark still incredibly satisfying blast opponents smithereens barrage rcp fire ,0
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AND IT'S EXACTLY 6 DAYS AFTER THE LAST TIME I MET+SAW THEM!!    :,0
karen 0 more shopping sound like a terrible plan hope you are not dragging your brother with you this time p,0
cant deal itim breaking point im failing school ill never get girlfriend im never going successful matter end though humanity fucked were going hit peak oil soon theres growing threat nuclear war terrorism rise sunspots getting worse everything going pellmell want kill myself love friends seems like way want stress worry go away thought ought add diagnosed clinical depression possibly severe clinical depression oh thishttpwwwyoutubecomwatchvbblvaqsds philosophy life im starting think possible cant swing away worth living edit ok kill myself still head plan anything thanks guys might post update while,1
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random thoughts feel like get way excited beginning kind friendship people set disappointment also really love thrill meeting new person like genuinely find knowing new things someone total mystery amazing immediately think omg person like me could literally music taste id literally love them crazy theres people that need accept fact theyre twin something theyre completely different need stop fucking excited rush things fast start might super friendly give people impression wanna friends forever bc moment thats feel slowly time lose interest crazy bc one point person everything could think clicked well suddenly interest talking anymore another completely different note also something ive noticed myself treat guys girls equally like talk guy completely way id talk girl im straight btw actually dont know im genuinely interested guy super weird feel like things start getting sexual something theyd lose interest me im afraid theyd wanna get know anymore dont want used like yea friendship anyone cant help see things like would guy talk lot didnt want relationship dont know makes sense feel weird talking guys sometimes bc feels like reason interest bc wanna something might sound crazy idk,0
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thanks chaffie thousand apology please fogive me i have sinned,0
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@KielysWorld  Pain is apart of the healing proccess.  The pain will help you grow into  a stronger person ,0
would like to know i ve been considering inpatient treatment recently and this is one of my biggest fear a losing my license could drastically complicate my life and make my issue worse in the long term,1
"@ibosmiley not as much as they are now, off season for me right now, things will pick up in June with festivals and such. ",0
cant sleep but im still feelin like a piece of shit,0
mom finally went overboard exaggerations lets go almost  oh time well time ,0
gonna diearound  weeks ago fight mom said thos horrible things went stairs room done living wanted die bad lots meds medical condition asthma  took  pills strong med started vomit started vomit panicked went bed,1
@xxHeyyCourtxx aww hope you feel better. im about to drop so ill talk to you tomorrow  love you loads gorgeous xoxxx,0
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im social outcasti hangout parents look social media wishing dating cute girls thats life right now im stuck stupid hot ex  years ago im tired it never meant get anyones way wanted peaceful life know guess im overthinking im lost right now,1
im fucking stupid futile beginningthere hope us know everything knows everything me except jealousy feel her best friend one feel would kill for im stupid jealous knew nothing friendship would come still kept holding reason every time messages someone want die cant that family her friends ill resort getting inebriated cant feel pain cutting pain heart goes away let die already,1
covid ruined dreams hopes dreams sleeping dreams seen crush three months forgot looks like dreams random guy saw hike,0
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 feel bad cant pass way idk want cry time feeling literally kills slowly feel really angrythis feeling destroys meeee,1
my dad rly sent this to me... depression culture  pic.twitter.com/Sdl2Tw5bPW,1
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Changed my email address for Old Navy newsletters and got another &quot;Thanks for signing up!&quot; coupon.  Awesome. ,0
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childhood wont leave mei like start saying im vulnerable trying explain please dont berate me im  right obviously grew lot since traumatic childhood sexually used grade school physically abused till skin shattered mess bruisings yellow red spots also faced emotional neglect breakdowns face emotional abuse internal pain clung like wild fire tearing skin everyday im sure im take anymore feel like useless usable toy broken thrown away deserve this people view damaged goods,1
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Fuck my family I literally told them I'm getting really bad depression again and they don't give a fucking shit my sister is a fucking piece of shit I can't wait till the day I never have to see them again,1
im attempting redflagim middle redflag attempt dont understand much mental health liver failure ive swallowed three handfulls tylenol many drinks worth booze distract liver dont know enough know whether actually work im planning case god hope will clue long itll take really dont want wait anymore over ive written note already friends family hope enough cant post something like social medias im worried someone would try stop ruin it im sorry downer post needed say something somewhere im sorry,1
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abitofdarkness the thing about depression is that you dont feel sad you feel sick sick of life sick of yourself and sick of everyone and everything around you depression make you hate everything it make you angry it like being http t co spnyeolkd,1
hello therelost father covid last year void left behind cannot filledthe love life since  told hates foreverexams next week desire study although know going failaddicted porn maximum nofapstreak  daysdont know seeing friends amp colleagues happy successful leading good life feeling like getting harder,1
failuremy student loans due theyre make month shitty parttime job cant afford health insurance medical procedures ive putting off cant afford take care rentfoodutilities im relying almost completely financial help man whos cheated repeatedly wants life for now demands happy im interested living life anymore want stop,1
I like Kirk Fanklin's songs because he regularly talks about depression and doesn't find a way to sneak in homophobia,1
what brand have worked for you guy and what brand should i avoid and what s your preferred method to take it gummy vape something different how ha it helped with your anxiety,1
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im trappedpost put thread redflag ive semi suicidal last  months fuck throwaway venting grew poor abused situation improved  began trying get get better place spent  dreaming american dream  years gone educated impoverished child college educated man wife house career car hate career hate house fond paying ass car keep house career wife met  intelligent beautiful person also selfish opened relationship thing still regret time though got caught guys neglected me never wanted hurt tell ok sleeps guys needed love too tried tell way accepted lost love life idiocy time started dating one friends against rules asked friend approached ok fell love almost instantly went almost thing children incredible amounts things common first time life someone understood me process making happy almost entirely destroyed me stark contrast understood first time ever rest life left shambles top told wife fell love woman ive trying work since know id happier new woman would she believe wife would happier man like her wife putting blame situation cheating calls it one wrong wrong  people felt isolated alone found other top everything house signed father law also worth  less bought it cant sell loss cant abandon would terrible thing father law stuck with  house want  career keep house  car loan get job check engine light come today god fucking damnit  wife blaming joint failing marriage  gf torn apart role this  debt almost every item list debt financial advisers told wise decision debt told take could chase dreams dreams told would finally give happiness one day could fucking feel like im societal mistake contribute take world do hate life see solution cause others pain throw top psychological disorders cant get help waiting list  weeks long one disorders incredible empathy loved ones literally feel everyones pain situation know much wifes heart breaking losing husband time know gf heart breaking first time life someone understood rape abuse poverty torture went recoiled disgust thought ugly it person married man contributing ruining marriage want everyone love happy making happy make others unhappy making happy cause others unhappiness turn make unhappy thing day day least painful option wearing down cry silently desk many days wake arrive late work fantasize killing instead living another day perpetual state impossible crunch time work show work ass everyday company may go under cant even take time off become clear either abilities understanding one knows situation incredibly clear people misunderstand me want life love others something great standing way handle need help cant help me everyone tell lawyer up gym hitting etc etc im stuck hate life hate society live in hate way government works hate understand screwed am want die want look wife tears eyes begs fix this cant part problem things deal blaming gf existing neglect hate want kill myself hurt others much others hurting me afraid without help willingness endure seriously compromised already seriously considered  instances also attempted redflag  failed know im capable time im afraid im much smarter  year old fail,1
update today went hospital terrible migraine extremely depressedi think body preparing itself cant sleep leg numb stomach churning burning want cry hands cold sweating mouth dry headaches back too ive taken  migraine pils lortab today got sleep stop thisi know im going finish nighti know going on ive never felt fall apart completely nowfor wishing death find someway get help youre beginning stages depression talk somebody something hell holding potential become amazing people future please get help hate knowing one laying bed right now feeling body let go nobody feel way nobody ever im begging you take life seriously find helper get somebody help late pleasejust talk somebody stranger friend somebodyplease know rredflagwatch sole reason dead right now reading stories trying help many can kept going reason one pathetic life here beautiful minds themost radiant should grow delusional realize beautiful world bad want leave beautiful world thank listening last thoughtsi pray whatever god ill wake soonin warm bednext realize dreamif live last hours night im going get help edit survivedunfortunatelyim making plan try birthday next month,1
luckier most feel selfish home life fucking sucks worst people know would upset left little sister slid note door close fucking broke heart screamed parents stupid useless sit listen whole thing note says love you sorry something birthday wednesday want leave fucking badly want ruin special day turning  want fuck rest life bc selfish stick around going kill last birthday end trying reason know friends would miss well boyfriend want make anyone upset cannot keep this escape know going kill eventually known since sisters age going to much pussy actually something end suffering see point anymore life fucking meaningless cycle pain misery resentful parents bringing treating like this force life never asked wanted so tired know people would miss tired,1
well this day i would like to go out in the sun instead of sitting here looking at excel,0
getting helplived depression anxiety life self treated alcohol  years ago antidepressants since then doctor says must see counselor continue prescribe meds go counselor starts telling call authorities admit redflag thoughts harming anyone else dont really like guy find another counselor tells thing tactful way point this get help feelings cant talk counselor without fear reported locked up bother drugs counselors completely decided end life busy stating disclaimers see undermined whole purpose choice give healthcare go way suffer useless counseling sessions hiding truth seems pointless everything else,1
cant rewind lifethis previous spring diagnosed severe depression anxiety seems people age currently  nd semester college ended going  sessions  credit hour classes never hit low semester done started lack motivation later snowballed anxiety fuck semester time nobody knew anything doing professors assumed dropped courses parents assumed still going classes friendsbrothers assumed missing classes im new college fact miss class major repercussions compared high school earlier anyways finally told friend mine still senior high school dealt attempted redflag sophomore high school told needed tell mom got hand took  weeks summoned courage tell via email even though still living due able pay overpriced dorms called next morning wanted come talk one schools she works teacher therapists things gave number clinic well therapists went there anyways  months seeing therapist well pills feeling better told im going try work without talk therapy still taking antidepressants somewhat worried trusted could handle it im utter bullshit  months nothing improved lied teeth true mood therapist simply cant deal myself ive felt like since  wore mask  worried appearance teenager since late bloomer large issue still wore mask it come age  friends started smokingdrinking everyone else it made decision based things seeing way changes them much pussy take hit none would happened wasnt would stayed group friends secluded everyone since anyone would do  nobody spent full year without single real friend mask school friends hid everyone pretty well parents knew ditched old group assumption fine since ive worn mask long basically become face  small group rarely goes out ive become addicted video games way bond people point am halfway  ive become someone never would thought become im normal looking overweight given compliments appearance well personality scared ever girlfriend im always complimented skills working teaching younger kids im working daycare nearly  years now cant handle anymore driving home tonight friends house realized its done mean this cant wear mask anymore im socially awkward call old therapist go tell truth way remove mask force am  morning im feeling nothing ive become completely numbed life things stopping pathetically video games fact one way road still know going back know anymore major tldr chronic depression going overboard know call help anymore,1
@atlumschema a rather nervous neighbour! The amount of smoke produced obscures the humble nature of our little bonfire ,0
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needed vent mind me fuck tired tired even energy pissed exhausted constantly keep trying bounce back positive mindset damn curveballs quittin,1
"in a foursome with anxiety, stress and depression",1
good evening everybody hows life treating tuesday anything exciting happen good news bad news perhaps boring day sleeping like me,0
antidepressant stopped workingive  weeks fine want kill anymore still empty nobody loves nobody even cares now stopped working morning mom yelled me want die cant stand house hate family seen people really love two weeks want blamed everything want much pressure me fucking cares college right now want someone care right now cant even numb pain things like video games talking someones care about mom thinks bad me bad try communicate people actually fucking care about bad locked alone ever see friends see reason kill now ill always alone lie say get better wont die makes easier me nobody would even care,1
feel like im readyi feeling dumps past months sick tired manic episodes depression comes after dont know do quitting law school still gets even almost month since dont like facing family aunt always updating cousins friends doing would always share stories success peers family members leaving feeling like complete shit try smile still engage conversation every then exhausting getting work choregetting chore dont like job feel like im sticking around family thinks im happy think im good it im neither im tired work already underperforming dont people talk this friends think im okay saying im stressed family doesnt believe mental health sister tells could fix dont fckn know start tonight laughed hung family moment felt happy looked im thankful think im ready go now,1
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teacher stopped using protection accident started using protection again however damage done feel used protection like did wouldnt situation people say using protection embarrassing say safe plus relatively inexpensive dont see wouldnt want use protection iphone xs pristine  weeks ago took case screen protector confident wouldnt drop it did back phone cracked corner since then started using case again wont change fact phone damaged ive always fan protection every phone collection iphone  oldest phone own pride joy iphone xs max drop rated case tempered glass screen protector id rather deal damaged casescreen protector damaged phone,0
i had such a nice day too bad the rain come in tomorrow at am,0
"@HipChickZine I want those babycake cupcakes! Vegan, gluten free and yummy? Perfect for me! ",0
opening scene movie pretty incredible ive seen number scifi movies great special effects roommate looked opening sequence said plainly sensory overload plot movie pretty simple nice thing scifi movie lets audience figure technology instead wasting time subtly explain it creatures movie also interesting get really good look two thirds way through overall entertaining movie,0
i have suffered with shortness of breath due to anxiety ever since i wa diagnosed with gad generalized anxiety disorder about year ago doe anyone else have this it just feel like i will stop breathing doe anyone have any coping mechanism around this a it s really horrible a well a shortness of breath i also feel shaky and tingly and i have no idea how to calm down when i have these episode,1
lucygooesy haha nice barbie backgroud he still hasnt replied lol,0
thought life changed years still tired sad growing fast working everyday job hate trying find motivation nothing gotten truly feel great worth it always wanted start dating someone scared worth time make things difficult parents always ridiculing good enough hurts even more gotten low started cutting feel like need punish absolute fool human thing stopping putting bullet skull religious values covid opened new world showed could work every day even make close amount money people unemployment sit home asses day feel like one factor life redflag it wish could enjoyed younger years more grown hellish schedule people could care less size turds shorter average man women weak always looked upon man work looked said smile more told nothing smile about back self harming,1
nothings going right me still waitingnothings going right nothing ever fucking will want die id kill tonight bothered get bed,1
Nothing better than a day in the sun. ,0
update last post sub redditi sent mental hospital good  days honestly best decision made life got better meds help mental health issues made friends going hang with got good eating habit realized im loved around better way living working out yoga going outside hobbies enjoy hospital experience good picnic lot time reflect got point helpful really know many care im better sometimes ok get help yall matter even think dont do,1
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finally home sooo tired,0
pointless depressed since   now struggled tons mental health issues sex addiction body dysmorphiai understand offed yet guess holding hope somehow turned manipulative piece shit ever taken advantage people mental health struggles people evil sniff shit right away anything make feel safe moment abuse shit end refuse let taken advantage of see point fixing anything tired try right living shitty room share situation strange people worse super dependent mother sick too job get paid enough go back school sept depressed anything right cannot imagine starting school againi want someone genuine life tired dealing shitty people moral integrity people fucking horrible cannot anything help want live anymore,1
seriously thinking killing  days itd pretty good daymajor theme thinking killing  days ampxb how constant downing one xanax pill time swing booze repeat one gone ampxb why cant take pain feel love life  boyfriened  ex boyfriend  shitty person  person ampxb background if want know skip down known since young kids loved years ended marrying wrong girl me fast forward  years reconnect instantly fall love long time coming especially since told loved young chose ampxb dating  years first year half broke up got distant busy grad school independent need space hobbies driven passions interest friends goals etc friends goals purpose lot time looked fulfillment life soon busy stressed fantastic girlfriend time yes grad school breakdowns real reeling depression abortion things tried make understand times didnt acted toxic sometimes depressed sometimes etc ampxb first time got distant year half relationship started seeing new girl behind back found lost it would go stand outside house hours winter telling feel depressed stressed much love him get better chose her said was fun exciting option going pass up fast forward month half later decided go home day work kill myself right did called me talked forever called every day came house  days later saying broke wanted me rebound never liked her never told planning kill myself however guy friend would periodically make advances me never made advances him next two months would hang rebound ex rub face saw house crying waiting come home ampxb next year down good months bad months good summer break grad school grad school started became obsessed spending every waking moment parents house he  kids house himself point every day could hang would say hes going hang parents fast forward never came grandpas funeral hang  days later christmas mad mad priority day go shopping parents never stop funeral start middle february got mad one night went friends broke calling night passing out got mad kept breaking mad told getting back together talk work things first  weeks take it wanted right then said waiting shows sure last  weeks built shrine things living room began texting trying work things argue always defaults arguing last week went over going stay night tried sex said yet need take slower got mad told leave week talked angry argued finally day im like im sick arging lets stop really work problems maybe therapy honest wrote  page letter mature explaing could activiely really mkae work blocked blocked  days something does often ampxb habits are whenever seem need time away form arguing stressing out step back comes full force coming house middle night texting me calling me whatever whenever steps away says hes done like  days ago blocked me throw knees begging literally outside house hours cant say many times hes locked deaed winter text calls etc seems like likes want him even though said done built shrine invited week ago kid loves me thinks im one things wrong ampxb now great girlfriend first im intp im heavily displaying emotions deep emotions overthinking brain drives insane every day life great boyfriend either could argue worse never cheated never wanted anyone even though selflove issues again friends hobbies relying happiness ampxb what would wrong said never made priority grad school difficult im extensive program one morning beautiful happy weekend went school stayed went dinner fell asleep friends house never called got angry next morning broke me instantly wanted get back got mad keeps saying hes done every time mad things feel mad about mad about break someone constantly say want marry grad school hard excuse  weeks ago made cookies accept them went house kicked out together hang time even told day last broke want go special night out loves that ampxb else knows bad last year chose girl month half think hell come around however idk cant take waiting pain deal heartbreak well never ever wanted kill stop pain someone besides him third time feeling like this thinking house gets home work know sounds dumb love within bit presence love him cant unblock me tell wants work happy too ampxb anyways considering aim  days tuesday perfect day plus beautiful sit outside pop drink hour ampxb any suggestions different ways questions additional helpful methods first time wanted knew told please truly loves me im killing get back cant take pain caused us ampxb thanks ampxb,1
anyone ever commit redflag lack sexmarried  years celibate last  years constantly feel lonely inadequate lost interest sex im supposed live rest life without days dont deal anymore,1
feel like fit world anymoresince ive head concussion  years ago struggle lot feeling permeates everything career peers family past times everything used enjoy quickly becomes boring tedious try enjoy take break feel like cant really relate anyone anymore like im constantly faced feeling misunderstood marriage destroyed feel like ive let children father sort present ive lucky fortunate life despite growing abuser stuff got concussion struggle exist here today im session friend another state blue asked opinions different methods redflag trying different depression drugs therapies nothing shakes feeling like im meant here world fit anymore cant figure shake feeling see path forward anymore,1
Just had dinner with Louise bby. Tomorrow party in chalet with her! HA finally daddykins allow me to stay overnight! MIRACLE   ,0
terrible interpersonal skills start cool liked sooner rather later end liking me like  friends always try act like someone ause want be not always put position fail fired alot good jobs this ex wife divorced  years ago never gotten losing seeing kids everyday really wish would aneurysm fall dead quick unexpected way noone likes failure,1
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im ready die again couple months ago checked hospital put gun mouth pulled trigger gun go firing pin jammed spent last couple months talking called specialists listening tell special am get come key work kick door stuff gone contacted landlord tossed gone wanted trip pictures dead father left nothing checking hospital made life considerable worse going kill spite hospital system one told long going one asked anything important wanted keep since cant see fathers face anymore going kill myself want live world would take much without anything return know life fair much deal with hate world everyone it,1
tryive trying save go travel different countries dream mine im sat wanting die badly ive got plan want go it idk try stay alive miserable life panic attacks bad urges strong cant stand body confidence completely window hide pretty much every day avoid talking things judgement give up time die,1
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know doi really know go anymore know talk too feel whiny going anywhere anyone im sitting room razor bottle vodka dad today told im worthless regrets able find job  years ive cheated woman thought would life sisters want anything friends nothing name except beaten phone got free free wifi im stealing neighbors ive got nothing know go i want pain stop but im afraid i want stop,1
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hello new reddit found group today f wondering anyone else confused whether depression something else mother two  wake up make husband breakfast get dressed play day cannot seem find energy together sit couch floor play mind either overdrive tired btw children happy fed  meals day snacks between neglect them neglect myself anyone else feel way things help yourself depression something else,1
im going bald making want kill myselfi  hairline redeced badly never get girlfriend look like fool people mock me life fucking shit,1
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complaining mainstream music bad nowadays dumb one forcing listen probably wont affect way besides makes song good really subjective,0
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cut first timeive thinking redflag lot lately even find solace idea tonight ex called blue ask random question sounds happy without me want feel pain chest took knife sliced wrist bit two places ive never done anything like part worries im getting closer closer pulling trigger,1
Happy mothers day  the greatest mothers day gift is too see our kids serving god,0
watched movies girlfriend time say best time mainly know ned kelly storybr br but since biopic important least know expect characterbr br i know manner events told true everything fictional way ned kelly portrayed hero fighter justice really makes want believe everything true think hes portrayed redneck criminal thief thats opinionbr br this solid westerntype movie everybodys tastes heath ledger great always sexy naomi watts charms screenbr br give movie chance airs cable otherwise think could recommend it,0
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work financial problemsim chef fucking killing me cant even move parents house pay im married time end it sick tired life,1
"Having anxiety/depression and then dealing with guests at work who come with all sorts of different personalities, is so exhausting that some days i could breakdown in a second",1
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one way make better nowi got help waited tried everything could think of almost deluded thinking working fortunately reminded unwanted worthless am im moving date redflag december probably around christmas nice gift everyone least plenty time write note want apology sticking around long thorough record point tell awful give people false hope here get better mean say otherwise,1
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hi i ve been focusing on my mental health recently and i think i have depression here are my symptom i am constantly irritated i do not like any human interaction whatsoever for some reason i just don t like dealing with other people this varies from day to day i don t know if it s from past experience but i can t stand other people physically i have no energy finding interest in anything is an arduous task for me i am happy for those close to me that achieve or accomplish something but i just can t express it i notice this because i don t smile or act happy when it happens i have no motivation i am financially confident but i don t see the value of my work i don t know that to do with the reward i have earned with work i sleep a lot i probably sleep around 0hrs a day if anyone can explain if i do from past experience or if you are a professional please reply thanks,1
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suddenly wanted relationship her saw good thing said could come visit often wanted needs tell hand home decided give relationship another shot got pregnant immediately moved house together really horrible morning sickness time bob got disgusted neediness moved week later leaving huge house cant afford maintain far away form support necessary pregnant mother young kid seems love kid much concept taking responsibility,0
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know im depressed suicidali think redflag daily know do could economic reasons  personal reasons im gay hiv hate live im  feel like ive wasted life oh god days wish dead   think redflag try say  things im thankful always end sad still hate shit,1
wrote note think carry much longerevery day getting worse seem matter hard try stay positive gets worse day day feel im going snap soon something thing keeping alive right thought id leave behind moment im thinking im gone guilt even exist nothing exist able screw anything anymore im sure im even looking posting this im messed up struggling sick existence thanks listening,1
@ThomasBeautyy yesssssssss cure my depression with a video  pic.twitter.com/uwWtUs1kV4,1
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feel depressed first time months ever since moved austin ive pretty much perfectly content extrmely happy tbh however today took total nosedive feel like absolute garbage start ran blades razor week ago body hair started growing back really like that along didnt realize much money spending stupid shit turns ive spent  dollars random subscriptions shit dot job cant get one right get ss card wait dad fucking give me run two weeks honestly know im going able get back groove going super well two months running every day week left  week plan rained every day needed run snowed week ive able keep diet fact ive actually restricted got calorie tracker app however today stressed started eating made stressed forth feel gross tired hopeless im ready start adult yet feel like choice need get therapy cant fucking without ss even fucking backed would take months schedule fucking appointment along fucking acne killing me especially back making feel disgusting cant see dermatologist reasons therapist ive adult  days fucking hate it,0
my adult child with depression is very challenging to deal with i realize that she ha depression but she refuse to get a job amp expects u to pay for her living expense in an apartment when we bring it up she cut u off i feel bad because i know doing new thing can be difficult especially for someone with depression and anxiety but i can not afford to pay for my daughter s apartment and my apartment she is finished with school in august with a college degree i offered for her to move into my apartment but she won t now she isn t talking to me because of asking her to get a job but i m still paying for everything because i dont know what else to do,1
cant forgive myselfi cant forgive myself whole life ive taken care of regardless situation someone always pick slack ive left behind lot it able coast life putting minimum effort everything do knowing someone else always rest me eventually turned letting people me letting people cared world abusing love trust id say whatever people wanted hear extend free ride on hated this depressed damn easy anything something carry forever think somewhere inside knew that given choice starting hardest journey youve ever gone on continuing road ive going whole life chose easiest route like everything guess whole pattern started mother would let bargain pretty much anything rule get around formulated strong enough argument parents divorced  years old mother given custody moved frequently whole life think longest stayed one place  years lived her originally bought house  hours away father lived soon became apparent needed closer him seeing every  weeks enough ended moving  times year ending right back started  hours father lasted one year town  years old mother decided wanted teach religion china lived china  years mother taught english support us ended enrolled full chinese school first year speak word language put effort learn language hated fact brought away friends live determined make worst it returned china learned almost none language put effort probably could fluent waste thats think looking back basically every stage life returned china changed significantly going outgoing confident returned shy stick myself im sure made change ive tried pinpoint never come anything regardless still good friends lived town before first  years high school alright school never put effort in cant remember homework always got minimum teachers liked me nice polite typical struggling student moved times completed high school getting tiresome writing it grade  parents wondered grades bad decided get iq tested diagnosed something called nonverbal learning disorder basically means huge difference verbal iq performance iq case gifted verbal iq average performance iq apparently differences size extremely rare blamed poor grades lack effort articulate thoughts ideas head easily translating real world difficult me anyway moved one last time time live town girlfriend time stupid know  seem pretty important lived family took foreign exchange students dad paid rent there course within first months living important relationship fell apart grade  ended dating amazing girl christian bullied child low self esteem used male attention dated full year sex picked grad night think ive ever emotionally charged experience that continued dating got crappy job working call center instead going college even imagine self going back school point turns though ability slack limited school eventually stopped going work ended getting fired tried going college twice dropped times apply myself would let absolutely tiny excuse get way attending class homework started working convenience store mind while still slacked though ended hating quitting still girlfriend time probably together  years point rd year university nothing wanted badly make change tried going china teaching english staying mother yeah lives now alright again cant bring put effort in know cannot bring it matter hard try video games convenient escape help often social connection friends though took long time admit it addicted escape reality provided made little bit money china lot working mother school taught at easiest way get work drive go apply schools looking people night got back china girlfriend brought meal airport rented us hotel night told thinking going back china friend mothers offered good work opportunity there want go another  months without seeing me put school hold went back china me ended achieving nothing worked ass teaching english something hated us able afford flights home still hate me best support motivate me moved together last semester university went back school drop time still put almost effort well classes failed one average others graduated degree animal biology amazing grades deans list every year got job working assay technician applied veterinary school sat home almost full year rarely going out sometimes even ignoring her become dependent rather partner get vet school first attempt competitive canada almost one gets first year applying continued work continued nothing refused go visit work friends her day never even met me want anything self esteem shot getting job seemed impossible knew alienating one person cared about change though matter much fought myself would always lose literally everything alone worked cooked cleaned went friends alone sometimes begging come her rarely though carried year moved new apartment went friends wedding days came back distant asked wrong said you want know asked breaking me fell crying arms nodded even cry kept telling sorry everything really hit yet moved started living friend cant forgive one thing truly cared world nothing makes happy month since broke friends ive known since teenager seem stupid now flaws used overlook obvious even want hang them top depressed anyway considered suicide together seriously like now done her know would hurt parents probably friends now think value feelings situation though theres one thing know people loving enough get depression see life going uphill want live im going feel way forever hate ive wasted opportunities relationships time even losing this still feel like make change feel hopeless one thing even gives little motivation one day trying make ex showing ive changed think even deserve opportunity put hell even conjure little effort help her ended longer intended reading probably could cut paragraphs still got basic idea across whatever read not,1
must god must god answer certain choose either way send inevitably stupid comments ,0
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my xbox a finally given up the fight,0
nick carter i will wait for you at fanclub chat even tough you re not my favorite,0
waningi know im here cant figure am know theres millions like me im nice person im manipulative enough make people think am im apathetic selfish lack drive purpose longer genuinely connect people ive isolated becoming incurable cynic misanthrope im sycophant work talk family anymore theres goal passion hope feel capable love gone im tired repeating cycle healing waning crashing rebuilding foundations poured sloppily time someone told cant find reason live mean die find many releases death solution escape pain realizing awake every morning unbearable cant anymore one goal life im going make attempt dissociated state cant risk waking anymore,1
@ringer @aherman2006 100%. It's depression porn.,1
mizzzidc imagine what you d do to someone else if you can actually say this rubbish to ur mom and you re so proud of posting this shit damn you re the biggest bastard i ve ever seen in my entire life damn make depression kill you dia you good for nothing daughter ewu fool nama,1
"it can be difficult to get out of poverty. it's not something that happens in a vacuum. addiction is just one of many, and unfortunately often the first people consider. there's also illiteracy, mental health issues like depression… ben carson can help  https://www.washingtonpost.com/news/wonk/wp/2018/04/25/hud-secretary-ben-carson-to-propose-rent-increases-for-low-income-americans-receiving-federal-housing-subsidies/?noredirect=on&utm_term=.2580179421d1 …",1
ok wonder why twitpix isn t an option for this new phone i got i can t win i ll leave the photo to my cuz i guess,0
fucked real bad accidentally sent picture answers group chat whole class including teachers quiz,0
@obsessedwithyou hahahaha! transition lens... healthy sight. in every light! ,0
about to go looking for shoe for my brother looking forward to torquay in april not a sunny a yesterday here,0
society longer need white women idk tell ya dont see need anymore,0
@dhempe oh.. you were a part of tourofnilgiris? thats great  did you cycle too?,0
Saw Jimmy Carr last night and was back home for '8 out of 10 Cats' on +1. Had myself a night of laughs ,0
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"I'd like to thank everyone who cooperated with me on our cause regarding depression and art thieves. All these issues may be out of our complete control, but together, we can help this society. Your efforts are very much appreciated! You are your own amazing Phantom Thief!  pic.twitter.com/Q5XFyLpmjM",1
dad calls tarty wearing mascara swear god cant wear makeup like looks me makes feel good attracting male attention frustrating like seriously trying attract damn house besides boyfriend anyway obviously im trying attract anyone makes feel confident happy cant happy me dad saw wearing tiny amount mascara home absolutely intent going anywhere anything decides spew crap like you look  wear that if go bars men hit you you look tarty which didnt even know meaning decided tell mom laugh it goes say women wear makeup people women use makeup attract opposite sex goes say biology oh im sorry biology apparently saying fourteen year old daughter dressed sexually provocatively wearing mascara bought walmart two days ago thanks lot dad basically calling whre wearing mascara ffs hate men like this anyway thanks reading rant im really frustrated  think ima go put more,0
i am feeling too depressed to type much my brain and body are so slow it s like they re shutting down i am just so tired of feeling this way i want it to stop so badly,1
ha anyone had a panic attack for the first time or not even necessarily for the first time but just a bad one and it changed their anxiety physical anxiety symptom i had my first ever proper panic attack in january of this year it wa awful and i went to a amp e thinking i wa dying a bit over a month went by and i wa fine but then suddenly out of nowhere i got an insane head rush when i wa trying to sleep it disappeared when i opened my eye then came back again when i closed them it caused me so much distress and i had no idea what it wa i wa having anxiety attack and wa in a constant state of alertness and worry ever since then i ve had constant light headedness brain fog just feeling completely spaced out type of feeling i ve been on constant alert wondering if i m feeling dizzy spaced out and it s just progressively gotten worse from there i feel tired all the time and mildly disassociated it s honestly ruining my life i ve had multiple test done and they ve all come back clear so i m wondering is this all just my anxiety having gotten worse after that intense panic attack i need to know if these physical symptom are due to anxiety or not any help is really appreciated lt,1
love preterm surveys question like after making mistakes expect get back try again obviously never make mistakes even answer that bother asking excited labs like course im gonna happy show  lab every thursday morning,0
Holey Carbohydrates! Today is National Donut Day! ,0
want end soonim depressed since forever past months really feel like end line me im kind scared act redflag time im really drown it think time know long time end it feel motivation desire achieve anything life social job family seem able love someone theres nothing future excite hold back kill myself people around me even good friends feel disconnected everything right now redflag never seemed real me think soon enough pain gone cant get this feel trapped even want help even know posting this,1
please kill me i m so fucking done with this life i m just a burden and everyone around me would be much happier if i didn t exist i d be doing everyone a favor if i just killed myself,1
@deabush lol - know what you mean. ,0
please someone talk me helpi tried everything four psych wards  different medications therapist weed meditation cant anymore im blowing constantly so  month old three year old fucking depressed want die every single day says hes worried know know help idk help myself please someone tell something worth living,1
 months ago finally decided go doctor reccomendation relative another heavy depressive episode one visit stopped going workload university felt could keep up know expect miracles one visit even one felt incredibly hard know describe feelings wanted die even share much details life also prescribed antidepressants month think helped rock bottom want start visits again know afraid helpless stuck miserable life guilt visits paid parents pockets help want get help afraid anything,1
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"&quot;You Are My Best Friend&quot; - of Queen, I really love this song, it's really beautiful ",0
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"http://twitpic.com/6sqz5 - Me and Marisa after Promotion...not sure who took it, but I love it! ",0
want anything one likes nothing makes happy anymore feel like exist expense others job mum pays pretty much everything pretty sure want life anymore autistic talk people make meaningful friendships know fact nobody ever love me want stop existing get terminal disease worry future anymore want browse internet rest life like already do want stop existing sake everyone knows me see living past ,1
huge cast gathered remake sadly box office failure notwithstanding great sound track cant say riveting entertainment cure insomnia nevertheless enjoyed film  provided escape one afternoon good look us looking ideal life albeit fantasy expect corny moments thrills occasional laugh,0
lmaoo this whenever need take turn immediatelyi shuffle leg direction want go goplease tell im one,0
taking baby steps kill myselfhi  yo male here started contemplating redflag back last months high school mostly due upcoming exams decisions university etc thoughts redflag always shelter pressure would meet every challenge thoughts like ok really kill myself im third try graduate university  years university still bachelors degree sight first drop got depressed shit lied parents graduate on thought redflag every single day thoughts really raw like thoughts breaking  story building jumping im coward would impossible break in go winter partially submerge river freeze death would able carry fantasies im pussy hurts whole life  cant put effort anything hard cant hang im afraid pain on year lied parents graduating university ready kill time plan simple easy plan took days work try one method kill myself would spend days finding right cord strangle not hanging im pussy afraid injure neck every night tighten cord around neck it took  nights figure right way at least think right way face gets redpurple head starts tingle blood vessels enlarge seconds  much afraid continue see happens keep longer heck even know would enough kill would give terrible headache please pm answer even make dizzy  would happy could pass die stopping blood flow brains but know would enough kill me way even know work feel trapped joy living back stabbed parents multiple times for reason even know redflag method work out,1
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im still alive im deleting reddit tomorrowthanks kind messages all place fucking toxic continue here u wanna talk me discord aquamarine,1
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yall please stop upvoting slept crushs house crush said yes posts please stop upvoting shit one  things   theyre hopping bandwagon obviously karma whoring   even day true middle fucking pandemic sleeping someones house people dying anyway thats rant please stop shit,0
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need talkhello ampxb need talk english mother tong ill try say things me need write somewhere alone anyone tell even someone talk would think pieces years since life look like real life struggle keeping job struggle girls lost friends tried help breackdown happened kept stupid shit nonsensical stuff ampxb im  almost perfect life  mean everything money friends time girl normal mental health felt sometimes bit unconfortable like alone even surrounded friends family happened dad felt sick mental illness nothing do becam stupid lets say debilitated doctors said  years live ok hard year grandpa died loved him year break long relationship girl hard too became get down last year master th year mom left dad sister couldnt handle converted islam problems years couldnt find place life struggled school religion helped immensely way radical wanted full islamic like kind religious veil that way talk like normal person since education converted sect religion whatever lost her ampxb much me couldnt pass exams second semester attend shit began best friends pass graduated moved city went life got job all stayed there brother handle shit happened year either september school begins again came back parents house saw bed like noon said wtf doing school said bullshit like heyy days ok elder man move fucking ass  years younger me said ok go school stops so said bit fucked anyway noone gives fuck dad sick mom gave up since always successful one kinda protective strict brother sister good said ok bro find school city study in gonna live me so find appartment  people call schools withing week school again could start schoolyear again ampxb thats everything hit face started school motivation since exams pass last year friends anymore say social like almost loneliness anxiety could stay alone hours day needed see people hang go out drink dance chat fun less like that me feeling like wanted alone like problems worth hanging people anymore know enough problems need chill good sign begining year  months beautiful girl life still now still wtf much wow everyone doctor blond best body best smile kind sweet bitch all like best girlfriend idea got her chance really liked me fucked up said started take cocaine end last year couldnt pass exams every friend mine tried last try give fuck really said fuck it ok let put nose it like nothing couldnt feel something special friend laughing like said yeah nothing special immediate effect talkative relaxed confident even know it good night like it continued come back girl time summer take lot cocaine kill totaly anxiety made relax feeling good myself best feeling best medicine girl one day got really drunk coke day coke began disapear super drunk started lose memories met people chat got drinks them knew before good mood coke descent super drunk said yes girlfriend said wtf way way perfect look messages yes is cant feel love sweet cant feel anything talk drunk one point say ok guys call tell over wtf guys know laugh lot really jealous huge douchebags call her say something like yeah yeah ok wants story over ok stupid excuse could tell next day couldnt save me over thats it could see times next days talk strict over deserve attention love anymore ampxb ok point pieces girlfriend lot crap save money lot drugs motivation year seemed easy pass exams seemed like waste time plus shit endure last year point remember living brother since took put school again ampxb one two months that time nothing i nothing second semester drugs playing video games seeing friends less less told first time life needed see noone totally alone home know why know later couple months met party cool girl small dark hair super cute face younger me like  something  make night nothing else one friend girlfriend friend mine told hey man really invite drink meal best girl ever sure likes you ok shambles kind of said hm ok not later one month went way decided invite her good started date long story short important stayed together two years incredible courage suffer shit threw her ampxb last thing want share you girl feel anything fall love problem previous knew liked much felt good company thats all know mental problems time year continued girl cool going deeper deeper drugs alcohol cocaine nothing constructive reallt strange begining state now begining end end shit suffer  years ampxb drive head ahead drugs felt place totally handle seeing good friends cool life cool job project there dead inside waiting healing drugs know sick girl helped understand needed see doctor went ok big breackdown need stop alcholol drugs take medicines get better ok ampxb no could not took medicines drink lot it getting crazy fastforward now ampxb ampxb say could make go better girl pass exams tried  years row attend exams down druged drunk there  still master degree like  exams pass bachelor  years studies nothing actually  years first  years  next years tried kills think it ampxb killed break girl killed me physical pain mental disease harder stronger painful toothpain wanted die hitting every wall could screaming crying dying ampxb ampxb anyway loose mind cannot concentrate much whatever ampxb totally dead inside family left brother grandma talk grandparents mother cousins family members  years single friend left everyone tried save me failed make progress came back  times worse everyone let me ampxb totally alone cant keep job tried  different medications  months hospital read philosophy psychology theology whatever help feel complete ampxb cocaine th month almost money left last week ended hospital overdose  grams day everyday  days tought heart would explode cant stop cocaine totally addicted even medication anymore pure drug try feel something get high much used it need huge quantities bullshit ampxb cant handle anymore  weeks ago second time swallow medicines  boxes somehow woke next morning pissed reliefed time ampxb today write email rehabpsychiatric center cant manage life alone anymore ampxb needed talk ampxb thank reading wish best,1
problem sex girl school im  shes  didnt use protection need ideas parents dont know parents dont know wont talk im bot lost,0
@oOshiningsunOo The wages (aka conciquences) of sin is death not hell (Rom 6:23) and furhermore I don't consider sucide a sin anyway (at least in the context of stuff like depression) its a tragic side effect of illness,1
loved her and gave her everything we went through alot cancer for my mom cancer for her mom we leaned on eachother stress life living together just so much love for her if you check my last post on r infidelity you can see the detail basically she dumped me said she feel numb need to be alone stress her mother illness work all that devastated me i accepted her decision and even told her if she feel like she need to be alone she s doing the right thing i wa going to propose soon now i wa devastated already really bad really in the most pain and now to find out she wa cheating put it on a whole new level the feeling of being thrown in the garbage and replaced the feeling of inadequacy like i can t be loved there a way out and i can end the pain i don t see a way out for me im so lonely im in so much pain,1
ive unsuccessful attemptsits making real angry life,1
reject someone nicely im already dating someone lately ive notice girl class crushing pretty hard im pretty sure going ask pretty soon im already pretty serious relationship want know tell girl im interested hurting her advice,0
well fuck went girls house yesterday party way girls willing gossip shit talk people barely know real life fucked like talked guys rejected said talk guys kill boredom theyll say yes guy asks joke hope girls talk like this even worse worry thats girls talk boys  made sad,0
i m missing my best friend i miss our fun time together i love you guy and i miss you so much,0
tldr we ve been told that depression is caused by chemical imbalance in the brain but is it really pharma industry produce drug to fix the chemical balance the most common antidepressant is called ssri which will increase the level of serotonin in the brain,1
@LifeAsWeKnowIt I'll have to email it to ya sometime. It's delish ,0
understand people ok fact this itto elaborate know people manage wake everyday waste  hours life go job care less about scrape struggle live what  days weekend whats point im exhausted even enjoy  days off sure save retire time retire im gonna old enjoy it weirdest thing knowing im complete fuck death best option one willing except that instead living me im living everyone else life everyone feel like im one people im special talents understand life decent best whatever job get wont matter cause likely going cubicle job obscure company thats likely gonna go years dont get brought world drunken mistake im expected move life im ok it im suppose ok fact im going work die never fully get life want literally impossible unless win lottery,1
anyone talk tonighti feel lonely think irl friends something fun tonight dont even reply messages,1
just got a denied letter from bazaar bizarre sad i wa looking forward to a road trip to be a vendor there,0
ima female perhaps choose believe whatever want,0
thanks everyone spoke me made mindi realized cant bear return home decision liberating first time long time clarity purpose gonna right world goes on thank sharing last moments take care,1
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people hypocritesthey selfish think own bully you insult  makinf fun compare like kind opponent comes redflag suddenly change mind wants help preventing this mean wtf guys dont like disappear idea also doesnt satisfy,1
im afraid keep livingmy year relationship ended  weeks ago forced believe fine clearly not manipulative attempts tried get back stating would move find feeling me broke said needed time figure emotions lost emotions honestly hope lost hope said know long would take a month week year feel alone much pain cutting help anymore yearn peace feeling nothing want continue living happened year relationship could happen next person find know else find peace death,1
like go done bell invites me hear not duncan bell summons thee heaven hell maybe im insane one best quotes ive seen like yeah guy murder king still macbeth shakespeare,0
@twimom317 Wow! *faints* ,0
ase depression ke go nna ka motseng wa batswadi,1
i feel at peace but i can t stop cry i m done with life i will no longer be a noose ance anymore i guess part of me wish someone would stop me still i don t know i m done edit it is now the next day i m still thinking about killing myself but it s way le intense now more of a thought than a plan and intent i don t know it s been rough it s hard to see a way out of it but i know that inaction isn t going to help me get over it man i wish life wa le difficult but it really feel like i m learning everything from the ground up i know for sure that there are many people who are going through similar situation experience a i am but due to the nature of it nobody dare to talk about it i do however think that my experience are universal therefore survivable idk i just wish it didn t have to be that way but i need to accept it,1
emiliexclarkex miss you,0
Can changes in your diet cure your depression?  http://ow.ly/m6bK30jDkQi  http://ow.ly/m6bK30jDkQi ,1
eventually danny decided try sleep left gramps wine kitchen threw away things written left brothers cigarettes back found them headed bed slowly stumbled kitchen silently walked past cats sleeping table chairs gently opened door room let fall bed soon head hit pillow memories come back fears haunted again ok hell able forget everything tomorrow anyway im bored balls hurt guys,0
"@gdgreely Thank you, sincerely!    I'm sure it'll be a blast!",0
almost killed myself song came itunes hope methis link song httpwwwyoutubecomwatchvuyenzlrtu cant get something sad sound upbeat happy song may bring tears always finds way make happier explain hope same even one person still struggle every day make struggle easier me lyrics wakes time break left note dresser right time know anything right wrong said know said wanna panic ive go owe anything anyone take life cause got better leaving think stop wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time looking paper today looking specific page wanna find full name followed dates left alone made sound like moan youre known everyone everything done fuck buying flowers graves id rather buy one way nonstop anywhere find anyone anything forget start again love said go and thats that hurts much stand got stop draw line everyone choose side tonight moment truth haunting forget family regardless choose cant decide theyre screaming why you ill start engine cant take ride ill draw bath ill load gun hope bad bathe hunt annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow says the saddest day came across learned life goes without me without me without says if everyone someone else aint got nobodys love save me save me save me says i think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never get right me just reality wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time annie says mind never find cure problems her problems proplems says long someone near make clear need solve solve them solve says oh loneliness killing me filling anger resentment resentment resentment says im turning someone never thought id again wake everything gonna fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time annies tired forgetting today always planning tomorrow tommorow says the saddest day came across learned life goes without me without says if everyone someone else aint got nobodys love save me save says i think ill pass away tonight cause seems ill never get right me annie says wake everything going fine guarantee wake better place better time tired living feel like might give well time even oh let go could run run run run follow close someday say thats it thats all ill waiting open arms break fall know think know im ill lead home let said forget me cant,1
tonightits over im done im going go outside buy something overdose on shoot die finally want peace world sent enough signs need die shouldnt im sorry baby ill love forever youll find someone else finally finally finally finallyim sorry waited long ill leave dark like dad always knew would end way,1
"@lozakasuperman Thanx dude  Its a bit of a long shot, but r u gonna come up to see the lads in Edinburgh? Free comedy shows! No Pinky!",0
i am tired i don t feel anything good i just don t want to exist anymore,1
i really want to get a dog i think it would help me with my problem my boyfriend like dog but he like cat a little more i prefer dog,1
rapunzel cute hey one else hair long soft,0
i suffer from anxiety and ocd so i went to a neuropsychiatrist who prescribed me a month treatment which is paroxetine paxil 0 mg he told me to start with half tablet the first day then take a full one for the rest of the day i took it at midday prazepam 0 mg half tablet at midday the other half at night clomipramine mg one tablet at night he didn t tell me anything about tapering off so i stopped them abruptly and ended up experiencing very bad annoying withdrawal symptom like nausea vomiting headache weird sensation in my muscle i felt my body vibrating vivid dream dizziness stomach pain shaking fatigue anxiety mood change i felt depressed cried a lot too etc litteraly a nightmare it s been week since i stopped them and the withdrawal symptom are becoming le intense compared to the first day thank god and honestly i m never approching these medication again i just hope the remaining symptom dissapear too then i ll stick with therapy and herb my question is will this abrupt discontinuation have bad long lasting effect on my body or will this all go away permanently after the withdrawal suffrance stop thanks,1
dont plan living see i feel like burden drain everyone around me im shit school future one cares me thats it im going see  thanks listening bullshit,1
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sure talk tohey so im kind circling drain failed everything job girlfriend left me family disappointed told family wanted marry leaves again blame her know im trying say here late guess wanted tell somebody turn in please turn in wanted tell somebody goodnight,1
It's Friday!!!! I Cross my Fingers for Ashleys Soundcheck!  You are the Best!!!,0
yeh totally dig firebug but enuff is enuff gon na start using safari charles ditch ff and see how debugging go too many ff crash,0
so happy ,0
Yay going to see All American Rejects in August totally excited ,0
featuring fascinating performance smith story tugs heartstrings harder rock guitarist midsolo seven pounds races past directors previous collaboration actor the pursuit happiness flick also loved remember gabriele muccinos name movies may skip unnoticed actor attached project quite highprofile br br too bad figured smiths scheme early on put two two together calls suicide first scene scene rosario dawsons character introduced incurable heartdiseasebr br however still think writerdirector made right choice putting bookends bookends first last scene way source urgency tension movie finding gradually exactly man driven ultimate sacrifice heartbreaking see relationship smiths dawsons character flourish develop knowing back mind always store unlucky twobr br one friends saw movie thought smiths character could divine gift understand why performance almost angelic presence seven elected ones yet times could harsh scary hes alone full weight situation got much breaks completely quite versatile performancebr br lastly cant forget mention crash scene reenactment really quite stunningly done terms cinematography paired music put list,0
im suicidalbut black come back  wrong lane taking corners  wake nightmares cold sweat cant figure im relieved disappointed still better reality scream top lungs head one sees make constant jokes sad go week speak word loud im ok im suicidal,1
project originally conceived movie version popular japanese manga slamdunk thats something new jay chou made movie debut playing character another wildly popular manga initial d along way decided incorporate kung fu movie hence title even idea original stephen chows shaolin soccer coming mind martial arts ball games combinedbr br however thankfully scenes kung fu actually influenced games kept bare minimum kung fu dunk really quite unnecessary add much plot drum much excitement offered cheap laughs reminisced time stephen chow used kung fu football games jay chou comfortable role martial artist fang shijie since first time fought using martial arts curse golden flower anyone stunt direction ching siutung made look really believable trashes countless gangsters bar seen trailer let know whos bossbr br that almost character made kung fu practitioner fact giving excuse top shot able shoot hoops practically angle eric tsang small time hustler chenli sees potential becomes agent joins university play varsity basketball without initial objection team captain tingwei chen bolin team star xiaolan baron chen bigscreen debut know team members side long combine strengths take adversaries basketball courtbr br and stick neck say movie basketball goal football made sport look good charismatic characters despite dripping much coolness aloofness courts here special effects wirework employed make actors seem like professionals take top side nba league honesty really looked stunning especially mimic various dunking moves performing combomoves thanks technology stunt work actuality kung fu elements really movie stunt work able justify moves theyre quite grounded reality suspend belief boys average height springs feet leap height professional dunkbr br pity number games handful time spent plenty subplots loosely developed flitted story please things like abandoned shijies quest use basketball games get parents one day attend them gangsterism penetrating influencing games love life charlene choi yet another flower vase role look good nothing else everyones acting little cool leaving little room main characters add depth one key themes realization importance teamwork rather individual talent ability could brought much stronger players interacted lot court it competitive games apart highfives friendly passesbr br with us million budget easy see money went  effects particular massive fantasy sequence crucial point movie quite flawless nice look probably justifiable quality alone like emphasize even without elements basketball stunts would still make decent movie nifty basketball moves jay chou playing team big boost hopes box office success,0
omg there is a super massive bee downstairs my phobia is kicking in big time and i can t go downstairs unless i know it s gone help,0
latest film spanish director agusti villaronga study children experience violence isolation within remote community develop troubled young adults need certain psychic tools deal hidden mental frailty whether tools religion followed fanatical level caring others simply putting macho image whilst engaging maleprostitute villaronga creates successful examination vices affect three teenagers living spain franco three witness disturbing double death friends teenagers subsequently bury emotions feel peers frail corpses meet hospital suffering form tuberculosisbr br the cinematic style text typically visually opulent would expect spanish auteur extremely reminiscent fellow spaniard pedro almodovars work themes dealing sexual desire heterosexual homosexual element different two directors villaronga favours supernatural undertone spliced claustrophobic gritty realism opposed almodovars use surrealism although styles similarbr br the piece gives insight troubled young psyche contains disturbing violence scenes sexual nature highly recommend watching film contains elements remain audience considerable period viewing,0
jewish pride month im asking feel like googling it,0
find uselessits like walking empty room filled people like big hole space getting ready jump,1
"@victoria_6661 i need new music, suggestions? ",0
I got a new t-shirt  Its in my profile pic and it says &quot;I gotta get laid&quot;  *not the same to real life*  tweet tweet,0
ui_will_make_u_mad definitely job rn hes making people mad,0
nothing anyone willing help going attempt kill today,1
need read reviewbr br an earlier review pninson seattle already identified main shortcomings production amplify basic argumentsbr br bleak house relatively late dickens novel much darker earlier work taken literally director ross devenish piles gloom fog much ada rick esther appear half hour opening episode relief daylight first time murkier scenes hard see actually tv screen watched whole thing one day starting midafternoon daylight faded became less issue pretty good tv never encountered problem time daybr br the pacing deliberate ie slow sure intensional overdone numerous shots people trudging though muck gloom victorian london held longer necessary establish mood atmosphere good editor could probably take several minutes fiftyminute episode without losing line dialogue trimming scenes slightlybr br i want overstate two problems soon adjust look pace production important issue always tell story effectively earlier dickens novels long bleak house nearly intricately plotted example recently reread nicholas nickleby intrigued see douglas mcgrath crammed  page book twohour movie answer simple book full padding mcgrath cut great swathes novel still retaining essential story elements would possible bleak house br br this production needs seven hours probably needs even longer many elements convoluted plot sufficiently clear well handled need be random examples illustrate problemsbr br the maid rosa appears nowhere background lady dedlocks attachment largely unmotivatedbr br sergeant georges acquiescence tulkinhorns demand sample hortons handwriting somewhat fudgedbr br it made clear enough esther actually love woodcourt agrees marry john jarndyce neither clear agreed announce engagement whybr br ada ricks secret marriage omitted one episode merely lovers next people suddenly referring husband wifebr br mrs rouncewell introduced late stage story sargeant georges estrangement family left unexplained  means discoveredbr br tulkinhorns dedication maintaining honour respectability dedlock family understated motive persecuting lady dedlock obscure need bebr br the involvement brick makers tom later lady dedlock somewhat opaquebr br it obvious guppy renews offer esther smallpox scars vanishedbr br this selection others major problems main thrust story clear enough nonetheless minor irritations detract power puzzle little plot points however important structural problems weaken story later stagesbr br the whole business tulkinhorns murder somewhat thrown away bucket immediately pinpoints hortense suspect undermines suspense sergeant georges predicament importance finding mrs rouncewell also diminishes impact subplot suspicion thrown lady dedlock weakens scene hortense unmasked front sir lesterbr br a serious problem murder investigation subsequent search lady dedlock dominate story hour time completely lose sight main plot strand legal case effect rick failing finances gouging vholes skimpole adas despair declining health on put hold entire episode may dickens wrote book i read years good screenplay keep different plot strands moving forward togetherbr br finally smallweeds role story diminished almost superfluous discovery new will triggers final phase story also thrown away happens screenbr br despite this still good production many performances outstanding individual scenes beautifully realised accumulating sense tragedy powerful would still recommending superb adaptation great book  production fact probably fully aware defects seen andrew davies better critical daviess jane austen adaptations admit really knows tame dickenss sprawling booksbr br this impressive gripping drama well worth seven hours anybodys time nonetheless probable fate viewed mainly crossreference neardefinitive  version,0
happy birthday vladimir putin reason know dads birthday yesterday mine tomorrow hes almost exactly  years older dad hes  holy shit im turning  tomorrow,0
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@ramseyshow Send them back in the return envelopes so they pay double postage. That's what we do ,0
thinking throwing front trainim fucking pathetic loser,1
got beat death santa trying get fuck me fucking worth yall luckily im immortal try next year,0
woke late class ankle surgery yesterday morning anxious didnt get sleep im  minutes late first class im going miss one show rest classes use surgery excuse get them couple days work really need due doctors appointments such parents fine missing classes feel really bad since ankle hurts pretty bad also note online school lack preparation school three classes day classes pretty pointless teacher lecturing us random stuff hour learning outside class assignments,0
im bored sooo im gonna put shit alphabetical order give household items please,0
Playing piano again...  It's great!!,0
recently watched sundance channel idea film bring many filmmakers illustrious country make short films eleven them one film concentrating one subject september br br from wacthing movie could tell filmmakers great country elements great filmbr br the movie starts film iran teacher struggles teach students happened september  fail realize laterbr br the second film france involves deaf women writes letter lover angrily unaware going tv playsbr br the next film egypt involves filmmaker talking dead soldier recent events terrorists  bombings placesbr br the next comes bolivia girl learns events september  believes must march thembr br the next country africa group boys follow man believe bin ladinbr br the next comes mexico nothing shown sounds daybr br the next israel involving reporter scene bomb trying get report frequently told attacksbr br there films cant remember moment powerful bring back emotions daybr br ,0
is watching the logies and eating home made pie in my pj's  awesome night in,0
holy shit fuck yes past two hours ive texting crush since th grade th grade now amazing learned bunch stuff didnt know her,0
risk wish could beive long history mental health problems along lines depression ptsd gad part ive lot improvement now say improvement something know exists feel it im done emptied reserves nothing left hate february coming  years ago later month came home found bodies husband  year old son whole month relive happened  starvation financial stress fights boss demanded take break lunch food attempt feb  course essay due day commitments day im probably going supportive role someone too many times wish worked told would happy attempt failed think ever been catastrophic failure reason im risk right now nearly crippled life im scared try again cant stand idea something partially working aware whats going around unable act theres nothing sure work except   probably would work fuck know it want know boys are want know friends left time doing want shit never have feels like everything systematically stripped me every time act towards interest feel like fall shit makes everything worse everything complicated want peace simplicity position support lot people around feel like imposter im depleted resources need someone take care me anyone tried it would false real would assuage guilt  nothing me one cares me ive faced neglect parents abandonment friends best friend murdered child tore away killed himself relationships think theyre mostly people unconsciously acting messed patterns me like im tool theyre using reenact shit theyre trying process matter im thing consequence feelings inherent value   days attempted killed son himself imagine burned brain cannot begin explain guilt deal with even tell people every single detail always tell fault happened fucking lying face stronger could stopped it police parents facing work dust settled months later alone totally utterly alone year know must come long way wait im waiting open door again couple weeks ill open door ill find dead again ill hear sirens flying me theres point chest moving no pretty extra fucking sure theyre dead sirens necessary fucking futile yes im pretty sure dead wish like hell them suffer here stage alone wanna stage alone fuck want me,1
think developing bi polar disorder normal whole life now dont think want live shiti worked hard shit entire life working almost full time since day turned  cant even go work recently dont want burden society problems taking care myself dont anyone count on im tired bipolar runs family family member commited redflag want go way it dont want suffer anymore reason havent done yet cause dog pathetic itself really good dog best friend,1
would people miss diei start post saying planning kill current time sorry post meant go know else  male currently st year college met people consider friends still connected good bunch old ones healthy relationship parents teachers idea plagued awhile would people miss die sense kill selfwould one miss me understand would sad sure would get me talk regularly friends college playing games still thought back mind says no one would miss would forget soon afterwords guess one main points thinking shit self worth zero social life side college real world also self conscious weight trying fix say think killing time soon thanks responses,1
im ending itive taken xanex prozac dri king some much itll in thinking going drive mountains,1
i m fucking done trying everything hurt i m tired of being a loser at life and being myself i m just tired of trying so hard with recovery and feeling like no matter what i m not really meant to recover like my mind ha been set on suicide and death for so long that i feel so lost without it i am just a fucking failure okay i failed at life i m a year old loser who really fucked up his life beyond repair and i see no way out besides death if we get graded for how we did in life i d get a big fat fucking f i know i only started recently and i should take thing slow and take thing day by day blah blah blah but at the end of the day i m still me and i can t live with myself i truly wish my mother could understand that i really can t live being me anymore i feel so claustrophobic inside my own self with so much self hate and rage a though i could explode i wish i could collapse or sink inside myself wandering aimlessly and wondering how did thing happen to be like this how did my life become such a fucked up mess it s all just so overwhelming i can t fathom how i m going to keep this recovery facade up any longer wa this just a reminder of how pathetic i ve become is recovery just another way of pretending to be something i m not i don t know anymore i just want to cry without end i am tired of being like this i m tired of being me what can i do what the fuck can i do i feel so lost and broken you see maybe some people just never were meant for life no matter what after being like this for year death is all that matter to me and once death becomes your everything it s hard to turn back i don t know what to do besides kill myself tonight,1
lot of revision to do tonight too for my final assessment more assessment today a well 90 pas mark is harsh,0
leftists sit alone cafeteria lunch time school im proud leftist voiced hatred donald trump republican party multiple classes feel like classmates ready views like mine anyone else experiences am wish could live state like california texas could around leftists like myself,0
ha anyone else ever experienced a state of almost constant light headedness brain fog just a weird feeling in your head due to anxiety just want to know if i m alone in this or not i ve had it for week now,1
"<Emoji: Camera> Depression tip, grow your hair out. Then when you're constantly alone you can stroke your own hair...  https://tmblr.co/ZgvGBo2XPANBJ ",1
cant fresh start hey guys thanks already listening think able help much people tried guess worth shot im  year old male past year ive quite depressed reached point thinking self harm redflag daily basis lovley girlfriend many years truly loved her going ask marry me cheated guy close friends close friends aswell never told circumstances behind breakup gotten moving her think im silly   im finding moving difficult miss every day sadly much around remind hate making trek university te train passes many places used go depressing wish could fresh start cant change uni need help parents around farm cant move bought motorbike year ago never thought id kinda guy liked go fast think ever pick way go using bike wish u chance fresh start everything reminds see escape,1
ralph bakshis forgotten masterpiece fire  ice old oop rental videotapebr br  well one thing better conanesque film ever see sure cheesy cares stood test time way started look cheesy comparisons modern fantasy epics like lotrfotr though love filmbr br  plot goes like this battle fire  ice kings daughter kidnapped jarols ice subhuman creatures sole survivor victimized village rescues herbr br  yeah sound original nurse betty thats point really bring life interesting idea world two enemies fire  ice succeedsbr br  action scenes superb well handled terrific suspence plenty loud noises check climatic battle thats endingbr br  acting dialogue competent really gonna nominated oscar ok get nervesbr br  animation quite good shot d rotoscoped i think looks pretty good lot backgrounds look really detailed well drawn although character designs feel little dimentional okbr br  overall fine neglected little gem entertain superfical entertainment ,0
my phone is broke too bad i could have been sending you exciting tweet today on how the city election are going election judge day,0
hard work towards future even want iteat healthy exercise everyday get skinny what getting skinny for mortician study hard complete assignments get good college who plan live long maintain friendships keep touch people people hurt im gone fuck shit man,1
xmas going im curious,0
@cyndicato thannkkk you ,0
yes  ways rip gus van sants elephant students dealing problems leading suicide one them yes full clichs thats life cant deny creepy nerds disabled persons popular students who despite popularity problems existing real worldbr br but thats not film about life highschool misery life itselfbr br if look beneath surface beneath soaplike social relationships shown find gripping thoughtprovoking criticism societybr br why people committing suicide really understand motives trying understand already late always someone would never expected bebr br this movie answer question raises it intense way way keeps guessing whose blood might be see beginning following paths students less good reason end lives forced watch gruesome act finalebr br did know would be caught surprise like real lifebr br the message verbalized one surviving kids end always fixed problems forget see others might someone colleague friend want live anymore but open eyes never know latebr br this movie delivers well might flaws matter anymore over either see reflection society blind reality,0
i wanna it theres even point anymore life pointless im worthless always fuck every single thing up even able build life wanna tonight im scared work though life pointless point try hard still everything touch fuck cant manage thing holding back hurting family point nothing else left aside that hardly enough hold back anymore though im tired life theyd get eventually im scared right now body turn to part even know im posting this want help anymore im done cry every single night multiple times day nothing live for nothing look forward to nearly friends literally thing holding back family im done,1
im crying well today officially end hard classes started term thinking going well wow going finish half year  gpa going miss english band math yes even physics next month im starting easy classes taking psat getting drivers permit know youll never read thank teachers continuing teach us help us want thank passion youve put teaching us despite us still pandemic,0
tromeo juliet  another jewel troma studios film archives like toxic avenger tromas war class nuke em high terror firmer sgt kabukiman nypd film instant troma classic james gunn updates romeo juliet taking medieval tragedy reinvisions modern day street punk drama seen read play nothing much change except tromatizedbr br lloyd kaufman adds twisted vision screenplay makes highly enjoyable film actors handle script well surprised well performed dialog lot better hollywood big budgeted actors utilizing monstrous budget expensive sets enjoyed movie much lloyd kaufman disappoint know expect films troma productions would rather watch one films entertained watch boring expensive movie pampered paid actors lame scripts lazy directors awful cgi special effectsbr br i highly recommend movie like fun films cheesy special effects top acting inspired directing movies you,0
cant take anymoreive struggling depression almost  years now theres days hurt much cant happy  cant get hole  want pain end im tired waking everyday thinking killing myself really bravery weakness keeping alive woke morning crying cant stop hurts much alive cant understand feel like know smile anymore like little little part teared know get back im broken many pieces think build ever again,1
You know what's super fun??? Sprinkle some latent depression on top of your #insomnia for a delicious night time snack.... pic.twitter.com/WNFPuGcB7n,1
im sorry break yall hentai subreddit snoos rteenagers,0
 bragging finnessed  christmas say im homeless chill times square,0
spent past weeks meet friends family members would still talk me since thought would nice see one last timei fucked everything could life got degree field unable properly work longer see point it become useless piece shit unable get bed morningi unconciously sabotaged notredflag ended hurting exes feel extremely lonely also drink excessively almost social occasion way stand people around me friends metaphorically drifting away me is course good them since never really good friend also easier finally leave worldi longer find joy anything used lots hobbies considered extremely talented kid dozens great opportunities great plans wanted see world happy good end failed basically everything could want leave fucking mess cannot take more,1
guys ever bottle shot glass thing yknow take cap soda bottle use shot glass haha please talk,0
@crazytwism yessssss  infinitely! ,0
i have made up my mind i am going to kill myself tomorrow i ll be alone in the house for atleast hour so no one will be there to check up on me or save me i have the razor blade and pill i m going to use i have alcohol too and i m going to get drunk while i harm myself i m hoping to go before anyone find me i can t deal with life anymore i can t do this anymore i m not going to say my goodbye this is goodbye i hope y all are able to heal this is going to be it for me goodbye,1
would easy wayim living life depression living day day would love able finally end shit seems like theres way dealing manner would reliable enough im point im annoyed every single time wake up find alive im already dealing drunk high  reduced eating minimum maybe hopefully living like find peace death comes early possible,1
help almost killed im afraidhelp someone im  im really terrified im drunk im really sad left house  morning dad kill found left almost jumped traffic im scared sad dont know talk please,1
im scared die damn want diemy greatest fear death since child even really understood meant die knew scared never exist again disappear death terrifies me brain wants die wants stop everything done like life fucking videogame brain wants press pause stop time stop life stop everything thats works cant stop thinking it want die want die fucking ironic feel numb constantly theres film senses  everythings dull cold grey justbland nothing feels real feeling real time much input time feel nothing self harm like goddamn teenage girl fucking feel something thank god nobody knows or least nobody knows person knows would mortified definitely able live thats due pure humiliation knowing someone saw pathetic even know anymore ive become sort sick hypocrite friends school always talk theyre depressed sad want tell shut fuck nobody cares problems because really nobody cares anyone im bitter disgusting helps case jump fucking bridge something but cant im scared die im stuck fucking loop like goddamn joke know do so thats life hows day going,1
first thing im going turn  go skydiving life long dream hope could friend would make even awesome,0
im tiredim tired life im tired alone im tired horrible world want end all,1
incurable disease excruciatingly painful everyday want die get rid pain tried every treatment hope embarrassing want die cannot function normal human being incurable disease,1
repairs thanks potholes put even behind payments brakes save money friend jacks tools really need help getting brakes im actually getting worried now starting get spongy,1
positivityim feeling low know others well thought id let guys know hope well lets get together wanna send little positivity out love guys lets strong,1
i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1
Depression #PS4share pic.twitter.com/qYYb3oKbti,1
wrote redflag note todayim writing letter becuase may hard anyone understand choosing this number one thing want every one know single human cuased this nothing one couldve done differently all except course myself simplistic reason cut dry black white thought redflag daily since fifteen years old seldom days mind worst enemie see world different way most everything constantly consistantly jumbled numbers faces letters words thoughts see things backwards sideways upside down sometimes even blurred hide hide well told people dyslexic hand really mean perpetual state confusion try hard learn can least take jab it becuase afriad seen stupid voice head justified mocking unintelligent really am one reason tired perpetual state confusion sure started im actually really sure anything started memory fleeting best along line mind began tell worthless mean bad day passing thought mean every single day bad day normal day even amazing day point start think anything little voice seeps starts go blow blow always reassure worthless stupid failure eat without telling get fat worthless cant read without laughing calling stupid jumble something up work without telling failure matter time fired give up always promise infact worthless number two tired trying live mind consistently telling failing to fucking crazy aforementioned voice stomach turning anxiety mood swings depression literally fucking insane five yes five voices head excluding aforementioned voices constantly fighting eachother example would want go bowling friends like normal person begin think bring them voices come in voice  tell ask blunt voice  tell ease conversation voice  tell stupid shut sit pretend content voice  tell bowling lame look stupid asking voice  tell ignore voice  fighting begins stuck helpless look fake content face pretending thier arent five voices head argueing fucking bowling maybe noticed time even call space cadet why yes another why tired control brain anxiety oh anxiety sweet toxic lover im really sure got bad afraid time moments feel sliver safety room dog occasion boyfriend otherwise irrationally fearing things fearing ask simple jeans ripped person thinks ugly going spill drink everyone laugh also crazy everyone resteruant thinks crazy random man bus read mind maybe lady witch also extreme as dog dead someone family dead dieing telling me today get arrested mugged today get fired accident die become vegetable combine anxiety five voices inflating thoughts voice always reassure worthwell lack of rationale enough anyone never want leave thier roomi tired afraid fourth reason why could on on inner workings mind upon writing come realize answer fact simple cut dry black white why simple fucking tired kind tired nap fix energy drink good nights rest kind tired awake forceful battle climb bed struggle loosing everyday kind tired solution sleep never wake up,1
feel like im ultimately going die handsmy whole life story necessary im going post make feel better used live michigan many hobbies much computer day ive always smart like saying that feel like everyone whos dumb says thing seems like true taking consideration results tests ive taken past end high school never really felt depressed never happy smile never depressed graduated hated life boring dull legitimate purpose friends real life  really desire better i better need live happy internet food electricity shelter see point living decided since going kill reason move wherever damn well felt like it did left free housing food left free college education would say dumb would one people saw differently then understand point view truly going kill myself better leave live stay dieeven staying dying would substantially better idea moved really far away state unnamed confidentiality moved there could meet best friends internet real life had lived with girlfriend actually enjoyed life ffw year tried hard could find job money ran out valentines day know myself cant kill would destroy girlfriend cant leave same cant find job cant work job finding system advantage hell cant even get weed smoke ee make matters worse ive lived year parents house barely contributed ive paid like mo rent feel like useless person girlfriends brother pretty much told much today trying make girlfriend feel better argument mom fucking valentines day basically im trying find job still im also going try move back michigan march attempt finish college girlfriend may lost scholarships probably wont find job ill probably well possibly lose housing soon think life good one ultimately turns ill homeless guess ill kill myself legitimate reason come suffering ultimately worse death regardless temporary suffering think worst part initially going kill large amount privilege reason live im going kill reasons live my girlfriendi love much  privilege or least possibility good life really reason post guess since people saying dont kill yourself help kill years now think wanted get chest feel terrible today honestly almost decided take gram mxe gamble life away decided to still probably closer redflag today ever been,1
vegan sausage rolls amazing thats it thats post filler beep beep beep beep,0
rellyab will likely be unable to attend cry all the way home,0
asking because i m not sure and it just happened yesterday so the memory is still fresh from what i ve learned panic attack can make people genuinely believe they re dying or like their throat is closing up but i don t get that feeling for me i feel like i can t get enough air and that every time i have to take a deep breath but taking slow breath is really hard and near impossible sometimes and when i do try to breathe normal or deep breath i get dizzy like the act of taking in the air make my head spin causing me to feel more uncomfortable and disoriented i ll also get racing thought centered around how people interact with me will want to talk to me have spoken to me how i m a failure how people would be better off not knowing me how i ve fucked up in the past and so on when i get those thought it get really hard to slow them down and breathe yesterday when it happened i wa literally just in bed hugging my pillow really tightly because of the stress trying to focus on the music but it took roughly 0min 0min before i fully calmed down is this normal is this a panic attack or something else even though i didn t believe i wa dying or felt like my throat wa closing up if this is a panic attack how the fuck am i supposed to stop it or help it deep breath don t help meditation make it a thousand time worse trying grounding technique make it worse too knowing i don t have trick to end it make me feel worse during it,1
guys wanna see something cursed ii,0
"Exercising regularly cuts risk of depression by 16%, study suggests  http://news.sky.com/story/exercising-regularly-cuts-risk-of-depression-by-16-study-suggests-11346264 … pic.twitter.com/2R73iQe4Hd",1
"@DJSkreamallpro -- yayy u laughed  i put the pictures on myspace, but i dnt have u as a friend ",0
@1Omarion @TherealWill sounds grown ,0
tired lifei dont know im suicidal im tired pain unhappy would rather stop existing everything black happiest im asleep,1
pretend room bedsheets changed weeks cluttered cannot see floor spot bed sit dented stained get back room pretend happy pretend friends interact anyone sit bothered one see room let go step room pretend,1
people act like moving ex easyseriously every person try open miss ex feel like im lost without cant breathe say move forget her year half getting easier im sure ever will completely destroyed im coping all everyday wake wishing didnt know do,1
things ive noticed im  im  ive noticed people seem expect life future order seem expect know im expect take control life longer feel comfortable asking questions ask teen subreddits im im older feel like answering asking anyone else like that also get allot shit drivers license,0
@Biatrice07 watching BB cavs goin fishin!  glad to hear u're good... ,0
everyone asking america dont u use metric system like bitch didnt fight entire revolution use metric system instead freedom units,0
welp friends wish luck tomorrows day get mouth mutilated sake jaw dreaded blood waterfall ive told about data otherwise id post lobby xx,0
f single honestly mad stressful reason guy girl friends make fun euehrhf im honestly confused tf matters im like actually  years old leave alone mean sure itd great hate feeling pressed get someone,0
best friend tried kill yesterday know doim shaking right now im angry scared barely type yesterday best friend left home without telling anyone rode train nearby city seashore tell anybody  pm nobody suspected anything thought walking around city would come back home later however phone since  way contact him tendency panic immediately assumed worst mom went police report missing  pm  hours later found aforementioned seaside city today knew called finally picked up relieved hear voice almost cried told whatd happened turns parents really bad agrument decided much took without telling anybody drank way much alcohol threw sea couple found unconscious beach body temp c called ambulance hes staying hospital friday talked phone said must tell anybody real reason hed went missing anybody asks im supposed tell ran away needed break know seems wrong keep information secret although hes safe now know attempt im really fucking scared him told terrified friends family were know do ive never deal sensitive situation like ever before do worst thing absolutely warning signs hed depressed  talked school monday show unhappiness generally seemed fine also overall pretty positive person sure sometimes got angry apparently reason never talked situation house relations parents whole ordeal surreal me nearly lost friend im shivering writing this sorry long post needed vent somebody throwaway obvious reasons,1
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do little back story august year lost job due covid graduated secondary school time decided take year gather money get shape going college working while week lost job got lucky found full time job working since fine first sure stress came getting new job fine meet boss first noticed impulsive extremely impatient anything first time little mistake forgot patch one bag soil lashed treating less dirt obviously started take toll first took personally employees tell dislike everyone fear sadness turned anger ive told itonly gets worse confront ive let sitfor while cant spend living moment without angry s o b honestly im starting breakdown everyday im really thinking quitting mean im starting lose motivation drive cant even relieve stress masturbating anymore im constantly pissed off think quitting would good place closes november use money idk advice appreciated thank read far,0
morning  it is a really hot and sunny day again today. So i shall prob just be relaxing all day in the sun  xx,0
i feel like something is broken in me i do not function a well a others getting up going to work doing my online school all of it is exhausting i cut corner everywhere i can but i m also obsessed with making sure the corner i cut look good on paper i don t actually want to do anything ever i could sit at home all day everyday and do nothing i say i have dream but every time i get some pushback i give up i give myself a pat on the back for doing the shit i m supposed to it make me feel broken and wrong how do people learn the discipline to just get up and do what they re supposed to do everyday how do they just keep going what am i missing,1
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help trying get banned guy fight subreddit game cursed first got nasty first get angry well worse final message invites chat says fun banned i love game dearly dont want banned image saying rteenagers wont allow post image reason anyone knows show ye tell,0
interesting got new job today asked could come am training got schedule every single day starting tomorrow go pm leave am htye still asked could come  hwiuafhhhasiodd guys cmon thats fair circadium rythm,0
kid roadblockso living clinical depression since  somewhere  medications combination not psychiatric ward twice  closed ward redflag attempt late last year open ward ecttreatmentelectrocshock im active be days feels possible cognitive therapy neurotherapy exercise regiments that follow days feels possible want accused doctors depressions stem lack exercise yo cm kg pretty much every flavor month psychiatric treatment go back another series ects soon therapist gives go completed tried everything sure new medications  years trying that kind lost faith that sorry wall text issue  one roadblock slitting radial artery wrist elbow year old son strong roadblock  now hes young atm understand isolate mancave hope get much better time and friends understand whats happening dad weird feel like im working towards clock atm completing ect i  normal  refresh every nd month feels like last chance maintaining roadblock really needed get out reading managed all hope manage create great day yourself,1
im taking bullshit life hands fucking right fucking bullshit going end right fucking im done im done im done im done fucking iti fucking molested first grade teacher fucking it years told teachers counslors princeable everbody thing teacher molested threatened told would kill told police thing stop im older take pedophile  skateboard lot thing im good want find bitch bring knife kill right spot maybe gouge eyes first slit throought like stab neck run live small townand run commit sucicideit wont matter anyways get treated like shit wereever go school people call names cant talk people without getting stress try communicate people get called pervertrapestpedophile im called im differentand reminds happend im nice guy friends everybody hates ive never known like friends drumming church droped playing shitty drummer age churches music directors daughter wanted play cant talk girls without big chance trying kick balls teachers wont thing all sorry anything make sense all im done pain going soon hope everyminute bull shit painfull extreme stress amounts smallest social things tires active month berly eat,1
goodbye guessi need help wanna kill myself im gonna probably school much pain possible cant keep up anxiety full bus really problem me option get school wanna cry scream whatever im emotionless fuck wrong happy problem free child think expectations high complain fucking child others bigger problems bitching it never asked girl feel comfortable body old enough knife gun yet brothers friend got swiss army knife sooo fucking enough shit tough failure anymore  redflag lists bye loved,1
gave ol college try lifes meive trying really have want things stopped thinking negatively telling everythings fine bad im bouncing back anymore every day im closer it chipping away me feel im irrational im depressed want life chose hard path want anymore chose it brought myself many days stretched ahead me nothing look forward to plenty shitty memories look back on keep night punctuate thoughts throughout day repress say im good good things feel might want know never happen try hold ahead me like donkey carrot im even convinced things would fix anymore ive trying distract myself patch emptiness working fact failed effort making worse faking til make working making fake think every day multiple times day usually plan question ability carry out logistically could press button done would stellar im baby cant stand pain complicates things need help another human alive answers im irrational theres rational reason live want to genuinely tried already mean anything unhappy justified mean mental problem depressed dont least tonne htps like candy nothing  looks like brain chemicals  fine maybe circumstantial circumstances changing time soon think push next several years outcome guaranteed even sure thing change mind anymore really want it ive trying years working decide today waiting years reasonable no death comes everyone grand scheme things shaving yr really change understand people suicidal know theyre going die eventually enjoy journey not thats reason living understandable want to  people care im gone regret thats case enough keep anymore im sitting around waiting things get better years surely thats representative timeframe needed get chest suppose someone tell ive made huge glaring errors,1
took  pills  alcohol finally die nowi found roommates pills want die took all want die die now edit still here work roommates found morning lied told fine taken pills go hospital edit again still still here confided friend seeking help job offers free therapy said friend holding that,1
wife watched whole series least three times cant imagine could better complete history wwiino library could hold historybut best summary history lots detail lots personal stories still keeps overall picture viewbr br oliviers narration excellently written and course superbly given interviews sides except russian producers allowed talk many russians much worth owning complete program dvd treasure copybr br the producers excellent job providing pictures action almost none extant archive almost films convoys submarine battles instance still episode subject well done,0
filled much redflag thinking going planning pls help redflag,1
"Tomorrow i'll wakeup a senior. However, i will go to bed FINISHED  last day.",0
though maths teacher different e give context im high school programming area essential thing know think logically today maths class friend thought simpler way get answer teacher started complaining need explain logic test instead checking answer real world client wants fucking program work care coded really understand,0
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"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HvE3Ds  ",1
every morning see dyingevery morning wake up first thoughts head day gonna go think dont blew brains out thought dying huge comfort now used scared would feel like used worry pets friends id leaving behind used think reasons stay nothing matters more ive fading away almost  months now ive done everything could help ive read blogs websites reasons live want live happier manage depression ive gone counseling ive tried pills ive done programs feel like post reddit time one real life cares every day harder even care,1
life hate all energy want live anymore give fuck anything worked three weeks losing much money matter nothing matters somebody please take pain away,1
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happy new year best life ill dead new years resolution dead  hours  ive spent last days family trip weather beautiful love pa love boyfriend guess hes right  shit us post make much sense give many reason ill tonight matter weather warm sticky humid fireworks technicolour breath taken away,1
@AntiMileyHaters can you tell people to follow me please? would be nice to have some miley fans on here   x,0
goodnight twitters! ,0
life fucking jokelike said  life fucking joke  nothing really worth preserving  despite average optimist would tell  anything offer im going cultivate  might laziness might something else  breakthrough tonight perfect time frame im finally going bite dust  could built stress summer id prefer  really ideal time would first year move house  distance family friends eventually forget  theyd probably never know at least  death cover well even find would long grief would minimal comment like damn shame  personally think perfect  perhaps posted sanctioned redflag something  idk maybe subconscious holding  maybe im comfortable ,1
ryleebeth ye im not very sad but weirdly enough shes lettin me go da party how confusing parent r lol,0
 good enoughim antidepressant makes feel okay things okay running time  years old time success kids dwindling think get happy rich beautiful women marry social economic class think overly narrow say yes every date difficult get even dont like them think better try taje better photos hate seeing face thinning hair see like  gorgeous women every day go downtown make sad know id never catch eye wish felt like good enough deserve good things accept good things happen me deserve death really,1
good morning dear community i m safe and sound thank you for checking up on me and supporting me depression stage took week i guess i m moving to acceptance it s been a month since the beginning of war they said we d fall in day but we re still standing,1
one friends tested positive covid school tomorrow smart principal thought would good idea get class school call doctors school make tests god damn annoying angry fuck divide us first place also school shitty idea dividing class  groups group go school one week group learn online learning online mean reading lessions books teacher doesnt explain learn know takes like  clicks make zoom meting open camera group arent class learn aswellall wanted say school god damn fucked,0
startv kaderiminoyuntv it s also crucial the scenarist address in depth from a psychological point of view theme that have been introduced throughout the story abandonment of biological parent of the partner amp family depression social pressure abusgul dergecerim ferayegizemkurt kaderiminoyunu,1
ya hablado un poco de esto con mi madre pero siento como que piensa que es mentira que encuentro mal por otro motivo que invento esto como excusapongo contexto tengo  aos tengo altas capacidades superdotado desde muy pequeo estado interesado por la ciencia sobretodo la electrnica siempre sido raro distinto aunque mis padres lo nieguen en el colegio el instituto siempre sacado muy buenas notas sin penas esfuerzo los profesores excepto dos profesoras prcticamente ignoran les importa lo que haga en sus clases mientras saque nueves dieces vivo en un pueblo de menos de k habitantes soy la nica persona de mi edad que tiene estos gustos desde que tengo  aos estado solo porque nadie ms sabe nada sobre lo que hago mis padres hace aos que felicitan por lo que consigo hacer mi padre la mayora de las veces que haciendo algo en vez de felicitarme decide buscar los errores de lo que hecho al menos cuando entenda lo que haca ahora entiende nada decide por preguntarmeme siento solo puedo comoratir con nadie una de mis grandes pasiones y adems cuando era pequeo hubo un momento en el que recuerdo que cambi pase de ser un nio risueo uno serio desde entonces la mayora del tiempo sido serio con la gente con la que tengo mucha confianza eso ha hecho ganarme ms de un comentario diciendo que tengo sentimientos que exclullan mucha gente tiene una imagen de mi que es realmi grupo de amigas actual suele avisarme para salir por las noches pueden que se hable por un grupo pero nunca quedamos una hora exacta mi avisan de cuando salen solo hay una persona que siente cuenta conmigo para todo que avisa gracias ella es que sigo levantadome gracias ella est noche cortadoun poco largo gusta como explicado pero que ms da un desconocido le va importar mi vida sorry posting spanish wanted relieve,1
guys keep itmy parents thing keeping it know theyre people would devastated did even so urge hard sometimes tell keeps going,1
fucking terrified right nowi first full big year college  amp took  fucking years get life even remotely together relationships romantically blew fuck face lies cheating wonderful combination alone  years amp depression slowly gets worse like slow acting poison friends facebook distant family relationship see happy amp kills me want cry amp cant stressed college feel get anything career path one person knew amp close met video game wow amp close close ironing works ldr blew face wonderful explosion lies her always get lied to understand why kind hearted man creepy things like step bounds female friends always respectful amp always step first help people perpetually find shortest end stick life anyways best friend amp im alone fears amp one talk to want someone wrap arms around amp tell ok im scared getting worse amp worse keep thinking easy way out big coward it desire there amp feel like trash it always others need it soul found me get hand fuckim scared amp confused,1
tried boba tea really random tried boba tea hate texture tapioca balls remind fish eyes making physically ill anyone tell purpose appeal are,0
every time go kill myself psychosis scares awayto start off psychosis sometimes feel presence dark like feeling terror heart tells person blackness going stab death big knife also terrified security cameras apart that completely delusional  sometimes get sad go somewhere kill myself feel like completely destroy body brain otherwise agents come reconstruct put use go top multifloor car park go bridge train tracks every time go two places kill myself become terrified someone dark see security camera following walk not sure hallucination become terrified run away think is coincidence think so feel like upset live maybe stress triggers psychosis edit think security cameras actually following me cctv cameras motion tracking right idea seeing things,1
okay first need talk tonight cry worry okay thinking lot need tell bc feel like really important talk around   please really sorry c,1
police kills criminalthey get payedbut kill person steal eraser im psychopath murderer sociedad,0
mgi access mg dilatrend seriously considering ingesting much possibly can hope slow heart eventually stopsseizes think would enough,1
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a fare remember totally derivative almost ridiculous movie warmth makes effective upbeat holiday movie stars pretty newcomer challen kates highpowered ad executive who right wedding rush la seattle keep client rejected every presentation transportation difficulties beginning seemingly money first dumb thing  atms anywhere must make fortune rate meets cab driver warner looks like homeless man drives presentation emerges huge box beef jerky the clients product hes take airport flights canceled order get la wedding hires take therebr br along way bond learn other sweet movie though absolutely nothing new  combines six days seven nights films chemistry stars good theyre likable acting good look jerry springer head beef jerky company cameo karl maldenbr br this nice film take holiday season lifetime,0
for the past few day i ve been dealing with extreme bout of anxiety i feel anxious all day nausea all day and i cant seem to stop thinking about negative thought i ve been dealing with a lot of ups and down regarding school and romantic relationship i keep skipping school because my anxiety is way too high i dont know how to calm it down i want to see a psychologist but right now it very hard to get to see one so i ll need all any advice you have thank you,1
Hmm...did you know 350+ million people suffer from #depression globally? how does it help by just winning  http://ms.world/ Universe when theres no purpose to use your stardom for a good cause or for the betterment of the society! @deepikapadukone https://twitter.com/rahul_latchman/status/989130098421870593 …,1
want someone listen help littlelately interest anything dont meet friends dont see profit it dont study dont see long term profit hobbies using help distract starting fail duty problems started really soon life family catholic luck borning bisexual good combination guess made think borned girl everybody accept easier girls love boys thats center post sometimes notion nobody likes me nobody do dont talk love talk friendships family started wondering what would happen comit redflag right now everybody react throughts became serious time point spending long nights awake plan steps writing letters etc boxes filled letters explaining example hobby already practice osdeveloping love it im scared someday apparent distraction dissapears advices want talk thanks advance,1
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somewhere beyond sea somewhere waiting lover stands golden sands watches ships go sailin,0
tomorrow is another day damn tomorrow is already today,0
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m leftists wanna friends  insta wont share post rules buttttt id love leftist friends currently demsoc id love friends anywhere socdem ancom ,0
everyone keep telling express feel dont know myselfim tired cant look least sad else ill get usual say feel sharing make better stuff no wont share cant dont know words im exhausted bother wouldnt better disappeared dont understand keep enduring painful task living is love never worked me family disappoint anyway friends annoy whining always say express im feeling support whatever doesnt even matter many times say dont know feel something cant describe least accurately hate ask elaborate try avail stuff tiring exhausts too want get shit time dont find so id like go enjoy normal things like everyone does id rather stay inside tried times end it cant it im even good enough it ive sh free almost year now yet miss badly euphoria blood running arms dont know ive made far just end this please dont know anymore,1
ive wanted kill self relationship year think im finally going iti know first thing people want comment shouldnt kill guy youll find someone else relationships arent worth life thats reason want it im wants break up im inevitably will please anyone reading wants help please dont advise guy lot complicated that reason want keep fucking up hes amazing gets upset rightfully so im messed girl keeps making mistakes want end even though gets upset make mistakes everywhere else even try good girl cant see good tried sees made mistake dont blame him would wasted time someone kept making mistakes cant make happy cant make anyone else happy either live shadow successful people ive done never amounted expectations made me id everyone service ending letting everyone relax enjoy lives without me want kill theres solution mistakes make try hard him still happens cant change live misery upset projecting me live self loathing guilt someone amazing giving chance either way cant look mirror without thinking girl reflection deserves good life had hard part next year life see every single day theres getting around even tried even harder part choose remove life way thats possible committing career redflag exaggeration would giving worthwhile thing life right now theres alternatives cant get another job really really doesnt work like all point im looking sign it ive rationally tried wrap head around months seems solution stopping problems love life need reason im starting see exist,1
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this suck because im so appreciative about what i have esspecially after what ive gone through i feel so stupid complaining about anything now honestly because at the back of my mind im like i made it in a way but im more alone then ever and i dont know what to do honestly,1
how would anyone feel about this personally if you were to commit suicide and repeat the ever going cycle of reincarnation but with no purpose but to keep living the same failure over and over again no hell just a cycle or repeat of the same thing over and over again i d be pissed personally,1
i m been feeling useless my anxiety increase everyday i overthink so much i am overwhelmed almost every day no enjoyment in small thing always accepting what is not good or best for me i ve lost interest in doing anything i m such an obstacle to every person around me i want to die badly i want a their life without me i want them to forget me so much that they don t know me i want to push people away i ve only been burdening them i want to give my life to someone who still want to live i ve been feeling like this since highschool this actually begin since i wa a child i wa never afraid to die it only became much worst since year ago i ve seen many death elder and young one two of my elementary classmate die at early age that i want to trade my life badly but i am lucky that i have not been feeling regret ever since childhood i m such a complicated person please don t try to understand me only after reading this post like i said i m such a complicated person i m only writing this stuff because i want to but what give people don t actually understand this kind of mindset it s not like they care i really want to disappear i really want to die just this one simple request that can never be given to me i guess i just have to make it happen,1
heartbreaking to see kid taking their life out of depression stress amp grief no parent deserves this trauma our education system is extremely result driven amp the pressure it put on the kid is unfathomable but political interference in place of education is just too much,1
wow suicide hotline put hold eventually hung,1
"Apparently I'm in a state of moderate depression, what a good day to be alive !  pic.twitter.com/WqovF9Diil",1
use religion justify bigotry stupid imagine liking someone book written  years ago said so say oh love people cant support them actually love them thats shitty definition love truly loved would support matter identity religion sexuality fucking descriptor use book barely hold today get morals,0
@Mad_Dog014 <Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face><Emoji: Loudly crying face> study abroad depression is so real rn,1
drug death things going get betteri know nobody cares fuck,1
#FF @1stladyaye (homie!) @relleyrelle(Bestie  @maf_capital_llc (my tweeple 4real lol) @G5Gi @useofforceent (my music tweeps),0
wonder even need existim  im gay man born broken family father put last name left us week  years old accident trying climb kitchen busted head causing mild brain injury would root undiagnosed adhd severe anxiety issues raised hostile environment mom retaliated anger frustrations beating crap time grandma light childhood seizure  years old ended crippled wheelchair died  years later turned biggest annoying burden small family endure mom obsessed idea matter cost privileged private school even bullied different many ways made fun everything height im also  sudden queer manners clumsinessetci even developed severe dermatillomania hands due severe anxiety hell  attempts redflag totally ignored everyone like didnt really matter friend close friend lasted year half mom passed away middle first year school poorest classroom worst house mom drove cheapest car even dogs ugly fuck neighbors would always made fun pets house disgusting always dirtymy mom semi hoarder would always accumulate clothes books would never invite anybody deep shame grades school ok good horrible others spend extra hours memorizing stuff would understand simple shit sometimes every time speak public would panic stutter people would laugh scape video games would play much it started affecting visual impairment started developing strabismus  years old graduated got hometown got private university paid mom struggled lot college felt stupid place always awkward lacked social skills would annoy fuck people would ignore me time focused try hard physically attractive would go gym tons protein supplements would also go play magic thegathering whenever could eventually got good due undiagnosed adhd would mess time would get angry losing  lost hair balding bad since  hated look always angry wear hat look like age would look almost  years older college started forcing internships would difficult work due behavior forgetfulness last semesters would try work side got fired twice gave th semester quit college year deep shame myself felt humiliated constantly fix visual impairment managed get surgery public hospital  months wait fixed itwhen back college struggles areas didnt give time suffered lot get thesis done thesis barely passedit basic shitty didnt make friends even invited default college graduation party barely knew anybody awkward fuck college started internships neither didnt last long tbh would sugarcoat resume death appeal employers ended hired couple places surprise got fired first second horrible abusive position nobody else would take therefore ended year got depressed ended taking medication depression quit job got hired ad agency fired month gave everything sold mtg cards buy ticket us tattooed head micropigmentation style gave younger appearance somehow made feel less shitty genetic makeup ended server multiple places worked busser server even cleaning labors would throw bathrooms panic anger shame got hospitalized  severe depression ended working total  places got fired  them got diagnosed adhd  fired like th time messy scattered minded forgetful meds saw light started getting creative like miracle bad lost s teens miserable way even  years new life ive improved lot still cant get job lack experience creating business takes lot investment havent able acquire social media makes sick gives ptsd every time get see accomplishments people studied successful relationships amount mental disorders ive gathered much abuse way much handle paying friend therapy hasnt solved issue cptsd rejection sensitivity dysphoria probably mild form autism point suffering ive gone oddsfought many battles endit doesnt even matter people like exist like someone going give life medal overcoming gigantic struggles life nobody wants date im emotionally damaged im total fear meeting new people isolation made everything worse im couple months away possibly homeless get point definitely over life even worth shit feel like hanging thin string break anytime soon shouldve broken neck ,1
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friends sent fucked texts give upall friends past fucked left major trust issues last friendship ended telling everyone ever talked toxic selfish despite fact always make time matter theyd get angry hung literally anyone else wanted die dont get along parents friends had ive known newer friends almost  years thought finally friendship would last however today thought itd real funny pull epic prank pretended stalker kept leaving messages going see got work even gave location apartment pretty scared thought someone fucking me asked two friends like  fucking times swore werent honestly assholes deserve oscar start believe person real anxiety making feel awful whole thing im literally near tears work messages wont stop even manager got worried said tell somebody go home early minutes later cue fucking assholes walk laughing say along planning longer scared id call police fucking furious laugh say oh youre actually angry  left without even giving real apology and two adults theyre   dumb teen knew scared panicking thought shit hilarious give up last straw me realize awful two make feel time im letting go anymore hate almost much hate point dont know im ever gonna trust anyone again know probably wont friends honestly thought lonely makes want die knows probably next days ill least gone end month know much,1
"Hanging out with Whitney, drinking margaritas, and getting ready to grill out!! ",0
really tired think anyone would notice,1
miss school would break would chit chat deep group conversations hard tell people things ignore messages miss making eye contact class knowing were talking about miss commuting school everyday exausting day full loved much miss turning eachother class discuss math answers leaving school together metro meeting everyone front school loved ths time spent everyone group looking forward everyday sure ignored me still,0
really cant say much plot movie already said seen movie  years memory never left me searching every where done net searches past came empty last night thinking movie trying remember   last saw even sure right movie name decided another search finally found sight right one knows get copy wonderful movie share family could please let tawnyteelyahoocom would really appreciate it anyone seen movie chance well worth it,0
i feel so sad and lonely so i am a student at a university now i am an international student and i came to this country last year i am kind of shy and always chose to keep the feeling to myself than speak out there wa one girl in my class that i liked she wa smart and intelligent rather than anything romantic i thought we could be friend but i did not approach her till the end of the semester on one of the final day i wa like i can t always be scared to express so i went upto her and asked her contact detail we talked a bit and she asked if i wan na go for a movie we went the next week and it wa fun it wa a good to have a friend in a foreign country we went out a few time after that a well then she had covid and i tried to give her some advice and said that i wa stifling her even though i had just told her to take care of herself the next day she said that she ha issue that she need to sort out and want space being a friend i didn t understand what issue or what did i do but i did not message her a week later she message me back in a good mood and say that let s watch something and we watch a movie at her home i cook for her at her place and i think she enjoyed a well she doe some painting and showed me those so i asked are these just for you and then she said that she shared it on instagram by her pseudonym and feel good when her internet friend appreciate it i did not read too much into what internet friend meant day later i wa scrolling through instagram when it occurred to me to look her painting up so i searched her pseudonym and found that it wa a public profile and saw that she had posted a painting i like it so i messaged her on whatsapp where we usually chatted that hey i saw your painting and what i liked about it something flipped her off and she said that her internet persona is different than the real life persona and what i did wa a big mistake and she doe not want to talk anymore i wa like i did not about this internet persona thing and you had said you shared it with your friend but if it is that big an issue i am sorry and will not look at your painting and then she wa so rude she said that it wa the last chance she gave me but me explaining why i looked wa too much i did not respond anything a i wa so hurt i did not even do anything bad or something to intentionally hurt her i did not message her anything for week i did not look at her whatsapp i just tried to forget her around day ago in a moment of weakness i searched her name and see that she ha blocked me on whatsapp i didn t even do anything after she said all that i got very depressed and wrote her a long message on text this wa the message hello please read this that is my only request yesterday i had tried to message you on whatsapp asking how you were and saw that you have blocked me you can block me here and everywhere else a well after this i just want you to read what wa in my mind when we were talking from the day we had started talking i do not know what all bad thing you think about me but atleast from my side i had always wanted to be a good friend and never had any bad thought i had fun on each of our meeting i have been continuously thinking for the last month what did i do wrong a you never told me and just shut me off maybe these were the reason i don t even know i can t even think properly i thought that we were very alike i honestly thought we could be good friend two introvert who want to be better at their craft and helping each other out through tough school again i do not know what all notion you had about my intention but i did not want to be more than friend if you ever felt that way i am a new guy in this country there are many thing i have not even understood here having a relationship or a girlfriend is the last thing on my mind i don t even have friend here to share stuff so i never wanted anything more than just being friend who could help each other whenever they needed or share thing about life course maybe take some advice on what to do in certain aspect of life thing that normal friend do and maybe i wa selfish to have looked for that friend in you you had said that i did not deserve to be a friend the last time we talked there ha not been a day when i did not think what did i do wrong that i am not even worth a friendship i think that i had probably messaged you more than what you wanted a a friend i don t know you never told me that i thought everything wa normal whenever something came to my mind or i watched some video that i liked on youtube i used to send it to you i think i should not have done that and maybe you didn t like that i just did that because i wanted to share thing with you that i admired so that those thing may bring happiness to you a well the other reason wa that i looked at your painting on instagram i am sorry that i looked at your instagram profile to appreciate your painting i did not have any wrong intention i wa just curious and had thought you would like it a you had said that you like it when your friend appreciate your art i wa not aware of internet persona being different from real life persona i am not a bad person i just wanted to be a friend and someone you could trust i am not writing this to you for any response or for being friend because i don t think i have any respect in your eye and i have lost much of my self respect in my own eye after how many time i have tried to apologize honestly for last week i didn t even look for you on whatsapp a it wa soul crushing to read how you had said that i blew the chance of being a friend and i think it is best that you do not respond to me a i can not feel more pathetic and worse about myself trying to mend the bridge which never even existed i just want to say that i am sorry if i ever hurt you or made you feel bad i always wanted to be good and make you happy a a friend i never had any malice or any bad intention i never wanted to be someone who you despise this much i am just sorry and i will be really grateful if you could just let me know what i did i texted her this and and then she texted back don t say if own up to your mistake and now she will block me in text a well i am not even sure what i did and i feel depressed lonely and sad i have never felt like this,1
gnah inner tube exploded got ta get a taxi to work or be late,0
leaving someone made need itthank existing ampxb ampxb ive scrolling community last min many feel like dead end therapist survivor need talk someone chat open ampxb ampxb friendly reminder this shall pass,1
What! Your #depression is back? Here are some practical things you can do if your partners depression comes back.   http://qoo.ly/nxg95 ,1
"@caffeinebomb Maybe they just google twitter for the site  My cousin,a computer programmer, is unaware of what Twitter is,had 2 explain",0
hate life everytime chance happy always dead end anyone relate,0
m need new friends m here recently couple best friends left me knew  half years need new longterm best friends stuff me love playing video games mainly valorant minecraft java oh also bit apex im also programmergame designer yes ig thats sorta cool really im california would nice get people timezonerelated reasons play pc pst timezone though said live cali might rendered mute,0
refuse wake  years still hate existenceim glad realized fantasy people call life nothing death im glad realized pointless everything young age feel privileged mindset eliminating myself hesitations slowly fading plans slowly unfolding soon ill another statistic fear dying also despise living see one passions outweighs other,1
want diei know long read it friends one whose opinion respect im venting want read long rambly vent go save someone redflag long winded  certifiably fundamentalist evangelical christian went church every sunday attended every prayer session went every bible study participated pretty hateful political protests know women get abortions murderers types protests also suffered horrible depression college anxiety school made depression worse found god nowhere found worse admitted fellow church members depressed felt told must me obviously true christian feel everloving peace god running veins every second im going spare intermediary details long story short attempted redflag recovered left church best decision ever made frequently tell people i born left church still believe god think organized christianity cult judgment hatred wrapped lies last ten years ups downs overall life much better feel like loving accepting person think im still christian like telling people theyll think im one crazy ones fit church fit atheists either even feel fit anywhere middle misunderstood entire life june year met someone like me exactly like me intellectual like me someone understood nuance things could keep complex thoughts know say without sounding like arrogant scumbag wellabove average iq large part reason fit anywhere big heart care lot people try judgmental impossible ignore fact people understand things like talk about find bored impatient people imagine how  years feeling alone misunderstood going radical mindset change thrilled meet someone understood me well totally fucked up friends connected strongly things got romantic always agreed matter happens would important stay friends said clear end even end broke weeks ago next day hanging chillin like nothing ever happened definitely morose romance continue knew id get it know happened next day dropped map usual us stay contact daily text message there silence felt like shutout thought ok well romantically involved makes sense take days apart days still contact really began question things left voicemail told him its okay need space could let know thats is ill give space need know whats happening next morning got text said yes need space need check first irrational thing id ever heard say course need check me grownass human being simply would appreciated courtesy telling need simply bizarre behavior someone reiterate important stay friends discard like piece trash thats feel now weeks still contact instincts tell something really wrong wanted respect need distance leave one voicemail tell never intended make feel though needed check me anything tell hoped grand opening work went well response intuition says wants nothing me intuition says reasons cannot even begin analyze understand decided would best longer friends hope im wrong grows weaker every passing day brought categorical typhoon depression me barely functioning known romance would end friendship never would even given second glance idea passed point return even official couple know could possibly happened change things much feel horrible feel personally responsible ruining best friendship ever had saved crushing loneliness misunderstood cannot handle consequences im actually praying again im praying god learned lesson please make punishment id anything friendship back would literally anything theres nothing do  choice ruined best thing ever happened believe theres anyone satisfy intellectual craving make feel accepted did tutor oxford told me you member intellectual  means going live lonely life unless course happen meet another member intellectual  well ian was im pretty sure hes gone forever depression resulted severe experienced ten years ago whats more experience ongoing depression left church partially blamed church contributing depression im existential crisis top heartbreak losing best friend lovers come go never friendship like ever again coupled fact know fault add cherry massive guilt top im lonely failed loser fucked best thing ever happened me remember prayers never answered im sure im going want continue on already dont even know bothered write this like anyone ever understands me must think im irrational overreacting maybe am feel way feels like god gave precious gift ripped away,1
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mean could everything world still feel like would fking depressed cannot sometimes world shitty dark place traumatic shit feel suicidal lowkey passively every day every day wonder still here want fail trying keep head go motions life exhausting feel like cannot normal people do   job social life happyhappiness difficult me point life,1
before taking sertraline i had many problem for instance i wa not even able to talk on the phone in front of my mom and my brother it wa very tough to make a phone call because my heart would start beating very fast also if i saw someone i did not like my heart would beat out of my mouth at the supermarket while paying at the counter my heart would beat fast and i wa thinking everybody is staring at me and judging me but for four month i take sertraline and most of my problem are solved i feel like i am moving in the right direction i even cracked interview for my internship and finally got one before sertraline even thinking about an interview would trigger a load of anxiety now overall my anxiety ha reduced from 0 to or which is a significant improvement but one thing which is still bothering me is the feeling that everybody is staring at me when i eat at a restaurant for instance i feel like the person sitting at the front table is staring at me when i eat currently i am on a dose of mg sertraline to those who are on sertraline did you ever lose this feeling of other people judging you or are looking at you if yes which dose are you at i appreciate your help,1
"came back from seeing 17 againn,, was gooddd  &lt;3",0
im wellim thinking killing time im severely mentally ill ive lost therapist friends job leave apartment medications working appointment see psychiatrist next wednesday spontaneously wrapped vacuum cleaner cord around throat pulled tight get sensation asphyxiation lot sleeping pills keep thinking downing lot alcohol duct taping mouth shut hoping id pass vomit choke unconscious access gun id shoot head right without hesitation,1
want make age what want long even happy life,1
th december  dayso ive decided th december day  years pain finally come end im tired now im always tired mind constantly ravaged thoughts ive managed destroy life greatly feel terribly parents destroy them cant go like longer complete failure im good anything constantly hurt people around letting down let one final time end it early morning th december clear dorm room ill wear favourite sweater woolen one shades red ill roll joint fine marijuana smoke listen nujabes ill rake beauty winter morning north india shall bid adieu peace,1
butch peacemaker evidently violent beginning spike tom jerry swinging away other butch calls halt wants know why good questionbr br cats get along dogs cant they asks tom nods head agreement mice get along cats right jerry nods no sees right answerbr br they go inside butch draws peace treaty complete professional artwork rest bulk cartoon three extremely nice one another refreshing changeofpace found fun watch million cartoons every beats headbr br anyway knew peace going last big piece steak spells death peace treaty en route nice change still usual tom  jerry clever humor,0
exhacker going quarter life crisis today turned  let tell im going through im currently pending federal charges computer fraud spamming years spam ill gotten game ive made  gone family friends bad investments im officially broke now charges filed let bond picked  job still made decent money from last week fired cause corporate found conviction anyways time last year time square living up im broke miserable rich illgotten gain im broke want legitimatly successful idk conviction ever allow me feel like life nothing ever become successful nothing might anything ever idk even friends not want kill someone realistically telling still become successful without rainbows unicorns ,1
"Happy Mothers Day to all the Moms  It's a tough job, but totally worth it!",0
everyone seems enjoy suicidal nobody cares,1
american exposed character before good disappointed nothing compare to found enjoyment mindless idiot humor american teen movies although slightly similar type humor stop laughing hardly ever laugh loud movie usually movie funny parts me movie funny start finish disappointment over im actually going buy dvd find it,0
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suicidal also particularly want live im pretty sure heart attack yesterdayso ive struggled thoughts redflag since kid ive strongly convinced want kill myself number reasons im issues figuring think recent events im currently selfemployed uninsured uninsured part stupid know think makes too much difference here given feel this running errand motorcycle yesterday started feeling uncomfortable  particular chest feeling tight started feeling weak tried ignore first pretty soon felt like stop get water would pass out pulled fast food place ordered fries got water bites several cups water felt bit better minutes later wanted lay  vomit went outside walked nearby parking lot hopefully people wouldnt see me laid pavement threw bit later left arm went numb kinda suspected going point phone told even wasnt heart attack needed go hospital right now heh looked much heart attack costs decided call  figured that super pathetic way place die im ok letting go here andafter hour felt ok today felt tired tried going walk chest hurt again head back home im pretty sure survived heart attack yesterday im wrong relatively fine still obviously right thing go doctor get checked out im that heart isnt halfdead thats great really is id rather die face rest life financial ruin guess im struggling figure think this do seems like bunch things think im die even maybe almost died yesterday  even heart attack  could still also probably live years dont want scare people talking dying also dont want gone unexpectedly opportunity say goodbye make arrangements do,1
someone want talki know actually going plan go get shotgun closet eat lead bet hurt second gotta better this one ever loved me anyone ever ive never kissed never held anyones hand want someone look say words believe them im sort gay well homoflexable living south save it gets better nonsense life gotten much worse getting even suckier time goes on know im posting maybe someone wants talk something used believe true love really now man though loved went got bitch pregnant im alone shotgun feet away four years passed still feel like shit all got wanted man love got heartbreak im woman fuck women really feel add insult injury pretends never thing everyone knew calls liar now need someone love me least need someone know truth this believe least someone knows,1
is pissed off that there s no asba s for a radio station,0
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im angry timeim angry everything classes started recently im upset im missing year freedom im going third year university finally felt like good headspace able manage classes felt ready improve grades finally felt confident enough try making friends pandemic happens ruins everything top that home life sucks theres lot fighting goes on parents argue lot sister fights parents etc parents pretty overprotective us well makes hard go whenever want im overall super depressed situation feel like nothing look forward to grades shit past two years shy make friends mostly stuck myself feel like need balance life bad social life major reason grades struggled much year joined club feel like im finally gaining confidence become social person hard everything online feel alone recently ive lot bad thoughts history cutting although havent done  months urges becoming really strong hard resist find constantly laying bed listening angry music also cant stand around people anymore find everyone fake feel like ive become angry cynical person know therapist always tells need change mindset much easier said done,1
everyone gives me give myselfi tried hard sorts bad things happening all anger sadness depression recently started taking antidepressant zoloft taking birth control pills made suicidal thoughts go roof major mood swings days cant function ive way clingy thought persevering would okay going well im going stop taking them fucked up fucked up person really matters me gave me im going rough time obviously owe same wish given me made feel like world collapsing beautiful going succeed changed mind lot things nobody else ever able to thinking might want kid someone able love me someone able open me care me felt important valued first time life breakdown two days ago made look like fool telling badly needed him say word me tell why even say good bye best friend years bestest friend recent fell love ruined everything im much would take dinner ski trip parents birthday spend many nights me tell loves me disappear always ruin everything always happens care much let people inside walls disappear like even there thats im worth im going make st birthday ive enough cant anymore cant keep letting people find problems get worse around christmas birthday every year disappear hope die tonight theres really much left anymore cant trust anyone cant let anyone everyone help pour soul to cry sit suicidal moments nobody me always ends giving up told would different this wonderful person best friend three years least gone cant take control emotions first break heart give without word last cant anymore bad times obviously outweigh good things offer everyone leaves least leave first choice anymore,1
already know im going it put fight redflag know im going lose like universe yelling get with one wants around anyways overstaying welcomei weird one wants anything me know go now close dont know interact guess im surrounded assholes dont know interact bc im surrounded assholes cares one cares eventually cant deal w this look atm post history see man screaming room full deaf people many say talk theyll listen guess never do tried therapy tried tried find good therapist  yrs tried recently discouraging know talk to trust hotlines anymore either becuase asshole therapists want anymore want live thi life want die,1
hour sleep in day and still working on my birthday,0
selfishi admit im selfish even comes redflag dont care advices havent experienced true loneliness family friends etc  miles away them changes person senior developed bipolar disorder away im happy know fell love good chinese lad graduated love life from past sadly became worse human being dissociated refused talk further used think maybe fall love good chinese guy know deep know thats nonsense long carry burden living back love question alas dont ask grandiose things person money drugs alcohol ride die seek adrenaline rush together  partners crime would rob bank together steal drugs pharmacy must digress end facing music head dont anything look forward death set free mental illness excruciating dont expect people understand care could slowly feel shutting down,1
oh god guys asked crush said yes really give awards like every shitty post like rteenagers,0
redflag something yearn possiblefirst im going kill myself wish could cant single mother two kids killing option place could say outloud here wish id never kids could end life point telling things gone wrong life many know big things fair say life kicked ground time small child day  now everytime think life gets easier maybe turn happy something happends something bad illness fire loss ive dealt shit quite well job apartment pay bills old car major issues im shitty mom used better last six months ive depressed mess led kids causious around me daughter sensitive know suffers seeing suffer strenght pretend im happy last straw ex left me single life taking care kids job looking anyone age  fell love first time really worked hard last course fell apart like things have ive tried get help use tried find medication help depression made feel worse see light end tunnel know none wish could believe god something id hope no thing yearn end this im dramatic tired noone knows friends lives avoid see pain done everything books say got new hobbies volunteering local animal shelter go yoga nothing takes away exhaustion idea still xx years live exhausting know ill get strenght go kids choise joy endless amount dark hours ahead me sounds stupid whining is,1
@mayhemstudios thank you so much ,0
still prayi dont god pray anymore gone never there still pray pray believed in pray death pray pray soul would ripped body could nothing ghost pray pray god nothing gone left me still pray,1
im tiredi keep getting spontaneous flashbacks ex sit certain places room feel pressure certain parts body emotionally abusive me tried make things want sexually looking back relationship feel stupid weak were like billion red flags would told sucked id listened them blinded idea real gay real gay relationship sort ignored that specific idea me well come across quite feminine sometimes tried leverage get bottom him something want do hed often spank me try gag fingers call bitch sex without explicit consent chance talk sober manner beforehand wanted act like girl times called she made jokes gamer girl even though told that feel like body mine anymore decided wanted friends several points relationship would still flirt make explicit comments body harassed even relationship ended calling repeatedly trying reach platforms ive blocked on im genuinely terrified him knows work meet friends nothing hes done technically illegal even im scared fucker wrongly accuses someone rape report anything ive nightmares showing house trying get room quarantine lifted theres really escape that ex latest guy ive let comically abusive me friends parents teachers coworkers ive let almost everyone know trample me thought getting better moved new city work managed find group friends know happened wrong trying help get help needed become better person ex kind trampled that tried get best friends made meet often little time anything else told things friends made distrust on im trying repair damage now difficult sort shown matter go therell always someone trying hurt take advantage me im wondering im issue im broken draw people hurting me means directly kill myself ive debating withholding food get severely ill now ive argument roommate kind fault took way far ive getting panic attacks leave room im worried ill get confrontation today ate little trouble standing up actually managed get sandwich made feel ill better think itll kill me itll hurt lot least tide quarantine lifted figure solid method think want die really im trying apply doctorate become researcher ive got mentor whos willing help that want doctorate want get boyfriend cares want go therapy get head screwed straight im sure survive long enough that,1
hope helpsif feeling hopeless feel worthless ways ive gotten past  live country plenty room garden highly recommend this feel bad go hoe weeds pick rocks get quite bit ive able sell local farmers market  obviously full garden work everyone get pepper plant something small take care it highly recommend hot pepper plant takes lot care worth add spice cooking  coloring painting drawing im good drawer trace others help learn cooking baking also great way help express yourself  get small pet can taking care something else help take mind things bit  talk someone feel like ive found writing feel leaving someplace allows distance awhile think say truly hope help ive struggling depression suicidal thoughts year ive found helped most im always need talk help,1
basically earlier i took a hit of this old roach this guy gave me and it tasted bad so i extinguished it didn t know it wa that bad lol he s a guy i know long story short i don t know if it wa moldy so i washed my hand and opened the cap of the case it wa in and just quickly inspected it with my eye not touching it then i rubbed my eye and my felt felt weird lol am i just being anxious maybe i have dry eye i wa smoking some actual fucking normal weed too sigh you feel me random anxiety oof,1
community theater actor works hard take acting seriously im always amused treat great art movie skewers actors craft mercilessly dishing lot good laughsbr br a ham actor location movie bears resemblance dictator dictator dies heart attack much drink food actor kidnapped forced play the part lifetime neonazi head secret service plays hilt gets dictators girlfriend fall love vice versa turns tables captors beautifullybr br lots great shtick leads lots good work unknown supporting actors particularly household staff two members palace guard fun little cameos abound sammy davis jr makes light himself jonathan winters plays semiretired american businessman something else going on raul julia sonia braga richard dreyfuss exceptionalbr br this dumb movie lots beautiful locations in brazil humorous script good actors thing looking like theyre actually fun going usual existential angst playacting,0
"@OliviaMaynard13 You're most welcome. I don't know if you've tried this, but I found magnesium supplements helpful for my anxiety, depression, and sleep issues. Not massive quantities, just 250 mg of magnesium oxide daily helped me greatly over time.  Best of luck as you seek your best solution.",1
please live  life meaningwhat makes life valuable death fact people grow old die makes life precious valuable growing dying gives meaning beauty life end early waste life potential talents ability grow  superpower us humans have ability improve use power reach limit keep pushing break limits cause truly limits cannot do alike redflag isnt way much life ending early live youll end reaching end anyway good time bad memories good memories live learn life rollercoaster thats makes fun always something next chapter cant fear good bad builds you lose people even lose selves sometimes life living winning losing sometimes may feel like youre losing change environment get shit together work towards brighter future come good things come people wait amazing come people work it live chest high smile face danger become greater yesterday fall feel hopeless continue fight worth put work life worth something simply exist simply power change life life worth living many experiences youll miss on finally getting job graduating college even high school holding newborn child feeling warmth childs body meeting boy girl dreams falling love holding money youve ever seen hand becoming father mother uncle auntie pushforward end never  death comes not death not fear rush something exist ,1
@i_m_doc @dragonflye17 Morning! Heading out the door to church! I'll catch up with you all laterz!!!!  ,0
pee stored balls shit stored ass checks fact cant deny sit fuck,0
update post week ago dog bit puppy blamed deaththank people much support meds week ran mother overseas work looking puppies born early morning checked every  hours whole day  something next morning left mom dog babies went wash hands came back bitten really badly holding left head completely freaked instantly blamed myself know best already decided dog getting anymore puppies also aggressive towards last litter sad thing is bit one well puppy defecating blood throughout day died hands crying begging better life one concerned look puppies mom breeds yorkies mom close due go important work trip across world time ran medication get came back entrusted look puppies im medication wondering thank support also sorry anything weird english main language,1
"And I guess, I just have to make sacrifices if I want to achieve my dreams. My family is very supportive at least (it's just, I can't stand living with them, as I need my own space and freedom; I feel trapped here). I just hope I can work through the stress and depression.",1
wish would fatal accidentevery single day read innocent people killed people want alive would anything position could take terminal fast growing cancer away someone would could headon fatal collision freeway drunk driver would literally begging die dont know could go redflag knowing pain scares dont want family loved ones blame themselves easy relatively painless method redflag presented me wouldnt look gift horse mouth ive dealt really shitty hand life  years age im fucking exhausted cant keep charade much longer,1
oh cake cant fucking eat nooooooooooooooofilleroooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooosomuchfillerooooooooooooooooooowhyareyoustillreadingthisoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohaveanicedayiguessoooooooooooooo,0
depressed angry conflictedim  years old living west texas untalented beginning guitarist pessimistic asshole awkward mess uncomfortable skin depressed every day basically friendless suicidal sob story chance piss moan attention story starts age  parents marriage falling apart eyes two younger brothers know whats going point thenalcoholic father hit mom pissed end sneaking around smoke supposedly quit born held in fearing parents would say business held everything in never told parents atheist started   lets go age  im th grade hard time making friends im socially awkward middle school kids start dealing assholes sixth grade longtime friend ended physical altercation hung scary crowd bathroom open time around hangout this first two weeks seventh grade pissed myself point im short fat kid smells like piss stopped still sucked age  im th grade maybe two real friends im still fat short around   awkward living california  half years learning parents divorce weeks told seeing dad cheated mom via facebookon th birthday way brothers move dallas late february  mom aunt uncle cousins make friends there many some around april grow  lose  pounds due body proportioning itself go california summer intention visiting dad decided keep brothers girlfriend fall  mom comes visit days leave mom starts crying made pissed dad sad mom knowing see us long time get home start zoning xbox computer dad tells go bed still pissed him tell fuck off sends room im thinking either im better dead start suicidal thoughts stay there years pent frustration flying violent verbal suicidal waves september attempted slit wrists pair scissors  horizontally im retard bunch long cuts left arm brothers noticed told dad girlfriend it prescribe antidepressants send therapy october sent mental hospital get three days later get home suicidal thoughts boiling me go kitchen noticing dad anyone kitchen blinded sadness anger hospital ordeal life grab knife attempt slit wrists again im sent room  minutes later attempt again resulted screaming match two assholes dads girlfriend calls police sending kids rooms begged to sure enough see outside take mental center awaiting decision whether would sent back hospital begged to decided it moved november now may  im still awkward lost lot weightstill overweight around  maybe  still battling depression job hate grandfather basically hates enjoy things summer vacation school almost over pretty sure ill flunk algebra i again third year row im leaving friends behind go another school stopped talking dad cares girlfriend kid kids brothers coming soon good grandfather uncle give unnecessary bullshit hide feelings everyone especially grandparents grandparents believe im  shrug stress brain thinks older am brain  year old pessimistic asshole difference im  now im depressed reddit posting life story people give two fucks me hopes feeling better no really want end all means gumption so potential im worth missing breathing earths air tldr  depressed suicidal cant go it nobody cares,1
friend died todayyeah house spider yes pathetic hes always salt lamp crawling there nothing making shadows walls caught flies nats talked him hes spider isnt complex enough understand had loved tickle hand spun prey hand weird made get fear cat swatted late make stop already dead time came room im fucking destroyed lonely dont know do im pathetic fucking stupid loved even called lupin iii thats favorite character third spider became friends with rest let outside garage live away hell couldnt leave lupin im lonely im lost reason even exist anymore miss damn much hes fucjing spider made feel safe woke eating fly probably buzzing around felt thankful im lost,1
alright am everybody persevere stay til sunrise think,0
oscartg morning no sun here unfortunately,0
well i ve made it in to college i may have little makeup on and comfy clothes and drank alcohol to fall asleep last night but at least i m out of bed i don t want this depression anymore,1
Sigh... depression has got the best of me today. Must be the rain.,1
someone said use wc said fun im embarrassed fun lmao,0
Loves to color in the morning ,0
fck ap english butttt power essay got rhetorical analysis essay done  minutes im pretty proud,0
@djmissbehavior wow your myspace prof pic is hott! ,0
saw film sidewalk film festival birmingham al actually really fun festival blown away it best movie saw day long shot school aged prostitute meets middle age man attempt end deep depression together inner look darkest parts human sexuality story stems real life occurrences ripped straight headlines raw blunt dialog killer twist end film contain graphic sexual dialog nudity definitely suitable kids depressing peoples tastes definitely worth checking opinion though,0
ive decided diemy life circling drain long now ive treatment anxiety put stress relationship fucked up told afraid falling love incapable feeling love hes leaving now im young anymore friends getting married kidsim left dust hate myself cannot see future anymore honestly want try want stop suffering want lonely alone miss warmth someone holding night felt love long im hollow shell person ive already begun final arrangements things go know pets cared for really wish things could different me want go on going motions life never happy never anyone love me,1
hello world i dont like to do physic,0
ghosted girl thought loved mea months ago darkest part life found browsing sub hours people shared pain many lovely people helped pain cant thank enough long met girl really liked gave hope got along great eventually confessed really liked too never heard someone made want alive could pursue feeling ended first date lovely day afterwards agreed relationship would much decided put hold bit get year university kept checking every couple days make sure were alright happy that today messaged asking alright respond instead blocked social media without explanation felt happiness decaying times wed talk music zelda films other even aware tried commit redflag weeks met her cant believe would me loveliest person ive ever met cant fathom someone special would someone care about,1
@brunombsilva dumb me lol thanks ,0
planned redflag todayi idea anybodys actually going read this know im posting ive tried everything medication help therapy help thought relationship would make happy thought getting dog would make happy thought moving would make happy nothing changed exception brief periods actively wanting die feel like live everything ive done others others done me ive made many mistakes knew could start over would heartbeat cant theres changing ive done think shoulder burden anymore went every option available  overdose asphyxiation even shooting myself honestly put thought dinner friday deserve something quick something painless needs hurt deserve hurt happen read this thank you hope better spot right now,1
said time ago would make  years kill self iti said time ago wether would make  years kill self it certain time,1
dancinggggg      you've made me happy,0
wwf became cartoon hulk hoagan leading way events wwf tv broadcasts early s resembled wild wild west kinds grudges vicious acts violence performed wrestlers known today wwfs beloved stars seemingly real moments stand out maniacal sgt slaughter whipped champion bob backlund riding crop backlund showed fitness test welts backlund sarge made iron shiek look like daycare provider slaughter also issued challenge anyone could break dreaded cobra clutch hold led legendary bloody alley match commentator pat patterson hall fame member blackjack mulligan freddie blassie came wwf claw hold censored television claimed true giant  challenged andre long big john studd  adrian adonis used ominously named good night irene sleeper take competition new yorker clad black leather ominous figure george the animal steele far crowd pleaser well even jimmy snuka fearsome sight set maim opponents ray the crippler stevens delivered piledriver onto cement floor leaving snuka bloody mess encounters took place decade hardcore wrestling ever spoken of,0
anry bruh geometry grade  morning thats graded performance task got  on grade somehow  ,0
@RozD Just hope she nails it next time! ,0
sore thumbive started writing notes everyone care even dont ive completed eight full notes less hour sore thumb first thing ive able feel almost year depression physical pains oddly enough im actually satisfied whole ordeal,1
amadeus by peter shaffer gave me depression,1
@VoodooChildZoso  yeah i managed to catch it around 3am...was sure glad i did! ,0
"@mmitchelldaviss whoops, i posted on my homepage, but here is it   http://i195.photobucket.com/albums/z75/CaptainOfCuteness/illllamd.jpg",0
@llllloise ...You made na your Twitter! Haha. D Upload a photo.  UPDATEEE! ,0
expect documentaries objective creatures let give little lesson american filmmakingbr br documentaries rely heavily casting pick choose characters think enhance drama entertainment value filmbr br after shot ton footage splice together make film ups downs turning points climaxes etc trouble existing footage either shoot makes sense find stock footage clever narrationbr br the allegation filmmakers used footage locales part movie favelas next beautiful beaches detract value film dramatic piece particular image one resonates enough justify notquitetruthful inclusion rate use footage can happen police violence footage particular neighborhood mean include talk maybe put cartoon animation audience duped um nobr br as hopeful ending not yes americans made it yes americans optimistic bastards end note set foreign country foreign films large end note let foreigners portray dismal outlook lifebr br let us americans think may happy ending looming future may one,0
i wa doing nothing and suddenly she just say why did you even live useless maybe i m overreacting but this really hurt me she took care of me since i wa a kid because my mom wa working overseas i wish i wa never born damn this world fuck everything,1
feel like gotten girlfriend got identity crisis,0
"Needless to say, I have the empty gun in the pocket of my jeans now.   ",0
@baMbus3000 That album is the business. ,0
"my big sis, bro-in-law and nieces are leaving for NYC today...YAY!!! time for an EPIC house cleaning ",0
I liked a @YouTube video  http://youtu.be/bCEJ65H_1XE?a  1929 The Great Depression Part 1,1
im gonna ask exactly paris,0
"My garden last week, if you're interested: http://bit.ly/l7TQY  ",0
feelings explainedthis world broken honestly im pretty tired rather involved taking dip coming back air seems appropriate response pulled earth demons live beneath gosh mean always cared others always passionate everything throughout entire life even though world would constantly people place drag words know nothing big would said worthless would never amount anything stupid weird honestly things said broke levy head ago never same weird feel like wounded animal top corned dont hate self hate world dont hate people even though feel like right hate life everything went treated entire way want wounded animal becomes dinner im tired haha im done cluster somethings grammar probably terrible dont feel need fix anything felt like maybe someone could resonate even though depression depression dont think makes happiness aaahhh im done place terrible nice night,1
@AusBorderForce @PeterDutton_MP @shanebazzi Agreed <Emoji: Clapping hands sign><Emoji: Clapping hands sign><Emoji: Clapping hands sign>As someone with long experience of clinical depression I'd like to add this:Of course she fuckingwell yells and hits her head on the wall and says she wants to dieNobody can live forever without hopeShe won't get better while kept indefinitely on Nauru,1
http twitpic com y z see where we ve been moved too dwsr,0
cant get exhi thanks taking time listen late broke seeing somebody really important me even official friends benefits anything saw around  months fell hard became attached know hard believe genuinely love never felt captivated literal raptures instead butterflies person broke me see future feel completely lost  months since know moved on im feeling extremely low lost lot hope ive already burnt everything gave try forget crying nearly every night anyone know get this,1
bjr il fait bo je veux retrouver mon moi du premier confinement celle qui faisait du sport et qui tait pa en d pression hahahahahaha aled,1
someone posting gay shit aaaaghh cant unsee,0
losing battleeverything turned shit got pretty sick last year work losing house declaring bankruptcy marriage rocksim constantly thinking redflag pawned guns help bills ways thing stopping fear ill fuck end vent quasivegetable care affect anybody left behind ill gone matter slowly day day im losing continue im tired day day shit tired failing tired pissed pissed on could take single pill right  percent sure would end life would it,1
oh god one of the teacher here gave me a rotten gogoma to eat and i m so hungry i m trying to eat around the bad part hahahaha,0
chat anyone hey  bored guys wanna chat would like anyone im bored lonley,0
i m frankly disappointed and offended that there is a blogger writing against fu penguin,0
"just watched hannah montana,, ",0
need hugi gonna cry even born,1
@yoonietans I really don't want you to do this & I don't even know you... but I want you to know even tho I don't know you my Heart is Breaking for you...please DM me I'll try my best to help you. I've had severe depression since I was 23 & that was many years ago.. I'll gladly help if I can,1
is wearing Pink! nail polish ,0
@amf7 It did!! Especially since it didn't rain ,0
hey whats ur fav music genre  like alt music indie pop midwest emo etc wondering u guys like post songsartists ya want,0
doubt would fail attempted idea terrifies me feeling mom would already gone time came to least close best friend would lose sober streak probably start drinking again would left paralyzed unharmed left regret would probably wish death nowof course thing stopping me would feel selfish leaving everyone care about hate idea suicide selfish feel way myself care two people world know would fucked gone know sure one would follow footsteps would probably kill themself selfdestructive habitsi wish could free life wish could retreat kind void empty anyone else little while terrified fail,1
theres cockroach room bruh know lurking somewhere felt something bite lifted blanket cockroach quick didnt get kill it mf fat one fuck,0
girl asked marry said later day real deleted pictures social media shortly afterim completely done looking help point,1
kinda feel bad something days ago found friend rejected something started fortnite dancing shawtys like melody kinda feel bad,0
"Dude, follow me - morning by the way  @Graciouskisay",0
I'm glad that it's pouring a bit. ,0
@PauloSousaYT Yes we did thank u ,0
thought getting betteri know watched ozark one point bipolar guy talks like wakes one day like oh remember feel something like think bipolar really relate part like alright reason really get feel emotions flips back remember still depressedthis kind fucked spend lot time thinking would like serial killer took entire extended family could either live alone whatever end without making anyone else sad yknow also would ruin would almost certainly latter,1
cant kill myselfbeen wanting die long time pretty much im really fucking lonely friends dont actually like aside one wont see ever transfer schools move different city care bc im friend zone anyways every fucking day go fucking school fucking bullshit again one point family knew signed shitty therapy make phone call give info pussy like everything else told family feeling better literally get stuck bed trying think reasons get morning shouldnt fucking end it reason im killing yet bc maybe get gfbestfriend high school im going to tldr im killing yet bc might get stroke luck meet people dont pretend like dont kill,1
i m a straight male i haven t really had a serious male friend since middle school and i ve pretty much realized that outside of family i only really want to talk to woman in general i don t exclusicely try to talk to woman that i find attractive i have trust issue with men and woman so it must be something else is this maybe some form of annxiety i have bad gad i just don t understand this aspect of myself,1
ssr faced sabotag with most vicious lie written abt him a blind item but not one of these gossip wrote abt his add ction or depression even tho everyone supposedly knew abt latter not suspicious ip nupurprasad pmoindia doptgoi hmoindia ssr social medium compromised,1
guys ever feel like want exist anymore like want live want die either,0
poor sandra cantu amp the cantu family my prayer go out to them what a sick world we live in she wa only,0
just going to cry myself to sleep after watching marley and me,0
favorite horror film close nd poltergeist saw one dark night first came theaters  theater workedbr br i born  certain love s horror films despite little dated dialog well written thought original phenomenon psychic vampirism addressed at least knowledge time real phenomenonbr br i care adam west nothing him supporting role memorable thought meg tilly good casting littleknown donald hutton from brainstorm invaders mars ambiguous scientist oversaw studies ramars abilities sadly overlooked gay guy paying attention david mason daniels meg tillys unfortunate gorgeous boyfriend hes selling real estate texas now br br i felt film realistic two ways raymar discovered murdered  girls surreal apartment funeral sparse attendance reflecting fact mysterious hermit killer know types buried without fanfare second corpses going telekinetically mobile would hover dragging feet filmmakers could gone schlock walking groaning arms outstretched zombies opted would believable kudos buzzing electrical discharge ramars eyes throne coffin like hes overseeing kingdom dead cast eerie magenta light mausoleum stay years ever gone mausoleum even sunny day notice rosetta lighting caused stained glass windows get started cavernous silence even ramar looked like someone could pass eccentric perverted old man score oneofakind memorable keep kicking getting cassette first came out track shooting done supposed be especially liked carefullyplanned characteristics corpse bride badly decomposed child still holding teddy bear grandmother tall thin black guy halffaced world war ii vet greenslimed eyed elderly gent first greet sisters clique initiators even corpses good actors suppose thing groan arm came one vaults choke julies boyfriend possibly done unless corpse put laying stomach feet first why looked little fresh toobr br the film begins eerie us never seeing ramars face until last quarter film like unwrapping birthday present picking teen girl runaways daughters psychic flash see coroners hauling body away one bedroom apartment see hes experimented telekinetic craft phasing dishes wall rest drag heatherslike sisters group baits julie final initiation spending night inside mausoleum wellplaced build unleashing horror later movie bloody sense word goriest part ramars daughter uses compact mirror feed power back him bubbles melts ive always felt power like ramars could never die sequel could worth looking into see now one dark night ii turning grave lets face itthe film stands alone heard film titles original fitsbr br a remake would pointless one would write better dialog lengthen scenes show studies ramars abilities done lab instead hearing tape recorder information age something like would well documented dvd corpses raise ones mausoleum ramars power could spread graveyard too lets say id hate one persons clean mess end climax something shown think one initiating sisters recognize one corpses relative would added good disturbing character cg effects awesome scenes ramar animating cremated remains would wall br br say aboutone dark night all see least lifeor death,0
"Wow, today is the last day of May. June 18th is our 4 year wedding anniversary ",0
ive seen movie twice transilvania international film festivaltiff movie competition really hope esteban sapir get one awards at least best image award br br as silent cinema fan im interested contemporary movies quote recreate language yesteryear cinema previous reviewer emphasized quotes fritz lang fr w murnau see it movie references directly langs metropolis allegoricalparabolic character plots see murnau it theres obvious melieshomage though moon here cigarsmoking human face papermade painted mountains citylandscapes enjoyed film mostly visuals meantime found interesting story muteness creative means communication used inhabitants voiceless city perspective movie unique reflexion muteness silent cinema films silent period one hardly find stories mute characters case questioned whether story stolen voices motivation silent film form theres intention play upon muteness silent films another example kind reflexion found guy maddins carefulwhere inhabitants mountainvillage restrictions using voices intend write paper it know movies related topic please let know br br i highly recommend esteban sapirs film every moviegoer one critics called it jewel festivalbr br ps winners announced film award best cinematography,0
 https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UPS_oV6OD6Q …How the Federal Reserve caused the Depression and cheated Americans out of their money.,1
found one oldest cartoon video world httpsyoutuberugadnbubmhttpsyoutuberugadnbubm please see tell is,0
itnormaltothmkof ways kill myselflike using nails ro slice throat banginf head edfmge th table hard cracks open,1
ive decided stay using reddit years first last post ill make still really sure even typing up considering ive already made decision posting could considered kind call help im stubborn fuck never someone turn decisions turned  me life wasnt bad great friends loving family and even saying age sounds naive think experienced true love know im young know much im honestly tired last  years accompanied severe depression social anxiety ever lasting suicidal tendency cant remember last time went bed wasnt thinking killing waste space existence is ive researching dying asphyxiation weeks even though  worst year since father died eleven year decided im gonna stay got month late prepare things maybe cross things little bucket list weird tho comparing last year stopped year long journey working out lost girlfriend  years lot friends stuck knowing life year found great job gained much confidence picked lost new hobbies found again really cannot go longer life lost appeal ill forever sorry family friends really miss dad want join even though believe heaven hope ill find someday since dont wanna talk anyone wanted post get system guess sorry long fuck probably boring text wall haha guess it sorry english wish everyone strength go on even though lost it,1
my damn filling just fell out half of my tooth is gone,0
came home school basically fell asleep middle day like  fully awake seeing got almost  hours sleep title like im debating stay up try go bed get another  hours little bit both,0
i am gon na make sure i m dead by tomorrow morning every woman is disgusted by my horrendous face and would rather die than speak to someone who look like me time to die,1
depression is cause by oneself thru one greed for those thing that are bad for one health that one can t manage firstly you have to understand that you are the cause of ur depress state and you have let go of ur big ego to come out of that situation by taking to people,1
fear courage kill myselfmy life sucks idea dying makes feel mesmerized blissful knowing able get rid weight life all ampxb however sometimes feel like guts it see future me dropped high school life hell cope it cant last job couple months cant stick routine like that future seems obscure depressingempty lonely miserable ampxb hope one day able let go gather guts it maybe jumping tall building liberation death everything make sense end death true freedom bliss breaking free perpetual meaningless suffering,1
one favourite films everything  rocking soundtrack courtesy eddie clark ex motorhead loads action loads laughs totally ridiculous plot wonderful s stereotypes characters eddie putupon nice guy wants left alone different leslie about wet come nuke the rock burnout eddies mom pathetic roger the geek ozzy preacher surely exists america boys rich vicious stupid girls vacant vain stupid could ask forbr br well first all theres sammi curr rock star amalgam every s badass rocker think of rocket firing guitar theres scene sammi pulls old lady tv screen smashes up roger do why hoover up like good geek would favourite scene tim hainey gets long overdue reward sammi via wet finger plug  magicbr br if rock s love ridiculous films like do check one out available dvd cheap trick ortreat yourself,0
"just watched &quot;O&quot; cirque du soleil at the bellagio, it was soo amazing! ",0
cute nah basically idea girlfriend im going dedicate notebook write every time hang out im going say day was did felt thinking know whole shabang well  year im going give along favorite flowers favorite candy dont lot money cant get big fancy gift thought cute want feedback it ideas revisions,0
realize people post wanting kill themselves posting show redflag make loved ones feel anyone looking a reason it please read thisedit intended guilt trip add pain feel honestly way someone gain new perspective hearing someone feels redflag close person make angry set negative way please ignore post people angry done worrying feelings probably want hear however people want hear people care still care long someone gone types people please take trying guilt someone staying alive feeling guilty worst feeling world wish outcome people read this strictly meant show people care even ones think do im sorry seemedseems rude please read open mind caution try take anything negative this thats possible the letter become angry one paragraph anger normal feeling matter happens mean part everybody focused on wrote super intense letter ex killed himself want people know read would make feel really vulnerable maybe reading help someone here im reading posts breaking heart anyway heres hoping might give one person extra push need also ex determined kill long time many people know like do truth glorified mind part say maybe i someone else could exact moment would gotten fate way wanted eventually mainly anger based knowledge was please focus part anybody change mind this three years three years since ive touched face three years since ive heard voice three years since ive able use senses you actually thats lie days without warning lucky enough catch scent air started happening idea powerful sense smell was become completely disoriented soon happens sometimes think may pass out happen often does takes breath away emotionally painful fashion first thought races head here dont know true thought is knows possible near gone memory randomly pulling scent intensely believe actually smell it spirit beside happens youd visit me indeed possible considering way things us left world like think see get good laugh boy made mistakes what im like train wreck happens slowly fuck doing youd think happily married full life ahead us way took tragedy shit maybe would easier completely shut down felt like didnt deserve feel anything considering barely speaking terms passed still feel way sometimes like friends family ones deserve hurt loud me keep feelings tucked deep down theres guilt feel go back forth feel particular emotion days guilt stricken lying bed crying sitting silence like mad woman wonder anything could done said change fate stuck around toughed hard times would even mattered called night would able change mind even possess power something like that exaggerating important mind like believe maybe maybe could made difference particular night thats ego know deep nothing could changed mind maybe i someone else could exact moment would gotten fate way wanted eventually maybe thats tell keep guilt rearing nasty head days livid pissed fuck selfish dare take upon take life realize would affect everybody loved loved you think nobody would care maybe fucked even consider us hate it want miracle happen allows see one last time beat dead again believe referred anger step grief ive noticed dont follow steps correctly hit them point never bargained maybe never im particularly religious death sudden time it case ive hit depression anger most one day hope see again dont really even care outcome encounter would be maybe would peace realize young stupid forgive did abandoning moving maddness  maybe could forgive taking life pain caused alive maybe would selfish dick before tell way reacted tragedy ridiculous shouldnt held nothing long did never cared me either way least would closure satisfied pain broken heart better pain caused answers sincerely hope hits someone feels started one girls attempt let go rage guilt maybe more life good people thing do live life beautiful let it,1
know doive suicidal six years want hurt family even made attempt ive come close several times first complicated plan drown two failsafes sure later considered finding something tall enough jump from think ever comes ill take belt hang myself anywhere scares easy would be im afraid die want hurt people really wanted kill typing out still worry eventually ill exceptionally bad day decide last reasons kill myself i almost  years old living mother get along well im sure point want independent move out feel like burden i serious issues anxiety kept comfortable around people entire life deeply introverted shy could figure hermits afford food house might problems i selfdiagnosed aspergers syndromeautism spectrum disorder and ashamed considered faker official diagnosis almost cried realized possess nearly traits associated asd understand greater detail make life much easier i job car quit college social demands giving panic attacks its know know well ive never good knowing people would like job cant find one give panic attacks good introvertjobs replaced machines ive considered volunteering feel like im burden society cant even muster strength go school supposed help people cant even breathe im surrounded strangers my one passion something cant make living with make music music love fringe people consider music like kind music gets labelled pretentious not music write pop song tried would hate myself popular music awful me theres small niche kind music small unless radio starts playing avantgarde noise passion hobby i feel like world hostile people like me im normal yes ive heard every possible variation idea theres thing normal thats lie world accommodating people average money sex love adventure none things appeal me like pop culture sports cant really relate anyone wants desires alien everyone meet im weak thats boils to im simply weak world scares idea navigate it want functioning independent adult every attempt ive made leaves depressed anxious suicidal guess see doctor last thing want financially burden mother further course im sure shed rather dead thank reading,1
ah yes rteenagers cesspool whatever is,0
bad day,0
jerotichseii marthakarua the same lot that ha caused oppression depression among the people poverty nepotism and capitalism have found formerly well thought but no longer betrayal is the new normal,1
cant overmy anxiety point want die tonight turns midnight cant take another year mental illness nothing helps me fuck everything even alive,1
good enough worthless wife left me friends hate me even best friend roommate sees something needs take care of pretty sure school money comes im going pay last debt buy gun end it wife used boyfriends pleasure got raped first date breaking up im weak worth damn im good hitting sex parents see disappointment blame them co workers hate me honestly looking encouragement know everyone happier gone im selfish it dont going continue cycle abuse ive tried therapy even say im lost cause help im ugly af too,1
wrote redflag note todayim tired life kicking butt last two years really hard last week hard friends couple family members and care gone feel die would make boyfriends life easier id one less burden life ampxb problem im ive calling too stupid redflag meaning idea it im tired crying sleep night when im able sleep is crying wake up im barely eating been  hours point im barely drinking water im giving up ampxb know anything wrote even make sense know rambled,1
Sunday mornings made for listening to the Beatles ,0
My depression:  pic.twitter.com/aP6j1pLFXb,1
@Fixeche are you away from Cardiff at the moment? You're missing the good weather ,0
i feel it coming on hard and it s just too much i m not even full spiral i wa doing so good for so long i hate how easy it sound to end it because fuck wouldn t it just be i m just screaming into the void again i feel like quarantining when i m like this because well meaning friend will tell me they love me and it s not worth it and to push forward and they re on my side and i know it doesn t make me feel any different about myself and maybe they do too but it s so damn tiresome i hate myself and i don t think i ll ever stop i m tired of stressing them out or bringing them down by existing the cool thing about being dead is people will almost always remember the good thing about you and maybe they ll talk about how you struggled but it ll sound romantic and not nearly a disgusting a it actually feel why doe it have to be so attractive objectively speaking there s nothing sexy about about coming across the news in whatever form that a loved one ha ended their life but here i am fantasizing about how i ll just stop being and i ll be just that more loved without having to do anything but die no guilt no pressure just nothing i guess technically people will have to deal with my remains they ll have to raise money to have something done with me because i definitely don t have anything in place to make it easier i m just so fucking tired,1
 family members die hard cannot much longer getting worse,1
cant sleepits hot think much hate dull box cutter desk is no nothing happen even im making melodramatic post still despise myself feels late im  job love virgin im someone worth salvaging bother clear made time even though wasted fighting religious beliefs spent figuring like finding love sex think recently want find someone whos also inexperienced share life sex them someone curious exciteable would love saccharine cute depraved kinky sex sit naked play video games something hate missing  years love sex nothing let stay environment fucked mind ideologies believe work death major completely drained whatever enjoyment subject another year half spent recovering life full shitty choices betrayed expectations town limited options wish razor sharper funny feel much closer death im less depressed sense lethargy almost like defense mechanism feel like fading exist anymore real person getting hard let alone orchestrating death im arguably better seems much easier end it tomorrows another day guess guess means time fuck waste life knows maybe ill even die somehow thatd nice,1
Went food shopping this morning and going to do a BBQ later because its total clear blue sky - @brawngp_fanblog will be pleased with me ,0
so glad i made it through work with an extra hour too and my paycheck still waiting on the one i lost though,0
brotheri know one see this reason makes feel better posting unknown internet keeping inside im brother know it single thing keeping alive something dont future hes bright hes funny everything going him deserve grow burden dead older sister deserves everything good life grow without me grow pain heart much want end all wont ever comes that hope understands,1
Depression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepression ist not just being sadDepress-,1
venting nobody talk toi lost love life month ago took car dog stuff disappeared family hates im homeless nowhere go im tired life im sick feel like im everyones way ive got lot going making day day pennies dollar literally feel like piece shit lost everything crazy little money get got robbed ill completely ive got warrant cant anything cant go homeless shelter anything feel like hell leave lifes shambles nobody nothing fault ill probably edit add later needed get little chest,1
@lacyinwonderlnd haha wow. good to see another BT/how i met your mother fan around here ,0
Making good things come together behind the scenes feels good  I'll share about it one day if it pans out of course ,0
http twitpic com y bg this is ashley from kick s afternoon show he s not impressed with the twitter,0
really keeps hereive tried couple times chicken last second including last night felt like failure went lay heard daughter whimpering mother sleep im gonna go stung anyways picked stopped crying said thank dad started bawling like baby realized reason cant daughters need dad even people think so even life keeps railing me still deserves best keeps guys around,1
2 miles from my house &amp; I can hear my couch calling my name...  Im'a comin' ,0
i m going to be in le then a week i d do anything to just go back a year or two restart highschool and actually pay attention fucking pas at least there s no fucking way i pas this year there s no fucking way i graduate by senior year i have 0 fucking friend to celebrate with but i would i even celebrate why would i celebrate being with absolutely jack shit going for me congrats your fucking failing highschool no friend just got broken up with no career i mean there is absolute jack fucking shit going for me i waited so long for this day because i wanted to join the military and you can at but i ve already ruined my gpa i m just done with even trying anymore everything i do nothing going to change the fact imma failure advice fucking pay attention in highschool and don t try to fit in with people who were never there for you,1
anyone else chronically boredbasically title im type  bipolar probably isnt affect it depression justify depressed although whenever im manic quite clearly normal energy purpose lot different bored also able sit still so go tangent already have happen anyone else,1
cant anymoreim tired trying happy pretending am im tired trying make friends turn friends barely get solitary one talk anymore hate job hate alone hate myself hate every ounce life dont think keep trying anymore,1
ive decided im ready dieim  still living home unemployed year work im luck getting hired know ill unhappy job do think im meant actual adult think love me know mom devastated feel like living miserably anyone impatient wait till im s later find something like someone im happy with think im ready mg worth xanax alcohol,1
@mannykimchi technically first college year....cause im a sophomore ,0
@DonnieWahlberg we are having a NKOTB chat on retrorewind ,0
"2) a doctor decided your physical symptoms are anxiety, stress or depression without any examination at all:2 points",1
film transported everyone back october   seemed part great philippine i shall return landing scene leyte shore general macarthur reaped fame br br above all gregory peck triumphed portrayal great general stride set shoulders intensity men common intensity total absorption devotion macarthur military peck challenge acting academy award winner to kill mockinbird oscar nominee keys kingdom the yearling gentlemans agreement twelve oclock highhe played everything apparently homicidal amnesiac crusading journalist troubled gunfighter obsessed attorney biblical david captain horatio hornblower brought unique insight character sincerity warmth love especially humor br br there scene macarthur stands deck president philippines hear dialogue general hope water deep says president because people find cant swim come pecks sonorous voice and people going find cant walk water br br as macarthur peck justified reputation giant film industry felt macarthurs emotions knew anger happiness understood relationship whole family,0
@Doubledown_InSL  Thanks and your always welcome..   ,0
failedwell definitely failed test itgonna took pills started drinking im gonna go hang friend think little bit think ill take rest later im kind feel peaceful typing know why want play guitar roommates mother kinda want talk someone someone else guess thats reached dog though im sorry weird getting calming sense like everything finally chill okay also might pills idk,1
themaccabees i ve ordered that special inch set thingy from that place online i m so forgetful but it s still not here i want iiiit,0
miss harambe got recommended  second video youtube harambes last moments comment section filled people agreeing zoo damn im tears,0
carols journey pleasure watch many reasons acting clara lago simply amazing someone young one special actors say say much facial expressions director imanol urbibe presents tight controlled film break continuity thereby propelling plot steady pace enough suspense keep one wondering nest scene bring screenplay angel garcia roldan story telling best which seems major purpose films all plot unpredictable yet events unravel completely logical perhaps best feature film tell story spanish civil war affected people major event th century yet hardly americans know it fact  years university teaching averaged one student semester even heard it much less could say anything comprehensive itand overwhelming number students merit scholars speaks enormous amount censorship american education so one way film good way begin study event keeping mind one thread pulled great deal history unraveled appreciation film is therefore direct relation amount ones knowledge view film another coming age movie miss movie completely left elbow index considers seven aspects film acting production sets character development plot dialogue film continuity artistryon scale  good  average  needs help carols journey average counts excepting dialogue rated average lei average film  raised  equated imdb scale highly recommend film ages,0
thanos peen fucken it figured large thanos flaccid penis is know youre thinking could done this well allow explain started image picture thanos iron man standing next other image exactly needed came directly marvel know certain proportions correct two characters one go actually determining thanos length thats easy need length robert downey jrs penis luckily vague idea large is back  robert downey jr quoted saying something along lines of massive dick feminism joke statement determine one major thing robert downey jr slays women massive peen big massive answer that need research taking internet used pixel measurements calculated length many many penises belonged various different porn stars averaged results came  inches flaccid average robert downey jr truly massive penis must slightly larger this therefore elected round  inches next up need pixel measurements tony stark  image used number calculate many pixels per inch picture had came number  pixels per inch using number able discover thanos  inches tall  done horizontal width quick calculations determined thanos approximately  times larger robert downey jr proportion hand unthinkable take robert downey jrs length  multiply  get  know youre thinking  inches thats pathetic think way thats flaccid length now imagine thanos aroused average human penis generally doubles length going flaccid hard means thanos kielbasa likely almost  inches fully erect still think small try imagine absolute unit cock shoved tight little ass massive purple rod passionately thrust back forth ripping rectum shreds dont even get started cum thought thanos unloading gallons gallons children makes rock hard nothing turns thanos massive  inch dick wish would shove every hole body want take flaccid dick wrap around neck like noose would pure ecstasy me getting strangled death thanos bad boy would probably feel amazing thing would make better would wasnt circumcised id able peel back foreskin like big purple meaty banana id peel back id eat every last particle dick cheese id lick up meat flute shiny sticky lubed up id let put butt again wouldnt hold back time hed fuck hard inside get jimmied around would amazing hed cum again time theres much fills entire body imagine thanos almost finished ravaging butthole unleashed tsunami hot sticky semen body fills ass thanos sex pistol thick wont leak booty keeps releasing more eventually starts filling intestines stomach eventually begins quickly flow mouth point im vomiting thanoss cum everywhere im fast enough pressure builds semen starts slowly drip every hole im body dick nose ears even eyes enough thanoss keeps ejaculating hes like infinite water source daddy sauce pressure great explode glorious display semen viscera stomach burst open head torso back half torso remains yet somehow survive limbs blown off well dick thanos caresses whats left face thick purple hand want keep going thanos says me gently okay that despite fact windpipes mostly exploded manage say him yes thanos nods proceeds kiss passionately lips unsheaths excalibur gently inserts new hole dick used be picks up im little lump flesh slowly pulls dick me attempt make sure new pussy would adequate hole upon determining is begins violently move down nothing fleshlight since love life thanos didnt even care little more sex pistol cocked fires one last burst cum shot intense slide right him blast space million miles hour nickelback begins play rocketed cosmos intense heat thanos semen prevents freezing death back planet fucked thanos quietly whispers quickly shrinking body homo traveled galaxy felt like days became caught gravity black hole thanoss semen still keeping alive propulsion wasnt strong enough prevent getting sucked in upon reaching black holes event horizon something incredible happened thanos juice ignited exploded explosion eventually resulted formation star upon stars creation launched stars orbit body ripped apart immense gravity sun various parts cast void soul remained attached star formed watched billions years pieces gravitational pulls slowly began attract particles eventually became planets continued watch new solar system eventually third planet out saw something amazing watched planets primordial ooze small life form emerged ages watched life evolved grew took much complex form time became species known human human intelligent nearly intelligent enough beings visit them humans eventually named me referred sol continued watch humans culture developed further unil one day film known avengers infinity war released cultural phenomenon although wasnt good objective standpoint humans loved it one character love most name thanos thanos appeared character earth knew journey complete cannot explain how way another part thanos stayed body part eventually became earth result influence could seen throughout history came head infinity war thanoss semen gave life entire planet creature repaid ultimate way thanos forever immortalized culture competently written characters one mediocre movies time,0
brought reasons want die deserve iti want hate myself hurt everyone ever got close me emotionally unstable manipulative disgusting abusive deserve get think go actually matter im dead inside already im done trying im good sex thats offer thats ive ever offer,1
tonight gonna end hopeim honestly done wanna wake tried hanging last night failed ill try tonight maybe ill finally get good nights sleep,1
anyone else find difficult comprehend everyone else functionseveryone else goes life get up go work go school hang friends meanwhile even simplest tasks seem insurmountable right now everyone it people goals plans far future hard comprehend right feels like im working surviving waking every morning,1
good luck gces anyone uk good luck results day hopefully us pass,0
guys know whos cute read first word boys boys please turn,0
im fucking tired constant problems pain sufferingso already adhd little friends got depression started struggling cant tell anybody though im scared wont believe think im looking attention im still pretty young ive considered redflag im scared family need way,1
ubisoft games weird games bad never broke mould anything innovative ubisoft games like movies genuinely good feel connection with,0
need spice life want something happen im getting bored,0
"@lisisilveira @shelisrael No Spider. But I did have some public situations playing chess, and I got upset, people stared. &quot;Nuff said ",0
convince friends cries help ironic keep lying make know anything cant fucking anymore im fucking lonely please god stop,0
So excited for Tuesday ,0
"@tobelieveornot I just read your excerpt, and I REALLY can't wait for your book to come out! It's AMAZING! I'm joining the email list ",0
hello i age have been feeling like i m going crazy these past month after i got my first panic attack i been having all kind of symptom like not feeling my hand before the panic attack but now i been getting disoriented feeling like im like a camera stuck in my head looking at mirror and not feeling properly like myself if i look to the side of me i get scared even yesterday night before sleeping i had a moment that my brain thought i wa doing something and i actually wa believing that i wa doing it for split second been feeling like my heart is dropping a lot my brain skip moment and this all concern me is this all anxiety,1
new york  one hot night four famous iconic figures come together professor albert einstein come ny give speech has senator joesph maccarthy back later night gets surprise visitor famous actress marilyn monroe actually wants discuss theories relativity soon ballplaying husband joe dimaggio turns hotel room begging work things crumbling relationship flashbacks childhood important events perceived consequences actions creep show individuals cope despair hidden fear waiting break outbr br now thats oneofakind adapted stageplay terry johnson who would also script screenplay film insignificance odd quirky seductive downright curious fictional popculture gimmick hands director nicolas roeg inspired cerebral experimental effort might rooted stageplay origins feel theatrical action occurs hotel backdrop one main suite cramp look enhanced moody smoky atmosphere new york great effect however limitations cant contain fruitful daring ideas roeg manages randomly storm visually meaningful material way reflects characters who suggestively famous figures without need naming them philosophical journeys interpretations notions stimulating spiritual sense memories gelling present visions showing fears realisations depending seeing either beautiful hauntingly implemented theres plenty food thought hints within verbosely innovative if sometimes awkward script main focus concerning present situation flashbacks gives us personal makeup sex power enlightenment glory makes much burden already demanding lives sure story might lead anything end feel disjointed dreamy vibe intelligent arrangement irons folds makes sure never turns giddy peter hannans sensually fluid photography stanley myers titillatingly oozing blues soundtrack fit snugly roegs stylistically subdue established style directing makes look like hes working something big largescale otherwise thats case small little universe created vintage costumes locations period come fittingly enough made film impressive acting boasted main four theresa russells perky drop dead gorgeous appeal sexy pinup actress growing portrayal definitely held film together along genuinely excellent endearing performance michael emil professor tony curtis marvellously plays witchhunting senator gary busey suitably good stoically gravel manner ballplayer showing minor amusing support roles happen sampson patrick kilpatrickbr br a memorably striking fresh tour de force meditation piece metaphysics linked together four different extremes might find pretentiously estrange talky one wrapped little unique world worry much shortcomings,0
enjoying view of ocean from my room in Grand Cayman!!! ,0
having a debate with the boys about what colors to write on the pitboard with today LOL ,0
good filmbr br i managed pick dvd local store sale  seems like good deal is thing film named to kill for took little detective work find original namebr br in uk rated  rightly although standard films depends ability sell seen final destination  last night it view br br maybe fact delightful traci lords tends make classification board step  shamebr br traci great actress given chance appear bigger large budget productions ability turn branded bmovies fine performance nothing short amazingbr br long live traci lords incredible talent actress,0
best help could get noosei dealing suicidal thoughts years now im tired making efforts fix maintain shitty life really need give in  ive waiting glimmer hope help shrug depression avail ive working professional therapist attempting get sort medication help almost half year ive trying therapists even longer fucking impossible prescribed anything within reasonable time frame everything tried horrible failure relief even done much would smoke weed even dull pain brief while truth helping all  nothing left life worth maintaining for family continued treat like tool kin absolutely positive physical relationships people ever get talk even appreciate presence online way helping me venting like near constant life speaking issue never helps despite copious amount research ive done says otherwise everyone talk help either know respond soon abandon quite frankly care would rather hassle things need me ive grown hate everyone else life almost much myself  everything ive ever loved faded away lost luster time loved many things loved mathematics sciences loved games learning analyze system loved able support around me cant even derive pleasure sense taste  purpose hate myself cant even stand see reflection hear voice want hang like sinful refuse ive proven be top off virtually access methods unlike formerly thought even death good likes me,1
vein natural born killers another movie popular critics excessive violence also loved kalifornia movie clearly glamorizes violence like think turns around final act kind like basketball diaries glamorizes drugs first shows bad side end movie far worse good side good david duchovny plays brian kessler artistic yuppie even artistically yuppie girlfriend violent sexy black white photography generally reserved for know where places nudity passes art maybe really understand it rate brian carrie duchovny michelle forbes fits role flawlessly make perfect couple go documentary tour famous murder sites brian writer write book carrie take picturesbr br being artistic types brian carrie quite financially prepared trip put ad someone share gas travel expenses contacted early grace adele corners brad pitt juliette lewis early parole assigned janitorial work local university parole officer sees ad bulletin board decides leave state while violating parole also leaving scene landlords murder deal pesky murder investigation two birds one stone knowbr br the movie curious ability portray two stereotypes artsy yuppies greasy trailer trash without resorting clichs even ending caricatures either type brian carrie artsy liberals carrie catches early adele brian fascinated earlys status outlaw seen scene brian shoots earlys gun never fired gun before hes fascinated little kid adele carrie back hotel adele reveals things childlike way fact early broke her smoking allowed drink early think women should early brian local bar brian reacts nervously drunk trying start fight him early first gives advice brian steps dishes quick lesson guy hit him bri comin one favorite scenes movie partly funny early gleefully says guys friends drag away bloodied battered also intercut girls back hotel learn much two couples differences conflicts likely come them besides that brian benefited earlys actions carrie appalled hears adele also illustrates different way carrie brian react early adelebr br clearly now tell typical odd couple type thriller city folk run country folk sorts stereotypical mayhem ensues one hand seems little convenient brian carrie go tour murder sites happen accompanied real life murderer hand great way counteract glorifying murder inherent within crosscountry trip designed bring fame murderers crimes studying actions past murderers brian carrie ultimately find face face material studying realize murder pretty morbidly fascinating face disconnected studies murders pastbr br i constantly amazed brad pitts versatility actor consider example roles movies like kalifornia  monkeys fight club oceans   pitt like tom hanks change appearance drastically enough fit given character completely believable incidentally tried vain early grace halloween year get hair beard right even got hat right initially thought would hardest partbr br its easy understand lot people disliked kalifornia think glorifies violence murder think whatever glorifying done intention clarifying audiences understanding subject matter film glorify violence least initially could never effective kalifornia movie structures perfectly glorification embodied brians carries fascination idea murder auras places happened realization ours embodied real thing encounter early adele movies purpose describe difference idealizing violence seeing horror close real,0
love brother drinks icu like fifth time great fun long icu replaced grave point,0
keep scrolling post exist forget brush teath,0
wanna skinny   year old white boy rn ones wear nike elite sets shorts socks tshirts backpacks theyre hot,0
there are times depression will hit you out of nowhere even you are enjoying your day.....,1
emptinessso girl fun makes feel good everything problem appeared  months ago misunderstanding started go separate ways started seeing another guy and weeks ago guy cheated her thought would chance start rebuiding had gave hope could together told would need wait finals coming starting could distraction afford finals passed day even speaked me run guy cheated her angry told made feel then told seeing weeks wanted relationship me right im feeling worse piece shit want nasa hire me live iss obligated look peoples face rest life really know killing one options seriously taking account know want pain go away leave here bedroom alone dark,1
"Norway won, im soooo happy, &quot;i'm in love with a fairytale&quot; and he is craaaaazzyy hot -Alexander Rybak, i think i'm in love!!  &lt;3",0
sure much longer hold oni  depressed since little kid probably around  so never friend life never accomplished anything  met desperate girl job managed marry first girl even held hands let alone talked bit couple kidsi managed break smile awhile first life still depressed decided couldnt deal mental stuff anymore left  months ago nothing makes happyi drinking every single night since left helps cry much every night tell might need take kids full time awhile check hospital gets mad saying selfish think much dead anymorehoping deer jump front way back work happen lose conyrol fly bridge take kids biggest concern dogsi asked gone would take care said no may call rescue shelters make arrangements even put money chance finding new home without risk put sleep breaking work may go back due todayi going last much longerthings get better,1
@IainDelaney Hah! Nice geek reference. I still think Logan's Run is a classic up there with 2001. ,0
"@agwyllie Europe as its many countries... You will be stagnant, here in, Europe ",0
asshole getting mad got angry moms friend woman moms friend toom night train said terrified thought would sleep room  males got angry every man bad rapist get could get scared still find unfair us men  sorry bad grammar,0
got girlfriend walking park friend see cute girl asked girlfriend said yes stunned bad shes elementary though writing prison,0
think i saw some magic on sunday against salford i saw hull fc come out onto the pitch but after that they vanished,0
@majornelson what I think so far is that they are boring compared to the xbox event  so far at least,0
More like Depression*  https://twitter.com/avengers/status/988576000349896704 …,1
@tisonfire yes.  House music at 3am at The pickle.  ,0
blahhh my throat is sore amp i keep coughing i hate being sick,0
advice for adult separation anxiety i m have been with my girlfriend f for over year our whole relationship we have lived apart at our parent house and still do with no issue we see each multiple time a week do fun romantic thing almost never fight she is the love of my life and i seriously see myself spending the rest of my life with her week ago i got covid and i isolated in my room for 0 day only the third time in our relationship we ve been apart for this long after the isolation i came out with a new found love for my girlfriend i realized that i truly want her in my life and i want to be with her forever i knew this before but it wa like a huge reminder since my isolation ha ended though and i saw her again anytime i m away from her i have crazy anxiety like almost can t function don t eat etc nothing ha changed expect for the better imo i now realize she s the one and she feel the same way but for some reason after year of no issue mentally or in our relationship i have developed what i believe after doing some research to be adult separation anxiety definitely anxiety i ve told my girlfriend all this and had a big cry with her and she ha been nothing but supportive and loving i know she s with me for the long haul and i m not worried about that when i m thinking straight but when i m not with her i go crazy i ve reached out to an online therapy company to have a virtual session a i need help and i don t know what to do my girlfriend is super supportive but this can t be healthy for a relationship that my biggest fear is losing just looking for some advice maybe some similar experience and how you went about it anything help,1
mooooooom youu wash back onceeeeee caaaan forgeeeeeeet ill leaveeee im chasing girls persuueeee,0
birthday today keeping track number wishes receivefor fking reason  midnight   birthday wishes am   birthday wishes am   birthday wishes mom cousin  noon   birthday wishes pm  birthday wishes total pm still birthday wished  people onlynone friends remember op sad ill keep updating save later,0
female friend told this want kiss doesnt want relationship weird wouldnt mind kissing her doesnt want relationship guess wants keep friendship maybe,0
how do y all cope with depression,1
theres something wrong melike mentally forgive me ive never posted anything like before may rambling anything ive suffered depression since highschool senior college now that ive kept pretty good handle on in time push past let control me years thought about recently considered ending it now think part im supposed tell hardships ive rough life been thats thing been is difficult anyone elses grew family loved me everything needed close group friends job genuinely love high career field girlfriend loves unconditionally hell times im kinda conceded want know someone please tell me why fucking fantastic life would want end it always something back mind ive always brushed bad day weak lately impulse stronger find going normal day seemingly reason think what went home today frustrating wanting end life apparent reason stupid hate it selfish stupid cant help it realize probably means theres something mentally wrong me even know see it therapists expensive im living college budget thing scares is think reason done anything yet mom one person world say truly care about remeber girlfriend earlier paper perfect find hard care anyone another frustrating point but think much would hurt mom pretty much keeps anything rash passes im trily afraid anything else left keep grounded im sure even makes sense ive never really told anyone this am putting pretty much everything bunch strangers so again forgive lack organization but thats also mind works so im really sure decided post here really rough lately guess help little get chest know im alone cant talk anyone this would devastating family knew feel like none friends would understand mention hard time connecting people anyway guess thats story know do,1
Having someting to eat ,0
time future many aware it day now final movie legendary actor edward g robinson solent green becomes landmark classic many film buff environmentalist believe eventual history movie taken novel entitled make room make room whos working title changed solent green story concerns earth evolves future worlds environmental problems becoming nothing short catastrophic planets natural resources exhausted basic food reduced simple staples come variety colors solent yellow solent red solent green however know real ingredient solent green cringe culpability fear divine retribution first food executive named william r simonson joseph cotton upon death dedicated police detective called robert thorn charleston heston seeks truth behind apparent suicide although corruption goes way top begins simonsons bodyguard tad fielding chuck connors security chief donnovan roy jenson target thorn waste desposal factory thorns boss lt hatcher brock peters believes suspicions warns higher hot want case closed thorn risk job easy way out thorn discovers marks death like film awaits final warning ,0
lately depressed treated medicines psychiatrist psychologist tired feel diredflaged time lack motivations life could please tell live for god family happy money everything counts judge asking help bc know anymore happy used excited person life want sleep one day wake again so please help showing life special maybe could inspiration me thank lot need help opinion please,1
moldy bread sixth grade make experiment bread brought bread friend offer bread reason took bread offered instead using own end day bring little tupperware thing bread year bread got moldy know throw it got till end year i brought begining year ampxb pd sorry spelling mistakes english first language,0
"@24kgoldsher oh yeaahhh, RVing is my favorite contact sport   bonnaroo is going to be deadly",0
Overwhelmed (Week 4): Depression  https://vimeo.com/266208761?ref=fb-share …,1
todaya new bornnovember todayi attempted redflagby cutting wrists taking large amounts pills something really strange struck head happy sad feelingthis feeling made decide liveeven pain even reliefif im destined live ill fucking live whats point anything anymore  ill fucking livei know sure better fail life fail death im already much painwhy cause painill fucking live health give upuntil fucked body finally give surviving,1
distracteda recent experience made feel comfortable enough know want life going days ago got distracted realised happy distracted it going tonight light spliffs get nice toasty relaxed itll over doesnt scare least even excite me,1
remember film academy awards win category life me cannot remember against one thing say one best movies ever seen fact steven spielberg directed film persuade one bitbr br essentially black womans trials tribulations growing girl woman lot insinuations disturbing horrifying needed see much woman put with along way see women put hardships walk redemption whoopi goldberg gives best performance ever movie danny glover also gotten least nominated role film br br and best part movie treats subjects humanely like sideshow freak shows like recent beloved did encourage anyone race see film ,0
need help preparing therapyhey guys first therapy appointment days want honest them cant afford get hospitalized suicidal plan months now preparing actively self harm daily impulse attempted earlier week want give best shot can know wont hospitalise unless immediate threat know line immediate is suggestions appreciated,1
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two hollywoods great child stars elizabeth taylor mickey rooney perfectly teamed deliver one alltime family classics story determined  year old girl whose adoration horses allow turn away goal win british nationals mickey rooney newly orphaned drifter looking tie follow dreamsbr br a beautiful side plot reveals girls mother ambitions young girl repeatedly overruling fathers decisions favor spirited daughter mother seems know best scene exhausted taylor rushes go school priceless father protests why let go school shell drop exhaustion noon  worry shed back within half hour saturday brilliant technicolor sumptuous music score beautiful faces telling bittersweet story heres good reason old saying makem like anymore,0
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recent mens body standards made many people including me drop body weight unhealthy standards every day ive seen posts social media talking girls like malnourished skater boys   im   wasnt happy tried please others fitting standard pushed extremely hard boys went this ily lt youre perfect,0
dwr gh teresamforgione gm stone not that i ve had covid but i find whisky cure everything from sniffle to depression,1
random question top  songs mine  for longest time total eclipse heart creep la vie en rose aint rest wicked bored figured could good way start conversation,0
super knuckle kaknuckle belt buckle banana truffle head ass roasted head toe left tight basically dead,0
How does crippling depression vomiting up early Mount Eerie suit you?,1
feel empty blank numb very long rant last  years life sounds pretty generic thats feel spent years chasing girl never got together dated moved right confessed felt same never even got hold herwhat still wouldnt give hold once confidently love her wanted make work tried lasted half year decided leave me wasnt end going experience breakup gone broke left broken months felt empty like now met another girl liked first like also saw chance help get first girl fizzled pretty quick though received letter girl  explaining reason blocked number sc someone went phone blocked made think blocked her believe story im sure dont see reason lie im sure anymore friends again wanted back life badly wouldve happy even letter said fuck hope die long her taking stuff got back together course loved exactly way tried before like think felt im sure happier sorta put back together since broken first time ended dumping remained close friends day second dumping way played broke second time kept trying almost another year gave weeks ago im even sure right decision still late december november maybe last year talking blamed reason broke times not good enough etc revealed reason dumped first time wanted hate could kill wouldnt care knowing that broke third time couldnt comprehend answer couldnt accept answer knew previous attempts life knew mental health problems anyone else fact wouldnt tell knowing maybe couldve done something never wouldve broken first placejust shattered left first two times broken nowadays im trying get still chasing anymore makes feel like nothing guess didnt realize had im lonely sap whos ranting reddit still talk unfortunately much ruined life completely put worst places ive ever been still love heart maybe things change well get back together again maybe fizzle again maybe ill meet someone else ill forget girl spent long chasing after knows,0
sharp pain parts body think redflagi get weird sharp pain body think offing myself one common common called,1
argh iggy pop swift cover add on spotify way to kill the mood,0
why is it raining tomorrow night after it wa sooo nice today guess i should be thankful that i wa able to enjoy it at least,0
my family are all logical people who like to study and read lot of book the thing they study and read are about politics philosophy economics all that fun stuff since this is their favourite way to absorb information i wa wondering if there were any book suggestion out there to sort of educate my family they are open to it thanks in advanced,1
@Chelsea24705 ahh very good then.. just chill with it ,0
"@oxbloodruffin Wait, wait, wait. Do you mean to tell me that news/info on twitter isn't 100% reliable?  How is Chelsea anyway?",0
shy introvert complete pushoverbut become rapidly angry violent shit every human becoming violent rage infused stand sucks opinion redflag gene  generations dead males,1
cherylthelibr n thanks for the rebuilders rebuilding tip she s trying to help her mom thru a divorce and herself thru a breakup,0
"@HelsbyArms thanks ,we only have sundays off. good luck for Sat then and hope the weather improves for us all ",0
i just learned about appendicitis and i m freaking out the thought of my appendix bursting randomly make me desperately want to crawl out of my body i ve seen too many thing in my life that have made me so afraid and worried about the pain that come with death i used to pursue forensic science until it wa too much for my anxiety we had to watch people get killed in order to learn how to recreate the event of a crime scene i m a healthy year old yet i fear and think about death every single day of my life specifically the pain associated with it doe anyone else have this fear or know any trick to cope with it,1
hey girl could hand feather falling iv boots falling love,0
@johncmayer well said ,0
cant cope trust violatedcopied pasted another group since really need advice recently mental health admittedly taken downturn honest friends feeling taking steps work depression anxiety suicidal thoughts pace people knowing conditions makes everything lot worse however put aside anxiety degree receiving online counselling appointment real life counselling spoken gp try medication progress slow progress today randomly got call social services apparently contacted  referred several different organisations area never called  tell complete stranger everything try make believe called truth essence trust completely violated completely uncomfortable everything mentally got whole lot worse turns called friends arranged behind back even though told want safeguarding call anyone me violated trust consent getting repeated calls different organisations making anxiety suicidial thoughts much worse getting help making path towards recovery recovery feels like halted get understand im human project want continue path understand okay violate consent like that want know get understand journey theres anyway cancel safeguarding knowing personal details got lying makes way anxious before phone calls make anxious anyway could coming anyone anytime not copied pasted mention reddit pages honestly made want end life more idea calls stop theres three far without consent much real issues triggers surrounding consent anyway tell going cant handle it feel like two friends betrayed me theres nothing do cant cope anymore medication makes want be happy even though fake im me happy person cant cry me fake want still even respect fake says,1
first ever debut film riveting chilling moments best horror film fashion pit stomach tightens every moment film ending superb makers blaire witch obviously watched film ending end beginning end great movie piece japans great far scare factor perfect score makes think scared mind,0
suspicions dating girl things going really well weeks ago noticed started getting kinda short me wanting talk whatnot would tell stop asked going on week ago texted said needed space couple days big deal thought well hour ago told seeing sleeping withanother guy asked serious sent screenshots texts him mostly flirting stuff last screenshot said couldnt wait fun tonight would break morning idk im gonna point completely honest seems like everything wrong mess everything up tbh wanted feel happy crap thats going dont think thats gonna happen took time read this wanna say thanks helpful read similar posts know im one still hurts like hell,0
aaaaand back to my literature review at least i have a friendly cup of coffee to keep me company,0
meant ever existhey rsw ive posted one earliest submissions reddit im mistaken really feel like need help unfamiliar me ive suffering depressive symptoms several years started fairly traumatic episode youth about  years ago caused become extremely distrusting people especially officials kind past year ive tried multitude different selfhelp methods ranging meditation excercise even psychedelic drugs helped while really fix issues issues im extremely emotionless i even remember last time cried seldom display emotion exception hatred rage frustration seems emotions replaced everything else respond emotions whatever situations encounter theyve gone mind replaced every emotion there ive also noticed im becoming increasingly isolated increasingly harder approach its real effort get even respond phone call one remaining friends ive started think humans world extremely negative light yes thats right see street first impression would probably what fucking pretentious dickhead wished fell hurt himself even innocent interactions such greeted grocery store clerk provoke extremely hateful violent reactions im kidding anyone talks makes furious wish could left alone forever want see people want partake society want left alone never approached course possible thoughts sometimes led believe rest world incompatible me im one fit in perhaps would best started final journey unknown unexplainable rage hate turn paranoia delusional violence,1
think want quitive already  major redflag attempts year one landed hospital another put crisis center awhile know went wrong right time im wanting try accomplish stepdads birthday this upcoming tuesday since believe treatment growing one main biggest reasons im screwed up im dysfunctional achieve anything own least this course im scared die causing family pain leaving sweet dog behind seriously cant function dragging everyone around me draining mom love dearly cant needs live functional life im unemployed cant hold job cant even drive mind hellish hurt cry every day ive tried reaching scare everyone get overwhelmed ive tried years counseling mental health facilities yet am really see things life id like experience want give up feel cant take anymore breaks heart venting,1
okay yeah im almost donethe next fucking horrible thing happens life im done thats it cant mentally deal anything else happens me life ruined thoughts fucking fault got little bit encouragement could able end right now sadly cant get with fault happening me deserve pay price im living life taking happy pills like this honestly theres anyone would like encourage please go ahead,1
hey you shitted shower yeah read right yo ass tried fart shower ended shitting wonder dad say that hope made day better,0
add also insomnia denial depression hopelessness step forward and 00 step back because people still making parallel scene with another drama and never move on from you http t co if zghqebm,1
actually enjoys livingi dont get people enjoy here want end every day im ticking time bomb one day boyfriend reassuring get better wont enough,1
evilunicorn im not on aim rn,0
my roomate talk with her parent everyday for atleast 0 0 min and the maximum duration i spend on call with my parent is min it s not like they don t love me but i guess i m too boring or irritating for my parent too being a loner with no friend i crave for that extra one minute to talk and share what happened in the day with my parent ofc holding my tear back i hate how my roommate are social butterfly and how they are connected with their parent too i hate myself,1
justify livinghonestly dont think anymore friends nobody close even remotely im ghost everyone interact dailyor worse want go fuck away ive destroyed friendships recently beyond repair cant get said friendships destructions also inhibiting new friendships im going dryspell doesnt help im fucking disgusting look and beige personality got handed huge fuck careerwise im studying something college thatll get nowhere life acting really thought thatd useful whole climate world politics us leave fucking disgusted whats point ive harassed people really cared about im trash human literally positive traits im negatives one commitment left thats done two weeks im probably going kill cant justify living im good person contribute nothing society im like apathetic mole asscheek society nobody would care gone theyd take source relief thank god fucks gone shithead im cons pros cant wait december,1
damn bus weird spent  ish minutes talking another driver like buddy forget route,0
freely one scene another one story another like walking shadowy path open place like wind leaves tree another many different sounds  like traveling people meet tell stories part forever knows  like walking places full lost expectations another time human thickness world takes breath awaybr br i saw movie friends mine liked it maybe used scenariobased readymade stories know movie silly ones love looking sun sparkling sea walking without hurry hills little villages listening growing grass tells stories underneath six feet under warm wind summer,0
hey misses mom shut please son trying explain something class shout husband rest us class hear  jdhfkssakjfhawuie,0
understand comments focus mcconaughey never interesting film actor br br the best part movie writing wit alfred molina patrick mcgaw make unusual comic duo definitely stock types although one cant say characters well developed make less funnybr br the version saw hdnet subtitles spanish dialog certainly problem use spanish gives authenticity br br a underrated movie judging unusually low score imdb members given it thought fun interesting worth  least lot slick movies higher scores making big money box office much less interesting,0
wait days it mostly mentally checked already sure say folks,1
serious missing person please help new jersey residents only httpslinksharingsamsungcloudcomcgjkfrbld please help us live southern part new jersey estell manor area woodbine area lives in last seen morning september rd stated linkphoto also stated local pd helping please see girl let police know whats going last seen that need find her never best terms mental health afraid worst school starting back up could load stress potential tipping point please help us link dads contact info via facebook httpswwwfacebookcomkevinweisgerber anything helps please ,0
bad night feels like end sighti wish people could talk nothing interesting,1
sorry for the depressing post i have some problem that are long term and i suffer every second of everyday i am so tired of the mental pain of suffering everyday my eye will never be the same again and i only use my right eye i don t want to have such a shameful death but i wa wondering if you people believe this can possibly be a good choice i am about to have exhausted all of my treatment option,1
ungratfull brat worth anythig cannot anything right even thoug anything need nice life parents life disapointment useless shitty piece crap that honestly alive shitty person,1
@jenkellytisdale where can we vote? ,0
sent ex get help message reddit idk bored thought would funny maybe spam tho,0
increasing thoughts redflag m breakupin august last year went first ltr breakup first breakup genuinely thought id marry girl came nowhere course heartbroken positive outlook things would get better pushed go gym diet lost lbs started reading pushed reconnect old friends meet new ones got job began well university stopped drinking became generally better person months went on healing seem going anywhere taken advice became better person damn down anxiety began severely worsening eventually face fact depressed saw gp i like selfdiagnosing label depressed like  months  im losing motivation keep pushing feel burnt out pain intensifying honestly feel like im beginning lose internal battle honestly feels like ill forever alone despite best efforts one irl friend couple internet friends make worse irl friend moving back home country couple months im going literally one hang with meaning ill alone thoughts went  months stronger hell despite busy positive like want kill myself ive pushed past limits achieved amazing things fuck exhausted waking every day consumed thoughts inadequacy fact im alone every morning internal battle try convince itll get better know believe anymore im driving work college gym ill see lamppost ill random impulse drive it ill random thoughts slitting wrists bathtub know much longer deal everything feel like may months left power reach year mark since breakup lose hope thing keeping going knowing redflag would hurt family theres possibility things may get better amazing dog,1
this webinar had me on chokehold oh god it got me listening to my depression playlist at the fucking afternoon,1
@kanyewest @JTM_YVA @NelsonPMAAInc @alexbwell4 I would say pre-great depression probably 90%+ of Klansmen and white supremacist identified as democrats. I would imagine 99% of those same groups today identify with @realDonaldTrump and the Republican Party.,1
thank childhood flash know flash isnt technically dead big part childhood many games used it thank parents werent thank parents thank many fond memories friends lost contact long time ago mostly thanks awesome games got play,0
breezyskies i did the pet course last time i wa in sf ok on theory which i knew not so good on tool what i wa after,0
feel empty aloneby accounts happy grateful life think dying multiple times day either accident redflag feel like control aspects life feel like get chose it feel trapped bullshit going motions theyre considered something everyone doing feel hallowed inside years like whatever inside good decayed feel ive also become extremely bitter towards world wishing bad things strangers ridiculous things like bad glance feel like life constantly hindered inability perform anyones standards im constantly letting wife down feel like good role model daughter either feel like would better took huge life insurance policy slit throat least could provide them mention im ,1
this just cured my depression  https://twitter.com/sebstanst/status/989101532162527233 …,1
i tried to od on tylenol and took like 0 pill ended up tripping ball then throwing up and being miserable for the rest of the night now i have some sort of phobia in which i can not even think about taking pill without getting extremely nauseous anyone know how to overcome this new fear is there a better subreddit to ask this question,1
mini information report pythagoras pythagorean theorem brotherhood travels egypt started school today fit single a photos use google docs well ready done almost  words im still main part luckily friday,0
shown mtv vh local theatre playing main movie remember short movie film saw day first time ever music movie like this tell seeing big screen mm print darken theatre gives much better impact seeing cropped pan scan version vh halloween,0
got cyberbullied twentyyearolds saying shouldnt slutshaming women boyfriends cheated with love humankind,0
In the staff room. Its boring but i need to sit down ,0
teachers cold call worst built extension alerts name said google meet httpschromegooglecomwebstoredetailnotifymedgckonnckhjlnjbhhcmomkgidhkjngeo,0
my facebook is fucked,0
spoiled spoiled needy whatever want talk someone anyone even best friend talks hardly ever talks me always feel like burden talk anyone im bothering them dont want alone day ive got nothing else do itll even worse school starts friends actual school im online ill left everything even more best friend asks whats wrong help thing thatd help talking me already feel awful since im bad talking people sit dark crying much lonely piece shit,0
"#Alexa, ask Weed Buddy what strain helps with #Depression  http://bit.ly/use-app ",1
thank god ditched girl dumbfuck wears mask public always knew brain missing,0
chest hurts maybe got back long run,0
know sometimes stepping comfort zone bad initiate conversation get know lovely friends,0
world fucked upi created new account remain anonymous began th birthday got presents played friends remember report card come home letter school stating misbehavior hitting kicking kids suspended three days the maximum amount school give not district let explain called bully autistic adhd since grown adhd bit anyway school made fun autism every time went bus let hit me day birthday kid we call jim hit friend we call bob jim come back snap jaw kicked hard could nuts went crying bus driver pointed literally said oh shit bus driver stopped bus came back sitting took flip phone my parents gave case something went wrong house couldnt home was hit stomach hit back tried defend myself parents asked phone got home said i lost it knew would happy didnt want tell situation bus almost birthday all get letter tell story didnt listen me deal situation bus  years until went high school everything fine august  dad got angry something idk wouldnt tell me said was jennymy stepmom apparently took offense pushed stairs every day trying trying make life hell saying lost homework we system could keep stuff made th grade failing finding coach done need answers crying sleep night wanna end cause family mom dad wont let mom take apartment miss her im pissed im depressed every emotion happy god end me edit mustered courage call redflag suggested keep journal go college plan press charges really want family family dads side family moms side exist bad influence drugs never kind person also heres info me  sophomohre held back homework dad hid autism spectrum aspergers syndrome info aspergers herehttpwwwwikipediaorgwikiaspergers_syndrome,1
think donei cannot continue like past two years indication cannot change either overwhelmed studies care little friends although know family kind would care mind leaving behind slept night long sleep least  hours day cannot remember last saw daylight would nice see sun one last time written things owe everyone brief explanation least decided method think done thank reading,1
im scared ill never find girl me girl ever like me ill pathetic lonely end days,0
struggle thoughts suicide frequently things keep going already posted help subs please take concerned please please know ill goes it woman love might commit suicide one things keeps hanging onto life,1
hey awesome peoples need attentionhello amazing people let start saying im actually suicidal influx unread posts people need attention please help first im asking help redflag watch know know else go guess im suicidal sense would kill myself see anytime soon phrase bluntly mind dieing way guess thought dieing saddens me like way see somebody else miss bus like watching show realising sad part actually so mean feeling sadness there like rd person feelingif thats thing strong probably supposed be redflag im sure actually try would  a lazy actually even move something  b regret decision instantly least day two im posting rdepression  feel like depression probably way probably fits criteria classifying such feel diffrently feeling indiffrent towards everything becouse dont extremely subtle sporadically isnt like thick veil heavy lazyness im anything feel like probably something cant bothered it something really feels like im spectating body stuff rather body moment want tell whoevers reading situation im feeling reason cant bothered actually type it despite falling loneliness guess want people respond maybe chat somebody seeing ive feeling way least  years intesity keeps growing think random uninspired cry help attempt stop spiral one day might overcome laziness make stupid irreversable decision without expectations im secretly keeping fingers crossed miracle attention im gonna grab bottle wait here refreshing page something happens,1
i hate how my body reacts to anxiety by making me ill this last year ha been horrible for me because of it i d say most of the time it s manageable but it s still so exhausting on an emotional and physical level usually it s the standard nausea puking headache whatever but this last three week i ve had a faux cold a in i don t actually have a cold during the part of the day i m stressed out i have horrible symptom but when i m home after school or on the weekend or if i skip because of anxiety said cold go away which is so bizarre to me because i ve had the extreme nausea diarrhea etc that come with anxiety but never sinus related i mean i end up having a terribly runny nose or having hot flash to nothing when i m able to get away from stress the other day i literally had symptom of an ear infection supposedly stress worsens your immune system and i already have allergy so this is probably how that s happening but it s just awful i want to lay down and rest for a few day a if it wa a real cold but i don t need it of course i need to figure out how to settle the emotional stress somehow but i think it s just me being anxious because it s end of the grading session typing this out gave me a headache lmao i hate all of this,1
im cuddling gf rn im happy im listening favorite music sleeping chest awesome feeling,0
im afraid everythings gonna get worsethings sort looking like theyll get better im afraid everythings gonna get worse things get worse somehow know do know ill able go living im dealing lot different kinds feelings right now complicated,1
So excited about her upcoming birthday. I even dreamed about sushi last night! ,0
felt sad days thats good nevermind time consume unhealthy amounts sugar,0
film entertaining fun quality film film cleverly follows guidelines book tries stick exact lines actors suitable would expect part use famous actors give great effect film graphics bit dodgy parts quite mistakes throughout film thing yellow spotted lizard example camp gruesome explained book tend show goings camp much book group mentioned lot book film overall great film rainy afternoon,0
ive thinking redflag moreive really suicidal twice life well sort of first time planned told someone anything second time told then girlfriend suicidal belonged hospital ended happening thought put detox instead alcoholism lately thoughts coming back im rehab sober three months still there lately ive even thinking would include redflag note like formatting it know would it sucks much feel like tonight im going door it always lingers mind brought psychiatrist today told thoughts returning extent it pretty much said start going outside shit blah blah like said want tell therapist rehab case manager afraid send higher level care want sent somewhere like hospital whatever job trying start new life here maybe stress getting me like things start going bad mind goes could kill myself everything end worry it also worry sometimes think want it attempt it attention makes feel like piece shit even worse starts circle making think even more taking medication every night like should alcohol fuck man wrong me know normal thinking would like dead im sorry ramble need fucking tell somebody started get point think lot everyday thanks reading,1
"@Beverleyknight I'm fine, thank you.  Keep being beautiful always. ",0
"@AlyssaMD never too late to try again. my mom bought me a guitar, so i had to learn to play it back then. talk abt forcing u  off to bed!",0
songs listen die finally od happy songs make smile slow peaceful songs suicide depression songs use last moments listen something new different people say did interesting although admittedly kind stupid question,1
might downvoted hell truly care anymore also struggle mental health probably suffers lesser extenthe expressed multiple times want get help despite repeatedly asking to always says selfdeprecating shit like worthless friends hurts feelings friend best it is exhaustingi met old classmates seen awhile felt like weight lifted head worry triggering anyone said listen hate themselves realized lot times conversations depressed friend sucked fucking soul meyesterday respond online messages wanted keep happy feeling little longer today woke saying wanted kll lamenting hard get things necessary want scream fucking inconsiderate might trigger me nice feeling riding plummeted stuck worrying hell make till tomorrow wish tell find another person lay problems to wish tell things says bums out say least wish tell around makes feel worse kind friend would bethese things probably hurt feelings maybe drive edge would never ever want do sick it sick tired sick depressed suicidal friend,1
Was out yesterday and had his first driving lesson on bike ,0
whats something made cry helped realize kind patheticive pussy crybaby life think realized pretty much worthless regards cried piss poor video game mindset definitely something like wow cant even win dumb game even incompetent thought first time actually dropped tear realized pretty much lmao you,1
popular radio storyteller gabriel onerobin williamsscraggy speaking hushedhypnotic tones becomes acquainted friends fourteenyearold boy wisconsin named pete logandrory culkinwho written book detailing sexual abuse parents bootpete aids compels gabriel stillsince partner jessbobby cannavalegoodhappens survivor hiv himself br br he also acquaints petes guardiana woman named donnatoni collettebrilliantand gabriel decides wants meet talk two person goes wisconsinhe discovers secrets wasnaturallynot prepared findbr br based real events happened armistead maupinwho cowrote screenplay terry andersonand directed patrick stetnerthis film moves lot faster minmaybe minutes longerthan one might think movie genre would run thats good keeps action storyline lean clear bad leaves various holes plot sewup plot openings backstory id rather go great detail except say thatif familiar mrmaupins works personal storyyou feel little bit loop here stillthe performances williams wouldve loved heard narrationpersonallycollettecannavaleculkin much supporting castthe waitress restaurant colletes donna frequents great job small part hasare topnotch mood established herenamelythe chillylonely dark exteriors wisconsin new yorkgive terrific framing story may ends tie together particularly wellbut still compelling enough story stick with,0
work all day. homework all night. just one more day ,0
im scaredthrowaway account obvious reasons ive depressed since march causes revolving door problems ive open school church family roommates girlfriend it school tried help much me roommate helped tremendously best friend girlfriend ive moved back home semester far away them depression led struggle classes point may failing fail though parents basically turn back me feelings inadequacy anxiety future plagued mind nonstop ive semisuicidal thoughts whole time girlfriend knew them she roommate best friend as well religious convictions enough keep now seemed like thoughts going away end semester drew closer parents freaked possibility failing fail ill  debt job degree family willing help me ill proven much failure ive always thought was honestly cant see reason keep going cant even see could wanted to scares that first time life actually started researching ways commit act started developing preferences decided it would want clean so one clean huge mess want family ones find body first im terrified thoughts even come mind thing keeping thought never seeing love life one last time,1
keep bottling emotionsi fucking hate fact men cant actually express feelings except anger happiness want friends feel know try change subject feel extremely uncomfortable god forbid man says insecurities admit crying weak manly shit like ups male redflag rate seems like know one seems care want tell friend im suicidal want scare push away me keep bottling emotions cant fucking take keep over kill l least want know cant bring even say word redflag around know accept part brain still telling bad things happen tell him know say without coming across weak know fucking all,1
 years old ending miserable existence monthjust tired it hate coexist people hate seeing people alive walking around me hate ugly unable least get laid hate literally everything existence wouldnt bad could least stay room  never acknowledge another humans existence obviously cant that redflag next best choice obviously say anything fake nice anything attempting dissuade this fake hell meaningful hate all perhaps indifferent towards me indifferent sense someone seeing garbage street is view unsightly problem anyways hope miserable lives miserable own peace out eat shit,1
I love baby seals ,0
never thought id b alone christmasits kinda setting inthat kid isnt methat husband left mewtf supposed now,1
see pointlife seems pointless know one day ill die shitty pathetic death matter lived happy successful life sat room alone everyday die ill gone memory life eventually people life die forget too feel like im sitting around waiting die wasting space would rather get now talked anyone want seem like im trying get attention dramatic actually idea im posting here im sure theres lots people need help im wasting everyones time like always,1
film partly thriller partly publicservice announcement seeing events perspectives politicians terrorists course victims smart drama lessons given contamination surviving chaos meantime backstage look way crisis managed prompts viewers distrust guardians scared assailants film originally aired bbc gets arouse effectively doubts official prepareparedness performances proper understated though never terrific flick beginning provocative start leading larger discussion gets work opinion giving right thrills causing audience reason ask questions,0
Exam tomorrow so I'll go to school even though I'm a bit sick physically aswell as I have my depression (I will be off as fast as I'm done with the exam so that's probably earlier than usually) Please wish me good luck tomorrow friends!!,1
want trump president ok without trump world would go war biden wins china see usa president dementia go war taiwan cause rd world war one attack nato member means attack member china see weak president focus people military hitler thought president weak go war also thats kaiser wilhelm rd thought guess democracy causes war one war republicans power ton wars democrats power hope change mind,0
get another lockdown swear god take lifeit like strength built emotionally cope first lockdown nothing  feel like freak scared virus seems one else know scared corona virus am ive told people getting sick asking telling people fears virus  feel like people understand blimmin hard lockdown us mental illnesses,1
fuck me c f sunny dressed black swedish ass cant handle much heat holy fuck guess ill die then haha,0
whats fastest way kill myselfim fucking done everything give fastest way out literally contemplating either dosing putting plastic bag head sleep jumping bridge tonight im  life worth living anymore dont see living past  seeing couple years now,1
i m m and i have been single my whole life because my anxiety around girl a a young kid up till now i have always had this anxiety towards girl i like and this fear ha stopped me from pursuing girl also i get anxious in crowd or party which i try to avoid at all cost when i go any place where there are a lot of girl like the gym i get really anxious if cute girl are around me i always hope none of them talk to me because i will get anxious and it may show it always feel like i m battling myself to look normal and not anxious to minimize my anxiety i avoid eye contact with any girl i would say i m a handsome guy and i have been told that all my life by several people i m also confident in myself for the most part i think but despite that i still have this anxiety towards girl and the thing is i know the way to cure this is to start talking to girl but the fear is too much for me it ha got to the point were i m starting to accept that i may be single for the rest of my life another thing is my parent always ask me if i m gay they always say how am i handsome and don t get girl i always tell them it because i have anxiety but they still don t understand this just needed to vent thanks for reading,1
want throw upidk feel sick stress summer didnt english homework depressed anything caught subjects missed didnt english read book rn im right mind correct work tommorow want tell mum let stay home tomorrow catch dont tell teacher didnt finish half day tomorrow idk shoot myself feel like im going crazy idk cant this want everything disappear,1
need borrow someones life bit wont long daysor months idk,0
moment eveningive suicidal thought almost two years evening thought finances felt like giving up truck broke last week way repairing it make much money live check check theres public transportation here shit credit since divorce department education took taxes student loans mother  still lives addiction father makes enough live thats it one help life shit sometimes thanks listening,1
bro im gonna work mum scared tell stop playing video games also get ladies hits two birds one stone,0
@chrissyvalentyn That doesn't mean that many people don't treat their dysphoria by transitioning. They do. Depression is a mental illness & people find ways to function around it. Other conditions too. People can function very well even if there are some parts of their life they struggle with  :),1
everybodys favorite pastime im looking friends decided id give place try ive heard suspected pedophiles here yall kindly fuck off im  male open minded accepting everyone like fishing hiking writing playing music live streaming much much more anybody looking friends someone chat with feel free message me thanks reading post hope see soon,0
is playing basketball today lol i wan na go to the pub,0
"#africa #tech It doesn't matter where you live, what your gender is, or how old you are—sliding into a pair of running shoes may be your best first step to warding off depression.An international team of researchers from Kings College in London came …  https://ift.tt/2qYemo7 ",1
i can t do shit at this point i m spending all of my time desperately trying to find somebody who would be slightly interested in me i m really only living off my hope and scrap of imaginary satisfaction thinking that one person might be liking me for example i m so done living like this why should my biggest need also be the least satisfiable what do i do with my life,1
"@greggrunberg   hey greg, must be fun to have that &quot;PUSH/PULL&quot; thing going on.  we nearly lost the buttons ?  ok gotta go...   ttfn ",0
"@slycbiskut way too much rain down here, and gettin' colder, but nothing like you guys get ",0
cant convince go buy gun next weekyou know im honestly amazed quickly average days turn shit ones today honestly took  hours time waking time wanted make noose closet day work too thats best part brain loves hit hurts knows weakest points are ill honest though online dating absolutely reason fucking put bullet cranium hell depression online dating one same let know im ugly undesirable boring waste space time cyst societys face made even worse today finally got match one dating app poor girl realize sad fucker matched with know part gets really old too match used yay new person talk to alright lets see badly gonna fucking sting really exhausting beating time well made that pat back luckily live states getting handgun pretty simple honestly need get gun pass basic tests drop couple hundred dollars mean life honestly point feels like im addicted gambling ive lost basically everything mind tell play one handgame win everything back odds stacked whos say im gonna make way back im boring stupid lame scrawny ugly interesting paint drying im everyday wasting earths oxygen course though second paragraph makes sound like incel mean im know everything fault always is blame problems shoulder blame others to fuck selfless guess haha also see therapist week half ill honest think im gonna make it really feel like im gonna run luck then even go her im never bad mood hard honest also mind even mention word redflag shell drop everything cops come throw psych ward although honestly id actually prefer would really drive home point im broken worthless piece shit person anyways im probably gonna spend day touching redflag note today probably thing right im sure ill find way fuck too,1
hang method self harm rather pleasureive struggled feelings depression anxiety since child even  would withhold eating sick would dry heave despite parents always providing meals trying force eat  years old would intentionally start fights order beat kids up quickly put stop parents one else take anger graduated cutting  breaking things  couldnt handle frustration thoughts self hate would cause destroy items loved whenever didnt work wanted moment im incredibly sensitive keep feelings inside friends acquaintances idea violent side me mid s ive learned destroy things instead take frustration hanging everything goes white disconnected action didnt even realize reason neck would burn bathed bruises irritation ropes viewed hangings attempting redflag chickening recently realized form self harm get sexual gratification it past  years ive done approximately  times know better ways relieve stress none provide instant numbness job well done feeling bad habits do,1
wish parents would forget could disappearwhy born burdensome world feels pointless working studying get better job later on end working more feel selfish ive known people thatve gone worse struggles yet im one wants disappear feel selfish parents worked incredibly hard hopes successful career good life disappear would waste time money love parents getting older happen pass away really think would reason continue living anyone else feel same,1
awful day thought could talk mother told need get itseriously cant even fcking express im feeling without getting response like that exactly issues opening people irl hate complain time people emotionally distant cold allowed raise kids im sick try expecting different im also sick people telling shouldnt call bitch shes mother fcking bitch really shouldve done us favour abortion,1
really feel like killing myselfi dont even know reasons valid im insane really wanna kill myself shit life feels like ive totally enough keep adding best leave cos theres way escape,1
mind might racing bit kinda know whats wrong right now know make time take get fixedi depression anxiety im currently go trials medications trying figure works best taking one x going pretty well felt pretty good still much energy sleep off nurse practioners suggestion decided try another medication p thinking hey get even better plan p would like x would give get go coming x preparation start p mgx mg started going withdrawals felt really depressed crushing amounts unreasonable guilt body got adjusted mg x added first mg p feel good at one point wanted get hospital also period starting x feel good either tried power it increased dosage im mgx mgp the mgx case p work out feel terrible sleep  hours wake afternoon feel exhausted  suddenly get energy  stay  morning motivation chores feel tired depressed day right past midnight feeling makes want punch everything fun might sound theres doubt mind p causing this monday morning see nurse practitioner again cancel p then long take come shake withdrawals go back mgx felt bad withdrawals x how feel going withdrawals medication already makes feel like shit long deal it know expect ill get it think might get emergency bag packed might go hospital medication sorted im evened again however long be,1
@kevincully Make sure you don't take the fun out of fundamentals. ,0
aw shit go creating scenarios head girl like never happen  im trying sleep brain please stop,0
many people rude mean internet social medias see people bullying harassing interests even username ampxb cant people understand real life person behind posts sad im honest,0
my dog is in my room snoring,0
the only thing that's there for me 24/7 is my depression,1
im sure classes take high school im still undecided whether take honors classes not one hand like subjects honors class available but could lot work bunch clubs want join things want do also know ill sad feel like im missing taking one classes im considering summer classes since might help take honors chem also anyone know taking ap human geo im sure understand finding location impacts people right teach things like phones made cobalt impacts miners much reading writing do,0
"@damienmulley sorry , real link here : http://bit.ly/OKQVw   ( oups  )",0
"I'm awake, but not for long! Mondays are my Saturday. Hubby has to work today though, so I got up to make his lunch ",0
@spr33 Is'nt that a bit wrong though - pretending you want to leave? What deal did you get? I'm listening LOL  You with VM also?,0
@daniesq I know you're always up early but why the weekend? ,0
hellobebe i also send some update in plurk but i upload photo on twitter you didnt see any of my update on plurk zero,0
last day earthtoday day reddit im going finish today written letters everyone needed say something to ive written well im set ive got planned out im waiting till boyfriend leaves go tonight broke saturday says well never get back together ill never find anyone else ex probably doesnt want back friendsbasically one else im completely alone world id rather exist all released album had well one listening one ever does im trying decide spend last day maybe ill go park get good last meal somewhere anyone bothers read this ill post im tonight im going try enjoy last day earth,1
hey look guy commented rickroll link post someones dog heart attack oh wait realized fucked deleted acc,0
im eating oranges thats wanted share yall,0
loved show remember ever loving anything did starting americanization emily town sheriff keeps trying steal town blind ride mexico gotta love it like everything tongue cheek flavor brands garner product james plays character lots shows movies somehow never gets stalebr br ps re killing main characterbr br if remember right good brother killed replaced evil twin effort increase ratings ie make like every western tv time think show far ahead time still miss it tv without jimmy g show missing something,0
spoke veterans crisis hotlinewhen younger thought redflag quite lot point life decided going zombie living now thats say moments happiness things fun  decided would live life despite really feeling like point all recently someone base committed redflag reason got thinking lot think might it thoughts passed point return capable same decided last night talk redflag hotline veterans person spoke kept referring helpless hopeless thoughts feelings  ive seen sentiment many posts here feel things amazing life feel like horrible one either see point anything best way explain it paraphrase monologue beginning movie the art getting by since dawn recorded history something like  billion human beings born world single one made it  billion people planet roughly  million die every year  million people comes  per day read quote kid live alone die alone everything else illusion used keep night die alone so supposed spend life working sweating struggling illusion amount friends girl assignments conjugating pluperfect determining square root hypotenuse gonna help avoid fate anyone else problem wanting commit redflag hardships struggles honestly point living,1
"is chillin out, hangin w/ friends. ",0
much tell counselorredflag basically always mind years something ive thought long remember really taken seriously ive never gone far making attempt go cycles basically ok hating everyone everything world wanting alive barely able stand around humans hate idea counseling ive decided try job right offers free sessions requires around people like  hours day feel really bad people mess me get mean cry more really embarrassing extends wanting die phase need know much ok tell counselor admit suicidal thoughts fantasies concerned might initiate kind intervention life safe say specific plans family finding worst fear,1
pretty much always depressed like since could remember little always little sad never extreme got older every day gets harder harder teen online schooled whenever get bed if all getting work done last thing mind terrible brain fog trouble processing everything around me room messy barely walk it dirty like gross anything everything scattered across floor tired take care cannot even hold conversation without getting angry medication actually helps quite bit clue would like without it try find therapist whenever go like temporarily trick thinking fine completely refuse go many friends going college energy maintain long distance friendship make new ones falling behind every aspect life try make systems help wish could someone come put pieces back together resume life lost ambition know anymore anyone know do life mess,1
wish rapunzel girlfriend dont valentine,0
goodnight everyone heres something made happy today first time year able visit parents graves cemetery placed waitlist due pandemic scheduled visit today drove there feel relieved feeling guilty long able visit them miss lot trip gave lot solace even sometimes want live myself im going try live them goodnight everyone lt,0
wish live howl right literally heart,0
nacho fries tacobell good theyre best advertised product planet ive never them good,0
Hahahahaha.  O feeeeel ya. And then I gave it up. No more depression. Funny how that worked.  Brother no judgement just the facts. <Emoji: Smiling face with halo><Emoji: Smiling face with halo><Emoji: Smiling face with halo>  https://twitter.com/KingDivine315/status/989239728640811008 …,1
scene sally field whoopi goldberg go mall revive sallys flagging spirits enough reason alone enjoy movie wait theres more crackling good sendup daytime tv movie stars way down and up horrors love robert downey jr shows lighter side genius cathy moriarty splendid dialogue witty physical humor done consummate skill movie appeal really enjoy arts acting directing writing,0
helpi lost job covid situation didnt enough capital put lt business money run out ive sold stocks dont penny name bank balance  job k debt th january ive got  worth direct debits pay way so debt increasing day please please please give ideas get money up feel trapped,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
i am not a fan of sleeping alone baby boo,0
two dogs litter died sunday  dog litter five puppies  weeks ago abd healthy happy suddenly one got ill threw diorreah collapsed lying floor hours died  hours two others became ill symptoms although one collapse recovered he fine first puppy get ill died three hours getting ill one died lasted  hours sad heartbreaking see struggling life floor unblinking expressionless eyes buried made graves minecraft world rip peanut puzzle,0
guys isnt cool coincidental born planet thats far away enough sun us burn also far away dont freeze  living environment generally speaking perfect reason places humans made way  access exact resources need survive like food water fresh air  coincidence exist another planet,0
know one decision could fill one sense calm yet drown one absolute exhaustion turbulence gone will quite mysteriousto worry dont need least another week felt would share odd feeling right now,1
finally got ltc license carry cardhey guys lurker year never thought open am often think redflag couple years way expect sense depression loss hope rather fear living without pride im doorman luxury apartment boston hate it im happy subjection vain gluttonous wealthy asswipes one complaint jeopardize job cant stand powerless disposable machine bust ass dickhead boss get paid less im worth im saying im happy saying good times many things happy things considered realize could seen ungratefulness narcissism rather choose fulfillment purpose longevity life live life fullest want best others im feel significant tweekers constantly get high wasting away streets feel like shit whats point ampxb owe try fail become stagnate theres point existing all went gun store purchased revolver safe put room took police exam bout  weeks ago losing weight getting toned trying increase skillset getting  one way other lets hope best,1
is back at work although i wish i wa back in bed,0
im happy got money back still lost close  hey heres hoping next seller find doesnt turn con artist,0
kinda sad one talked today like orientation job today kinda exciting sucks cause havent heard friends girlfriend feeling alone,0
 yet hands n feet small sucks bruh hate small hands feet,0
must go onim average teenager average life get straight grades school im pretty gotten everything ive ever asked parents for im ever really boastful this ask much anyone help people every chance get yet feel empty one close friend but know seeing someone mental help years feel sort bipolar disorder want escape never positive thought myself ive never really felt anything numbly going motions life considering oding soon feel like id shaming family im waste ugh sorry anyone read giant waste time,1
so about day ago i started sh again and i cut to deep i waited a week till i went to the hospital by then it wa to late to get stitch but the doctor said i should have got them my best friend knew i went to the doctor and she told me i didn t need stitch she accused me of lying and doesn t believe me she act like she s a doctor and always act like she s right,1
 minutes later got message saying downstairs annie friends predrinking came down asked long said whole time annie already downstairs asked let know everyone downstairs already instead leaving room replied dont worry it big deal said seemed weird dint think tell nearly half hour rolled eyes said oh start decided worth getting annoyed bring again,0
i just finished it a few minute ago i got it from the local pubic library after waiting for it for several week i think it make for something very motivational and might be helpful to lessen depression too i won t give away the ending and don t stop listening until after the library if you re getting board once you get that far you ll continue,1
the intruder lintrus visual pilgrimage mysterious life br br grizzled michel subor plays louis trebor like jason bourne old man hidden past living simply isolated hut woods justifiably paranoid reasons but attracting pretty young women useful him learn dreams flashbacks journey may unfold chronologically not well brusque interactions family lovers business associates striking nemesis like the limey film resonates parentchild regrets suspicious past revealed clips old film actor young man here paul ggauffs  adventure film le refluxbr br in complete contrast moods meet son sidney grgoire colin sexiest house husband world sweetly seductively household repairs cares baby toddler every need working wife surely directorcowriter claire denis must created womans fantasy ever one lesson filmmakers filming foreplay theres additional extended scene seeks father woods carefully carrying angelic baby pouch everything father every relationship father incapable sustaining wonder thinks father a lunatic spent rest film dread something bad would happen true nature heart alienated father gradually played eyesbr br the film puzzle subor ruthlessly fascinating watch traverse countries negotiate nefarious deals voiceover narration deniss beau travail annoying anyway figure skylines incidental signage traveling geneva korea south pacific time passing indicated seasons changing scars created healing lots images water cleansing distancing br br continuing fascination morphing colonialism globalization well playing bit stereotypes mysterious orient russian criminals denis incorporated elements robert louis stevenson paul gauguin marlon brandos tahiti idylls page memoir french philosopher jeanluc nancy last title hearttransplant plot used ironic theme limited immortality consequencesbr br while louis thinks hes succeeded boundaries rules morals amusement last act locals quite know try help solve quixotic odyssey even lies isolationbr br several people audience left frustration elliptical strikingly beautiful story telling method unconventional narrative raise lot plot questions details,0
reach climax jerk it cant cum ok im  yo guy want know,0
need talk someone  ill talk first person dm,0
@nickayre Yeah. ,0
todayso stayed home work two days yesterday smoked weed slept today slept couldnt stop thinking redflag plan finally go outside sheet tie tree pole jump would easy final ive suicidal almost  years attempts nothing needing hospitalization stop ever stop side sucks wonder would done  years ago would peace kinda hard tell believe life,1
whats favorite fruit id probably go watermelon lychee tbh favourite fruit,0
first time messaging think looks weird added crush snapchat days ago liked  years little crush since september last year feelings became stronger crush quite big really talk school best friend almost like wingman talk time get involved conversations never speak us two anyway click page message her first time messaging im feeling bit nervous do write message chat bar screenshot debate whether send looking back idea this going debate could done completely different way might think thats bad oh is snapchat first thing see clicks name antony screenshotted chat thought cant leave thats awkward ill send message send hey got good netflix recommendations sent i screenshot notification appeared page  thought unbelievable thing say that deleted message completely forgetting appears deleted message appears freak again send accidentally screenshot sent message sorry  left chat last thing noticed even added sent messages receive adds back adds assuming get back school  weeks shell get hit that tdlr accidentally screenshot sent message crush shows screenshot panic send message delete sounded weird realised also shows delete chat send final message realise even added friend anyone help me,0
grandmother hella homo phobic filler filler filler,0
im planning redflagi wanna die want pain end ive planning killing killing things get better soon maybe things get worse cant handle anymore im still planning it ive googling redflag methods writing redflag notes family members important people still think could get better im gonna,1
im angry myselfid never kill myself think keep getting mad telling get with get angry want end all ive self harming years really kicked notch last months ive gotten point cut everyday tonight sat knife wrist ten minutes trying psych opting cut elsewhere ive done everyday last week im starting worry might actually get courage it want die sometimes just know appeals me ive got great life family loves dog id never leave still keep seeing want it started cutting teenager years even thinking months time last year august decided lose weight i  lbs really great christmas family came visit completely fell wagon since ive trying get back wagon lose weight i got lbs christmas cant get mindset before started cutting frustrated frustration makes want kill myself hate myself hate body im angry want kill myself im weak lazy cant lose fucking weight hate it hate feeling way im fucking sick want keep waking up,1
passiveaggressive email teacher hi friends so aunt decided best way motivate homework claim ive lied school claim ive missed almost online classes i havent claim dad love schoolwork haste aggression sent following email teacher gthi ms gt gtcan please confirm class pm aunt believes doesnt think im lying skip online class gt gtalso missed classes far cant remember aunt seems think knows schedule better  gt gtthanks gt gt rebeltrueflame fortunately teacher took well confirmed indeed change time class   aunt still believe thats alright  hope teacher got good laugh passiveaggressive email bye   rebel,0
want make life productive every second people obsessed making everything productive every second relax bit play nintendo ds,0
working too need a break too,0
normalize femdom people gotta normalize bc gotta get dom gf mean um mean judging people opinions bad yes,0
dear google ads fuck me semi virgin eyes,0
literally staying alive one thing onlythe reason im still dog cant leave her much want every single day feel like owe stick around take care her god guarantee someone would love take care way do id gone instant,1
find her mom rly annoying i need to detox and do an h o day my skin is shitting,0
heres cool story  stepped nail whatever english ever since ive tip inside foot everytime take step stings,0
belong worldi never begin withim tired ive actively passively suicidal since   years young thinking taking out want end violent disturbing life was growing up want one find me somewhere forests montana lake colorado always wanted move think thats ill find sort peace love nature ive ever loved anything entire life want surrounded die want given back earth put stupid box thrown ground gift come earth would bring last bit peace able give back it im sorry cant shit more,1
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i miss my ex soo much,0
im back sub againit takes much get rut one word or none someone back bottom,1
"actual picture of my anxiety, depression, and ocd when i'm in the middle of finals  pic.twitter.com/Vg5VZqfSCJ",1
really know who im living fi wish someone go love support family hates me theyre incapable asking whats wrong offering help support blame everything hold grudges nothing burden them care concern im want careerwise know ill ever get there years years trying complete poverty im tired it guy thought related thought liked ghosted me fifth rejection accepted alone nothing holding here anyone loves me even myself covid especially life sad sit home school work day,1
got caught beating meat bruh shit gonna awkward idk dad gonna pissed smh days ive done without getting caught today do,0
hello guys hands cold im literally freezig u hencjs okay heloo anyone wanna talk im bored,0
im  im suicidaluh hi im  im suicidal really point dont care life mean care th grade so like  cousin commented redflag maybe month later uncle same mom really fucked sorry swearing um well bad drug problem older sister basically mom grandma dad left  keep coming back start shit like would say siblings worthless didnt matter uncle died couple days birthday birthday spent funeralalso siblings mom step dad lived grandma grandpas parents would always fight like boom  fighting  pm fighting times got physical dont like talking summer th grade began cut weird liked it hated pain soon dull blade like blacked different person went awhile till sister found told mom finally stoped month  went on christmas great grandma died like second mom like loved much funeral saw corpseit wierd kinda expected wake know didntumm couple months ago moved biological dad mom tried kill front kept screaming wants brother my uncle wierd guess dad cool guess doesnt exactly accept trans ftm honestly dont give shit living want die birds sister honestly anti depressants working think death okay guess thanks reading suppose,1
today finally xpost askredditwas browsing new saw this wondering anyone could help her sure say please comment original post here thank you httpwwwredditcomraskredditcommentssnytoday_finally,1
itll start getting warmer next week lets fucking goooooooooooo,0
hear people always say gets better never does like ever things may okayish brief moment right back way always been like meant happy something people talk something look forward to scared look forward anything last want piece happy pie always going like this,1
sitting car random parking lot thinking driving head traffic right nowim ashamed go hospital put redflag watch dumb shit fucking stupid doea look um yeah im contemplating killing myself yeah im really bad spot feel likw id get weird fucking look um ok ill end fucking pissed feeling looking dumb regretting going,1
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hate people try get girlfriends sub like bro going get one anyway girls age  dms open,0
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yes people make lgbt whole personality annoying im ngl funny thing lot time theyre type people think patriotism stupid cant chose born well cant choose sexuality either lol mean problem people going pride parades etc admit people constantly mention fact theyre lgbt reason annoying lol,0
living overratedsometimes feel like people trying scam staying alive good greater good always say thing life wonderful course bad sides good sides make worthwhile etc thing is already know that like hate life think miserable feel like im ready move next journey im done living hard feelings before whenever used get suicidal thoughts id always really dark place recently everything seems clear me ive begun plan death couple years time hopefully join  club try settle debts get sort insurance make whole thing look like accident family wont burdened im gone dont really feel anything this task like planning vacation like know sure take life one day need work complications limiting time give strong sense control life living aimlessly knowing youre gonna die ultimate reassurance,1
title overstates content movie somewhat might lead unrealized expectations frankly speaking theres little panic streets seen here fact throughout movie people actually know theres murderer loose may well spreading plague everyone anyone encounters said that well done story level suspense starts reasonably high anyway because unlike people in streets viewer knows whats going on director elia kazan builds deliberately plagueinfected killer sought one interesting sidebars found developing relationship dr reed richard widmark police captain warren paul douglas beginning two really like other even though work together end theyve forged real bond respect other kazan good job thatbr br pretty much performances excellent widmark douglas great quite taken early look jack palance playing would become typical heavy role found little criticize here perhaps barbara bel geddes came across little bit flat reeds wife nancy role really central story all excellent piece work ,0
So ready to play. ,0
feel like failuremy mom afraid me says doesnt know act me mom loss you shouldnt die friends coworkers would hate job died dont relationship dont kids dont siblings dont family whod miss me dog mom reminds me takes better care do im sorry cant let go anger im sorry im happy life cant bring care enough fix it hate job hate life like years last breakup yes need quit stupid give idea ever fix things idea gets things im scared death happen give up im sick told im spoiled im brat im sorry dad passing suddenly made deal this im sorry cant fake pretend everything ok step dad used heaven forbid moms daily life change cant say anything do starts crying blaming me wish one died instead dad everyone would happier seems,1
"http://twitpic.com/6blx4 - First picture of baby squirrel, she's all shy but SO sweet ",0
care life anymorei never asked born stay importantly want stay,1
camhs experiencetoday first assessment camhs child adolescent mental health services officially diagnosed severe depression really want break confidentiality tell parents redflag attempt thoughts really want trust parents would understanding im absolutely terrified theyll call parents let know before do im  legally cant tell without breaking consent right dont quite understand works,1
"@NorthEastBunny I live in East London, quite close to the Olympic site ",0
"45. I had mild depression in 2014 and no one even noticed, including myself. Only in 2015 when I looked back did I realise<Emoji: Purple heart>",1
Woken up from two hours of fever dreams to find that my post is back and I have a phone message from an awesome girl ,0
wanting dead years waiting wanting good moments change bad do amount amount good change bad matter hard try better even seem better matter time revert back monster seems lll always be pushing boulder hill matter close get top rolls back down wish would finally end good dying hard like everything else,1
the first episode saw lost made think thought people crashed get chased giant monster like that far thatbecause monster every episode see lost  well getting better every time deserted island underground bunker especially connection people crossed paths crashed thats real secretbr br this series rules cant wait know whats really going hope air last  episodes theatersthis series deserves  ,0
hate thisi really wish friends thinking killing would less hard bad others cant stop wanting die right mind keeps comparing friend sexually harrased one current friends ive avoiding her deserve that memories keep coming back wish could fucking slit throat make stop,1
@loweryc send some over the Atlantic please ,0
Cycled to the pub along the canal. Having a chilli jacket with a lovely view of the waterfront   http://twitpic.com/692ih,0
@aymanelhattab plz check ur direct msgs' inbox ,0
extremely entertaining mids western packs whole lot minute running time viewers quickly get drawn story find experience quite enjoyable bwestern really epic budget modest cast affordable despite several big names glenn ford box office draw time edward g robinson barbara stanwyck past primes looking work stanwyck  years away new popularity the big valley brian keith dianne foster starting outbr br ford plays john parrish small rancher decides sell sympathetic sheriff murdered big ranchers robinson hired gunman parrish former confederate officer moved west health reasons br br robinson plays lee wilkison already owns valley intends acquire rest making good promise wife martha stanwyck lee crippled land war fought  years earlier brother cole keith come texas help run huge spread lee turning blind eye obvious hookups stanwyck keith sensitive daughter judith foster understandably upset going home br br john parrish promised fiance caroline may winn move back east caroline modeled grace kellys high noon character breaks engagement first sign trouble simply disappears film leaves way open john judith romance develop br br the violence starts early continues throughout film parrish able apply military tactics enemy underestimates ability determination original confrontation main gunfighter midway film ford plays one standard characters modest guy disarms everyone self deprecating manner slow take offense brutal finally provoked very much like role the sheepman br br robinson likewise excellent man maintains personal integrity even though physically shadow former self gets enough lines screen time adequately develop character br br stanwyck difficult role simply convincing classic twofaced woman seemingly loyal wife scheming replace husband brother part allocated enough time anything superficially convey either side character said talented actress could done much better job even limitationsbr br dianne foster pleasant surprise remind viewers lot carroll baker physically acting style although required play judith according s convention she allowed tough required break hysterics major confrontation foster shows nice range conveys growing attraction parrish subtly retrospect various clues click place br br the real problem the violent men tries action western character study morality play much happen screen much action rushed many characters get cursory treatment neither fatal flaw reason avoid film could significantly better another  minutes running time absence unnecessary characters like carolinebr br then again know im child,0
what do I want for lunch? Maybe Pancakes ,0
i m year old i don t really want to get into it much so i ll just say that life is not good and hasn t really ever been that good and lately it feel like i ve finally been pushed over the edge a bit i look like i ve aged year in and my nerve are going crazy i feel so stressed out that i can feel my face getting hot and my hand shake whenever something raise my stress above the baseline even a little i never feel like i can relax anymore and i have a hard time talking to people this doesn t feel sudden it feel more like something that s been gradually getting worse for year but i used to be very composed and social i want to get help for this but i m honestly clueless i don t even know if i have anxiety or if it s something else i don t have a family doctor either i m just not sure what to expect i m open to medicine if it work how did everyone here begin to get help and what wa it that helped you,1
everyday provides new reasoni truly wake days hope something positive happen value little things go way green lights positive conversations daily fantastic peoplepositive feedback email job million reasons overcome sadness fear pretty good fighter put game face many sad events life lately feel like money always pain me lucky many ways but cannot find anything wake anymore strongest remaining family member rock deteriorating rapid rate cannot deal again here need go job underpaid appreciated do need dental work cost much even top notch dental insurance need continue hanging thread need idiot changed jobs many years great company love wrong place wrong time kinda like days good fit pays bills everyday easier justify life cruel,1
what feel like life worth livingfuck everything got rejected another medical school spend years studying getting good gpa for spending thousands dollars applications countless hours dedicated extra curriculars amounted failure whats fucking point turn top soil use world unemployable skill set mom horribly financially forced move social housing cant handle change failure letting around too point fucking point,1
@Tori_Thompson I got invited to a rd of golf this afternoon with sales dept from work. Damn I hate golf. Have more fun driving carts ,0
@Bipolarstrong_ Together we can fight. I suffer with depression and am constantly reminded that I'm not good enough. Continue to be strong we are here for you.,1
my biggest wish is for my family to allow me to end it all i want them to understand the pain and suffering i m going through the constant daily battle that make it so hard to live i want them to be prepared i just want to disappear from life and hurt the least amount of people,1
want outim done trying happy tried consoling many medications ive lost track ive tried losing weight exercising ive tried talking it hahahha funniest advice could talk it im blue face end day change anything still think killing every day seems like need come terms fact never happy family really tired trying help blame them last couple years told fine medication working cured ive pretty much lost control life friends thats exaggeration cant remember last time talked someone sleep day today slept  hours doctors appointment refill medication overslept arrived  minutes late see even though usually sit waiting room  mins anyway maybe im cynical actually seemed pretty happy telling missed appointment like somehow getting medication reward deserve it told it really important arrive time refill controlled substances next opening appointment week doctor told there withdraw effects medication fine days went drop application apply major college hour late closed today deadline hahah probably thinking emotional really bad day thats going kill myself wrong feel anything maybe slightly happy might finally get courage motivation finally end life since cant take medication normal right dreams basically crushed get major probably drop next year wake  pm feel something right like angry myself sad cant even bring cry pretty scary knowing literally cant bring care anything anymore guess sign need go guess stop bye,1
"can u believe i never went bowling.. i'm more of a football girl anyway, but i think imma give it a try later on ",0
wtf kissing booth  coming next year like bruhhhhh second one came,0
time leave worldanother update recent depression spree girlfriend officially left me longer loves me going me parents told today leaving weekend decided kill gone choosing charcoal inhalation way go out think anyone stop feel free ask questions fortunate update thanks inspiring words guys go although one night ex called tears sadness sat bathroom almost ended it got it friends last night even though cant talk problems due pride able ignore problems good amount weekend thank again,1
accidentally flipped mom riding bike neighborhood yesterday almost home im turning corner near apartment car behind honks me lot people area cant drive shit people honk aggressivelyshare road assholes tried hit cars bike lane anyways glanced behind thought driver another one freaks held hand kept pedaling car followed alley leads apt driver honked bunch times got pretty mad turned head put middle finger them car sped passed me rolled window andsurprise surprise mom,0
im so tired of work i need a life,0
im sending friends donuts birthday tell live e l l e,0
death sounds goodi lot happened past  years worst watching  year old boy get half crushed car lay dying stared directly eyes kept saying help couldnt anything watched life drain rulers length away ever since something changed feel like could kill pretty easily also feel could kill others contemplated decapitating family members every day past  years cried happy even got angry inevitably kill one day im pretty sure im psychopath haha seriousness life boring looking forward level   c,1
pogba ran out hair dye and suddenly remembers that he is a football player now he is playing the depression card doing what twitter feminist doe best,1
oh god theres nothijg awkward hearing mom say shed bang zac effron,0
Weekend with the 151 girls in Baltimore  ,0
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Doing sketchy things. Love my life ,0
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watch home dvd bluray sure great sound system musical score moves movie watched movie several times thought great upgrading home theater sound system difference watching movie many many timesbr br if great sound system find friend watch therebr br also watch extra stories behind scenes extras come the br dvd interview quimet s talks scholarship fundbut times boys got it today hope goes girls,0
one funniest movies ever seen know real world people shows movie top notch never seen real world still think extremely funny movie get inside jokes actors tv show,0
hello guys today I'm very happy ,0
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adapted sam shepards play movie retains many playlike elements relatively fixed setting a roadside s motel southwest extensive intriguing dialogues woman may hounded man eddie played sam shepard tries hide outoftheway motel finds her film explores history relationship mainly childhoods led point easy feel sympathy characters understand dysfunctional present relationship result past events control mainly watch fight make up fight make on one image stands mind eddie hauling may shoulder kicking screaming taking somewhere want gobr br the soundtrack also perfect soulful country vocals lesser known artist sandy rogers country doll voice almost yodels points album kind movie stay lodged part brainsoul words go see it,0
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prison cellfour prisonerscarrerea young company director accused fraud year old transsexual process transformation daisya  yearold mentally challenged idiot savant lassallea  yearold intellectual murdered wifebehind stone slab cellmysteriously pulled loosethey discovered bookthe diary former prisonerdanverswho occupied cell beginning centurythe diary contains magic formulas supposedly enable prisoners escapemalefique one creepiest intelligent horror films seen yearthe film grimyshadowy feel influenced works hp lovecraftwhich makes creepy unsettling atmospherethere fair amount gore involved imaginative brutal death scenes characters four prisoners surprisingly welldevelopedits shame eric valette made truly horrible remake one missed call stunning debut ,0
yesterday taught tie noosethats all sobbed couldnt work it know feel calmer control future,1
life constant embarrassmenteverywhere people laugh me im fucking joke everyone enjoy everything try do end embarrassing myself literally everything try fail fail fail make joke myself like fucking curse something literally took walk outside  minutes ago somehow managed make brother father laugh scared bug come home father yells scared every day things everyone laughs suffer darkness unknown everyone im ugly dumb stupid loser good nothing good nothing theres use anyone telling me oh say good this good that know bullshit wouldve killed  didnt shitty dream comic book artist ive matured know pointless everything is even become comic book artist what doubt anyone care knowing life ill find way embarrass again im used point expect it body pathetic worthless done shit except let down im limited pathetic useless body idea anymore tbh even know kill myself many things happened many damn things idk bear pain live boring lonely embarrassing life end here clue whats next im going wait get college made good decision redflag looking hot rn,1
theres demon theremy demons taking know go on know man like theres something wanting dead know stop til die im already good dead theyve called pegged everything im not might well end it,1
deltawgmi for my depression,1
i will be 0 then and most probably still lonely af what even is the point i make a shit ton of money at work have hobby but still can t find someone else to share the life with it s pointless what am i even struggling for much better to just fuckin off myself,1
unsuccessful overdose attempti dont know right place post this im starting get little concerned health line number tells go emergency asap soon hear intentional od sunday night attempted redflag ingesting g straight paracetamol well minimum mg temazepam  hours later took g paracetamol dizzy nauseous exhausted yesterday monday today tuesday ive developed temperature well still feeling unwell want make sure ill okay see psychiatrist tomorrow afternoon thank you,1
story wishing well sam im sam wishing well call aristotle sam how get name wishing well i say thats name said call want that sam throws penny sam i wish wishing well i want grass greener sam hey wish something threw penny wishing well who wishing well you,0
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finished the house work now  now need to find that smoke lol,0
hs girls really like older guys actually date one admire teen heartthrob like harry styles makes sense know typical  year old guy girls seem totally others matter age wondering common people think,0
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"@markshaw Hello Mark, I quite like the name tweetstyle  #tlifestyle Carolyn",0
im scaredthe last couple months girlfriends cutting gotten worse tells wants kill herself getting worse every day feels like matter tell try best comfort isnt getting better tells shes scared one day might actually moment caught emotions might something shell regret pretty bad anxiety depression something cant relate understand well people try love best her dont want end life single decision isnt thinking through dont know help even help tells im reason live stresses dont know anything working want help get this,1
think im going end life todaytoday day think cant take anymore week lost one true love adoptive family three best friends second home   molested cousin  raped girl school  physically mentally abused father last year sexually assaulted raped another girl yet none felt worse this start happened week girlfriend interested threesome girl whom one best friends love  years though never felt same convinced her grew attached protective her friends hung stayed us second home trying thing her knowing uncomfortable made us response decision decided make girlfriend would stop succeeded us wanted us again neither us kind feelings towards her neither us could break like that think much it constant problem one us would get upset angry thinking intentionally giving person attention other one night one two friends years older  stayed house got intoxicated sat couch talked one morning trying get girlfriends third person dump best friend user meth addict sees people ways get sex it makes sense least three girls come saying raped them tried raping them also tried forcing onto school one point using best friend age consent sex house stay homeless days ago tried telling love girlfriend said one believed me calling liar saying wanted start things kicked house night walked home rain  miles dark them one friend want said audacity tell love around supposedly call bitch say hate her wish dead never said wished things breaks heart even thinking it believed night thought trying start problems everyone left me asked would me responded threats harming me killing me afterwards went told adoptive mother who diagnosed  heart diseases problems allowed back wanted start problems handle stress anyways agreed to never able see adoptive mother dies likely lost one true love love care anything else lost adoptive father uncle aunt brothers sister nephew best friends user want stop using people think handle this im sorry post complete shitfest cant think breathe cease crying thoughts pointing killing right now,1
cant submit big civics assignment due fifteen minutes wifi keeps going crazy ever since like  last night ive tryna submit it wifi keeps going fully uploads im actually getting pissed off wont even able attend class wifi,0
ready goi want kill self seriously dont give fuck anymore im  ive spent whole life forcing shit happy always same friends go dont care see anymore force take new things hoping ill find answer push limits comfort zone hoping meet new people fleeting bull shit genuine lasting connections death seems like best option dad says need strong selfless stick around family dont care dont want live feeling like shit  tried fucking hard always get shit on wanted find somebody loves understands older get realize thats bull shit try try really fucking hard never works countless attempts know soul never dont kill self ill end alone parents eventually die itll married siblings kids spinning wheels like fucking loser shitty fucking loser get with,1
everything worsti want live anymore want fall asleep never wake,1
first time getting ghosted talking one girl alright guess never fought anything good friends guess one day went best friends house told messaging lot want ruin day note birthday got back started messaging got left read idk wrong feel like nice mean without realizing anything maybe felt awkward respond messages all feel really sad cant get head rn idk do know sound like big thing keep mind really liked girl ghosts without explanation,0
would pay spend time talking actual human hell id pay hug point,0
fadyanwar it sad cause that wa the last gsm company owned by egyptian also orascom wa inforced to sell it share to fc,0
 hear texted girl like hello,0
read unordinary webtoon so would like request sign petition article links try get unordinary made anime would also helpful would repost andor share link love unordinary really hope get enough buzz become anime link httpsrecenthighlightscomunordinaryanimereleasedate,0
Just ate a bowl of Apple Jacks and I'm ready to go back to work. Yes 31yo and still love those red and green O's. ,0
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i want to kill myself but i dont want to die i got my result and i barely passed when my dad get to know he s gon na hit me im really scared i tried my best i really did but i cant focus i dont want to die please tell me to kill myself,1
@tacobell what taco do you recommend to stop my crippling depression,1
mum get second parenti  planting seeds nieces dad ill take bus school next academic year literally said dad memy mum slapped ass today a joke called demon past called ugly past wants take sisters daughter school several miles car studying university final yeari one tried change schools one emailing council one hourlong meetings appeal niece one called council give shit help niece thenand now that take schoolwhat point living feel like run away home pay university accommodation something  times  never responsibilitywhy why why want end,1
one likes meall life ive felt like one likes me work school personal life im always one appreciated like people dont hate dont like either little something would passed completely unseen another coworker me big deal im unlikable im nice always try best everyone reason one likes me im one,1
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Depression is kickin in. Goodnight nobody.,1
someone please please help get eveningi cant deal cycle bipolar disorder anymore coping mechanisms completely shot please talk me edit  im going go sit bath bit ill check back soon  thanks pming talking me really helping love community,1
im tired tryingfuck this im sick always fucking bad guy genuinely feel like make every effort everything right im easy target people take shit me cant ever person people want fuck it god damn even fucking try long anyway always knew gonna happen im sick people world worth apart,1
"@AnnSterling I like Saturday, u can remember Friday and still look forward to Sunday ",0
@perpetualspiral I LOVE pb &amp; banana sandwiches!! Still a fav of mine ,0
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once libertas get 0 seats i'll be happy  #eu09,0
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my girlfriend ha suffered some serious trauma in the past and suffers from pretty serious anxiety and sometimes depression now she also ha a problem where when she go out with friend she always black out and then feel very anxious and depressed for multiple day after she blacked out again last night after assuring me she wouldn t even drink and now say that sometimes she doesn t know if i m real or if she s real i just don t know how to handle this a it s become a huge burden on our relationship and i m especially concerned now that she mentioned these symptom of depersonalization,1
my dad call me immature when i have anxiety attack he swears and scream at my mom point at me and hovers over me when he yell and threatens to beat me if i don t somehow cure my mental illness i needed real help for a real problem and he sent me to a pseudoscientific hypnotherapist just because his friend went there i need help that doesn t make me a baby,1
movie great good enjoyable one feels like indie film made play script morgan freeman basically plays himself although director swears script written him small irony actor goes supermarket research film committed yet mean actually made film end watching br br i found dialogue bit notredflag taste refreshing nonetheless film inspires viewer take look lives choose direction go bit much emphasis appearance ask mebr br bottom line nice little film made two weeks basically two actors extras dialogue driven makes morgan freeman look good ,0
cant anymoreim really sure right place dont really know else put this im feeling like would easier end instead burden friends fact im feeling like this dont know ask help point im afraid tell feel anyway despite fact things reasonably okay life still feel sad time know people life say things like well cheer sad im looking that therapy expensive think way easier,1
Off work  spending the night at the cousins,0
lived wish didnti hospitalized short term crisis residential thing distractions life long enough every time remember pain hits like fucking freight train im sent back exact place always find myself fucking dead shouldve fucking died cant live like anymore cant handle myself dont want deal shit life one big cruel joke,1
wonderful gritty war film focuses inner torment blinded marine al schmid although tough unpleasant end heroic  schmids triumph disability depression battle scene superb one bone pick matter many  bullets fired never saw water dirt kicked impacts hurt realism live it fine performance eleanor parker again girl friend,0
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cusp dreams coming true band got label support place girlfriend dog thought one thing another would fix it least day whether one intrusive thought flying like easily swatted away mosquito consuming mist do it there know stop it know forever many people absolutely fucked know tying live stake usefulness backfire one day today tomorrow might one day know could live  make  know anymore needed type out perfect paper thought go away,1
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i have no trauma or especially horrible experience it took me yr to even admit to myself that i m most likely depressed i thought that i would write down my feeling but my mind resonated that to writing a suicide not i m proud of myself for stopping when i realised that it made me feel worse i feel lonely i have friend who i trust care for and can talk to yet it s impossible for me to tell them about any of my true feeling because even i cant understand what s going on in my head i feel guilty for thinking that one of the main reason for my behaviour is my family they have always emotionally neglected me treated me a the dumb kid invalidated any feeling i expressed and my mother is physically and verbally abusive i barely share thing with them and nowadays they ve started scolding me for telling them anything because apparently i m too pessimistic my sister seems to be using me i have always been there for her and listened to her when she needed while she is there for me if i need help with study and shit she never even make an attempt to listen to me because apparently that s a therapist duty and she isn t my therapist i can t cry i can barely feel thing at this point i m like a zombie my mental state usually deteriorates in the summer and summer is here i can sense the decline my only friend who i can physically meet and am comfortable sharing deeper detail about myself to seems to understandably freak out when it come to suicide related topic if it involves known example basically joke and stuff are fine but he seems to get a bit perplexed if i mildly hint at my suicidal nature this is just a rant i have a terrible tendency to bottle thing up in such a way that i forget about it i will probably feel better by the end of this day,1
strong urge go woods let nature way mei guess feel like deserve homeless work rely others support me reason absolute loneliness finishing life secluded deep woods somewhere appealing,1
hi i never went to counselor or therapist i don t know how to find decent counselor and what would be the cost hr cost what ever per session cost i stay in u colorado centennial this is for anxiety issue i know i can google and find but a i don t have any experience i am unable to judge the price etc i am looking for low price and good counselor thanks,1
would guys leave redflag noteleaving one note everyone really explain everything different people life different things would want say them ive thinking leaving several notes sending people letter last day,1
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txt chat with jake lmfao it frikkin awesome i miss this effin boy so much awww hoping you guy would come back here na xxxx,0
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what s dating relationship like for the rest of you more specifically i m curious what it s like for those of u who have partner do they make it easier or harder are they supportive patient understanding and partner of those struggling with depression i would love to hear from i am incredibly lucky to have a partner that is all of those thing yet sometimes that can make me feel so much worse i m a huge burden on him a huge worry every night he call every cut he cry for everytime i pitifully sob in his arm he cradle me and tell me it will be okay and yet he try to keep his shitty day to himself i feel like he s disconnected me from his emotion so i have one le thing to worry about but i want him to talk to me i often feel like i should break up with him to spare him from me i know he can do so much better but i promised i wouldn t make his choice for him and i meant it i love him too much to even see that a a real option often time he s the only person i talk to all day the only reason i take care of myself leave the house work for him i don t want to be a weight on his shoulder,1
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feel brokeni know guys lot people respond sorry add that know anymore past months especially last month contemplating redflag lot like last week almost even redflag note written problems lately feel broken like trying get job call backs failing class long term relationship over parents angry fairly recent college change recent add onto already bad mind set pushed even farther write makes feel selfish pretty easy life like worry lot things feel way people way worse want die feels like downward slope hope future also scared hurt ones love leaving know hurt time know made sense tell someone know going do,1
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anyone thought movie idea yet movie main character classy rich woman wears typical  clothing big dresses smokes long cigarettes things like that hates low class people around people likes low class shit pleasure know sounds weird sounds like something fun watch seeing lives secret life still trying hide high class people,0
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together  years turned  th entire life perfect would hold onto tell loves many plans future sudden reveals over said still loves me cannot make work confused want nothing love again says still does cannot make work worth another attempt know need work on three years it seriously know going stay alive one talk things like this option available hurts badly know going live strung along like,1
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know doive posted times before junior year high school want graduate go community college first hopefully transfer better university year im honors couple ap courses extreme anxiety get sleep school  days reason want go school calls house twice day asking am really done school work year  bs classes except physics american studies supposed  page research paper break anything late work accepted also egg drop project started finished absence school got c i think physics first quarter likely f quarter ends next wednesday american studies got first quarter f quarter midterms  grade start next thursday emailed guidance counselor today asking meet tomorrow first period emailed back want try switch regular physics class save credit also want change ap american studies regular american lit us history know affect grades possible anymore also going retake gym next symmester absent many times lost credit class im really sure hard get community college without honors classes really shitty grades feel ashamed pathetic going school reason long afraid going back absent long get  credits per year go onto senior year humiliating would rather drop out cant get sleep want face physics teacher tomorrow i want try go school tomorrow severe anxiety whole life sick worry,1
see point livingi friends amp family distant im scared nothing ever change life ,1
fucking itim sitting here weapon next me three fucking dollars degree english job prospects gas food loan company took last food money bull fucking shit told pay month nobody love nobody hold me weed smoke im typing hard doubt fucking keyboard even last long enough talk so give fucking reason give fucking reason draw one breath fucking games bull shit tell me purpose going much pain crying breaking teeth stress bullied every motherfucker world semblance affluence fucking can why fuck even consider plunging mu throat right fuck now,1
love hurtsi dunno scared love scared love ive interested girl awhile went party recently every time talked said shes way league throughout night chatted chattedbut noticed started flirt first brushed friendly thought genuine confused scared go antisocial type person every time complemented id laugh smile ill walk away conversations tried start toward end night disappeared someone else pretty comfortable end night dont know mad situation myselfive trying month meet first start year guy question also took another love interest mine last yearive replaying night since thinking wish could change it reason wrote friends moving love lifes mines depressing lonely ive consoled always going alone companion reacting would always say ill never able talk anyone really scared loved scared love,1
confusedive dealing fluctuating moods past month get really depressed straight after im really happy nowhere feeling comes back straight after dont reason depressed  amazing family supportive boyfriend great friends im really confused thats happening mind dont understand worst part past week moments felt suicidal wanted end all im scared eventually ill get stage wont scary anymore ill something hurt everyone around me dont know im looking writting this maybe someone else similar experiences could tell cope it,1
going<Emoji: Airplane>early depression hours,1
want diehi reddit two days ago discharged army decline mental health hospitalized twice self mutilation failed redflag attempt two battle buddies found hanging bathroom post wish found me im angry desire live anymore want therapy want drugs want anything preventing dying want slip away feel completely lost,1
can't wait to see @ashleybrooke121 's eyebrows *cough* I mean hair  ILY hun XD,0
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contemplating redflag lately struggling reasons iti trans woman likely never able afford gcs relationship someone keeps demonstrating want caregiver instead partner doubt ever happy love despite this explicitly stated would hurt self left even could bring leave could love aging ugly trans woman cant afford complete lost feel like choices life miserable glorified caregiver helpless manchild spinster freak ill miserable alone hard see reason keep going feel hopeless,1
@YourRockerChic Me too!  ,0
hey think movie great great graphics vary glad used final fantasy  think game best ever played anyways great movie loved itthey make another one maybe ether use final fantasy  final fantasy  pretty awesome fromtyler sheena hope email back details another one people anyone else reading suggest see movie animated looks pretty realistic got awesome fighting scenes see fast fighting movie long time game final fantasy  also really great good graphics really fun challenging,0
think witnessed teacher mental breakdown school got quarantined made masks optional everyone got sick already home choice teacher calls us tears eyes using text chat kid playing drums morning bad headache starts eating betty crocker icing nearly crying cat jumps starts spoonfeeding icing uffudjdjdjdfjdndjdjfnfjvjfjf forgot teachers people,0
wore normal cloths first  months maybe geeting better,0
making preparations whats stopping itgod want die badly barely make plans think future im fucking sick shit pain im in cant transition theres one gender clinic country even open ages theres hundreds people list moving cant afford anywhere near amount money would cost transition privately cant take living body much longer problem seriously cant face preparations id want make go need sort stuff get rid things want anyone else finding tidy up write will etc ironically im depressed that wish could escape hell,1
lmao get fun one groups online friends talk politics im ancap one nazi one commie one muslim theocrat one libertarian socialist one unironic nazbol one classical marxist actually hilarious rare occasions happens,0
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"@dylanlscott depression - oh sorry, that's one of the five stages of something else relevant",1
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"@Trollcats my apologies,patience is indeed a virtue im lacking. but im also lacking entetainment which ur cats provide, so on with it pls ",0
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actively lifefuck want get betteri want swim want float want meds numb make stream better want sink want chokes want fucking die family keeps saying need me want here forced keeping swimming want to live everyone swimming stay afloat life want sink,1
celycarmo i m sorry i don t understand your last comment,0
tiredi tired tired feeling miserable time tired failing everything do tired feeling lonely tired procrastinating tired crying i tired living thought redflag last year know do enjoy many parts life hate lot others im  want die responsibilites live normal life pathetic spent summer playing games online think school instantly become depressed need s struggle even get s tell family i change next year end procrastinating studying want end good job working me parents want go university think can skipped studying drivers license  years know do really want talk someone embarrassed ask parents think adhd embarrassed ask parents speaking psychiatrist dont know do please help,1
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@MikeStuchbery_  https://m.youtube.com/watch?feature=youtu.be&v=DQUgd9GQtoQ … this was excellent talk on depression.  <Emoji: Moyai>,1
reminder check bros today hi guys wanted post reminder check bros and grils today boys men less likely reach fellow peers theyre struggling depression issues friends may even going rough patch dont know about theyre afraid admit it important reach instead make sure theyre heard cared for go ahead send text bros especially ones noticeably struggling today mean entire world ,0
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welp goodbye earth last night aliveidk im posting this im depressed suicidal finally mustered courage it fun ill wait bit see responses p,1
hi all i m currently living through a nightmare situation and my anxiety is going through the roof i need some advice but mostly support me and my partner took a short trip to rome after a trip to england where i attended my sister s wedding we re both from the u and flew quite far i have a massive fear of flying but having my partner there to hold my hand helped a lot we were supposed to go back to the u today but were surprised at the airport when we were told we needed a negative covid test along with our vaccination card we ran downstairs to get tested and mine came back positive while hers came back negative the italian government required that i came with them and quarantine for seven day in a hotel my partner wasn t allowed to come we had to separate and she went on a different plane back home because there wa no reason to stay in rome for a ton of money when she wasn t allowed to see me at all i wa taken away in a van with dude in hazmat suit and placed in this quarantine hotel by myself the hotel isn t bad they give me plenty of food and water and it s free luckily for me to stay here but i can not stop cry i ve been here for hour and i just can t stop i m so scared i don t know when i ll be out of here so i can t time the end of my quarantine with another plane going back home and i m so so so scared i ll have to get home on my own somehow in a foreign country where people don t speak english very fluently i m stuck in this one room for six more day if i don t calm down somehow i think i ll lose my mind i may try some yoga and watch a many video on my phone a i can but i have so much time to do nothing but stew in my anxiety and cry and cry and cry i want to go home i feel so sad advice would be helpful and support a well i have a lot of people looking out for me but i know no one in italy at the moment so i feel very much alone right now and in case anyone is wondering my covid symptom aren t bad at all only symptom is a runny nose what s troubling me most right now is my extreme anxiety and stress,1
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dont know works need helpim fourteen years old severely depressed since started puberty age  diagnosed ptsd severe depression anxiety last year teacher noticed crying nonstop days class couple months put zoloft made suicidal within next two weeks august im week half away starting freshman year dont know ill even make year let tell bit myself never met father dont even know mother knows is mother life god knows long wasis addict spoken year grandmother keeps contact her grandparents custody me live along brother aunt uncle three cousins dog own grandmother extremely abusive sick human being constantly belittles physically abuses me shes disgusting narcissist never anything well enough eyes never acts proud cares me scar stomach shes thrown car keys raging type shes done would typing hours groomed age   year old grandma find victim shames day constantly brings calls whore say doesnt expect anything again friends sixth grade lost every friend had people consider friends bully relentlessly mock weight personality mental illness hard make friends feel hopeless whenever talk people always get blatantly ignored im annoying im nice person really am similar personality sense humor kids age get anxious sometimes questioning sexuality gender identity years grandmother found multiple times verbally harassed sexual identity bisexual boyfriend hes friend person get along with means lot dont want hurt way hes sweet cares lot suicidal lately ive self harmed point draw much blood almost pass out dont know much take anymore feel hopeless nothing helped therapy pills healthy coping mechanisms want kill myself know im young dont see future cant survive next  years house hurts bad cry every single day dont know feel lost supposed now,1
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expect getting helpi know quite begin first reddit post lurker lol subreddit years apologize formatting shitty im  year old collage student norway if anyone knowledge specifically norwegianscandinavian health care ive thinking redflag now thought wanted hour ago figured starting write letter family im sure anymore would really like know expect health care system going institutionalized restrict computer use example pretty much enjoy anymore watching series nature documentaries playing computer games would hate lose opportunity that post suited rdepression anything please let know edit guess could give insight felt surprisingly good writing even though noone commented yet im attending collage away home planned writing letter today tomorrow deed sunday told parents would home summer ive anxious queasy day managing write friends family come loving home makes feelings confusing me parents siblings supported two years ago admitted depressed i downplayed though want watching every move case wanted act feelings feel really shitty living expectations me even stupid know would matter what really took bad turn failing couple collage classes got self know better im really lazy particularly depressed started giving shit dropping classes entire semesters im putting front telling family think want hear anyways turned rambling hard think clearly tears ill answer coherently specific questions,1
need someone convince relapse self harm rough night hard time relapsing six months,0
"@YTD_QF don't shut down please, just keep upgrading up up and up, flow smoothly and be happy ",0
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im done washing dishes mofos time reddit next  hrs till im bored,0
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i don t mean just dating wise either i ve been rejected by my family friend and pretty much everyone else last month though i went out with a girl for v day and started dating her and very recently she said she wasn t interested in me anymore and today i found out she wa already dating another person this is the second time in a row i ve been cheated on and my suicidal thought are going crazy now i just need to type this out to calm myself down i hate this i just want someone to truly love me for once whether friend or family it feel like my whole existence wa just a mistake my life suck and i just want to die right now fuck,1
life tried resist parents workim  parents planning long international family vacation want go depression kicking ass horrendous motion sickness gives anxiety think handle  hour flight also hard time private space usually meltdowns kinds vacations want go trip ive trying tell weeks never took seriously paid attention now first asked decided state demand stay home ive stayed home alone week long periods past before say stay home alone time decided cant use car rest life stay home leave door open security cameras pointed  tell love ive ruined parentchild relationship forever say priorities straight im school im training new job ive never done kinds rebellious things cancelled flight already apologize itll seem like im material gain already think im using money know going happen feels like cant fix it thing thats keeping going boyfriend barely im ready end all feels like concept freedom taken away me doubt theyll understand listen that ive said would kill multiple times past told shut up want die front prove im faking it,1
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deserve help savedi beat disabled exfiancee several times mild cerebral palsy may ill excuse behaviour im despicable bastard already knew long ago cant wrap head around could someone love feel like failure protected her hurt her truly believe deserve help support anyone much want back much love miss her made right choice dumping pathetic arse deserve without her theres part wants hate her good side cant fault hope happy guy hell never hurt her wish with,1
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wish method painless guaranteeddo guys think mixing lexapro wellbutrin alcohol would kill me  month supply mg lexapro  month supply mg wellbutrin took would kill me im really suffering want end im exhausted,1
im invisiblegranted im known many acquaintances zero friends often repeating called friends listen dont hear frankly give shit ive suffering bipolar disorder manic depression upwards  years told myseld could make past  yrs things would get better ive hospitalized recently september  staff basically said treat us monitor us stable meds fit leave family raised foster care system im completely alone see point living anymore im constantly mental agony ignored used every level ive taken care people thought friends much love give misguided usual end used thrown like tissue ignored blatantly cant keep job stability often rocked uncontrollable emotions outbursts cant cope anymore im losing hope honestly would like someone acknowledge alive sensitive real person even know curb feelings thoughts redflag closest friends growing passed either redflag excessive drug use im honestly debating path without im alone ever idk reddit place least im getting one outlet speak real feelings ive sought therapy psych meds seems like never want hear bad try silver lining struggles saying im strongim tired exhausted strong allowed vulnerable get real help rx bandaid work,1
@mynameislouie the 'today i am going for a picnic in the sun it will be nice' one and the two afterwards. Were really weird. :/ will do ,0
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want get help dont want make things worsetw trauma abuse neglect sh etc first part context feel free skip may important parts so living mom roommatewho obviously lot closer roommate loved torment me brainwashed manipulated mom believing would destroy life would tell he her daughter could live happily picture convinced im useless great job left alone home entire summer returning brief hour drop necessities returning back him point drop food literally nothing eat survived water tea moved month that september  really big fight broke thats first time ever told considering redflag called police hospitalized discharged went live aunt months later went live friend februaryish  back mom roommate time leading hospitalized another  times constant torment lots isolation relapsed old habits staying night sleeping day could avoid see himor her matter started self harming suicidal ideation got worse around everything horrible one night may three us really bad fight dont remember events leading it remember put chokehold kicked shoved onto tile floor head hitting first called police restraining order placed cps got involved thats found abuse neglect moms side removed care placed one aunts barely month hospitalized aunt thought mustve devils son self harming suicidal that went live dads best friendmy exstepmotherfor sake simplicity ill call anne here alright heres now ive annes care since june things gone relatively well ive still dealing depression anxiety suicidal ideation sh whole time felt comfortable opening while last time attempted redflag told pissed called selfish stupid ungrateful etc yelled time let go sleep felt like shit felt worse ever since relationship damaged im scared opening every time since ive told things im bothered ends lecture fight argument lately ive feeling lot suicidal usual much hard even think life without wanting stop existing gotten really bad know need tell someone im scared breaking point finds im still suicidal even tell her shell find im hospitalized someone tells it know exactly would happen likely pictures mind could say im much kick like everyone else could completely revoke privacy have andor trust would damaged ruined bond may had first outcome happens ill completely lost know ill living next two would really stressful deal helpful either way wish could tell whats happening wish would respond way would end well everyone id fine take hospital fact think would best issue worked past probably let happen reason worked past take seriously accept help getting feel like im contradicting making everything much worse wish like that feel really stuck right know go here help appreciated im sorry long post delete allowed,1
@rodjek Nothing leg warmers can't fix ,0
 movies hyped for godzilla vs kong without doubt im curious see films fellow teenagers excited for unsure whats coming year heres list list american films   wikipediahttpsenwikipediaorgwikilist_of_american_films_of_,0
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push people awayand keep hurting others kind life that hope rot early grave deserve absolutely nothing life everything receive blindly given people understand feel cant tell them know explain severity it one talk to even did work would push away im lowest scum earth someone please shoot me,1
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people born repulsivelookingif wasnt ugly probably wouldnt want die bad,1
why do people have to care about me im only alive because of my parent and some friend because they would be sad if i died life is bullshit,1
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"@brendaisarebel I think it's because the comm is moderated, so new posts go up when the mods have time to accept them ",0
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i finally have something to look forward to im starting a garden with my mom and she s putting me in charge of keeping all of the plant healthy im really looking forward to this and i hope this will help me slowly get better,1
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amazing year much say incredible comunity sadly idk reddit taught me life sucks anyway give arrows,0
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hard criticize anything mitzi kapture does radiates beauty grace screen phenomenal actress notwithstanding yes plot predictable think perhaps jill slept richard may made little crazier already was would added suspense would also nice see jill husband find richards little problem exwife maybe bit back story little disappointed ending movie would liked seen closure zacks death possibly closure husband say though never able look flare gun picture standing there fitting end richard course mitzi rocked looking forward future projects,0
im really confused right kinda need rant get chest get grades exams determine wether go college thursday many people stressed shit literally emotion towards them dont want get results means parents going send college  hours away thing im really shy reserved dont think ill able cope living dorm minute leave ill bombarded teenagers nobody know going tbf dont even know im interested course anymore worse thing havent applied anything else considering online course parents that much get irritated mentioned worry decide im wasting away slight chance social life right thought moving away stressful worst part im feeling mentally able cope right feel completely lost nothing makes truly happy ive aiming toward course many years right dont think lot interest it im confused fucking hate education system country has dont even know nobody talk dont understand try explain end argument,0
took lot whatever arms reach definitely whole new bottle mg strength ibuprofen along bottle tylenol unsure much lot benadryl oxycodone good news found passed bed hour later from last heard sounded normal taken hospital immediately max hour half passed treatment started doctors really saying actively counteracting medicine get worse gets better labs reflecting getting worse giving indication chances possible long term damage etc know fully come around anyone give real perspective realistic expectations best worst case scenarios please thank you brother overdosed last night,1
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might forced move schools got phone call home today behaviour imo isnt worst compared others mothers threatening move different school either different town different county altogether fuck life,0
Hopefully my roomies won't become obsessed with me and try to kill me like the one in the movie single white female did... ,0
theekween it help people who suffer from depression anxiety loss of loved one heartbreaking or have witness something traumatic thelmaherbs,1
education system would like start saying meant offend anyone needs addressed ampxb education system majorly fucked up frankly im done dealing it im sick part system care me mental health try explain adults life im stressed out life outside school work hit well teenager get it perfect teenager everyone loved you education changed  years school much stressful get lot work did stop trying tell im lazy normal stupid know nothing were talking about,0
helloim bit nervous post here normally hate drawing attention myself maybe help type people see group friends care family loves much love them yet still get feelings hurt inside things going great care world smallest thing set off give bad thoughts im sure stem insecurities brain makes scenarios nobody really likes me theyre pretending probably find annoying obnoxious cling people think care life would probably prefer hanging without me thoughts come mind gives anxiety get worried nothing start overthinking everything chest starts hurting subsides get really sad get suicidal thoughts like maybe would better someone much emotional baggage life know people life would terribly sad died im sure one biggest reasons done anything crazy thoughts head keep coming back driving bit crazy apologize sub posting in thank reading,1
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turn   weeks wish could say lived good life good life good person id give anything start cannot privileged brat thinks sob story think time stop wasting oxygen fucking stupid think feeling would never come back think it,1
@melodicdreamer i watched cb4 for about 5 mins ,0
ive really stressed unmotivated lately feel like cant anythingwhenever something mind wanna example study draw drop minutesso want know feel motivated study anything mind also stressed school also fact aunt covidso guys ways cope would appreciate ,0
every day reborn tragedyits tragic every time get go sleep since friday actual  hours sleep thats respite happiness ill ever get feel history past ive endured painful five six seven years road pain never stops remains gets worse time cant tell anyone this tell therapist well then locked up know am soul universe give flying fuck about constant torture day ever day nonstop rest life feels like im stabbed every second day insomnia course insomnia im always awake sleep good true sleep simply nearly good true catches unaware again real tragedy sleep time feel happiness bliss all wish brought point dished back out even more fucking equal amount pain brought me feel all want feel every last drop taste it understand go hell million times like have theres bouncing back ampxb theres bouncing back this put much psychological emotional mental turmoil agony cant even muster drop motivation even much move muscle anymore ruined life pray whatever divine piece complete youknowwhat dishes everything back onto enemies know karma real wish that limit forgiveness know heart wrong forgive brought lower lowest brought to hate heart neutralized see suffer suffered equally more no me same equal want see get this equal amount dished me,1
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WAITING TO LEAVE AND WATCHING WEDDING CRASHERS!! ,0
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god bet youre disappointed right nowive started selfharming again thought would never back here nope what  years naught cutting chest time round wish didnt stab myself wish could kid again nope gonna happen gonna feel childhood love ever again sound privileged mean really least good was it childhood god dont mean sound weird dont care cant held mothers arms again cant dad lift high shoulders narrate see blessed moments beginning lose sight ive lost ive started conceding reasons want die instead replacing selfloathing help,1
found obama isnt president anymore sad hit  followers twitter,0
ive never famous entire life started repost chain dude feel like celebrity,0
dont want moremy family hates me mean everyday always scream me hate much im ugly fat situating cant stand look mirror dont want anymore cant take it body would care left dont friends school friends never want hang ever respond texts hang out plans hang couple friends night never responded time gonna hang even though said could hang earlier dont like me nobody likes me im weird awkward parents mean hate much dont want anymore would better wouldnt weight shoulders,1
finally managed give diabetes years trying done decided smoke many cigarettes use much dip possibly everday hopefully give cancer could already worthless disgusting fucking monster sooner get cancer better joking slightest wish balls blow brains since everything everyday get closer death,1
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bad slowly getting tired everyone everything like want go away couple months maybe would appreciate things people around more pretty sure though them needing time awaysometimes imagine living remote area animals although realistic still imagine sometimes say animals mean like couple dogs raising chickens goats haha guess daydreaming sometimes apologize rant tired everything everyone,1
boxim already dead body caught fact yet  single joblesscareerless count friends people feel pity me one hand thousands dollars debt living shit hole apartment ugly  social skills wish someone would walk behind shoot back head im thinking joining military im afraid getting maimed killed cant kill willpower instead exist colorless limbo waiting die every second im alive literally feels like eternity suffering im fully aware cheesy sounds truth feel thousand years old,1
i ve struggled with anxiety and depression since i wa a teenager i m now so it s been about 0 year of dealing with my silly little brain i first started taking zoloft back in maybe 0 maybe before then but i took the pill for several year last september i started noticing an increase of suicidal thought this can happen with ssri i believe i think the zoloft just stopped working for my brain and body so i stopped cold turkey i didn t have any major issue please don t comment the risk i know what they are and i m doing okay now for a few month i wa fine i could feel my feeling again feel my emotion and it wa kinda nice i felt almost free but after awhile i think all of the zoloft build up left my body sound weird but hear me out and i started feeling a bad a i did when i wa a teen health anxiety er trip panic attack daily so even though i do badly wanted to try to make it without medication i couldn t do it and that is okay for about month i ve been on lexapro and it s been helping the anxiety here s the revelation i had so i have only been on one other ssri in my life so i never realized this but holy fuck i finally understand what people mean when they say that medication almost completely numbs your emotion i can t remember the last time i cried and i usually cry a lot a an emotional person i feel very neutral i don t feel nothing but i don t feel the way i did unmedicated i think there will always be pro and con to medication but damn i finally after a decade understand what this medication doe it help but it also kinda turn you into an emotionless machine weird,1
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Am I in a movie? This sure feels like it.... ,0
know anymorehonestly really know write this ive never spoken emotions guess wanted tell someone feel im m ive felt like killing now feel like im letting everyone meet family accomplished things mom dad high ranking military brother got prestigious nasa scholarship im shit school fail half classes take thing feel like deserve feel do born good family lot friends reason kill people around me feel like killed family friends would disappointed want people remember like that wish could sacrifice save someone give life someone needs it ive looked organ donation  know ill last long know ill point sorry long confusing writing mind thanks,1
fuck facing problems imma stand like watching everythin crumple around,0
i m sincerely done with this living my saving ha finally dried up i will soon lose my home my car and am unable to find work regardless i m just done i ve grown so tired of being tired,1
tried to fix hubby s computer it didn t come with disk and now window key won t work might have to buy it like we can afford that,0
ya know what think dumb hell guys cant cry girl cries nothing get oh ok guy deal moving halfway across us ton school work stuff cries man dude,0
"Awake now lol.  Chillen for a bit, then headed out to find a cousin to blaze wit. ",0
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drunken redflag attempt cant help stupid shouldve workedlol wondering blood obviously trying get river trying kill minus degrees im dummyyy lol kms,1
life going nowhere friends care me feel like nothing burden familyi lowest ive ever felt right now plans four different friends today one returned phone call text odd occurrence feel like im ignored forgotten soon leave room dropped college earlier year handle pressure classes depression live home tell parent disappointed know fix it times happy im distracted something like movie work food one source income minimum wage job feel noticed appreciated think future see nothing think im alone killing myself many people give two shits want feel way help me,1
please someone talk mei horribly depressed suicidal gay emotionally abusive father severe depression need someone talk to one please someone pm me talk me anythign please,1
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second viewing still wonderful romance is opinion much better film came paired dvd set leo mccarey weepie classic an affair remember yet seems fallen favour slightly only  rating imdb dismissed many critics gooey slush sad intelligent romantic drama good work two leads jennifer jones william holden anything film wellremembered gorgeous colour cinematography unforgettable musical score much like valentines day gave excuse watch movie again im glad it still think holdens character death heavily foreshadowed taking suspense final scenes film moving really enjoy it,0
live system servitude freedom propaganda prevalent ive probably made post like past care important word freedom word servitude definitions teenager truly wish adult looked eyes explained simple truth me adult im going explain whoever reading this definition servitudehttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom a condition one lacks liberty especially determine ones course action way life definition freedomhttpswwwmerriamwebstercomdictionaryfreedom the absence necessity coercion constraint choice action every human ever met lives capitalism taking part else this definition means system servitude opposite system freedom free choice im making argument im simply explaining words mean things definitions like it agree again argument like said wish teenager adult told truth never happened would helped lot know least someone grasp going able explain simple way instead truth was like many us lied economic propaganda victims propaganda never sat told no live free country likely lifetime really really wish someone would told that hate fact learn adult someone tells live free country accidentally lying you special country special less free anywhere else live system economic servitude north koreans someone tries convince live free country would take life advice them im saying treat poorly victims propaganda feel bad try educate attempt break spell let lies win let propaganda win tell truth tell kids truth tell many people young old truth know uncomfortable accept fact important many people know truth possible otherwise world continue way is care humanity know cant allow that,0
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reasons want diei hate myself burning desire destroy hate feel like useless waste space hope meaningful future incapable forming meaning bonds others marfans get worse age even stopped self destructive shit im still royally screwed cant even fully open psychologist without dissociating complete failure human finally im tired putting happy face entire world thinks im fine want end cant life find protective factors hold to,1
@tommcfly r u performing at Isle Of Wight on friday? x pl answer and i have no idea how the wight bit is spelt so like  x,0
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looking around liking itwell feel like end rope im  life horrible one spent half life homeless bouncing around foster homes broken family brothers homes grandparents cant stand site me father walked  feel like im empty shell walking around waiting die thought keeps popping head why take easy way out attempted task before told join military medical purposes one knows fact ashamed tell broken family lack motivation anything feel like wasting space burden family cant find job college take me life really lost meaning me sit around nothing chain smoke bad cant breath wake up smoke little miracle makes feel ok cancer runs family find hoping get cancer called friends deserted me feel alone want fall asleep never wake up least dream happy another thing makes want end it fact think gay want be find women sexually attractive urges thoughts tell wise want life cant stand much longer understand punished life fate disappear become nothing know else say get chest thank you,1
i feel like i didn t do a much a i should have done in term of content creation and getting myself out there during 0 9 and 0 0 i know there s obvious reason a to why i couldn t do some of this stuff in 0 0 but i sometimes get myself really down for not doing certain thing i could have done in that time on my own i try to comfort myself when i see others who did certain thing at my age but sometimes it not enough i really hate how i feel so disoriented with my age due to not feeling like i did enough what i wa supposed to i m thinking of trying to see if i can be prescribed anti depressant so i can feel le crappy about myself,1
i dont remember the first year of my life due to my father and his friend molesting me till mum finally managed to get away from him my earliest memory is drowning at the age of and having no one to care about me afterwards i wa just sent on my way at 0 i wa accused of beating my little brother when nobody wa looking mum refused to believe me even when he finally said it wa a kid at school that wa the first time i nearly killed myself life ha not gotten better my sister married another abuser my step dad lost the house and car and my mum is a neurotic mess who couldn t give a shit about me besides a her emergency atm i dont see why i should bother with life when this is all i have known it literally never get better i finally know how i will do it i have given myself week to see if i still want to do it and nothing ha changed my family probably wont know for a while nor care so this may be my only chance to say good bye life is just shit for some people i lost before i got a chance to start and i am fine with that now i suppose,1
im going end im scared tohello im  year old im freshmen ever sense th grade ive wanted die attempt bleach  rushed hospital ended living high school thoughts stronger ive told friends im never happy im probably gonna end dead turn suicidal joke one tries really hard hes really sweet sometimes feel like gives never seem get better worse thing gained feelings him feelings ive never anyone else im gay btw straight would never feel way ive accepted im accepting fact even giving think wont even impacted death think main reason im like mom verbally abused years telling im useless stupid never gonna anything im waste friends joke andor giving dont think anyone would even care died reason me mom right though cant even manage good school whenever try still fail also forces activities dont want do anyway wanted get chest ive wanted say tonight bye,1
teenager bad teenager bad say guess remember,0
ive seen posts bitching gender war whatever tf happening like bruh yall need stop lmao,0
depressive haze like year smoking much pot every single day great idea family member get cancer around beginning covid kind broke me going therapy taking meds neither happening anymore isolated old friends long even know would want hear me live parents unemployed let bedroom become huge mess  sure cockroach nest bed cannot believe let get bad ashamed tremendously bad,1
anyone need bodypillow also double matress,0
@PlayRadioPlay yay for coming back to Dallas  &amp; lolzzz at your last post.,0
devastated that the spiegeltent won t be coming to edinburgh festival this year http tinyurl com djh pr,0
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@SEGA Start with the Virtua Tennis 2009 - training top ,0
peace never option                        filler filler filler bored,0
search think funny printschi translation dirty whore shit ren iron otherwise ill cut cock,0
depressed person help another depressed person need help last weekend boyfriend lsd pappers od hysterical collapse became something else broke hole appartment took clothes started scream nonsense opened door ran hallway jumped rd floor window thought over fortunately fell nd floor roof suffered bruises hes ok now good possible find complicated situation clinically depressed bipolar attempted redflag before hes unemployed since february unhappy college point say him live alone brasil hope us here were trying move europe everythings hard him since father died strength move on even everything can unable keep long were psychiatric treatment even so enough im ask guys idea one habits adopt get it thank you  l,1
no reason in life,1
wanna shitpost post aint long enough,0
feel like horrible person hey everyone much things going lately making fragile which still lot one big thing happened made sad fragile friend knew childhood spent much time laughing fact big arshole  blames everything insults things like that cut every way communciations us still hits hard know someone knew  years fact worst turd world known made really sad still cry sometimes background  ive class  years including girl well call julia so ive class julia  years ive built relationship strong friend ive always struggled making friends especially getting bullied th grade even girls knew wanted go further so year ago told her good  said yes  im fuckng dumbass  afraid serious realtionship used really dumb excuse break her still hate that loved her big mistake made  month ago led hate myself breakdown today   month ago confessed still loved her excused dumbass bcs happened last year bit confident  changed class knew one could fall love  weeks  boi wrong dating guy asked like  days started dating so couldve possibly ruined relationship said something lines  yeah sorry op but im dating someone love you big blank as bestfriend ampxb oh ok well problem ill go one thats big deal boi wrong cnd time thought bcs relationships last years generaly lasted  weeks maybe still chance shell break someday fucking hate thinking that thought still chance girl clearly said no hoped shell break  think it disgust today snap story showed boyfriend huging dog saying my  babies lt feel like worst human turd things happened lately makes worst want anyone saying thats teenagers story get along  really feel bad need vent advices feel like worst human thoughts like this please help,0
handling news corona virusi really wonder worried possibility loved ones afflicted it something impacting strongly job also see news clear chinese government hiding way casualties letting transpire news media really depressing thing witness standing seeing unfold beyond eyes allied lack time socialize family really hitting hard allways suicidal thoughts time time seeing something lurks air breath people meet on scary fear me honestly fear others powerless anything standby witness plague spreads grasp everything anyone people know life hard stay safe sake sake love warm hug all,1
okay homophobic like lets imagine im homophobic bad yes why opinions,0
contemplating redflaghi im  year old boy struggeling severe depression im exam year school make decission ill rest life regarding carreer friends family keep asking want honestly cant awnser question im unsure ill even alive anyway redflag seems option eyes ,1
im sure feel again genuinely feel sad first time forever think genuinely loved girl hate taking granted wish never bruh wish wasnt fucked head im lonely sad depressed idk kinda wanna go know im done whatever put for idk man feel something,0
OhMyDamn!!! New Moon clip... OMFG!! ,0
"So instead of admitting that higher education is stressing students out to the point of depression, anxiety and crippling debt let's just mock the students hahaha"","" pressure's too much! Here's a safe space to cry!!!"""" And y'all asked me why I skipped college <Emoji: Face with rolling eyes>  https://twitter.com/ajackielarsen/status/988820882717003776 …",1
im kinda trapped antidepressants drug dependence dependence addiction different zoloft make addicted make high would describe wearing glasses world people decent vision live somewhat normally well  years line find better really need meds anymore try go without them never ever quit anti depressants cold turkey got weird intermittent feelings high almost brain electrocuted every  seconds eventually feeling intensify feels like explosions sparks inside skull emotions become really fucked anxiety becomes significantly unbearable become nastier everybody around almost paranoia like symptoms drug withdrawal expect take zoloft pill goes back normal crazy really thats whats fucked,0
@whoaitsjess Ah I love that songg ,0
seriously cant stand waking living shitty life anymorei guess people would call schizophrenia thats bad yeah  ive isolated geographically relationally point literally see anyone outside immediate family extreme perverted selfhatred myself every single aspect  hate it body mind  disgusting fucking skin bothers me wanna peel fucking skin experience couple moments outside flesh couple people care  messaged today literally  person replied supposed best friend straight told drugs even said anything problem  literally idea going on says im dope take care two people  one disability enough failed also useless piece shit comes them like still fucking hurts  wish programs redflag assistance want sloppy everyone see body get freaked out im tired pretending better really cant ive plenty chances ive failed every single time wish attention really do life one big fucking cringe people want nothing me it blame them fantasize quickly bullet would end noise  constant battle within head finally even realize dead honestly people always going see junked loser would rather high deal people talking shit,1
time tellone day ill it question it running mind whole life thing stopped how ways scare me seem entertaining difficult idk anymore honestly like talking people never felt like helped also never entertained complaining others burdening problems idk rope getting thin matter much much longer be,1
know not know why fucking hate myself fucking loser matter do kurt vonnegut said sometimes lucky tried hang pussied out really cannot wake thing tried make life better never worked out losing hand life guess cannot see way forward hey all,1
last week lifei feel noose tightening around neck business fail soon house foreclosed someone irs notice owe money ever have cant face mounting problems im paralyzed depression know ever enjoy anything life again better end stop burden ill also leave mom business partner k life insurance least cant wait mom booked mini vacation coming weekend want ruin her one last trip im done,1
hate myselfhey  reading like kill  im tired constantly fight  want fucking die die anyways die know  fucking hate ,1
like les amants du pontneuf two outsiders lives love story without concessions film consists lot interesting conversation lot sweet moments best one comes listening booth listen record together look other talk like other suggests change lives hope realistic stylestrokes realistic but emotive dialogs really mathematic screenwriters work film spanish novel director jesus ponce creates one perfect gallery latest year spanish cinema,0
tired depression one worst feelings lately knowing feel way often would much better person notice much holds back always picture would could would capable feel way time years life actually feel ok head felt clear wish back tired,1
shoutout guy kept spamming everyones emails school entertaining ur gods work bro,0
one needs anymorei dont friends im terrible job could easily replaced parents hate me died right would take least week someone notice suffer end pain now wouldnt hurting anyone anything id helping one would deal stupid problems anymore,1
life hello im  live singapore like many others used extroverted incident became wish would never happen me used talk lot well little much guess primary school sabotaged many times take innocence advantage accusations beating juniors stealing teachers wallet many more tried best say one discipline master resisted so got canned real bad  strokes then secondary school little know would disliked many sabotaged again hyped day orientation hyped still extroverted mind u lot friends secondary school thought way earlier year discipline master secondary school claimed sexually harrass classmate mine sensetive person am resisted much much point discipline master knew lying got canned again ever since then friends left alone social anxiety started increase bunch then comes today barely friends introverted education system putting much pressure knew life would like this could picked another secondary school friends always spread rumors me smoking sexual harrassment tried best ignore avail even try love something kept pulling down barely talk friends ever since social anxiety got bad led depression dont really know do cut myself watch gore listen death metal im sure im going insane normal teenagers do,0
@LeonBasin I have to remember you have probably been writing professionally longer than I have hehe ,0
wish could get baby sister forget memy siblings would fine newly  incredibly stressed god know dealt wanna age think reason gone woods revolver dad siblings would deal it mom would chalk bullshit im sure ive finished glass full rum hopefully sleep now goddamn wish could wake up almost closed tab instead posting fuck,1
know sucks vision become lot worse quarantine think look screens much literally blurry even doctor doesnt know yet last time checked  excellent vision sucks might get glasses soon liked beautiful crisp vision,0
set everything second attempt took everything downhi previously tried back november jumping  stories surviving fell tree brain damage thus lot trouble using left side body trouble walking lift left arm right shoulder more doctors say permanent damage left arm may never drink becoming alcoholic since brain much control alcohol before know im lucky damage could much worse still feel like fucked life girlfriend supportive me clearly loves me appreciate much real question is much take decides cant handle anymore ends relationship really think ill attempt redflag succeed time fear set note kitchen phone beside stove emit carbon monoxide indefinitely pilot light go reason maybe antidepressants anyways wanted let everybody know story im still here,1
"THATS NOT HOW DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY WORK, YOU CAN'T JUST THINK ABOUT SIMETHIBG ELSE AND MAKE IT GO AWAY.",1
"@AROD5005 Thank u for the well wishes in regards to my day at the beach. We had a great time, and I got  several shades darker ",0
i really wish i had not bought the camera le e that day when my 0 went dead i miss photographing little thing dslr is too bulky,0
not many people from my home town using irl connect,0
i don t quite remember the dream part of it wa strange like all dream the place and the people who were with me changed and i don t know exactly who they were a bit like all dream but i remember that at one point i came to my room i saw a girl reading one of my book i sat next to her i gave her a kiss and she told me that she loved me i ve been awake for hour and i m still holding back the urge to cry,1
out to play ,0
"Left my front door wide open, I don't care if it's almost 1am... I can feel the heat dissipating ",0
thought anywhere good movieit stars two wonderful actresses susan sarandon natlie portman heard movie together resist watching itoverall pretty enjoyable movieit moments felt tried hard also really overdone wornout material anything movie absolutely hatedi even liked used popup performance uncredited thora birch little happysad moments touching effectiveif want watch movie go ahead even though recommend it something avoid  rating seems unfair opinion,0
i am year old junior in college i have multiple problem that i need to address to start i have gotten carried away with smoking weed i have been using it almost everyday since i wa and i can no longer control it im always buying it when i can t always afford it i spend a good amount of my time at home smoking weed or using thc product i have also been drinking a lot more than i used to and i have even picked up a nicotine habit from my friend i am not doing a well in school a i should be and i really need to be more proactive and motivated but i feel no motivation some day to even do anything school related i havent been eating well a lot of day been eating a lot of fast food and skipping meal some day there are night where i barely get enough sleep because i end up staying up most of the night being on my phone watching tv or playing video game i have set goal for myself that i want to workout more build myself up and eat better but i never stick to them i feel very anxious and depressed a lot of the time with the only relief i have felt come from hanging out and talking with friend i have some really great friend that i am very close with and a wonderful family that would do anything for me but i can t help but feel alone i feel a great need for companionship and i have been trying to get into a relationship for a long time going from one person to the next but nothing ever becoming of it and we become stranger again it ha taken away a lot of my energy and exhausted my motivation and drive me further into my loneliness and add to my anxiety i have been on an emotional rollercoaster the past several month talking and going out with multiple girl not at the same time and it ending the same i just feel a void in my life some day and lately i have been spending a lot of time around friend to try and fill that void more than i usually do which could also contribute to me spending le time on school and a lot of other important thing i have barely been home in the past week because i wa with friend i feel completely empty and hopeless somedays and feel like my life is over i see others living their best life exciting thing happening having opportunity connection with others is just natural to them and just having a great time with life and then there s me who wish i could be that way but i know i am different than them and no one will ever see me like that i will always be by myself wherever i go and i used to be such a happy child excited for life not afraid to dream big and wonder about the future and just live in the moment but thing happened that turned me into what i am today i feel like a shell of who i could have been and that my younger self would be dissapointed in me i wish i could go back to when i wa about and not taken it for granted and go through life again with what i know now some day i really do not like the person i am turning into i do not thing that i am doing what s best for myself mentally physically and emotionally i feel like i m on a treadmill walking through life but not actually getting anywhere while watching everyone else pas me by i really need to break out of this mindset and change my life around if i am going to survive in this world and live the good and happy life that i always wanted and not a wasted life,1
manipulation tacticsim entirely sure im expecting get thisits probably pointless waste time maybe writing things like helpful maybe selfdefeating even know theres practical advice give me seeing im even willing share incredibly shallow perspective is hope take word it id rather go further people usually start sort thing ever ask why everyone hate me meaning sound calloused kind cliche wondering true anyways reason ask feel little place feeling opposite know people love me thats im always trying escape im insincere twofaced hypocritical socialdevelopment involved putting walls hardly tell whether im honest not think helps make manipulative realize manipulative best friend became drug addict killed himself knows maybe im trying manipulate relieving conscience enough kill myself id probably end stopping short redflag get sympathy attention others could feel better myself work take painkillers use cannabis back injury got working really drink much though friend died im also religious feel distant things value most doubts fear frustration pain im friendless ive lost sense community future hope thoughts eaten away conscience ive left feeling empty anxious afraid wanted feel better want happy again sucks things get much worse thought already bad realize bad times best times life memories cherish forever well forever long want remember anymore,1
feel safe anymoreive depression almost ten years however lately ever before ive wanted die ive thinking day thinking really heavily considering it ive locked room day overdose thought relief dying overcome every thought have never consuming seemed close me,1
okay im bored,0
grammys gramophone award replaced frogs,0
I'm 99% stupid jokes and 1% depression but only when you aren't looking,1
interesting day happened today unexpectedly got meet friend little bit campus texted saying saw went talked while though weve talking since high school got seen person around  months girl thought new girlfriend ended someone class working something together im debating upon whether tell thought cute since seemed cool little time actually around her obviously nothing happens either mutual start talking would get awkward ever meet friend campus too plus know wanna directly ask either since would kind weird thing ask idk do,0
one butt kills cigarette stop smoking ill steal lungs,0
@wallybarthman Was anyone with you when you went shopping? haha ,0
last tonight im donemy girlfriend broke second time two days ago actually happy last week once school fun well football changed gf meant world incredibly depressed since think im killing somewhere next week cant hold anymore ive going classes ive fighting mom dad last night actually cut wrists still red bleeding dont care anymore im soon again care try convince im wrong dont think can,1
these guy who is bill gate s associate make me feel like i know nothing i don t even know my name now,0
i wa always considered lazy by my friend and teacher growing up i never did the chore around the house or clean my room now im and i realise im just like my father he ha no friend he sleep all day except of when he is working he drink every night he never go out except of work and grocery he doesnt care about his appearance or hygiene my mom and sister always despised him and they have been mean to him because he doesnt do anything around the house and now they started treating me badly too my sister look at me with disgust they compare to my fater to insult me the truth is im extremly lazy i sometimes skip school because im too lazy to shower get up early in the morning and get dressed and all that stuff if i dont leave the house i dont even brush my teeth or shower my room is a mess and it doesnt really bother me that much it s just that im ashamed being disgusting doesnt bother me is that okay oh and i sit in bed all day i do study for school so i dont fail but i do it from my bed the thing is i am not lazy enough to eat i actually eat too much i do wish i would die sometimes but i think it is because i dont really enjoy anything except of being online all the time i am just too lazy to do anything else i dont know i might just be mentally lazy throwaway because i dont want anyone to see that on my main and thank you if u have read this far,1
honestly cant wait till trump office ten bucks says tries say system rigged big conspiracy system rigged him cant wait till politics taboo starts conflicts law requires sort qualifications become president besides age cause honestly cant another one him,0
Yo it has been weeks since regions and post pmea depression is drawing me to this account.,1
"@rupertbu grin and bear it, that's the sane policy. An attempt to train the mind to treat such souls compassionately may be more fruitful ",0
off to town forgot to charge my phone so don t think it will last all day,0
think many people familiar kind alternative phrase good descriptor fighting depression likefor me feels like matter much do never normal person normal feelings nothing satisfying nothing enough motivate anything life pure conscious pushing gets anything allthus barely surviving actually livingmy brother watching medical show living room character got coma drama ensued doctor came in explained motor function something says she higher cognitive function surviving living quote gave chills comparison someone literal coma me maybe good description debilitating dumb mental illness is surviving living,1
probably thinking dying days timenever happiest memoriesits almost always bad shit happening since primary schoolcounsellors pyschologist help mei hope jump stairs maybe hit headseems less scary falling buildingthe world much autistic person like myselfits  years thisi cant take anymorenothing working me,1
know keep fightingim scared suicidal honestly id go hospital anyone watch dog guess thats part problem know anyone friends moved state girl dumped months later  months many horrible things happened since broke me im scared im broken anyone broke away abusive family talked years couple friends old state shot breeze want anything deep know make friends im broken right now worst is lost job insurance cant find anything im tired broke want homeless dog needs shots barely afford food him hes good boy deserve him crappy parttime job gone im depressed barely work safety net help im broke live buginfested hole still cant afford it im tired im tired fighting im alone know need help ive fighting months get therapy county offer anything barebones medical clinic thats it cant keep fighting one cares one cares im barely holding on,1
sighi need talk im gay teenager america not going divulge age personal reasons want live anymore small group friends were really close cant tell im feeling inside put mask every day pretend like okay not parents love me family loves me cant help feel really really lonely talk anyone know real life want talk me im overweight im attractive cant help think im going alone rest life thats much bear selfish know anymore,1
just poked herself in the eye the mascara but i love mascara it a god sent,0
use schoology ima cry help help me assignment due tomorrow god cant use platform lifeeeeee,0
jumpthis story happened planned redflag whole month even calendar marking dates went big x tore rest dates th day would finally it quit part time job sold belongings morning th left money envelope next mom sleeping wanted pay back everything headed towards bridge thought ending all bullied throughout elementary middle school never anyone friends thing is bullied used bully kid things flipped suddenly one got bullied wanted end thought world need me way bridge met girl looked similar girl bullied kid turns out her back bully back power back laughed misery others wanted jump wanted make amends knew felt cut short talked her easy sum up reason decided live want say make rest life,1
mf out here fighting depression,1
@JoelMadden and @NicoleRichie are an amazing couple who always make me laugh when reading their twitter convos to/about each other  xoxo,0
@schadre Get 100 followers a day using www.tweeteradder.com Once you add everyone you are on the train or pay vip ,0
the king queens opinion pure cbs hit despite fact ive never seen every episode still enjoy much reason hard say episode favorite even so must say cbs really knows make good sitcom wrap up id like say everyone always gives good performance production design spectacular costumes welldesigned writing always strong conclusion show lives syndication goes cbs strongly recommend catch case goes air good,0
"Will not b @ work today, had a great talk w/ @krooyakkers dis morning w/ coffee, smoke and berry n hand..  not sure what to have 4 brunch",0
girl im talking asked friends snap gave asked gave her title says said and one exes looking closure v weirdthrough sc im getting confused thinking idk respond ideas,0
oinker aida i agree,0
mind made killing going years able want yet trouble destroying life meantime last days watching music video feels safe today spent entire afternoon reading book felt safe finished book get stuck bed lot makes late work wear clothes days even weeks time picking new outfit much spend lot money online trying fill sense emptiness put important things like paying next semester college tired wish could drop dead without anything loss,1
like people commented frulein doktor stumbled chance upon little gem latenight tv without heard before strange mixture pulp fiction story sexy unscrupulous antiheroine one hand realistic wellresearched portrayal war trenches hand hooked beginningbr br to one five best movies wwi the others all quiet western front paths glory gallipoli postwar la vie et rien dautre scene poison gas attack really chilling horses men appear like riders apocalypse gas masksbr br i wish taped film,0
getting things orderive made list things need do people need see one time one things done recently name trustees beneficiaries various accounts,1
waiting for my beautiful taxi driver  then hittin the streets and chill out with some friends. power to the people!,0
omg almost died now would worst way possible near death experience nice feeling literally thought gonna die walking sidewalk cement truck almost lost control literally hit sleeve missing body inch dont worry truck got control back nobody hurt enjoy life know were gonna die moral story always delete browser history know die would awkward someone browsed phone history still there,0
death copi dont gun airsoft  knife  african american however thats one thing going me im seriously considering redflag fear awaits pass dont wanna condemned hell want reincarnate god forsaken planet maybe someone else pulls trigger itll considered homicide redflag  feel like cant right   count kratom im seriously contemplating taking much short amount time want pain end want go mental health facility cannot afford want cure depression call cops right location provoke cops outright shooting like im kind dog,1
erickaaa im at workkkk im freezing too i need a mass hug from you can i call u night babe xxx,0
@dannywood Sounds fancy  Think that is my cue to get my sluggish self up and head to the gym! Thanks Danny love!,0
tired dysphoria wanting born different body tired hating scars would cut world shitty tired feeling responsible mothers death tired flashbacks tired many triggers tired constantly dissociated feel nonliving wish true tired scared damn time scared worrying happy happen next tired attachment amp abandonment issues tired of everything tired this,1
unlived lifemy youth im trouble every day give myself faced exhausting battle realize im making life harder time wastedi slowly killing one wants involved bs worse way go understood yesterday dont think kill myself comes itill watching morbid horrifying self destruction cant make people care want toill lose everything omg bad,1
thank youi would like say thank people said cared me know are pray live truly prosperous life cant keep safe theres nothing do im sorry redditors good luck keep safe this keep hope hearts always,1
know whenim debating living know want anymore ive litterally drowned alcohol past years attempts wake anymore lot sleeping pills anti anxiety meds done trick body keeps rejecting idea past ex aborted kid long ago friend committed redflag shooting head standing behind living room family non existent keep telling okay let go constant reminder prebuilt fear continually replays over lock apartment cant go outside attempts block anything bad happeningthe redflag large part this cant let anyone based fear another committing redflag fear go im religious sure whole afterlife thing reddit time fear come asking help ive seen doctors meds therapy nothing opened view perpetual state mind ask opinionshelp keep replaying quote im ready die nobody save me head over im  year old male would like help please help im tired feeling,1
going drinking sunday afternoon fuck life really urge drink im feeling hollow got text friend miss depressed feeling something,0
last night i had a dream my bestfriend and i were hanging out a a spiritual person i believe that our passed loved one visit u in our dream to hang out with u in the only way they can my bestfriend committed a year ago and it wa the worst day of my life every once in a while he doe this but i had a dream last night we both hung out and had such a good time at the end he gave me a gift and said he would see me next time when i woke up i wa really depressed i didn t want to go into work i wanted to lay back down and go to sleep and hang out with him again it made me have suicidal thought and those were scary i miss him alot to the point where life just seems so awful without him and how can i live like this without him i m a very lonely person and he wa the only friend i had who understood me help,1
peanut butter pizza thoughts,0
literally sat bed crying begging someone something kill lmaoi feel fuckin trapped mani one want worry shit thanks reading guess method  would done tonight,1
"yesterday was so fun, now getting all dressed up to go to mall for the 3rd time this week ",0
guys got rid griddle gang used group people griddle would cook bacon hot dogs band made gang disband pretty sad,0
i went to get a coffee but the kid got to the milk before i did now i have a can of coke instead,0
goodbyeokay over im officially defeated things suck always continue get worse never gets better,1
video ovguide to porn nude celbrities adult comics tube dragon ball porn bulma add and depression in   pic.twitter.com/D72grmZblK,1
uh i feel so lonely i wish my bffwiamc best friend forever who is also my cousin ha a twitter,0
im texting girl school say right things kinda awkward shes way outta league still responds texts say help convo keep going sorry im awkward teenage boy didnt know else go,0
@ShanaeRawlings joking :p. AND don't forget its freaking cold and put a jumper on and im wearing shorts for some reason ,0
cannot ever seem get caught work constantly interrupted people seem think manager not the real manager moron one thinks it feel like drowning everyday expected take more generally ignored friends family one gives shit say do try talk constantly talked made feel like shut up necessary work house double originally quotedwasher dryer broke worth fixing another couple grand replace themgarage door broke ill pay repair guy look it goodness knows much cost fix ran shredded wheeler tire traffic could avoid smashed grill car maybe undercarriage insurance deductible tooall span  weeks money oncejfc world leave alone minute stop one damn thing another,1
My copy of LVATT is in the post! Heard the songs live last night though! Just to confirm: BEST NIGHT EVER!! Love those Jonas Brothers ,0
hello fiance f mental health struggles long time last night decided write suicide note almost popped  pills ibuprofen ready online therapy good little bit help all really tell therapist needed to tried find new therapist area none available obviously want see psychiatrist get prescribed treatment plans allow sessions unless see therapist first online one count honestly want able help way can know cannot much besides her would love advice tips help her could help herself like listing positive things day something like that thank help tldr need advice help fiance depression need advice depression help fiancee,1
i just can t people and the thought of how i am uninteresting and awkward in social situation make me sick,1
@blwhan cool.. just lemme know when.. oh ... pls sms instead la.. i will arrange all this .. ,0
good night good night,0
im constantly wishing deadhave depression anxiety since teenager medication im f going divorce husband m  years hes really screwed lots issues toxic parents coming now im depressed alone new city moved him feel like im losing everything future dont want future dont care anything go day running errands volunteering animal shelter etc wish dead pain would stop,1
impossible tale female witch pursuing mortal man mortal world community open among members conceals witchcraft mortals hmmmmthis starting sound familiar lol typical movie campy performances jack lemmon ernie kovacs keep things getting dull kim novak always pleasure screen found pairing james stewart unusual but fatal storybr br with renewed interest things witchy dark film deserves discovered rediscovered old new audiences still hoot ,0
ok basically trolling friend irl fake snitching teacher thing going ask time got tackled ground started choking death something sus got face accident im going detail deleting minutes,0
craaaaap my macbook pro is kernel panicking a lot now i think i m going to be forced into an upgrade sooner than this summer,0
always mfs wanna downvote post second post wanna stay silent hate mfs,0
http://blip.fm/home via @Gpvm &quot;As I Moved On&quot; by Blue Foundation.  U said u never heard of them. ,0
"@PKGulati lol I'm gna be there too, that's why I was asking ",0
weekly story ideas thread posted idea every self post weekend would post story would ask guys ideas throw ideas may turn story week another week,0
selfharm deathim tired making mistakes life know what every mistake either one three cuts arm suffocate minutes poison even more get hammer wrench head continue stab arm full suffocation poison point near death full heavy blow head choice know fate suggest  cut gt stab  minor suffocation gt major suffocation  poison gt neardeath poison  minor hits gt heavy blows this eventually die fault  life ,1
i hate myself and my self destructive behavior,1
ever see boku hero academia like boku hero mall featuring pall blart mall might,0
i tried,1
"@jmittra Depression, normally. It's odd, because I have depression but I've never written a misogynistic screed and gone on a killing spree.Different strokes, I guess.",1
anyone around talk would appreciate iti cant get ahold friends ive got ex wont say word even though knows im suicidal point continuing on cant anything right ill never meet another girl like think shoot feels like best option right now cant think college work cant eat cant sleep cant meet people online  hope someone calls reaches one feel like bullet seriously best option ive thought jumping drowning poisoning death train hanging  blowing brains seems like best option,1
know why im always really sad really know ive feeling sad happy supportive friends finally openly gay im improving myself reason feel really sad want happy cant im losing motivation want things cant anyone advice would amazing,0
hospitalizedi lost job im fucking depressed cant even function cant anything husband asks literally nothing cant even mail something go grocery shopping vacuum want sleep justfucking die cleaned catbox week cant bring get it want die want go it know family would devastated husband sad relationship right kills me blame me taking care really bringing down feel like terrible wife fuck literally cant even make sure husband happy going fucking grocery store get food want escape everything bills responsibility applying jobs thinking letting husband down cant cant,1
im destined shitty lifepeople always talk path life me honesty see fuckup eventually killing myself ill become drug addict live streets go jail stupid reason kill myself thats way see going motivation actually something useless life thought graduating school career starting family getting old makes sick life isnt worth living me everything pointless id rather suicidal crackhead successful fuck that successful people arent even happy anyway,1
canvas tracking tabs bet heard rumor canvas tracking tabs partially true go near canvas sidebar adress bar say logs also means could inactive cannot however tell tab opened toatilly exposed however pattern leaving question similar amount time get trouble get phone keep doc notes splitscreened look at however make habit makes teachers suspicious canvas spyware track mouse however,0
"@bushmr haha, biggest innovation this year seems to be increased ownership of the letter &quot;v&quot; ",0
I can't believe I'm up this early on a Saturday! (via @jasonmatheson) good morning! ,0
@mylincolnlive 20th July that should be!  Both Mondays ,0
i hide my depression with my succession,1
whats gamers free award say something funny,0
@MissVauss thank u Eb! the Vauss family is def one that I admire.. lets double date one evening! ,0
ok maybe i ll sleep for an hour or two then i must rise to work on my thesis,0
simp call someone nice girls simp,0
anyone else never compliment girl cuz dont wanna called simp say neutral negative comments girls guys,0
@tanejamainhoon @TrishaBShetty So awesome to see this happening in India finally ... I know exactly how it feels ...As I have been struggling with depression for 18yrs now ( & continue to) ...So it is frustrating when family & friends don't get it that watching a funny movie will get me out of depression <Emoji: Neutral face>,1
"@OsasCruz @The_HauteNurse @DrOlufunmilayo @Healthertainer @Deekachy_md @EmiNiTybaba @trending_medic @lou_whiz @ani_nomso @JosephineAvid Jonathan LP, Andrew LF (2016) Depression in children and adolescents. University of Kansas, Clinical Child Psychology Program.",1
"@sabowtage13 if i believed you, i'd be there in a second ",0
help situationhey reddit responded post day person stated former military addiction issue dming quickly realizing head really idea do know person would call local police wellness check looking suggestions user akumaxchumli guidance would appreciated,1
anyone else super cool older siblings older sister shes deadass coolest person ive ever met,0
mmmm Coffeeee ,0
returning school made realise staying home really suck actually got see people like staying home felt like worth value school people care laugh me realises appreciate friends teachers enough even theyre dicks sometimes im waiting weekend over hate staying home due circumstances cant see anyone classroom oh yeah forget got new timetable got kind teachers lets go,0
anybody else remember orange kidz bop disk back like  came happy meals funky town chicken noodle soup dont know remember,0
crazy wind today no birding http ff im xtti,0
no i don t want to kill myself but i want to die i reflect on the last 0 year of my life and see nothing good and can t see the future improving my mom just died my longest relationship recently ended terribly and with abuse i have addictive behavior i never seem to kick and i don t see it changing i ve gone to therapy i m trying to find another good therapist but haven t heard back from voicemail i ve left so far if you have a response i appreciate it but please don t share vague generality tell me your personal hurt experience will carry more with me than it get better or similar platitude i m hurting i need to hear the hurt others have been able to endure to feel encouraged i never thought i could feel so empty and so sad and so angry i hate living right now i never thought i d ever feel so bad edit i have nobody i have my job and i have my dog my family isn t the support system i wish it wa i don t have any real friend i ve tried reaching out but everyone is busy with their own problem,1
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ugly transgender freak thats amall hatred world doorstep me one wants me everyone hates me im even valued person people kill give world hope world smile one less freak worry about fucking kill myself,1
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Back at the Newark airport terminal waiting to board my flight. Going to see my Rayray this afternoon! ,0
im okayidk post here down havent slept think still want live wish could shake sadness,1
being a short man in america is terrible it is terrible how we r treated in the dating world for something we can t change people say oh well suck it up but they don t know how it feel to watch your crush in h laugh u off a u ask her to prom to just go out with the tall d football kid i ve honestly thought of ending it all at this point because there s no point in living this life i don t even want to have kid if they end up being short this cruel world will just chew them up and spit them out,1
context remember last time brushed teeth properly know need go dentist cold things sweet things hurt patch two front teeth guessing whatever enamel bc hurts touch hurts brush etc stopped however fucking terrified going dentist want judge me also family dentist scared accidentally say something family know likely going expensive currently unemployed thanks covid idk much going free any make feel self conscious want fix sort scared build courage something,1
feeling like right thing doi mean life suffering situation nobodys gonna understand situation better myself see exit think stuff im going trough gonna change time feel like giving excuses like my mom would sad things gonna change therapy help me working anymore amount suffering avoid ending far beyond amount happiness im able obtain things change im sorry makes someone feel worse swear purpose make harm want know so ampxb,1
wanna live anymorei wanna live anymore,1
excessive drinking college basically exam phase everyone going get wasted big time means probably indulge excessive drinking well however circumstances want stressful situation again feel like drinking would catalyst towards procrastinating getting distracted interests really dont want happen well exacerbating anxiety however drinking deeply ingrained university culture afraid wont get around drinking excessively  all one important aspects university connections make so conclude would act situation information back head still around parties excessive drinking taking place indulge it,0
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know options are think want die life worth itthis working im  depressed years now always tried work think way it redflag come mind before ive always convinced option tried im convinced anymore family go myself personality hurts people able change personality years ive tried seems best interest everyone disappear even friends still care  keep going on theyll get estranged lack communication maybe wonder happened side thought years now main emotion adolescence hatred parents told gay horrible gays die said theyd rather one kids die leave religion years later came gay told believe god  that hatred towards parents making feel way im tired now exhausting gets point direction go,1
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pulled trigger days ago found love life cheating me weve together nearly  years blames it lost it kicked out publicly posted facebook goodbye stole one guns stood bathtub shower curtain drawn to cut mess put barrel mouth pulled trigger nothing double checked loaded know fucked up brain thinking straight loaded gun dog car started drive parents place reason felt leave dog taking figure fix issue gun arrived let leave known better held police arrived arrested mental health act taken hospital still know talked way hospital guess im good liar makes sense since many years experience pretending okay im home boyfriend were pretending okay get counseling think make long im upset guns house anymore means going lot painful planned practiced strangling bathrobe belt attached bathroom doorknob last night almost passed got loose which would fine honestly im planning completing act todaytonight last daynight bf together hes road again would like try good day leave good writing helps solidify it think cry think it feel peaceful almost im fucked up long time people get fairly quickly im sorry immediate pain may cause family but theyll okay end,1
please help find old nostalgic comic website story begins back  th grade played henry stickmin games pegi first time also watched lot alan becker animations youtube got really inspired started drawing stick figure comics notebook paper entire school year obsessively got big ten people comic club made website google sites at time old google sites called club tophat clan that copyrighted somewhere lol made huge map different factions hqs like whitehat clan enemies afro clan etc cheesy cringey looking back nostalgic me going binder old comics remembered end year gave comics away various people class souvenirs  whatever kinda regret remembered would take pictures post google site official tophat clan website searching back day brought website first result  year old thought epic pegi still relatively small theyd made airship in game series tried searching various phrases try find google luck may even deleted website point hope stupid enough to you people reddit help find website know see it old google sites template charcoal think please comment dm sort lead url info thus far tldr made  using old google sites so used sitesgooglecomsite format called official tophat clan website may taken copyright sure would small thank help,0
yeah sure cheesy zombie bad either beatrice ring huge bonus entertaining good fortune meet fulci later career remained philosophical experience never completely satisfied it well worth search out especially genre fulci fans film far often dismissed hand,0
one outside family would care killed myselfi thought least one person would maybe care little one person thought would would wont even respond text ask is frankly shouldnt expect care never contacted first years always asking is knows im suicidal too yeah doesnt care dont know im surprised it one else would either would day several days,1
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hate life muchim sorry doesntt belong promised ever cut need place vent hate nearly everyone life mom makes feel like shit always talking hates men general context im  year old senior high school reason hates men asshole dad left  eats away daily mom knows uses hurt me example shell start yelling sees im hurt shell say something like if like here go find father stay him reason im goddamn madsad today though girlfriend met  drank occassion would also smoke weed while however family always full alcoholics drug addicts never drink twice week goes smoking ive also told id never drugs far havent however gets drunk time point throwing leave work go take care her today homecoming celebration decided get drunk friend school also going tell knew id mad wasnt enough friend drank gave ride back house after knows feel drunk driving pushed edge love along work school great family much im breakdown along  best friends world reason alive today girlfriends dont see much id like makes happy theyve good friends long like said im sorry right place needed vent hurt year plan keeping way,1
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kind movie people certain age say i think made movies like anymore walter matthau gives usual overthetop performance instead leaving teeth marks scenery leaves endearing grease stains like great uncle know still wears plaid polyester embarrasses everyone still love anywaybr br jack lemmons performance reminds us golden globe nominations anyone else  gives truetolife performance basically good ordinary man even milieu farcebr br this film probably appeal people prefer blunt humor designed confront offend appeal people appreciate broad farce played straight facebr br the entire supporting cast excellent ability play absurd characters maintaining reality characterbr br brent spiner gives marvelous performance professional version lounge lizard anyone known professional hosts real life immediately recognize type playing nails type perfectly rendition slime merits study perfect example contrast absurd patheticbr br the plot rather straightforward lets marry rich theme usual results plot theme done thousand times mean dated rather timeless themebr br the rest supporting cast shows happen professionals exhibit skills roles written them instead vying spotlight film even second tier actors shine also obvious enjoyed making filmbr br the plot may standard thin allows performers shinebr br this film true treat people want see professional actors engaging craft plot falls away performers shine,0
im done twitter theres bunch kpop stans making fun  right now extremely disrespectful ive lost faith humanity,0
"@DrJennifer Me, too. Day job, volunteer work, and night job. It's been quite busy lately, but good. ",0
sheamus yep done that from the off just have all friend search my tweet panel hmm interesting maybe it will fix itself later,0
adaptation dirk wittenborn book read young finn earl lives mom liz diane lane cramped lower east side new york apartment dreams joining anthropologist father studying fierce tribe south america liz boyfriends coke caught scoring coke her one customers liz legitimate masseuse rich mr osborne bails return full time personal masseuse huge estate new jersey driven limo strung lying back seat dress hitched way panties showing this lowcut dress scenes exploitation ms lane may disappointed im sorry stuff unfaithful make alist lady talent little finger streep roberts sally field entire bodies time given due arrive finn makes friends osbornes grandson bryce coming age new girlfriend granddaughter maya liz meanwhile joins aa dates aa doctor miraculously cleans instantly finn however lot drugs along sex new friends bryce seems like ok guy gets jealous osborne takes finn hot air balloon race instead him leads tragedybr br the genius story and movie cut violent acts fierce filthy rich blysdale tribe yanomano warriors little implausible though liz finds happens son merely demands action osborne either contact authorities settle thelma louise style elements gothic romance revelation village idiot also almost plot character development prior move blysdale liz instance like lanes pearl kantrowitz walk moon unwanted pregnancy finn  felt trapped book movie still minor shortcomings movie full release  year original release date waitbr br there lots red carpet moments theater saw movie at almost whole castexcept diane lane q director dunne said filming movie know promise there came way town would thrill see person movie definite best picture contender acting sutherland quite good boy played finn lane magnificent always recall one two emotional scenes catches finn drugs lets get fd together mother son osborne your twisted grandson would fare better supporting actress nod wont work way unless give body work,0
feel bad sorryi even know start this emotions stirred up even know feel anymore except continuing depressed it  so currently little envious friends starting failure back june ive completed ib diploma programme sponsored able continue study abroad met sponsors requirements yet results bad im unable pursue studies overseas thats fine me thing kinda bugs felt left friends able get great results met sponsors requirements felt like pushed away mostly chat boat me recently sort of now already continue studies local universities one friend even without telling all make feel alienated like unwanted like proof convince useless kinda friend am guess useless like trait every day im feeling way always recalled back moment  yo get excellent result back primary school final exam causing dad hate me even so family went holiday end year twelve happened unfortunately smashed ceiling light accidentally stick place stayed i kinda swing stick imagining like one guys front marching band light piece really expensive guess dad went mad point shouted something cared back then grow realized left permanent scar inside me shouted born asked mom abort even born know something disappointing like would happen etc bla bla almost  years passed since then still remember words dad really conflict sometimes talk not really since mostly listening much mostly busy things mother working feed family yeah cliche is type family looks happy actually kinda broken maybe meh think it want hang noose make things worst im closeted gay religion gay crime live sometimes wondered living pakistan would better since least become hijra no know prefer men must hide sake name really big deal since stay closeted thats really pushing towards depression sense needing keep upon think actually making feel suicidal since small always tendency hide problems others even forced tell problems always ended telling lies cover ups would think ok fine even time people told tell problems no kept myself always comes mind disturb people problem enough handle own then again showing foolish hypocrite selfish egoistical am cant handle pain much more hearing people telling go see someone easy never really knew hard that hard trapped mind bear problems alone hiding even close me feeling alienated im quiet cry alone time thinking stupid silly things wanting suffering end cant im weak worthless useless am sorry long rant sorry taking time sorry everything but thank anyways,1
i just spent a good half of my morning trying to convince myself to get up and go to class how it is unbelievably stupid that i wa and had been skipping all the class just to lay around in bed practically doing nothing how my parent and relative would be disappointed that their money is being wasted on me me who don t know what i want to do have no idea why i m even still breathing all these good reason to get up and brush my teeth and go to class and i just pulled my blanket over my head and wait till it wa too late god why am i like this,1
well everyone after a super adventurous day luke ha gone home let u all morn the loss of a hero im off to continue playing sims,0
need freedom knowing tomorrow want toin lifetime think ive taken almost every antidepressant there least famous ones thats without effect ampxb last months taking another one got impression getting little better stopped ampxb cause cant want kill myself solution lose get condemned life know bad here ampxb since stopped last week think felt bad again need this otherwise go crazy need freedom know ill last till end year though ive said many times past middle next year sure not,1
fusion brought it tonight! Love my church fam..hope you all know that  haha,0
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didnt text ex week  literally every week cave text hated every time it last time last week got  day hump experiencing get unrelenting urge text him im proud far,0
someone kill pleaseplease someone shoot  gauge ill pay,1
dont care youre clinically insane fully spectrum cripple kill child make sure everything power autistic mentally insane ass jail cell deserve hun,0
notive depressed years family trip  realised people like depressed put mask people already seem like hope since ive managed accumulate  friends parents kicked finally shared depression them one cares ive rejected every person ive ever asked out im  things get worse even im financially well still feels though happiness myth distraction constantly thinking painting walls working everyone talks reasons people kill people leave behind happens person anyone find body till someone smelled it friends manage make always disappear try tell depression like weird magic trick see hope turning shit hole life around im going die alone unhappy speed shit up feel selfish wanting someone talk to pussy maybe could finally pull trigger,1
wants to buy Lady Gaga's CD. ,0
cant much longerevery single day step closer inevitable ive always known would end redflag even small child going kill myself today tomorrow next week probably years one way could end,1
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people reddit love making gay people mad remember gay people respectdont respect meme like makin rounds people r like its ok people gay long dont shove face  aka go back closet coz even tho vast majority people cant go day without seeing multiple expressions heterosexuality here public forms media etc lives constantly affected heteronormativity theyre making gay personality trait talk sometimes yeah anyway im goin store yall want,0
itll okayhey friends know really hard right now know feel like garbage world pretty shit moment know probably feel like worthless matter single living earth cares loves you swear is care love wish best life bet someone else too might met yet promise theyre there waiting come along life worth living take day day cant that take hour hour whatever enjoy doing thats worth living for pet thats worth living for one baby step time love fall feel like cant get back up promise it nothing life impossible this love you,1
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f planning kill sooner later whats best way make look like accident rather redflagi cant dad also cant live world anymore terrible terrible person everyone school hates literally friends literally one would miss ugly irritating ass including myself please painless excruciating dont give damn make gone myself free everyone horrendous presence thank you,1
i m 0 and i m reverting back to my year old self hahahahahahahhahahahahahhaahahah fuck my life i hate everything i just want to not exist,1
@fiskerton targeting will be hard..we may not see it working for shooters..but lets see.. they may have some plans! ,0
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"Hi, i was just getting up now so i tought i could write something. Today i'm gonna go shopping! Soo fun, isn't it? ",0
amp x 00b how do u deal with the loneliness when living alone how do u engage yourself who do u talk to i literally crave some human being to talk to but have only few friend,1
I see tonight is the night of drama.  please keep coming with it haters im loving it.,0
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need someone talk tothinking killing sometime now need someone talk since noone,1
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i see a lot of people dealing with mental health issue being so hard on the self i know it s a hard time but please never bring yourself down your only human it s normal to experience these emotion please start being kind to yourself it will help so much,1
lied psychiatristptsd severe depression psych va asked ive thoughts redflag told no lie ive scratching sharp objects bleed see reason stop i psychs idea treatment increase dosage sure ill increase it ill take whole fucking bottle plus bottles on cure me one way another,1
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think ends much lately much college work pouring wild rate cant keep up loud rowdy roommates shut am every night living hours sleep go home weekend ok wear mask hide im really feeling is college fun would ask yep im blast would reply cant let know really doing im far away already worried knew suicidal would end it feel overwhelmed work im failing im actually point caring family thinks kill myself would upset im sure even care anymore cant keep stuff home bit need someone talk to cant talk room mates ra see councillor tomorrow  rarely helps all one person trust around hates due things said,1
drinking age  start drinking earlier parental supervision learn limits earlier probably less likely binge drink right turn  cuz  year olds stupid independent  year olds stupid parents control parent hopefully stop drinking  beers first day time turn  learned limits hopefully less stupid lets honest actually waits  probably first drink  people dont wait  that enforced small scale fuck madd that didnt decrease drunk driving all even worth also british columbia new brunswick newfoundland labrador northwest territories nova scotia nunavut ontario pei saskatchewan yukon legal drinking age  thats fucking arbitrary good job quebec legal drinking age isnt arbitrary still high closest place could legally consume alcohol france continent cant drive south america north america honestly would probably cheaper go continental france french guiana,0
sad hours usually ignore emotions people really getting me im also great expressing emotions situation know jokes digging way brain,0
need helpim  graduated year never bad many wrongs life barely positives save time im going go past couple months graduated june th supposed happy time everyone wasnt though parents constantly yelled tell disappointed me could even show time missed live part watched home disc got sent out family members even showed see got  calls any saying make it happened regrouped friends talked bit mom calls tells going eat get something home staying pictures left made around  still gone felt like failure disappointment familys last name mixed alot stuff happened past hit boiling point grabbed rope went car go spot girl worked  months she also graduated somehow found told meet somewhere met talked  hours go living person cares do fast forward couple weeks start get feelings heri guy didnt make obvious feel like im supposed alone relationships never work want lose her ex boyfriend even know dated comes starts punching hit ground kept kicking found thing couple weeks later apologized happened told jealous talked them fast forward today longer talking cant kept thoughts down cant sleep thing keeping it gone im tempted grab rope it hurts knowing gone one cares anymore please need advice,1
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stephenkruiser oh my sympathy it s a hard decision i always hope my old border collie will go in her sleep she s too hug,0
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triedi tried holding head high tried making friends tried new hobbies tried going more even tried quitting job something better tried make betterand nothing really working sit contemplatingperscription bottle one hand alcoholic nexti keep thinking fucked everyone over good daughter sister aunt best friend,1
If you have depression the we are already friends:),1
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whywhy im kid already planning death dads mentally abusive liquor obsessed dip shit power funny thing mom doesnt get im planning death kinda rubs way another thing everything like everyone else hates get bullied people liking anime shit friends im funniest person dont even get slightest im dying inside give many hints actually complete explanations im break redflag brush joke thats fault complain people way worse lives im gonna shut lay bed,1
goodbyeto family friends reading this im sorry love all ive lost hope dont care stuff dont care forget me know im sorry goodbye,1
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really hard aloneim gonna feel alone feel really alone world really hard describe people think anyone really understand know talk to want feel like someones im gonna anyone really gonna suck im gonna pretend im gonna pretend someone me ive going really hard time last week know ive really emotional ive feeling like im disconnected everybody way nobody understands im alone,1
tanialt beth tastic widgetsworld spcialndsjungle teamsquarepeg so sen ipseacharity sendcrisis stevebroach eleanorjwright kimturner 0 gfreeman 0 renatabplus but in reality i get it i spent month in deep depression because of la move to remove our kid parent are exhausted and energy is pretty much depleted trying to get by on the minimum in financial support and tangible support fighting relentlessly for our own kid,1
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thank redflag hotline found tonight due mistakes doing cant get financial aid next year school panicked ive never felt like before and still am scared face family especially financial problems parents going through felt control nauseous kept wild thoughts scared know call googled redflag hotline called them want kill myself felt like could hurt myself guy talked calming reassuring still feel shaky got past twisting dark blind panic felt bad calling know issue terrible peoples issues exactly suicidal hotline helped much cesar wherever are thank you got bathroom floor thought going feel insane terrified forever,1
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stuck please helpi go pretty good college nyc everyone hs shocked got proud felt like years suffering hometown finally something good coming gonna prove everyone shit wrong hope keep going school hope id successful torture teasing matter future im junior whos behind credits depression got bad could never go class failed solid friend group genuinely feel like people hang want around gained like  lbs since hs try binge eat suicidal thoughts away suck almost classes the one thing good language course got super hard nowhere geared towards people already speak home see point anymore school would take grades tried transfer plus makes sense go worse school cant drop since cant even get job current resume says im good school means id get nowhere drop unemployed came hopes finally feel good become something fucked everything  years past point fixing it like universe telling end now want hurt family best friend back home im stuck ending continuing path nothingness sake people care about feel want hurt cant keep going everyone else myself,1
im treated like little kid every day im treated like im  dad fucking calls turkey im talked time cant even say damn without getting trouble everyone else ages cusses parents understand want stop treating like im little kid,0
unusual film although made twentiethcentury fox one pairings barbara stanwyck future husband robert taylor barbara stanwyck making films many different studios rko paramount selznick time made affair taylor mgm contract player appeared film loaned foxsomething studios occasionally erabr br the film interesting many reallife people roles film though piece otherwise pure fiction see actors playing william mckinley teddy roosevelt admiral dewey cant recall film mckinley dewey character though remember roosevelt wind lion couple films three cheers seeing lesser president film major character br br the film begins mckinley taking young lieutenant robert taylor aside asking special agent himand telling onenot even secret service thats president fears someone within agency tipping gang making long string robberiesall based inside information taylor who known manly rolesespecially stage career pose thug find gang responsible inside manbr br however two serious complications first able find gang members one gang members stepsister stanwyck taylor finds hes fallen love must also duty turn authorities second mckinley person knows truth serious problems develop mckinley assassinated taylor death row crimes br br the film nice job creating story placing within historical context today people remember mckinley remember assassinated film set interesting time period acting pretty decent stars supported victor mclaglen brian donlevy though must admit donlevys role pretty tame ordinary compared many film roles overall interesting well written sappy romance department good outing all,0
thinking decided im going kill im  turn  week im pretty fucked up thinking decided like said im preety fucked up lomg story short raped  im preety anti social got trust issues mean damm like  real real friends yeah preety lonely obvious reasons havent relationship like said trust issues im preety fucked up nothing really keeping it idk soon go camping trip blow head,1
hospitalim thinking walking er ask help im terrified plan want held  hours that cant seem get access doctor hope explain er people need see doctor or np whatever depression hopefully walk away prescription antidepressants possible lock up need help im afraid,1
@akparisi thanks!  you too!  ,0
wasted life getting useless doctoratei made huge mistake following dream orchestral musician graduated recently doctorate twelve years schooling life guaranteed get worse skills little application outside concert hall cant teach music silly required pay grades people doctoral degrees im trying hand basic physics course prerequisites theres reason able tackle this yet right average might somewhere mid fifties ive accepted fact life going nowhere misery consumes unbearable unwavering every time drive walk bridge think much better id dead seconds fear over financial burden ive placed parents unconscionable chase silly non goal might leave people behind devastated long term better,1
Arggh started raining here :s let's hope it will be gone in a bit ,0
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suicidal without depression sadnessi woke today orders head clear crisp repetition commit redflag happening lately thought today going drag not thought going depressed day im not im quite content actually ive got plenty energy big goofy smile bounce back suicidal thoughts casually anyone else feel suicidal without actually down im unhappy hate myself good life people generally really nice me think exhibit signs depression newfound lack desire connecttalk anybody even family figure im either really mentally sick realize it im becoming enlightened knows,1
@arredondoalex4 @grvtyUK @blcklistddd same my playlist is already full of depression :),1
like wake morning means still alive sometimes take medication makes sleep think much want die sometimes take medication,1
@LonLonRaanch ,0
wanna stop existingive recently alot stressful events happen made life harder handle feel like stress contagious everyone around slowly harder time lives me ive wanted talk therapist many times feel fear theyll think im dangerous others im not want stop existing im really suicidal think extreme urge want stop stress sadness leave all probably sounds like im suicidal tbh im sure im posting all maybe put world say loud figuratively once ive never tried talk anyone mostly fear locked judged feelings,1
is still effinggggg sick when will i get better ughh,0
lot friends ones live miles away me pretty much se friends all also best friend transferring another school probably see like twice per year also introvert hard make friends do stop depressed,1
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Looking forward to seeing Conan tonight instead of late night ,0
Moving my bed ,0
i feel like nobody really care if i m gone even my closest friend replaced and forgot about me i just want to sit in my room and rot i just want to stop existing last night wa the worst i couldn t sleep because i broke down and my head keep screaming i want to die i want to die i want to die i don t know if i want to ever get better when there s nothing to get better for i even got excited because i got covid before and thought if it get worse i could finally die but i just had to get better it wa my one chance to die and i got better i m so sick of living i m so sick of being abandoned by people i thought cared about me i just want to be gone and stop existing it s so painful it hurt to cry every night and exhaust myself to sleep in that way even waking up had me cry i m just waiting for something to happen to me so i don t have to kill myself instead to save my family from the shame they d experience if i took my own life instead,1
or should i say my brain need to optimise my neural search pathway to find my muscle again,0
crush girl school got got back friend crush crush girl class like  months ago tolde felt said liked friend boyfriend ye understood moved on one friends told het liked even tho bf said also likes him reason made really really really jealous kinda feel bad bf cuz nice guy all tell someone trust ya go reddit,0
want someone talk memy therapy appointment thursday ive got make then want someone talk awhile feel like entire life lie going geieving process almost literally killing me,1
"(via @UncleRUSH) Keep smiling! remember when people dissapoint u .. Its your fault, learn to love unconditionally it hurts less ",0
actually feel much like shit rn best friend breakdown texted means talking useless felt like shit actually know help feel like im shitty friend knowing able go sleep knowing even tho tried hard absolutely nothing changed nothing situation told stop would go away later get feeling impotence like do cant shit ill worst friend helped much anyway keep going thanks reading shitty rant,0
@NikkiBenz There is a cool scene at the end that ties in with another Comic Book movie. ,0
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@trevermendham Thanks for the #followfriday heads up  ,0
stupidi dont enjoy myself im depressed im lonely im full regret im hopeless romantic hate am know talk tp people know funciton like normal human being im scared try new things im afraid put there stay invisible cycle drunk  ease whats point anymore itll forever might well put bullet skull paint wall beautiful red mural,1
"@jbouie Reading his other tweets, he is trying to think positively after getting out of some mild depression/funk.",1
omfg ears ringingi know why drinking helped last night im gonna take pills couple hours ears ringing hope ends soon,1
best poison around house actually kill you dont want anything painful thats want doi dont know start tell think best household poisonous item or better way maybe,1
weird cope rather precope stuff canceled pandemic expecting canceled happened since last march variety things life canceled rona every time something exiting big going happen like summer camp bar mitzvah always expect canceled virtual in cases canceledvirtual family plans going somewhere spring break yet expect canceled way could get optimistic look future events rather pessimistic realism,0
think im gonna itive fighting three years now okay month falling apart again want die bad want end soon can im coward ive thinking long time think try kill next week parents home hate myself cant get better me nothing live for everything pointless meaningless future people miss me im sure theyll get it,1
i know i ve already started this off pretty negative but i acknowledge that over the year i ve made a lot of progress with social anxiety i do thing now that i never thought i d be able to do presentation networking event planning hosting party however every time i do any of these thing or even small thing like having to run a work meeting i feel physically anxious my heart pound and i start doubting myself and my hand shake and i have to push through it because there s not usually another option i ve gotten better at it for sure and i m proud of that but sometimes it really just chip away at me i m about to cry tonight over something so minuscule that i ll probably look back on it in a few week and say wow that wa a dumb thing to worry about because that is what always happens i ve probably wasted day of my life just worrying about thing that didn t end up being worthy of that much worry i overthink thing so much and i just wish i could turn it off so badly to so many people now i appear to be this leader that ha shit together but in reality i struggle quietly with the most basic thing and i just feel so embarrassed sometimes i just wish i could turn off the social anxiety it get so frustrating,1
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also get really painful crampsperiods every month share people work want complain think business today asked leave lunch time lot pain terrible cramps actually bled pants embarrassing secretary told problem,0
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i don t know how to answer the question do i tell them i hate everyone and everything and want to die do i say eh and invite fake concern do i just keep exhausting myself by keeping this mask on and go along with the stupid i m okay small talk do i play it up with im doing great and keep pretending that nothing is ever wrong i m sick of all of it i ve just started staring people with a shit eating grin until they get uncomfortable whenever they ask this dumbass question,1
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im definitely ready go amp cant waitthe pain outweighed thought hurting loved ones much carry detail ive through laid detail post history long conversation last night ended sending email amp got heavy bout emotion let emotions run free went well bit end definitely want together whether boyfriend not ive struggling intense feelings inadequacy shame loss amp guilt cant move on feel though reasons broke fixable amp preventable working towards end late already far gone ive always struggled internally made feel like anymore got lazy amp lost her someone else now found seeing picture haunts every single day cant live thoughts anymore ive difficult past amp light life tonight im going take bunch sleeping pills knock out tomorrow ill make real go im happy amp looking forward it need let go cant anymore,1
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i m not depressed or in depression i think there is a lot to live for in life actually but lately i ve been having thought of suicide it s not every hour of every day but something will happen and i ll just casually think to myself what the hell f ck this and fast forward to when i m dead i have every reason to live i have a roof over my head food on the table and a small circle of friend a job so i m not planning on taking the plunge anytime soon but i just can t help but think after an event or something that ha happened to me involving me that maybe i should what if a opposed to when amp x 00b i m perfectly in sound mind body and health but what could this mean,1
venting right knowsi really wish truly loved someone soon got kicked exs home grandma feel tho eager turn stab back im still sure may agreeing grandma get crazy ass leave alone know next weekend goes way expect go nothing left gonna act redflag plan belive anyone ever gave flying fuck im mistake child severe mental disorders worsened abuse feeling love since ish never knew express emotion properly thanks parents may veey undoing one relationship think really loved person,1
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i m tired of trying but sadly i m insistent or maybe i never actually tryed something im alone since ever i ve never had friend or someone special never dated anything the only relationship that wa all the time on my head wa the one with myself or maybe how much this relation wa needed and it feel the same about having a family i think of leaving them and start living for me and my own and only life for literally the first time im going to a therapist now it took me long and hurtful year to accomplish this im really proud of me for taking this step alone and even hyped kinda faithful but honestly i ll never recover around my family and that suck cause i don t have money yet and not even a job im not able to work thanks to depression my family pay my shit and make sure to remember me this every day that s my biggest shame but on the inside i know that i can t do that for me now but the feeling that i m a total waste of life will never fade away cause i never did it i never lived but i saw too much i have so many me on me that i don t know which one is the actual me i believe i m still a child year when my first trauma happened there s no memory from moment before or after this age only from my emotion and fear and it s scary af cause they re all fear of a little girl it s all the same cold not sure of anything but know a lot not alive enough to feel but feeling too much at the same time and i m the same girl alone scared and sad willing for help but with no one to ask besides me been living through other age and others version of myself every one with their personality and the y me me living the alternative story that in the end is probably another part of another time of my existence but i m lost on who or what i am i m still scared from the bad today the bad from inside that s the worst one growing in silence causing confusion and suffering turned myself into a monster to protect me but made me forever guilty for losing my own respect dangerous in all the scariest is that the real cunning and devious danger is inside i still wonder when i ll get home even though i have no idea of where or what home is or feel like,1
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cant go back depression againits back ive seen coming month two ive denial feelings hopelessness nothingness selfhate three years ago suicidal thoughts thought free cant go back depression im terrified refuse go back cant control it need help im healthy idea do im scared even leave house think do might actually act impulses throw front train something help me pray me,1
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ive reached end long line mistakes nowhere goi moved new city go college kicking ass think choice school mistake far away anyone know hard im naturally shy really tend make friends easily conjunction covid situation kept talking single sole since ive here sit dorm day working shit matter classes care im paying way much in one cares im completely alone hard find way keep going self harming worse ever feel like confidence finally end life looking hope reason guess,1
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redflag depression set back enormously life since started bleeding away since academically socially romantically tried therapy work me believe going genetic history sides family worst part peers slowly pulling away frustrating illness stopping me illness strong cure slowly chips away mejust wanted vent setting back,1
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nothing left givei therapy years upbringing  mentally ill narcissistic mother alcoholic enabling father gave childhood filled neglect trauma abuse developed mental illnesses well full fledged personality disorder earliest memory watching mom shove dad floor picking taking bedroom locked bedroom door held lap told worry dad outside door screaming let out give him response ill give one fingers heavy duty fan metal blades running held empty cigarette pack blades noise made loud remember crying dad screamed door started rattling attempts break in mom turned fan decided wasnt crying loud enough pinched thigh twisted hard enough scream time dad broke door down covered tears snot way toddler be mom sitting edge bed smoking smiling checked broke tears mom looked said nest time threaten call police me wont bluff dad moved next day mom moved around state dozens times always move government couldnt catch us couldnt hold job fbi spies everywhere times steady high learned young clean vomit blood carpet extremely proficient wrangling addicts apartment time  also  different schools then fault though never born fbi would never caught wouldnt need move much use heroin scramble signal came head  mom addict lover week gotten argument ended slitting wrists front me called police took hospital grandparents  moms parents took days stabilized visited hospital mom cried told loved me never meant hurt me needed help lie people cam talk me couldnt tell friends violence subjected to would sometimes sit friends laps fix told truth would take away would kill herself didnt want reason died i lied cps complicit falling cracks agency meant protect me raped year later friend mothers met christian chat room arrested blamed ruining friendship god fearing man made mistake called dad asked live him instead moved back us started cutting keep expressing anger felt abandoning coming back abuse leveled instead met boy  fell love college sophomore promised would take care soon graduated high school turned valedictorian want mother make scene graduation left everything behind moved dan not real name together things great particular certain things living heaven compared used to asked stop college work could finish college degree would land better paying job mine didnt think anything it saved me would done anything asked got violent made excuses never violent before things stressful him continued years would say something didnt like would shut down would go quiet refuse talk asked did would give noncommittal answer ignored silence would explode didnt love him balancing act ask correct questions correct amount times anything less perfection ended broken bone bloody nose lied therapist psychiatrist throughout this knew panic attacks nigh terrors depression anxiety drinking self harm dutifully covered bruises face neck arms ashamed weakness falling love man even violent mother still felt indebted getting away family broke last year drew bath opened bottle wine swallowed every pill had dan work hours due home sitting hot water listening music feeling eyes get heavier peace felt life fear pain doubt dread everything going over happy obviously work dan came home early hospitalized medicated properly diagnosed referred better intensive form therapy got hospital dan ghosted cleared apartment everything except cat clothes joint account personal account emptied nothing year work freelance writer living first life slowly making progress plans save much money could move rural setting lease next year instead everything started exploding people hate disorder even without knowing me even though destructive tendencies turned inward parents pushing contact dan give another chance triggered friend mine return triggered full flashbacks dan coworker angry unable cover event writing panned still chronic pain car accident last year stuck paperwork hell even witnesses police video showing driver fault pneumonia every breath take hurts still struggling binge eat drink worn core nothing left give want feel sense peace felt knew everything going over cant think reason keep fighting,1
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tried kill back and see im pretty much alive right now like everyone else life got better awhile  showed everything slowly started getting more worse wish died didnt now really wish could longer convince distract bad thoughts finally bad level mental health time promise fail,1
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want die cant mom diesim going kill know hate reality live knowing potential im even average average nothing special nothing im really good school made feel worse even put effort hard work rewarded end fell college terrible gpa ive worked many different jobs sucked them ive unemployed corona hit living savings ive know fear failing finding suck something else ive move different state move back parents isolate friends could speak mental health im alone parents take personally explain feel mom guilty dying makes feel worse understand though dont want hurt them nothing going  years old single  years little experience feeling like missed s feeling alone want feel anymore want hurt cry want leave reality reset,1
completely demoralize anyone else one media careseveryones quick jump red herrings like gun control push political agenda care real problems think incredible increase interconnectivity world allowing people speak mind one willing listen time people listen bodies drop people glamorize make competition way see shoot people know really messed up think ways change someone shoots news agency people start care lot about listen to youth america around world hurting personally see latter thoughts im glad subreddit here let know thoughts,1
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"being pan, having ghey friends, leaning to the leftist side of politics, being medicated for depression, showin my face without makeup.......do yall think itll do",1
he s high energy and strong willed he s only he mind and respect me but sometimes his persistence becomes too overwhelming to handle he will argue his point like a lawyer with every simple task or question i ask him and it s exhausting he sends me into an anxiety attack on occasion such a yesterday how do i keep my cool i want him to keep being himself questioning thing sticking up for himself etc but sometimes just a simple yes mom would be so relieving to hear,1
im wits endi figured id come get everything out seeing pretty much nowhere else turn moment everything sort piled onto feel like worth continuing life appeal right now feels like older get worse get handed physically mentally sexually abused childhoodadolescence cant get it caused develop severe problems depression anxiety selfworth issues cant keep steady relationship anyone im constantly questioning every move last night boyfriend broke me enough finally told actually loved now im left wondering wrong make someone says care leave top issues everyone around school im finish sophomore year university cant deal anymore able keep grades keep getting worse worse cant even sit classes without leave frequent panic attacks im physical pain  percent time number things wrong body medicine working anymore cant take pain anymore figure im going weak sick rest however long have itd easier end things now know anymore nothing seems work make feel better im tired given me know millions people worse me ending seems like easy option right now know redflag seems selfish cant help think do,1
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i am just jealous of so many thing i don t have depression destroyed my memory and i can t remember anything what make thing worse is this is my final school year and i have final exam in around a month i know i will fail because i physically can not remember anything every time i see people learn i feel jealousy that they can do thing i can t the jealousy appears also when it come to my two friend they both have other friend than me so they can leave me anytime they feel like it they also don t talk to me that much and spend more time with those other friend they also wanted to do something nice to one of my friend and didn t even invited me to spend time with them it just hurt i tell myself i just need to meet more people either online or irl but it s hard and i m just trying to ignore my true feeling i wa always there for everyone since i can remember and all i get in return is being ignored and forgotten i started to think about myself more and now i m rude and only thinking about myself but i don t care they are not the kind of people i want to be friend with if you reached this point thank you for reading i just wanted to anonymously tell my true feeling and thought to someone have a nice day,1
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so for awhile now i ve tried multiple time to hang myself and also tried to slit my wrist but all my suicide attempt have failed and im trying to find happiness in life and find a reason to live but everday i just wan na end all my suffering anyways here s why i feel suicidal so basically my mom and dad are abusive and make me feel like shit and then my brother and sister don t understand what im going through so they make it worse and my parent threated me if i call cps or anyone about what happens at the house i would get whooped till i got red mark and alot of bad thing somebody please help me before i take my life,1
My mom told me about her depression and how she started cutting again so I told her about some of my issues ( not my ed) and she told me I'm hypersensitive,1
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feel much guilt cant believe anything friends say anymoreive made many huge mistakes around friends put faith trust someone emotionally abusive towards online friends blame acted it complained called toxic girlfriend proceeded go witch hunt tell off three groupchat time me abusive friend knew irl another online friend deeply care about hate ignored also hate feel way abusive friend started ignoring daily basis turned online friend blatantly disappeared fucking terrified hed done something himself wouldve fault starting whole fight lasted months grew severely paranoid picked fights abusive friend cut things her way late made everyone miserable friend finally responded months refuses talk happened think caused it tell lies it know talk struggling fights among friends told hes looking help feel fucking guilty ive started believing hes looking therapy me tells fine believe him cant believe him ive done before hurt people want die feel like punish ive done like im supposed alive want die feel forced kill stop hurting others cant look help myself cant afford it feels like solution cant forgive myself thought alone makes feel extremely selfish toxic hurt feel negative stop feeling way never feels good enough always more im endless loop fucking misery cant get it write hope death takes instead one day,1
im and mo postpartum i don t know if i have ppocd but the intrusive thought are becoming unbearable my baby is healthy and for the most part happy a lot of the time i feel like a shitty mom because i work full time while my boyfriend is at home with the baby and when i get home im too exhausted to clean house or play with my baby i carry so much guilt about other people watching my son on my day off so i can get thing done because i m his mom and i should be able to take care of him and everything else myself tonight he wa losing his sh t bc he wa overtired his screaming made me feel like i wanted to hurt him or myself i would never hurt him but the thought get so loud i can t seem to escape them i wa in a psych hospital last month but it didn t help at all these thought are a constant sometimes i feel like having a baby wa the wrong choice and i ruined my life and the only way to fix my issue is to end it i just feel so alone,1
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feeling really cynical about it my life is a fucking mess been two week i don t sleep getting crazier and crazier everyday but don t have any room for taking care of myself because of a 0h week study contest to come and even my weekend being splitted between people i need to see right now just thinking i ll kill myself after all these contest if i don t blow up before then taking rest is a no no i have diagnosed disability that my teacher don t care about dying seem like my only escape and comforting thought,1
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ever past point redflagthis feel right now nothing mood swings depression actually feel good mentally far clarity goes im finding im surviving world im poor dad alzheimers best friend passed away im deeply debt paying education feel like theres anything left world cant escape downward spiral painful ive felt depression physically hurts ive stopped listening others feeling true failure ive tried telling others were thing together help one another response get supposed do people know help one another get it theres hope there were us make us despite sacrifice effort never give attitudes quit either know realistic im going motions feel like im world thats worse could possibly come death hurts know that also relieving im suicidal im dead inside trying pass time fortunate end least got live short time existence im cherishing memories reason person feelings would end little alone cant anyone im past point redflag easier say fuck sit withering away staring wall im far gone im rambling reason dead mid s still breathing,1
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i suck at literally everything i always have sucked at everything ive tried so many different thing ive put in effort for it to be wasted im just wan na be something everyday im surrounded by people who are all skilled and talented and then there me i cant do anything and i mean anything ive never been good at anything ive always dreamt of it but everytime i try it just becomes a giant waste of time i just wish i could be good at something then id probably start to love a treat myself better it just suck when you re the only person you know who isnt interesting im about to just give up on caring for myself completely at this point,1
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felt good day gone nowfeel trapped cant go dont want anyone feel dad lyle sister even  mom grandma maybe even  brother think hed pretty sad hed live hed experience life dont know trust dad go on hes one im especially worried about sometimes feel like im pillar rests upon relies upon even mom would live life  eventually would never forget pain struggles mental health  im sure wouldnt help go putting thing im trying escape go see way born fucked life made also always like since told since young since old enough learn afraid could changed path late alone everybody else love dating going parties gatherings get togethers people age making inside jokes witty banter travelling squad people care people reliable towards  likes least  people reach alone think people experiences life source im anorexic im scared people like carbs also crave every inch alone killing literally breaking rashes mentally tatters tears burnt skin eyes stings cant feel alone anymore cant keep people converse trust converse homeless men schizophernia criminals got jail  days ago meet wandering streets am mean still always love care people want need people love need busy every single hour day laughing sharing feeling safe feeling like im one group one outside feel like im valued society part society im hiding fringes outskirts shadows dont know always told wasnt good enough became true,1
i have a plan that should 00 work for me it ll be sometime in april i just want everything to be over with i m not doing any of my work anymore i m not going to school and i have never done that before i m at an all time low and i m sick and tired of this constant hurt constant pain and hurting others i cant do this anymore man i wish my last attempt worked why didn t it i cant fucking take this anymore i just want to go i want to die i cant stop cry and hurting myself in multiple way i m done i m tired of this i don t see myself ever living a happy life and i don t think i want to i cant i m sorry,1
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im gonna kill someday turn  thats promiseim  life complete total shit is got friends family members despise me even internet people take seriously really wanna live full life get old  health really starts go downhill ill kill then know ill etcbut someday promise right take life away want to nobody stop me hate society forcing us live,1
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need help boys stop boner hide it usually wear joggers almost always noticeable think im sure get rid reasonable amount time least hide long enough calm,0
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ive suicidal years without ever thinking ill really act apart one two moments always background anyone elsei think worst part knowing itll always part me lingering sense depression ill always able tap into good things life brief distraction from birthday yesterday whole weekend great kinda daydreaming depression scary part casual is causally think redflag like big deal used imagine asking friends kill teenager im midtwenties kinda never left lol wtf im therapist now ironic that,1
too much to do not enough motivation,0
take  mg klonopin ton booze end hospital morgue late work currently taking  dayeverything sort falling apart dont like idea leaving reality situation things probably wont get better dont energy current far know boyfriend upset lack sex drive inability change myself work am afternoon avoid crowds people take lexapro anxiety klonopin thyroid disorder often sends obsessive panic attacks im probation cant smoke weed cure sex drive issue and many others thats mostly driven meds got dui car shop addition repairs court fees deal high risk insurance also cut hours retail job june lost employer health insurance by three shifts next six months ive applied places bus range says change normally dont respond well men telling change know issues need fix reality things control im getting tired myself apparently use others punching bag genuinely want things better money help anyone except thats barely hate doctors hate feeling trapped hospital would hell solution seems like easiest limited supply things wouldnt send uncomfortable eyes ears bleeding slumber know limited time probation guess issue really thought person going side regardless issue ive apparently turned pile human garbage drinks watches cartoons day cant apply jobs car wont able pay insurance car get another job low tolerance people without sex drive diminishing pills apparently huge problem college education way pay one im upset asked change repeatedly fuck it,1
@ComradeKute Are you anhedonic from depression?,1
"@hothusband_01  wanted to know your favourite color. ;) so, you're gonna sleep, now?",0
hell think redflag dailywondering long left want jump window shouldnt die couldnt give damn life hell want die cant freaking understand myself havent reach sixteenth birthday yet would waste die young life everyone would want great life family well off parents sister love me even though part drives depression care me cant give back anything them instead angry acting out cant share feeling anyone fine fucking gonna listen cant explain anyway classmates thinks im smart straight student top class dont seem struggle academically wise looks though outside fine potential successful running coach teachers school supportive mental well being everything seems going way yet struggle motivated anything im getting fatter mood fluctuate like crazy freaking antidepressant makes even depress life absurd anyway sometimes cant even understand people wants live lives boring meaningless one talk feeling suicidal honestly freak out haha funny im fucking useless know what would either dead  years would monk former sounds realistic dont aspire monk probably would work guess yeah pushing freaking hard study either kill fancy car become monk interesting life,1
feel trapped pathetici cant go single day without feeling stupid disgusting  deserve anything anyone im horrible person feel like burden everyone around me theres nothing im good depression made indifferent everything younger used like reading cant even concentrate reading single chapter whenever someone asks hobby never know answer reality either sit dark feeling horrible watch youtube videos distract myself kind hobby that im particularly good school either hard study depression cant fucking focus motivation non existent ive tried make feel better venting ways drawing writing self harming nothing makes feel better,1
leave nephewniece personal memorytoday middle preparations ultimate day got news brother going child since im never going meet himher leave personal memory something would allow himher know little bit me,1
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anyone else want end all know much wuss soi already know am sheesh could press button would pop existence avoid painful death costs would it unfortunately suiciding way out painful redflag,1
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understand fans filmmaker roman polanski could love movie could understand could totally hate ebert one understand people running theater first viewing im sure could fall either category however someone cant get enough kafka bizarre dark comedies paranoia tenant effective enough running time maybe not one cases might masterwork halfhour twilight zone episode serling delivering coda terkovsky or whomever might be writhes bed bandages similar treatment doomed protagonist repulsion was however could argued ambiguity sense surreal coming sustained disintegration character location and quite frankly better lead performance tenantbr br as stands tenant intriguing premise kind one tire telling people polanski polish migr paris takes apartment recently acquired simone choule jumped near death window died soon after tenants conservative max terms noise saturday night terkovskys friends complaints much noise happen again polanskis goodnatured slightly nervous tenant says peace even moving cabinet chair soon complaints get registered another tenant him register complaints case much mistaken identity lack peace mind oneself surrounding people downward spiral goes on polanski ratchets tension and dare say blackcomedic laughs showing terkovsky midst horrible dream one polanskis strongest scenes period finding teeth wall mention bathroom across way which might add always cinematic lynchpin horror surreal madnessbr br but somehow film never really feels significant aside excessive design wouldbe mindf machine terkovskys tenants seeming seem little while theres much suspense finding really get him makes paranoia selffulfilling least twice thought well why polanski take title role himself hes bad actor appeared several films plays direction aside great looking awkward tense like church moments sort flipping thinking really get kill himself transformation less creepy tongueincheek test see pull off entirely do despite polanski working well look like meek frazzled terkovsky could see least actors could pull subtlety affecting personality time one sees drag goes cringeworthy true camp particularly goes doubleclimax end which course little surprisebr br and yet pleasure filmbuff polanski fan see supporting cast try dig much ambiguous characters winters douglas best even strain limited characters unexpected moments like polanski adjani getting hot heavy bruce lee movie gets really drunk one almost random scene slaps kid near fountain rather brilliant themselves good film one could maybe stick attention many coffees midnight essential film exactly,0
im thinking againnobody gives fuck im tired,1
i ll go back to the beginning i started dating a girl i feel i really fell in love with it lasted only month but i really felt something for her there were a few time i asked to be intimate with her with the last time her telling me she thought she wa asexual i wa fine with that and wa trying my best to adapt she wasn t a touchy partner but my love language is touch whenever she asked to tone it down i did everything i could to tone it down though in hers and my whole friend group s eye i didn t try hard enough she broke up with me over text with a long paragraph not in person because our friend group probably told her i wa shaking from anxiety that morning i talked to a friend who wasn t in the friend group about what i knew wa going to happen the girlfriend got very upset with me about that but i felt like i couldn t talk to anybody about it without them telling the girlfriend about how scared i wa i admit talking to someone else instead of her wa wrong but i felt like if i talked to the girlfriend about how scared i wa of the break up it wa going to get worse she told me i made everyone uncomfortable that i don t listen or have boundary after reading that long break up paragraph i spiraled i ran somewhere the group wouldn t find me and i completely broke down it wa so bad that i wa taken to the hospital because of my thought of self harm and worse i lost that friend group that girlfriend a lot of people from that place there s only one person in that friend group that still talk to me and i think she s annoyed with how much i dream about everyone no one in the group talk about me anymore i wa easy to get rid of and easy to forget what suck more is that this isn t the first time this happened in that group i always knew that one wrong move and i wa next and then it actually happened i haven t been able to keep track of time or my own memory i haven t been sleeping well either too little or too much i ve been using pot a lot more than i had before and i m exhausted all day every day all i want is to die,1
i think i m happy i ve just went through a couple of month of sad dark feeling and thought best way i can explain it is a painful emptiness inside of me mentally for most of my life i ve always remember going through these phase it never a on or off switch it just kinda slowly engulf me one day i feel a little bit sad and it start this snowball effect after a couple of month of the constant painful emotionless feeling i keep getting the same thought of just ending myself but today i think i m happy it weird to explain but life seems a bit more vibrant music is touching me emotionally to the point i want to sing i hope today is the start of my happy phase and i really hope it last just a long i m so desperate to feel something again,1
worldofnc i do a digital fast every so often it s where i stop watching the news or looking at social medium just music reading and netflix it may be sticking my head in the sand but it give me a firebreak from the stress and depression that is modern life stay sane,1
making excuses every dayit seems reddit everything huh im recent college graduate got sit home watch generic congrats class  posts roll thinking nothing but if graduated time  wouldve actual ceremony even home matter fact moment im sitting motel mom brother  unemployed miserable younger sister kicked mom yet whole job drivers license im shit aside problems seizures nothing stopping getting job im applying every day every job shut down one opportunity postgraduation immediately something bachelors theatre thrown window immediately every time open mouth someone good news this possible opportunity that shit gets shut matter days due one thing another friends guys occasionally sleep me everyone time wander phones cant respond texts maybe im cool hip enough get it im always alone one talk to complaining one platform ive negative thoughts incel stuff along occasional ignorant completely left field rude comments subreddits part of best friend left even graduated literally dropping freshmen married span year half something obviously wrong me people come contact know im pleasant yet one wants invite anywhere stopped using snapchat every friend group a part of kept getting together without me want shit me encourages antisocialism before yet im looked person reaching out want die simple that cry often often want take easy way out gun head knowing shitty luck id manage survive one thing keeps going getting shot running traffic family thats excuse even though everyones mess still need depend other want grieve that wouldve gone long even graduated  intended date otherwise one outside family would bat fucking eyelid maybe oh chick tits yeah funny im sick life,1
think blame porn addiction parents no hormones yes exploited society yes becoming sexually acceptive blame most told you jews pornhub xtube brazzers blacked redtube youporn chattube jewish excecutives feeling antisemitic yet,0
haha  morning got two hours sleep went sleep  got  well coff time now fillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfillerfiller,0
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help mewhy love important fuck love,1
sure how might jump bridge onto highway might jump work want fucking live anymore wanted die fucking long feels like thing ever really wanted probably going actually bitch hopefully find courage finally kill myself really reason anything lifes basically perfect always wanted kill always will might well get ruins life lives around me hopefully killing today,1
benackerman btw my iphone is acting funny dying quickly and freezing and b i m not admitting anything just sayin,0
star rating  works  misses mark  little bit  lagging behind  pits br br mike atherton dudikoff peacefully making way wild west spots group men mistreating lady gentleman naturally steps puts stop kills son nasty enforcer beginning guns blazing battle finish one winnerbr br m dudikoff action star whos never truly managed take me maybe discovered late film saw last monday human shield another dud ha ha added list thing westerns films sort transport different time place provide real escapist entertainment dudikoff picked one better scripts films go anywaybr br the film hits low points shape naff central villain sounding like blank marlon brando generally ropey acting cast along obligatory cheap looking sets if strange reason life ever depended watching dudikoff film would one best choices ,0
@lulyciienta@karllydolly Anyway i'm off to the land of nod. Night both of you  xx Tweet tomorrow. Adios XD,0
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need someone answer questionim  jobless habe direction friends people make anxious ive way much drama people able trust anyone ever again see reason continue im broken problems communicating people life exhausting question is kill myself,1
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failed midsemester exams im going depression birthday coming one family wants talk me reddit place open up hey guys hope yall well so recently failed literally midsemester exams especially subjects love most parents expect lot ive let down birthday coming days family thinks exist reddit ive known quite supportive especially sub open guys freely thank much support hopefully things get better maybe birthday least state mind,0
suicidal circumcision barely feel anythingim american young adult circumcised infant aware part genitals modified recently really really hate consent would never fucking agreed this really feel anything masturbating circumcision allegedly reduces male pleasure significantly led hate body reoccurring feelings humiliation redflag spiral overwhelming depression even botched  highly suspect  would loved keep whole autonomy intact strongly suspect  relatively aggressive  circumcision reason why lot pleasure zones male body apparently exist me i really feel significant sexual pleasure gripping shaft testicles andor orgasm frenulum apparently entirely gone maybe sex masturbation feel good anyway know feeling way others act it supposed feel really good anything compare it too really hope circumcision reduce male pleasure significantly claimed since masturbation  least  really anything pleasurable significant extent ill visiting urologist soon verify whats specifically  possibly  wrong me think might botched minor way although allegedly lose sensation circumcision naturally possible mine went wrong way broke parents this never wanted genitals customized look like dads wanted born with kept parents get it mother simply told sorry upsetting me would never done knew modification would upset me theres nothing allegedly now restore foreskin specific nerves entirely gone true restoration may far future started defending it said doubtful reduces sensations clean implied circumcised penis looks better one undergo cut im still disappointed would found girl would okay foreskin part made angry said ill never know possibly reduced amount sexual pleasure anyway thats big deal told dad circumcised child actually before brought bible saying god command objectively evil action purely good wonder mandated old testament alleged health effects caused stop identifying christian since prayers failed receive response feel betrayed him feels like praying someone let sexually abused except problems masturbation  always stop high sex drive im still virgin s waiting marriage kind book job situation circumcision commanded old testament im sure keep living like this ultimately want kill myself wish could fix done me feel powerless anything change soon heard theres rumors form expensive full restoration possibly open public decade two clue old them research area underfunded disorganized taken seriously even worse reductions circumcision rates may ironically reduce motivation companies produce product like that curefull general public may never arrive foreseeable future even anyone angry at doctors parents society theres real clear answer that society really talks circumcision form quick gag joke im wondering much sexual pleasure im actually missing id still mad surgery mainly nonconsensual cosmetic operation genitals started becoming overwhelmingly angry world parents etc theres disputed reports significantly decreases sexual pleasure males wonder thats sex porn masturbation seems boring me barely feel anything watching it ive considered moving place assisted redflag legal really guts go it im afraid afterlife presently june  hopeful help destroyed sexual life hope future present happiness ive undergone deconstruction faith hope could fully restored within lifetime sex organs essentially destroyed rest life are know left never consented natural lubrication destroyed never consented sensitivity reduced unknown amount never consented this cant even express feelings anyone feels like ive horribly violated since would never ever removed part genitalia cosmetic reason thats apparently legally happened me since wanted look like father well barely feel anything masturbating too suspect sex little different miss pleasurable human activity someone love whats point going on im so angry done me like gross disfigurement one family understands me friends either always bullied kid wish could escape sex make it want become drug user either ive never point apparently thing feel really good me part genitals removed without consent im so enraged it even live okay modern united states gave right me im forced look hideous mutilation body foreseeable future barely feel anything sexually im much coward go it ive thinking move place legal ive scared afterlife prayers silent far need way cope want die parents ones really care entire life feel like sexually hurt child cant tell that tell that want break hearts know doctor recommended them know enough information question recommendations would give so much happen me sexuality destroyed im enraged world normal wish normal penis,1
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seen film one time  years ago day always told people probably best film ever seen considering verbal dialogue thought dialogue found film enthralling even found holding breath make sound would highly recomend film wish available dvd,0
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going chiropractor sounds nice cracks n stuff yknow,0
one traumatising days whileso yeah ate battery dumbass move fizz  told mum went aampe yet dumbass absconded sat field hour sobbing eyes police came got took back hospital spent hours majors department trying determine whether needed surgery not almost got sent hospital hours away specialist surgery ended needing yet hopefully all got spend least hrs ward im medically fit go back mental hospital im stupid thinking through left note inpatient shit feel stupid using viable enough method,1
loved film seen philadelphia film festival march  went india  friends movie real related everything savored every moment characters believable story poignant ending realistic sentimental also enjoyed discussion director showing movie shows well blending complete mixing  worlds east west supporting cast wonderful depicting life tourist encounters india quite realistically humor subtle times dry makes realistic woven daily escapades characters easy identify situations portrayed,0
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struggling depression redflag suicidal thoughts since  everything feels grey tasteless horrible recently decided take action took therapy session online psychiatrist asshole  prescribed medicine problem afraid take antidepressants time want able help myselfi  years old unemployed never anyone way look myself feel dum worthless ugly time none talk specific thing family religious probably would judge opining up dosorry english first language living depression,1
"@officialTila draw on his face with eyeliner, hahaha ",0
good life think redflag hours every single dayi go much detail snippet many great things life appreciate take granted however think often redflag used come spurts bad things happened anxiety built up then one solid day per week thought logically would it now matter many great things occur life spend quarter day thinking sweet release death sometimes feels like comfort manage least strongest one couple things noticed anxiety huge catalyst constantly feel uncomfortable inside head also hunger tiredness cause bad thoughts anxiety overwhelm me annoying bad mood makes eating undesireable eating makes mood worse work long hours eating forbidden many times even possible im thinking whatever causing shit storm longer matters even want fix point want over bright side trend continues soon spending every waking moment thinking redflag desire surely overcome reservations currently have anyway thanks listening good day,1
king underworld features early role humphery bogart one many gangster rolesbr br he plays joe gurney uses female doctor treat men pays it follows goes live auntie one gurneys men kills doctor husband also worked him gurney kidnaps author way find female doctor gets write life story plans kill him finally meets doctor gives gurney men substance makes temporarily blind author fallen love manage escape police arrivebr br joing excellent bogie cast kay francis james stephenson john eldredgebr br watching king underworld good way spend hour one eveningbr br rating  stars ,0
hi all i ve got a script for clonidine for my anxiety and i am curious if anyone here ha any experience with it good or bad thanks in advance,1
@Huayruro whatever you said just sounds so much better they way you said it!! ,0
really know come right say i want kill myself so keyboard vomited insteadi know actually belong im still sort new reddit so like someone let know somewhere else yeah little long know whats funny life always felt like series one day middle school one day closer summer meant entire break grandmothers house made day one day tally whole summer parents tell worthless turn around shower sister affection whole summer stepdads parents tell the spawn devil not kidding honestly thing grandparents said me several occasions honestly being godfearing southern baptists starting time turned  biological grandchild got high school never ending series one day responsibility could relax i never relaxed packed schedule full every day never acknowledge avoiding fact feel happy ever yes know high school prime time teenage angst but saw friends go angsty phases relate connect anything desperately wanted to things made happy didnt always hollow feeling like feeling something never knew was learned mimic friends feelings happy happy forth never felt genuine relied feelings own odd thing know explain anyone could feel deeply people yet feel nothing own turned  always making one day closer  could move parents house dad hit anymore mom tell much awful human was learned feel little bit own hated it decided feelings bad things could feel bad learned box up reflected good feelings people around me ended boyfriend it got house struggle counting one day boyfriend got back basic training came home said army changed him said want more feelings still sucked could connect people though sort of people meant feelings emotions shitty ones empty spaces almost feel empty like clothes almost fit every day past one day excuses look easy way out one day wanting sister grow alone one day work make enough money school one day trying figure actually wanted married not one day without boys slugging deployments grandda got sick keeping healthy one day really dark place sick kept tally days much his if makes one day i met last boyfriend well call nerd seeing face first thing morning made want see one day would look like one glorious year stopped thinking one day stopped caring making reasons try one day living life taking care grandda dancing music kitchen nerd made pancakes felt things real things things stopped putting bad feelings boxes explode examine later date dealt things came smiled nothing generally let life happen thought crossed mind long sucks back here granddas gone lost back december cancer cant measure days able take care anymore supposed live supposed go another cruise supposed see get married supposed able retire properly supposed live didnt failed left go stupid vacation got sicker came back recovery him late that didnt push hard enough hospital scans let cancer spread mom tasked taking care him couldnt grandda told found love hold onto forever lost it failed left asked me couldnt keep hospital let mother watch father die that asked stay got hospital didnt think could take care anymore even though year myself put mother that failed pay it lost everything gave joy past year deserve it nerd dipped blame him talked getting married army wanted send alaska mentioned solution separation already facing said i want ask like this so decided wait sent texas instead decided worth it try me texas supposed much doable alaska texas supposed easier manage waiting supposed smarter guess absence really make heart grow fonder orders first deployment got new girlfriend now im back one day one day im selfish enough afraid one would miss me im scared original shock wore off one would really care way back middle school hardest time understanding this spend life cultivating things it end point know thats existential angst catch thinking time spent long time trying find something live for something survive for anything fill void make feel like anything matters dont feel anything except despair despondency again mean honestly die end bother one truly say are going leave end dont want fight claw hurt everyday trying make through die dont want get better fall dont want that want this make it want to ive always sucker ruining ending afraid im afraid would happen sister suffered much loss short  years im afraid would happen mother lost parents less two years barely holding together im afraid roommates thinking failed way see happening yet think almost every day voice whispering easy would be quiet would finally be fact cant feel emotions properly matter more mom would figure out parents love sister young would adjust roommates theyre dating probably makes whole alone thing harder deal with hey single person whos world would stop spinning even moment without me tired time fight getting bed would nothing but if quieter voice always whispers funny thing keep living life even sure want see another day of ridiculous excuse pulled air someone afraid give something hates,1
mess genres mainly based stephen chows genre mashups inspiration theres magic kungfu college romance sports gangster action weepy melodrama topping production excellent pacing fast easy get past many flaws filmbr br a baby abandoned next basketball court homeless man brings shaolin monastery thats middle city along special kung fu manual homeless man somehow cant read old monk teaches boy expires tries master special technique manual school taken phony kung fu master assisted four wacky monks new master gets mad  year old boy pretending hurt masters weak punches throws night boy found throwing garbage basket incredible distance man bring gangsters club play darts leads big fight boys expulsion monastery mans decision turn boy college basketball sensationbr br al happens first  minutes happening first  minutes aside extreme shorthand storytelling first problem little get know main character way movie man uses boy sharply defined time first third over plot follows new ground except insane action climax film im sure easily imagine wacky monks show towards end effects photography stunt work top notch make uninspired plot br br stephen chow much better command plot comedy writing film live shadow thats good reason ignore it quite entertaining even scattershot ending recommended,0
it s gotten so bad lately i am basically in a constant state of fear i can t get a break from it whatsoever just a constant state of being afraid impending doom and panic any helpful word and tip would be greatly appreciated it s so debilitating and disheartening,1
bruh statistics cram  hours worth math videos chapter test currently basically pm test due pm context im  college courses also babysit  siblings including  month old baby brother mention depression anxiety much work dont im overwhelmed yeah constant cycle anyway yeah,0
helpdoes anyone without bullshit answers like gets better much live want talk me im fucking lonely one helping ive tried kill twice past  hours,1
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belong anywherenothing ever helps try go friends either say shit help anyone stop replying fit anywhere anyone nobody cares enough help tough times makes worse me friends help private instagram help nobody cares wants around me ill never truly happy end everything,1
notion incels violent neonazis come from cause really seeming like another fear mongering attempt media,0
nee sum critics critique continuation story put prologue read prologue httpswwwredditcomrteenagerscommentsilxbea_short_fiction_prologue_do_critique_pleaseutm_mediumandroid_appamputm_sourceshare btw added sum things da prologue chapter  called sleepers coldness swept body like raindrops sky coldness wasnt one woke earth wake like preset timer questions filled head struggled bit get back feet biggest one ended here middle jungle tried get bearing surrounding eyes laid sword struck ground ghillie suit top that felt strong connection sword didnt think much maybe fill head questions now,0
miss school yes really get wrong online school sucks im vacation im like matter  states instead liquid solid vapor states horny hungry bored send help sos,0
someone validate rn im pain keep seeing ppl transphobic nonbinary people just pls need validation ill cry lt,0
know never able help myself apathetic whole life never going change constant ruminations zero self esteem redflag loneliness fucking wonderful lucky me obese since   now know ill never lose it tried tried nothing never spoken girl always aloneknowing still cannot bothered help escape it got support family nothing change unless change know never going happengetting thoughts suicide constant wish could hurt mom like that would break her unable help myself,1
@therealginger Just waiting for the DMs from the musicians calling me out for saying I liked them *shhhh maybe they missed my blip* ,0
long distance relationship tips basically met girl months ago started talking lot told feels weeks ago weve long distance relationship maybe month half now parents know me told parents anything her scared guys tips also wants fly germany meet soon things problems like gonna stay because parents know long gonna stay stuff liket hat really scared never really actual relationship guys tips something long distance relationships please help really love wanna lose her,0
anyone wanna talk im lying bed pretty bored rn idk else do figured im talk cause late night convos best yeah pm chat vibe ig,0
hate body dont like anything body want different ive looked like could care less weight like things like boobs get body ok theres rant day happy new year,0
fucking tired pretending betterfrom everyone family counselors friends keep feeding bullshit feel put pity bs everyday wish owned gun could done already even sad tired life terrible nothing bad overly happened trying get disability  years mostly making people happy pretending get on life shit look forward nothing anymore everything seems like huge waste time think real conversation anyone months now reason even still alive want upset anyone thats it even starting go dont care hole everything else even honestly expect anyone read respond want least something truth somewhere,1
@Daydreamer092 Great!!  I'm sorry I'm not familiar with clannad..T_T but is there other anime songs you like or enjoy listening?,0
wow i got sick out of nowhere and now i cant think straight and mtv hasnt posted the hill online wtf,0
I CAN SMELL YOUR DEPRESSION,1
want exist anymore traveling going scenic views used help bit want wake tomorrow all cat reason still alive hes mean,1
trump banned twitter oh shit please dont tell hes coming reddit,0
im sick happy suicidal muchwhat say happiness isnt even anything feel nothing,1
get panic attacks someone talk really long time messages again like actual panic attacks heart palpitations feeling chills trembling sweating that im sure normal,0
crazy believing bad dreamim  hate alive deserve die need die brain like mine ever exist everyone hates me everyone sees knows fucked am many falls concussions kid maybe thats mind twisted sick joke nightmare maybe kill ill wake happy ive started cutting helped while much anymore maybe need cut deeper nothing feels real feels floaty blurry like dream fake even asking all im sorry,1
femur breaker like someone there please let go brrrrrrrrrrhydraulic aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa breathing noises aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa  crying sounds old man sounds,0
life work want live like anymore work hrs day go home time work again friends gf nothing live parents live canada costs half million buy small house matter much work matter never afford house dreams dead advice people give go walk going hang soon life worth living another day existing work,1
url storys link interested say  thanks reading considering theres anything make comfortable answer questions try clear confusion etc ill best can one thing say also know food issue food pantrybank subreddits exist try to im trying put little can,1
want itive said post different sub thing stopping dog late night talks mightve told something ill tell you think hate useless use world wanna die nobody would care died theyd happy gone everyone better gone,1
went paragliding today loved ithttpsshareicloudcomphotosapdraoxkoexwwelxfuslw,0
dont know much longer thisim stressed time try hard keep motivated cant im close taking bottle pills cutting vein open dont know do havent much motivation anything want lay bed day almost killed last night didnt gets harder every single day dont want leave friends family hurt im suffering much dont really reason kill except friends dont know much take im sorry repetitive really bad words ill probably cut little try sleep god knows ill worse tomorrow,1
failed attempafter failed redflag attemp know feel set one throwing something traumatic back face took bunch drugs guess time im left feeling hollow empty inside start get back sort normality,1
went to bed at pm and now wide awake at am i don t have to be to work until 0 this is going to be a long day,0
bitch it's ****** depression hours every hour we're fooling ourselves for thinking we'll ever be free  https://twitter.com/hooksandheroics/status/989069353814458375 …,1
tired fucking life want end allcant take anymore used fool thinking tomorrow better cried sleep every night everyday old fucking thing nothing changed fuck life fuck everyone let fuckimg die already fuck fuck fuck,1
waking up to the sound of jackhammer is not a pleasant way to start the day,0
want bit time thoughtsdear sw first would like thank clicking listening random strangers troubles now let us get point feeling borderline suicidal apathetic suicidal care life ends soon part want end myself unless feel like choice pain unbearable feeling way girl broke past year ended hopefully enough suffice although two months passed feel still last week while relative progress forced move on cant help grow weary period progress know turn family distant speak much friends helpful all feel like problems nearby easy possible meet up option call told im feeling terrible call whenever talk however majority time pick up do say busy call back never do makes whatever im feeling worse reluctant call anybody case make feel worse result whenever call them talk bit make false promises hang up feel like completely forgotten me course feel like life cannot help wonder would situation me friend need would take situation like seriously say anything intend do know sometimes things slip peoples minds me seems like really dont care issue slip many times nowhere go help myself tried whatever daily life requires everyday extremely disheartening awake memories past fall asleep thinking memories past well even dreams take back past find part problem find many activities fun happy know want find someone love loves back together happy understand happen anytime soon probably see everyone around happy carefree wonder cannot like them furthers hole told try make friends meet new people enjoy small talk like parties anything superficial simply enjoy process sifting hundreds people pretend like reality dont give crap you care interacting you like current friends shown losing motivation fast past weeks im thinking redflag sorry wall text im asking anyone cares least pretends care perhaps give different view words support anything else think help edit thanks replies helpful advice read look tomorrow calling day now,1
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i m laying in bed facing the wall and trying to relax but i m hearing so many thing plus the air conditioning sound is so louad,0
@dragontart thanks ! someone with a brain in there head!  hey you nice to meet ya!,0
yeah once i m alone i get so so depressed i ve only been at home for a day because it s my off day and i m already feeling like shit like there s nothing to look forward to i would opt to go out but i don t have money for it to be a good day with friend i know that there are thing we can do that doesn t require money but food is a necessity and i can t really go out without spending on food i d go to a friend s house but i only have one friend who s house is always available but she life too far away it s really hard to realise that the only thing keeping me sane is distraction like work i try to be more involved with my family but they always make me feel like shit i try to reach out to my friend but they re always busy signing up for cool class like yoga or pottery or whatever would help me meet new people but it cost money and plus i work hr day a week it s hard to spare time and my adhd causing me time blindness doe not help at all like yeah i have free day but when you count in the hour i spend having executive dysfunction or procrastinating it s basically nothing i can t relax for shit when i m on my own it s hard to reach out to people when they don t take whatever i feel seriously i just wish they cared enough to reach out and be willing to spend some time with me even if we don t have money i hate being alone so much fyi i am on an internship and i m being paid 0 a month and my family is not financially stable,1
"@trent_reznor You should be proud.   Well done, sir!",0
announcement everybody get cheese bread got pizza  amp saved like million dollars willpower  strong ,0
dang another spring break how cool is that too bad i have to work all week oh well more money for a phone ttyl everbody,0
Some of those that are hurting are in leadership roles themselves. #Depression isn't isolated to our employees.  pic.twitter.com/tZknHL1q5y,1
gods tiredi want pain stop  years happiness always lie something gets way lie say love hurt soon convenient get bored eventually nobody gets say smart find someone level is matter let end please,1
end itif do deal issues like consequences me,1
"@collierchin sweet, I'll tweet when I head over... Hopefully you're recovered by then ",0
school still closed long time teacher told class whole situation probably school stay closed couple months still said school open provide safe environment students thats case moment options school discussing are split classeswould help lot not whole school break timelogical sence mask mandated classsome people bla bla bla people dont use common sence sadly provide stuff protection corona etci dont think costs according teacher take weeks someone makes decision everything take like  months happy online school way better home cheat tests,0
"@cindolce awe........thanks sweets!! Thank you for all your advice, I owe you!! ",0
@JohnAmussen Ione Sky never did anthing for me.  Must be a boy thing.  Wonder where she is today?,0
im tired called useless leechi recently began first year college double majoring engineering software engineering total  credit hours semester drive  minutes  back every schoolday immediately go home take online courses homework done look jobs online applied  last  days clean house dishes coean bathrooms week flip fold clothes whatever random task father assigns watched cameras make sure this got learners taught drive made drive  hours straight freeway round trip  week period first taken drive got liscense month ago chores homework try figure dinner sometimes made cook it sometimes ny dad makes gets mad ate without even gets  sometimes treats like retarded ask dinner pay around  month gas insurance spare truck allowed drive hence getting job everyday told useless leech faggot mistake fucking hurts  friend family offered let live them could never that would burden anytime stay close somebody extended period time leave me sorry rant needed get somewhere,1
want goth gf  spits mouth  crushes thighs much ask,0
so facing time prison like  years know family behind back already mentioned times mother go ill probably end killing pretty neutral it even though know cares me burden worrying put extra money commissary travel time amp everything else feel like ending things would put everything rest little easier know sad grieve honestly know get passed given years think physically mentally survive prison  years currently thought court dates come closer afraid might actually put situation guess venting never scared life facing prison thinking ending it,1
rapunzel rapunzel let cuddle hair looks soft bet would comfy lie nap,0
ive dumped someone pure fear bonding hey yall problem wich would be one girl told today loves pure fear bonding someone dumped her dont even know it especially liked alot too kinda did tried tell gently yall probably know turns time kinda feel like ahole anyone advice could handle situation,0
i would like to send hug out to anyone who is fighting depression i feel you and i am too please have trust and faith in the divine you are loved we all need to know this i wish for healing for everyone bb,1
lovecan broken heart kill,1
hey all i m 0 and i started taking 0mg citalopram in summer last year i had no side effect except for a decreased appetite and worsened insomnia i already suffered with that though everything wa going well until the start of this year when my anxiety suddenly got out of control my doctor think i grew resistant to the 0mg or something my dose wa increased to 0mg the end of feb for the first week i felt fine but then i started to feel nauseous the second week then over last weekend i began to be physically sick i take citalopram in the morning a soon a i wake up because i used to take it at night and it wasn t good for my insomnia a well a this for the good of being completely transparent i am a social university student who doe enjoy drinking even though alcohol wa fine with 0mg could it be possible that it is not now i know this is an important piece of context hence why i m including it basically did anyone else suffer with nausea and vomiting after increasing their dose should i be concerned that it s been week since starting the new dose and my side effect haven t settled also how worried should i be mixing citalopram with this new dose when i wa fine when i drank on 0mg thanks for any advice,1
is dreading tomorrow i hate hospital especially when it s your baby that is the patient,0
consumed enough sugar fuel small army dr pepper float extra creamy vanilla ice cream energy first time today,0
suicidal please someone explain want end lifeplease,1
pushups decide to day   pushups today finally got streak  pushups,0
Truck. Music. Ice cream. Nostalgia. ,0
i ve been suffering from bout of depression since my dad died last year i wa already in the second semester of my master s when it happened i finished that semester with the exception of my research method course and then i took a leave of absence then in september 0 i went back to school to work on my placement at a political office until november from january to march i worked there part time until my contract finished and told them that i would be focusing on my thesis until my school is finished my thesis didn t go a planned and i can t help but feel like i ve let my supervisor down she is super sweet and although she is very busy she ha been very supportive and know what happened to my dad my thesis ended up not having enough interview not enough literature and i d have to finish it by next week and find a second reader in order to graduate on time this wa also my fault because i feel like i haven t been taken my mental health seriously enough a i have had so many day where i did not want to do anything i ve procrastinated so much a a result of fear depression grief and burnout etc i just have not mentioned this to my supervisor because i don t want to be making excuse it would take a miracle for me to finish this all on time and i really want to because it s so expensive to pay for another semester i m feeling so depressed over this,1
one month today ill deadit th birthday perfect timing really one week parents weekend college ill get say goodbye family one last time roommate away soccer game one stop me hung wall hook ill hang hanging belt everyday thinking look around neck  years making ive depressed since  always joked happy age  id end it well im im miserable ever end wanted leave something seem like total surprise go it,1
lost everything valuei dont really know tell story way makes sense others bullied young age first  years life didnt single moment happiness felt alone matter id be even got older friends always felt like things missing never moment actually felt good sometimes things hurt less good day got me years ago life changed lot random occurences met girl first person ever look like im normal worth much anyone else first person felt valued appreciated gave humanity nothing made every single part life better everything became easier became happy didnt even need anything waking seeing enough make life feel perfect was went spending every single day life feeling like shit worth anything inside keep wall okay actually feeling like value girl might perfect made feel perfect made feel like human being would done anything her did together years everything great talked marriage week ago nothing wrong week ago went short holiday friends yesterday got call telling accident didnt make it woman reason ive ever felt like value dont know do hard kill yesterday try stay bed go sleep feel physically sick dont know go dont know why really dont see alive tomorrow dont see point anymore dont know,1
Just got done eating some gooood food! yum ,0
like everyone else allowed frustrated me use lot upt unpaid time off time get vacation anything sister  wedding a whole fucking week kids birthdays insists at things like baptisms know use lot hours them overlook love know want see me  hours left shift  hours might use  today front house flooded theres car stuck officer blocking people entering emailed hr even sent picture company give fuck probably cancel,1
"@MattShea Birth control, which by the way has a onslaught of horrible side effects, one of which is depression.",1
i m planning on moving out of my father s house for the first time in my life my entire life i have gotten anxiety when i would stay away overnight somewhere other then my own home i used to not even be able to do sleepover but i ve improved a lot since then and even took a five day vacation to visit a friend last year and only felt bad the first day i know moving out will be good for me too however when i think about moving out my thought immediately go to how many panic attack i might get for a while after i move out and i m honestly terrified doe anyone have any advice that could help with this i can t live at home forever lol,1
help me im afraid girls decided make change tried yubo sheesh fine girl waved me respnd,0
people make hot text posts images videos feel much easier text posts it ive seen one text post hot genuinely thought deserved there post guy saying horny fucking cuming block cheese also much harder funny shitposts text,0
@matthewkempster not sarcastic at all ,0
aaaaaaaaaah still cold outside at least it s sunny for now that is,0
just need someone to talk to whether you re listening to me or i m listening to you too,1
fuck fuck tiktok posts get it guys hate tiktok ive seen many sprouting hard tell theyre true anymore want next satirical fake cancer posts thank cumming ted talk,0
chauncey hey did u talk to mom r they home yet i hope they r ok wish i wa coming home easter,0
feeling pain birthday maybe sign dont belong herenobody go thru this torture nah redflag looked upon,1
feel like italian tried making pasta first time like homemade made dough added pasta sauce everything gave bit mom wait im italian now like good whered get said made said like seriously whered get said made all,0
girls simps something happened ago simped trend would take selfies ourselves decided join post i deleted post this  seconds later got dm throwaway account saying following word word hey f ur hot af wasnt really creeped this contrary flattered school thanked her next morning like  told talk kik didnt kik told insisted got it did even though says  afterwards added her said wanted another pic me declined wasnt even supposed awake yet tired sent picture she wearing clothes dont worry noticed didnt look  probably looked older was pretty common wasnt gonna take risks deleted kik went back reddit blocked account theres examples people simping me get it im saying girls simps trying defend boys acting like simps incel im saying everyone simp internet regardless gender,0
@cuzyourehotshot @lovelyzband @infinitens97 it's not depression it's anxiety and i will let her know <Emoji: Face with tears of joy>,1
marissamonotony why,0
yall ever motivation keep daily hygiene haha,0
"The Chinese police registration currently reads &quot;THE SYSTEM IS DOWN, THE SYSTEM IS ON THE FRITZ&quot; when there is a malfunction ",0
want die cant ask helpwow hard im  years old guess saw everything going another waybut all wake every day thought shooting myself ive made poor decisions life live daily one im  sure bipolar lead path want diagnosed mentally ill well cant end life easily humanly would like ive never hurt anyone never will yet continue hurt myself paper all work entertainment industry earning  figures year bipolar lead road promiscuity result stds fear hiv not tested fear kills me either way feel never live normal life work drink go sleep hate job feel like it confidence ask help least current low lasted awhile used get manic create art ideas passion passion gone feel like empty vessel find asking whats point die eventually worst part would making mother sad incredible mom sacrificed much cry thinking would  literally thing keeping alive im rambling had drinks know anymore im sick depression know,1
First ever tweet in Singapore.... ,0
know fightin freak knuckles were pumpkin ready ,0
"...which had some unexpected twists and turns. I now have it on dvd, hooray  Cant wait to jog those little gray cells.",0
im feeling anything right nowim currently unable feel emotion second time happened me im  year old man currently studying but starting hate study job never worked before still live mother girlfriend think im losing her talk nobody enjoy anything daily life last two weeks horrible sister mother got covid grandfather passed away not covid related lived town hrs home seen father brother girlfriend weeks covid everything getting better getting sadder today talked girlfriend feel really sad day crying lot talked im feeling telling feels alone tell also feel alone ended feeling worse got point cant feel anything sad made girlfriend feel like shit im sad care her cant feel anything found friend got engaged happy feel anything im trying cry cant get feel sad work classes feel urge simply feel like it ive feeling like hour straight know do,1
i thought i would kill myself but i freed myself instead i went to a crisis center now i am taking a stand and speaking my truth i am telling everybody about the abuse i suffered a a child my entire family is against me but i am standing strong anyway god made me unbreakable and all of you too you just have to find a way to believe believing in myself wa the hardest thing i had to learn how to do but it can be done and i love you all,1
yo tf happened usually around k people online k tf happened,0
never thought trying play college sport would ruin lifein high school optimistic going played sports clubs generally fun lot really bright future not athletics all decision ruined mentally less two years later dropped quit job second acl tear look back wonder wtf life didnt quit first one id still mental health likely wouldnt retorn it lack motivation do anything ive lost muscle body lay bed parents force get up ive already gained quite bit weight legs feel like shit used hopes dreams reason theyre gone dont care them want knee fixed lack motivation discipline exercise dont want kill myself dying anything like sleep could go that,1
hey girl fire alarm everytime see get urge disturb classtime putting fingers,0
boyfriend makes feel loved im still used itbut nice,0
mtee w deolfc mizzzidc there s a difference between telling her what s it on twitter for for god sake then come here claiming depression everything is depression these day,1
grandpa died covid tell friends one things keep,0
thought got better thought would finally get right path made another mistake back was care anymore easy way out back used,1
kill myselfi deserve die,1
gotta straightup  seen film solid dog bite dog quite while im big fan oldschool late s mid s era catiii films hearing style films making bit comeback films this herman yaus gong tau which writing yet seen interested give newerwave catiii films shot film live expectations absolutely  quite fashion imaginedbr br the story follows young animalistic resourceful virtually unstoppable thai hitman somewhat vague history comes hong kong complete mission due badluck quickly identified roguish copy who exudes many qualities hitman quickly apprehended captured state affairs last long though unnamed assassin escapes captors quickly shows local police taken lightly hunt on catandmouse game police mad dog as police refer him ensues along way mad dog inadvertently befriended slowwitted young woman bond forms two helps sticky situation ante keeps getting upped mad dogs objective get hong kong back thailand means necessary cops keep trying reel alivebr br i could probably write ten paragraphs complex thoroughly layered film want give much away watched dog bite dog knowing nothing premise think type film definitely better appreciated way comparisons olderstyle catiii filmsthere similarities dog bite dog hyperviolent moments reminiscent good ol days never quite sleazy grimy oldschool classicks like untold story red kill many older catiii films main intention shock  dog bite dog far thoughtout wellrounded production though thats take anything away catiii films hold dear film far emotional exploitative learn characters backgrounds audience begins bond identify sides really clearcut good bad guys mad dog shows moments extreme compassion cops stoop extremely unorthodox methods try flesh killer theres also nuditysex film typical characteristic older catiii films personally would compare dog bite dog parks sympathy mr vengeance perhaps pang brothers bangkok dangerous films mixed extremely emotional overtones strong unflinching action violence  theres pretty much nothing like film acting deadon cinematography sharp well done whole film skillfully blends several different elements successfully way seen often film and others like it rebirth catiii film  exactly  solid film thats absolutely worth checking out,0
girls joining boy scouts kind retardation america,0
posted rdepression became aware belongs hereim tired life heading dark road unsure person consider friend shares opinion pretending satisfy feeling accomplishment im tired lies people say make feel better themselves im tired games people play regard feelings others im tired trying make friends someone hear person go misleading accounts obviously fake stories people one else world want partake bullshit stories exaggerations im also tired working ass pay child support woman loved cant afford live im tired trying everyday wish wake disappointed alarm ringing every morning know much handle already want handle anymore it hate became poor life  plus decades alive im equipped decent life bent backwards called friends im done trying way tiring,1
 I'm happy and content,0
relapsed im scaredover past years ive made strides therapy personal growth learning cope depressionanxiety even worked courage estrange narcissistic mother went thinking killing multiple times day thinking maybe week lately thoughts flooded back in year fucking worst america fucking worst supposed graduate college move hellhole state experience ounce freedom life feel fucking stuck think motivation strength fight anymore sense expiration date nearing soon,1
theres depression and then theres eating half a block of cheese as a snack depression,1
i wan na see twilight again love it but i don t have the dvd oh well guess i surive,0
@Cult_of_Angels oh why thank you! Shame i can't say that back.  lol jk,0
live  years oldso tired every morning woke up another meaningless horrified day life eyes glazed emotions it sit look around meaning life exist room neither world one waiting path front one grate warmly want go home one know land bare foot rest shall find place inflict pains me hate people around me hate people better life hate people suffering cant good life there nothing wrong world one wrong you shout back give birth me shouted loud echo woke up dream wish die age  even one second delay set reminder count days hope find peace,1
backstory i ve been diagnosed with panic disorder gad since a young child spent the past year on zoloft at time a high a 00mg a day year ago i wa put on buspirone with the zoloft and it changed my life i ve been stable up until this past year my health anxiety got wayyy out of control and i ve been diagnosing myself with terminal illness all year did therapy and actually enjoyed it for the first time in my life and got off zoloft and switched to 0mg celexa combined with mg buspirone in the am and 0mg at night graduated my therapy and finally felt almost normal then i got covid felt like shit but made it through flash forward to a month later and i developed costochondritis rib cartilage muscle inflammation that i thought wa breast cancer sent me f n spiraling since then i ve had shortness of breath constantly and heart palpitation went to the dr and so far everything is fine waiting on heart holter result and everything chalked up a anxiety i ve had multiple full blown panic attack the past few week and wa at my wit end saw my psych and i went up to 0mg celexa here come my actual issue i accidentally read about serotonin syndrome and how celexa and buspirone should never be given together i brought it up to my psych and she wa not worried but it s been day now and i feel kind of off granted i ve felt off for month now and i m so scared of experiencing it and not realizing it anyone on similar combination that can ease my mind tldr worried about serotonin syndrome after reading about not mixing celexa and buspirone major health anxiety,1
radiofreccia movie us dreams friends obsessions addictions fears brilliant movie group friends like us lives hardships growing small town one significant decades last century movie take happy sad approach things tells us story one us could experienced one happiness excitement sadness grief power story grow love characters one movies watch again feeling closer little town emilia romagna takes place hoping one day able finally walk streets next freccia friends listening music changed world crackling sound old radio playing radio raptus international playing dreams dreams radiofreccia make laugh make cry times shock comfort you give take you personally believe played important part life friends suggest watch let become part yours,0
list people never gotten along dont plan get along  milk drinkers  people pure bred dogs  aquarius  people get really breakout rooms school  people bad reading loud,0
"#Depression affects up to 20%, and #anxiety 10%, of patients with #cancer, compared with figures of 5% and 7% for past-year prevalence in the general population. https://www.bmj.com/content/361/bmj.k1415 …",1
mthfrdeplin started wear off magic bullet broken krebs cycle norepinephrine fight flight neurotransmitter far much influence present others im getting tunnel vision worst sort go job fair tomorrow collective voice everyone room agree one thing no matter grades matter credentials matter know know offer genetics ultimately make noncompetitive mthfr made depressed unrelatable everyone else room chipper energetic outgoing guy head full norepinephrine liability image bad bottom line stay away us im considering redflag sense physical death solitary outcome alive shit genetics reputational death nothing offer anyone count lucky enterprise attempted cannot fail loan withdrawn cannot owed reputation born cannot die yet dwell tunnel,1
@doveypoo Have you been to see a doctor yet? Feel better soon. ,0
wish killed decade startedi chance decided reason would proceed plan successful year part path success finding job fund success want dont think im getting job even though im considered interview ups store im regretting decision stay alive year disaster disappointment suck period im ugly im stupid way live decent life throwing dreams trash going college live lame lonely adult life think im going kill right,1
dissociationi every number blocked contacts besides mom mangers  girl think love who hasnt texted back week social medias people get touch via email soundcloud need want something realized people call friends dont ever really return favor comes listening trying help me feels like everyone thinks im joke always give basic response nothing say really help  like help im done talking everyone older brother havent spoke seen  years makes high school friend think wont them anyone relate psychotic,1
someone brokeni spent many years severely abused still affects me someone abused run normal life tend mess things due retraumatized turning something im not recent incident girlfriend everything ive ever wanted getting message abuser inquering killed yet misplaced anger turned someone know fell love with messed space week know much take everything me cant lose her im trying fix it im getting meds seeing therapist multiple times week proving really know work every time hug trouble letting go feel like leave me kiss hard hoping feel love reciprocate know loves im much cant say her want future it made pain worth it recognize much one person deal try let across her break up prove im broken cant go without even could truly want to already know day comes fault fault pain ive dealt finally reaching me,1
ppl ever leave second know u suicidali wonder whats scary ppl suicidal thoughts ppl leave always arent attached u anyways zero intentions real bond u first ure best ure psycho,1
lungs fuckin fried dude dont vape got asthma dust shit laugh motherfuckers offer vape smoke im like wanna end like me,0
someone alarm clock or a phone woke me up at am still got my headache from yesterday night,0
im hungry want get im laying here lazy hell ill shed skin like snake eat,0
scrolling sub depressing almost comfortingits sad see many people want end lives time comforting know everyone going thing were alone even world rejects us other find odd comfort that life great even good us promise well make together love you,1
genuine question make account amogus quick chat go away,0
im losing hopei cant live without her im giving feel,1
day idk  guessi idea long ive suicidal feels like eternity everyday thing yesterday screamed car going work cause built stress me walked rest way cause father threw car that work almost multiple times screamed customer still think things get better matter what thought going street walked front car kept coming mind taking knife restaurant slit wrist toilet,1
random stuff get gf day  today ill answer question ask matter weird specific bonus flag rating estonia   cool colours superior horizontal tricolour virgin vertical tricolour,0
pathetichere pm writing crying sitting wall tub crying listening juice wrld wishing died stupid fucking father wanted rape older sister  felt like living  years  years since went prison cant believe feel like wouldve open living able experience life way friends instead got taken school  im  now get experience best years life already liking life nothing anymore hope sisters get sad kill soon oh saying probably give half fuck,1
depression your mom taking your sneaker it s well,1
maybe ill jump front car christmasim stepmothers house come back dorm im going take walk jump incoming traffic cant live thoughts anymore,1
seriously actually tired depressed energy get function like person applying jobs trying make friends trying work outstart gym membership cannot get start wake hopeful today day finally help myself no somehow waste day watching tv reading shit though reddit looking different things online purchase  years old hate going social media makes feel like shit hate looking things childhood friends somehow disconnected years lost college friends feel alone lost need help even start fish oil pills therapy psychiatrist like know know make thoughts stop make pain stop need help,1
series chockfull brilliant episodes one stands one favorites profound episode theres great meaning message lot fun fine performancesbr br but makes really stand is knowledge only twilight zone episode double snapper ending zone rightly famous providing big surprise end story time get surprise think thats that turns theres another surprise waiting like much probably one two favorite episodes the deeper messageoriented one,0
"At Guess shooping, Carly the salesgirl has lots of questions, mostly ones that are actually statements ",0
i think i m gon na call it quits i just don t feel good i don t feel like anyone care about me i don t feel like i bring value to anyone s life let alone my own been listening to a song recently and the lyric just feel so resonant i relate so hard do you ever get a little bit tired of life like you re not really happy but you don t wan na die like you re hanging by a thread but you got ta survive you got ta survive i don t want to die but that thread the little bit of myself that kept me wanting to survive is just frayed it s razor thin and i just want to reach out and snap it already just get it over with i m tired i m hurting i m so fucking lonely and i just want it to fucking stop,1
problems friends struggling suicidal thoughtsposting behalf friend friction within group friends particularly two members ill refer b sake semianonymity making little easier write b close friend me practically older brother boyfriend almost five years now theyre near dear heart ive trying mediate whenever problems arise things escalated point longer capable own however leave situation truly fear things continue worsen want either suffer it so hoping could get input unbiased third party exactly done here give background main parties involved b part social circle coming year now less one person here none us think differently im sure difference length times weve known exacerbating problems joined us invitation a right heels leaving latest abusive friend group string hes through usual terrible cocktail depression anxiety top abuse along autistic recently come trans also somewhere spectrum also trans also survivor pretty severe abuse struggles anger issues top depression anxiety b therapist tried getting medication tried seek means fulfilling needs attempting seek therapy recently started medication problems were dealing with start find pressing matter b fairly frequently stressed suicidal deals seeking reassurance friends hes much extrovert needs regular interactions multiple people hes close order recharge top due anxiety past abuse hard time remembering people care hes middle breakdown needs reassured explicitly still cared hes badly also frequently stressed suicidal along extreme end introverted deals feelings come avoiding stressful situations course friend saying want die pretty stressful situation particularly as abusive ex used weaponize selfharm redflag threats and fully believe trust b intentions manipulative merely expressing feelings try help rather keep bottled up trauma necessarily see difference able discuss matters much b home life stressful enough quite time energy handling external negativity heavy conversation hes expressed feels like everything tries help winds making things worse like good enough b like hes everything wrong eyes hes begun defaulting silence rather forcing deal situations know handle energy try course unfortunately directly conflicts bs need people talk reassure hes breaking down leaves b feeling like actually care him compounding recently everyone vastly busy school work stuff past much talking going group chats used result save b one recent member know well cant speak habits of group much used communications exclusively public channels simply contact oneonone sort regular basis friendships work b needs interaction that specifically directed interaction that fact im one recently taking time personally message check taking great toll him think entirely reasonable b ask rest group make effort reach rather contact first every single time think much ask people accommodate small change interactions avoid hurting someone care about seems like single message caring daily would fairly simple integrate schedules would go long way towards helping b however b also said multiple occasions recently worn think anything talk besides bad hes feeling personal experience ive heard others someone messages generally wants talk further think wrong people worried initiating conversation believe going go territory uncomfortable simply spoons handle even so still think fair solution seems simply talking b all previously mentioned struggles anger issues led snapping b handful times before one particularly bad incident recently ended blocking b platforms share made postsspoke people venting situation posts b later saw reconciled days later b still feeling hurt incident feel like sufficiently addressed made for addition times b snapped another friend struggles similar anger issues left feeling hesitant speak them even talk group setting theyre around exacerbates care issue seems led vicious cycle withdraws feel trusted hurts him b feels like care needs explicit reassurance keep hurt himself feels less trusted hurt cycle continues thought would time work everything relevant situation write bs moved actively suicidal whole reason im writing im worn enough think im able help much longer want see die failures hope ive provided enough background already helpful tldr one friend needs frequent reassurance attention frequent breakdowns another friend cares first cannot deal kind stress theyre hurting badly,1
hope meso basically feel hope future me im going end disappointment im going college clue im gonna living mom regularly reminds im failure im disappointment family usually isnt verbally abusive now live nothing excites continue living going bland unfulfilling life im senior graduate plans all dream life artist travel world also want youtubetwitch post travel videos to course unrealistic dont know ill pursue dream thing look forward escape dull future escape torment others mother isnt one noticed im failure im constantly criticized supposed great basketball player go college fucked idea lies ahead understand problems probably arent bad peoples here anyone similar problems help give hope life would appreciated know worthless need help reddit may best place worth shot thanks,1
ignoring him thats post about basically time ex recently decided knows cheated entire relationship i didnt knows im chick online post xxx pictures im not reminded incidences relationship literally never happened like one example that time called jail cried bc guys house knew wrong told needed help yet show evidence it exist hes literally fabricating things thin air claiming happened denying abuser hes saying like you bad too,1
friends microsoft account got locked anything get locked friend got mcpe installed phone logged account play server next day account gets locked even anything all went enter phone number get unlocked never got code go back send code page entered phone number correctly like said invalid number one reasons hate microsoft,0
woke upsame shit different day still wanna die,1
try hard get better canti feel like im trying carry fucking boulder mountain im going one step forward two steps back im sad tired hate hate matter ask matter much beg one takes seriously feel alone im just exhausted,1
draw cant said say,0
i see no future ahead of me and i am very much fucked right now life is going too fast i cant keep up with anything i literally have no friend no one would try to find me if i go missing one day im living in this shit hole away from parent since and they dont even care about me at this point everyone can see that i am going to kill myself but no one even see me at all currently making plan if anyone find my reddit account somehow after i die take this a a sorry i wa a bad kid and became a horrible adult sorry for not doing good thing and making everyone around me sad until i have no one around me left,1
Confidence is always at an all time low. Hahaha. I'm soo used to it.  watching Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. ,0
would christians like friendly logical debate athiest purely purpose fun enlightenment winners losers judgement ad hominem used christian turned  feel free dm,0
"time to sleep, hav to catch 4am bus tomorrow for Colombo, having an exam without proper studies ",0
whos celebrity crush mine johnny deppmatt dillonand finn wolfhard ,0
women hate mewhy hate me never speak me never acknowledge presence could shoot front crowd one would care listened people started therapy started going gym helping me giving short little bursts happiness last hours crashes driving closest point redflag ive ever at females came together decided make life living hell would least painful method redflag im thinking drugspainkillers alcohol cant take anymore start crying middle class cry wake up nothing working me,1
wow it way too early to be awake lot to do though and software post at 0 so i actually have to be to work on time boo,0
several issues redflag urban driving one worst course wife drags along new york city expects driving currently emotionally physically exhausted one worst things one cause lose sleep night is im anxious im unsure paid toll traveling tunnel jfk jersey city rental easy pass dark confused,1
i usually brush it off with excuse but it s time to be honest with myself i m actively in a depression episode feeling like cry constantly and it s exhausting to do anything no interest in living just existing and my med aren t working for it so here i am depressed and feeling stuck,1
signals snapchat theres girl started talking snap work together added snap day weve talking lot im good dating thing interpreting signals unless obvious pretty much every snap sends me eyes closed making kissy face silly face always adds something like hahaha responding snaps mean anything,0
think im donei really tried rather small incident today made realise im nothing low key con artist convincing people times im better am smarter nicer worthy anything all im though angsty teen stuff think ive known least  years always cowardly face it even deserve get better deserve familys time money deserve anything thats given fundamentally wrong bad im arrogant talk people im selfish im brat even realise know theyre better without burden like me im scared hell though see way back here thanks reddit blast made smile made feel less alone,1
tried kill years ago regret didnt finish myselfim tired hearing stored form people guy tried jump bridge regretted it never hear people tried kill sad didnt work actually went bridge regret jumping wish succeeded killing first time tried life going get unbelievably worse kid innocent could gone heaven killed chance ripped forever could saved much pain suffering better job kid,1
trying to check my phone bill online seems like it doesn t like me though,0
"@LetsGetThisGirl DAMN girl, I wish I could follow NKOTB like you are! Can't wait to hear all about it...I'm in Toronto  See you June 21st!",0
@butterflymaven I'll be updating my art site with new series: lotus flowers &amp; butterflies.  I'll keep you posted. Think you'll enjoy.,0
basically fraud moronso accidentally committed fraud yesterday needed signature document without thinking borrowed document basically sent up one coworkers noticed fast got everything back told missed signature borrowed it told fraud quickly contacted company asked rescind document feel guilty actually want kill myself like cant stop thinking it im dumb person acted like idiot wanted job efficiently could consequences company possibly even person whos signature carelessly borrowed cant live it either want kill turn in im scared turn company could get trouble,1
bad sleep schedule midnight europe wake  sleep,0
school sucking dryyyyyy mom said looked dead earlier cuz purpleish rings eyes weird cuz ive getting decent sleep hrs im ready weekend two projects study finals next week one two monday also math test tomorrow bio lab test retake morning dont even time workout rowing team talk friends want next week go quickly get back workouts video games friends hate shit mentally im fine ive worse im tired going similar pushing last week know uve got this thanks coming ted talk ill regret posting couple hours,0
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"At the salon about to get my hair dyed, cut, and styled  then i might go see Up at the movies.",0
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ill always aloneill never held loved again ill die fucking alone one cares killed myself freinds im worthless peice shit deserve alone shouldve ended life sooner,1
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know joke really sad im alone girlfriend  years dumped week anniversary back december since then still expressing lots feeling other semimutual understanding arent ready relationship im truly sad alone great relationship her think truly experienced love gotta taste crave it want life pretty much friends girl least got bro uzr_stealth boys hopefully game tonight unless watch anime play pc lol might play siege chug monsters own anyways point like guess whos single looking reddit memes genuinely h u r inside ideas get mind absolutely fucking single,0
id happy die sleep anytime soonampxb thing im  years old life basically always pointless strugglethe worst part hear supposed the best years life know real struggle i agree thatso said think worth living pain sadness happiness joy get detail hate life much fact enjoy living id love dodge rest life,1
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@jessalynB - Congrats on your graduation  Same to Karl. Love you guys,0
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howth pierive redflag plan longer id like admit fantasize lot whenever im struggling whatever reason ever conceive throwing sea always head cold grey sea cold grey sky im pier moment im crashing water dissipate like foam cant swim honest think would impossible survive mind lot recently think im fair bit closer point would realise,1
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thought getting betterbut course everything get fucked  im still depressed yay think hospital makes feel bad honestly want around sick people making worse like anyone actually helps you tell suicidal thoughts let go walks wow helpful ive two months im fucking tired this im gonna get better here want go home normal life cat guinea pig eat normal food go school etc idk dont feel like right complain hospital bad mean got better really bad last months sometimes thought dont exist im neutral sadbut still get days feel like shit feel lonely dont know kinda person could become friend seems impossible many people tried talk cant keep conversation going literally anyone normal people talk about even normal dont even diagnosis yet two months idont know taking long sometimes want live think im gonna big things world needs me like plan me wish could feel like right now words dont feel natural im amazing person change world im bad way save world destroy it never perfect people always greedy evil like got genes dont feel like human anymore dont identify them dont want to thanks reading hope good day dont expect anything needed talk sorry bad english,1
friendless hugkissless yo virgin day  so ive decided im going carry apparent nightmare another  days im done all ill posting often guess next hundred days like subreddit feel like im among friends ive never reading posts comments feel way relate many you   days enables things ive always wanted do never truly able do  complete fully modded skyrim playthrough beat content  mods  get escortor prostitute country legaland provide details finally im going commit redflag calmly peacefully using nembutal alcohol wash down  country choice saving enough money would appear thailand ive always thought asian girls pretty let known think girls beautiful matter color ethnicity body size would love spend time them contrary though im loser nerd outside paying it actually going girl really reasonable expectation all also apparently money go long way there may able fun several months  theres chance however unlikely may drag bit longer  days saving money buying mega millions lotto ticketspointless know dead soon maybe ill win stick around fun die im also going want save much money possible leave since desktop bulky selling laptop extra cash well desktop computer monitors real things owndont even car probably worth around  monitors  each could likely pull solid  craigslist also job constant savings could probably save  thailand  anecdote im currently skinnyfatgoogle it excising eating healthy bring weight leave time leave vary december perhaps even januarythis would take farther  days outlined obviously thinner healthier looking might even able get laid much cheaper however big might hair thinning still could get hair system go probably cost effective meaning would cheaper pay full price get one facially im actually ugly all still looks like hair buzzed really short either way im sure get laid thailand posting this want remembered shit life fun thailand lonely internet nerd literally taking life hands daily journals serve me this post really long intended keep short sweet so tldr  itt friendless hugkissless yo virgin going hero  days possibility bit more  going thailand get laid fun life  committing redflag using nembutal alcohol  going post everyday updates subreddit using account death  going full playthrough modded skyrim mean time  provide cellphone pictures screen captures throughout  one fuck shall given death ive spent whole life caring much im spending rest giving fuck not one fuckhttpikymcdncomphotosimagesnewsfeedbe edit also thinking hungary well budapest maybe wait little longer save little money go both also feeling happy first time years ive finally decided end it im going out blast writing well,1
lovely librarian played playboy model kristine debell falls asleep dreams strange world filled extremely uninhibited people people love sing dance fool around alice series sensual adventures among characters br br the film originally shot poem eroticism explicit sex scenes eventually cut theatrical release videocassette versions however original erotic encounters joined end br br for extremely lowbudget picture producers film extremely good job cinematography full life energy dances numbers quite professional acting lovable without doubt one best adult fairy tales around,0
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 male highschool lost everything friends know even great friends begin with hope becoming great musician lost contact girl could girlfriend wandering lonely alone past  years seems like everyone enemy mean people bet since school assholes bullies never easy life way going want keep going living judge father passed away last month keep thinking much beat kid id go school get bullied beat well like never ending pain go away know else say want die  always alone,1
actual serious post thing hate life hard fix myself hard care thing actively avoid thing emotions fuck emotions like this get jealous feel sad couple time thinking best friends relationship someone get angry im good thing ive never good anything life life started  years wasted wasted year work harder try catch cant harder try productive come point hating myself push idea helping myself hhate save myself willingly help myself theres way finally live happy maybe  years itll take ages finally get feet im lazy want die rather see fail fail fail again even succeed wont enough ive losing weight  year still hate look cant save myself cant people accept people kill themselve want die peacefully theres way ask help death everything disposal yet dont use them hate even seeing friends something life got new car old one broke alot failed mot im nothhing flesh brains value im worthless people need bbe like oh ok useless fucking die would able give resources someone use far better me,0
got off early took a 4 hour nap. now blowin &amp; watching movies! ,0
convert pain something else long story short someone broke heart ive losing mind things know shouldnt past week want stop,0
"am watching Becoming Jane. aww, James McAvoy is so irresistibly hawwttt!! ",0
i ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thought for a couple of year now i don t know why but i also have the worst anxiety and it cause me to overthink everything and ruin my own life anytime i m near a stranger i can only think about if i m breathing too loud or weird and when people look at me i just want to disappear because i m afraid their laughing at me or something i cry a lot and i feel bad because dude aren t supposed to cry so much i hate work too i work at home depot and i feel like every person think i m weird and is laughing at me for something i just want to make my family proud and be successful but i have such terrible intrusive thought and i hate it i ve also never really had a real girlfriend i dated in middle school and i feel like the biggest loser because of it i just don t understand why we live our life knowing we re gon na die anyways even if your the richest man your still gon na die the best looking or most healthy person is still gon na die so what s the point,1
fucking helli know cant cook know cant shit please dont make feel fucking bad it im fucking done this fuck everyone,1
horny tonight need bonked big time ive horny past  hours bad rn,0
 dayssince ive food even slightest hint live money family anything think much longer really hope things get better america one else takes life little social security income ruined life  month enough live rent electric water want die bad cant lol im fucking pathetic hate it honestly kind want become criminal something could go jail food every day care even good food lol want able survive thats completely wrong want nothing stable wrong want die too lol know what think lol trains stuff here could sleep outside days something well,1
not liking being back at work this morning,0
grandparents best like parents actually respect sick tired parents shouting always treating children lesser respect another normal human being gf cant stand presence parents actually moved grandparents college even ease journey campus escape toxic environment fast could personal experience usually better mood staying gparents kid went mountain house summer homework calmness maybe college late highschool years long time together parents cant stand us much cant stand them know insane grandparents feel like average less insane parents,0
@dgottesman Happy Birthday! ,0
may one best movies ever seen anything trite plot leaves one wondering way go next interesting portrayal struggles youth youth interested immediate gratification youth show concern desires needs others,0
plan killing july stive lot fucked shit happen whole life year worst year life literally tried right everyone somehow someway always get fucked cant even remember happy feels like anymore dont think want anymore ive second thoughts family friends have thing forgotten never really important told things didnt get better july st gonna it almost feel one convince otherwise might even one last posts made me dont think missed feel bad couldnt live trauma anymore wish life couldve different,1
work again,0
overwhelmingly sad past days stuck thought notredflag significant others friends ruined past years thinking stuff used make ball eyes cannot even work tears now pain numbness comes it complete rock bottom ohhhh boy even capable crying anymore,1
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the only time i enjoy this life is when i m next to my laptop but i cant stare at it for ever i m always uncomfortable outside my room it s the only safe place i have been told to face reality many time before and when i do i always end up worrying others with my mental state so this time i think i ll face reality head first and i m sure some of them will be sad i know people care for me but i don t care about myself but i care them so by doing this im just helping them long term right im sorry for hurting confusing etc others i never meant to,1
@mmitchelldaviss What colour is your toothbrush? ,0
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saw film entry santa fe film festival heavy film depiction completely dysfunctional family taken another level extreme might left depressed extreme funny sight gags dialogue along way lightened films overall tone relatively uplifting ending gave hope affected initial tragedy still walk theatre ready go fun party film stayed several daysbr br brought back memories ordinary people humor mixed tragedy thought acting excellent especially sigourney weaver emile hirsh character dealt tragedy times sad selfdefeating also times hilarious clever dialogue situations,0
trapped headim  year old guy im failing literally classes cant even find motivation check school emails let alone actually go school entire family disappointed sucks siblings successful smart im nothing dreams motivation future even thinking future makes sad got diagnosed schizophrenia year half ago feel like ruined life feel lost alone fucking nobody understands ive tried get support friends good experiences longer try nothing except mental illness anger doubt ill ever able successful judging unstable last  years mean cant even tell whats real not much useless get wish someone talk understands everything therapy psychologists make feel even worse feel like theyre testing digging around brain invasive hate family friends could never understand nobody even feel like repost guess want someone talk,1
full title film may heaven half hour devil knows dead rewording old irish toast may food raiment soft pillow head may  years heaven devil knows dead first time screenwriter kelly masterson with modifications director sidney lumet concocted melodrama explores fragmented family become external forces drive members unthinkable extremes film viewer allowed witness gradual nearly complete implosion family much used but here sensible manipulation flashbackflash forward technique storytelling repeatedly offering differing vantages characters central incidents drive rather harrowing tale see motivations players case robbery gone wrong br br andy hanson philip seymour hoffman wealthy executive married emotionally needy gina marisa tomei addicted expensive drug habit life beginning crumble needs money andys neredo well younger brother hank ethan hawke life ruins  divorced shrewish wife martha amy ryan behind alimony child support borrowed friends needs money andy proposes lowkey robbery small mall momandpop jewelry store promises safe quick cash both glitch jewelry story belongs mens parents  charles albert finney nanette rosemary harris andy advances hank cash wrangles agreement hank actual robbery though hank agrees failsafe plan hires friend take actual job hank plans driver getaway car robbery horribly botched nanette filing regular clerk shoots robber shot mess disaster unveils many secrets fragile relationships family nanette dies charles andy hank and respective partners driven disastrous ends surprises every turn br br each actors strong emotionally acrid film gives superb performances come expect hoffman hawke tomei finney ryan harris wise hand direction sidney lumet make film unforgettably powerful easy film watch film allows bravura performances demand respect film reminds us fragile many families be grady harp,0
hey guys crazy idea got saves much time make sure check dont enough time day get sleep need okay also dont enough time day get classes combined two im sleeping class now fucking wonders,0
so hey there some might have read my update with my first make out with my boyfriend well ever since then i felt different i don t know if sexy is the right word or not but something make me feel bolder it came to a head on my date yesterday a part of me just wanted to make out again and i knew we couldn t do it at home cause my family were there so in the car before he s about to drive to head home i suddenly hug and kiss the same way a before the thing is i used to never be this bold i should be happy about this new side to build confidence but in the end i keep thinking what if it scare him off or i go to far so far he seems very happy with this so i guess i shouldn t worry but ha anyone else felt different around their significant other,1
parents would relievedi feel parents would relieved killed myself would relieve constant worry wouldnt stress me am struggle with im medicated right now bad place life things keep piling up idk life decisions make im lost parents told tonight cant keep this feel like go ahead it,1
know youd rather laid big booty body hella positive cuz got big booty,0
know anymoreok im even going bother throwaway dont know anymore ive work almost  yrs occasional job yo hold daughter over survive barely mean barely weve lived car motels tents notbing gotten better isnt going tk seeable future daughter could amazing easy life grandparents much better could ever offer her everyday want kill havent strictly much now cant keep letting nothing live like this cant provide dont see possibilty able to father absolutely useless  children know shell better life grandparents could ever get deserves that me love world kills able anything her cant take life anymore dont know else needed vent,1
like people talked around day memorable stuff gets echoed head loud everytime think life cannot get worse gets worse even trying every time close eyes echos keep screaming,1
@shawnnellbrown thx 4 the #ff ,0
i think my depression hit me for the third time,1
put toilet paper knowso drops behind front behind im sorry godzilla fucking dieseveryone always says im horrible writing stuff english,0
wish werent alonei wish outlet time dont want unload friends know problems cant talk parents either dad thinks people narcolepsy demonpossessed hates lgbt moms bit openmindedexposed cares grades im tired process everything diary tired it one comforts myself im fucking tired it im run down barely energy process feelings friendships wavering im glad friends arent judgmental wouldnt want bother rants somehow im glad dont seem hate really talking much dont like anything ive got energy even myself much less people although havent told anything mental state think sense im really well mean tell worried might failing school year seemed perceptive understanding it need write diary right now like said im done alone feel like going diary signifier nobody nobody talk to im done carrying everything myself,1
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weird compelling film topic atom bombs created los alamos nm usa used japan latter part world war ii huge course deeply disturbing films plot takes lot heavy issues actors carry much creative tension never seen film much interested admit read book smoking bed conversations bruce robinson robinson wrote story screenplay think film better expected reading robinsons point view conversations it see thought got derailed think paul newman pretty good somehow bottom miscast hes hollywood one point big meanlooking guy storms newmans office striking presence immediately thought playing character newman playing lead plays head scientist also fairly good somehow brilliant enough portray huge angst goes part  immense responsibility creation ultimate machine death destruction one effective characters seems composite personality played john cusack oddly affecting throughout end character whose fate really hits home made think vividly fate  japanese people hiroshima nagasaki,0
got girls number first time ever first time went comfort zone asked girls number need advice girls guys game track field practice never met before introduced back kept talking till practice ended easy fimd keeping conversation going asked snap couldnt find account went way give number number fake wondering guy asks girls number gives it chances shes interested girls give numbers guys think friends with like odds finds attractive im going jump gun anything im confused intentions like guy asks girls number gives like non verbal agreement interested knowing eachother more also chances gave number would feel bad saying no thanks help,0
teens say prime time eating up kinds sf novels every day week sixties seventies tv important leisure time killer like today one night mid seventies watched movie tv think ard stunned impressed way almost remember scene even todaybr br nowadays observe kids playing sims something like think close fassbender movie expressed also would highly appreciate could buy movie dvd vain tried almost everything get hint where movie matrix cannot touch far quality state art movie way glue superior reality one couple simulation models probably death definitely know,0
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have to update my picture co i look old and fat oh i am old and fat playing badminton is not working on weight,0
"I've passed alot of feelings (pain, sadness, depression, crying till my last breath) till i've reached to feel nothing. Just nothing, just empty..",1
goodbye peoplemy father died car crash im livig mom makeig prostitue could get bread milk morning today birthday went mcdonalds get cup water im writig mcdonalds happy meal computer  years old dont clean clothes all name john im ending life tomorrow morning  east pacific time ill jumping mcdonalds im writing at,1
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really cant take anymorethrowaway account obvious reasons sometimes writing kind stuff helps calm down say cant take alive longer want die genuinely theres  things id miss friends mom thats it important things life theyre still good enough carry anymore failed last semester got put academic probation told id turn around didnt ill get kicked school now ill inevitably lose friends made there im still total fuck wasted  dont deserve alive wish every fucking day night happy wasnt depressed bipolar bad manic episode last week id hallucinating difficulty distinguishing reality imaginary friends dont know anything that pulled weird prank facetime freaked fuck bc couldnt tell real wanted literally shoot head stop paranoia spinning head forgave them wouldnt i fault didnt know theyll never know theyll find mom tell killer funeral want go sleep tonight hope god dont wake morning hate life im sick pretending im enjoying it every fucking thing triggers start crying hate life want die im fucking angry it like this know fact ill dead get letter home saying im expelled flunking out cant go back school ill hate life much more home quarantine worst thing couldve happened thought finally getting chance rehabilitate wrong im better without life given point dont care selfish,1
police story brought hong kong movies modern day cinemabr br jackie plays policeman tries catch drug dealers time take care young woman bad guys still take care relationship girlfriend selina brigitte linbr br the movie features plenty stunts jackie also actors who jackies stunt clubbr br three jackies stunt members went hospital filming filmbr br the movie also incredible fights scenes like the car park fight the shoppingmal fight ranks one jackies finestbr br the movie also award best movie best action design jackie chan hong kong film awardsbr br everyone loves jackie chan andor martial art movies shud see,0
anyone needs vent needs distractionpm me  yo f here former self harmer knows like want end all,1
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even ur ugly someone find u hot amen,0
alright listen lgbt community accepts fucking pedophiles apart im gonna say im straight idc ill like dick im gonna say im straight cause way im gonna apart something supports pedophiles,0
bit since posted good working new job thought would last look good million reasons want stay bed anything something telling go work grind else something bad happen depressed reason work money pay rent barely hold sanity right feel existential dread coming,1
brother says hell kill doand want that yet need die unbearable trust right now go hospital thoughts alone update went hospital good llong chat psychiatrist feeling better now thanks,1
"You have removed the stigma out of me. I want to meet you someday. Hug you tightly, and maybe I would talk to you about me, my anxiety and depression. I love you so much. XoxoBoobli <Emoji: Heavy red heart> from <Emoji: Flag of Bangladesh>@deepikapadukone",1
would sayif someone thoughts committing redflag would say try convince otherwise not itll get better type crap either sob story pleasant upbringing friends family etc yet feel world painful far much suffering continue day brings pain sadness ive never felt like something wrong me world around suffering offers daily seems end sight things continue way forever whether not sometimes seems like itd easier put hose window drift nothingness finally know true calm peace dont know im posting here dont think itll help comments copy pasted dribble want feel something feel nothing finally,1
biden president probably be election mine january,0
im tiredfirst off know im writing this might im struggling hope im pretty sure humans fucked share powerful feelings others matter course someone sad combination empathy willingness broadcast misery people feeling sad trying fix problem time im sorry taking advantage place deserve better im redditor years puppet account exists im left alone ive never anything useful add conversation despite many attempts nothing witty nothing popular nothing needed heard anyone rest online presence same used surf forums looking offer insight know thinking im clever enough im smart enough everyone else stubborn were real problems honest online life important real life later father died im  mom senile soon family history signs already showing older brother going eat death thats comparatively ok think hell die happy im pedophile gay one bi regular nonexistent sex life not taboo one existent say pedophile pederast boy socalled age attraction lives across street me ill never lay much hand him id sooner die sooner die none understand that sort thing go therapist with anyone suggests it theyll one attend funeral know care ive done nothing deserve better anyway guys age attraction other friends straight afraid admit otherwise thing practical sense bi gay friend bi guy attracted me gay guy married ive put enough shit im going tempt break fidelity always fancied kind cute girl whos ever willing sex ive unwilling sex with matter appearance see combined fact cant even find guy yes not ripped wants fuck ass not anal guess really ugly expectations high wanted cute guy girl weigh much half again find sad cant get girl would keep cock erect nevermind eventually children me see extended family dead brother sterile kids pathetic family line end guess time anyway hearing going used love music much would make spine shiver hair stand end could move tears ive three bad ear infections past three years still understand people room background noise everything subtle music gone still listen sometimes makes cry touches place thats longer there feel empty along lines goingtoshit body pretty badly infected toe infected inflamed year now suspect ill gangrene soon medical insurance since flunked college feet bare shower past year keep secret family theyd try get doctor wed lose much money valued hearing much one toes lost that fuck toes ive acne since age  cant get go away gave trying last week same go figure yeah tried towel thing bad it job stopped wanting one six months ago cost money right now brother couple friends bar friends fun without me ive come realization im good anything nothing offer anyone oh sure died would missed thats people become used presence terms actually offer theyll poorer die people really knew was wrong me theyd keep away people forced love religion would remain thats love get enough now hope future dead feel ostracized day cannot keep living world would should rather dead emotional strings attached im tired many ways now old become someone world would rather keep starting tomorrow im going lay floor room bed need lower ground closer spirits im going stop eating stop talking people protest theyll panic fully anticipate ill feeding tube said done even though wish go lengths keep alive ive never wanted die want kill myself cant slash wrists blow brains out im tired im tired live im going stop trying im going lie body gives like mind want get up mean through wish whatever lacked get way sorry burden all deserve better better posts better people ill check back know why  edit im going get sleep almost fell asleep moment ago check replies wake up deserve it  edit  im awake again,1
day anxiety started im class everyone needs read part text always counted people read part practice read mine voice crack still ruined though,0
yes depression has won this round yet again  pic.twitter.com/OiqLyGpwbw,1
lately i ve been having panic attack everywhere i went out to get drink with my partner and ended up cry in the bathroom yesterday we were with his friend and i had to excuse myself to sit outside and collect myself the list go on there never seems to even be anything that set me off but once it happens i can barely speak without tearing up it s so exhausting i don t want to have to hide from people place forever,1
@felicityfuller It's always good when they run on time. Hope you have a great day ,0
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im failure every measure cant escape realityill try keep short im almost  years old im obese ive worked  jobs since turned  quit within month ghosting them ive heavily relied dad pay bills buy food since turned  went community college dropped out im roughly  debt credit score  skills attention span nonexistent cant even watch movie without pausing every minutes research random thought had im still virgin fact ive never even relationship even elementary school barely friends hate around people avoid eye contact instinct ive met people hold conversation resent theyre annoying me always feel awkward matter situation im in even im friends feel like complete outsider belong thats thats wrong me now problems even good person which im not cannot escape godforsaken town people reside it ive burned bridges many employers im incredibly hard time finding job constantly talk family treated like complete shit younger yet expects everything peaches cream im older give money shit im sick sisters personal babysitter two kids im sock pretending care people care about im sick going stores seeing people absolutely despise hate everything really fucking hate everything single good thing life feel like im reaching end rope see anyway hell ill feel bad redflag may affect dad im sure hell get it going wait felt really bad him new wife hes happy her least support system im done,1
oh fatheri home winter break way home got pulled got court summons top found failed  classes tried heart in father got home afghanistan incredibly happy hell havent told mother feel like complete disappointment constantlu aggros nothing could imagine this younger brothers borderline perfect eyes im always falling short im leaving note tomorrow leave go back school saidbnite im letting know love couldnt handle stress constant disappointment father,1
im tired want now years planet filled every kind abuse think of abandonment loss icing cake ptsd diagnosis thanks  years hell hands ex never escape son perfect little boy permanent link horror ex never stop ive tried everything life now im tired want over want peace ive tried talking people family understand see toll takes partner see stress worry eyes sleep constant nightmares burden useless broken shell cannot add anything positive anyones life would happier without me would finally get rest thats want want rest,1
i try every day to care about everything about what other people care about what they feel what they want from me the goal my job set for me how people perceive me how clean my house is how often i help out i try to hard to care and to make the people around me happy a much a i m capable of but i wish i wa allowed to not care if i were to do one thing for myself it d be to let the depression swallow me whole and kill myself but i try to care about what that doe to people and i try every day and every day i decide if i m going to keep pretending or collapse i think i m really good at pretending,1
"@pedrorq Not a bother – another question might be why 24% of Irish people are crazy enough to vote FF, one that I couldn't answer  #le09",0
so i wa just working a completely normal day in fact i felt pretty good i work at a goodwill so it s relatively social but i can handle it cause honestly every person that enters that store is fantastically polite and friendly but for some reason half way through my shift i begin getting light head i assumed it wa my tight hat or my new prescription glass so i took those off and got back to work and for a little bit actually helped but it got worse and worse my hand were shaky and i wa super light headed bless my coworkers cause i mentioned i wasn t feeling great and my manager let me have a break despite not requiring one due to shirt shift one of my coworkers actually spent a dollar to get me a snack and i wa improving i didn t wan na leave these lovely people short staffed a i wa the only product handler closing so i tried getting back on the floor and instantly i wa back in it and again bless my manager cause she suggested it wa fine and i could go home i got in my car and instantly my face felt numb by the time i wa home a relatively short drive my chest wa super numb too im i ve only ever had this feeling once before and i wa wondering if this is what a standard panic attack feel like how do i bring this up with my dad in order to get this figured out sorry if this wa long it actually helped a good bit in getting me relaxed just writing this,1
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"@rmilana I have been doing great, thanks! How are things at your end? ",0
dad slapped facebut completely deserved it piece fucking shit im hopeless pathetic,1
On my way to work...@thomase Thanks for taking me ,0
@isthebestname i'm sorry i didnt come 2 the movie!i watched wild child tho..its funny  xxx,0
"@jtchan83 oh girl, I expected a response like that from you, that's not news, that's just crazy talk ",0
asked crush liked cause liker im scared responded help please aaaahhhhhhhhh im nervous,0
snowed much yesterday complaining snowing everywhere live texas yesterday snowedddd much amazing power going hours time coming like  minutes ,0
puberty hit like falling leaf seriously im  look nine,0
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committed mentally therapy knew could pay it therapist click would keep trying someone did redflag got better weeks leading therapy started unusually good mentioned really unusually good cemented it depression less gone six weeks two months four days sober pretty confident depression really going working hard making real practical progress,1
finals week going kill mei really cant anymore think im going kill myself im sorry,1
constant anxietyi first anxiety attack  entire body went numb hard time breathing scared ever time coping fine felt little normal around   going lot changes gaining responsibilities work never asked for im also getting paid responsibilities feel like stuck dont belong time feel like dont belong anywhere fantasize going sleep waking up dont like thoughts cant shake them quit talking family friends get drunk almost every night searching something sure exactly want move away now somewhere thats always warm anyone else anxiety advice feel like normal human,1
great everything crashesanyone else feel like life would going great sudden depression hits like category  hurricane want happy great year beginning month hate hate ruined horrible am havent diagnosed depression anything come family doesnt believe it tried overdosing one night ended mad it instead trying help mom threatened get psych ward ive heard horrible stories them dont know do suppose ill seek psychiatrist,1
got temporarily banned ueyebagsaredesigner post blew bc sexualized minors hahdhsjd fuck ive banned dave amp busters,0
like im depressed anything shit sucks pp,0
i have to apply for international driver licence not for competition of course to go to nurburgring in may must take half day off,0
get help instantlyso im feeling lately point ive suicidal thoughts days row ive somehow managed fight off getting harder harder want help urgently though know get it want hotlines like samaritans etc help all know really wanti want something keep going getting worse know go on,1
get rid youtube advertisements step  go end video step two replay video part profit sometimes watch  ad put end,0
feeling deeply hopelessdont know exactly started thing feel completely angry bored time thought redflag several times since know people love still believe me im able deal job college relationships feel like anything life expect getting good job future becoming rich traveling around world seems driving force makes go on recently started drinking lot im getting low grades university im wasting lot money due alcohol addiction get drunk almost every night throw mornings im feeling completely lost know anything life,1
nearly groomed got lucky private school th grade somethings lasted year  im also guy btw proof happens girls didnt want use account post need minimum karma rip account guess happened homeroom teacher asked take walk recess one day dont remember much talked tbh remember becoming frequent asked personal life things going well told nothing life teacher got hired year could recall lot people didnt know him slowly would stop hanging around everyone else age start hanging around him got point would meet him remember one time trying see could point using different fingers example using pinky point i really dumb kid got point used middle finger someone didnt know instead getting trouble teacher showed favouritism didnt punish anything student teacher theyd probably give detention time something anyways got point depended lot things said dont remember much remember feel try remember creepy remember telling wife one point though something teachers didnt even know point getting dangerous territory especially bit part school program told go near teachers since point kinda followed anywhere looking back didnt want teachers knowing followed guess anyways things didnt really escalate since caught another teacher ch_ld _____ fill blanks feel sick thinking about pc teacher ran school programs charge lot clubs worst part didnt even seem creepy ever wonder happens school caughts p_d_ send letter parents anyways teacher got fired soon since found didnt teach anything entire year since school ahead curriculum though still got go next year one worst parts atleast teacher seeing happening didnt anything kinda hate allowing go far get really sheltered kid growing  also teacher caught teacher teacher talked since remember leaving school guy always talking also remember guy caught blonde girl year two older always following him really took way long figure going on never told anyone probably wont ever again theres probably parents reading so look see kid trouble,0
dont know much longer im falling close friend im going back school monday which stupid im failing school got rejected art highschool wanted go to want friend love much feel like im obsessed her feel like gets annoyed me conversations usually go hi sup well im tired lol jsjskskkf feel like friendship isnt same keep trying stop talking her matter hard try keep going back im trying thing test see shed talk didnt talk her since always start conversations ends them feel like suddenly everything worthless im worthless feel like dont strength go anymore im goddamn weak dont shower brush teeth brush hair even get dressed anymore dont get up dont exercise dont eat going back school making extremely anxious dont want go back im freaking out im either gonna get covid numbers go again im crying smallest things friend shows slightest bit rudeness ignores me cry people criticize drawings cry tired feeling emotion cry im gonna failure life,0
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daydee tell it you forgot your password amp it will give you a new one it s the only way i can prevent ton of spam,0
something except talking to people about it i tried it and i regret it especially my parent i m not diagnosed but it s so painfully obvious at least for me i don t even know why i feel this way it s making me unable to do simple shit and everyone around me hate me because of it memory loss is annoying too i swear if this shit is permanent i will fucking lose it,1
writing something positive day day   ive started taking notes digitally ipad converting ones paper ipad love much much easier make everything look good make better diagrams make writing legible neat digitally love today hung friends school were boarding school pretty covid safe spend hours walking around campus went vending machine pretty nice,0
insanely lonely thought keeping meaningful relationships seems like much workyall ever get sad bc genuine friends hang friends always put other better friends first never say anything know wont able enough energy hang anyways wanna drop everyone dont worry keeping meaningless friendships remember crave social interaction times sit uncomfortable loneliness  wishing closer people moreso wishing need socializing finally feel peace no me,1
ii wish way want get better myself think want to well know regret telling anyone ive felt assume know ive gotten help means ill magically recover help ive gotten seems useless know without depression though scares me remember time without hard imagine one future seem go day without suicidal thoughts thoughts harming myself feel like im empty shell person itd easier anymore,1
cincincintya my seed is on the verge of death thinking of what seedling i can plant to replace,0
goodbyelife fucking retarded cannot fucking relax everyone everything keeps fucking annoying me keep losing everything complete fucking bullshit every single fucking day school starting need move different city dont feel like living im extremely stressed parents opposite helping feels like wasnt supposed fucking born keep losing keep getting beaten down cant get anymore ill finish,1
theres really big cliff near house basically walk jumpbut want hurt family ampxb theres much pain im tired myself keep failing everything try im unlovable fat sack shit want gone wish everyone forgot existance could kill myself,1
anybody get feeling accomplishment finishing projects homework anymore everything went damn im pretty proud myself wow im exhausted ill sleep now,0
yall please spam post comments im going bed wake want feel like people care lay sleep pray lord soul keep,0
@Razer Depression,1
need gf yes dont worry guys ill share everything yallexcept gf ever got one,0
im becoming content redflag post experiment see voicing changes intentioni go reasons im considering ending life something ive battled  years im angsty teen struggling mountable teen problems im adult whos deciding go due life full confusion bad decisions sadness ive found technique difficult feel sense relief knowing finally exit main fear is well saying goodbye human consciousness ill miss breathing ill miss sense touch ill miss contemplating things wonder ill miss little things make nose chuckle know theres nothing death scares comforts me think im done thats okay it cant function world exiting seems best saddest solution think im becoming content idea,1
please help meim teenage girl live florida recently diagnosed depression anxiety prescribed medicine zoloft never thought itd get far never thought cutting would get point cant even wear shorts short sleeve shirts used happy child started growing up realizing things happened me have molested father  alcoholic also molested another family member age   growing up abusive childhood grandmother person raised verbally physically abusive me mother always me age  thats everything went downhill started drinking failed relationship  years had took everything me every little thing seemed piss off would hit got tired thats started cutting age first redflag attempt tried overdose pills consumed  bottles blood pressure medicine grandmas nothing happened stopped cutting many years tried push away suicidal thoughts sadness  months ago mom started verbally abusing again hit ever since dcf called her one person thought would me guess thought wrong im sitting bloody wrists thinking whether go medicine cabinet again really fault things happen me really worthless,1
boyfriend broke opened pasti told happened youngster quite serious thing days later dumped me want someone talk hes one told doesent want care anymore,1
although without faults drama fitting one shown around easter time reminded us spiritual selves showed behind facades often hide deepest sufferings experiences much enjoy drama least rapping teenagers provided better musical accompaniment drama rather poor sound score background acting excellent timothy spall superb climax satisfying rather simplistic timothy spalls letting go longdead wifes suicide credible mirrored well feelings despair present teenage girl selfharmed resolution graffiti boy muslim gratifying less believable wonderful drama left husband felling evening well spent congratulations,0
get easily frustrated many things examples mindwhen politicians wear masks talk microphone nobody next need relay message you stop posturing cannot understand muffleling that one going popular bear pleasethat commercial explodes phone speaker everytime pops youtube bad willing bother make profitbella poarch feel like fake pretendcute doubt half cute real lifejeff bezos goes space got anything better money like helping poor know one trivial thingsand anyways therapist told accept things said think object room bother you right well try attitude towards things frustrate you get angry ventilator corner room get angry wind etcshe also told what concern someone fake interesting true problem bella poarch way is also simply cannot change her even enough money buy plane ticket meet her point hating her feel like makes world worse dislike that contribute anything world millionairi think fair cast judgements things bad things good according therapist way accept things peace world way relating things think bad without feeling need reject them hate them change them kind fluidwaterbendingtaichifishinthe stream way beinganyways would like hear anything say that personal experiences anecdotes teachings accepting things,1
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left wife daughter her think ill kill todayive lefet wife daughter weeks old ive hurt ex wife beyond words explain that ive woman ive loved first sight ive started relationship lasts year now hurting much cant even explain  keeps recalling previous partner calls daughter shit tells die says things hurt spine break heart every day two love much spend weekend daughter every week taking good care daughter bring back mother partner freaks unloads shit me taken long ive tried hang months ago trying get back previous partner  together everyone around wants us happy people around tell us great pair  im despair pain ive never in im seizures kicking im down used hit head hard walls door frames stop crying screaming ive begging kind me ive asked love many times says sometimes loves reactions words bad wants daughter die try best  try hard im landing downward spiral always tears scream sorrow ive spending money support her ive put brink bankruptcy ive stolen money support us happy everything seems like going work out happy hell earth feel im munchs painting  scream ive psychiatrist ive perscriped carbodiazepine stabilize mood works extent go beyond point pain cope get seizures  lie floor cry weep weep hard ive scratched face several times seizures  way could describe attempt scratch face off parents try contact me us theyve made steps touch us says dont try hard enough sad know leave woman cant want love love want hard me past  weeks ive considering another redflag  bottle tramadol cupboard ive taken grandma died cancer  used painkiller  know take gulps tramadol going ill peace daughter sleeping us today  months old please help,1
currently   right grow inches guess point living mean would want live short guy die fuck that going kill june   still short,1
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so i m f and am currently living working and studying in a different country than the one i wa born and raised in my cousin m study in our home country but very far away from home and can only visit his parent during the break my relationship with my parent wa very much strained for a couple of year due to unsolved childhood trauma and throwing blame at them for thing that were a result of their childhood trauma but after therapy our relationship improved and even though we have our fight a every family ha we are very close and talk every evening and even eat together through videocall my cousin relationship with his parent is very much strained his parent got married very late and had fertility issue so only managed to have him well into their forty due to this they really didn t have the patience to deal with their child and my cousin spent most of his childhood with our grandma because his parent wanted to have fun and not deal with a child having tantrum moreover they were very abusive they used to make him eat adult sized portion of food every meal and not let him leave the table until he finished his food and even though everyone in the family knew this wa abusive no one ever decided to do something about it luckily he ha a very fast metabolism and so far hasn t experienced any health issue due to this abuse last september he started university and apparently stopped picking up call from his parent and stopped answering text to the point that my uncle had to threaten him with cutting him off financially if he didn t start picking up the phone and texting this weekend my dad s side of the family had dinner and lunch on saturday and sunday and the topic of me and my cousin came up and my uncle and aunt out of jealousy called my relationship with my parent toxic and unhealthy because we speak to much and went on to say i don t have a life or friend hence why i always talk to them now i have friend both living with me and at work but my friend go out clubbing everyday and since that really isn t my scene i hang with them during the day and they go out at night also i didn t have a relationship with my parent for year i wa so depressed and hurt that i bearly spoke to them even though we were living in the same house now that we have worked through our issue i am enjoying my relationship with them seeing a it won t last forever i dont think our relationship is toxic or unhealthy but this ha triggered my anxiety and made me have intrusive thought and honestly i just need a little reassurance do you think my relationship with my parent is toxic and unhealthy or are my family member just being asshole,1
Depression is a ugly beast,1
crush agreed go date im famous tho shes fanta,0
spitorswallow wish i could but the season don t change day of the year,0
i m on this team project and the project manager is super toxic i constantly feel like i am a burden and that i have to pretend to be working every morning there is stand up and i have a mental breakdown because i haven t done anything i have started seeing my therapist again but i just don t know what to do about this i honestly feel like i have to quit my job but i don t have another job i am totally screwed with no way out,1
constant paini trying remember last time pain years since remember day hurt either pains stomach joint pains theres cure illness either im scared im hoping day never come day im pain wish could its wonderful life it want cause pain others love care me much times wish never existed pain know sounds pathetic planned out scared causing pain sure do im tired,1
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always wanna redflagam one get sad wanna kill self end cutting arm lightly,1
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im conservative would vote candace owens ran shes fairly progressive libertarian conservative counterparts bernie runs though vote going him,0
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anyone else feel like mean nothingive depressed while sometime anger sadness combined recently taken toll im angry furious life im terribly sad feel nothing started think honestly feel like well parents suffered death theyll fine die siblings friends ok wanna spend  years working shit job like survive ill probably working fine job middle class wife kids want theres  billion people earth im unique all continue,1
i wa wondering what to do somedays he is so down and feel so low all he want is stay home and never go out today we went for a walk and he said it wa nothing special but he thanked me for coming and said he had a good time i want to find something special and out of the ordinary to make him forget about all the pressure and all the thing he ha in mind that make him feel down depressed and so low any idea,1
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understand people care try kill yourselfas typed realized kind way guess bothers people put peoples feelings irreversible ive talked family members coworkers feelings depression event thoughts redflag theyve comforting moment realize feels shallow me want people put everything dedicate making feel better anything like that guess nagging feeling kill one seems interested helping find way deal it ive heart hearts discussions how fix problems hard fix problems own ive managed get lot done crying whole time sure feel like living inconvenient im constantly distracted occupied something feel absolutely hopeless miserable lonely ive thinking killing give money family dont want people start caring hurting im dead lol thats one factor thats holding back boyfriend person ive told plan obviously want appreciate thought course know money help everyone ever could id want natural burial shouldnt cost much throw corpse ground dont want sad really dont live different countries make enough money visit eachother regularly hard take steps get paper work done live together think itd lot easier someone wealthier even country with friends talk thats fault keeping touch family ive tried reaching to everyone problems know feel like itd better environment family financially killed see huge set back yeah theyll sad im adult cares adults theyre dead,1
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im desperate please help me long sorryi posted recently certain im going commit redflag concern well cat hid decided repost felt something strange heart hope think im  struggling areas life diagnosed severe depression anxiety sometime middle school recently trauma induced rather mild ptsd therapists never humoured this believe actually suffering bpd could reason repeated therapy multiple medications done little nothing help all treated broken leg actually hip heal right anyway redflag mind constantly past months now before passing thought something joked cover pain small list preferred methods plans probably healthy every joke become serious statement regular meltdowns resorted scratching shit lieu razor blade cuts dreams still kind do believe  never achieve them even come close nothing seems work feel like total failure seems ive begun sabotaging achievements whether subconsciously intent im terrified ask want feel guilty manage get words out return therapy th november id admit hospital finances already make basics hard afford disregarding fact need money coming arrange live somewhere i currently living friends couch im grateful feel current situation beginning harm difficulty keeping basic self care always manage convince im somehow unworthy even baseline help sustainable cant live like want give up really dont need help badly know anymore please help me im scared,1
feel like im losing everyone lovei feel like girlfriend getting apart friends stuff together without me ive home sick havent able see anyone anyway im getting worse worse everyday dont know stop it life become something ive begun loath wish could kill without impact anyone wish could feel sensation hanging ceiling,1
thoughts normali going huge amount distress suicidal thoughts frequency increasing greatly do counselling gave panic attacks,1
fighting off the hungries,0
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need stop procrastinatingi need now longer wait worse life becomes cant live myself ruined every part life beyond repair want die redflag way redeem everything done kill right wrongs past im god damn scared keep putting off need strength this do,1
depression  https://twitter.com/CitrusRBLX/status/988965808964546561 …,1
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Have i got depression again lol,1
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decided finally talk someone getting helpthanks encouragement redditor commented first post talked one best friends cutting suicidal thoughtsand attempts also talked mother going on toughopening like that im glad it ive decided go kind counseling first step sometime week im nervous talking shrink want get better want depressed wish luck,1
i need to go to some routine female doctor appointment i am absolutely terrified i haven t gone to a doctor in year i don t even have a primary care doctor i know i m being irrational and stupid about it i m afraid that they re going to tell me i m dying or something doe anyone else feel this way,1
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hard work doesnt always pays today realised hard work pays utter bullshit studied exam  years worked ass off sacrificed whole lot things everything could used score excellent marks mock tests end ive got average score really difficult accept result,0
hearing expensive gifts yall got makes kinda jealous lower middle class gang rise lol,0
cant wait get placeso decide kill die peace survive one know wont tell them,1
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lost hopehello apologize advance mistakes english native tongue sure writing here maybe always liked writing writing way express feelings maybe want someone read thinking even understand me think finally lost hope days ago drove high bridge night little traffic climbed small fence edge look darkness even see bottom jump scared scared die scared fall kill leave crippled already am lot experience hospitals want go back there written redflag note weeks ago put affairs order thought looking deciding jump would end it feel like going back there like inevitable  years old first attempt redflag last attempt  years ago thought sort thing turns not back started see reason go anymore feel little ashamed tell you survived stage  cancer people dont  tumors last couple years body looks like war zone asking even bothered put treatment all felt like hell earth feeling even worse want go anymore always one hopeless romantics feel one day meet the one like think fairly smart know silly thought is cant help it feel way maybe say felt met go way always hoped would go first woman ever fell love with idiot always thought would finally meet the one pieces would fall place nothing like that instead relationship pure torture maybe us first course got quickly devastated without hope probably think oh god another one got heart broken thinks world come end get yourself maybe right probably people far worse me change feel though never many friends always outcast used think enjoyed lonely almost given hope find someone met her total surprise could really love someone much kind contradicts statement romantic lonely entire life kind questioned would really find someone all know lost convinced nothing left world nothing good ever happens even find the one another way life kick nuts maybe first redflag attempt fail already hell things happened past  years almost sure it guess find finally find courage jump,1
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day  quote till get gf love lifeyeah im sad time im really happy something could make feel sad likeit makes feel alive know makes feel human way could feel sad felt something really good before take bad good guess im feeling like beautiful sadness also something learned u know annoying ass pop thats like undo typing well u accidentally delete something u click undo reappears,0
hate female dating strategy  fuck rfemaledatingstrategy saw post saying shit justify hating men wanted share story women me people abused entire life men women people verbally assaulted reason homophobic reasons men women people called friends yet acted like subhuman matter men women person stalked social media accounts men women students bullied relentlessly men women people shamed everything men women teachers punished reason men women know men people felt safe men people made feel accepted men people taught like men first people truly liked men true friends men ampxb brain dead idiot came stupid dog fight analogy saying youve seen dog attacks victim dog attacks even though dogs arent mean reason hate them logic i female think women monsters men friends,0
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pretty screwed physically emotionally left behind bunch dependents took many prescriptions etc word wise follow life script trust television want live friend killed,1
anime recommendations like anime considering getting it personal favorites my hero academia takes place world  population superpower known quirk main character falls unlucky  doesnt despite this still wants become superhero like one amazing supporting cast creative power system quirks vary much got dude fire ice powers theres guy tape dispensers elbows no joking assassination classroom middle school tokyo new teacher shows happened responsible destroying moon plans earth end school year class students kill graduation moves mach  isnt easy one funniest sure korosensei chill attempts life even dinner sniper send him students great too possessing talents death note may heard one kid named light finds notebook kills anyone whose name writes it uses kill criminals becoming known kira killer written katakana detective named l tries hunt down suspenseful mind games light l great task force police wellwritten matsuda favorite also amazing visuals the promised neverland im going spoil anything one better go blind,0
movie seems surface run mill kids movie parents regretfully watch mostly entertained little kids movie seems mostly geared towards children yet stop level watched movie first young child found funny entertainingand heartwarming see several years watched recently age  found almost funny heartwarming entertaining movie highly underrated contains many messages real life movie inspirational quest story made kids yet epic right recommend movie anyone age,0
so i have a mild stutter and i just had an epiphany i ve been letting my stutter control me but i found something amazing out i let my stutter define who i wa a a person instead of an aspect of myself it s so bad that when my parent talk to me like a normal person i d think to myself wow they act like i m normal despite my stutter they see past that and when i would work people would see my name tag and say oh i have a son named my name and i would think he probably doesn t stutter tho i let this define who i wa a a person and i let it really get to me i wa looking at old reddit post from other people asking how people view stutter and most people said they didn t care at all and even found it interesting some even said it wa hot cute made joke sound more natural and a a result more funny not like they found the stutter funny tho and one even said they were turned on by it and someone said something that stuck out to me they pretty much said how you perceive yourself is how others will so if i see myself a weird and anxious i will act that way and be perceived in that way but if i see myself a confident and charismatic and just act like my stutter doesn t bother me and even joke about it then others will perceive me a such this blew my mind a i thought everyone didn t pick up on my stutter at first and just thought i wa super weird but it s just me convincing myself of that so even tho this clicked i still can t just flick the switch off so how do i actually become confident with my stutter it s very mild and is fueled by anxiety so if i can get rid of my anxiety it ll in my opinion make me sound more charismatic and confident so i really wan na figure out how to just own it how do i do this,1
leaving reddit reddit really sucks super depressing toxic cesspool circle jerks nice subreddits way shity stay nothing see here cant come back this peace,0
failed class nd time convinced ever ill really kill soon enoughth year college student internshipwork experience extracurriculars gpa pretty important end moment comparison peers who already started establishing professional careers gpa sucks trying doublemajor school compensate fact im staying extra year class question one failed last fall major initially really interested upon failing class last fall took another major switch which like good job prospects too felt lame taking  years  major fall took first major saw another professor teaching it someone im familiar done well another class past thought sign second chance redeem myself however semester progressed realized much struggling ultimately decided drop major good hoping pass class c well happen bombed final failed class again gpas going tank transcript going look even awful got  finals next  days cannot focus anything all basically im fucking idiot really fault poor time management amp shameful time management still something grasped stage life lot times realize much fuckup am im think if theres higher there surely let like live consequences it must plan me plan really mean meeting death way anyway im coming terms dumb much problem mindset  hope higher would save allow die longer personally deal consequences poor decisions root cause never attempting redflag before figured fate ill die soon enough postponement waste timemoneyresources really time active rather passive take matters hands cant live dumb mistakes future really bleak amp btw im really solely failing academicscareer im dealing depression loneliness well expressed post couple days ago context anyway might get triggered one reason another holidays weekend then set take winter course however withdraw tomorrow the last day get full refund  parents money wasted regard haha,1
this life shittier ever decided end life birthday hope though hope parents cry fuck im tired accept fact im selfish,1
bermuda triangle irresponsible smh head constantly losing things bet mom would take away money grandma gave would lose ampxb bad untrustworthy piece shit triangle gt,0
dark thoughts cant iteveryday wake up go university parttime job wake up feel im achieving anything going train station know grim look face feel people judge me reason stay friends family mainly one friend smile grabs face see im alone never feel happy seems like eternity go bed wake next day ampxb takes  hours fall asleep im incredibly sleep deprived lay hours upon hours nothing happens take medication fall asleep never works im diabetic low high blood sugars keep up im always exhausted fatigued blood sugar levels anything drawings hobby draw one thing im so it want anything even lying feel like im achieving something thats actually accomplished ampxb wondering words wisdom get through,1
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i am 0f no longer living with my family my little sister newly yr ha been struggling with depression and self harm for a while now but it recently ha gotten worse like a lot worse she is cutting a lot searching for way to kill herself googling about eating disorder her only friend always play the who s more depressed game she see a therapist but doesnt open up most recently she ha been messaging a 9m which my parent will be handling with the police what do i do i ve been depressed and sent to mental hospital for sh so i do understand a bit i just don t know how to help her i don t want to lose her and i don t want her to be in this much pain i love her more than anything more than myself,1
thought end thing makes happy im entirely sure say often find lost words need ever depressed tried oh lord tried get rid it make disappear longer think capability happy seems almost impossible im going apologize advance inevitable essay first post lot things need aired need someone hear me listen explode first all mother died   died suddenly obviously lot heart ache sadness on stuff would normally expect anyone loved mother father worked away sister never stable home sometimes lived nan grandfather times would stay auntie occasionally nan would look us mothers mother wonderful person finally allowed open someone took open arms person would tell father wrong died  day seeing grandfather cry heart wrenching thing ever witnessed found wonderful boyfriend treated like everything course best friend like sharing time someone else left life i still miss her time noticed eczema started get worse nothing curing it took skin problem doctor referred dermatologist baffled idea was tried different tests treatments avail since various doctors around uk travelling far wide seek treatment condition got even worse body wasis covered itchy sore later year uncle died grandfather started think fault maybe curse family tried commit redflag three times carved shit thighs stopped eating properly thought enormous weighed kg boyfriend could longer handle me erratic self destructive left two years suffering me point really decided life me pain day every day skin leave school gcses pain unbearable could hardly motivate leave bed got diagnosed new illness called myasthenia gravis for wish google disease simply something makes muscles incredibly weak point hard walk eat sometimes even talk steroids helping condition curable hoping go remission someday top this look  year old sister since grandparents longer around so huff starting feel like writing wrong reasons feel like im writing sob story wanted ill quickly explain happens that decided get better mentally tried unbelievably hard finally felt like succeeded got boyfriend back year trying moved house boyfriends parents housebecause father verbally abusive kind got social life back track now back started rejected friends again afraid leave house boyfriend wonderful feel like cant give need sit every day feeling like massive empty space inside me im desperately trying find something fill nothing want nothing life anymore knew could die tomorrow without hurting boyfriend sister would it would end it one talk afraid losing boyfriend trust anyone else poor shit leave school illnesses get job reason government also unwilling help all kg heavier medicines feel like elephant terribly unsatisfied way look seen glimpse happiness totally worth effort this sounds incredibly gay idea anymore scared future want curl ball fade away tried leave father even thinking makes angry however tell this man go hell put through living im wasting time tldr  depressed happyish see point living,1
parents asked wanted birthdaythis something think chose date seriously though hell supposed ask for candy fancy urn put ashes in asked nothing said no inconspicuously ask something family could get use would,1
fall asleep cant fall asleep easily since suffer anxiety stress every night trapped plaguing thoughts leave alone usually end  hours rotating bed still cant fall asleep im always sleepy school need sleep im always sleepy,0
yo students actually hope wake school next morning man im even sure mean hope never wake way anymore id like sleep school year somehow fail ltc,0
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today daynear future though,1
im killing self tomorrow valentines dayim gonna kill self tomorrow cant shit anymore im  years old boy hate dad depression told parents doesnt help anxiety even im school class seven grade best friend blocked probably hates dont even know reason dont good friends feel fucking lonely day drinked alchol helped little bit smoked cigarettes crush one girl rejected know life goes doesnt feel like like year cant forget wanted friends  girls dont give change assholes live really smalltown wanna fucking killmyself dont wanna live anymore help pls,1
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thats folksi posted maybe   weeks ago rdepression basically outlining crappy life led point ill summarize you father left life born found mom pregnant me mother mental breakdown two weeks old tore head bugie owned drown pet dog kitchen sink suffocated almost death pillow lucky baby grand parents came visit exact moment time barge stop killing me put maximum security psychiatric hospital first two years life never met already talking walking passed around aunts uncles grandparents mom came home diagnosed schizophrenia heavily drugged depixol mianserin diazepam also developed spinal problem caused excruciating pain prevented much range movement heavy pain meds too put back care needless say life hard living her mood swings growing would turn randomly violent drop hat childhood suffered broken nose  broken ribs dozens instances beatings lock bedroom every night slept safety fun yo grandpa died grandma lost went senile rest family abandoned mother long time ago without support looking myself violent mom crazy gran school always option tend routines grandma fell bungalow broken knee lay  days stone cold floor pain confusion found wardens weekly visit died ambulance way hospital  mom developed leukaemia battled  months turned nonhodgkins lymphoma lost grandpas death moms death  funerals buried cremated whole family exactly  year day mom died close friend mine hung himself tough harsh time life suffer depression memories wish could erase head constantly got relationship really helped me still depressed found purpose existing again love generally genuinely happy ten years partner sure gone hard times recession lost job years ago move find new work still glad someone life cared about well thats too cheated kicked out homeless friend work got house keep ending streets last  months life hardest yet  years life devoted person still love heart nothing utterly alone world cant even begin imagine starting someone new even want to live uk voted conservatives again given up faith humanity gone now crushed beyond words filled loss sorrow grief pain heart smashed dust tomorrow th may day mother died day sean died far concerned day uk died thanks election result plan end life am tomorrow morning nothing left world me everyone cared dead friends long gone one love turned back together point purpose existence now die one day anyway likely cancer slowly painfully waste away dust like watched mother go through thanks tomorrow jump bridge far ft valley floor witnessed first hand people jumping death there fast painless mercy wanted tell someone nobody say goodbye too goodbye guess see another life cats,1
princessbuddha im having the same problem i never drive anymore,0
motorcycles raddd so wanted say something im excited about dad gonna getting motorcycle license year try too since expressed excitement interest it said hell teach dad used take motorcycle rallys stuff get patches jackets think really coooool yeah im excited although gotta learn drive car first,0
feel like problems made myselffor last two years hard feel even slightest bit happiness know many different ways get help ive already gotten therapist feel weird believe problems fake people think sad attention idk anymore cant help think much easier everything would just it stress worrys shit bothered continues bother dead finally wont feel emotion ill able completely empty afterlife even though think pros dying cant help know parents would devastated gone fuck way go problems wtf even anymore,1
im triedi dont know wjat else say dont want die dont want live anymore im done know know im even  feel like done trying anymore need put effort something seems like cannot change fucked carring decade ago decisions still affect me big part hopes end homeless soon feel like lowest point maybe finally it actually plan going kill myself plan driving car cornfields middle winter next couple months sitting bottle alcohol maybe watch youtube phone listen radio something get cold pass die,1
missed  weeks classes depressionsuicidal thoughts  told im going suspended whats pointi switch anxiety medication weeks ago new one got put lowest ive ever been constant panic attacks depressed suicidal first time life almost ended it talked doctor scheduled multiple therapy visits  weeks later im lot better time missed  classes  times  classes  times managed pull bed classes first days even get bed therapist told talk adviser campus did told today since im failing  classes absences already academic probation im going suspended said since still went class days qualify medical withdrawal broken leg could excuse her actual words exactly something former suicidal person wants hear hurt get excuse feel like total loser hopeless now told write letter what better next time wait committee decide come back even wont eligible financial aid anymore community college cant even afford that feel terrible like efforts get better useless,1
i close my eye nd i see your face whens it gon na stop sigh time,0
good morning ladies gentlemen anyways recap last week ship got stuck canal another ship came crashed ship got stuck might semi truck oh thing happened vehicle lesson week drugs unless prevent crashing cars boats case take whole bottle gonna need them also small orange bell pepper died super mario bros gg mr bell pepper f chat coming next week terrorist attack amber heard,0
many family problems living situation problem know anymore many sad thoughts hating life wishing would endwhile said would never end life much hating life wish would end know anymore unhappy life,1
parents went caring mental health thinking im going kill self sleep guess im grateful kinda annoying,0
gonna long rant feel free skip wanti feel fucking hopeless wrote redflag note  months ago parents found it went therapy went talk it said starting seeing therapist so  months ago about didnt believe fine took er next day could get doctor get antidepressants parents dont trust alone anymore theyre afraid might myself and feel like getting better im suicidal again like really wanted fucking die last night annoying didnt means it honestly dont even know im like really suicidal makes sense cause feel like really wanted die wouldve tried now right really staring pills thinking it scared im still school im afraid survive attempt ill thrown mental hospital allowed finished middle school maybe get held back another year idk also dont want wait school ends die feel like im overthinking honest cause want go come back alive cause try works dont worry this again dont know ill make it cause parents obviously ask why therapist would mad telling suicidal awhile now friends might hate trying leave them think im attention whore could go on dont know life even worth living know is this aching pain emptiness nothing fill it feeling something missing im hollow idea eats inside out hate everything self image constant sadness pain one else see pretend fine tiring im sick feeling like every day drains me point life temporary reason get bed everyday whats expected me try part society go school learn id rather die im tired much effort takes normal things like get bed take shower things people without second thought takes much mental energy id rather not id rather stare ceiling feel nothing may seem like lot every single fucking day gets one point feel like im loose grip reality dont want life like this feel like deserved happy would happy right im not want die dont want spend life broken shell person dont know long ill state hating every square inch body long pain last long thoughts tell dont deserve happy deserve pain fucking shitty person am dont want live life like person feel like itd better made everyone happy die im planning next week might much fucking pussy haha,1
@drew does it feel real to you? ,0
ladybug damn i missed out why didn t you invite me,0
need help home boy got dumped gf hes rly sad fucking suck helping sad people need advice oh wise rteenagers say,0
i am missing my daughter she went away yesterday for a week on a course to help her teach gymnastics the house is too quiet,0
hello all im yrs old male kg cm one year half maybe im suffering from chronic daily headache dull behind left eye pressure like  try think remember something seems getting worse,1
@JonathanRKnight ,0
although obviously lowbudget production performances songs movie worth seeing one walkens musical roles date he marvelous dancer singer demonstrates acrobatic skills well  watch cartwheel also starring jason connery great childrens story likable characters,0
I can't get over the weather  I'm loving it!!,0
whats pointim  years old im guy bipolar disorder middle worst depressed state life miss exgirlfriend much heart hurts keep beating feel like im playing videogame objective feel like saddest man world talked almost  years become recluse lost friends go outside gained weight miss every day,1
i ve never been good at talking to people about how i m doing and most of the time i ll just tell everyone i m fine and move on i have a very close friend and they re the only person i ve ever felt comfortable talking to i trust them with absolutely everything and we ve helped each other through so much a week ago or so they told me thing were changing and they ve sort of left we barely talk anymore and they told me they re still gon na be here for me but i really just don t feel it anymore it could just be my head making it seem a lot worse than it actually is but it really feel like they don t care at all anymore like they used to and it seems like they just don t even wan na talk to me anymore it hurt a lot to think that i used to always text them or something when thing were bad just so i could have someone to talk to but now i don t really have that anymore and i don t know what happened anyways ig no one s got ta respond but i just needed somewhere where i could say this,1
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thinking killing last daysi thoughts recently getting arguments girlfriend parents secret relationship  told beginning good idea talk parents disagreed dumb kept secret relationship secret part love girlfriend mom took phone read messages sending last days girlfriend said deleting everything found lie parents said stay away contact her im home think hanging myself ive tried hard last year feels like slap face im tried life crapping matter hard try seem good enough world idk im lose feel like option end point,1
girlllll its that type of depression that you swear the pain is physical. aint nothing wrong my brain just thought it would be nice to wreak havoc every once in a while,1
im probably gonna get sent hell this fuck it so moved scale bathroom scale parents bathroom reason every fucking time go sleep always hear following note footsteps annoyingly loud whenever put footsteps annoyingly loud version even says so annoyingly loud footsteps door opening followed footsteps scale beep more footsteps followed door closing footsteps door closing so plan get sent hell record happens every damn night parents denied ever happening either theyre lying im hearing something im pretty sure theres pattern im hearing anything later ill bring again show recording and no cant say edited file reason  clue software sound editing  aids pc cant handle anything without fucking due shit is so result im either gonna told im wrong get fucking yelled wanna hear annoying ass foot steps beep sleep wish luck,0
@Aries962 I do too! I'm screen shooting pets  Hats off to you for getting yours!!  Go ~A~ Go We need to grab our diva and chat! LOL!,0
counts redflag attemptif someone take like  mg ibuprofen even knew wouldnt kill knew dangerous body weight would count redflag attempt would like self destructive behaviour self harm,1
okkk. time to get off this bitch and call back my bestafrizzle ,0
read book must say movie stays true form think beginning psychological thrillers genre psycho cristina raines gives excellent performance lead burgess meredith gives excellent supporting actor nextdoor neighbor seen movie least twice think going buy book movie collection suspense keeps building climatic end twist never see coming like movies like signs village sentinel classic prelude also interesting actors movieyou would recognize read credits late jerry orbach great commercial director jeff goldblum excellent photographer also beverly dangelo underrated great,0
alonemy best friend  friend  tried kill last week survived cause send goodbye letter friends managed send someone house pills knows use one day bought own im awful place one talk to since recovering attempt pm live im already drunk enough pills knock die im hoping sleep take anymore even anyone say goodbye to,1
"@rey_z _The concept of recovery is misunderstood by many including professionals. It's not about whatever *it* is diagnosis wise, it's about managing and adjusting. As we know depression can remain in various ways or come back.. or actually bipolar depression..",1
want die im afraidlong story short im sex addict iv always careful got regular std tests found long time girlfriend gave herpes shes worry wort causes constant outbreaks last years depression never sex mentally destroyed me strong meds  outbreaks year hardly ever sex dont want give anyone else iv settled relationship im longer able live life always hoped for wasnt scared id kill self tomorrow never really could expected life go way hide depression really well personality fun happy person ever met hate get std test started dating  years ago plan kill times week months since iv sex feel like im going mentally shut able go work more im scared google redflag ideas thats really thats stopping more,1
whats otters got phone back repair place half posts reference otters im guessing missed something,0
"just watched katie and peter stateside, it is my guilty pleasure. i love them  ",0
i can t make friend because i m boring i can t socialize without offending someone unintentionally i have so many toxic way and view i m better off dead and not worrying about trying to fit in or be like by anyone anymore the more i try to get out and understand people the worse i feel it s been worse since hitting my 0 s,1
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wow my x 0 is dead,0
@Flick101studio hahaa..ok set! give me the time and date. place.. HAHA. ,0
cook excited us try food made something eat instead disappointed frustrated would eat food feel like force go eat food even though hungry like horrible disappointed waited eat food instead making mine like feel like prisoner whatever want reassure crazy need advice,1
im really suicidal right now could helpive depression long term roughly since   started bullying getting attacked consistently school appearance i wasnt good looking somewhat chubby riddled acne hair basically skinhead bully called levi who first week started fight me warped school called mum told instigator bully kept antagonising him mum waited come home walked door beat living crap me fat sobbing wreck living room floor birthday came month later forced buy apology gifts birthday money grandad sent since refused get anything year supposed bully forced give someone still making school life misery apology card chocolate well ask forgiveness made situation worse kept beating up expelled friends blamed me started bully group one point arm dislocated one pretend fell bike knew lived year passes mum decides divorce step dad tells hell still dad month later says im kid refuses speak me mum gets relationship drug addicted alcoholic partakes vices picks heavy alcoholism almost daily fight tried stop shed attack call names such step dad comes pick half brother sister one day gives old desk sit stairs taking room asks said anything him didnt accuses loyal calls two faced backstabber says im scum cry take desk upstairs im get idea die dont need keep keep dealing this  year old goes bathroom slits wrists doesnt cut deep enough exsanguinate himself goes downstairs ask mum help shows bloody wrists beats trying manipulate her forward another months turn  th really feel point celebrating birthday depressed am ask alone say dont care it accuses fishing attention starts hit boyfriend says make list write small list forces write bigger list gets im forced put social media others see see great mum is months abuse boyfriend makes everyone move house boyfriend move home city itll make everyone happier move still abuse other time government lost school coursework get put onto maths band level capped c grade eventually get girlfriend big group friends make feel somewhat human local college informed im good computer science building pcs offer unconditional spot level  networking course enrolment day college kyan moving back id failed subjects school bar english maths girlfriend still lived here friends still lived here hadnt experienced issues here broke boyfriend leave get back used live get put resit course college wont accept without  gcses  higher girlfriend lives  miles away cant see often little brother sister allowed come see us every  weeks mum irrationally moving much cant take computer science college dont course mum threatens kick leave homeless cannot find job says doesnt care stressful top college ive tried get take doctor refuses thinks depression myth way fix sad going working shes told rest family fear im abusive manipulative couldnt argue back ask threatened kick out life feels meaningless right now feels like im tragedy script authored feel awful times please help,1
necessary consistent plot cant write dragon dad fun dragon son theyre really happy theyre grand time actual consistent plot cant that ugh,0
need pointive coasting long remember things definitely started feeling wrong around age twelve that things got terrible tried st year uni mum came knife pushed through got nd year antidepressants still feeling like anything  evened state functionality nothing else remember like feel stuff relapse feel bad finished uni neet months told people im applying want things been feel like know shit anything point feel like pushed point everyone else enough need something know like know find out like look cant bothered change cant envision turning anything actually like look wrong think hate look confusing balls ive every advantage money schools opportunity wasted good feel bad hell ive wonderful doctors therapists every cycle harder theres less left me ampxb cant more current thought end march definite date got helium syringe air embolism carotid would hurt quick feels closer every day relaxing,1
world shambles nothing works matter hard try still failure nothing done ever matter attractive one cares live die deserve here taking wasted spacei could say gist fucking cares think one one really doesno wonder developed eating disorder ugliest person ever met actual fuck okay brain okay nothing fix it tried hard tired cannot keep every day make stop hurts means think would right,1
I'm Forgot all my problems and depression when you're with me for a…  https://www.instagram.com/p/BiAR6_wHKsz9Nx8kIoOc8ajE_berEjKXPDXZlQ0/ …,1
this isn t for me it s for my niece i ve got anxiety and get panic attack and she s got it too and is having a panic attack right now and i have no idea what the fuck to do so someone help me please i can t call her mum a she s on a flight or her sister who is like about to have a baby so someone tell me what i should do i m freaking the fuck out because i know my coping mechanism will not help her whatsoever,1
quit reddit back awhile ago today something pretty crazy happened friend today name andrew im teenager usually go field school get school hang people today hanged best friend field didnt tell parents going field awhile walking together house got walking around neighborhood saying hi another friend got house checked phone see almost  notifications parents saying last seen missing person friend need know called told friend safe im local field picked thats pretty much that good writing im writer,0
got another creepy pm whys always crusty ass  year old man child saying dumb shit asking nudes cant sum big titty ass milf shit nicely asks nudes wouldnt mind tbh,0
nothing meim money one talk thanks mom im  done  years im finally going it bye,1
help mei depressed point selfharm suicidal thoughts friends family job life dont want live anymore hurts much see everyone else happy get angry world happy studying biology uow staying weerona campus told  people depressed didnt care dont want monster,1
thank god concept sleepi sure would killed already taking naps sleeping wasnt thing way hell could survive hearing thinking things going world ,1
valantine another day me anyone relate ,0
SCREAMMM AIMMM FIRREEEEEEEE!    ,0
boy girl both neither need know,0
@newscientist @BaddieDaywin @schmids333 @Capt_depression Not really. Actually poor ad hominem to try and discredit one's stance because they share thoughts and opinions outside of their realms.,1
 sit bed eating box double cheese cheezits snack mix listening pod ween satan iife good,0
u sort new ur redditor thats ayo hows feel loser virgin cus im nauseous rn,0
maybe an insomniac or just nocturnal,0
"Depression is not a joke sweetie. I've been in depression until now. I cry for no reason, I laugh for no reason. There a time I hurt myself. I hit my head at the wall or slap my face. Its hurt but my heart is hurt even more.",1
people always tell kill yourselfwhenever talk people suicidal thoughts always tell real explanation shouldnt ask say everyone sad yet temporary sadness cant even compare daily struggle go every day leads wanting kill myself thoughts,1
sex made hate humanitysex made hate humanity simple pretend culture society group people illusion coherency mirage togetherness real real slightest war behind scenes instead front face nature would breeding would exiled killed point lost me know need die simple part evolutionary process pinned inside us innate fundamental need drink stream sex made hate humanity obvious fascinating would be wasnt disgusting sick people say nature perfect beautiful nature wrathful disgusting means genocide taking place across planet indicative nature anything dont get it while society right thing evolving away animal roots becoming civilized becoming evil base hormones pheromones firing off ruling us anymore nothing here body vessel torn shredded missing planks sinking dying drowning happens slowly inhale water choke public one cares opposite fact speak people laugh fundamentally mock you everyone does understand men kill themselves personally afraid death process jumping bridge becoming paraplegic shooting face brain surviving want death anything stopped enjoy life years ago realized going alone id around bunch people pretending fun bet part it effort mattered make mistake body wrong effort halved best might worth it not alone nothing ever done worked idiot disgusting flesh blob attractive worthy touch one tried suggestions tried methods joined groups saw much attractive apparently everyone me barely get people look eyes open mouths toward me anything actually intimate never happen again monster would totally lash out get that sympathize understand immense pain people clearly put through similar wont solve anything im logical hate people theyre logical helps them get it selfinvolved beasts one deserves anything thats attractive people deserve wonderful lives ugly men like deserve slowly fall apart lonely neurotic messes muscles tense crack pop walk begging finger run them let loosen human fucking touch thats im going kill myself make mistake will people around go well could done different could given chance human you thats way much ask amount words ever change human needs either society needs adapt many men kill themselves know almost excites us though said that probably encourage it like get off society male suffering,1
bru kinda funny someone fr tries insult u u joking think im fr aight question u guys put s end ur jokes,0
 suicidali born  family fights grew hometown till  never probably remember seeing father moved city village  things got complicatedi kid never anyone play sister born thought lucky someone play all suddenly lost attention parent felt lonely preferred school home good school things changed hit puberty understanding world changed chaotic lonely time first thoughts suicide getting bad grades family constant fights everything past decided end forced join boys scout really hard someone already controlled environment  joining made worse criticised everything could manage school pressure peaks little friends family member would rely on confidence family would even flinch bit disappeared guess what attempted  suicide attempts row third time attempted body could handle literal moving dead body months even recovering wished would die planned things cannot even imagine worst part nowhere girl class proposed me shock eventually fell love lived happily year perspective life changed grateful her devastated day said would want anymore would concentrated studiesi mad af threw fights randomly life fkin hope ever live world gone like that got weeks still fkin hope would come back  yearsi extreme levels depression still now could talk express emotions trapped self lost interest live addicted suicidal ideation used play songs till made cry desperate love experienced last much anyone would say world hope live could even last till could even experience it destroyed hopes lost want live anymore still alive absolute reason satisfying people alive waiting day courage attempt life worthless nothing loser want die would say suffering would last long happiness forever either wasted life  freaking years,1
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well groomed well behaved teen meg tilly must spend night creepy mausoleum initiation high school club problem powerful psychic named raymar buried day quite dead needs life force humans powersbr br obscure horror film offers plenty thrills chills appealing likeable cast superior special effectsbr br my rating  br br one dark night rated r violence adult themes,0
"Good news!The researchers analyzed the language used by the r/depression subreddit, which suggested that the subreddit prompted a positive emotion change"""" in users.#depression #reddit http://ow.ly/jiMm30jFQNC ",1
"@Babelpop oh, sorry. wrong typing XP yeah, i had fun  i just knew about babelpop when u followed me on twitter. thanks! ",0
the after effect of this drama is a whole new level of depression how am i supposed to live my life after knowing all the thing happened to her omg whyyyy whyyyyyyy,1
im finally peace idea ending lifehi all know want somewhere vent what theres stuff mind know talk people life theres multiple times life ive wanted here ive antidepressants briefly  dad affair since ive history selfharming reckless spending turning alcohol escape getting better selfharmed since mid late  met someone turned perspective life around taste everything clicked instantly never fought fit together like  puzzle pieces went could easily see us spending rest lives together were talking moving saving money future holidays everythings great reckless spending debts became issue never realised actual cost before paid month never thought it organised iva begin start feb debt bit vaguely sorted atleast theres end site now broke nowhere start feb personal stuff debt issue since cant see point go on im plodding days feel empty feel hollow ive lost half ive never felt heartbreak like before still live parents said debt credit rating fucked  years iva complicates plans moving out id rely everything someone elses name know hpw feasible  loathe idea stuck home till im nearly  thats sob story selfinflicted problems though know want anymore honest im tired life im tired disappointment everyone care about seem drag things me usually id feel form nervousness like cant go actually killing myself time feel completely peace idea first thing get hold bottle oxycodone know enough alcohol sleeping tablets bottle oxynorm probably end it im giving weeks one favourite bands playing uk soon seems like nice final thing do gig plan sticking around long thanks anyone thats read ramblings,1
ive left turni cant escape christianity cant escape sexuality fuck supposed do cant escape loneliness cant escape anxiety supposed do shit like doesnt happen good people gotta fault cruel joke theres god hope hes laughing ass off clever make suicidal dont give courage go it make bi surrounded people whod hate that make cant get out make one else likes person make want throw pity party simultaneously aware deserve this make even try help fuck too give birth pile trash see lives long take take out hopefully much longer,1
effortit effort breathe always really hard time year brother took life  years ago  dad years that feels yesterday time time believe food others make naive expect next time different people know say yea hardly ever refuse days sex mainly become fat old embarrassment daughters abuser ex fianc words cut skin without even use blade crocodile tears says cry walt burns face dont know im going get depression blackness still suffocating,1
i think the worst part of dealing with all of this is the absolute constant feeling of loneliness having no connection to anyone many act like they want to help but a soon a they see how deep and dark it is they back off my phone stay pretty silent unless someone need something,1
must losing another wayin spite many recent paranoid delusions eg government colluding large corporations introduce lead municipal drinking water shuttling chosen secret communes theyre raised lead world secret thought sort psychotic break hallucinating im hearing fucking music there fucked head deserve live ill disappoint myself,1
Guy next to me on the bus has a HUGE ring. Huge as in really huge. Will try to twitpic. ,0
honestly even know start grandma died last friday week ago abruptly came back home funeral next wednesday truly feel defeated originally come back anyways change id name address told cannot anything name social security gets done backed  months name change divorce decree nobody cares feel trapped abusive dead name past abusers truly makes feel like something eating inside every time see it hear it use it cried middle dmv cried middle hospital told need new id first previously told need decree cannot change medical records til ss gets through id get new legal name truly feel defeated burnt out tired mentally empty want able tell someone okay without feeling judged feel like tell partner okay again th day row get tired dealing mei scared point physically safe mentally dead back rock bottom,1
im ready diei nothing anymore everyone says gets better doesnt know feels love loved anymore heart completely shadowed mind ive planning day time fast approaching unless someone something prove life worth living im gone edit everyone responded thank kind words honestly think person alive would care enough even read mundane little post sincerely thank you people like give hope something while,1
im gonna kill tonightim done feeling pain world collapsing dreams dying family members dying im debt lost car lost job goodbye world,1
have watched that considering today yaknow shawnna tomomorrow i need my bestfriend,0
embarrassingi feeling good yesterday even made post everyone nice gone cant wait summers go dont really friends anything dont really know enjoy summer bc cant go anywhere anything cant drive im broke think summer might even worse last summer always look forward summer ends worst period life realize little people want things current friends nice really two theyre nice really feels like dont want anything w feel bad something yeah sorry let guys shouldnt much faith im sorry dont know post stuff anyways guess like anonymous one school sees knows dont know im sorry embarrassing want sleep parents yell whenever try take nap hide basement really cant expect much good life made bucket list tried make reasonable able come like  things bc fuck gonna wish reason like,1
reaching limit ive turned  yesterday im double college dropout redflag intentions ive normal cute kind rather shy kid friends one best friend hes alongside childhood simon lets call that probably greatest partner remember countless hours playing football picking cans bottles crap money exchange enough play metal slug near video arcades everything fine th year elementary school started selection fit boys newly made sport class managed get in grave mistake probably first chapter failure life started gradually spent less less time simon probably least athletic even weakest new environment nightmare ive bullied ridiculed psychically abused new classmates even one friend get class too change classes could stay peace bullying period effects me considering whats going happen yes probably ever since ive avoiding pe costs graduation moved city even properly bid farewell simon seen since then totally change environment turned tremendous task me get used new people ive afraid go school ive crying fear bed holidays somehow managed accommodate still remained background ive avoiding people much possible thought whole race fucking dumb shallow human body mind complicated yet repeating patterns simpleminded every girl cunt liking shitty music haircut fighting grades drinking smoking could describe boys similar way ive never good anything never shown sign talent anything interested considerable degree anything games anime two ive spent life kinda bearable though ive going school immediately spent rest time computer kind peace everything somehow stable went on worth note grades awful ive barely passing classes would try better could turn back time would same hated every possible subject english its native language simply learned playing games something started change first faced reality real problems grades possibility repeating year top noticed everyone copy paste pile meat individuals really great talents simply famous way envied guys darkest depths me yet ignored that world computer thats started maladaptive daydreaming could lie hours music imagine famous guy stage playing guitar drawing simply one talented tried turn daydreaming reality started playing guitar never could devote seriously it ended knowing chords intros coming back gaming mid school ive struggling subjects repeat year somehow succeed end games nothing else mattered graduation somehow terrifying found scared even going signing high school everyone happily going pack friends go mum go school bus first time life trembling thought it able ignore everything knowing come back home room found completely hidebound compared peers seeing peers living friday get drunk gross parties vision humans worthless shitheads extended ive started hate everyone dumb interests someone partner envy towards talented guys turned hate towards every person even good grades anything become better anything nothing liked besides playing games came moment want alone going school getting harder harder without anyone could least talk to decided get friends everything ive done towards goal total failure started accepting cigarettes people around coughing out even vomiting after days passed laughing vomiting smoke ceased accepted vodka classmate ive never tasted alcohol before underestimated amount shit possibly drink felt nothing first first step break happened immediately started swaying trying hide people around me ended drunk saying shit front class think teacher knew drunk pay attention since knew bit failure milestone started feeling strange pain chest regularly ive started taking anti depressants ssri shit ive trying quite time wake up seeing games real much time ive devoted them ive tried pick guitar more ive even tried drawing writing voice acting programming nothing really turned tides games able ease pain wanted spend every bit time room never wanted come back school started go school middle lessons last grade ended subjects  presence repeat half year geography history ive getting prescribed stronger stuff since nothing worked cheating crying mothers assistance managed pass subjects graduation choose college since good english ive chosen english philology place could study far place big city thought maybe open place become bit independent failed get in got prescribed another needless ssri velaxin  pills day sign somewhere else upon pressure family started afraid work couldnt imagine giving half day work ridiculed boss afraid failing signed class fucking class ive waiting like execution left bed last weeks holidays started thinking could talented passionate something early years even liked anything spend time it bullies would look envy like envied them would link passion job ended daydreaming whole days passionate successful living game time came go school forget world made head found listen music anymore hearing someone good something making hitting head seeing hearing lorde age star early years caused pain like burn chest thought hey end class good job maybe work game designer first day college ive holding tears whole day math physics overwhelmed me know thinking dumb understand things mention even remember anything high school chest pains getting stronger know going leave college yet bear thought going work month two passed come back college ended kind hikikomori started cutting shaved head realised much failure am day noticed people age driving licenses linking work education even getting married ive trying harm every possible way bear thought lorde ed sheeran leto anyfuckingone shit behind great lives talents passions money hitting real happy smiling look sky breath easily knowing achieved something something more saw facebook bullies rappers clubs saw classmate highschool model ad tv ive heard one cousins getting degree one got offer study abroad ve heard brother  year college working director company laughing girlfriend looked myself naked samaralike pose bald cutted thigh still obese despite eating less remember anything think head started hurt thinking whats going happen me cant like anything ended psychiatric night passed sleep hospital obscure saw people there want like them veins dots amount blood taken me like fucking clue it resigned shortly possible head doctor confront fucking cunt mention wait mum get there ouy see much fucking trash am  months passed since ive tried anything never like again ive running learning piano tried programming again read tons bodybuilding sites bought weights barbell tried drawing end place crying old times could peacefully play games crying old friends totally alone since many years everything pitiful attempt become something more selfish thinking successful people like that theyve training hard lived problems struggle everything try learn learn guitar end labor anyway programming may actually work cant understand simplest things fatiguing makes head hurt simply dumb everything hard redflags happen people never fall love anything theres nothing keep alive anyway  billion people earth counting amount people lived past big competition money lies fist truly rule world right now cant even get level peers anymore im tired like world hard equipped tools help begin with pain ass everyone around me,1
maxmoefoes newt facts know newts lizards think,0
my year old year old is driving me around the twist i don t want to be like this,0
certainly best movie ive ever seen certainly worth  which cant said many movies daysbr br this pleasant account true story although many details real story twisted movie ie billy sundays character three four people real story combined together robert deniro course good cuba gooding jr also impressive,0
*sigh* I love my wifey. she's the sweetest thing ever. jus made me breakfast in bed jus because ,0
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@sadknob  good thing P &amp; K have their day jobs!  ,0
want die feel like right suicidal theres nothing wrong lifei want die feel guilty it theres nothing wrong life feel like im ungrateful im suffering much mental illness im anxious depressed nothing life wrong feel like right upset maybe im little btch cant deal slightest inconvenience cant control feel everything feels wrong im overwhelmed cant this much want everything stop want here theres point life im horrible human wish could give  years life someone deserves it many wonderful people die young get  years sit around pool self inflicted suffering many people much worse mange stay optimistic cant handle life privileged little middle class white girl living area identity lesbian problem want cant even im much coward use knife wish gun thatd make easy,1
life is genuinely so miserable and i quite frankly don t want to keep living like this but at the same time not only am i afraid of dying i literally have no accessible mean of dying either im too much of a pussy for the more violent kind of death and i dont have access to any of the item required for the easier way out all i am capable of doing is waiting for something to magically happen shit is so fucked and im tired,1
love drivein cheeze early s love onehow could go wrong low budget film bloodshed lunatic asylum cant crazy folks sharp objects always entertaining combinationbr br the film looks like shot inside someones house  ads fun watching type stuffthe gore bit mild compared others ilkbut enough keep us bloodthirsty sickos like myselfhappysome horror films drag parts leave waiting something happenthats case herethe characters entertaining enough make every frame quite enjoyablethere never dull moment start finishthe mind melting climax end unbelievable liked much right end credits watched second timeits absolute must see self respecting drivein horror nutbr br  driveinfreakometerrequired viewingbr br yea love youi love younow take thorazine put clothes back onplease,0
really liked guy super funny easy talk to seemed really trustworthy me told keeping eye since saw pedo talking lot hanging around lot told two girls around age worked me time girls quit couple months jobs even though well seemed happy much liked positions told girls complained times pedo grown attached made feel uncomfortable didnt know boss,1
im sad im really sad laying bed well actually empty numb point stands sad,0
feel many expectationsi feel much pressure many things fail get made fun instead supported feel like couldnt even kill people would see weak dont want people think want kill saying threat feel like real support expected deal it,1
im getting tiredive going battle cant asked fight anymore theres future me even manage successful fucking what cant happy im literally afraid to ive miserable long thats know be life school fucking anarchy im good one subject im already year behind time running me im supposed going uni next year failed extra year im  context uk go college   years uni failed first year mental health depression recently got diagnosed well body dysmorphic disorder know reddit fucking tired it tired taking medication tired fucking school tired spending majority time alone  friends always feel isolated excluded ive never party even fucking go regularly partly bdd wanting leave house without makeup ever seems piss people disappoint them im tired myself even fucking anything sit think think think either cry vomit learn hobbies live im there go school feel depressed go home feel depressed rinse repeat wanna blow head feel like massive burden know future holds me cant even get job bdd likes fuck over live shitty area too literally worst london everything fucked time pulled plug train wreck,1
note planim going put thoughts here sections be  work  escorting sexuality  drug alcohol addiction  family  attention  want  plan work work software engineer well would able hold job  months without company getting tired me im good do bosses love output open source projects contributions even first programming job startup  cto shocked first day repeat shock every job companies get tired reputation coming work straight nightclubs drunk drugged up tired needing snort coke work stay awake productive escorting sexuality said above cant hold permanent work one nice thing going im young pretty good looking girl look age look  men love that get little girl daddy want fuck little hot teenage daughter sex boring me like girls went long period knowing im straight lesbian bisexual think like men sense daddy real birth dad course want daddy  older guy looks me loves me helps get early twenties gives advice suppose people call having daddy issues escorting go really wrong sometimes clients beat shit hookers happened once thankfully got tied dark room beaten whipped positive side getting beat escorting builds character makes really really strong take ton abuse people but head drug alcohol addiction debatable whether im coke addict desperately need it want use it thanks hooker get lots easy free access cocaine use  times week alcohol destory me used teetotal innocent quiet shy teen im alcoholic confident loud partygirl arrest record drunk disorderly drunk disorderly drunk disorderly love vodka need vodka two bottles fridge right im going start pouring finish letter im quiet night been  nights row now drink sleep family hate reasons go into shit hardest bit write ive typing nonstop  minutes im unsure say hesitating mum want anymore know doesnt even says loves me never shows appreciation anybody anything dad worked hard provide sister because mum worked decades lazy bitch first memory dad took party workplace threw children shy one scared talk anyone eventually dragged car shouted me fucking disappointment obviously yet outgoing loud confident child everyone would prefer wish got divorce instead constant arguing theyve since born desperate move away home take arguing anymore people argue public still upsets me attention makes happy used to awkward kid teenager fucking love center dance floor one stage naked girl one guys talk clubs pubs gangbang last night escorting contact first person get naked fuck put clothes back on walking around nude men look wank wanted  attention wanted fuck girl though what want secure job better flat my current place tiny studio suck dick afford things alcohol withdrawal symptoms  hours sober family the plan obviously redflag note plan redflag question when is anything want first redflag plan long remember first genuine redflag plan two years ago going travel south east asia spend savings fun fucking hookers haha ive become one twist die get executed  instead ran away another place nothing like said attention section enjoy makes happy maybe seek out reading story earlier  httplongformorgstorieslittlegirllost  go read it good  story girl ran away los angeles seek fame got fame became one biggest porn stars era shot head am another thing read earlier  httpwwwnytimescommagazinehereiswhathappenswhenyoucastlindsaylohaninyourmoviehtml  lindsay lohan still gets acting gigs despite crazy bitch it cant i could run away la hollywood whatever id go trying would homeless enough savings last year work out end all finally end all would relief stress problems suicidal voice head thats taunted whole life  ironic get feel relief id dead,1
id like think pretty optimistic series unfortunate events transpired life late however lately feeling like suffocating always tell could always worse cannot even say words loud myself first time ever want continue want anymore could always worse,1
Didn't trip &amp; fall at graduation.. Go me ,0
sneffielynn i wish i knew what s going on with tb it s driving me crazy,0
mods rredflag watch would possible implement automated comment reply every post providing telephone number redflag prevention hot line im currently viewing sub phone im assuming support information listed sidebar something cant see phone browsing sub cant help notice upvotescomments posts receive even looking new posts im thinking proactively offering information post directly may help prevention trying help theres anything else do please let know,1
got drama assignment idk help dumb recreate scene not even full pic movie know movie suggestions,0
dear youi know cliche tired tired scared tired sad feels like im half alive halfs gone somewhere wish could go too fact matter deeply love wish wasnt wish never met him going lose him sleep knowledge everyday feel hands wrap around mine feel scared look watching tv deep sadness wells inside me im scared know like live fear live like this im always afraid lose love always been say unhealthy feeling know met shortly got discharged hospital gave reason live love seeing face everyday sleeping next him waking next him watching play cat sometimes even think much hurts makes happy yesterday cat delivered nasty scratches arm washed carefully handkerchief think ever experienced love like this im scared losing it going well lately stayed home watched netflix day last night made us dinner thanked kissed lips think told would dead young something consciously planning say death offered ticket love much never want lose him thats must go happens want go knowing loved lose everything love much thats need go last memories good thank you,1
th brithday want die seriously feel horrible atm feel like ive missed lot teenage hood i omg think  yr old  always relaxed cause knew time still dont im ready adult hood omg do bio age far  years less current age think changing age legally  year could help im ready keep thinking im almost  want throw up want die innocence youth never come back world cruel crying almost hour know cope aging funny cause younger also thought im grown old always hated aging now really late cant teen anymore im miserable id anything      even  again anything prayed lot god maybe one day woke older body know anymore ,1
never heard mishima watched film although parts little tedious still find drawn watch repeated box beginning film told celebrated japanese writer behaves like lunatic commits seppuku public film progresses gently inducted twisted logic mishimas mind stages life presented four chapters chapter blend two contrasting narratives first continues story scenes mishimas life appear black white second narrative adaptation scenes novel staged like play filmed vivid colours different novel staged chapter chapter narrative returns present mishima proceeds towards eventual ritual suicide means drama tension maintained endbr br i suspect many people find film boring pretentious arthouse respect that film people want action strong story line hand kind person relishes opportunity penetrate mind bizarre man watching life story told collage beautiful pictures set music philip glass love it loved itbr br ,0
hippychick clarkes shoe don t fir her they don t go small enough for her foot we have to go to specialist shoe shop,0
nbcnews reporting pres chief econ guy summer is loaded with wall street money mil from a hedgefund from bank that were bailed out,0
decided watch recommendations site would say worth effort however take heed film go  minutes staying power get tape watch couple nightsbr br now film say contain spoilers mind goes br br alexandre promiscuous bum womanizer gigolo lives older woman called marie marie owns retail shop provides alex alex spends days cafs restaurants story reveals alex previously impregnated gilberte used live with gilberte dumped less attractive man love alex abused battered her point alex willing get job help raise child found gilberte aborted planned marry someone else br br by chance alexandre meets nurse nymph called veronika striked relationship veronika fell love alex first time sordid sex men past marie veronika struggles alexs affection mnage trois boot finally end revealed veronika pregnant alexs child alex asked marry him assume as aforesaid gilbertes situation alexandre even get job provider new found love family hope br br with title la maman et la putain deduce jean eustache relating franoise lebruns character veronika whore became mother hence mother whore person anyway know french films mostly not all chatty aimlessly political preaching theatrical insipid lamenting full quotes lebrun laud played obdurate characters well held film together part script became little lost disjointed br br not bad effort ,0
white people talking ghetto really cant stand white people dont talk full words really dont know else describe talking ghetto shit like this make good music using cringy ass slang like stop cap baby momma op get point problem african americans using terms thats culture thats grew hearing problem though white people ripping phrases way talking look cool trendy also im obviously forcing anyone talk type certain way really dont give much shit tbh opinion thinking look cringy dumb,0
@monakiaon Go! Go! Go! Hawaiian silky all the way. ,0
face a mammoth task for the rest of the day so many thing to do so little time,0
Going for a cycle a day helps keep depression at bay #mentalhealth #activelincs #bikeability https://twitter.com/WeAreCyclingUK/status/989051846772822017 …,1
need get something chestenglish first language please forgive mistakes youll surely find text st birthday last thursday december th somehow made realise many things know really dumb parents brother aunt friend wished happy birthday felt bit sad lived i go back parents house pandemic plenty friends constantly wanted hang get drunk apartment promised wouldnt let bother me real friends still kind expecting text something like never mentioned it damn even reminded facebook anyway last night birthday party mom brother aunt cousin i guess wasnt big deal see every day since work family business everything fine ate cake opened bottle wine conversation drifted someone friends brother aunt im best terms with said well dont talk something else big mistake told ruining fun long story short literally kicked party went bedroom mom followed me thought going tell serious something instead screamed big pain ass next year im going on felt like shit still do honest suppose im lovable person but dont know dont think deserved kicked that screaming told wanted die ive wanting many years many bad things happened wanted stop pain said dramatic made fun me made feel like depression invalid crying everyone else singing laughing thought perfect representation life hour later everybody went home sleep couldnt stop thinking much wanted dead decided take rat poison dad bought couple containers years ago believed rat backyard it wasnt almost forgotten about great plan guess back room poison inside bag trying figure effective must couple years ago and then angel appeared looked find pair big yellow eyes staring intently cat meowed climbed bed made comfortable waited join her context cat never wants sleep me usually sleeps parents room warmer mine there could felt left alone would something bad possible probably else could explain presence meowed laid beside found couldnt leave her one me one cared know might think sad even bit pathetic swear moment became reason existence else would play her feed her clean sandbox keep warm i live family im one shes cat cried eyes again different reason now made promise would wait couple hours anything wanted think everything another day life still shit family ignoring me one else talk to im ranting reddit know least cat wants live may seem like much enough now tldr wanted kill birthday party family dont seem care didnt cat,1
These headphones kick ass at blocking out outer noise! ,0
worlds finest unique project trailer supermanbatman crossover movie exists also never exists least form characters actors plot line anywaybr br so movie one big tease even standards everyday real movie trailers trailer hype nothing regard really liked short project watching trailer makes hungry excited time sad perhaps even feel cheated afterward turns full length movie trailer never exist all sort makes wonder project made first place surely show sandy colloras skills also done real movie short like earlier movie batman dead endbr br but judge short purely is movie technical point view really great one great looking way professional perhaps first would expect although people whove already seen batman dead end already know better expect short cardboard sets cheap homemade costumes thirdrate actors short constantly impressive looking obviously budget skyhigh part impressive professional looking nice costumes sets special effects cinematography lightingbr br the short good quick typical trailer build up perhaps bit many posing shots completely find credible hey works well trailer style impressive shots also couple lame ones mainly superman flying sequences obvious guy standing moving car camera aimed angle below even found pretty laughable thing watch really better spectacular moments really compensate thisbr br michael ohearn seemed like pretty good supermanclark kent although obviously greatest talented actor around clark bartram reprises batman role well kurt carley seemed like awesome lex luthor rest cast also served purpose well enoughbr br its especially interesting watch short recent new modern reinterpretations two main superheroes movie movies batman begins superman returns interesting compare style character treatment movies one actually amazing fun hear much kurt carley sound like kevin spacey actor played lex luthor superman returnsbr br its good looking well made constructed trailer however makes hungry more even though know more whatever happened waner bros plans create actual full length supermanbatman movie way thought developments underway couple years ago nothing heard ever since instead two new separate batman superman movies made batman begins superman returnsbr br ,0
im lonelyim sobbing uncontrollably write this attempted drink death last night obviously work ive held captive suicidal depression since  im  now nearly half life longer stays less less remember life disease need companionship female companionship  maybe  friends really stretch it none women even though best people know theyve helped best anyone expected hear close friend wants kill i hate making problems everyone elses need real relationship tender intimate love save ive attempted  times nothing makes feel lower fucking redflag attempt im terrified rejection feel like keep getting shot ill known loser cant make anyone really anything common anyone age im guitarist who hardly play scales stay rhythm playing  years taking lessons teachers whove decades experience along way loves ss psychedelic blues jazz music fucking loathe todays pussy rock music shitty rap everyone know adores guess say march beat drum everyone else proverbial drum line drumming another way crowd notices one rogue drummer cant help feel embarrassed sticking like weirdo feel like alien belong rest humanity could never tell folks itd break hearts cant see happen im trapped purgatory wanting kill feeling selfish knowing ill leave void break mom dads hearts wanting anyone know whats wrong expecting everyone read mind get looking me making college impossible im hesitant see schools therapist friend went northwestern thing benzos coke alcohol making suicidal therapist got cops involved stuck inpatient facility called parents who make haul indiana chicago drop out happening option need professional help parents idea seeing,1
"I have figured it out........it's a full moon, boy that explains the last few days. ",0
every time make mistake takes momi m flawed person frank fuck time specifically life skills underdeveloped parents raised me dad blames playing video games whenever make mistake usually related life small thing particular hell take mom hell yell scream threaten kick smash things hes super angry hurtfully hell degrade mom brother me led brother depressingly low selfesteem selfworth leading becoming cutter brother developing eating disorder want end life often mom doesnt get verbally abused im socially awkward go anywhere life anyways ive done everything ive wanted by age  believe not,1
"@MsATC haha...not 'Club Buca is closed'! LOL...I miss you too  I don't go out on Thurs, Cynt does. How are you?",0
tell parents suicidal thoughtsim thirteen years old im depressed suicidal weird days everythings fine next really bad parents idea ive tried dehydrating thing do feel nothing matters anymore ive felt way months anxiety too im scared tell parents already see sad scared looks faces want tell them want hurt them im afraid theyre going ask bunch questions know answer need advice also please make comments saying feel way things like that get understand im going through hate please last thing need right now,1
wrote will set noteshello all deeply frustrated myself freshman college dont know suicidal ideation ive years turned something else testament advanced directive short unofficial think suffice small fund set aside cover estimated costs well plan want done body post death specifics sent love postcards today without context distant friends feel incredibly guilty going dont think leave much hole wish could exist dont want attention dont want anyone make big deal gone specifics outlines that feel like burden want here ive nothing waste resources time money all incredibly self serving entitled overall garbage human forever never contributed anything interesting society dont think make lasting impression even  years now earth turn without me,1
okay im kinda upset this playing among us wanted cyan asked cyan person could cyan the host game fricking banned could cyan left game felt host game went far banning someone innocent benefit,0
ive thought redflag daily almost  months nowits getting unbearable thing keeping thought mother finding hanging closet,1
kates father angel day long planning finally start sleeping house again evening comes go home puts crime drama marathon little loud kate asks minds turning down sofor five minutes room again turns louder previously,1
understand myselfyesterday walked  miles  degree weather coat middle oncomming holiday traffic two police cars fire truck swerve miss me one stopped one honked every time someone would come close would hope person behind see me time car moving fast enough stepped out matter get car hit me friend found snow bank searching hours remember much world turning beneath feet felt good totally carefree playing chicken cars longer caring hit me legs terrible pain attempt fear may back road try today tomorrow im intelligent person simply way life ive given ive met people say im living dream cant live dream let get it eaten solid food four days feel hungry unfortunatly social services food stamps single guy take medication problems help exsist ive got feeling im go back road wanted talk someone did meh,1
um ok first time on reddit but i need some help or advice or something sorry for the long post in advance i just need to get this of my chest i can t talk about my interest without feeling like i m going to barf no matter who it is it s especially bad when i m trying to talk to my parent my brother love music he s always talking about it and we re supper close but i only recently started saying hey i know like that song when he s playing music he begs me to share my spotify with him but i just cant i know he won t judge me but i don t even think i m scared of being judged another time he asked to borrow my computer for school work and i panicked i have nothing to hide but i watch a lot of show and read a lot of comic so i save the tab so i can finish them later and got scared he would see them i said no multiple time and he kept asking he wouldn t stop i tried explaining to him explaining to him how i wa feeling multiple time and he just got angry and said alright what are you hiding and i panicked i didn t want him to think i wa hiding something so i just let him use it it wa fine but i felt sick for the rest of the day i also don t like being on my phone around people especially my parent i know they go through my stuff they ve never said anything about it but they ll mention stuff i ve only talked about online hi guy if you reading this o pls leave me alone my mom wanted to show me something so she asked to use my phone and i panicked because i wa on twitter and i have a account i post art on and i didn t want her to see none of my family or irl friend know about it because i m so embarrassed i said no but she just reached for it she didn t see my twitter though she wa really angry and started saying i wa hiding something i got my phone back though and i tried explaining why i get so defensive about my phone but she couldn t understand i almost cried there s so many time i ve seen something in the store i want but just couldn t ask i can t be on my phone without thinking that someone s watching me through it or i accidentally sense that post i liked to someone s contact or i m broadcasting what ever one my phone to everyone around me i have a habit of biting down on my tongue all the time because i m scared i m thinking out loud and just can t here myself i m always paranoid and my family think i m hiding something no one know any of my interest outside of my vague answer like oh i like art i like watching movie i play video game and i think it s starting to affect my relationship what s wrong with me,1
anyone wanna talk lt nothing interesting put good reason talk strangers today bored,0
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im tireddont know much longer continue this literally motivation stay alive want rest worry bullshit life everyday im sure theres rope somewhere garage probably put use soon feels like im trapped body,1
uh d why did the dentist hurt today holy crap i feel like my teeth are all about to fall out,0
israel fact  even though military mandatory  still choose contribute differentlyskip good reason reason lot people try avoid whenever look job itll great disadvantage,0
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moved new area living hotel kind great mindset housing market crap always crap us unless millionaire job market says we hiring applications seem gain tractioni maybe  account previous landlord avoiding calls texts security supposed get back car deciding todays day going die think reason cat her would gone looooong time ago anyone ever wish went bed never woke again,1
thanks advice yall got advice magnificent people months back myself expect work did ive talking girl quickly became best friend im gonna ask weeks im finally seeing year telling make happy im cute share lot interests want see more think shell say yes whats best way ask her im happiest ive long time her,0
watching BGT... the irish dancing is flooding back to me... i may even attempt a wee jig in the living room ,0
motivation anything like anything hobbies interest before used like playing video games try play like  mins gets boring used play hours years ago used play basketball interest anymore play probably  mins also gets boring used play hours like years ago online businesses want start impossible literally motivation start it started online ventures past motivationi literally wake up go pc guess browse internet hours time goes fast fuck even though anything time goes fast even pc like guess days go fast feels like time anything even though anything forget much even remember happened weeks remember stuff want stuff feels like wasting time nothing like past  years months go nothing accomplished feels like year started months ago yet already half way year scary know do motivation,1
thought todaya lot dog extra cuddly hardly ever is havent sleeping much lately think adding feeling down today dog gets credit world shes keeping here ill seeing dr morning im emotional it hate admitting something wrong,1
I give free orgasms. ,0
my anxiety and my depression fighting over whos day it is  https://twitter.com/crissles/status/988218861697806336 …,1
"Dear @DearRobot, if I @ you will you explode?    Okie dokie Good night...  ",0
recently thoughts death even though great life many friends great parents stable family good income etc school taking toll putting redflag parents want die school kind want live pressure adult life see idea want future redflaging since people around already started career paths way afraid commit suicide yesterday without questioning thought what car ran lightning struck something died ever grow deal bullshit hate school much everyday drag bed commit class fr  hours day mostly people teachers despise like said idk root thoughts since life always great fuck wrong me thoughts suicide even though great life,1
try anime guys totally honest start watching anime since nothing time find it recommendations,0
im love cozy sweater button undershirt look looks cute comfy see person wearing beanie sweater button undershirt think wow look cute friendly wanna friend,0
think timedo ever look way back first posts subreddit wonder people still alive really hope found way out think people time man makes really wonder truly god answers wishes prayers guide others path happiness,1
wanted post too last night boyfriend saved woman redflag dear people already posted cptsd group would like post well last night boyfriend saved woman jumping bridge cycled back home last night dinner drinks city cycled back cities bridge suddenly saw young woman hanging bridges fence first thought woman tried make daring selfie saw crossing social media another young woman standing ten meters bicycle hand looking her asked belong together replied no boyfriend walked immediately woman thinking really really bad first talked gentle woman asking could help would really liked help started crying panic saying useless afraid didnt know get back side fence scared touch hold thought would panic let go asked times times would please come back safe side fence could comfort help her still said useless got beat husband police didnt help before thank god universe good powers world boyfriend too stays always calm rational still talking thinking hell hold precious lady while panicking inside boyfriend stepped calmly closer her looked saying come  hold womans hand arm gently immediately hugged woman holding closely me hold hugged firmly tried comfort saying ok you alone precious gonna let go thank god bypasser came later helped us hold her luckily police came quickly dragged back bridge told take safe place help her pray god get right help know there hopeless everything seems boyfriend devastated ofcourse also grateful could help lady could sleep last night nightmares it boyfriend snoozing calmly next moment the difference personalities haha lightly try talk it triggering ive too im grateful life itself dear people triggered too worth it people around care worth it precious precious aftermath im still doubting done more boyfriend wanted keep holding her taking home let rest could help further tortured ourself bit guilt police right resources help woman boyfriend helped calming words help people moment let people help too everyday  theres way people hopeless everything seems people care,1
having mirror in a house doesn t help with depression,1
if ever there wa a day for staying in bed today is it,0
exreporter jacob asch eric roberts hired acquaintance raymond j barry find exwife son asch heads palm springs quickly locates ex laine beverly dangelo someone believes son a young johnny depp things turn bit complicated asch discovers former white trash laine definitely married form millionaire simon fleischer dan hedaya first son nowhere seenbr br directorwriter matthew chapman channeling body heat mids neonoir watchable enough thanks allstar cast nice locations dangelo still looking good around time makes good femme fatale afraid show skin however mystery compelling end costarring dennis lipscomb emily longstreth henry gibson chapman made several thrillers s biggest career achievement coauthoring screenplay infamous color night,0
yes bored dm me comment stuff save boredom,0
@DHughesy Good on the Blues... ,0
wwii america developed brandnew huge bomber plane lois lane clark kent go cover story plane going first mission lois stows away plane takes off also japanese saboteurs board every intention flying bomber tokyo lois able warn superman thinkbr br fastmoving colorful cartoon animation little jerky much better anything see today color sound beautifully restored two problemsthe lousy music score racism especially title aside pretty good ,0
fucked bad need excuse submitting assignments real reason bit lately,0
i want to preface this by stating that i haven t gone to anyone about this nor have i attempted to get help realistically it s just my mind actively stopping me because in some sick and twisted way it belief that i m okay i m and currently enrolled at georgia southern a a freshman while i have struggled with mild depression in the past it all really started going downhill when i lost my dog in june of last year my dog had to be put down and it wa heartbreaking i had to watch my parent and sister cry while i sat there trying to be strong i let myself fall into that typical stereotype that men aren t supposed to cry i regret it i wish i had shown some emotion then but it s neither here nor there at this point what matter is that she had been in my life since i wa a kid i grew up with her and it felt like my world crumbled beneath the weight of her loss my girlfriend at the time helped me through it a lot and wa an enormous amount of help when it came to my happiness at the time it didn t last however i had reluctantly enrolled into college and honestly felt forced to go the first two week honestly weren t too bad i enjoyed my time and thought i would get through pretty easy then me and my now ex broke up this absolutely crushed me having my dog put down being practically forced into college and now i just got out of the first major relationship i ve had all within the span of month it wa such a slow but inevitable spiral into the worst depression i would ever face my ex and i would continue having contact with each other for the rest of that semester she tried to help me feel better but i got so much worse i no longer had a grasp on who i wa and wa just trying to stitch myself back together again i never got better i struggled for the rest of the semester my grade were awful and my physical health had declined a good bit a well when halloween rolled around i attempted to commit suicide i took about half a bottle of melatonin which wa me trying to attempt but obviously that wouldn t work because it s melatonin i wa a dumbass who wa desperately trying to end it all with anything i could get my hand on well i lived then november passed and it wa finally december a month i enjoy because of it s stress free nature around this time my ex and i were actually recuperating we both still had feeling for each other while we never got back together december wa actually nice and i felt happy for the first time in a while then december ended and the new year came along i wanted to focus solely on bettering myself and although my ex and i were starting to somewhat get along again i wanted to cut off all contact i wasn t good for her and she wasn t good for me or that s what i believe to be true from then on i focused on myself i tried to be more sociable and tried to express my feeling more often to my friend it wa working kind of towards the end of january i attempted again at the time i felt like i had made no progress and i thought i wa stuck being a bad person forever so i used some strong prescription pain killer don t remember the name i made it pill in and vomited something must ve clicked inside me because this wa a turning point the entirety of february wa pretty good i felt happy and i enjoyed so much of life i talked to my parent about not wanting to do college and the fact that i broke up with my ex yes it took me month to tell my parent i wa scared to they were understanding and said they d let me live there a long a i had a job i also explained to them that i wanted to do something else in life then what i previously had said to them i wa majoring in computer science because i really wanted to be a programmer but realized that i didn t actually enjoy it i had tried to do some coding on the side and i just didn t have fun with it what i did have fun with though wa disc golf it wa something that helped me feel better about myself because i wa constantly improving in particular i had started to take it seriously around the beginning of january and by the time i talked to my parent i felt really confident and wa thinking of going pro in the future they shut it down because it s rare to succeed in sport and if anything it would be up to luck after that entire conversation about me not being able to be who i wanted i had signed a lease to live with my sister down near the college since we both go there i did not have any intention of going to school for a second year because it wa not good for my mental health i even told my parent that i didn t want to continue college but they said that i have to because the rent where my sister and i are going to be living is too high to pay without a student loan now i m here reluctantly signing up for class next semester all while feeling i have no purpose in life my parent won t support my actually dream and would rather me find some 9 that ll at least keep me living paycheck to paycheck so i m struggling to really know who i am still while slowing piecing myself together in an attempt to better myself i m having a shitty time in college due to several thing dragging me downwards into depression my parent won t support me in what i actually want to do and are instead forcing me to do a second year of school i just don t have the energy or motivation to keep going everything is so extremely stressful right now and it s just been all one slow build up my self image ha absolutely plummeted and i m ashamed to really even go outside anymore because i hate the way i look i feel like i have absolutely no purpose anymore because of all the mixed message i m getting from my family the only thing i don t have right now that i want is a way out i have ibuprofen that i could overdose with but i ve looked it up and it seems too painful and it probably won t kill me i have a car that i could crash of course but i don t want to drag anyone else into this nor do i feel like it s reliable enough of a way out i could try to drown myself in the lake on campus but i ve already tried drowning myself in 0 0 and that didn t pan out well i just want something simple and effective i don t have the money unfortunately i haven t found the courage motivation to get a job i want this feeling to be gone i ll still try to work on myself but a this tightening in my chest get stronger and stronger each day i m not sure i ll make it,1
idea repost totally something people subreddit  ive seen people literally comment posts im  lol feel like mods work filter system get notified investigate someone says im insert age  could uncool say thought it,0
remember going drive inn parent sister grade  still kid drive closed  years later film still lingers memory adult movie kid finds entertaining mark excellence hoffman one hollywoods better actors film proves it like billy put ice cream scene remember sctv version film factory myself remember joe flairty crying please email like sctv skit bad film all story father son touching intertaining love part hoffman talks killroy streets change worth second watch ,0
cant seem connect peoplei want badly desperately really whole life put flaws issues people try kind empathetic person brings around me feels like something broken everyone else see except me shitty childhood gave lot character flaws including body dysmorphia social anxiety took years thought worked rest life line thought ready dating intimacy ive tried going bars tinder bumble plentyoffish name it match lot people social ineptitude eventually catches thats that ive suicidal thoughts life especially younger used particular tree would think every drive home work real big one curb never foot traffic long straightaway plenty time build speed anyway past year left feeling lost alone ive ever been afraid people like look like never imagined like am want someone see value me know much offer world around me cant seem convince anyone it last weeks especially hard try tricks taught stay happy helped path healing first place seem work anymore cant stop thinking much want feeling stop honestly even know im posting here need something know what feel like im constantly drowning everyone around much fun life want bother bring down always thought tough person matter hard life kept hitting would keep going smile honestly know much longer can feel alone edit anyone there could really use someone talk to little thats okay thanks time edit  please anyone all even listen problems guy girl mongoose care view everyone equal desperately need someone talk,1
tommcfly good morning tom why can t i send you a message this is too short for the question i have well to bad for me i guess,0
accidentally inhaled coffee lungs warm nothing else say,0
good life born rather smart super easy time going school others always work hard could easily slide everything live middleclass household rich country never abused friends still incredibly sad time reason thought keeps even going much harder others it literally people lived hell entire life would deserve end myself tf sad,1
almost died hiking i else post going here youth group went hiking trip today leaders let us split groups group went creek saw hill back trail pretty tired plus getting near time leave started hill got  maybe  ft top big hill like easily  ft get close top got stuck grab anything roots trees rock bunch little like  inch ledges it used rock way got end rock started using hands feet dig loose dirt got two feet middle hill started slip nothing grab dig fingers hard could eventually slid little rock mostly ground able get footing rock start back hill man like  panic attacks slide rock know put story figured would best,0
please help remember actress okay girlfriend talking mentions singer lorde lorde crossed mind look picture her sudden get flashback remember someone looks like lorde mental picture woman head clue either tv movie has black hair potentially dyed bangs big eyes dark lipstick black lipstick in image head pale skin dressed black young woman,0
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escape fron thismy family believe therapy siblings thinks worthless nowhere go help faraway want end end it,1
i feel like if i just got some life changing money like that a good amount of my problem would be solved it s just crazy to think that someone spends that much in a week when just spending 00 in a week would take me a month to recover from,1
im genius im ask crush big brain way first im gonna tell im gonna need advice ask someone out im gonna play along advice stuff actually use advice ask way says it profit hopefully likely not one likes me,0
can t sleep and wondering why my following keep going down guess i got ta try and be more interesting haha,0
godspeed mide gianee vhic tore heard he fall into depression after acting g o t,1
need help french homework hi frenchunderstand could please help me ive got map metro system paris find start finnish thing listen audio french understand thing except trois thats thing figured out want help would appreciate much  friend were really bad french dm help thanks,0
nobody gives crap meive lost friends past year got dumped gf last year nobody checks me girls dont even wanna talk me im lonely dont think take much longer im tired praying dont believe god anymore every time pray brings nothing everyday passes makes realize worthless life is dont know anymore,1
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being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina,1
"changed name to kinda match to mi real name. so people i know can find me better, plus elliewoo is fun to say ",0
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I hope you get put away I hope you fuckin die in there. ,0
@melraemorgan Thank you. When i was younger i used to hate it because i was bullied for being Ginger.. but now i love it!  x,0
theres joy lefti spent much life trying enjoy it find myself make magic bullshit spent time caring others empathizing used joy ive used fun prospect living one day like bleak one friend talk me one friend could maybe tell feelings leave tomorrow hate myself cant stand inside myself darkest place ive ever dont see light,1
feel stressedi feel alone surrounded many people feel like incredibly insufficient hard work go waste feel unable manage stress anxiety leads able enjoy day even ive done lots work sure ill ever able anything correctly want break cry would waste time feel like im constantly wasting time hard time focusing cant get best anymore now everything get by feel like live everyone around feelings dont feel good,1
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im glad go todaycompletely shattered recent breakup woke morning called work plan get little affairs order bills rent get drunk take pills ive collecting hang myself close friend town san fransisco gave guilt trip always town went spent night three closest friends im sure know much mean me ive told think really understand saved life tonight even know it first time ive truly smiled weeks thank a j c love you,1
 happened  girl invited house already sex several times before think said feel like sex mind saw opportunity sex asshole came house layed bed began cuddling asked hey want sex  times span hour persistent using force threats anything rd time rejected said i go slow responded alright sure sure bothered sure layed went inside felt good started go faster faster sounded like enjoying it starting go faster sure honestly intent definitely bad want harm her guess started go faster good felt really horny well anyways  seconds sex started told stop right away soon heard say stopped it said sorry ending early said worried getting pregnant told fine hung like  minutes left feel like always bad person matter what really wish never met girl would done did year told sex  guys guys dicks bigger mine rapist,1
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although gave rating  expectations higher film delivered would happier deep diving since diver myself supposed portray life carl brashear thats about film made angry beginning happy end,0
"@WorldofOutlaws I am gonna need depression meds soon, these rainouts are spinning my equilibrium out <Emoji: Pouting face> Mother Nature is being a mean B-T-H <Emoji: Face with symbols over mouth>",1
failing college know do long post yo repeat exams im sure failed them second time im sure get college majority friends gt people left city countries parents live km away anyone give good reason end now  friend left im tired time im fucking failing every aspect life exercise eat properly try get early nights cant ever feel happy social life one talk to future college air feel like im stuck mud everyones passing by apologies upset anyone,1
keep going whatwhy keep miserable suffer yet one wants help cant work cant afford daycare cant find better job cant afford school cant find job fucking cycle want end day day think done family adopted mom died  leaving someone took money kicked  shitty ever since started fundraiser one gives shit bipolar depression cant afford health insurance cant afford services meds without it dental insurance left side mouth hurts filling came out need new glasses cant afford without insurance go without im underweight eat maybe  calories day im stressed money feel like eating im gall bladder issues cause pain cant afford surgery removed also complications child birth starting cause problems daily life im scared bones starting jut out know cant gain weight mental issues having  years trying cope stay childs father homeless friends car penny name son taken care financially father nothing left really since rent gone up qualify assistance small income states standards poor enough going get better me  years suffering one giving fuck never able dig darkness cant even get hand none clinics accepting insurance accepting new patients cant afford stay hospital cant afford get strep cant afford survive botched redflag attempt think im starting finally sink trying keep head water long,1
Got my BB bac!!! Now I can function ,0
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crossfire remembered much fact three stars first name robert one first hollywood films deal antisemitismbr br the story opens murder silhouette man later learn jewish man named joseph samuels sam levene pipe smoking police captain finlay robert young assigned case exsoldier montgomery robert ryan comes upon murder scene learn flashback met samuels bar along soldiers process mustered service following wwiibr br according montgomery pal floyd bowers steve brodie followed samuels cpl arthur mitchell george cooper samuels apartment drinks montgomery tells finlay mitchell left apartment first floyd followed soon samuels still alive wellbr br unable locate mitchell finlay suspects murder enlists sgt peter keeley robert mitchum help locate mitchell mitchell meanwhile wondering streets dazed state meets prostitute ginny gloria grahame bar strikes friendship gives key apartment goes rest unexpectedly man paul kelly turns looking ginny mitchell still daze leaves goes back meet keeley pals keeley manages keep police hides night movie housebr br from mitchells perspective learn montgomery hates jews probably killer finlay begins focus investigation montgomery trying prove guilt arrangers one soldiers kid named leroy william phipps set trap mongomerybr br crossfire considered one best film noire genre fact garnered several academy award nominations including ryan grahame best supporting actors made modest budget three weeksbr br it elements classic film noire shadows low key lighting story playing mostly night requisite femme fatale piece grahames ginny plays minor role nonetheless classic femme fatale unnamed character played paul kelly in excellent bit chewed spit ginny mitchellbr br robert ryan steals picture brutal montgomery although would type cast similar roles years come robert young makes good low key detective robert mitchum little befriend mitchell character others cast jacqueline white mitchells wife lex barker who would go following year play tarzan one mitchums soldier pals richard powers who previously known tom keene finlays assistantbr br director edward dmytryk would shortly run afoul house unamerican committee communist affiliations spend couple years jail,0
@randomblonde thanks Libs...i've got some sun too now ,0
@MonmouthFF I've already submitted THE BATEMAN LECTURES ON DEPRESSION! Hope you guys are into a funny autobiographical doc that looks like this:  pic.twitter.com/T8Ha8Ysx7N,1
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oops havnt been on a while so much school work hardly any time myself,0
career chose process making rich also extremely depressed overworkedoverjudged point least one episode day want curl disappear job involves social media fame expectation perfection sometimes sure much handle human break able make real friends family never begin with relationship someone cared pursuit wellbeing people respect name almost daily disrespect person makes sense people always watching extremely careful almost feels like redflag now people around want something me also constantly comparing body next best thing type industry in mentally draining would wish fame anyonei wanted see anyone advice me going therapy still super depressive episodes  lot regret pursuing loved much everything sacrifice success words advice successful depressed,1
ooooh lol that leslie and ok i won t do it again so leslie won t get mad again,0
@jdakar Idk. You were talking about the passport issue before your birthday. You need to get on that! LOL! The process is not bad at all ,0
billybush she admitted to being a fake,0
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feel like ever going get betteri always depressed  battling last  years ebbs flows right one worst times ive made lists people going write goodbye notes to ive decided method today checked exact spot driving drawn it im chicken know also feel incredibly tired cant forever feel frozen distraught read posts people talk parents messing up messing kids today called kids husband assholes faces twice left hours husband even call text see ok was couldve killed done,1
tellone babies died arms worst others wrong letting die peacefully home know tamara forgives me always smart ways humans well cats cant believe still miss fifteen years,1
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Vintage 1930s Mayfair Pink Depression Glass Candy Jar With Lid Open Rose Pattern  https://etsy.me/2Js2Nxc  via @Etsy,1
thought better turns ive gotten worse denialive struggling depressive thoughts since  ive lots bullying mental abuse friends classmates growing up never felt like proper childhood back couldnt figure suicidal thoughts parents pressured getting therapy deep didnt want to didnt feel ready guess first psychologist talked to one doctors office write moments depressing thoughts told try analyse it honestly made feel billion times worse constantly reminding felt like shit day day out determined problem severe sent proper therapy clinic underage time setting diagnose depression decided go kiddy treatment program felt mocked ridiculed young fucking suicidal gave treatment plan named fucking dutch pun absolutely furious treatment involved advanced version writing feelings getting advice help recovering thoughts worst part ive felt ridiculed whole life went gender therapistpsychologist realising trans lowest point life diagnosed treated several traumas still dont think really treatment involved form meditation im convinced anything me that allowed sign transgender clinic still waiting list nearly  years better that got first year college found right place found stable job shithole mc donalds found new better friends got extremely close them support trans someone talk needed everything fine fine fuck feel garbage again gotten worse ever before nearly everything could wish for feel goddamn selfish depressed hurt closest friends throwing depressive fit barely control over something extremely wrong dont know anymore dont time money energy go back therapy feel going helped all suicidal thoughts back anger cant accomplish something day fucked feeling everything massive waste time hurting ones care about feel like im end road like never supposed get far life im shutting away friends fear hurting them every time think it feel selfish way sorry long im first time poster badly needed vent,1
come realisation trying ignore now matter long go without contact one ever reach me feeling like shit ever,1
ive stopped amything sign need end thingsi become incapable anything world small exist exist shout one hears want tune out solutions neither strength stability find them nothing left giving meaningful existence im already dead see course kill myself thought makes sense thing elicits positive response me everytbing else either numbness anger clear sign know is one someone tell something anything all make want matter right dont,1
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hate egypt hate place hate egypt hate everything everyone hate streets hate education system hate government hate think hate theyre living every dream destroyed egypt every wish every fantasy destroyed hope things get better shattered plans go vain hate everything cant even kill religious running away never help either dutch passport travelling another country help still belong trashass land community full assholes born here egyptian whole life think egyptian live egyptian even whatever land hate never find love never happy never love never good internet never enjoy video games never make movie never teacher never pet never go parties never anything blame egypt egypts effects stay forever like trauma also blame family running away already dutch passport better would appreciated trying hate egypt hate life,0
"@RachelRileyRR @Hobojebus None of that was done by socialist economics though... but...Did the dust bowl never happen? Did I imagine the Great Depression? The United States never slaughtered the Native Americans and Filipinos, or the British with their starvation of Indians?",1
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has sammy over after being gone for like ... ever. TBH - twitter = gay facebook ,0
help political leaders alright guys need help assignment anyone give example political leader made wrong choice cost lives career far ive come nixon chairman mao hitler,0
reddit glitch scrolling reddit spotify on audio videos reddit start without post stopping music scroll bit  come post audio from anyone else got this also know subbreddit post on better one suggestions appreciated,0
honestly cant believe film highly rated claude chabrol could described something like french alfred hitchcock film second one ive seen the first le boucher already see guy something special strength two films film french canadian coproduction takes place canada cast made british canadian stars high quality performances bode well rest film high quality also film murder mystery begins young girl covered blood brought police station questioned inspector carella emerges young girl patricia sister muriel attacked man killed sister allowed patricia flee however investigation goes on patricia goes back station give new evidence reveals far shocking identity murdererbr br the performances film excellent donald sutherland subdued usual suits role hes given well hesitate name performance blood relatives one best film also features supporting turns british stars donald pleasance david hemmings give good turns pleasance particular shows great actor highlights shame went waste halloween films unknown aude landry also gives great performance role patricia movie mysterious first hour really keeps audience hooked inspector carella discovers muriels diary film turns drama girls last actions shown section film good went it still interesting leads great twist end overall blood relatives great film really deserves better seen le boucher better known effort chabrol money least good highly recommended viewing,0
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@morganjade I'm watching it right now!  I love it.,0
thought ending many times time come really start consider option day always could convince least something go for one goal achieve work anymoreafter  years finaly met love life really could happier day even hoped forthat last end day though confessed following things purely exhausting single minute relaxation nothing ever meaning her also said meet someone real life connection them build one though chances falling love ever slightly even worse before desired boyfriend neglected her cuddling never felt good way wanted make happy least one moment achieved mind youshe also told know yet even wants see hit hardest all lose hope ever relationship woman love also know much burden even aroundyou might find problems laughable really nothing else life ever go ruined myself know yet pretty sure completed last chapter life bittersweet ending lost last meaning life,1
dm im bored m ill send insta snap idkthe rest filler post get removed tbh length requirement stupid af bruh ok probably enough cya dms ight bet,0
"@howard74 Howard, thank you, I appreciate your wisdom, U understand me  chatting with you was very fine, Ill let you know after the elec.",0
@Oski_oui_oui @_LilMissThang_ @DerekTodorojo Manic depression and bipolar disorder are the same thing.,1
one cares ask found funny thanks coming ted talk,0
feel weird ashamed secretly want put mh ward daysi know weird sounds im overworked heart broken depression ive fought years come rushing back full force cant help think maybe put away days wouldnt worst option fact feel like id enjoy speaking total ignorance dont know do parents called everyday theyre scared kill myself goes select friends want go away im also scared theyll keep long time cant accept now im rambling figured would best place vent this,1
like rub dick cheese schreder feels fucking good everytime cant stop,0
told id never let girl dictate life life without doesnt feel worth livingi fucked up shes moved on everyone pales comparison havent loved like since dont know do dont know turn,1
 hours till end iti really dont want cant carry fighting anymore read post history context u want maybe someone awake persuade doubt it,1
@homiebirdo Depression,1
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stuff weve experienced years back probably forgotten years line lets make post official time capsule random shit probably remember mortgages insurmountable debt always look back memorable moments ill go first one time middle school friend walking around neighborhood see friends wanted play nearby park were walking notice one neighbors walking dog now im dog whisperer convinced dog chasing slaves past life point time one black kids neighborhood dog tried jump atbark instead anyone else every time dog would go me neighbor would look fault started switching side street saw walking dog time though dog particularly irritated seeing me dog mad anger elevated saw another dog walker coming street still standing friends doorstep like could see cogs turning dogs head like trying figure wreak havoc demondog immediately starts jumping dog nice dog walker lets go leash doggy diablo chasing dog around unfortunately first dog walker sharp holds onto dogs leash whole time gets dragged around street felt like longest  seconds life dogs calmed went separate ways first dog walkers clothes little roughed think fine even lost little bit pride day friend go us park lucky enough witness looney tunesesque moment would stay us while tldr asked friend could play park said no,0
continue living one love life broke trust,1
losing hopeevery day feels worse last body failing betraying every way imaginable going get worse much worse even  months ago people say theres hope future science could find way fix this maybe theyre right knows happen happen might     years meantime every day constant struggle barely leave house barely be in house constantly feel hot entire body sweats profusely almost constantly always feel moments away sweating clothes often sweat clothes almost daily would doctors me warn me lie constantly throughout process im canada doctors supposed helpful try profit patients grow believing theyre gods know everything say sideeffects symptoms lifethreatening really care physically lifethreatening left situation want live,1
redflag hotlines even want meive got friends family care me ive disowned parents grandparents im gay theyd abuse badly physically mentally emotionally cant handle more brain fucking broken know deal shit im barely s future already limited either minimum wage slave working  hours week  hours pay redflag university  miles away home family were getting funding cut school rent utilities told absolutely warning need find job now that family going come get me ive looking job ive literally applied everywhere shithole little town even follow calls keep getting jerked around long find job start working get evicted apartment ive done everything can ive sold shit a ds games tv computer hard drives toys ive applied and denied government assistance ive begged family nonstop take back none worked top that ive got singular person gives shit me even then were thousand miles apart ive got friends locally family cares more ive got prospects job car bike cant leave heres best part even start job right fucking now im going enough pay rent time late fees keep adding up theres single thing do top that ill stuck rest shitty miserable life able afford pay tuition shit financial support still need repay student loans im taking  credits fall cant take  credits fall unless im working like  hours week cant find job hire all redflag hotlines even want talk me got put hold three just today hung me  minutes wait time each im even worth trouble fucking strangers probably paid kinda shit so fucking see ya im done cant shit more im sick wanted im sorry sir whos going left alone giant disappointment people love anything new me fact really one thing ive consistently good whole life im going go attempt hang belt probably fail that too bye reddit,1
someone tell way kill myselfi wanna die,1
giving upshort story ive depressed yrs pretty bad anxiety weight issues thrown mix didnt seek help till may  since ive on ciprolex symbalta abilify mertazepine nabilone welbutrin most recent im wondering whats going on take meds like say psychiatrist doctor pretty shocked nothing helped one bit mertazapine didnt help depression anxiety one made feel somewhat ok gained lbs month im wlefare since cannot work trying get odsp better benefits little money guess im trying say feel like im giving up want try medical marijuana doctor psychiatrist heavily it change minds rate ill odsp whole life family doctor tells anxiety medication psychiatrist saying ill depend medication suck up stopped taking welbutrin caused break threw deep anxiety attack made effort go back previous meds mertazipane nabalone hopes anxiety go away before im afraid either doctor psych get mad me wellbutrin made want swallow pills bad end thoughts stuck head dont see family doc till  nov hes vacation psych till december rd hopefully feeling goes away know much handle this,1
deal life attempted redflag know feeli tried overdosing boyfriend found called ambulance five days since getting hospital know feel  process everything guess could say im really numb it never really happened regret did one bit feels like nothing changed strange im back regular things daily life  days ago tried end life deal this advice would greatly appreciated thank you,1
another country right at grandmas everyone mean two three cousins currently mean ignore call names reason feel bad every year leave grandma like me depressed feel bad tell this bad reactions past miss mom things hide her too found getting apartment and subsequently let street want soil mood disorder fucking ruined life last night got super emotional cried with breaks  hours cousin walked me practically begging answer could say anything feel like cares hes nice go back us crying right now cousin room even fucking care hes phone never felt useless love planning things much look forward to real interests writing excited get book book super realistic character lost motivation now really want rent apartment adult live life company want four kids luxuries prayed for cannot stop crying,1
Skype Therapy - Mindfulness Therapy via Skype for Anxiety & Depression:  http://youtu.be/scDKc3icPSw?a  via @YouTube,1
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 year old neet several issuesi  year old male struggle depression social anxiety low selfesteem daily suicidal thoughts financially dependent parents job go school many friends never girlfriend family love me hate feeling worthless unwanted hate feeling like disgrace know dad says me fucked driving test got nervous fucked job interviews im scared even apply anymore asked help issues got worse struggle even talking parents know theyll pass off always whenever problem everything fuck up hate feeling rejected hate waking everyday feeling like im nothing always wished never born kid now want end it,1
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Study finds exercise may lower risk of depression  https://www.wellnessdestinationindia.com/study-finds-exercise-may-lower-risk-of-depression/ …,1
pls send help stayed am minecraft world house   looks like small mansion outside live right next ravine fell asleep it fight mobs try wake headset then came house put minecraft beds next feel oddly accomplished myself,0
year year since last mental hospital feel happy ive making strides progress cant help feel scared feels like time going fast im completely control feel unimportant everyone around me matter many friends still feel completely alone dont want die tho want change know last year ive gotten much better ed addiction still cant stop deep feeling dread want mean something someone im suicidal lost,0
"Yay! Just ordered gurtenfestival-tix!oasis, franz ferdinand and kings of leon! ",0
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"@David__King thanks david for the offer, I live in Melbourne,but I'm coming to LA in September. Maybe lunch when I visit? ",0
ive decided im going end itim tired keep going pathetic excuse call life ive tried reach sort of work see getting better im going kill know exactly yet soon know im even posting thisi think wanted tell someone make seem real,1
im  friends whats point anymoremy entire life feel like ive one failed friendship another ive close friends end leaving side one reason another im assuming me people tend say im draining talk lot im genuinely overjoyed theres people around me lately work  hours week hang boyfriend who ive year now sleep love boyfriend much feel like let down feel hopelessly sad sometimes cry cry doesnt understand takes getting enough him im enough anyone ive wanting die lot lately cut  years long since ive done it lately driving crazy want friends want people enjoy hanging around me want experience sleepover night party friends even someone come chat im feeling down make friends cant people like me maybe try hard know dying would easy many people dont even know exist,1
got a great outfit for glamazon tmrw nite ,0
back from spending time with the family! had so much fun at dinner and the mall! Love my familia ,0
Back in action. Time to chew through my mailbox. ,0
evolved instead lonely im horny stop horny,0
The Hangover!! &amp; movie popcorn of course ,0
why am i up so early i am bored and have had that trantula song stuck in my head for the past hour www stalkdaily com georg,0
tired girl exhausting hated time double standards lack respect tired work x harder things girl tiring tired sexism,1
@LindseytheFirst ..unlike @zebedeejane who has is a serial offender... ,0
pretty much everyone in my family ha depression or bipolar and i m no exception i m just so worried that it ll make thing worse i m definitely moderate functioning i can go to work and kinda be an ok parent i m not going to off myself even though i have the ideation sometimes but i know life could be much better i might be able to actually do the thing i enjoy in my free time again maybe i won t have the constant brain fog and forgetfulness but what if i end up just feeling numb what if medication make it worse what if i go to a doctor and they won t help i ve never been to a legitimately helpful doctor looking up review doesn t help real talk did medication actually help or make it worse how did it work out for you,1
process trying establish audiences empathy jake roedel tobey maguire filmmakers slander north jayhawkers missouri never withdrew union union army invading force southerners fought states rights right slaves elect crooked legislatures judges employ political spoils system theres nothing noble that missourians could easily traveled east joined confederate armybr br it seems story nothing ambiguity jake leaves bushwhackers saw error way certainly give virtue cause abolition,0
idk if anyone else get this i get anxiety poop sometimes but i also get anxiety vomit idk if it from excessive hyperventilating when i have an attack or just from the anxiety i get super nauseous and have no choice but to go vomit this can happen every night if it particularly bad doe anyone else get this i tried looking it up and i couldn t find much regarding vomiting when having a panic anxiety attack it the worst,1
despite negative criticism really enjoyed movie saying lightly love movies fairly picky my home dvd collection  movies  great others ok like all and criticisms comedy simply love movie light funny restful aware or most deficiencies love it comedic talents eddie murphy robert deniro tapped fully  type movie compare movies star actors simply enjoy it cast great and believe purpose movie fully accomplished want really easygoing restful night  watch movie deniro murphy simply fun making movie watching it and please negative expect godfather performance meet parents deniro expect comedy blockbusters performance murphy completely different genre made relax hard day work sides may split laughter still funny,0
im done lifeim done guys really nothing live for im useless piece shit value world keep living know fact successful im depressed anything life full tragedies suffering life constant cycle waking go school miserable falling asleep wish could escape world fuck everything im big fuck up wish could better everything fault want sleep forever escape world im disappointment everyone also sucks nobody life single clue im fucking dying inside,1
cloudpimps d oh at least you re getting a decent exchange rate at the moment sterling is still getting flogged,0
Finally going to bed! Woo-Hoo! Gotta work at 5am! Lots of love to all! ,0
Pumped for Ottawa Monday till Thursday! Can't wait to see everyone ,0
silent kid takes step forward see title silent kid me takes step forward realitydont worry m know lockdown took heavy toll me got skinny day day got shy uncomfortable new people around silent kid still afraid talk people school know bout silent kids afraid getting judged already judged neighborhood heavy gamer playing game  hrs day clear loneliness stress inside me thought esports could thing future big me grinded game got confused reality fantasy started severe headaches lot things studys dumb student less that dumber dora explorer financial condition great either almighty mercy barely able pay school fees maybe reason afraid lockdown carried year nowdamn want old days back weeks back left gaming cheer bois almighty sympathy thought dothe question whole universe wants know started studying  hrs ok guy whos dumber dore explorer easy task grinded books used grind gaming skills got much higher adrenaline rush ever challenges  oh man mind completely confused seriously loved it know what started coding man confusing yet amazing maybe afraid people challenges afraid times selfish possibly rudemaybe cringy welltips silent kid want friends silent kid first enter personal space without asking second maybe rude cringy arrogant selfish etc everyone trades mine nobody right judge them quote silent kid even sparkle shine sometimes sparkle things made shine human know many guys lost talents skills learned new skills talents grow much want heart wants took many guys like lets that realise nothing thats mind responsible laziness heart things want even mind still saying big no silent kidwithout m,0
really hard test  minutes anyways decided try cambridges cpe certificate proficiency english written test going happen soon im scared although prepared pls wish luck even tho ive studying since march xd english isnt first language would huge improvement least certification since basic person handle english kind certification lol,0
im suffering much unimaginable cant even get ur bed take shower anymore need die need diemale need die live anymore exist everyday pain me become homeless soon keep failing exams college due mental issues family even support rather insulting words  gun wouldve now need escape everything  want insulting voices want pain need die please let die,1
might dress like bodyguard go shopping mom make look like important think it would funnt good dumb cringe,0
best friends plans summer spend much time could got may  spent time  times changed lot it happy bright person it like caused problem fix it talk spend time me talks much fun friends hate want fun  summer memories  laying bed waiting talk me play animal crossing everyday myself eating crying hours started really hard time walk stuff want someone talk spend time with download video game to watch show anything want make memories summer left look back smile please want summer,1
dananner aw sorry to hear that,0
@ChandraLee thank you for the #FF mention ,0
Everybody should come out to drink today to drink ,0
shocked good german version films scream was surpassing modern american efforts slasher filmsbr br it films dont likable characters genuine mystery suspense graphic murders brilliant soundtrackbr br this stylish horror film one best kind come years german cinema going strength strength lately shame people wont go see films missing out easily available dvd even hate subtitles think see it one best horror films see year,0
"Just built a new $400 comp - Gigabyte MA78GM2 MB, Athlon Phenom 8650 triple core... 15-25 FPS in SL w built-in graphics ",0
good day out with my parents! woo hoo. epic chinese and an amazing time out with my little brother. ,0
birthday  years young officially post subreddit,0
im digging hole time im sure get upi think im done ive finally reach point theres come back painful keep going wish couldve tasted happy life while giving up,1
guys happened game stop reddit keep seeing memes im confused,0
uk mental health care fucking incompetentnhs treated badly resorted private therapy stopping seeing im depressed turn back nhs nhs psychiatrist show emotion takes phone calls appointments tried see community psychiatric nurse left waiting doctor office hours forgot tried telephone appointment see psychologist guess forgot given hope fucking useless good thing im killing next week,1
help im hearing weird sounds parents room wanna come room case,0
terrified redflagbut time something need do gonna pawn last shit get gas money food thats folks,1
renting one true thing night learned respect family take health granted never seen reallife portrayal cancer victim screen like meryl delivered deserves oscar nomination tough competitors running say beautiful film great acting streep zellwegger meryl streep revealed one true ability excellent film,0
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"@JSi5 I thought that maybe Mr. Koolaid peed (or something) on your hand, ",0
@cutebug NIGHT! ,0
alright ill stop making political shitpost liberal sub debates economics class system me get debate im looking ill leave night,0
omurice looks good wanna split omelette open rest life literally way unfolds whew dont even like omelettes,0
tired mostlytired fighting tired trying tired trudging though muck mind tired fighting demons tied strong tired forcing keep going battle depression less screaming war anymore quiet resistance instead actively fighting lay hope ill make sunrise dont want to dont want fight more,1
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another day band kid   lime boy deadass guy band class got three whole ass limes ate like apples one batted eye,0
downy weather where s the summer,0
brother killed last year want thing nowhe lifelong depression i im early s female insane amount loss pain particularly last years recent loss friend thought would one person would always me wasnt gone without even goodbye ive tried couple times reach out apologise utterly cut off knew everything me cant see meeting anyone else depressed withdrawn would able trust anyone else anyway debilitating chronic disease incurable going get better ive already enough hopsital appointments tests pain etc last five lifetimes want more also desperately desperately desperately lonely despite absolutely lovely female friend scared ultimately driving away one day too everyone else put simply nothing left live for im  mental pain nearly time ive tried   different antidepressants years none worked longer weeks  months absolute most left worse state began them interest trying antidepressants therapy unaffordable dilemma this desperately want end pain cannot go like much longer  cant want put parents second redflag would swap places dead brother nanoseconds he may thank that give shit stuck special kind hell want wait parents pass elderly could still another  years way hold long,1
know anymoreim nineteen go college truly wonderful girlfriend world outside her though one full darkness dread loneliness fabric life slowly splitting seams started fourteen group friends entire life extremely close to started high school however started drift this absolutely atrocious excuse making new friends caused somewhat lonely early high school years started cut home things much worse mother recently married man dated years little know however extremely abusive though never hitting me witnessed beating mother younger brother several times becoming estranged mother rationalized behavior moved father fifteen things started get little better made good friends friends heavily drug movement followed happily along it also met girl became first girlfriend lost virginity to new friends caused start horribly school constantly skipping school go smoke weed nothing things ended turning sour girlfriend group essentially disowned me life started get dramatically better old friends began become close two years lived normally high school student girlfriends group friends really well school then rumor killed it rumor spread best friends girlfriend i saying cheating me true know originated not however stop best friend dissociating me slowly lost friends until days ago one friend thought would always there decided longer associate me loved friends myself would taken bullet one them see differently coupled father slowly making home life unlivable well college anymore know go here redflag seems like better option every day though currently considering it attempted twice one time resulting week long stay hospital feel like attempt inevitable though girlfriend nobody else help quell feelings tldr lost roughly half dozen extremely close  years friendship friends well disowned mother horribly neglected father causing badly college do,1
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need someone talk to nowi feel really lonely,1
dont know whats wrong w meok backstory ive recovery long time lately have feeling better breakdown long time tonight and felt suicidal point unintentionally set actual date it like thought im going ___ without realizing it short time suicidal thoughts feelings kinda disappeared wrong me im drunk,1
brainstorming.... designing.... i love it ,0
want end death would better liferight go im  year old girl go topnotch private school aus im like terrible kid slam doors scream try run away things parents punish me right to punisment methods hurt most twice past year dads hit head hard ive gone dizzy thrown up yesterday mum beat shoe back right arm sore begging stop wouldnt also theres verbal punisment parents threaten killhurt continuously mum constantly tells would kill sister loves dearly would never me also tells would like set fire break neck kill etc recently ive wanted end life times seems like nothing get better ever everythings fault everything hurts ive seriously contemplated redflag times though know ill never it yesterday car mum yelled me crying backseat truckie saw me looked me anything he didnt do anything ive thought over time do hurts even worse ive spent nights bathroom know go out leave house back ambulance mostly though parents really nice buy lot things pay heighty school fees stuff happens rarely happens terrible like it im begging life yknow think like seeing beg sometimes force onto knees know im probably another spoilt little kid eyes im old considered child anymore me really serious im actually scared life here one day im sure parents something well regret yesterday called dhs parents found out told theyve done me said stupid ungrateful slut who legal would killed now felt ashamed wanted die again sorry long seriously do im barely teenager yet am hurt please tell do want go cops dhs option,1
@CCSeed Congratuations!!!!!!!!!!! ,0
life worth livingim studying dream job be one thing ive ever felt good ive ever felt good at love job love that know im great job like really good ive loved every second that anxiety killing me cant go bed cant sleep cant get bed would something days lay bed thinking nothing want get love cant get bed lay thinking im supposed school feeling anxious that completely giving nothing thinking everything nothing time ive finally found want do cant it cant working scene thing also cant home thats want do wanna sleep cannot wanna awake im sleeping  hours day really want live kind life worth it ive struggling kind shit half life wanna go sleep without feeling anxiety depression waking up wanna go sleep calmly peacefully knowing going end,1
i didn t think i d end up posting here but here it is i feel like i ve exhausted all option in life i ve tried to combat loneliness i have i ve gotten involved with club of interest i ve done martial art i ve initiated conversation i m so close to just ending it man i ve hit low many time before but this time is different because i fucking tried to make thing different i meet someone we connect and end up hanging out and then they fade away unless i initiate i ve had friend flake repeatedly after i ve invited them numerous time or people that don t invite me out after i had done so in the first place yadda yadda hell this all started at the beginning of this year when i realized how people viewed me at my martial art gym the coach thought i wa arrogant because i silently carried myself with newfound confidence in life so i fucking left point is i ve gotten no reciprocation even after they ve shown genuine interest i ve gotten with a girl a while ago that i still fucking think about knew her for le than a month before i made a move she wa interested and we made out multiple time i had friend and i got with this hot girl so it seemed thing were finally coming together i ask her out and she enthusiastically accepts the day before the date she rescinds and want to be friend instead haven t seen her since that wa damn month ago man story of my life i ve got no family no friend year old i feel nothing anymore been lifting for year and getting stronger and i feel nothing no interest in shit felt confident in myself until recently since i guess isolation took it s toll a i said i ve been through this before but i m sick and tired of it now that i know that i ve tried i can be at peace with ending my life,1
is frightened co it spider time i hope the flat repels them a i unfortunately haven t got a man to save me,0
during spring break i found out my mom ha cancer i don t want to go back to school now because i want to spend a much time a i can with her just in case and i can t imagine not living without her i thought we would have so much time together but now i m not sure she s my best friend and i can t live without her i have no motivation to go to class do work study or even go pack to school i m in the middle of jointing a sorority too and i can t bring myself to go to go back to campus to go to event or anything when internally im miserable and screaming i thought life wa going well but now it s not i m not suicidal at all since i m scared of death and could never take my own life but i just want to sleep and not exist i don t want to feel like this at all and i want help but i feel like i won t get it until i do something to be taken seriously i even feel like my friendship are falling apart the one consistent happiness in my life is volleyball and now all my friend are going to play on team without me and i feel so betrayed i feel like everything is piling up at once and i m so overwhelmed and i m gon na screw myself over with school bc im depressed please give me any advice,1
give everything get nothing return done trying give,1
loves his PraiseTEAM family  I will never forget the past 7 years with you all!,0
downloading the torrent of last night s sytycda where my love bj wa tragically but predictably eliminated,0
starting suicidal thoughts  month ago like fantasy first feel like becoming reality planning suicide  year later know going scaring always alone life know felt going much bigger cannot even hold idea literally think logically solution this  years old graduated high school  years ago tryna figure live know connectionskillhopegoal nothing average see life unluck it one help mesupport still going like last  years god forgive me scary too going happen kill myself life cruel cruel nothing accept this believe fate scary suicide,1
somebody friend please please,0
accepted fact endsevery solution come results dying everything else getting better onward im failing everything life cant see kind solution everything requires even burden everyone around me feel comfortable ending soon cant anything depression anxiety get help would getting help even burden everyone chance actually life,1
i can barely live with me i am all the time closed in my mind i can not describe it better i can not focus on anything i can not sustain a conversation i get very overwhelmed by everything if i do very little house cleaning i get very overwhelmed i feel lonely in my life nobody understands me neither my wife nor my parent or brother or grandparent i might be on the autistic spectrum i am so done with my life so done i can not continue like this anymore i have to die i live on my wife s incoming i so want to die,1
screw hookups sex want friend group laugh other want midnight cravings go convenient store late night gazing neon signs filling dark sky purchase cheap ramen want cuddles boyfriend want go walk listening music playlist sun slowly setting totally okay youre virgin treating flexseeing person weird virgin wrong,0
guys ever teacher die cause one mine fell stairs houses,0
took write  easy task difficult understand want say sorry fucking confused difficult express myself always troubles keeping level confidence high  part life happy stuck spiral bad things happened last couple years finished masters covid hit hard unable work couple months ago living abroad realized friends always you basically spent almost two years couch almost gave professional life felt good enough colleagues nasty relationship  years crumbling apart strength fight did thing comes mind disappearing know deal it sorry look like real problem needed vent courage talk friends family lost,1
visual film mean dialog sparse almost point silent movie long takes beginning opening shotbr br the silences however broken stunning sound track ranges discordant staccato beats haunting mix violins interspersed vocals sound like dreams feast ears much eyes one early visuals man walking along street preoccupied interest shapely woman walks lamppost one consequences love metaphor lies storebr br a long time ago another movie love story   said love never say sorry narrative turns idea head number ways beginning main character titta toni sevillo seemingly innocuous longterm resident plush hotel somewhere switzerland everyday week in week out sits coffee table enjoying passing world cigarettes coffee solitude hes ten years sits observes week engages three surprising activities find see little masterpiecebr br love explored another way direct counterpoint tittas solitude reserved nature two older residents hotel still much love man wants die spectacular manner time comes long suffering wife berates cheating cards guests one titta now titta knows squabbles love mans cheating apologies wife whining how surprising blackcomedic mannerone surprise activities mentionedbr br but comedy reality although touch upon idea human comedy balzacian sense irony life it decision made titta ten years earlier left wife began live hotel keeps touch occasionally clear still loves children now grown up sorrow voice speaks volumes but theres something sorrowbr br such life tittas would obviously seem utterly boring actually many perspectives learn lies beneath almost deathlike countenance however horror situation hits viewer eyes know female bartender sofia olivia magnani interested titta goes way pique tittas interest herbr br and thats things start unravel titta eventually succumbs femininity discovers again consequences love ironically so finally realizes must finally life spectacular fashionbr br i know somewhat cryptic but say would spoil film story you like italian cinema love it urge see one acting superb sound track chills spine camera work truly innovative direction shows maturity true artistbr br i know ill see movie again again,0
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not drunk at all kirstiekalamity,0
@phillybookco Nice yo!!! Live it for me buddy! ,0
hi mental illnesses therapy since february therapist wants go iop get checked psychiatrist since kind limbo happy suicidalhow it know ill able even student still kind considering guessty intensive outpatient questions,1
catching feelings filler filler filler filler,0
arguments proanti free will claritys sake whether personally believe product environment meaning factors as raised us live socioeconomical status etc determine become choices make long make said choices also believe people change change environment thoughts,0
funny thing happened someone another site trying make joke expose thread dw asked it said too clean hed trouble finding anything funny part post much shit would needed  seconds,0
tittch i ll second andrew s suggestion they might fit you in a an emergency chin up thinking of you,0
emperoremil yup i m at work i m on midshift na e,0
@DavidArchie hi david..gudluck with ur pr4mance 2nyt! Haha.. ,0
cant life want dont desire livewell pretty straight forward post probably destroyed randoms whatever im unpassing trans person never life want which literally live life im made fun given weird stares judged daily basis crushing know regardless cant even pass getting surgeries try assist impossible far foreseeable future due fucking money ever living poverty since kicked this feel lost empty dont see transition even helped see still birth gender mirror crushes daily reason keep living ill always fucking hon freak bother trying advice fucking world ever gives find new friends ignore like doesnt fucking help children look fear everyone men women alike make comments stare treat like shit fair life think chose shit cant find point go die alone nothing left give world yeah thats guess,1
lazyi feel like im lazy asshole wanting die feel overwhelmed absolute endless ways life isnt worth time think easy would exist wouldnt worry endless cycle work gain nothing scrape nothing like work nothing gained anything nothing going show it way system designed theres escape im lower  never hope anything that literally way society works makes never able live comfortably bother,1
hope leftmy moods intense cant trust them im  months late rent relationship slowly turning shit brain pushed away friends stopped exercising going stop eating waste away bed life pointless people like me im done trying anymore going go back cutting hope die,1
"drinking a iced capuccino with my friends. it's a very, very hot afternoon ;)  oh, I need a dress! Tomorrow shopping! IT'S SATURDAY ",0
i am trying so hard to survive but my mind is so much stronger than my body is all i m asking for is a break from this constant cycle it s just not worth fighting anymore,1
im thinking asking girl im seconds thoughts ok ive known girl fairly certain feelings things ive noticed example goes physical contacts sit next class sometimes randomly punch thigh its like tease hurt change tone voice around me laugh crappy jokes somehow got hold hand one time mind lasted longer shouldve actually clue really nice obviously telling likes me need advices yall atleast encouragements ill enough confidence tell feel thanks reading,0
need advice know ask maybe guys help okay know belongs here know else hope get deleted something so days ago date birthday friend mine lost brother car accident told talked evening seem sad desperate know react this self defense mechanism realise happened yet do im needs help asked help yet cant presume pretending okay would tell me im wrong fine anything do im already doing would do im confused scared also sorry poor english im native speaker,0
ever feelthe world so fd up humans destroyed everything good everyone selfish evil good nothing fair worth hanging around often go bed wish never wake up never dependants id  im   sensitive world wish never dependents id otherwise,1
anythingso hello know title seems overdramatic things enough keep living st time courage die live far away family live friend really care unless suits him cat born quite birth defects make hard live daily life that often call work days time gets trouble job cant get doctors note insurance im also trans want transition cant afford that im bedridden right best friend blaming things cant control parents begging come back home reason left really want kill care much hurts go through dont wanna put anyone trauma someone know committing redflag barely see think straight im really considering taking whole bottle sleeping aids letting,1
anyone talk pleasetwo nights ago slight panic attack nothing unusual slept since again nothing unusual last day half instead job searching ive laying bed ive barely eaten two hours ago suicidal thoughts started resurfacing,1
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sooo hope long reach motivation itwell say lost real friend got rejected person like humans know probably fail reach education required study dream job wich would fail anyway due vast lack motivation literally anything end im fat fuck crying somewhere room noone giving fuck at least noone actually care for whining internet things im pussy tell anyone irl simultaneously searching best way outyeah know statistics indeed access guns cyanide know tried jumping somewhere would puss fuck actually simultaneously show idiots around actually feel decreasing selfworth keep going fuck,1
keep goingdoes anyone tips keep going strong wave suicidal ideation drowning you decent days stagnant days days feel like im going backwards like spiral closer bottom thinking much better itd take life closer top excited take certain challenges life feel like im rollercoastering spiral like climb ladder theres something top throws things cant climb top want get fuck feel like ive trying long seems like efforts useless realize im older stupid make certain decisions making decisions ill state mind taken fun path suffer consequences actions trusting im told mother instead fault wish help solely responsible situation im in try everyday like im getting kicked face spat on wish could escape mental prison keep together hide behind smiling mask although behind it im broken like humpty dumpty fall stay strong face adversity find support keep going hopes getting better place someday do times know do times really dark dogs keep going gotten point want find loving home kill myself know want live thats thing want live survive like whole life future brighter depression hits like ancient power taken much time,1
dont got many friends feeling good common taught sense less friendsyou ought depressed annoying sometimes still gets feel quite happy,0
im idiot deserve deathim worthless understand anyone loves me im  want end life make friends family unhappy keep coming back me why cant make new friends girls interested me im failing school here whats point one less fuck gone matter dad left me would anyone else want around im ugly ive tried fix cant hate myself,1
want free mental illnessi cluster mental illnesses love feed other bipolar disorder social anxiety eating disorderim tired them want wake morning theyre gone want wake okay again want wake life eat without guilt love someone without pushing away waste hours weeks years life distracting hunger buying things watching shows already know heart mental illness going away im tired pretending thats okay im tired pretending im like everyone else im tired people telling best choice pretend there pretend things real are ill end life ive written hundred checks cant cash hell im already there want gone once gone,1
m end  worth anything anyoneyes crying anyone hear me anyone exist there ive end rope before new im married kids etc externally many think great marriage people see nonstop fighting got hr fight nothing new here nothing shell person dead inside want love loved bc live expectation screw time nothing tried leave goodness heavens rained upon me got kids involved screaming yelling almost drove car road way work morning canr stop thinking it hate passion driving force am course weakness right makes problems fighting hurts her hurts me hurts kids control around them cant leave  option best option accidental death source problems gone peace reign insurance  cover bit everyone move support friends church much better without there may say kids need dad right scenario means contention fights big problems without me peace time morn maybe life goes peaceful without me sure of anyway anyone cares willing chat need somethibg idea what lost wandering around anyone care  person takes life insignificant one brings pain ok sort rambling thinking straight phone curious anyone talk  text at ,1
is terrified she accidentally deleted a reference in her management assignment and hope she doesnt get in trouble when she get back,0
hey think anyone cares one talk it young life already reached point would rather dead continue life want talk personally want keep either  night lying know do maybe anybody help,1
movie comedies nowadays generally  minutes toilet humor foul language groinkicking modern comedies appeal lowest common denominator undemanding slow brain sure occasional good comedy come along theyre becoming rarer timebr br mr blandings buildings dream house shows s hollywood capable of screamingly funny jim muriel blandings cary grant myrna loy decide build house connecticut suburbs film follows story beginning house hunting trips houses riotous construction way finished homewith zuzzzuzz water softenerbr br grant loy perfect roles course grant particularly funny watches houses costs zoom control however film stolen blandings wise attorney played perfection melvyn douglas managing steal every scene hes in douglas understatedly hilarious watches blandings lurch crisis crisis reginald denny blandings harried architect harry shannon crusty old water well driller also wonderfulbr br ive watched movie numerous times always makes laugh think good film watch need lift whether building house not,0
@anniewetherbee just make sure your happy alone before you share your life with someone else.  How old are you? ,0
want say inspired meas weird topic sentence is remains true lately ive slacking classes ended reddit various sites none that see want become psychologist feel meant help people reading posts made realize need work harder reaffirmed everything made click suppose ive acting stupid wasting time working trying become better me could help everyone like you care everyone experiencing emotions personally went them want help weird may sound thank you thanks reaching trying get help thank acknowledging problem worth fixing thank letting see really important time life sincerely believe life worth living ever need talk get something chest always pm me may realize significant world affect anyoneyou affected me best wishes k,1
ainz dj mate what time you gettin there not gon na be able to hang around for the late bit but comin down to support you fo sho,0
please make stop please make pain stopi cant stop crying want held right now please make thoughts go away please something help,1
friend really good gives hugs im down gives advice help tough situations round great friend always stand me wish people like him,0
ive officially listed vinyl digital cd music list best worst itll go  digital  cd  vinyl,0
@drunkenmonkey87 aloe vera gel from the fridge is the best. Make sure you drink enough water ,0
seems everyone wants jump bandwagon say maha go go gothe word machalike machpronounced maa  kabr br i grew series early s la late lamented channel before tetsuwan atomu astro boy dating  ol khj tv astro boy first tv example anime got statesi anime kid followed late s when itd become series badly animated talking heads phenomenon gotten worse nuff saidbr br as speed racer really enjoyed basics there pov shots cinematic aspects live action skillfully adopted animationthat fairly typical japanese anime back thengraphics graphics graphics take note sometime obviously series inspired stanley kramers film grand prix  especially redone american creditsbr br oh yeah original comics series based know speakbr br what animationwise besides crap like johnny questth ol stuff wed doin since shohumbr br i guess real problem hadhave way anime wasis shown american tv hatchet job done scripts credits etc sanitize american audiencesi go programs were talking speed herebr br look clowns like peter fernandez one culprits here  responsible rewrites seriesnot mention voice speed racer x othersbetween goofs translux  think felix cat mighty hercules  oy vey took slick sophisticated show dropped level sesame street think cruncher bloch forthebird company skull duggeryif go ill pukebr br this series dates odd years ago i time keen enough feel insulted dumbing japanese programsi mean obvious someones getting killed either remove gloss overpleeeeezebr br good show  originally sadly recent incarnations series crappy made korea look mention nauseatingly pc content even japanese outsource animation nowbr br try watchin original japanese opening youtube sometimeit sends chills spineif onlyoh well robert,0
star light star bright first star see tonight wish may wish might let survive nighteverything seems like opportunity today walking home easy would jump front car kitchen many knives right there room live seventh floor building desk medications lots them deluded thinking need want torment end,1
like i can t even focus on anything my mind is always racing overthinking and obsessing this is especially annoying right now because i have my final exam coming up real soon and i need to work but i can t concentrate i hate the way i act around people i am so awkward i don t even speak just awkwardly nod whenever someone talk to me and whenever i do talk some dumb shit come out of my mouth it seems like i have started to isolate myself more and more from people and i am always moody people have started to catch on saying that i always look sad tired among other not very nice thing whenever someone asks me if i am okay i just lie and say yes nod my head awkwardly or make up some excuse i wish i could tell someone about my problem in depth but really i don t know what i would say and honestly no one would actually care and i don t blame them everyone ha their own shit going on and i don t want to bother anyone with my problem my own mother ha started to catch on to my moodiness and she ha started to yell at me and everything cause of the way i am acting i don t even think i am doing anything wrong i m just not talking and i want to be left alone i wish i could tell her but again i don t know what i would say i don t know how she would take it and i don t want to stress her out anxiety really suck i hate using these thing a an excuse cause i just want to get on with my life like everyone else,1
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weird dream became paralyzed forced crawl ground go back old houseit fucking weird,1
contemplating shooting myselfim incredibly sad sooo deeply sad angry hate myself love family much would destroy them im engaged awesome girl shes pregnant ready this sad cant even cry dont know feel anything looking support dont know makes happy seem fake sense word dont know do scared eat shotgun ill probably take down,1
lost suck because i have to work today,0
background often daydream girl like fun normally impossible things her sharing hobbies her getting married etc since around  back then subjects fantastical like superhero etc mention transient like start time recently included feeling good enough her deserves better killing myselfor attempting to discovering aftermath sort stuff healthier version us growing old together far way insanity started getting depressed daydreams,1
music everyone listening  me hollywood undead  day dead,0
ilovedt that s what i thought bummer,0
"that's not necessarily suffering from a mental illness that's just the ups and downs of life a mental illness is an actual imbalance in your brain. so suffering from depression is all the time, it's hard to bounce back without therapy & medication",1
Curtis Jest always knows what to say when it comes to mysteries such as love. ,0
okayi actually said anyone certainly said think id kill every single night need move move fix everything else one accept me competition area awful im categorised desirable cant help bitterly feeling people need move want change something nicer something different neighbours spend waking hours stomping below still feel it around apartment screaming other dogs desperately wish would get taken away fucking ceiling cannot cope anymore need move feels like im asking world some,1
someone make feel better gf broke feel terrible acts like fine honestly makes feel way worse someone help feel better thank ,0
@fedgrub thankyouu ,0
dna weird im like  places basics where parents from like  percent random place,0
my computer can t open any file from the university so i can t do any work i don t get it,0
failedthe last happy moment day took train station way trip shed destroy me tonight failed let noose take me strength back would able it instead keep floating maybe finally succeed one final happy moment,1
i am on the verge of going absolutely insane i can not take being alive anymore i am a prisoner in my own life i feel dead and so alive at the same everyone in my city at my age is either weird rude or awkward modern human are weak impulsive and oblivious i hate my generation and i hate how the internet ha ruined my life and so many others around me i feel like i am living in hell and i want to die nobody is at my level nobody understands how hard i try every person alive is a weak worm that deserves to die,1
riding high success rebel without cause came tidal wave teen movies arguably one best young mcarthur excels really troubled teen story concentrates perceptions delinquency traumatic occurrence supporting cast memorable frankenheimer directs like old pro story young man finds others take actions much seriously,0
in today s society it seems like no one really care instead they re worried about lability litigation after something bad happens and want to shirk responsibility that being said would it be respectful to put my two week notice in before i commit suicide so they re ready for a replacement along with that it wouldn t be a big thing that would slow everyone else down i m thinking about putting in my notice i ve had everything in place and in order will service paid for everything beforehand etc i m just trying to make it easiest for the people who say they care about me along with my employer and co worker they won t be liable or responsible because they can t make me do anything,1
i ve been struggling with motivation to do anything work related for the last month or so because i m depressed a a result i m super far behind on a lot of stuff my manager hasn t really noticed because i ll get the thing done that they need but i m in a really bad place mentally this week and i have done almost no work on a big project that i need to finish by tomorrow i ve been debating going out on fmla for the last few week but i have to use up all of my vacation time if i do go out i ve been seeing a therapist weekly and i ve been on wellbutrin for a month my doctor just increased my dosage yesterday it really hasn t done much for me up to this point do i just take fmla until i get my depression under control i feel like i m stuck between a rock and a hard place i hate disappointing people but this depression is debilitating i m also really scared to even start the process for fmla,1
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tf desired compensation  probably really dumb f filling first job application im realizing concept money dont even know even important im freaking out anyway minimum wage  part time job would first one ik probably dumb one help figured one people would know something idk im overreacting,0
now i m down to 0 battery,0
Abraham Lincoln suffered from depression -- He was scared to carry knives because he was afraid he'd kill himself.,1
worst burn of my life so sick,0
... That's... What??? Because of this tweet I now know you have no idea what the hell depression actually is. This is literally so incorrect it's not even funny  https://twitter.com/ayanatheoracle/status/988862996247203841 …,1
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 mg hydroxyzine  mg tizanidine  mg cetirizine dont think enough overdose would affect meim  lbs m think enough get sick thats im aiming for correct,1
ok beyond joke nowive looked mother many years died november ive diagnosed cancer undergoing presurgery chemo enough dog who ive  years lesions brain likely cancerous theres nothing save chemo put cant afford anyway much one person go call quits allowed go now,1
life game would procrastination stat be    ill edit post later tell guys mine,0
teens single parents like id assume hell,0
guess not find hard find redeeming qualities tbh woman ever love,1
college teacher larry donner billy cristal blocked writer since former wife margareth kate mulgrew ruined him stealing novel became bestseller hide hatred margareth upsetting girlfriend beth ryan kim greist anthropologist teacher college giving classes creative writing stalked student owen danny devito wants know opinion crime tale larry tells like it explains every mystery tale murderer eliminate motive establish alibi otherwise would get caught further larry suggests owen watch hitchcocks movies understand structure suspenseful story owen wants kill detestable mother anne ramsey watches strangers train misunderstands larrys advice believing teacher wants swap murders eliminate motive owen travels hawaii ship margareth falls overboard vanishing sea considered dead however larry alibi becomes prime suspect deranged owen presses kill mother part supposed dealbr br throw momma train one funniest comedies s great tribute alfred hitchcock direct reference strangers train jokes vertigo with spinning camera family plot with car without breaks movies lines excellent interesting point larry tells every great romance mystery train anne ramsey amazing role nasty abusive dominating mother viewer certainly feel sorrow understand insanity owen kim greist beautiful kate mulgrew perfect bitch billy cristal performs obsessed character many silly unreasonable attitudes necessary plot vote sevenbr br title brazil jogue mame trem throw momma train,0
paul pogba reveals he struggled with depression from the fight with jose mourinho at manchester united http t co iuuvfeytce,1
amazing performance simon pegg gets better better every role usual plays part cringy character makes want hide behind cushion embarrassment sometimes thats pegg aboutbr br the laughs regular eye watering everyone aimed penn movie cleverly put together every character plays sophisticated serious part penn humour involved huge credit director robert weidebr br and cant let one go without quick round applause gilliam anderson shone throughout highly recommended all,0
saved bingus made  dollar fortnite card,0
ive decided going kill scared tolife meant me know going here school hard life hard led mind slowly leaving me im going kill myself reason scared to thought week twice know will scared dying get it even death scares lies death heaven hell nothing  black mind even comprehend death create faux scenario last forever one second know life shit fuck it im done,1
@AngMoGirl what did he dooo.. pray tell? ,0
haha not even yo i just didn t know how to do that thang to you on twitter haha,0
stopped guys blowing brains outcause really need advice right,1
previous post ok intending racist want shed light done past never said justifies cops actions heard people public like hes completely innocent man bills even proven counterfeit done this many past im intending racist never thought people would react like that im sorry,0
fucked big time made huge ass cut arm im terrified parents gonna kill see it help,0
really need help regarding xi know post welcomed really hope huys allways seem know right thing could really use help m xgirlfriend f together year started really well love birds singing everything perfect hit bumps road though write that post lot longer anyways back case good run problems things started changing became mad reason became controllfreak drafted army things started becoming really bad first month went okay missed eachother things finally good came home leave second month after things became nightmare previous girlfriend started attending school x therefore took me started lying stupidest things like raped sex xboyfriend stuff never got fact sex someone met her started threatening redflag threatening wanted cheat me sleep outside streets acting like fucking maniac  months drafted started breaking me almost daily whole month still head heals her became frantic begged it ended listening entire time ended it couple months later stoped threats complained everything me would shame dumbest things refuse meet friends wanted meet instead fell time later ended breaking up week went without contact started talking missing eachother decided try again sadly things quickly turned shit again  months later broke up again time started contacting week saying spiteful things said already people tired me care all days later broke down started saying missed me wanted try again said started seeing people times broke me used solely scaretactic turned down stating want try again her wanted single nagged days end gave up told okay full intensions giving fuck two weeks passed am recently went trip  days wich meant contact got back cellphone connection tried sending goodbye see soon message started complaining bringing cell phone even though connection there left also started bitching saying love left rush spite told loved her got back sent text me hey im back  her when meet drive mall me no im tired trip want alone day im exhausted  her you allways like this try something fun us act care even bother sending lt im done im this me okay then please leave im tired keep like this exchanged messages said want leave me said cant stand anymore last week hell told leave her kill herself shames ditching time leave fuck alone daily threatens redflag even last night went bed proceeded answering frantic calls fear resulted sleeping all writing post like child want get away her threatens redflag stating tried before kidding me go police ither parents also end herself thing keep untli handle herself leading road depression also seems suffer kind shizophrenia states see dead people hear whispers screams night also signs suffers from hope makes sense im totally clear head desperate way get away her someone please help me cant take anymore tldr chick year starts good ends like goddamn maniac threatens kill leave her cant stand life without me suffers kind shizophrenia need help needs help,1
family friends one talk toand people internet offer talk them also severe trust issues paranoia cant develop healthy relationship anyone unless comfortable someone tell really feel basically im traped mind able tell anyone sick really want die,1
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struggling end thisso original plan od narcotic pain meds hypertension meds worry work ill end puking worse surviving thought maybe could od heroin im sure could find somehow way understand oding junk pretty easy oding illegal drug count died commission felony life insurance pay die commission felony right got gun shot gangbangers even antagonized threatened point shot killed me know theres easy way here fact die want make easy everyone need make sure wife collect life insurance want fuck up cant fuck up fucked everything else entire life want one last thing right way,1
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"Depression days are shit normally but when you have no friends,  no money and no where to go... I actually feel lost.",1
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im afternoonive showered shaved get dressed go walk park maybe get something lunch eaten anything meds two days now drink stupidly little amount alcohol water ive gone bed im going sit tree write rest need write directly address people care most say im accord hope find happiness somewhere love you even though know are valuable find lonely theres somebody lonely you im sorry j mostly miss me,1
Memories from last nite are all happy ,0
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ventrantpositvity makes sick angry hate seeing it especially online feels forced every single time hate people observe lurk dont care read shit people post please dont go way full blown investigations people post it fuck mind broken dead everything boring wish could die rn,1
communities people want commit redflag talk seems like keep even dont live for really would like talk someone see much life for,1
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year im gonna get abs im gonna workout least every day drink least  gallon water per day know this already working regularly drinking water lot before really planningscheduling it gonna awesome,0
searching for a job in berlin in summer time don t speak german,0
haw haw haw farewelli laugh laugh lot laugh much developed smile mask syndrome im shaking im typing this im crying im typing this im laughing im typing this im selfharming im typing this feels good cuts arms blood dripping phone might farewell hi there im  yo iq tests official declarations dont care im average intelligence wich fucking annoying im diffrent like different music different hobbies wear different clothing people call old school social personality im nice person absolutely despise myself life music im one kids whose fav song something ed sheeran cant play instrument im multi instrumentalist im laughing now telling this dont know dont friends im different im constantly crying constantly laughing constantly sick could ramble whats wrong world isnt worth it might farewell wat de boer niet kent wat de boer niet vreet,1
only staying up because will arnett is on conan tonight   ,0
people always tell me how handsome i am i m ft with a muscular build i have a deep voice i m well read with interesting hobby and i can make people laugh but my teenage year were miserable with crippling social anxiety lack of confidence 0 friend and most importantly for me not even a touch of skin with a girl let alone holding hand you wouldn t believe just how crippling it wa i couldn t look a stranger in the eye properly until i wa 0 i wa raised to be away from other kid and naturally my only source of fun wa videogames at least hour a day people are always surprised to find out i m single i ll be tonight i somehow got through college without understanding social cue from my female classmate a couple of whom i later found out for sure liked me and that they had dropped some hint my life ha been on constant repeat of music porn and videogames i ve been begging god since i wa for a girlfriend after i just hoped i would get one soon and soon and soon with the pandemic flying by i realized it s almost been year and that i m about to be i can t bear it it s too painful every one of my peer have boyfriend and girlfriend they had at least a couple of long term one before my age this is killing me i feel like a baby that wa never cared for by his parent so i turned out to be a cold hearted psychopath from lack of love i feel like i m literally going insane i ve been having weird idea lately not just suicidal idea idea that would scare a normal person i finally understand how a normal person can go crazy like this it doesn t matter if i get a girlfriend now that part of my life ha been so bad so lonely that i m at a point that nothing is able to hold back this suicidal feeling i ve always been more emotional than other guy especially when it come to love i know guy my age that don t care about not having girlfriend but my problem is not that i don t have a girlfriend now it s that i ve never had one when i needed it the most i have a lot of med in my drawer that i m gon na gulp down with whiskey and go to sleep after shooting heroin i jokingly told people that i don t feel like living and their only response wa that death is painful well this way it won t hurt a bit,1
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i did the prep work i looked up anticipated question and wrote out my answer i looked into the company read their posting over and over and a soon a the phone ring my heart start pounding and i can t think straight i hate this all of my prep my confidence my preparedness gone a soon a i open my mouth i blabber and worse i start apologizing like i m confessing my sin to a priest sorry i have anxiety nail in coffin i try using pause instead of saying um ah uhhhh and the pause turn into silence and i m trying to control my breathing from sounding too loud too erratic too panicked i ve lost control of my heart rate i m gripping my pen just to have something to hold onto and in measly minute it s over,1
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death gotten year  realized bad school first kept telling us year  last time chill barely let us much work would get year  secondly someone else got grades pretty much got put core easier maths got put extended harder maths cant switch core even though got bad score first test parents teacher cant switch finally around  assignments first week back  things cant done since im running  hours sleep,0
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"In 24hrs time I will be at uni waiting to start my 1st exam, scary. I am working hard this morning though, and feeling ok about it atm ",0
@redlianak @skwunt I know plenty of people with social anxiety/depression etc and none of them would dream of taking it out on others or blaming others.,1
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im exhaustedeveryones better me thought id come terms this apparently not god need get rid universal gifted program elementary schools hate people better me could i blame trying hard enough good enough feel like sham everything ive made be im not im good nothing im mediocre never stand out die one day forgotten within year friends sweet smart pioneering love heart deserve world efforts success theyve made themselves even theyre juniors high school fuck im junior feels like theres hope me late me know many amazing talented sophomores well theyre amazing kind charming could never like them god im pathetic people run problem work solve overcome it dont give up makes failure thought id come terms this guess havent hate it feel petty narcissistic want tear brain rip shreds replace personality someone elses looks get life either ill never confident enough little have ill never confident enough transition nobody cares me try cant blame thats one thing say confidence blame anyone now used blame world problems id created myself see whatever pain im suffering now ive brought one way another want burden everyone else suffering enough stress deal with care me spill theyll push responsibility onto someone else someone qualified anyway land me back therapist expensive pointless therapy makes hate more makes mom hate more makes dad hate more reminder ill never change reminder im financial burden huge fucking mess everything treats patronisingly know used middle school whiny privileged bitch kept moaning depression anxiety mommy issues im edgy them still ill never anything quiet kid draws one resting bitch face scary one think hate me maybe do know think im pathetic listen theyre nice me feels like theyre babysitting me entertaining garbled nonsense cooing me diction makes sound bitter im aware truly blame them gotta believe this fuck want shitty person already am thought genuinely thought getting better last year year proved wrong im still useless mess middle school im still absolute miserable ass years attention whore prideful jealous douchebag thought making friends fuck maybe did like me really again playing along me id rather beat spit face hurts more vague im left questioning whether im exaggerating it want burden anymore want people care me ever did fuck arrogant think people cared all im ridiculously selfcentered time gave back world people move on im going die nobody might well end sooner make easier everyone else want die really think want live either want responsibilities want responsibility wish could pass sleep wish could trade health someone dying someone deserves live someone become great person im wasting space deserve this fuck im pathetic fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck absolutely disgusting need conversation thank you needed this know ill kill myself should even serious then everyone want kill every while im special want stop thinking wish someone would gut me,1
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dont know whats going mental state point im sure im sad lonely ive always way feel slowly drifting void darkness want get of time want go into worst part is personality essentially makes impossible anybody know im well dont want bother people end putting facade friends family dont worry everyday sit room door closed feel emotions drained honestly im sure something wrong im stubborn tell people im ok,0
crush friend hes perfect me like woodworking history space gaming problem idea hes gay,0
fuckgod hate fucking life,1
spending inordinate amount time thinking others would say end itevery day drown silence stick shitty youtube documentaries unsolved mysteries coldcase murders like spend lot time talking families friends dead everywhere go everything do lined undercurrent thinking last time one sees me would look internet usage would try justify death would talk troubled young woman struggled lot mental health im feeling tired pervasive gnawing suicidal ideation kind eats slowly youre never sure breaking point be,1
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i am no job no career suffering from severe depression and anxiety for year therapy med nothing help suffered emotionaly since teenage now m here all alone no one close totally done with life and thinking to end it thank u for reading,1
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believe losing control mental health excruciatingly painful crying almost every day trying get survive hoping death come pick up tired eyes filled sadness care people fancy anymore hate liked even like myself going waste time convincing everything fine going happen sweetie thing anonymous internet one know fucked head yes fucked head fucked head,1
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would stay sign things would get better things bad last three years keep getting worse tough feel im cursed im bipolar many months doctors thought schizophrenic because psychotic episodes present way disorders dealing stressful project work noticed imagination getting vivid period months thinking technicolor started getting paranoid people trying set failure take advantage me compounded stress family member experiencing serious liferuining illness landed hospital extended stay snapped stopped able cope reality invented imaginary world escape extremely overactive imagination filled blanks delusion matrix existed created illuminati went many lifetimes trying find way out began believe psychic communicating around either helping supporting illuminati even difficult delusion tied whole life story experiences like perfect web lies get own lived like  months incredible stress pretending normal trying figure do got point continue working acted work  meeting w superior called hr told take  weeks off took  months work doctors identify bipolar reaction medication schizophrenia included month long hospital stay surprise doctor thought schizophrenic first bipolar bad untreated bipolar takes long treat lithium kill increase slowly blood tests course  months took  years go reach stability spent lot time hospital laying bed taking walks nurses checking couple times day nice time relax fraught even delusions still going hospital took two three weeks antipsychotics thoughts calm down return work eventually lessstressful role per occupational therapists suggestion months occupational therapist said could return normal work work never put back normal projects im assuming want client facing chance could happen again little less year almost weekly doctors visits told need role anymore position terminated want pursue human rights claim even though occupational therapist said should saw exhausting taking time away job search ruining possibility key references thats story mental illness stealing sanity job independence course several years wonder people turn drugs life fall apart year year absolutely ptsd flashbacks daily im extremely lucky parents support this become homeless   bipolar people commits redflag right cant afford independent humiliating living situation certainly nontoxic would great universe gave sign continue part society really need positive momentum reserves empty hope  involves finding good job become independent again interviews coming january wish luck please need it things turn around im planning make exit,1
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dont know anymore tw redflagi dont know anymore whole lifes ahead me college high school job love etc even still find wanting end ever often horrible dad lot older go time finish college enough time unfair mom drinks lot horrible health none family likes her shes abused multiple boyfriends makes horrible money life decisions might even go dad whos older her liver gives sister different blood type none family help her im much issue try best help often find alone cant bring go them parents going divorced soon sister hates mom love hate relationship sister half black mom white get arguments lot recently got back friends left behind spent around three months without me found girl whos perfect got tough depression every awhile think killing would like without me never bring it im scared isnt anything life want able help mom get alcohol make better money decisions nicer late maybe goal next year dont know ill cant help mom,1
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everyone say it get betteri remember first time felt depressed around  got first phone talking friends one day told know live anymore felt like given up told chin up  much live for really changed keep hearing answer  get better  get better fuck told this justification wake one day said oh look life better no yes suicidal years one told get suffering cope it look years cant even look one day look telescope glass broken feel angered all depression anxiety everyone telling worry die peace gun head scared pull trigger hope now gone man watching street waiting something interesting actually happen apologize lot chest im done life,1
know correct sub reddit gorecently met close friend mine narrating story breakup slight annoyance dark humor proud strong nothing affected yada yada pointed feel anything relationship could cry infuriated let pass anyway almost  years cried started bother me long timethe breakup moments smile malevolently think scenarios someone whipping stabbing glass leaving marks bruises cry sort extreme scenarios googled why cannot cry even want to said might chance might suffering melancholic depression melancholic depression,1
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Curing once depression was not so easy but to ruined once life was so easy this what you like?? PD how devil are you! #박봄제발내버려두세요,1
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night two of deep depression i wish my med didn t have some bad day bc im a mess i don t feel like me this week and i m just so incredibly sad,1
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gun loadedgun bought street june first want go mind trip see without full control mind took hallucinogenic cocktail ill leave gun bed stand,1
cant work fail year alternativetold  weeks ago id get work hard exams end may spent past  weeks fuck all completely unable put pen paper slightest get university would needed put  working get going die might seem extreme perhaps even plain stupid ive given lot thought simply inevitable why well start off immediate implications succeeding take heavy toll first off id leave home possibly move grandparents temporarily even ive led sheltered sheltered existences kill would end mutilating performing kind menial task complete lack real world experience combined unable actually venture survive independently due personal nature would quickly lead worsening mental state eventual redflag  chance gaining kind meaningful employment not really desire working  slavery alternative cannot speak people without protection afforded internet obviously without job cant eke decent existence im far proud person stomach homeless came would kill heartbeat basically cant run uni spend another  years hiding real world alternative dying and quite frankly means would long gone now im really sure posting simply bitch unfair personally perceive opposed actually seeking help main reason posting honest simply say tried get help would completely understand post ignoredremoved read far thanks im sorry inevitable spellinggrammar errors,1
"kinda a boring day, rearranged my room..fun huh,yep. but it looks bigger now. (mom jokes STILL not funny, get it threw your thick skulls) ",0
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im unable feel good emotionsthis coming time im feeling downits im seeing ive joyive tried feel excited stuff universally exciting realized bad looking back experiences rollercoastersbut thats besides pointfor reason get half emotionhalf dull aching migraine start feel happyimagine bottle soap someone pours water itthats feel likeits like feelings half feeling half anguishmy happiness excitement immediately dissipate start feel them,1
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gttfw caring loving gf really get idea someone loving unconditionally except parents someones first priority never loved girl never loved girl,0
well like the title say it since covid ha come around and i got it time died almost time at this moment i just hoped it killed me i having longcovid and no energy need to use a lot of medicine to get normal breath since then my day are waking up working and after hour i have no energy got ta work for 0 hour a day because it s to busy after i get home nobody is there to support me nobody is ever texting me i hate it to see everyone having a gf around me i m alone not talking to someone and when i talk to people people will backstab me after sometime after i did something for them i hate my life and just want to be happy again hoped to find a girl to talk with have friend that like playing game and chatting but i m always alone while gaming or something and when people say yeah i get online they never will get online i m here to write it off myself 9 0 time it help especialy since i not have someone to talk about it sometimes i hope to meet some dutch people that feel the same or know how it is amp x 00b thanks for those who even read this sh t d amp x 00b kind regard amp x 00b ajax winner,1
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feel bad husband want set freeim  together  years wonderful man best friend deserve right got together accident caused nerve damage severe chronic pain body takes care alot constant health issues made relationship miserable cant equal partner much end causing many issues deal with im currently locked bathroom crying horrible fight basically knees apologizing hes giving silent treatment looking straight ahead refusing answer literally acting like exist begged answer even say no want talk right nowand turned tv even look me hates me like everyone else grown hate deal with truly believe woke one morning found dead sleep would relieved sad would finally free someone useless miserable broken marriage feel hes pity want set free finally die already life mean anything anymore,1
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kind road movie oldfashioned trains slowenian late summer province beginning see someone underwear sewing trousers black cloth young man black trousers leaves house two suitcases see trouserspart missing flag mourning appearently father died train meets young lady almost without words many small gestures wonderful love story begins somehow surreal poetic little bizarre movie lot strange characters strange incidents beautiful pictures love beautiful details,0
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mean come onyou know ive disappointed time time again lately starting show im  thought id attending stanford freshman working laid back indie place ca dorming future assets id great girlfriend wholl taken virginity wouldnt see family often would new friends better friends richer better looking competent friends could look now attending community college selling menthols garbage still virgin lesser friends wouldnt like know live with probably guessed it family wanna know mother recently yelled joking hiding rice crispies do hide rice crispies even rice crispies putting people werent ready parents dad poor cheap mother emotionally unstable pretty much  year old werent brothers shop wed street right now see family isnt meant be cant function independently want leave dead im still dependent people hospitable friends girlfriend happy place enjoyment life me surrounded people dont want around still virgin  huge embarrassment standards age expected understand sexually become good communicator aspect cant even much talk girl dont really want friend anything because wanted friend would go talk guy way id comfortable would understand better girls sex obligation otherwise im giving time money ordinary friend absolutely nothing women chant sex rape see make want slaughter them also offend actual rape victims mocking using inductive logic deductive circumstance essentially stereotyping women network dating friends thats totally fine social networking site dating site thats cruelty ive heard stories vaginas warmth immense pressure seems like partner porn could ever hope do look back this think disgraceful ive become obviously must enduring sort punishment existing makes sense way ive listened people talk beautiful world be listened awe amazing stories recently realize world would like offer sincere apologies control circumstances birth thus unable abort myself forgive may perhaps goodbye,1
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people born mourning souls song sung singularly encounter another soul tortured andor bitterly sweetly beautiful unusual magic happens alone brutally honest look two tortured souls intertwine moment understanding oneness torn apart differences oneness theyre pain death explored figuratively literally happens ones soul dead similarly alive awake reality life imagined behind eyes passerbys film explores aching pain us all frown beneath cheery facade ache below ugly instinctual animalistic thoughts acts become honest matter fact bechard sprinkles dash unexpected innocence beauty mix knowing linger us all bechard writer expert observer human condition non judgmental attitude presents life light often shield eyes yearn see understand he director focuses nuances actors spirit shines character theyre playing actors personal familiarity emotions brought situation accurately written directed character portrayal man womans experience together encountered yet even though two characters encounter probably normal encounterbr br the soundtrack encapsulates songs lyrics characters would let hearts spill able strong enough characters real voice sung beauty pain talent emotional intelligence emerging indie artists ready explode onto alternative music market perfect soundtrack us issues  us admit issues us hide itbr br i always enjoy exploring darker sides life mr bechards fascinatingly creative realistic view life characters revolve within it,0
brain hate me month keep making dream meeting love life living best life wake im like like ever gonna happen like brain trolling sleep needed get out thank time three people reading this,0
hate feeling get im better now yo here might get deleted never posted sub want share hope help least one person talking friend aware suicidal thoughts told felt jealous another friend gets along really well girl like got slightly heated phone battery giving trouble phone shut mid conversation since stopped answering got incredibly worried thought taken life snowballed everyone friend group able charge phone told everyone perfectly fine damage done everyone still scared commited redflag always thought people group hated found annoying next day school crying incredibly worried keep mind one knew suicidal thoughts made realize wrong was im happy say im longer suicidal title says feel horrible knowing way ive gotten rid suicial thoughts friends think im dead right wait happens you stop now so please think one cares you wrong kill yourself,1
my depression ha gotten much worse lately but i haven t told anyone how bad it is not even my wife because she s still grieving her mom who passed away last month and i don t want to add to her trouble i ve been having suicidal thought again but so far no intent to actually end my life however i have relapsed into self harm again and i think it s worse than it ha been before like i can t end myself because my wife and kid need me and i m now the only income earner in the house so i need to provide for my family so i m doing the next best thing and hurting myself thus why i m hesitant to tell my therapist how bad it s gotten i d voluntarily committed myself a couple year ago when i wa suicidal and told my wife so i know how that go but i know there is a risk that if my therapist think is dire enough i can be involuntarily committed and i can t afford to miss any work right now i don t know what to do i know i don t have a lot of time to decide because my next therapist appointment is in a few hour,1
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really need someone talk right nowhi im feeling pretty shitty right now almost killed couple days ago decided check hospital instead family took back place everyone know left go vacation im home alone girlfriend gone well felt alone since night really need someone shoot shit with feel pretty crappy feel one actually wants around like spend time tolerate want kill myself terrible isolating feeling play runescape overwatch lol much else enjoy music fantasy movies read good books lately ill talk anything,1
early teens come realization knew would want much part world cannot feel type satisfaction life neither family significant other even simple pleasure food much try surround positivity feeling emptiness drowns it birthday days ago pictures taken looking back see eyes soul screaming release lost lbs eating either little all slowly feel like reaching limit scared reach help abyss,1
somethinga good days ive already fucked im always trying say choose thing thatll make happy always guess wrong take fuck continue worthless piece shit exists disappoint talk make feel like shit sorry cant multitask mind im trying work fuck still fucking accept quit trying react be tears mean nothing anyway dont cry hurry fucking kill youself already dont think dont hesitate let go pull trigger opened big fucking mouth havent fucking figured shut fuck one wants one cares fuck try keep fucking trying make happy cant apparently whole literal life revolves around making happy wish knew stay quiet keep peace dont talk anymore,1
probably whimsical installment first season shore leave ups downs parts drag long others unambitiously cut short one cant deny threw everything proverbial kitchen sink make entertaining episode kirk crew seem found perfect planet shore leave extended tour duty left everyone board need rest relaxation on appears intents purposes uninhabited earth beautiful scenery ideal climate first indication things might go little awry mccoy leading advance team spots alice from wonderland following large white rabbit wearing vest kirk beams finds others reporting similarly bizarre happenings encounters one thing common crew member thinking personplacething discovered right discovered it immediately sink kirk anyone else strangeness ensues including sightings juan siberian tiger ww fighter plane etc kirk meets ruth gorgeous old girlfriend of course bully academy days finnegan chasefight scene finnegan goes long time mccoy run lance knight horseback apparently killed finally elderly man appears explains happening planet futuristic amusement park visitors imagine something appear nothing permanent mccoy really dead explained kirk decides order shore leave everyone all despite it dream sort ending shore leave holds another firstrate episode star treks first season,0
wish could make everything life go awayim sick tired living im  years old im failing classes im lazy work im afraid people think me talk people school want hated recently ive thinking everyone class hates me kid friend joking friend partners me kid smirked course sound bad you them really hurts someone want talk you ive feeling depressed year work piles up go away told parents yet im afraid ill upset want put stress want kill myself think id either sit warm water use one razor blades cut open wrists hang myself nothing getting better give crap anything school even act scared know failed test teacher gives back gets reaction me do want talk guidance counselor theyd tell parents,1
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ones fault wanted artisthello redflag watch  years old still living home moved previously lasted couple years afford it feel like life chosen blessing curse days plagued depression enjoy playing music painting working house painter past five years faced reality able follow dreams would like ive trying little money picking jobs scarily produce enough art work sell also learn lot covers play make money know im shooting foot genuinely want make something call own younger felt potentialwork ethic someone never hit stride feel like becoming loser despite efforts many friends really know make friends school long im practically unemployed every time think applying one im held back thoughts little social skills also adds sense shame never create without thinking real job adds guilt consider workingartmusic physical means paycheck really bad episode months ago make get bed currently write someone drifting grow older realize world view getting limited cant seem leave childlike perspective,1
fuck lonely life im really fed unsatisfied life right now  one worst years life swear life started going downhill since start january lost  closest friends dumbest way ever despite popular kid find wanting  close friends rather big group close friends school ended year feel alone home everyone glued devices ive made lot plans close friends im seriously missing  best friends lets call best friend hanna shes girl best friend literally nicest person ive ever met threw biggest surprise birthday party year much fun think started losing her am everyone went back home leaving hanna chalet booked  drinking party im type people gets high im tired asf wasnt really moment vibing good time her abruptly stopped music basically confessed me figured truly happened  months after idiot right girl best friend straight told like reply yea like too thank much putting youre literally best friend ever thought nothing  months after became cold afterwards giving one liners stopped texting figured schoolshes diff school btw school year ended really wanted hang her reject me asked wrong told bluntly liked romantically got message dumbass lonely dumbass,0
this shown dubbed italian rome cinema not bad sounds presented rome film festival much art film festival film guaranteed charm delight audiences distinctive style droll humor ability draw comedy suffering others appealing cheery music spoton performances overriding sweetness humanitybut doomed oddity lack compelling story line leave average audiences wondering theyre watching anyone admires it even got madebr br andersson gives us almost series dry skits running various themes money guy next table waldemar nowak nicks wallet rich bore talking cell phone restaurant glass brandy goes orders set posh suits made order deadbeat son calls celebrated father away elaborate gathering beg one loan shrink worries aloud depleted investments wife humps bed wearing shiny viking helmetbr br depression elementary teacher jessica nilsson breaks class husband called harpy rug salesman spouse pr fredriksson collapses clients hes called that several men depressing dreams heythis sweden everybody depressed love problems fat bohemian couple perpetually breaking up girl groupie fantasies lead guitarist micke eric bckman wives slam doors husbands start practice instruments music obviously unifying theme besides dashing guitarist theres tuba drum player whore dixierland band also play marches funerals every scene added lilt music niftily links one sequence another raging storm outside window many scenes violent rain people it thunder loud sounds like battle raging across land also unifies tone gives impression various scenes happening dauntingly tempestuous daybr br andersson master visual composition static middledistance shot film foggy graygreen look engineered dp gustav danielsson thats perfect evokes gloom swedish winter also twinkles subtle colors directors wit ends every scene smile one almost never knew drabness could beautiful or perhaps one did alexcanr sokurov creates effects sometimes different contexts within scenes film whole theres kind stillness comes visual style pacing scenes detached humanism overall outlook theres something fully mastered style thats calming reassuringbr br not everything works equally well one may feel impatient succession barely related scenes read much sometimes like work saturday night live writer need prozac since scenes plainly move draw laugh obvious others fall little flatbr br but scenes real zingers one obviously triumphant climax pure magic dreamdescribed visualized dreams another important thread girl groupie imagines wedding dress newly married fey guitarist ideal plays delicate series riffs crowd admirers gathers outside big window viewpoint switches outside window slides slowly away building dream newlyweds look train moving station take honeymoon fresh subtle rather sublime effectbr br eventually one may feel everything living du levande dream including recurring scene barman always striking bronze bell announcing last order time whereupon torpid customers rise tables go get one drinkbr br an italian reviewer called a small great film thats right limits dozen ways greatness it roy andersson little master like medieval miniaturist inner comedies scandanavian gloom film unlike other shown year cannes un certain regard selection also swedish entry  best foreign oscar hard say bergman would think andersson worked him famous elaborately produced tv commercials one see youtube bergman called the best commercials world interesting see director whose craft subtle viewpoint start working longer segments time meanwhile good film buff really needs get look thisbr br schadenfreude quite right word means delight misery others andersson teaching us delight misery us,0
sex comedy though driven fantastically imaginative plot concentrates effectively relationship filmdirector crew process filmmaking whilst successfully addressing dynamics human relationships specifically issues problems encountered actors involved filming sex scenes director jeanne features prominently throughout carries plot forward place narrator gives us numerous little pearls wisdom think about social commentator relating assistant others problems finds new male lead way associating masculine stereotype ambiguous relationship typifies something human nature tendency fickle one hand two seem close sight claims hate him jeanne also addresses masculine pride perhaps feminist take thingsbr br the taboo constitutes obscenity raised content sex scenes considered obscene beautiful fakeness constitutes obscenity  directors justification is however doubly ironic film watch construct within constructbr br theres film relationships course watching film simply question analysing sake drawing sort meaning one delight natural lighting pervades movie makes realistic believable static camera sometimes used taking heavy composition times camera appears shaky like home movie looking something fun watch sunday afternoon heavy still leaves thinking it,0
long time red sox fan go see movie great never enough live footage miracle  red sox season great shots favorite red sox players movie certainly chick flick enough baseball footage amazing  red sox comeback make one top  movies time especially enjoyed red sox fans part bens baseball family scene ben meeting buddies draft day determine get seats certain games hilarious must see looking wholesome movie watch spouse date significant otherespecially baseball fanand even especially red sox fan,0
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idk did deleted social medias long distance completely cuts us off even say why idk breaking me would told me right anyways lost him imma lose life feel dumb trying kill this going it killing cuz boyfriends mad,1
richard condies utter maddness insanity cartoon the big snit trip qwerkyness madness hillarity enjoyable backgrounds melting characters conclusion nearly brings happy tears everytime see itbr br this short seen never tire luckily tape broadcast tv never stops make burst laughter uncontrollably reach depths spirit highlighting greatness human condition br br cause someone says come on lets finish game everything alright world troubles face everyday suddenly realise petty fleeting things fight worry anymore film first seems like simple exercise cartoon slapstick humour far that film hits greater sense spiritual meaning mankind wake everything seems bad trivial br br it flawless every way damn funny br br rating  ,0
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feel bit lost bit hopeless bit like im issuing something m yearning feeling like dull ache mental physical like wish someone like gf maybe  maybe lockdown getting  im social like meeting new people like new possibilities relationships guess problemo is fucking hate lol  im saying sound edgy body dysmorphia disorder bunch stuff weighs constantly feel ugly time  feel sick stressed walking past mirrors  obsess scrutinise time  sometimes dont even know look like people tell different friends theyre lying make feel good im lucky friends think forget also see look like know lying weird like wouldnt consider ugly literal sense features unattractive like round fat face ears stick  tried eating made feel ill arms twigs lol almost like capacity decent theres something holding back cheeks arent thin completely ruins face unfortunately starving didnt really affect face good idea general im gonna come terms ill never look gaunt attractive dont look like boys age defined jaws masculine angular faces ya boy here well hes stuck moon shoulders feel self conscious point debilitating like regular teenage low self esteem genuine deep rooted self hatred feel like im worth nothing one ever love someone ever theyd leave wouldnt good enough stress im sat close people keep head down back bent cover mouth laugh literally run b public place tk avoid seen cringe internally sometimes social situations remember everyone see me feel like constant idiot talking people must judging okay melodrama  sorry wanted dump thoughts cahms therapy ended it anxiety bdd apparently apply get help that parents dont believe issue theres point say theyre dont trust actually need bit help dont understand extent much feel crushed time lol really hard trying get stuff feeling ugliness time id never talk girl would feel stupid girl would want talk girl would want lol sounds like simpy oh girls dont like omg life terrible genuine concern actually alone forever welcome thought really  im usually like keep account anonymous dont really care im pretty good hiding feel lots people look merely strength wear smile carry ,0
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balamurugan a longterm member of the team is leaving this month we ll miss working with him hope he doe well in his next venture,0
@claireisis thats absolutely amazing!You're a dark horse!A lady of many talents!excellent ,0
hey ladies gents ever scared dark well oh boy trick you might sound silly trust me lets say room coat corner room looks little scary what do might ask well worry friend look ur getting scared say fuck you middle fingers up orrr lets say ur scared cuz think ur followed either say look bro ik following come already only use know anyone else looking you make sure say bored tone possibly turn around walk away calmly jokes aside actually works me,0
itevery day nothing pain could take belt hang myself ask question every time go sleep cant answer it  mins work ill never suffer,1
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reason drank bleach destiny  coming soonthe method ive chosen drinking bleach super easy find lot house unlike gun something would hard find neighborhood seriously destiny  cancelled sucks im ending fast possible destiny  might video games look forward to pretty much video games exist id chugging bleach parents main problem theyre always ass every single little thing getting rediculous understand go school im going college soon get degree get job become functioning member society im soooo fucking lazy like im incredibly lazy personality theres nothing it understand something get past hear time stop lazy it quit baby give less fuck im depressed hell sleep play video games fucking day parents hate it lock outside room makes want more one days im locked room mom giving chores want blow brains out like completely understand im whiney millennial lazy sack shit  agree care all also recognize parents want best me like theyre shit love want see succeed heart even tell im depressed anything im afraid confrontation point care doctor told parents many signs teenage depression recommended therapist talked like  sessions got nothing done open all lied said worked im fine now want tell parents im depressed know  response youre lazy using excuse play video games day,1
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found new low homeless  homeless locked keys car morning sure anyone knows small things set called grandmother live got mad needed say sorry waking called girl get extra key witch find know car still locked grandma says selfish care people even though iv helping falls injures past couple months said fuck anger saying done said got leave house homeless felony case pending head going find pills get handle liquor drink till pass eventually die sorry family member sees cannot keep going want die badly sorry adriana could help one could please think fault help,1
babdhlamini she s looking for cheap therapy talking about depression and all like this singular act won t push her down that path faster,1
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there is someone in my life i need to have a conversation with i tell myself i really need to do this to answer the question i keep asking myself and if it doesn t get better then i ll know it s time to cut them out i know i have to do this it will make everything better and solve the problem i got myself ready to start this conversation under the thought that a long a i m trying to communicate it s a win in my book i open the chat and think about typing and i tell myself why even bother it doesn t matter he doesn t care to hear your thought and when you do tell him he s not going to want to fix the problem it s so frustrating because i know what the problem is and how to fix it and i can t i don t know how to take the next step,1
@Pifiz I'm heavy into computers! I want to start with computer programming and go wherever  the wind blows me ,0
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"@raycomfort @AmputeeAtheist Dear troll, I suffered with depression for man years and was medicated many times during that period. A good friend prayed with me and I turned to God to take the depression. God answered. No more depression, no more medication.",1
trigger warning self harm hello i m a 0 year old male and have bipolar i i wa recently diagnosed but knew for year i wa bipolar i just never had the courage to actually seek help due to the stigma i ve been on one medication already lamictal that back fired on me and i m hesitant but desperate to go on something else to help with the severe depression and suicidal ideation i ve never had thought of self harming but last night i started to and it s only intensifing i scratched my arm raw earlier and i hate to even say that i m ashamed i fear i ll use a sharp object next and that scare me most of all because i don t trust myself to stop once i start i need someone to talk to i have no friend and my life is pure hell,1
i ve had this discussion with many people irl including my therapist who said that is very specific to you and i wouldn t go around telling people that lmao when i imagine a world where i have to live forever or i have to follow the natural progression of my age until i die naturally it make me feel suffocated panicked and claustrophobic in my own body the fact is that even if we have lost control over every single thing in our life at least at the very minimum we have control over if that life exists or not i take great solace in the fact that my being on this earth everyday is solely by my choice because if i wanted to i could end it at any point of course i don t because i have people i d be hurting here and i have thing i suppose i need to accomplish before i die but i d be a very big liar if i sat here and said that i don t cope by reminding myself that there is a way out there s always a way out,1
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today right thingi talked mother talked friend have lying years ive depressed decade talking people sites eased talking people care even two left thanks people found therapist online could comfortable help dissected myself know makes get morning function ive sober almost month week starting new job feel good bad know right thing know it control wanted thank guys for,1
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it turning backi officially going end sad little trainwreck life next friday worked out end,1
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suicidal thoughts  yearsidk start im suicidal thoughts like  years parents mother amp father used beat amp abuse bad words since  years old daily basis amp sometimes mom give food eat demotivate every time saying like nothing life im useless die im trash bullshit like daily basis amp threatened kick home cuz im adult  yo give svere depression amp anxiety like everyday amp sometimes cry hard  amp think commit redflag get free this many friends mom whenever friends come home mom say shit amp ever talk amp make fun me never shared anyone thought everyone make fun amp understand first time im writing subreddit thank reading sorry grammar mother tongue,1
harder imagine humanity future interested anything set space finally played mass effect friend recommended me found shows like babylon  farscape firefly battlestar galactica influenced mass effect space sci fi popular s early s dominant pop culture tv things s game thrones zombies superheroes space come back tv the expanse for mankind nowhere near popular  pop culture phenomenons even though game thrones mcu infinity saga ended walking dead concluding soon become harder imagine humanity future would take get society dream space again,0
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im jealous boyfriend hes attractive looks good even someone takes picture without knowing im literally jealous umm im like wish attractive im girl and  anyways thats,0
Playing some Badminton with my sister ,0
@Eldirao lucky for some  was like that at the weeked so a shouldnt complain ,0
failing thing makes happythe thing keep mind killing playing competetive game ive bad streak wanted play one online play queued random people met trolls lost games purpose reminding solo queue losing rank makes quite frustrated season ends soon reach certain rank get limited items ive tried gain back lost ranks still solo queue one play keep losing making depressed im wanting play make happy lose ill get away goal play ill get better game wise situation wise im mess,1
just got home what a crazy day but im cool now cant wait til this weekend when i go visit my mom its gonna be soo much fun  &lt;33,0
im going kill weekend fgoodbye everyone im sick existence live thought id tell someone,1
failing college want decent jobhello all ampxb made similar post little ago account mainly rehashing untold details im college student studying web development im well classes all im probably going fail academic probation kicked school understand javascript basic stuff html css want get decent paying job able support myself able skills especially get degree tried get job without one ampxb supposedly redflag never answer able basic thing adults able do getting decent job support on point continuing living especially know biggest goal life id rather dead live failure,1
best friend tried end thursday night stopped crying sinceshe close dying knew depression bpd bad thought getting ontop it thought improving fact thought way problems breaks heart heart feels like broken tiny pieces feel many awful emotions know do killed herself would joined her,1
the mentally ill gunsbut else gonna kill lol im tryin make scene damn,1
know whats embarrassing saying you too waitress asks enjoy meal saying you too fight mom says fuck you,0
actually crazy grew exact right time marvel movies born   saw avengers theaters loved it years later middie school ultron hit homies discussed favorite superheroes shit back iron man coolest others like cap thor caught civil war hit freshman year right mature enough understand plot intense team iron man vs team cap debates homecoming also fun high school setting relatable right time happened come out saw infinity war friends sophomore one exciting movies life honestly capped seeing endgame theaters friends old new age  felt amazing emotion time nostalgia too grew movies think im gonna love life thor hulk iron man cap black panther black widow yessir might get black panther poster dorm tbh,0
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i want to be dead ive been suicidal for year im such a fucking retard filled with regret and anger im done with life i want all of this to stop why i cant do one thing right,1
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need someone tell going okthrow away account need vent years shit feeling like shit ever since beginning year last semester college last semester graduate feeling miserable hard get morning hard care anything hard focus keep telling youre almost there it months working wake up force feet force get fat lazy ass class years shit two hours supposed go back college find brother flunked college hiding parents found out fullblown break down admitted suicidal thoughts admitted lying them me goddamn lied me lived together dorm would leave class guess what actually go class hed shut somewhere play fucking computer games go college move back dorm supposed share together unpack things knowing brother come back me parents found did would killed himself spent next days emotionally drained hollow still today im still angry bitter almost anything find get angry about draw hobby one things find joy doing find getting frustrated furious drawings mind keeps telling much suck good thing dad let go art school miserable failure cant anything right holy shit whats wrong you never great artist fuck never good one even trying sometimes thing manages get day loving girlfriend whenever needed talk lives three states away goddamn it miss her oh mention family hates her brothers sisters and yes suicidal one too telling terrible choice girls im going end fucking getting pregnant dad keeps glaring goddamn person fucking world gives two shits me know im venting rambling probably making whole lot sense know lately ive feeling miserable cant remember last time genuinely happy im angry depressed need help,1
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my doctor just prescribed me trazodone buspirone and escitalopram for my anxiety i am not sure what to do here since i read they all interact with each other but my doctor say it s just fine and he know best i am already taking buspirone and it help a lot he also knew escitalopram give me insomnia and still prescribed it not sure if i should just stop bitching or find another doctor,1
it seems to cause physical symptom too been having terrible health anxiety symptom out of the blue terrified of my throat closing up randomly and you ll never guess what my anxiety is currently making me feel throat tightness currently going through this cycle of scared of throat closing gt fear cause sensation of tight throat i hate how health anxiety make your brain convinced you re gon na die recently ran to the doc thinking i had cancer found a weird lump in leg it wa a lymph node if it s not cancer it s allergy or a rare autoimmune disorder no therapist ha yet been able to help either it suck and make it hard to live a normal life,1
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discord server one mods keep muting people banning people littlest shit cant even count many people ive seen happen fucking hell annoying never discord server seen someone sensitive even hypocritical another thing rules show personal info right problem except irl name why real name connections bet others people art bet people put names bottom,0
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maybe im slowly pushing everyone away die alone like want nobody care everyone thankful im gone maybe thats it,1
Depression is come up dude .... I legit have suicide thoughts now <Emoji: Slightly smiling face>,1
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eisie mate that s rubbish 0pt hug tom covered in spot and obviously not happy but doc say it s nothing bad tell that to tom,0
came across subreddit want say thank contribute itseriously amazing see consistently positive comments tried leaving one floored see many posts like mine keep folks,1
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looks like finally timei plan research done maths done tomorrow go get items required finally either die andor show mother serious death laughing off relieving,1
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really wish people took verbal abuse seriouslyi sick tired people calling sensitive bring alll verbal emotional abuse went through like stfu please stfu adult still feel comfortable body cant trust myself please live traumatise people untill show signs trauma days ask functioning adult even worth it whether giving alcohol drugs better option younger brother would booked car drove secluded place gases carbon monoxide,1
always thought depression jokei depressed large part life never would admit it make excuse anything depression always hidden boredom exhaustion never sadness always saw depressed people pathetic crying time feeling sorry cutting way get pity attention kind people stay bed day always thought fix it stop feeling sorry yourself realize depression comes many forms impacts everyone differently depressed sadness even feel bad mentally life over lost desire participate human being turned  august job currently sleeping mothers couch br apartment bouncing living mother  sisters decade havent friend since highschool recluse never kept job year currently unemployable due extremely high risk turnover thing get bored quickly leave job never consequences thoughts redflag everyday coward dont balls it thought lately things changed thought anymore feeling feel first time going kill myself almost confidence hear head time even told family got expected result dont care mother told didnt need me older sister said go it dont tell do almost disbelief life come this years bad choices suddenly blindsided seemingly  solution worst part is hindsight one decision made highschool started path path long numb it almost like getting fat dont notice happening one day suddenly open eyes say fuck happen dont want kill myself blind options now everything would require apply put forth effort somehow convinced beyond point life opinion isnt worth living miserible everyday even concern would impact family sadness confusion might feel subsided life go them forget move on dead capacity care people knew everything happens death problem selfish thing do life even plan buy shotgun go woods morning hours everyone hustling meaningless jobs pull trigger noone would even hear shot wouldnt found days longer ill leave note telling family decided leave wont even bother trying find me,1
"Tom watching the Grand Prix, the Sunday Times and a cinnamon whirl on my lap. Green tea cooling gently. Bliss. ",0
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redflag tolerance already zero contemplating suicide lot didnt want see would lead didnt want brothers incredibly lucky got referred good psychologist like hes helping problems getting rehabilitation welfare hassle constantly talk new counselors psychologists psychiatrists triggers breakdowns hate talking strangers im ashamed all hate share truly feel strangers makes real,1
rustyrockets will you be showing me some love you sexy swine feeling abit lonely go on you know you wan na x,0
flowing rivers bloodworthless useless ugly hopeless pointless abandoned miserable pain crying nogood insignificant meaningless wretched valueless nothing poor empty depleted futile unimportant lost desperate helpless despondent broken beyond repair irreparable ruined destroyed obliterated lost ready die,1
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Bowling is my new hobby and I love it now. Def helps keeps my depression away,1
cant wait dieeverywhere look even try see something nothing im soon failure nothing show myself im finally pushing better pain inside much hate mixed emotions much clash drive mad want lay somewhere cold die fade away vacancy ill never make anyone feel worth good im useless moron dont value constantly feel inferior world constantly always reach something isnt world think  years shit might finally choose pull plug honestly cant wait im sick burden drag everyone im im worth love im worth anything want leave bad,1
viennateng why didn t you tweet that you are in germany heard about the concert in marburg in the radio hour before it started,0
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cannot stand shitty life cannot accomplish anything friends family help anything pretty much alone depression time high redflag one takes seriously tell suicide think let go pain die way peace,1
i can hear the difference voice in my head i talk with my girlfriend all night but when she s sleeping i can hear the voice sometimes or my head creates an illusion or paranoid i don t have an idea about happen with me,1
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want sing dreamed dream thats all feel free add thoughts below fucking love song,0
oh and it s officially my birthday happy rd birthday to me look around yet no one is here to wish it to me erik s in bed,0
kill aspirini got whole bottle bayer extra strength aspirin take all kill me doesnt me permanent damage im  weight around lbs,1
im dumb worldi make stupid mistakes constantly tonight husband go different town ordered pizza place name one street sure takes long go close hearing call outside place thought ordered waiting emails load phone asking receipt email still waiting load sent dark place know thinks im stupid could not husband damn intelligent never made feel stupid purpose feel like unintelligent person compared him ampxb often notice mistakes made paying closer attention mind usually things deem important like work come home brain fried cant focus much work administrative assistant just started last week love it quite honest im office put energy work im shell end day sometimes takes moments grasp husband saying asking about cant keep days days much like today make feel worthless stupid feel like cant even make sense simple things ampxb thank reading im sorry long post,1
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alone better left behind thats true friends even dm see im ok one cares one gives fuck every one dms need help,0
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much oxycodone need overdosei want kill self  five milligram oxycodone pills left surgery enough bother hang,1
live foreach day overcoming challenge getting day struggle im sick of see point anymore understand life difficulties everyone others seem also reasons feel that theres nothing look forward get back home day time feel relief going go sleep single thing person world makes want say never,1
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im considering redflag im weak itits driving crazy thinking time,1
Crippling depression pretty much owns my personal life so anytime in not at work I wish I was bc that's the only time it sleeps,1
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redflag basically way go memy family bullying day long  failure school  im sick often job  either redflag someday living bridge  need think way dont damage things want destroy worthless thing room  pc manga actually value unlike,1
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wanting make amends vs knowing kill  tw metooi feeling debilitating levels shame metoo coverage recently fixated creepy fucking loser nice guy ways selfishly hurt around me psychiatrist male basically tells im hard myself men news done far worse points lacking experience perspective know wrong want someone take seriously tell without minimizing things  yo man dealt major depression since  didnt lose virginity technically  mention inexperienced socially awkward mentioned somewhat nice guy time good friends woman freshman year college ill call h h started showing interest exciting didnt get much lived dorm h would get bed cuddle watch movies virgin also depressed albeit higher functioning eventually asked liked said yes also told want relationship told ok soon began pestering herasking reconsider months still friends still cuddled became clear becoming less comfortable me kept asking reconsider basically treating like boyfriend months despite feelings felt entitled it told liked me entitled nice guy eventually told could longer friends me told contact her recommended see shrink blocked facebook justice served since graduating spent time alone lot time reflect try better person stayed away dating work entitlement issues anxiety around year ago started thinking h again still blocked wonder subject metoo wonder one reasons psychiatrist isnt taking seriously hes done something worse feel like progress ive made sham whatever good manage never undo selfidentity abuser pain ive caused women people kind enough care me back thinking justice left redflag shamefully selfish worry even bother put effort better person hobbies interests career h reappear life let everyone know manipulative creep many ways still am,1
three things say spalding gray are certainly marched beat drummer never loss words obviously felt watching listening would interested every aspect life experiences thoughts  matter trivial timesbr br most us quite far off wall was us interested sharing minute parts others  even oneonone small groups let alone stagebr br but make lessinteresting watch listen erudite unusual man seeing one performances reflection find many articulate musings perhaps relevant lives thoughts may first thoughtbr br granted new yorkavantgarde type personality undeniably bit strange there would maintain describing someone new york strange unnecessarily redundantbr br i give  talent presents genre specialty,0
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something wrong mei live like everybody else know job pays decent enough live house well sized volunteer library every week theres line times get bad news doesnt affect emotional level times like today someone tells im sick like play dog terrified me tell joke think people get tell sadistic sense humor would like figure whats going here dont money pay psychologist therapist theres obviously something wrong mind im sick cant figure theres point living anymore dont see is right infront me taunting me even exist,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
@sarahdrinkwater Fantastic!  Glad you liked it!,0
picked film local library met director film festival late last year curious check out work pleasantly surprisedbr br the film takes fresh look familiar subjects love infidelity friendships jealousy bit talky times never much completely sink film enjoyed watching love story characters clearly belong together watching make conscious decisions rather haphazardly falling something important lovebr br the contrast film average lowbudget shootem black film quite distinct check out lucky copy come copy soundtrack like mine did good stuff,0
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feel lonelymy girlfriend left someone else ever since ive felt worst ever wanna die get rid pain unlovablei want loved miss hasnt even given second thought wish didnt exist im mistake ive started planning redflag dont think future anymore wanna talk something dm ill give discord something dont want alone right,1
is pissed off running from that old man who tried too trash our tent ha left me with the battle womb,0
im trying make poll cause put answer comments whats favorite  megalovania  bonetrousle  undertale ost   battle true hero  death glamour,0
woman black  tv adaptation susan hills modern classic ghost story published years earlier film made sadly film released dvd far aware deleted vhs availability direct contrast popularity amongst know horror films story revolves around events seaside community early th century young solicitor sent firm conclude affairs recently deceased widow died isolated marshland estate thought would routine probably tedious task turns nightmare discovers old woman haunted death ghosts past content rest story told subtle concise way never selfindulgent flashy overexpositional obviously tight budget may contributed nononsense approach story needs works well see scares said that one particularly terrifying scene relies visual works perfection watched film day still gave nightmares nearly week later love terrified must get hold watch copy woman black,0
hi everyone  year old male currently dealing depression majority life dealing ocdredflag mostly focused serious illness constant worrying put think serious deep depression emotion anymore nothing excites feel like existing got engaged  months nervous excitement emotion feel like emotion much anymore honestly scares me psychologists cbt never really helpedthinking might need go see psychiatrist feel like drowning cannot get awful feeling start going back work july  means  hour commute city one way question done help get depression anyone deals health redflag do feel like health redflag put state worried  months thinking skin cancer get biopsy mole feel like lump neck worse part one else feels went urgent care doc said nothing there keep making doc appointments thinking miss something trying save wedding spending money docs please help need help idk begin,1
anyone else hike get thirsty like  way it huge water bottle drink drink finish whole thing thirsty later get even thirsty people still water left end drinking whole hike chug end,0
randomjay the biggest mistake i have ever made now i have to live with the consequence stress anxiety and depression,1
idk questioning life ignore want sorry gonna bunch questions parallel universe theory true would creator universe would overseeing one humans optimal species earth would beaten animal wasnt endangered universe infinitely expanding would collapse maybe already wouldnt know shored light fastest would take long time go unknown distance speed light also black homies cool ok peace ill continue tomorrow,0
feel like tomorrow going dayi think im finally going jump tomorrow ive thinking long thoroughly it may seem strange im sad im dead insidei hate people ive tried think rationally whole situation possible probably best talk people different perspective make important irreversible decision edit wrote thoughts early day feel need talk anymore feel peace edit talked somebody wants help would really rude kill now maybe done isolated maybe really want die know im jackass,1
feels weird man im  got hit sophomore college feels weird man,0
so because of my anxiety i have this big fear of being alone i m afraid that i will lose my mind and hurt myself or something i constantly surround myself with people and when my partner leaf town i have family stay with me i feel like this is kind of becoming a problem because i m never facing my anxiety alone so when i m alone driving or doing anything else alone i panic,1
im still waiting hear main siege uweebs_life months bro months tell me,0
tryna listen to happy songs instead of sad songs to try and undo my depression oof,1
@ThePrinceBeMe lol holllllla! Ummm Ron Rio? Summ like that. My girl left it here a few days ago so I'm finishing it right now ,0
finally activision decided add colorful skins fpsmall budget playere cod mobile cant wait use something ghost,0
The gymnasts.  #fb http://yfrog.com/17p8lj,0
Is looking at the moon. This is kind of cool ,0
halloween going work year context im eighteen years old highly anticipate halloween year get weird looks height even reluctant give candy do people think im creep granted knock neighbors doors weekly still okay it,0
day so first year reddit id say good one but nothing really happened still fun seeing posts keep good work,0
I got a lenovo lappy!  No idea why I don't feel the extra happiness thingy within me.,0
wanna dieim scared try again unsuccessful redflag worst honestly reason alive matter time,1
really need someone talk toim high school senior dealing lot really need someone talk give advise ive thinking lot ending hoping something better comes side im much wuss it,1
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one month leftin april ive decided last year closer year got end believe it im going talk why point guess needed let someone know need where know want this cant change this tried getting help diagnosed multiple things made worse knowing im stuck feeling die theres point continuing,1
school started today switched online classes regular classes today first day back feel dumb fuck again,0
want overdosei,1
people see redflag bad thinglike put dog ill acceptable humans hell let themselves people aggressively want humans live bat eye animal put down depression fucking disease cant put like wed animal disease whats double standard,1
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 sexual orientation induced homelessness money depressed etcso got kicked parents house multitude reasons physical abuse emotional abuse tried killing twice wellestablished plan making sure would work third time alas graduated highschool parents suggested stay back year university earn money accepted three top universities applied to took online course father would routinely disconnect internet scream me mother would hit occasion top great stuff kind troubling realization im gay fucking wonderful ive pretty much contemplating redflag daily cutting arms dangerously close wrists etc im crazy well ive staying boyfriend past months standstill  tapered entirely cymbalta causing horrendously suicidal  cannot afford vyvanse due total lack money  lost wallet id  ridiculously skinny  know one city im at taking fifty mg tramadol good way myself could anyone suggest alternative redflag,1
blew iti missed important deadline senior project college repeat it problem money left needed job help support moms medical bills sister feel like failure cant face family cant handle anymore life feels like series awful events nothing monotony whats point wanted get chest trying im much coward even leave proper note,1
film scaring since first day saw itbr br my mum watched telly back  remember woken middle night tearful ramblings dad helped stairsbr br she saying something like dont let get me something like that asked made upset told shed watching woman blackbr br so obviously watch even though eleven let me scared s me ive immune horror films since watching this,0
@eatthemuffin. That I'm about to KILL you ,0
weird bc feel like nightenjoy stuff night day feel tired n dead night feel awooga strange hru doe,0
@zoe_s  @natwells3 well i knew there was a 2nd one. im kool like that  not really but yeah,0
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end nearafter years redflag ideation feel like soon hang myself cannot imagine surviving month august world fucking disgusting absolutely reason stay longer existence point value die make difference,1
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ok guys realise bit unpopular opinion honestly think female brutally torture male maybe isnt great dont think everyone understands darn feminists making everyone believe whaman wrong disagree know edgy,0
want lovedtoday asked boyfriend really loved went quiet im done really want loved right now know shouldnt look outside sources happiness really need loved want proven wrong people really love me unconditionally see last post youll see last night wanted die got though mainly distracted happy things like watching shows youtube videos right pain unbearable im sorry ill try make today dont worry haha,1
friend said energy deal suicidali messaged old friend probably best friend even though im theirs a month talking since everyone abandoned moved outofstate university mean literally every friend ive feeling suicidal and know spent many full nights holding loaded shotgun basement younger  hours texted really energy deal me support asking was theyre really mood deal me ampxb really know get heart involved anymore always ends mistake sometimes wonder calvinists right god created people knowing damned always suffer think im one them matter much study volunteer meditate write try kind lot cast thats that,1
advice please long post ahead hi sorry bit long desperate long track history mental health issues also physically disabled didnt explicitly tell anyone moved in use walking stick moved shared house last month careful moved chose estate felt safe living two girls similar age lots common thought would good match week things started go wrong eldest g way communicating different mine nagging using lot passiveaggressive language talking felt like talking me found getting angry im grownass adult know take bins etc friction sofa made things tense wanted sofa already special armchair didnt understand need sofa close tv spoiler boyfriend partially sighted vision great either told this lockdown hit talked seeing boyfriends everyone lives shared houses youngest m said wanted still see told same said left really spoken since know seeing also wales ive trying make peace baking social ideas get know other suggested movie night said want hang us took things shared space ive struggling since sofagate plus id already falling behind work taking sick days knew keep up paranoia awful point convinced someones tampering food scared someone watchingfollowing me didnt tell didnt knowtrust them saturday accidentally opened package ms thinking mine text say so sunday landlord came visit clean things living room beforehand overslept woke panic went downstairs massive apology g landlord home this fell asleep woke texts g nagging mail lost me apologised offered replacement said crossing line complete lack respect also berated cleaning belongings landlord texted g asking angry cleaning was many texts decided final straw thoughts impossible silence called  fast forward staying boyfriends got text g missing tupperware later sent photo bin saying i hope picture helps everybody remember led telling happened receiving massive angry texts trigger me something say call house meeting g said told moved ive mental health issues family similar issues didnt sign this chimed agreed said stop texting could call needed me kept texting me next day asked plans told owe that contacted landlord really fucking angry,1
family cant afford another visit hospital go lose best friendmy best friend gave ultimatum said go hospital get help cant friends anymore ive already hospital recently cant afford another visit want lose best friend,1
stewiebrittany no i dont even know how to ride it,0
get longdistance relationships depressed suicidalbecause going weeks spending every single hour loved one suddenly go back instant messages video chats fucks real good im suicidal fuck guilt hurting stopping anything stupid  do eat fat enough already someone put sleep weeks get it,1
anyway bother title carestheres nothing useful say recount tragic backstory here long one gives fraction fuck anyway tired ive tried failed absurd amount times perhaps quantum redflag real thingthe theory quantum mechanics supposes sort quantum immortalitythat short hold gun head know  chance killing pull trigger  not pull trigger universe split two parallel universes one die one survive continue pull trigger splits continue occur consciousness observer always follow parallel universe survive well copenhagen interpretation qmech hold true bc then wave function collapses sorry studied physics college thought id bigshot astrophysicist someone invoked murphys law life everything could conceivably go wrong indeed done so point even care got job nasa esa cern observatory anything crushed loneliness unbearable isolation meaningful deep trusting relationship fellow human would much ask loved apparently so lost cause worth effort nothing good enough never good enough die always feared alone pain unloved,1
"ohhhhh, im sooo mutha luvn beautiful.... finna chill with these lamess ",0
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loveeveryone loves other remember that were going shit alone this even though might feel  everyone loves understand,1
so i had a really really rough childhood growing up my parent were abusive to me and i lived in an area where i got into a lot of fistfight trying to make it to the next day wa the hardest battle i attempted suicide by trying to hang myself when i wa i think the attempt failed however it left me with some minor brain damage i have a very difficult time trying to remember thing and think about thing sometimes at time it feel like i can t even read english it just doesn t click with me i ll sit and stare at it for like minute at a time before i finally understand it a for the memory issue i have a difficult time recalling some thing that have happened i will completely forget about something that happened say minute ago that most people would instantaneously remember anyway so i ve been feeling extremely strange lately i moved away from my parent after i turned and now i live in a completely different state and i am doing much better but i feel like i m still there i feel the aura of my childhood house it felt heavy if that make sense something keep weighing me down i m also smelling food that aren t being cooked food that i used to eat when i wa there i smelled a very strong scent of digiornio s pizza earlier but nobody here wa cooking it i ve also been sleeping in through the day and waking up at night so this weird feeling is intensified by like 0 time everything feel so dreamlike and liminal i can t tell the difference between reality and fiction anymore why doesn t anything feel real am i wrong to distrust my eye ha anyone else felt this way it would bring me great comfort to know that i am not alone,1
kicked house two months ago maybe left it know got argument mother trying leave stepfather grabbed started hit me fought back older sister side helped him barely bruised left knew would deadly next time pretty sure choice mother yelling crazy left first tried move father talked  years except one weekend weekend went well told loved thought still child thought could go him told escape ended staying best friend next year graduate still full year taking space cannot even get job identification going hungry days want ask food know money responsibility mothers boyfriend alcoholic gets drunk yells gets violent afraid one day going remember exist going remember trans going remember homophobic know college good school get good college know fill applications information parents school told worry fafsa said anything actual college feel alone want someone talk someone cares nobody tell to best friend knows wonderful kind person comfort others want it would much simpler die matter anyone feel like lost hope becoming successful person know anymore would easier die,1
im actual paini wake every morning wishing wasnt alive another day thing anxieties friends nothing enjoy im depressed im weak actually end it keep going circles want go forest night hang im scared actually going forest night might people around ill scared im sure else do pills take im scared wont fatal make sick im loser wish someone would murder already,1
health related m lately ive feeling shortness breath  heavy breathing prominent lay straight back bed started happening days ago like since going go doc tomorrow anyone knows symptom cause,0
ocd worst fuck ocd hate whole life woukd ruin life like done absolutely done,1
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anyone else feel like dying another shitty birthdaymy birthday next month literally dreading it last year homeless shelter birthdaythere celebration year probably going same abusive ex put shelter wanted see me said no supposed say yes desperate someone met shelter wanted tell staff said trusted  which pretty good since trust issuesmonths later proved gut instincts right shelters job celebrate adults birthdaythey limited resources is nice enough give bed amp thats plenty i want another birthday hope die birthday dying sleep would best birthday present ever children waiting day feel good  happy birthday happy birthday im child anymore thought birthday causes fear day feel fear,1
fuck audio work like im somewhat ok video editing tf audio work,0
tried commit redflagthis third attempt past month brain feels like explode im going try,1
im going bed now night night dont let pedos bite love guys except,0
words bite assi  depressed last  years diagnosed  pediatric doctor last year started see therapistpsychaitrist always thought would live depression functional maybe low energy constant melancholy know functional part am work  days week apartment share boyfriend two beautiful wonderful cats whole life car pay bills without help anyone else last two three years pretty rough terrible breakup father passed away unexpectedly almost homeless different times finally got stable job last august many life issues before except fucking hate job really worst aspect life driven constant manic depressive state im miserable anything sleep go work fucking hate life nothing tried worked medicine exercise even self medicating booze weed work least long always said would never hurt kill permanent im fundamentally indecisive person ive never close before cant afford quit look something else hardly motivation energy apply something else job market hard here know else go talk to im never taken seriously sorry long post really need someone talk way vent,1
"Sleeping next to someone you love not only reduces depression, but it also helps you to live longer and makes you fall asleep faster.",1
pass time idk im really bored right,0
back in those skin crawling boredom bout that just result into depression bc like nothing is worth it anymore cheerz,1
i ve felt this way consistently for probably the last year with only brief deluded relief i hope that it s just eternal oblivion in a sense,1
girls genuinely confuse asked girl year ago sadly rejected every time give attention starts kind flirting me clearly told romance level shes sliding dms confused hell,0
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i wa fine for a year or so and then the anxiety come back worse than ever panic attack in the evening which make me feel like shit i feel so fucking bad inside of my chest and stomach and my thought don t stop rushing in the day and morning i m fine but in the evening i feel like i m losing my mind and i want everything to just be ok but how will i live with myself i m generally healthy i work out i do breathing exercise but nothing help and it fucking suck school actually calm anxiety because i have a task and i m busy but when i m home i feel so fucking lonely,1
@Lizeelou2 Welcome and thank you! ,0
want thesis worth it mum bitching believe depression dad same istg money would run away fucking hate them dad used abuse physically younger abuse verbally mum would give away info without consent mum wanted doctor groomed one still like medicine sucking life out wet dream reality suppose gave expensive gifts never understand feelings mental health wish dead want sleep want face shit simply want sleep tend anything like forever want floating thing instead human shit sucks tired shit,1
pain less methodhello i dont know even ask but anybody idea pain less redflag method guarantees  mortality rate i sadly access guns someone interested ask it lets say think life worth struggeling for,1
dad saw google history fuck man watched weird things im gonna get beaten tonight fuck,0
thoughtsfeeling pretty low late cold friday night alone brought dark thinking depressionredflag searched internet found many sites saying worth talk theres always someone cares blah blah blah old old found many threads dark times seeing many people going going truly remarkable im sure whether feel happy alone sad everyone else suffer way do i many others post imagine feel alone honestly tired told thing over theres always highs lows life recent highs lows mere  years ago everyone story i whether share keep holder deep thinking sorry wall text,1
week  done first week nofap porn super hard got it feel really good like take world love redditors,0
girl left guy used hang cant take reason end nowi understandive darkest times gave reason live suddenly im diagnosed depression put zoloft cant handle anymore ive already written note plan feb th know anymore,1
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My next step to beating this depression is deleting the sad music out my phone. I'm sorry Abel I love you to death but my heart can't take it no more <Emoji: Shushing face>,1
hi im czech republic feel like walking edge cliffbroken english allert true depresion anymore sometimes start shaking  wanna try get drunk lie snow sounds easy really trying get mood watching  anything entertaining meh keeps coming look train little bub kinda angry cuz even trying social kontakt brain probably protect depresion triggers social anxiety skeletons wardrobe whatever got better even learned act public  tried go local nerd comunity nice rich kids idea now one online friend cant go  too far etc etc fuck want someone like me  years good score staing alive alone hope find poison gonna speep today,1
someone talk toi really need someone talk to im nearing breaking point afraid of,1
approaching wallhi never made post like before entirely sure start obsessive compulsive disorder no mean wash hands constantly need make sure dishes clean compulsions entirely unique result many intrusive thoughts treatment form medications gone therapy many years help get control issues deal intrusive thoughts made significant progress mostly successful battling past  years especially intrusive thought usually distinguish others calm without needing engage rituals relief anxiety lately cant keep rituals become bad fact consuming hours day every day tried talking therapist sudden relapse rituals essentially told pass hump ive never anxiety badly life before ive even developed several new rituals must complete morning without really realizing started them thing though even seek additional help best would get therapy sessions possibly medication combat issue extremely tired that lost several jobs issues find difficult keep relationships extremely distant family understand issue refuse admit real disorder engage people work anymore cant force smile hard even pretend give shit day day basis im thinking ending things another intrusive thought time im legitimately unhappy life feel like writing essay intricate details things wrong know do im afraid dying think im less afraid alive im making plans anything right now im safe location around friend least alright reason post want something terrible know ruminating cause thoughts jump  actually legitimately scared condition talking me,1
f wishi think hate black sades mm gaming headsets microphone noise cancellation music headphones blackgreen ps new xbox one laptop tablet pc mobile phones wired headphone bgic cause wish sucks,1
really need someone talk toi dont know anymore dont feel like take,1
ex got engaged tonightto girl left for left year ago  someone prettier smarter successful someone normal fun now what get keep happy getting everything wanted lay planning death supposed me taken away me wasnt fucking good enough like always positive found future  finally something secure loving something look forward to no wrong does spare cliches moving finding someone else id rather kill myself dont want someone else havent year time hasnt healed all feel like icing cake pathetic life im laying lump throat hot tears streaming ugly face reason havent killed yet cat getting really hard keep going really dont feel like worth it leaving punch gut finding dating punch gut taking trips places dreamt going punch gut moving together punch gut this im done,1
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axon those got cancelled now everybody else is rattling my brain amp makin me cuss something terrible,0
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posting daily get gf day  would say ive posts long ive lost count havent day ,0
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omg im sooo excited!!!! well.. off to school... LAST DAY WOOHOO THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER thanks to @mileycyrus  lol,0
hello whats up ask anything im bored ,0
allieblue i have one vodka mudshake not going to be enough,0
ellievolia if oooonly we were really so lucky eh and awh definitely too early for work,0
im going kill,1
change of plan we ordered mac instead time to hit the book,0
gonna slit wrists soonwas gonna rent room brother sister wouldnt accidentally walk body forgot debit card home family thinks im work im currently beach ive drinking smoking building resolve go it gonna within next hours feel alone might call hotline though,1
less year objectively believe im going give thoughts believe going write redflag note fully committed killing go it guess close it actually even know would bother writing one even fact im still trying hard today life worth eyes everythings fucked up im tearing writing like worthless piece shit am never get anything right im huge fuck up cant life anymore becoming increasingly difficult alive day body starts shut get depressed feels like couple arteries imploded inside energy even speak literally feel like explained anyone would say im attention heck cant tell many times people told im depressed going things attention wish was face many problems worry people place mind im acting struggling alive every day right now write less year worse ever im beginning moments fully committed going ending life telling anyone tell truth fully committed weeks ago texted one person they luckily ready end it knew going best idea ive ever ending it felt peace felt long time living nightmare going end soon im still one coincidence away fully going it friend going pick ups phone working thought id get meeting behavioral health people school way way friend blows mind still empathize care others im fucked person general everythings happened top that wavered times people said im depressed attention im anything im trying hardest ever past upcoming  years th birthday passed long ago soulcrushing moment ever starting accept fact im losing much time getting worse im getting older feel left behind depression friends already transferred finishing college never knew real relationships like family like i really tried understand it really tried hardest got nd deep depression ago always felt alone id see friends family interacting happy and good relationship family anyone id remember mother would say friends like family would id remember would constantly told kid accident here meet parents expectation would like kids essentially im burden one wants around eventually translated suicidal thoughts high school bullied  classes  passing period day th grade family want around neither anyone else feel place alive taking resources others family im absolute best never surmounts anything anymore feel like ended friends longer waste time energy family financially support theyll time money pockets mainly felt recently feel hopeless cant even think write straight anymore im useless im going stop right though ive run energy going half alive bed thanks reading did,1
sad movie make me think of thing that i don t really wan na think about,0
privacy gone mom downloaded app phone used monitor  year olds know navigate internet cant anything without mom seeing it cant delete tha app without getting warning phone locked bypass app without getting alert said bypass deleted concept privacy exist,0
beautiful reflection lifes desperation misdirection finding love tragic time absurdly entertaining people give film chance ignorance mere reflection itself next time,0
casual last messageeverythings fake pain life worth rain death choice decided make end voice hope same hope still flame good bye,1
received help many appbut follow through deciding ramp redflag order build courage end it lonely sad know talk about want try anymore want die done all times seems approaching soon since becoming comfortable parting ways shitshow life glad starting let go bittersweet id say thanks wish helpfrom bottom heart wanti simply tired waiting end,1
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lots people mylife love care still feel empty alone every day wake up feel hopeless lost feel afraid trapped mind dread waking everyday wish something control would kill already hate alive miserable everyday live want live see world much offer like this feel guilty wanting die people want live cannot hope family one day understand hopefully forgive acknowledge pain going through feeling alone right,1
feel anything anymorei used love care everything got hurt much used wish could like girls feel anything wish finally came true regret making wish feel anything everything feel somethingcutting smoking sex cannot feel anything anymorei numb cannot cry anymore feel emotionsi wake up work drinki wish could go back back could least feel something numb,1
wants start femboy empire basically conquer bunch territories everyone territories become femboys prosecuted brainwashed becoming femboy moral reasons joke,0
i miss being at home for calving season sad that black one died this morning wish i had some bottle calf,0
tired want courageall want courage ti ended im scared side nothing mostly,1
people cut selfharmwhat use body part treat wound hide it often it feel better regretful afterwards worth it lot questions mind wanna know others feel it,1
theekween it help with anxiety and depression thelmasherbs,1
going tonighti tired find motivation try anymore dont know going try im sorry friends family love guys didnt anything make this isnt fault,1
rejected job interview theres nothing left mei currently work fast food fucking  years old tried college im even halfway useless associates degree never girlfriend friends since middle school drivers license completely terrified drive anything simple lane roads dirt roads debilitating social anxiety prevents even grabbing foodsnacks convenience stores eat whatevers home cant communicate fucking cashier tried one last time apply entrylevel position field thought decent at got rejection email yesterday severe social anxiety ive always struggled school life general im sure fucking interview reason that sad part parents would let leech basement till im  cant though cannot stand burden longer watching younger siblings achieve great things ive never close ending never thought id type person need type guidance parents never gave me want normal functioning adult cant end road me,1
hate im actually considering iti want yknow know future theres nothing im tired feeling like this im trying hard tell anyone show think im finally getting confidence it almost energy even move recently second get enough energy im done,1
Depression came back,1
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looks like depression wins one yall peace outbyeeeeeee,1
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know someday happentoday christmas wonderful day friends family looked mirror broke tears know someday matter fate hate am personality annoying hardly friends body  chubby good way family fuckin help plewse me family fucking abusive dad raped years mom beat and sane cptsd hate alive lesbian lonely,1
might well give shotim freshman high school boys ive got depression anxiety occasional suicidal thoughts time feel empty husk former self im talking counselor that rarely ill feel motivated ill everyday things pride gusto know hat ill come high cut drink smoke drugs that want avoid cutting means necessary im also huge procrastinator hate give emotions validity so feel like im making excuse know im young often sell short mental illnesses feel problems real depression editgrammar,1
girlfriend serious suicidal thoughts sorry wrong place advice someone doesnt suicidal thoughtsim m gf  suicidal thoughts past year started dating year havent known long since moved district ive asked couple friends theyve said shes selfharmed twice thoughts second grade havent able sleep th past couple nights friends tried convincing committing wont solve problems serious depression dating guy dumped five days later th school slt broke her according friend cried days extremely quiet class eventually got started develop love someone else never liked back even paid attention her top this living grandparents parents constantly arguing mentioned divorce hard since sings dances plays instrument eventually moved th district th beginning th school year started talk lot since classes together eventually got bit crush her friend subtly told likes well screaming th hallways says made happier since im th one person genuinely loves her couple days ago mother found us dating told break me eventually told wont th stress broke even left two days k imma go kms now came back said mom stopped went therapist never got update went friends running ideas ive decided turn reddit please help me,1
hello i feel terrible i don t know where to start i feel very bad very anxious my stomach is a ball of nerve i feel so bad mentally that i feel sick physically everything is a challenge for me i live in a foreign country and i signed for a language class that started somehow not from the beginning and this literally felt so bad i really don t know how to explain how i feel and why i feel like this everything new scare me my mother died two year ago i can t sleep well my heart literally hurt from all the anxiety i have i don t know what to do with my life i m in a really bad place i don t have a job right now i m signed to an agency that sends me to different warehouse and i m booked now for month i don t have any special education i figured i should study something to make my life better i m year old the job i m doing right now is the reason i feel so terrible my anxiety come and go i feel it triggered my anxiety because it s in a new warehouse with new people and it s something i ve never done before my bos didn t tell me where i m going to do this job she literally told me the night before that i have to go to a new place from tomorrow she didn t explain absolutely anything for the job she just left u there without information and resource and i feel that s why my anxiety came back with full strength i wa hoping that even something bad is going to happen to me so i won t have to go to work something like a car crash something bad but not too bad my bos told me we could call her and ask her about the job but she didn t pick up her phone when we tried calling her she told u she may hire u after we do this job i think this add to the pressure the thing is i think most people would see this a an opportunity but it s a nightmare for me my husband and i are doing this job and he s not understanding or willing to help me i tell him how i feel but he s like you ll get better i don t think i ll get better i have this anxiety for so long now it come and go it s not getting better i don t know what to do with my life i think anyone in my circumstance would actually feel good and here s me feeling anxious desperate and just horrible i don t wan na stay in this country i wan na go somewhere else but i don t think that s going to solve my problem a my problem is not the place it s me,1
always happen even know expect happen even bother talk fck hate people open start diagnosing,1
quai des orfevres takes long getting going clouzot enamored backstage milieu almost danger forgetting story however does clouzot best bertrand blier father bertrand blier costar buffet froid worldworn pianist married beneath plans kill seedy studio mogul designs wife find someone beaten it that carefully planned clumsily executed alibi falls pieces least thief steals car murder scenebr br the film really kicks life arrival luis jouvets police inspector rather wonderful creation half alistair sim green danger half worldweary maigret better dialog neat running gag investigation constantly conducted top voice chaos noise whether noisy typewriters police station loud rehearsal police station wonderfully realistic creation wealth chaotic telling small details makes steve bocchcos revolutionary s us cop shows look like antiquated museum pieces comparison br br if suzy delair rather unconvincing femme fatale supporting cast compensate beautiful simone renant standout lesbian photographer love afar constantly mistaken bliers lover delair interested parties only jouvet similarly unlucky women understands genuinely sympathises great black white photography armand thirard terrific little thriller nice twist ending lovely scene cab driver reluctantly identifying renant police station trivia note pierre larquey played playfully philosophical dr vorzet le corbeau turns smaller roles cabdriver quai les espionsbr br the criterion dvd quite superb  great picture quality plus illuminating extract french tv show featuring interviews clouzot blier renant,0
seeking advicehow possible live emotional pain normal people unimaginable happened you possible keep living commit redflag something money time would heal thank you hope great day,1
psychiatrist forgot second appointment row redflag attempt accused wife making allegations said appointments phone literally forgot twice blames me proceedwhat say text call logs missed time expectations double booked first time extremely obvious upset waiting room cut appoint  minutes would listen new medical information had refused give number psychologist told would in hurry told text him never responded texted important is literally asked email text previous text called none information ready calling  minutes late ask allegations wife making saying about wanting work you take walked away phone uncontrollable crying actions went straight professional mode trying ensure responsible anything suggestions fault essentially feeling trying ensure could refuse assistance make sure considering legal recourse closed call wife suggestion that longer work him  days call get assistance anytime needed previously actually demanded text certain times completely forgot never replied voicemail full give email address answer phone call  oclock morning panic phone calls pm  hi doctor want give additional pertinent information ensure forgotten appointment calls texts ive tried ill try someone else hurts much one even people pay listen never even acknowledged said additional medical information him sarcastically asking me what take tests last night mention previous appointment had gone effort get medical professionals digital form make easier him claimed state whenever patient doctor relationships end documentation why stated would unwilling work him readily apparent appointment turned phone call benefit person concern himself even expense feelings health sorry make sense ive gotten  hours sleep last  hours literally tested got literally zero rem sleep study entire night going months im seeing shadow people shaking uncontrollably vomiting dizzy super dizzy know do ive worked lot doctors successfully past im new game insultingly unabashed desire place blame session anymore stay call dropped phone crying sobbing took continuing telling wife responsible feeling litigation something considering medical leave work new psychiatrist give note clear return started leave want situation feel well enough reach back out get needed note attacked knows without additional note let go job allowed return concerned this ive already started reaching doctors saw genuine lack concern health well being ive got direction medical needs world right now set hopes relief back several months need new cpap priority moment understand this could resolved covid happened im tired very tired,1
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stephendon i just cant commit the time though my play time isnt the same a everyone el,0
posted something along line reply another post idea would like share helped alot acceptance meaninglessness people go finding meaning finding meaning godgods meaning says devote entire lives one thing one purpose personally think one personally think god afterlife omnipotent says live certain way certain thing gain favor think means live lives anyway want to so get point life completely meaningless left live personal gratification spend  year long lifespan makes us happiest now finding makes happy journey do justgo it all got ball dust water acceptance meaninglessness,1
wake feeling sickly morning constant feeling emotional breakdown go hide bedroom minutes cry cannot cry feel emotionally constipated children around want see crying know going me honestly never felt like before distract feel heartbeat increase scared panic attack bath night though heart attach drowned children find next morning could relax got out thoughts time sometimes thoughts children murdered assaulted soon fall sleep oh sleep able sleep long time feel soo alone today cannot call family friends even say them explain understand really hurting today hurting,1
hi lti brain damage makes want die used really good writer went school it got close published couple times horrible combination alcoholism anorexia concussions really fucked up mri year ago told brain much away skull supposed age meaning shrinkingwhich p typical ppl eating disorders substance abuse problems happened quickly casei fact auditory even visual hallucinations occasionally chalked the fear call lolanyway quit drinking alone coldturkey lmaoi recommend xd eating pretty normally year last concussion still cannot focus well enough read write much anything every time try now ends crying cannot thinki trying fill hole passion writing used go volunteer work stuff even quit job went back school pursuit whole new career change fact feel completely useless comes one thing care just myself care peoplei know sounds stupid feel like burnt already even thirty afraid going get worse get older already totally incapable remembering parked car without writing lmfao cannot get anywhere without gps even though lived city years next going start forgetting peoplei know scared make doctors appointment think would rather die go senile time forty lmfao all know want fucking brain back basically one thing body regenerate lol never same think ever really able write again pretty sure even post probably makes sensei going kill right now anything found really hard lately motivate back swing things feel like know feel like former reason living gonei guess live life physical way now extra set hands organization cook exercise cannot person anymore deeply deeply upsets meif courage would kill right feel like anymore anyway all ,1
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waiting for the boy to come over and give out massive hugs!  &lt;3 ,0
suicidioestoy harta de mi vida solo quiero saber la forma de dejar de existir pero de la forma menos dolorosa,1
actually insane absolutely unproductive ive become like cant even get mobile minutes im constantly distracted anything everything tbh really take much distract,0
like title says past predicts future say drunk totally honest past problems going future problems family dysfunctional ability keep friends make friends always leave did dissociative identity disorder due childhood trauma think leave left alone another boyfriend children i  want live anymore cannot get married children friends point alone like now think right end life early feel like it feel like thinking logically past predicts future right,1
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@JayneeLu Good one I will have my hubby bring me an iced apple chai tea! TY Jaynee ,0
dont know start conversation via text crush known  years normal friends really want start talking outside school dont know text without thinking fuck texting me advice,0
@candicotton nevr flown directly from there about 12 to 16 hours usually I fly from ny!!! Awww u shud defoo visit london u gon love it ,0
im done first university semester got questions didnt even fail class way go me yeah ya questions,0
mom good emotional support dad sensitive touchyfeely whereas take something face value pick subtleties think somewhat loveless marriage dad turned emotional outlet point early teens would spend hours talking lessons morality suffering hands insensitiveclueless mom love things romantic sensual mixed here kind pervy behavior,1
Good morning my twitter friends... Time for work again after a long vacation... ,0
anyone elses parents ruin halloween plans loving life right sucks anyways literally havent hung anyone months last time remember january may hung someone february march honestly cant remember like literally dont see anyone friends would think would happy wanting go friend finally wont let go halloween wanted something fun year fun shit like fucking whatever guess right,0
tonighttonight nothing went wrong actually things going better ever sit feeling like something going burst inside want stop anyone wants talk maybe tell shouldnt add snapchat  rvassel fyi im gay live sydney im ,1
average rteenagers user date like hey girl wanna play number game oh never mind ill ask you   u mean whats height also prefer guys circumcised ,0
a little over a month ago i wa over at a friend s house and got to drinking pretty heavily over the night that i spent a his place every so often he would take the bottle away from me and temporarily and hide because he had the impression that i downing a full bottle of liquor at a dangerously fast pace for whatever neurotic reason the idea became supplanted in my head that he wa trying to intentionally hide it away from me so he could spike the bottle with a finely powdered lead in order to cause me to ingest large amount of a neurotoxic chemical to produce measurable brain damage surely this isn t likely whatsoever right it s all i ve been able to ob and ruminate over for well over a month now i could elaborate on a million different pattern and detail and inform you of the interpersonal context between the both of u but then i feel like i d be trying to create and extract a specific response out of people these are the bare bone and objective happening of the night in mention i ve even seen a doctor about trying to get tested for possible acute lead exposure and hinted towards psychological deterioration on a quantifiable level my intuition tell me that my saboteur had successfully managed to reduce my iq by several point and inflict a speech impediment issue which involves a portmanteau synthesis between word in my inner dialogue the way that it wa explained to me from a team of professional who discussed my case wa that because i m an adult it s much harder for a single instance of lead exposure ingestion to be absorbed or produce any perceptible effect or cross the blood brain barrier due to a lack of iron deficiency and binding capacity to red blood cell ergo a test would not be necessary or productive in my case however i can t shake the idea out of my mind i can t dissolve it or even compartmentalize it a i navigate through the day it s escalated to the point where it s infected every part of my conscious thinking and convinced me that i m no longer capable of achieving any of the goal i ve set for myself with my newfound profound disability that are only noticeable to me surely this is something so asinine so comically absurd that the idea should be laughed at the point of it conception why can t i disentangle the idea from my head it s put me into a state of complete inaction i m too paranoid to engage in any socially or mentally stimulating activity because i m terrified that the sting of observing my cognitive deficit in real time will manifest and i won t be able to articulate myself to anyone or anything for the rest of my life and the stuttering habit i never had that issue before never have i ever possessed an affinity for transposing syllable or stating sentence in incorreclty disjointed sequence i used to write quite frequently before this and conversely i feel an all consuming negation of my emotional affectivity and spontaneity my thought aren t being organically generated and i feel a if i have to strain to think of anything lucid or insightful is it natural to feel like your thought have been utterly attenuated and obliterated with anxiety is it normal to feel a if time is accelerating itself faster than your consciousness can adapt to it progression is it natural to feel former part of your identity and desire to become increasingly disfigured obscured and foreign to yourself the aforementioned friend that i spoke of no longer talk to me a we had a falling out with one another over a relationship that wa rife with gaslighting think of the breadcrumbing tactic some narcissist employ maybe that spurred the main causal effect for why i m patternizing my memory in the way that i am but pouring granulated lead into my liquor without me noticing or it producing any physiological effect that s laughable right,1
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dellemmai want kill right now anything world got future suffering get worse out obstacles though die whoever finds scarred life really want happen know anyone would really miss me close people  person would truly miss mom motherly love world would better without though even missed also might cause problems myself brain damage vegetablization though preferred method hanging minimizes risk stay living risk hurt people death increases grow everyone kill myself missed all honestly wish never existed to be well answer anyway be suffer cause anyone else suffer exist joy suffering ratio would go world wish could martyr would really something least killed accidentally instead myself would lot better theres also fact got balls let die want die anything want dead cant it,1
time blow whistle ive enough mods rteenagers pedophiles ive tracking various cat fishing accounts majority harassing accounts sending inappropriate pictures im going banned post dont want know truth please careful around mods sub,0
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feel like ive met almost  people browse new keep running other fuckin losers,0
im tears ive bad mood swings lately self riotous realised drive practice today dad argument said bad things thought relationship gonna go shit sat talked said me ive place lately im sorry dad i forgive you held hand bit hugged cried cried forgave me im thankful family ive blessed bless you thank taking time read this love sub long teen,0
sometimes people become apathetic because of depression or trauma other time people turn to apathy after repeatedly being disenfranchised –,1
please help me feel like strong long cant take anymorei hope someone advice right feel like world caving me even know begin feel like even here complaining see many people subreddit worse mebut really need someone listen one listens anymore talkalways talking lovely fiancee moved australia for currently waiting finalize immigration time unable work study even volunteer work banned right waste space speak income own spend days computer dicking around waiting time passes ive signed gym go every moment available fiance drop its far walk spend day around house friends friends australia longer speak to due huge timezones going separate ways life fiances friends know well enough tried hard get know them one antisocial angry time one gone breakup feels like world ending others live far away one town get know live retirement community nothing here theres gas station tim hortons stores voila feel like life right now shit lot people told stupid travelling young age regretted moving canada fiance one bit love death  know sounds cliche given age  really happy him except every day comes home feel like life waste space bored frustrated australia honour roll student high achiever live learning bettering myself ive tried hard put spare time use tried learn programming another language art etc right feel unmotivated thought might wasting away another year bothers end family aside fiance mother schizophrenic paranoid abusive mentally physically left lot scars again mental physical haunts dreams every night even though im another country still jump every often acidentally spill something swear stub toe scared behind ready beat againor worse combined fanciful events childhood keeps sleeping well night period know need see counsellor thisi know need someone talk to right healthcare money pay this never let things bother me ever always always try look bright side everything hitting hard lately get wisdom teeth  theyre infected badly  fiance going use savings pay it know bothers not know communicate listen fault  good man rough time friendships relationships hes trying change desperately me hes also extremely stressed moment  works every day also goes college eight hours day time comes home wants relax cant even due school work want bother problems  need help reddit ive tried stay positive entire life  theres lot backstory summarizes stuff bothers moment feel lonely bored upset everything sort hitting onceand feel stupid even complaining this tldr cant work study anything living another country till government says so feel like waste space first time life everything bad happened getting me,1
father told didnt balls kill myselflast year diagnosed bipolar got committed mental institutions various times suicidal ideation  attempt october flew tijuana bought phenobarbital flew mexico city always one favorite cities wanted see one last time died miserable raining didnt get spark first visited finally wrote letter aunt father turned phone scared drinking phenobarbital put aside went sleep woken mexican police around am im quite sure found me know dad called police san francisco maybe coordinated embassy airbnb dont really know family buy ticket escorted way onto plane able go meds good since yesterday dad confronted  gone missing he hides money place think forgot things get pretty heated tells didnt even balls kill myself one hurt time ill prove wrong,1
think past self everyday hurts go feel like person used,1
wanna talk bojack horseman finally decided watch bojack horseman youtube videos praising depiction mental health issues really good finished idk life anyone else watched it also would u recommend others,0
momat night dreams see alive well ask been happenedi never receive answer need again im sure ill see kill want someone kill me need peace,1
come every weeki come post every week four months keep thinking finally place someone help feel like living something every week write something stupid want advice someone show something stop feeling worthless depressed reason im even bothering husband hate seeing him hes reason im still here feel like im burdening here sad worries makes feel guilty,1
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can t seem to get over the dissapointment of haveing absolutly no one notice i am gone sad i must not be boring i must not be boring,0
option left think reason continue living wish someone knew way redflagi live central europe im  finishing masters psychology useless experience takes  years complete it wanted counselorschool psychologist working diagnostics obviously never going happen job experience never job parents care enough teach anything never pushed contributed depression got bachelor program focused studies always depressed energy anything else commuted long hours every day get job week last three summer breaks tried get internships even retail job always denied became seriously depressed want visit psychiatrist degree would useless cart soon graduate hopefully never job useless degree experience friends contacts uni help options like us ways volunteering theres that think option redflag ever hired even  hours  shift factory job risk work history logical way end ones life pathetic incompetent inexperienced person know irl starting believe need prepare end get myself chance failed fronts must face end accept homeless want be wanted vent honeslty know write again guess possible plan life end up like anyone care,1
afraid paini know killing ill cause pain others care anymore,1
tryna flirt so um aha ha like frogs,0
something one seems taking about one ever brings campc soundtracks talking video games always say doom doom maybe even doom,0
Running errands then working out ,0
 told crush like likes back want date him tbh regret telling cus could gotten know likes back ill feel bad get him want crush cus feel like distracts lot studies emotionally mentally mature enough relationship feel like shitty person like horrible indecisive insecure whenever alone late night struggle fall asleep keep thinking failures rlly scared ill disappoint parents unsuccessful feel rlly lonely whenever frds want kill self die feel rlly empty inside like purpose life wish could disappear without loved ones sad tho kind want something rlly tragic happen ill excuse die know something rlly bad happen ill actually want thought constantly having know bad others way worst feel horrible complaining feeling way grateful have sometimes wish privilege given someone else since deserve it feel rlly empty,1
doctor said cannot increase propranolol dose panic attacks wants try citalopram redflag depression taken prozac before made feel robotic sertraline caused severe suicidal ideation decided stop taking it extremely suicidal right attempted several times past months worried citalopram going make even worse taken past currently taking it kind side effects experience beginning doctor wants try citalopram celexa,1
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"@maddiewelborn Do you feel any, like, postpartum depression?",1
anyone nervous post something talk someone talk im open vent much want things hard us people need someone talk thats normal pms open hmu,0
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well two days  weather nice snowing windy back regularly scheduled seasonal depression guess,0
want die pls come firstive planning redflag while time break plan changes little today crying eyes filled application get permit buy gun ive thought method messy past today reached new level self hatred sounded pretty fitting feel like wired right everything hurts life good loving parents good supportive friends great sister whos shinning role model often end day tears people say stop sount blessings supposed help makes mad myself good still want die wrong me filling application gun cried decided call redflag prevention hotline half assed conversation antidepressants held back tears cant blame guy nervous didnt know say asked them felt like talking walmart customer service something though didnt help felt even worse  year old man crying another grown man asking drugs felt stupid ended conversation im sorry wasting time thank you goodbye hung chance say anything else cried bit longer felt stupid went online looked redflag chatrooms something anything talk someone phone went bunch articles depression redflag found one got bit talked suicidal thoughts moment pain begins weigh methods coping pain dont know im methodicalshow facts type guy way looking struck way things hadnt stopped crying kept scrolling eventually got comments section article found bunch people saying much wanted die bad felt always feel like im taken seriously situation pretty good voiced feel people past ive dismissed told get people worse me understand world harsh kick feel like dying everything ok somethings right head maybe somethings right life seeing people talk really made feel better cliche may sound felt like wasnt alone didnt feel defective people understand im feeling coupled perspective article really made feel like change something may life right feel like get it im gonna preach strength human spirit anything like really believe us dont tools right now want use reddit talk relate maybe share tips potent help ive found stories want use partially partially me think make together feel fucking corny,1
suicidal thoughts getting worseif see post account im  years old social life friends rely on family fantastic reason im still them everyday getting harder know tomorrow ill stuck unhappy routine again thought college answer im bunch people much older im seeing therapist depression working felt shit life know fuck wrong me applying volunteering work kill id like least something useful go want somebody call friend much ask,1
driven redflagi think partners negativity driving redflag started months ago depression past two weeks reaching help get supportive remarks followed negative conversation example happened today asking last week could help get bed mornings im up wanted make sure wasnt laying left work could get daughter school asked didnt said shouldnt mothering you far worse said past weeks thats started episode said daughter living around needs im school last week trying open talk struggles jokingly said maybe kill already laughed isnt dramatic sounds since said cant get head offers support never gives it im quickly going hill dont eat drink water sleep maybe  hours night havent seen friends months grades going down interest around daughter anymore feel like burden someone help,1
i m really close to my family and my parent are the most important people in my life which make me so scared for the day that one of them dy and our life change this is my biggest fear and the worst thing is that it will actually happen some day this fear of losing the most important people in my life ha also affected my love life a in i m scared to get into a serious relationship or to think about a future with someone i really love kid but i don t think i would be able to handle all the pain if something wa to happen to them all of this make me think that maybe this really is a hell on earth did i do something bad in my previous life that now i m in hell of my own thought i wonder if there are others with these worry and making you scared to love people say that grief is the price you pay for love but i don t think i can mentally handle that and sorry if i made some grammar error english is my second language,1
doim sure anymore im  find life pointless meaningless feel like im burden everyone around me parents wasting money me feel depressed hopeless cry cant fall asleep hours tend think killing often im afraid impact parents think stuff tend eat less point barely eat anything days find life hard cant seem find motivation keep living im afraid talk people problem even hard time posting this dont know life anymore,1
sad everything work life going fine personal life wreck one ever takes seriously funny friend want talk anyone anymore want die sometimes please help me never feeling entire life sad,1
bother hi reddit im lurker great digg migration im   days every day comes closer seems remind life pointless high school attempting college even pointless money go school become pharmacist which hell even want do actually think getting ahead myself think start family father christian forceful nonbeliever abusive anything alcoholic mom brother taunting shit father encourages it all hate family think originally caused depression use forced take mothers bottles street found drunk loved vodka school smart high school slacked continue slack  time graduated sure got accepted oregon state money friends nerds gamers throughout highschool friends think thing keeping together high school never knew issues home because well want know embarrassing really helped hold together dungeons dragons sure bring hate love game think thing really care anymore eight hours away friends i moved three days graduating longer able play looked locally people play meet groups made friends work experience one wants hire family continues remind this makes feel even lower relations gender basically one fling past farthest ever got first base once pretty sure lesbian least bisexual now so really wish could kill myself lack ability go it yeah coward know kill myself would know would come next emptiness nonexistence think scares even depression tldr hate life lack courage kill myself life hates back,1
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"//Be back in a while,,,? Got hit by a bus of depression",1
Um bitch...depression hit me like a truck today,1
friend mine redflag attempt fear might try againseveral weeks ago buddy mine attempted redflag overdosing pills alcohol super close friends figured id reach reddit suggestionsthoughtsgeneral commentsetc basically boiled relationship father dad pretty much put friends brothers pedestal really giving fuck him living with friends quite long time fear still verge possibly another redflag attempt first attempt taken clinic week two still seem like much change friends selfworth in view speak now job cant afford live friends anymore seems like option would go back live dad but course probably good idea roommates said done help out cant support anymore something buddies get right track steer away thoughts thinking possibly getting guys friends people care one place kind intervention perhaps would sort single make feel even worse thoughts,1
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catching up on the &quot;Harry Potter&quot; movies.. thank you Robertson Family---now I want to read the books ,0
duskyazure least u got lie in i ve bn up way long mr woke up at am this morning amp dragd me out of slumberlnd the same time,0
decided kill tomorrowi tried tell mother left live got screamed life worse mine got support made decision easy guess well good look rest you,1
brought sick world lost everything worked became schizophrenicat age six abused age  propositioned sex age asked take top off  man  interested makes pedophile  sex man  wrong feel suicidal it taken advantage teen years  sexually assaulted photographer assault multiple times completely ruined life beautiful modelling work never wanted model again  fell love man five years older never experienced anything like it madly love taught much smoked weed together already sick young age borderline personality disorders weed made think made think world live sick twisted world everyone sick evil know experiences shaped beliefs world truly believe run evil live hell planet one day happened me smoking weed started hearing voice told smoke weed watch smoke chamber thought kind spiritual awakening third eye opened able access spiritual world still believe day world think could world much beautiful imagine started believe god voices guiding become spiritually enlightened told kind things took journey told look documentary called war dance never heard children uganda forced murder parents everything voice said voices tell one not told do told get slutty underwear put told one represented sex slave throw river told revealed like think thought good person lot ways told like like homeless told look stars saw southern cross spot one day came back boyfriends place always weed told smoke weed told clean place absolute pig sty taken away hospital pinned  men screaming begging drug me need drugs spiritual awakening needed see voices teacher plant weed through weed experiences teaching kind planet really living full sickness place mess cleaned hours boyfriend always working never took care home like did voices helping waking mind like ayahausca does one day voices told open gates let husky lead voices talked freedom husky belonged universe me told follow streets told say come came back me came back thankful voices told let go teaching train her im dog trainer trade already well trained loved dearly husky come couple owned training her would walk three times week would take australian bush let run lead hours walked ran hours free nature like be like animals deserve be would follow everywhere would drop home one night sitting garage boyfriend live small garage boyfriend build bed ceiling space intelligent harley door escaped owners house come find spent hour returning home week got call owners said want harley sits gate howls night you took became dog socialsed puppy made little dog training side kick went everywhere together even stopped seeing friends boyfriend dog became life helped train dogs came dog walks me angel angel work helping people helping me setting animals free giving better life loved like loved them set harley free like voices told got upset voices started telling walk city barefoot prove love love like spiritual girl somebody called pound crying floor want go city barefoot came took dog away took hospital signs spiritual trip like numbers voices led house number  telling  partner equal beautiful  get high naturally oral sex used time make mind run wild hyper priming went brain getting oral sex incredible cant think another sign atm anyway took dog away put pound said going kill killed cat hospital prayed days hours hours knees praying god voices told dad manage get sent large property northern territory pest control dog dangerous dog laws northern territory god answered prayers saved dad hearing voices boyfriend ignoring me started got back visiting mum uk lonely person dog boyfriend much story cant tell yet thought writing book im still dealing everything happened me alone hospital pound trying kill dog boyfriend loved deeply would die ignoring thought sick cope plus set harley free blamed losing really really upset everything loved deeply called much nurses called stalkerish know true love like do slaves money slaves planet like boyfriend slave life away support us never got see love life one lifetime get planet ill work fulltime living garage needed money unless became completely grid like planned doing fell apart lost dog job locked away sanity injected drugs will drugs give bad soul brain made feel incredibly ill stiff shower properly move talk properly never made voice go away plant speaking god whatever speaking amount drugs made go away ran away england lost everything sad sad ran england got flight assesment done said ok travel month hospital voices stopped said could fly england ran away drugs doctor said injection year got england mum nan grandad made go doctors made take medication nothing make sick doctor said far medicated took injections still thinks im talking pills im told anyone block dopamine receptors brain make brain produce receptors compensate reactive dopamine system think causes schizophrenia first place drugs cause even reactive dopamine system drugs reduce grey matter brain cause parkinsons like symptoms heard voice month except one hour one night terrible nightmares nightmares hole stomach insides falling it looking heart pounding ground body made dead fish strange ive never dream like think dreams spiritual things trying tell us something thoughts throwing cliffs live see ever happy again lost two loves life never see angel dog again spirit animal cant deal that would probably better boyfriend left came england reason left going drug year boyfriend broke me im miserable think world sick evil keep suicidal thoughts good reason cant take drugs pretend feel way completely valid way feel want die part part im sad im hurting bad heart aches stomach aches head hurts cry stay strong pretend cope sometimes think throwing cliff much better would be anyone help friends except nans dogs best friend australia missed couple things happened me hearing voices told run boyfriends parents house naked godly ornaments house voices told god really truly spiritual people ran house drive way told dance street like danced strip club told thought beautiful dance naked street another time followed boyfriend work train voices told lots things filled hour city kept telling go home kept following listening every little instruction game word word went city went inside building broke work called name ignored call left went back train station voices told jump front train listen told tell told voices jump front train two people started following called police taken hospital trauma wrote post dreamt tunnel behind man scooter get past started suffocate fumes end got tunnel could breathe kind sign either advice ornot instagram httpswwwinstagramcomammiereynolds,1
tiredim new writing sub new mental health  started suffering mental health  years ago lost friend cancer took year work used benefits pay could take time hopefully needed realign thinking  daughters wife mortgage etc never got better got worse time off trying new pills going therapy stuff help feel think found little works started cutting could focus something redflag feeling like crap every single day worked little while today friday th brought bosses office put unpaid leave mental health good enough excuse miss time feel bad get shit filled specialist  days get fired mental health excuse work title suggests tired tired feeling like shit time feeling like poor father bad husband terrible worker think going go garage take bunch pills hang good measure get job done looking anything specific anything all throwing like lot others feel still sad live world mental health taboo still places rather look away help,1
gravity falls g forgot good gravity falls watched kid thought good finished rewatching omg soooo much better remember top  characters dipper stanly stanford soos mabel,0
im lowest low ive many times really strength anymorethis lot apologize advance strength move on many people angry me unjust fixable anymore sexually abused couple times family cant go parents reason cant even write here now rejected held onto leash two months even like start final straw gave much cared much way deluded really thing kept sane motivated im gay ive trying get boyfriend really long time im currently  came started dating  ive rejected many times rejection part dating understand heartbreak heal overtime strength anymore ive many times people tell aboveaverage handsome really nice caring never ever received anything good it ampxb home nothing antidepressants seem work want die really really do wake feel clear good  seconds back physical pain again hurts alive im screaming home fall asleep floor eaten  days even find anything undertake anything anymore tried happy really did started writing book drawpaint lot make music get anything anymore im done need miracle see breathing  days ampxb amazing friend love much probably keeping point cant anymore im alone alone nothing want help want talk friends anymore ive much point say im like baby take care of psychiatrist  times life cant afford go again cant go back there ampxb ampxb,1
i wan na write but i m not cool enough to make up a storylineee,0
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mraow i feel like dancing but first art school want to rape me some more,0
help mei dont know whats wrong getting worse last night hotel room crying feel like failure losing good job had mean end wake today feel amazing feel like future good know later ill bad mindset again like light switch im middle aged working guy idea happening me,1
princedavey aww no invite lol jk coolness for the day off,0
oh heres something funny happened couple days ago school changing classes from nd block rd block hallway smelt bad like really bad smelled like shit know couldve caused quite bothersome next day girl class said brother bought liquid shit internet put vents something,0
dead set downing mg xanax fifth makers marki know irrational thoughts want love life hit biggest walls one fucking wants life someone please talk,1
i dont understand i didnt mean to break anyones heart,0
anyone know posible call redflag hotline another countryi thinking time best mental wiew world old memory came forh wouldt like apologize first bad english poor use words bad use periodes commas like blame  year old boy denmark legally call country redflag hotlines morally acceptable would try make mutually understanding despide politicks asking becouse really wants know ever need call could availablility talk try talk someone concern go old super supressed memory sorry cant write yet,1
if i had to describe depression in a weather format this day would be a perfect fit #imsoaked #ugh,1
Gonna watch the MTV Movie Awards ,0
know mini adrenaline rush see crush first time day god miss that say want coronavirus extending quarentine live keeping schools closed year fucking stupid decision ever miss happy,0
people think dating anyone younger wrong mean im  im supposed find someone exact age wrong  year difference,0
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"If i had a passed life, it would be a queen or princess or something. Sometimes i wake up at nights and say damn it wheres my servant   ha",0
I should be asleep; its 4 AM ,0
hey guess what my pills lower my sex drive so much and i hate it and i want to stop taking them but i can't because my depression is still up and kicking sigh someone make me horny pls it takes so much energy,1
fuck people keep posting super obsessed femboys theyre fetishes like keep shit about one wants hear feeder porndont look dont know is fucked its guys get making girls fat like femboys really dont give shit,0
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changed mind  ending todayive posted like anyone remembers saying suicidal going kill yet things changed im later today ive enough worthless burdening others im done really want kill myself really alternative point bother telling talk someone  emergency numbers helplines people worth saving,1
@Desireeeeee really me to.! ,0
i know i m just a burden to everyone around me i hate myself people have told me i m mean after i m really fucking trying to be a good person every partner i ve had i ve hurt at least once the worst part is that i am not doing this consciously i m just naturally an asshole i thought i needed therapy i have it i thought i needed a new job i have it maybe pill done then i wa convinced it wa smoking too much weed so i ve quit for a month now started exercising eating better i have my own house and cat and literally nothing help it only make it worse because i have le and le of an excuse to be a burden to those around me if i kill myself i can leave everyone all my possession and spare them the pain and burden i d cause them in the future i have a plan so no one will have to see my body but the cop and literally everyone would be better off why the fuck should i not do it,1
"@Alibaba_OTU LOLOLOL your mom has good theories XDDD. I hope you can manage/overcome your depression! We don't have much privilege to let depression consumes us, but work it slowly at your own pace :D",1
uneventful short storytime idk call lmao quite meme whatever im engineering class right teacher she southern accent talking one person students said something like i called dean half listening heard im paula deen immediately thought butter butter butter vine burst laughing thank god im mute,0
"@DivaWonderGirl I think I'm going to delete my twitter cuz I don't really like twittering.. lol. and yea, I'm going home alone tonight ",0
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pm wednesday december th i gonna wait th month it cant deal anymore ive tried everything could get help yet working attempt work guess ill wait next time,1
cant deal life anymorei alone afraid sleep well all quiet home loud driving nuts wish someone right fucking cant take anymore shit isolated abandoned adoptive family care money success im fucking edge hanging end misery nothing offer anyone would seem fuck fucking life want die middle night give shit,1
im going try kill hourdone life,1
feeling probably suicidal ever felt need someone talk anyone talk right now,1
im gonna say care knows like soggy french fries said cant hide truth longer,0
first probably last post redditi going make post morning allowed day mull over depression reached zenith sorts drove around couple weeks ago looking adequate tree hang disastrous appointment new psychiatrist  minutes chit chat threatened involuntarily admitted way go doc triggered one worst panic attacks id ever had threatened call sheriff walked out drove around entire day backroads pacific northwest woods found single tree adequate lateral branches all conifers wheres good elm sycamore need one hiv case worker coming pick tomorrow cant seem make see therapist own cant tell pointless go therapist ill passed away end weekend talking therapist also fruitless since ive learned lesson experience psychiatrist  trust one inner thoughts people freak fck out redflag prevention efforts boil blood denies dignity death second thought given euthanize pet yet comes humans force life upon without consideration quality inflicted life hiv childhood trauma induced ptsd major depressive disorder point may even aids since stopped taking hiv meds couple months ago stopped meds people hivaids higher chance cancer compromised immunity least dying cancer people would resign idea impending death could meaningful heartfelt goodbyes friends family instead im denied dignity death keep intentions secret lest friends family stage sort redflag prevention intervention far seldom used logging road ill able rest car painlessly poison carbon monoxide vw golf ill able place small hibachi barbeque hatchback area natural real charcoal not briquettes provide source co  bottles wine though rarely drink one certainly adequate several types antianxiety medications facilitate calm relaxed state mind regret cant open honest friends family im denied opportunity thank support generosity throughout years struggles deeply disappoints societally imposed shame redflag somehow disgrace death,1
songs relating workin weekend  bbno ajr heavy  linkin park die  jake hill given  linkin park sit inside house day  josh heart attack  scxrlord,0
put ean fork put bean spoon need bean fork spoon,0
big bro teenager tomorrow soon gonna move start university im really gonna miss him still remember  time moves fast lol,0
mom i m sad it hurt in my heart the feeling fall into my stomach i can t stop the tear when they start mom i m sad that i never did anything that i never achieved anything that everything just fell apart i can t get up in the morning i can t focus on anything but the sadness i can t put my clean clothes away i don t have the energy to try i sleep all day because it make time go by faster it s hard for me to try and take care of my dog because that mean getting up my thought race all day about what could have been mom i m sad because i don t know if i can make it i don t know if i can keep going i don t want to break you and dad heart but i think my heart ha been broken for a very long time the fight inside me is starting to slow down everything is turning black i don t know if i can make my way to see the light anymore,1
gon na probably be really long im sorry since saturday i have a really horrible fucking mood i can not explain tomorrow i have to study chemistry i have a test on friday go to my therapist which make me cry so fucking hard and is probably one of the major reason why i want to end myself the thing is i cant fucking do it im too scared of death but i feel like i just cant escape i just want to be fucking normal my problem are fucking bizzare and they ruin my whole life but yeah i wan na keep them to myself and wait but then i feel like my whole life ruined but i cant km it just all so fucked up and idk what to do i also have no friend and no way of finding any so that just make it worse in the end im just so fucking confused idk what to do thanks for reading this if anyone did ig,1
know anymorea quick couple things wall text im undoubtedly going type tonight first off using first names intend show friend hopefully provide support hes good guy hes provided emotional support past second sort rant life also trying get help comprehending whats wrong me alright go lets this would like begin wall text pretentious assholeish statement think im smarter and far better spoken person know personally aware much loser sound saying that mean it snobbish way genuinely feel though better understanding people emotion reality friends feel one unique quality turned horribly cynical negative person serious problems finding things funny anymore default looking something analyzing it despite knowing meant humorous used extremely funny reason  great friends do year junior year high school shit hit fan life went reaaaally downhill me recognize decline know stop it used funny outgoing kid anymore instead im emotional wreck reasons hard time comprehending let alone explaining three close friends gerry don kanaii theyre funny great people used like too quote gerry you used funny one kanaii replaced year three us hang occasion often not get invited normal weekend us consist waiting text back see facebook tagging talking much fun had fact lunch yesterday the four us share booth went awesome party openly admit declining invite to feel ive become infamous third wheel or rather fourth situation suppose friends namely kanaii especially gerry tell care believe them think understand tried telling kanaii feel days told need lose weight brings next point ive never real attractive guy fact im good looking guy all weight problem makes worse were talking morbid fatalbert territory here noticeable enough makes quite unattractive socially awkward hold intelligent conversation best them comes someone opposite sex trying make small talk cant it get aware appearances end unable look eye conversing often sit awkward positions ive convinced help make look thinner direct attention away chronically shitty haircut girlfriend despite physical quirks or sorta least im really sure call anymore started first relationship girl someone id strong crush nearly  years so finally got go me anyone would do got attached now last months ive really realized little mean compared feelings her though may sound like much realization really messed up think might insane thats whole nother story probably bother telling fuck like rabbits help feel better rue day may th actually graduates shes senior im year younger leaves alone goes college helped steadily increase progression declining sense humor fuckgiving feel desensitized lot time things impact ways used to whether positive negative fun playing video games brand new gaming computer cant find joy anymore completely unable motivate anything school literally pass opportunity easy assignment worth lots points simply want work know smart am know could finish work dont know why friends know feel sorta know broken thanks girl not really fault per se plays strong role depression think realize serious is think redflag every day much carry out realistic means ending painlessly quickly better might make go away think would ever go familys gerrys sake i tell everything suspect would hurt killed myself still wonder real reason telling want someone tell make better know easy thing do making someone feel good someone could provide insight fix life please do theres much more im tired finish need sleep views tomorrow ill finish school also apologize trouble may trying decipher way speaking tend saytype things exactly way im thinking them forget format others make sense them see red lines words normal number typos reduced not ill fix tomorrow tldr im probably overly dramatic hormones getting best me feel hopelessly lost know life probably hurt myself figured since still think it rredflagwatch proper location this cookies anyone read whole thing,1
hannahsix cream for his eye and he may have herpes not ocular herpes but a different strain he s doing okay though,0
im exhaustedive tried write full story million times theres many details id share get point across matter past past ill say tried express years ago physically feel right issues turn up told rest head knew running hospital putting stress finances stopped stumbled upon fact one day could manipulate symptoms supplements years researched tried fix thing carried even though felt like new thing would pop time lost faith doctors kept years broke last time contemplated ending all went internet talked coming clean getting help doctors still find anything like deja vu again cant cope one thing say hold decent job responsible cant go back feel awful cant sleep long lower spine burns sometimes speech sometimes impaired im dizzy often mind foggy heart pounding feels like vice memory recall sucks body clicks clacks legs heavy seem randomly drop shit urine foamy visual snow sense smell poor longest time experienced anhedonia experienced bipolar iilike symptoms experience mood swings again feet drag sometimes walk funny hips really clicky ive looked extra sick lately theres constant ringing ears feel like something attacking body suicidal ideation comes goes now one point certain last weeks rough keep trying choose life felt bad thursday friday physically go work last two three weeks unbearable made it think ability hide symptoms slowly slipping really pushed edge stopped taking supplements think kidneys it ive maybe one full meal last  days ive hotel room trying find peace mind sleep nice quiet nice w reminder cant get enjoy im at definitely fault fucked around supplements hopes finding fix sometimes successful sometimes created another problem desperate nobody would ever believe shit went pretended everything okay im really tired now body allow carry on went questioning existence god knowing gods there bargaining universe knowing gods there questioning god matter much express much do im life fullest ive tricking thinking was cant sit around  cant this ive put almost  years adapting change building persona would allow hide bad days adapting bad days im fucking exhausted cant this trying fight thing would time letting life even made thats id personal hurdles robbed certain experiences felt bad could barely get bed thursday friday took supplements knew could get blood pressure actually kicked in packed bags left thinking id gone now here fuck still am hate leave mom alone world friends family ultimately fine lose it cant anymore body feels though enough thought  years ago felt like death whole new level know possible took one way ticket home turn back around would unbearable fucking hate this tried get help years ago body state someone listened ive tolerated long feel like heart going collapse im even worried anything almost feel nothing want go back elements ive made lot great experiences much cant crap again,1
got suicidal thoughts tonightmy mind fucked lately idea whats going,1
i don t want to die i just want to not be here anymore every time i ve tried to explain this to someone they can t seem to understand i just want stop feeling this way,1
graduated college years ago worst time life became depressed first day growing up leaving friends taking harder courses because special ed since elementary therapist involuntarily sent hospital days i could never trust anyone even myself again thanks her change majors take extra year kept failing classes graduated pay student loans full time job used work  part time jobs due pandemic left  feel like ruined life going college wasting parents money taking courses want take like italian wanted learn japanese make happy feel like failed myself could gone technical school learned trade even gone community college friends chose traditional university route like sister except phd good paying job director childrens museum meanwhile cannot even get unemployment living moms sometimes wish dead feeling way since any thoughts feel like college ruined me m,1
ugh still working on project just taking a small break,0
The Lord wouldnt put me in a situation that i couldnt handle. ,0
@mileycyrus You looked awesome on the Awards. Congratulations for winning.  You deserved it.,0
my dog can t move anymore praying that he will be okay,0
need motivation havent suicidal thoughts probably  years lately ive feeling bored life sad nowhere last week almost started cutting stopped need people talk,0
im readyi packed car chemicals bucket hydrogen sulfide poisoning kms tmr cant wait,1
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friends think im weak one real  yo maleso today feeling really depressed tried talking friends it instead trying cheer took turns calling weak need grow pair problem talk problems funny always come problems every time help  im feeling down world blows up like one genuine friends,1
reason im really shaky sudden dont even feel weird bad all maybe little cold nothing else yet upper body shaking lot maybe im tired idek,0
important u r da shawty u got  dont bitch  urself im demon time,0
stunningly wellmade film exceptional acting directing writing photographybr br a newlywed finds married life expected starts question duty versus duty society together sister inlaw makes radical departures conventional roles mores,0
really hate test ampxb httpspreviewredditoqcmhebrnpngwidthampformatpngampautowebpampscbfbadecadda,0
h ouse made me sad oh kutner,0
is extremely hungry,0
consideringtoo lonely always depressed  years pain dont even want live past  need end,1
inconsiderate roommates im living  bed bath  people currently one roommates friends big advocate blm movement as done work improve allyship beginning year one bipoc friends thought usage word boof which corrected upon immediately called out micro aggression towards claimed aave although would never invalidate lived experience another wasnt shocked person hardly knows didnt address spot deflected roommate figured may shy anxious call someone out completely fine since done lot researching learning mistake however roommate told earlier month would staying place specific timeline shes willing bring table since then  weeks girl staying rent utility free bought groceries made us split price shes mutual isnt screaming otp another person middle important final year thank god didnt fail classi constantly hear talking shit much hate allieswhite people although white still whitepassing understand come poc although go communicating roommates need compromise upon rentutility dont think much ask makes deeply uncomfortable corrected addressed white fragility extent feel awkward around even history dont want think microaggressing trying passive aggressive asking due diligence phrase group chat,0
would buy school market like less  food drink something cool,0
"@rhea_ann I know! I can really get into Cut Copy at times.  The more I listen, the more I love them.",0
wonder many mods sub recognise days posting lot lmao posts and probably still is kinda embarrassing,0
ruined another chanceevery girl talk to always end talking much never talk again ive single  years now  years ive talked girls nothing fulfilled anything inside me im completely fucking dead inside ive suicidal since  years old im  now im fucking worthless social anxiety enemy fucking defeating me,1
via chrismevans argh driving into london today made a wrong turn at king x stuck in an extra 0 minute of logjam traffic,0
@LinaCyrus heyy! aww thanks so much hun you rock! xoxo ,0
@ChunLum JPN koto is longer &amp; has more strings. Carrying koto &amp; taiko is my part time job ,0
fallmaiden why it s such a big offence because constantly people tell me i should be ashamed for liking the show that it s trash that it s for child that i should die just for liking it that show brought me through the worst time of my depression and made me smile when i,1
tried kill myselfi tried kill oding paracetamol took  pills g each took played music tried fall asleep head spinning fall asleep pretty long time eventually did im here feel nothing mentally pyshically feel numb stomach aches little dry mouth theres weird chemical smell know coming from thats it honest part expected this hoping would work im scared kill way thought going sleep never waking wonderfull feel like attention kind way self harm instead actual redflag attempt whole thing pretty impulsive thought before never followed through evening confronted reality started thinking suffer anymore kill myself waited parents go bed could get pills waiting wrote letter made sure cool friends sibling one would feel guilty anything like that it im even phased now know feel strange know now am took pills around am know effects get worse part hopes do know tho,1
great compendium interviews excerpts form films late sixties early s counter movement big studio films late sixties directed ted demme obviously labor love films period gives short shrift masterpieces timesbr br many filmmakers period influenced truffaut antonioni fellini bergman course john cassavetes unfortunately documentary logging  minutes short film rich interviews opinions filmmakers people interviewed are martin scorsese francis coppola robert altman peter bogdonovich ellen burstyn roger corman bruce dern sydney pollack dennis hopper jon voightbr br bruce dern moment truth says jack nicholson may good looking stars came interesting summarizes areas period filmmaking american historybr br the filmmakers dealing lack funding studios expressing unconventional attitudes politics sex drugs gender race issues americas involvement overseas conflicts like vietnam warbr br there great interview francis coppola saying got chance make the conversation producers knew trained roger corman make movie nothing bankrolled filmbr br another interview jon voight directed hal ashby coming home clear antiwar film crippled soldier immersing back society facing battle voight talks working methods helped achieve emotional telling point ashby said rehearsal take ended take used film better unrehearsed drained freshness overrehearsedbr br there also many fine excerpts al pacinos breakthrough film the panic needle park interviews dennis hopper making easy rider interviews sydney pollack making filmsbr br all documentary fine jumping point film lover wants see great examples new voices film like seventies many sundance folks film made big splash unaware much independent film maker today owes films john cassavetes milos foreman william friedkin roger cormanbr br rent favorite shop least perk films may seen enjoy today amazoncom little  want buy right out,0
time to move my posterior and lose some fat my articulation are creaking so no more running but i m drool for some swimming,0
really really like getting scared dont ever get scared point cant move makes feel really good like really good dont know really nice,0
jbeauty oooh head high killin em wit da no lol didn t think so but u don t really know me yet i m a good tucker inner haha,0
@atraz haha your cool ,0
ghosted surprised though met cousin,0
black clover chapter  action packed link httpsyoutubeabtxgdnbqa,0
@lisannebotger @gilly77 thank you for the good luck's  its still in 19hrs more though hahha I'll post pictures and stuff 4 u 2 seebye XO,0
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@survivor91 ummm like 200 votes pwease???? ,0
wheat bread from the dollar store just doesn t toast nicely going over my tax and calling it an early night,0
dont feel bad feel bad feel bad dont feel bad yes read right hope didnt die stroke youre still here im kinda convinced social anxiety im social situations dont feel uncomfortable think im lying social anxiety makes feel bad feel uncomfortable im content later exactly want want feel bad want social anxiety dont ask why idea matter happens feel bad way wtf,0
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conversation mom market today mom like green peppers me mom to seller ill kg green peppers thank coming ted talk,0
kill myselfim  years old sick life living im going end life,1
recognised sub yet wanna know anyone remembers username,0
day  scottish inventor william kl dickson surprised boss thomas alva edison remarkable work development motion pictures many experiments dickson able capture scenes real life camera reproduce invention kinetoscope fragment time preserved celluloid soon dicksons kinetoscope would become enormous success new way entertainment many people eager pay nickel charged able watch people dancing acrobats performing stunts peepshow kinetoscope however invention complete order capture film real life know it sound needed movies dickson kept experimenting short experiment kinetophones first film resultbr br in experiment codenamed simply dickson experimental sound film director william kl dickson stands front recording cone wax cylinder earliest method recording sound violin hands playing song named song cabin boy idea record song cylinder time camera recording movements order show motion picture two edisons black maria laboratory decided little dance front camera unlike author vito russo claimed book the celluloid closet little dance nothing homosexuality obviously reference environment loneliness lab akin lonely sailors song cabin boy dedicated the title russo suggests the gay brothers actually anachronistic gay homosexual connotation late sbr br sadly dickson unable achieve desired effect kinetophone never could really produce synchronized audio images cylinder sound celluloid images synchronization two elements exactly effective sudden appearance auguste louis lumires cinmatographe prompted edisons team focus projecting systems eventually dickson left company fortunately  dicksons cylinder movies sound rebuilt film editor walter murch made restoration experiment intended finally dickson experimental sound film could heard synchronized sound creative inventor intended successful attempt outstanding film testament enormous genius father kinetoscope ,0
rantcunt fuck cunt fucked life cunt fuck cunt fucked existence hate goddamn life,1
dying truly seems like optioni cant stop thinking inevitable im going either die im  buried crushing medical debt worth saving first place every time get sick think put save loved ones trouble idk ill never enough money go somewhere better im always going sick feels inevitable see point beating around bush anymore,1
i few week ago i wa shing and not going to therapy and i honestly wasn t feel a horrible a usual i woke up and and i didn t feel super horrible i wasn t hating myself and my urge to sh wa going down then i went to therapy for the first time in month and i wa told i have to cooperate cause i wasn t or my therapist would recommend my parent do somethings more extreme ie physic ward after that i that i decide that i would try to stop shing everyday and immediately i became way more suicidal i wa clean for a week i now wake up everyday and i don t want to get up and i m instantly hating myself i broke that clean streak by doing half my forearm instead of just a few and i may try to km tomorrow so maybe i wa just going numb and i wa cool with that but it s seems to be better than now,1
btw eventbox is available for free on macheist for every visitor unfortunately i switched to tweetdeck http macheist com,0
whats pointi feel like cant anything right everyone hates me people would better without me hope future much anxiety feel like im drowning,1
love boys  time slightly wanna know feels like put pp girl pussy gross asf em look like wanna nut pay abortion,0
cant cope am im evil need stop harmevery day throat closes up every day find somewhere hide feel rising tears start coming sometimes hide sometimes cry silently desk nobody notices go home work little room live shared accommodation never speak anyone close door cry panic attacks random times cant let near people terrified might them twisted evil psychologically manipulative emotionally abusive know get interact world without causing pain ive stopped living constant internal pain chaos nearly two years thing is living like pointless tried move healthily read articles forgive sound fucking stupid idealistic naive ive doctor told im depressed need treatment refused refer me know except killing myself never happy like past chose shit throw away like less nothing severely fucked mentally ill woman  years old dark bags eyes entirely grey hair make look   years older look like meth addict nobody could love me nobody should whats point toiling awful life ive built evil choices actions im coward know im going bring actually it really want gas im pathetic cant even drive wish somebody would murder me every day wish that please come stab throw deep valley never found,1
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friends teenage son killed himselfour friend kids pretty young especially todays standards married asshole depression two kids got divorced dad pos left didnt even want see kids afterwards poor boy offed  years old sad cant sleep dont want see kids faces tell them dont kill gods sake life amazing participate throw head first redflag harms people around you,1
life miserable painful lonely energy desire anything it people get pissy killing myself genuinely understand people know pain life like think know better like dunning kruger effect ignorant someone life firm continuing livepeople repeat retarded shit like life get better you lot experience sit suffer feeling guilty allowing people push around tell cannot end life they would upset me feel upset thoughts borderline predatory people know lonely alone take advantage guilt killing myselfi need work cutting everyone life finally kill get fucking nightmare telling someone kill idiotic ignorant,1
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guess life now fuck it im donemy life complete shit deserve earth people clearly superior me im inferior mistake parents call miracle know im mistake im failure everyone know moved lived lives love im stuck unending cycle hopelessness dreams ambitions hopes nothing dream one day backpacking travelling world dreamt going holiday meeting wonderful woman would spent rest life with life kicks stop everyone see world superior im inferior scream im inferior parents say im not afraid admit well sometimes dream going another country mainly australia also canada new zealand even us im uk life depressing ive close killing long time ive even sent hospital times attempts im going keep trying im done life now dreams drive passion hope,1
got friend zones dating gave hug said best friend entire world kinda sat there,0
 years old already failed life body dysmorphia cant fit inim  year old girl get shit grades im lazy shit ive sexually emotionally physically verbally abused   half mom moved mentally fucks across country seen since im tired bottling things up im lot problems accepting body i eating disorder last year sexuality dont know im bi lesbian really like male friend  gpa quit cross country feel lost sick around people always act normal though all feel like shit real problems love life im exhausted cant handle going really dizzy euphoria makes hard concentrate loving everyone around  month depressed  months like since th grade mean im still earth introverted know whats wrong me also feel like stupid shitty holden caulfield im surrounded sheltered people grew fast,1
want die badlyi one nothing want everything end ive ruined life already theres way recover cant live ive done am,1
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you re easily replaceable and trust me they will replace you if you re lucky you ll be born into a loving and sweet family but that s often not the case for most people you re alone and will be alone for most of your time on this earth you ll reach an expiration date for your usefulness and they ll kick you to the curve it doesn t matter if you re really struggling and barely hanging on or if they re aware of what you re going through and they ll give you every excuse in the book but the simple matter of the fact is that they don t care about you anymore what do you have to offer now,1
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heres bucket list  school year thinking ahead heres bucket list college freshman year get b better gpa lose virginity play intramural basketball andor flag football good player make  good friends  go least  parties maybe try weed dont overdo touch rim basketball hoop learn use credit card watch shazam  minions  im college class  early thoughts,0
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husband wants divorce disable schizo useless spouse blame him think much want dieposted schizo subreddit relationship troubleshttpswwwredditcomrschizophreniacommentsevmnwhave_any_tips_for_schizos_in_relationships_with says want continue relationship felt close years over wanting help move kicking anything sat hours talking kept thinking much want die strength start over im broken now edit looks like going spend thanksgiving alone told want go hang family cant spend time around people losing ghosts,1
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Done with classes and packing for the atlanits!! I hope miley's there ,0
movie scared heck kid citizen kane moments arm ripping scene good plot good even characters  could something acting put top name people roles see get one shoot edit what little was distribute couple months type movies classic low budget scifi deserves due rated  based films genre age,0
lately i ve had very strong feeling of hopelessness like i m just wasting my life away i don t want to be around people most of the time i purposely try to avoid social situation i also noticed that if i m feeling an emotion such a anger i can feel it throughout my entire body i m tired of isolating myself and feeling like my life isn t worth anything i ve had thought of not wanting to be here anymore but i know that i won t act on it i hate feeling this way and i don t know what to do to fix it i ve gone to a psychiatrist but i feel like they don t really listen to what s going on and they are more worried about the medication i m taking if anyone ha any suggestion or natural remedy please share i m tired of feeling this way,1
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so the other day i wa playing a game and chatting on the phone with a friend let s call her bri and i have a friend staying with me this month let s call her anna so i told anna that i would be on the phone and she nodded and then later on i got on my call anna felt like this wa the perfect time to call all her friend and be super super loud on the phone with them i m letting anna stay with me a a courtesy because they didn t have a place in town to stay while they worked once i got off the phone with bri anna felt like using her inside voice finally and then basically ended her call around then too anna ha been freeloading and doesn t pay me any rent like she said she would and i think it s incredibly rude of her to act this way the one time in the past month that i had a phone call the thing i m anxious about is that me and bri were talking about some deep stuff on the phone and then we d hear anna in the background being super loud and i m anxious about whether bri is mad at me but i live in a studio so there s no privacy from anna i feel like i should apologize to bri and let her know that my earphone were in the whole time so she know that anna didn t hear any of it since it wa really personal stuff we were talking about while anna took her phone call there s a lot of other thing anna had done while freeloading that upset me but that s for another time since i actually started taking anti anxiety med because of the anxiety anna cause me and the med don t help a much a i wish they would,1
online school making perpetually stressed unhappy two days week person  remote keep handing tons work dont time dad doesnt let homework weekends always stressed school guessing way homework dont time sit watch  videos every class teach every topic thats right dont even learn person self taught least classes,0
@ThisisDavina Sounds fun and cant wait for the new series. ,0
comes stepping back edgeive there ive blades hand foot pressed hard pedal jug whatever front me ive back dark place many times always take step back find nothing keep hearing lines gets better x religionhobbymusical helped get pet dont see it cant seem understand much right people me dont know get putting gun back case someone look eye eye mirror must something wrong nothing left longer flinch idea something control ending things me question simply recover deaths door,1
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"How to fight depression and loneliness? Crime docs. Thanks, Golden State scum. Now I'm all watching horrific things because...I never know why, but murder shows alleviate anxiety and depression. Maybe because it makes me feel like a detective. Or maybe I just miss Robert Stack",1
person freely talk hates mei severe anxiety disorder fighting depression while never suicidal thoughts saturday girlfriends birthday screwed up hurt feelings lot really good lot cant even look mirrors told wants breakup want us take time other break lastly try heal time ive living time usually talk people person bring problems thoughts everything cant now last  hours idea jumping window parents apartment hitting car wall sparks head slow reaction think would done it afraid af dying cant stand leaving friends parents brother everything love sparks really scary known fragile life easy do talking guys seems help cant talk cant reach someone cant stand anymore point becomes new recurrent thought stands head fraction second listen something saying shows to,1
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unbeing dead alivethis quote edward estlin ee cummings basically idea even youre breathing doesnt mean youre alive simply means unbeing dead fascinating isnt it go life day day surviving best can keeping biological functions intact subconsciously know itll never enough everyones sober reality life dull grey mechanical bullshit believe bigger part population currently alive real reality whove felt magic alive found spaces inbetween places dead people cant seem look do though youre finally free culture counterculture alan watts says meaning life simply to alive could contradicting opinions exist evidently alive harder anything ive known ive dead long time met eliza made consumed others like this living eliza there felt truly alive now unbeing dead again whats point many tell even really alive,1
shelli feel empty ive struggled suicidal depression  yearssometimes easier get im sinking really deep time scary want throw front every car see launch apartment balcony head first onto concrete feel guilty makes worsebecause beautiful son world try tell husband itll topic conversation  minutes moves talks something like really bad im making be feel like theres hole chestand caves emptier am money try get help im sinking hard breathe,1
got  history test without learning yeah first   years middle school im kinda proud hehe,0
is not impressed with the rain i wanted to go market shopping bleh,0
first time saw woman black think time knowledge appeared tv back  christmas eve father watching living room shortly went midnight service village church quite young time im sure terrified walking church yard entrance church night fatherbr br there many factors film make creepy think ne fact theres much way sound track plays background nearly every hollywood movie every creak thump bang amplified head theres distraction another factor makes different ghost stories theres jump factor involved like things bouncing closet makes necessarily see hear think going on clever medium nothing scares mind running riot thinking whats around corner behind doorbr br a superb ghost story ive never seen anything match dross thats repeated tv cant believe bbc deleted to knowledge one showing,0
idki want it ive got g paracetamol enough kill people let alone teen cant really want take one look pills feel uneasy think previous attempts really getting me cant it nothing left,1
i m not even in highschool about to be but i m not and i wan na fucking kill myself it s all from dumb bullshit me being ugly having a crush on a girl everyone hate so i have to pretend to hate her or i get beat up i don t even want to do this because my brain say that i need to get rid of all emotion when i get sad my brain go don t do that you dont have any good reason to be sad when i m happy my brain go you don t have any reason to be happy i m only allowed to be angry and tired and i m tired so fucking tired i shouldn t be this fucking depressed to the point of wanting to km i m not even in fucking highschool i feel like i m stripping others from attention they need because i convince myself that my depression doesn t matter there s so much going on constantly that i wan na blow my head off not to km but to get rid of all the bullshit going on i don t want to explain all of it but deep down i know i need to i don t wan na tell anyone this because of so many many reason i can t even get into that it s just fucking bullshit i wan na just make a video saying fuck you to my school and i love you to my mom and then km,1
Falling asleep here. So goodnight everyone ,0
really struggling want hold tell alright know continue without you forever life yours want anymore never wanted think called life helped make bareable lowest life soul life shattered see way darkness need hold tell ok please cannot stop thinking hurting myself hard breathe,1
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currentlyi need write everything down hope okay here so wednesday morning finally felt like life settled moment busy felt good kept mind much anxiety suicidal ideation course last long evening school sent opportunity letter students concerning auditions local boys schools production the female roles on life became unbearable again desperately wanted it knew time invest unless significant role i want dedicate months ensemble alright acting necessarily suited part however couple panic attacks finally courage write name next morning thursday everything settling way planned find monologue night start practicing next week again however began panic classmate insisted role involved singing everything felt hopeless again catch break so another panic attack ensued night even worse though list many girls suddenly also signed main role one particularly amazing actor also absolutely perfect part weak filled anxiety cried hyperventilated hour saw name knew shot all guess knew along confirmed it suppose whole time reason upset badly wanted production want become better actress want make friends want experience satisfaction putting amazing play hurt knew start would never get that chance world makes distraught know weak pathetic getting worked this consumed life little issue im feeling waves suicidal thoughts anxiety depression worse before think cross name list late everyone knows pointless go role even friend told that,1
im feeling completely alone family shit job seemingly old make new connections peopleim mid s parents passed away several years ago real family speak left two daughters rarely allow see ex wife makes feel like shit whatever can cant seem find good job fucking dot drug test several years ago child support im barely scraping by friends mostly busy familys now women age looking somebody afford support family me ive dealt depression life know drives people away eventually start getting really bad feel totally alone makes worse leads people want around even more reoccurring issue relationships nothing seems improve station life seems get worse debts bills pile cant afford think reason killed yet nobody would feed dog,1
laurwee boo im ok i guess had a hard day,0
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would make snoo would mean pfp would change id never change it foreverstan,0
go hellobviously title assume im christcuck im proudly christian ill take advice anyone want jesus dont want hurting dont want see like this dont let people around see am ive tried dont know anymore dont know im really tired gotta get early mornin reckon ill stay around im edge right now try stay away going online im like cause say things dont mean dont want go hell selfishness,1
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want diei think best thing copy paste wrote empty shell person skin bones organs nothing else there except intruder brain soul even know is know long time made brain home cant seem get leave would swap life anyone die want thats going happen biggest obstacle convincing family best wish could lay chemicals body show ones work ones let belive let alone think ever good enough ones convince happiness belong me ones make feel alone room full people love ones make feel detached everything goes front me ones stop feeling ones make think everyone looks criticising every inch body ones keep night fantasising dying cannot see lives better place living it see benefit bring them longer live spiral abyss depression scars show flaws exposed wake up feel like crap alive god cant save please kill me let go mind peace way  tomorrow go pharmacy painkillers sell one box go next pharmacy get another know need two last time oded whole pack ended hospital one pack im going try hardest let throw time work really hard finish dissertation friday saturday get hotel room want grandma find me,1
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love freekin movie walsh true master cinematic form film sometimes opinion overlooked film favourite mine really gives feel time film set inbr br all wonderful characters existed lifestyle mode dress way spoke ok might exaggerated good know occasion two men tried outdo insane stuntsbr br i felt apiece history thats wathced many people appreciated factbr br can get somewhere dvd seen tv anyone wanting slice life movie period time perfect one,0
cant anymorei know else do im point return depression gets worse everyday even real reason it hit one day everything fell apart thought once could rebuild think anymore think ive made peace it end pointless suffering know im even bothering write this maybe kind survival instinct maybe want leave note kind either way im gone,1
watched avatar movie shit disappointment immeasurable day ruined fuck would actually prefer show,0
@cazp09 aww cool  bet your all excited  has em got a preference ? xx,0
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my parent have never really cared about what i m doing online because they trust me to be safe plus i am a teenager so i know about internet safety and stuff which is good because i don t like my parent knowing what i do online and it not think in doing anything bad i just don t like my parent knowing i don t even want them to know what show i watch i don t know why this is but recently i ve started blocking my bedroom door with my chair my room is very small so all i have to do is wheel my chair back slightly to block it and when my mum come in she always asks me why i ve blocked my door and then she asks if it because i m watching naughty thing she doe always asks this in a joking way but it make me uncomfortable i just don t know how to tell her how uncomfortable it make me so any advice with telling her would help me a lot,1
i m so tired of the pain hating myself and having no future i cant do this anymore,1
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kind admissioni hung closet using belt last night times right moment id start get dark rings vision id restart process figured position needed in let hang could feel losing consciousness stopped realized written letter sat that got caught answering messages best friend sit mope loving him im going try talk friend today asked early morning hed free told considering asking therapist put hospital something joy feel weighed physically mentally cant see far end day time ive lost ability think forward im alone time much family want burden friends think already am though feel compelled live love them thats wearing off last night step towards going it handle physical pain now thing stopping chance ill fail forced hospital miss job interview desperately need strange maybe need,1
is so happy she has tomorrow off before starting summer school hours on Tuesday.   I'm going to enjoy this long weekend business!,0
think im going try get together tomorrowive suicidal years go cycles intense crippling depression life goes shit one aspect time im left reeling job house joys relationships closest become incredible messes ive better recognizing im spiralling ive absolute tailspin  weeks everyday become darker thought last serious look flaws ways kill them tomorrow want laundry clean car try think killing myself hard think even manage even matter know depression exaggerates problems way become thousand tonne behemoth little voice head whispers  sure dont want tomorrow go well tried it right now tonight really want shoot head done it,1
aightill stick around little longer give world things offer see else on doesnt work sleep later on im happy that dont care much ,1
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ac dc rocked last night back to reality today 0000 people without home and gt 0 dead in italy,0
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i just got back from a hour cycle enjoying the sun and i got in and had lunch and i started to feel so fatigued uneasy head fogginess it the strangest feeling to explain but it so horrible ive had this feeling a few time before it like ill sit on the sofa and ill have no will to move and the thought of getting up is overwhelming it feel like my health anxiety worry over normal stuff like being fatigued if i think more rationally and consider ive been going on hour cycle ride for the past day and ive been sleeping like crap ive been doing something quite intensive and then not allowing my body to recover through dodgy sleep plus on top of bad anxiety what is already quite exhausting,1
the daily struggle is starting to get to me i have wondered for so long why and made excuse why but when you re depressed the reason don t matter a far a i m concerned seeing a therapist amp getting medication are not an option for me the closest therapist is 00 mile away my insurance doe not cover visit they charge 00 a session and the wait for an appointment is month the way i figure it is that i have three choice end it all which would cause pain for everyone else i love wait six month travel amp get some happy pill that never work and make certain body part uhhhh shall we say limp deal with it any way possible tough choice i ll get back to you all on what i choose be well peace out,1
heyyf anyone wanna chat took massive break im back nowanyone bored too,0
mirror kiss no i don t have money i m very upset too,0
future someone like meive spending days nothing sit front computer look sites expecting something new lay bed bit look window theres nothing want anymore nothing brings happiness anymore feels like im going crazy spend  hours like that mom would sad thought used stop me starting work anymore mom one let play kids move bunch times finding new jobs childhood fault ended messed up cant normal growing like that cant friends im alone hate everyone time fell love someone guy internet would talk hours obscure music mangaanime politics internet stuff everything else time actually happy someone much common shared almost interests cant feel irl person theyre nothing normie trash me ive tried friends before did enjoy moment still hate them isolate everyone cant find anything similar made happy back then taste perfection talking guy taste dreams coming true nothing else ever good enough yeah falling love guy huh im bisexual im basically gay interest women exist pretty small add top everything else im already obscure edgelord spends day room cant connect anyone im also gay theres chance me see real life annoying obnoxious gays im also digusted by desire part socalled community go on accuse internalized homophobia wrong care hate life it theres nothing me never born here enough years trash again nothing changes cant see way out cant anything reason live future someone like me,1
msdrama hey missed ya at the meeting sup mama,0
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saw blue vent fcker went vented bloody serious this opened vent ugly blue feet fcking jumped vent ugly blue bastard gonna pay this,0
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best placedoes anyone uk know best place jump front train im talking less security etc thanks,1
u hsve to meet me bow wow cos am like the girl u like ,0
Watching Hatching Pete on disney. Haha =D @Jason_Dolley is sooo cute! Haha ,0
life suckslike lot you ive also thought lot ending it never able though life constant struggle wish button end all click die abusive parents one biggest reasons today always wanted best never really loved me shouted screamed criticizedmaybe im problem nothing disappointment useless creature one ever give shit about cant stop pity myself cant stop crying cant anything good anyone ways end it simple painless possible,1
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karen story used live nashville backyard shared fence karen first all made us move trampoline blocking view view house moved one time me brother friend around pm loud obviously since like  went get drink came back complaining brother late screaming laughing went back told dad came started talking sense idiot said fine went back house  minutes later saw body behind tree backyard standing camera pointing us wasnt exactly shape saw trying hide behind tree film us could report us hoa started laughing historically ran inside tell talked insane her good justice time hilarious,0
yo like modern warfare lets fucking play then cap send usernames,0
lovebscott nope i m right along wit you,0
sequels hardly ever live original definitely proves true case however big fan original definitely give watch although camera work lacking brian krauses character annoying plot clique much funnier first find entertaining it br br dont see movie expecting performance first film quite frankly bit different rather sitting cabin writing screenplays stanley hollywood trying direct dream project cabin lake movie much different feel still great see stanley back actionbr br im giving  ,0
ok holidays approaching lot sad depressed that i need four take lives week goal get least  people year got one need four more useless worthless like nigger loved right thing end today feel great please jesus lamb commands you end today love lord,1
hey need help d  creating lgbt themed magazine need tips ideas include community reddit magazine rthegayscene ill publishing wednesday want story news meme included chance win rewards good enough submissions message upload story post   rthegayscene much love good luckkyobi,0
friend amazing poet today english class write poem scratch friend unfathomable reason decided writing poem kfc chicken strip inside girl  obviously would good idea went detail greasy juice filling up ended read class insanely lucky get away friday detention,0
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smart poured dr pepper cup wrapped tinfoil around top stuck reusable plastic straw said tinfoil put freezer couple hours licking delicious highly recommend thank you,0
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fortunate life times sad frustrated people luckier me current situation feel existential sadness im leaving house born raised in look anywhere house see memory past me im leaving behind best friend dude known since forever literally cant remember time havent known him im leaving behind array elementary school friends whove kind years im giving new chance new place makes sad never see majority people again,0
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something wrong me dont know something wrong not lying like  thinking deaths shit hit me seen many family members die even close friends die always thought would react overwhelming way whenever howeverit doesnt affect all rd grade best friend died asthma attack  gathered us gym honor everyone looking me didnt care all spent long girl didnt care died another time wasnt long ago dog  years old loved him passed told didnt care thought dying figured would freak out didnt  shown picture soldiers heads cut dad didnt want show me stepmom kinda forced too thought id freak didnt gore doesnt bother anyway used look gorey pictures fun  find fake many emotions people dont think im weird situations im practically pro fake tears know anti social personality disorder thing however definitely sociopath im type person feels bad bad guy movie something goes wrong dont know normal not talk someone,0
im massive disney fan  year old son starting get them weve built quite collection one favourites first saw couple weeks ago must see half dozen times since ok others pointed out complex inventive plots theres film thatbr br great characters phil harris stealing show thomas omalley edgar butler far behind music superb  disabled son always insists lift dance everybody wants cat says all thomas omalley enjoyablebr br im sure people downer film dislike cats yes take cues  dalmations maybe the lady tramp its long time since ive seen that im going compare them  dalmations better ways the aristocats far enjoyable films about br br apart peter pan now  film favourite disney film  yearold son loves it grumpy  year old dad loves it cant ask much family filmbr br superb,0
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mights topic reacting goesjust know im twelve year ols girl whos gonna go highschool next year found long ago wanted share piece story yeah happened recently moth ago mom got argument slapped end always overreacted starded crying made drawing like always im sad  mom came room yelling accusing taking lunchboxkinda stupid drunk drugs yeah cried couse im sensative saw drawing yelled kill jump stuff couse drawing words help itbut yeah dont wanna say got punches thats fine besides that ive kinda depressed  years usually keep fake smile face try make others happy yeah ive looking back things shes done feel horrible think im reason alcoholic im reason took away little sistershes  ive thinking throwing bridge neer house drowning myself even though arms already bloody dont know stop feel useless hopeless dont know guys maybe give advice sorry im asking much sorry overreacting bye now,1
need smart bfgf im literally fkn stupid talking intelligent cool refreshing like love hearing smart people talk shit v interesting n quite attractive imo plus probably would good job future thats plus,0
On the plus side I've lost a few more lbs  making 6lbs in 2 weeks ,0
update balls hello all today good day balls feel back normal aching last days im pleased means go doctors feel balls unless pain comes back,0
think ive ruined lifei everything told do went right school took right classes worked hard got projects done shiny new phd hangs wall albatross around neck defended year ago one wants hire me year trying gotten one interview one even tried leaving phd resume got caught fear never employed again last six years living hell nothing want tear diploma wall rip up brought nothing misery disappointment think may seriously irreparably ruined life im money unable pay rent dont tell congratulations sympathy me doesnt help cant stand sitting here anger frustration makes feel like im going fly apart everything worked lie want hurt someone myself want punch professor face demand life back nothing live for would ask help nobody cares enough to nothing look forward life want go anymore cant handle nightmare anyone tells it gets better liar never experienced it before,1
small backstory used counselor suicide hotline hated job felt like could truly help anyone unfortunately also going depression thought would better leave job tried using hotline online honestly really sucked felt empty like solve anything swore would never use againampxbi extremely depressed suicidal lately due fact little social interactions others social redflag hard talk others overthink everything trying say wrong things mainly scared talk othersfor fear saying wrong things judgement etc seen therapist due scheduling able til end month today felt like could wait long talking new person redflaging talk annoying them message something made upset turned mess thought messed friendship little amount friends fear losing nothing understand overreact looking back now hard ampxbi called local suicide hotline one talk get like this worse decision ever called line told feeling upset suicidal told feeling sad know properly socialize making redflag depression stronger told know talk people right talking her okay sure get it asked friends talk to said no many friends two have feel comfortable talking this said why friends said i know talk others said why talk people talk okay fuck dude quickly ends call saying you talk people okay try ask make therapy appointment earlier it even  mins legit told suicidal active thoughts support got made feel even worse proved really cannot talk properly others like full conversation ended bad panic attack  mins ampxbtldr sad told suicide hotline lady feeling suicidal reason bad social redflag hard coversate others deveop meaningful notredflag told talk people easy  bye crisis hotline useless,1
inspiring movie laughed cried felt love true storyit give hope miracles happen great cast ellen burstyn samantha mathis jodelle ferlandshes  yrs old actress showtime must see movie ,0
stucki feel like im backed wall painfully aware devastating effects redflag family friends due young family member recently succeeding attempt mess before seems happen every year half really thought position could control myself im losing it recently move flat apparent friend got bed asleep woke touching me spiralled since become isolated old friends social group feel like cant trust anyone anymore ive move back parents im sleeping sofa personal space ive jumped every hoop know previous episodes depression ive signed work feel like wondering ive weeks cant breathe house staying boyfriends every night get away went holiday today line support referred psychologist cut session short said felt like becoming stressed suggestions help me im back stage one run fight feels like noone help me feel like grounding know life state emotional distress im acute ever experienced feels unjustified ive seen gp theyve swapping pills around try get back feet im adult mother grew unstable breathes neck first sign especially loss said family member feel absolutely suffocated planned trip away day tomorrow know option go hospital admit danger myself know ill end facility absolutely cant stand thought family becoming aware severity situation numbers im supposed call im surrounded people way that snowballing months im exhausted im becoming massive drain boyfriend feel like cant breathe escape route going end know awake painfully unbearable right boyfriend carry becoming pathetic im scared myself really know do,1
i m fine i m fine i m fine until once again i m back in the pit and i m wondering how long do i need to keep doing this for when i stare at my computer screen another fucking 9 day of meaningless clicking so i can earn barely enough money to survive comparing myself with other people my age depresses me i m not so successful and i probably didn t live up to anyones expectation including my own but the more i think about it based on all my trauma and self hatred where i am kinda make sense but the thought of i need to continue living like this idling just living in the same page everyday why i have a vacation booked and then what i come back to the same meaningless routine every time after a vacation im more depressed that my life is how it is do i want to change sure how i don t even have the energy or motivation nor do i have the strength or idea some day i feel like im living in my own paradox or dream that my life isn t even real the past few week i been reliving my trauma and all the shit i went through continuously in my head why i don t even know maybe i m trying to understand myself all i get are mood swing bad attitude and burst of anger maybe i should get on med,1
everyday at some point i get this overwhelming urge to kill myself sometimes it when i wake up sometimes it when i fall asleep sometimes it in the middle of the day there is no rhyme or reason to the timing a year ago my best friend who i went to for encouragement and care killed himself and i think he killed himself because he couldnt handle my problem on top of his own i keep cutting myself and while i dont cut that deep it get deeper everytime i do it i feel like im a disappointment to my dad and grandma since i just lay around at the house instead of going to university it just so hard to convince myself to do anything a nothing is fun anymore i used to love playing game but now that is boring and lifeless my dad think i should just push through and maybe i should but it just feel so difficult i feel like im a terrible person who abuse others for emotional gain a i will often make request of others without reciprocating and will get mad and yell at others for doing thing that inconvenience me ive been trying to do better but everytime i seem to improve i come back worse than before i think the world and my family would be better of without me being a parasite i feel like killing myself will ultimately make the world a better place im sorry for the rambling text i probably sound stupid or crazy but i wanted to get my authentic thought out,1
yo difficult get bed like go bed ill like yeah matter tired morning im gonna force hop nice cold shower morning like zero willpower sleep important thing ill literally sleep minute classes start like thinking seams easy like get bed smh wake feels like im permanantly bound bed dont get supposed even like dont get enough sleep sleep  hours,0
got even closer todayit seems im going steps nerves always get me last time almost went garage grab rope today went garage rope none went store sold rope stood shelf looking ropes maybe five minutes today left store without rope im guessing sometime near future ill actually buy rope know get one get know tie noose ill look up ill go woods find sturdy branch hang rope from im likely going walk away day ill bring rope one take it ill go back tree try again ill try many times takes swing rope ive made decision wish continue longer feel bad anyone except cats probably shouldnt theyll forget quickly parents relatives gonna harder time admit that cant much that friends none problems there turned ramble sorry get out,1
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feel losti want tell friend mine love her im scared feel way ill think something really stupid impulse now want leave people care things want do want go rest life without telling feel feel screws friendship feel like might end something really stupid one close friends have two steps away getting run car accident last week really scared me know do tell her,1
think im weird guys looking phone earlier wondering today asked me what today also todays day going die bitch weird guys,0
number four three yearsive tried three times time seem still existence life gets worse worse time ten years give take people claim love lying me telling mind ie gaslighting ive spent ten years hoping someone end me lone mugger passing end me used dreams know people seem think level abuse ok anyone suffer through theres always worse get least recognized inhuman get people asking done improve things well talked people ive even told voices head lies could use smooth things over created stories get along ive wanted able honest relationships around me now even body brain nueropragramming family lost me know ill ever get chance open conversation family members tell much mean me even failed every turn least knew loved me pay women closest thing honest relationship therapist eight years recognize ideas reference asked one one question eight years triggering event first time break hes never shown interest things people say me yet im pretty sure knows side story eight years think knows side story ive raped least twice friends family gaslight me think family to forced it course made promises live them probably not think theyd want hear side story since ive never told cant lived side bargain people spreading story ive seen emails mine edited know lying cant prove it cant prove anything ie gaslighting ive people put shit drinks food take money pockets steal clothes fun mess anything everything know why would anyone someone seriously would anyone spend time this whoever took body get lived body get want new one know eleven years indignity upon idnigity ill never know why hardest part knowing one even know know disapear much left unsaid one even know know thoroughly convinced people side story one know theres reason believe ever tell side story theres reason believe ill honest loving relationship for personality ive told people personality takes black out cant tell people side know story is know theres reason me miss mom dad miss much know feel way human anymore know screwed programming much may know that cant without someone,1
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anyonei tell dad im depressed im tired feeling way thinks nothing  need man seriously feel like ending im scared anything  really could use someone talk,1
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asked crush said yes now friends always treated like friend dating dont really know act need tips great bf cross boundaries asking date hug kiss etc post may stupid really need tips,0
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im worried high school awful mental health iwnt good either ive tried good school worthless want drop out issue get job really want good future ill never make it need advice,0
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please someone kill right now autism asperger depression today mom told homework said idea given homework started talking small notebook write whats homework asked tf could remember write homework started yelling started crying called selfpity walked room left floor crying thinking crappy life everything used diffferent still happy kid im refusing eat anything till mother treat like human being,0
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never thought getting drunk would save lifeim alcoholic never wanted admit that true tonight unthinkable happened past months ive really feeling bit bit much ask lately really getting me ive feeling ashamed kind person ive feeling worthless well genuinely want live anymore decided id kill week came extreme plan that honestly wouldve worked promised tonight would night long got drunk getting drunk motivated anymore i first time long time decided live decided live am moment decided live scared scared would happen pets really one reasons im alive know ill feel im sober tonight hit quite hard harder expected to fingers crossed ill decide ditch plans redflag sober doubt it worth shot hope least oh boy im going regret getting drunk later least im alive regret though enough self pity tonight good night everyone stay strong never know may happen change mind,1
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guilthi reddit month ago watching video ramateur two days ago remebered it suddenly absolute horror girl underage rape today searched original content proven im disturbed think tell family kill myself today soon cant live uncertainty,1
trappedhello anyone kind read listen troubles truly wonder hear suicidal person im end rope severe depression anxiety plagued since   grew abusive home developed agoraphobia that tandem mental illnesses rules life give idea bad anxiety is failed classes scared leave seat turn work living childhood cat died year half ago event long figured would mark demise ready kill shortly passing days spent preparation met amazing person still boyfriend get year lot help lose job six months ago move boyfriend horrid upstairs neighbors consistently deprive sleep insomnia iswas already issue so know it days become entirely comprised nothing trying sleep im scared leave house miserable constantly incredibly stressed neighbors feel completely trapped fear dying way out moved back mom briefly daily companionship boyfriend saw mental state unravel even worse neighbors it would love run away live car was homeless once im dependent upon medication and unfortunately opiates opiates counteract horrible thing called akathisia already tried killing due wretched disorder twice opiates brought miraculous relief though theyre obviously doubleedged sword cant get meds either would undoubtedly end redflag experiencing depression unleashed again im stuck job home despise scared ever leave substance dependence allow freedom im afraid of zero future prospects general list listed everything wrong head life post would even lengthy want hurt boyfriend family cant keep life up thought could get today long got spend time boyfriend waiting week agonizing amount time desperate die came home headache go straight bed works long tomorrow really think cant make another day,1
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know where feeling one day pain much end life really painful everything hurts die suicide,1
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feel sick every symptom cv getting tested option mom get anyone family tested says invasion privacy ive near little brother multiple family members tested positive cv dont know,0
ok genuinely never participating class ever im cry keep getting talked embarrassing forgot like feel like since quarantine holy shit feel bad,0
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nd week new medication already fucking forgot along whole backpack need school seriously feel beyond stupid cannot stop crying hy fuck like this somehow always manage find way fuck everything up sick everything sick even trying get better everything feel like fucking shit even everybody around much fucking fun happy hell still feel fucking indifferent done bullshiteven writing feels pointless making feel worse venting even help anymore happening me could life fucking better stupid fucking people ruin fucking brain kid cannot even fucking talk anybody it sick everything want feel good stop feeling goddamn empty tired burden would kill terrible girlfriend would feel forgot medication venting,1
finally decidedtoday emptying apartment salvation army coming get whatever want tomorrow cats going sanctuary find new homes thursday ill say goodbyes friday,1
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know anyone could hate movie funny took unique mind come storyline typical alien movie aliens stupid confused need rent least once,0
im even really living nowat  developed anxiety disorder ruined life path receiving ivleague education im struggling community college ability focus completely shot spent lot time reading philosophy find answers care money career children anything purpose life nothing every day string coping mechanisms designed distract fact life suffering ampxb late teens misfortune taking interest politics without going much ive found radicalized beliefs degree essentially closeted remainder life mental health existential end longer care humor mind spirit completely broken im mids best case scenario find girl treat like bronze medal find energy kid use reenter real world blend rest society family look anymore kid threw away life reason killed yet mom knows miserable told several times friends kids killed shed never recover probably divorce dad living past decade nothing despair even ego save face anymore watch rest world enjoy lives least drive exist creating envy refuse humor want become disgusting hate filled elderly person wait parents pass least go early avoid another  years remembered good person,1
lost hope lifeso decided post life story went young teenager dreams goals life adult fucked time time hope life lot happened piled one giant mess nobody blame it  years old born raised southern california grew playing soccer good grades school paper great life bound successful life unfortunately case right now fact point life giving hope besides sporty person always video games bring met woman november  whose name lets pretend name sarah i want names stay anonymous age me online group friends skype played game ever since sarah got added group click us joked around sense humor soon decided start private messaging other next thing know feelings other asked week met little soon possibly started skyping regular basis continued play game met at soon relationship found sarah mature age large maturity gap us started show constantly annoyed even hurt emotionally due immaturity started thing calling ex hot liking models pictures instagram watching porn regularly found hurt it keep mind sent nudes even webcam masturbation sessions skype good reason watch porn months started relationship asked stop watching porn successfully time found watching again july  flew ohio lives spent days going back california amazing lot fun really good chemistry going one problem lying watching porn started watching again that continued frustrate differences maturity levels life went though still great times would skype play game together overall good time flew ohio spring break senior year april  time found picture woman saved phone saved months completely forgot it hurt her rightfully so still good week together unfortunately still watched couple porn videos within next  months lot few get back later graduated high school packed stuff moved ohio live sarah parents first week  life great tim went however immaturity gotten sarah point wanting send back california things as able perform basic tasks properly playing video games instead productive things something instantly changed since complaint etc got point believed adhd something never diagnosed with extensive research concluded adhd need go doctor diagnosis something still yet do top that looked search history found searches made top that something wrong haunted ever since admitted her gone way go one friends instagram profile and despite seconds gone intentionally look pictures pleasure scarred still scars day finally decided enough enough stopped looking stuff entirely made sure got self esteem back trust back seemingly worked times would still bring times hurtful still are top this sarah despises parents  get along thinks parents controlling mother narcissist sarah anxiety depression mother one point called sarah crazy argument had sarah never let go agree sarah sense parents controlling caused much stress upon sarah along terrible decisions mentioned led discussion us sarahs parents going back california everything happened already stuff packed needed buy plane ticket back california basically whole situation stemmed immaturity stressing everyone family including sarahs brother autistic like annoying character traits well little competitive played video games together one point stress family put sarah family everything built up next thing know sarah grabs bottle ibuprofen runs bathroom get her swallows handful them screamed help someone call  immediately outside holding hand crying saying dont want die taken hospital mother entire time luckily okay taken mental health facility said needed  hours now gets ugly night right taken mental health facility one doctors said cannot take cell phone her use phones facility person am went one ear other another habit mine sarah gets frustrated by happens often sarahs mother took home first thing worry sarah sent sarah long wall text showing concern love her completely unaware take phone facility next morning started unpack stuff decided give another chance first things unpacked wii laptop backpack moment remember talking mother sarahs mother telling get ready leaving  minutes so person am thinking visiting her finish conversation mother even talking first place get ready leave car ride sarah calls mother talk bit talk sarah asked oh youre getting already nice despite everyone else knowing already was mother also asked me disappointing manner asked sarah doing yet answer saying sent long text message showing concern her find never even took phone her sarah got picked returned home sarah saw mess room furious me saying wanted good time want come home stress days incident decided truly best return california bought ticket packed stuff deleted pictures pictures me threw away everything reminded me seemed over sadly obliged returned back california unfortunately us one thing happened sealed deal us still messaged weeks played game together sometimes offered dirty session refused days later offered one remember showering time came back said would like one said already herself days went without sort pleasure decided look something up something homosexually related i bicurious admitted sarah finally fed me days days either ignored me called told much horrible person which wont deny give remarks showing frustration me update  yesterday supposed year anniversary sadly cut short furthermore suicidal mistakes well guilt thought scarring her self harmed everal times back here punched face tensions rose punched arms thighs hard before thought starving andor dehydrating never did thought swallowing pills never did now today typing this swallowed mouthful mouthwash hour ago builtup tension us first sen bunch pictures hot girls instagram paid absolutely attention andam interested all continually pressured admit like it proceeded say ex thousand times better person even said next boyfriend hate me hug say hes sorry ever put me particular moment lost control emotions actions ran straight bathroom grabbed listerine bottle swallowed entire mouthful it now refuse tell parents anything refuse go doctor despite wanting help left many questions point desperately seeking help possible adhd try patch relationship stop compulsive liar terms stopping thoughts self harm suicide sarah meant everything me really want future her thought starting someone else sickens stomach feel like never happy again am still single,1
hi idk if anyone will comment and thats okay i just need to talk or something since i m just so tired of my thought and just this worthless feeling i have all the time dealing with depression is no joke and being in a small town suck more since there not many resource or help for me i ve gotten a little help here and there but have just fallen back to being in my room isolating myself i have suicidal thought quite often and worry i might act on them not soon mind you just scared of myself i think of plan on how i could do it i ve written letter directed towards family member and friend before though i keep them to myself i ve self harmed before but haven t for quite sometime though i worry i may resort to that again i really just want help but i have no idea how i can even get it anyhow i thank anyone for reading if you did i don t have a lot of hope left but i guess i m still alive so yeah,1
ive daily suicidal thoughts since february im going act tiring im lost doi want kill myself want and feel like cant tell family worred might hurt them im angry mostly done know wrong help feel scared might do every damn day too rest cant even get bed sundays attend one thing feel like helps want over,1
my bf is in a depressive episode atm i m still learning and would like to know more about depression while in an depressive episode is every day the same for you do you have good day in between coming out of depression do you feel much better from one day to the next or is it a slow process with back step too sorry for all the question just want to understand better what my bf is going through,1
BTS saved me from committing suicide.I hv never told anyone abt dis but today I want to share. I knw giving up is not the only choice but during severe depression u can't think of something else. I m learning from them.I m working hard nd I m better now. Thanks to BTS. <Emoji: Heavy red heart>,1
slept wonderfully finally tried swatching for new project classic line cardi from stash but don t like color must wait for now,0
bye worldi tried commiting redflag multiple times past week let say super hard highschooler so,1
_________i dont know start off say but feel helpless feel defeated im  started college september im england took year school due reasons ill go bit happy while much anymore ive problems since primary school ive constantly bullied harrassed beaten ignored every inch self esteem confidence annihilated confidence issues college become pretty bad thing me gonna sound dumb im miserable crush girl know ill never confidence talk even know wouldnt like me thats big deal everything always feels like big deal smallest joke expense smallest mistake make hits really hard think lot never really affected strongly get bit sad move on days ago overcome overwhelming feeling stress sadness depression collapsed standing dont even know why like couldnt bring even stay standing im crier feeling left tears running cheeks lay becoming depressed second thinking every wrong decision ive ever made everything gave would made better person today every way someone hurt me everyone ive lost everything done make someone else happier hate myself feel like im taking space someone else could taken up someone could done me done better me dont feel clear headed right now apologise isnt well written down help bit got dumped summer found cheating  months relationship top that grandma died beggining year mums boyfriend verbally abusive havent even able see dad months sleeping fucked college feel like problems whiney people worse makes feel even worse feeling depressed this dont even want send feels longwinded doesnt seem like makes much sense theres lot this dont want type anymore wish would die edit feel like need add now done many times best friend stops replying boyfriend comes online like didnt put whining mexico even best friend cant fucked someone else would rather talk online,1
goodbye reddit okay ya honest reddit mostly brought major suffering minor fun times cancel out reddit lost social life joined community leave well known bad person gained girlfriend get dumped her may errors course feel like started reddit perhaps real life gone way yeah im leaving account maybe ill make new lurking account really want day,0
computer internet is hating me tonight i swear and i can t find my usb cord for my sidekick,0
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please tell still care whenever bf gone  today went nyc family hes target phone dying didnt even tell sister spamming vids said instead letting know knows get excessively sad goes mia hours without notice hes still home yet wish hed cares more always ends makes feel better hes taken shower back room call everynight heart still settled hes favorite person atm makes sad almost everyday consider leaving makes thoat tight eyes water even consider im worried wont ever able stable anyone love j  wish would give attention care maybe problem im attached clingy,0
depression.,1
fan author john le carre ive slowly working way books adaptations them found  adaptation le carres masterwork local library sat watch thinking would know expect surprised discover expectations exceeded miniseries fine cross spy thriller human dramabr br peter egan gives great performance magnus pym perfect spy title carrying long tradition le carres strong main characters pym also quite possibly best egan plays pym who fact contains many shades author le carre man forced spend entire life lying betraying sometimes circumstance times survive consequence becoming a perfect spy egan plays pym perfection man always run others himself egan alone makes six hours miniseries worth seeing performance alonebr br surronding egan fantastic supporting cast ray mcanally gives one finest performances pyms con man father rick as le carre said based strongly authors father mcanally plays man comes pyms life one responsible pym becoming a perfect spy fact mcanallys performance year british coup would finest performance sadly short careerbr br the rest supporting excellent well caroline john pyms mother alan howard spy mentor rdiger weigang young pyms friend turned controller jane booker pyms wife supporting cast fantastic special mention made three young actors played younger pym jonathan haley nicholas haley benedict taylor establish young man would become man played well peter eganbr br the production values miniseries strong well miniseries adaptations tinker tailor soldier spy smileys people proved stories told miniseries format locations excellent english locations scattered across eastern europe usa sets chris edwards cinematography elmer cossey adds extra layer realism world miniseries yet highlight miniseries really scriptbr br screenwrtier arthur hopcraft tackled job adapting six hundred page novel excellently novel largely at least early parts autobiographical pyms early life echoed much john le carres life script miniseries exception traces development magnus pym young boy a perfect spy never miniseries deviate purpose telling fine human drama context world espionage one ever wants proof spy thriller tense fascinating without ever one gun fight fist fight james bond style car chase would proof miniseries six plus hours long never wastes moment better itbr br though might overlong short attention spans must see performances peter egan ray mcanally fine production values fine literary script perfect spy one finest miniseries expect see fascinating trip history cold war yet that also trip john le carre called the secret path path spy man must lie betray survive much human drama spy thriller perfect spy missed,0
one positive storyhey friends today positive experience wanted share all feeling last long stop moment appreciate moment maybe itll bring smile someone here everyone relate existence empty void darkness glimmer light shine work last night job years tonight extremely busy area work in busy got go help area girl small crush works area  months weve never talked before management told start putting everything conveyor even box need get stuff here doubts said did items got stuck belt nd floor one noticed while found shaft take boxes first floor jammed  boxes climbed started removing individual unboxed items fixed jam question world would this buddy crush picking skips asked buddy said him me must her went talk army boxes scoot im like done sarcastically face turns red start laughing tell climb conveyor take stuff out tells management told would faster good laughs management dumb watch army boxes go by conversation work went normal pleasant experience first conversation someone new went well nothing awkward happened seemed like burden talk to life gone way im still dragging manage stay long enough nice experience like maybe ill look back another day things low so turned lot longer thought tried shorten couple times sorry guys hope cheers someone up,1
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tried asking advice help reddit got nothing hatei nothing regrets whoever sees hope encourages nicer strangers never know someone going through thank goodbye reddit strength left goodbye,1
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ugh i wake up and ff go to sleep guess i should just do more revision,0
isolated gay loser aslyum seekeri  barbados male gay illegal gays highly persecuted country work live protection run risk imprisonment myself basic education unemplyed  years isolation fear persectution come knowng qualifications worsen living fear persecuted finally considered idea becoming refugee seeking resettlement asylum us or sweden germany could helped would thankful edit hope receive asylum protected pursue ambitions burden anyone may pissibly refugee since country severly persecuting me fear protection persecuted groups within country ofers protection laws homosexuality enough still cannot find anywhere start  cant find anyone willing help immigrate safe country apply asylum in find application resttlement asylum migrating te country embassy wil even make through neet dont think ill find asylum find me think way,1
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alive kinda sucksim seriously done alive everyday think killing myself end suffering cowardly am nothing wait night time sleep forget everything ive tried therapy meds everything nothing helped seriously considering redflag good reason live,1
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idiot karma whores fake parent deaths deadly diseases mom recently died getting free coins memberships im depressed getting nothing really hate stupid humans stupid fake number account really idiotic like wrong would fake hard things deal week membership ever one things happen really close people died well hope see feel people terrible things happen get nothing people great day,0
nothing makes happy anymorei know issues gonna solved one reddit post guess would help tiny bit least type out ask no im suicidal im way afraid death even consider it instead feel chained bound plane existence title says everything keep mind day actually get help longest time considered life worth living least mine feel gonna go im  still stuck living parents get along with especially mom thinks better childhood reason sad anything fought since first started forming long term memories thats exposure love like cant seem get good enough paying career going companies within reasonable distance pay shitty never take anyone without years experience cant make friends every time do always someone whos busy  time end feeling twice bad alone cant find loving relationship woman im emotional mess even without that im severely average looking best complete lack self esteem confidence makes truly believe im good enough anyone chance fall someone absolutely tears apart inside completely fuck get swept feelings embarrass myself see maybe someday living spending rest life living sake staying alive alone never able meet anyones expectations never able learn social romantic mistakes past everyone finds sooo much easier ghost rather telling said wrong motivation anymore dreams anymore nothing seems worth anymore nothing makes happy anymore,1
biden supporters genuinely think hes going magically change whole country like  takes changes implementing take effect also cant really change people think people people putting way high pedestal hes even started got feeling supporters gonna annoyed feel silly doesnt magically end racism,0
happy lockdown anniversary eve one year ago today wouldve last day school officially changed personality  times survived redflag attempt ate pineapple changed rooms style  mental collapses happy anniversary everyone,0
jpfurry poor john this is what happens when you play with fruit and a microwave seriously though have you seen a doctor xxx,0
surprising treat come across late television read brief plot rundown television listing seeing movie would passed idea movie hitmanseeinga shrinkwantingto leavethebusinessandfallinginlovesounds trite film works start movie clear man carries weight shoulders even says word look feel film perfect dark obnoxiously sobr br aside hitman family aspect provides touch surrealism macys character grapples marriage fathers control macy shows repressed sadness bedtime talks young son amazing young boy shows acting skills well beyond years interaction father son natural personal lovingbr br this one best movies ive seen while cant believe came across accident late night television,0
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ruined one chance want go sleepi it finally someone much struggle found someone liked me ruined it desperate insecure fuck head ruined one chance want anymore go longer,1
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doing the usual with breakie in starbucks before heading out for the morning with camera but weather looking shite at this stage,0
resentment that turned into a deep depression,1
"@CRZ4DMB oh i was fine love, i had to go up north for a funeral service, and spent the night up at matt's... i'm back though, no worries ",0
laptop screen repaired feels good knew scared done cause year old cost lot,0
is it somewhat normal that i want to attempt suicide just to prove to myself that i m actually depressed and suicidal and that i m brave and not a coward sometimes i don t think i m even depressed and that i m just feeling very lonely and numb sometimes i feel like i need to do very dangerous thing so that i don t feel weak and like a failure since people much younger than me commit suicide all the time,1
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im pretty much doneeverything going soon couple years now everything kept getting worse worse ive finally reached limited know cope anymore im going give up im loser stupid depressed achieve anything life im also disabled makes everything even worse know anything anymore light end tunnel,1
i can feel that Depression Session™ kicking in <Emoji: Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes><Emoji: Smiling face with heart-shaped eyes>,1
@kylieireland Wont even go into the pool part though..but hey we have cable!..yay for &quot;but im a cheerleader&quot; ,0
dont know doso decided take gap year college seemed like good idea know wanted study mean completely fucked up year bad friends left actually miss high school one normal thing  familys dysfunctional gets just bunch narcissists like lash anything say doesnt match opinions ive aunt told kill said believe god one time might lately redflag think,1
god fucking hate phone calls call two docs grandma dont know im calling them well know dont call grandma call week ago missed feel ashamed  really dont like calling someone dont even know,0
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guiltin order live world one must accept good bad yes trouble that think many people entirely aware bad theyre accepting maybe care maybe care know im guilty too ampnbsp child father family friend sexually abused me pimped out really cam shows sold pictures me saw children animals corpses sexually abused kinds bizarre degradation purely entertainment truly careless individuals cant describe less crimes humanity humankind indicted complicit mere act existing cost seemed living world ampnbsp left family eventually therapy tried various medications decade temporary distraction truth cant seem escape sum good world worth sum bad discount good world ive seen it ive felt it ive part it theres sunsets symphonies laughter kisses music art friendship love deny it understand significance think worth it ampnbsp good world blot evil balance out make up anything ampnbsp went therapy several kinds fact cbt dbt transpersonal psychodynamic gestalt trauma based schema etc took pills prescribed listened therapists advice homework exercised ate well engaged community made friends read said hopeful little affirmations forgiving gentle others time least ampnbsp frustrating right things still feel way do realized denying know true want live world want breathe air others want community want relationships want happiness want well want saved want alone want die alone ampnbsp good mentioned would trade every happy memory every kindness every moment peace simply remember ignorant mans cruelty would false too exists whether one aware it world greater magnitude fathomable always always be cruelty much human nature kindness thats duality man thats rich tapestry ampnbsp want part it late hate people hurt anyone else evil monstrous other hate exactly same ampnbsp go cowardly way longing death feels like died many years ago young child makes sense way world nothing less hell,1
Deepika Padukone gives suggestions For those who survived depression:  http://youtu.be/usKS6fHNG0g?a  via @YouTube,1
joke gf application alright im dead meme im dumbass funny af see people get mad  short preferred required im  problem height like short girls lmao  gotta gamer play xbox ps ps network whatever called  age  made exception  last time mistake  similar music taste shanties alternative again preferred required  mind complimentedshowered love  im washington itd pog near  mind putting mc bed next  im overweight much  uh get mad ok,0
 year old girl going kill sooner lateri took  advils weigh  lbs hope kills fucks somehow need catharsis,1
long ranti hate im back again five years road still think thoughts andfeel emotions im starting think im mentally ill cant bring tell mom  tough age cant get evaluation confidentiality dont want trouble one gave birth struggles raise everyday im shitty enough already dont want shouldering shit lately going school tough waking difficult sometimes little less difficult maybe even manageable ive noticed hard drag bed simply see purpose so for for why nothing one reason school hard get through overwhelming presence everyone around smarter better makes feel small insignificant point im proud made  day school entire week even fucking hard kept thinking killing ending all right right already feel distancing everyone acting different im dead much want be instead im sat here mountain work piling me expectations commitments responsibilities essay due one hand holds pen redflag note ive planned out im sick this cant shoulder alone cant turn anyone one seems want listen god im getting bad fast hope die cant even turn family people supposed situations reality one roof felt happiness home drains life want happy family cant support love one another like families mom dad want happy feel like this im lost confused right im thinking abt taking final leap im scared anymore ive felt before ive thought happen again end myself honestly willi cant bear im fucking tired school pain ass one family cares were equally suffering thanks dad ure shitty person wanna die,1
Back at work after taking a day off due to depression. I was feeling super shitty so I excused myself out into the hall and did some squats and push ups. I don't know why I did that but I feel a lot better and in control of my life a little more.,1
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hi everybody i m and have been suffering from depressing and full blown anxiety since i wa around year old i work at a supermarket and the work isn t physically demanding but my supervisor are just so negative about everything and everyone and every day when i come home my depression hit me harder and harder and i m back on the brink of being suicidal again i only work there because i have financial stability since i work hour a week i tried 0 hour a week but i couldn t i broke down cry and i have a fixed income and don t want to lose that stability i hope you are willing to take the time to read this and will be grateful for every tiny bit of support and my message are open for any of you mike,1
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so tired god i hate the new job and only two day in,0
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use sad depressed literal indifference literal muting strong emotion feel like pill made easier want end itnot going act would end tempting remind try different medicationi thought therapy would accomplish accept shiy childhood done move already dealt abuse suffered depression triggers always backgroundthe abuse problem problem chemicals head tried pot felt like went ride sunken place tried alcohol buzz tiredness even want know anything serious would doi want moments happiness want cloud go away falling old bad habits trying establish unhealthy notredflag atleast make someone else happy might feel like use logically know use argued emotions ends logically know setting pain realize connection others less shallow feel indifferent emotionally speaking stop trying engage sex would enjoy  past  thing get hard minutes woman feeling good might able steal little satisfaction worki expect sympathy cutting planning would need pretty sure could pills now depression done yet ready give escaping medication eventual life improvement thanks letting vent thoughts time feel like anyone say too well time get embrace indifference honestly pretty useful getting work helping keep new bursts agitation getting out got wellbutrin well sucks,1
done dealing paranoia hallucinationsah man week rough me ive kind antipsychotics awhile symptoms control week everything really bubbled surface life work falling apart personal life pieces broke up family me im totally weekend yesterday took like  mgs xanax  mgs diphenhydramine course still woke hoping wouldnt did im precipice looking edge trying decide do makes frustrated cant find people understand pretty much typed maybe somewhere someone could understand mind works tell going okay know going okay everyone thinks im giant asshole douche liar talk behind back even try present side story matter people cant understand mind works say bullshit like well understand but but things mind telling shit perceive reality different everyone else people still think make everything up sigh im tired thoughts head constantly bombarded second guessing theres bugs around hear buzzing noise see faceless people like hiding shadows room theres nothing ever change im one sit deal it im one keep waking tormented things mind never stops want ability stop thinking care dying care thoughts stop head stop seeing shit get better know never cured never regular person sigh hope someone reads kind understands mean im sure long winded rant place thats mind  constantly running fucking place body seems understand things go cant figure way get people understand types problems have maybe die people would finally look back life say wow guy really fucked up around like yes thank you exactly bullshit cant handle anymore know man really know do,1
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contemplating everything going downhill  getting worse day im best think positive take action fix stuff everything try fails takes lot calm work problems actions fail get even discouraged like  constantly everything failing matter hard try im tipping point rn cant take much suffering even people around me cant keep suffering long cuz people care matter anymore change anything want end,1
guys wont believe archduke franz ferdinand assassinated serbian dude hope war start this even war started big conflict maybe months year,0
@sahtaylor yeah it is i love the song tho  im sure you will like the movie and yeh jonas is soon i dnt hav foxtel so i watch it on youtube,0
Having a British Sea Power day  YAY,0
life worth livingive decided kill today im  overweight autistic ugly stupid skills aptitude learn any havr natural talent anything unemployment two years country live joke future anyone rich well connected literally nothing content with goodbye,1
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well treating redflag poor body image counselling supportive friends feel selfish feeling like this feel like disrespecting making mockery people killed know worked could make horrid feeling go away tired mentally completely exhausted mum diagnosed yet another serious disease immune system already weak hell medication could potentially fatal dad blames bad lifestyle constantly screaming  want divorce cannot afford one sick trying block arguing know anymore probably going die young anyway disease hereditary every single female mums bloodline gotten form it yeah could take medication rest life worth it nothing even wrong me got good grades mock exams i  secondary school nice friends seem annoy now know mean to fault stupid shit never would done month ago like taking painkillers necessary walking lessons hide toilets end day reference time last month severe redflag would even speak lessons leaving without asking snapping get way even fucking told teacher yesterday felt like hurting myself felt suicidal sit office called mum put phone speaker heard say it stopped looking ways cross road stopped caring people think me started shutting everybody cares get home cry it cry sleep absurd read writing sound pathetic  many people worse things feel wrong wanting die done know anymore anyhow one last day school left summer holidays  weeks long uk  weeks nothing sit alone think counsellors calling school think might ignore it think might overdose summer probably temporary feeling gone days needed get yknow way end offing least parents idea feeling look phone tired scared think anyone know much paracetamol considered overdose deter suddenly seems real summer might end,1
sure kill myselftrump president lesbian woman disabled shit poor relying ssi bother could wait see happens im sure point would be already much hate going on trump gonna get lot things passed make life go shit want blind hopeoptimism want logical intellectual reasoning hell worth stick around dictator ruins life,1
turned  week ago currently summer break till next month go back college found depression gets really bad come home especially summer break longer breaks feel much better dorm like finally breathe while come home week reminded cannot stand there mother switches saying missed calling laziest person knows saying wish never me hitting me throwing things away without asking insulting get upset much more siblings dad really care complain older sister gaslights says going lot works hard takes you mom dad said want go back dorm mandatory sophomores anyway going end going going save move permanently cannot wait go back school neither crying numb hate feel powerless trigger,1
normally happiness others responsibility want commit redflag is whywhy happiness others responsibility sudden want kill myself happiness responsibility,1
hurts much ive suicidal thoughts recently getting major support therapy meds im already antidepressants werent working load things days ago constantly suicidal thoughts twice day cant begin describe agony happens sometimes ill put way extremely painful headache isnt physical im guessing mental hurts muchi cant stand it clutch head go floor crying far remember one else knows this cant stand physiatrist said depression like hardware brain change software thoughts feelings basically means im fighting depression whole life ive nearly whole life anyway planing redflag dont know stand whole lifetime,0
christmas theres literally earthquake thank  thank much sufferings,0
having coffee at a cafe... after..errr 4months? i feel normal again ,0
richard schickels  documentary gary cooper  gary cooper american life american legend gives us look tremendous allamerican star films life narrated clint eastwood theme definitely gary coooper american taken fast clips many appearances westerns scenes meet john doe mr deeds goes town sgt york best part documentary home movies cooper family well childhood photos showing beautiful blonde kid sunny smile would entire life also hilarious clip cooper the jack benny show comeback number bird dog  benny loses it documentary also takes us briefly tumultuous affair patricia neal nearly ruined livesbr br theres certain cohesiveness missing bioretrospective  jumps around lot footage cooper interviewed would added lot also clint eastwoods narration described unobtrusive was boring monotone given cooper tended strong silent type screen could used little animationbr br on personal note gary cooper one handsomest men ever lived  looks early films nearly enough fan smile lips bone structure  handsome throughout life films like morocco desire devastating instead sitting scene one worst performances howard roark the fountainhead giving speech admitted author understand  young suave cooper tux would nice touch documentary alas definitely produced man,0
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everything see fucking kills matter even want fun know one loves probably family feel like maybe kill myself everything tortures whatever see,1
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cry whenever rewatch show like already know whats coming currently bawling eyes end season  orange new black,0
@kreeshaturner 'morning! Have a great day today. ,0
want kill myself know really matter lowvalue male individualit nothing testement much wolrd wants shut feeling certain way want oversaturated mind logic point longer allowed feel emotions point kill yourself logical nothing works end life sense empowering too point empowerment emotions positive emotion ive allowed feel,1
want know girl likes me hey guys im currently friends girl ive known year ive liked time now im going dump lot information here id really appreciate took time read give advice  told liked last year told want date anyone due loads schoolwork school imposes us  heard one close friends talks lot  interactions weve accidentally touched spots would classified inappropriate seemed fine it mortified first im usually pretty shy reserved physical contact either notice pretended notice  think likes talk meshe frequently initiates conversation keeps going long time were room free block often asks keep company hang her usually loquacious everyone though tried apply dilated eye trick makes eye contact lot kinda difficult tell  people commented close proximity were together were walking arms frequently brush often hangs backpack ive seen hold friends backpacks often mine  usually sit next other wants show something computer go her sometimes initiates physical contact rubsputs hand shoulder punches chest playfully hits arm jokingly tells hits enjoys causing pain try reciprocate similar things save chest punches leaning shoulder tousling hair punching arm lightly seems fine it however reciprocate much reciprocate sometimes try anything engages playful physical contact without pause days ago talking me gently stepped foot thing would step foot would step foot resting foot would step foot would foot would mine tried couple times respond kept staring talking  sometimes wrestleplay fight teasing other im quicker verbally usually end getting last word in jumps me  laughs lot things say even though theyre sarcastic asides bad jokes frequently gets really hyper around me  told even liked someone tell him think thats good prospects her im sure likes friend guys think goes that,0
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im gonna end fuck lifeguys hard truth islife luck fucking shitty lifeno brothersisterparent divorce have see mom fuck rich man change home every year loose friendsalways first school i wanted go live dadmom break phone smash call brother smash force stay momi usless surgeryadenoidectomieafter loose souli could longer feel anything emotionstiredhungryso could longer sleepeven  hours sport cant sleep secondemy mom throw dad due circunstance marry rich man rise kids leave like rubbishnow im stuck  years old body everweak shit  years sleep alli cannot even get fucking erectionim longer good schoolmy dad call fucking crazygirl etci know life ruined cant anything change nobody helpim gonna kill inhaling  vodka throw fucking body subwaypeace fuck life fuck god fuck everything wish reborn good health family brother alone,1
i fallen in a dark place i feel like i always been this way how do i look on the brighter side of thing how do i get thru being miserable everyday i feel like if i m in a place too long i get depressed n sad i m constantly on the run no one understands me i feel i keep alot to my self i feel like i m exploding i feel there s no hope i wan na stay in a bed n not get up or go out or do anything anymore how do i cope what do i do i wan na feel normal i wan na shake the feeling i don t wan na be medicated i need the cure of another human being actually caring about my wellness i need a therapist but i can find help so i m here looking for help,1
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pretty bad brain fog symptoms havealways feeling extremely stupid confusing two things time eg words trouble articulate form sentences bad logical thinking wetting bed almost night trouble learn concentrate feeling tired forgetfulness eg remembering something long ago slow processing oh boy list goes oni worried work life thiscan anyone relate experience this wanted know lasts forever symptom goes away definitely depression brain fog,1
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need anyone talk toi taken advantage weeks ago getting harder harder fall asleep night  now protect myself cant stop thinking many sick horrible people world want live means constantly expecting worst everyone around me thats exhausting trust people keep getting hurt believe kindness empathy constantly let selfish violent people never felt alone,1
update parentswell mom ill provide link previous one so essentially lost remaining shrivels respect mom today lets start school didnt mention previous post im member schools jrotc color guard team beginning felt phone buzzing knew someone calling me however formation teams couldnt exactly pull answer position attention anyways split teams one left side rifles practicing place rifle movementsorder arms shoulder arms port arms present arms etc etc took break minute continuous movements rest arms teach cadets newer color guard around time set rifle wall checked phone turned aforementioned buzzer see mom called  times still couldnt answer phone anyways packed up sanitized riflescovid procedure placed respective rack grabbed bag called mom pick up answered yelling wont say exactly said turned somewhat vulgar digress came pick up forgot practice thursdaysnote id going pt practice every wednesday drill practice every thursday since school came back face face even bit then sitting buddy whose relatively new everything give tips show stuff pulled up got car almost immediately started yelling calmed block later asked asked english teacher missing assignment  period per day block schedule meaning go class every day english yesterday didnt today mention moved class due schools jumble fuck scheduling crisis another english class period told night before see uninvolved careless me son anyways thatll important im say next sitting room hour ago reading boom dad gotten methe white donkey maximilian uriarte wanting weeks bought me gotten stalemate book decided go downstairs grab water time reached base staircase could hear mom talking friend laughing stating sent something funny laughing reading it immediate thoughts already talking another guy already  years marriage no doing fact consider even messed cowardly talking dad stated sms agreeing take doctoranother story messed arm thats another story also involves neglect supervision towards brother statedif read previous post makes sense boys still need father im trying best provide them long prolong divorce wont able end day im sleeping truck im lucky friends couch overheard this base stairs mother reading mockingly shaken voice father friend laughed it laughing fathers plea mercy man serving public since  fire ems service seeing things could ever imagine every day let chance see provide children didnt even balls disrespect like face here hide house still pays bills for behind doors switched locks couldnt come see fucking kids youre reading edit im working getting link added text currently minutes,0
one day red alley cat fed kicked people attacked dogs muses life would better skunk paints black white stripe back adds bit limburger cheese make stink first life better him dog flees butcher abandons shop letting cat walk pile meat thinking everything perfect noticed real skunk skunk overly amorous pep le pew pep mistakes poor cat female skunk pursues thinking protestations shyness poor cat thinks escaped throws skunk skin tall building pep think dead first seems work sneaks pep sees instantly forgets dead skunk end cat realises better kicked attacked lusted randy skunk nice ending skunk wife finds tobr br this fairly funny introduction pep le pew back overly amorous looks like randy sexually harassing stalker although punished behaviour end,0
@stylestruIy @emmarose10_ Drake and depression,1
winters day th december  two bored  year olds hire movie hmmmm police story looks interesting who jackie chan never heard him two hours later watching film daze wanted know more  years later and severely pocket collecting jc movies film still grabs like other ok maybe soft spot first cannonball run count jc movie excellent movie classic jc elements action humour action heart action comments say dated made  course dated must jaws casablanca singin rain godfather without movies like police story would hollywood action today ps set standards many scene stolen use movies really fully appreciate must see widescreen miss much movie otherwise yes really fall bus going round corner already see movie nowbr br ,0
think meant longhad post throwaway account think handle life longer really envision future let alone tomorrow normally main priority get day without something stupid feel like always trying reach friends mental state make apparent care know pretend sad actually it thats shit ampxb ones know sad family members especially mom reason end even know thats enough anymore,1
girlfriend toes me wearing skirt too do please help im afraid,0
Classic one hit wonder which doesn't fail to get ya movin'  -Come On Eileen ? http://blip.fm/~5etcn,0
friend decided hell commit redflag next birthday i really need help ive trying help year now whenever said going commit redflag ive always talked time successful time cant ive suggested therapist refuse get therapy one extremely horrible experience mental facility decided commit redflag found two best friends cut said hated argument involved whether cared not plus things reason is friend overreacted something little thought indicated friends hated decided cut first says sensitive hes cutting more know do ive tried stop him work this detail important next paragraph may also add trans male additionally friend talked it said transgender people higher rate redflag ive looked seems true aside that says possible high transgender people see theirselves dissatisfied theirselves also told possibly might believe changing genders may fix dissatisfaction note sees it remember that friend suicidal one told multiple times feel like girl thats it know comment im transgender never been anyways hes fixated birthday commit redflag tried talk bit fully convinced it ive tried helping many times im tired point hes getting worse obvious needs professional help refuses get it keeps hurting himself told multiple times nobody cares him nobody cares stop him nobody care commits redflag hes mistake trash useless pathetic etc mean rant find told just guess annoying fact nobody stop him ive tried ive done seriously everything can hes getting worse decided try come reddit help rejects help ignores help try offer as sometimes try help hell likely ignore it switch topic something else involves depression find somewhat suspicious thats me anyone please help thank you would mean so so so much me,1
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hate people start complaining anything them biggest problems mild constipation decide wear tomorrowfck them,1
What cures depression? Food. Lots of it. <Emoji: Grimacing face> #foodporn #burger #chi #foodgram #potd #gg #nom  https://www.instagram.com/p/Bh_c78AAYVV/ ,1
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my sibling ha been dealing with anxiety and depression for awhile it s definitely been affecting his health alcoholism loss of appetite mood swing however he won t acknowledge that fact that he need to see a medical professional we have tried to talk to him about his drinking and health but doe not care to get checked anybody have tip on how to move forward it s tough to see a sibling deteriorating but i don t want to keep heckling him a it get him more angry and le likely to see someone,1
life nothing tortureback story around  father always stubborn man born mother two miscarriages never knew told caused father kicking stomach pregnant proof happened however knowing abusive nature father certainly believe it mother would rebuild house bought less k terrible condition leaks ceiling rats everywhere including slept dad drinking gallon wine per day doubt more started truck driving started rebuild house help horrible lazy construction workers worked small amount money thats could afford would go home depot haul supplies us afraid leave us alone likely babies fall asleep would shake us viciously mother found spied saw performing cruel abuse us babies never called cops never understood see money know hed leave abuse more said would abuse shed spend money road rebuild house unlivable condition back  mother always loving person would never hurt anyone amazing power fortunately received lot money someone helped lot father pushed buy truck picked used truck k ended purchasing course selfemployment truck repaired multiple times severely put mom debt lot money i believe number around kk mother declare bankruptcy decided sell truck k one would buy higher  months ago abusing us body alcohol tobacco went doctor stomach pains turns esophagus cancer stage  refused take doctor recommended treatments went retreat cure cancer instead put k debt treatment helped making feel better close nothing came curing cancer kept reading alternative medicine treatments online curing cancer hes bought natural products work sadly thinks works financially secured dads pension recently took away us pay treatment mother told could declare bankruptcy way debt removed refused asked help pay debt capable spending savings pay treatment declined result hiding pension money recently accident parking lot driving papers fell car tried open door grab papers car moving ended falling car car crashed another parked car course insurance went  father locked room ignored mother presumably avoid paying increase insurance mother demanded pay insurance claimed money spent pay treatment driving around barely walk think properly takes  seconds think say midsentence still license endangering lives driving around public roads ive told drive course became defensive im father boss around bs events breaks heart never knew anyone could selfish cheap stubborn abusive psychotic father barbarian disgusts every morning wake up entire house smells like body decay still get hes dying asked feels enthusiastically attempts say great feel good me ive always felt suicidal think ever kill myself picked middle school made feel disconnected everyone became abusive like father hit sistermother  feel like im living mental illness constant brain fog hard talk people properly im always quite know talk people ill fuck up friends say look normal talk normally thats im around them brain mapping lot shit wrong me said likely traumatic brain injury suspect father baby im going expensive university free im lazy never go computer science class shit already learned online free im always homework last minute motivated work started semester fell bad habits fucking hate life partially fault id appreciate input need get life together im depressed mood writing sleep deprivation,1
love moms like ill use pronouns asked use never fucking uses told mom use hehim pronouns talking said yeah thats ok ill really doesnt like,0
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know movie people watched must seen different joseph smith prophet restoration one sawbr br i think movie welldone inspiring think definitely worth watching apparent outset lot care went making film background scenery beautifulbr br i think film good job portraying joseph smith man prophet josephs spiritual experiences portrayed taste reverencebr br i would definitely recommend watching movie,0
studied exam like week got b instead hate blood tests,0
bet nobodys going read see all also predict somehow miraculously does people become concerned me despite knowing demons sins slightest claiming know better stupid excuse life worthwhile course not ampxbeveryone stuck labyrinth built themselves others built too fucking inane pointless childish fickle way universe decides rule life manage sickening embarrassing ampxbthere damn use all despise every single aspect it ampxbwe united ignorance all ampxbevery passing day become increasingly apparent yet harder somehow see ampxbgtthere one thing certain die sleeping dragon within set free bring retribution last everything wake matter time more less wandering paths aimlessly delusions grandeurlt ampxbeverything remembered forgotten ampxbeverything made fall i ampxbfor day longer weak life fade away dust came ask responses votes please ampxblet fall void eventually jump fall alongside abomination am post matter i,1
"That hard beat of your heart, the endless doubts in yourself and you, yearning for somebody's company, I can say now that they are listed on the numerous signs of depression",1
"What a brillant day, a great for a walk up Black Mountain or a stroll in Colin Glen Forest Park or perhaps a cool pint of the black stuff ",0
feel like im relapsing harder ever beforeevery time feel like could getting better fall back even right truly dont want live much im dragging everyone around me im wasting much time dont want keep that life feels completely meaningless im weight everyone elses shoulders dont know do want gone cant ruin anything else,1
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had a good supper with the family tonight. ,0
every day think itim  f know thats young severely depressed anxious whole life therapy multiple times feel like im much fragile unable cope around me ive serious issues money lately every day think ending life every time ive asked help parents theyve disappointed me know people miss know selfish ive seen dont videos im tired im tired feel like struggling longer isnt worth it feel like life im going struggling earn money end,1
cant fix myself keep something broken aroundi eat sleep cant talk people every day feel like anxiety depression crushing more want go on im sick isolated toaster make toast would keep it no throw away get something works everything shit life done better somebody else think im finally going go start process buying pistol work hopefully weekend go mountains nobody find me finally stop burden,1
life turning thought would sometimes dont see point going oni went decent school expectations life would things turns out took everything get school ever since ive easily tired im  cant even keep job feel weak slightest thing id consider smart insightful thought capable changing world turns im weakling cant get keep job,1
the new album drops soon...you better be getting excited ,0
will is online my depression is cured,1
@madisonshell im proud of you ,0
know do love you please give upone people care life depressed suicidal im scared im saying right things im fighting every fiber around person clearly want left alone hard im sick worry head tells right thing let come around time pressure them heart wants run them god supposed do,1
@cM5y_fawkes Your house is famous! didn't you know? ;D I'm guessing it's because everyone's practically familiar with your house. ,0
"Tired, but not ready to sleep. Does that make sense? I don't know if it does to anyone else, but it does in my world. Woo. ",0
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"Will be holding a 24-hour charity stream dedicated to the @BBRFoundation. As someone who has struggled with depression, this charity near and dear to my heart. Tune in on Friday to show your support guys!  pic.twitter.com/ESLJdigHJF",1
ngl wish wwii bomb exploded city right house preferably im home,0
history test study cannot get motivation study life though tbh could probably kinda skim chapters still fine last year grade probably wont affected even badly,0
saw premier movie  phoenix film festival impressed skill director jeff hare exhibited bringing timely topic screen cast characters meshed perfectly allowed us examine issue senior wishing die his terms warm humorous way peter falk brilliant morris supporting group family members friends perfectly cast roles interaction family friends outsiders morris created realistic view families address issue parents aging wishes die dignitybr br although movie ostensibly movie jewish actor family truly movie families jokes family morris crack romp life force nature fresh realistic childhood rivalries adult successes failures hope children integral screenplay many question make topic suicide humorous thought treatment logical timely afraid shed tears laugh quips family struggling issue must see moviebr br the movie awarded best picture phoenix film festival,0
mystory school leaving ive school since kid since found better one im going different highschool big deal since  people hated entirely fault although barely anything ever happened wanted share one story school hosted breakfast kids get home sometimes would walk gf there interesting thing this every time walked cafeteria one cutoff hallway matter what always pair or group high schoolers making andor crying me friends gf bet couple hall would something honestly cant remember im tired hell right bet something around lines making sacred hall relationship went th december th grade never absence weird high schoolers break fuck tldr is say it hallway ton stupid teenagers made funny hell reason know die im going sleep one good memories old school wanted share,0
got rejected today point bullet brain get withim m im biggest loser world im fat im ugly im stupid im worthless im essentially waste space want connection girl theres single girl earth would even want talk im practically dead inside im like ghost now point wanna die cant even get bed impossible pick head move know future holds hopefully tonight ill get drunk enough gain courage end,1
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i know i shouldn t feel upset about losing a follower who wa probably a porn star or trying to sell me something and yet i do,0
really nothing add comments save this film looked like silent film slowly adapted sound text boards bringing story along reinforced impression suppose along way actors allowed leave stilted theatrelike acting marguerite churchill much looks like typical early silent movie heroine beginning film end allowed finer expressions gus swede reminded comic characters shakespeare plays windy sounded like early donald duckbr br it truly amazed filmed outdoors location even though dust wagons horses cattle obscured view must actually like real settlers also clear many indians must real detect overt racism towards them john wayne looks incredibly young someone became real wayne fan cavalry trilogy john ford thought stage coach waynes first leading star film revelation plot simple reminding silent film grit real indeed amazing film made technique conditions ,0
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know doi failurei cant school work burden familyi want live anymore since know amount nothingi antidepressants witch helping matter many times tell mom tells keep taking themi know anymore want die,1
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redflaghello everyone whatever name may be important come asking for fuck keep living fell love person person thought wanted rest life now know love them truly do wanted marry one day family them even die old age them feel hurt like knife stabbed heart felt before bit younger took full year subside got better felt happy person time truly happy them sure think addicted em love much know others felt but many betrayals much pain much anger frustration feel anymore truly dont happiness sadness thing felt made go rage anger them became alive truly alive them cant live without them confessed love said also love me now theyve said afraid falling love individual shall name know do saying that hurt really fucking hurt pain thought never feel again tried kill before but couldnt coward pathetic human guess useful getting advise bye bye think im good person never sure good anting get way helping someone naturally good whatever may be good person cold merciless ruthless help helping compared past sins neither country give fuck me middle east country im one worst countries id say whole world here animal kingdom get happy get live maybe survive said get seek somewhere else others said leaving finding new home feel better but life good happy them one love even know writing this probably one see it anyone does thank reading hectic maniacal writing just know and know do,1
life decaygraduated cs degree three years ago hoping get job independent get help condition go hospital redflag plans got condition force fed everyday hospital staff awful cant disclose know treat people like learned quickly im qualified anything getting retail job became clear would start fail keep expectations left good terms work full time without freaking cutting myself cant start therapy insurance issues need order look work required job seeking help theres escaping parents theres getting access treatment im trapped way death  hour shifts life friends family endless exploitation severe suffering shortly followed death streets existing comfortable cage everyone force feeding deformity hard interacting people theyre super toxic why must me im terrible person perhaps deserve though id argue deserve far worse thanks listening aria sheher,1
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cant believe it short time liked girl pretty much chatted quite much sure might think let know one thing wouldnt tell time could find guessing gave tips time found out found liked her scared didnt know might think lucky feels same im happy right now btw english bad cant express exactly feel etc,0
Goodnight Stars.... ,0
@aySkillsz  aw im wonder woman now...i do have boi shorts wit stars on it lol,0
dad told thinks dog gonna die give reasons shoot happensor tell dog die vomiting pooping blood took vet prescribed medicines diet,1
thoughts suicide however trying withstand think themi good connection dad often think much happier would parents together even though split benefit both sad strong connection dad fact really strong connection anyone matter hard try hard want conversation someone goes barely anywhere overall social really tears down also self conscious like looks thoughts actions overall like myself would probably ended still young want harm mom sister close themalso recently sister said  know would  really made think impact suicide also tried best comfort self harming helped get dark place ini love mother sister dearly reason still here want alive want dead,1
i got drugged and had to be resuscitated a little over a week ago i ve been casually suicidal for a while now the sound of my friend cry while giving me cpr is burned into my head forever i dont know if i ever lost my pulse but i wa barely breathing until the emts got to me it s scary that this experience didnt change anything about me when i think about it i laugh not in a laugh to hide the pain kind of way but like i actually had to get chest compression to keep me alive from my best friend and that s just so ridiculous like of course that would happen to me of all people idk it s just weird to me that this traumatic a fuck experience didnt change a thing about my outlook on life,1
people tell u wear masks idiotic employees tell u wear masks dont even wear right like bro u nose cover u idiots ive also stores like walmart dont cover nose let ppl goddamn holes masks walk past day waiting dads car mom woman smoking masks comes  hand full groceries btw im anti mask hate ppl dont wear masks right,0
maybe wanting adviceive dealing redflag since high school almost done uni feeling down dont know do would maybe like advice maybe feel better rather recent trend turning alcohol,1
tried end itthe rope used hang doorknob opened door loved one walked in,1
cannot rely family cannot rely friends alone this cannot anymore thing remotely helps cope alcohol always calm loving person recently family friends made mad want scream beat someone pulp feeling scares always loving anger frustration feel eating inside out try deal drinking better hurt liver people everyone unreliable,1
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planning redflag life boringim  ever since high school life became gray boring cycle work gt gym gt maybe meeting friends gt sleep nothing fun anymore everything barely tolerable come home exhausted job absolutley hate im welder construction worker go gym meet maybe friends tiresome seems like nothing fun anymore everything used enjoy dull pale used enjoy video games back dont entertain anymore dont smoke dont drink dont masturbate thing keeps half alive somehow music playing guitar band another issue comes alot head fact often miss emotional physical intimacy point become frustrated actually burst crying midday last girlfriend ever high school together  years breaking up ever since woman tried ask outflirt straight rejected ghosted unexplained reasons tried every thing possible funny smart myself nah nothing works best explanation im straight unattractive casual woman reasons beyond control i guess im  balding work  days week  years already upside muscular body gives me nothing stopped trying goes nothingness zero dating life like had without lot headaches emotional torment put through way dont social anxiety mental blockages interacting people friends lot female friends too no problem there ili ask one female friends theyll reject like happened female friends mine past im depressed dont problem sleeping eating really burnt fucking bored bottom line life wanted things really turned opposite imagined be wake everyday fucking thing tiresome dont want bothered annoyed people anymore dont want deal romantic loneliness bullshit anymore shoulders far long desire continue dwell boring mess live alone since dont believe god endless abyss death me one would give fuck abillity care anything ill free pain plan ending soon enough,1
feel like lying body things okay live permanently alter brain sex drive really want die well actually want over blew it antidepressants worth it,1
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noose drawerhi deeply convinced die im bad core belief thats deeply rooted me past months lost tried build leaving toxic home recovering it much hope anymore died house ive done past five years never destined work out lately like im back there act guilt toxic one im beyond getting better deserve it resolved finish job made noose planned act im afraid one check dead body want neighbor find two weeks smell want leave note friend whats left money im afraid hed find early interrupt me,1
Depression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choiceDepression is not a choice,1
nothing motivates me see point living anymoreever since  things gotten worse worse im   months absolutely nothing motivates me energy anything everything life seems hard pointless bother uk people age level exams pretty much determine future everyone seems care studying them im give shit pass fail find passing worse give excuse continue living cant call redflag line without overhead really option my dad unemployed hear me initially thoughts redflag think it im determined end it thing makes happy slightest imagining dead whenever im class imagine died longer there thought dead genuinely makes happy,1
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back from the casino a big fat loser,0
feel good story something feel happy it bought monitor back used once later got different monitor packed one up time flies put monitor sale someone we name gary finds asks it negotiation nothing regular price meet up give monitor cash gary young extremely polite man also private us air force thats told me polite respectful blew away usually people super disrespectful annoying even funny took monitor took money left reason felt like didnt something right something inside told give money back let keep monitor free called around  minutes left come back meet up did proceeded give money asked why sat there didnt know why something clawing give back told money thanks serving country soon said that turned tears beautiful turns out comeback tour middle east setting new apartment overcome joy just amazing see left could still see gary massive smile across face felt like done something wonderful yet still didnt know drove give him gary love man serve thank service ps  grammar gonna garbage finished  word essay im done english,0
i am 0 live in the usa full time college student and full time journalist i am in my third year of college which is not going a good a i want just like the first two year i don t know what to do anymore i don t think i want to commit suicide but i feel stuck and i don t see any forward momentum for myself so i just really don t know what to do anymore and i have practically no interest in my job or school i don t think i can continue to do both but i can t do one without the other either due to finance and lack of a degree i feel helpless and on top of that i have a heart transplant which make me reliant on employment eventually someone please help me i am caught between wanting to succeed and wanting to fall asleep and never wake up,1
never gets easieryou ask time id ever attempt again everytime tell no cant even begin tell amount times day still consider though dont even trust alone anymore im trying,1
worried cousinim worried  yearold female cousin ill call rachael horrible childhood neglectful father emotionally abusive mentally ill mother ruined life drugs died rachael  never met rachael wedding family brought us together year ago seemed relatively happy welladjusted given life story although noticed scars wrists cutting which blamed cat caught staring rachael college senior sixth year dropped ton courses changed major many times nobody knows now got load student debt clear career goals began retreat social circle even family believe severely depressed though flatly denies rejects kind help even talking family including me mom sort adopted became mother figure rachael never had even pick phone mom calls rredflagwatch im worried cousin might something stupid history self harm least one redflag family her uncle mothers overdose may intentional too see point view must feel like burden laden debt completely blank future insidious kind self destructive depression kind rationalize know do,1
hey you yeah mean bud look beautiful today love you please enjoy day need help anything dont afraid ask people love help,0
perpetuumi committed far happiness excessively beyond ahead me made choice abandon current pleasure future latters appeal distant realize provide motivation wont make  years fuck life,1
plan killing tomorrownot sure im supposed posting here where dont really fucking know anymore so im  ive got many things life could name good make happy guess thats whats gonna make much harder know good life compared people im abused im bullied school dont know feel like this dont know whats wrong me dont want alive dont want exist dont know why im fucking dumb even funny im even smart enough ask questions get smarter dont understand things world work forget stuff much zero motivation almost anything used love drawing hands shake cant make right lines isnt turning right none is cant school work couple weeks im falling behind cant understand material none making sense tomorrows sisters birthday turns  dont get see cause shell moms house thought that guess ill end dying birthday know thats gonna suck dont really day could on im gonna miss im gonna miss little brother older sister im gonna miss everyone dont plan life dont want anymore im probably gonna take fuck ton pills doesnt work theres always bunch guns dads closet know anymore im hoping  hours wont anymore ive tried medicine counseling anything could imagine end didnt work still wishing dead get ive got many fucking years ahead dont care anymore,1
When depression hits so does anxiety.,1
lowest point ever mewell im  ive fucked life much cant get out since high school ive always joked around grades okay best one semester college  community college like high school yet got  gpa semester im thinking enlisting im fat ive trying lose weight im nonathletic even dad calls  year old  year olds body hurts much want end life whats point fuck wish dog pass away one could let feelings feel judge about,1
samuel fuller knows war one directors american movie history could accurately portray horrific experiences form like motion picture pessimism idealism sounds little odd mix together work storyteller time hes always tell truth however brutal or put melodramatic constructs get verboten however deals postwar experience get opening scenes big boom war bold point opening shot like one big exclamation point seems continue rest scenes dead soldier ground camera pans up see another soldier shot wartorn terrain simple direct language fuller punctuates intensity something interesting title song played opening credits irony sincerity beethoven music shootout americans nazis sgt david brent james best shot battle goes on transitions treated woundsbr br it might lead one believe somewhat conventional ww flick somewhat one usually find beethoven and later extent wagner put images case instead fuller makes coming home kind movie though sense this soldier comes home injured on instead really going home brent stays germany hes fallen head heels woman helga susan cummings pretty good pulling german accent wants work smaller capacity military marry her realize a wants money get food brother however gets complex emotionally point revelation slightly naive heartfelt brent b theres underground hitler youth sect called werewolves want pick right hitler ended starting small despite argument within group attacking government thats embedded germany give them brent describes blood transfusion this plus footage nuremburg trials as narrated think fuller himself quick nopunchespulled history nazi war crimes piece piece get multifaceted look society dire straits immediate postwar environment rossellini handled way germany year zero fuller tackles layers first theres love story tragic downfall man cant see anything past thinks reasonable wife child way cant leave revelation hes partly swindled baker cummings along harold daye helgas young confused brother perform utmost detail emotions easy bmovie parts though couldve that another layer political one struggle society come grips conquered mentality made sensationalized sure fuller respect making nazis total nograyarea thing theyre evil particularly cancel reason meet endsbr br and finally theres layer style strangely absorbing probably one fullers talkiest films bad thing considering one best written scripts characters talk simply many platitudes with exception small scene two characters talk hitler youth juvenile delinquents actually according fullers autobiography probably another layer consider subtext s period movies fuller shoots almost real european style hes going fight scenes battles editing always fast sometimes cut happen full minute longer theres odd tension grows this especially theres something said character gets another one wildeyed suspicious fuller could easily go big closeup theres sinister cold quality moving away two people conversation without simple overtheshoulder deal requires it like big brawl outside american military office nuremburg footage spliced franzs memories werewolves fuller stunning stylist everbr br very hard find extremely worth your either fan directors ww movies set germany even historybuff verboten intellectual experience strong emotional one cast better expected bmovie attitude towards other equally damning thought provoking,0
im officially one turned   minutes ago yeah much else say except happy birthday,0
message highschoolers reddit  year old bragging im popular kid school dont ask see me anyway ive seen lot people giving girl advice guy advice blah blah blah one talking this thought would  yr male never relationship sad start lemme start again ok seriously  worship popular guys want popular guy dont want impress girls want bad boy oh ui_flew_the_kamikaze bully me want cool too no no popular sucks wish wasnt popular honest  one thing wanted say take exams seriously dont slack saying im  yr old minecrft youtuber one likes those plan b want sdo anything fine plan b something solid something like safety cushion fall upon passion cant feed ya ampxb  love shit girlfriends boyfriends good found true love yay others lonely people stuck love stop complaining lonely find hobby yourself used lonely too get it ampxb  depressed like am vent out cant dm me cant vent im embarassed like poison me late anything beyond repair not talk ampxb  girls one you please make fun us manly fuck say that ampxb thats it ig,0
wa said to me by my mom too the sentence still ring in my mind not because of how much it irritates me but because of how inherently true it is and not long before that she also felt the need to tell me directly that she doesn t care about how i feel nor if i hurt myself thanks for supporting me mom after already struggling with a potent and vicious envy tormenting and tearing me apart from the inside out that nobody besides myself can comprehend the degree of i ve reached a breaking point beyond what i ve felt before living life unable to stop thinking of someone who feel the exact same just better disturbingly similar attribute idea and one particular concept a concept they executed first because unlike me they re smart and put their year of childhood into crafting something awe inspiring something i should ve done by now it all perfectly line up and enunciates all of my shortcoming constant cry nightmare panic attack and many point of a gun to my head i m nineteen and they re a year younger than i am which really tell how close i wa all of these desire and concept too bad they were stuck in a frangible brain like mine so i could only watch everyone similar sprout and bloom into something significant and prodigious something i should have done unfortunately i clearly wasn t meant to accomplish any of that so i ve tried drawing box and figure but in the end i know better how it ll take year of struggling with this before anything i create even resembles anything i want it to be i don t have the willpower to do it nothing to overcome my feeling of valuelessness i ve just wanted to impress people endlessly feeling boring and disposable take a toll on you especially when you see other people very similar to you shining like star and this mean there s technically no more passion in me passion is the heart and soul in the concept of art so there it is i m not capable of true art i can t comprehend true art sure whatever may be unique about me will die with me before any of it could come out but you know what there s a lot of people out there who do it better there are people who s unique idea are more intuitive and inspiring than mine are the artist i envy ha executed concept and idea with disturbingly strong similarity to my own just better and there are many alike him a well so if people would like whatever is unique about me so damn much they can just go to that fucking artist instead the one who didn t fuck everything up the one who could handle the hardship he wa dealt i m done with it all i already tried shooting myself in 0 and failed once i try a second i definitely won t have to try a third,1
mfs like bitches bitch youre bitches hahaha,0
read time guesshi need anyone read maybe leave comment feel fucking alone whole life shit show abusive father drugs lived poverty entire childhood live extremely small town small bores me feel stuck also dont enough money move anything big mothers side family doesnt speak me neither fathers really nobody except siblings mother recently ive lost friends girl ive loved years doesnt want me im idiot trying take ged classes currently struggle basic math reason left high school depressed anxious everyday couldnt it ive like since elementary everyone nice life except feels like would nice go buy something eat something without worrying money ive depressed long im tired battle dont know do im terrified death hurting mother siblings sometimes urges reach nightstand take whole bottle pills digs me past week especially embarrassing self harm too  ps diagnosed borderline personality disorder  feel like loser wish could different life even better never born bit messed post much correct grammar probably late want kill lol im also sick telling people feel getting told go sleep think something positive hurts much try hard live getting difficult anyways let know thinking sorry,1
come togetherwe exactly edge past edge wouldnt posting here werent close edge wouldnt post here unimaginable spot dying worst thing do yet obviously is ridiculous that none us figure death fits life us pretend others wonder end us feel like failed whether step edge back away it feel like lose way every way living dead welcome you welcome whatever is whether want say not dealing problem different causes scraping bottom barrel want get means necessary dont want die to isnt crazy always thought death perfect answer felt lucky solution reality dying creates another problem another thing deal with another thing us get wrong convinced dying answer wouldnt debating secondguessing ourselves never know right answer right thing cant trust to others might us weve failed many times cant go like that life death feel equally desirable equally unacceptable feel two opposites right thing weve done failed theres winning us switch words death dying words life living everywhere post message stays same stuck inevitably us find life others find opposite us feel better others feel worse one way another find way out million ways out used live fantasy world much want go back realize never feel felt yesterday feel tomorrow today get worse dont make work making better cant stay edge forever even though might end best place found in racing clock need answers now none us chose edge us want get out let life choose them maybe thats best maybe not enough left want choose myself whether life death happiness apathy frontwards backwards dont want limbo figure right thing do wrong thing know wrong thing feeling even death wouldnt solve problems know wrong thing feeling even life wouldnt solve problems im advocating one thing other dont know answer dont know answer theres right answer theres wrong answer this back forth infinite feeling hopelessness edge overlooks neither life death im sick feeling powerless need go answer need either succeed get past this fail get with feel like feel never forgot it lose like lost never trust yourself never forget loses top that that weve managed create whole new kind unhappiness us whole new level torment type existence takes everything leaves nothing cant happy life cant happy death gives manage create something irrational unrealistic undefinable common struggle took identity take lot granted sure could not losers lost lost losers whatever is pales comparison edge standing on alone weve proven unsuccessful even worse lets take advantage one thing share lets put together experiences perceptions idiosyncrasies things care things dont couldnt alone admit it lets together lets see cant figure together might way remove edge on im going post main account throwaway im serious this no dont plan repeat dont answers want try something new run time could worst thing do dont know could best thing do dont know decide next move lets come together decide need do message text eightfivesix twoeightthree sevenfourtwosix point post express way thinking give idea am want join me join us make happy want less sad try win lose get bottom this,1
fuck swear god genetic modification gonna end product crapitalism ruin everything people gonna start trade marking parts human fucking genome honestly gotta make sort laws make cant trademark fucking genes,0
@tnhuckaby Do U ever upload 2 WordMP3? Kinda an MP3 sermon collective. My Pastor back home runs this site &amp; I listen from Japan ,0
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ok know im gonna go commit bunch crimes least im wanted someone,0
help me ive writers block one thing  years ive really wanted write story  years thing holding back cant figure kind character antagonist is backstory want want it someone could please help me driving insane years,0
reaching breaking point years ago met girl instantly best friends with inseparable together every weekend together every single day summer eventually became friends everything great  weeks ago started spending time new person would barely talk me asked this got extremely defensive told doesnt want one person time tried explain felt like replaced going leave would rather tell ghost me insisted wasnt leaving crazy stayed one else entire life days nights revolved around her hurt worse anything anyone else let her found sporadically texting ex throughout entire relationship apparently told wasnt fun relationship year one periods got another girl pregnant broke planning raise child him also talking guys found mom also reason believe went date one them texted days breakup didnt respond hasnt tried contact since shes busy boyfriend new best friend hurts bad  years threw away like garbage hurts im hurting doesnt give single solitary fuck feel beyond betrayed lied to ive seen around campus looks directly eyes smirks could someone loved deeply betray like this realize never loved me never saw anything time filler convinced ex get back together her lied face believed her thats hurts most im breaking point barely energy go class anymore mom new boyfriend doesnt care anymore one except best friend lives  miles away would probably better without me im tired existing life doesnt get better gets worse alone ive seeing psychologist helping nothing does dont know anymore tldr best friendgirlfriend  years betrayed me feeling hopeless,1
family thinks genius notupdate reddit saved life tonight much longer anyone want read ive included concise summary end floated grades middle school point designed web site eventually receiving  unique hits per day making fair amount money advertisements th grade honest truth lucky sites topic happened extremely popular time amongst age group spread people school jumped schools district elsewhere family began think genius prodigy sorts destined bring familys name greatness hah truth is lucky determined site closed careless uncommitted longterm done anything publicly great since ninth grade took heartened interest girls brought bout extreme selfcontentiousness grades fell caused alcoholic mother seriously drank almost obsessively rage untapped potential began using drugs form escapism nothing extreme th grade began experimenting certain class drugs experience extreme ego death almost every time use these swear almost feel thin strings attaching rest world snapping time take them believe id worth world anonymous manipulation selfsacrifice highschool would often create fake screen names accounts social networking sites manipulate people school common cause hating anonymous school trashtalker talking collegiate intellectual or course rallying hackers hacked website school would partake groupthink occurring joyously senior year mom forced independent study grades suffering   never homework independent study immediately found loophole simplydesigned online system grading never school work year lead experimentation drugs missing graduating friends graduating  great friends  amazing friends honestly offered place live time need it fucking mean it cant handle living someone im close to never have im mainly afraid think theyll think something goes wrong selfdiagnosed problem self worth never contact anyone much preferring hope contact me almost shy almost id prefer anonymous actions could luckily friends valued enough call regularly get house expressing general interest welfare mom almost taken role child relationship since hit puberty family told ones put thought head originally never grew up honestly amazing artist lead amazing life faked adult young keep began grow well would kick regularly extreme fights would spend night beach one schools close house eventually started living friends house weeks time proved abusive itself felt using friend little offer return friendship mom kicked drunken rage two summers ago left uncles house utah used live central coast california live snowy desert weather almost unbearably depressing winter mood mirrors almost perfectly ive year now made friends though ive opportunities make connections place dislike rare occasion ive made connection someone opportunity to people would normally associate with see judging people show inspiration insight lives hurts around them relationships falter week usually sooner never see again realize around them also show interest insight met here want friends me makes matters worse uncle providing modest employment though usually performing meaningless tasks business offered me many occasions capital business own business would almost certainly involve web site foundation honestly know id fucking begin internet seems fully explored now difficult think original site gaining traction online daunting task honestly want deal with getting normal job frowned upon family especially grandparents bring things chide me talk family treat dictionary pointing questions me assuming know insulting ive began saying i know everything ask me hopes dissuade asking more friends expect return california soon keep telling next semester sure never manage work enough save enough move back friends one close enough touch see start break down stop basic things like sleeping going work put sleeping  hours once really care sleeping nothing do slept  hours stay awake  hours weekly basis reason all abuse sleeping pills point extreme hallucination done extremely stupid dangerous things influence certain substances utah realize lot uncle willing support endeavors endeavor hurts even thinking it ive recently stopped going work enrolled classes community college here rarely attend two three teachers literally reading book teach class one asks explain simple things them depressing announced hired teach class days semester started barely qualified so class full middleaged my job needs im going take class fill roll types often fake going class go library instead ive taken drinking ive smoking lot since got here stopped brushing teeth properly medical insurance teeth rotted believe two molars fall out background heres meat tldr family expects feel give alone  year go out talk anyone save occasional online chat phone call old friends wake late fake attending classes put going fake job drink nightly point blacking out im making money get better job make money snow makes want die incapable would seem escape ive cutting right wrist deeper deeper every week so wrist band one notices one touches me never moves one notices im thinking making final soon date planned anything point stop one find drive already assumed better are,1
hate family talk politics argue like stupid goes neanderthal brain every time talk politics argue maybe shouldnt wouldnt divorce threats every   months,0
right redflag noteim never good talking feelings dont want mess up give tips writing pls thankslt,1
ive gotten volunteer job studio recently studio gaming studio happens located state live told play testing new vr game studio developing think called freddy virtual experience something like that hopefully able enjoy funtime play testing set release ps yes repost deal it,0
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is at church with Joshie. This place is huge! ,0
need feel better nowi havent good day years want die need feel better right now else cant stay anymore need something start turning life around else end it theres choice cant suffer anymore,1
getting ready the with minnie and @vicdelesseps.   so happy,0
father making suffer entirety middle school school ive made many good friends relationships came gone year emotionally destroyed dad retiring wants go back home town forcing whole family go there finished  grade entering  grade school nearly  years ripped apart everybody old mans fantasy im seeking emotional support whole family telling man stop baby,0
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im ending tuesdayeveryone subreddit suffered alot me ive read stories abuse abandonment etc makes feel weak shitty reasons life ive happy child genuinely times parents suffered severe eczema toddler  years old despite bullying ew ugly boy remarks pretty girls school fact bottom classes genuinely stupid everything seemed fine however recent years ive pushed edge developed bad anxiety hate meeting anybody even family live with it never know stand sit talk look point worth going effort anyone all got point began hallucinate auditory visual fears hid years im wierd af avoid bullying knew would emerge hid aspects created boring teenage character talk avoid mistakes hung losers school avoid get attention others listened rap others did existential crap started happening began realise life whole point meaning whatsoever let alone individual stupid little person im  things getting even worse earlier  parents found cutting myself freaked out mum got pissed beyond imagination ended getting help psychologists psychiatrists thought would change me would come completely fine didnt even expensive highly recommended psychologist help somehow avoid wasting parents money put happy face pretended got better stop treatment major exams coming revised shit ive sat home played video games constantly broke crying skipped necessary work day even somehow manage stumble past exams good grades future interests know barely take hour work let alone required levels let alone work whole life im bit pathetic really asked hobbies are thing say playing video games forget world means escape lie people want engineer doctor shut up ive tried getting interested topics good always end thinking useless cant bothered research anything make worse go private school everyone around achieves really high parents im always failure top know im monster ive never helped anybody mum dad love bits still snap everyday lie time internal frustration im pretty sure dad aspergers infact kinda obvious selfish evil upmost despicable thing me hate him hate hes different wierd hate fact genes within hate fact married mum made life miserable forced born whenever try communicate friends end toxic never bother talking anymore never get girlfriend want one know ill ruin life much ive ruined own lived till long afraid afterlife religion forced upon sense leave grew older fear the punishment redflag always stopped me im longer pussy end hell it deserve anyways,1
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dead chickens seem like metaphor lifeim religious anything like that feel like im cursed anything touch turns shit woke morning  chickens lying dead yard one beheaded seems like metaphor everything really think it nurture something care it try best know giant bloody fucking mess started gradually shit piling im sure much longer im going handle it im sick trying putting effort everything stay get even worse like spent  months saving last year nice little pile cash start new life reasons control lost job housemate time fucked money thats small blip too tempted od one thought keep trying harder try shitter things get losing job started snowing lost place boyfriend pets im living back dad presents problems much choice last lived early teens pretty abusive drunk day still host mental health problems know do know change things cant get work im sure cant despite best efforts i get knocked back every interview get know do people namely ex seem think matter attending psychologist appointments which ive done past whole shebang feeling better improve everything else feels like universe even though know sounds stupid mean even start get healthier less suicidal like everything going fall back place much random shit constantly goes wrong ever believe could true last week chickens died randomly laptop broke library internet fucked whole host family drama bore even with list goes on know people vastly different lives make sense me brothers girlfriends welfare long nice place nice things live suitcase extremely mentally unstable fathers house know sounds like jealousy know kid tantrum want things get better once improve without break it,1
help person school problems plz ok im th grade small catholic school thats person last year school student council elections stuff last friday wanted go vice nd place prez gets vice ran president couple people friend shea friend evieone really close friends exactly friend group low key gay crush thats kinda irrelevant lmao kinda procrastinating speech came idea chickfila dayonce month get chickfila sell little extra food usually gets votes school haha day speeches elections talking camera livestreamed whole school finished speech pretty short point expressing ideas shea goes speech little long mom liked talked faith promised covid care packages candy stuff evie goes speech also long talked dad proud running starting charity events couple people ran kinda irrelevant wasnt even expecting vp thought evie gonna win afternoon announced shea vice really happy family surprised thought would lose night evie sleepover kelly one best friends younger friends started hating think hates mom went psychotic mom birthday party brother  people anyway monday went school william shea kept implying bribed everyone voting me  shea willam kinda friends mostly hang evie like haha weird jokes cool went recess saw evie talked kinda cold made joke bribed everyone like ok game started didnt talk all next day asked kelly evie mad like shes mad thinks played rules didnt on student council packet said bribing meant giving candy money since shes really cold looking eyes everything thursday ive told shes mad me shes mad shes mad people keep asking shes mad um help want friend back  tldr think friendkinda crush mad thinks bribed everyone electing president  kinda ngl proposed chickfila day lmao love dont know people saying annoyed everyone asking shes mad help im begging u,0
word thx pronounced like thixx answer amp never asked ,0
theekween it help with depression anxiety and loss of a loved one thelmasherbs,1
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im realizing im loser lol almost  im reddit math homework today photomath working cant basic math im siting room thats full anime merchandise pondering life also thinking reading yaoi soon,0
like room full sunlight people hear chatter laughter feel sunlight skin sunlight pricks like shards glass chatter feels like sharpnoisesthat makes sense yousuddenly starts fade feels like sweeped big hole darkness light passes you touch you warmth chatters mumbles fading away silence calmness sit there quietly falling pit darkness want scream are comes smile facethe fall like pull like dragged tremendous weight depth ocean weight existence worthless burden unloveable unfullfilling finally hit rock bottom break down tears flow scream but end there even rock bottom breaks feels heavier like never ending fallsometimes touch wrist feel pulse check alive coz thing makes feel like still living feel happiness remorse sadness one feeling left pain never ending depression feels like,1
danireese witherspoon always close older sister maureenemily warfield start falling love neighbor courtjason london terrible tragedy strikes two sisters realize nothing keep apart love never fade awaybr br this truly heartbreaking story first love probably painful story young love ever seen acting amazing reese witherspoon gives great performance first movie would give man moon ,0
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money isnt suppose to depress you,0
feel like ive completed role world im ready goi empathize lot robin williams often bring smiles others tend saddest point life decided light world im high functioning suicidal person always try help others compliment others friendly kindness genuine never expect anything return making others smile making others happy makes feel happy feel like role world make little pleasant others time im ready go dont want more im great job generally well liked others every night cry sleep sometimes light crying usually wailing sobs asking im dead yet every day think new ways im getting closer closer achieving really want im stage calm storm feel strangely peace knowing im going meet fate soon,1
people people scare me pleases me bring forth memes children shall start internal war chose sides chungus sus,0
milkymoomoo yuk end of year account i need to make a start of mine too,0
hope im strong enough go thisgoodbye cruelest worlds meet someone disguised themself perfect tore apart ripped shreds destroyed me made believe loved anything cruel someone love paint good one one puts effort one keeps trying hard make work im bad you ive manipulated worse even feel guilty it belong world universe cease exist feel peace feel anything exist,1
someone work got fired shouting testicles intercom said attention shoppers testicles all thank you legend,0
im guys mental health destroyed life im donewhen  everything live for straight as great relationship ivy league college depression anxiety stole all take two years focus mental health finally managed get degree spent next  years working minimum wage job im strong enough anything more ivy league degree fucks sake love life beautiful doctor stuck  finally broke time shes spent last year calling texting maybe getting back relationship either cancelled every time plans meet anxiety last month started dating guy cant face another day shit medication exercise therapy nothing works bother see hell naturally,1
i have been trying to drop in on a ramp every time i do it in the last second i lean back and fall i can simulate it in my head but my fear or anxiety prevents me i literally went skydiving last week but i can not get myself to do a simple trick i ve fallen plenty of time so what s the worst thing that can happen it s weird how fear is relative i go skydiving one week and the next week i get nervous while driving or when talking to a girl one ha more fatal consequence while the other one just make me nervous i want to conquer all fear but trying new thing is always stressful,1
mother physically capable shutting yesterday almost missed viola lesson home bc someone elses house lost track time mom home point instead giving break picking once ran way home  minutes spare morning im still mad victimized kept mumbling breath loud enough hear shit her im reality shes never much empathy me ever fuck mom,0
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im gonna kill selfi friends friends get fucking leave fault im gonna end im gonna fucking hang done bye everyone,1
took  mg tylenol pills last night still alivefor past days ive trying trying myself sunday took  xanax pills passed somehow managed call ex boyfriend said saved life making heart beat faster next day yesterday tried mixing half bottle wine  extra strength mg tylenol pills woke  hours later sweating incredibly nauseous going slowly die would rather quick way ive trying someone let know thanks,1
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i think i have tonsillitis,0
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seems okbut not every fibre going torture daily immediate surrounding makes sad depressed day in day out many friends know make enough money change situation trapped tiny room still one listens one cares people around super selfish family friends taken granted left hanging need fresh start personal life way behind curve im sure ill make alive career end see positive changes personal life family friend relationships recent years depression cant remember last time content life wish friends would remember reach genuine caring friend never type family support try reaching still get blown off feel alone battle suicidal depressed life supposedly best years yet chained mother life seems life own go motions thing going job really hope long term finally get move start living healthy normal life,1
"My hobbies include subtweeting, depression naps, regular naps and anxiety attacks",1
being border restricted victim day by day we getting engulfed in frustration depression suicidal attempt and much more that we can t express in word depression fmwangyisaveindianstudents takeusbacktochina 99,1
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guys one parent cause theyre slightly less abusive make halfhearted apologies abusing act like angel wrong all fuck dad im cutting mom life im ,0
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"Diagnosed with ADD, severe depression, & severe anxiety. I'm a triple threat, baby <Emoji: Smiling face with sunglasses>",1
just leavin work my foot hurt,0
first day  want die everthats it thats post want fucking die,1
i am deathly afraid of driving over an hour away from my town i hate the feeling that i m vulnerable to my car breaking down and me getting stuck over night somewhere is this stupid the fear is very intense and crippling the thought of having a panic attack somewhere off an interstate exit and being hundred of mile from anyone i know to bring me comfort,1
 honestly growing alone guy  sisters dad picture always alone school friends hones since like november  praying everyday something bad happens something ends killing mei really purpose sometimes get motivation things like little businesses started think even try like ik something hate dislike pushing away mom sisters know one day say fuck end waiting right opportunity life going might aswell leave nobody would miss really,1
im worthless imo getting worsehi dudes posted back going get help would magically fix everything wrong waaaaaay wrong im lot shit now saw worthless before much worse now least kept pain myself think quite neutral environment family some friends know im fucking parasite harm environment fucking good everyone better im gone ill wait th birthday friends hope get opportunity say goodbye,1
care anythingi care family husband loves want anymore really care sex  years quit college  hours left care ill never finish care appearance care ive stolen almost every job ive ever worked at conscience it care get caught care anymore mom alcoholic never loved enough stay sober stay close care im deep debt ill never get out makes difference care anything anymore goodbye,1
caution potential spoilers aheadbr br steven spielberg presents tiny toon adventures always one favorite cartoons growing heck still is movie perfectly captures everything love show puts fulllength formbr br beautifully animated tokyo movie shinsa studio wb outsourced every tiny toons project best studio handle show movie starts end school year acme looniversity renowned cartoon college buster babs bunny no relation teenage toon peers learn masters animated lunacy looney tunes final bell movie splits five different plots buster engages babs water gun fight culminates bursting dam tidal wave sending buster babs elmyras dog byron downriver overturned picnic table search adventure deep south plucky duck talks hamton pig family letting come happyworldland the happiest place western hemisphere put excruciating car ride threat chainsawwielding hitchhiker elmyras cat furball finally runs away dauntednot plenty aminals play acme safari park fifi la fume devotes summer hunting heartthrob movie star johnny pew hopes getting autograph course hotel hes staying nearly impenetrable shirley mcloon sets fortune telling booth acme acres boardwalkand lets guard day fowlmouth takes see horror flick skunkophobiabr br all story lines sidesplittingly hilarious even overlap end complaint movie make full use tiny toons roster  dizzy devil mary melodie one scene gogo dodo appears beginning end film montana max sweetie calamity coyote little beeper nowhere found still theyre excusable flaws otherwise perfect film movie pretty rare today since  years old never released dvd knowledge highly suggest track  anyone whos fan warner bros animation either classic contemporary needs see movie,0
know need help trust anyonemy experiences made trust myself post asking help want hope solve problems mine,1
told family im part incels stopped talking methey never child see whats wrong joining group shown love compassion right get mad seeking comfort solace people like myself,1
work makes depressed reminds fighting tooth nail till day die wage cannot get close affording rent anywherei affraid work want everything handed me want live want able stay warm eat without worrying money want able buy food necessities without equating price many therapy appointments wasi want live want want live want feel like walking trapi tired seeing articles job makes depressed bigger problem going on want exhausted time want energy despite chronic health issuesi want feel like deserved things adult scam,1
testing post reddits accting rn im tryna see rteenagers,0
not sure much ill handle anymore,1
okay im going disagree past comments criticized show happen think show awesome i mean jasmin weber still franzi still alive addicting surprised learn categorized soap carry look feel soaps america soaps absolutely horrific least gzsz films location features real music plausible story lines moreover acting gzsz part quite believable especially josephine schmidt felix jascheroff plus soap actors hardest workers around business demanding work schedules ratings high must something right soaps america shown daytime and historically always rockbottom ratings give gzsz chance trust me good,0
@drob17 thx Soror I will! Enjoy ur beach day ,0
@kristi_link You know I think you're right! Will be great to see Calvin on MTB again. ,0
just finished lunch. ,0
know post here think step outside world thing thats gonna keep harming family read help lotim  m us know post this first ill address bad things ive done tell porn problems soften it ill tell life trauma after ive commited sexual misconducts whatever called committed sexual crimeswhen  college freshman year like cute kid acted childish never acted wrong anybody really sick mind without knowingnever sum wrong that freshman college went party friends house started trying kiss her like wanted make even kinda friendsi really drunk dropping glasses alcohol shit avoided guess like wtf wrong him kept persisting moments left go place went waited come bathroom straight locked bathroomshe kissed laughing leftafter peed bathroom went dancing place sat grabbing head told bother much im sorry im sorry got wrong kinda hugged got never spoken much after friends time laughed situation guess tell sick sometimes year kept insisting girls make up really bad think flirty way mostly jerk absolute sick fuck like locking situationbut couldnt control ego think whatever was specially drunk ur high  years  think started become absolutely sick working supermarket sales men saw adult women big butt took photo her know why went home deleted thinking like wtf doing remember th grade week friends used teachers sister told time  dumb  stopped always hated people that even high school friends came pictures took women subway shit like bad guys realized years somehow ended again year went party friend mine girlfriends made classmate  made friend even friends really drunk drunk us started make realizing buzzed stopped made party like  hours bc thought better might first moment absolutely misconstrued idea sexual things viewed porn came off dancing really close put hand groin clothes groin took hand like minute put hands breast made thats it think bad bc drunk something made still realized absolutely education sexual behaviour all year party april trying get make girl always liked her work usually played made feel bad fun got mad felt ashamed calmed went girl found attractive knew liked since last year nothing happened year talking agreed go make went tent alone talked things good time tried touch boob something said stopped thats it felt awkward persist try make stay nice moment left discovered secret guess like  hours made girl friend girlfriend friend think drank tequila shots make bolder extremely dangerous started making way persistent go somewhere else go step beyond tried much touch tho told one time put hand groin too second time that controlling even people trying sleep making side too know alone made think going scare girl sober know second time persistent take hands times kinda realized calmed idk kept making talking things morning even woke take bad situation kept kissing general acted terrible point stopped apologizing shit did woke shit may know worry anymore tell it someone really accepts read know disgust people get mad sum obvious social media time seem bad bc friend always told liked her guessed bad year  years lots people getting canceled movement said i apologize calms thats hit switch say hell no exposed ill accept bc im coward sent long text asking felt situationthat deadass persisted much desperate told suicidal thoughts live abusive brother bullied school put thru much violence scared wouldve gf wouldve jackass scared could explode violence none lie realizing life absolute shitload trauma  well told yeah persistent take hands her surprise message kinda remember situation told felt abused men situations thought thing drunk party type thing respected admitting things get help thanked really listening me gave help advice  thankful her apologized told harassed her reality abuseor assault harassment all went read laws world fell me honestly know abuse known wouldve reported myself know shit consent anything tho knew stop done day crazy me started connecting thisthat acted extremely different moments started realize sick miseducated help all  month thing  party everything good fine started dancing one girl really close other minutes dancing tried kiss her said no started get far people thinking creep ass shit could work guess told like go place wouldve better said  got place tried kiss repeatedlythinking flirtingthinking playful know why think drunk time realize acting extremely weird persistent got tired left day apologizeis like time given sickness explain below basically days later friend mine called saying wanted accuse harassment  wanted talk me phone something person like ok suremy friend set meeting met like friday  pm talk this let us talk told lots people saying made everyone n shit thought saying  told telling anything ish happened acting dumb drunk know really cause happened long time ago cant remember think drunk somehow used weird ish point fkn know why point screwed up  months quit basketball feeling trash feek self esteem all started first heavy depressive phase kept going parties year never got anything anybody scared persistent never wanted bother anybody halloween year  went party friends girl trouble with one made friend me one always played me got party soon arrived told wth there like arrived started trying make angry friend day whenever said something like no say anything whenever put song party playlist removed it isolating friends friendslame ass friends anything got drunk hellhad left dog alone home spent time money go party isolating got drunk without thinking connected alcohol really hits make get problems out basically got drunk hell lost conscious remember point woke laying floor vomit clothes friend telling treat people like that guess told girl btch sum honestly think deserved anyway acted terrible honestly remember this remember waking seeing friends laughing girls friend trying make stop threatening kick out friend always taken care ofif couldve died alcohol poisoning felt betrayed went full defensive mode talk girl days returned talk them honestly going full shell mode next year fucked up talk  people school jerk depressed fuck point said  hell lonely anything started pressuring best friend spend time without knowing sick head went partying times moderated drinking solved anything half year went club started dancing girl hand thing again im sure watched ish porn time worked started grabbing touching clothes all way approach people still wrong shit year went party leaving leaving girls kinda flirted meand made uncomfortable lots times drank pure alcohol bolderdangerous decision againthinking like needed make someone isolating abnormal levels went subway know going getting drunk got alone started kissing making subway train people watching put hand groin clothes if reading things makes someone mad tell im piece ish help all know type ish ok all worked starting making touching other horny hell subway friday night guess people looking us like hell happening told sex replied kept talking like got persistent go somewhere else desperate interaction someone real wanted stop living year ago realize extremely need help separated realized going anywhere make her buzzed barely could walk left felt nauseous realize come back home  drank bottle bolder ever drink fucking alcohol ill explain problems drinking too apologized girl mainly consensual feel im able tell sorry ish get exposed ig some acted like creep say sorry behaviour ill ask feels something im trying better life entered college throughtout life took care lots girls abused harassed ive congratulated lots times ive told thanks taking care dancing get creepsters out even first big party took friend car guy taking thereshe absolutely drunk buzzed honestly people even clapped hands looking good guy came mei controll times absolutely fucked view sexual intercourse realized it day know got like that know lead it felt tho bad view sex still persist felt awkward classmates knew dumb guy take chances something girl mental issues alcohol issues contributed feel shame saying fell sickness thats gross parties were wont say much got harassed got ass grabbed molested  times school even got butt grabbed normal day class group girls everytime even girlfriends laughed this saying lying cute get harassed thats people conceptions changed everyone denies acting like that ill explain problems try write much boring porn problems hugei started watching eleven years old got addicted  watched mostly everyday  years oldthere days didnt days busy want everyday thing gf we saw  times dumped made fun whole year never got interaction women got college  years old time watched porn   times even  times day sometimes  times  remember every day saying times hell watching watched type porn without knowing learning that watched bus harassement type videos asian videos worst ish think general industry porn unreal penetrating people outta nowhere girls randomly wanting things you general porn man persist things happen ive battling perverted thoughts since kid whenever bus intrusive thoughts we do seemed like happened often never anything anybody train something anxious compulsive mind without knowing made erase ish thought whenever girl put body train sum happened lot stepped back really nervous trying make anyone uncomfortablei dumb fantasies urges like cousins teachers old women honestly point thought like irresistible women manifest anything somehow preserved consciousness like wtf  yo kidand always ended falling porn stopped times never got it addicted since kid childhood tragic poor mother died  years old due aneurysm   flashbacks nothing more bullied schools middle school  bullied whole year got school stuff broken lot even know got bad grades got foot broken classmate wanted make fall walk limping month cried walk anymore time sat next classmate grabbed touch ballsgroin daily idk week month timeand stopped told dad crying done him went school make stop school ishi lots moments stuck head like got intimidaded groups kids everyone laughed daily kid threw pen top made hole faceand theres this remember know do time starting suffer violence older brother  years older already dumb kinda crazy suffered epileptic attacks kid became violent lost mom died  yo cooked twin sister taught things took care us gave good moments ruined mind bigger bully everybody else remember hundreds violence episodes him one time making bed put cover right way started yelling told cry like putting blame me one time playing playstation made mistake shoved told retire everything related soccer ish like that used hit little mistakes always aggressive hell projecting everything me probably dozens houndreds times hit me full force think worse mostly got used never anything used tell dad would wait leave tell coward fighting back obviate this thats form surviving found think fucked life put perspective   came room bug me kinda hit forehead take me said oh ok mf something like that raised hand think twice knocks out cover probably knocks out still hit head twice hard sister came see happened brother started saying hes hitting back  hes btch slapping  like wtf nobody nothing you told ahh say motherfucker kicked stomach using strength laying bed cover myself breaks something body thats mind always worked gets lil angry starts saying uncommon ish ish happen ish event fit situation like always year started following ordering ish things got drunk march threatened me said sick offered fight told like him last year  hit  full strength punches back got mad returning slap back gave me told go cry always im sick got nervous started walking house finally put head gf shoulder went cry room thats hes always like that grandmother crazy too hes religious fiend preached years goes house drowns newborn cats raise them used argue lot brother even told you killed mother fault front sister lunch like  years old tried put religious ish mind traumatized sometimes even saying cartoons watched devilish shit let tho knew sick honestly life suffered normal old people could get im saying discovered lot sexual shit kid too nude type games cousins cellphones porn cds brothers room think even discovered nude photos dad girlfriend like  looked closed flip phone think much exposure mixed fucked shit went thrui remember like  sudden sexual thoughts sometimes even felt desire guess mindfucked life general ive always randomly doodled always used draw dark shit kid eat like crazy since young age father year told  years old said wanted die go mom year realized talk alone places im streets start mumbling alone sometime voice scapes thats realize im talking alone sometimes ive said hi raise hand air like imaging friend mine there times insult air without realizing whenever remember things brother me realize end punching air like mind place younger denied got discovered saying singing sending voice message something  thats felt things girls thats felt dominated impulse realize im doing thought get wrong ideas mind im learning control way ive felt like fight voices head guess thats kinda normal anyway ill go therapy obviously started realizing worst state ever quarantine got thru head wrong acts well crimes like mistakes suffered started connect mind head rolling over walking house alone till  am mumbling alone trying connect shit trying remember everything make excuses nothing go root know hell like this since halloween problem  wanted stop living even knew done shit wrong still wanted suicide trust anybody anymore felt betrayed always rejected person honestly said went full shell mode acting thinking suicidal  years even think needed help thats makes sad end all think mechanism survive made sick mf think brave survive childhood fucked lifeif shown signs fo sickness wouldve educated sex would never done anything dad social worker told everything said sorry bc knew mom knew touched bullied still take therapist thinking fine plus poor hell someone gone therapy able eat shit like that guess dad thought could control everything blame him imagine amount pressure had could apologize could apologize something havent would chance will know im fine ive told theres little people reflect trauma way do know ever dumb shit again go therapy know work still feel like life aspects feel like ever gf whenever one able keep secrets myself tell everything think girls run away me live recently psychopath apologized ex murder her yesterday disappeared girl found dead killed tinder date even tho sad know cant complain im still alive jail really shouldve exposed social media long time ago go jail ill still would go know seeking punishment make better would still it honestly feel like im good person know preserve consciousness know ive overcame this know bad things done know got turn life around mental issues made defend myself think wouldve helped little like all mom developed things wouldve taught sentisitve thats way was ive told people reddit im full shitbeen told girls rapd people im piece shit turn i think could deny that even guy told im making shit sound better im not think avoidable fighting mental disparity rpey shit since kid think deserve so think might narcissisticschizophrenic disorders sickness without knowing think whole life lead this knew really abuse came home social life told people told friends college environment creepy never saw shit like that concluding im better puke everyday cry everyday think life meaning anymore deep know help brother doesnt traumatized kid wife know help kids know things better moment think swallow pride realize even lonely life expects me think go play ball buy groceries go therapy thats it want quit degree study psychology teacher think lot knowledge teach people think able so kill thats promise know post sounds like straight suicide letter wont dad much ending killing myself go therapy try get solutions think lonely life deserve would love gf would love feel love girl never felt besides sister  would love show girl good things her think late think late turn life around move silently help shadows would love read opinions good analize think world lead act like know honestly cant see sober type shit theres times feel sick might shit again example got drunk weeks ago give shit anymore alone testing thoughts changedi thought behaving like big deal  side times feel like life over thanks advance help know got like this know values principles changed much times think nah life tragic tell friends childhood experiences faces falls get surprised even understand things like this wish stopped going disturbed parties wish better friends wish couldve opened people younger gain experience sane way wish life couldve little better think already failed man sonbrother friend true feel sick feel like calm kid guess late again guess stop btchng hold things together mood swings really goes low up think gone thru shit nicely  ended sick anyway feel like bound perverted way hurts fault,1
@erdoland Great hanging out with you @ #napoconf09. Hope you're  having fun @ Disney. ,0
@nick_carter http://twitpic.com/3knrc - okaaay  thats crazy  luv it  erm....blue?!  omg ,0
ending tonightbye all hope narcissist mods happy,1
@MindfullyChange  thanks for following ,0
could rchilledteens rteenagers without trauma sometimes bit saddening scrolling seeing sad people areithttpsareit would flairs exevpt serious,0
literally want die im sick bae ik u see dm b die lets friends,0
finished watching film found enjoyable quiet little film overwhelm special effects big performances simply takes lives people living small hamlet backwoods north carolina br br henry thomas gives good performance raymond toker young loner finds baby abandoned woods tokers search babys parents takes journey profound impact life david srathairn plays truman lester slimy conman ulterior motive david plays bad guy perfection br br there much film first meets eye filmed location north carolina wonderful sound track traditional music worth watching,0
"@Timberwolf123 yes, I'm srry 2, Rae went down late! Hugs to u and Heidi! Nite! ",0
fuck everythingfuck everything fuck it damn hell fuck gets there fuck it fuck everything,1
i ve literally never changed my hairstyle it s just been a trim on top and on side but recently i ve started going out more and a few people i ve met out ha said to me that getting a medium fade cut would look good i ve always had a problem with barber though i have to go in about 0 minute before it close on a friday a that s the least busy time i only ask for the same cut because i hate making change how do i word it what do i say when i come in having a script in my head make thing easier cheer,1
"Big shoutout to depression and anxiety for being there when no one was :,)",1
cousin stupid cousin stopped eating pm girl already boyfriend this every night terribly aggressive unpleasant already quarreling almost whole family do,0
screenplay due go back school wont live longi dont care anymore dont care anything anymore want kill myself plan want slit wrists open longer here longer burden anyone dont matter make people mad me  im worthless,1
"Mom's depression tied to kids' emotional, intellectual development  https://ift.tt/2HtVZCE ",1
superbly developed characters lots funny situations full spirit absurdness serbian mentality movie great comedy enjoyable interesting unpredictable best point film characters humor itself story dialogs humor inner development  rare serbian movies so consequence characterization well motivated spontaneous cogent also sharp intelligent lucid movies unfortunately constructed humor devise joke put characterss mouth ordinary situation comedy burlesque farce art immortality incorporated movie little masterpiece hardly reachable,0
didn t make it by here today they are saying we will have snow tomorrow wtf it is tennessee it doesn t even snow here in winter,0
me after the most minor inconvenience convincing myself weed cures depression & will fix everything  pic.twitter.com/snxpAkBPWM,1
diagnosed borderline personality disorder cant rationalize continuing life anymorehttpwwwpalacenetllamapsychbpdhtml information link pretty much sums bpd fit t could go myriad horrible things ive done boils this sabotaged life lives people love times remember diagnosed never knew why decades wondered goddamn problem was wanted understand things did acted way acted wanted understand thought did could put road fixing whatever problem somehow cant fix this cant go life picking knocking people really care again ive hurt lot people people love sworn id always for them life miss much know try reestablish contact itll matter time briefly inexplicably demonized mind people im supposed for know care cant seem show it prove rather im alone aqcaintances people call friends feel real connection see humor them show person want see well pretty big fucking drag question this anyone else expect want continue living know going keep behavior without able damn thing it bpd gets going feels like pilot flying plane sudden plane goes extremely fucked autopilot mode sitting cockpit waiting smash side mountain always survive crash barely fuck this im tired living asshole another day every time brain decides gonna shit bed make go ape shit people care about fair them lifes hard enough without somebody seemed like great friend turn mental chips down im ashamed myself be cant keep anymore,1
ever suicid e charge put list survivors confuse everyone tell wife wife cause im single find one,0
hate meim terrible person depression makes lazy selfish girlfriend nearly broke it cant live ive let depression get me im scared losing her im smothering her im bad person know id broke up know break get better want fucking die know people get things everyday im moving parents hate everything hate everything hate myself even hate life hate me hate me ive never even kind liked me best ive tolerated myself nothing good everything hard fuck this try,1
dont give single flying fuck dead meme fox say still fucking slaps thats fact,0
sick constantly wanting diei mean like people forum want die constantly even happy want die sick always feeling tired feeling like life mine work three jobs taking part graduate school best friend love much constantly feel like emotionally babysit boyfriend love honestly cant feel comfortable with fear abandoning makes hard relax enjoy relationship lost two best friends cant seem get forget father supportive parent life cancer mother complete cnt manages make feel guilty existing despite knowing full well damaged relationship fault fear friends really hate putting me feel like school worth it im busy time go see doctor therapist go gym exercise makes people feel better sometimes despite  jobs money problems almost zero time want die im scared dying painfully want die peacefully hate waking up want feel way,1
cant even die righti tried hanging today scared commit cut belt went little bitch,1
fay grim is face tale espionage intrigue told nod wink sequel extraordinary henry fool hal hartley creates surprising blend film noir hardboiled spy thriller starts knowing smile large dose laughter turns poignant warm film ive seen yearbr br parkey posey fay grim unwitting mata hari caught love exiled husband henry fool questionable intentions charming cia operative agent fulbright jeff goldblum master wit sarcasm role seems tailored talents never better james urbaniak fays brother simon jailed renowned wildly popular books poetry love work sister brings jolt passion contrast dour nature spies eventually populate fays world liam aiken fays oversexed  yearold son although may redundant aikens understated style remarkably old soul someone agebr br the entire film shot dutch angle offkilter style made famous orson welles used primarily horror films psychological thrillers impart sense foreboding fay grim using style opening credits closing intriguing first deceptively clever next viewer begins fall perfectly timed comedic elements wit hartleys brilliant script something happens film takes dark yet strangely comforting turn characters magically become sympathetic eyes began dark comedy morphs romantic drama transition masterful slow pacing gives way breathtaking action sucked right vortexbr br in end hartleys sharp dialog combined amazing performances perfectly matched ensemble cast makes delicious cinematic cocktail told luxury one able write produce direct edit even compose music hal hartley crafted smart sexy tale espionage tongue barely planted cheek fay grim one part dashiell hammett one part raymond chandler one part ian fleming shaken maybe stirred well,0
using much emojis make funnier thats,0
im giving one monthi know put feelings words properly time heres last attempt living guess im gonna tell life story anything would much right im gonna save month get gun finally put end horrible pain care impact death could anymore deaths ive seen even death one life actually give shit tell ive seen known well enough know grief momentary im probably ranting last thing want since depression started getting worse alone wife left alone stupid argument know else say im sorry feeling lot easier write guess ill stop now thanks entertaining many years reddit,1
sleep offmg dexamphetamine mg escitalopram mg quetiapine mg diphenhydramine,1
heeey anyone want talk ik ik im lonely since ive good hearty internet friend want know world again isnt place tell go meet people like pm people age  f btw otherwise lets discuss internet friendships comments advantages disadvantages experiences,0
#shaundiviney ,0
"@ben_mayer I'd like to see a picture of you, Carl and John where everyone can read from your faces you're proud of and you love eachother ",0
"Where did everyone go? =| I NEED SOME CHEERING UP, DAMNIT! ",0
snowed first time   years nothing really special found pretty cool live hot city told roads icing going snow id laugh face thought cool share,0
friend trouble im really sure interpret pieces coming together hi recently started talking old friend close with lives another province said coming visit two weeks asked read something said sorry wanted know anything needed add note question gt ill die musician would child prodigy lessons skills name book like exceptionally great skills loved skills aspergers called autism look characteristics strengths httpwwwautismcanadaorgaboutautismcharacteristicshtml  ill die aspergers ill die philosopher theories saved laptop like every thought energy therefore energy therefore god mass energy im giving laptop mom anyone interested knowing some ask mom little later though       love myself truly amazing person open non judgmentalaccepting caring good stuff think much saw status update two minutes later gtwhoever wants join redflag club  msg thought committing redflag last ive heard  years ago junior high im really loss right now please help,1
i have chapped lip boo,0
well bois finally said yes restraining order luckily covid instead  feet  feet,0
sister messed sister legit looked said two eyebrows started lmaoing mom shemy sister said mean one eye haha xd,0
meet girls know gonna lot people saying talk girls school stuff along longs problem im online school cant,0
finally turned  today although last  months shh,0
basically i had chest pain and headache caused by anxiety it felt like having heart attack lack of breathing everything the full package it used to be now it s a lot le like day a week whole day now i am active having fun with friend having fun life but still experiencing major lack of energy like i did not sleep for day it s very annoying constantly felling like i am about to collapse from tiredness,1
consent born  would recommend hearing lawyers,0
turned  always completely terrified getting old way let reach i diagnosed clinical depression late s made one serious attempt redflag  diagnosed put prozac things started change put law school practiced law number years even   years ago told people want live past s absolutely terrified getting old thought maybe terror panic would lessen time gotten worse none friends age fit generation friends   years younger me think started really living late moved see friends anymore even that never  part group age divorced children nobody relying financial support right now things good ever get amazing job got months ago probably last time incredibly cute  year old girl thing me aged well definitely become invisible short time come terms deeper secrets haunted young disclosed secrets closest friends showed complete total acceptance thinking redflag last weeks always wanted children real chance that know cant date much younger women women age like hold attraction me means keep getting older forever alone know would devastate parents siblings think enough keep here whats happening life absolute phobia getting older people cant have nobody would getting older video game terms feel like finished main storyline watched credits left playing optional missions achievements next  years try get  completion hair starts fall put weight aches pains get worse buddhist think reincarnation pretty likely dead worry me planning running hose tailpipe car tiny garage today may wait week pretty good thing procrastinate on know difficult die method tiny garage starting car cold work biggest fear ending brain damage,1
"@GriziBear EXACTLY! Alcohol is so easy to obtain and takes very little time to do serious damage, whether immediate (drunk driving, alcohol poisoning) or long term (alcoholism). Marijuana helps w/ anxiety, depression, nausea, pain, seizures, etc. This world is so backwards.",1
hi help me please read whole thing judging me basically think im becoming transphobic piece shit fun jokes aside would never treat anyone differently judge choosing identify different gender nonbinary friend im always careful use correct pronouns name thing is judge read whole thing  cant imagine gender dysphoria may ive never thought genuinely believe gender dysphoria makes feel really awful like seriously along couple problems im losing sleep cant focus online school coz feel awful genuinely believe gender dysphoria couple friends tried help including one perhaps supportive person know still believe it please help me anything convince me argue me kill lmao anyway thank coming ted talk im piece shit,0
this is my first time writing this a releasing this properly i have had a plan for three year the plan is to end my life next year in may i have had this plan for three year up to this point so far i am not old and the only reason i am waiting is for convenience and not wanting my parent to find my body i honestly see no issue with me dying i don t want to keep living i don t want to die because i am in pain or whatever i just don t rly want to be alive anymore i want to cut contact with all my friend and family before i do it this may be hard but i will go through with it either way my time on this earth is coming to an end i am not religious in any way so i am a little scared in what happens next but honestly i hope it will be more interesting then my current mundane life anyways please refrain from going into the comment and writing ohh no please dont do it it not worth it if you do i will either delete your comment or just delete this post i just posted this because i wonder if i am alone with these feeling of just nothing ness,1
wonder gay sex feels like filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler filler,0
so dissappointed right now guess it not meant to be,0
Twas a good show. I even liked Ciara's last song.   Time for me to go to bed. G'night!,0
@BrianMcnugget Really liking that song. I have a thing for Irish blokes so thanks for the link ,0
day  posting lines bee movie every day get so ive never seen close know like outside hive yeah come back,0
schools spring break schools spring break yay spent  hours single assignment freaking english,0
"Sis a lot of us are starting to come out of hiding. The media and others suppress mental disease and anxiety, the black community out right doesn't want to talk about anxiety & depression a lot of the times. Don't worry about hushing the media, use your resources to shed light.  https://twitter.com/kimkardashian/status/989220790741553152 …",1
sadly stoking ended sadly ended orgasm  shot burst new record,0
mf begin like mf begin like want short woman big tits small butt black hair blue eyes bitch need girl even optional im bi,0
want endmoved back bfs house kicked  times prior took  month break things seemed fine things going shit soo quickly feel dumb coming back ive damaged relationships lost several friendships decision end way like everything else life want go sleep wake up want end cant hurt family like that sure much theyd really care wanna disappoint anyone anymore reasn really go cat best friend want get depressed gone doubt animals would care notice life would go normal without me maybe even better,1
amazing girl ive met falling love dont know dowe met everything great move said could make work everything good couple months shes texting less going more shes doesnt love more leaves one might well end all,1
Why online therapy for postpartum depression is gaining momentum  https://www.huffingtonpost.ca/2017/11/15/online-therapy-postpartum-depression_a_23275879/ …,1
feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool feel overwhelming urge anywhere home right youre stuck pandemic hell maybe consider watching couple seasons amazing race amazon netflix maybe go watch planet earth little see cool shit couch know traveling least find wombats poop square heck great lyrebird is ampxb kind cool get see interesting things even television,0
tag user post youre someone tagging remember  wear mask drink water good time nice day ,0
"Good afternoon  (or morning, or evening - as applicable!)",0
NowPlaying Job 6:1-30 andquot;A Biblical  Response to Depression.andquot; - Pastor Joe Marquez  http://www.gracecalvarychapel.org  06:45,1
bavster twit u can t sip crap vodka nope not done c k got ominous knee pain not good,0
wrote note babyi wrote goodbye note last night two plans figured out dying scares me dying part whatever hell comes after wanna die see nothing feel nothingnothing christian believe heaven hell obviously wanna go heaven id rather die go nowhere baby cant leave note follow,1
"Watching my &quot;Stomp The Yard&quot; DVD, just remembered why it's my #1 favorite movie ",0
ive ruining hair due anxiety quite mental health worsening thing recently actually pulling knots hair caused pull hair months hairline receded hair lost lot fluff like hair cuz annoying ive extra self conscious flat stringier idk point post is advice would love it guess kinda needed get there weighing quite bit,0
heres last words ill dead good half hour lot people gonna wonder im gonna tell save confusion theres number reasons im honest ill go one one lets start fact im incredibly lonely man ive never girlfriend never will ha im fairly unattractive mention repulsive personality surprise it shouldve done sooner im also incredibly fake person lie everyone know sense word general personality little things like liking football reason feel like bit waste keep around another friends theyre great funny cool ill never successful life them problem made actually today friend actually called lazy wanting go get together kind lazy im depressed thats reason time dog sick didnt want leave alone long im sure nan willing look days parents get back holiday much gonna lost die one relied needed me fairly trivial person im hoping death proper meaning people take lesson sort dunno lesson im sure someone come something love you mum love lee nan grandad charlie adam even pip despite reason think depression finally outweighed love leave money buying dogs cool shit,1
want goapologise dramatic title put simply want go tragic backstory anything longest time ive known belong realm im counting days im gone know selfish rest understand wanted it know gonna happen think about,1
feeling pretty bad random  year old picked fight feel  times better know matter tired lonely sad get ill never sad enough continuously pick fights internet strangers,0
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feel like failurewhenever try voice hopelessness people around remind failures cant anything better myself strive achieve something get ridiculed used arguments ive job since  stopped working second child born still get depressed leaving others childcare people supported decision call lazy useless worthless unaccomplished forgive hurt also fault mine im pathetic dark soul begrudging happiness hated see content im tired sounds ridiculous entire life people mean me husband thought ally mocks telling complex vs world world cant wrong ive attempted redflag honestly love children cant catch break im garbage person cant get away,1
first off i have very little experience in dealing with anyone with depression i freely admit that over the past couple of month i have been chatting with and hanging out with this amazing woman i met on a dating app she ha severe anxiety ppd postnatal depression suicidal thought etc we d hit thing off pretty well just from chatting over the app from what i thought there were a couple of time where she d wanted to end her life so she tell me but she managed to get past that the first time i met her in person wa amazing i had never ever felt so at ease taking with a woman before it went really well at that point i knew this chick wa worth the time we just clicked that well instantly since then we ve done a couple of day trip place and that went very well also one of those time wa with her young child le then yo she doesn t have a lot of time for herself and find it hard to get a decent night sleep partly to do with the young one waking in the middle of the night lately she s had a couple of very low moment her home life isn t the best still living at home because finically she can not afford to leave she get abuse from her mother constantly and also seems to live in fear especially when her child is being loud it could wake her mother a of last week she admitted that she really liked me i have been clear all along that i really like her just so she s not thinking that she s in limbo i live over an hour away from her but i do travel up to her home town for work at least twice a week sometimes le sometimes more there s some weird thing where she doesn t want her mum knowing about me so consequently i cant see her that much unless mum is not home which really suck i find it hard to deal with when it feel like she s giving me the cold shoulder i know it s the depression that s doing it not her true feeling one of her red flag about dating me is that i don t know understand her mental health however the way i see it is if you don t tell me then i can t understand but apparently that wa not the way to approach that one i d love for nothing more then to give her a big hug that in the hope that it might make her feel a little better about thing but unfortunately i don t get the opportunity she know that i will come up any time i don t mind driving at all so i don t let that be a barrier plus i can afford to do so i m scared to loose her because i really want her and i to work at time i want to just say stuff it and walk away but i know that s not what i want amp x 00b if anyone ha experienced the same thing or something similar your advice is much appreciated,1
going it thinking lotfor years now ive thought bad memory imagine future ill involuntarily mutter want kill myself lately ive felt weird compulsion write redflag note thought might way im telling let feelings out able kill tried like thoughts case decide act point,1
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feel someone age m everyone part invited toi never life felt sheer level sexual frustration causing incredibly down recently got loveless sexless relationship never felt wanted needed thought id feel better not dating apps working got friends go bars meet people horrible rut earth people conquer this sexual loneliness,1
ive abusive relationship  years now family stopped talking me live states away boyfriend got together first time noticed abuse wanted repeatedly sex till sore would get angry refused subtle first scared me time went would everyday skinny need gain weight got point would ask questions wasnt good enough depressed  would throw speaker room along put stuff front door couldnt get out,1
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sometimes want die reasoni hard life good life parents home go school everyday friends whatever im lonely like it however sometimes really want hurt kill reason actually im frustrated fiding something like doing live video games moment want play anymore lose time suicidal thoughts boredom anyone knows cure,1
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hello all i ve been putting off getting my wisdom teeth out for year but i finally mustered up the courage to get a consult with an oral surgeon long story short i m getting one fully erupted tooth extracted with only local anesthesia i opted for this because the idea of being put under make me more anxious than the extraction itself he said because it s erupted he should be able to get it out within five minute ha anybody who ha undergone a similar situation shed some light on whether it s a simple painless quick a the doc led me to believe,1
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know posting helpi tried kill last friday tried od almost succeeded second attempt year everyones already moved on im okay know family realize this know psychiatrist realize this know therapist realize this cant deal this im try again know plea help what ive always skeptical empathy strangers know help me every time feel anything leads this shut whenever start feeling anxious sad happy scared leads suicidal tendencies worked past earlier today managed contact close friend talked while happy few fucking hours ago happy cant even feel empty do middle night cant call psychiatrist therapist family see redflag hotline could possibly help cant go sleep like this im lost cant allowed feel anything without wanting kill myself whats point living all want this allowed feel happy know whats wrong brain mood stabilizers antipsychotics antidepressants anything me edited add know terrible say this think this but wish sort terminal illness wish cancer could make alone anything would fine would mean would excuse physically sick pathetic anything would fine need something know is something change cant stop thinking would it need hate feeling way too thats blunt honest truth edited add feel like im me im person six years ago im one voices used head started antipsychotics get rid got rid well that try get them me back keep trying move on strange even two years control my body might delusional either way im crazy medications helping,1
the first dog that my family ever got recently started experiencing seizure we took her to the vet and we won t be able to find out what the problem is a it cost too much money she is suspected of having a brain tumor and her steroid medication seems to be working i just can t help but feel like there isn t much time left for her and i can t deal with just the thought of her dying all i know is that she ll be in a better place and that she will have lived an amazing and happy life but i m completely broken,1
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want commit redflag want tell anyone irli feel like failure hate everything myself im stupid ugly  face autistic social skills anger issues confused cant relate anyone kids school call ugly everyday remind incompetent am think even teachers hate me matter say people always make fun stand play victim get most likely everyone hates ugly stupid thats okay guess almost friends mostly talk people unless to sometimes get stuck speak irl speech gets blocky feel worthless im physically healthy  lbs m kids think im strong positive traits have ugliest face school everything else makes wanna kill  times over ive never attempted possibly getting life altering injuryillness someone confrontfind me want permanent method want death quick painless alone really want talk anyone irl think people would treat worse anyone found irl id probably redflag ragefear anything convince otherwise good online resources help without anyone irl finding out think would feel worse talked someone irl sorry post make sense,1
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matter change life never enough ill always sick want stopi suffered bad anxiety depression almost long remembersince puberty im twenties always thought various reasons hated myself stress current job school anything fucked class forgetting write paper im working much feel like total fucking failure think give drop become housewife boyfriwnd finally kids like planned even though mother anyone want make boyfriend happy deserves ithe deserves much more even thinking stress school gone help changes help still wish dead deep hatred distrust anyone except boyfriend scares much legitimate hatred human beings truly believe people evil thing alive destroy planet unspeakably sick things animals wildlife often think could kill entire human race included id heartbeat feel like entire species society exceptations bullshit none fucking means anythingid rather die deal it id rather die go life,1
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ever think net effect world go man killed now might even something positiveive thinking lately cumulative usefulness person  like aggregate shit or mostly havent done now whether meaningful positive impact people around me know guys dig it realize people like me inherent drain others society resources even themselves produce anything help anyone sort suck resources better allocated someone deserving produced better people me finished masters degree last year got one year unemployment ive living parents grown hate probably much hate  today mom told unfair sit around day spending money totally right fair them pay medicine im suboxone opiate addiction developed grad school therapy plus car shit absurd parasitical relationship know sustainable even taking account broader parasitic relationship rest society  provide value contribute nothing anyone im subidised betters part would like much physically validate crippled way already feel internally shooting kneecap trying damage brain enough shit bother more would merely logical extrapolation current uselessness im getting that like ive sort reached point obvious calculus ive tried things supposed able earn basic living meet friends find wife house etc im  things worked  probably fault ive got enough worthless statistics historical knowledge know system merciless general sense well  options continue imposing parents accede mindbendingly depressing reality best possible option six years school earning hr rest life thus maintaining current standard living miserable addition retail years honestly feels like fate worse death finally killing like ive always wanted strikes me finally working chutzpah throw front bus eat bushel pills blow brains out whatever would positive impact world individual action im capable could would dramatically improve lives family financially emotionally  imagine relief would provide them dissipating tension uncertainty surrounding failson importantly would remove cyclical web anhedonic consumption labor characterizes life united states today sucking food oxygen resources selling labor gold encrusted ghoul tiny contribution perpetuation injustice bullshit world fat complacent shithead american would eliminated moral victory even quantitatively meaningless ive posted arrogant bourgeois someone like terminally obsessed redflag also possessed profound fear death especially people world  subreddit  really suffer suffer lot firstworld troglodyte upset useless education get job like daddy age kind cant stop thinking that actually awful life people getting worse real possibility relief role personally play perpetuating misery others consumer first world millions people world mucking dirt mining rare earths bare hands tortured death turkmen dungeon would read spit gall complaining theyd right that still feel gaping fucking overwhelming misery desire finally get with palatable options rant went longer wanted address people here feel like made contribution world yall follow logic here,1
my dad killed himself and it left me with a feeling like i want to kill everyone in my family who s moved on since then i m his only child my brother is now a stranger to me my mother is my father s killer i am his only survivor i want to kill myself,1
deserve dieso ive already posted cant stop obsessing it days ago talking online friend sounded like planning commit redflag called redflag hotline told anything know persons location asked alternatives police told best option call ems called  told area code city florida call citys police department said police dept forwarded call florida  able trace location i still know why one ended going friends house luckily friend fine now still feel incredibly guilty calling police though should friend queer trans bipoc one vulnerable groups police brutality top going mental health crisis cant stop thinking would happened police actually gone house point im starting obsess it worst part day happened realized couple days ago saved website phone called dontcallthepolicecomhttpsdontcallthepolicecom gives alternatives calling police even one specifically mental health crises saved website especially friend case needed it im asking anyone feel bad give sympathy know horrible im  cant see living much longer knowing could reason someone got hurt died feel like ive ruined entire life cant go life knowing something like this sounds dramatic really im feeling needed get ig reason tried kill yet parents would feel,1
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ive talking mom about still get itdepressed since   coming soon still black moon hangs me want hang it theres lot nevers future ive made mom cry im glad alive see next occasion question is write letter record one last love song stick middlefinger retreat abyss syonara reddit online friends logging goods mom miss,1
 daysback september planned would kill november   days now feeling sad every day think month straight crying like time every night hours staying  morning canceling plans interacting one even that seemed clear end life like definitely right decision now im sad kind feel anything nothing really makes sad happy cant even cry anymore like this feel like ive forgotten desperately needed kill myself reason feel like im still willing it like know makes sense im sad im peace gun hand right now honestly think shooting heart stretch idea make feel anything know ill  days im asking anything think needed rant,1
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gpa   semesters low gradschool want put nice warm bullet skull got recently got banned rausgunshttpswwwredditcomrausguns saying want commit redflag australian shooting range whatever going anyway like man either sell belongings book one way ticket hong kong got family members might well try help oppression there failed calculus  final covering laplace vector calculus complex calculus feeling hopeless my university requires students pass final pass course  scale  gpa  scale   semesters study means never get grad school australian grad school nonnegotiable necessity work industry want happens space systems need eb visa which requires postgraduate degree get us us person well either making space related startup scratch even harder grad school life meaning whatsoever im sitting listening depressing music make things worse considered pretty bright elementary high school graduated  percentile high school worked life try reach goal gone shit two hours guessing really fail  year challenge tldr entire lifes work dreams gone matter two hours,1
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i get angry at myself because of how depressed i get and the fact that i can t control it i m genuinely a happy person so when my depression hit hard i get mad at me,1
feel though theres nothing leftim reasonably young  attempted redflag twice continually reached help friends family doctors seems like noone cares mother refuses believe even depressed something dealing since  recently moved back parents fucking awful quit degree come back care could tell going mental hasnt helped all mother mental bitch stepdad could care less me weekend saw ex boyfriend thing thats kept going havent spoken  months told vulnerable going on slept together tells doesnt time deal shit genuinely feel like im again third time lucky get fuck here dont even know im posting this feel like fucking shit want end everything,1
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everything feels pointlessbackground struggling depression suicidal thoughts self harm eating disorder since   now ive fighting long feel like im getting anywhere recently hit longest streak clean self harm i  months clean broke monday past  years ive constantly heard get better getting worse im losing hope way ive living life makes feel fucking pathetic life feels pointless im entirely worthless human dont see point trying anymore absolutely terrible relationship parents im nowhere near good enough they never fail remind much disappointment am much better lives would wasnt around know fact  best friends would better without me think id everyone favour kill myself honesty things keep going wrong im tired trying make right moved away city university im unhappy alone here currently university social work but like mother said phone day youre gonna shit social worker youre fucked even help yourself youre wasting money im starting think point cant even okay myself gonna able help others samesimilar situation made agreement myself next week dont get sort sign find reason live ill end it dont think im gonna find reason arent me sorry formatting im mobile also sorry kinda place hardly organize thoughts right now,1
need rant bit ok undiagnosed mental illnesses at least know seems extremely likely them probably neurodivergent parents dont know of course always yell me say im lazy shit like that horrible time somehow ok time management like idk describe kinda like oh ill feel like always know things especially im yelled great parents outwardly express think im lazy better things im sitting like knowing mean cant express mean annoying also friend parents think a gender fluid phase b suspicious im faking im confident c think fake many things hard keep count frustrating parents tell times things hard keep complete shit sense time anyways good day,0
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im evil love itim planning taking mg  pills xl wellbutrin crushed water probably coming tuesday case report od diphenhydramine system think bad idea spent last thursday finding right sleeping pills canada thanks justin crushed btw idea work im going bag head elastic case justin case leave behind horrid shit dad religious mum get rekt most brother worst four year old sister remember think hopefully her grandma devastated and lost care that part wants able witness reactions everyone instant attention pathetic attention whore am thought ex realizing cant trust shit antidepressants three years dumbass self wanting proof love thrills me egomaniac snickers whilst staring try talk class fumble words idk hed probably make tribute facebook post much supported miss me and everyone else laughed jokes talked shit behind back receive depression stare eyes look yearbook see weird tryhard responded redflag jokes smiling wow too name called grad ceremony cutie teased around called surname close mine oh thats satisfying therapist postponed monday appointment tba date failure honestly let wrath free along six im already dead,1
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feel like worst luck everything maybe thats bias feel like life dealt short hand feel guilty saying people lives far worse mine walking painful talking painful know do want everything end want rest struggle,0
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really want cut myselfive years want it want look like accident want kill myself want feel something different,1
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need help deal suicidal thoughtsso im always hyper sensitive guy always deal sensibility closing everyone ultil meet girl see opportunity trust  years later history became history intense abuse cheating violence pretty much like mother sometimes love heart sometimes hate intensity one never see hate come one word one behavior tolerate this timeline lost gramma mother like family person sometimes understand me moments beautiful moments se purpose life im easy person adhd depression abuses became alcohool adict fact never hate dont even know hate someone hurt someone purpose tenth time dumped crisis pass like  days taking care sexuals issues talking showing hurting herself  days birthday lot alcohool cant face hate start scream her got away block phone ims stuff find sttrugling lot classical suicidal thoughts dont even know do im  days without sleep right eat finding motive end all,1
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want post talk someone thoughts afraid encouraging othersi suicidal long remember like this seeking help online knew ok trying limit self harm behaviors redflag thoughts etc read people self harm destructive thoughts brain thought normal look many people also it thats self harm suicidal thoughts got worse years ago longer able stop myself desperately need talk people words might make sense others might develop kind thinking people already vulnerable would easier also cant talk people irl person everyone rely stay strong im gonna say life hard feel suicidal like life good too problem inside me every single aspect life failing cant even cry im sorry,1
since i wa a child i ve battled depression my first suicide attempt wa when i wa because according to my religion you re not liable for your sin until you reach maturity or puberty so i figured i m and miserable so if i end it all now i won t have to go to hell drank a bottle of tylenol and ended up in a hospital getting my stomach pumped and swallowing charcoal in college i met the love of my life we understood each other on a level nobody would understand we both had issue hers wa that she wa molested by her father we were both fucked up and our relationship turned very very toxic we d break up and get back together all the time and her family never liked me because i wa a year younger than her they wanted someone ready to take her in and provide her with everything the last time we broke up after year of being together she swallowed a bunch of pill and stopped breathing she turned blue ambulance wa called they resuscitated her but she stayed in a coma doctor tried to get the family to pull the plug because they said she s brain dead and even if she did wake up she wouldn t be the same i stayed by her side the whole time or a much a her family would let me she stayed plugged in and month later she woke up couldn t speak or feed herself or do anything she wa like a newborn baby she went through therapy but couldn t get all her function back she s still in a wheelchair her body shake uncontrollably so she can t feed herself seeing her like this broke me down in piece i couldn t see her like this and one day i left and never looked back i still feel a lot of blame for this i tried to have other relationship but they never work i m 0 now and live with my younger brother not talking to my other two brother or my father don t really have much to live for i have a problem with opioid prescription pill the only way i get any type of relief but it s an expensive habit since i only use prescription pill my mother who wa never really there for me or my brother growing up she wa always dating other men because she couldn t stand my father ha recently broke up with her latest husband and came to live with me and my younger brother she s a drama queen who s always miserable and make me and everyone else around miserable with her i have a decent career with decent money but no goal really i recently bought a few gram of heroin since i figured it would probably be the best way to go dying high a fuck in pure bliss i m just shit scared of being resuscitated and ending up in a wheelchair like my ex or being reincarnated into someone living in a third world country or even hell i made my mom promise not to resuscitate me if anything were to happen to me i m just not happy i have nothing to look forward to in my future i m thinking maybe i ll just take on the heroin habit without the intention to die and hope i accidentally od some day i mean it happens like every 0 second in my country i tried antidepressant and they work to help my mood sometimes but if you really have nothing to live for there s no cure for that i also just lost my job so perfect timing for that i don t even have the desire to look for another one i wish i could just sleep and not wake up,1
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cant crysince like  think ive cried total  times emotions keep building inaccessible spot causing feel numb wondering anyone else knows to google comes how fake cry bullshit havent found single site tells real let real emotion sorry right place dont know else ask,1
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im feeling really sad cant stop iti know long im sorry advance every night lie go sleep think night mom really little probably   something mildly inconvenient happened said gonna kill i obviously serious cranky annoyed slapped really hard told never say reason sent bed im  think redflag every single day want tell her trauma moment burned brain choke up im sure shed care seems natural mom care mine pretty disconnected kind one depression sadness need get over therapy help types also antimeds dad is no absolutely care friends care ton help feel like anything helps play minecraft lot thousands hours building myself talking anyone stardew valley animal crossing rune factory game mentally escape least hours ill get ill put hundreds hours it second stop start crying feel like im breaking every minute know do feel like heart glass ball every day crack gets liiiiittle longer know go therapy get antidepressants mom back make getting better x worse bottling up even though know healthy cant handle criticism yelling even im wrong makes sense wanted wait move out im working right now hard feels like cant really take it friends online second leave laptop anything feel soulcrushing loneliness yeah tried making friends irl work me like people around me feels like people staring just makes really uncomfortable lot better me helps used cut legs mom noticed complained clumsy she assumed fell knew eventually shed figure would cause arguments problems stopped thing keeping point promised friends last thing need last memory liar guess think every single day know do cry every night people around like sing people assume im singing laughing good time im happy im happy happy like  years so maybe im exhausted time alive wake every morning sort of disappointed annoyed know word not good feeling really dreams anymore keep expecting die year one wants hear that im downer know am know do im sorry long started rambling figured might well get could guess thanks advance advice support anything good lt,1
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im done week ago told parents im suicidal everyday since someone called see told plan killing day dad turned room upside find razor found  going use kill night wont let kill myself want hear anymore  years long enough me perants even let room day alone  mins want die much,1
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need guidanceso little back story im currently  ive dating girl  years moved part time finally got place together  know know met bar ago know age difference ive gotten know clicked pretty well always fun getting on fast forward know years things gotten progressively worse longer talk all everything say makes mad say wrong things son lives us  still high school girlfriend dropped high school smart end helping son school talk issues lately feel like ive become parent be im  gods sake well girlfriend gotten pretty bad fights past year called cops twice third time tonight even though never anything her never touched her id never anything woman cops would come tell counselors leave tonight broke told needs leave month told going anywhere whatever wants told leave tonight called cops cops came said cant tell leave lived month resident kicked courts even though even lease want get work issues basically way much plate pressure killing me deal day work come home feel helpless sat room pathetically crying helpless contemplated killing myself texted girlfriend you stay long want sorry everything see much longer redflag note told lose number think ill really it really typing makes feel little better want someone talk really,1
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think might commit soondidnt think could feel worse turns could im feeling worse ever cant take it,1
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one point fun things true robotics competition taught useful skills like code build obsessed actually winning learning unfortunately younger me school teams coaches focused ensuring every student learned something never teammates super passionate winning competition hindsight like winning really mattered anyway video games think playing bad start playing avoid problems real life dream go pro esport title wish realized spent thousands hours alone front screen honing skills never actually stuck game either played whatever trending school time suppose best competitive pretty meaningless title compared rest country nothingi used animetv youtube means escape reality well make new friends high school would watch stuff  hours day while maintaining grades parents would kill mei tried youtuberstreamer like every internet kid takes talent effort timei also spent lot time trying game dev lacked skill little success trading steam still consider time wasted useful skilli manage lose weight get better shape got good computer science program lost passion programming math become thing point started binge eating episodes currently medication seems numbed feelings occasionally feel intense despair hunger it usually feel nothingi counseling care enough go anymore say everyone makes mistakes still young make ton friends college compare others even friend anyway also really great relationship parents guessed alreadyi skills get paid programming hope start enjoying soon interested entrepreneurship safe thing pursuetldr wish productive social kid instead loner grinded pointless tasks also lost passion current major afraid switch feels like headed boring life mi feel like wasted unhealthy amount childhood things stopped fun provide value video games competitive robotics watching youtubetvanime,1
abuseim sad step dad thing insults pushes mean get mean still said gonna beat death i dont belive would accutaly it hes also called faggot cause im bi normal cause aspergers used affect dont really anything,1
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"@kayleighnicolee Tee hee luff you too  btw the next time we are at school we have to do the 3 musketeres thing, it's been a while",0
whenever see video says hold let pray real quick scroll fast feel guilty scroll  videos go back like it im atheist parents done damage anywho favourite snack,0
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biden done america wrote whole ass essay someones comments thought id make post anyone wondering as preface support though centrist many progressive people backing office hes sort gateway progressive government  joe biden th youngest elected senator first joined senate  senator  became vice president  biden helped write several crime laws including federal crime control law enforcement act  federal assault weapons ban  violence women act  to prevent domestic violence also help create national domestic violence hotline still service today since creation  helped hundreds thousands individuals stopping domestic abuse  biden served chairman international narcotics control caucus  introduced reducing americans vulnerability ecstacy law helped stop spread several substances including ecstacy date rape drugs harmful athletic steroids  biden wrote kids  legislature  helped give internet access lowincome families building community centers available computers lowincome neighborhoods  vice presidency biden served several committees focusing building new infrastructure stopping gun violence wake sandy hook shooting reducing national debt creating patient protection affordable care act legalizing gay marriage biden also developed  violence women act creating white house council women girls white house task force protect students sexual assault tldr biden made lot impactful legislature time senate vp worked hard build americas infrastructure create solid progressive laws,0
homeless third timethey kidding said life s would hard ive homeless  different times  separate occasions currently age  struggle major drugs smoke lot weedwax find drinking often slip depression also lot often figured id comment advice improve try get situation recently lost job sick  months ago took  days one week sick cold want risk getting anyone else sick especially peak covid emailed company  different times letting know situation  months later guess matter fired it explain further need explain companies policies used work unimportant whats happening now fact is lost job due poor communication skills relaying im sick never get job back im paying it  months later completely unexpected nowhere waking morning phone call hr representative terminated almost  months employment part wishes going fire me took days off rather  months later reason happened worst time left room renting  month lease at try find something better long story short find place time packed everything car headed homeless grateful least still job gone homeless job way behind way many bills third time happened exact way situation homeless times pretty irresponsible think think fuck it often ive low before again fuck it die fuck it really family deceased divorced split apart family never talked never close ive mom relationship deteriorating ever since s introverted keep myself im never one start conversations someone mind keeping one going someone engages one always aim kind others treat people id like treated cant bring talk anyone anymore find hard things like talk people time want to feel like looking another shitty job know ill hate sometime line feel like making friends could possibly lose future feel like going school get debt feel like talking mom hear one sided views judgemental opinions feel like catching  month late car payment longer pay ive blowing rest savings food weed alcohol obviously need get priorities straight care anymore think im well aware im failure life right need get shit straight im trying find reasons care really see much point anything anymore could explain personal things add context help support feel way personal post already way long is thoughts hurting always throughout whole adult life feel prevalent ever im problem right now poor planning bad choices led this things life led care im making excuses this know buckle buttercup start looking another job fix car find repossess it care anymore whats wrong me used care lot dont anyone took time read this really thank going way know long honestly really pathetic me im scared im really scared bad thoughts time feel insecure ever feel like talk someone theres one there mother never understand never father im asking pity advice please help find reason care again not call coward guess thank all,1
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"@nuff55 Same old, same old. Working on the blog and looking for interesting people to cyberstalk ",0
im thinking redflag impulsive way now seems like logical option nowthe last two months uni living hell ive grown despise place every fucking day theres single moment dont think home somewhere else although place given great start field think wont use im alive anymore havent slept well past  months whenever uni moment got home would sleep like baby ive tried make parents understand problem want drop out dont understand tell weather storm think thats possible sleep night im desperate dont know drop option left would study abroad dad would sell real estate really dont know do jumping fourt floor seems like option convenient everyone,1
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yall dont forget life aint rainbow sunshine told crush liked her response you like drugs ignoring me like even smoke much might need to,0
brother sisters lets summon amobadoor demon king love must return may reign last million years need come together sacrifice something love give you body soul,0
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@cookiemonster82 Only thing I can think of is #caretuesday  ... how lovely to get compliments ,0
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i have no idea if this is anxiety but this is the reason why im asking lately i ve been extremely overthinking the most smallest thing and worrying about the most thing that i ve been overthinking about this happens throughout the day and disrupts my life it s even disrupting me whilst i m typing i worry and overthink thing that could cause health problem but the thing are sooo small i ve wasted so many food thinking this could be dangerous i know it sound stupid because i can barely even explain it it s taking a toll on me but i know that the other day when i got outside the house i wasn t thinking about it and i felt better but then when i got back to the house and started up again i just know i keep overthinking and worrying about the smallest thing health related i can t tell you the amount of time that i ve been back and forth to the doctor this year and last year worrying myself,1
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sadly relate movie im  yet kissed really feel josie since seeing film write review rewatched it remembered everything loved itbr br drew barrymore great actress role suited really well time chemistry sam josie really good michael vartan excellent actor thisbr br i loved storyline  said there could relate rare find film completely relate tobr br all  loved it ,0
everything choose connor topdrawer especially script proficient work done yearold director writer producer luke eberl    talented young man expect great things acting credible dialogue smart theme important loved itbr br saw  woodstock film festival screened twice went tremendously audiences coming age movie  kid learns hard heartbreaking lesson trust politics the system  things really work suit personal agendas powerful positionsbr br i would recommend movie anyone working brain,0
ive really enjoyed adaptation emmai seen many times always looking forward seeing againthough lasts  minutes novel plot subplots developed satisfactory way characters wellportrayed dialogues come directly novel silly jokes added emma thompsons sense sensibilitybr br as foreigner particularly appreciate perfect diction actors setting costumes beautiful find version quite par  miniseries pride prejudice producer screenwriter same kate beckinsale really good job portraying emma jane austen said would create heroin noone would love snobbish enough youth inexperience still likable mark strong also good portraying mr knightley easy part think though charisma shown colin firths mr darcy pride prejudice even end scene the harvest festival happen novel provides fitting end except shows emma cold almost unpleasant frank churchill whereas novel thoroughly reconciled him even telling would enjoyed duplicity situation strange departure faithfulness otherwise shown throughout film find costumes beautiful elaborate adaptations jane austens novels,0
@elainerogers Have a ball on Saturday! Worried about that. Look fab. Swollen eyes. Stunning ,0
tired tired please judgei fighting  years manage life point think time check out family left suffering good days life great downs terrible pull together get back work fall apart ending street weekend street again money rent trying put together money week avail odd jobs weather raining helped going kill today want plan painless also shock anyone street weekend want cause trauma police anyone would find me would love go country doctor assisted redflag  name  need travel like that crisis today done  jobs life tried many medications go like powerless boat ocean please judge people may choose end life open answers would better people kill themselves tired pain life good life ways focusing good things sunrises sunsets loves life things experiences good going suffer anymore would appreciate ideas people end life without harming others cause pain myself want final act painful myself suffered enough hope younger people read find answers try trying  years find solutions nothing changes young people often find solutions give another  years case find answers many do makes sad plan this older s enough enough,1
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hard knowing everyone around issues hard takes extreme amount work make normal day life go smoothlywhich almost never does first felt like grasps whole redflag thing made sense first got diagnosed longer harder deal with know like constantly feel uncomfortable skin never turn off answer give people ask whats wrong theres always one thing going time find drinking id like admiti never drank this anything take edge off feel like im teach everything again even know formulate words,1
inconsolably upset timei hate much zero skills besides well school useless life im awkward im clueless take everything personal blow every little thing proportion all incompetent cant successful way am successful person matter hard try much work myself  totaled car boyfriend  business successful kind city market fancy new car able give old one could humiliated cooled four days hating wanting desperately anyone else anyone elses brain even get help another week ive trying schedule appointments months finally one cant wait longer know do,1
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scheduled first therapy session doubt ill even make itive thinking redflag every day probably  months now theres point living like anymore weekend may finally it  people may sad first eventually theyll forget life go normal landlord rent apartment again ill replaced work earth keep spinning even sticking around hopefully goodbye,1
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whyi dont want end people say hurt arent hurt im nobody shell im person thats mentally dead whats point,1
last week at a family st patrick s day party i got drunk and took the rest of my antidepressant idk how much it wa but it wa at least more than half the bottle left i realized what i did wa stupid because there were kid around and i didn t want my little cousin seeing me od so i told my aunt and she took me to the er that wa thursday night i don t remember anything after getting to the er i wa completely out of it and i didn t wake up until saturday morning i wish i didn t survive and i ve been in the hospital since then because there aren t any bed available for outpatient program i m just waiting for a bed i don t want to go to a psych ward i ve already been admitted other time for suicidal ideation this wa my first time attempting i don t think life is worth living and i don t mean that for just me i think for anyone life is so fucking mundane and pointless i don t want to do any of it i don t want to live so i can work and pay bill for the rest of my life what s the point in that and none of the people that i genuinely care about have reached out to me that know i od d which break my fucking heart it s like they don t even care i ve been so depressed for so long i don t want to fight anymore and i don t think it s fair for people to ask me stay when they know i m suffering i ve given up already i don t think i ll ever get my will to live again i m literally dead inside and i have nothing to live for,1
@tw33tiebyrd I'm so happy I got 0.5cc's of liquid gold pumped tonight! It'll just keep flowing more now hopefully helping her get strong. ,0
doe anyone here have anxiety about their status at their job it make me feel bad that i may possibly always be at the bottom of my company and won t ever be promoted to a more senior position i feel like i ve given up on myself in a way i actually gave up on myself a long time ago why do i feel like past failure mean i can t improve myself now,1
davidblue someone spoiled it for me last week,0
this view of depression is disturbingly common despite all the work mental health activist have put into fighting the stigmatization of mental illness negative and ignorant perception of the disorder remain prevalent,1
I bet that Steve Jobs will make a cameo tomorrow through a videoconf with the new Iphone video - he dicho ,0
im necessarily there yet feel like soon might bei guess need vent turn  weeks know everyone around act like care care know really feeling inside know thats seeking help think fair put feelings someones brain forced care me really strength seek help begin with ive depressed past two years never thought commiting redflag always felt like wouldve gotten better now hasnt slowly gradually getting worse feel like birthday last ive fantasizing jumping bridge reminisce so part thinks itll never happen im scared to cant help feel like might happen tough much family around loathe family thought growing up always felt like family everything got older parents got divorced shattered perspective family never close begin anyways certainly close now know anymore feel lonely helpless needed vent,1
im a year old guy in highschool i suffer from bipolar depression and have been addicted to painkiller before and went through rehab during my freshman year during my addiction i had a girlfriend and we decided to go to a dance together she didn t show up my first reaction wa to not worry but all my friend had their date and we re having fun i immediately went into a panic and took too many pill i overdosed and almost died i decided to break up with my girlfriend after the incident and felt it wa best we moved on now i m a junior the first year i m allowed to go to prom and i don t wan na go i m single this year and all my friend have date and are probably going to have fun i don t think i will enjoy myself i don t want to relive a traumatic experience that nearly killed me my parent want me to go because they feel it is really important and will show my emotional growth they say that me going will make them happy and called me selfish when i said i wasn t going my dad keep telling me that i m going and that i need to look for a suit and stuff pretending like nothing is wrong my mom is telling me that i m selfish for not going and that it would make them happy if i would go i don t know what to do can i get some advice,1
feel like im burningmy whole body feels like burning want scream end all deserve this fault know ill never change never born,1
one gives shit mei told friends father sister cut one gives single shit darkest thing ive one helping know mental illness maybe im sad self abuse much ive probably done self harm list want say depression people always say theyre depressed theyre sad know anything im lost,1
saw film sep cambridge film festival br br the beagles couple short flashbacks whole thing darwins life   ensconced kent growing family  pages origin already drafted wondering whether complete book br br the script based randal keyness book annies box annie charless daughter died  mostly family drama include sex scenes  however participants married screen exciting much science wellmade film thats pleasant watch pushes right emotional buttons bit romantic weepie actually suppose conclusion agnostic freethinking scientist atheist family background still emotional romantic well excellent father br br some characters darwin state wonder whether killed god viewer able doubt that beyond doubt given deadly struggle survival web predation meadowbank wellknown darwin completely uncontroversial failure darwins prayers idea kind providential god loves his creatures untenable br br i really cannot see many americans objecting much may problems title probably controversial thing film fact bettany horns tail pitchfork,0
yo guys need write poem need yall help think subject write poem topic choice help im uncreative,0
hi people mobile thatthis literally happened honest messed it idea right place goesive got back taking friend amp e following taking odthey struggling ages mental health recent events made worsewithout going details place say know badi struggling support past weeks sucide watch whole time called everyone trying get help one listened taken tolli try reply might take awhile still shock guess need somewhere vent guess,1
twitter annoying im talking people mean platform im batim fanartist bendy ink machine batim art community actually super nice earlier made mistake drew digital drawing tweeted it decided set profile picture noticed birthday option warning said change birthday times did locked account saying users  older use platform im already  almost  id figured would still let use account no apparently twitters calculator broke wait mom get home unlock again,0
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i don t know who i am anymore i ve tried so hard to regain a sense of who i once wa but it s pointless everytime i look at someone anybody i instantly feel reminded that i m nothing that i will always will be nothing i m not clueless i know why i feel this way i ve been strong for way too long i ve spent my entire life longing for something that will never come a decent family that isn t problematic friend and a proper support system this entire time i wa never strong because i wanted to be i had no choice but to be i m not a strong person keeping false hope by holding onto delusion to get by isn t what it mean to be strong i know the life i m living now won t last forever but the damage caused by everything i ve gone through is beyond repair i m unfixable my whole life ha been nothing but a buildup of trauma and it ll continue to be it ll never end more than anything i wish someone cared about me would hold my hand and tell me everything s going to be alright hug me when i cry into my pillow at night hold me when i m breaking down because i m not strong enough to take on the pain alone but no i ll never have anyone like that in my life only in my delusional mind if any word defines my life it s alone i ve taken this journey of endless trauma alone none ha ever truly cared everyone just watch me stagger along i wonder why i even wasted any of my time going to therapy none of my therapist have ever cared nothing ever changed i never felt any better i m currently feeling the worst i ve ever felt in my entire life i ve experienced so much pain throughout my whole life but nothing like this this pain destroyed all my dream destroyed who i once wa a a person there s only one way from here now and it s more down then i already am taking medication for my problem isn t what i need throwing pill at my problem isn t going to make me forget about everything that s ever happened in my life the only two thing that would be able to do that for me is severe brain trauma or death i m not going to use drug a mean of coping with my life using drug to solve and help with my problem i may be a worthless individual but i m wise enough to know having to take pill a a mean of getting better isn t the life i want i just need a human being in my life that care about me that is able to see my worth tell me i m more than all of this trauma however i know the reality and i won t sugarcoat it i come with too many challenge for anyone to have any sort of care for me i suffer from skin picking severe depression and anxiety ptsd constant disassociation where i forget who i actually am and feel like the world isn t real i m far too fucked up it explains why i have no friend why i have none in my life who truly care about me because of how long all of my problem have gone untreated i can t escape my suicidal thought my problem will always define who i am will always have the last say in everything i do nothing give me happiness anymore not food not drawing not reading or writing not watching the sunrise not the moon not late night not going outside not sleeping nothing all of it feel pointless now and it doesn t provide me happiness like it used to me i ve always preferred to keep my emotion to myself and not go to my parent for help because everytime i do i get the same response they always invalidate my feeling it s endless response that always tear me down they tell me i m overreacting that i should leave my problem in the past that i should stop being a crybaby that i should grow up already and stop being problematic saying that others have life worse and i shouldn t complain about it there s no point in wasting my time asking them for help i have none else i can reach out to none else that care i wa hospitalized a month ago after i told my school counselor about my suicidal thought what happened my parent were called i wa forced to go to the hospital and i got cussed out badly they said a variety of hurtful thing but what stuck with me the most wa being told that if i were actually suicidal i d have done it already telling me i m nothing but an attention seeker telling me i wasted my time asking for help and going to the hospital because no give a shit about me anyways no care at all for the fact that i m in the hospital because i don t want to live anymore i didn t choose to be open about being suicidal because i m an attention seeker i did it because i needed help surviving if my own parent don t care about me how can i expect anyone else to have any care for me the only living being i have left now is my lovely boy sled he may only be a dog but he s all i have left in this world unfortunately i just don t know if that s enough at this point to keep me going life ha given up on me so i want to give up on myself i m tired of my life consisting of surviving plainly existing without no meaning i don t want be strong anymore i don t want to live in my head anymore i never want to experience trauma ever again i want to escape i want to be free i m not sure if i ll ever get that chance in life and even if i do it won t be anytime soon if i had to guess possibly in a few year but i can t hold on that long hell i don t even know if i can make it to the end of 0 people with proper support system really don t realize how lucky they truly are that s the only that could save me from myself and the only thing i look forward to in the future if i make it the chance i ll have my own support system one of the worst mistake i kept repeating wa thinking that professional help would magically make everything better somehow it didn t i m never taken seriously because to them i m just another mentally ill person that doesn t hold much worth fuck that i do have many mental illness but i m aware and i sure a hell know what my reality is and what s going on i ve recently come to realize you can t rely on anyone but yourself to help you get better obviously this is far from easy when you re suicidal the harsh reality is i can give up or continue living my life in misery this isn t just the harsh reality for me but so many other individual who are suicidal or have suicidal thought or ideation it s not fair at all and none should ever have to come to that realization i feel like i m a lost cause now i m beyond sick and tired of hearing there s hope for the future something brighter to look forward to for the past few year i ve been feeling suicidal all i ve been doing is taking life one step at a time taking it day by day waiting for that one where thing finally start to turn around for me but it hasn t all the time i wonder maybe there s nothing left in my future except loneliness emptiness more nightmare to dream about more tear to shed and more trauma to endure i don t want to live like this anymore although i don t wish to die only escape this life i d rather be dead i don t want to be this aware i don t want to feel like this anymore i don t want the feeling of worrying about what the future hold to consume me anymore being failed by the system failed by society and failed by life is why i m suicidal,1
im considering ending lifeit started kid father sexually abused younger brother older sister years finally courage say something remember father wanted give gift started crying mom wondering about asked crying id tell gift ment hed expect cuddle him mom thinking silly said its father wants good you id explain cuddle way did thats started police would come place get him conversations police child welfare would start back forth mom going court sister brother explanations enough even allegations prior wed get know case came up still would free man hed roam streets even rented cabin  meters away home over fight mother custody torture us eventually got us over convicion free man things done mean anything enough evidence problem never wanted again got delivered him remember crying non stop screaming yelling wanted everyone hear it please leave us alone him cry help im grateful every day mother would refuse let us stay there brought us home nothing anyone could it years later kept fighting see us eventually got see us coditions gonna supervisor us times never spend night problem supervisor someone father knew hed fucking leave us alone hed go walk remember father sitting legs hurt much id cry hed things too things ever want talk again  years ago today  year old man job education ive depressed struggling anxiety years never felt like belonged anywhere safety supposed got completely ripped away me teeth rotting inside mouth simply able work job afford taking care things able take care of age ive seen friends start families buy houses take driver licenses get cars things feel too late s cant barely make month month food see end this loneliness darkness feel helpless ive often contemplated redflag ive never close,1
unclogged toilet feel like legit god joke taken shit  weeks took one around  minutes ago problem was shit clogged damn toilet bowl absolute nightmare mainly started flashbacks similar incident hotel traumatic experience dad time  pm parents asleep first step  make noise would attract them second try solve this first flushed again work obviously plunger whatever thought could do googled solutions required baking soda shit and time either thought water hit shit high velocity would force shit pipe filled bucket it make noise though dumped sink nothing happened bowl flooded eventually water receded filled another bucket waiting looked mirror gave pep talk sorts bucket filled lifted bucket high up dumped bowl shit dissapeared felt releif fuck happy unironically feel like fucking god done own also dad used bathroom taking piss notice anything mission accomplished,0
night ends waysi posted close milestone previously mentioned come speak again anything like me might sleep much maybe sleep much need counts hours endlessly long painful nothing feels right nothing beautiful everything like knives belly anger throat so lets stay together tonight day tomorrow going three years since last redflag attempt days several months since truly felt desire end life go dark quiet soft nothing feels like razors beautiful being whoever are talented gifted abilities many never possess inherently yours know feeling avoiding mirrors selfharming feeling like effort drag school bed know eat want shower lighted rooms tasted sorrow good person worth life given so stay tonight watch dawn crests horizon watch colors move sky open window even breathe early morning air beatific things like bribes currency trade pain wake morning one day hopefully soon look clear eyes beautiful things everywhere deserve love happiness giving others give you life promised easy gentle told things always go way fair however promised know worth it wake morning bask glow sun stillness rain mornings feel blessed sight read words senses gifted feel recognize feel pain would feel joy either find balance can go places cant led back from many people love you many people miss you night end ways morning things scary unclear wish you pray you something better given time find it three years im going dance it night end ways ok are going ok one day hopefully one day soon,1
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i ve been on zoloft for about week now and i m starting to feel uncomfortably neutral i usually dissociate in different way often feeling like i m in a dream but this feel like a different type of dream it just feel so off like i can t tell if it s a dream or not i m missing my normal suicidal absolutely miserable messed up self i ve been on antidepressant so far in my life and none have significantly helped me i feel like they re doing nothing but mushing my brain and making my vision worse i spoke to my doctor today planning to just get off of them entirely i ended up staying on them though a he said that me feeling neutral is a good thing he also said they shouldn t mess with my vision even though i ve seen ton of people say they can i don t understand why there only seem to be two option be extremely miserable and want to kill myself constantly and feel a billion other weird negative indescribable thing or take pill constantly feel absolutely nothing struggle to make sense of anything that s going on a if my mind is just completely blank and miss the other option i wish i could be one of the people that are genuinely happy and have reason behind it i can t make reason nothing about myself or the future matter to me and i can t convince myself otherwise i could still die right now and it would be whatever i just don t care about anything because i can t feel anything right now i just wouldn t want my family or friend to experience that that s still my only reason even now if i didn t have the worry of my family and friend grieving the death of me i d kill myself so i suppose i miss the constant presence of my suicidal thought but the desire is still there it s like there s an itch under my skin that i can t scratch and a ticklish discomfort in my chest i don t understand the feeling but i just miss the thought part of me think that it s only a matter of time before they come back and part of me is afraid that they never will it s so bizarre that you can practically become addicted to it perhaps it is the comfort of the consistency that i love and the change and uncertainty of what s to come that is so frightening to me that sound incorrect though a i just don t care about my future i just feel extra scared and disconnected in this current state of mind though i still want to stop existing to stop feeling this way i feel indifferent to the idea of suicide it feel le enticing but so doe absolutely everything in life i miss the enticement of suicide that i normally feel i want to want to kill myself i want to think about it constantly and that make me feel guilty it make me feel like all of these year i ve just been selfish subconsciously doing thing only for attention and that i m continuing to do exactly that however i know i ve not an emotional abusive relationship and genetics just messed me up i guess i have no idea i missed the abuse too before i started missing the consistency of my suicidal thought now i just feel indifferent to everything about her i don t know i m writing and deleting a good bit of stuff i constantly feel like nothing i m saying is even accurate i just don t know what s going on i just feel like i m in a white void mentally i apologize for my rambling and lack of structure in this post i hope this can at least bring some comfort to anyone out there who may be feeling something similar in any way,1
anyone know way outim  depressed anxious know parents narcissists lack power change anything keep considering ending it im school learning animate im good it depression took fun it two things holding back guinea pigs boyfriend got guinea pigs summer help mentally may end marrying boyfriend actually end myself weve dating  years tomorrow despite nice things keep feeling empty know else do,1
everyone lets stand take prayer must pray people enjoy have agree queen james bible blasphemy disrespectful thing bible thank everyone prayed,0
want kill work todayi decided last night would it know exactly im going it where when ive casually suicidal week thinking dying feel better actual plan idk part wants everything change kill know nothing change really choice want stop suffering hand could take meds go see doctor want try anymore guess fault idk even point posting maybe want change mind maybe want someone say life turn around even know life turn around thats wishful thinking guess pointless im stupid,1
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saved fathers life least x recently found hes diabetic forced hospital help find sugar  helping today try make sure little possible anymore yelled listening fitting instead calls dick head replied stubborn asshole thus squares starts pushing wanted fight would problem major surgery stomach basically held together tape room cannot calm meds looking like way hell told better never need help even health cut ties find floor it stubborn ass put situation mine sure want anymore one hand deal miserable father dropped high school years ago verge death hes trying push death,1
surviving and being in worst condition or facing the disappointment of my family is the only thing stopping me from ending it,1
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almost  year old trans woman live south transitioned teens mentally female long remember transitioning blessing also curse gender dysphoria something would wish worst enemy transitioning simply would label anything sexuality wise gay male never felt true even though assigned male attracted men always identified internally straight female graduated high school online tried public school would stop going bullying harassment finally transitioned felt excited happy years went dysphoria got worst became unhappy myself parents divorced  still feel somehow responsible party always problems always felt strain put family parents cannot work redflag bad vomit shake feel like every single person looks knows judging me two past notredflag ended terribly always blame it truly feel unlovable matter many surgeries hormones get feel inadequate inhuman nothing elevates sadness want die peacefully painlessly would make better transgender female lost,1
trust issues ok know going long story please read it talked girl  weeks i know lot started like her continued talk called gave instagram i met snapchat one day asked single said yes two day later said needed unfriend parent didnt want boyfriend found weird used talk time didnt said anything parent anyway unfollowed her yesterday followed followed back talked like four hours says something tell dont mad texted ok wont told unfriend boyfriend trust issues,0
almost  although quite popular high school never gf wondering worth going experience looking reasons stay love worth living for,1
so i m starting to reach the point of getting rid of thing i own that way no one else ha to do that i don t really want to be in this mood but i don t see why i should bother trying anymore i m at the point where i can t hide how miserable i am and i don t want people to tell me it will get better or that i ve come such a long way i feel like i m holding those people back and they re wasting their energy on me i m not scared of dying anymore even though all i want is to not feel like garbage,1
tried failedive posted tried od pills  times last time used box cutter made mess things got stiches beaten senseless many times middle elementary school tumor five years one believed wonderful girl love since th grade  years november confessed feelings ive sad every day cry every day feel like weight chest love much cant keep living like take medication go therapists useless reality many us get better fair stuck hellish state people feel good themselves end selfish ones,1
advilim starting think might actually consider option things get worse everythings tumultuous right now head hurts heart aches eyes sore legs tired brain drained studying catching do look advil bottle take relieve headache sometimes thing nice would stress anymore mom dad brenda ive always felt like underappreciated done me unconditional support home safe home something count on thank stability fiona listened like thoughtful insight actions take make life better like feel grounded whenever go office spill everything out nice calvin nice someone much common with although deep talks really happen discussions everything sun fucking wonderful christina know want help decision made based feeling feelings always valid right maybe would good idea make decision less stressed think job tell that know really want help gut feeling screaming something guilt all left first time thought possibilities right enter life help leave im alright repeat whole cycle again jenny hugs care important times pretty great today told function demanded come over made feel wanted alright martin marvel work hard suffer daily arthritis respect life live strong belief commitment family choices myself appreciate first instinct try fight way this wanted stay waterloo wanted get term yourself tried make changes life counsellors say healthy thank trying but sometimes energy health time want to hope gets better sake people around me,1
therapy help im  extremely suicidal  years now plan set  wouldve went family came home early felt like real piece shit almost it since ive come realization abusive parents probably care mean negative really dont ive dating girl already year honestly say im love promised ever became threat would finally tell parents deep seeded issues pursue therapy texted dad little bit ago  short text basically seeing need help wanna go it already regret her wanted know helped anyone else im really hoping cause would love happy ,1
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zinziii dammit when ya heading home we didn t get messy drunk together at any point,0
theres nothing meim  jobless living home mother that feel cares dogs child income own measly two friends both live hundreds miles away me car own time im perfectly happy living like this contacting friends via skype putting happy face see sometimes reality catches me hitting like freight train friends better things talk lowlife like me mother keeping roof sense familial obligation that needs someone cooking cleaning dog care instant show emotions around her starts interrogating feel way do everyone else age graduating class job house own able drive ive isolating world more detaching two friends mother ive even thought different ways could take out guts even that theyre either painful take long easily noticed combination three want live world matter even closest me thats all im sorry borderline illegible im exactly best state mind really needed get chest,1
actual point sub even used proper purpose im gonna real here majority posts get attention karma awards things pet died feeling confident posts selfie first time really shitty meme feeling suicidal once sorry know internet majority outright bullshit yet due general age democratic feel need take safest option instead question validity posts believe take advantage genuinely form social mental issue actual services help well dedicated subreddits argument played said person wants support backing peers respect think probably approach situation less wanting attention extravagant pictures stories rather approach discussion conversation joined subreddit thinking would discussing debating issues involving peers accomplish well passive support need directing proper services not filling attention karma take want,0
If you cant convince them confuse them ,0
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kinds movies loved still love growing up unlike big budget movies crate huge plot holes never acknowledge them movie takes stride makes something sit back enjoybr br there film student earlier complained list material point point movie everyone likes huge cgi clich filled movies lot people like movies meant entertain you get much money canbr br besides also nice know good ol bruce dead yet,0
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someone help mei feel rlly alone rn am rn need help,1
whats wrong wanting livei really wanted alive around past  years life  told severe depression that understand logically want live enjoy every day grew great house supportive friends family drive wants get job productive member society never have yet get job date yet alive get people enjoy company parents love want much sit home parents play video games talk friends online time dinner talk parents almost every night cant want dead without people saying sort problem produce goods services wide enough audience able support myself know burden upon family want stuck idling away time them wrong wanting dead,1
i have nearly 00 dollar saved a a student working hour a week i spend money on almost nothing but random food rent to parent car payment and gas i just feel like spending money because it feel like it d make me feel better but i still don t wan na do anything any video game i can buy hobby sure all i really want is good company but thats the one thing i can t really get lmao,1
gun redflag questionif killed boyfriends gun would get trouble law im considering option want cause legal problems im gone,1
idk  years endless pain suffering suffer skin infection spreading rapidly ive trying go doctor trying traditional herbs etc nothing really cure it im depressed stopped going school  months scar everything making lose confidence maybe matter time enough family keep telling pray pray pray driving crazy thing keeping killing promise someone even care love anymore want free this im tired,1
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@Poekasso Idk. Maybe Bcuz I'm Eating Taco Bell &amp; My Cousin Just Asked If I Wanted To Go Shoppingg. So Taco Shoppinggg. ,0
fuck reaching helpi keep seeing hearing every where asking help keep getting told feels like one cares enough help anyway even supposed it someone supposed respond i need help feels like im forcing onto people even know would work terms helping me unsure question even makes sense im genuinely curious means get help sorry saying help much,1
really now time for sleep dreaming of my city more tattoo and other great thing waking up to early morning sociology,0
like mario  great game people think fantastic game first one natural flaws say dislike mario  practically get decapitated mob nostalgic idiots fact many retro games bad modern games improve everything older games made telling im wrong disliking mario  gtfuck yoult,0
unpopular opinion memes better without meme original picturetext seriously like taking joke far add less funny is feel like memes left jokes,0
yall pray friend nothings wrong him hes idiot,0
one fucking talk toi one fucking talk to one fucking talk to one fucking talk to one fucking talk to thanks lot people fuck everyone thier bullshit sayings bullshit ignoring me,1
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questioning driving insane much ready go minute nowyoull figure youll know time right cant stand answers anymore intrusive thoughts ocd cureable means never figure out people get sick tired pain leave feel like quick venting stop soon try talk issues reciprocate loose interest dont blame feel like burden let alone others wake everyday set date die cant go like this cant eat cant sleep even hard breathe,1
made my day  http://img32.imageshack.us/img32/1802/200902111426r.gif,0
sure reason live enough anymoremy partner  years went lovers best friends their choice mine longer trust made bad choices past i cheated understand viewpoint entirely still madly love them know go on miracle cheated still together trying work it honor trust paramount me know cheating destroyed things im cheater immediately regretted came senses killing option thought partner want make sad figured maybe regain shred honor living them make smile living punish did im sure keep going anymore barely able keep going before thought things mend wrong partner deserves world longer give that want best friend cant make happy give trust like loving relationship can like used have know do think soldier anymore could never bear sight someone else even though know would happier cant anymore im scumbag honorless piece shit cheating deserve die anyways,1
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 think overdosing asapi really really cant anymore im waste space little potential gone everyone could carry better wasnt here burden thats ever be feel calm rational think it like everything going solved everyone elses problems gonna okay solved go thats feels,1
anyone else miss black app icon know black lives matter damn looked good right gone,0
hard die ive made peace itis unreasonable want certainty death want know try kill myself work one biggest things struggle with want found passed bleeding tub rope break go hospital wake getting stomach pumped otherwise difficulty impact itll people around me ive isolated much outside people work with less handful people know always seems something brother got married mom depressed brother baby grandfather died today moms birthday next week neverending litany impacts death lives want feel stuck helpless yet keep chugging along day relying substance abuse make one next getting closer closer point feel like try hope get lucky im work feels like black hole abdomen threatening disintegrate carefully constructed composure way know make another minutes time leave wish someone could save me least care me,1
wrong never told happening ended things wanted serious her took cheating day goes back every argument have  months told girl found actually still relationship ex would visit home town,0
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first day back school today hi guys today first day swedish equivalent high school nervous went well fun  good thing school chose go one day week dont school but expected work assignments day really nice,0
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thank youi posted days ago stressful job wife  years telling love anymore still doesnt job still hell im ok even little bit im longer considering redflag option appreciate reached me,1
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point living job girlfriend friends still living home future really bad social anxiety ocd depression three different medications helping came last year people say things get better see things getting worse money get acne scarring treated money get braces even get job look presentable let alone mental illness hope want things go back way things bornnothingness cant take more,1
it holy shit itfuck close took looking th floor window open parents problems now idea life going look like future im sure gonna get better im glad chickened out,1
dream cant wake upi know start but thr past  years life and maybe more dissociating time felt weird moviedream disconnecting world myself details life nightmare yo and recently thought thats life was like yeah late everything time speeds keep zoning out life breakdowns three times day hate much obsessing junkfood throw shower later on i dedicating life distract pain avoid it medication anything tried therapy cant seem fully comprehend different diagnosis believe complex ptsd im tired im tired im fucking tired im tired spend almost every single days last  years wanting die im tired hatred towards myself im tired able connect others im tired excluded im tired people telling problem pretty tired object used im tired caring im tired disappointment family im tired letting people hurting ones try love me tired watching life far away stuck parallel universe feel lonely exhausted im done shows over go home edit cant english,1
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dunno anymorei made account this im sure want this want bother anyone want usual pep talks assume people get even exactly know bad ive felt thought year so good friends good family couple heartbreaks last couple years feel like use anyone actually feel like hinder people now taken one friends spiral drink drugs hes tried me shit see him ive fights arguments mother friends think hindsight behaiour hard tell see ive done wrong time think im right hard done by afterthought seeing others go guess see maybe common problem im one always issue causes issues guess depression latest ex tried get see someone it ive never felt id need that fact  years ago least likely guy ever that ive always one everyone constant happy guy party guy helping guy guy would pick up guy would take in feel like one wants near me drunk drugs now alone anyone talk to ive thought last  hours jumping car fucking finding cliff bridge know really want to might best guess want vent sorry fit here sorry brake rules i read them said want phone number know are thanks reddit,1
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online classes really pissing off advice alright  m last year finished th grade exams ended getting  really good motivation read well score th grade lose interest due pathetic online classes students arent capable understanding whatever teachers saying teachers also really bad taking classes first months managed listen little still wasnt good later started getting distracted barely listen classes play dota watch anime watch youtube never listen classes grades going low finals approaching nearer do wanted get everything chest tips study even condition,0
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ever feel like edgelike spend much time thinking big part life reason done yet yet always feels like edge waiting last straw reading last mean thing last horrible thing happens know done,1
im starting feel donei really energy write everything out consistently losing since teenager somewhat serious plans end teen im  severely depressed since july  prompted seek help ineffective romantic social life speak of im wasting time college used think would never commit redflag day wears more feel like im reaching sort threshold im still deeply uncomfortable redflag find thinking increasingly want miserable want gay want unsuccessful lonely loser keep thinking maybe one day happy things look bleak now im disappointed way life turned out would ask start enjoying life feel hopeless suggestions welcome anyway disclaimer im currently danger others,1
im gonna tonightim gonna kill gonna steal pills grandma im gonna swallow whole bottle kill im   next month im complete fuck asshole failure one likes ruin every friendship probably shouldve killed sooner fat ass broke rope ive stuck anymore im gonna end one ever deal itll great wont missed makes better people probably happy good bye everyone,1
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find redflag forumsive heard forums people encourage redflag even discuss redflag methods anybody tell find websites,1
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resist urge put  centipedes ear holes everytime hear voice video,0
second not animated movie people still refusing surrender roman empire even hilarious first film asterix  obelix contre ceasarbr br where first movie got laughs cartooncharacters perfectly brought life without losing cartoonesque identity sequel which separate story comicbooks even better sure ingredients find first movie comicbooks present again obelix still dying taste magic potion gives tribe members enormous powers caesar rest roman empire still enemy number  new refreshing elements brought stage wellbr br not setting idyllic biggest part plays course egypt rather repeating movie number one extras added making kinds references movies bruce lee etc new unexpected combination known story comicbook with almost title movie references stuff got absolutely nothing asterix  obelix really worksbr br in way movie builds tradition comicwriters goscinny uderzo hesitate bring laurel hardy stage even dedicate entire story kirk douglasbr br if convince watch movie im sure monica bellucci playing cleopatra will,0
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my night went to the bar felt up a marred woman went home hard and alone,0
fuck wrong reddit fucking laggy multiple browsers open post new tab get logged tab breaks reddit randomly freezes get teleported top feed,0
second thoughtsso lot shipments things earn life with yesterday ordered heroine od literally money education skills family anything today im sure really want die vanish im also really lazy die anything dont really know write,1
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alone sbdy well ever look crushs photo smiling genuinely happy imagine photo taken exact moment person smiling pleasant warm feeling comes stomach always followed hardtoswallow truth knowing really care makes happy imagination,0
life worth livingthis personal post care listening whining kid favor move on unloading thoughts ive recently cant talk anyone them maybe im worried theyll worried im worried theyll agree point theres one option left need get there say comes me every time wake up wonder why get bed knew me tell need go college want to feel like outcast there even though im peoples friend im smart enough there theres many people better every one subjects feel embarrassed even room them thinking why here hes nowhere good thinks is work feels pointless anyway mean lets face it probably gonna lead anywhere sec suppose could say hanging friends worth spend maybe hour day best even though fun still feel empty probably sort meaningful conversation limits talk humorous banalities fun moment moment im staying moment mention fact im none best friends me matters ok lets talk complete alevels best case scenario get need next well really different setting university were looking even work even loneliness likelihood is make good friends quickly ill going lectures going back dorm day every day sounds like way live plus looking current state things getting job looking unlikely get one going horrible mean say get job were looking majority days taken mind numbing tedious tasks completed day in day receive fraction money generate boss keeps threatening fire me great even stick long enough rise ladder im going turn around middle age realize nothing bit money shiny car im still alone depressed ive always been even better might happen want sort corporate job want writer group people depressed alcoholic suicidal become cliche chances ideas way derivative work ever anything criticized mocked ever noticed all terms career odds life fulfilling me love make worth it love tried best steer clear me every time ive fallen love without fail mater reciprocal seemed rejected me probably good reason im unattractive guy cant good around im sure tell post get nervous insecure clingy great boyfriend material anyway even could fall love girl loved back next carry relationship one us falls love dies painful matter what ill probably end one divorced forty year olds still desperately tries get dating scene cries car outside clubs eventually hangs studio apartment leaving remaining grand kids pity anyway likelihood is none happen love rare probably rare ordinary kid like me im likely go entire life without ever feeling it greater good yeah right seen current political landscape seen anything weve ever created species touch insidious were fucked best chance saved long gone human beings animals violent selfish long hold onto base urges well never equal functioning society biological puppets heads full false imaginings fucked get go must thinking christ clearly depressed go get help help everyone know whos antidepressants still fucked way another feels odd turn altering chemical makeup blocking thoughts way happy feels like im right im going willfully ignore it shrink barely better priest someone give illusion hope tell theres light end tunnel offering nothing sentiment professional smile taking money it right thats comes mind right now know bleak subs for anyway thanks anyone reads responds tldr career satisfy me love keeps evading me human race hopeless cant see way out,1
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end mehi reddit since felt suicidal apparently now terrifying pain ahead feels terrifying too wanna live experience it alone work bawling eyes out cant keep shit together work mom run pharmacy together wanna call ask cover me want hear say like always job would allow this act like adult nobody gave lesiure young love her damn knows undermine me maybe right though im almost  weak like this anyways nasty nasty fight husband mean regrettable things said sides mostly his said mean it said sorry like every time knows sensitive yet still this say harsh words anger even less sensitive person would moved fucking shattered anyways hope yesterday showed empathy said want feel like shit this heard thought maybe work it today angry again hurt say hi morning seriously considering divorce needed time calm down angry saying take responsibility mean words expressing saying mean words himself got butthurt told stop talking turned phone even stay together this love him hard get together different circumstances much other separate mean failed again nothing  year old loser works mommy decide work deal said deal pain ruined experiences customers keep coming cannot put straight face front anymore takes energy battery drained pharmacy access poisons opportunity fall asleep never wake up one life hate throw away terrified whats it probably nothing terrifying too cant deal anymore failed everybody failed myself please blame husband reasons angry know it holy shit cant anymore please help,1
notice senpaiii huge crush awesome girl met discord nothing realistic  unbelievably awesome wanna bad know happen ever always feel excited texts worried might upset annoy maybe im also spamming lil bit im insecure one real crush nothing like it way intense im thinking literally time things could if need advice want get even depressed everything sux,0
mom doctors told  weeks pregnant today wish luck,0
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im getting confused like manage talk girlfriend cuz shes busy time like one two nicknames goodnight small love etc etc talk homie shit tok nicknames non stop love non stop compliments non stop saying good morning goodnight acting like couple gf im sure whether dont talk gf much cuz school homie online school talk day generally vent girlfriend strong anxiety dont want weigh trauma baggage shit fuck it someone asks yes talked girlfriend doesnt mind venting homie shit like cuz isnt good handling that might also homie strong signs disorders anxiety impostor syndrome might adhd might add depression shit like idk homie therapist friend group except friend group cuz shes friend,0
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i am not sure if this is possible and i appreciate any information a few year ago i wa diagnosed with clinical anxiety depression and adhd i wa relieved and terrified and so sad it took me until adulthood to learn this about myself i began medicating under the direction of my psychiatrist after about a year i changed from zoloft to prozac due to weight gain i began experiencing night sweat for the first time in my life about month ago it wa sporadic for month or so than became nightly now it ha worsened to the point that i wake up multiple time a night to change sheet and pajama i m not wetting the bed but truly soaking it through with my sweat in a degree room with minimal blanket i ve had to replace plastic bed protector mattress cover and even my mattress i believe i am having panic attack while i am asleep and i am unable to remember them assuming i would remember having a nightmare at the same time or be semi lucid what could paralyze me in sleep while having normal pleasant dream and cause excessive night sweat my change in medication did not correlate with the onset or increase in the night sweat i have had blood test mri pulmonary exam allergy test ultra sound and more no western doctor or my psychiatrist ha been able to find anything unusual that would explain the night sweat tl dr extreme night sweat begin in adulthood with no obvious cause desperately looking for advice on what might help edit 9 f,1
bored looking light read check book wrote younger hi everyone younger think preteen age one hobbies writing books based going life recently ive inspired look back old writing reason definitely worthy publishing curious whether would appealed around age protagonist  things wrote book extremely unrealistic others quite plausible even looking back years wrote it makes curious would received others synopsis book tenyearold margaret lorie typical preteen girl many ways learning navigate transition child young adult naturally involves many changes story opens meg must cope new addition family via adoption little girl named wayne join megs ups downs navigates unpredictable world middle school friendships meet nice mean girls journey beware  girls around age both and course title would suggest meg develops crush boy named max actually fourteen years old friendship develop course story influence meg world around her read max find outhttpsdocsgooglecomdocumentdmqxfiqtfigrpqmfzccmdfbjwibsxftkoedituspsharing,0
i just read this line somewhere the problem with silence is that it s usually not complete it got me thinking how i usually like to drown the noise around me by playing some music in the background the noise make me anxious or irritable at time but then i would probably not be able withstand complete silence a well because then i d be left alone with my thought which isn t exactly comforting and i sometimes get anxious if i completely cut off outside world because then i m anxious about not knowing what s happening out there damn it s frustrating any of you guy face this a well,1
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everything exhaustingive feeling exhausted long know do things like getting morning chat friend use easy find hard even force laugh carry conversation mentally im drained years feel emotions well friend told grandparents pass away sat saying feeling anything bad thing,1
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exam tomorrowi university exam tomorrow afternoon know anything ive trying go notes which mess full holes cram last minute know anything im  sure im going fail able study properly first place ive ill try study nothing goes start crying panic attacks every time try look notes cry cant stay calm long enough actually memorise anything supposed sit exam hours tomorrow write stuff know genuinely feel like im going mad im going something irrational stupid  know feel control anymore im shaking cant think straight ive like days  getting worse worse feel like im inches away breaking point,1
reason reviewing previous review written someone walked film even half way through unfortunately him missed film tremendous beauty agreed film slow start fact friend fell asleep brieflyi woke snoring disturbed rest audience thankfully film developed story love drugs like young free experimental s fantastic performances two leads great look film gave real authentic feel patient like many great films well worth wait certainly film look forward revisiting ,0
thank youhi first time posting throwaway think friends really know reddit account anyways going lot posts ive realized always people reaching willing help need want say thank you pretty touching know people care enough browse subreddit reach someone struggling ive recently diagnosed things gone downhill pretty fast never saw kind person act terrible thoughts head weekend stood train tracks cried felt accepting that im scared found staring knife  minutes flew plane traveled dangerously close city skyline problem parents brother flight want die me hate thoughts im thoughts cant control stopping acting im control myself depression causing want stop gets worse im already medication going two fricken therapists want act feel like im heading darker darker place,1
need speak anyone already tired listeningand eliminates everyone know hope seem far deep end start ramble  complain suppose beauty long typed diatribes stop reading no im college junior good school im smart girl like things school like get there work occupy succeed well im pacified ive always way regardless doing always grappling extent debilitating panic problems ive nervous kid life parents swear saw still toddler cant think less corny way say  im fragile years work stint therapy could change that growing up parents divorced early father moved away came back visit every months kept us one bedroom home friend brothers sisters around lot drugs violence ten one men lived started molest me went several years ran away never thankfully return house since real contact father last heard diagnosed kind disease mother abrasive woman put lot pressure since young lot problems own home summer relationship become strained feel terrible pressing anxiety time interact partial threats punishment surrounding school  shell pull this pay tuition keep x z school everything me cliched may sound love learning love work cant taken away demands impossible panic incited served make difficult disagreeable recently put things garbage bag sent way ive hopping house house around comes senses every often ill sneak back nowhere else go  applications later seemingly impossible get job sort relate well people many friends hometown interacting new people terrifies me usually become manic halfway sort social situation watch crash burn go back home fret next hour wallow that im very lonely very top panic problem ive got serious undiagnosed heart problems testing next weeks find scope this mother refuses pay critical expensive tests deadend situation used girl loved valued herself remember feeling beautiful talented happy remember tremendous capacity joy many things remember wanting do feel terribly helpless sad time every aspect life point worry panic everything around makes sad lately ive wondering would really bad choice end it im religious cant conceive state consciousness would experience could regret done it ill never even know everything love jeopardy people love far away may never get back them feel violent compulsion kill myself  feel motivation desire keep living cannot fight thick pervasive sadness fact even really know makes happy anymore know begin rebuild quite frankly want to therapy question parents pay it medication fantasize way out feel unplugged want spoken badly,1
anyone explain spent whole year learning write fancy like get american education system obsolete fuck cmon ever time child needed whole year learn write signature cursive dumb shit makes sense apart public education ridiculous,0
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if you ever read my post on my profile you know that i have an obsession about being a cheater i ll worry and worry etc i read something very triggering on reddit and i decided that i don t want to be on earth knowing that i did that to someone or if i did,1
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think crush likes new best friend saw post youll know crush doesnt like said dare awkward got class discussion groups covid cant move around sitting near could talk noticed laugh nothing strange tbh noticed body language second almost like date idea means,0
Getting up after a depression nap  https://twitter.com/kanyewest/status/989153701095915522 …,1
im still  sure ive  months wondering age rule eventhough im  still friends girls  long arnt relationship turned   friends  year old girls still friends them thank answering good day,0
parents happy lately cant remember last time yelled us weird maybe finally replaced batteries know mean what mean,0
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looking way commit redflagi  yo india sorry make mistakes idea commit redflag mind last  year since rd june  exact yesterday enough made mind kill myself dont figured way kill figure today best tomorrowif suggestion please share coming reason committing redflag parents said previously india india thing called culture grants basically infinite powers parents whatever shit get saying thinking best you means verbally abusive physically abusive control whatever life meet not remember said  yes still living even  bcoz incompetent pussy bcoz elder brother different city job let go even life changing oppourtunities past said guilt trapped saying dont think care me also brother last time saw year half ago thing remember telling problems saying let go bcoz parents cant anything it mother also same whenever something happens answer son forget move on even father verbally abuses me call shits like disgrace sisterfucker mistake forget it even beats whenever angry forget it still dont get it father verbal physical abuser remember said life changing oppourtunity guilt trapped give bcoz meant living different city yeah point father made financially viable enough handle expenses living different city basically poor are wealthy barely getting food tables dad money sent away enough put food table enough buy bottle rum every single day get drunk shouting reason go sleep give example yesterday even today father verbally abused bcoz going library study give context father like go outside libraries places study bcoz thinks making excuses get house hang friends reality want peace house cant get bcoz things happened coming back story want go wouldve son dont go library no said and paraphrasing except cussing threats  motherfucker piece shit want show things wanna teach us huh sisterfucker huh mean never grow up nobody going anywhere see leave house gonna break legs trying teach dont know daily routine get ready  morning leave library yesterday dont know happened yes this today thing topic adding new abuses new threats like bastard gonna shoot me things father family whole think sums this bcoz one incident going things whole life yes decided kill me dont know how soon figured it again ideas plz share,1
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almost got sex trafficked today basically picking dog groomer waiting car looking window groomer could see pup car full high school girls parked next me one got put sticky note window something social media flipped off got home told mom basically said town history high school girls trafficking alone teenage males dodged giant bullet window door locked really sure feel this comforts sake similar experiences honestly aware fake sounds really am real details want tell you please ask also extra details  hour ago dark mostly vacant parking lot old beater,0
losing battle anxietyive fighting battle get severe anxiety symptoms control started visit doctor  months ago prescribed pills suicidal psychotic break committed mental institution day returned work next day arranged week leave absence ive seeing psychiatrist  times week past month im trying resolve issues behavioral therapy rather ssris tried hardest get back track work last week work stress ramped friday night wreck spent entire weekend suicidal angry state job stressful field amazing potential dedicate it want derail track morning woke overwhelmed dry heaving ever since worst physical anxiety symptom one worst parts life past  years become paralyzed throwing up nothing comes out ive going meetings dry heaving trembling between go meetings enough adrenaline kicks keep body zone dry heave situations killing me hiding killing me pretending strong fine killing me think dry heaving produces endorphins think im addicted endorphins get barely enough focus function get back track cant afford let coworkers know im continuing anxiety problems career everything me point already using leave absence need tackle anxiety problems privately going forward retain job friends im going  months im recovering codependent different counseling last year revealed almost relationships toxic used stereotypical nice guy im confused asshole required social skills jibe ive reinvent myself think killing myself keep saying more words i want kill myself seem compulsively project mouth hundreds times day im alone cant get control weekend kept writing insane rants subreddit either id delete immediately post them keep crying help different ways seem rational seem insane one rational ones,1
lonelyi feel incredibly sad lonely today go days alone connecting anyone touched loved hugged existing sleeping laying bed like caged animal kept alive dont upset anyone dying feel like life isnt own hasnt long time ive forgotten make own quite literally kept alive others even though probably get pain not,1
@zerohitwonder It's okay - all the cartwheels and handstands yesterday sort of make up for it.  ,0
thank really hope sound narcissistic say this past days feeling really self started considering redflag saw bunch post telling worth gets better know decided start posting stuff like mightve saved life thank you,0
i ve had anxiety since i wa 9 that wa year after my brother death amp my dad s assent into abusive alcoholism year after my discovery of oxycontin the year of my mom s diagnosis of breast cancer they were all dead by the time i wa i ve been addicted to damn near everything in my lifetime iv user of heroin amp amphetamine but nothing wa ever a bad a the xanax era my mom wa dying in front of my eye just wasting away we were homeless for a while we slept in the same bed smoking meth and taking any rx med that took u out of the moment i m now i m married living in a shitty basement apartment i developed epilepsy last year amp have been out of work since my husband work a lot so i m just alone a lot of the time been on so many psych med spent month in a top ranked trauma center in baltimore got round of electro convulsive therapy ketamine treatment just completed my rd inpatient drug rehab on friday back to drinking by sunday i can not take this anymore what do i fucking do like can anybody help i ve done recovery program worked the step been in therapy once a week for the last year nothing is working and i just don t want to be here anymore somebody please help please,1
bullshits daily noteleft earlier reunion friends felling it friends might think im asshole probably right cant stand certain people feel repulsed them quite ive feeling like belong world last couple days architecting redflag say incentive kind support idea feel completely lost without hope autistic bad looking guy feel like ill ever connect deeply people anyone else feel different people guys handle that ps fell intellectually superior anyone cant stand fact friendly people people hideous looking,1
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feel tiredive always thought optimist keep moving forward eventually one day switch gets flipped ill happy apathetic ill stop feeling numb go bleaker seems always hear ive made good spot life wise understand people way worse appreciate maybe im bitter something finally apartment small way everything im satisfied im guess im partially embarrassed it ive never friends parent moved in finally get promotion ive wanted since started working company guess thought gonna big change im forced dress im managment now fill endless excel sheets leave desk see agents breaking policy point get suspended fired feel like asshole trained bunch new employees im always helping cant fill excel sheets wanna helpful actually teach stuff nobody cares theyre essentially paycheck mean im passionate call centers ive always though care job sales numbers down agents quittinggetting fired boss harps it essentially mandatory  hr weeks constant bombardment stressing out phone constantly going  day im work work stuff feel like even im work car cool little hatchback least someone smashed parking lot cant drive worry insurance okay deductible get real sticker shock moment one payment left old thing could start saving money case something happen  dollars entire paycheck work ton overtime even dropped much money cant afford pay rent buy food ect started playing video gameswatching movies things gave brief windows away started realizing felt like crutch got disgusted myself ton people age getting married kids ect feel inadequate feel like enough milestones accomplished life everyone says ill get always worry people think worse me im obsessed others thing feel like level peers bad feel like ive gave good deal time life still feels shitty grey im tired motivating idea going get better eventually things change gets worse stays level shitty might well give up acceptable run im working working time effort get car paid off ill stop living paycheck paycheck point ill able flexible things maybe travel maybe stay home make things little nicer build funds feel like im back bottom wanna give up,1
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never type keep things dirty like organizing planning past weeks cannot even bring clean room usually end scolded parents even tho know depression think daily tasks bother much lazy etcam  lazy know tired showered even want stand up wanted get out did went back shitty room help feel bad energy fix it room mess,1
walking dinosaurs absolutely brilliant every regard kenneth branagh narrates way really makes want listen script documentary really sounds though researchers writers done homework insightful get hooked never lets go music also brilliant dramatic needs be visual effects scenery makes documentary work well scenery breathtaking dinosaurs look real thanks simply astounding effects informative good concept attracts adults kids toobr br in conclusion must watch love this quite possibly best documentary ever seen anything could done longer perfect  bethany cox,0
feel selfishis selfish want painless death know deep down worthless body deserves suffer get deserves living pathetic wasteful life accomplishing nothing  years existence burden upon fellow human brinding good things down waste resources space selfish want die painlessly quickly inspite this deserve slow torturous end yet audacity feel deserve end life better,1
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someone chat shit biti want one night think fucking ending it ive enough know dont long left im praying ill next weeks things sort first please someone chat shit little while dont care subject choose want pretend someone gives shit minute stranger person world isnt angry like everyone else is pick topic lets chat shit little while,1
feel nothingeverything sucks literally one talk to said friends never there need something me course family treats like trash really make feel accepted safe comfortable all treat brother really well reason im outcast them even though im completely normal ive depression selfharming  years now family friends really know care it last year ive met internet person made feel really special time lately person really even know explain feel nothing makes sense everything hurts im mess really wish could end life people waste time someone useless me im typical talentless highschooler really friends hopes fulfilling dreams relating future honestly cant even imagine someone dumb worthless future want end life lately ive really hopeless know sounds like im overreacting anything nothing one stumbled upon reddit community tought id post thoughts birthday  days away want commit redflag day,1
really living one friend girlfriend chooses me never girlfriend ignored even try talk them tried make new friends guess something wrong nice talk never want hang ask point anymore living life alone it alone,1
nowi want over hate living hate breathing hate alive dude wanna take gun head get run car im alone one going see boyfriend three months doesnt want see leave  days want kill myself want over want die,1
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wa feeling fine today and i smoked a cig i know i know and i couldn t remember if i washed my hand before or after touching something like greasy like earlier i remember wiping some wd 0 off my hand lol just a bit i think i m good but overthinking wa fine otherwise lol sorry,1
ive thinking latelyive thinking lot it dont think id act it needed get chest feel cannot tell anybody around without worrying much,1
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anyone called bullshitlike seriously im worst never even close gf real friends basically nothing day discernible skills people insist alive executed failures theres gotta way trade life someone elses someone battling aggressive form cancer would surely deserving precious gift life life one billion chance obtaining wasting precious existence burden others fitting mould im supposed fit into im drunk rn someone euthanize,1
im lowest things keep getting worse worseim finding new ways make things worse myself im done everything cant anymore,1
@olow I'm having plenty of fun tonight for ya buddy!!! ,0
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show face internet im thinking starting youtube channel fun im questioning whether want that style videos want requires showing face dont want kind im talking picture thought process this  pros fun youtube channel  cons may potentially hard time getting employed somewhere future channel isnt going real name probably gonna really unpopular channel barely subs basically unknown even channel blow up thats great im famous whatever good way im unlikable person something bad i connected real face become controversial internet fame actually mean anything real world everyone recognize pewdiepie famous youtuber goes grocery store even hated controversial people like onision applies job somewhere likeliness anyone actually recognize him jenna marbles said delete original channel ruining moms job applications employers searched name jenna got new channel replaced irl last name dogs name marbles everything solved easy is tldr want show face but name youtube channel im worried might ruin reputation concern having,0
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anybody else suicidal super irrational reasonsim suicidal im tall woman record im twenty four years old ive feelings since ninth grade cant seem stop coming cant even tell come from super irrational thing suicidal over people take seriously  root cause depression medication work part cant change people get much affects me breakdowns  times day barely leave house quit job want seen public measure compulsively  times every week course help first thing people comment whenever see me and course something complain people would think im humblebragging since apparently tall desired reason cant share even fraction much affects life theyd horrified know whats wrong taken life want shorter since never ever happen way makes feel hopeless id honestly rather die know problem probably never go away cant live rest life like this,1
@yuhngfresh well hey all weekendz cant be Cool but THEY can BE PRODUCTIVE do work on them BEATZ ,0
hate peoples lifes suck wanna hear embarrassing story maybe cheer up right listening little pony songs yt reccomendations nostalgia trip remembered really embarrassing thing me like  school talent show nobody class volunteered teacher made friend got another friend it chose sing spell mlp rainbow rocks movie btw girls watching back weird tension them originally backup singer main girl handle role took sung little heart got finals lost someone singing bruno mars song something idk sad lost  really sung front hella people loose  matter prize tennis racket ball poundland oh well ive remembered massive flex people went that power move  year old mythic person  would again tldr sung mlp song school talent show gigachad move win,0
misfits military school hmmmm sounds funny maybe offensive some characters there arab thief sex crazy teen smart mouth pot smoker forget guy burns things throw strict nonsense sergent homosexual sergent one sexy ammunition teacher makes one crazy film adventurebr br i seen film funny comedy revolved around fact try work together things get donebr br these band misfit students weinberg military school placed because sgt liceman quotes because outcasts embarrassments families communities disgraces one ralph macchios earlier performances karate kid cousin vinny appearances barbara bach well film appeals teens young adultsbr br great soundtrack keeps film moving,0
wind downthe list gets longer lost good job ever had moved away family got divorced kids living far away living alone going give away dog leave outside running money working exhausted depressed living place lived married filled garbage nothing hate existence need way make click get out hope tonight use prolonging this fuck god helping fuck stupid,1
hopelessi thought today would world like without me instantly knew answer better one would notice loser gone would they think so tried think friends currently would everyone never made impact annoying them guess leave earth skills fallback nothing else planned future im pretty hopeless since nothing amounts anything,1
@ppinheiro76 umm... not really! i'm just more fond of making out with @isacosta through events  and that would just make you all nervous,0
damn confused background recently getting realy close one female friends later told likes me story another day anyway sitting room watching video realy likes panic attack happens surprisingly often held hand hugged probably  minutes later stopped shaking looked me put hand shoulder started kissing me made probably almost  minutes reference first kiss experience still clue would kiss ugly ass face hey apparently dosent regret it thats good guess,0
outoutout dunno i ve emailed their website a amp r sent a tweet but no reply they ve probably got bored of fan remixers bugging them,0
ok cancels culture bad but certain point realize shit people call mistakes choices people protect shane jeffery star even tho theyre deplorable people made mistakes shane wasnt making mistake created constantly pedophilic racist content knew went anyways mistake high school kid accidentally saying nword once filmed shouldnt canceled years later that but someone consistently racist highschool sure cancel theres proof havent changed dramatically sense then make sense,0
im feeling ten emotions right im happy im sad im hyper want go sleep every combination emotions could talk girl pretty much met new years  met started talking new years ive talked twice since  could force asleep do,0
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told mom want alive anymore energy able survive own said going let die would one cats wasting away would let die feel like waste time worry resources like black hole sucking life everyone around me keeping alive contribute nothing feel like kept alive like animal zoo,1
yesterday breakdown almost fully decided kill myself im scared happen dont know doim diagnosed depression many factors mix together caused depressed seriously thinking killing past two years best way would be serious problems ive dealt ones happened yesterday reason seemed really get me guess im lonely dont know anymore dont friends family trust love me yesterday got argument girl started talking basically friends girl im talking seems think im manipulating friend telling am sucks actually really like hurt would think that dont talk  friends anymore ditched many times havent done anything wrong realized deserve better cut nobody talks dont talk nobody one specific friend mad asked order something online taking long shes asked proof cannot provide email moms asked order it rarely talk mom begin family issues seeing home rare things happened past  hours close going everything dont know decided today isnt day im hurting lot im honestly scared myself dont know react next time something happens need advice do maybe situation improve happy whatever means ive gone doctors im comfortable talking things someone person like that seem get anxious become mute like purpose either cant seem talk someone things ive never able talk someone anything serious person help please ,1
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long time seen good fantasy movie magic fights even better lotr even considering  movie computer special effects movie good plot good acting interesting ideas recommend everybody see it,0
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sister spoiling videogames ok prefer playing video games blindly little sister not always problem want play game course sis except boatload free time since highschool end never getting around playing game whilst sis playing  matter much try stay away spoilers cant avoid seeing sis playing game dragging whatever wants show it im like im sorry want spoil game myself says well cares spoil everything you still play game shell pester whatever wants see ruined many games me,0
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we ve been seeing a worrying increase in pro suicide content showing up here and and also going unreported this undermines our purpose here so we wanted to highlight and clarify our guideline about both direct and indirect incitement of suicide we ve created a wiki that cover these issue we hope this will be helpful to anyone who s wondering whether something s okay here and which response to report it explains in detail why any validation of suicidal intent even an innocent message like if you re 00 committed i ll just wish you peace is likely to increase people s pain and why it s important to report even subtle pro suicide comment the full text of the wiki s current version is below and it is maintained at r suicidewatch wiki incitement http www reddit com r suicidewatch wiki incitement we deeply appreciate everyone who give responsive empathetic non judgemental support to our ops and we particularly thank everyone who s already been reporting incitement in all form please report any post or comment that encourages suicide or that break any of the other guideline in the sidebar to the moderator either by clicking the report button or by sending u a modmail http www reddit com message compose to fr fsuicidewatch with a link we deal with all guideline violation that are reported to u a soon a we can but we can t read everything so community report are essential if you get a pm that break the guideline please report it both to the reddit sitewide admins http www reddit com report and to u in modmail thanks to all the great citizen of the community who help flag problem content and behaviour for u r suicidewatch wiki incitement http www reddit com r suicidewatch wiki incitement summary it s important to respect and understand people s experience and emotion it s never necessary helpful or kind to support suicidal intent there are some common misconception discussed below about suicidal people and how to help them that can cause well meaning people to inadvertently incite suicide there are also people online who incite suicide on purpose often while pretending to be sympathetic and helpful validate feeling and experience not self destructive intention we re here to offer support not judgement that mean accepting with the best understanding we can offer whatever emotion people express suicidal people are suffering and we re here to try to ease that by providing support and caring the most reliable way we know to de escalate someone at risk is to give them the experience of feeling understood that mean not judging whether they should be feeling the way they are or telling them what to do or not do but there s an important line to draw here there s a crucial difference between empathizing with feeling and responding non judgmentally to suicidal thought and in any way endorsing encouraging or validating suicidal intention or hopeless belief it s both possible and important to convey understanding and compassion for someone s suicidal thought without putting your finger on the scale of their decision anything that condones suicide even passively encourages suicide it isn t supportive and doe not help it also violates reddit s sitewide rule a well a our guideline explicitly inciting suicide online is a criminal offense in most jurisdiction do not treat any op s post a meaning that will definitely die by suicide and can t change their mind or be helped anyone who s able to read the comment here still ha a chance to choose whether or not to try to keep living even if they ve also been experiencing intense thought of suicide made a suicide plan or started carrying it out in the most useful empirical model we have http www apa org science about psa 009 0 sci brief the desire to die by suicide primarily come from two interpersonal factor alienation and a sense of being a burden or having nothing to offer these factor usually lead to a profound feeling of being unwelcome in the world so any acceptance or reinforcement of suicidal intent even something innocent like i hope you find peace is actually a form of covert shunning that validates a person s sense that they re unwelcome in the world it will usually add to their pain even if kindly meant and gently worded how to avoid validating suicidal intent keep the following in mind when offering support to anyone at risk for suicide people who say they don t want help usually can feel better if they get support that doesn t invalidate their emotion unfortunately many popular good response are actually counterproductive http www speakingofsuicide com 0 0 0 what not to say in particular many friend and family tend to rely exclusively on trying to convince the suicidal person that it s not so bad and this is usually experienced a i don t understand what you re going through and i m not going to try people who ve had help that made them feel worse don t want any more of the same it doesn t mean that someone who actually know how to be supportive can t give them any comfort most people who are suicidal want to end their pain not their life it s almost never true that death is the only way to end these people s suffering of course there are exceptional situation and we certainly acknowledge that for some people the right help can be difficult to find but preventing someone s suicide doesn t mean prolonging their suffering if we do it by giving them real comfort and understanding an unfixable problem doesn t mean that a good life will never be possible we don t have to fix or change anything to help someone feel better it s important to keep in mind that the correlation between our outer circumstance and our inner experience is weaker and le direct than commonly assumed for every kind of difficult life situation you will find some people who lapse into suicidal despair and others who cope amazingly well and a whole spectrum in between a key difference is how much inner resilience the person ha at the time this can depend on many personal and situational factor but when there s not enough interpersonal support can both compensate for it absence and help rebuild it we go into more depth on the it get better issue in this psa post http www reddit com r suicidewatch comment igd whats wrong with it get better what if it doesnt which is always linked from our sidebar community info on mobile guideline there are always more choice than brutally forcing someone to stay alive or passively letting them end their life to avoid accidentally breaking the anti incitement rule don t say or try to imply that acting on suicidal thought is a good idea or that someone can t turn back or is already dead do whatever you can to help them feel cared for and welcome at least in this little corner of the world our talking tip http redd it igh offer more detailed guidance look out for deliberate incitement it may come in disguise often comment that subtly encourage suicidal intent actually come from suicide fetishist and voyeur unfortunately this is a real and disturbing phenomenon http en wikipedia org wiki william francis melchert dinkel people like this are out there and the anonymous nature of reddit make u particularly attractive to them they will typically try to scratch their psychological itch by saying thing that push people closer to the edge they often do this by exploiting the myth that we debunked in the bullet point above specifically you might see people doing the following encouraging the false belief that the only way suicidal people can end their pain is by dying there are always more and better choice than brutally forcing someone to stay alive or helping actively or passively them to end their life creating an artificial and toxic sense of solidarity by linking their encouragement of suicide to empathy they will represent themselves a the only one who really understand the suicidal person while either directly or indirectly encouraging their self loathing emotion and self destructive impulse since most people in suicidal crisis are in desperate need to empathy and understanding this is a particularly dangerous form of manipulation many suicide inciter are adept at putting a benevolent spin on their activity while actually luring people away from source of real help a couple of key point to keep in mind skilled suicide intervention peer or professional is based on empathic responsiveness to the person s feeling that reduces their suffering in the moment contrary to pop culture myth it doe not involve persuasion don t do it cheerleading you ve got this or meaningless false promise trust me it get better or invalidation let me show you how thing aren t a bad a you think anyone who lead others to expect these kind of toxic response or any other response that prolongs their pain from expert help may be covertly pro suicide of course people sometimes do have bad experience when seeking mental health treatment and it s fine to vent about those but processing our own disappointment and frustration is entirely different from trying to destroy someone else s hope of getting help choice made by competent responder are always informed by the understanding that breaching someone s trust is traumatic and must be avoided if possible any kind of involuntary intervention is an extremely unlikely outcome when someone consults a clinician or call a hotline confidentiality is addressed in more detail in our hotlines faq post http redd it c ntr the goal is always to provide all help with the client s full knowledge and informed consent we know that no individual or system is perfect mistake that lead to bad experience do sometimes happen to vulnerable people and we have enormous sympathy for them but anyone who suggests that this is the norm might be trying to scare people away from the help they need please let u know discreetly http www reddit com message compose to fr fsuicidewatch if you see anyone exhibiting these or similar behaviour we don t recommend trying to engage with them directly,1
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couple years back purchased and enjoyed mgm doublefeature dvd two kolchak tv movies night stalker  night strangler  universal set subsequent tv series came out intended buy immediately rumors playback issues dreaded dvds kept adding collection recently placed online order consisted spate discounted universal box sets decided pick kolchak discer wellbr br having watched now safely say didnt regret acquiring beloved if shortlived crimehorror series one bit may follow standardized formula dogged resourceful newspaperman carl kolchak marvelously played darren mcgavin gets everybodys hair attitude flustered editor simon oakland longsuffering colleagues assorted authoritarian figures plethora monsters villains faces inevitable and usually supernatural threat alone but finally pressured keeping story wraps winning one further boosted impressive lineup guest stars notable behindthescenes credits making show great deal funbr br that said quality varies one episode another modest budgets afforded results special makeup effects sometimes leave lot desired for instance werewolf eponymous entry goofy alligator creature last installment mention fact restricted minute programmes intended family consumption boot rather precludes simplified wholesome rendering often intriguing psychological metaphysical themes in case werewolf again hes never seen biting anyone but somewhat foolishly made merely throw people around br br while heros cynical narration lot pull one fanciful plots theres healthy dose comedy relief involved episode often exclusively revolving around mcgavins relationship either oakland geeky reporter jack grinnage say nothing reasonable atmosphere the setting part chicago suspense make ride even pleasant theres bouncy score gil melle jerry fieldingbr br for record monsters encountered but always defeated kolchak throughout series are revived jack ripper variety cults voodoo native american aztec aliens vampire werewolf going round overfamiliar concept particular episode entirely set cruiseliner doppelganger satanist swamp creature mass electricity robot apeman witch headless motorcyclist succubus knights armor taking murderous life the episode perhaps best supporting cast featuring john dehner morose police captain hans conried robert emhardt helen troy crocodile actors other playing kolchaks coworkers return roles keenan wynn ramon bieri both officers law john fiedler as shrewd morgue attendant richard kiel two distinct nemeses hero pressed choose finest or entertaining episodes id lean towards horror heights costarring phil silvers abraham sofaer aforementioned knightly murders while weakest id go werewolf due reasons ive already explained chopper based story concocted robert zemeckis bob galebr br unfortunately set contains extras would nice see featurette discussing numerous concepts dealt kolchak night stalker well putting series context tv time original airing even denoting lasting influence apparently endless run scifi series popular today fact kolchak much younger ostensibly darker guise returned  revival version available local dvd rental outletbut various reasons im sure id want check soon  classic,0
dont want die think aboutim torn reddit always seem situations end draining energy feelings bad tendency putting wrong people pedestals forgetting human too often portraying important myself biggest insecurity romance like need liked loved someone think beyond reach person shows interest ego spikes up long story short put situation taken advantage of worst part is knew beginning goal felt feel feel like biggest piece shit like ecstacy high much fun moment effects wear youre left exhausted depressed lately repressing feelings ignoring signs ive wanted cry i later night alcohol came realization ive making unwise decisions please instant gratification desires takes horrible messy brain tells nasty horrible things wish could execute way thing dying dont want anything death makes sense dont want go back medicine want go therapy given fact medical industry works ive meds  months  years think emotions place im even craving hard drugs shut voice whats weird voices go follows she killed me did yeah how imagine wicked death basically talk rd person literally driving nuts could something productive like studying sudden find literally talking nd point view medical term this every day battle course ia accentuated night drinking consuming becoming sharper day day want feel ease body mind much ask,1
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need ventive felt like ive depressed quite time get enjoyment anything time now bit meim good student star athlete competitive video game player ive state title track field first team football every year ive played problem getting bed really hard feel like anything get bed for dread school social interaction football practice storm  months ago something screwed isp since then cant steady ping competitively play thing enjoy doing think killing least every day know anymore,1
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@2020science Lovely view. Do you get to keep rubber duckie? It s/be part of special collection along w/leopard print hotel robe. ,0
honestly got reason end itlike genuinely cant think reason keep living like everything joke things keep getting worse  prop come incely tough rly meant to  basecly hate appearance  looks cant anything it like guess im obsessed looks tbh see wrong yea pretty bad looks keeps getting worse  gf cant get one think ever can mainly look  think thats fair say too  got friends social circle also got social anxiety like get uncomfortable around big groups people even tiny group people around age  got several issues also link apperance got incurable permanent hair condition mild infection causes hairloss even maybe bleeding scalp gets severe got horrible posture possibly mild scoliosis got odd issue im outside theres sun im constantly close sneezing resist annoying  relation looks also kinda got eating disorder sense ive barely ever eaten breakfast lunch last  years also get rly uncomfortable eating among people also caused extra short besides allready so  cant help get mad dad genes wich got me realize sounds rly incely is part incel community left months ago condone ideas mindsets said believe blackpill essentially everything feels like big joke im rly bothering anymore also dislike job im studying guess im pretty pessimistic cant rly help it im trying edgy anything legit see reason keep living got meaning friends gf dreams things seeming improve,1
feel trapped see way outhello ive thinking killing while basically last years im trapped teaching internship program even want teacher applied got certification program want failure idea use history degree put internship across state know pay drive there ive working hours club enough want this give shit teacher cant back out do  grand student loan debt without certification ill fucked want it want put wringer piece paper even want wish someone told dont it teacher figure something else out scared sleep last night called internship sick first week parents lectured me saying im going seen unreliable could never take sick day whole thing shot unless get act together really think would safe drive tired understand never do ive said many times this me want drop use bachelors something else never listen say this make marketable pussy even teach finish it happy years im unhappy  year old moron internship cant support desperately trying stave future loan debt going career path could give less shit about cant see way out need help im home alone today half tears also staring space im sorry really man up,1
another day shitim sick living sick living im also point get tired people trying help me mom desperately wants get better also knows cant get better sat next bed kept talking wanted life always stay bed   minutes done told wanted die took grain salt ive told mutliple times didnt wanna live anymore never proceeded doesnt take serious well becauae w im done w shit im done w  year old guy education barely finances willpower anything struggling ostomy crohns disease depression anxiety im done im done im done dont kms soon im gonna go mental go shit killing me literally depression going kill dont want happen need kms go crazy thats plan turned  weeks ago actually wanted kill st birthday didnt im probably gonna kms either summer end fall beginning winter last year,1
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cant anymorei feel trapped children reason im still living here id rather homeless living roachrat infested house bm job car nothing leave truly streets cant bare away kids buti cant keep living like this argue much get agitated super easily know do need help need guidance nights cry sleep hoping die kids wouldve long gone would anything cant wake next every morning im lost please help,1
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One more day and i'm done with my 7 day work week run. i may finally get some sleep. ,0
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thank god films follow old hollywood crap formula think digital revolution dvd revolution actually making possible interesting work get even dig harder find it love film takes time draw deeper deeper inner emotional reaches really like taking trip soul america soul disturbed confused really blew mind way used martin luther kings speeches vietnam references assassination way hit hard found choked every time heard voice ive heard speak before course way used speeches made feel like understood message way id never thought aboutbr br what say movie heavy statistics war oppression plea compassion end credits crawl would usually be fact theres credits film access selecting features somehow made think lot cant say enough dvd brilliant,0
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anyone wana talk im editing video gets really boring want someone talk it problably whole thing cause takes whilem maters,0
anyone wanna talk or something talk maybe discord maybe anything else god forbid snapchat,0
feel never livedall life thrown around people consider friend one else find someone else would talk anymore even block social media whatsapp reply messages thought life got better found friend mine got close talked everything sun eventually got together months friendships classmate spend lot time together broke months  days relationship rd march depressing blamed insecurities previous weeks constantly talking another boy junior orientation kidmeans orientation group leader school got close started talking much gradually talk less said never like last weeks relationship started sending pictures whenever say want see also started talking lot conversations asked join dates accepted without thinking feelings also got parents send school something always wanted never accepted within one month knowing him already let catch ride school parents car talk parents despite knowing  year months never let see parents go great lengths ensure parents dont see me time also go library study invited me would also rather go home go home me make feel insecure actions yet maintain never together past week since broke insecurities couldnt handle it started talking ignored me front face laugh talk happy around him started sending hearts messages happen see text class something never used do also broke promise would skype one else today skyped know asked since online skype today rarely days except skype me feel never live lot problems like family never peace friends loner feelings start snowball feel depressed wish antidepression medicine feel bad without want jump building stab knife know im crazy getting betrayed scammed feelings whole life isnt something take it someone talk to people side feel like belong world,1
im tryin mess friend joined private server discord inv phone wanna flood uhhh dm wanna help,0
almost committed im afraid ill againlet preface with im actively planning harm anyone else feel completely hopeless day hope seems slipping away me let try make short im tired reliving it mom got sick october i hospitalized got better sent nursing home physical therapy im even sure needed supposed week kept month mom slowly wasted away there asked could go home convinced hospice best course action know happened scenario told mother staff signed hospice could let home hospice didnt another month is im really ashamed go see her enough seen couple times stopped going either money it far away want go getting hospital next part story stressed angry depressed scared felt hopeless alone went er told thinking redflag kept room three hours guarded one nurses going transfer behavioral hospital tell anyone call mom brother nobody knew mom finally got hold me told thought gotten hurt died crying never heard mother cry way before ended committed going home living day day worries mom called time every single day every single night one day got call telling fall weird patient falls staff usually call happened mom called me time didnt two days went answering phone texts fb messages went little money see her saw something else saw skeletal woman speak recognized me knew was trying tell something couldnt left knowing stayed next morning got call hospice nurse telling mother non responsive took place course week one week utter panic pain fear grandmother brother started going see her like trance snap of didnt got worse worse one cold evening me grandma brother aunt and boyfriend sat mom almost empty room four five hours came home four morning told mother died since mess emotions pain stress financial problems starvation emotional breakdowns more getting bad again im thoughts running away thinking maybe self harm bad know anymore feels like theres way hellish situation im in,1
im beating meat call cranking soulja boy,0
mental health whack bro like cant decide whether im afraid death suicidal death like think dont think thats healthy idk lol day listening music asked sister weird automatically think songs redflag yeah bit concerned lol dont think id actually take life tho fingers crossed dont feel bad anything lol im vibing,0
need help plz laptop died discord call im looking charger cannot find people call still hear didnt leave call close tab come back call still open like idk do,0
know one going read anywhere else writenovember month end finally moms birthday celebrate spend final time her want tell much love try best say without explicitly saying it fault always good mom would wanted way best mom son could ever ask fori always liked november transition fall winter air cool nice favorite time year right everyone goes christmas frenzy everything decorated red green frank sinatra blasted radiosome people meant take lives wish taboo wish seen selfish hurts keep living maybe drive florida see ocean one time then forever seen seen ocean miss lot would go every summer kids crammed old blue minivan best timeshopefully hurt maybe deserve it nice yeah november,1